one random deep thought lead to another, and im just thinking of what each character in lockwood and co taught us:

Lockwood: grief is an ongoing process; it never ends, but it can get better if you dare to face it, to open up, and to ask for help. even if on the surface, a person looks sprightly and confident, that person may be broken inside. and it kinda makes me think about the people around me, that they may be hurting inside even if they seem like they don't, and we should be kind to everyone around us, because we dont know what theyre going through.

Lucy: feisty is normal for a teenage girl. if you want to do something, just get down to it. dont wait for others to reach out to you; you should take charge of your own life. if you feel something about a situation, never let anyone get you down.

George: never judge a book by its cover. listen to the logical side, even when the world seems like a raging storm (and your emotions are threatening to overwhelm you)

Flo: trauma is hard. but never give up. (shes so badass 🤌)

Holly: sometimes you have to put up with bitches (lucy), just know that they probably have a lot of things going through their heads, and they just arent matured yet. they will know later, and they'll regret their actions. also misunderstandings happen all the time and ughhh it sucks

Skull: no one is truly evil. good can come from the most unexpected places. (also, be funny. it makes life more livable)

Quill Kipps: I cant believe I didnt add him in: LOOK AT HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. He's certainly gone through a lot — losing ppl in his life, losing himself. At some point in time I hc that he abused alcohol. He's a depressed boy who's lost so much and has no one around him left. Then he's faith is renewed again when he joined lw and co, you can see this through his excitement over the pair of goggles and also people who care about him again — it's almost like he's been granted a new chance at life. So, lesson? No matter your situation, it is okay to experience ups and downs. Sometimes your downs are so low, but don't ever lose faith. It's okay to lose yourself, it's okay to grief, but know that there's always some hope left if you look out for opportunities instead of lying in the shadows.

I just want to be the saviour my childhood self needed and I'm gonna do everything in my power to become what she needed.

maybe one day i'll be able to maintain a friendship. one can hope

(ooc)

do you ever get insecure about your characterisation because i do that a lot

i don’t like that feeling, i’m just trying to have fun :(

disaster lesbian autistic relationship anarchist like hello we cannot proceed with flirtations until i've introduced you to the relationship anarchy smorgasbord just to make sure we're on the same page here and im not leading you on 👉🤪👉

weeks of feeling happy

until one night

the guilt

and sadness

washed over me

so quickly

my overthinking thoughts

always get the better of me

HB

I get too caught up in thinking to do anything. I sometimes feel like I should unfollow some blogs, unfollow some tags, etc. But I never fo it. Instead I just get caught in my thoughts, getting mad at myself for not doing it but never coming any closer to doing it. I hate my brain sometimes.

Hey, FanFic authors:

Have you ever seen someone saying “hey, I need some good ____ fic recommendations, throw some at me!” and you want sO BADLY to recommend your own but you fear that A.) your fanfic isn’t really that good so the person will just dislike it and B.) that it’ll make you sound all over confident?

So you just… don’t recommend your fanfic even though you really want people to read it.

Yeaaahhhhh…

GOODNIGHT LOVERS

Ive been playing Deathloop for the past hour and my hands are SHAKING first person shooter games make me so nervous omfg Im scared to die

God isn't real and you aren't either

I never shame people for religion, I just use this little blog to speak my opinions. I doubt my blog will ever get traction because my opinions are so against everything we've been taught, but that doesn't matter too much.

The way I see it, this is just a way to speak my mind without getting in loads of arguments over nothing.

As for the title, sure, atomically and physically you exist, but does your conscience even matter? Is there any meaning to having our own thoughts and feelings? Why do we all exist, to destroy the planet? To eat micro-plastics? To kill all other species and plants just to taste them and decide which the best?

Humans have zero meaning to me, humans, human emotion, the food we eat, everything.... nothing matters.

...

but I will do anything to make my family happy. I won't let them know my true feelings because I know they are subject to their own feelings, and if I ever caused sadness to them, it would only further my misery... especially because it's so easily kept a secret.

I rant on these blog posts because I have no one else to rant to. A therapist will just put me on medication and my family will only frown at me.

Maybe the fellow tumblr people will understand my posts, do you, does anyone else feel this way?

Nothing matters except how others feel. Is that just my form of fucked up nihilism? I don't care about anything but I'm in such misery and the only thing I do care about it making sure I don't inflict misery on others...

wishing i had a group of friends who i could just cuddle with. have em let me know that everything is alright and that people dont hate me. i crave platonic affection.

scaries part of getting into new music is the fear i'll accidentally be like "yeah i found this band, x?" and sounding like that "guys...i found this cursed sounding band...'vampire weekend...'" post 🧍‍♂️

I am really starting to realise something. The idea of "fixing" one's blorbo can often mean changing them into a form that may seem more suitable or acceptable. but is that always a good thing? it honestly depends. if the blorbo WANTS to be fixed it may be appreciated. but if they actually would prefer to just be accepted then that may work too.

Acceptance doesn't have to mean that they can get away with everything or treat you badly if you ever wanted to put yourself with them in fictional works/ self ship/ self insert (which i mistakenly used to believe a long time ago) , it just means they are perceived for what and who they are instead of being changed to fit the other person's preferences.

Acceptance, I've learnt, still comes with boundaries and sometimes even conflict between both parties but this time; they see each other for who they are instead of wearing rose tinted goggles or assuming knowledge that is not there about one another.

WHATTT!!!! And sometimes this acceptance may accidentally lead to them wanting change as well?? I don't know. Sometimes believing in someone is all it takes for them to want to do the best for themselves.

As for making them worse, EVIL 4 EVIL XD 😆 YEA BOI!!!!

I’m trying not to take it out on you.

This is my shit, not your own.

I don’t want you to leave.

I can’t make you stay.

I just pray, to any god.

You will still love me today.

HB

My Brain has been going on a lot of tangents lately, so if anyone wants to hear my complaints about things I know nothing about, that'll be predominantly what my tangents are about. You may also hear a lot of the stuff I post about already, like how I'm upset my interests haven't changed yet (and how I wonder when they'll ever change).