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binunus · 3 years

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sex with bin x eunwoo (m)

a/n THIS WHOLE ALBUM??? IS SO GOOD??? LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK !!!

also im so so sorry that i keep disappearing, every time I think I have a break in school, my professors keep going like sike here’s a new assignment and group presentation 🤡, but I swear I’m still working on all the requests, it’s just a real slow progression this time 😔

but thank you all so much for being really patient with me and my works, i legit wanna cry when I think about how sweet all you loves are ❤️

→ genre: smut

→ tw: threesome, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it lovies) dom!binwoo, brat!reader, light bondage?? anal, eiffel tower, oral (f and m receiving), fingering (f and m receiving), ~choking~ bc it’s me, squirting, v-voyeurism??

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oh good fucking lord

I don’t even know where to start

just the thought of getting dicked down by these two immaculate men??? at the same time??? i would sell my soul

and just binwoo are literally my biases?? im still going back and forth between them (even though I think bin is the top)

alright so how does this little thing even start

this is a non-idol au, lowkey this request is giving me frat boy vibes oops i said it

bin and eunwoo are close, they’re best buds

they have fucked the same guy/girl before, but never at the same time

they just have the same taste in people wink wonk

sidenote: bin and eunwoo as bi kings??? so much power fuck

so you are a mutual friend

you met them both in college and have stayed friends since then

but relationships aren’t for you (not yet at least)

the streets™ are still your companion

yes you have fucked both bin and eunwoo before in college, eunwoo once when you were junior, and bin a couple times throughout senior year

you don’t talk to them often, but if something comes up on your feed or a monumental event happens to any one of you, of course you’d spike up some conversation

so you’re coming back in town for a week or so, visiting old friends and family

and bin hits you up like “hey, I saw that you were in town! we should get some dinner and catch up!”

and you were not about to say no to that, bin was a good part of your college years! it would be nice to hang out with him again

alright you weren’t expecting to get action from this dinner – it popped in your mind, yes, but it wasn’t the ulterior motive

but did you try to dress up a little to impress moon bin?? maybe so

and shit, when he showed up to the restaurant looking like a whole ass man??

like did his biceps look more appetizing than the food you were being served? a little bit

conversation was exchanged very easily, you and bin were always a bit flirty with each other, ever since college, but you both knew it never meant anything beyond sex

and so when he asked if you were dating anyone, you knew this was the invitation, and were you going to accept it?? 100%, you haven’t had sex in a while because of your job

and so you find yourself back in bin’s apartment

bin: hm? I guess eunwoo’s not home from work yet

you: eunwoo? as in cha eunwoo? you guys still live together?

bin: yeah, we like living together, rent was cheaper that way, and this place is equidistant from both of our work places...is that a problem??

you: no, I mean it makes sense, just...what if eunwoo comes back while we’re in the middle of fucking...wouldn’t that be weird?

bin shrugging: you’ve had sex with eunwoo in college too, and it’s not like he hasn’t seen me naked before either. who knows he might even wanna join?

he said that as a joke alright

but as soon as he mentioned it, your eyes dilated a bit

bin noticed immediately and he caged you against the wall, a little smirk playing on his lips

bin: you seem to like that idea, y/n. hm? you wanna get fucked by both me and eunwoo? didn’t know you were into threesomes

your cheeks are flushing, you felt seen: would you feel weird if he joined? you guys are friends and roommates

bin shaking his head: me and eunwoo have talked about it before, and honestly this seems like the perfect opportunity. we’re all friends here.

you being nervous a little bit bc a threesome?? with both bin and eunwoo?? those two 6 foot attractive men??

you tried a threesome before bc you were curious, but it wasn’t the best hookup experience

you: should we...? wait for him??

your cheeks are flushed a little, like how were you supposed to go about this

bin smiles bc you look a bit cute right now being all shy and he just pinches your cheek

bin: you got cuter since we graduated y/n

you: shut the fuck up bin, don’t make me tie you up again

bin smirks and his hand moves from your cheek to fully grasp at your neck, he squeezes your throat as he pushes you so that your back collided with the wall: baby, if anyone’s getting tied up tonight, it’s gonna be you

and god if you weren’t horny before, you definitely are now, especially with the way bin was cutting off your airflow??? your head was spinning in the best kind of way

bin slotting his thigh in between your legs as he just crashes his lips onto yours

and he’s still choking you when he literally shoves his tongue down your throat, you have to grab onto his broad shoulders just to steady yourself

making out with bin is so hot

he picks you up by your ass and you wrap your legs around his waist, you both are still making out as he leads you to the couch

you’re straddling him oh lord have mercy

you in between kisses: why don’t we go to your room? what, is it messy?

you moan as he spanks your ass at the quip: we’re gonna need to do something about that smart mouth of yours baby...and we’re here to give eunwoo a little show when he comes home. Why, you need a bed? pillow princess? last time I remember, you were fine getting fucked in the maintenance room.

you two go back to kissing, bin’s hands were gripping at your waist now, lifting up the bottom of your shirt so that you could take it off

never in your life have you been so happy to wear a skirt, you could feel the outline of his bulge against your underwear, the fabric of his jeans giving you just enough friction

and when you start grinding on him, he grunts into your mouth and bites on your lower lip

and fuck when bin removes his shirt? he was always built in college but the definition of his muscles now?? you were literally drooling

you: holy shit bin, isn’t your job in business? where do you find the time to workout?

he’s kissing your neck now: you can always find time to workout y/n, just make it part of your daily routine

exercise evangelist moonbin™

you’re tilting your head to the side giving him more access, bin’s sucking hickeys into your neck and it just feels so good

your neck’s a sensitive spot, if you couldn’t tell

and bin knows that so he’s paying extra attention to your neck, you don’t even notice when his hands go around your torso to unclasp your bra

the two of you are literally just topless on his couch, making out and feeling each other up, when lo and behold, eunwoo comes home

his eyes go wide and he immediately covers his face: jesus christ bin, go to your fucking room

bin starts laughing, you know his laugh where his eyes literally crinkle and he smiles so wide and his laugh increases in pitch, that one

you can’t help but laugh too, you thought you would be embarrassed, but this is a bit funny

you: you don’t have to cover your eyes eunwoo, it’s not like you haven’t seen any of this before

eunwoo: oh shit, hey y/n, didn’t know you were coming over?? well...uh if you guys aren’t gonna go to bin’s room, I’m going to mine and just let me know when you’re done

bin: you sure you wanna go to your room? y/n wants you to join us

eunwoo’s blushing a little bit (he’s not covering his face anymore) when you two meet eyes: are you sure y/n?

you get a bit shy again bc shit, eunwoo in a suit coming from work with silver-blue hair? sexy

you: yeah...if you want to, me and bin are cool with it.

bin’s back to kissing your neck as you basically watch eunwoo remove his jacket and tie

and oof him unbuttoning his dress shirt? y’all he’s a tease, they both are

bin: let’s take this back to my room

eunwoo: we can go to mine, it’s cleaner and my bed’s bigger

you: i knew it

bin bites your shoulder and you let out a mix between a yelp of pain and a moan

bin: eunwoo get your ropes, we need to teach y/n a lesson on being bratty

eunwoo chuckling as he leads the way to his bedroom

bin already made himself comfortable on eunwoo’s bed, and you’re standing to the side making conversation as eunwoo looks through his closet for the ropes lol

as soon as eunwoo finds it, there’s a dark change in his eyes and he smirks at you: why don’t you join binnie on the bed, y/n?

your stomach turns in excitement, eunwoo tosses the ropes to bin and he puts a hand on your back as he leads you to his bed, and before you could get on by yourself, eunwoo just tugs your skirt down making you gasp

you lie down and bin grins as he binds your wrists to eunwoo’s headboard, usually you would put up a little fight when you get tied up, but you just stayed silent, you were anticipating what would happen next

bin: you’re being oddly obedient y/n

you’re a brat okay, but in the past when you and bin used to hook up, your brattiness increased by like 100%, like you’re extra bratty with bin for some reason

~it is what it is~

maybe it’s because eunwoo’s here too that your bratty side has suppressed a bit

bin and eunwoo both start removing all their clothes and you’re like shit eunwoo’s built too

bin settles in between your legs and eunwoo leans in and starts kissing you

and mmm eunwoo’s good at making out like he legit be taking your breath away and then you start feeling bin take off your soaked panties and he just goes right in

you literally moan into eunwoo’s mouth and your hands are straining against the ropes bc you just want to hold onto something !!

eunwoo feeling up your breasts and tweaking your nipples while bin is sucking on your clit and probing his tongue in and out your entrance??? euphoric

you’re literally feeling so many sensations right now and it’s just foreplay woo

and then the edging starts

bin??? hella good at eating out, oof what that mouth do

and with the added stimulation from eunwoo kissing your neck and pulling at your nips, you’re reaching your orgasm faster than anticipated

and suddenly they’re both off you

you: what the fuck?

you’re like gasping and glaring at the both of them and they just give you smug looks

bin: I don’t know if you deserve to cum just yet, y/n. right, eunwoo?

eunwoo chuckling as he nods and flicks at your nipple: binnie told me that you like talking back, hmmm that won’t work with both of us here y/n

your submissiveness kicking in and you’re whining: i won’t talk back, I promise

bin: I don’t know if I believe you y/n

and then they switch places and now bin’s making out with you again and eunwoo’s face to face with your cunt and he just shoves two fingers in your entrance and starts scissoring you

and right as you’re about to cum, they pull away again

this goes on at least two more times, you’re literally so frustrated tears are pooling in your eyes and you’re whining hard as hell, your wrists already aching from the ropes

eunwoo: do you want us to untie you, y/n?

you nodding as you’re sniffling back the tears

aww they feel bad so eunwoo unties the ropes and he’s like gently rubbing at your wrists

bin wiping your tears away as he pinches at your cheek again

bin: you okay, y/n?

you: I’m so close, please

bin: alright baby, who do you want first, hm?

you honestly didn’t know, you had no preference, you just wanted to get railed

eunwoo: why not both?

your eyes go wide a little bit, your ass isn’t even prepped

bin sensing your hesitation and he just puts a hand on your waist: if you don’t want to--

you: no, i want to...I’m just...my ass isn’t ready...

eunwoo laughing cutely as he pats your thigh: we’ll prep you baby, don’t worry

you start by going on all fours, bin enters you first from behind and the groan he lets out bc you’re just so tight wow

he literally has to restrain himself from just ramming into you, your walls just fit so snugly around him, his nails were digging into the skin of your waist

you open your mouth in a moan at the stretch and in that moment, eunwoo shoves his cock down your throat you literally gag

for reference, they’re both above average, no surprise there, I’d say both around 8 in., but bin’s girthier for sure

and so bin’s fucking your cunt while eunwoo’s fucking your mouth

simultaneously, eunwoo tugs at your hair and bin sneaks a finger down to gather some juices from your pussy before probing at your asshole

bin’s prepping you real well mmmmm

he’s literally fingering your ass while he’s pounding into you, the tip of his cock hitting so deep in your cervix

on the other hand you’re so focused on sucking eunwoo off, you take him as deep in your throat as you could, letting your jaw slack as he just thrusted in your mouth

and also the vibrations of your moans around his cock every time bin hits deep in you???

eunwoo swears he almost busts a nut when your hands reach up to play with his balls

he’s panting as he pulls your mouth off his cock: I need to be inside you before I cum

and then he’s lying down on his back and you start to ride eunwoo, and then bin lines his cock up at your other hole and you start to tense

eunwoo bringing you into a kiss to try and distract you from the pain your asshole’s about to feel

and you start hissing as bin starts to push in, you’re clenching so hard around eunwoo and tugging tightly at the ends of his hair

eunwoo starts making circles on your clit so that you could relax a bit to make it easier for bin to enter your back hole

and then the three of you just stay still for a bit when bin finally bottoms out, you’re still trying to get used to feeling stuffed full, you haven’t been fucked in so long and now you’re getting railed by two cocks??

the two of them are both saying sweet things to calm you down and distract you from the pain

and it’s cute, you know from your respective past hookup experiences with them that they’re really good at sensing discomfort or pain and would always tend to your needs

oof baby but as soon as you give the okay for both of them to move

it’s like you’re taken to another dimension holy shit

they both hit so deep, you swear to god their cocks have to be touching or something, or maybe at least reaching your intestines

when people say rearrange your guts, it definitely must have been this

you’re trying to set a pace on top of eunwoo, but bin thrusting from behind literally makes your knees go weak until eunwoo just lifts his hips and takes over, matching bin’s speed

and imagine this: bin pulling your hair, making your head tilt back and eunwoo just reaches up and covers your neck with his hand before he squeezes at your throat

your eyes are literally rolling into the back of your head, you have never felt this good ever in your life

your head’s spinning again, and you know all three of you are reaching the tipping point pretty soon, your stomach is churning, making you clench hard around both eunwoo and bin

eunwoo biting his lip as he groans, his grip tightening just a bit more around your neck

bin’s still yanking your hair back and he starts spanking your ass, he’s moaning as well

you literally scream, throat feeling raw, as you cum, you have never orgasmed so hard before, your body was convulsing around both of them and you just collapse on top of eunwoo

you’re vision literally sees white and your ears are ringing as they both cum in you

you black out for a little bit

eunwoo and bin: o_o holy fuck

the two of them start panicking like...did they just fuck you dead?? put you in a coma??

okay but just imagine eunwoo and bin bickering with each other about what to do like

bin: do we call 119???

eunwoo: what do we say? we fucked our friend into a coma?

it’s okay because you regain consciousness soon enough and both boys let out the biggest sigh of relief

you: ...what happened?

eunwoo: you passed out for a bit there y/n

you start giggling, much to their surprise, and you try to sit up

bin: ...are you okay y/n?

you: yeah, I can’t believe I blacked out because you guys fucked me so well, that’s pretty hot not gonna lie

eunwoo goes into the kitchen real quick to get you some water and bin sits down next to you

you thank eunwoo when he hands you the glass and he sits across from you and bin

the two roommates exchange a look and just high-five each other

you roll your eyes as they just laugh at each other...ugh boys

bin teasing you: I’ve never seen you so submissive y/n

eunwoo joining in: yeah, didn’t know you could squirt as well

you almost spit out the water: i-huh? no way

eunwoo: yeah, my stomach was soaked, I wiped it off when you were out

your face flushes, you’ve never squirted before

bin: don’t be embarrassed! it was hot, y/n, really

the three of you then just jump into a casual conversation about college, keep in mind you’re all still naked

and then you feel the cum just like in both your holes and it’s just uncomfortably sticky

you: uh...do you guys mind if I shower? my pussy feels gross right now

bin, with a glint in his eyes: I can clean that up for you, baby

before you know it, bin’s eating you out again -- to be more specific, he’s literally licking the mixture of yours and eunwoo’s cum from your cunt

that’s sexy...

you make eye contact with eunwoo and he’s just smirking as he sits back and watches you two, no intention on joining yet

alright but you had no idea if you could take another round right now, the first one literally made you pass out

so after bin makes you cum again, you tap out for the night

the three of you shower -- separately -- and then regroup in the living room to just chat and chill

the two insist you sleep over for the night since it’s past midnight by now

were there also hints of a round two in the morning?? maybe

you sleep in one of eunwoo’s shirts, but end up sleeping next to bin bc he’s whiny and likes cuddling

you three fuck again in the morning oops until eunwoo had to leave for work

then you and bin fuck again afterwards

happy threesome

happy comeback :)

4-5-21

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phantomthiefsbitch · 3 years

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phantom thief au oneshots p1

"Are you sure we can get away with this?" "Oh no, I'm just bringing you here because I knew we were gonna get caught! Obviously!" "I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not at this point." The moon shone over the cracked sidewalk, making the raindrops glimmer like diamonds in the warm sunlight. Skyscrapers towered over everything in sight, blinding us to the far sides of the city. I was assigned a mission. A mission to find the world-renowned phantom thief and send him to justice. Pfft, that's easier said than done. The main plan was simple really. Pretend to be on his side, lure him to an obscure area no one can see, and put him in cuffs. We continued walking towards where ever the hell he was leading me. You'd think a rational person would've backed out. I mean, he could be taking me anywhere! He could be taking me to a fucking torture chamber for all I know! But I'm almost 100% sure that where ever he was taking me, wasn't going to harm me in any way. You see, the thing about the phantom thief is that he hasn't been loved much in his years, meaning if you treat him with the smallest bit of consideration he'll never ever forget it. Fortunately for me, I've studied human psychology for quite some time now, and I've been trying to understand him more using that knowledge. "Welp, we're here!" We stood before the grand building decorated with bright neon lights, forming the words "CASINO" in huge bold lettering creating a city-wide purple light source. Is this really where he was taking me? It seemed so noticeable and obvious. "There's no way in hell that we aren't gonna get caught in there! Are you out of your mi-" I felt a warm finger brush over my lips as I looked down, finding myself staring directly into his eyes. Shhhh, I promise we won't get caught. I have a plan! Just follow my lead, 'kay?!" He lifted his hand off my chin and clutched my hand, walking me to the entrance as he pulled out a key from his hand and unlocked the enormous wooden door. Immediately as we entered, the scent of booze and air freshener filled my lungs. The walls were painted with a red and black checkerboard pattern, complimenting the black marble floor which was covered in old magazines, cigarettes, and empty beer cans. "I know, I know, this isn't the greatest place! But don't worry, my dearest detective, there's more! Follow me!" He ran to a small hallway that blended in with the walls in the corner of the room, leading me to a silver elevator, lined with gold string, making it look like a child's birthday party. The button on the left lit up as he aggressively clicked it, making the doors open into a rather cramped space. The clamping of his boots against the hard marble floor echoed throughout the building as he stepped into the elevator. "Where are you taking me?! I asked for a meetup spot, not a casino!" "Nee-heehee! A casino is technically a meetup a lot, silly! And either way, the whole casino thing is just a disguise for what this place actually is!" The elevator door slowly creaked open, revealing a calm little room. There were maybe around 9 or 10 people there, all doing something different. "Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, welcome to D.I.C.E's headquarters!" he shouted, even though I was the only one entering the room.

[7:18 PM]"Hey, don't you think it's a bit...err...irresponsible to show the person trying to capture you your gang's headquarters? I mean, what if I was with the police?!" "Now now, it's not time to worry about that! Let's just relax! Hey guys, could you leave me and Shuichi alone for a while?! Go to your rooms or something!" As if they were robots, they all got up and walked to the doors with their suitable nametags on them. His smile slowly dropped as he put his hand on my shoulder, looking me dead in the eyes. "Is something wrong?" "Don't play dumb. How could my dear detective do this? I thought maybe someone, anyone, could care about me or even just listen to what I had to say! But it seems as if I was wrong..." Even though he was a liar, he sounded genuinely upset and betrayed. No matter how hard I tried fighting it, I really did feel awful for him. No matter how bad he was, he didn't deserve this. "N-No, you've got it wrong!" I was just following instructi-"

"Oh come on, there's no need to lie! But y'know, I do think there was some truth to your act. Even as a liar myself, the way you talked to me, it was definitely an act out of lust. I mean, if it really was a lie, I'm both upset that you lied to me and proud of how amazing of a liar you are! But I seriously doubt that you were lying." I quickly took my handcuffs out, trying to hide how nervous I was. "You're under arrest. Don't try resisting any further." "Awww, what a shame! But unfortunately, I can't let you arrest me! Sorry not sorry!" "I have a weapon." I exclaimed, pointing my tazer directly at him, feeling my body sway back and forth slowly.

"Nee-heehee! And I don't?" I flinched as he cocked his gun, putting it so close I could feel it brush against my forehead. "I'm not gonna hurt you, unless you try something. I know you don't wanna turn me in. You really do wanna understand me right? Don't you wanna know why a villian like me does so many bad things? Actually, you don't need to answer that. I know you do! So just listen to my plan, 'kay?! You're gonna go over to the cops and tell them that you couldn't catch me in time. Just give me a chance, alright? I mean, you obviously don't have a choice!" His slender fingertips traced my face as he glared deep into my eyes. "You're really pretty, you know that?" My face flushed into a light red shade which I quickly fought against. "Aww, someone's nervous! Well no wonder, you have a gun to your head! Soooo, do we have a deal or not?! Just a reminder, you only choice is yes!" I should've said no, tazed him, and put him in handcuffs. I should've stopped him. But something inside me, I don't know, fear? Lust? Nervousness? Something inside me just didn't let me do that. "Y-Yeah, okay." "Nee-heehee! Yay! Hey, by the way, can I have your number?! Don't you want the nitty-gritty details of my plan?! I know you do!" ... "Riiiight, well, here's my totally legit business card! Alright, bye bye now!" I thought he'd leave a normal way, like through the elevator we came from or like, go back into his room. Nope. He opened a window, falling backwards into the late night streets giggling. No matter how much I tried to bury it, he was right. I felt drawn to him, more than just being curious about his lies and his motives. Maybe I was trying to deny it, not because I was scared of getting fired, but in fear for my own life.

#saiouma #phantom thief au #oumasai #shukichi #oneshots #fluff #phantom thief #danganronpa #drv3 #danganronpa v3

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championofdnd · 3 years

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Gonna rant for a bit. Normally I wouldn't put anything about work online but I am so freaking frustrated. I came into this job (Sys Admin) with 0 experience. My boss and team lead knew this. In my interview (with both of them, not with hr) I was very honest about how much I actually knew.

So they hire me for my enthusiasm. I spend the first week getting my work station set up, doing the mandatory trainings, and learning people's names. The standard. And then I ask for work... The team lead is swamped with an emergency fix, use this website to start working on this cert that we want you to get. Okay cool I get it, I'll ask again tomorrow, and the day after that, and the next week... And oh I got access to the servers, I need to go test my log in to ALL of them k. Anything else I can do to break the tedium? Documentation. Documentation of what? Oh right of stuff I haven't been shown how to do... Okay...

Like I can go google how to create a user on the system or how to install an operating system, but that doesn't tell me how your system is set up. Even if i had experience I'd still be asking, hey whats this server for? How do we move code between the environments? What software suites do we use for this task? Do we have a license for this product and what does the license allow? How do we normally access the systems, as root, as an individual user, as a group user?

And since I have 0 experience, I don't always have the right words to ask the question. So I end up with a lot of just show me. But I wouldn't get shown unless I ask 100 times. And I take notes but they aren't perfect so I have to come back later for clarification. But I'm expected to have finished this document on how to do this process I've seen done once so the doc can be used in an AUDIT??? So it has got to be right! And yeah my team lead is to busy to review it...

So I talk to my boss every week or so, how are things going. Well I've been working on the cert training and I've learned this and that recently. Does team lead answer your questions? Yeah sometimes he takes a while to get back cause he's always swamped but he's super friendly about it when I do get ahold of him. (Did I mention I started this job during quarantine, so guess who wasn't physically in the office the first 4months, team lead, so I'm relying on him answering my calls or calling back or responding to email/im). I mention it'll be easier when he can come back into the office but I of course understand why he can't at the moment. So boss asks if I have enough work. Well, I have a hard time getting work from team lead cause he's always swamped so finding time to delegate work is hard especially since he's so used to working alone but I'll keep asking and also since I don't have a lot of experience it can be hard cause he has to set aside to show some basic stuff. But again once he's in the office I'm sure it'll be better. Until then im keeping busy, after all itsy IT there's always plenty to do and it all needed to be done yesterday! So I'll keep working on that cert for now.

I pick up a few new small tasks every week, and report what I'm learning to boss. He double checks I'm busy enough cause he doesn't want me getting bored and leaving, they really want to keep me on. At some point I ask the receptionist if I can help her out with anything since team lead is swamped and my work load is light. I get chewed out by boss a few hours later and team lead calls and says he can give me some work tomorrow (which he does).

So I finally get to start ramping up it seems, boss wants everything I'm learning documented yesterday but I shrug that off cause that's normal IT proceedure. But team lead is still swamped so it takes a day to get answers to anything especially since he's still working from home.

This whole time I'm hearing about all the mistakes my predecessor (actually the last three) made, and how it's left team lead gun shy of trusting people with certain environments. And I'm like you know that's fair, I'm really process driven and quite cautious so I think it will work out. And so I'm like hey why don't I watch you do it a few times and then I'll do it a few times with you watching over my shoulder to point mistakes before I make them and then I can give it a shot on my own. And that's a great approach for me, makes me more comfortable with the work, and it's supposed make my team lead more comfortable.

So we're about 4mos in. Team lead comes back into office. There's some adjustments to be made. My workload is a rollercoaster of several things due yesterday to just doing cert training cause team lead is swamped and I know better by now than to bother asking. I'm still pretty well giving the same update to boss. There's been a few hiccups, missed a meeting here, messed up something small here. I learned how to fix the mistakes, documented everything for future reference. Boss says what matters is we don't make the same mistake twice. And I show where I documented it and I dont make the same mistake twice.

And so month five I ask boss if they're gonna hire me full time (i was on a 6mo trial) and how to start that process. And he says send him my updated resume so they can create a position and he has to double check with team lead just to make sure but that everything should be good to go.

Everything was not good to go. He comes back the next week and says team lead isn't sure I can do the job so I need to work extra hard these next two weeks to prove I can.

And well I deflated. How was I going to prove I could do the job? I'd done the tasks given me. I'd gotten good reviews. Was I asking too many questions? Team lead had commented several times that I didn't ask enough. But I'd only had a month to be able to corner him to ask things. And by this point I knew the answers to the tasks I was given, I'd done them all before. Was it because I'd missed/been late to some meetings? That was on me but it hadn't happened as of late and that mostly seemed to bug my boss not my team lead who brushed it off or missed/was late himself. And I'd fixed that problem. Was it because I wasn't surgically attached to my phone? Seriously get over it. If that's the issue I'm out, and you also need to be more clear on that expectation from the get go. So i spinu wheels and flounder for two weeks the work I'm assigned clearly isn't proving I can do this job amd my motivation flies out the window. It was a bad two weeks and I didn't know how to fix it (honestly I still don't entirely).

Team lead pulls me aside to say boss is very unimpressed (no duh, I've done nothing for two weeks) and wants to know if I still want the job since I've seemed very unenthusiastic as of late. Yes I still want the job. I do actually like the work I've been given. I'll try and fix my attitude (this was on a Thursday, a lot of people don't work Fridays at this office).

Monday the contracting company that's handling this trial period sets up a meeting, with their hr. I'm not meeting snuff. Why. I need to fix this. I need to attend meetings. I need to meet deadlines. Im legit like no duh, if I knew what the issue was I'd of already fixed it. Im as frysty as anyone but sure if it makes you happy I'll say I'll do those things.

Then Tuesday I have the epiphany. This is stupid. Of course I'm not doing the work. The work is pointless from my perspective. It's not gonna prove I deserve the job. It's the same I've been doing for months that I was told was good enough only to find out at the last minute that actually no it wasn't? If course I'm going to struggle. There has been a massive miscommunication here!

So after talking it over with the SO to make sure I'm not crazy and to hash out what I want to say I set up a meeting with my boss. This was last week. Team lead is gone for fourth of july already. I explain my epiphany that if team leads wants me to prove I can do something he needs to give me work that will prove it. I accept I've had a bad few weeks, the trial has been extended a month and I'm ready to bounce back.

Except team lead is gone so I've got the same old work to do that Thursday friy. And I don't do it, I'm still not convinced it matters. We came back in the office on Tuesday. I own up to not having done that work yet but knock it out quickly that morning and start asking questions about my next task. Oh it's the same thing you've done before but on a new server, you need to select one different option when you do it... Oh..kay... Whelp it's gotta be done its a new server I convince myslef this will prove something to team lead and go knock it out. End of the day I swing by to ask a question and team lead had to leave early (it was a legit reason, had to take dog to the vet, but it's annoying at this point). But he didn't bother telling me this, boss has to tell me.

So Wednesday (yesterday) I come in and flounder, I still have the same old tasks. After luch i worj up the resolve to tey asking team lead what else I can do. I can knock out the tasks I have pretty quick. He'll have to find something for me. I don't hear back that day.

So here I am this morning, I'm fed up. SO thinks I should call team lead out to boss. I'm having a hard time with it though. Is it really his fault? Maybe I'm not pushing hard enough for more work? I mean haven't explicitly gone to his office and said give me more challenging work or else. Like how do I say that. At this point I'm struggling to complete the easy tasks I have, why would he give me something harder? But they themselves have said the receptionist could do what I do. I just. I don't want to even bother at this point...

#rant #soap box #IT #work #work sucks #difficult conversations

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ae0nx · 4 years

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FRUITS BASKET S2 EPISODE 8 RECAP!

The beach ‘arc’ is always curious to me cos it’s not an arc really. It’s full of little, tiny explosions that are some how connected to each other but there isn’t really a clear beginning or end to it like there could be to the True Form arc (kinda)... It’s all a spider web, part of a bigger spider web and I love it!

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- The episode is called ‘Dog’... I’m just gonna leave that here as a fact cos I’m still working out as to why.

Yay! More Rin! Coming in with the honest and hard hitting question:

Also, outfit appreciation goes to Rin! OF COURSE. I remember when I had my goth corset phase in my late teens... I might bring it back.

- Yay, Kagura’s mum! We stan loving parents in Furuba! (but once again, fuck Akito and this whole fuckin system)

I think this might be the first and only time that my thoughts and actions have aligned with Kagura...!

One of my favourite things about the beach arc, is how willing everyone is to protect Tohru and keep her away from Akito (as much as they can anyway). They all love her so much! And I wish Tohru would accept their love freely.

Although, let’s get real. If you knew a family after a few months, I feel like you’d naturally feel like you didn’t have as much of a place within the family compared to the other members who’ve known each other for YEARS. Which is something that was kinda explored in the last few episodes of the 2001 Fruits Basket but that wasn’t really the place to do so...

- I didn’t even wanna screencap any of the Akito/Haru scene cos all I have to say is... gross

TO MORE IMPORTANT STUFF:

CUTE! I love Yuma Uchida’s delivery of Kyo’s line. It was great.

The cutest of jump attacks <3

- Yuki and Haru laughing together is always great. ALWAYS. Yuki laughing in general? Just... so nice :)

Yuki’s such a goddamn dating sim sometimes 😂

Look at the cool boys, looking cool 😂

Lol even though this is mostly played for laughs, I can’t help but feel a little pang in my heart every time Yuki is mean to Kyo. I’ve said this before, but personally, I think that even though they’ve each gone through their own hardships and battles in similar and in completely different ways... Yuki does hold a bit more privilege than Kyo. Plus, Yuki ALWAYS wins! And he always ends up looking like a bit of a jerk...

Ah well, these are the zodiac roles they’ve been assigned to after all...

- Did Rin walk all the way to the beach?! In heeled boots?! Sounds like me in my late teens, for sure

🙄

Akito and their rambling villain speeches... it’d be funny if they didn’t have the amount of power and control over every aspect of the zodiac clan’s lives but whatever

Kureno, SHHH! 🤐

Ah, shit...

Wow... that look. That delivery. FFS, Kureno! We were all just trying to have beach fun 😭

- I hate and love how close these Akito scenes are cut to Kyoru cuteness scenes... talk about a foreshadowing 👀

KYON-KYON! 😺

I legit blushed too when I saw this scene. I can’tttt! I’m running out of ways to say how cute they are and this is just the beginning, omg

- It suddenly turned into a shonen origin story when Kyo started explaining to origins of the beads. Blood and bone... hardcore. Part of me does wander if Takaya-sensei pulled a Stephanie Meyer and retold the story through Kyo’s eyes would Fruits Basket turn into a shonen anime? Haha (I really don’t want this. Please don’t make it a thing.)

It’s interesting (and also not surprising) how Kyo linked the sacrifice of the monks to Kazuma (A/N: Just got reminded of what scene it was... oh shit, my bad!). It makes me wander if Kyo will ever 100% accept Kazuma’s love and care without seeing it as something he owes him. That he deserves to be cared for... Dudeee 😩

I can’t stand them 🤡

There’s always something! Even the ocean thought they should cool the fuck down ahaha

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I don’t know how else to say this now. Je les aime tellement!! He held her face! It’s too much. Blushing 27 year old here.

“SHE’S A HORSE!” (A Hermsaur reference haha)

... Oh?

I feel like the anime really does sexualise Rin but then again I feel like the manga did too? And I’m getting the feeling that... that’s the point? In a lot of ways she does fit the ‘femme fatale’ role without it being egregious. So, besides that Shigure scene, I’m not too mad at it... for now...

- ‘A voluptuous beauty’ ahahahha. I’m here for Tohru’s bisexual awakening and I’m here for the Rin/Tohru dynamic, I can’t waitttt :3

Ethereal Goddess Tohru Honda returns!

I love this moment between her and Yuki. Tohru coming to trust Yuki to be able to handle himself in a tough situation (like a typical mama) and Yuki’s new found confidence in that he can handle almost... everything.

It was a literally refreshing scene.

Shit.

And as always Shigure is painfully the ironic narrator of it all. I hate him.

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Back to the episode title ‘Dog’.... I don’t know why the episode was called that. Was it in reference to how Rin was kinda sniffing down tracks towards Akito like a dog? And how everyone in the zodiac is kinda obedient to Akito like a dog? Or how Akito treats everyone (especially Kureno) as dogs?

(A/N: Apparently CrunchyRoll got the episode title wrong so all that theorising was for nothing lol)

If anything I feel like last week’s episode should’ve been called ‘Dog’ just simply based on Shigure’s behaviour being top awful form.

But, it was another fun episode this week. I’m expecting full on juicy mess next week.

See you then!

#fruits basket #furuba #fruits basket 2020

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cnrmrphy-blog · 5 years

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life as we know it

title: life as we know it paring: (eventual) connor murphy x fem!reader fandom: dear evan hansen warnings: slight cursing summary: a mishap with a printer led to what one would probably call a serendipitous encounter. author’s note: uh, hi! this is the first thing i’ve written in years, holy shit. also, this is 100% going to be a self indulgent series like a sitcom of sorts, i don’t necessarily care enough to think of a legit plot atm. enjoy!

This is bullshit. Absolute, fucking bullshit.

You sped walked through the maze of hallways that all looked the fucking same, cursing the universe and whatever god was in charge of it for everything that had to align to bring you to this moment. It was supposed to be a simple essay.

“Good luck honey! The first day is always the easiest! And it’s senior year! How exciting!”

Yeah, okay. Your mother knew jack shit about high school apparently.

You sighed. It wasn’t her fault. You just can’t find your god forsaken summer assigned essay that you needed for your next class to make a good first impression. Besides, isn’t it a grade or something? Who assigned an essay as a grade before school even started?

You laughed. This was bullshit.

After a few more minutes of walking, you saw a familiar door at the end of the hallway. A little sigh of relief exhaled from your chest.

Ah, gotcha!

You walked into the library and glance around. There was no one in here except two other boys who were talking to each other at the other end of a row of computers, near a printer. You paid them no mind as you chose the farthest computer away from them and sat down. A few clicks of the keyboard and a message on the screen reading that a few cents were going to be taken out of your school account later and you were waiting for your essay to print.

“So! Um, what happened to your arm?”

You looked up. One of the boys, a tall one wearing all black with a messenger bag (with some pretty sick buttons, you weren’t going to lie) slung over his body, shuffled his feet and unsurely pointed at the other boy’s arm. The other boy, wearing a blue polo and khaki pants, fidgeted with his hands and wouldn’t meet the other kid’s eyes. The whiteness of his cast was almost blinding, the poor guy. You bit your lip with sympathy.

“Oh—I, um, fell out of a tree, actually.”

“Fell out of a tree. Well, that’s just the saddest fucking thing I’ve ever heard, oh my God.”

“I know.” They both chuckled, but looked like they were at a loss of what to say next.

You cringed a little bit. Those boys are the most awkward people I have ever seen, Jesus Christ.

You didn’t want to eavesdrop. You really didn’t. But they weren’t exactly quiet, and what else were you supposed to do? They’ve piqued your interest.

“Um, no one’s signed your cast.” The boy wearing black vaguely gestured at the other boy’s cast.

“No, I know.” The boy in question seemed to shrink into himself, and it kind of broke your heart.

“Well, I’ll sign it.”

The pang in your heart crawled up your throat. That’s actually really sweet.

It was clear they weren’t friends, but that guy volunteered to sign anyways. Shit, you wouldn’t mind having friends. Maybe you should introduce yourself? Offer to sign the other boy’s cast too? It would be a great ice breaker after all, and they look like they could be your friend, just maybe—

Wait, girl, you gotta focus. Where’s your essay?

Right. You glanced at the printer next to you only to see that it was empty.

...Okay. This is fine.

You glanced at the computer to see the message saying that the printing should be done.

This is 100% fine.

You sat back in your chair, sucking in a breath in order to keep from having a mental breakdown in the middle of the library. You really didn’t need this right now. You really didn’t need this right now.

You helplessly stared at the screen in front of you, panic bubbling from your stomach into your throat. You could try again. Or ask for help. Which would be logical, right? God, why couldn’t things just be easy for you for once?

You looked up at the two boys again, but the mood was not the same as before. There was fear in the boy in the blue polo’s eyes and rage in the other’s.

Uh, okay?

Your eyes took a quick glance down and saw a few sheets of paper crumpled in the tall one’s hands. Oooh no.

“Fuck you!”

Well, that startled you. He rushed out of the library and the other boy started frantically calling his name—Connor?—and ran after him.

Your mind turned off. You weren’t thinking. You definitely weren’t thinking. Because if you were, you would have just let that guy go and ask the librarian for help with your essay. A few cents out of your account didn’t mean anything—it’s literally just a nickel (a goddamn nickel—if your mother saw you right now, she would so yell at you for your lack of common sense).

But where was the fun in common sense?

You grabbed your stuff and rushed out after them. You cursed quietly under your breath because you have no idea where they went, and you realized that there might be a slight flaw in your non-plan.

Just pick a direction! What’s the worst that could happen? If it comes to it you can just tell your teacher that you forgot it at home or something.

So, you went left. You sped walked along the lockers, hoping to at least hear them, or see something…

You turned a corner and saw a flash of a messenger bag with some pretty sick buttons down the hallway. You picked up your pace, your shoes clapping on the ground and your bag uncomfortably thumping against your back. You reached the end of the hallway when you heard a sharp clang echo in your ears.

“Fuck!”

You hesitantly turned the corner to see him cradling his hand (he paints his nails? That’s pretty cool, actually... Wait, did he punch the locker?) close to his chest, all the while clutching a bunch of papers.

Bingo.

“Uh, hey! Connor right?”

He didn’t look too thrilled for you to be there. He looked less than thrilled. Actually, he looked downright furious.

Was now the time for this? Probably not. This was definitely not the time for this.

You got yourself into this mess, girl. Just power through, it’s fine.

“Ah, well, it’s just, uh—Okay so I have to turn in this essay for my english class, which is next period, and like, I had a copy but I can’t find it so I figured I could just print out another one, but it didn’t come out of the printer and, like, you pulled out paper from the only other printer in the library, so… uh…”

Ohmygod, shutupshutupshutUP you dumbass! Just abort mission!

Connor’s face shifted from fury to what looked like incredulousness. Yep, you were well aware you sounded like a lunatic. You 100% were a lunatic—what were you even doing? Who in their right mind would do this?

You took a deep breath and powered through. It was probably fine. “...Sorry. You have my essay. Can I have it back?”

He opened his mouth. Then closed it. He looked like a cross between wanting to beat the shit out of something and wanting to ask what the hell is wrong with you.

You would like to know the answer to that too.

“...You’re new here, aren’t you?” Connor’s eyebrows furrowed, but they didn’t look necessarily angry. Just a little confused.

You weren’t expecting that.

Your shoulders slumped. You were really hoping you didn’t stick out like a sore thumb but you can’t win them all. “Is it that obvious?”

Connor’s features softened slightly. His eyes were still cold and guarded, and his jaw clenched and unclenched as if to hold back whatever sharp words he had on his tongue. But his eyebrows unfurrowed, and he dropped his hands to his sides. He slumped his shoulders too, and he looked defeated.

“Yeah, it is.” He slid down the lockers and sat on the floor. You were still unsure, but you sat next to him.

“Are… you okay?” Maybe your need to go after him wasn’t so much about your stolen essay. He looked so tired…

Connor glanced over at you, then trained his gaze at the wall in front of him. “Nah. Used to it though.”

He unwrinkled the papers and shuffled through them. he pulled out four sheets and handed it over to you, all the while keeping his focus in front of him.

“You’re Y/N?”

You nodded, slowly reaching out to take the papers from him. You didn’t know what to say—there was something obviously wrong… hell, you were there when he had his little outburst in front of the other kid. But you didn’t know him. It wasn’t your place to say anything.

You didn’t feel comfortable leaving him alone either.

Surprisingly, Connor spoke again, “I think I’m in that class. I didn’t do the essay.”

“How come?”

He clenched his jaw. “Didn’t want to.”

He glanced at the paper in his hands and tore at it, almost mindlessly. There was a crack in his angry, tough facade (it kind of just occurred to you that it was just that—a facade. He looked more exhausted now than anything.)

You didn’t speak. The only sounds in that hallway in that moment were the crinkles of you trying to smooth out your essay and Connor slowly ripping up the paper that was in his hands. Neither of you said anything, but the silence was welcome.

The bell rang, startling both of you. You glanced over to see a pile that resembled hamster shavings that covered his lap and the floor. A small piece that said Dear Evan stuck out to you.

Both of you stood up as a cacophony of footsteps echoed through the hallway, approaching the two of you. Connor brushed off the remaining slips of paper, which fluttered to the floor.

“So, uh…. You wanna walk together? To class?” He raised a brow at you and your stomach clenched. “You—you said we had it together… It’s cool if you don’t want to!”

Wow, just wow. This is such a great way to make friends. Good job, Y/N. It’s clear he wants to be alone, God.

He looked unsure. “You… probably shouldn’t be seen with me. I wasn’t even planning on staying.”

“What? You’re leaving?” Who in the world was this kid? Why was he acting like he was diseased or something? “You have to at least wait until the second day to skip.”

He cracked a smile at that. It was barely there, just a twitch of the lips, but it was something. “Okay, yeah. Whatever. Let’s go, you probably have no idea where you’re going anyways.”

You failed at holding back a grin that stretched across your face. He’s probably not wrong.

#connor murphy #connor murphy x reader #connor murphy imagine #dear evan hansen #deh #my fics

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kyn19 · 4 years

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1 THROUGH 98! I WANT TO KNOW THE ANSWERS AND I CAN'T STAND GETTING THEM PIDDLING BIT BY PIDDLY BIT!!!!!

Lmaooooo what a fuckin Mood. Thank you!!!!! Also, you’re getting Drunk Kylie answers which are arguably the Best answers. For the courtesy of everyone’s dash, answers are below the cut!! <3 <3 <3

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

Coffee mugs! I have a sizable collection lmao #WriterLife

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

omg such a tough one, both are aces. seriously I can think of so many combatting pros & cons!! the only fair way i can currently conceive is which i would want weed in. Which is lollipops bc (#UnpopularOpinion) pot makes chocolate taste bad.

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

both are great, but def bubblegum.

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

“Pleasure to have in class” in true Gifted Child fashion

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

i’ll rate them in order: 1) can (absolutely preferred), 2) bottle if alone but plastic (lez be honest, Red Solo Cup) if with company, 3) glass (do not like)

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

#1 goth all the way. Pastel and Formal guest appearances

7. earbuds or headphones?

headphone, bc earbuds usually hurt my ears.

8. movies or tv shows?

first of all, how dare you. second of all, tv shows ONLY BECAUSE if all my fave movies were given tv shows so that they could last longer i would choose so

9. favorite smell in the summer?

idk i guess pool chlorine? dislike summer

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

bruh fuckin none. elementary school: too long ago to recall. middle school: escaped having to take gym at all. high school: had a medical excuse to take online PE. least athletic girl u know

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

i don’t have bfast bc eating close to when i awaken makes my tummy upset

12. name of your favorite playlist?

hmm 4-way tie between “#motivate #bitch” (gets me pumped to work) and “Friends Of The Illness” (my playlist of songs about and/or artist who are mentally ill) and “Ominous/haunting” (speaks to my creepy side) and “Bad Bitches” (self-explanatory amirite)

13. lanyard or key ring?

Key ring. Straight up I use an extra shoelace as my key ring string, despite owning multiple lanyards.

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

god another fkn hard one. Listen y’all, you dont understand how much of a sugar fiend i am. candy is my JAM. Starbursts, Sour Straws, Skittles, Jolly Ranchers...who can choose?!

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

“Ceremony” by Leslie Marmon Silko. Highly recommend!!!!!!!!!!!

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

laying down lol sitting is for suckers

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

combat boots like the gay i am

18. ideal weather?

low 70′s degrees (F*), intermittent showers during the day but clear starry skies overnight

19. sleeping position?

mostly fetal, mostly on my side but chest is towards the bed, one arm under the pillow under my head

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

Laptop. I used to love writing in notebooks, but ya girl got weak fingy joints nowadays

21. obsession from childhood?

pfft as if they aren’t the same obsessions i have now

22. role model?

so many!!!!! Jameela Jamil is the first that comes to mind

23. strange habits?

lmao i am ass-deep in idiosyncrasies, if you ain’t read the blog title already

24. favorite crystal?

i don’t know anything about crystals. does blue topaz count? cuz that’s my birthstone and i like that one a lot. i even had the foresight to pick that as my engagement ring’s stone in my utterly preposterous & failed relationship

25. first song you remember hearing?

oh wow, no idea. music has always been huge for me. probably either a Britney Spears or Mary J. Blige song???

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

stay inside lmao

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

WEAR SWEATERS & DRINK HOT CHOCOLATE, BITCH!!!!!!!!!

28. five songs to describe you?

oof ok, hard, but here goes:

“Here” by Alessia Cara

“Wannabe” by the Spice Girls

“I’m Just a Kid and Life Is A Nightmare” by Simple Plan

“No Daddy” by Teairra Mari

“Brick By Boring Brick” by Paramore

29. best way to bond with you?

i am straight up not easy to make friends with (bc my own bullshit, not trying to be pretentious), so bonding is hard. the best way is probably a combo of queer + memes + loves food + correct morals + being the dominant talker

30. places that you find sacred?

Libraries, locally owned coffee shops, Walmarts at 3am, playgrounds in the middle of the night, side of a rural road at 12am, my bed

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

Blazer + shirt with a titty window + high waisted plaid pants + platform booties

32. top five favorite vines?

OMG I LOVE VINES OK OK OK OMG I LOVE SO MANY SO HERE ARE JUST THE ONES I QUOTE THE MOST OK:

Josh Kennedy: “What’s up my name’s Jared I’m 19 and I never fucking learned how to read”

Sarah Schauer: [dont remember the beginning] “didn’t you..?” “sleep in this? yes. mama needs A DRINK”

Evan Breer: “What’s up my & my boys are going to see Uncle Kracker - give me my hat back Jordan, do you see Uncle Kracker or no - *gasp!*”

Drew Gooden: “Road work ahead? Um yeah, I sure hope it does...”

Nathan Enick: “Yo how much money do you have?” “69 cents” “Oh you know what that means!” “...i don’t have enough money for chicken nuggets :( ...”

33. most used phrase in your phone?

bruh like how even am i supposed to answer this?? like texts or Siri requests or????? bc if it’s Siri requests then it’s 100% for arithmetic

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

Stanley Steamer. you kno the one

35. average time you fall asleep?

3:30am

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

bitch i’m a 90′s child of the internet, i was around the web before YouTube launched, i was there when the first modern memes were fucking conceived. i will say the biggest repository of meme culture that i was a part of was YouTube and icanhazcheezburger.com & its side-sites.

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

duffel - Tie-Dye Girl from the Lindsey Lohan “Parent Trap” made quite the impression on me

38. lemonade or tea?

Lemonade! hate the leaf water

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

Lemon cake! Not a meringue pie girl saly

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

I’ve been to a lot of schools yo lol. My undergrad college was def the “weirdest” ofc, bc it was an art school lol. An instance that stands out was a string of “Solid Gold Clit” graffiti after a Sophia Wallace visit to campus right before i started there.

41. last person you texted?

My bff triad pals @backwardswriter and @bristarshine

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

damn tough call. Probably jacket pockets bc i’m more likely to have those as a lady who wears lady-targeted pants

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

Hoodie

44. favorite scent for soap?

Plum!

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

Fantasy, though sci-fi is a solid 2nd. Not much of a superhero gal

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

.....underwear only. Sometimes an oversized t-shirt too.

47. favorite type of cheese?

Mozzarella!!!

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

I would want to be like a pomegranate, but i’m probably a nectarine

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

“If you hope for the best but expect the worst, you’ll never be disappointed.”

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

bitch i’m a giggle monster, i taught myself to be easily amused as a survival mechanism.

51. current stresses?

My own lack of discipline.

52. favorite font?

oooooof i have so many ok. too name a few: Centaur, Garamont, Book Antigua, Times New Roman, Montserrat.....mostly Serif fonts bc I’m an old books bitch

53. what is the current state of your hands?

I don’t love my hands (how homophobic of me, I know). Currently they’re kinda dry and full of sandwich

54. what did you learn from your first job?

what kind of boss I like. also that my customer service voice is frighteningly pleasant

55. favorite fairy tale?

Original tale: Thumbelina. Adaptations: Snow White.

56. favorite tradition?

uhhh Thanksgiving feast I guess? i am not a traditions gal

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

I am very very fortunate to not have a lot or a severity of these. The ones that I’ve had the worst of are: gender discrimination/harassment as a woman, hardcore emotional abuse in a relationship, and heavy heavy mental illness

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

Tangible talents: writing, lying. Intangible: A+ imagination, useless trivia.

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

“I support you!”

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

like if Tokyo Mew Mew and Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni had a baby

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

Again, how dare you. Like literally, asking me to pick a favorite line from something is like asking what my favorite breed of dog is. Legit impossible

62. seven characters you relate to?

Ananka Fishbein (Kiki Strike series), Mermista (She Ra & the Princesses of Power), Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter), Gwen (Total Drama), Rori Gilmore (Gilmore Girls), Villanelle (Killing Eve), Andrea (St. Trinian’s)

so like all very- to semi-weird white girls lmao

63. five songs that would play in your club?

[by the term “club” i assume that i’m limited to pop and electronic music. even with the limitation, though, a super hard question]

“Talking Body” by Tove Lo

“Hot in Herre” by Nelly

“Because the Night” by Cascada

“Nails, Hair, Hips, Heels” by Todrick Hall

“Break Free” by Ariana Grande ft. Zedd

64. favorite website from your childhood?

pretty much any doll franchise’s site (Barbie, Bratz, My Scene, Polly Pocket, Diva Girlz, everGirl, etc you name it)

65. any permanent scars?

Yep. One by a dog scratch (it was honestly a weak/shallow/innocent scratch, i still have no idea why it scarred at all), and a few from a car crash last year

66. favorite flower(s)?

i don’t really like flowers? i usually just say Forget-Me-Not’s for ease

67. good luck charms?

bitch idk but i’m knocking on wood just from thinking bout it

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

you ever taste that chocolate Laffy Taffy? vile bruh

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

I am annoying enough to know how i learnt all my facts, but the funnest fact I like to annoy people with is that ducks have corkscrew penises evolved from their main form of mating being rape

70. left or right handed?

Right (like any ol’ simp)

71. least favorite pattern?

polka dots

72. worst subject?

MATH and also PHYS ED

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

One time whilst high, I put nacho cheese Doritos on a tuna sandwich. Winning combo, I’m telling you

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

My pain tolerance is straight up unpredictable, so like anywhere from a 3 to a 9

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

5 years old

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

Mashed potatoes

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

I am not a plant person. Moss.

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

fucking neither but i at least like coffee so i guess the former....

(i know, it’s tragic and barbaric that i dislike sushi, i wish i had another answer for you)

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

Neither lmao - I got them within a month of each other (six years ago) so they’re essentially the same photo.

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

Jewel!

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

I mean those are the same bug so I assume this is asking about which terminology I typically use/prefer. Which i would say both bc I’m a cultured ho

82. pc or console?

I don’t game so I guess PC lmao

83. writing or drawing?

Writing but I like both

84. podcasts or talk radio?

damn neither lmao I can’t focus on non-music audio only. I guess talk radio, just bc I can do like ten minute radio segments at least lol

84. barbie or polly pocket?

both were lit but I had more Barbies

85. fairy tales or mythology?

not to sound like a broken record but FIRST OF ALL HOW DARE YOU? second of all, I essentially consider them in the same category at this point in modernity, so my answer is Yes.

86. cookies or cupcakes?

Cupcakes, but both are exquisite

87. your greatest fear?

spiders, heights, clowns, seeing bad things happening to animals, that my consciousness will exist even after death, y’know normal stuff

88. your greatest wish?

to transfer myself into one of my fave fictional worlds

89. who would you put before everyone else?

dogs, next question

90. luckiest mistake?

i make a lot of those honestly, so who knows

91. boxes or bags?

LISTEN I LOVE CONTAINERS OF ALL SORTS, YOU CAN’T MAKE ME CHOOSE, IM PANSEXUAL FOR A REASON

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

FLASHLIGHTS, BITCH

93. nicknames?

Ky, KyKy, Moonshine, SugarTits, Goog Bones

94. favorite season?

Autumn (yes i call it that instead of Fall bc i’m a pretentious ass bitch lol)

95. favorite app on your phone?

Tumblr, c’mon

96. desktop background?

Currently a digital art painting of a flowing stag in a swamp that I downloaded from DeviantArt. I change it every few months though (to other downloaded digital art from DA that I collect periodically lmao)

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

Seven - mine, my mom’s 2 numbers, my grandma’s, my pop’s cell and office (also my old office) numbers, and my childhood house phone number lol

98. favorite historical era?

Golden Age of Piracy, specifically bc the piracy lol

Thank you so much for the asks, this was so much fun!!!

#asks

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inkskinned · 6 years

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literally just a dumb unorganized list of school tips

source: im a grad student. i’ve had a lot of school. also i’m adhd & mentally ill and require +8 organization. this is mostly directed @ college students, but maybe high school students can use it too, fuck, idk, it’s been forever since i was stuck in that hell hole

just say “professor” either ur using the correct title for a person (will make them feel good) or you’re giving them a bigger title on the assumption they deserve it (which will make them feel good) and also prevents having to ever i mean ever use their names

talk at least 1 time a week in each class, aim for 1 time a day. even lecture classes. i fucking hate talking in front of more than 5 people, so what i would do is prepare a question about the hw/etc (even if i didn’t need it answered) to ask the professor after class so they saw me and got used to me and saw i was invested in their class. about 89% of teachers - if they see you try, they will pass you. i mean it’s literally that easy. i know people who went from like a c- but because they legit tried, their grade got bumped up to a b-.

if u have to bring a laptop, pre-download the required material/screenshot it, and then turn off your wifi. it’s too easy to not listen.

physical writing will always give you more information recall over typing.

nobody cares about stupid shit anymore trust me they don’t remember that you were accidentally locked in a towel out of your room bc they have their own dumb shit that happened.... in college all the “cringe culture” turns into “god i wish that were me” culture ... wear ur onesie to a party trust me you make +800 friends and 799 of them will be girls telling you you’re adorable and they’d die for you

about locking urself out.... if ur like me and can breeze past post-it notes placed in obvious areas, don’t be a dumb bitch and rely on post-it-notes. while most schools offer 1 free lockout, dont rely on it - it once took 2 hours before someone could get to me. i was in a towel, which meant no phone. so like. anyway, what i do now is i put something on the handle of the door i have to open/unlock. i can’t just open the door w/out the thing falling down and making a loud “you dumb bitch unlock the door before u shower” sound.

this works for all important don’t-forget it things. other obstacles i’ve used to remind myself to do something include: putting a chair with my wholeass posterboard in front of the door, an entire printer with a single piece of paper that just read “for the love of god check to be sure you have that essay”, and a recycling bin i kept forgetting to empty. guess what bitch finally emptied the bin once it was between me and a swift exit!

no offense and like the whole “it’s the best years of your life!” thing is great but in reality everything goes better scholastically when you treat it as “i came here to win, not to make friends.” i still did make friends, went to parties every weekend, was popular enough i’d be invited to several on one night - but i came there to win. when i put my scholastic life and my mental health first, i went from a 2.0 to a 3.98. yes you can, bitch.

you’re spending the money. don’t squander it. trust me when i say i know plenty of people who breeze through, bc you often can. but like. don’t. challenge yourself bc like. talk about an investment.

if you hate your major, change it. don’t make your life something you can’t stand. on that note, do NOT agree 100% to a track until you have at least some experience in the field. i cannot tell u how many ppl i know who got their whole masters/phd program done, walked into their new profession, and were like, Oh Fuck, I Can’t Live Like This.

college literally offers so many free things and if you’re not taking advantage of them whenever possible i get it but like. try to take advantage of them. this is everything from your gym (which probably has free classes dude) to clubs to like. sober events. these sober events are so ... fuckin good dude i’ve made mason jars with little plants in em... bee aviaries... candles.... go to the free stuff

oh ps on free stuff i wanna say about 4 of 5 days there’s free food on campus just look for things like job fairs, presentations, or discussion groups. also while you’re there at the job fair like. u know, go to the job fair in earnest

i took off 2 years to work and also to just. recover from my bullshit. and it took me 6 years and 3 schools to get my bachelor’s. it wasn’t easy but bitch i lived. there’s no such thing as “too long” to graduate if that’s truly what you want to do.

if on the meal plan, eat as clean as you can the first week. then introduce each part of the cafeteria’s possibly-food-poisoning-creating foods one at a time. give @ least 2 days between each experiment so you know for sure if you get sick what caused it. i literally never eat meat at school but you can still get sick off of unwashed lettuce/salad dressing that hasn’t been refrigerated properly/weirdass things you won’t even think of. this prevents like. dying in a public bathroom.

white loaf bread can be gross & boring. discount bakery section for your slightly chewy artisianal bread needs. if overstale, either toast it or dunk it into water and microwave it (unless u got an oven. use the oven if u can)

steal as many apples from the dining hall/events/etc as physically possible just do it they keep FOREVER and @ some point you’ll be like. fUCK i need a nutrition. ps if you’re keeping them in ur backpack (i wouldn’t keep more than 2) make sure to wrap w/a few paper towels so if you drop your bag you don’t get apple mush

write it all down bitch. “i’ll remember it” no you won’t. unless you are capable of remembering every idea on this list and in order, you won’t remember it. in general, if you write something 3 times, you will recall it correctly at least 80% of the time. i also read it out loud to myself, bc, you know, auditory recall

DO NOT just put your assignment at the top of your notes, unless you’re 100% sure that will work for you. in most cases, it’s much better to have a planner/agenda/place you expect to look for assignments. +7 points if you lie to yourself about deadlines and move them all up.

like not to sound too much like a DARE ad but like. if you don’t like it/don’t want it, don’t fuckin do it. the idea that “there’s nothing to do if you don’t party” is such bullshit. like i promise if you’re like “i am a grouch and want to stay in and binge netflix” about 45 ppl will show up in pjs like “bitch fullscreen it, im a grouch too.” there’s also like. the chance to just.... not overindulge. on wednesdays i have “wine wednesdays” where we sit around and drink a glass of wine while we do our hw. it’s chill and friendly instead of like. drink until u vomit. don’t feel like you either gotta slam the breaks or the gas pedal, is what i mean.

PLEASE know the signs of alcohol poisoning/overdose. most schools have a “Safety Always Matters Most” policy, which means that you can call for help w/out getting into trouble. if you think someone is in danger, act. this also goes for making sure ppl get home safe even if they’re just incapacitated, not poisoned. step in, dudes.

also just. notice when ur starting to rely on stuff too much. i’m super easily addicted to things, so i keep a healthy distance from liquor. i don’t let myself “drink to feel better” bc that’s a scary, scary thing to link to feeling better. if you or somebody u know starts drinking all the time/gets anxious if they don’t drink/drinks in the daytime .... get help. schools have counselling services for a reason.

you’re gonna get a cold/flu of some sort in the first 2 months just brace for it. in the meantime, drink vitamin c, try not to touch too many handles, and when people say “there’s something going around” believe them.

watch kaplan nike just do it

if you can teach it, you know the material. a super good way of knowing if you studied the right way is to try and teach the material to a stuffed animal/imaginary class.

“i don’t know how to study” bitch me too the fuck. this is usually bc we’ve been taught that studying is just sitting down and staring @ ur notes. it’s not. it’s different for everyone, and you need to understand it’s 99% preventative care. if you don’t go to the class or do the homework, studying is going to fucking suck, bc you’re learning the material all at once for the first time. the place you should consider “studying” is “i’m confident in 70-90% of the material, but need to review.” do not let yourself fall behind .... just go to office hours and ask questions if ur not getting something. studying should feel like you’re remembering what you already knew but kinda forgot, not like you’ve been blindsided.

the whole “writing it down in ur own words” while u have been told this 700 times it really helps bc it means u gotta translate it through your own understanding. if you can’t, and it’s not bc the material seems too obvious to you to state in another way - ask yourself if you don’t understand the material. chances are u are missing a bit of info.

i know it’s like A Thing that Some People do but i never had the mental health points for it but i know some people just take 15 minutes after every class to review their notes. since i’m 100% early to every class ever, obnoxiously so, i try to do it before class. having the last class’s notes up in my head super helps. like. put down the phone i know you’re socially anxious me too but review those notes. chances are if u start flipping through pages other ppl will too. this is also fun bc as soon as you start this whole thing, at least one person will be like “is there a test?” no bitch there’s no test but im gonna be ready when there is!

literally so much of success is fucking posturing i could link about 800 peer-edited studies that show that when a student is expected to do well (and knows they are), they do well. like i literally didn’t change my appearance at all, never bothered to look nice (once winter hits i wear 67 layers all the time), but when i showed up after my 2 years off from school, i presented myself with the whole “i came here to win” vibe and people... really respected me? i mean in hs i remember ppl saying shit like “yeah, well, you aren’t gonna have the homework”. by the time i was in college i had an honest-to-god conversation which included someone being like “so tell me what you’re overachieving at right now” like they just expected it from me. wild.

i live by “bite off more than you can chew, and then CHEW IT” but it’s probably unhealthy. the truth is that i have a lot of energy all the time (lmao adhd!!!) and i used to get told i was “trying too hard” and for a long time (still???) i didn’t (i don’t?) know what that was, you know, bc i had a D average, clearly i wasn’t trying. it turns out i was just. putting all my energy into stuff that wasn’t making me happy like toxic friendships etc. when i decided “nope, all this energy is for me and my schoolwork”..... uhhhhh suddenly i was a golden child and everyone praised my try-hardness ... it’s a fuckt up system tbh

take at least 1 class just for fun. i try to do that every semester. it helps break up all the requirements. if you’re like an engineer and got no time or credits left to spend, try to audit your fun course.

make ur advisor love you i don’t care what it takes make them cupcakes show up to thank them i dONT CARE just do it

the library isn’t always the best place. if i start getting anxious bc i pavlovian train myself that library=work, i find a new place to go to do hw. try to go outside if you can!!! not like where i live bc like it’s snow all the time but try. a little green really really really helps depression.

if you’ve been in the same “Studying” place for 1 hour and haven’t done anything the chances are Something Isn’t Right. first, look @ ur body. are you not focusing bc of some pressing physical need? sometimes just taking a shower and coming back helps. are you uncomfy? are you too comfy and going to sleep? if body okay, look @ the material. do you not understand it? do you just need to switch to a new topic for a little bit? can you find a youtube video that will help you better understand it? make notes on what you don’t get so you can ask in the next class. if it’s not the material, it’s not ur bod, check the Actual Space. sometimes just getting up, going for a short walk to a new place, and trying it there actually? really works? if none of this is working.... try ur brain next. hardest to reset bc like, what, turn it on and off again? i use things like caffeine, a short workout, a nap, or a podcast all to just... give me a little boost.

don’t be afraid to leave. i mean this about class, friend groups, and the college ur at. just get up on outta there if ur not feelin it. i cannot recommend “drop the class” enough. even if it’s a required course see if u can switch the times if u hate the professor day 3 it’s not gonna get better just get the fuCK out

don’t nap in the same position u go to sleep in, nap upside down w/ur head away from ur pillow. don’t ask me why but it works to 1. fall asleep faster 2. make sure u sleep okay at night and 3. wake up less annoyed

on that note don’t ever do anything in ur bed in a sleeping position unless it’s genuinely sleeping in it. body will get confused. just sit up, lazybones.

when/if the library has those therapy dogs during finals week.... just go pet them make the time for it

ask before hugging people, but don’t expect a “yes”

get a backpack that fits and doesn’t hurt ur back u fuckin hippie idc how cool it is to wear ur backpack super low just don’t do it it’s not worth it

the tutoring center is a fucking goldmine.... free essay edits my dudes

bring a fan dorms are always hotter than u expect

switch dorms if u can if u realize ur in the wrong room/wrong roomate like just don’t bother with nonsense

when in doubt, follow preschool rules. tell ppl when they did something cool, just ask when u need help, and be confident even in your mistakes, because at least u tried

#anyway

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vorefluff · 5 years

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if anyone is curious

This is legit how I come up with new storylines and things. This is just a copy/paste of something I sent my girlfriend when I was in the middle of Figuring A Thing Out.

Featuring a new character, Hue and a drawing of him! Mostly this is about Blaze tho, and some stuff about John too. It sorta goes all over the place - the moment it seems like ‘oh this is what this post is about’ it switches on you.

Warnings: Lots of “so anyway”, no proofreading, completely filled with lowercase sentence starters, fragments, cussing, a couple vague s*xual references. It’s a brain barf.

[day 1]

This is Hue. He's a werewolf boi-o and one of the shortest characters i've made so far, clocking in at 4'10". you can just barely see his bite scars under the arm hair I decided that John shouldn't be entirely partner-less because Blaze decided to be stubborn and not embrace the gay. Cause that's just unfair to john. Like, Blaze said no, John respects that, so John moves on.

No matter how much I rlly rlly want the two to be together.

so anyway is seems that John has a Type. smol grumpy and easy to fluster I mean, in terms of potential romantic partners. in terms of Hotness and potential one-night-stands and such he's more physically attracted to guys in snappy suits and confidence like raknu but also not raknu himself because it'd be weird to bang your boss.

[day 2]

[insert some Spoilery Things about Alchemy Brothers from my World Of Glass And Bone and my character I’m basing Hue off of. This is also a first - usually I don’t base one character off of another. I did it in this case to absolutely make 100% sure that Hue’s personality doesn’t end up being like a Blaze2.0.]

[....] cause like, yeah, I made him with the intent of finding an Actual Partner for John, but I don't want that to be his Entire Personality. I don't want him to just be off-brand discount walmart version of Blaze. I've never done this before k. Like, usually I make characters, and then decide relationships to other people, not the other way around. And now I'm just Worried and low-key Freaking Out that he won't be seen as anything more than a Blaze-wannabe.

[day 3]

so THIS is how love triangles get started, huh - throwing in Hue threw a wrench into things. so like we got John and Blaze, right? they're like. bestest buds. John is like, the only person that Blaze really actually feels completely comfortable around. and like, a big part of the reason why Blaze doesn't want to be in an Actual Official Relationship is a lot of smaller very valid reasons.

1) he's in denial that it's even a thing he wants at all. All relationships end in Bad Things - either death as Blaze outlives them, or breakups, or deception and misunderstanding, or other Fun Things like that. So why the fuck would he want to put himself through that again?

2) he still gets nightmares about Alex and not over that 3) all past relationships have been either abusive or at least a little bit Toxic - including alex (just as the nature of the culture, and the social power difference between people and vampires, toxic masculinity, just straight up assholes with a pretty face, ect) and that's just sorta the standard, normal thing that Blaze expects to happen with relationships in general. So it's showing a little bit of growth on Blazes part by saying no to the perceived toxicity, but still misunderstanding what a normal relationship is.

4) he's still not sure he's part gay. Like, he was Trying Out A Thing with Alex and he didn't get enough time to process it or really tell if that's something for him.

5) Blaze is asexual and sex-repulsed, and John is Horny. Not that John would do anything that Blaze is uncomfortable with - just the idea that Blaze is holding John back from something that he really wants to do while simultaneously being really stuck on the idea of monogamy and being uncomfortable with the idea ofo John being with anyone else sexually if they're in a relationship.

6) and fear that if he says yes then He's Stuck. can't back out, can't break off, without losing John completely as a friend (which is not something John would do even if they did break off for whatever reason). but it's still intense fear, and strongly supported by the idea of 'history repeats itself'.

7) he's also still low-key weirded out by the thought that John was assigned female at birth and while he's Getting Better at that and normalizing it. Being closer than friends before he's finished sorting things out in his head properly only brings up those weirded out feelings more intensely and more frequently until it becomes a potential point of conflict. If they were to ever be a thing, it'd take a lot of time before it started up, for Blaze to be 100% okay and Chill and properly sort through his head around John being trans. Not that Blaze would ever insult or weaponize that against john or anything, just personally working through centuries of stigma/sterotypes/ect and trying to get to a point where that thought isn't weird or bad anymore.

and a few other little reasons here and there but those are the big main ones in the way between a Blaze and John relationship. and I've been trying to keep that in mind when writing stories between them, cause John would totally go out with Blaze, and if Blaze didn't have those blocks, then he'd totally be open to a relationship with John too.

Like, blaze low-key has a crush on John too. And I ship is so hard. And I want it to be a thing but I feel it's unfair to Blaze's character and all the stuff he has to work through himself before he's mentally stable enough to be able to have a healthy relationship with anyone.

and like maybe if no one else existed, yeah, sure, they'd get together at some point but like John isn't going to wait years for the possibility of a relationship with a person who already said 'no'.

So anyway, Hue comes on scene, right?

John is spending more time with Hue and due to the nature of time being limited and the fact that often John operates seperately in Hero Team Missions (he's a spellcaster where the others aren't - he can do a lot of behind the scenes things that the others can't)

Blaze finds himself really really wanting John's company more which makes him question why the fuck and therefore come to the realization that yeah okay fuck fine he's part gay but what the fuck ever John's with someone else already so.

so he's trying to shove down those annoyin' fckn feelings of jealousy, and also starting to distance himself from John and also throwing in some self-hate for missing his chance because Everything Blaze Does has to be low-key toxic (bad blaze stop it-)

and once there's something you Want that's out of reach, suddenly you start forgetting about the reasons why you didn't go for it in the first place when it was available which means at least some of the other barriers are temporarily forgotten - at least, until John is available again, then they'd re-surface with vengeance and more self-hate because now-is-you're-chance-what-are-you-waiting-for -

so anyway Blaze is a (valid) Dramatic Bitch who can't make up his goddamn mind

And right now I'm trying to figure out the new dynamic, and how things end there.

I'm like maybe 20% sure that they might end up turning it into a poly relationship instead of a love triangle

John would be down for that Hue would be down for that

it all just depends on Blaze and his dumb stupid (meant lovingly, they're still valid) limitations and quirks and trauma and shit.

there's nothing solid yet but the idea of it being turned into a poly relationship is rlly appealing to me

also

blaze needs a therapist

I'm pretty sure that's the first time I've said that and I don't know why I haven't said it sooner but Blaze needs a therapist.

vampires getting therapists isn't something that ever happens for lots of stupid and dumb (not valid) reasons but maybe maaaayyyyybeeeeeee Raknu can pull some strings, talk to some people, ya know. Maybe try and find a therapist who's willing to come in and try and talk to a vampire with hundreds of years of Shit.

raknu can claim it's for the good of the team, and teamwork, and shiz. I mean, having a vampire on a hero team at all is a New Thing, Blaze was one of the first. So obviously, there'll the other New Things that arise from this, that can bypass stupid rules

well I guess for Blaze to see a therapist Blaze would have to actually be willing to ya know.

see the therapist

that's more unlikely than raknu being able to call one in that's open to it

Blaze does not have a very good opinion on therapists. Blaze thinks they're all quacks and wishy-washy idiots

siiiiiiigh

blaze why why do you have to be this way like, you've got a whole bunch of Good Things that you could've had why do you have to be stubborn

all of these good things literally just hinge on you.

it's okay though

blaze is just taking the scenic route the long way around to Good Times.

I think what would be required for Blaze to see a therapist would be for someone he sees as similar to him - not wishy-washy, negativity and toxic central, similar opinion of therapists in general - to go in and see one first, and actually be helped and have their life improved.

then maybe blaze would give it a try and-

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

heheheheheheh

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

this is where it comes full circle!!!

This is perfect!!!!

Hue!

it all comes back to HUE!

Hue goes to therapy which then convinces Blaze to accept therapy which means Blaze can actually Work Through Some Of His Shit

and then we can have a valid Poly Relationship with John and Blaze and Hue and it wouldn't have been possible without Hue which low-key starts them off in a positive relationship, which is bolstered by John really liking Hue, and therefor Blaze has someone else he can Really Actually Enjoy And Feel Comfortable Around instead of being stuck on just John

Bonus Little Story Thing For Making It This Far:

Blaze tentatively kisses the top of Smol John’s head, giving a hesitant little smile. John blushes and grins, leaning against the vampire.

Glancing up though, Blaze sees Hue with a raised eyebrow and a an amused smirk.

A very intense possessiveness washes over Blaze. Blaze makes direct eye contact with Hue.

“aAURG!! wHAt the HECK!!!” John exclaims as Blaze’s teeth firmly rest on his back, pressing him into the tongue protecting him from the vampire’s bottom teeth.

Blaze lifts John up from his hand like that, pulling his tongue in and bringing John with it. John fumbles for an oxygen tank from his pockets.

Blaze maintains eye contact with Hue the entire time, swallowing the small form.

Hue is amused, a little disturbed, but mostly confused.

Finally Hue breaks the silence. “Couldn’t resist such a snacc, huh?”

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orangeblossomstudies · 6 years

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First off, I just want to say thank you to everyone who is giving this series love and support! It means a lot to me to see people reblogging and tagging it as useful information. That just really makes my day! Now, without further ado:

Part 3 in Surviving University (and other not so fun but important things)

Here I am going to go over how I both prepare for and partake in class lectures. Enjoy!

Part 1

Part 2

RE: College can be a trip sometimes so, seeing as I’m going into my third year, I think I have enough background to put together a list of tricks and habits that have both helped/hurt me in the long run. I struggled really really hard when transitioning from high school to college because I have severe social/general anxiety and am not good at dealing with new situations. My grades reflected that for my first semester, but I learned fast and am now going strong!

note: not all of these may apply to you and your university as every place is different! Despite this, if you are an incoming first year or struggling college student, I hope at least one of these tips help you!

Lectures (in general)

This is mainly for the Freshman audience!

Raising your hand to go to the bathroom is something that doesn't really happen in college.

it might seem polite but you're not a child anymore and you don't have to ask to go relieve yourself. No one can stop you. It is wise, however, to understand your surroundings. If you are in a small classroom setting (like you were probably used to in high school) then waiting for a pause in the lecture before getting up is polite and looked kindly on. If you are in a large lecture hall with hundreds of others, you can get up at any time, walk outside, do whatever the hell you want and come back in and no one gives a rat’s ass how long you were gone.

you also don’t have to bring your stuff with you if you plan on coming back. You can just ask the person next to you if they can watch your stuff (I do this all the time) and you’ll be fine (I mean, as long as you’re not leaving a wad of cash or something on your desk. Someone might take that lol)

No one cares that you’re wearing pajamas. It's your life, do whatever the hell you want. Unless you plan to go talk to your favorite teacher about a possible reference for a job or something important where appearances matter, you can wear anything. Not gonna lie, I've seen my fair share of butt cheeks in too-short shorts and muscle tees that are seriously low cut (not that I mind~), but at the end of the day it's college and you’re an adult. What outward image you want to display is totally up to you and they can't do shit about it (unless you’re literally in your underwear or something totally obscene like that, which is, yes, illegal). But seriously, you can get away with a lot.

As a sub-note, I personally live in Florida where it's hot, like really hot, and the humidity is most often at 100% so these “underdressed” occurrences are not uncommon. If you live under similar conditions where most people strip to fight the heat I'd give one fair warning: the AC is no. joke. You might end up freezing your ass off no matter how hot it is outside because the majority of the day you aren't in the sun—you're in a classroom that's blasting an AC that no one ever touches. I usually opt for a t-shirt under a flannel or some other type of over-shirt that can be taken on and off when needed. Find what works for you.

If you want to skip a class, pick the second meeting (this means if it’s a M/W class, skip Wednesday). Yes, I know. You're condoning skipping class? Yup. I am. But there are rules. First, you need to make sure you are confident in the subject. For me, that means English classes. That's my forte and that's what I'm focused on, so I feel comfortable skipping a class or two when I need to study for one of my more difficult subjects or when I feel I just can't sit in four classes that day. The second rule is to make sure you aren't actually missing anything like a quiz, or project overview that is going to be delivered that day. Lord knows you can't make that shit up (many times even if you have a legit excuse). Anyways, many classes have a set number of absences you can have (mine are usually 4 tops--unexcused and excused). Figure out how this may work for you.

I don't get sick but once every two to three years, so I can divvy out my skips easily, but for some people, they need to take certain things into consideration. I'd advise you leave an absence (or two) for a situation that might not be under your control. If someone in the family dies or you need to go to the hospital for some unspeakable reason, you don't want to have to be worrying about failing a class by being there. Understanding your personal situation is key to making this work without ruining your college career.

Deciding if you can arrive late is very circumstantial depending on your professor, yourself, the weather...it's a bit of a wobbly situation. I personally like to get to class 10 to 15 minutes early as I hate rushing and the thought of standing at the front and trying to find a seat while half a class is already there (despite the fact that they probably don’t even care) literally makes me want to hurl. Often times, the teacher will only arrive just as the class should be starting (or later). Yeah, as you can see lots of factors go towards whether it's a good idea to be late, so just analyze and make a decision (better late than never anyone?)

If it's a small classroom setting, again, it's usually a good idea to apologize quietly and take a seat quickly.

Sit wherever you’re comfortable. I see many people suggesting sitting up front, but everyone works differently. I personally prefer the front as it is easier for me to partake in class discussion (I feel pressured when I can see people turn around to look at me) and I don’t have to strain to see. Some people like the back where they can see the whole room and fidget without feeling like they are distracting other people. Some people don’t care.

No there aren’t assigned seats in college, but after a few days, seats might as well be. People tend to sit where they are at the beginning of the year the same as at the end of the year (give or take a few days where you’re later than usual). This is most probably due to the fact that students rely on people in their proper seats to help them find their seat quicker. Even professors rely upon students sitting in the same seats for attendance purposes. Try not to move the general area of the class you attend, or it may throw everyone off!

Lectures 1.2 (preparation)

This is just how I do it I by no means am telling you it is right or for you. Take the information as you will and enjoy!

The night before, make sure you have the readings read and the classwork done (whatever that may be). I can attest to the power of doing the readings (as one who is in multiple English classes and therefore has A LOT of readings). I had a class last semester that I barely did any of the readings for and, although I got an A, I didn’t enjoy it at all. Not only that, but I can’t believe the number of times that I complained I “didn’t learn anything.” Like, no shit, Michaela. You didn’t try. Getting readings and classwork done, even if it isn’t for a grade, will make your life so much easier and you might even find yourself enjoying the subject as you will get a much better understanding.

If you find something confusing or an obscure thought pops up while doing your readings/work, write it down. It will give you a way into class discussion and will help you tons in understanding the topic. I can’t count the number of times in which I know I had a question but by the time it came to the lecture I’d forgotten it.

Before lectures, I like to do a little researching on the topic outside of the textbooks. There is a lot of interesting information out there that can aid you in discussion when in class. Building a relationship with the professors of your major is key to your educational career as you move forward and the best way to do that is by getting them in their element and finding a common ground (I’m still working on this as I don’t like meeting new people).

Make sure you have everything you need. Whether that be a full case of pens and highlighters and your favorite notebook or simply your laptop and a water bottle, you don’t want to show up without the necessities.

Lectures 1.3 (how I do the thing called class)

To start on the most basic level, I get to my seat and set my desk up. I’m super anal about order and my OCD tends to kick in here so you probably won’t have to the compulsive problem I do to situate things over and over again because they’re a little tilted (like just chill Michaela), but however you do it, get yourself prepared before the professor starts the class. It’ll get quiet really quickly and (for me at least) shuffling around in your bag for your stuff is super uncomfortable and embarrassing.

During the lecture, I write down a lot of things besides the notes from the PowerPoints. For me, the notes I take in lecture are really messy. I not only cover what is in the slides, but also anything my teacher says that isn’t there. Usually, if the teacher decides to go off on a topic, it is important and you should pay extra attention to it (unless it’s obvious that your teacher just goes off the rails all the time). I also tend to add reflective commentary and any questions I may have (and their answers).

On the topic of questions, don’t be afraid to ask them. It is severely important for your questions to get answered. You thought them for a reason. You clearly don’t understand something and need a little more detail to do so. It does you no good to have a question sitting there in your head without an answer. Knowledge is power people. Even if you have to wait till the end of lecture because of shyness, do it. You’ll be thankful later.

If your lecturer has included them in their slides, copy the graphs or models (even if it looks like chicken scratch) those charts are more than likely going to show up again later on during a test or quiz because they are short, simple, and cover a heap of information. Get. It. Down.

I absolutely love when a teacher creates an example for better understanding. They usually come up with something that is simple and easy to understand and that is something that has become EXTREMELY helpful for when I’m trying to understand theory, philosophy, and language (yes, even the English language gets me). Examples given by teachers are also something to keep in your notes as they are usually never generic and can be helpful down the line when you need to write a paper.

After lectures, you should always engage with the material again. I do this by rewriting my notes. It has been scientifically proven that writing helps with long-term memory of ideas and conceptual information. Writing the notes twice helps me even more. By creating a format of my notes (as opposed to the bland first draft) I am able to make a snapshot in my head of those notes and thus remember the information (this is just something that helps me as I have a slightly photographic memory. You by no means need to doll up your notes. It’s a lot of work and not for everyone so don't feel bad about doing something more minimal!)

For vocabulary, I swear by flashcards. I, of course, have the vocab in my notes already, but I use flashcards for memory as they are not only a technical third time of writing the vocab., but they also help in giving a flash in my memory of the characters (Chinese) and their meaning. The repetitive motion of flipping the flash card also helps when I try to think back to the vocabulary I went over. If you are able to remember the routine, you can effectively form an image in your head of the word and remember the information more clearly (ok, I know this might not work for everyone, but that’s how my mind works. I would compare it to a “Mind Palace” where schemes and events are created to aid with memory of a certain topic, but I wouldn’t go so far as to say my memory is that good.)

That last point was sort of a sneak peek into Part 5! I really hope you enjoyed this. It was a little more personal as how I go about my lectures will differ as what will work to you, but I always find it fascinating to see how others work academically. If you have any questions or want to comment on your own experiences, please do so! Part 4 will be up next Sunday and will be covering assignments (homework and papers) and the tips I have for that as well as my own commentary of the “proper” ways to study *please, note the sarcasm and heavy eye roll*

Thanks for reading and enjoy the rest of your day!

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April 24, 2022

Quite the uneventful day. I had a whole list of homework I needed to get through, so I spent most of the morning and a decent chunk of the afternoon working on various assignments.

In the middle of homework, I took a brain break to go shopping. Mostly, it was for things that I needed. I stopped by the 100円 store in hopes of finding a cheap pass holder for my commuter pass, but I couldn’t find any (I know I saw some there on previous visits). So instead, I wandered over to the Don Quijote, where I bought an overpriced, but cute pass holder.

I then went over to the grocery store. I’ve been spending probably too much money on food since I’ve been eating mostly at the convenience stores, vending machines, and restaurants. I can’t say that my grocery store haul was much healthier, but it was definitely cheaper. I even picked up some stupid instant noodles to try. Fun fact, the UFO noodles I took a picture of included apple as a labeled allergen. I don’t think I’ve ever seen apples listed as an allergen before.

It started raining in the afternoon, so I spent my evening in, watching stupid anime and chowing down on noodles.

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April 25, 2022

I’ve been getting pretty good at my commute lately. Today, I even managed to squeeze onto an almost completely packed train. The stereotypical Japanese commute. And, of course, I’m doing this on a commuter pass, so it feels really legit.

Before class, I was roped into a bit of a weird situation. One of the Korean guys in my class enlisted one of the American guys in our class to find out whether one of the American girls in a different class would be interested in talking to him. Since I knew the other American girl better than the American guy did, he tried to get me to help act as intermediary. It felt so middle school, and I didn’t really want to be part of it, but I sent along a heads-up message to the girl. Now I’m a little investing in finding out what happens, though.

Somehow that was looking to be the highlight of my day, because I went home after class and settled in for quite a bit of homework again. I got most of the way through before I just had to take a brain break again.

So I treated myself to a trip to the BOOKOFF. I stumbled across a really nice looking copy of The Little Prince (one of those books that people in the language learning community used to really like, since it’s short and sweet—these days I only ever see Harry Potter mentioned, though).

I then took a dinner and anime break. I think I’m finally getting comfortable with not understanding 100% of the words spoken so long as I’m getting the gist. That’s a pretty good step forward in my language learning journey.

But then I had to go back to doing homework. The last thing I needed to do was answering some conversation questions related to a listening I did yesterday. The topic was about rules to protect pets. One of the questions was about what problems exist in my country/town regarding pets. My mind immediately went to spay/neuter issues, so I had to look those words up. Spaying makes sense because it includes characters for egg (卵) and exit (出). Neuter is a little weirder because the word I found includes characters for hand (手) and art/technique (術). But also, you can’t search neuter in the dictionary app I have—you have to search for castration. Hopefully what I wrote makes sense and the teachers don’t think I’m too weird.

Golden Week starts this Friday, and I’m excited. I still don’t have concrete plans, and a lot of the cooler things are impossible to do on short notice, but I’ll figure something out!

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marginallygreen · 6 years

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Dry shampoo — hot damn

All the questions you didn’t know to ask about this new hair product deal.

We wanted to write an article about a couple of hair products — but then we started doing some research on dry shampoo and shit got real fast.

To people with all different hair types: we see you and we love you because their are lots of different kinds of dry shampoo from stuff for naturally dry hair to the real greasy shit — you just gotta find the right kind for you. Love for all.

If you don’t use dry shampoo this article still has info about other things that are good to know. Obvi we would think that cause we wrote this shit but it’d be cool if you listened to us anyway.

When did dry shampoo become a thing?

We are obvi people who ask too many questions for lyfe to answer. But once we started researching dry shampoo, one of the first questions that came to mind was: what is the history? How long has this been a thing for humans?

I always thought of it as something for skinny blondes with beach waves using it, but that’s probs just cause ads + skinny blondes are seen as the shit in a lot of Western societies. Sadness all around (no offence blondies, but everyone is beautiful).

As usual, we are mooching off of other people’s info and making sure their sources seem legit. There’s this sweet blog we discovered that had a lot of info on dry shampoo, so here are a few highlights — but if you want to know more you should go check it out (it’s worth your time).

1401–1500 - People in Asia knew what was up. They used clay as a form of dry shampoo in the 15th century. Idk why but the century thing has always confused me… just one of those things (truth).

1701–1800 - It was used for wigs in the US. My guess is because those things created some sweaty ass heads. But I may be projecting my sweaty ass head probs onto others. Lyfe.

1940s - This is when the commercial shit became a thing.

1940–1970 - Homemakers wanted a quick fix to deal with their hair, cause that life is no joke.

1960s - As usual, a celeb made it more popular. This time it was Lesley “Twiggy” Larson. But I’m usually not very interested in celebs so let’s move on.

Ok so dry shampoo: WTF?

I remember looking at a dry shampoo bottle and thought: what the fuck are humans doing to their hair? I mean for real.

I didn’t know what was in that shit so I decided to make my own, but was supes lazy and didn’t take the time to look up some of the chemicals in dry shampoo and why they might be bad for you. But here are some chemicals to look out for if you use it:

Talc

In doing a little research, we found out one of the main culprits: talc. This stuff is def one to look out for, cause it’s bad.

Talc is a material made from magnesium, silicon, oxygen, and asbestos fibres. And inhaling asbestos fibres can be a real bitch.

The American Cancer Society has listed talc as an ingredient to avoid because asbestos is “known to cause cancers in and around the lungs when inhaled.” So best avoid that mofo cause cancer is not something to fuck with.

Propane

Dry shampoo in aerosol cans (which we’ll get to more of that later) also use some form of propane or butane to achieve that misty glory.

Low amounts of propane/butane are usually chill, but that doesn’t mean you should be spraying it all over your greasy head every damn day. Studies cited by the National Institute of Health have linked overexposure to propane to respiratory problems and headaches.

As with most things, the bad side effects come from LOTS of consistent exposure to this stuff. But it’s worth knowing about chemicals that can cause problems.

And if there’s a natural alternative to achieve the same result (spoiler: there totes is), then why not check that out?

Triclosan

Exposure to triclosan has been linked to a higher likelihood of colon cancer. This chemical is also bad news for the environment: in the US, it’s listed as one of the top 10 pollutants found in rivers.

And once this gets in a river, it turns into a toxin that can kill algae and other plant life. Aside from dry shampoo, this stuff is also real common in household soaps and toothpaste.

Other things to watch for

With commercial dry shampoo, there’s usually lots of chemicals at work. There’s a website called The Good Guide that provides loads of information about beauty products. It also lists what chemicals are in each, and if they are banned in any countries.

Naturally, we were curious about some of the best sellers so we looked it up. You can see how they perform in this nifty chart below.

Here’s how to read it: the higher up towards the top a bubble is, the more “use restrictions” the product has. A use restriction just means that in at least one country, regulatory bodies have made some laws against using too much of a chemical in consumer products.

The further to the right a bubble is, the higher the hazard score. This is a score created by the Good Guide website summarising the potential downfalls of stuff, both environmentally and for personal health.

Do people even use dry shampoo?

This shit sells. Who would have guessed that dry shampoo was a hot industry? But apparently it is. One of the top dry shampoo sellers is a company called Batiste. They sell 2.2 cans every second. That’s a lot of fucking cans.

The dry shampoo industry was worth 3 billion dollars (2.3 in pounds) in 2017. Idk about you but I did not see that number coming. And the industry is expected to grow even more in the next several years. This stuff is making it pour dolla dolla bills.

Out of curiosity we thought it would be fun to see how often people Google dry shampoo. I know you’re totes jelly of our fun filled lives.

In the past five years, search interest for “dry shampoo” has doubled according to Google search trends. Google assigns a search index score to everything that people search for with a number from 0–100, but they don’t tell you the raw search volume cause they’re stingy like that.

Basically, 0 = no one really cares, and 100 = peak dry shampoo searching. And at the start of 2018, Google reached peak dry shampoo fo sho.

We should all probs chill with the spray cans.

Another thing worth mentioning: aerosols. You might use them on the regs. Not saying that as a judgment thing — we sometimes use them too, but are trying not to (hence this blog).

Examples of this aerosol shit? That airy, SPF 50 sunscreen with the spray top. Your fave perfume that makes you smell like good things. Also, most dry shampoo. That kinda stuff.

Most things that take a liquid and spray it out into some vapor-like shit is an aerosol, and those can be bad fucking news for the environment. They contribute to global warming and deplete the ozone layer. But to be fair, we’ve gotten a bit better.

Here’s the deal: before the 1970s, aerosol cans used this ozone-depleting chemical called chlorofluorocarbons (try saying that while drunk…most people just call them CFCs to keep it simple).

By the 1980s, most companies had taken this shit out of their products and the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency formally banned it from future products. So like, halfsie thumbs up.

Basically, this means that aerosols are still allowed as long as they don’t have CFC. But they still emit hydrocarbons which also contribute to global warming.

Hydrocarbons are better than CFCs but still not good. Kinda like eating cheap Italian food. Still tastes nice but we want fancy ass carbs in our lives — aka we should be aiming for no aerosols.

Maybe more importantly, aerosols emit this shit called volatile organic compounds (VOCs), which have been shown to add to ground-level ozone levels. More ground-level ozone = more asthma-inducing smog.

This has gotten bad enough that the state of California has started regulatingany products known to have VOCs. Cue Where Is the Love by Black Eyed Peas am I right?

Algae luv

Wow we’re in p deep to this hair stuff; but I guess there is no turning back at this point. So here is some other semi-related stuff we found while deep in the hair product archives of my soul.

This next bit is about anti-dandruff shampoo, so not the same, but kinda like a second cousin. I came across some info that suggested anti-dandruff shampoos often contain something called climbazole. Yeah, I didn’t know what the fuck that was.

Apparently, climbazole is a fungicide that has been linked to increasing phototoxicity in algae and other water-dwelling plants. Phototoxicity just means plant injury — I obvi had to look that up too. Also “has been linked” means that smart people are doing research to find out more, but it’s still worth paying attention to.

Also why is algae that important? You may remember from science class (which full disclaimer I did not), or maybe you had to look it up. A person’s brain can only remember so much. I mean, I knew vaguely that I should think algae was important. I knew it mattered in my heart of hearts but couldn’t remember why.

Basically bb creatures eat algae. They rely on that shit. And then bigger creatures eat the little ones because lyfe is brutal.

But then the chain just continues so less algae = less bb fish, etc. Obvi too much of a good thing can be bad too so we need there to be a balance and chemicals can get in the way of that.

The dry shampoo in my lyfe.

Just a quick heads, I personally have an interesting hair texture. I usually wash mine once a week, maybs twice if I’m super sweaty and it smells like ass — but I like to take on the grime.

I also have dry but greasy hair and no one ever taught me how to take care of it, so I use a mixture of things for all different hair types. But ya gotta know your body — the dry shampoo that works for me won’t work for all hair types.

I make my own dry shampoo so I don’t have to worry about the chemicals and I can’t love this shit enough. For real though. I can’t be washing my hair every day but I have major grease issues.

Here’s my regimen: I pretty much shower and then start using the dry shampoo once the grease really starts to show. I have some thick ass hair so I have to apply it in layers by the roots.

Since I have darker hair I use cocoa powder. It does smell, but I found the only issue is that I want to eat chocolate more — kinda like being in a bakery without being able to eat the sweets. But I’m getting p good at channelling my midwestern religious upbringing to practice self-discipline.

I usually apply it with my fingers. Some people use old makeup brushes but I didn’t have one of those since I don’t wear makeup on the regs, and just got makeup brushes last year. I was totes stuck in the 90’s just applying stuff with fingers, but my younger siblings were appalled so they gave me makeup lessons. What is lyfe?

Once I make the dry shampoo I usually keep it in one of those bb jam jars or a spice container. You know — reuse shit.

The recipe I use is easy and I found it on another blog — I obvi wasn’t the one to come up with the recipe. I realise this recipe won’t work for all hair types, but give it a go. The ingredients are supes cheap and it’s easy to whip up.

If you feel like this recipe doesn’t work for your hair texture, but are real into finding something without chemicals, please message us. We can go on this journey together.

Marginally Chill. Good vibes to all.

This post was originally published on marginallygreen.com. Come say hi.

#dry shampoo #sustainability #living green #illustration #diy beauty #ecofriendly #green living #green #eco conscious

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Chocobros + Nyx in a Bodyguard AU

A/N: Okay, first of all, so much struggle went into this post. I was writing until 2:30 in the morning, and I was nearly finished until my computer failed me, and I lost this entire post.

;; I forgot to save between every boy.

God, I’m so dumb.

But I hope you enjoy this Bodyguard AU that no one asked for after I typed it the second time around. (o^ ^o)

(@little-mini-me-world pain is real.)

Noctis:

Attempts the cool and silent bodyguard type, but in reality he’s just awkward.

He blushes up a storm every time you tease him.

He acts like he knows what he’s doing, but he really doesn’t.

Most of the time you have to tell him if you have a bad feeling, or if you don't feel safe, or else he'll never catch on.

That doesn't mean that he's bad at his job though! Noctis always makes sure to keep no more than a step or so behind you, and in crowded places he'll keep an arm wrapped protectively around your waist.

He's crazy fast too! If Noctis ever notices that you're in immediate danger, it will seem as if he practically transports to your assailant, and can take them down before you can even react.

Noctis would be very hard to get to open up, and he honestly tried to keep your relationship purely professional, but at any mention of fishing, video games, or cosplay, he'll become such a dweeb.

At first glance he's the "mysterious guy with a dark past" but this is the same guy that says, "Sharp errday," and "Cake, baby," when he takes down your attackers.

He's pretty scary when he's angry though. His eyes will seem like they turn red, and he will beat your attackers an inch from death until you tell him to stop.

You're pretty shaken up, but then he flashes you a straight face and a thumbs up before saying in the deepest voice he can muster, "I'm an assassin."

There's your dork.

He’s also very self-sacrificing. He wouldn’t hesitate to jump in front of you to take that bullet, knife, or punch.

Noctis would realize that you're the love of his life when he would willingly give up his precious sleep to make sure that you're safe all the time.

HE WOULD NEVER ADMIT IT THOUGH. NO ONE MUST KNOW. Crush?? What crush??

Avoids eating vegetables under the excuse that they might be poisoned.

His uniform is a tailored black suit with a black button up and no tie. He keeps the first couple of buttons open to reveal some of that hairless chest of his O-O

On lazy days, (which is almost every day) he wears a form-fitting black shirt and cargo pants.

Prompto:

Okay, first of all, who gave him this job

He would leave your side just to pet puppies.

Prompto likes to sing the James Bond theme under his breath when he scopes out the area.

When you ask him to do something for you: “You got it, gurrrlll!” [finger guns] [somersaults out of there]

He’s very talkative and friendly, so you always feel at ease with him, and people often mistake him for your boyfriend.

An overly protective boyfriend that wears a bulletproof vest.

Although, when the two of you first met, he would be very flustered and embarrassed. He just didn’t expect to be assigned to someone so pretty.

He’d apologize over and over for touching your bare skin, or for yanking your arm to pull you closer to him, and you’d laugh and tell him that he’s just doing his job.

When the two of you grow closer, he becomes such a comforting presence, and he’s never not smiling at you.

Even though he’s your bodyguard, he doesn’t mind doing manual tasks for you.

Have an eyelash in your eye? He’s on it. You’re wearing a dress with a train? He’ll be sure to carry the ends for you. You’re going shopping? He’ll hold your bags for you.

Honestly he’s such a lovely gentleman. Marry him already.

You wouldn’t really see him as a bodyguard though, but that would change the moment you see him in action when he activates serious and badass mode.

Is the guy who cried when he saw a spider in your room the same guy that legit kicked a gun out of a grown man’s hand, did a flip, and caught that gun like a baton??

Where the fuck did he learn how to do that??

You honestly thought that the gun he carries around with him was just for show.

Afterwards Prompto would cry, and he would think that he had failed you because he couldn’t stop the threat from the start. The poor babe honestly believes that he’s so disposable as a bodyguard.

Protect him, love him, become his emotional bodyguard.

Prompto’s uniform is a black bulletproof vest over a red, sleeveless shirt and baggy pants. He keeps his gun in a holster at his side and has an earpiece that he always fiddles with because he can’t stand still for long.

Ignis:

Is he a model?? Or a bodyguard? The world may never know.

He’s the type of bodyguard that doesn’t know when to relax. No matter what, he’s always on guard to ensure your safety. Because of this, there’s never a moment with him around that you don’t feel safe.

He’s very professional and strict, but it’s known to have a soft spot for you.

Ignis would also be underestimated physically as a bodyguard, but not only is he as sharp as a whip, has multiple plans and backup plans in case anything goes wrong, Ignis can take down three men twice his size before you can even blink.

Haven’t you ever seen his bare biceps?? Dat boi lifts.

Ignis would be the one to drive you everywhere because he doesn’t trust anyone else to do it.

After you were nearly poisoned, he would be the one to make almost every meal that you have too.

He’s also very old-fashioned when it comes to chivalry. Even though he’s not paid to pamper you, he wouldn’t hesitate to carry your books for you, open doors for you, or scoop you up to walk over a puddle.

He’s such a mom friend.

He acts like your mother more than your mother does when it comes to your safety, but he also motivates you and tries to help you if you ever feel overwhelmed.

If you feel stressed, he’ll be there to pull out a chair beside you, pour you some drinks and give you some snacks. He’s here to help.

Your emotional health is just as important to him as your physical health.

He would even crack some jokes or give you some memes if that’s what it takes to make you smile.

When you first see Iggy, he’ll look like the boring and stern type, but there’s more than meets the eye with him. With everything that he does for you, it’s a no-brainer that you fell in love with him.

After Ignis goes blind trying to protect you, he’ll try to quietly remove himself from your life because he feels like he’s not fit to protect you anymore.

Please stop this man.

Ignis doesn’t know what casual dressing is. Every single one of his uniforms are designer, tailored, and pressed to perfection.

Gladio:

He fits the bodyguard mold to a T.

When people see him with you, he’s just so tall and muscular that there’s no hesitation in their minds that he’s here to protect you, and he’s probably the best person for the job.

Why would people even threaten you with him as your bodyguard tbh,

He won’t hesitate to tease you though, but that just means that he feels at ease with you and he doesn’t feel stifling.

Gladio also wouldn’t mind if you asked him to carry you everywhere. He’s just like, [shrugs] “Alright,” because it’s not like he’d have to use much of his strength to carry you.

Besides, it’s easier on him as a bodyguard because he literally has you by his side at all times.

Gladio also hopes that it would never have to come to this, but in case he ever has to leave you alone for a while, he’ll teach you how to fight for yourself.

His security measures can get a bit overbearing, and sometimes you feel a bit frustrated because he feels like your dad, and you think that he’s taking all of these precautions too far.

You just have to understand that he’s trying to protect you.

Other than that, you would never have to worry if you really were in danger because you know that Gladio would be there to save you 100% of the time.

If you were receiving death threats though.

Cue Taken’s “I will find you, and I will kill you.”

If for any reason he needs to leave your side for a while, the next person he trusts to protect you is Iris.

She’s honestly so precious and it’s always a blessing to see her.

This girl will give you plush toys on one hand, then put your attacker in a choke hold in another.

You would never tell Gladio, but you’re more intimidated by her than you are by him, and that’s saying something.

He would also ask you to accompany him to the gym. He has to watch you almost 24/7, and he needs to keep his body in shape, so this is killing two birds with one stone.

You get to watch him work out and he gets to watch over you. It’s a win-win for everyone.

He would even catch your watchful eyes on him and would give you a teasing smirk and a, “Like what you see?”

His uniform is a fitted suit that fits perfectly over his hulking form, but he usually wears a black, fitting tank top with dark jeans.

Honestly this entire Bodyguard AU thing is just canon for Gladio.

Nyx:

The all-around perfect bodyguard. While Prompto and Noctis are a bit too lenient, while Ignis and Gladio can be a bit overbearing, Nyx is the perfect middle.

He’s assertive, but he’ll let you have some freedom too.

He calls you “Princess” jokingly.

He tries to keep your relationship professional, but it wouldn’t be very hard to get him out of his shell.

If the two of you are alone, pull him into a dance, pull him into the pool, or tell him to lay next to you on the bed, and he’ll complain at first, but soon he’ll be laughing with you. (Just let me have a slow dance with Nyx alright ;;)

With all of the distractions you throw at him, people would think that it would be easy to get things past him, but they are dead wrong.

Nyx is incredibly observant no matter what, and almost nothing gets past him.

He’ll catch you trying to sneak out, but then he’ll be like, “Okay, but only I can come too.”

He’ll definitely be those guys from the YA novels that are like, “You don’t want to get close to me, Princess, I’m a dangerous man.”

Uh-huh, sure.

He takes his job very seriously, so you’ll see him posted outside your door or behind you during long, boring meetings, and he’ll keep his stance and form perfectly straight the entire time.

If you keep on trying to talk to him when he’s on duty, he’ll give you a lopsided smile and an exasperated, “Princess, you’re interfering with my work.”

Give him a smirk and a, “As long as I’m with you, I feel like the safest person in the world.”

He’ll hum and turn away, but it takes him at least ten minutes to catch on.

Hold on.

What??

Wait, are you...flirting with him??

For the rest of the week he would just be in a state of shock and have a mental debate of, “No, they were just being cheeky,” or “Holy shit, they flirted with me because they like me.”

Save him from his suffering, or else he’ll be stuck in this internal monologue for the rest of his life.

His uniform is a tailored double-breasted military jacket with matching trousers, but he’ll also wear a plain black tee and black pants.

10/10 would want him as a bodyguard.

#bodyguard au #ffxv #ffxv headcanons #ffxv imagines #final fantasy xv #final fantasy 15 #final fantasy #noctis #noctis lucis caelum #prompto #prompto argentum #ignis #ignis scientia #gladio #gladiolus amicitia #nyx #nyx ulric

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exi-dentally · 7 years

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It’s You - Park Jinwoo x Reader

Title: It’s You. Author: Haru. Pairing: Park Jinwoo x Reader

The boys kept arguing during lunch as the girl left to grab her books for her next class, talking about how Jinwoo should somehow hint that yes, this secret admirer thing is true, it's a real, legit person who had a genuine crush on her and that it, maybe, might be, could be him. "You guys shouldn't involve yourself in my love life." "Says the one who asked for help!" MJ protested and pointing his index finger at him, trying to act all tough but his cuteness gave him away. "You were all like, hyunng!" "Shut up," Jinjin held in his embarrassment as he pushed MJ away, making the elder bump into the youngest of the group. "Just help me get this one," He took out another note from his pocket - this one had a drawing of a backpack on it with hearts and smiley faces - "In her backpack." "Done." Sanha replied quickly, taking it from his hyung and racing after his friend. "If you mess this up, I'm going to kick your ass." "Don't you do that on a daily basis?" Rocky asked, watching as the double doors that lead from the roof to the second floor of the school. All of them sighed as they sat back down and stuffed their faces with food. "Noona!" Sanha sprinted down two flights of stairs and down the hallway. "I want to walk to our next class together!" The girl turned around at Sanha's voice and chuckled to herself, covering her mouth with the sleeves of her sweater. As the tall sophomore approached the Junior, she spoke, "I don't have a class this period, I have a spare, remember?" "I know, I just want to walk to your locker with you," Sanha improvised, tugging the girl's school sweater and briskly making his way over to her locker. "Is that okay?" "Well you're already here, might as well, eh?" She took ahold of her cerulean colored lock and punched in her code - 25 left, one full rotation, 5 right and left to 26 - to unlock her locker. She then placed her lunch bag at the top shelf of her locker and grabbed her bag. "Where are you headed, noona?" "To the garden across the street," She then slung her bag over her shoulder. "I'm going to finish the book Jinwoo wanted me to finish." "Ah," Sanha then opened his arms out for a hug, happily receiving one from (Y/N) and slipped the note that he was assigned to give to her in the pocket of her backpack and smiled all smugly since he finished the job and pulled away. "Stay safe, alright?" "Yeah, yeah, don't worry." The girl waved the boy off and spun around, heading for the front entrance of the school. Once she disappeared into the daylight, Sanha took out his phone and immediately texted his group of friends on their solo group chat, saying how his mission was a complete success. With MJ literally started to judge him on the group chat claiming that his mission was something a child could do. Just let the kid have fun, MJ, let the kid have fun.

"I got another one, Jinwoo," The girl spoke, lying down on her bed, belly down, as she held the home phone to her ear with her right hand and held the note with her left. "I found it in the pocket of my backpack as I was walking." "Oh," Jinjin acted surprised as he flopped onto his bed, umph sound coming out of his mouth as his belly hit the mattress, throwing his blanket over his legs. "What does this one say?" "'I love you for all that you are, all that you have been and all that you will become," She then folded the note back in half and smiled at the drawing of a schoolbag that was on it. "As cute as this is, I still think it's fake." "You got two. In one day. I doubt this is fake." "You're just saying that," The girl replied and placed the note on her side table next to her bed and rolled onto her back, her hair sprawled out around her head like a halo and her legs dangling off the bed. "No one would fall for a little trash like me." "You're pretty and very talented," Jinjin tried to make her feel better without trying to expose his plan. "Anyone would be glad to date you." "They'd be a little weird though," The girl replied and sighed, kicking her feet back and forth at the edge of her bed, making quiet thump sounds each time she hit the wood bedframe of her queen sized bed - She was a queen, therefore she needed a Queen sized mattress. "I mean, what if they just like me for my appearance and didn't like my personality." "Doubt they'd do that." "Yeah, Jinjin, but the possibilities are endless!" The girl sat up and made a hand gesture that emphasized her point. "What if I don't even know the guy!" "You never know," Jinwoo's reply struck a bit of curiosity in the girl. "Maybe you know him better than you know yourself." "You're being quite mysterious, Jinwoo." "And you're being very oblivious."

The next day, Jinwoo had given each of his friends, aside from (Y/N), the victim of the whole mission, to somehow hide in different places - like in her notebooks, bag, locker, jacket pocket, anything - for her to find. "I question why you can't just grow some courage and just tell her." Rocky sighed as the group of boys walked to school, their notes that they were assigned to give hidden in their back pocket of their uniform pants. "Because hyung is not--" You say shit, you get hit, Sanha. "Shut up," Jinjin replied and crossed his arms. "I'm actually thinking of telling her." "Right," Moonbin rolled his eyes and sized up his smaller hyung, smirking as he towered over him by a couple inches. "And pigs fly." "I think Jinwoo's going to tell her," MJ stood in-between the maknae line and the hyung line. "This could be the one fateful day that he--" "Five bucks says he doesn't!" Sanha raised his hand in the air, cutting off MJ as he spoke, jumping up and down like a kid. He knew he was going to win, there was no way Jinjin could do it. After crushing on their best friend for years, claiming that he was going to tell her years prior and didn't follow through, why would now be the same? "You owe me five dollars if he does," Eunwoo stuck out his hand for the maknae to take, smirking. "Deal?" "Seriously guys! You're betting on my love life now?" "When do we not?" Rocky laughed as he clapped a hand on his hyung's right shoulder, leaning onto him slightly. "We always bet, but with this time we're doing actual money." "Seriously guys?!" "Deal!" Sanha stuck out his hand, grinning ear to ear. There was no way Jinjin had the guts... No absolute way. "I'll join in on this," Moonbin put his hand ontop of Sanha's and Eunwoo, gazing over to the elder of the two. "This is like making fast money." "Seriously! I'm still here! What is with everyone and butting into my love life like this?!" "It's called," Rocky turned around, tugging Jinjin along with him by the bag's hanger strap, making the elder huff and protest against the younger. "Letting loose and going with the flow." "Next time any of you get a girlfriend or, better yet crush on anybody, I'm going to 100% be butting in any chance I receive."

MJ had the note that he had hidden during first period, walking the girl to class and slipping it into her textbook, distracting her slightly by saying the High school jocks we making a complete fool of themselves. Eunwoo had hidden her note in her pocket as he passed by her during the hallways in between period one and two, telling her good luck on the Chemistry test she had in store for her and that, hey, if she failed, it was only the first test of the year, first of many. Moonbin was given instructions to hide her note during lunch when Sanha and Jinjin stole her away from her locker to aid them in their last minute Mathematics homework that needed to be finished before lunch or else they were going to receive a detention. He had placed the note behind her lock, making sure it was held securely before snickering and making his way back to Eunwoo, MJ and Rocky. Rocky was signed up for third period, which he had (Y/N) had shared together - dance. As she was getting ready in the girl's change room, the sneaky dancer hid his given note taped securely on her water bottle which was located in her dance bag. Sanha, since he lost the rock, paper, scissors game against everyone else in Astro besides the leading man, had to find a creative way to hide the note he was given. After slaving over it during third, he finally had an idea. Though it needed time and a big, white lie. "Noona!" The boy ran over to her as he turned the corner, making the girl shake her head and hand him her pencil case. "I can't believe you forgot your pencil case." "I was going to get it, but my locker is all the way downstairs and my teacher already hates me enough!" The younger boy protested as he politely took her pencil case from her, bowing. "You saved my life." "You're just lucky I have a substitute in Korean," A class that she shares with Jinjin - and he literally, even though he was fluent, decided to take just because (Y/N) was taking it. "And all we're required to do is just read novels." "I'll pay you back!" He said as the girl started to walk away, making her lift her arm up an give him a wave without looking back. "Doubt you will," She replied. "You haven't paid me back from buying you banana milk the other day." "What I'm doing," The evil maknae whispered as he walked back to class, unzipping her pencil case and slipping his note inside, covering it slightly with some of her mechanical pencils. "I'll be paying you back plenty." The last and final part to Jinwoo's plan was set after school as the seven of them were walking back to their respective dorms. Rocky and Jinjin were at the girl's sides, Eunwoo and Moonbin in front and Sanha and MJ at the back. "What's with all the papers in your backpack pocket?" Rocky asked, striking up some conversation with his hyung's crush, pointing to the surplus of folded notes in her backpack's left mesh pocket. "Got some more love letters from Mr.Right?" He then elbowed Jinwoo, making the elder punch him for almost giving away his cover. Great acting, Rocky. Great acting. "Actually," The girl tucked a strand of hair behind her ear with her middle finger and blushed. "Yeah, I did... Surprisingly they were everywhere I looked." "How many in total?" MJ piped up from behind the group, trying to act curious as he tried to push his way through Jinjin and Rocky who were at her side. "Five." "Five? Woah! I can't believe someone wrote you that many!" Eunwoo grinned, walking backwards to be able to see his best friend's flushed face. Now that's method acting right there. "We were right about this guy. He's real and that he has a massive crush on you." "You were, weren't you guys?" "We're always right!" Sanha interjected from behind them, bumping into Rocky and sending him into the front row of people. He then held in a laugh from his antics and continue on with his sentence. "We're right about you having a secret admirer, we're right about you being able to win the dance competition--" "Alright, alright Sanha," The girl giggled and reached up to give Sanha's shoulders a pat. "I get it." As the rest of the group were talking, Jinwoo felt his mind trying to piece together a decent sounding sentence as he finished off his plan. To give the girl he's been crushing on for years the last letter he had written for her. "Hyung!" Sanha whined, making Jinjin snap out of his thoughts. "Don't you have anything to say? Noona's been asking why you've been quiet for the past while." The leader of the group lifted up his head to see the concerned eyes of his crush, making him hold back a deep blush. "I'm fine." "Sanha was talking about the silly mistake you made during gym class with him and you're not retaliating," The girl then took a step closer to Jinwoo, getting a good look at his face. "Are you feeling alright, Jinjin?" "Peachy," Was his instant reply as he took a step back, his voice going higher an octave. His palms were sweaty and he could feel the note burning in his pocket. "Just peachy, (Y/N)." "Here's the greatest opportunity to confess," Moonbin whispered to his group, making sure that the two love birds wouldn't hear him. He smirked as he watched, watching his leader and hyung sweat under the hard gaze of his longtime crush. "If he doesn't do it now, you owe Sanha and I money, Eunwoo." "Nope," Eunwoo turned his head to the right to look over at the younger boy, holding up his index finger. "I have a great feeling about this moment. He is positively going to confess." "I dunno," Sanha jumped into the whispering as they observed. It was almost like they were trying to document the newest species known to man on a wildlife tv series. The Jinwoo species is trying to court his chosen mate and finally grow some balls to admit his feelings after god knows how many years. "He looks like he's going to start sprinting the other way again like all the other times." "He always looks nervous." "Yeah, but he looks more nervous now." "Just shut up!" Rocky and MJ said in unison as they looked over at the three who were bickering. "We want to continue watching and listening," More like eavesdropping, but listening to other people's private conversations sounds good too. "To what they're saying and if you're too loud then---" "You don't look okay," The girl spoke as she inspected Jinwoo's face even further, taking into account that, hey, it's literally summer and he could just be overheating or dehydrated. "Do you just want to stop by at the convenience store to pick up something quick to eat?" "No, no," Jinjin side stepped away from her, getting out of her intense gaze and let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding in. "It's fine. Let's just go home." "Home it is, then." Eunwoo handed both Sanha and Moonbin five bucks, groaning about how Jinjin was being a complete fool.

"You could have!!" MJ said as he was pacing along with lecturing Jinjin, who was sitting on the couch, clutching his phone for dear life, on how he could have confessed and things would have been better for everyone. Their skin would be clear once again, World Poverty would diminish, Wars would never happen again, they'd be rich and BTS would notice them. Okay, maybe not that far. BTS would never notice them in this lifetime. "There was a perfect opportunity and you missed it," Added in Rocky, shaking his head in shame. "We thought that this would be your shining moment, hyung." "Told you!" Sanha chimed as he waved a five dollar bill in front of his elders' faces, laughing. "I was right all along." "There's something called," Jinjin lifted up his phone and showed the boys what was displayed on the screen. A picture of the last note Jinjin had written for (Y/N) and her reply - a yes. "You guys should start believing in me when I say I have a plan." "Wha--" "I made her five letters, one for each of you to hide for her in my place, but," Jinjin stood up from the couch and unlocked his phone, tapping on iMessage and opening his chat with his crush and, now current, girlfriend. "I made a sixth one to give to her and explain my feelings," Sanha and Moonbin, at this point were speechless as Eunwoo held out his hand to take back his money that he had given for them supposedly winning the bet. "I may not be a verbal person, but when it comes to writing out my feelings, I can write an entire novel." "And now," Eunwoo gladly took the money from the two younger boys with a smug look on his face. "I get to say - ha, I told you so." "You guys still bet on me?! I thought that was just a joke!" "That's like saying pigs fly, hyung."

A/N: Here’s the unofficial official second part of Secret Admirer that was requested by my wonderful annonie!! I hope this was to your liking and hope the wait! -H.

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the100oneshots · 7 years

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Single Dad!AU - Bellamy Blake

warnings: single parents, custody stuff and legal stiff, some curse words, abandonment, police involvement

a lot of dot points omg i’m sorry

backstory

in a modern situation i recon bellamy would’ve been out one night like celebrating lets say monty’s birthday

he go a little bit too drunk and ended up in someone else’s bed the next morning

so with his prompt leave he would’ve thought that was that and moved on with his life right

wrong

like a fair few years later when bellamy has his life pretty much sorted, he has a decent job, he’s got himself a pretty good car, a pretty good apartment that he shares with lets say murphy and rocks up to work and working away at his detective desk when he gets a phone call

it’s from an unknown number he answers thinking it’s a wrong number call bc most people call his work number if they need him urgently

and he gets the shock of his life when there’s a quiet little voice on the end of the phone; “is this bellamy blake?”

and his eyebrows furrow and he’s like ‘uh, yeah, how can I help you?”

“so i’m at the police station and i need you to come pick me up”

and he sits there for like a few seconds and is like “who is this?”

“long story, can you please come?”

turns out the young girl was literally downstairs at his precinct and he comes down to collect her and is really confused as to why a 15 year old girl asked for him

and when he sees her sitting on a chair in the corner of the precinct he has furrowed eyebrows and he just kinda sits opposite her and y’all have a little stare off lol

“i’m bellamy, but somehow you already knew that”

he’d try his best to lighten the mood with a dad joke and you’d crack a smile that’d make him grin

“my name is cassie”

“are you in trouble or something?”

“my mother took off with simon her asshole boyfriend and left me at home, i don’t know where she’s going or when she’s going to be back but she told me to open this bak whenever i was in trouble and she wasn’t here and it had you’re name on it and dates back to 9 months before i was born, so i came here and here you are.”

he was so confused the poor guy and before he could reply omg the teenager so calmly blurts out something like “pretty sure this makes me your kid i think”

and he takes a minute and it’s so silent

“my kid?” he says as his eyebrows are raised and the face cassie makes is kind of like just nod and purses her lips

so he takes her to the hospital to get a DNA test just incase and like both of them are up for it bc the mum was very unreliable

surprise !! bellamy has a kid

so he gains like temporary guardianship or smth like that and takes her to his apartment and realises she needs a place to stay and school books and this is all so much for him omg

murphy gets home sees a kid on he ouch and is like “hey what’s up” so casually and then he walks to his room and reALISES what he just saw and walks back to the living room and she’s still watching tv omg

“bELLAMY”

murphy get’s sorted and in the coming weeks cassie settles in and really feels like home

here comes the romaaaaaance

so like bellamy just has to come to cassie’s band recital because she’s really into that and bellamy would obi be a new but 100% supportive dad and gladly takes the night of work

and he sits down in his assigned seat and next to him there you are

and like bellamy obvi is single still and is like thinking something unintentionally douchy like should come to these things more often

surprise !! you’re the one to initiate conversation with something like

“who are you here to see?”

and you’re looking at him expecting an answer and he kind of casually, “cassie she plays piano” with a proud smile

and you look at him with furrowed eyes like, “you’re not her mum’s boyfriend are you?” with real judgey eyes bc cassie has told you act her mother and her how she lives

“no, god no” he laughs and you smile and he like admires it for a second and realises he should probably continue

and your reaction when he tells you he’s her father is a surprised face and huge grin, “so you’re the crime fighting super dad who lives with a permanently drunk mate from high school ??”

his reaction though omg he’s like “uhhhhh ....”

wiht a smile on your face you introduce yourself as cassie’s old middle school teacher in like her favourite subjects and he immediately recognises you from all of cassie’s stories

and y’all make small talk and have like such good chemistry oh my

after the show you’re still talking outside when cassie comes running over and she jumps into bellmay’s arms and you just internally aw at the hug

and then she hugs you and you congratulate her with the flowers you got her and they offer to go out for ice cream but you decline and bellamy’s face sinks a lil

and a few days go by and cassie can teeeeeeeell that he’s got the hots for u and she’s doing the raising of the eyebrows and the winking teasing her dad

the staff at the police station too are giving him shit for it too but like teasingly way rather than actual ya feel

and cassie and murphy are organising a way for y’all to speak again bc it’d be weird for him to pop up after the first meeting and ask

so guess who just ‘desperately’ wants to try this new italian place on the other side of town bc ‘apparently’ it has the best garlic bread

but omg bellamy walks in to pick up the take away and guess who’s standing in line in front of him; you

and y’all do small talk and you’re thinking ‘gosh just ask him out !!’

and he’s thinking like the same thing

and omg could u just imagine both of y’all blurting out “are you free on friday?” and you giggling and him chucking and you both then agree at the same time and mORE LAUGHTER

and boom his daughter he didn’t even know he had set him up with the love of his life

relationship!bellamy would be so happy

he’s walk into work with a smile everyday and would be teased so badly because of it but guess who wouldn’t care !!

late night phone calls would be a must

literally cassie would come home after band to y’all snuggling on the couch watching a movie

and he’d be asleep and you’d gesture for her to be quiet and cassie would lOVE IT

ice cream dates !!

pizza dates !!

movie dates !!

dates feat. cassie !!

just one big happy family and then murphy

lol murphy’s like nah boi i’m out

and coincidentally you and murphy literally just swapped apartments

it was getting so serious legit

everyone was just so happy it was all sweet

but wait, we’re missing the drama, right ??

(psa: be in mind i haveno idea how custody or court cases work)

so guess who comes back with a broken heart bc simon broke up with her and left her for some blonde bombshell

and !! she !! wants !! her !! kid !! back !!

legit she shows up to the precinct to report a missing child and is whisked into bellamy’s desk

they’re legit going through her description and his heart is breaking bc it reminds her of cassie

and then he realises he never got given a name bc she was a blubbering mess and then it clicks for her

and then she gets a bunch of legal stuff to go down which bellamy is like lowkey familiar with bc of his job but it is a completely seperate field so he’s failing with all her knowledge bc she’s been playing the system for that long

and cassie is picked up from school by you who has to take her to the station and she knows something’s up

when she sees her mother sitting there she stops short and you legit almost trips over her omg

and the mother runs up and hugs her as you glare bc you know the shit that she’s put cassie through

so cassie is then forced to go back to her mother\

and it breaks your heart to 1 - see cassie go through all that bullshit again with her mother and be unhappy and 2 - see bellamy so upset that his daughter is being taken away from him and she’s kicking and screaming for her father but he can’t do anything but cry because it’s his job even though he desperately wants to

and she hates it with her mother

bellamy legit tries everything to get her back and cassie wants to go back

and theres a whole lot of chaos and it’s literally crazy

and you’re consoling your boyfriend as he cries every night bc now something is missing without his daughter

a lot of forehead kisses and head kisses as he cries into your shoulder

with !! him !! every !! step !! of !! the !! way !!

then omg could u imagine bellamy getting a call from cassie and he lowkey can’t answer it but does anyway and something’s wrong at home so he gets cassie to ring 911 and his team is sent out to the house

the mum is like unconscious from god know what and cassie runs to bellamy when the police take her mother away

custody of cassie and her legally changing her last name to blake omg

waiting outside the court or like the police station (idk tbh i’m going off movies and shit) anxiously for them to come out

hand in hand with smiles on their faces and you know it went well

being happy for the both of them

bellamy picking you up and swirling you around

everyone being happy

just so much happiness

bellamy was just content with his life everything was falling into place

all was good and he had his girls :))))))

#bellamy #bellamy blake #bellamy blake imagine #bellamy imagine #bellamy blake imagines #bellamy blake oneshot #The 100 #the 100 imagines #the 100 imagine #the 100 one shot

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ask-svt-hearteu · 7 years

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college! Minghao

requested by anon: “could you write a college au of minghao please? if you do, tsym (and please include a reader in it, i’m sorry if it’s too much to ask for)”

Admin note: I wrote and rewrote this and researched and rewrote and deleted and wrote this again so many times, it's not funny (ok maybe a little). I'm sorry if this wasn't any good, I legit had such a tough time with this one, well anyway, I hope you enjoy!

Minghao is a Performance Music Major

particularly with a dance focus

when he's not sitting around in some rehearsal room in the music building practicing his vocals or reviewing for the next postmodernism in dance exam

he can usually be found with the other music majors

usually sitting in the outside picnic area of campus

or running through some of the choreos created for the next final project out on the lawn with Soonyoung, Jun, and Chan

with Joshua (vocal performance major) playing guitar

or with Jihoon telling Mingyu to stop blaring rap long enough for him to finish composing

which causes Mingyu and Vernon (contemporary production majors) to both defend Drake as a musical artist

and that Jihoon should stop composing his boring classically arranged piece

which Jihoon says he can't because he's a freaking music theory and composition major and it's due soon

while the rest are debating the musical merits of the latest pop sensation and whether or not the hook is repeated over and over

"'Despacito' has the same chord progressions throughout" "Ok no, there's a modulation in the bridge..." "DEEESSPAAACITOO"

and Minghao's music major friends may seem a bit like a mess

but they're all really close friends

they host recitals every winter and spring

the whole music and drama department

and Minghao is always one of the front performers especially from the dance program

though someone should give him more vocal lines in the shows, why can't the professors realize his vocals are amazing and that he never gets enough lines smfh

Minghao's best classes outside of his major are those relating to liberal arts

especially lit and psychology

the only two courses you shared with him since they were mandatory for graduation

you both have talked before, but mostly just the universal complaining and groaning over homework assignments that characterize every college student ever

since your major was in media studies, his in performance arts

it was understandable that you didn't really get a chance to get to know Minghao, since students with the same majors normally spend a lot of time with people from their own departments

but that's how you always saw Minghao

since the media studies classes were in the humanities and social science building

which is a little past the music building

his group of music majors is always sitting on the lawn in between

and you've noticed little things Minghao does

like how he always opens the doors for the instrumentalists carrying in cases in the morning

or the way he acts like he's done with his friends 100% but then ends up buying them breakfast and making sure they eat

and while it seems as though Minghao is always rehearsing for one thing or another

you sometimes see him skating down the campus on his skateboard or reading in the library

stuff not even assigned to him by your lit professor

joined by Jun, Wonwoo, and Joshua, or other random music majors

they sort of claimed the back corner of the library

one day your lit professor decides it's been too quiet and boring

time to assign a huge project that could potentially make or break your grade

because college professors like torturing students as hobbies

and better yet, it's a partner research essay and visual presentation

which works for you because whoever your partner is, you can just borrow some equipment from the media productions classroom to get the visual presentation part done

and as the teacher starts reading off names

all you can think about is how you hope you don't get stuck with someone who won't do their work

the professor calls out Utopia by Thomas More

the one book on the list you really wanted

and then "Minghao, y/n."

jumping up and silently thanking the heavens for giving you such an easy book to work with

so many freaking things you could talk about, you're so excited

you almost forgot that you had a partner as you go up to collect the book and the directions

Minghao walks up to you quietly

"So when do you want to meet to work on the essay and visual presentation?"

"Oh uh, we can do tomorrow at the student café if you want." you tell him

"Alright."

the two of you meet the next day and split the work evenly in half before

"I have a postmodernism in dance exam tomorrow so I'll take-off first."

"That's fine, we have a whole month, we can chill." you said smiling

Minghao returned the smile and turned around to leave when

"Here, call me if you need help with your half, I'll finish my half of the essay by the end of the week, so we can begin the visual presentation."

he hands you his number and you just nod and assure him he can just leave

with Minghao off to study, you decide to go work on your half in the library

the library is usually open quite late anyway

you start researching the ways More wrote his socio-political satire

but with the amount of sleep you've been getting, you fall asleep on top of your laptop

and sure, the library isn’t for napping

but screw it, you’re running on 3 hours of sleep in the last two days, what else can you do?

Minghao walks into the library a little while later, looking for a global dance history book when he sees you sleeping on your laptop

hair cascading over the table as you breathe slowly in and out

he smiles unconsciously

he had noticed this before

but you’re really pretty

while the closest interactions you've both had together were the random jokes Wonwoo would tell you and Minghao in psych

he knew you were a really nice person, since you and the video production team would always film the shows and performances he did with the rest of his department

he had even seen some of your short student films, the ones that he could only describe as art from someone who must really love what they do

and seeing you calmly napping was cute

so he goes to the nearest vending machine impulsively and buys a can of coffee before he puts it behind your laptop that you’re using as a pillow

“What are you doing Minghao?” Jun says giving Minghao a sly smile while coming up behind him

“Nothing.” he laughs

“Doesn’t look like nothing.” Jun smirks

“We have a project for lit, she's my partner.” he said shrugging his shoulders while looking down at you

“Does she always sleep here?”

“Not sure.”

Jun nods his head slowly, an understanding look on his face

“Yea you like her, imma call it now.”

“Yah!” Minghao says punching Jun’s arm

“Hey I called it so remember this moment in the future and thank me later.”

Minghao shakes his head

“Well, Wonwoo and I are ready to go, let’s get something to drink.”

when you wake up and shut your laptop you see the can of coffee sitting in front of your closed laptop, with a post-it note

"Keep up the hard work partner! Fighting! -Minghao" you read

you laugh and take the can with you

over the next few weeks, you and Minghao work together on the lit project

and when it's done and you both get an A-

you both celebrate with ice cream from the student café

he’s cute

and funny too

he makes you laugh quite a bit by trying poorly to imitate the lit professor

the two of you kept texting about random hw assignments even after the project was over about anything like movies you wanted to see or concerts that were nearby

you got to know more about his dream to be a performer

he was so passionate about it

they way he talked about performing was the same way you felt about filming in media studies

each a form of art, but each a way to express it in your own style

by the time the winter showcase comes along, your professor assigns you to camera 3 on stage for the show

and you text Minghao

"Hey, break a leg at the concert :)"

"Breaking appendages would actually be a bad thing XD" he texts you back

"You know what I meant!"

"Yea haha, are you coming to watch?" your heart skips a beat a little reading his message

you watch as your phone shows that "Minghao is typing" message a few times before it stops

"I mean you don't have to if you don't want to"

"I'm filming so of course I'll be there ;)" you text back

"Oh ok lol"

you laughed at his short response

when you go to the performance hall the night before opening night to set up the audio systems with some of the other video production crew

you see Minghao and one of his friends running through a choreography

you stare at him amazed, the choreo included them dancing with a white ribbon connecting the two of them, which should have gotten tangled countless times but didn't

you didn't really want to intrude on the rehearsal, so you leave him a can of coffee with a post-it note on it by the stage

“I believe I owe you a coffee, don't forget to rest, I believe in you, fighting!-y/n :)”

Minghao is internally screaming at how cute you are when he reads it

“JUST ASK HER OUT ALREADY AND STOP BOTHERING ME.”

Jun's trying to work on the choreo and practically yells at Minghao who’s told the guys the story for like the fifth time

"Ok but isn't she so cute? 'don't forget to rest, I believe in you'"

"Minghao, I called this remember?" Jun say laughing

Minghao smacks him on the arm again

so Minghao decides to finally gather up the courage

with you sitting in the desk next to him in lit

your knees inches away from each other

“Hey y/n wanna grab a dinner after the show or something?”

“Depends.” you say heart beat steadily increasing

“On what?” Minghao says trying to keep his cool

“On whether it’s a date or not.” you want to scream at yourself, where did this courage come from?!?!

“And if it is?” he smiles

“I’d be happy to.”

and when you're filming the show that night, Minghao catches your eyes while waiting in the wings on stage left

and shoots you a wink

which nearly causes you to drop your camera

and you see him getting smacked by Jun

after the show, he brings you backstage

"Got the gardening club to get me these" he says handing you a small bunch of white carnations

"Aw they're beautiful."

"I ended up doing a lot of research on the significance of flowers thanks to a lit project, white carnations mean sweet and lovely." he smiles shyly

"They also mean pure love." you say smiling

"Yea, well... they're just flowers to celebrate a show well-done." he coughs blushing

"Let's go for dinner, shall we?"

when all the other music majors found out

it was chaos

"HONESTLY Y/N DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUSIC MAJORS HAVE ATTACKED ME TODAY WITH QUESTIONS?" your friend from the media production course asked you

"It's like some celebrity is dating you or something from this response!" she says shaking her head

and whenever you walk to the humanities building

Minghao bounds up and takes your hand

in front of both the departments

so you have the music majors screaming at Minghao

and the media studies majors cheering you on

it's a mess

but Minghao just shrugs it off and wraps an arm around you

"Want to grab a coffee before lit?"

"Sure" you laugh

and he holds your hand as you both make your way to the student café

and the both of you lay on the lawn after sipping your lattes

hands intertwined staring up at the clouds in the sky

"Look, they look like white carnations." you smile and point up at a cluster of clouds

just enjoying the light breeze of a spring day

when he pulls you closer until you're laying on his arm

and kisses your forehead

"Sweet and lovely just like you."

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