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alexxncl · 9 days

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‼️NIGHTBRINGER LESSON 40 SPOILERS‼️

masterlist | all lessons | lesson 39

the end of an era (season 2)

normal and hard spoilers

oh baby :(

see every time i remember how sheltered diavolo is it makes me hate his father that much more. he grew up with everything in the world, but practically nobody to share it with.

diavolo had to have been smart enough to have caught onto the reason behind mephisto's attachment to him at an early age. he might be dense, but he's not stupid. even if he and mephisto did end up becoming really good friends, diavolo knew early on that their proximity was for business and royalty purposes only, and that friendship and a genuine relationship was second to their professional relationship

i feel like this is why he initially thought of the brothers as treasures in regard to status rather than as people, and the mindset shifted to seeing them as treasures in regards to the relationship he formed with them. he wanted genuine connection, but forming a professional connection before a genuine relationship was so deeply ingrained in him that he defaulted to it without even realizing it

...he can't be fucking serious

GET HIM OUT I BEG

he would've done this regardless of the option we picked during the angel's trial i hate it here...can't he take a class or smth instead of experimenting on us

i'm gonna kill him /j

i'm a whore in the game so i technically date everyone at once. but why does he NEVER say i love you back ????? not even in the first game ????????

like ok you're a time demon who shouldn't get attached to anyone and you choose to stay unattached bc you'll lose everyone anyways blah blah blah but at least indulge me a little bit 💔

SOBS UNCONTROLLABLY I LOVE THEM

i feel like they know this is their last goodbye yk? obviously barbatos does, but this feels very, very final on their part. maybe it's a different version the feeling they have when they go into mc's room, like they can feel mc being pulled away from them physically

what if the end of the lesson or the story in the hard part of the lesson is them portalling back to their timeline and the brothers getting a glimpse of their alternate selves? and then everything clicking into place after mc leaves?

the fact that simeon has as many doubts about his father's intentions as lucifer and his brothers did really solidifies my belief that he wanted to, in the worst case, fall with the brothers. and if he didn't fall, he'd at least have begged for answers as much as lucifer did before the war. he was demoted after the war for helping the brothers in canon, and i feel like he still beats himself up about it because of the side he chose. him and raphael both, but raphael is better at hiding it

(i have a whole post about simeon and michael before the war here)

i've said this about a million times but...

the brothers ever 🫶🏽

they're such shitheads but also extremely concerned i love their dynamic sm

SEE I TOLD YOU ‼️ HE MASKS HIS FEAR WITH ANGER (even though i'm pretty sure this was confirmed in canon in the og game and in nb s1)

him admitting that he was scared though? putting his pride aside and actually talking about his feelings for once? this is proof of how much he trusts mc, how much he loves and cares for them, even if he can't explain why the feelings he holds for them are so strong

it also shows that he's thankful to have someone who will care about and protect his brothers as much as he does, and some of the weight of the "oldest brother" mantle has been lifted. it allows him to be vulnerable and at least a little more carefree, which is why he's seen joking and laughing with his brothers so much more often in the later lessons in comparison to season 1 and early season 2

i feel like i'm SUPOOSED to reach bc why would he phrase it like that ??? i don't think he knows...but he's really intuitive

or maybe this was a way of the devs using him to unofficially-officially send us off and into our original timeline. idk. i'm reaching but they made me

THEY DID NOT

oh i'm really gonna cry...they took what we wrote in season 1 and showed it to the boys

i COMPLETELY forgot we even did this 😭 god i'm gonna cry i love this game sm

I KNEW NO TIME PASSED THANK GODDDDDD

i don't think i'd be able to handle it if the same amount of time passed across realms

i also think this is why they emphasized "time soup" so heavily, you can be put anywhere at any time as if nothing had changed

...i can't believe it's over

...for now at least

well time to read the HDD story and catch up on devilgram

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cheshiresense · 8 months

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Hi I would also say I enjoy Empathy-verse Yuzu! All the character interactions are lots of fun

Thank you 🧡🧡🧡 it totally wasn't planned lol. but it's how she came out, and it was amusing to me that from ichigo's perspective, he thinks they're Normal Children. Like they emote all the time ugh, and they like socializing SO much hOW, and they're cute and tiny and yuzu even pukes over a little brain matter ffs they're like toddling baby animals. So he has to protect them well, but even he can't be in three places at once or keep them with him all the time - not only is that impractical, it would also drive him nuts if he doesn't have any time to himself - so he also teaches them the necessary skills to protect themselves even though he works hard to make sure they never have to use them. (Using them for fun is different though, right? Hobbies should be encouraged, right? Right. That's what all the child-rearing books say.)

Meanwhile, Yuzu and Karin are out here being their best smol terrifying selves, they just hide it a lot better than their brother because they're not quite as bad off as he is when interacting with people, and they do enjoy normal social activities in a way Ichigo just doesn't. But anyway, it's not like Ichigo ever really hides the things he does from them over the years, he doesn't have any concept of not for children's eyes and ears, so even if he doesn't kill a guy in front of them, sometimes they hear about it over dinner anyway. Also it's not like they're stupid, and Ichigo's raised them almost single-handedly since they were five. They were bound to learn a few things from him.

(Also also, sometimes Yuzu needs test subjects for her latest poisons, but she's so bad at finishing the job if it's not an instant kill, no matter how much Ichigo scolds her for it, so what else can he do but take out the garbage for her? Karin at least is much better about cleaning up after herself. Her problem is that sometimes she gets a bit... single-minded, and then she forgets to leave an exit for herself, and this may be Karakura where the scariest thing in it is the monster-child that its underbelly watched grow up in increasingly resigned horror, but she still can't just walk away from her little jaunts to blow off steam with blood caked in her shoes, so Ichigo also has to take care of that for her. His sisters are so high-maintenance. They're lucky he's so used to picking up after them by now.)

#msg #anonymous #stunted empathy verse #headcanon #kurosaki ichigo #kurosaki yuzu #kurosaki karin

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harukapologist · 5 months

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rambling about Haruka

As an ND person I just hate how Haruka's character is either completely infantilized or reduced to a selfish, evil murderer, when, to me, he is so much more than that.

Especially the latter; I hate when any MILGRAM character is called evil because what's the point of MILGRAM, then? They're all morally grey! That's how they test us. But Haruka in particular because I feel like it comes from a place of ableism, intentional or not.

I'm not sure if I should put TWs, but well I talk about ableism, murder (obviously lol), childhood trauma and well... it's Haruka

Haruka's outburst in the VD and his implication of killing animals (I know it's basically canon but erm... i can explain why I think it's an implication later) (i just finished writing the post and actually i explained why at the bottom of the post but its not a full explanation so lol) are the reasons I see people calling him either evil or childlike, and while I do think that Haruka is stuck in a childlike state in some aspects, this is emotional dysregulation of an ND and/or traumatized person, to me.

The uglier sides of being ND/traumatized, the ones that get heavily stigmatized and seen as intentional or evil; I think this was a display of one of them. And I really wish to see more people focusing on Haruka's disability in the ways it can affect his communication and day-to-day life skills more than "oh, poor baby, he has a disability that makes him feel unwanted" without actually understanding the details of the disability and, well, the reason why it is a disability.

Like, the emotional dysregulation that comes with being autistic, which is my headcanon for him. The hyperempathy and literal thinking that might make him harder to communicate with, and get people frustrated with him more often.

That and being severely neglected; I think neglect is one of the lesser discussed forms of childhood trauma and the fact that Haruka was shown to be neglected as well as abuse really means a lot to me, because I think some people don't quite understand just how much neglect and isolation fucks you up.

All those factors combined are a recipe for an unstable, impulsive, clingy shell of a human, and him getting called evil for that really saddens me. It's important to remember that these MVs are extracted from the prisoners' own memories and thoughts. It comes from their perception of their surroundings, their murders, and their own selves. The manic look that Haruka has on his face for a lot of AKAA, for example. The makeshift shirt he's wearing, as if he's desperately trying to sew himself together into a normal person, the exhausted, frustrated look when he picks up the necklace, it's important to remember that this is how he sees himself. A monster who has lost control of himself. The line "I'll keep killing to be your good boy" was a shock, but the way he meekly apologized to Es at the end of his VD, I really think that shows that he feels guilty, that he wants to convince himself more than anyone that he was a good person, that he was really trying to be one despite how his unlucky life frustrated him to his breaking point.

As for his infantilization, it has already been addressed by many thoughtful members of the fandom and I'm grateful to see that, but I also want to say it myself since god knows I hate being patronized.

It feels very ableist saying he's just "someone stuck in a childlike mindset/age regressor" Yes, and how does age regression as a coping mechanism develop? Usually through prior trauma that makes you "stuck" at said age, and that can present differently. It can be longing and yearning for a simpler time, for an actual happy childhood, or having flashbacks to a traumatic event that happened at a certain age; it is not uncommon for trauma survivors to be "frozen" at the age their trauma took place.

I think both of these are the case for Haruka. Frozen at that moment, but trying to reduce himself to nothing but a little, unaware child to avoid reliving it again, relishing in the innocence and purity of his good younger times (emphasis on purity--Haruka's murder was by strangulation, yet there's a shot in AKAA where he's covered in blood. I know it's after he killed the animals, but he's in the stitched-together outfit here; I think there's more to this MV than just killing the animals. Since this outfit is... not very likely to be worn in reality, did the animal killing happen at all? Even if it did, I think this shot remains an indicator that he sees himself as impure; guilty. I have a LOT to say about the inconsistencies in Haruka's MVs, but I'll save that for later... Anyway, back on topic) It is NOT "having the mental capacity of a child, so being unable to date etc." Haruka has still lived 17 years, maybe even more, since he isn't too interested in remembering his age. How do you treat actual neurodivergent people if this is how you see him?

When I rewatch the MVs, relisten to the VDs, reread the interrogations and timelines, I see no evil, just an incredibly broken, misunderstood person.

#please excuse any inconsistencies or spelling mistakes its almost 5am ive been awake all night lmaooo #im open to discussion but pls be nice :(#im a relatively new milgram fan (got into it just when ILY MV came out—got hyperfixated oct/nov) so please inform me if I say anything wrong #i love haruka so so much aaugh #i will defend him till my last breath #milgram #sakurai haruka #milgram project #haruka sakurai #jay rambles bleh idk #should i even tag this #i feel so scared to share my thoughts on the milgram prisoners AAA i hope everything makes sense

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firerose18991 · 10 months

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Batman the Doom that came to Gotham

"Review"

Never read the books that accompanied this movie but its made good

Spoilers below cut

Standouts:

1. Sanjay Tawde

Voiced by Karan Brar from Jessie. Literally brought me back. I love that such a simple change to the character made me so happy evey time I saw him on screen. Like its Jason but its also Karan. I loved the little details they put into him. He's always reading, you can tell he's been lectured about his foul mouth by all the stand-ins he has for actual cuss words. He's happy-go-lucky former street rat Jay Jay. More from him in the future I beg.

2. Brucie

This movie is a stone throw away from hitting all of the baby girl marks for Bruce Wayne. Very not okay mentally. Very scrumply umply. Very much loving life with his babies🥺. He's a dramatic bitch, I could not be more proud. (Very in love with Harvey) like he would've been so happy on the high seas with his little family.

Also love an old timey batman. Like bruce shouldn't exist in any other time period after watching this.

3. Ollie

Very bimbo, very drunk, very he would flash his titties if he had them(and you know they're bright pink and pretty)

Ollie being a drunk will always be my favorite Ollie. He's serious when he needs to be but I'm glad we didn't get too much of that as it detracts from his beauty.💅🏿

Now about the the actual movie:

I remember going into this movie saying to myself they better not kill my babies and what the f*** did they do. Like after a certain point in the movie I didn't know what was going to happen. I enjoyed every crazy ass turn they took. I love what they did for the Cassandra (Kai Li)of that universe too. All the characters were their same weird freaky selves in different fonts, I hope they make something like this again😭 (I'm probably going to edit and add to this post cause I'm fresh out and still processing oml)

Honorable mentions

Yo I feel like Alfred was based off peppermint butler. Mans was un bothered.

Cracking myself open for Talia as we speak.

Ra's Al Ghul kinda a bitch in this, like Ra's is normally selfish/self serving and he was resurecting fucking starro or sum shit

I love not having to hate harvey

This is a must watch the only thing they could've done differently is releases this on Halloween. This was good enough for theaters even.

#chaos shit #sucking me off #black writers #batman the doom that came to gotham #batman #batfamily #bruce wayne #brucie wayne #jason dean #sanjay tawde #dick grayson #movie recommendation #movie reaction #batkids #batfamily memes #incorrect batfamily quotes #batman movie #batdad

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fandomfluffandfuck · 7 months

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okay, so I know this isn't really your normal ask/request, but I've had this is my brain for so long, and you are such a fantastic writer, I'd like to present it to you anyway:

stevebucky time travel!!

specifically, steve and bucky after the events of the winter soldier (with bucky in any recovery stage) getting somehow transported to brooklyn in the 1930s and meeting the pre-serum, pre-war steve and bucky.

the reaction to the metal arm? steve getting juiced up? the jealousy and admiration pre-serum steve has for post-serum steve? how baby!stucky deal with their counterparts and lovers. how gentle normally-a-firecracker pre-serum steve is with winter soldier bucky and how thirsty but loving pre-serum bucky is with touch-starved, desperate, lost big steve.

feel absolutely free to imagine any kind of beautiful, deliciously hot scenarios as well, that's definitely your usual jam, and I most definitely enjoy it. I just thought I'd add the heartbreaking parts as well.

This is from the requests I got before I closed my writing requests for the school year, I'm no longer taking requests

You're right that this isn't my "normal" request, but I still love it! I do enjoy writing angst and fluff along with smut <3 So, I'm gonna take this prompt as an excuse to go with the things I don't write as much! Meaning, surprisingly, there's no ✨️spice✨️ in this drabble, lol, just pain

Get ready... </3

The immediate thought I had with this prompt was actually about post-serum Steve rather than recovering Bucky...

When modern Steve and modern Bucky find themselves back before the war--when the days seemed longer and hotter than any of the days after, they share a silent exchange, their eyes boring into each other in the middle of the cracked sidewalk, swapping emotions. Nostalgia. Good and bad nostalgia. Then, as they're ducking into a back alley, quick to jump from sight before they're spotted, tall and large and certainly not dressed for the time, Steve reaches for Bucky's hand.

Their fingertips brush.

And, instantly, they both jolt.

Now clothed in shadows, their eyes meet once more. Steve's eyes flick sharply down to their entangled fingers. Flesh and metal.

It hardly takes a moment for the ingrained memory to take over and their flirting fingertips part ways.

They can't risk touching in public, not when they already are liable to contract attention. They don't need to be arrested in the past. But the shake-up runs deeper than that, too.

Bucky has just gotten to the point where he feels comfortable enough venturing into public without a glove. Long sleeves are typically still a must, but not always gloves.

Steve finds his jaw clenching, not because he's upset with Bucky for not having a glove on him to better hide them. No, of course, not. But because...

What else are they going to do--stranded in the past with no way home until the timeline hiccup decides to resolve itself--but find their past selves? And when they find their younger counterparts, there will be no way to explain a completely different arm in any way that isn't devastating.

Guaranteed, it will petrify younger, past Bucky, and it will make younger, past Steve ache for his lover and fill with fire in pure, justified rage against a Nazi organization that (probably) doesn't even exist yet. Plus, it could trigger modern Bucky. Explaining it himself... maybe even hearing it from modern Steve... it won't do Bucky good. This isn't a good time or place for Bucky to have a panic attack or worse.

Blinking, Steve realizes that they're just staring at each other. Silently hovering around each other, wanting physical comfort, the luxury they've been spoiled with in the 21st century, but being unable to take it.

"It'll be okay," Steve hardens his voice and squares his shoulders, "we just have to--" that's it! His shoulders! He has a jacket on. One of his tan leather jackets. Quickly, he shrugs it off and hands it over to Bucky.

Bucky slips into it, jamming his shaking hands into the pockets. He exhales shakily.

Risking a friendly, pal-ish pat on the shoulder that melts into a more intimate back rub, Steve hopes to a God he doesn't believe much in anymore that this doesn't set Bucky back when they get to the future. He just started to be comfortable with his metal arm! Apparently, being back in the time and place where he was swamped by religion puts the religion back in the forefront of his mind.

"We have to find us," Steve finishes his earlier thought.

Bucky nods tightly.

Steve can tell by the way he looks at the floor he's desperately wishing he has wearing a baseball cap when they were transported back, too. More to hide under. No matter if it would be out of place here.

"Okay, okay," Steve races through his thoughts, "where would, where would we be on a Thursday afternoon in, whatever, whatever year it is now..."

Bucky's eyebrows draw together, "home?"

Steve considers it, tipping his head side to side, "maybe, yeah. I--shit. Do you think we're back far enough that we were still living with our, our parents?"

Shit.

For two reasons.

1) If they're each still in their family homes, it means even more people to explain the situation to.

2) If they're in their family homes... it means Sarah Rogers is still alive. And Steve, Steve doesn't know--

Just thinking about it--

Steve feels his lips quiver, a stone dropping onto the back of his tongue so heavily that it triggers the edge of his gag reflex. Thick, wet salt coming up the back of his throat, pooling in his mouth, a warning that he might vomit.

Steve doesn't know if he will be able to handle that.

He's thought a thousand, million different times about what he would say, what he would do if he could see his Ma again. He's dreamed about it. He's cried about it. He's screamed about it to that God that didn't ever seem to hear him. The unfairness.

If--

If it comes to that, being able to calm Bucky, being able to help Bucky through a triggering situation, will be the exact opposite of Steve's worry. It will be Bucky desperately working to hold him together instead.

Fuck.

Thankfully(?), regretfully(?) that doesn't turn out to be the situation.

The situation of past, younger Steve and Bucky is their cold water walk up. Their first (and only) apartment together before the war. It's in that sweet spot (if you ignore the glaring, awful hardships of the Depression) after Steve had steadied himself, floating above the grief over his Ma and before the war started, before Bucky's draft number was drawn.

Okay.

Steve can deal with this.

It's gonna hurt. It's gonna tear him apart, and he'll be licking his wounds for weeks (at least) when they return to the future... to the present? But at least it's not--

Not that.

Steve and Bucky slip up the worn, bowed stairs to their apartment, decide against knocking discreetly, and instead jimmy the handle just right to let themselves inside. They are spared no mercy as immediately, they come face to face with their younger selves.

It feels like--

Like an out of body experience in a fun house. Pure insanity. The mirror image of themselves is warped and changed and standing toe-to-toe with them. Too close. Familiar but separate. They are the same, and they are opposites. The beginning and somewhere near the end, except, wait--the younger versions of themselves are young adults, and the older versions of themselves, themselves, are just adults. So... perhaps not a beginning and an end but middles. Middles staring at each other.

Nebulous and totally discombobulating.

No one makes a sound.

Then--

"What the fuck."

The sound of Steve's own voice echoes back through his ears with his mouth having moved at all. It's jarring. Bewildering because he spoke, but he didn't speak. But it's also bewildering as hell because... holy shit it's weird to hear such a little guy possess such a deep voice. He's never known himself from this angle. He's never--

"Of course it'd be you," Bucky turns to him, his lips curling at one corner.

It's on the tip of his tongue to murmur, "you remember?" But he... he can't. Not in front of them. He needn't reveal memory issues when they don't even know--

Fuck.

Why didn't they just loiter in that alley for a few hours? Waiting for the timeline to snap back.

Why did they come here?

He doesn't want--

He's looking at his younger self and he knows he'd hate him for wanting to protect him; he's looking at the younger version of Bucky with puppy fat clinging to his face and chin and belly and he looks so fucking sweet and soft and Steve feels poised to bend him out of shape in the same violent way you ruin a smooth lump of fresh clay by punching it with your fist.

Fuck. Hot pressure builds behind Steve's eyes. He is poised for destruction. And there is nothing he can do about it. So...

Steve clears his throat.

Where does he begin?

Where does he end?

The whole time that he explains, painting with the broadest brush and the most diluted paint possible, Steve is preparing himself for their younger versions to deservingly fuss over his Bucky. So, when his younger, much, much smaller self steps forward, uncrosses his arms over his thin chest, and extends a hand to his forearm, feathering his fingers against the bunched muscle and whispers, a raw edge to his voice, "why don't you come sit down then, you look exhausted," it hurts.

It hits Steve so hard.

Steve is talking to him. He's not talking to Bucky and him. He's talking to Steve alone. Staring him right in the eyes. Knowing.

He was--

He was waiting for rage from himself. He was waiting for terror and grief and numbness from the past Bucky. He was waiting for pretend-detached, monotone, vague answers from his Bucky who came from the future (the present?) with him.

He wasn't--

He was not expecting his younger self to see through it all as if he's transparent and prod one of his boney fingers right into the hole inside him. He was never scared to go up against anyone, though, no matter if they're twice his size or bigger. So, maybe he shouldn't be surprised. It doesn't mean it doesn't make his legs feel more sturdy, though.

Steve doesn't recognize until he sits down on their worn, mostly springs and flattened, shitty cushioning couch with a metallic squeak that neither of the Buckys followed them. It's just the two of them. Him. Steve and Steve. Younger and smaller and older and bigger. What an odd pair.

Peering over his shoulder, Steve sees them in the kitchen, looking at each other. The younger, shorter Bucky is stuck in place, and his Bucky is reaching forward, lifting his hand. His metal hand. He's offering. He's unhesitatant and steady as he slips out of his leather jacket and rolls up the fabric of his long sleeve so the younger Bucky can see. A swirl of pride curls through Steve, warm and budding--a spring flower.

A throat clears.

Steve.

Steve swings his head back to face... himself.

God.

It's still weird.

It's nothing like walking into a room that smells bad and relaxing into it, going blind to the stench after you acclimate. It's still fucking strange. Shivers crawl up his spine, leaving his hair with no choice but to stand on end. Hyper-aware.

His younger self hasn't had a seat on the broken, thread-bear armchair or on the practically decaying couch beside him. Instead, he steps closer and closer, one surprisingly large foot in front of the other over loose, rickety floorboards. He looms into his space, presence much larger than seems possible for his small, sickly frame.

"How are you?" He asks, bushy eyebrows drawn together.

The look on Steve's face must convey his thoughts, shouldn't I be asking you that?

"Don't you know?" Younger Steve answers his mute inquiry, "you were--" he frowns "--you were a version of me."

Steve nods emptily, "I guess."

The pale sounds of the Buckys conversing in the kitchen fills the space between them like static until... younger Steve floats his hand into the gap, the empty space, reaching and reaching toward him, giving him plenty of time to flinch, anticipating that Steve will scowl and move out of the way, still allergic to being babied. But Steve doesn't move.

It is impossible to twitch, to move, to dodge. His muscles have turned to stone--at any other time, it would be funny; he recalls Bucky's shock the first time he saw him in this body, proclaiming he must be a Greek or Roman statue.

He feels like a statue.

A statue that melts the moment his younger self's fingertips grace his forehead. This version of himself from this past echoes himself from earlier, "you seem tired," his cold, poor-circulation touch draws the strands hair swept against his face back into his more modern, brushed back style.

Steve sighs with the weight pressing on his shoulders. It feels even heavier than usual.

Maybe... maybe he should've expected this.

He remembers the fatigue that pulled at his bones, tugging until he was slogged down into the mud and could hardly move; his heart struggling to beat, his thoughts fighting their way to conference-y, his mood dampening to constant exhaustion. If anyone can read the weight on his shoulders through the lines on his forehead and the slump of his back, of course, it would be his younger self.

The weight of his illnesses have been gone for years at this point, but they've been replaced and doubled by the weight of a moniker, which means nothing to this version of himself.

Suddenly, there is no point pretending.

Was it really so long ago that he was this version of himself? Was he really so young when he was made the face of the war? How young was he when he awoke to be the face of a new effort? A new team? How young is he now?

Steve barely stifles a sudden, chest-squeezing sound. A sob?

His younger self says nothing. He only steps in closer. Close enough for Steve to bury his face in the concave, hard plane of his stomach, and ring his hands around his boney, thin hips. His entire waist fits in the circle of Steve's index fingers and thumbs. Two hands. He feels each clumsy beat of his heart. He feels the stutter of his uneven breaths. He feels how cool he is, even right here at his core. How is he standing? How is he taking his weight? Steve may be tired, but his younger self must be exhausted. He can't--

How could he burden his y--

"Nope," his younger self holds his shoulders in both hands. Fingers digging in sharply, intent on getting his message across and not afraid to be mean about it. "You're not going anywhere."

This time, Steve does sob. Audibly. He is tired. He's so tired.

To conclude:

I have lots of emotions about post-serum Steve and the world taking advantage of his strength.

Thank you for the request!

P.S. I kept listening to this while I was writing:

#asks #fandomfluffandfuck #bucky barnes #steve rogers #stucky #Spotify #angst #hurt/comfort

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duckapus · 25 days

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Mario goes to a karoake bar

Mario and Friends go to a karoake bar, somethign weird happens Mario and the interview of DOOOOOMMMM

whimpu gets a job with the help of Bob, Boopkins and Mario

Stupid Mario & Luigi: Partners in Time

The gang get dragged into a time rift after Mario breaks E. Gadd's time machine and they need to fix it along with the time rifts with they're baby selves

in search of the broken past

Tari and Clench have a bonding week via searching for tari's past, meanwhile Whimpu finds out about some shocking things about the idol agency he's working at

Both get knocked out by an EMP/A Bat and get kidnapped

the disappearance of tari

Tari has been missing for weeks now and the gang is stressed, meanwhile Belle and the anti-cast are trying to find where tf whimpu is also meanwhile WHimpu is trying to escape Gilded Entertainment while being chased by Swag and Chris whilst simultaneously trying to wake tari up from her brainwashing, Aria just wants one normal day that isn't stress filled

Mario reacts to musical memes ft. Saiko and Meggy

a palette cleansor for what's to come as Meggy and Mario try to calm Saiko down after the revelations from the end of last episode, we get glimpses of Saiko's inner demon trying to break free as Saiko tries to fight it

Mario goes to a concert

The GLitchy Gang + Belle and the anti-cast implement they're rescue plan after discovering some things about Tari- or well Aria's past thanks to Clench, Swag, Chris and Whimpu are a 3 man army sting operation, Stella/Aria prepares for the show

Mario accidentally unleashes a demon that was sealed in one of his friends (not too sure about this one)

The gang get split up after Mr. Smiley seperates them all, Saiko is on the verge of losing it and Kaizo is trying to help Mario and Meggy calm her down before the thing sealed in her gets out, Bob and boopkins run into an exhausted Chris, Swag, and Whimpu fighting against SMiley Bots and just general chaos ensues as the climax of Stella's come back concert draws near, Melony gets Clench out of the crate he was shoved in at least, Saiko goes demon mode after successfully controlling her anger thanks to Kaizo too!

A Broken Dreams Endless Night

a glimpse into Aria's headspace during the demon episode and a little bit extra

Aria of A New Dawn (an smg4 movie) (not too sure about this one either but eh)

The gang fight against Mr. SMiley who got turned into an eldritch monster that craves power and fame thanks to a piece of the god box crashing into him, Saiko goes bonkers, Tari proves that she is not longer the same scared girl that she was before as WHimpu helps remove the brainwashing with Clench's help, general lesbianism ensues as the gang fights in the name of friendship and love

-superluigiglitchy

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REVIEWS OF THE WEEK!

Books I’ve read so far in 2023!

Friend me on Goodreads here to follow my more up to date reading journey for the year!

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247. Hello Beautiful by Ann Napolitano--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Have you ever finished a book and just sat there in awe, thinking about all of the ways that it broke your heart? This was me with HELLO BEAUTIFUL. Not to be punny, but this book was beautiful. Napolitano's novel was heartbreaking, memorable, destructive, and full of moments that had me outright crying.

We follow a family who essentially adopts a man (who marries into the family) who didn't have much of a family presence growing up due to a tragedy in his childhood. The journey we take over the decades as this family evolves, separates, and comes to terms with who they are is a heavy one, but also eye-opening. We see the cycle of emotional abuse and its consequences; the expectations placed on children to be better than their parents and its sometimes detrimental effects; and the power of love that comes from the most unexpected places.

This is a complex story of family and mental health. It tackles some topics that are often shied from in society, and the consequences of decisions that send ripples through time. There were characters I hated, others I loved, and others I truly hoped would find their happiness.

This was one of my favourites of the year, hands down. The tears on my face as the ending drew closer is proof that this book destroyed me and honestly, I'm grateful I was able to experience that because I normally don't pick up books like this one.

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248. Mistletoe and Mishigas by M.A. Wardell--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Okay, I'm not a huge fan of Holiday books because I find the whole theme kind of cringe and meh LOL, but I devoured the shit out of this book. MISTLETOE & MISHIGAS was adorable af and I couldn't stop reading it.

I loved the grouchy MC and the sugary sweet MC. I loved that one kept putting his foot in his mouth, and the other started to stand up for himself. I loved their dynamic and how they brought each others' best selves out. The grouchy MC's family was a delight and they were HILARIOUS.

Was this book super deep? At times. It dealt with the grouchy MC's PTSD and his fear of finding love again because of his grief and past experiences, and it also dealt with the sunshine MC's homophobic family and their abandonment. These parts were powerful and I liked that the two of them were able to work through or with their traumatic experiences.

Another thing I don't like about Holiday books is that because they're set in such a tight timeline, we often get things at a sped-up rate. In the case of this adorable book, we get an almost insta-lovey relationship that gets steamy hella fast (which I'm fine with, but I did giggle at that first 'baby' that hit at a questionable time), and a distorted sense of time to be falling all the way to the L word because truly, has enough time passed for this word to be coming into play? But the Holiday timeline will always be an escalator for love because time is of the essence.

Beyond that, this was ridiculously adorable and like the perfect shot of cuteness to get you into the Holiday spirit. I love these two messy men and that they were in their 30s!!!! You know how hard it is to find a cute book where the characters aren't in uni or in their 20s? It was weirdly refreshing (mainly because I am in my mid-thirties.)

Will try the first book in the series at some point in my life!

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249. Bookshops & Bonedust by Travis Baldree--⭐️⭐️⭐️

I'm convinced these books aren't for me. I read them both and while I was entertained for a bit, I got to the point where I just wanted the story to end. I did love the bookselling theme and how the MC tried her best to help the bookstore and its owner, but that was about all I really cared for in this book.

Oh, and seeing the MC fall into books that way so many of us do.

But while I can see why so many enjoy these cozy mystery books, I'm just missing that sense of "why am I reading this?"

I think I liked this one more than the first one, but to be completely honest, I'm not even 100% sure I remember what happened LOL.

Three stars for the bookselling and book reading portions, the rest I just...yeah. I don't think I'll be trying the next book--it all depends on when it comes out lol

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250. The New Guy by Sarina Bowen--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I'm so happy to be back in the world of Sarina Bowen. I saw this book on a friend's book haul and I needed it immediately, so I got my excited hands on it and devoured it. I missed reading the fun world of hockey with queer men. Sigh, I will admit that this has now sent me down that same black hole spiral that I experience at least once every year.

We get two perspectives: a single and widowed dad and a hockey player who is struggling to find a permanent home since he has been traded one too many times. As these two characters fight against their growing attraction to each other, we get to see some great character growth and truths that really bring too much to light.

I loved this book because of the tropes presented, but also because these two men experience so many different emotions together that you can't help but hope that they get to have their HEA. There's so much angst and sexy times, that it was hard to put the book down. But besides that obvious spicy side, I loved the side relationships and how the characters remembered to keep their heads on while either working or playing their sport. It's one of the things I love that authors sometimes do--that no matter what the characters are experiencing, it doesn't affect the core thing they love to do.

Also, the side characters were great and I loved all of them--especially the single dad MC's daughter and how big her personality was.

This was a lot of fun and I really need to check out the next book!

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251. Enchanted to Meet You by Meg Cabot--⭐️⭐️⭐️

In rating this a three star, I'm realizing how my rating system is so skewed. I'm rating this three stars because it was fun, but it wasn't the best thing I've ever read. It was very insta-romance and kind of over the top. But I'm going to be super honest: When it comes to Meg Cabot, I expect nothing less and I usually have a great time.

So, despite its imperfections, ENCHANTED TO MEET YOU was a lot of fun. There was a cheesy romance, a badass but kind MC, and a somewhat unbelievable menace that gave me strong THE CRAFT vibes. I wish I had read this in October because it would have been perfect.

I thought the cast of characters were sweet and the love interest (second MC) sounded fine af. There's a specific description of him during a spicy scene that had me rewinding the audiobook just to hear it again. Also, that's another thing! While it wasn't overly described, the fading to black wasn't as obvious as Cabot's previous series.

Also, hello some queer rep in this one! And a beautiful plus-size MC! Love.

I hope that this series doesn't go the way of her last one, which got steadily worse. I will hold out hope and will definitely be picking up the sequel.

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252. Power Plays & Straight A's by Eden Finley & Saxon James--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Re-read in November 2023

The happiness and giddiness I felt when I fell into this world again. I love these characters and how they communicate and how they are together. Reading this again felt like the first time, because I had forgotten so much of what had happened and I got to experience it all again :')

I like that these characters are imperfect and how they work together. One is socially awkward and the other is basically the king of hockey on campus. They are an interesting pair that somehow work and have the cutest and spiciest moments.

I love these boys and I can't wait to re-read this book again in a few years LOL.

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253. It Found Us by Lindsay Currie--⭐️⭐️⭐️

This was a fun and spooky mystery! I think the cover is creepier than the story itself, but it definitely had some moment where I know a middle school reader will have a few sleepless nights.

I loved the concept of this young MC being a detective because of how many other potential mysteries she could solve, especially now that she has her friend and brother helping her. I wouldn't say no to a sequel with more paranormal happenings in this small town--kind of gave me CITY OF GHOSTS vibes and I'm not mad at it.

I think I'm not rating this higher because while I was entertained, it didn't blow my mind. It was an enjoyable experience, however, and I'm definitely intrigued. I liked the character growth and the teamwork that happened--especially since I know younger readers who might pick this up might benefit from seeing healthy sibling relationships like the one in this book.

I do recommend this for anyone looking for a spooky middle grade novel that won't make them too scared to turn the lights off, but might creep them out with the stretched out smiles we sometimes hear about in IT FOUND US.

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254. Just A Bit Captivating by Alessandra Hazard--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I bow down to Alessandra Hazard for writing 14 books (so far) in this series and making me love most of them. JUST A BIT CAPTIVATED is her latest and the way I KEPT checking to see the release date...phew. When I pick up one of these books (to read for the first time, or re-read), I KNOW I'm going to be...captivated.

This was another twisted romance and listen, I am TRASH for these books. Whereas in other books I'd be giving the storyline a massive side eye, something about Hazard's over the top situations are so ridiculously addicting and weirdly endearing? I want to root for both characters, even though one of them is a massive asshole. But listen, it's fiction--romance red flags are not real life goals, okay?

I highly recommend reading this series if you want stories that captivate you and make you question your morals on occasion (but just for the sake of the books.)

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255. The Hundred Years' War on Palestine by Rashid Khalidi--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I will pre-empt my review by stating that the reason why I'm giving this four stars instead of five is because I'm not much of a history lover, so this was a bit of a heavy read in terms of textual information and my brain's inability to fully engage in historical nonfiction. Other than that, this book was incredibly informative.

I've been trying to stay informed and have been trying my best to show my support in the best ways I can, but I find that reading up on the history of the beautiful Palestine and how it has been besieged for over a century is incredibly important. I learned a lot through this text and I definitely believe that it should be on everyone's TBR. There were definitely some aspects I wish we learned more about in this one (I have learned about missing information through my own research and watching videos of those who are hella informed). But I also know that this text is a bit older and a lot of newer information has most likely come to light since its publication.

Important, powerful, and eye-opening, Rashid Khalidi's The Hundred Years' War on Palestine is a must-read.

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256. Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I'm surprised it took me this long to read the heartbreaking book that is GIOVANNI'S ROOM. I've read various Gay literary fiction titles and while I always enjoy the journey, I'm always heartbroken or feeling some intense emotion by the end. Baldwin's novel didn't spare me from this experience.

GIOVANNI'S ROOM is messy, but in the most tragic way possible. This is a novel about a man who experiences one of the biggest emotions a human could experience, but both the time, his life experiences, and the expectations of what it means to be a "man" got in the way of him taking that leap into the abandonment of love. By the end, I couldn't help but cry for him, but also cry for Giovanni and the what could be's that mirror the life these two men lived on the pages of Baldwin's masterpiece.

The final line of this book will forever haunt me and if you've read this book, you know that that imagery not only will haunt the character forever, but also the reader.

Also, if you haven't done so--I highly recommend reading SWIMMING IN THE DARK because this felt very much like a reversal of characters if it was a retelling of GIOVANNI'S ROOM. Both are beautiful and both will absolutely break you/make you think about those who shared these characters' fates in real life.

I took a star away because the writing sometimes felt a little dry, BUT with that being said, I listened to the audiobook and the enunciation and reading of the narrator was GORGEOUS.

I'm glad I finally experienced this gorgeous and messy book. Also, I both wanted Giovanni to get therapy and to also be given the love he always craved and lost. My God, my heart cries for Giovanni.

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Have you read any of these books? Let me know your thoughts!

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Happy reading!

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Day 1: Favourite Arc | Roll for AU

Our first day’s prompts will be Favourite Arc and the Roll for AU Table! Feel free to chose one or both of them as inspiration for your fan work, but remember to only post it during the actual week!

Favourite Arc

Unprepared Casters is a podcast that is split into several arcs! Right now there are 12 great options to choose from, showcase a creative piece based on your favourite.

Roll for AU

This is a table made by @theccrowsnest. Thanks Crow!

Roll a D20 to determine which AU, or Alternate Universe, you can use as your prompt. May the dice be ever in your favor!

"Bad End Friends" - Characters as their worst timeline self

Meeting their Younger / Future Self - Characters meeting their younger or future selves

Modern - Characters in a modern world

Arc Swap - The characters in a different arc of Unprepared Casters

Actors - the characters but they're played by actors on and off set of the film's filming (like as a movie or show)

Familiar | Animal Companion Swap - The character switch places with their animal companion (For example, Charles the wizard/sorcerer and Annie as his familiar)

Breaking the 4th wall - The characters meeting their creator and their adoring fans

Woah! Cool! A Jenny crit! -Roll twice and combine the AUs

Podcast Swap - The characters in a different podcast entirely (For example, Bishop Batters-Westberry in the world of Dungeons and Daddies)

Social Media - The characters but they're on social media

Timeline Swap - The characters in a different timeline than the one theyre normally in (For example, Annie Wintersummer in a timeline where Lathe lived but she didn't)

Suddenly Babies - The characters but theyre suddenly turned into a baby

Pokemon Trainers - The characters in the world of Pokemon

Body Swap - The characters are suddenly stuck in each others bodies

Class Swap - The characters but with a different class

Alignment Swap - The characters but with a different alignment

Musician / Band / Rockstar - The characters as music stars / idols

NPC/PC Roleswap - The PCs swap places with NPCS and the NPCs swap places with the PCs

Animals - The characters as animals

Free choice! - Pick anything from this table

#unprepared casters #uc celebration 2023 #prompts #countdown #Table is also written out under the cut in case the image is unreadable for any reason!

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In the AWTR honeymoon ask, you wrote that they make plans for things they'd like to do together in the future even though they both know they will never get that. What kinds of things do they dream about and wish they would be able to get to experience together?

They talk about moving to a big city and making someplace their home. Getting a shitty one bedroom apartment together where the AC never works quite right and has more stairs than an Aztec pyramid just to get to. But none of it matters, because at the end of the day it's a place where the mailbox has both of their names. It's a place they both come home to.

Lexa liked the thought of the actual process of moving in together. As in, lugging boxes up 6 flights and finagling it all through too-narrow doorways and ending the day collapsing into a sweaty heap together on their unmade bed that lays on the floor. "It will build character," was how she had definitively put it in rebuttal to Clarke's groan of, "Oh fuck that."

Clarke just sighs and kisses the naked hip under her head. Maybe she'll end up liking it when they actually do it. Someday.

They talk about what they'll do for their first anniversary. For their 10th. 20th. Their 50th way down the line. Plans for exotic vacations and vow renewals, if for no other reason than to give themselves more moments just like this. They plan as far out as their 23 yo selves can really fathom, and even beyond that. Because Lexa says in no uncertain terms that she doesn't have any plans of divorcing Clarke's silly ass at any point in the future.

They seal the agreement with a potentially legally binding pinky-promise and a kiss when Clarke just shrugs an easy, "Yeah well, me neither."

They talk about if they're gonna have kids. When they will. How many. The dreaded conversation of whether they'll raise them to be Disney kids or give them even a remote chance at being normal 🥴

Eventually they settle on a cat at some point. Much easier logistics than weighing the pros and cons of summer camp vs annual trips to financially gluttonous amausements parks. Besides, Clarke's always wanted one, but Marcus is allergic. And she likes the thought of them being moms to a little fur baby before they commit to a life of no sex and little sleep.

Lexa agrees on the strict caveat that she gets to name it, leaving Clarke with zero vetoing power.

That gets sealed with a kiss too.

They just spend the time coming up with any different scenarios they can think of. Some wild, some as mundane as who will be in charge of the dishes. They make promises to be vulnerable with each other and never totally shut the other out. They promise to compromise in their lives and always make choices with the other's happiness and mind, to give each other space to be angry or sad or afraid. They promise that even when things inevitably get tough, and they feel like they might break, they're not going to be like everyone else. They're gonna make this marriage thing work.

They will.

Just as soon as they get their someday...

#anon #a walk to remember au #AWTR synopsis

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rise and shine, queens 🤍

had a wonderful and desperately needed long night of sleep. this week I got dark circles under my eyes for the first time in years, and a small pimple on my cheek, and I'm not here for these.

I'll be real with you girls, last week was probably the most intense acute suffering I've felt in a hot minute. I can't actually remember if I ever felt that way before. it felt like drowning, like I couldn't breathe, and for a couple of days I was so lost in the pain that it felt like I would never come back down from it, like I would never have a normal life again. the grief was poisonous, it washed over me completely. it's hard to believe everything happened just one week ago, just literally seven days ago today.

however, going through this unbelievable rollercoaster and losing my ground was a big wake-up call to me. it made me realize I am in fact much stronger and much softer than I give myself credit for. it made me realize I can handle tough situations with a lot more poise and focus than I give myself credit for. it made me realize I am not only lucky but literally blessed, that my family is a single living organism and that I'll never ever be lonely again. I can rely on my people as well as I can rely on myself, and they can rely on me also: all that was realized last week with such force that it's impossible to go back now.

there is a part of me that is still so attached to my oldest selves, from the little baby who was always told not to cry and not to make any noise to the teenage girl who was constantly told she couldn't do anything right and that she was hard to be around. these versions of me are still here, alive inside me, and they're terribly scared of screwing everything up, of being left alone in a room again, of being yelled at and blamed for every single thing, of being told they're not good. last week definitely sent a message to them, definitely made them understand in a new way that their fears can be finally soothed because there's someone powerful who's got their back forever, and this someone is actually me. my current self.

the circumstances that led me to this painful week are not exactly over, but I'm at peace with them. I feel more connected to nature than ever before, and I know she'll continue to guide me and light up the way for me, no matter what happens.

happy monday, ladies. let's get it.

#flowerlog

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what type of pet would reiner + connie want as a companion? would it be the same pet their child-selves would have wanted?

Reiner Braun;

He'd want a dog! If he had a dog he could have an excuse to go on random little walks, play fetch with them. And let's be honest Reiner could use an emotional support buddy...Sure he had Bertholdt as his rock to keep him steady but it's a bit different when it comes to your furry buddy! He can't exactly pull Bertholdt into his bed and just snuggle him till he falls asleep, he's not going to burden Bert with his emotional turmoil poor guys got his own problems (but hey he'd listen to Berts problems always there to lend an ear or shoulder to cry on, gotta stay strong for his friend.). He'd take such good care of his dog too, only give it the best food he can get...he probably would make them food, he'd make sure they're healthy and if they're sick you won't find him going anywhere, no sir he's staying right there with his fluffy baby you can't move him. Reiner would definitely want a dog as a child, his mom wouldn't have that though said they're dirty, smelly and a lot of work plus he needed to focus on his training so she felt a pet would just distract him.

Connie Springer;

Let's be real Connie's the kind of guy that would try to go for an exotic pet....he'd have a fucking bear if he could and he'd enjoy it! Let's say he finds a cub all on it's own, he can't say no to that cute chubby bear so he's keeping it. He's gonna train it to his best ability, feed it, love on it and shelter it. He knows he can't keep that thing locked up in some room so he let's them roam around in a secluded area in the forest within the walls and comes to visit them. The bear never mauls him and Connie has like no fear so just imagine this idiot riding on top of this bear being a complete idiot. Anyone else? Mauled, dead....Connie? Well he's lucky this bear see's him as a parent otherwise he'd be joining the afterlife. He'd defend this bear with his life he loves them so no bearskin for you. Now if he had a normal pet?? Honestly a snake, he'd carry it around everywhere and scare the others with it....but Connie would definitely want a bear. Would a bear be the same pet he'd want as a child? No he wanted a cat at first, but Connie and cats don't mix.....they just don't like him.

#devoteyrheart #give connie his bear 2023 #Reiner needs an emotional support buddy

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Okay, I GOT to ask: what are your Brinivybank headcanons? Like whats the full story behind these besties suffering together? And how angsty does this get? I need to know cuz you put this triplet in my head and I'm obsessed

omg

ive thrown up so much baloney about them over the months so some stuff i say may be lowkey rehashing but oh well! these are my babies!!

i ended up writing more than intended so it's put under a cut

i can already just kind of picture dylan meshing well naturally with both emma and max over the summer (in the event max made it ofc). emma and max would take a bit more time to even interact with each other but the second emma makes a dumb joke and max responds with something dumb back, it's clicked.

since max was originally listed in his bio as class clown before dylan's intro video gave him it, they're already on the same level. supermassive didn't let skyler and miles interact because they would've been too powerful together. the three of them would be just dumb shenanigan snark fests and everyone hates to love them. they are the perfect goofball menaces to compliment their partners, and they love terrorizing them together.

as far as the actual canon events though, i always just like to believe max and emma meet post-surviving that night. they have to. emma snatched his clothes and got his ugly wolf mug on her phone, she needs to make fun of him for it. and with biting/trying to bite her i can just see him being like "whoops my bad i didn't eat before the moon came up". u know she wants to be mad but with his lil hoodie and awkward dumb joke she can't be mad.

i needed just more of emma and dylan, too. they love being annoying!! they want to break into cabins and be gay do crimes!! the most i get for any sort of bonding is if abi's died and dylan recaps the story to her. she opens up in front of him and kaitlyn! she's letting her real emotions out for once and lets her stage presence drop! and then they just never interact again. what the hell!

but post-game! they have a great support system going. they all share almost the same fear, of not being good enough or trying to act like someone they're not because that's what makes people happy. dylan and emma put on a show since they think that's what the people want. max hated upsetting laura since he didn't tell her about college. he wasn't falling in line with the plan of what she wanted them to be anymore. none of them want to make anyone sad. they just want to have fun, tell jokes, be silly, and stay afloat.

after all the werewolf trauma, it's rough for them to bounce back to their normal selves, but i think they'd feed on each others energy and remember its okay to still smile. having everyone else alive and around definitely helps speed up the healing process too.

i also imagine if laura and ryan don't come back, dylan remembers max's name and her story of leaving him there. he and emma go together bc emma wants to know who the hell the bitch was that tried to eat her - and its just some goofball that's wearing a cropped pink hoodie. her desire to throw hands is instantly gone because he looks just so sad waiting for laura at the dock and he's like "who are u guys.. wheres my girl"

my favorite kind of angst for them is the run i just did where they were my only three survivors, and infected each other. i personally feel like there's a strong bond that forms between werewolves after infection - so now that their love interests are dead, they rely on each other 10x more for support. cuz no one is going to understand it like they do. cuz max is the reason emma bit dylan and now they're just stuck with it. they don't know the source of the curse, and no one is around to tell them anymore.

alone but together. every month, they dread the night that reminds them and forces them to be the cause of everything they've lost. they met up right after, realized what happened, and realize that it's just them. emma gets their numbers, they have a little group chat to keep each other sane. then when it's a full moon, they meet up to be together and accounted for, and lock themselves away.

another full moon later, they get a place to stay and move in with each other. it's easier and more comforting this way, and it's easier for them to keep their humor when it's in one safe space.

but the survivors guilt eats at them for a while. max is sad that he couldn't have done anything to help laura, that she died trying to help him. emma is sad she wasn't there for abi, that the last time she saw her she kissed abi's crush. dylan is sad that ryan went off and never came back, and he'll never know if something more could've happened.

while it takes a long time to heal, they eventually slowly come to terms with their fates. but they'll still never be okay.

maybe there's an off chance they can get chris to help, since he'd have to live for them to stay infected. but with the rest of the hacketts dead, chris is just as helpless as them on the night of an actual full moon. who could even cure them at this point?

#the quarry #useyernamesteven #askbox #woof its like 2am and i dont even think ive said all i wanted to #i could go on all night about these three #but i am SLEEPY #brinivybank

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sapphyreopal5 · 8 months

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I was binge-watching your YouTube videos last weekend. Just one video did catch my eye on one of your YouTube videos called “Reptilian Discourse: Why Reptilians are Here”. Can you tell me more about Reptilians? And I think your followers should know about it too because it is so interesting.

Hello Anon, thank you for the ask and seriously I appreciate you looking up my YouTube channel and mentioning it here! It brightens my spirit some anytime I get praises or at least good comments or references to my YouTube channel because I do put a lot of thought and such into my channel when I can do so. So the reptilians, oh what a controversial topic in the spiritual and even alien research communities! They are not bad for life overall and are benevolent beings. They don't do the whole meat eating crap, nor are they here to harvest babies from people or any of that nonsense people spew out about the reptilians. Oh and reptilians are NOT the world elite unlike what David Icke claims. A lot of what Icke says about the reptilians are actually the so called "lizard people" I discussed in that video, or should I say a species of demons. What they are here for however oh goodness. If you saw some of my other videos, you'd know some of the truth about what Earth REALLY is (please do read my Cloud Nine post here on Tumblr if you have not already), quite horrifying stuff.

The immortal reptilians not totally living amongst us by the way physically are all deities (not all deities are reptilians but all reptilians are deities); for the ones who are here, they're kind of "trapped". Once they leave Earth, they cannot come back. They are here to help clear the way so that incarnated Faye, deities, reptilians, and khala race members can safely cross over off of Earth for good by... gravely injuring demons and the astral selves of their incarnations. By the way, like 95-97% or more of the Earth's population are incarnated demons. Demons themselves are actually cyborgs from the astral planes. It turns out "The System", "blood thirsty cyborgs", "Skynet", etc. are big hints of truths that are being discussed in The Terminator movies.

Think of the "force field" that surrounds the arena in The Hunger Games movies, put it around the planet Earth and you got your answer as to why "God" and other deities never appear physically on Earth these days. This "code" was placed in the atmosphere astrally on October 23, 1990 which happens to be my birthday actually.... The said ships we see that are said to be of extraterrestrial origin, let's just say that they have always been here but hiding in the astral planes here on Earth.

"Someone" was communicating with the rapper Nicki Minaj about this in her divine hearing when she was making the song "Starships". Of course the song's lyrics are pointing to drugs and sex as we are talking about a rapper named Nicki Minaj here ha ha. The things we do receive in our divine hearing do sometimes get translated in a puzzling or funny way. "Starships were meant to fly", and "hands up and touch the sky" are fitting lyrics from that song here in a way she didn't intend. Her higher selves are the Mayan/Aztec deities Quetzalcoatl and Xolotl, as I discussed in that post I linked to there who are curiously night and day deities. She receives a lot more divine messages in her hearing and possibly dreams/visions than she lets us believe honestly.

As for the said missing pregnancies said abductees have mentioned... it is not because the reptilians or even the grays can't reproduce on their own. They don't even reproduce physically in any sense of the word, never did and never will. The reason for this is actually because this is to cover up what some people do when they physically dreamwalk. Are you sure some people don't "randomly" dream about "random" people they're having intimate dreams with at times? This turns out to be that sometimes (meaning when it's not just a normal dream), people either temporarily "cross over" to someone they share a higher self with (which therefore explains why some people will have eerily similar dreams the same night), OR they are physically dream walking to their soulmates and being intimate with them.

Thank you for the ask Anon! I put the video you referenced below for anyone else who may be interested in watching this video.

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#alien abductee #abductions #reptilians #grays #disclosure #deities #divination #dreamwalking #dream walking #psychic

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ghostypetrainer · 2 years

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Do Kuro and Akari ever learn about their origins? Like, presumably they have to find out eventually, like when they’re adults (again in Kuro’s case). But does Ingo have to sit them down to have The Conversation or else they’ll find out from some asshole with a grudge.

Crack idea:

Kuro/Akari: where do babies come from?

Someone maybe Emmet: oh well you two came from a test tube

They find out eventually, yeah!

Despite his best efforts. Ingo knows he can't keep it from them forever. He wants them both to have something of a 'normal' childhood at least, free from the shadow of their past selves and how they were made and what they were made for. It's only when they're both older that he finally sits them down to have the talk with them. He'd rather have them find out from him than anyone else.

It's... pretty rough to hear, to learn that they were clones created by an evil organization, made solely to help them achieve their goals. It also explains a lot- Akari always thought she had a strong resemblance to Aunt Akari, though Ingo's always denied the rumors that he and Aunt Akari's mother ever had a relationship. I think Kuro bristles at learning he's a clone of Ingo. Why couldn't he be a clone of Uncle Emmet instead??? At least he's COOL.

But they get through it! They're on stable footing now, and they have the love and support of their family. It makes them kind of happy that Ingo went through with taking care of them, even though he didn't have to... not that Kuro will ever admit that, lol.

#asks #team chaos au #kuro: clearly I must have sucked all the coolness out of you when they took your DNA to make me #ingo: I don't think that's how it works #kuro: yes it is

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starvingtongue · 8 months

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🔥 my hot take about the roleplaying community ⭐️ my roleplay pet peeves 🔑 my favorite type of threads

My experience in the Roleplaying Community // Accepting! // @ofmoonlily

🔥 my hot take about the roleplaying community

I can't speak for other communities, but the ff rpc feels like it's become a lot more selective, private, and, idk a lot less friendly, open and warm? There's a definite, and very stark, difference between when I started roleplaying in it back in 2013ish, to even back in 2017, not to mention now. I don't know exactly what changed, and I know people still have fun (otherwise what's the point of being here, right?), yes people are older & have more going on, and I know there's been bits of drama with people over the years, but sometimes I really, really miss how it used to be.

People would do crack more often, it feels like people were more willing to do events or joint verses/AUs, try out new muses, stick around for a lot longer, there was a lot less focus on graphics & aesthetics, people would send each other world building questions or anons a lot more. Heck, I know some of them could be problematic as fuck, but Magic Anons were fun as fuck back in the day. Paine got turned into a potato once. I feel like a lot more people were willing to be stupid with their muses, be a lot more open to roleplaying with others within the fandom (and outside of it, I have many a happy thread memory with characters who were from different fandoms than my muse), if that makes sense? Which I guess is the point of crack, but w/e. I'm pretty sure it's me looking back with rose tinted glasses and a nostalgic sense of things, I wish the community was not only large enough to do these sorts of things, but also more willing? idk man, maybe the first step beings with me, but I just miss it.

⭐️ my roleplay pet peeves

I'm sure this has been said several times over, but those really tiny icons that are sized at, like 60x60, that have been so fried by saturation that it's almost impossible to actually see what the icon is. That really drives me bonkers and I don't even have any wrong with my eyes, so I can't imagine how it must feel for someone who suffers from visual impairments or those sorts of things trigger migraines or things like that. Thankfully, I think the rpc has gotten over this trend, for the most part, and a lot of people are reconsidering 'their aesthetic' for those that might be affected by this sorta stuff. But, every so often something'll pop up that'll remind me of it.

🔑 my favorite type of threads

Honestly, it really depends on the muse. For Anima, I really love the softer or more angsty type of threads. Her time in Guadosalam with Jyscal & baby Seymour, her and Seymour's exile and eventual pilgrimage, and then her joining with Yuna. I've really enjoyed threads with her post-X-2, but they don't hit the same. I think it's the same for Tromell as well, or most of my FF related muses & Shachath as well tbh? I feel like the majority my FF muses either aren't really the 'soft' types, and as such, their 'softer' moments are few and far between (Paine, Dona, Leblanc), which is why I love writing the softer moments for them, even if they're still being their normal selves. Or the majority of their plot lines are really angsty (Anima, Tromell, Zanarkand to some extent), and I really love exploring that in threads.

I'm throwing Shachath in here, more on the soft yet angsty side, because they only really appear when someone's dead, dying, or really considering their own demise. I've not written them in a hot minute, but it was really nice having those sorts of threads with people, regardless of how Shachath herself might've been summoned. And Zephyr as well, now that I think about it, cause I'd really like to explore more angsty stuff with her, especially in regards to her losing her sanity & her time at Castle Volkhair.

Maybe soft & angsty threads are my favourite?

And I also really like writing shippy stuff, more so the slow burn & day-to-day aspects of shippy things. But I haven't written anything revolving around shippy-things in forever. I've had 1 ship in all of my blogs, sob, not that I'm complaining or saying people should ship with me more, but I do miss writing it.

#ofmoonlily #ooc { 🪷 } answered #thank you for this!#I'm not sure if any of this made any sense but here we are

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