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In honor of 100 followers (I know, I’m being dramatic af, whateverrrrr) I’m making a poll to see if you guys want me to release some more fanfics! Spoiler… they’re all with Jungkook… oops. 🥲
Below you will find a cover photo for each and a brief explanation of each! (Each of these are stories I have in my drafts so… already have them ready to release for the first few chapters!)
❥Cry: Jungkook is your ex boyfriend who refuses to let you go. Your relationship ended messy and hurtful, but he regrets it so much. You remained friends, because you both still love each other despite what happened. But Jungkook never wanted to be friends. Never planned on staying friends. He wants you back badly, and he always will.
❥ It may sound toxic but this one is actually very sweet, there is some emotional shit involved, but imagine Seven MV Jungkook… that’s the kind of persistent he is. He just wants you to let him love you again, 7 days a week, forever and ever. 🥺
❥ This one was inspired by the song Cry by Cigarettes After Sex, so… be warned LMAO. My specialty is making myself cry when I write, and you too! 😃
❥(Platonic) Boyfriend: Just two besties who totally don’t want to fuck and totally don’t like each other… You and Jungkook have been best friends since your early college days. You have always been close… maybe a little too close. Your friendship often gets mistaken for a relationship or something more because of how close you are. There are no boundaries between you two; you’re constantly touching each other, have seen each other naked, and talk about sex as if it’s the weather. But you’ve never crossed that line… you both swear it’s platonic! Neither of you even like dating, so why the fuck would you date each other? (You’re both very fucking delusional.)
❥If you are tired of me making you cry, this is probably more of your speed LOL. This story does have some emotional stuff but it is no where near the level of emotion Bloom holds. It will be very fluffy and steamy, has a bit of jealousy, and you are both very in denial about each other. Jungkook in this story is a lot like a golden retriever, but also he’s a little shit. You both struggle with commitment in this story because of different reasons (apparently I like writing about people with commitment issues?), but refuse to acknowledge what the real issue is…
❥This story is also very inspired by a song called Jennie by Studio Killers, it was viral for some time on tiktok. Give it a listen! As you can tell music inspires me a lot lol. The cover photo above isn’t the official one I’ll be using, not sure where I want to go with it yet, but does give you the vibes.
❥Metamorphosis: Celeste is a single mom who had to grow up way too fast. She never planned for her life to be this way, she swore she’d get married and have a beautiful family forever… but the stars didn’t align that way. Now at the age of 24, she’s struggling to make ends meet while taking care of her 5 year old daughter Nabi, and the cherry on top is how bad her mental health has gotten. But she’s trying her best, and loves her daughter more than anything. She swore she would never even look at another man after her ex… but one night, she does something very uncharacteristic in a desperate attempt to feel something… and Jeon Jungkook, completely starts fucking her world up.
❥Full disclaimer, this is an emotional story JUST like Bloom. Lots of references to butterflies and stars, you’ll understand more as you read. Jungkook is also a sweetheart in this story (when isn’t he?), but he has a fuckboy persona. Keep in mind the word persona… in reality, he’s just as afraid of woman as Celeste is of men. They both have similar traumas in the story without even knowing it.
❥It will be very angsty and emotional, but also wholesome. I decided to go the OC route in this one because I don’t know if a lot of people could relate to rhe MC. But, I am more than happy to make it a JK x Reader story as well!! Just leave a comment if you’d rather it be like that. The cover photo seems simple but has SO much meaning behind the story… notice how there are 3 butterflies? Anyway… 😇
❥Focus on Bloom: If you haven’t already, check out my story Bloom on my page! If you guys are really loving that, I am more than happy to focus on it. But also wanted to see if anyone would be interested in anything else I have saved in my drafts. I can always release the other stories at a later time if you guys want me to focus on Bloom. The cover photo was the original photo I made when I wrote the first chapter. 😅
#bts#jeon jungkook#jungkook fanfic#18+ only#bts fanfction#bts fanfic#bts imagines#bts smut#jungkook#jungkook angst#jungkook smut#jungkook x reader#jungkook x you#jungkook x oc#jungkook x y/n#jungkook x original character
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[MAFIA/CRIME AU]
We can have a yandere Vail, as a little treat. :3
To give more context for this AU, Lei is an underground doctor and Vail is apart of Lexi's (this cool AF NPC) Red Dragons which is I guess an organized crime group. Lei cooks sleeping pills from him in this AU because he has trouble sleeping from trauma, probably. But they don't work well anymore so he asks for something better and she suggests an experimental drug she's been working on. They find it works pretty well... but they are unaware... that one of the reagents is contaminated with a drug that makes people yandere... yeah... a yandere drug. So yeah that's why he became a little (JUST A LITTLE!!!) yandere for Lei :3 That is in fact her arm that he is gripping. She's wearing black nitrile gloves.
The concept for this drawing (which you might see in the notes I'll post sometime soon) is that he is her bodyguard for the time being for plot reasons, and a patient she has is being sleazy. So she asks Vail to escort him out and Vail decides to kill the guy :D wow what a normal response, right? (/s) So this is after he gets rid of the body and returns to her with blood stains and she realizes those aren't his. He reveals that he has killed the one who has "touched her" and asks to be praised 😳😳😳 Which would be hot if y'know the situation wasn't so messed up. This is why Lei starts suspecting something is wrong....
I will be releasing the mafia AU notes soon. Maybe after the post epilogue story XD so certain NPCs (not my OCs again) will have more context for who they are rather than being just names. But yeah it's a very SPICY and DRAMATIC AU (I don't write the full thing though) with lots of foreshadowing and an ending... that is as tragic and sad as they come... It hurt me to write it but it was so angsty it had to be done. You shall see. You shall see~
As a final note yes that collar he's wearing is a gift from Lei 👀👀👀spicyyyy
#oc#original character#i almost tagged this as my oc oops#vail#tw blood#cw blood#mafia au#crime au#I cooked up way too long AUs for these mertalline characters LOL#i mean i guess vail is my son in law if we stretch it a bit LMAO#cyberpunk coc#kinda lmao i should just tag it when characters from it appear even in AU form#yandere#male yandere#OC art#Original art#my art#lei is here... her arm at least LOL#dunno if I should tag her BUT SHE SURE IS THERE THAT IS DEF HER HAND AND ARM#she's wearing black nitrile gloves -- diff than the gloves he's wearing i think#idk maybe gangsters wear nitrile gloves who knows#I will be posting the mafia AU notes sometime this week prob#debating if I should post those notes first or the post epilogue story cuz like LMAO some NPCs I have never introduced XD#i'm always drawing lei and her friends like the absolute clown i am#sketch#coloured sketch#yeah so i mean i draw hands kinda badly BUT I really like his eye glow here#its the classic yandere red heart eyes#i think he looks great like this#def not sus at all wdym
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<casual questions PART TWO!!!!>
(5) what’s your art style?
(6) what’s a specific thing you can draw and never get tired of?
(7) do you o you have a favorite book/movie/show?
(8) yet not having any idols, are you a fan of many diffrent creators and take inspo of them? (You don’t have to awnser this one, you actually don’t have to awnser any of these btw.)
((THERE YA GO. >:3))
Oooo~ yay more questions :)) (sorry if my typing is a bit wonky I just woke up LMAO)
5) uhh honestly I dunno, people have said it's realistic with cartoony features other people call it a weird more cartoony form of anime, ig just my own style?? Cause I see where they're coming from I have taken inspo from all those things and shaped it into something of my own style:)).
6) Zip. She's pretttyyyy much the one thing I've been drawing since day one of digital. Now I did have this other OC I did draw non stop their name was like XZIRLIC?? (All caps cuz I'm sure that how I wrote it on paper 💀) I've been thinking of re-drawing them but they are a WILD OC I have. I also have this horse pony thingy I don't think I ever gave it a name 💀.
7) For books uhhh I haven't really read anything too new to me. But there was a book a few years back around the time covid stuck up that I got from target 💀 it was called' a wolf called wander/wonder (can't remember) ' it was about this wolf that left their home after their clan died from this other wolf clan past the mountains seeking haven. It don't think I ever finished it 😭 I was thinking about re-reading it but I do have another new book I got. Movie? Mhmm I have a lot of those ig mostly John wick movies, a little free guy is good to, another good one I recently watched was bullet train. (I'm sure you can see where this is going 💀💀) so mostly comedic violence (No this doesn't go for like SAW or some bs that shit is nasty AF man.) My favorite show of all time is the good place. Shocker ikr /sar I got into it about mid way last year and has watched it over and over again it's become a comfort show of mine. I also like the concept of it with all the plot twists but also teaching people about philosophy!? That's fuckin awesome.
8) pfft I am a fan of a lot of creators- I really like @/whoectypes stuff I really like their OC designs and how they're building a world, they are also a super cool person in general. I'm not close to them I wouldn't even call each other friends or anything, more of moots, we both support each other and treat each other with respect. For another person?? @/cupsie most definitely, they were actually one of my first followers. And then we became like besties cuz yk we simp for ray- I mean ram- I mean cause of a common interest. I really like how they use pastels and they doo rubber hose soooo gooooooddddd arugh I just start jumping up and down and flapping my lil silly hands when I see their art /pos. Now I don't take inspo from any creators that I remember seeing on this app (or at least not intentional) alot of my inspiration comes from dali. **Insert dramatic duh duh DUHHH here** yeah dali. I grew up with dali, now the real question is, "how can a cartoonist be inspired to start drawing from a surrealist?!" Actually surrealism and cartoonism is actually VERY similar, look at the colors look at how proportions aren't correct, don't look directly at the picture look at what something has to be deemed surrealism and cartoonism in a modern day conversation (omg me actually being kinda stupid and smart 🤯). Anyways before we get off track is the question ' how? ' the answer to the question is **drum roll please** colors :p. And the flowy-ness of his art, you can see a lot of different ways I use like smoke or water, that's from looking at dalis work, same with all his vibrant colors ugh I love it. I didn't study off of him, oh no. I just live a bike ride away to a museum that features his work so granted I would go there like every other month or something stupid cause of school or families in town, so I'm quite familiar with his art. So as DR. Seuss there's a mini art gallery again a bike ride away and they change out the paintings and sculptures like every other month or something. So you get more familiar with his work. Same reasons as dali too color and flow.
#wow thats alot of words#JSJDJD#the spelling and punctuation errors are going to be wild cuz i judt woke up and i dont have my glasses#anyways i gotta get ready for school :p#artists on tumblr#qna
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Some self ship art of me x hanzo hasashi.
Self insert au.
Hanzo gets new wife,a 2nd chance and a new beginning. Because he fucking deserves it! And i said so. So suck it nrs and ed boob!
Anyways. This au is pretty simple. Hanzo takes me in and gives me sanctuary,i basically was found near the Shirai-Ryu village which I'm naming Hana village. (Hana meaning flower in Japanese). Now this doesn't take place in some "anciant long lost long ago japanese feudal type ninja shit. (Cuz this is waaaaay after hanzo got healing and is chill now. Character development wasnt forgotten,unlike nrs i give a shit. (Although the shirai-ryu are traditional,and old school af ninja and shinobi/kage,so some elements in the village remain but its rural Japan.) Nah this is modern Osaka,japan. Outside city limits of course and very hidden and protected. Only a few know the way. I would say the closest maybe to what i think hana village would look like is anami village(a real place) but smaller. And more hidden? Either way there is a a red bridge and a torii gate in the front pass to get to it. The other entrances and the southern pass thru a huge ass field. The east pass through dense forest. And the western pass. Which is thru a mountain. The most difficult pass to traverse,however....the safest. As the kage of the shirai-ryu tend only use that to help protect the village.
Anyways. Basically. I wake up in a ninja clan village. Have no idea why im there. Hanzo takes me in. Trains me a bit,tho i am skilled i am by no means a master. So he decided to help me. And things happened,very heated things *wink wink* . Pretty simple plot.
Oh yeah....and a few ninja from an unknown ninja clan tries to attack the village. But fails. But hanzo is sus. Who are these ninja? What do they want? Why did they attack. And why is quan chi back?! Oh shiiiit. The lin kuei give hanzo a clue. And they were rivals with the lin kuei at one point but the clan at the time was smaller and weaker but they got somehow stronger and more powerful, oof. And quan chi is helping them! This mysterious ninja clan is a problem,and perhaps a new threat? And only the masters of fire and ice,grandmaster kuai liang and hanzo hasashi,and hanzo's new wife can stop them!
Ooooo. *dramatic music!*
Ok but fr. I just also wanted an excuse to draw hanzo being protective. And write about my story idea.
(My mk verse(and all it's aus) is gonna be called mk:eternal (because it's truest essence is eternal in my heart. Nrs can't take that from me!) )
*artist note: oops i forgot their rings. Oh well pretend they put them away so they dont get lost or ruined while they whoop ass. 🤷♀️ oopsy*
Used a base
I hope y'all like it
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My verse,mk:eternal. story,aus,ocs,etc is mine. Of course.
Unfortunately mortal kombat is not. Mk is (c) to nrs (unfortunately)
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#im so sad#i wanna write this so bad but i only have so much brain capacity#and im an artist more than a writer#but i try#i hope y'all enjoy this#mortal kombat#hanzo hasashi#scorpion mortal kombat#hanzo hasashi mortal kombat#self ship#self shipping#used a base#💛🏵burning chrysanthemums🏵💛#my art#my aus#my mk au#self insert au#my mk verse#mketernal
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I wanna draw but like
My body says no 😂 so I’ll put a pin in that for later but does anyone remember those silly tomfoolery posts I used to make at random about my TWST OCs and the canon boys? No??
Well welcome to this post, featuring my 2nd Gen OCs, Riddle and Floyd’s sons, or as I like to mentally dub them
✨The Boyfriends✨ (TM)
If you’d like to read their short story, check out my AO3 page, more specifically the “Sacred Crown Shorts” Chapters 3 thru 7 👍
Tagging peeps so they get their daily dose of serotonin:
@wysteriadelights @nuitthegoddess @iscarlettappel @foxwitchaine @aiimee9 @victoria1676 @zstargalaxy @yunaemiya @honey-milk-depresso
The boys
Prince Valis Rosehearts: Pomefiore House Warden, a literal prince and the super-handsome-yet-supposedly-untouchable-Yuki Sohma-ass-beautiful boi heartthrob, gentle aura, excellent student, the whole shebang
Calico Leech: Octavinelle House Warden, a literal siren eel merman, tall af, handsome-yet-flirty-badboy-ish-aura-going-on, got deem TEEFS, wicked smart, wicked talented, stupid charming
Scene: Calico and Valis witty bantering their way through the school day in front of Disney God and everyone
EXPECTATION
Mob Students: *POV: both guys are surrounded by sparkling bubbles and can do no wrong* oh my gerd, they’re totally rivals! I don’t know who’s cooler!! Asdfghjkl (Insert that Regina George is legend scene from Mean Girls srsly either boy could punch a mob student in the face and they would be worshiped probably)
REALITY
Calico: *internal monologue* holy fuck he’s the most beautiful human I’ve ever seen-oh shit I think I’m Bi-well I kinda already knew that but now its real like REAL REAL-ohgodhe’slookingatmeAHHH “ha….lame cool guy comment on something goes here.”
Valis: “Yes quite.” *INTERNAL FULLY AWARE GAY PANIC*
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Scene: Back in the canon timeline, Riddle being annoyed as hell by Floyd finally graduating
Riddle: oh thank Seven it’s finally over…
:years later:
Valis: *shamelessly clinging to his tall ass eel boyfriend like a squirrel on a tree* Father, I love him
Riddle: GOD DAMNIT-
Or, in the original draft of the story where it was going to be Floyd’s son and Riddle’s daughter
Mina: *teary eyed, dramatically clinging to Calico in the same fashion* Daddy, I love him!!
Riddle: *somewhere between having an aneurism and Overblotting all over again* NOOOOOO
In both versions, Floyd is having an absolute ball lol
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Calico and Valis: *doing a shit job of hiding their relationship* ha ha yup we are just two House Warden bros. Bro-ing it up. Nothing else going on heeeeerrrreee….
Their dorm students:
Jet and Spinel:
#neoninky#twisted wonderland#ao3 writer#ao3 fanfic#twst oc x canon#2nd generation#tomfoolery and shenanigans#twst men and their tomfoolery#boy love#the prince and the siren#riddle is doing his best to not relapse#floyd was born chaotic and will die chaotic
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kicks my feet. g rose can we hear about the dnd ocs who are non canonically in love -kai
Okay so let me set the background
We have Copper (or as he refers to himself "The Great and Mighty Copper!!"): 4ft orange kobold (human years like 32). He's an ex assassin from the planet 3310 in the capital city. He retired from assassin work after an identity crisis and lived in a literal hole in the wall in the abandoned district. That is where he met Nephira, an unlikely acquaintance turned friend (Copper wouldn't admit that). Coppers personality is that of like cursing people out, being intimidating and grumpy, liking knives and other weapons. He's crochety earnest and quirky. When serious he's very dangerous (his assassin name was The Silent Sleeper). He currently lives in retirement and is a technology/hacking expert. Beneath the exterior he's a very sweet and caring guy but it takes forever to get there only Nephiras gotten really close.
So Nephira Quest! He is a tiefling (human years 35). On 3310 he was a well known fighter in the planetary competitions until he lost a major round with a large injury to his face which resulted in his agent dropping him. He turned to selling drugs (he calls the Good Stuff) and other things with the goal of becoming the centralized merchant in the black market sector. On the exterior his personality comes off very dramatic, eccentric, charming, and a little emotional and cowardly. Though he's very calculating and strong beneath that, always trying to gain power (for safety reasons) in being someone with the most knowledge (that he sells as a Fun Fact). Copper was his first merchant connection and they were acquainted before. Over time, Nephira really trusts him implicitly.
Both lore wise: they both escaped this planet together by hijacking a ship (+ with nephiras canon bf/situationship/ex/its complicated af) to go to a planet untouched by their corrupt government system where they lived out until my players current campaign screwed up that good deal. (That's not really relevant to this post).
In my mind thr romance: in my mind after Nephira and the third person I mentioned broke up on the new planet nephira and his ex (who at this time did canonical havr a very business only mutual pining regret toxic yaoi situation) started to spend more time with Copper and their teasing arguing bantering led Nephira to be like umm holy shit wait .....and Copper responded by being like ummm yeah im.happy alone lol die and explode !(but really he was scared of letting someone in). They then started hanging out more and Nephira took him out on a pseudo date where Copper spent a lot of it perched on his shoulders and he realized how ummm safe he felt and sooo they kindaaa yeahh dating begins ! And I imagine Coppers walls fall over time and he jokingly complains constantly how he's lost his edge and he's a sap and he can't be mean anymore and all he does is spend time being sweet to Nephira. Though Nephira does feel charmed when he's a total chaotic asshole to everyone else, usually Nephiras shoulders are used to perch so copper can better yell at people for being stupid and awful. And Nephira himself drops the charm and politeness to being real and down to earth. They are soo they are just sooo fuckingggg ahhhhhhhhhh
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Oh btw I’m doing artfight this year! FishyArtist over there! Got sorted onto Werewolf! Here’s a few oc refs since the sites a slog rn! Feel free to ask about any of em if ur interested :3
All refs drawn by me, all characters (w/ one noted exception) also designed by me!
(Following images are all roughly drawn ref sheets, character names+pronouns in alt text)
^all these guys are from a webcomic I’ve been tinkering w/ since I was 12 that I might even make some day! Basically an alternate world is leaking into an already strange “normal” world, and Clove+Madiline work together to try to figure out why while dealing w/ a whole bunch of ghouls and horrors and such.
Madiline’s emotional, brash, and stubborn. Happy to use her fists to get her way
Clove typically presents as reserved around most people, she’s quick-witted and good w/ remembering information. Has a bad habit of overworking herself when she has a goal in mind
Blossom’s a smart, calm, collected teenage girl w/ a wild streak. She’ll generally be more rational then clove or especially madiline, but she’s not one to shy away from sticking her nose where other people don’t want it
Crow’s the rational, responsible one of the group, often fretting anxiously about how (admittedly stupid) his friends antics are. His anxiety often manifests in being loud (sometimes manifesting in full+blown anger), often frustrated by his tone+word choices not really conveying exactly what he means
Opal’s loud+proud, a fun, dramatic theater kid to her core. she can shapeshift into an opalescent dragon (not designed) at will! She has some mobility+joint pain issues, so she’ll sometimes use a wheelchair (usually bad days, sometimes good days where she has a lot going on).
Madiline+clove are a couple and opal+blossom are together!
These two (Roxanna and Nash) are a duo in a short film I might get around to actually making one day!
Roxanna’s a broad-shouldered, cold, distant kind of woman. She scrapes by, but doesn’t really enjoy her life.
Nash is a teen menace, often fucking w/ whoever crosses it’s path.
The two of them find themselves meeting after a zombie apocalypse , and work together to survive.
Also here’s some furries also <3 (I have a more furries on my page but those were designed by other people an AF’s too slow to really track that info down)
It me 💥👆(technically hair’s inaccurate, it’s grown out so I sweep it back usually, feel free to draw it whatever style tho it hair :3)
There’s other ocs who I ADORE over there but I’m typing from mobile so I can’t add the refs rn.
#artfight#art fight#artfight 2023#team werewolf#team werewolves#Oc Art#my ocs#my art#tag edit: actually I removed the characters those tags applied to (zee and lysaa) so it’s fine now
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Do you think a lap dance is cheating?
How would your MC react if their LI got a lap dance or vice versa?
Hi, anon!
I feel like this is definitely a subjective question that depends entirely on the couple and their personalities. I don’t see it as cheating, per se, and I don’t see any of my OCs/MCs or LIs seeing it as cheating, but they wouldn’t necessarily approve of it either, depending on the situation.
I’m all for a jealousy trope (jealous Liam is 🥴) and I love adding those bits of jealousy into their relationships, but to clarify, I don’t see any of my characters being jealous out of mistrust or having insecurities in their relationships. They just don’t like the idea of someone else being all over the person they’re with.
This isn’t to say that any of my characters would actually get a lap dance, but for the sake of answering, lol, in an instance with something like a bachelor or bachelorette party:
Charlotte and Liam – Charlotte would go feral because that’s just who she is, lol. She’s dramatic and chaotic and would act as such. FD Liam would be mildly jealous, but he wouldn’t show it.
Reyna and Liam – Reyna might give Liam a little playful side-eye, but she knows he wouldn’t let it get out of hand. Liam would stew a little more about it, probably make a few bordering on playful jokes, lol, but he wouldn’t be angry.
Croía and Liam – I don’t think Croía would know what to think. I don’t see her as angry or jealous, just confused about what she should think and how she should feel, lol. Liam on the other hand … he is so protective over her because of what he knows about her, and I don’t see any instance where that would go over particularly well (@sincerelyella “no touchy” 😂). He wouldn’t be angry with her, though, just the idea of it.
Liam and Aria – Out by themselves without the other, absolutely not. They’re both territorial over the other and neither would approve. They wouldn’t be furious, but they’d be irritated af and they’d let the other know. If they were out together (like the joint bachelor/bachelorette party in TP), I think they’d be ok with it because they’re there, but they’d still be giving the side-eye, lol.
Now, in the case of any of the above characters just going out one night and getting some random lap dance and/or trying to hide the fact that it happened, none of them would approve or be ok with that. I feel like that takes it somewhere entirely different and would turn it into a completely different situation. They wouldn’t be jealous or angry, but they’d be genuinely hurt.
Do I see any of these characters actually getting a lap dance? No. I don’t see any of my MCs or OCs even enjoying the idea of it, and I don’t see Liam as that kind of guy, either.
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Whaaat? Someone who also likes BES and Fluffpillow's Ocs??? Dude, are you like, my sibling or something??
I saw your whole blog and I gotta say: you have a LOT of potential!! ;D
Keep doing your thing! (No pressure though!)
And hey... Could i present to you a really random ship? *Inhales deeply*:
Fowler and Dr. Phantasmo?
Hurray! Finally my hard work is paying off! :3
Yes that’s how random i can be: i can mix together two things that are basically impossible to happen in canon and, you know, just have some fun imagining how for example these characters would interact with each other, would they bond or hate each others guts? That’s the fun thing of imagination: when you don’t care about what others might think about your ideas, you leave room for cool endless possibilities! :)
Also: thank you very much for the kind words~♪ ;3
As for your request… that’s… genuinely a very, VERY interesting idea!
Let’s see what can i work with:
Dr. Phantasmo x Abijah Fowler headcanons:
If we ignore the ACTUAL dates where Telltown and BES takes place and pretend these two are in the same year (now which year would be up to you, dear readers), we can work better with these headcanons, alright? Good.
And now, without further ado: Fowler would have recognized Phantasmo (formerly known as Victor) thanks to T-oby (i’ll explain better on my mini series (or should i say one-shots?) of fanfics that i’ve promised of BESxTelltown) that he (AF) remembered when he was visiting a small town and saw him (T-oby) in the distance and decided to greet the robot. They have exchanged some small talk until Fowler brought up about Victor:
AF: where is that genius scientist who created you?
T-oby: o-oh… w-well… you see… my father isn’t the same anymore…
AF: Oh? May i see him then? I am curious to see what you mean by “isn’t the same anymore”! Has he finally saw how the world truly works? Perhaps it could be that?
T-oby: . . .I… i don’t think he’s going to remember you but… s-sure…
And so, they both went to see Phantasmo: T-oby was carrying a lot of plastic bags with things that his father asked him to bring and Abijah didn’t offer any help (because he be like that, an asshole)
When they finally got to the mansion where Phantasmo lives, Fowler couldn’t help but chuckle and comment about how worn out that mansion was, it was such a waste having a big house like that and not taking care of it
When they opened the door and went downstairs to Phantasmo’s lab, Fowler was surprised to see a ghost and not a man. He points to Phantasmo and asks T-oby if that was him: Victor.
T-oby: Yes… and n-no… it’s hard to explain… you know? A lot has… changed ever since you and that blue eyed samurai left…
Phantasmo was so busy that he didn’t hear the two talking or rather, he couldn’t care less about who his “son” brought to his home
Fowler laughed loudly and said that explained the reason why the mansion was in such a bad state. Phantasmo started to growl quietly and told his “son” to get rid of the “guest” because he (AF) was disturbing him (Phantasmo).
T-oby: m-maybe we should g-go… my dad hates being disturbed and-! H-hey…! What do you think you are doing??
Fowler ignored T-oby’s warnings and decided to sneak up on the scientist. But he quickly turned just in time before Fowler could give a big old pat in his back:
Phantasmo: are you deaf or something? Am i speaking in French? I said you must leave!
Fowler: Aye now, aye now! Why are you treating an old friend like that? You used to be a lot nicer, Vict-!
T-oby quickly ran into Fowler’s direction and placed his hands over his mouth. The robot quickly apologized to his father and tried to bring Fowler with him to another room of the mansion. But was stopped by his father, who told his “son” to take off his hands off the man’s mouth:
Phantasmo: an old “friend”… you say? Pardon you but WHO the fuck are you…? Also, how do you know my n- ahem, my OLD name?
AF: Wow! So you are saying you don’t remember me? You hurt me! *fakes dramatic pose and smirks* how could you forget me? I was that man who was accompanied by that blue eyed miss and-
Phantasmo: wait… can… can you repeat that again…?
AF: hey, don’t cut off me like that, it’s rude. But continuing: i am that man who was accompanied by that blue eyed-
Phantasmo: samurai… hmm… what was her name? What was her name… Mizu…? Yeah, yeah! Mizu!
AF: hey, i already told you to not interrupt me like that… and you remember her? And not… me? Oh, you have hurt me even more now! *fakes gasp and places one hand over chest*
Phantasmo: you know… i Think I’m… starting to remember you too~ yeah, weren’t you that man who wanted to buy T-oby~? *starts circling around the red hair man*
AF: so that’s ALL you remember ME for? Ohoho, you know how to “flatter” someone… specially an old friend!
Phantasmo bursts out laughing and compliments Fowler’s sarcasm… then, Phantasmo offered him to sit on a seat and the two started to keep in touch of what happened to both of them:
Phantasmo explained that his memory wasn’t always the best and because of that he doesn’t remember a lot of things after he died: he doesn’t know where is his wife (he presumes that she’s dead), he doesn’t remember his past life and etc…
Abijah explained to Phantasmo that the reason he was accompanied by Mizu was because he was one of the suspects of being her father and that she was holding him “hostage” until she found the other two men who probably brought her out to this world. Phantasmo laughed at him and told him he was being too weak of being held as a hostage by someone who he could easily overpower. Fowler just shrugged off and said that indeed he had the upper hand against Mizu but she quickly turned the table and was ready to kill him…
Phantasmo: T-oby! Bring some tea for this gentleman! NOW!
AF: is that offer still available? I really could pay good money for him!
Phantasmo: Hmmm… just… how much are we talking about~?
AF: 100,000,000 golden ryu~♪
T-oby “accidentally” dropped the hot tea tray on Fowler and looked at Phantasmo angrily until he cowered when his dad looked at him even more angrily…
Phantasmo: forgive my… “son”… he is sometimes a little clumsy but nothing like a good old spanking wouldn’t resolve this… are you still willing to buy him~?
AF: hmmm… he seems to love you a lot, but yes: i am still thinking of buying him~♪
T-oby: H-HOW ABOUT YOU MOVE IN TO OUR MANSION? AFTER ALL, YOU ARE STILL HIDING FROM MIZU, R-RIGHT?? HERE IS THE PERFECT PLACE TO-!
Phantasmo shouted at T-oby and told him to shut up. The poor robot went silent and basically that’s how Abijah moved in to Phantasmo’s mansion!
These two would be plotting many evil plans to take over the world (technically, Fowler already owned entire armies and had many costumers because of his trafficking and other illegal things he does. But the more the better)
Charlie would have a lot of difficulty to reach Phantasmo now thanks to Fowler (have you seen his aim?? He has scarily good aim… and also his size-). She would need to team up with Mizu to beat him and Phantasmo. And how would that happen if Mizu was probably at the other side of the world? Well… T-oby may or may not have secretly tried to sail (along with Charlie and Squirt) to find Mizu and tried to bring her to Fowler, so that way she could finally have her revenge and T-oby would be free from that man🤭
These two (Mizu and Charlie) would team up to take down Phantasmo and Fowler and Charlie made it very, VERY clear to Mizu that they wouldn’t be killing ANYONE. That they would sent both Phantasmo and Fowler to the prison: where they belong. Of course, Mizu is very against the idea and wants to kill Fowler. They have a little fight here and there but eventually Mizu agrees to just send Fowler to the prison.
These two (AF and Phantasmo) would pass off the “can’t stand this bitch for one minute🙄” to “me and bestieee🥰” kind of vibes, you know?
If they somehow had the idea of marrying each other, it would probably go down like this:
Phantasmo: Buhahahahaha! Give up now! We are going to take over the world you fools! And there’s nothing you and your blue eyed friend can do to stop us!!!
Fowler: hey, hey. Phantasmo.
Phantasmo: WHAT? Can’t you see i am in the middle of an evil speech?
Fowler: i was here thinking… we could be something more than… evil partners in crime you know?
Phantasmo: are you really suggesting what i think you’re suggesting right NOW?
Fowler: *bends in on knee* i know right now isn’t the best time but… would you marry me?
Charlie: . . .
Mizu: . . .
T-oby: . . . *screaming internally* “please say no, please say no, please say n-“
Phantasmo: . . . are you serious right now?
Fowler: *opens ring box, revealing a big diamond ring*
Phantasmo: *snatching the diamond ring as soon as he sees it and placing on his finger* Yeah, yeah sure whatever, we are married now and i’ll be the husband of this relationship, understood? Good.
Fowler: *chuckles and gets up to teasingly kiss Phantasmo on the cheek*
Charlie: oh God i think i’m gonna puke-
Mizu: simply d i s g u s t i n g.
T-oby: *faints*
Phantasmo: *blushing and shouting at Fowler* Abijah! Don’t kiss me in front of my arch nemesis!
Fowler: *laughs even more*
After they would get married, i imagine that they would constantly bicker a lot but would still “love” each other, lol
Phantasmo would sometimes try to kill Abijah to take possession of his fortune, lol (and Abijah couldn’t be bothered by it because Heiji shindo also tried to kill him when they were “business” partners. So he (AF) is used to it by now, lol)
Usually it’s Abijah who is the one who makes Phantasmo flustered, because he (Phantasmo) is easily flustered by any little thing that Fowler does: especially his public “affection”
And that’s it! If i have more ideas and headcanons for these two, i’ll probably Reblog and update! Bu-byeee~!
#dr. phantasmo#telltown#charlie#others ocs#abijah fowler#abijah blue eye samurai#bes mizu#mizu blue eye samurai#crackship#crossover ship#rarepair#writers#writers on tumblr#writing#writerscommunity#bes#blue eye samurai
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Vroom, I just discovered that oc-jun au has more content that that one post and
My crops are watered!! My skin is clear!!!
I will be celebrating this!!!!!!
yeah that's a fun story. idk if i'd ever do anything for it because oc-jun's nature would necessitate a lot of pidw world-building that i just don't have the spoons for.
it'd be like: oc jun transmigrates, stakes claim on the north by killing his uncle, dad dies and mbj is crowned. second act: lbh crashes into the north like a meteor, beats mbj, they get to know each other. midpoint: mbj gets his 'oh' moment. lbh marries is nth wife, gets sick, mbj helps lbh survive. second act pt 2, lbh pov edition: crossover with svsss, lbh (already struggling with complicated feelings for oc jun after being taken care of) gets his ass kicked "do I like men?????", realizing that he does like mbj oh no, flirts and gets flirted with by smooth af oc-jun, runs away!!! too much liking!!! feels too much!! lbh does something stupid and drives oc-jun away (possibly obsessing over sqq too much??? nearly ends up killing oc jun for telling him something lbh doesn't want to hear???)
then there's the dramatic reconciliation in the third act. lbh gets over himself and dismisses the harem. Stumbles through the least smooth confession of anyone ever, wins oc jun back through being a poor pathetic little meow meow points.
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watched 4x03-05.
"in the beginning" was cool other than the azazel kissing mary in samuel's body like um disgusting??? the back to the future references was funny. knew as soon as samuel saw the colt that azazel was possessing him :/ "stop it or we will" cas is letting dean have a chance at stopping sam's blood freak tendencies!!! he's not smiting first and asking questions later like ruby said angels did!!! because too much heart was always his problem...
"metamorphosis" was sad. parallels between sam and jack... sam so desperately wanting, needing jack to be redeemable so he could see himself as redeemable, too.... also "you ever been really hungry? i mean haven't eaten in days hungry?" and dean's instant "yeah" ;-; ruby 2.0 is hot...
"monster movie" was fucking hilarious. dean in the lederhosen. idk if it was more hot or funny. how about both. good on the shapeshifter for being dramatic af as he was dying, it was fucking hilarious. me seeing the jamie lady and doing a double take though gferjhjerks it's okay, my oc's name is spelled like "jaime" not "jamie" so i'm all good 👍👍
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Is there any fandom you regret exploring?
Have you ever developed an OC for a certain fandom?
What are you looking for in a ship?
Do you tend to focus on shipping or do you not care at all?
Questions for the Mun // @hxdrostorm // Accepting!
Is there any fandom you regret exploring?
I want to say no, because of the connections I made with some people, over the years, and the chance to develop characters that honestly are like a part of me now.
Glee was honestly insanely toxic, but I have a close friend for 10+ years, and despite the fact that the actor is problematic, the character isn’t and I wrote Noah Puckerman for a very long time, and I will always have a little bit of him, in me.
Harry Potter, I have friends that I will love forever and I will love James Potter and Harry Potter and despise Severus Snape for all eternity. So much of me as a writer comes from writing James, for as long as I did. He doesn’t come to me as easily as he once did, but James/Lily are my OTP of all OTP’s, and I would never have met @possiblypadme, who I could not imagine not knowing.
Sons of Anarchy could be a mess, but Jax Teller is my favorite fictional character of all time, and Sons of Anarchy is my favorite show. It was something that got me through a horrible time, so I can’t watch it easily anymore, but I love everything about Jax and met some wonderful people, again. I could not have developed Jax without having the Wendy and Tara that I did for so long, and am endlessly grateful to people like Vesta and Lisa, who I know how to find on Discord but not on Tumblr now lol.
Vikings could be a mess, but I played Ragnar, Bjorn, King Ecbert, Alfred, Hvitsert, Father Cuthbert, Judith, Aethelred, I’m missing some I’m sure and I met some of the best people, and am actually really close friends with someone who was on Vikings. But, I would never take back by time in that fandom and I still do write Ragnar, Alfred, and Bjorn. It gave me so so many people but so much development with @findablog and @contrecoeurs especially, along with a few others.
Star Wars, I am happy here, so I can’t say I have regrets. I’ve gone a little sour because of a few things, in the last couple weeks. Being gaslit and having people randomly soft block or block you out of nowhere is a weird feeling? Sometimes, I feel like I want an exit interview but the unknown is better and there’s a situation that I’m just done crying over.
Baseball, which for me is the Cubs and the Yankees. I was born a Cubs fan. My mom has been watching them since the 60′s. We broke a 108 year drought in 2016, and when they weren’t producing, the fucking piece of shit, moronic asseating upper management traded the core of the team, which also included the face of the franchise, the love of my life Anthony Rizzo. I’ll always love the Cubs fanbase but I’ll admit that they became a bunch of entitled assholes after we won the championship. We went from lovable losers to jerks. But, I had to follow Rizzo to the Yankees, aka the Evil Empire. So look, the Yankees fandom is toxic af, they threaten their players family and don’t know how to be loyal but my fave is happy there, so I have to support him. So, I can’t regret it.
Have you ever developed an OC for a certain fandom?
Yes. I developed Marlene McKinnon’s older brother Marcus in the Harry Potter Marauders Era. He’s basically the only one. Many people can make fabulous OC’s. I’m not one of them.
What are you looking for in a ship?
CHEMISTRY. I don’t like it without chemistry. I am well aware that Anakin has a canon ship, that he’s obsessed with, but if there’s no chemistry, I can’t and won’t write it. It’s got to have that chemistry and dramatic pull. I’m open to pretty much anything ship wise, but I have to have that chemistry. He is 99% heterosexual so I do stick only to that, and Rex. But, that comes to chemistry too.
Do you tend to focus on shipping or do you not care at all?
I’m somewhere down the middle. Anakin is the King of Attachment. I can’t have him not get attachment to people, because it is who he is. His emotions consume him. But, unless there is a significant amount of chemistry (like with Anakin & Sabe), it’s hard for him to fall in love with not Padme.
Also, I know everyone likes to think Vader has no emotions, but he’s capable of attachment too.
But, I’m not here to write ships. Anakin is just a horny mess, and things happen???? But, his development and complexity is my first goal.
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happy thursday!
Okay, I didn’t do last week cause I literally slept through mothership, half watched TO and was just too tired to do a “live” post so here’s what I remember/my thoughts.
-having amanda back was awesome and it was really nice to see her in the field again, but like NONE of that should have been allowed (with the exception of when liv said something about “find her paperwork, maybe it didn’t get filed and she’s still a cop after all” which is just LAZY writing’s way of getting around it). Amanda consulting on a case or helping in the squad room? Sure. But not out in the field taking charge, at crime scenes/etc any half competent defence attorney would have that all thrown out entirely.
-absolutely HATED how at the beginning of the ep carisi was all “I can get you a job as an investigator at the da’s office” like… amanda was a detective for over 10 years, she’s got a degree in forensic science, she does NOT need her husband to get her ANOTHER job, she can do that shit herself. I dunno why it irked me so much, but since leaving the show she’s just simplified into “carisi’s wife”/a mom, like, she’s been a mom for years already and was a perfectly competent cop.
-amanda being bored as a professor? Totally fine. Her wanting to go back to being a cop? Completely unbelievable. She LEFT the nypd after being shot because all she could think of was leaving her girls/carisi alone. So you really think she would come back now that she has ANOTHER kid, who is still a baby?? make it make sense. (yes, I would love to have amanda back in some capacity, she needs liv, liv needs her. even if she could just pop up once a month that’d be great) (and yes we need more female characters who are likeable and actually in every episode).
The domestic rollisi scenes were cute AF and I’m so glad to see them. I hope we get more of them. Also it didn’t even cross my mind so I know it wouldn’t have crossed the writers minds, but did we REALLY have to name the baby dominck jr jr and then call him *Nicky* when amanda had a very dramatic situationship with someone named NICK while her now husband was pining over her waiting in the wings?(again, I didn’t even notice this til I saw people complaining on twitter and now it just gives me a it of the ick lol)
Amanda also pushed it WAY too hard when she was UC, again, any attorney could have had that thrown out, ESP with any recordings prosecution would have to hand over. She wasn’t just letting him do what he wanted, she was practically seducing him. Bam. Case thrown out. Like yeah she obvi misses doing that kinda stuff but still… I DO love me some UC amanda, but there were some issues.
Okay I can’t remember what else really happened, so those are my thoughts on last week.
OC was okay.
Well that’s fucking creepy…
Yeah bro… delivery man or not I’m not letting someone use my phone, worst that can happen? Murder. Less worse? He steals my phone. Both are non ideal.
Okay I had to run upstairs and missed the entire second block of the ep minus Nolan saying something about an old case so im v confused now.
Shaw really didn’t need to parkour over that mattress like that… if it was meant to look cool… it did not work, it looked lame.
The physical reaction I had to shaw throwing a chair should not be the immediate reaction a person has… but here we are…
Okay that ep was pretty good
Not watching Toronto. Well…the plan was to not watch it and now it’s kinda on in the background but im not really paying attention.
Okay, here we go svu. Fingers crossed for a good episode (tbh my hopes are not high lol)
I like the actress playing Sykes like she was incredible in the other ep she was in where she played a victim, but this role/characterization is not it. She’s too dry, she’s boring and I do not like her character at all.
Ugh, and of course we’ve got liv pushing this. Like… I *get* it to a point, she wants to watch out for the people around her who may be/are struggling, but like… y’all aren’t friends, and I’m pretty sure liv even said “I’m not really your boss” or something along those lines, and sykes said something about being put on a case (BECAUSE SHE IS A FUCKING FED NOT AN NYPD SVU DETECTIVE) so just fucking let her go. liv needs to deal with her own shit, maybe have another lunch with amanda and help her figure her shit out.
Fin speaking the fucking truth as per usual. Trying to tell liv she’s out of her lane and doing something she shouldn’t be doing.
This entire season has been focused on Liv hyper focusing and getting major obsessive over cases and fucking completely spiraling and looking like she’s insane and I honestly fucking hate that.
AND NOW SHE’S STRAIGHT UP LYING TO HER SQUAD?! BABYGIRL WHAT THE FUCK?
Velasco in purple, hellllooo.
I dunno if im gonna be able to handle Bruno and Velasco continually being partnered up. Imma have to write a threesome fic pretty soon… (wait.. I can do that for bingo!) (that being said, can these boys go back to wearing their badges on their belts, cause there’s something undeniably sexy about the way they have to flash them)
Okay hearing my last name on this show out of liv’s mouth felt REAL fucking weird. I don’t like it.
“not without a oujia board” LOL. Thanks Bruno
Oh good fucking god. Now Velasco and Bruno are teaming up on a perp… pls sirs. Yell at me. JFC. “open up.. say ah…” yeah.. im writing a fucking fic after this…
I understand they’re trying to solve a case/help but like, why can’t they just let these grieving families put the past behind them?? Like you’re dragging up trauma from 10 plus years ago..
Liv just answered the phone “Ed?” and I JOLTED cause my brain went “TUCKER?!!?” and then I remembered he dead.
Velasco is finally at the stage where he’s been around liv long enough that he can start to call her out, he’s witnessed the darker side of her a few weeks ago, he’s someone who normally sits quiet and observes and he can tell she’s fucking losing it. (like, not really, but also she lowkey is and needs to chill and go home and hangout with her son).
“good luck with your open cases. I hope they distract you from your own endless amounts of baggage”
WOW tonight really is all about calling out Liv and I am HERE for it.
Also please for the love of god can we stop name dropping William lewis. We lived through those eps, we don’t need it anymore unless liv is actually going to fully get closure (and PLEASE no visual flashbacks anymore…)
Sonny being in liv’s phone as “ADA Carisi” is wild.
Every single time they bring up genealogy tests on these shows it reminds me yet another reason to never do one lol.
Drink every time a family member/bestie is all “omg he would never, he’s a good man, he even goes to church!” meanwhile they’re guilty af
Oop. And he runnin.
It’d be real nice if we could go to court in an episode sometime soon… like…give carisi something to do that’s his *actual* job. In the old seasons ada’s got SUED for galivanting around the city with the cops meanwhile carisi just gets to go UC and do whatever he wants whenever he wants cause the writers/show runners don’t wanna do court scenes anymore??
You really think an episode centered around the case involving skykes missing sister would have actually been more centered AROUND sykes?? Like, I get that she was all “leave it alone” but it would’ve been a much better episode if they were working a current case/different svu case/cold case/WHATEVER and THEN found a dna link/connection and sykes could’ve been all “wait.. I know this pattern/souvenir/whatever” and slowly put it together that it could be the same person….
Meh episode.
Okay, onto OC, let’s see how this goes.
Ok, I know this is likely going to be important to the plot or whatever but I couldn’t care less about this fucking flash back lol.
Thank god ayanna’s back.
LOOOOLLLL not a single soul believed jet & bobby. That was perfect.
Okay, elliots back, so whenre we gonna find out what’s going on with eli??
How did I know that the people chasing joey were just gonna be Elliott and someone?
Ok, OC has lost me. Im not longer invested or even caring about this storyline lol
See y’all next week! (maybe?)
#law and order svu#svu#law and order#law and order special victims unit#spoilers#law and order spoilers
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Its 4am and I'm exploring my gender under the cut. I'm conflicted again <3 if any transmascs feel like reading I'd love to hear if you felt similar feelings before realizing you were trans or if I'm reading too much into it lol.
Just autism things
So I don't really have feelings one way or another about my gender normally. I did have a significant breast reduction and would have had them removed if I didn't think it would make wearing clothes a challenge. I have a pretty dramatic waist to hip ratio and don't mind being perceived as feminine.
But. BUT. When I put on that fuckin strap. Ooooooohhhhhhhh that is simply not fair. Im addicted to the insane euphoric head rush I get when I see myself wearing that ridiculous contraption. The POWER. You feel like a ManTM. Every time I fuck a woman the ManTM feeling flows through me with a power I've never felt about being female.
It feels like this:
Having tiddies: eh. Sucks. Uncomfortable. Painful. But they are soooososososo squishy and make me feel sexy and good.
Having a vagina and all the related plumbing: neutral. I think having a dick would be easier for a lot of practical reasons but for sex purposes I have no strong opinions about genitals.
Having a traditionally "feminine" body and being perceived as female, having people who are attracted to women be attracted to me: love it. Desire me @ all lesbians. Men can look too I guess. Only downside is the horrors.
Presenting in a feminine way: neutral. I am really into fashion and makeup and hair, and if I had a different more masculine body I would just wear whatever styles and cuts looked best. I don't actively try to perform femaleness, I think it just happens. I don't have any real connection to feminine clothes or femininity in general and it doesn't make me feel good or bad about my gender. Wearing clothes that fit my body nicely feels amazing but not in a gendery way.
Wearing the strap: I AM A MAN. He him baby. Call me daddy. Grr. I feel the nonexistent testosterone coursing through me. Every time I fuck a woman I come even though it's not even touching my clit or anything. This is by far the strongest and possibly the only sensation or emotion of "gender" I have ever had. It's so overpowering that if I close my eyes I can imagine looking down myself at a male body and loving it. The second I take it off this feeling disappears completely and the whole time I'm never feeling uncomfy about my boobs or anything. Like I imagine having a flat chest and straight torso and it's awesome af but it doesn't make me feel icky about my actual body.
But GOD!!! The sensation of MASCULINITY that completely envelops me. Whew. It's so powerful. Let me ENTER you babe. Even imagining it is crazy. Quite possibly I'm just very attracted to women and also slightly a top. Where is the line between being a lesbian, wearing a penis, and being a man having one? Maybe my imagination is just too active.
Another facet of it: I write so much gay fanfic. I've been writing it since I was too young to be writing smut. Over the years I've built a little gay man in my head. He's so so sosososoo attracted to men. He's masculine and hairy and he helps me capture the feelings for my fics. (To be clear, this isn't a hallucination or anything. It's more like a really well fleshed out OC. I just visualize him when I need to write from the perspective of a man attracted to men.)
But then sometimes I'll be doing something and get a little wave of attraction to a man in a very distinct mlm fashion. There's a powerful sensation of not being a woman attracted to a man in a straight way, but of a man being attracted to a man in a gay way. To me, it's always seemed to come from this character I created, like my fanfic character was popping in to point out some guy's abs or ass. I don't have any idea how to tell if that's MY attraction and gender or if I'm just habitually in writing mode. Was that a bit of dialog I just came up with or my own thought? It's hard to tell.
Anyway, when I write I sort of become that detailed character I made. When I'm deep in writing a fic, in my mind, I'm 6' tall, hairy, a little chubby, and could probably lift and throw my real body across the room. I get the ManTM feeling and again it's an abnormally strong gender feeling for me. Again it stops without causing dysphoria as soon as my attention is broken, but I will say it's quite the whiplash to switch in your minds eye like that.
I don't think I'm capable of gender dysphoria. The strongest gender sensation I feel regularly is highly masculine, but I don't have any particular objections to being perceived as a woman. But I have never, ever felt WomanTM in the same way. Why do I connect so strongly to masculinity in specific circumstances? It's not all the time which is why I get confused. Atm I don't feel like a man or a woman.
Also I'm not hip so idk if you're supposed to say you're non-binary when someone asks "are you a man or woman" and you go uhhh,,, neither? Both? But they them feels exactly like she her and he him. They all feel equally neutral. The neos too. I imagine people talking about me on a stage every time I see a new pronoun set and none of them illicit a response.
Except of course when I'm wearing the strap. Infernal contraption. Stop making me confused.
Actually I'm being a little dramatic about the conflict. I'm not sitting here being upset that I have no relationship with my gender. I'm simply autistic and study myself like a lab specimen 24/7 and people always think my observations are complaints. I'm not complaining; in fact, this is great fun to me! That ManTM feeling is so powerful and so intensely pleasant and I enjoy it when it happens.
Anyway it's. 5am now. I barely proofread this let's hope it's coherent <3 goodnight
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More Saga Academy characters
———Spring group———
Amelie Sugar- She’s me and y’all should know her. She’s expressive and cheerful, also dramatic. Clumsy and idealistic. Magical girl protagonist. She sees the magic in the mundane and humor in every situation, and is often perceived as annoying. She does get discouraged at times, and it hits hard when she does. Unexpectedly kind of normal compared to the others. She has puffy pink hair. Her eyes are black but turn pink when she gets intense.
Sumi Shizumi- Based on Haku Yowane, specifically Clarith in Daughter of White. Is albino with white hair. Depressed and gloomy, but sweet. Is an outcast because she was born albino in her small village, which was looked down on.
Sada Oyamada- Based on Neru Akita. She goes by Oya so her ship name with Sumi can be Oyasumi which means good night. Has yellow hair.
Joy Smiley- OC-turned-UTAU. Has chestnut red hair. Clumsy and ditsy and messy but with a big heart.
Soyi- Based on Utane Uta, but as an only child. A catgirl with black hair and dark gray cat ears and tail. Deadpan snarker emo glitchcore girl. She identifies as a glitch (and a gamer’s worst nightmare) and is metal and hardcore af despite being 4’9” and skinny.
Kiri Takamori- Based on Hatsune Miku, more specifically Michaela in Daughter of white. Has clover-green hair. Cheerful and sweet, but has an over-reactive and depressive side. Her emotions are colorful.
Kasumi Takamori- Kiri’s little sister based on Chibi Miku-san. Has darker clover-green hair. Mischevious and curious little kid who gets into antics and cuteness, and often trouble.
Satsuki Adachi- Sada’s younger half sibling. He has yellow-orange hair. A dogboy who loves life. Non-binary they/them he/him
Shimo- Sumi’s half brother. He is also albino. Sumi doesn’t know of his existence until later in life.
Haru Asaga- Old OC from 2012. One of my first. Originally from my first series Nichijou no Niji. Has rose red hair
Rosa- Sumi and Amelie’s daughter from the future. Don’t tell anyone. Has pale pink hair. She’s a catgirl.
Reina- Has a crush on Sumi. A tsundere who wishes she could come out of her shell. Has dark skin, wavy black hair and silver eyes.
Rosemary Tangent- Stan’s wife. Sweet and doting to Stan. Hyperactive Math teacher who goes off on tangents. She’s a bunnygirl.
Stan- Rosemary’s husband. Dorky math teacher. Based off Michio. He has bunny ears and is chubby. A bunnyguy I guess.
Rolando- Based off Jiro. Except he’s a Spanish teacher. An easygoing catboy. He has medium-dark skin, wavy dark brown hair, and a bit of facial hair.
Yejun- Based off Rui. Except he’s a chemistry teacher. He’s a hyperactive catboy!
Mister E- The mysterious literature teacher.
Miss Tick- A mysterious witch who teaches magic
Miss Take- Another misterious witch who teaches magic… badly
March- A personification/gijinka of the month of March. He’s a fairy.
April- A personification/gijinka of the month of April. She’s a fairy.
May- A personification/gijinka of the month of May. She’s a fairy.
Duchess of Spring- She’s really hyperactive and it’s unnerving.
———Summer group———
Rhona Hydra- Formerly Rhona Aequor, I changed her last name. OC who is also an UTAU with my voice edited. Has blue hair. She’s the student council president of the summer group.
Nagisa Onda- Rhona’s gf, also UTAU with my voice edited. Has dark magenta hair
Luana Kai- Chaotic pirate girl OC. Also an UTAU. Has dark teal hair
Rie Hibine- From 2012’s Nichijou no Niji. May or may not also be an UTAU. Has spring green hair
Nina Rivera- Side character from Nichijou no Niji who got her spotlight in a story about a cruise I wrote in 2013
Natasha Evans III- One of Nina’s friends from her cruise, from the 2013 story. Likes to be called Kitty.
Sasha Oddison- One of Nina’s friends from her cruise, from the 2013 story
Mora Oddison- Sasha’s little sister.
Vivian Star- Originally a teammate of Joy Smiley’s in a story called Whimsy Quartet. Has yellow hair
Reisei Kiyone- That poet guy I created in 2015. He has a chronic illness and is disabled, facing challenges. He still keeps his hope up by finding beauty in the world and with his poetry. He is quiet and passionate. He was inspired by a dream I had when I fell asleep to Seiko-P (Vocaloid producer) music
Tamika Towa- Reisei’s sweet best friend. Created in 2015. She and Reisei have become adults in my writing.
Sowon Moon- Reisei’s gentle yet energetic boyfriend… he is also kind of my masculine alter-ego. I kinda ship him with a lot of OCs too. I created him recently. Non binary they/them he/him
Umiko- The summer group’s student council vice president. She and Rhona have a fanbase of shippers.
Azuki- A hyperactive little 6-year-old who gets into trouble.
Mizuki- Azuki’s 10 year old older sister who is embarrassed of Azuki and thinks she’s more mature than she is. Mizuki is only 10 after all.
Airy- Azuki’s friend who has lots of swirly hair. Azuki thought her name was Hairy at first, because of this.
Crispin- Azuki and Airy’s friend. His name is Crispy, according to them.
Captain Obvious- A really weird teacher
Captain Oblivious- Another really weird teacher
June- A personification/gijinka of the month of June. She’s a fairy.
July- A personification/gijinka of the month of July. They’re a fairy.
August- A personification/gijinka of the month of August. He’s a fairy.
Baroness of Summer- An adventurous monarch who loves to swim and sail
———Autumn group———
Lanyue Fei- Based on Taya Soune. Has dark blue hair. His first name means blue moon in Chinese. Non-binary he/him they/them.
Jihong Cha- Based on Ritsu Namine. Has scarlet hair. His first name means scarlet in Korean. Femme-presenting non-binary he/him
Kanade Yozora- Based on Defota. Oldest sibling in Yozora family. Has cool lavender hair.
Shigure Yozora- Based on Defosuke. Second oldest Yozora sibling. Has indigo hair
Arata Yozora- Based on Utane Uta/Defoko. Second-youngest Yozora sibling. Has dark purple hair
Kiwa- Based on Koe Utane. Youngest Yozora sibling. Has warm lilac hair
Emiri- Based on Momo Momone with a side of Yui from K-on. Has red hair.
Aimi- Emiri’s sister. Kinda based on Ui from K-on. Has magenta hair.
Yuiru- Based on Teto. Has pink hair. Non-binary they/them she/her
Seiya- Based on Ted with a bit of Momoraro vibe. Has pale pink hair.
Leimi- Based on Ruko. Kaoru’s outgoing younger sister. Has wild black hair with red and blue streaks. Loves mecha and those transparent sparkly machine and robot aeshetics. Loves Coke more than Pepsi. Kinda goth, kinda scene. Neon and rave aesthetic. Nightcore. Age 22.
Kaoru- Based on Rook. Leimi’s edgy older brother. Has wild black hair with green and purple streaks. Is a furry and likes sparkledogs. Loves Pepsi more than Coke. Kinda emo, kinda scene. Neon and rave aesthetic. Nightcore. Age 26. Non-binary he/him they/them
Celia- A random character from a random Rainbow Week story who got promoted to a major character. A spooky banshee woman. Has periwinkle hair.
Aristo Kratt- A pretentious and snobby vain guy who thinks he is the ultimate debonair dandy. Wants to upstage Lanyue. Does not like Juhong. Uses a cane to walk. Based on Dandy 704.
Anya- A girl who is lonely but finds a group of friends. Uses a cane.
Hoshi- A mysterious alien girl who is outcasted and misunderstood.
Beni- A boy who befriends Hoshi and reaches out to her. They have a fun adventure. His name means vermilion in Japanese 紅
Josie- A lonely girl who loves hamsters.
Imani- Josie’s friend who is cheerful and wants to be a vet
Bibi- A clown girl who says a lot of crazy stuff
Rondo- The Yozora siblings’ adoptive father
Lilith- An edgy brooding young girl who loves in a haunted mansion
Edith- Lilith’s older sister who is charismatic
Mortimer- Mathilde’s wolfman husband. Spooky science teacher
Mathilde- Mortimer’s vampire wife. Spooky dance teacher.
Noemi Kise- From Nichijou no Niji back in 2012
Maia Mei- another Whimsy Quartet girl created along with Joy
Nikamowin Takwakin- Celestine’s good friend. Originally named Alvarina, I decided to give her a name to reflect her Native Canadian roots. She was originally going to marry Celestine into royalty, but I realized it has racial connotations for a Native woman to marry into (white) royalty so she’s just going to be a friend to Celestine and possibly on the student council.
Adagio- She’s part flamingo! A partly-flightless harpy who is a dance teacher.
September- A personification/gijinka of the month of September. They’re a fairy.
October- A personification/gijinka of the month of October. He’s a fairy.
November- A personification/gijinka of the month of November. She’s a fairy.
Empress of Autumn- A shy scholar who loves literature and harbors tons of knowledge. Is dabbling in painting
———Winter group———
Margot Nocturne- The dramatic disaster monocle lady. Non-binary she/her they/them
Octavia Forte- Another dramatic monocle lady, but they’re genderfluid and not as much of a disaster. Part-time teacher.
Aria Dolce- Octavia’s wife who is also dramatic. What’s with winter group and these people. Part-time teacher.
Sonata Coda- She wears a monocle but she’s just grumpy.
Setsuna Usui- The dramatic angsty girl from Nichijou no Niji. Had a ship subtext with Rie
Bonnie Lace- Dramatic and theatrical member of Whimsy Quartet. I guess winter is the dramatic season
Souko Okuda- From Whimsy Quartet. A timid genius
Momoka Misaki- Souko’s best friend who is gyaru (Japanese fashion subculture) and is cheerful and sweet
Bianca Luna- Main character from Whimsica Saga. That title makes me nostalgic. Did you know Whimsica saga was originally a Vocaloid fanfic and that Bianca replaced Yowane Haku?
Camille Rainer- From Whimsica Saga. Replaced Neru Akita
Candy Corn- From Whimsica Saga. Replaced Kaito
Pepper Corn- From Whimsica Saga. Replaced Akaito. Non-binary he/him she/her
Pop Corn- From Whimsica Saga. An extra sibling
Ruby- From Whimsica Saga. Replaced the role of Yukari Yuzuki
Kuma- From Whimsica Saga. Relaced Len Kagamine
Kuri- From Whimsica Saga. Replaced Rin Kagamine
Puma- From Whimsica Saga. Kuma’s older brother
Emi- From Whimsica Saga. An idol.
Nova- From Whimsica Saga. A novelist.
Jay- From Whimsica Saga. An inventor. Non-binary. He/him she/her
Tama- A non-binary clown who loves cheese and corny dad-jokes. They/them it/its
Noboru Oguchi- Cindy’s husband. Boring math teacher. His last name 大口 means “big mouth (of a river)” and many students draw him with a big gaping rambling mouth.
Cindy Oguchi- Noboru’s wife. Crazy history teacher. Based off Ms. Frizzle but hyperactive and irresponsible. Her last name 大口 means “big mouth” and many students draw her with a big gaping blabbering mouth.
Ryan Oguchi- Noboru and Cindy’s son. A student. He truly has a “big mouth” like his last name. Non-binary he/him they/them
Parabola- A math queen of mathematics and such.
Sir Cumference- A math teacher who bakes pi pie with a circumference of 3.14159 inches.
December- A personification/gijinka of the month of December. She’s a fairy.
January- A personification/gijinka of the month of January. He’s a fairy.
February- A personification/gijinka of the month of Febuary. They’re a fairy.
Countess of Winter- She’s as dramatic as her name makes her seem. She fences, and dresses dapper, and sings opera
———Royal group———
Queen Rainbow- The eccentric colorful Queen of the acedemy
Stelle Shimmer- One of the princesses. The youngest. She’s an obnoxious and tomboyish little kid, the kind who goes to the swamp to befriend slimy creatures
Lunette Shimmer- One of the princesses. Second-eldest. She’s goth. She insists on not a phase.
Celestine Shimmer- One of the princesses. The eldest. The most regal-like, but she’s an airhead at times and wants to be normal.
Simone- One of the Royal idol trio
Jasmine- One of the Royal idol trio
Jolene- One of the Royal idol trio
Serena- Became royalty due to being Celestine’s girlfriend. A ventriloquist
Tally- Serena’s royal hand puppet. I mean she is literally a puppet.
Harmony- Queen Rainbow is engaged to her
Queen Vortex- A previous, stricter Queen of the Academy.
Queen Prism- A previous Queen of Saga Academy. She wasn’t as strict as Vortex, however she didn’t have much power to change the oppressive rules she put into place.
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