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i-drop-level-one-loot · 8 months

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If you're comfortable with doing smut, can you do a yan! best friend fic where reader says one night "I'm still a virgin" (yk because he never lets them go out) so he almost immediately changes that.

Will oblige <3

(Reader) cracked open another beer, a small frown on their tipsy face as they sat on their living room floor.

Not three hours earlier, (Reader) had been excitedly trying to sneak out of work after clocking off, hoping to do so without being caught by their best friend. (Reader) had seen their best friend getting chewed out by their management, so a small (not so) guilty part of them hoped that he would be stuck staying late to make up for whatever it was that he had done wrong. But as (Reader) silently clocked off, Max's voice right behind them startled (Reader) so bad they released a squeak.

"Why do you look so guilty?" He had meant it as a joke, but (Reader's) uncomfortable attempt at a smile caught him off guard.

"Heyyy.. I thought you were working late?"

"No? Why would I be?"

(Reader) swallowed hard, a tight smile still twitching on their lips. "Ah, the stars told me so! I knew astrology was a sham!" They replied sarcastically, unable to contain their annoyance.

"Is everything okay, (Reader)?" Max asked in a concerned tone, leaning in to better read (Reader's) expressions.

"I was just... hoping to go out drinking tonight. I was pretty excited to get home quickly and get changed."

Max's concern melted into another happy smile. "Oh, that sounds like fun!"

"Really?!" (Reader) was sure that Max would lecture them on the dangers of public drinking, or the disturbing hygiene levels of pubs, which is why they wanted to sneak out in the first place. Max was an amazing friend. An understanding, ride-or-die kind of man, (Reader's) sidekick since middle school, extremely hot, and the only person (Reader) felt they could trust with (almost) any secret.

There was only one problem..

Max was controlling. He was never mean about it, and (Reader) never felt like their friendship was abusive, but he was so nervous about everything that (Reader) didn't have much of a social life outside of work and it was starting to drive them crazy. He even moved in to the apartment right next to (Reader) so that whenever they tried to go out without him, he always knew.

"Of course! Why don't you start heading home, and I'll go pick up some beers?"

(Reader's) heart sunk. "S-sounds good.." they feebly attempted to appear pumped, smiling while raising a fist.

Which is why (Reader) was now in their comfortable pajamas getting drunk on the floor in front of their couch, increasingly becoming more and more frustrated while their best friend watched TV, oblivious to (Reader's) bubbling anger.

The dumb comedy made Max chuckle, the booze turning him silly. Usually it was contagious, but at that moment his laughter grated on (Reader's) nerves.

Max finally got the hint that (Reader) might be upset when they loudly crushed their empty can in irritation. "What's going on down there, (Nickname)?"

"I wanted to drink at a bar." (Reader) grumbled, reaching for another drink.

"What? Why?" Max asked, honestly confused as to where this was coming from. "Bars aren't safe, especially for cute people like you. Do you know how many people only go to bars to try and take home drunk people?"

His words snapped (Reader's) patience. "That's what I was going for."

"What?!"

(Reader) jumped to their feet, exasperated. "Oh my GOD, Max. I have needs! I want to fuck, Max, I. Want. To. Fuck." They ran their hands through their hair, leaving Max shell shocked and bright red. "It's getting pathetic, like, really sad. I can't even masturbate, because I'm afraid you'll hear me through the walls."

They collapsed back onto their ass, hands covering their heated eyes.

"You've chased away everyone I've ever had a crush on. I've never had a real relationship. I'm still a virgin. I just wanted to go out and have fun..." (Reader) whined, almost on the verge of tears.

Max slinked off the couch towards (Reader's) curled up form, gently prying (Reader's) hands away from their eyes. "Why didn't you ever consider me?"

"What?" (Reader) pulled away, falling back onto their elbows as Max continued crawling over them.

"I spent so many years praying you would look at me like a man instead of just as your friend. If you were so pent up, why didn't you ever turn to me?"

(Reader) flushed, their dumb little drunk mind having difficulty understanding what Max was trying to say. "Y-you're only saying that because you're drunk." They stuttered, the feeling of their friend's breath tickling their lips making them squeeze their thighs shut instinctively.

"Do you remember, when we were in highschool, and you told me that you liked Robin? That less than average looking basketball player?" Max leaned in, trapping (Reader) with his arms as one knee forced apart their legs, pressing against their crotch. "Do you remember how hard I worked to constantly keep you two apart?"

(Reader) bit their lip to contain a moan. Why were they so turned on right now? They tried to convince themselves it was the alcohol, but the scent of Max's favorite aftershave was making them quiver.

"There's nothing embarrassing about being a virgin, (Reader).." Max tugged on their ear lobe with his teeth, "but if you want, I'll gladly take it for you."

Despite his words of consent, Max's lips were on (Reader's) before they could answer, hungry and dominating, tasting every corner of their mouth while he rubbed his knee against (Reader's) fully aroused sex.

Pulling back, Max smirked at the blushing mess under him, wiping some of (Reader's) saliva off his lip with his thumb. "I never wanted to be your friend." He pulled off his shirt, while smiling almost teasingly.

'This isn't like Max...' (Reader's) half gone mind puzzled. It was like he was possessed.

"Do you know how painful it was, being in love with someone as oblivious as you? How many times you would invite me to sleepovers, and I would spend the entire night watching you sleep?"

His large hands reached down to his zipper, drawing (Reader's) attention to the noticable bulge straining against his pants. "I wanted our first time together to be after you finally fell for me, but..." he pulled down the zipper, and released his erect cock out over the top of his boxers. "... I have the rest of our lives to make you love me."

(Reader's) eyes widened at the size. They hadn't seen a dick that big in real life before, their only frame of reference for erections being in porn. "I don't think that'll fit." They spoke quietly, almost in a whisper.

Max smiled wider, his eyes almost watering with how hot they had become. "It will if you make sure it's wet enough." And for the first time that night, (Reader) understood what Max was saying. They sat up, nervously bringing their face closer towards Max's exposed dick. With experimental touches, their fingers danced along his shaft. At first they were scared that in their drunkenness they couldn't make Max feel good, but soon what little was left of their mind was overcome by desire. (Reader) kissed the tip before thrusting Max's cock as deep into their throat as it could reach. They had imagined themselves doing this so many times that (Reader) thought they knew what to do, but the smell and taste, the building yearning in their groin, and his pleasured moans... There was so much happening all at once that it made it hard to focus on just sucking him off.

(Reader) looked up into Max's eyes, searching for approval, searching for a sign that they were doing a good job. Apparently looking up was the right thing to do, because Max cried out suddenly and pulled himself out of (Reader's) mouth. "God, you're so cute! I can't hold it anymore, (Reader)..."

Max stood to remove his clothes entirely, before getting back on his knees to tear off (Reader's) pajamas. As their pants came off, it was received that they hadn't been wearing any sort of undergarments, which made Max pause, eyes widening and scarlet face deepening.

"Is.. is something wrong?" (Reader) asked fearfully.

"You're more beautiful than I imagined."

As (Reader) soaked in his words, Max was already positioning his drool lubricated member against (Reader's) hole.

He slowly entered his best friend, and laughed as he felt their body swallow him up. "God, you have no idea how long I've wanted to do this!" The second he was fully submerged he began fucking (Reader) hard and fast, unable to hold himself back, especially when their pleased gasps and cries of pleasure sang from their lips unconstrained. (Reader) clawed at Max's back, not knowing where to put their hands but needing to touch him everywhere.

"Fuck, you look so sexy right now. I love you so much, (Reader)."

(Reader) felt their walls subconsciously constrict at Max's words. They thought about every single time they had ever noticed how attractive he was, and how they would chastise themselves for thinking about their best friend that way.

"I love you too."

Max leaned back, pulling (Reader) up with them as he continued pumping in and out of (Reader) like a machine. "Say it again."

Something was getting tighter in (Reader's) stomach, and they felt like it was going to pop.

"I love you too!"

Max's speed picked up, like a desperate animal. "Again."

"I love you, Max!"

A hot feeling spread throughout (Reader's) insides as Max came inside them, his thick cum triggering their own orgasm.

His hold on (Reader) did not loosen, keeping his grip cemented as though they would disappear if he let go. Even after (Reader) passed out he didn't pull out, simply lying back with (Reader) now on his stomach. Max finally had them, the person he had been head over heels for for the past decade. And as he fell asleep what replayed in his now sober mind wasn't how (Reader's) body felt on his, but their words, echoing on loop in his mind.

"I love you too!"

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere best friend #yandere behavior #romance #thanks for the ask!#i hope you enjoy

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moonkissedvisions · 2 months

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Astrology observations! (Vedic, Western)

Consider:

• These observations are based on my personal experiences, intuition and knowledge, not research. Use your own discernment.

• I'm not a professional astrologer. I've been learning Western astrology since 2016 and I started learning about Vedic only 2 years ago. Astrology is one of my passions since I was really young but I didn´t focus on it as a profession. You can ask me questions or send me a message ofc :), but I don't offer any astrological readings or give professional advice.

• This is meant to be fun and entertaining, so if I said something that you didn't like or that you disagree with, be kind and don't take it personal. These are just really general observations based on 3-8 examples! If you want, we can discuss anything here as long as you are respectful.

• English is not my first language.

Now let´s read!

I never experienced true telepathy until I met a Venus conjunct Neptune man. He would look at my face and know exactly what I'm thinking and feeling, and he would be so understanding of it, even when it was something potentially hurtful to his ego. These people are psychic lovers and I'm afraid they are often seen with abusive people who take advantage of their unconditional love.

Mars-Saturn aspects in synastry is an indicator of only wanting to have sex with only this person, or could be that the couple can go for long times without being intimate and not feel like they need it.

This may sound obvious, but Ardra nakshatra people are the ones that feel so renewed by crying. They could heal A LOT by just a long crying session. And while others think "crying won't solve your problems" Ardra nakshatra people know this is so far from the truth. I am an Ardra rising and sometimes i tell my friends that i cried for hours to feel better and they are all like "if I cried like that i would feel so much worse but I'm happy for you" lol.

Hasta nakshatra men are such women worshippers. Hasta women are so maternal.

If i wanted good financial advice I would ask a Venus in the second house person. Specially women. Ik they are known overspenders but I had many good experiences with them.

In fact, I've seen some cases where people follow the advice of Taurus/2nd house individuals more often than other people's advice. They perceive it as being more valuable, I suppose.

Anuradha nakshatra individuals love movies about friendship and gore/horror movies. I think they like movies in general too.

Krittika nakshatra people are often perceived as "mean" or they say things that others take too personally? Idk but I know 3 cases like that. They are so unapologetic. The 3 of them were perceived as asexual too.

As a Swati moon I've always been obsessed with beauty, decorating, fashion and clothes, putting on creams, balms, perfumes and other products and it makes sense!

My obsession with beauty wasn't healthy tho. I suffered from mental illness and could see the slightest imperfection on my face. That's another thing about Swati individuals, they perceive every subtle, small detail and may become obsessed with stuff easily.

True crime documentaries are a Ketu woman´s best friend. Probably Ketu men as well, although what i observed from them is more of adventure movies, movies about survival or nature documentaries. Teen Wolf is the perfect Ketu people TV show. Criminal Minds too. And they were both created by a Ketu man.

I love Mercury nakshatra women's voices. They are also so funny and sarcastic.

I know three cases of people with a mix of tropical pisces/neptune and aquarius/uranus having lucid dreams/dreams they can partially control, and dreams about flying. They also rarely have nightmares but when they do it's not something happening to them but to other people, and they are there trying to help lol.

Rahu women or rahuvians in general could feel like they don't even understand themselves sometimes. They're so independent and hard to tame that they feel like they need something to "control" them or some kind of restraint, but nothing feels effective or worth it at the end. I observed in my grandma, a Swati moon woman, that she used to brag about how independent she was, refused to stay married, hated feeling restrained so much and then she ended up wishing someone took care of her, gave energy and time to her, took the lead for her. She doesn´t necessarily regret being someone unconventional and independent, but she recognizes that now that she is old.

Uttara Bhadrapada and Rohini nakshatra people like learning and are so curious about some aspects of sex, they may even want to be sexologists. Could also apply to Ardra.

Cancer women get a lot of hate for apparently no reason. I even heard people saying they hate Cancer women as if they knew all Cancer women in the world?? I think the most simple explanation for that is that Cancer represents a lot of what's a woman's nature and power which are erased in a patriarchy.

Everyone talks about how Aries people get over anger so easily and never hold grudges but I've actually seen the opposite. In a lot of cases they are worse than the common "resentful" water and earth signs.

Aries in general have a hard time apologizing. It's like they never did anything wrong, the others were just unfair to them. I know SO MANY examples of this unhealthy expression.

A nice observation now lol is that I've never met an Aries that didn't have beautiful red lips and cheeks.

I noticed a lot of Moon and some Mars people have a significant amount of moles/freckles. The Spanish word for mole is lunar lol.

People with Mercury/Saturn aspects or Saturn in the third house felt "dumb" when young. Because of it, they made a lot of efforts and worked hard to know stuff and be smart by reading a lot of books, watching a lot of documentaries and educational videos, playing general knowledge games, learning a lot of words and languages, taking a lot of classes, playing memory games, chess, and even researching cognitive processes and brain health.

I've noticed that many Sun dominant women have this lowkey unhealthy expression of not being good friends with other women/feminine individuals. They're the type to say women are a lot of drama or that they can't connect with them even though they don't have a specific problem with women. They may be friends with only guys, or feel isolated from women. They also used to want to be a guy or dressed/still dresses tomboyish (there isn't anything wrong with that). I think in a way it's completely understandable and even healthy! But some of them express a lot of internalized misogyny and unconscious projections that they can't or don't want to recognize. When their expression is healthy, Sun dominant people are totally the warmest, best friends. And just the type of person others need around and in their life.

Saturn in the 5th house people are often self-taught artists. Some people perceive them as boring because they can be really afraid of expressing themselves. They give a lot in romantic relationships and often don´t get the same in return but they want to keep going because they care about loving more than being loved.

Sagittarius people make good parents in general and they are so underrated as parents. They give their children freedom, make them experience fun things like traveling, and often spoil them in a good sense! They also teach them a lot of valuable things and make them laugh!

Virgos are the most considerate and thoughtful people. They remember stuff about you even if you barely know them and they barely know you. They give you what you need at the right moment. They remember how you make your bed, how you fold your clothes and then they surprise you with an act of service. They know exactly what to gift each person.

Saturn dominant people/saturn in the first house/conj ascendant could suffer from a lot of anxiety and overthinking. They also criticize themselves for irrelevant stuff and that's so sad because everytime I'm near a saturn dominant I can't get enough of their energy! There is something really pleasant about them. They are also giving, considerate and nice hosts/hostesses. They make people feel included and heard. I made a personal observation about saturn nakshatra men here (based in this video)

Ceres-ascendant aspects/Ceres in the 1st are the perfect homemakers.

Thank you for reading! See you in next post :)

Here you can see my last pac reading <3

images from pinterest, dividers by @muruffin

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got-ticket-to-ride · 4 months

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Wanted to know your thoughts on this, but for what I've reading on John it really looks to me he really got worse post Paul and post Beatles, like his saddest songs match the moment he started to have issues with Paul, he wasn't really having much contact with anyone outside Yoko, he wasn't doing much music, he wasn't being that funny either, he even died without being able to fully overcome his heroine addiction (addiction that started in the Beatles fall out right?), and idk i believe his involvement in the whole peace/art movement looked more like an escape (like some people do with religion) than actual interest.

So what you think, was John at his worst after he got out the band and cut his relationship with Paul or was it was always like that?

Hello @lord-pain

thank you for this ask! I hope I'll make sense. I think the White Album was definitely the start of John's "sad songs". Happiness is a Warm Gun, Yer Blues. Subsequently, Dig a Pony sounded so desperate to me and Because which is yeah, post India, post breakup?

There's so many different accounts during that period. Some narrators might be unreliable because you never know who these "historians/journalist/"acquaintances" have their allegiance to.

During the 70s it was said that John was miserable, became a violent drunk (who believed in astrology). He was quite unhappy with how things turned out in his life due to his choices but he was too proud to admit it.

About drugs, Fred Seaman said John stopped with heroin in the last half of the 70s in this video.

Due to differing accounts that are out there, I just concentrate on John, what he wrote lyrically and how clearheaded he was during his last interview. He was trying to be better. I think that is the most important detail despite everything that went down. Also the part where he was going to work with Ringo and had booked a studio with Paul for January 1981.

His activism was partly a distraction for him. Beatle John dabbled in it, but he became very aggressive about politics after the break up. He was anti-religion when he released Imagine (1971). But went back to believing in god when he wrote "Grow Old With Me" (1979?), which I have so much thoughts about but I haven't even had the courage to voice out.

While there are glimpses of John's mental anxiety visible in his song "Help!" (1965)

"Help me if you can, I'm feeling down, and I do appreciate you being 'round",

he was trying to be positive about it as seen in "Strawberry Fields Forever" (1966):

"It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out, It doesn't matter much to me".

And was still holding on during the conception of "Across the Universe" (in February 1968) with his mantra:

"Nothing's gonna change my world",

which I think might've been a result of Paul's engagement in December 1967 to Jane.

Across the Universe (February 1968) > believer God (1970) > anti-religion Imagine (1971) > anti-religion (he made a satire song which I did not include here) Grow Old With Me (1979) > believer

During his alleged break from music from 1975, he was still making home demos and was writing Skywriting by Word of Mouth.

I think John and Paul being apart was just not good for them. The general opinion was that Paul left John and had moved on. (I don't believe that's true). It was John who made the decision to leave, it was this push and pull thing, and Paul continued to reach out to him (and we don't know what happened during all those times they've met up). Some accounts say that John was practically begging for a reunion but then again Paul never stopped reaching out to John (see 1976) so I personally think, regardless of all these details that are out in the open, there is still a missing piece we have not considered yet and that can only be told by Paul himself.

To summarize it, John probably had depression (since his teenage years) but Paul was a constant positive thing in his life that he needed and that had helped him through it, "the girl who came to stay" until something happened...

John Lennon was definitely at his worst without his buddies by his side in the 70s.

#Asks #John Lennon #Mclennon #John and Paul #Lyrics #Paul Mccartney #The Beatles #would love to hear your thoughts too!#gttr-beatles

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unseemingowl · 5 months

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"About the Blogger" Meme

@all-inmoderation tagged me. I haven't done one of these in ages, so this was fun. Thank you .D

Star Sign(s): Libra (don't ask me about rising and all that stuff, I know nothing about Astrology)

Favorite Holidays: Christmas, I love the cosiness.

Last Meal: Fries from the new kebab place around the corner. Had a craving, but they were sadly a bit underwhelming. Nothing more disappointing food item than underwhelming fries.

Current Favorite Musician: Been listening to a lot of Alabama Shakes this weekend. The intro to Sound and Color is just sooo fucking good.

Last Music Listened To: The spotify playlist called Indie Rock Club, which turned out to be all of the music I listened to in my late teens and early twenties. Ripped me right back to that time. Wild.

Last Movie Watched: Wow, Piggy was the last movie I watched, I really need to have a new years resolution to watch more movies. Piggy is fucking excellent though. Loved it, loved it, loved it. Go watch it.

Last TV Show Watched: I'm in the middle of rewatching Babylon Berlin in order to watch season 4 and 5. All doom and glitter and the party and depravity that never ends, and Charlotte and Gereon are such engaging and complicated lead characters. Still love it.

Also watching season 2 of World on Fire, which is a fine show, though not nearly as good. But it does have Jonah Hauer King in it though, and I am a simple woman, let me watch that man having an existential crisis and I'm THERE. He looks SO handsome when he doesn't know what's going on, lol.

Last Book/Fic Finished: I've been struck hard by project moving, so I've mostly been listening to Agatha Christie audiobooks. The last time I moved, I moved into a single room, and by the time I moved was living in the apartment by myself along with all the new stuff I've acquired. It's been hellish. So cosy mysteries it is.

Last Book/Fic Abandoned: I was reading a biography on Robert the Bruce that I abandoned once project moving started up and I stopped having the bandwidth for anything too complicated.

Currently Reading: Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro, excellent so far, which is not surprising, since I've loved all of his books that I've read.

Last Thing Researched for Art/Writing/Hyperfixation: Waltzing in the 19th century.

Favorite Online Fandom Memory: The buck wild hour long quarantine era chats with the Nabrina crowd in the discord.

Favorite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: CAOS I guess? The Nabrina fandom is still one of the least toxic ones I've ever been in, at least the little corner that I was in.

I'm counting on a Batcat fandom resurgence once the next Battinson movie comes out in like 500 years (sob!)

Favorite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: Oh so many things. Fandom culture is brutal these days because people are moving on so fast. Like the Little Mermaid came out this spring and it seems mostly dead already. Or perhaps people are just in other places that tumblr?

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For: Everything? Lol. Between trying to paint my new flat and christmas and some family stuff going on it feels like I don't have time for anything at all right now. Including the self-indulgent smut fic that I'm writing for the Little Mermaid at the moment. But that smut fic is my happy place at the moment, so I must persist!

tagging @robertdeniroimdb @bugsysiegels @raxiesrot @gothamsgaygirlgang @imaginejolls @deadgirlsupremacy @sweet-reverie along with anyone else who'd like to have a go

#I desperately need to be more settled in this apartment #or you know just get more comfortable with the mess #so that I can get back to the fun stuff in life

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youremyheaven · 8 days

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OMG THANK YOU SM FOR ANSWERING MY ASK!! 😭 Although it has DEFINITELY been a while since you did 🥲 I have to mention that I DID check tropical charts before I came to you to ask the question, and did notice that it looked exactly like the western counterpart name up to the degrees, I thought to myself—MAYBE, it's just another term? I wasn't confident to assume considering my very limited sources, and sure enough, it indeed was just another term. I put the blame on whoever decided to add another term when we could just stick to one. One is more than enough to be confused with 😭

2. I couldn't agree more with the 4 different influence. It reminded me so much of the times where I had been reading sidereal observations and researches and thought to myself, “Do I relate to this or not? Do I… relate to this, or not??”.

I certainly felt the relatability between those posts and me, but I still kept trying to find confirmation that it indeed relates to me accordingly by my placements. It's just that, with all these placements being placed in front of you, you start to overthink whether a certain placement have that much influence over your chart when that certain placement is the only placement that has that nakshatra lord.

It's like you have your atmakaraka (which is highest point, therefore it correlates with the native on a personal level(?) Like it does has significant influence, but I wonder how much influence it entail, to what degree if you may) in planet Jupiter, but then it's in a Venus nak, so this is the only placement that I do have these planets’ influence on, but would this placement (as a whole; Jupiter atmakaraka in Venus nak) be enough for one to correlate with those planet’s attributes and their designated nak (’s characteristics or attributes)?

3. I completely agree on your take that some tropical placements would appear on your sidereal chart. I would like to place in an example. One of the many coincidences (can they even be considered coincidences at this point??) that take part in both my charts is that;

In Tropical, my 7th house (which is as considered as the house of partnership) is in Aries. The lord of the 7th house (Mars) is in the 11th house in Leo.

It just so happens that my darakaraka is in Mars in Magha.

Considering the difference in the axis or operations between the two charts, it goes without saying that the degrees itselves would be completely different. Astrology never fails to amaze me. Everyday is like a treasure hunt (just that the treasure is quite literally being handed to you) you get to know yourself more and uncover parts of yourself that you never realize was there but you were unconsciously aware of them.

I think it's very mind-blowing for me as a nodal dominant native considering that most of my life, I've been back to back losing sight of who I was back then, if ever there really was a me who existing. To be frank, I never really consider myself to have once gone through an existential crisis, maybe just once when I was 8. I think it's because having been in the astro community for 3 years now, during the time of the pandemic, causing all of us turmoil and a lot of time and things to think about, I accidentally came across astrology, which I now consider as a fundamental part of who I am considering I quite literally had no image of myself back then and was prone to adapting my friends’ likes and dislikes (I was that one kid who during a sort of introduce yourself session, my head would literally blank out because I had no understanding of myself and would ask my friends their favorite this or that and would use that as my answer) so I was prone to a lot people’s influences and opinions. In that part, I would also go along with the majority because I had no hold of what was right or wrong. (When I say my head was blank, IT WAS LITERALLY SO BLANK) I think the quarantine was an opportunity for me.

Through astrology, I learned so much of myself. I got to understand why I felt a certain way, or acted a certain way. I think cutting off toxic friends was the way to go. I was so absorbed in their shadows that I started to act like them and tried to fit in. It never really felt like I even fit it. I remember a distinct memory during the pandemic, this was during the time I got inclined with myself spiritually, I was very at peace with myself and didn't feel the anxiety of not knowing anything and fearing the unknown. I remember my mother and grandmother asking me why I had changed. That they didn't know who I was anymore. As a child, from what I've heard from people who’ve watched by me grow up, I was apparently a child who rarely cried and kept to myself, they said I was doing well even when playing by myself and that I was really responsible (who liked doing chores and organize things literally every single day because I'm a perfectionist, I didn't even know that word existed back then), because of the influence of my past friends’ immaturity and childishness, as well as their arrogance, I started to act that way too during that time. But when I finally stripped away from those qualities (I never knew it was so easy to rid those things out of my vocabulary) they said I've changed so much. At that time, the thought that I had changed never crossed my mind. Not even once, I just grew up. I just grew up to have the ability, to have developed my own opinions that went against theirs when I used to always agree with whatever they said.

Having both ketu and rahu placements in my chart, I never really understood the fluctuations of my feelings. I just thought that it was normal for me to feel the same way as everyone does (although I was certainly under the illusion of feeling that way because that's how every kid and adult around me felt) Even though on a surface level, it seemed like I was experiencing the same emotions as them (it even seemed that way to me) there was always that feeling of void that I didn't understand. Not that I knew what it was. I even remember a classmate’s nanny tell me off during elementary school that I shouldn't frown and act so serious, that I should smile instead and be happy or else I’ll grow up to have wrinkles very early on. Which, I think is reasonable to appear.

I think these nodal placement are also what led me to stan BTS, I can't tell you enough how much they've inspired me so much and given me the moral compass that I needed, their songs literally struck so deep especially the 2! 3!. Their lyricism are so beautiful and it never failed to make me so emotional. I regret not finding out more about them sooner when I first heard and watched their boy in luv mv in my uncle’s laptop back in 2016. The most memorable part of that mv was Jimin mopping the floor 😂 That's what really stuck with me throughout these years!

This is quite long now.

4. Moving on, in your second point, I also agree. I heavily identify with both my tropical and sidereal chart. Though I have to question just why did I have to be sidereal Gemini when I can be sidereal cancer. To say the least, my tropical cancer placements are what I take great pride in. Maybe that's why until now I refuse to relate to sidereal entirely because of this.

I mean it's never wrong of someone to have a preference for having a specific placement, right? I do think there would be external factors leading to this outcry (my plea to be sidereal cancer. The external factors being the tropical chart)

I think because I heavily idealize the cancer placement, like that's my roman empire. I would say; Internally: I relate a lot to my sidereal placement. How I see myself: Would be my tropical chart. Also because the way I view everything around me is (my) tropical chart coded and the motivation behind those is (my) sidereal chart. It's just like you said, how the tropical is the external and the sidereal is the internal or our repressed side.

I think further on, this would connect or have similar placements between the two charts. (I should stop right about now because the only reason why I'm even talking about this part is because my problem with being sidereal Gemini 🥲)

THANK YOUUU once again for the answering my ask, and also for coming to my partial Ted Talk about my very clueless-self’s childhood. If you've read down at this point of the response, thank you for that too! 😊😊

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sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for a while but i only just got around to reading it and im glad i could clear some doubts for u or shed some light <333 hope ur having a good day

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this might be my new favorite interview of all time

holy fuck

im cackling like mad and cannot stop grinning.

theyre such adorkable beans

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“Its not really in our nature to argue , except through lawyers. We sulked.” -Roland orzabal “Now i've got you!!” Smith prepares a sneak attack. Duran Duran collect their Q award. Tears for Fears were not, repeat not, even a tiny bit jealous. Launching the new Seeds of Love in 1989. No mic for Curt, then? Curt Smith, one day he’ll graduate to the driver’s seat.

Roland, is it true that you once foresaw Curt’s death in a motor race? And have you had any premonitions lately? RO: No, that’s made up as well. Predictive astrology I know nothing about. CS: Basically, we are dull people so the press are forced to make things up about us. That said, he did used to try to pick up attractive young ladies by guessing their star signs and, 95 percent of the time, getting it wrong. RO: Actually, I didn't do that at all. I would ask them their birthday, and was then able to tell them what their father was like. I was spot on, mostly. It was very impressive. CS: No, you would tell them that it was in their future to have an affair with a middle-aged pop star…

Curt, what have you been doing for the past 10-plus years? CS: Hanging on. [Orzabal erupts into slightly manic laughter. Smith ignores him] The day after I left the band, I moved to New York because I wanted to disappear. It’s no coincidence that I moved into a city in which you could disappear very easily. A while later, I made a solo album, which I hated; I had a syndicated radio show in America; I was an MTV VJ. In other words, I had a life.

How the hell did you spend one million pounds making The Seeds Of Love? And do you still consider it to be a work of genius? RO: It cost a million pounds because it took over four years to record, and the studio was 1500 a day. I don't think that, overall, it was a work of complete genius, but there are definitely elements of genius in it. Parts of the album are overproduced and pompous, and listening to those parts now makes me cringe. But every time I do listen to it, I still go, Wow, how did I do that? That’s amazing. It’s the most genius Beatles rip-off in existence. Q gave us five stars, you'll remember. I wouldn't have given it as much as that. But you did.

Who ripped off The Beatles more- you or Oasis? RO: Oasis ripped off The Rutles, not the Beatles. But Liam does do an amazing Lennon, he just does, his voice sounds beautiful. We were ripping off one aspect of The Beatles- Sgt Pepper- while Oasis have made a career out of it.

Roland, is Fish Out Of Water (from Elemental, his first ‘solo’ Tears For Fears album) about Curt? If so, those are some pretty cutting lyrics… RO: Yes, it is, and it contains some of my favourite lyrics. “We used to sit and talk about primal scream/To exorcise our past was our adolescent dream/But now its sink or swim since your memory fails/Now in Neptune's kitchen you will be food for killer whales.” Fantastic, no? Pure vitriol. CS: I couldn't give a fuck, quite frankly. Its a compliment, in some ways. RO: Absolutely. It means I cared deeply for him. [Laughs] That’s one way of interpreting it, anyway…

The ‘80s: an era of cocaine, non-stop fashion disasters and infinte greed. Discuss RO: Absolutely. It was a time of Wall Street’s “greed is good”, of Margret Thatcher and rampant free market capitalism, that kind of thing. True, the mullets were a disaster, although my hair is much the same today. But, by then, we were the very antithesis of rock’n’roll. The drugs didn't come until much later- I didn't start doing charlie until the ‘90s, and only then because I wanted to catch up. In the ‘80s, I’d denied myself many pleasures. I was very introverted, very anal. [Smith nods in silent agreement]

After the fallout in 1990, was Roland pleased to see Curt’s career flop? RO: I didn't like his first solo album at all, but then nor did he. I felt it was going in the wrong direction. But his second, Mayfield, was really good. I thought to myself, Why didn't he do this when we were together? I wouldn't have let him? Well, thats probably true. I did view Tears For Fears very much as my band, I suppose.

Who is the best singer? RO: I am. CS: I am.

You were really pretentious, weren't you? RO: [laughing again] We Still are pretentious! But we’re much better at it now. We’ve blended our pretensions with humor, wouldn't you say? We are humorous and pretentious and middle-aged. We’re both 42, after all. CS: But I look younger RO: Cunt. (yes he says cunt, not curt)

Duran Duran got a lifetime achievement at last years Q Awards. Were you jealous? RO [scoffing]: I think, basically, you are running out of people to give awards to, so watch this space, because it could be us next year? What I want to know is why you didn't give it to Phil Collins. Genesis, the solo years and of course The Lion King, the best record he’s ever made. Anyway, how do you define achievement? As Sting once said… CS: oh, for fucks sake, please don't start quoting Sting. RO:.... As Sting once said, Music is its own reward.

#i fucking love them #and i love how curt an answer that was like #'its us against the press'#and then went #'fuck it he sucked at guessing peoples zodiacs'#this entire interview is just them fucking with each other #and i love it #roland and curt #curt smith #roland orzabal #besties #platonic soulmates #tears for fears

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silverfoxstole · 1 year

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Thanks for the tag @isolarrwilde !

What book are you currently reading?

The House of Dudley by Joanne Paul, a new biography of the Tudor family.

What do you usually wear?

These days, jeans and more often than not a striped tshirt/top.

What's your favourite movie you've seen in theatres this year?

I haven’t been to a cinema since Bohemian Rhapsody was out. I’m not particularly interested in films.

What's your star sign? Do you share your birthday with a celebrity or historical event?

Pisces, though only just as it begins on my birthday. In Chinese astrology I’m a snake. I share my birthday with (among others) eighteenth century actor David Garrick, Anthony Stewart Head and the late Dame Gillian Lynne. Edward VI was crowned on that day in 1547 and Tchaikovsky premiered Swan Lake in 1877.

Do you go by your full name or a nick-name?

I’ve never been known by a nickname though some people have shortened it, such as my grandparents and a couple of managers at work; they're the only people I've allowed to do that as I don’t really like it being shortened unless I decide to do it myself. I’m always called by my full name within my immediate family, though my mother does have a tendency to call my sister and I pretty much anything that comes into her head. The one that’s stuck over the years is ‘Pooh’, as in Winnie The, because it rhymes with the shortened version of my name.

How tall are you?

5'3”, to my eternal chagrin as almost everyone in the family is taller than me.

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one?

Nope, and no one. I assume from the latter that we’re referring to real life rather than the realms of fantasy. To be honest I can’t really see myself as part of a couple; I’ve been on my own too long and I’m pretty solitary by nature.

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?

To my lasting regret I’ve never had a goal in mind and still have no idea what I'm doing with my life.

If you draw/write/create in any way, what's your favourite picture/line/etc. from something you created this year?

I've written so much this year (just under 300K words - eek!) I doubt I could pick one line! As for art, I'm very fond of this Bush sketch from earlier in the year; for once I managed to get the expression and head tilt right:

Dogs or cats?

In the past I would always have said dogs, but just lately I’ve found myself coming round to cats after previously having been quite anti. Dogs probably still win out, though.

What's something you're good at vs. something you're bad at?

I'm very good at judging distances, but I can't whistle to save my life.

What's something you'd like to create content for?

I don’t really think I would. I’ve been asked on the odd occasion if things of mine can be included in zines but I’ve never accepted.

What's something you're currently obsessed with?

My eighteenth century fixation is still going strong after more than thirty years, and my Hornblower phase mark II hasn’t come to an end yet.

What's something that you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?

I haven't really had anything to get excited about for a long time. It was annoying that the Christmas event at Mottifont Abbey was so busy first thing on a Monday morning; that was disappointing, I suppose.

What's a hidden talent of yours?

It's not a talent as such but I have a great facility for remembering lines from comedy shows, though I wouldn't exactly call it hidden as I know I have an annoying tendency to quote them all the time. I actually can't think of anything I'd regard as a 'hidden talent'.

Are you religious?

For many years I would have immediately described myself as an atheist but as I get older I find myself less sure and am now agnostic. I’ve started to find the religious aspect of Christmas comforting, something that I think probably started during the pandemic, though I wouldn’t call myself a believer in any real sense.

What's something you wish to have at this moment?

Just at this minute, I would dearly love the tension headache that has been plaguing me for weeks to leave me alone. In the long term, a job, and preferably one I actually enjoy doing after spending far too long in a position I came to detest.

Tagging @amalthea9 @ariel-seagull-wings @aragarna @gone-grl-gone @sirastar and anyone else who fancies it!

#tag games

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alechaos · 1 year

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Call it Coleen

I met her in my first year of senior high school. Since it is mostly an online class, it is not easy to get to know my classmates. She is quiet most of the time and rarely opened her camera and microphone. But I truly admire her a lot because of her renowned dedication to her studies. She consistently prioritizes her studies and completes her assignments on time. She is diligent and well-organized in all instances. Everything fits into her schedule, and she is quite good at managing her time. She is kind, caring, and honest, yet she avoids chatting up with people she doesn't know well. She constantly does her best to assist me or one of my friends when we are having problems.

Coleen is a beautiful young lady of about 17 years old. She is of medium height, with a typical body figure, black hair, and a round face. She has thick lips, pointed nose, and narrow eyes. Many believe that due of her facial expressions, she always seems to be in a grumpy mood. When we first met her, we could assume that she will be difficult to get along with, but she isn't really like that.

There isn't much engagement between us in the first semester of grade 11, our interactions started in the second semester when we started working together as groups on reports and even research. We then grew closer once face-to-face classes resumed as we are friends with the same people, so I got to know her better and discovered a lot more things about her. She enjoys reading books, especially those she may find online or on websites. Though I can't recall for sure and I don't want to question her again, I believe she told me the genre she enjoys. She also loves playing mobile games, particularly Mobile Legends. We both enjoy playing that game, so that is one thing we have in common. We used to play a lot whenever we had nothing to do or no teacher was around.

“Hoy ano ba ako nga kasi mage! Isang mage lang puwede, mag MM ka nalang!”

Since Mage is her main role in the game, she always gets upset whenever someone takes the role. She is often calm but may be rather aggressive at times. Just watching her do what she does is hilarious and amusing to me.

She also believes in Zodiacs, Astrology, and Horoscopes.

“May retrograde kasi kaya ganiyan.”

I once asked her, "You really believe in that?" She answered “Yes” and then responded, "Because I hold that to be the source of all my current problems." when I asked her why. It fascinates me since I've read a lot about how astrology may be used as a coping mechanism in stressful conditions. There is resistance to going through more effort to find solutions that may or may not satisfy or soothe the person. The simplest answer to these difficult situations is given by astrology.

Coleen is a wonderful person who never fails to surprise. She had made numerous contributions to my life. We encounter so many people in our short lives, and the majority of them we won't recognize in a few years. You often find a special person who stays in your memories forever and she’s one of them. Regardless of the fact that our connection may have ended poorly, I am still thankful that I was able to meet her and quickly develop a friendship with her.

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lanshappycorner · 3 years

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Deuce Spade facts and fun facts🥳🥳

This is a list of facts and fun facts about Deuce! This list is based on true facts only and any observations I've made, however observations can be subjective, so those will be labeled properly! Let's start off with some facts already in the wiki :)

First Yr, class 1-A, student no.24

Birthday: June 3

Age: at the beginning of the game, Deuce is 16, but currently, he is 17 [his profile in game has not been updated, but as time is proven to flow in game, it is unclear but can be interpreted that the characters do canonly age]

Gemini

173 cm / 5'8" ft

Homeland: Rose kingdom

Family: Mother, Grandmother, it is implied that his father is out of the picture as Deuce states that he is the only man in the family so his father has either left or is dead

Club: Track and Field [alongside Jack]

Best subject: PE

Dominant hand: Right

Fav food: Egg dishes / omurice

Least fav food: Bell peppers

Dislikes: Limited time sales

Hobby: Magical wheel (twst motorcycle I guess but it looks kinda funky)

Talents: Machinery Maintainance [good with fixing gadgets and etc]

Used to be a delinquent before he heard his mother crying on the phone to his grandmother about his behavior. Afterwards he decided to change

Owns a pink leopard printed suit

Cannot do middle school math, he will take a lot of time to solve simple Algebra problems

Gets nervous and stops functioning entirely when talking to women

Onto some fun facts outside of the wiki! These facts have been gathered from various sources (ppl who can read japanese, ppl who have told me abt info in the twst guidebook, twitter, and ofc the main translated story), but I cannot prove 100% authenticity of this, so take it with a gain of salt

Canonly a pretty boy. Deuce is described as the "cool pretty type" in the twst guidebook

Smells like flowers [applies to all students from Rose kingdom]

A romantic, he admired the king and queen of heart's relationship and trey teased him about it

Thought that baby chicks hatch from store bought eggs until the MC and Grim told him the truth

Can cook eggs (he likes them over easy)

Wanted to make a magical wheel club but was rejected so he joined track and field

Bought magical wheel magazines when he was younger and studied it

Wanted to ride his magical wheel in the heartslabyul maze (mentioned he forgets bad things when he rides it so like...it makes him feel better)

Hates limited times sales/shopping but is extremely good at it. He can remember the price of an item, when exactly it sells out, the percentage/probability of when it can sell out, discount prices and pretty much any math that has to do with it [he's extremely good at shopping because his mother brought him out a lot with her to limited time sales]

In addition to the point above, it is implied he can memorize and calculate that for pretty much every item he intends on buying (everything I listed above is in relation to the time he bought 20 limited time puddings which greatly impressed Sebek who wasn't able to grab even 1, but it was later revealed that he also bought 8 bag full of items requested by Trey for baking, as well as the others probably from heartslabyul) so basically Deuce big brain and very good memorization abilities

Hilariously in the instance above, Sebek, who is like...a real fae, has said that what Deuce did was not something a human can do

Flirted with a plant because vil was fucking around with him and told him to

Was ready to fist fight Riddle

Was about to go find Leona to beat him up but Vil was like do u have no fear and Deuce pretty much said that he can get thru to Leona with his muscles

Was about to fight Malleus (jesus christ) but ended up fixing his tamagotchi and came out completely loaded and rich (good for deuce, get that cha ching babey)

Won a Track and Field competition (noted to be rare for a first year)

He is literally a pretty boy, it's been pointed out that he looks good in the ceremonial clothes (but we already know that)

Admires Riddle and sees him as a role model, has called him boss (like...yakuza boss terminology) once

[Observation] Has a pretty good relationship with Jamil as he has asked Jamil to help him practice his Stargazer dance, and mentioned him once again when talking about how Jamil fixed his hat and said that he was a reliable upperclassman

Has said fuck and would not hesitate to say it again 🥺

Has been called honest and cute, was fawned over by kalim and trey. Kalim said Deuce was similar to his younger brothers

During his delinquent phase, he was blamed for many things he didn't do as well, Deuce said that he realized no one believed in him despite what he says, but because a policeman stood up for him, he wanted to become a cop when he grew up

Used intimidation tactics [the equivalent of "u wanna fucking go let's go I'll beat ur ass" to scare off ppl and silver was like hm I will have to try that sometime, to which deuce was pretty much like ahahah no dont

Deuce refers to Yuu as his "mabu", basically calling Yuu his best friend

He can change a lightbulb, and he talks abt hand washing materials and just domestic house stuff in general as if it's common knowledge. In other words it's implied Deuce is really good at housework due to doing a lot for his mother

When he was a kid, he used to cry because he thought there were monsters outside, but it was just hanging laundry

Is more scared of Riddle than ghosts

It's implied that one time (or several times...) he stayed after school with Crewel, and the poor guy had to attempt to explain the same concept over and over again to Deuce for hours until he understood

Ace always cheats in card games with Deuce, so Deuce claims that it's not very fun playing with him

Bad at astrology bc apparently all stars look the same to him

Likes cafe latte

Does tease ppl, he once messed with Yuu and in the process called Ace "Ace-kun" (Ace called him "Deuce-kun" as well). There has been an instance where he's teased Jack about his Niceness TM

Used to have over 30 gang members following him at age 14-15. (You'd think that him being so young would make him like a lackey but no he was the boss)

Has a thing for summoning cauldrons since he was young, but apparently you need to have a large amount of magic capabilities to summon objects, so [observation] deuce may actually be extremely powerful bc he was able to summon things at a young age, but he hasn't refined his powers yet so he still seems weak compared to a lot of the cast

During his delinquent phase, apparently he had a really wild hairstyle and he used his magic on people weaker than him

[Observation] Deuce is actually pretty good at lying. In his Halloween card he was able to put up a good act and deceive some of his ex gang members into following him into the forest before mildly roughing them up (keep in mind that he has not had contact with these ppl for at least a year, yet somehow he was able to assert enough authority to tell them to follow him. Also, he thought of this plan on the spot, and acted malicious enough so that the gang members would believe in him—which proves that he's not only quick witted but a convincing actor, as Jamil actually believed his act for a while)

It's implied that he and Ace are often in leadership positions, as they helped to lead heartslabyul in designing their Halloween booth, but they also mentioned that it was much easier compared to organizing unbirthday parties

[Observation] despite wanting to be an honor student, Deuce is still able to take unjustly means to achieve his goals (EX. Making a deal with Azul to pass his test), in general, deuce doesn't care too much about the method, be it through cheating or violence to get to his goal, but he does value a fair battle

[Observation] a lot of Deuce's strengths are subtle as we are frequently told abt how much of a bad student he is, but if u rly think abt it, deuce is put in leadership positions a lot, he's good a memorization and small technical details, he can be at times quick witted and deceiving, and he has the potential to be extremely powerful in magic. In conclusion Deuce is a menace and once we find out what his unique magic is I'm 100.01% sure he will become a greater menace and I think he should fight a lot of people and win

That will be all for this post! There may be more fun facts/observations that I may have missed, but feel free to add on to this! Anyways thank u for reading and please stan Deuce Spade♠️💙

#please read this i spent hours on it <3 #i am sorry for being a walking deuce encyclopedia #twisted wonderland #deuce spade #twisted wonderland deuce #twst deuce

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redxblueihateloveyou · 2 years

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what do you think about the argument that rin & haru are astrologically incompatible? (I saw mhs use it a lot)

lol we literally just a few days ago discussed it with@tododeku-or-bust

1. Just bc I know that in animes they do pay attention to it, back in the days we already been through this. I again won't force it on anyone, but I'm pretty sure from all the things they said it's clear as day that the creator's idea behind rinharu Aquarius/Cancer relationships in Free! is this:

"free to actually be themselves instead of living in a symbiotic relationship" get it get it? this was openly said in books and is the point of the anime too, as I said before in this post, anime is full of unsubtle things, showing who makes Haru feel how and what.

Haru is one of those people, who won't settle for someone who doesn't make him feel ALL OF THAT, he simply won't. And he can't be happy like that, that's the point. If he could, he'd already be there.

Wangxian for example are also what they call astrologically incompatible. And while it's true that with wangxian and harurin its a tougher battle bc of their personalities, bc its hella hard for them to get there bc they communicate like:

- I just wanna be with you.

- Oh I get it, so you wanna fight?

But that also as they say in zodiac mean that when they finally sort things out its the most satisfying love in existence that will last forever, bc they make each other strikingly happy and they can't get enough of that feeling.

These two ships sometimes remind me this song thats called "sink or swim" by tyrone wells, you know. (kamikaze airplanes in the sky, are we going down or will we fly? this could be a shipwreck on the shore or we could sail away forevermore). It's really all or nothing for them.

2. I have to tell you a hilarious story. I'm personally not a horoscope believer myself, like to me it doesn't make much sense, bc of what I've seen, but if anyone is interested here's the funny thing. I've only realized it after this talk and that made me go like "oh shit maybe it is true" a bit lmao bc we couldn't stop laughing with my sister.

So my parents are divorced. My mom is also Cancer, born June 29th (Haru June 30th) and my dad is a Scorpio (October 26th) LMAO. Yeah, yeah xD. They're still friends, it wasn't like a loud angry divorce or anything. I've asked them, they allowed to share. So the thing is. My mom didn't care for love, she just wanted kids a lot (she always loved kids, she's a teacher and you know I have two sisters, she had my elder sister very young and it was like knowingly and deliberately), she started dating my dad, bc she said he felt secure to have a kid with, not bc she was in love with him (yeah, kind of a dick move, since my dad liked her very much from the beginning but well). They got divorced for many reasons, like bc my dad is very conservative (well, its Russia and u know he was raised that way, he's religious and superstitious and all that), while my mom is very open minded etc etc, and there's this hilarious thing, I'm not gonna say, but my god its literally too close to a certain bad part of someone's relationships; but yeah, there were lots of things (some were TMI info for my poor ears when I once got drunk with my dad in a hotel), but shortly they just couldn't make each other happy.

And my mom, you know her already from her apartment being a wangxian shrine. She adores both wangxian and harurin. And the saddest part to me in this, was always the fact that while we were watching this, what she said is that she was jealous of them, bc she never had someone who could make her feel that way. And while we were talking once, she did say that it doesn't mean that she didn't love my dad at some point, but she said that she never once been in love in her life, but again like her goal in life was to have me and my sisters, so...

So my point is, it's true that not everyone in their life can find that kind of thing, and hell not everyone in their life want to find that kind of thing. No Haru, no Lan Zhan for example didn't try to find it, it just fell on them. They of course were offended at first, bc like who wants their world to be turned upside down and suddenly want all that? It's like I was fine, bitch. But as soon as they leave... and they're like "oh I guess I can go back to my old way", they already fucking can't. After they tasted how it can be, their previous way of living is already no fun for them and they can't forget it and cant let it go.

So like in my opinion considering the fact that this show's theme is being in love means being free, you gotta understand that it is what it is. Like ofc we're all different and everyone is looking for different things, plus everyone has different life views and goals and not for everyone it makes sense. I'm very in Haru's state of mind of "yeah, I don't need it, I love my personal space, like I don't find the need in a relationship per se, like I'd rather be alone, than with someone who makes me feel nothing or not enough". But I get that some people just don't want to be alone and some stuff for them is enough as long as it's calm and they don't see "why would you want to try so hard for love".

But yeah, the point is Haru is Haru. Like we have to take into account here the way he is, not you are. I guess you can argue if Makoto would have a chance if Rin didn't exist (to me it's a no, bc even before him entering the picture in the book its not good, like it said stuff like that each time Makoto tried to help Haru, he made him feel as if he was disabled and he hated that feeling and etc etc, so they just never clicked to me even before Rin), but it's true that the moment Rin entered the chat for Haru it was over. The moment he felt what he felt with him, there was no turning back. You can fight about it all you want, but thereality is even if Rin died and Haru would get with Makoto (which I don't think he would again, since I know to him its either all or nothing, but also even if he tried, I still think it would fall apart eventually), it would be a flop and just unfair to Makoto, too, so again in this particular story I do not see, why anyone would even want that for either of them.

So yeah, if you read closely about the meaning behind their compatibility but apply it to Free!, you'll get what they meant by that. And again as you see, its not that simple. Sometimes they reverse it. And that is definitely the case here, bc in several places it says that no matter how hard it is for Cancer to get it on with Aquarius at the end, it's worth it, bc only he can make him feel fully free and reach all the happiness and potential in life.

3. Also remember like that all people are different in real life, it depends on what they want and their character. So it's like what kind of Cancer, Aquarius and Scorpio you are.

I mean, even in fiction just bc WWX & LZ is a perfect combination, doesn't mean JC & LZ are too, just bc they're the same signs, right? You have to consider personal qualities, views on life and etc. Whats good for one, might be complete disaster for another. So I'm always arguing from the point of who Rin and Haru are and what they want. But since its fiction that clearly takes it into consideration and is all about meanings and stuff... my point still stands. Rin is the Aquarius who can make Haru fly, both in life and in his heart and they certainly won't let go of each other no matter how hard it is for them to get there. And once they do, they're it for each other.

P.S. Also in my opinion some ppl do not quite get what "incompatible" really means when it comes to a romantic relationships. I'm tired of those stupid arguments like "if they fight once a year, it means they're not meant to be" lmao right ok excuse us for the fact that we actually care too much about not being able to spend an extra hour together and can't confess. 🌚

P.P.S. my point is "astrologically incompatible" tbh ain't even an argument unless you back it up with smth, it all depends on the context of the characters and the story.

#answered #anonymous #rinharu #harurin #free! the final stroke #free!#rin matsuoka #haruka nanase #nanase haruka #matsuoka rin #sharkbait #anime #free #thats just my opinion haha

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1111jenx · 3 years

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Hi,🤍 I appreciate your blog! It has helped me to learn more about astrology. Could you give some learning tips on astrology? Did you learn from books or went study to astrology school? How old were you when you started to study about it? If you don't want to answer it's okay.💖

Hi luv,

Honestly I'm soooo blessed to have you guys with me throughout my journey;) I was so lowkey on here for the longest time ever and had like 10 followers when I have been undercover for years haha

Also, your kind words are too much and honestly make me feel so appreciated hehe butttt to answer your questions luv:

1. tips i wanna give yall: buy. astrology. book. please!!!! even the pdf version if you don't paperback😭 they're usually written by credible astrologers/ people that dedicated their whole life to astrology and put in work as well as relatively huge scale research! (years of observations and notes guys!! years!!!) some of my favs author so far are Chris Brennan book on Hellenistic Astrology, Predictive Astrology by Ricke💗(changed my life), Celeste Teal on Planetary Triggers!!!(in depth, interesting takes) Also the second tip is too always learn more and expand your knowledge!!! others knowledge are as amazing as yours and clashes in opinions usually generate GREAT convos and discussions🖤 last tip is too always CITE. gosh i can not stress this enough. i've seen sooooo many time when people(esp on platforms such as twitter,ig and tumblr) abuse others work and didn't credit the astrologer/author for their information and studies/observations. this is why works on tumblr are always so repetitive since no one ever credit the OG author it's rly rly sad😭 it's horrible for smth as such to happen and for bloggers who put in the effort, this is very demotivating y'all:( tag the OG authors if you wanna repost or use their info please! as someone who just started to share my knowledge, I've already experienced this

2. I didn't go to school for astrology luv! I'm actually working towards a science&business degree haha🤣 But i would say that reading books 100000% expand my knowledge as well as constantly spending hours on Astrologers websites haha! I'm so fortunate to come across Nikola Stojanovic's websites when I first started and this completely transformed my journey🥰 A lot of reputable black/LGBTQ+ friendly astrologers also strongly affected my take on astrology! (Matthew Swann on Bitcoin War and @iJaadee on twitter for example!)

3. Regarding how old I was when I started. Phewwwww I think I started pretty early on! I grew up in a fairly religious family yet my mother has always been lowkey so fascinated with astrology, so I was introduced to the basic concenpt of witchcraft and astro when I was very very young. But tbh with y'all, I think I was in middle school when I started to pick up on astrology seriously! I have been studying astrology for wayyyyy too long imo but after years of studying it, I still feel like a newbie and get so so excited learning new info(mercury in gemini thang y'all😃)

i have many many tips i wanna share to you guys tbh🥺 please don't hesitate to ask more questions below! i can't wait to geek out on astro with y'all <3

love,

saint jenx🥀

#astrology observations #astro notes #astrojenx

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Hey there,I've been a reader of you other blog, the Merkavah Party Van for a while and I did have a magical practice started in 2014. But now, I find the need to get back to basics, and am looking for advice on how to get started with: Daemonolatry (I have the book by S Connolly), Qlippoth (I have the book by Thomas Karlsson) and working with Saturn (the only publication I have is Saturn Rising by JT Kirkbride). Anything a sort of beginner should know?

The most important thing is that recent texts don't really have an edge on older texts that are able to be gotten for free. (Secret Symbols of the Rosicrucians, any "Key of Solomon" type books, Grimorium Verum--all of these are far out of copyright and you can find translations online for free or kindle editions that are cheap. Whereas recent books will often go for $25-50 because that's where the modern book market is.) Many recent texts by recent scholars are still using, at its core, traditional alchemical systems that assume we've only discovered the planets up to Saturn--they haven't added the planetary bodies past that. But it's not really hard to do that, since astrology's already added in meanings for the newly discovered planets and asteroids. Some of this work you can even see scholars in the 1900s starting to do around the turn of the century, but i think the work was abandoned too early.

What I find is that because of this, there's a TON of books out there, on ebay, on abebooks, etc, that cover psychic/mental work under parapsychology, spiritism, animal magnestism... there's so many diverse terms for it before the 50s even came around. So I've been able to find beautiful, hardcover, very useful and, to be honest, more scientifically accurate than 1600s books, by looking in the discount places for stuff you wouldn't believe was on discount, because people don't recognize the authors anymore.

Also, old magazines have a lot of interesting things in them, even weird pulps like "FATE" magazine have very interesting articles and ads in them that can be followed up. I've found letters and private estate ephemera via ebay sellers by just keeping an eye out for stuff others were missing. Let's see, biggest thing... if you see a book that interests you, but you're a bit confused as to why you want it, probably your future intuition is telling you that you'd like the book. I've gotten such oddball works on a hunch lately that have really paid off.

Oh! Builders of the Adytum, and The Brotherhood of Light. They have a lot of materials out there in this early 1900s time period which is easy to nab. Builders of the Adytum did a little pamphlet called Highlights of Tarot that has a lot of great insight into the Majors and hermeticism--the copy I ordered had a card tucked in for correspondences to a "Cube of Space" ritual that makes the majors and court cards into a sacred space that one can use for meditation and inter-planar travel. My phone is almost dead right now--I'll add a photo later. It's like solving a Rubik's Cube in 4 dimensions with Tarot Cards as the squares.

You caught me at a good time apparently! That's what I can think of at the moment. I've been doing a lot of research and book collecting over the past year and really haven't had a chance to report on findings yet, thanks for asking!

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The snag I run into during daily content creation (and I'm pretty sure others do as well)

Let's start my new "self expression despite trauma responses" trend by talking about what I would want to do, or rather what I can conceive of so far, as I'm not fully clear on all the physical particulars due to the limited means I've had at my disposal so far. But I'm pretty sure the energetic expression would stay the same, no matter how the practical details would change.

My natural energy is very clear, calm, conscious, and pure, with very mild but flashing colors. I guess some would call it positive, but I would more so call it "undisturbed" and "unpolluted". It probably feels this way because it is also naturally healing to me and anyone who enters within my field. It's not even that I intentionally try to "heal" others forcibly, it's more that I'm a natural healer through the essence of my being. It's something I've done automatically since I was a child, be a balancing presence to others due to my naturally radiant aura mixed with compassion and instinctive understanding of other people's suffering. I always knew what to say to people when they needed it or asked for it, even if it was up to them to apply it. This energy is something that is going to radiate through me, whether I post about Astrology, Numerology, Tarot or any other ritualistic practices I would perform, because there is ritualism even in home-making. A natural, healing insight available to those wise enough to appreciate it.

Watching old tapes from my childhood, I saw myself express this energy naturally. It was undeveloped when I was a child, as immature as a child is, but I'm guessing the natural progression path for a person is to simply expand on whatever is budding inside them since childhood, even if it takes time to get there, so I guess my self expression being incomplete and not fully mastered yet is normal and just a question of achieving self awareness and maturity. However, as I grew older, it became increasingly harder just to exist and be myself, and in adulthood I have had so many bad life situations befall me, that it's a miracle, or more so the result of my hard work, that I'm still doing so well despite that. That I haven't become cynical and destructive and try to preserve my integrity at all costs.

Simply put, without going into too many details, life has not supported me in just existing and being myself at all. Not only it has not given me any support, which I don't even expect, because I already consider myself spiritually supported on the highest level, but it gave me people who actively tried to completely ruin my life. It gave me circumstances that I'm helpless to fight against, circumstances which force me to wait for a miracle that may never come. It gave me a burden of difficult emotions that came from me just trying to create a good life for myself, and have everyone betray me at every turn. I've resented it, I've fought it, finally I've surrendered to it, and each of these ways of coping felt just as crappy as the other ones. The reality is still, I'm doing my best to live within the energy I want to embody and give to others even if my whole life is against it, but most of the time I feel like all the cruelty I have suffered has gotten me so exhausted that I don't feel like giving anything to anyone at all. I feel like it's deeply unfair to be constantly giving, yet never receive anything from anyone. That makes me angry and resentful, towards a life I didn't ask for, towards people that I wanted to help, but ended up being attacked by.

My life passion and mission is sharing my natural energy with others to provide them with inspiration and helping them uplift their own energetic field, just by me being myself. Whenever I manage to reconnect with myself, I do it, and that is what you see. Yet on most days I struggle to find myself and "heal myself" enough to even muster the strength to share myself with anyone. I most easily find relief when I forget how hard my life is, but it's an easy way out that leads nowhere, so I have grown to deny myself that for the sake of doing the right thing, most of the time. I post when I manage to get into my real vibration enough to feel passionate about the things I care about, in order to channel enough energy to even use the keyboard. It's the most meaningful thing I have going on in my life besides my few friendships, but often I feel like I don't want to live at all. I have a desire to take more meaningful actions, but the energy I want to exist in the most is not available to me, even though I try very hard to create it myself, so I often don't feel like doing anything at all.

There are many things I feel like are profoundly wrong with my life, yet I feel unable to change them. Sometimes I don't know if using the energy to share is better then resting and doing nothing, or the opposite. I don't know if it's a weakness on my part, or if I should really rest, because nothing feels right. I feel confused about the right direction on the moment. Sometimes I feel deeply resentful having to put in constant effort. I already spend copious amounts of time laying down and poising myself to receive energetically, being open and allowing the Universe to give to me...yet I feel like it hasn't brought me anything, so I try to actively do something about daily improvement of my personal life, knowing that the solution I so desperately need may never come. The only thing I managed to receive this way is the energy, that I naturally transmute to others...but I have yet to receive enough for myself for basic sustainability. How can you solve anything, when you do try to do the best by yourself, everyone else, the whole Universe, but no one else has even done right by you? It has led me to dreaming of living isolated in my home, surrounded by nature, because at least this way I can sit in my own energy calmly and no one can harm it. Yet even that little sliver of peace was denied to me.

I know that I have things inside me I want to share. Regardless of how I feel, sooner or later I come back to my passion of expressing and sharing the depth and connectivity of the Universe, because I'm aware of the truth of it even at my lowest point. But theoretical awareness is not the same as one's emotional state. On some days I can't feel it. I feel broken by all the bad things that happened to me, knowing people have been more of a source of trauma than support for me. Conflicted between wanting positive experiences with others, and my inherent distrust, coming from everyone who put me through hell for no reason. Still, sharing and experiencing my authentic energy is the only thing I know how to do.

What I have going for myself personally sadly amounts to nothing or almost nothing. All I truly own is holding on, hoping my circumstances will change if I do my best, enough so that life lets me be myself. I don't need a palace, a jet, or extravagant excess. I want to be able to fully find myself and express myself in a safe environment, having a soul family, people that I can be myself around, a peaceful life, where I don't feel like the obstacles I have are life defeating. Where I don't feel like something is trying to snuff me out at every step despite my best efforts, with nothing for me to defend myself with. Where challenges don't feel like the end of the world, because I have enough going on for myself, that I have something to fall back on when life gets tough, besides praying for things not to be so unbearable.

This is the space I am forced to create from, the reality I wake up to every day. The highlight of my day is when I either have some good times with my friends, or when I feel this unseen force speak through me, and I know I have something important to say that feels hopeful, even if the positive message does not come from personal experience. I'm a conduit for it, even if I would struggle to believe it as a third party in the context of my own life. Yet there is a part of me that resents even this effort. There is a part of me that is so lonely, angry and exhausted it wants to lay down and do nothing, because it is high time for someone to do something for me for a change.

Besides my own exercise at honest self expression, I'm making this post because I don't want anyone to have the illusion, that I just descended from the cloud all perfect, and say what I say about human suffering easily without having much personal experience. Self-awareness and self improvement and discarding illusions can be a painful journey. If I ever manage to crystallise and physically express and live in my energy of clarity that I desire to embody from within, it will be a result of years of effort. But it is the only way forward, as I have seen those, who chose the path of least resistance do even worse than I'm doing now, decay and turn into a twisted version of themselves, that even their soul wouldn't recognise. The one thing that scares and hurts me more than my current life is not being able to look at myself in the mirror, becoming someone I don't recognise, sensing my own impurity that would come as a result of bad decisions. I have seen others be in this state, and to me that is fate worse than death. Corrupting your own energy and principles, failing to face yourself is the worst that can happen to a human being, worse than any other suffering. Attempting to resolve whatever is going on inside one's mind is the best chance we all have in this life. Any other way leads to an empty life, that one ultimately grows to resent, as one always resents what is not truly earned.

There is only one path forward for me, and even if it's painful, it's a path of clarity and certainty. Certainty, that I did the best at every turn, because I simply didn't have any better options. Certainty, that I wouldn't have come back and changed anything, because nothing else was available to me, and I put in the effort with the limited energy at my disposal. Certainty, that even if this is the broken life I've been offered, at least on the way I may brighten someone else's day. Certainty, that if any options ever appear for me, I will do right by them, because no one can appreciate them more, than a person who has had my life.

#personal #making spirituality real

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moons-and-stars-and-shit · 3 years

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OK NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT 🍰 MEANS UD LIKE ONE PLEASE!

Um my name is Emma I'm 5'10 with thick glasses and shoulder length brown hair (I'm also getting an undercut on the right side bc ya girl E D G Y) I'm awkwardly skinny, like a stick, ID PUT FLATTYKAWA TO SHAME 😭. And since I'm awkwardly skinny and have long limbs I crash into everything within a five mile radius. I'm a mess but I'm cute so it's ok.

I'm a hufflepuff, Taurus and an INFJ. I can be either really observant and understand why people act a certain way or do the tings they do, or completely oblivious. There is no in-between. I really like finding unique or weird things and love going to antique and thrift stores to find them. I'm really crafty and my head is always in the clouds with ideas for something I'm writting....which makes me a target for any kind of ball. I'm always getting hit in the head with balls, it's low key a meme at this point. I'm kind of awkward but I've been putting myself out there more often bc I don't want to regret all my time wasted being worried about what others think. I'm really nice and like to make people smile. I do nt have many friends (people are scary) but the ones I do I hold very dear to me and would fight for them till the ends of the earth. I can be kind of blunt sometimes and sometimes I don't get jokes but I mean well. And by mean well I mean I'm terrified of accidentally hurting people's feelings. I may be ✨soft✨ but I'm not a pushover and will call people out if needed. Around people I don't know well I'm pretty quiet but if you ask me about something I'm interested I could talk for hours upon hours. I can be pretty extra around my friends and have chaotic energy.

I love cute things and animals. I have these cats that I will NOT shut up about. I really like bright, kind of chaotic things

@pansexualproblemchild

Romantic Matchup

Semi Eita

How Y’all Met

Ok so Semi has a weird complex where he wants to be at least decent at EVERYTHING

So when someone pointed out that his serves could use some work

He just HAD to work on them

Unfortunately you being the ball magnet you are walked into the gym JUST as he served the ball

What happened next you may ask?

WHABAM

hit you right in the face

Apparently this particular serve was very powerful

Cuz sis you passed out 🤠

Now Semi was #panicking

So he picked you up bridal style and started walking you to the nurse

In the middle of this little journey you woke up

In his arms

Looking up at his beautiful face

Uhhhhh

ANYWAYS

He got you to the nurse

And turns out you were fine 😃

BUT

The nurse advised you not to be watched over for at least a couple of hours

And since semi felt super bad

He offered to watch you :)

Now in order to make this time less awkward

He asked you what you wanted to do to pass the time

To which you responded with....

✨ 🛍 THRIFTING 🛍 ✨

Ahh yes the art of shopping for cheap 😌

Now semi did not know what thrifting was

So it was your job to show him

You took him to one of your favorite thrift stores

Picked out a few outfits for him

And a few for yourself 😗

And held a mini fashion show!

Honestly semi was having the most fun he felt in a while

And after y’all picked out some clothes

You dragged him over to the nick nacks

And that’s when you found

These guys!

You decided to buy them, taking the smaller one for yourself

And giving semi the other one :)

It was to “mark your newly found friendship”

Yeah

That’s when semi fell in love with you

So when it was time to drop you off home

He decided not to waste the opportunity and asked you on a proper date

Y’all have been dating ever since ;)))

Favorite Things To Do Together

Ok honestly you got him REALLY into thrifting

It doesn’t Mayer if it’s clothes or just random items

He LOVES thrifting

Especially with you

Because you buy a shit ton of random little things

And they always remind him of you 😊

He also really likes to do crafts with you

AS OONG AS IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH A HOT GLUE GUN

He’s burned himself one to many times...

Random Hc

He would 100% get an undercut with you

Y’all can be edgy babes together 😌

He doesn’t allow you in the gym anymore 😀

If his spike was able to do some damage IMAGINE the damage Ushijimas could do

No hurt s/o on semis watch

And I just wanna end these random Hc with the fact that this man would spoil you 👀

You see something you really want at the thrift store

He buys it

Honestly you stopped paying for things all together since you’ve started dating him

Astrology

When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair, their union is nothing if not intense, whether that’s in a positive or a negative way.

They are opposite Signs in the Zodiac, giving them a special, complex connection.

They can combine to make a whole, each partner’s strengths balancing the other’s weaknesses.

Their sexual attraction is likely to be off the charts!

Taurus and Scorpio have tons in common, but because their personalities are so powerful, they often swing between passionate love and passionate disagreement!

Taurus and Scorpio both have deep desires, Taurus for possessions and Scorpio for power.

They’re both concerned with wealth and resources, and they’re both intensely passionate about all sorts of things.

Taurus is a bit more self-focused than Scorpio, who is more concerned with their lover and immediate family.

Both of these Signs have a great, deep-rooted need for security in a relationship, but with slightly different focuses.

While Taurus prizes honesty and forthrightness and abhors infidelity, Scorpio loves to be mysterious.

A Scorpio’s need for security is more about the need to be constantly reassured that their emotional connection with their loved one is strong.

The good thing is, Taurus needs this reassurance too — and is also willing to provide it for their Scorpio lover.

Their powerful connection that can shine when obstacles to intimacy are cleared away.

When Scorpio realizes that Taurus is there for the long term and won’t create the misery that some Scorpios attract to their lives, this relationship can blossom.

Overall Aesthetic

ThriftCore

Songs-

More Than Friends- Aidan Bissett

Listerine- Dayglow

Scrawny- Wallows

Thrift Shop- Macklemore

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu fandom #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu hcs #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu matchups #semi #semi Eita #semi x reader #semi x y/n

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Nu’s: 06/26/’21

About a LONG time ago, I set up reminders on my phone for posting/reposting content. It was a way to manage my presence online because putting things on a schedule helps me a lot. One of these reminders was every Sunday, uploading content to Tumblr. Posts that have my thoughts for the week that just passed and the week that we are getting into. So!! That’s what I am going to start doing and I am going to be as consistent as possible.

We call this Nu’s (pronounced: news) It’s not necessarily news but its the best name I could come up with LOL. The goal is to post a short/medium lil ‘whatever’ that you can read and that might help or just entertain you regarding my life, followed by small photo dumps. Let’s start today:

Last week...

A lot was going on. From the end of April up until about the middle of June, I'd been very comfortable. In all aspects of my life too. I was becoming content to the point that anything outside of the bare minimum, just seemed like a burden. I took a mental break from all of my passions and routines and got lost into the world. Yes, it’s good to have a break, but for me, once I step away from something long enough... getting back into it is ten time harder. I neglected my diet, my morning/night routines, my passions, and was more focused on the things stressing me out (work, school, other people’s burdens). Didn't realize it at the time, but I was losing my drive and ignoring whatever I was truthfully feeling. It felt weird and I ignored how I really felt about it and did pretty much whatever. BUT its not as bad as I am making it sound. I was just distracted and kind of being lazy. Ignoring EVERYTHING except for showering and smoking. Luckily, ever since June things have been just shifting, forcing me to look at life in a whole different aspect. I started to notice a pattern in the type of people that are around me now... very genuine, very inspiring. If you don't look up to the people around you or at the least admire them, get from around them and thank me later! Seeing all these changes made me also look at the changes within AND I finally started addressing how I truthfully feel.

I am a little hurt by the bonds I am losing. I am a little hurt by the fact that I've had to make so many decisions that I knew I didn't want to but are best for me. I have entered an era where my first thought is “wow that really sucks and I really don't want to feel like this because I have to [insert task/situation that sucks]” and my second thought is “but ultimately this is helping, whether I see it now or not.” because its true! All these times where im like... down bad and feeling sad or feeling lost, it brings me back into realizing who I am, what I want and helps me to get closer to my purpose. Seriously. I know emotions are real, but they only go so far. I’ve learned that FEELING is okay, but acting impulsively or immediately becoming negative about that feeling is what makes me dwell and sit in my sadness and Im not doing that anymore. If there isn't a solution, and it’s out of my control. OR there is a solution, but I did my part, then there is really nothing else I can do, you know? I am learning that I am in control of myself, and my space and what I want. Everything outside of that gets thought...but not so much thought that it becomes overthinking. Even a complicated life can be simple.

I never believed in astrology or the retrograde or whatever, but I am starting to only because it makes TOO much sense. I think astrology can really benefit whoever invests just a lil time into it. Don't ask me how, but I just feel that way. I don't think I will ever wholeheartedly believe in it, but little things like astrology, numerology, the concept of manifestation, religion, gives you rules and boundaries to life that can lead to you wanting to attain your goals, or feeling inspired in general. I say that to say, this retrograde... I LOVED! It sucked so bad you guys, and when it was over (which I didn't know until the day of) I cried so much because all the emotions I didn't know I was suppressing finally exposed itself. I realize my work isn't done, and i’ve done enough holding things off and using temporary things to suffice. I had a break up too, it wasn't bad at all to be honest. Short relationship that taught me a lot that literally was the whole retrograde from start to finish, which is crazy too. It taught me so much about myself and humbled me in realizing that I shouldn't be comfortable just yet. I still have a lot to learn about myself, how to communicate, my passions. I still have dreams to attain. I still have me, and I can't just get lost and live without feeling because the feelings always catch up to you. Everything that has happened sucks, but I couldn't imagine where I'd be had nothing went left or nothing happened. Probably still physically wandering while being mentally disconnected.

THIS WEEK THOUGH,

I'm tapped into my potential! I keep on forgetting what im capable of. I’ve done so much for myself because I'm VERY driven when I want to be. Now that I am older, I have to be the one who holds myself accountable for what I put my energy into...the people, the projects, my passions, even what I eat... and I have to be careful. Thinking deep enough that I understand the bigger picture, but not so deep that I lose sight of the smaller pictures along the way. corny, but I hope it makes sense.

That’s all for today, I could go on forever. BUT here are the photo dumps for this post AND I will catch you next time.

Nu <3

#astrology #locs #women with locs #mirror selfie #journal #mental health #self love #plants #youtube #nubia #nubiahere #news #gif #uncategorized #repost #dreads #queue

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