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MY FIRST AND LAST
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MY FIRST AND LAST
책에 적힌 글자들이 현실이 돼
가슴이 곧 터져 버릴 것 같아 [ 0:39 — 0:46 ]
Let me talk about love [ 1:14 ]
Yeah I’m talking to you [ 1:16 ]
알딸딸한 게 뭔지 난 아직 모르지만
너에게 취한 것 같아 [ 1:50 — 1:56 ]
(HAECHAN/MISUN] 넌 나의 나의 마지막 [ 3:04 — 3:05 ]
(HAECHAN/MISUN] 넌 나의 나의 마지막 [ 3:14 — 3:15 ]
DUNK SHOT
덩크슛 한 번 할 수 있다면
내 평생 단 한 번만이라도 [ 0:59 — 1:07 ]
덩크슛 한 번 할 수 있다면
내 평생 단 한 번만이라도
얼마나 짜릿한 [ 2:07 — 2:18 ]
It’s a dunk shot [ 2:42 ]
덩크슛 한 번 할 수 있다면
내 평생 단 한 번만이라도
얼마나 짜릿한 그 기분을 느낄까 [ 2:59 — 3:18 ]
LOOKBOOK
PHOTOCARD
Misun
thank you for the support. I appreciate all of you.
HIGHLIGHTS
oh GOD
this was the WORST era for rory
actually second worst right after we go up but we'll get into that later
she absolutely hated it for one reason:
jaemin wasn't there
she was absolutely heartbroken when they told the group he had to go on hiatus for his herniated disc
they obviously didnt show it on camera but her and jaemin were very close
he would always cheer her up
she was just not feeling this era
she talked probably even less than chewing gum
at least in chewing gum, jaemin would encourage her to speak up
the other members tried too, but it was always him who made her feel best
she’d catch herself playing with the boys and being happy and then she remembers and gets sad
she feels bad that shes enjoying herself when jaemin cant be there
she’s down for most of this era :( jaemin had to end up talking to her to reassure her (and himself) that he would come back and they’d be eight again
okay anyways .. besides the hurt and empty feeling she felt all this time
she grew an inch so she was happy abt that
her hair was still dirty blonde, not much change but she had forehead bangs this time
umm 2 fansites opened up for her this era! 'B' and 'SUGAR CREAM' !!
once again, red velvet and nct dream's promotions clashed again!!
when rookie won, joy gave a huge kiss on rory's cheeks and rory blushing was all over twitter
once again the fucking SKIRTS
this was especially bad because they had to get on the floor multiple times during the choreo
thank god for her safety shorts
actually most of the time though, luckily, she was in the back of the choreo
even though she was literally .. one of the main dancers but anyway still grateful since she mostly wore skirts during this era
also she probably had the most almost wardrobe accidents this era
so many times there was a lot of wind and her skirt would almost blow up but either she'd notice or the other members would and would quickly cover her
that happens almost every era though but like it was bad because all they wore were their fucking uniforms to perform mfal
for ppl who wanted to put her in the back to make her one of the guys and not stand out,, u werent helping with making her wear a skirt
or yknow. the only girl in a group full of boys
okay right
so she still got major hate this era. it didn’t help that her character on the mfal mv was clingy
nothing new with that
intl fans and korean fans alike were angry at the fact that she had to wear a skirt while being on the floor
but sm never changed the choreo so :/
(dw it gets better now she never wears skirts or dresses whenever they have to get on the floor for choreos)
in chewing gum era, she stuck the most to mark and jaemin
however this time, she was closest to mark and jisung
one fav moment from this era is when misun said she thought renjun's snaggletooth was cute and for him to never get it fixed to which he promptly began blushing
yeah she lowkey got cocky after that LMAO
oh during the mv
at the start she was walking with jeno and when he turned to look at the teacher, she was still talking and when she noticed he wasnt paying attention she hit him in the arm
the whole mv is just her being annoyed by the boys not paying attention to her and focusing on the teacher more
during her part w/ mark she follows and tugs on mark's arm for his attention but he doesnt give it to her
when they run for the teacher's mug and almost drop it, she's the one who quickly grabs it from smashing on the floor
the camera pans to her with a disgusted look on her face
either from how the boys were acting or the fact that the teacher left her lipstick mark on it
oh during the car thing .. she's literally just shaking her head in disappointment but helps them anyway
when they get outside and she sees the boys' disappointment to the teacher having a child and husband .. she's literally just sitting there laughing
.. until she sees the husband's face and is in awe
and then the boys make fun of her
and the end
actually her character in the mfal mv makes knetz think she’s even more of a brat and in love with the boys bc of how annoyed she acts
which sucks and she emphasizes in lives that it was just a character
for dunk shot she's pretty much neutral on this song
but she does like that she got to wear either jeans or shorts for performing it :D
when renjun throws the ball and like then haechan is supposed to catch it,,
misun is in the middle and jumps to hit the ball to haechan
her fits for dunk shot, similar to the boys she’s wearing jerseys/sport shirts with actual shorts underneath 😭 sometimes they’d be long jerseys and cover her shorts but she was always wearing shorts
sporty misun >>
#⁽ ⠀ ҉ ⠀ ⁾ ⠀ ⠀ misun ⠀ / ⠀ * ⠀ discography.#fictional idol community#nct dream 8th member#ficnetfairy#idol oc#nct 27th member#nct female addition#nct female member#nct female unit#nct imagines#fictional idol oc#nct oc#nct reactions#kpop female oc#kpop female member#kpop idol oc#fake kpop idol#kpop female idol oc#nct female oc#fake kpop oc#kpop oc#fake idol oc#nct 27th addition#fictional idol addition#nct addition#nct added member#bts 8th member#bts addition#bts female member#kpop imagines
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20 Questions for Writers
thank you so much to @wispstalk and @dirty-bosmer for tagging me!! <3
gonna tag @mareenavee @changelingsandothernonsense @thequeenofthewinter @skyrim-forever @trickstarbrave @oblivions-dawn @orfeoarte @gilgamish @totally-not-deacon @archangelsunited !! no pressure as always, and if i havent tagged you and you wanna do this, go ahead and say that i did, i'm tagging you in my mind <33
answering under the read more!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
five atm! but i'm planning on splitting my one-shot-as-chapters fic into individual fics. i think i'll have around 11, then, if i don't take out some.
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
99,173
3. What fandoms do you write for?
TES and CoD Zombies! though i don't write a lot for CoD Zombies, just when i get in a certain mood for it here and there. old special interest wont grant me a moments peace lmao
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
i only have five uploaded, but i'll put them here!
1. An Inner Sanctity - 41
2. If By Sun and Moon I Swore - 38
3. Cycle of the Serpent - 23
4. The Mark You Left - 15
5. Portraits Under Forgotten Suns - 2 (this is the one i'm gonna split up into their own fics :3)
5. Do you respond to comments?
yes!! i even carry on convos in the comments sometimes for the hell of it, i love interacting with ppl <33333333
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
i think the one-shot for the prompts "forgotten/devotion" for tesfest '23 about the shipwreck of the brinehammer, since the main character dies lmao
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
the one for the prompt "in bloom" from tesfest '23!! it was just a little fluff fic for my ocs athenath and ja'dato <3
8. Do you get hate on fics?
luckily no, the spaces i've found myself in these days are really positive :3 especially compared to when i wrote on FF.net in like 2009
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
none of it is published, but i do sometimes! it's a good way to flex my muscles (haha) in blending thought and action, balancing descriptors (how vivid is Too Much), and seeing how certain characters interact with each other in a vulnerable state. maybe i'll post some someday, idk. mostly i just do it for funsies, so idk what kind you'd classify any of mine.
10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
i havent in many years, so no, but that could chance if the mood strikes me
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
nope, but when i was writing for a different fandom in high school, my writing for a particular character wound up on ppls RP accounts as their versions backstory, as well.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
no, but if anyone wants to translate my fics, feel free!! just give me a heads-up!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic?
yep, on my old ao3, a good friend and i turned an RP into a fic! i enjoyed it immensely bc we wrote really well together!
14. What's your all-time favorite ship?
idk, i just groove where the dynamics take me <3
15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
i hate to say it, but An Inner Sanctity needs a major overhaul that i don't have the energy for right now. when i started writing that fic, i didn't have a solid grasp on athenath's personality. now that i do, i'm gonna need to rewrite all the chapters i've had ready for it, and pivot the direction of the fic to get it where i wanted it to wind up eventually. i really do want to finish it, though.
16. What are your writing strengths?
i get a lot of compliments on my imagery/descriptions/atmosphere! i love describing shit, so i'm glad ppl enjoy reading those bits of my work <3 oh!! and character/narrative details. i wrote a ~180k word fic in my senior year of high school solely off my mental notes for it, and it still wasnt finished when i dropped it a year or so later due to Circumstances
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
biting off WAAAAAAAY more than i can chew!! i have so, so many things planned for CotS and who knows if those things will get picked up on by folks or even work later down the line. GAHH
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
if you can realistically do it, go for it. if i could fluently speak all the languages i've tried to teach myself, i'd probably include them in fics where they would fit!
19. First fandom you wrote for?
naruto, i was writing naruto fics on a defunct dress-up site when i was a kid AHAH.
20. Favorite fic you've written?
Cycle of the Serpent. theres seldom a time i'm not thinking about those elves. yes, i will admit with my whole chest that i'm a tad desperate for people to read it and interact with it, but i think if i could explain everything (without spoiling it obviously) i have planned for this fic and just how much is going on in the background of the details i throw in, the reasons certain characters behave the way they do, and the amount of time i've spent working on it (the doc for it is at roughly ~96k and we're not even at the Real beginning of the solitude arc) and the sheer amount of hours i've spent making sure details line up, you'd understand why i'm losing all my sanity daniel-amnesia-the-dark-descent style over this story. i started writing it as a for fun "no one's ever gonna see this" exercise that also helped me greatly in recovering from long covid brainfog, and i think even if one day i look back and think of it as "not the best thing i've ever written", it'll still be one of the most passion-driven things i've ever written, and i'm happy about that. <3
woof, what a ramble. if you made it to the end of this, thank you, and i hope you're having a good day!!
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OKAY OKAY SO,,, its late and i should either be sleeping or finishing my friends birthday gift… BUT ,,, i watched the first ep of To Your Eternity today and my GOD it was… oh lord i already know this is going to be on my top list immediately. and i watched it in the middle of class like an idiot and didnt even have time to properly cry so now its nightime and im aggressively typing about it on tumblr like a responsible adult B) so obviously,, EP ONE OF TO YOUR ETERNITY SPOILERS !!! ,, okay first of all i gotta do the mandatory HOLY SHIT THIS ART IS SO PRETTY AND ADDS EVEN MORE EMOTION DEAR GOD ITS SO GORGEOUS AND HEART WRENCHING DKHGKGN but tbh i wasnt even focused on the art for this one i was just so wrapped up in the story. but the first ep introduces the orb that came to earth and took the form of a rock. it gained experience through this and saw a wolf die and then became the wolf. throughout the first episode the orb was a wolf which was pretty rad !! and the wolf happened to belong to an unnamed boy living in the snow,.. and oh my god idk what it is about stories about lonliness but… THAT SHIT HIT DIFFERENT YKNOW ?? the boys whole family was uh… in some sort of village far away… and he wanted to hike with his dog, joann, to go find them. they followed paths created by the ppl before them only to find the village…. completely destoryed and abandoned in the snow… . and of course our lil boy breaks down and then heads back home with joann where he uh,,, dies shorlty after… and then the orb takes on his form !! good gracious… i didnt think i could get so attached to a character so quickly but i am shaking and on the verge of tears thinking about him. he showed joann drawings of his family and was like “u better not forget !!” while then making a joke about how it was really himself that he didnt want to forget… and this was the first time we saw that bit of vulnerable desperation that this poor boy was trying to hide. it came out more along his journey with joann. he ran into to several hardships and even passed out several times and sustained many injuries yet he always picked himself back up with a smile. He also chatted with joann throughout the episode in what i assumed to the precious bond between man and dog but. he was alsways smiling and always looking at the bright side. even upon finding the villages remains, he claimed to be happy that people were there at some point… but then he broke. AND I ALMOST DID TOO. he cried and yelled and realized just how alone he was in the world. his life was meaningless and all he had was himself and his wolf who he couldnt even talk to. his family was gone and so was all hope of finding another better life and now he was stranded with nowhere to go. luckily him and joann were able to make it back to his original house but the damage had been done. he barely smiled and he only halfheartedly talked to joann. in his final moments he dragged himself out of bed and sat in his chair claiming that itd be embarassing for his family to come home and find him pathetically curled up in bed… so he wanted to look his best…BESTIE…I COULD NOT TAKE THAT…. i dunno if it was just the extreme isolation of that or if it was because of his denial of reality or just the bizarre concept and emotional music and art but.. idk dude smthn hasnt hit that hard in a while and i am absolutely obsessed. there was just something so heartbreaking about watching this happy energetic lovely boy slowly deteriorate into acceptance of the life he knew he was doomed to live… and knowing theres no hope for him since the beginning… and like ?? his dog wasnt even actually his dog bro ?? just another sentient force watching his detioration like the rest of us. i feel like i couldnt really articulate my feelings towards this as well as i wanted since i feel rushed and tired but i hope i still got smthn across :D OMG ALSO .. WHEN HE DIED THERE WAS A SCENE OF HIM REUNITING WITH HIS FAMILY AND BEING SO GENUINELY EXCITED AND HAPPY LIKE HOW HE WAS WHEN HE FIRST SAW JOANN AGAIN AFTER A FEW MONTHS AND HE WAS JUST SO FILLED WITH LOVE AND HOPE AND HE RAN INTO THEIR ARMS AND GHKDGDNG he is too good for this world and i adore him so much and just wish he couldve lived the happy and lovely life he deserved… in conclusion… if u throw me an anime character filled with love and hope and then u take that away from them and they fight and fight for it but are eventually broken…( or vice versa )… you will literally have ALL OF MY TEARS AND ALL OF MY MONEY… UPDATE: APPARENTLY THE ORB PUT THE BOY SITTING UP BACK IN HIS CHAIR BEFORE HE LEFT AND I JUST NCBDJFJD ITS TOO MUCH IM GONE
#to your eternity#anime review#manga review#seinen anime#fushi#to your eternity fushi#anime recommendation#good lord i need to cry myself to sleep now
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underneath is all u need 2 know about adonis bc im tired of copying n pasting <3
full name: adonis yu but he only goes by adonis.
nickname(s): adonis, donny (for josh only)
age: 24.
date of birth: october 5th 1995.
hometown: los angeles, california.
current location: cambridge, massachusetts.
education: graduated with a bachelors in contemporary writing and production, currently in graduate school for music composition.
language(s) spoken: french & english.
accent: american.
physical appearance
hair colour: black, kind of shaggy, hangs over his eyes.
eye colour: brown.
height: 5'10.
tattoos: has a snake running up his left forearm, small tiger on left middle finger, he has his initials tattoo’d on his right ankle.
piercings: traigus (left), 2 helix piercings on his right, one piercing on left.
family
Father: hudson yu: producer.
Mother: india yu: singer/songwriter.
Family’s Financial Status: rich af..
about mr. Adonis;
well.. it all started when he was bored, well mom didn’t want him to begin with because she didn’t realize she was pregnant? she just thought she gained some weight and that’s life ya know?
until she was in pain in the middle of a diner thinking she needed to take a massive dump but when that dump ended up her bleeding and realizing it wasnt poop it was a whole ass child she was birthing
and tada.. ADONIS WAS BORN
she didn’t want him tho, bitch was like ew
but luckily.. sorta, there was a family nearby who have been trying to conceive for MONTHS and couldn’t were like we’ll adopt him, pls... and she was like ok .. here have him
and there he has a family!
family life wasn’t so.. great
Hudson & India, one of the hottest couples in the music scene in LA. hudson has worked for huge artists all over the country and he never produces a horrible track and moms an amazing singer, her voice is so soulful, she holds 3 grammys :’)
they’ve been married for years and have this perfect image to keep up, in the media they’re never a step out of place, they never want drama surrounding their name, just good music good vibes lmfao
even with Adonis he had to go to the best boarding school, best private school, he was forced into a lot of things at a young age, forced to be this perfect child since the day he could talk
he held many hobbies, from learning how to play instruments (which came naturally to him), doing gymnastics bc why not? from playing different sports, joining little leagues etc etc, it carried into his high school career, he had to be the best to fit this idea of the “best”
like literally he cant be wrong or do wrong ever, it was so tough on a little boy, his friends would go out and have fun and he had to learn how to speak 4 different languages just because his parents wanted him to be the ABSOLUTE POSTER CHILD,
he was always a pretty child as well so they got him into modeling, like why not you know?
come around middle school that’s when he realized... none of this is real... who the fuck is being so robotic for? so he began to act out just a tiny wee bit ya kno, maybe speaking out, sneaking out late at night, doing shady things with friends, having horrible sex at 14, just the small acts, although when he was caught sneaking out his dad had him watched 24/7 on camera and with a guard... kinda drastic but these ppl arent sane
now come high school, he was breaking free of this robotic nature his parents made for him, his robotic responses became his own, his robtic movements became his own, he wanted to be HIMSELF and that all went down hill rly when he went to jail for trespassing with a few friends, parents cleaned it up, had another guard on his ass 24/7 all throughout high school. he was miserable
now college he began to shine
adonis is rly smart, like he’s rly capable of being a good kid, doing good but he’s been forced to do good all his lif that he’s so over it, he wants to fuck around, get fucked and just live his life he never could
in college he would do the ABSOLUTE MOSTTTT in undergrad, he would deliberately steal things, get arrested, anything to have his name in headlines to piss off mom and dad and guess waht? tehy cant do anything lmfao
he’d be hanging around the wrong crowd, going streaking in neighborhoods, doing lines with different frats, breaking into school after hours, sleeping with his professors, again.. all of it would be cleaned up
now he’s 24 and he’s still the same but worse, he genuinely is not. a good kid anymore, he’s unhinged, he’s in jail every other weekend, yet somehow at the top of his class, he’s tryna get mommy and daddy’s attetnion but at this point they have completely lost interest and ahve been focusing on their music, he’ll crash events all drunk and disheveled, he’ll cause after party troubles, he’ll pick fights with everyone, he’ll manipulate lies to make himself look, he’ll make sure everyone knows he’s not here to be ur friend, he’ll spread lies and rumors bc he’s bored.. he’s... smthn
but on the softer note, he’s rly passionate about his music jsut like dad, he’s also a rly good artist !! gna say he has a secret soundcloud where he makes lofi beats
when he’s sad with his life and has no idea how to admit it, he’ll pour that into his composing and he’s good at that
he’ll sit in his room, snuggled under a blanket just pouring his heart into what he does and soemtimes he’ll sketch, and his sketches are always flowers blooming from two doves, he just wants to be free but this isnt it ya know?
anyways that adonis ..
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sf9 in london event + concert experience ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙
this is my 5k essay on what happened 190512 // enjoy reading!!!
so i got to the venue at 11pm the night before bc i was so stressed by the other concerts (ppl at la started lining up at 6pm??) i really wanted to be near the front since im coming all way from the netherlands anyways i better go big or go home!!!! so like i waited there for an hour amongst other fans who were still waiting from a diff concert and when they left other fantasy arrived so we started queueing up. i rlly have to thank sf9 uk casue they were so nice to me and they kept letting me use their hotel next door to let me go to the bathroom and change ♥️
i ended up getting nr1 (or nr21 ig isbdhs) so!!!! we did it LMAO succesfully got a good spot even though my feet and butt were dead by the time anything even happened,, its so hard to wait for 16+ hours to go to a concert but its sf9 so who cares about health 🤡 we didnt get knifed and a lot of ppl came up to ask who the fuck we were waiting for hdbshsh it was so funny
so i started handing out my juho stuff ofc and ppl seemed to like it!!! so im glad haha eventually even i didnt have any anymore so i was happy ppl liked it!
skip to like 1pm which is when the members arrived at the venue, i was a lil late noticing cus i was waiting for those signed narcissus albums but i ran to the front anyways n saw youngbin chani tae leave the van (like what they posted in the travel preview) so that was!!!!! jdbdbsb they were so unbothered it was so cute so i went to get my albums and came back to line (i got all hwiyoung pcs oshshah)
also there were so many other fans handing out fanmades it was so sweet the entire atmosphere was fantastic bc everyone was nice to eachother, rlly everyone i talked to was super sweet!!! also so many fansites with slogans or fans so i went broke once more but it was all worth it theyre so pretty...
at like 4.30 was the special event which lmao i rlly was so tired and i got sooo nervous i had my already signed fanfare from mwave bc if ure gonna sign any album it should be fanfare (looking at ALL the ppl that gave them narcissus) sooo us 20 were led upstairs to some sort of bar area and they had a long table w water bottles so we had to wait a lil while the staff checked our signed items if they were ok and then we had to form a line to wait (they were late) i met another dutchie so that was nice hdhshsh
finally the members walk out and im shaking bc baek ju is the first to enter the room!!! he was wearing that leopard sweater and i didnt even hate his mullet seeing it upclose...
jae was wearing that stupid unbottoned shirt skbssbsb and he came in giving ALL the fanservice like him and inseong were here for the entire thing osbdbsb the other members just sat down and sociaized with eachother like yb kept being adorable and pulling faces at the table it was everything and i couldnt see rowoon bc ppl were standing in front of him but i was!!!! shaking already bc whos idea was it to start off this event with fucking rowoon lmao is like immediate heart attack! ju was last which was oof...
so i had like ideas of what i wanted to talk abt w each members but lmao??? i didnt talk abt any of it to any member my mind was so shook...
first up was rowoon and he just hdhshsh???? the eye contact of this man and just seeing him upclose was so intense tf he rlly was.. so gorgeous n bc of his hair up his eyes looked even bigger n shimmered and the pics rlly dont do him justice... so the first thing i said was wow so handsome bc why not.. i was gagged indeed hdbdbsb he said like woooow our debut album and you already have it signed oabdbs i didnt explain the entire mwave thing bc wud he understand haha but he opened n he saw the pic of himself hes like what do u like better me now or me here??? me being myself im like fanfare bc ur hair down is so cute oahdhshs i rlly not a narcissus hag anyways but fanfare was best rowoon as always... so rowoon did his sign and i asked him to do sky castle impersonation he didnt understand so i just repeated sky castle he was like ah the voice thing im like yes cha minhyuk isbdbsh so he did the fucking thing and i was dying lmao great to have seen it in the flesh ofc...
after rowoon was taeyang and taeyang!!!! was so hyper and attentive like hdnsb whenever u see him in vids hes usually very casual but he was soooo sweet and he too was like ahhh fanfare he took a while to say but he said his heart was still in there hdhdhsh so i was 🤧🤧 i just asked tae if he was doing okay or if he wasnt feeling tired and he said he was doing great bc i was there im like dying hdhshsh so i said yah me too!!!!
jae was after taeyang n jae was jdhshshs soooo into it i know korean fans say ppl change biases to jae after meeting him and i have to say i can see why!!! i didnt rlly know what to say to jae beforehand but he said oooo i really love london and im like haha i dont like it here im like im from the netherlands so he was shocked he said thank you for coming to travel here and he held my hand isbdbsbsb
next was inseong and... the eye contact level was sooo severe he rlly threw all into it hes like hi thank you for coming so much so i was wearing this shirt w a 🥩 on it and im like inseong do u like my shirt bc i know u love meat iahdhahsh so he was laughing n said yea wow this is my favorite shirt oshdhshs rlly had me going LOL he asked if it was my first time seeing them im like yea but im going to korea in the summer tho oshdhshs he said that was great n asked how long i was staying for,,, so im like im going a month so he asked why i was going so long im like im going for u!!! hdbshsb he gave me some hearts and i moved on ndhsbsab
so chani was next up and he looked so shy,,,, im sad bc i forgot to say everything i wanted to say to him at the beginning and i was just like chaniiiiiii and he laughed and signed my album before i went i quickly pushed in a URE MY FAVE DANCER n he highfived me hdhsbs
so youngbin was next and i... lmao... i was weak haha he just read my name hes like hiiiii gia im here being depressed saying HI YOUNGBIN I LOVE U SM thank u sm for everything u do for us and i shit u not my eyes like tearing up oshdbsbs yb asking me how im feeling im like YEA GREAT tears in my eyes oabdbs i rly couldnt speak otherwise id actually have them roll down my face so i just nodded and moved on iabsbs
hwiyoung im so sorry... i was still emo from yb and i even forgot to say happy birthday like pls hit me... hwi cheered for the fanfare album and im like yess hwi i love ur hair here i love the blonde;; hwi thanked me for coming
next up was dawon and jdbsbs i came in saying hi fantasy president so he said yeeee fantasyyyyy and hes an unbothered legend oabbdhssbn he signed quickly and within a minute i was away again jdhdhs
so juho.. my god oshdhshwh hes so:((( pretty let me breathe liek... i came there im like juho i love u oahdhshsh hes just nodding his way going to sign my album and he drawing that heart stickman so im like i have a question can u draw— hes like this is my signature drawing LUCKILY i drew the jucasso next to my name so im like pointing at it being like lmao boy we dont want this heart flop bdhdhsh so he quickly drew it and i said i hope u feel better soon and i was off again,,, rlly dawon and juhos signing went so quick...
so we moved on to the pictures and they were grabbing the chairs and ju was standing all way back at first but then no members went to sit on the chairs oahdhs so JUHO THE MAN WENT FOR THE SEAT NEXT TO THE MIDDLE HDHSHSH and hwi on the other side and jae behind so im blessed like juho... he rlly did it... hdhshsh i quickly go to grab one of my banners bc im like bitch i gotta fucking rep for it now otherwise i wudnt know a pose anyways oahdhshs so i quickly took off my glasses as well
so its my turn im going up and sitting down and like handing this banner to ju and hes like ???? oh???? he quickly reads it n was impressed hdbsb so there was one pic and tae was sitting next to ju and wanted to read what was on the banner so he turned to us but then we had to take another pic so he had to turn back quickly again oahdhshsh and then i had to go again but as i walked away ju was explaining to the members what was on my banner so i :((((
after everyones picture was taken they said goodbye and waved and inseong stayed behind a lil to joke abt drinking beer (i rlly hate him but also me?) and then they left and we got our merch bags n went back downstairs
so i quickly ran over to my bestie to tell her abt it before realizing we had to line up to go inside for the concert so i was like stressed running away i rlly almost lost my first spot LOL but we were let inside the venue i had like 50 bags but i ran to the front and BLESS IT there was like tiny space left at the left side which is were i wanted to be bc juwoon!!!!!! so i rly did get barrier thank god i could put down all my bags as well and the fantasy next to me were great as well!!!!
// i’ll add the concert later as im tired rn and this is already 5k osjbhdbhjas
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What i wanted people to see was the scope of this shooting as well as the fact that it was mostly unpreventable without removing guns from the hands of citizens.
Now my information is inaccurate, my searches mostly talk about the scope of events with no detailed lists or maps so i’ve had to piece everything together, despite my horribly triggered boyfriend(who knew a half dozen people in locked down stores) spending hours watching the news ( i suppose we are more informed than most). But i’ve tried to detail a map to show the scope of this
This is odessa tx (i guess the red line is the city limits). It takes about 20 minutes to drive across it , 20 minutes to drive to midland. it takes me about 15 minutes to use the loop to get to work (which now has a bullet hole in it). 42nd street, which most of the red dots are on, is the biggest and busiest street in Odessa, as it goes straight through and merges with 191 leading to midland.
The red unfilled dot up north is where the main intersection that leads from my house to the middle of the city is blocked off as a crime scene. Allegedly one of the shootings happened here. this is also where Ratliff stadium (from Friday Night Lights, the movie. Where all our football (college and highschool) happen). I couldnt verify this so idk if my boyfriend is wrong, if it was a different shooting or an accident for sure.
The orange unfilled Dot is the cbs news station in the mall. As we watched the news they were evacuated twice. the whole mall was on lockdown. The newscaster shops at my store frequently and my bf’s associate and my brother in law work there. I dont know if the police were worried the shooter was going there, i believe a mall security cop was shot in our dillards.
The Red filled dots are what i’ve heard repeatedly for sure were attacks. the bottom left is Twinpeaks were one of the teenagers were shot and there are two cars i saw this morning blocked off by police tape.. the next three are the car dealership (now taped off) and Home depot , The small dot is Logans Roadhouse which is blocked off by one of the shot up cars. And then there was shots at UTPB across the street. I understand that out to the west several blocks away someone was shot at starbucks. The far right red dot is Best Buy where someone else was shot.
The black X is cinergy where the killer was killed. Over 21 ppl were shot, some on the highway so maybe i’ll keep this map and fill it in as more details come out.
My point is that alot of the discussion is about how these happen at events. that even if a shooting happens in your town that it will be condensed into one area like Ariana’s concert, or a parade. However this guy literally drove around our busiest street shooting random people. Luckily i’m going on vacation because otherwise i’d be having to take a 5 or 10 minute detour to get to work because the main street ppl in north odessa use to get to odessa is blocked off. Almost every store from starbucks to home depot was closed yesterday afterwords(not my work or walmart of course, HEB was closed so that meant more customers, yay capitalism). The school, 2 of peoples favorite restaurants. the starbucks is very popular and right in front of the petstore our family goes to all the time.
Thats the power of guns. A single man can drive around and terrorize HALF a city, murder over 20 people by himself, terrorize hundreds (how many do you think were in the mall on a saturaday? ). This wasnt a single place attacked it was 1/3 of a city of 90k. and all of us were impacted. If you dont know someone who was killed you know at least several people who were huddled in a locked store afraid of it. Me and my boyfriend love playing the Dorothy game at Cinergy. that area of the city is basically the heart of odessa with some of the biggest sources of education, food, and entertainment. Over the course of writing this i’ve had to X out this map and reupload it as i remember “oh yea someone was shot THERE too”
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But that’s not all.
The evil people of america are already going “we HAVE to have guns” “good guy with a gun” ‘thoughts and prayers”
the 17 month old and the 15 year old killed were waiting with their family when they got shot. A stray bullet hit my work with a good 2 hundred workers and customers inside. one of the victims was a Fed Ex worker doing her job when she was shot in the head. multiple of the victims were just driving.
it wouldnt have mattered if EVERY person was armed. You have to know a gunman is there and that he’s intent to kill you before the possibilty of killing them in self defense comes up. These were driveby’s most of these people didnt see it coming. A car was driving up, maybe recklessly and BAMF someone has a hole in their body.
More cops wouldnt have stopped this, security at every establishment (like the companies would pay for that) wouldnt have stopped it. body armor in all our fashion wouldnt stop it (shot in the head, remember?), “A good guy with a gun” wouldnt have stopped it. Our entire police force and the state troopers were after this guy for a good 2 hours. Understandably we thought that there were 2 gunment when he murdered the mail carrier and stole her truck.
As big as this country is I knew this would keep happening but wiht 500 million people i never thought it would happen here, But it did and it will happen in a town near every American.
Every other country with a better economy and more civil government has stricter gunlaws or no guns at all. It doesnt matter if we get rid of all of them or some of them, if we make it harder to buy guns or ammo. But the fact is that all the things the Gun Cultist say did not help, would not help and will never help. Everyone in our town was effected in some way and there was no way to prevent this other than making sure ppl like this asshole cant have a gun, let alone one that can can carry more than a few bullets.
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Things that are hot and sexy (because i do them)
• being unable to cite sources no matter how long you spend on it or how long you try
• getting a boost of motivation to work but on the wrong thing
• actually don't mind doing school work and have a thirst for knowledge but hate failure and not having time to finish assignments
• "wow i can't believe i finished all my assignments for the week! So fast. I have time to study and actually perfect my work and get better grades" *gets more assignments* *cries*
• i can't meet my own high standards
• being so stressed because of mom that i have horrible mood swings and im in a constant state of rage and anxiety
• being relieved when my friends invite me to do things because then i see it as an obligation and im "forced" to go (even though they'd understand if i said no, i see it as an obligation for my own mental wellbeing)
• wanting desperately to help others but struggling to even take care of yourself
• i can do the work, i can handle the workload. But i can't handle the pressure of my mom checking my grades
• i know that I'm smart and i know that I can do it. Ive been working so hard and my work is paying off but i need my mom to trust me
• overeating due to stress and went on an etsy shopping spree. Had to force myself to stop "stress buying" stuff and "stress eating"
• my dumb little passion project went on hiatus because im busy. Which is fine but a bit dissapointing
• i love it here. I don't want to leave. I love the art program. The work is a lot but i love my classes and my friends and my life here. What if one day something horrible happens and i have to leave because its too expensive?
• everything in my life is going good but my mom stresses me out so much that it's no longer going good
• I'm sorry for being incompetent... Even on my medicine. I am much better off than before and i can actually think but. I can't focus and i often miss intructions on assignments unless i write down absolutely everything. Why am i like this?
• my high empathy problems are coming up again because im so emotional.
• i am fine on 6 hours of sleep a night now but i wonder how long that will last. I don't have enough time to sleep for 8 hours every night. And maybe its because i take too many breaks but if i dont take breaks, i can't focus and everything just because thoughts that don't make sense
• im so stressed. Please just let me get my work done. All i ask is to be able to just sit down, relax, get my work done. I want to do so well on the exam later this week that I bump my B to an A or just even a high B.
• at least i enjoy school. High school and before was... Much worse. I don't enjoy spending hours trying to find out how to cite very specific topics and i dislike that one of my professors is a big perfectionist and so i often lose points on assignments (everyone does) no matter how hard i try to make it perfect. And i dislike having to check canvas so often because its difficult to navigate and i swear they try to hide assignments from us. And i hate that i have so much work that some weeks i wonder if i can possibly get it all done. And i hate group projects and i hate writing boring essays. But i love my classes at least. And i want to do well. I will do well. I am going to make all A's if it kills me. I was a B/C student in high school with occasional A's. If i just studied more (i never studied), i could have been one of the best students there, i believe. I didn't study, but I'm glad I didn't because it didn't matter as long as I got ok grades and I passed. I enjoyed my youth (not that im not still young...not that those years weren't the worst). But now i have to make A's or at least high B's because I know i can and I have to prove to my mom that I can do it. Maybe if i get good enough grades, she will back off some. Then I can prove to her that i really don't need her "help".
• this is way too specific of a list
• i want a job. If only i had time for a job. I have a strong work ethic. Im a good little capitalist slave. Please give me mone- i mean. Work. Yeah... Work...
But I dont have time for a job. Im very thankful that i dont need one. But I need to grow up and get a job because it will help me in the future
• speaking of which....a job i applied for months ago just called today... A lite late, buddy. Im 2 hours away now.
• but god... I so want to work there. I hear its a great place to work and the owner is gay (aka, not going to be homophobic to me)
• i wish i had my suitemate/neighbor's life. Like loudly talking on the phone and slamming doors as loud as possible all day long? And she's an RA so she gets paid.
• im calling my mom soon and getting this shit over with. Also i have somewhere to go with friends tonight so we can kidna- i mean recruit ppl for the theatre club. Im no theatre person but i am there for my friend and to make props.
• i can't do it.
• but if i do this, ill be free....
• maybe a quick meditation beforehand. Maybe self hypnosis so i can emotionally numb myself for a few minutes... Idk if im experienced enough to do that yet... But I've been doing it for years so might as well give it a try
• have i really resorted to self hypnosis to deal with the stress of calling my own mother?
• am i really so weak that even though everything is going well, something as simple as my mom calling to check my grades once a week makes me so upset that I cry almost every day about it?
• i know what she is doing is not legal. But what can I do about it?
• my mom thinks that im incompetent as well. That's why she checks my grades. She thinks I can't do it. She didn't even think that I had the ability to live by myself. I proved her wrong there.
• im working so hard partly because of her. So why does me working hard and thus not having time to call make her upset?
• it will all be over by tomorrow.
• perhaps calling her on the phone in a public space would be better. Maybe if she realizes that im not just in my dorm....
Luckily, my mom cares a little too much about social norms. She's used against me this all my life but perhaps it could be beneficial to me.
•thats right. I can just pack my stuff i need for my work. Then ill meditate for a bit and take a tea break. Ill go take everything to a public place with lots of people and call her then.
• i don't want to bring my friends into this, it wouldn't be right. But i wish that they would just sit next to me while I was on the phone. For emotional support at least. But i wouldn't ask them to do that, especially since we haven't known each other long. But i think it would make everything better if i had someone else to back me up
• people must be sick and tired of these posts. Im sorry.
• my mom says she's proud of me, but she doesnt act like it. She used to trust me. When i was 16/17, she would say that its up to me, my responsibility, that I knew what I was doing. Now, im 18. Why does she no longer trust me? I am an adult now. It doesn't make sense. I'm more responsible than I was at that age and im an adult now. It doesn't make sense at all, shouldn't she trust me more?
• i check my own grades religiously. Why is it necessary for her to do so too? What does that accomplish?
• i have an A, 2 almost A's, 2 low B's (but i know i can get the grade up and im studying hard to do so) and one C (it was an assignment that everyone did poorly on and another homework assignment that i did poorly on because I was exhausted). I know a C is bad but it's my drawing class. My favorite class. I do well in there and i think I'm probably one of the better peforming students in there. The C was just a small mistake and since we have more work in there now, getting that grade up will not be difficult. But i feel like all of my hard work just doesn't matter anymore. It will not satisfy her either way. Even if I had all A's, she would probably still be upset that I didn't have high enough A's. One of my professors says that she doesn't give A's on projects because "mistakes happen in art and you have to accept it".
• heavy workload... Im fine doing it but... I can't do it well with the amount of time I'm given. If i just had the weekend as well and not just the rest of the week. If i had just one full day more.
• this weekend will probably be dedicated to next week's work if i can do it early
• i can't call her. It's too stressful.
• im lightheaded just thinking about it
• i have every right to be angry. I have every fucking right to be angry.
• my day should revolve around schoolwork and studying. My weekends should revolve around taking breaks and light workloads. But every moment of every day revolved around my mom instead.
• and to think... If i lived in a place where college wasnt so expensive... Perhaps she would leave me be. Perhaps my grades would be so much better and perhaps I would be happy.
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whenever shit like this happens people start debating if it was even really queerbaiting and start accusing people of just being mad because their ship didnt become canon. in the case of voltron i literally gave zero fucks about ships. i wasnt really into the fandom, i had seen all the episodes, but i didnt ship anyone in particular. and then they announced that one of the main characters was going to be lgbt and even have a partner! i got really excited and thought “maybe i can get invested in this”. yeah, luckily i didnt, because we all know how that turned out.
so many people (usually straight people, but also a surprising amount of lgbt people) like to reduce outrage over queerbaiting to ships, because it makes it seem like something you dont have to take seriously. god forbid lgbt ppl just wanting to see people like them in a positive light in media.
is it still queerbait when the gay couple DOES appear, but one of them dies after 2 minutes? thats a thing i’ve heard a lot, because apparently the creators and a few fans think its not. they announced a gay couple and a gay couple was kinda on screen. i mean, you cant go against that logic when they reduce it to that, but the announcement of shiro being gay and having a boyfriend was a big thing at comic con. they saw what kind of impact it had on the crowd and online and they knew it would have that kind of impact. yet they still killed one half of the couple in under 5 minutes of screentime after KNOWING the fans were excited and hopeful for lgbt content. hyping something up like that and ending up giving the fans that little is still queerbaiting. its just all the more insulting when they justify it by saying the show isnt about romance, yet manage to fit in 3 brand new happy straight couples.
another thing that comes with all of this is fans saying stuff like “oh those nasty shippers are assaulting and harrassing the actors on social media!!! just because their ship isnt canon!!” which just isnt true 90% of the time. it is never right to go after the actors when they have little to no power over the storytelling. and most upset fans know that. making your disappointment and sadness known is something completely different than ‘insulting innocent actors’. the criticism is almost always directed exclusively at the people who are actually responsible for what happens on the show. like producers, writers, directors and, you know, people who loudly said they werent going to queerbait, knowing full well they would be killing a gay dude after what felt like 10 seconds.
same as with married couples, you cant hold an actor responsible for what their employer does. nobody should force somebody to take the criticism for what their spouse did on their own either. the situation changes however, when the actor/spouse involves themselves in the discussion and makes attempts to defend the behaviour. i’ve seen at least one actress defend it and respond to criticism of queerbait with the literal words “there was queer content, just not thee queer content you wanted” well DUHHHHHH nobody wanted the bury your gays trope, of course they are upset, there is no need to make this sound like yet another “youre just mad because your ship didnt kiss” kind of thing.
i’ve seen this happen a few times now. sometimes creators never explicitly state there would be a gay couple and never interact with people who ask about it, but will still capitalize off of fans who would love to see it happen (naruto). sometimes creators never explicitly say a gay couple is going to happen, but interact with fans who ask about it FREQUENTLY, capitalize off of them and also shape the marketing in a way that alludes to possible lgbt content (sherlock). and sometimes people straight up say theyll have a gay couple, promise there wont be any queerbaiting, capitalize off of this AND OTHER couples liked by fans, enjoy the wave of euphoria from lgbt fans, congratulate themselves for ticking off that specific box only to kill one half of the couple at the earliest possible moment and give all the happy moments to three straight couples they apparently had no time for (voltron, duh.). queerbaiting comes in different forms and with different intent.
with naruto the creator most likely never wanted to make them a couple and never expected people to see any romance between them, so it was never publically addressed, but they sure saw that lgbt fans bought a lot of merch with the two of them on it and also really liked the vaguely shippy moments, so why not make money off of that.
with sherlock the creators have alluded to wanting a gay sherlock in the past, repeatedly vaguely hinted that something incredible and unbelievable was going to happen, knowing full well fans would believe that it was about gay rep and also knowing full well it would never come and at the end laughed at the fans for believing them and claimed they were seeing things that were never there. but they still took all their money, ofc.
with voltron they were apparently out for the lgbt money and clout. its so easy to get lgbt fans on the hook when you just promise the smallest possible representation, creators have learned that by now. but for some reason they havent learned that making false promises and driving up hopes will backfire extremely when the actual content doesnt match the hype. so now its of course the fault of the fans again, because they read too much into it, they had too high expectations. no word of apology for driving up those expectations though. that never comes. newsflash: nobody in their right mind believes a dead gay man with little to no screentime is good representation.
there is a reason why lgbt fans are perpetually suspicious when they are promised new lgbt representation. its like reaching a hand out to someone only to pull it back at the last possible moment and then laugh at the dumb idiot who went in for the handshake.
#queerbaiting#voltron#vld spoilers#voltron spoilers#they knew what they were doing#naruto wank#sherlock wank#m#long post
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also re ppl talking abt things in the concepts of Careers.....just like when it annoys me when ppl start “resume / interview tips” with a tone of “You Fucking Fools” instead of say “this is all a goddamn game and the whole hiring process is a halfassed attempt to weed out the less exploitable at the min wage level and reward the privileged at upper levels and decisions will largely be arbitrary and this is all just about trying to adjust your odds”......it also annoys me when ppl (artists on twitter........) talk abt the necessity of Networking (being considered amicable by ppl you may potentially work with) with a context of “you fucking fools” instead of “again although capitalism pretends its a meritocracy its really not and unfortunately its not necessarily realistic to assume the quality of your work will serve you nearly as well as not just making friends but trying to establish personal connections as a means of making professional inroads”
i mean again even at the minimum wage level, someone whose friend already works at a place and recommends them is way more likely to be hired than anyone else who hands in an application. because beyond hoping for someone who can be scheduled at any and all hours and never say “i cant work then,” they dont really care who gets hired and its kinda just eh fuck it lets call this one. and interview them as if their job here has anything to do w interpersonal skills and the ability to deftly maneuver their way thru interrogation abt how much they might value their family and own personal existence over the company that pays them about ten cents a minute.
anyways its not like i dont think “networking” (seems weirdly euphemistic to me also) or finessing details on your application ISN’T helpful, just that its kind of demeaning if not insulting to talk about it like its all obvious and anyone who doesnt strategize the way you do is incompetent and doesnt deserve to succeed and its their own fault for not thriving. coz thats accepting the whole “this is a meritocracy” lie—that is definitely an assumption found in basically all discussions of anything—that necessitates these ridiculous secret maneuverings to get a foot in the door at places that treat you terribly to allow you to maybe barely survive off your work
anyways like of course i dont think that artists should have to seem friendlier than other artists to succeed & even if thats how it works i’m not gonna accept/endorse that premise yknow......like damn. its an element everywhere that yeah your Social Skills impact how ppl treat you professionally but im not about to pretend the Real Solution is just that those ppl who get fucked over by that fact just need to learn how to Be Different
like to a degree its sort of nice that just being in the same general professional sphere can make artists known to each other......but also like. if ppl around you dont personally consider you likeable, it then might close doors to your career. like damn nobody likes me, i’m glad i dont have to talk to ppl to draw
funny story actually once i was in a situation where im pretty sure nearly everyone was assuming i was a serious artist with a serious project. it wasnt at all a formal setting or even relevant what everyone did like just ppl hanging out / chillin but i still like, got automatically accepted by random nearby ppl in a way i was like oh god no i dont do anything lmfaoo...i got drunk followed on twitter by an artist i actually vaguely knew of & i think it took them a couple weeks to realize their mistake......i had a guy who wasnt an artist but was still involved in working w/ them talk to me a few times, increasingly somewhat drunk which is probably why he was talking to me (not in a nightmarish oh no a drunk guy is talking to me way, luckily, it was fine actually) & at one point he mentioned some artists who were there who i definitely knew of & how he never knew them to hang out w ppl after events or whatever & he was like idk are they too good for us or w/e & i was like lol nah i kinda know of them & i think theyre both just pretty shy (which was true lol in my head im like ive seen their diary comics abt being a bit socially timid.) and also i was thinking abt how ppl will and have assumed i think im too good to hang out / talk to them or are generally snobby, when actually i’m just anxious, and then doubly uncomfortable when i find out abt the stuff ppl have said abt me (like an unrelated family friend talking abt me when i was like, 11 or something lol; ppl talking abt how i wouldnt take up their invitation to join a group chat, since they make me nervous and if i do show up i cant say anything and probably feel worse; ppl talking abt how i accepted hanging out w a group i mostly didnt know but like brought stuff to do quietly in the corner like draw and write and stuff & had just kind of been making fun of me in the bg for the subsequent months i continued to hang out w them w increasing misguided confidence lol)
its funny (no it isnt) that ppl will think their specific brand of social language is the one that gives them the only accurate reading of other ppls social cues, & that everyone else has to learn to accommodate that, instead of ever considering the fact that its actually not a flat universal constant & maybe THEY need to learn more that some kind of subtle facial cue doesnt mean the same thing for everyone, that everyone doesnt verbally communicate in the same way, that there are cultural differences in various forms of communication, that avoiding eye contact doesnt always mean someone is full of contempt or lies, that people dont express affection in the same ways, that ones immediate impression of someone isnt always equivalent to their truest essence laid bare, etc etc
like everyone has their own language really & there can be mistranslations & nuances that are lost b/w ppl & you can’t always blame the other person for your own misinterpretation unless you consider yourself constantly superior mm
like its definitely all a lot of personal connections everywhere but that doesnt mean it should be
and the personal appeal of someone to strangers l o l . . . which can be a largely harmless advantage to a huge one. smdh. well it all stretches into a larger topic and many things annoy me
#this all brings me to remembering a podcast i listened to about triage#how when supplies like oxygen were strictly rationed in this one situation but when a particular patient who was known for being friendly#and thus largely beloved was struggling to breathe the decision was made to allow her some of the oxygen supply#and though it all turned out fine some doctors afterwards were thinking abt the decision in terms of that if she’d had a reputation for#being unfriendly and hadnt had this positive reputation she mightve been allowed to die in accordance w the procedures in place#so thats how i go from tweets abt artist networking to who is allowed to die in triage#but theres not exactly any borders in the issues of social hierarchy#in both personal and institutional discretion; the same biases and discriminations will permeate#relatedly ive embraced my hatred for group chats and never join or feel bad for it#i also embrace not hanging out w ppl i dont want to hang out with#im just out here ignoring people left and right. if it costs me my life its only another benefit for me
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imagine being daehwi’s friend on p101 s3
a trainee after his own heart :’)
(( AS REQUESTED! // i love ur writing !! can i get a daehwi scenario where you guys are best friends bc you're also a trainee from brand new music and you participate in pd101 s3 and come in 3rd place like him,, and he confesses to you afterwards bc he's so proud of you ?? as fluffy as possible pls and thank u have a great day/night 💓 ))
u and daehwi have known each other ever since u became a trainee at bnm
altho u were a little intimidated at first, he was always ready to approach u with friendly tips and a smile, so it was only a matter of time before u became best friends
hes the type of friend to hype u up whenever u step on stage
(ure p sure one time he came to a performance w a sign tht said u were the “inventor of rap” lol)
u can both b super extra when ure supporting each other tbh
to u guys, theres nothing too grand or too extreme to express how proud u are of each other
of course when u decide to enter produce 101 for the 3rd season, hes super excited for u
(hes also super nervous but he doesnt want u to know tht)
he gives u constant tips and advice, always guiding u
“be careful of their editing,, evil mnet is no joke”
daehwi sends u so much support tht even when u cant contact each other once the filming starts, u know he’s cheering u on
and listen. the show is STRESSFUL
daehwi already knew how hard it could be so he kinda didnt want u to go on it
but he also wanted u to show off how talented u were?? what a struggle
ur initial performance was with a couple labelmates, some girls u were close with but now super comfortable with
u did a song tht daehwi helped produce bc hes a king of music and u adore everything he makes
anyways
ure proud to say tht u gave it all, and u end up with a b ranking
its not as good as daehwi, but ure still rlly proud of urself
as the days go on, things only get more and more stressful
bc of how well so many of the s2 boys did, this season everything is 1000x as intense bc they want to make sure tht only the most talented people move on
as hard as it is, u step up to the challenge, practicing as much as u can whenever u can
still, sometimes ull see other ppl struggling
even tho theyre not from the same company as u, u have the kind of heart tht makes u want to try and help them even if just a little
at first it was a little awkward for u to offer advice to the other trainees, but with everyone cramped and tired together, its hard not to start to bond
soon enough, word spreads abt how ure one of the sweetest and hardworking trainees in the competition, and it sends a huge boost in ur popularity
it helps tht ure cute as heck and a lot of fans noticed how brightly ur smile was even before the first ep aired
altho ure not super close with any one person in particular, a lot of the girls there are super friendly so its easy for u to drift around to hang out with different groups
mnet seems to love u bc when u watch some episode clips, they show how ure always flitting around and seem like a v popular trainee
plus theyve decided to highlight u as one of the rising stars of the show, editing clips to show off the amount of time u practice and improve, even from ur already-amazing initial performance
ure super lucky and u dont forget it
but ure still pretty sure tht all of daehwis advice from beforehand helped u a lot
u dont get a lot of time to think abt him tho, just bc everything moves so fast in the competition
still, sometimes when ure trying to rest after another long day of practice, u cant help but reminisce on some of ur more playful and relaxed memories with daehwi
somehow, word didnt really get out abt how close u two were until midway thru the season
it wasnt like u were intentionally keeping it a secret, but it didnt rlly come up for awhile
not when u were all busy just trying to get some airtime and become a better idol
anyways
when word gets out, all of the other girls are So Jealous
luckily for u everyones really sweet and only tease u abt it instead of being jerks
still, now a lot of them are asking u for his number
tbh although u and daehwi had never talked abt it, u dont remember him saying tht he ever liked anyone
and honestly, u didnt rlly think abt him dating someone until girls were coming up to u left and right, asking what he was like
with time, everyone calms down a little bit, but ure left trying to focus on practice instead of why the thought of him dating someone else bothers u so much
(its hard bc u know exactly why ure upset, but u dont know what ure going to do abt it)
mOVING ON
u rlly cant talk to daehwi often, but there are some occasions where the p101 staff let u make a phone call
if ure not calling ur family, u always use it to call him
u use the limited time to catch up, and he always showers u in support and compliments, telling u how hes watching every ep when it airs and is cheering u on
even tho u cant see him, u can imagine the way he smiles as he says it, and its enough to make u smile as well
as the days and performances move on u get closer and closer to the final stage
u havent always been at the top of the rankings, but uve still been doing pretty well esp recently w all of the positive attention tht uve been getting
u make it to the finale, and u cant help but hold ur breath the entire time
in this mass of people in the audience, its impossible to make out anyones faces, so u cant recognize if anyone came to support u
u cant help but hope tht somehow daehwi made it, but u know hes been so busy with his own practicing tht he probably doesnt have time
theres a section of past p101 winners somewhere else, but its even further away and harder to see with all of the bright lights
the next couple of hours go by both achingly slow and annoyingly fast
as the names slowly start to get called, u watch with a heavy heart as more and more people are cheered their way on to safety
honestly ure still kinda surprised tht u made it this far, since u started out only hoping to gain experience and a vague fanbase with the show
but now tht ure here, u cant help but hope tht u make it to the end
despite everything u find urself cheering on the other girls whenever theyre announced as a finalist
everyones crying and ure no better tbh
its getting to the top, just before they decide to go back and announce the final member of the group, and ur ranking of 10 last week suddenly seems far too low, esp as 3rd place is about to be announced
then out of nowhere, ur name is called
ur hands are shaking and u keep looking around bc is this rlly happening?? but everyones screaming and hugging u and ure like ??????????
u cant even string together proper thoughts at this point
somehow u make it to the other stage where one of the staff puts a microphone in ur hands and the cameras are all aimed towards u
honestly half the things u say are just random words of gratitude or names tht u can never forget
ur busy telling ur parents, rhymer, all the other girls, ur fans, abt how much u love them, tht for a second somehow u almost forget abt daehwi
thts when ur gaze flickers to a screen in the stadium where the camera is focused on daehwi cheering and tearing up from his spot somewhere w some of the other p101 boys
of course u have to end it with a “lee daehwi!!! i love u too!!!!!!!” bc even if u know most ppl will take it platonically, ure not sure if he’ll see it the same way
(u dont even know if u want him to or not)
u say one last thank u before ure practically skipping over to ur seat and u cant help but think tht ure SO HIGH UP
still, now tht u know where daehwi is, even tho u cant make out his face, u feel ur heart stutter knowing that he’s there cheering for u
the rest of the night goes by in a blur honestly
as soon as ure all let backstage to meet up w ur family/friends, u find urself being tackled by a combination of familiar faces
daehwi is laughing into ur side, arm slung around ur shoulder, as ur parents try to congratulate u thru their tears, and uve never felt happier
after an embarrassingly long time of hugging and crying, daehwi manages to pull u to a slightly less crowded and loud area
n hes like “listen,, y/n,,,, u know im rlly proud of u too right?? like i love u a lot”
and ure not even thinking abt what u said in ur speech, just nodding along happily bc above all else, daehwi is still ur best friend
but he looks at u and he cant rlly stop smiling either, but he grabs u by the shoulders to say “no, i rlly love u a lot”
so ure like “okay??? and??????”
and he keeps staring at u with this stupid grin on his face and then it hits u and ure like “oh. oH. OH!!!!!!”
so ure both just smiling at each other like idiots n ure like “i think i love u too??”
at tht he has this mock-offended face like “u THINK”
but ure both so so happy teasing each other and feeling like ure both on top of the world
tbh u spend so long standing there and giggling tht ur parents eventually drag u away from ur private spot bc “u cant stand there grinning forever” and “ur bf isnt the only one whos proud of u!!!”
ure both embarrassed but its impossible for either of u to wipe the smiles off of ur faces
u all spend the rest of the day celebrating and enjoying each others company and the company of the rest of ur family/friends, and u cant help but think tht this is one of the best moments of ur life
#requested#daehwi#wanna one#wanna one imagine#wanna one imagines#wanna one scenarios#wanna one scenario#lee daehwi#daehwi scenarios#lee daehwi scenarios#daehwi imagines#lee daehwi imagine#p101
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ok ok my anger has subsided so i think i should like… not ignore today even though it was saddening but maybe focus on the nice things that happened at rift rivals because i did meet a lot of cool people and had a lot of fun!!
i went with nat aka the c9 xayah quickshot kept talking about on stream lmao. she looked absolutely stunning (she always does tbh) but beauty has its price and we paid by being half an hour late lmao
but in we went and i ended up on camera bc i was sitting next to nat and i wanted it to end but oh well at least now we have proof that i was there!! i was super excited and constantly clinging to nat which eventually turned into petting nat bc her hood was just so soft and fluffy aaaaaaa
then the fanmeets rolled around and i was????? so nervous???????? because even though ive met some eu players before it wasnt all of them and the na players where a whole nother animal
but yeah we met jesiz, caps and broxah (soaz and rekkles didnt come out sadly) and they were so sweet! im probably gonna say that about every team lmao but they honestly were all so nice. anyway i didnt dare ask them for hugs yet which i would later end up regretting lmao
then g2 vs c9 happened and i was so?????? conflicted????????? but yeah i ended up meeting g2 again which honestly never gets old and i hugged them again which also never gets old!!!
then we met p1 and i asked them to sign @nekomieze ‘s sketchbook bc she couldnt be there sadly :( but they were so kind and honestly arrow’s signature is the tightest shit!! but yeah neko really put a lot of effort into it bc she drew cute lil pictures of p1 and c9 and i hope that when i send the sketchbook back to her she will post them either here or on twitter because theyre just so adorable!!!!!!!
and then!!!!!!! then we met c9!!!!!!!!!!!! like!!!!!!!
i was so shook when they came onto the stage because i was used to players looking their height on camera from eu teams right???? well!! c9 are so
tiny
smoothie and ray are roughly my height but the rest of them are much shorter i shed a few tears
and god they are!!!!! such sweethearts!!!!!!! all of them!! smoothie started asking me questions like “how are you” and got me all flustered tho… :( initially riot staff said that c9 wouldnt sign anything bc contractz was sick and should go to bed already (and he really looked like he was gonna pass out any minute) but they ended up staying. jensen and sneaky stayed behind the longest which was kind of surprising in jensens case bc i heard from na fans that hes usually not v comfortable with fan stuff but i was happy that he stayed so long!! and sneaky stayed until there was only nat and my other friends and me left and chatted with us. i’m still not over that tbh
and then we met tsm!! sadly they didnt sign anything that was kind of disappointing. normally i dont have any strong feelings about them but my brother likes bjergsen so i was hoping to get some signatures for him. same thing on the second day idk if they signed anything tonight :(( i did hug bjergsen though it was really nice!! the tsm players in general seem v nice!!
also i got a photo with kobe!!!! hes literally so adorable hes like a giant puppy
then the next day we didnt meet g2 at all which is kind of a bummer bc i only realized the morning of day 2 that i did actually have something to get signed for myself lmao im… smart
i did meet uol once again and hylissangs handwriting is so nice!! and sheepys and romains signatures are so cute aaaaaa
we took more photos with p1 and they handed out wristbands and fidget spinners for free!! eventually i annoyed nat so much with my hood petting that she handed me her fidget spinner so i would stop. i ended up petting her with the fidget spinner
then c9 once more!!! and more hugs!!! it was so nice! i tried to take revenge and started asking smoothie questions but he returned the questioning and got me flustered again aaa!! juan was luckily looking wayyy better on day 2. also sneaky and jensen stayed with us super long again!! nat actually had a Normal Conversation ™ with sneaky. like they literally talked for ten minutes about the troubles of being left handed lmao
aaand more fnc!! as in initially it was jesiz, caps and broxah again and this time i summoned the courage to ask for hugs!! and lemme tell ya hugging broxah temporarily cured my anxiety
then eventually soaz joined too (still no rekkles…. hope hes ok) so yay!! and nat was talking to finlay about her other cosplays while i was standing by awkwardly lmao
and then after the games quickshot was out there in the entry hall taking selfies with fans and when he saw nat he actually asked her for a selfie and a hug lmao it was so adorable!! quickshot is so adorable!!! i love him!!
but like the real kicker came after the games. like yall probably saw the tweets from xpecial about how much money p1 spent at mcdonalds right?? well we didnt!! and we were hungry so we went to the mcdonalds around the corner and guess who was there
but yeah that was it for me!! i went home this afternoon and while all my friends somehow managed to sneak into the studio one way or another im kind of glad i didnt pay money for that tragedy. except i wasted like most of my mobile data on trying to get the stream running while i was on the train haha and also juan apparently was buying beer in the entry hall after the games and according to nat it was adorable as all heck and i would have loved to see it but oh well!! cant have it all!!
all in all im more than happy i was there and im happy i met so many cool ppl, players and (new) friends alike!!
#not writing in anger anymore#also i want to hug broxah again#i want to hug all of them again#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#im not over sneakys kindness and broxahs hug and c9's respective heights and actually im not over so many things and i doubt i will ever be#rift rivals
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Wow, I was not expecting such quick feedback! These are replies to this post
magnass-babe
ohmydays i totally get this. Im a closeted Mormon Bisexual and as me and my mum and sister walked out of beauty and the beast they were just saying "it wasnt even really there, it was fine" about lefou being gay and i was just like :| not saying anything. its the worst when a tv show we watch has gay couples in it and my mum fast forwards through it for the sake of my siblings coz im like ?? gay people exist and they should know this before they meet an lgbt person in real life
Wow, yes, spot on! That’s the worst, “It wasn’t even really there, it was fine”, like a what point would it NOT be fine? And what you said about “well, they should at least know LGBT people exist in real life” just hit me so hard, because I’ve SAID THAT BEFORE, trying to reason with people and maybe budge their stance even an inch... It’s so rough, because it gets to the point where you’re compromising so much, just begging for one nugget of validation.. Anyway, I’ve been where you are! It’s even come to the point where my friends are like, “oh my parents said I can’t go see that movie because there’s gay stuff in it,” and I’ve actually had to be like, “oh it’s not that bad, it’s very subtle”, just so we can get the chance to hang out, meanwhile I feel like I’m betraying myself.
sabretoothed-moose-lion
Hi! Do you have any queer friends or access to queer groups at school? I know of ppl who are closeted at home but out to friends at school. Would that be possible for you right now? There are also queer religious groups that also have an online presence. I'm also in another fandom besides Shadowhunters where someone I'm following is also Christian, so maybe I can find their post where they posted some religious + queer resources, if that would help
Also, I grew up in a conservative and religious town, and that "levels of gay" homophobia is very common, you're not alone
Aw that’s so sweet of you! Here’s the thing, I DON’T have many queer friends in real life (I got like, one, bless ‘em), which kinda sucks! I really only interact on a friendly level with queer individuals online, which is a blessing, but as I head off to college, I’m really looking forward to getting the chance to make some close queer friends. And good Queer Christian resources are so few and far between, I would appreciate any that you would send my way! Luckily, I am blessed to have a mother and sister who love me unconditionally, and support me, and even if this stage of my life, continue to provide an openness and willingness to learn about my queer identity that has been truly invaluable.
And thanks for getting what I meant by the “levels-of-gay homophobia”, I was really hoping that wouldn’t be misconstrued lol
queeranerys
girl as a questioning lesbian living in a county that overwhelmingly voted for trump i feel you SO MUCH
IKR I’m right here in this country with ya, gurl! Here’s hoping to a brighter future for all of us, amirite ;)
#replies#day in the life of me#lgbt+#lgbtqia#lgbtq+#christians#christianity#queer christians#discourse#shadowfam#shadowhunters fandom#america#usa#homophobia#magnass-babe#sabretoothed-moose-lion#queeranerys
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I have a friend with an eating disorder and you seem to know a lot about it. and i don't know anything! so i'm wondering • how do you know so much, do you or a friend have one? • how can i support and help my friend through it. (he also has anxiety and depression so if you have any tips on them you could chuck them in) i know your not a professional but i want to know your personal tips on how you would (or currently do idk) support a friend thank you :))
hi, i myself have been through minor eating problems, but luckily its never spiralled or become a disorder of its own. most of the people im closest to have had EDs, so i do know a lot about supporting them through it. this message is kinda more tailored to EDs, but if u want more advice on the other stuff just shoot another ask bc i have a lot of experience w that too
i’ll preface this by saying that just as every person is unique, so will be their relation with their disorder. here are some ways you can help [under the cut because this got long]
TW: eating disorders, food, self harm, mental illness
getting help:
if your friend has an eating disorder, they need help. EDs are practically impossible to overcome on your own, and the longer someone goes without treatment, the harder it is to recover. without help, EDs have a very low survival rate
if theyre already getting help for anxiety/depression, they should tell the therapist and get help that way.
if theyre on a waiting list (or not receiving any help at all) they should tell their gp, and bc of the seriousness of EDs they will be seen faster
if theyre not ready to get treatment, you gotta gently but persistently encourage them to get professional help. in some situations, u might have to tell someone on their behalf, but i would say to avoid that or at least do it with open communication so they can still trust u after. denial is a Huge part of EDs, so u have to help them push past that
when they first start getting ed help, it will feel like therapists and doctors suddenly dont care about their mental well-being as long as theyre eating. if this is the case, they need to tell their therapist. hopefully their therapist listens, but if not then it could be an idea to carry on ed treatment w them, and see a different person abt the rest
recovery only really makes a difference when u stop fighting it. when u stop doing exercises in ur room, when u stop secretly tracking calories, when u stop only pretending to follow your therapy plan
supporting them
theyre gonna need u as a friend a lot in this time. if you can be someone they can depend on, thats the best thing. however, dont put their needs before ur own: u are just as important too
talk to them ! like when uve got depression, its easy to want to isolate urself. let me tell u, that gets u nowhere except miserable. just keep talking to them and stuff. sometimes its really important to be able to vent and talk out the big issues. other times its better to talk about light and unimportant things. i think this is the most important one
validate their struggles. this is v important because even tho u want to show them how life does get better, theyre going through genuine hell right now, so just pointing out that it gets better feels like ur ignoring how bad they have it
lead by example. do u struggle w body image? ya me too, but im working on it. work on it openly: promoting self love will help u both tremendously
here is a v good list of things to avoid
remember tht recovery is long hard and painful, but completely necessary. at the start of getting help, coping becomes really hard bc control gets taken away, and it seems like their entire life starts to revolve around food. it gets easier with time
recovery blogs r ur best friend!!!!!!!!! for both of u. they offer support and advice and constant insight into how u can be there for ppl, or urself. block thinspo blogs. they can rot. here are some good recovery blogs
find out what they like and dislike. and triggers. if they dont like people commenting on what they eat, always move the subject away from that if others start to talk. same w anything that makes them uncomfortable
encourage recovery. they will probably be constantly cold weak miserable and irrationally guilty, but recovery can change that. sometimes its important to remember just how bad being ill feels in order to keep choosing recovery (same goes for any mental illness)
things to remember (important for everyone to know, not just those supporting people)
an eating disorder is a mental illness, not a body type. any person of any shape can have an ED, they dont have to look a certain way for their struggles to be valid
an ED is a mental illness that affects the persons relationship w food. this means there are many different eating disorders, and none of them are more valid than another. not everyone restricts, not everyone purges, not everyone binges
some people develop food issues as a form of control: when everything else in your life is beyond you, its one thing people can control. until it begins to control them. this is why giving up control to start recovery can be so hard
for some people it’s body image issues. for some people its control (as said above). for some people its a way to self harm. for lots of people its any combination of the above
thats about all ive got right now, hopefully this is what you were after. if you dont feel confident in supporting them, keep asking people for advice. get your own chain of support (u cant support someone well unless u have people u can trust and confide in). follow recovery blogs. theyre honestly the best, and provide a better and more detailed insight than ive been able to. supporting people through things this huge is hard, and ur a good friend for trying.
its a learning process, and youll get better at it. thats why looking for other peoples advice is so important: it helps u improve. the first time i tried to help someone through an ED, i was 14 and with problems of my own, so i wasnt a good support at all, and i had no idea what to do. you’ll be better than i was (already seeking experienced advice shows this), and as long as you care youll be fine. your friend will be okay too, in time
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good luck on your undergrad my dude! i'm just getting my associate degree so i have something pretty to hang on my wall (sob)
thank you!! omg i feel your pain I DONT GET WHY A PIECE OF PAPER MATTERS SO MUCH!! 4 years for a bachelor in criminal justice smh like what am i supposed to do with this, reform the entire system?? i dont even remember anything, u kinda lose faith in everyone else who has a bachelors //actually imma do law school after taking a year off but i low key dont wanna do law school--it’s not even to make money cause what i wanna be is a prosecutor (no money) or work w juveniles (even less money)
it’s rly good that you’re going for it tho! obv college isnt accessible to everyone and there are many ppl that have been successful in heck, even in their freshman year of college w/o a degree, or w/o any college at all--it helps to have that piece of paper tho, so i’m proud of u! i hope you hopefully like what you’re studying, at least? i wasnt able to go for my first choice due to financial circumstances but luckily i’m happy in the end. i wanted to learn about societal problems and i did (even tho its depressing as heck, the documentaries we had to watch were o.o o.o o.o o.o)
#ive had a bunch of military friends who came back just for the degree so they can get a promotion#i have one thats like an fbi training officer now--i forgot to get his number tho#he said he'd get me a job rip in pieces me#johnnyjoestarrelatable#replies
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Hogwarts Students!BTS
Admin River speaks: ok i’ve had this idea for sO long and I’ve been rereading the series again for the 5th time rip me. but yeah just these are my opinions pls dont attack me ddjjfjfjs. Also I made this a while ago and recently Namjoon wrote where the members would be, I know, I know. So without further ado, enjoyyyy
Tae
• the cute Gryffindor who always seems to smile
• messy hair
• and robes
• his shirt is usually unbuttoned a few buttons
• loose tie
• his wand behind his left ear
• chaser !!!
• usually gets out of trouble because none of the teachers seem to be able to r e s i s t his s m i l e
• headmaster/mistress probably has a soft spot for him
• probably has rlly good grades, like all O’s maybe a few E’s
• “but, professor”
• can be restless and talkative in class
• is probably rlly into care of magical creatures
• Hagrid would absolutely a d o r e him
• just so full of life
• in the choir bc yes boi
• h o g s m e a d e especially when its s n o w i n g
• most likely part veela
• like have you s e e n him
• beauty right there
• is able to smuggle in firewhiskey
• laughs when the other students cant drink it and make a face
• laughs even more when they watch in horror as he downs a cup
• “the hell, tae ???”
• j o k e s h o p
• loves the Weasley’s joke shop
• talks to the ghosts and portraits a lot
• has probs accidently charmed a couple ladies in the portraits
• which comes in handy when he finds out all these secret passages
• loves flower crowns and loves making them during the spring
• “here yoongi i made u one”
• “..... I'm more concerned as how u knew thats my favorite flower.”
• “that’s your favorite flower?”
• “.... forget i said anything.”
• k just imagine after a game he flies down from his broom with a huge grin and pushes he goggles up and so his hair is all wild and even more messy
• n he brings every1 in a group hug and cheers “we won, we won !!!”
• even if they dont win be celebrates with the other team
•...somtimes.. be gets pouty tho
• “we literally could have won that was a foul :(“
Jin
• cute Hufflepuff
• always so full of advice
• if u want u could set up a lil date with him at hogsmeade to just talk about your problems and sip a warm drink
• so s o motherly
• sometimes he has a loose tie and disheveled hair
• he has rlly nice skin and the other students are like ??? tell me ur secrets ???
• hufflepuff’s dorms are by the kitchens so he probably made friends with the elves working there
• can probably walk in and out whenever he wants
• the few times he walks in late to class he probably has a few crumbs on his mouth or robes or maybe like some sugar or flour and its so e n d e a r i n g
• such a good student
• pays so much attention in class
• sometimes wears those glasses, you know which ones
• the girls probably all like him
• and a few boys too hehe coughsnamjooncoughs
• probably likes charms and maybe divination
• he probably also likes herbology
• also is probably in the choir because i mean have you h e a r d h i m
• loves going to Hogsmeade
• probably is pretty good friends with Madame Rosmerta
• exchanges recipes with her
• he seems so sophisticated and people probs look up to him a lot
• p r e f e c t
• h e a d b o y
• tells so many jokes to first years
• windshield laugh
• u would think the first years would be scared but no???
• they end being less nervous and smile and giggle with him
• even jin gets slightly surprised
• they end up getting close with him and almost like his own kids
• “but jiiiiiiiiinnn”
• “fine :/”
• ok but he stops so many fights n things from escalating too quickly
• both in the dorms and in bts
• even a couple teacher drama incidents
• professors lowkey want him to stay n teach there
• gets so worried??? About people ???
• he has a nervous tick where he keeps rubbing his hands as if he's putting on lotion
• but if he's rlly worried he's absolutely still and that's probs when u should be worried too
Yoongi
• ok he was rlly hard
• like i wanted to say slytherin but idk i felt like i was stereotyping a bit by looks
• i wanted to say ravenclaw but like idk man
• i think I’m settling for g r y f f i n d o r
• he’s rlly brave, man, like he went through so m u c h and he is so strong and f i g h t s back yanno
• some ppl probably can't understand why he’s a gryffindor and he wants to keep it like that lol
• he’s never seen doing his hw most of the time but gets ??? Perfect scores???
• he unbuttons one button on his shirt because its t o o t i g h t dammit i cant breathe
• also slightly loose tie
• defense against the dark arts all the way bro
• a knack for transfiguration but gets so flustered when the professor compliments him which means red cheeks and wide eyes for days
• hypes up quidditch so m u c h
• like if its rlly cold and its raining he’d be like ew gross no im not going
• but is a l w a y s there
• gummy smiles and screaming when they win
• he’s rlly good at quidditch but never joined bc “too much responsibility”
• he’s lowkey insecure about his skills but sshh dont tell anyone
• probs joins like 5th year
• a beater probably
• helps with stress lol
• he has so much confidence and ppl appreciate that and wish they had that
• joon gave him a music box once cause he thought it was rlly pretty n yoongi just fell in love with it
• ink stained fingers
Jimin
• the cute hufflepuff everyone adores
• hypes up friends 25/8
• talks in class and then gets sheepish and embarrassed when he gets called out to stop
• will fight??? Anyone ??? Who messes with his friends ???
• but liek if u hurt him u suddenly got all of hufflepuff as ur enemy sorry bro
• he’s so so sweet like he probably gives all his professors gifts for the holidays
• homemade cookies (with the help of jin ofc)
• probably takes up knitting so that he can make scarfs 4 his frens
• always there at quidditch games and hypes all his friend even if they’re against each other
• he’s so reliable???
• giggles 4 days
• but liek he is so cute n innocent but has laser focus and is so passionate about getting things done some ppl are just ??? Slytherin tho ???
• he’s the loyalist loyal to ever loyal
• he probs enjoys muggle studies
• muggle studies and potions
• he likes the fact that you get all these ingredients and then end up with this huge product that can save lives or end them w i l d t
• will stay up rlly late if u need someone to talk to
• will also make sure u go to ur dorm safely and probably tuck u in
• the kind of person every1 wants 2 protect
• but dOnt be fooled this boi can be solo mischievous
• its ok tho he cute
• he's like hot chocolate with whipped cream and caramel sauce
• ya feel?
• will break the rules if he has to don't underestimate him
• don't underestimate him in general
Namjoon
• ravenclaw!!!
• this boi is so smart like he could have easily pursued a career academically n wasnt he top of his class too ?
• even if that's wrong his lyrics sure prove it right
• he would do certain things and ppl would be like typical ravenclaw
• at first he was proudful of his house but then he slowly started getting insecure
• he didn't want to be known as this typical ravenclaw
• but he soon realizes that it's ok because he's just being himself n if ppl need to label things then o well
• v awkward but so w i s e
• like he thinks of so many abstract ideas that like??? It's amazing??
• carries around a lil notebook full of stories and poems
• so much p a t i e n c e
• he also feels so deeply and sometimes feels like exploding so he probably gets in lil moods where he wants to be alone
• luckily he has his frens (bts) who r like uhm bro let's talk
• so sweet and just wants the best 4 ppl but its sometimes hard to express t h a t
• stresses out easily during exams
• laughs and smiles that make flowers grow
• p r e f e c t a n d h e a d b o y
• he does lil things like save u butterbeer if ur not feeling well or get u sum sweets from Hogsmeade
• such a sweetheart
• luvs spending time outside especially during the spring
• lowkey writes poetry about his friends
• he just appreciates them so much
• transfiguration and ancient runes boi
• l i b r a r y
• Filch probably picks on the poor boy like
• joon is running back to his dorm after a study session in the library
• n filch is like iTs AftEr Hours
• and joon is like ??? I have 5 minutes ???
• sometimes he goes wide eyes like a deer in the headlights when he panics or doesn't know what's going on omg protect this boi
Hoseok
• okAy he's Ravenclaw tOo fIght mE
• he is just so fascinated by learning new things like
• wth that plant can do that???
• that animal exists ???
• w ow i e
• ok but sunshine boi
• is absolutely excited about herbology and care of magical creatures
• also charms
• he's just always so excited to learn new things !!!
• he stresses easily tho and breaks down a lot bc he gets a lot of pressure to get good grades
• like boi that's not ravenclaw calm ya shit
• frens defend him 25/8
• keeper!!!
• he learns to keep his wand hidden in weird places and like pulls it out at random places and ppl are like ???
• lots of screamign and happiness
• ppl get annoyed but it's hoseok he can do no wrong
• asks weird questions that are somehow relevant to the subject but r so abstract that even some professors are baffled
• he's so flexible ???
• like some ppl r just ??? How the h e ck??
• n liek the lil shit he is he winks and says “magic”
• lots of “hobi why”
• charms banners for quidditch when he doesn't play so they're all pretty n cool
• the school doesn’t suspect it's him
• him sharing a bunk with namjoon !!!
• luvs visiting Hagrid with Tae
• always has a new piece of info about dragons 2 share with Hagrid
• robes r usually wrinkled
• him wearing flower crowns/ bracelets that tae makes
Jungkook
• okay so
• hear me out
• s l y t h e r i n
• he was 15 when he debuted n liek ???
• he's 19 now ?? Thats a lot of ambition and hard work
• also he's a meme n he's cunning when he wants stuff
• n he also said he can handle hard schedules but when bts starts to hurt that's when he feels bad like ???
• but liek he gets kinda insecure sometimes bc slytherin is “””””bad””””””
• but he gets a talk from namjoon that ppl will be like that n to just ignore because a house is just supposed to let u be surrounded by ppl who r similar to u to learn better
• he also lowkey gives him permission to beat any1 up
• when he was younger he would sometimes sneak to other dorms
• to be with one of the members since be was insecure n shy with his house members
• but he soon grew confident and made other friends and bts were like proud moms lol
• seeker!!!!
• he always feels bad going against his frens but they just wink at him n he gets confidence
• frequent visits to madame pomfrey bc he a daredevil smh
• joins choir like 3rd year
• he hesitated for so long because he's an insecure bab and !!!!
• but tae n jin r liek cmon boi ur very good let's do this
• he pretends to be a bad boi with bts but he barely gets a glimpse of a professor n he quickly straightens his tie n smooths down his shirt
• art !!!!
• he likes to sketch ppl
• “hey yoongi do this with ur hands”
• wavy haired jungkook 6th n 7th year !!!!!
• his book bag has at least 2 sketchbooks
• he would feel so bad when ppl would notice his robes and point and whisper
• but they realized how he actually was n how bts treated him
• vvvv talented
• catches on to concepts right away
• ppl think he likes defense against the dark arts but actually……..
• care of magical creatures is his fav
• probs lowkey likes astronomy
#mama mario#sweg masta#j-sunshine#rap nun#chimchim#taetae baebae#golden kid#kim taehyung#taehyung#park jimin#jimin#jungkook#kim seokjin#seokjin#jin#namjoon#kim namjoon#min yoongi#yoongi#suga#jhope#jung hoseok#hoseok#jeon jungkook#hogwarts au#bts#bts squad#bts scenarios#jungkook scenario#jimin scenario
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#aight deadass its secret tag story time because my life is falling apart and i need to get it out#so basically the other day i found a love letter addressed to my mom when i was wearing her jacket#and it was from this guy at her job this rich surgeon guy#i know him very well he was reallt nice to me all the time#so anyways it wasnt just some one sided letter either#it STRONGLY HINTED at an affair going on#so yeah my mom? cheating on my fucking dad#and there’s absolutely nothing i can do about it unless i want my family structure to go to shit.#i mean ill be out of here in two years anyway#but my brother is young and i dont want him to grow up in a split household#it wont be good for him#and what if i gotta move away?#plus my mom probably wont like me anymore and its kinda hard to face that shes a shithead that would risk it all for some old rich surgeon#so like#i gotta keep it all inside which is very very hard#luckily she was on a business trip when i found out but tonight shes coming home and i really really dont wanna see her#hhhhhhhh#that concludes this episode of raz rambles#sorry this was so long and ijnthe tags#just dont want too many ppl to see
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