Omg I posted earlier about Lucy Gray being the first Capitol darling but i’ve thought more about it and ahhhh. The 10th Hunger Games was the first time it was treated as a spectacle and a show. Lucy Gray was the first “Capitol Darling” She was loved by everyone in the Capitol and even charmed Snow, she was the beginning. After her Snow realized how entertaining these tributes could be like celebrities but then this ended up being his downfall. When Katniss shows up, just like Lucy Gray, a girl from 12 who charms the audience and becomes a “Capitol Darling” If it weren’t for Snow’s implementations of interviews and getting to know the tributes, the capitol probably wouldn’t have cared about Katniss. He gave her the platform that made her popular and inspired the people to rebel. The Capitol loved Lucy Gray and Katniss and that was the problem for Snow, even if he didn’t realize it.

My delulu brain gives you an assessment of the characters of Blades. Fair warning it's a lot 😂 Enjoy.

Nia, obviously her backstory is literally being snatched up and taught how to use her light from literal birth is controversial to say less. And after joining our party, she began seeing all the things wrong with what she was conditioned to believe - and dear god that would fuick up a person (depends on the matter). Even a year later Nia is struggling with the fact that she is still the shadow creature and I think losing MC made her stronger and less shy, but at the same time yours truly believes she cannot trust anyone - it was only revealed to MC that she is still struggling with the aftermath of Dreadlord dying and turns into this creature when she is in danger BY ACCIDENT OR SHEER DUMB LUCK.(PLOT DEMANDS IT) why is MC still covering for her?????

Imtura at first was literally denying the fact that MC was even alive and to be fair, she is the last person to be recruited into the team in book 1, but in my humble opinion it's evident that Imtura and MC(moi mc)relate more to one another than any other character. And her not making too many friends due to being a ✨princess✨is such BS but you know (I would be more than grateful to be in a princess' corner as a good friend) and as stated in book 1, we weren't told she was a princess because she's a captain of a ship and that way she could keep others' respect before they literally fall over themselves to please her. And when our little party didn't treat her any different before and after knowing who she was, she opened up...

Circling back to Imtura believing MC to be dead; if I was in her position and a friend that I saved the world with just 💨, I would too think they're gone since the other implications are that they are being tortured in a dungeon and bled dry by an empress' daughter. 😳

Mal, sigh, he is just wracked with guilt from losing MC, I kid you not I feel like he made some deals to try and find MC; only for someone like Tyril to find out and absolutely berate him (which is why Tyril in the newest chapter called him reckless). I'm sure there is gonna be more reckless behaviour that Mal had done through the year for both characters to use their first names. And got his stupid ass corrupted by shadow - whether or not he knows if he's infested and becoming a Thrall for the Ash Empire... we'll have to wait and see.

Tyril, from what we know so far tried from beginning to end to find MC (to be honest from what we were told Nia and Mal helped a lot until they stopped? why though - correct me if I am wrong.) even if you are romantically involved or just platonic friends, he literally sees you as an equal and is equally happy to see you back in the land of the living. Him grovelling and desperately trying to find answers on how to find MC shows what type of person he is, but I'm sure he is keeping some feelings or all of them back due to just being happy to have MC back in his life. (And doesn't want to burden MC with his problems)

Aerin better come back because whether or not I missed his jabs at the group and him only having eyes for MC(s phone, do you have some games). But genuinely what did he give the group (only heartache), because if you didn't catch him in book 1 he literally comes in one chapter - takes a stab at MC's celibacy - leaves the next. Where the hell did you crawl off to Aerin, did you go off to finish off someone?the king. Jesus, imagine. Or even worse he won't come back this book...

WILL WE GET KADE, LOOLA AND THREEP THIS BOOK BECAUSE ITS DIFFICULT WITHOUT THEM. I miss them a lot, also definitely not catching up with Kade like we should've; imagine if MC dies and the rest of the group (after saving the world and whatnot) comes back with her corpse with a note attached - sorry. 😐

I would scream if we have a therapy session with some certain characters - say certain someones we haven't seen in the WHOLE BOOK. Very disappointed in that department. Because from where I am sitting we NEED YEARS WORTH OF THERAPY.

First Up! Build.

Keep in mind that I'm working from Big Mama's Assistant design so that changes are very subtle.

Some of them, at least.

Thoughts? Let them out and I'll try them all. Though it might take time gshnsus

Fr tho I was very tired while doing this oof

Remember this is based on what you pick and your opinion 🫵 choice wisely

Kidding but yeah plz choose

We will do names after we settle on a design

But Hunter tumblr account: likes my two posts about me adding their songs to my cringey fan playlists

Me: has a heart attack

I was reading about ghosting, and it seems like it's irreversible?

You want to tell me Runaan will have to go home without his daughter and best friends?

And I'm not sure if Rayla ghosted her parents or just skipped it, but if she did - she won't be able to see or hear them when they get them out of coins?

Hellooo?

y’all ever wanna introduce an oc but then you realize the media you made the oc for came out like months ago and then you’ll have to explain that the oc isn’t recent and that you just kept it locked away from the public for a while???????

i swear i’m normal i’m so normal pl

Just feel like no matter what i do or try.. ill always just be a stepping stone 😮‍💨😪

What superpower would I pick if I had the ability to choose? Well you don't know me at all I would choose the ability to not overthink everything

so i asked one of my friends to rate my ticklishness and he said 7 🙈 i also questioned him about how tf he can say the t-word so casually and he asked what do i mean then left me on read 😩

i told him to forget everything that i just said, pretend you saw nothing….

he left me on read. again.

(no. he doesn’t know about my little thing w tckling)

Tuesday Confessions

I just started another blog. My blog is for Tokyo Revengers. It is called @princessoftoman. If you like Tokyo Revengers, go check it out.

I'm a hypochondriac. Which mean I am abnormally anxious about my health.

I love a matching set. If I can get a matching top and bottom set, I get so excited.

I'm a shopaholic. Black Friday is never good for me.

My favorite Thanksgiving day food is a tie between stuffing (Law's worse nightmare) or canned (yes canned) cranberry sauce.

God isn't real and you aren't either

I never shame people for religion, I just use this little blog to speak my opinions. I doubt my blog will ever get traction because my opinions are so against everything we've been taught, but that doesn't matter too much.

The way I see it, this is just a way to speak my mind without getting in loads of arguments over nothing.

As for the title, sure, atomically and physically you exist, but does your conscience even matter? Is there any meaning to having our own thoughts and feelings? Why do we all exist, to destroy the planet? To eat micro-plastics? To kill all other species and plants just to taste them and decide which the best?

Humans have zero meaning to me, humans, human emotion, the food we eat, everything.... nothing matters.

...

but I will do anything to make my family happy. I won't let them know my true feelings because I know they are subject to their own feelings, and if I ever caused sadness to them, it would only further my misery... especially because it's so easily kept a secret.

I rant on these blog posts because I have no one else to rant to. A therapist will just put me on medication and my family will only frown at me.

Maybe the fellow tumblr people will understand my posts, do you, does anyone else feel this way?

Nothing matters except how others feel. Is that just my form of fucked up nihilism? I don't care about anything but I'm in such misery and the only thing I do care about it making sure I don't inflict misery on others...

I am currently overthinking. I was with some people a couple of minutes ago, and i feel like they were talking shit about me.

Hm.

I got to stop worrying about how others think of me. Even if it’s positive, I think it’s unhealthy of me to put myself up in imaginary standard that I think others think of me. It’s not in a judging way either. My head and ego wants to be fed, but what’s the worth of that if I can’t enjoy the content I write? I want to be praised, sure, that doesn’t hurt, but even if the right sorts of people see it, there is no way I think I’ll be applaud. I shouldn’t think I’ll be at all. It’s a waste of energy that makes me not want to create anything at all, because of these imaginary standards. I just want to do what I want. Ugh I’m not making sense.

I wonder if we could've been more. That if there's somewhere out there a universe where you knew and reciprocated every ounce of love I had for you. I wonder what he thinks of me now. Am I a mere experience to him or the ghosts of me from the past still linger along every pace of him , glistening his eyes with nostalgic water and faltering the shining eyes with the thought of never being able to loved by me again ? Just the way they torment my soul with each passing second.

Ik the cassette tape was simply so airy could listen to music but my ass keeps thinking it has a significant meaning??

i hate saying sorry then ppl just brush it off, like as an overthinker pls lmk that it's okay ☹️☹️