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strawberri-syrup · 2 years

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if anything bad happens to william wisp i am killing everything in this room and then myself

#i am too attatched to these fucking characters #bizzly /mentioned/ something in pd that might make charlie sad #and it instantly activated my fight ot flight #suicide mention #i ma going to sue for emotional damages #ALSO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS TO GIL????#BY CHIPS HAND???????#HELLO FUCKING W H A T

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cinnabeat · 2 years

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i think i might iust get thosr ritz

#i am. unfortunately. very hungry #and very awake #michi tag #i was so fucking tired today too i didnt play undernauts once i was just like god that sounds like an exhausting activity to do #and it IS omfg i olayed that shit for HOURS yesterday and i didnt rven realize #cuz like most games u at least have some progress in gamr to like show the flow of time or whatever #but in undernauts its like so much fucking exploring and i keep getting lost and trying to remember the places i already went to and fucking #logic puzzles or whatever im not that smart ok and then the fucking foghts are so TEDIOUS its like pokemon but only slightly better bc somet #sometimes i actually do have to plan out my attacks so i cant just spam a button until somethings defeated #but most of the timr i have a SYSTEM on how to systematically destroy enemies and its just clicking shit until its gone basically and anyway #it took me two fucking hours just to find the base camp to actuslly start the plot #granted like an hour and a half (if you wanna be generous which i am) was spent character building but also i didnt really think to hard on #the character building part bc idk what any of thr terms or numbers mean and i kinda wish i did now bc like. all those isekai stories i read #that have a system make so much sense now and theres a VANGUARD and a REAR GUARD and that MEANS SOMETHING and i have to strategically place #my prople so they can actually hit a bitch and i could jusy makr new characters but im kinda very attatched to my team actually #fuck what was my poimt #omg ok yeah so anyways it requires like a lot of brian power but also no brain power at all man its like playing goalie in soccer cuz if you #have a good defense or if the other team just plain sucks most of thr time the ball hardly ever gets far enough for you to get it so youre n #not physically tired but youre mentally exhausted bc keeping an eye on the ball and directing your team is a lot of fucking work ok and i ha #have like zero focus or patience so you can imagine the kind of like. mental? fortitude?? whatever the pjarse is anyways i was working so h #hard to stay focused man but even then i slipped and i lost my point again #oh yeah so like the game tires me out right. man what the fuck was i talking about #oh yeah im tired and hungry and i was super tired but didnt really take a nap? does 15 minutes count that just sounds like i closed my eyes #for a bit but ANYWAYS i was tired to the point i didnt play my game and now im jot tired and very fucking hungry #the journey was long but we did eventually reach the point i can applaud myself thank you

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umbrella-academy-hcs · 1 year

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My thoughts on the characters throughout the seasons on my first watch:

S1

Luther: very very annoying, ew incest, kinda wanted him to die only so the incest plot couldn't happen

Diego: Oh he's cool I like him, and him canonically being semi-verbal? Absolutely love that, me too

Allison: she's sweet, kinda annoying, not the best person but I can see she's trying so I'm going to try to like her, didn't like how she went about the Leonard situation, very worried when she almost died

Klaus: oh I love you, favorite character, best character, you kind of remind me of my friends

Five: you are so interesting I am staring at the screen intrigued, very cool power, but also the mannequin??

Ben: side character, I like his interactions with Klaus

Viktor: you are.. Interesting, however there is too much you and not enough Klaus

S2

Luther: annoyance from last season persevered and I don't trust his interactions with Allison but the scene with the two Fives was really fun

Diego: why the jfk obsession why, also he is a complete dumbass lmao (/endearing)

Allison: I forgive her for the previous season she is top 4, very sweet, I love her and Ray

Klaus: you have been demoted to second favorite but I still love you I swear

Five: you are actively winning me over I have become so attatched you are such a bitter old man who loves his family so much I absolutely adore you

Ben: he is also winning me over, was very near getting really attatched to him at the end of the season and then he fucking died

Viktor: Liking him more now too, he's very sweet, I love him with Sissy and Harlan, the amnesia thing was pretty good, was very nice this season

Lila: not sure how I feel, conflicted, kinda don't like

S3

Luther: fine you win I don't hate you anymore now go dance with your wife, also his reaction to Viktor coming out was so sweet I died, wasn't rlly worried about his death but damn all he wanted was a hug poor guy

Diego: "Do you feel loved? Good, you are" bangs fists on table, crying, screaming, also the whole thing with Stan was very sweet but Diego isn't rlly a good dad, not horrible, but as someone heavily interested in psych and parenting techniques; yikes my guy, you could do better

Allison: Oh her relationship with Viktor is so nice I hope nothing bad happens between them stares at the camera like in the office , also FUCK YOU, the SA was way way too far, completely irredeemable

Klaus: FIVE KLAUS ROADTRIP FIVE KLAUS ROADTRIP, also immortality thank fuck if you died I would have never recovered, all his interactions with Reginald all he wanted was for a good father :(, people need to start listening to him and taking him seriously asap I'm gonna lose it he deserves the world

Five: I would kill for you and your stupid old man outfits, also him being blamed for the apocalypse made my blood boil Five has been trying so hard to keep his family alive and he loves them all so much only to be treated like shit

Ben: I miss Umbrella Ben bring him back why is he such an asshole

Viktor: trans guy swag, all of the coming out scenes warmed my heart, liking his character more, him losing Harlan and Allison treating him like shit :(

Lila: She won me over she is so fun however what she did to Diego with Stan was shit

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byrdffv · 12 days

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Dialtown Phone heads make me confused

(i put far too much thought into this)

Ok so first of all, what IS the dialup? Like its the point in time when everyone switched from flesh heads to objects, but how?? Supposedly it was mandatorily enforced for everyone alive before the dialup (other than norm because he was busy in the cigarette burn of space), BUTTT apparently humans now are born with adapters?

Where did those come from? Did the dialup somehow change how human dna develops? Did callum crown effectively alter the human genome for the entire planet??? and i ask, HOW did he do this? not to mention the animals as well, who admittedly ARENT born with adapters, but their heads were still changed as well, down to insects like flies and bees. There HAS to be something else going on here, maybe callum convinced god to help him with his plan over a beer or something idk.

According to word of Dog (not to be confused with word of god), the phones HAVE blood and brains in them, WHERED THEY COME FROM??? If humans are born without heads, where did the brains come from? are they grown in a lab? do they grow into the shell of the phone once its attatched? Not to mention characters like zimothy or the knife-headded one, where there would barely be ANY space to fit organic matter.

Oh and not to mention the moduability of the heads, which brings the previous point about blood and brains into a whole nother web of questions. If humans can assumedly switch their heads at any age or ability, how is this procedure done? i ASSUME it would be some kind of surgery -and i properly salute all the doctors in the dialtown universe who have to study and understand anatomy for these surgeries-, because it would require removing ones entire head, organs and all. This also brings me back to the adaptor part, how much of the brain workings is in there? i mean, it HAS to function as part of the brain, unless babies come out with just a brain stem and spend the first few years of life growing a whole-ass brain first. Am I thinking too hard about it? Probably. Am I expecting FAR too much from a dating simulator that originated from fucking fnaf fanfiction??? Absolutely. Its for this reason I'm posting this here instead of Dogmans askbox, because I do NOT want to metaphorically knock on his door with paragraphs worth of questions about the anatomical and scientific lore of Dialtown: Phone Dating Sim.

#dialtown #Dialtown: Phone Dating Sim #Directdoggo #cw blood #cw gore mention #Technichally #theres a lot of blood and brains in these ramblings

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lordoftablecloths · 10 months

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vent post i guess i dont know i just wanted to write stuff down instead of just go ing to bed and crying over it you can just scroll past it

im fine im sane im noramal im so unbleiveably cringe ,, the only person i have irl- fuck, or even online for that matter- to show the dumbass things i write is my silly little dumbass younger brother who doesn;t understand what im trying to get at and i guess its not his fault, i seriously doubt he's spent unhealthy amounts of time making various short scenerios in his head about charcters he came up with and eventually trying to give them a story and write little things about them in google docs because where else am i supposed to put this and its just ,, he doesnt know wht im trying to do and i dont know how to explain it to him because the "history" i gess behind it is so fucking complicated by now that these characters arent even the same characters as they were when i originally created them, other than some physical attributes and their names and he just knows them as the random cringe shit i made up in middle school but so many years have passed by now that these stupid fuckers whose only purpose to serve is to make me stop remembering that i exist and ive gotten too attatched to them because who else was i supposed to get attatched to when i was going through an identity crisis at the time- and, quite frankly, still fucking am- and it was so much easier to pretend i dont exist and just project my flaws and insecurities and underlying subconcsious thoughts into these charactes that no one knows about except me and oh god im just created a long ass vent post on tumblr that no one's going to read and no one understands the story behind fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck whatever ill go ahead and post this unfinished thing because no one's going to get it either way ill probably delete it later if it doesnt get buried under reblogs

dont think too much about this i just got sad because my brother was giving me a bunch of criticism on an outline of a story i was working on- which is fair, i need to take criticism- but he only knows the characters in it as their semi-formed cringe versions so i chickened out half way and now i feel bad because i was really proud of this thing for the whopping span of like one day before i decided to show it to another human person instead of letting it rot away inside of me like i usually do and now i feel bad about my writing skills

im trying so hard to just take his words with a grain of salt because this kid does not have nearly as much experience with writing as i do, but i feel like im copying too many of my inspirations (DnD, generic fantasy story about defeating evil creature, silly tropes, etc,,) which sucks because that was just like the first two pages of the outline and theres nine fucking pages and like the second half of it was what i put the most effort into and i felt like the ideas were really origianl but i could make myself let him naturally get to that part of the outline because i was starting to feel really bad and wieerd and oh god he is looking at ideas i havent ever expressed to another human person even though i am very familaiar with because i came up with them and they havebeen in my head for at least a year or two by now and have been haunting me ever since so instead of skipping ahead to the parts that were really good in my opinion but would have made no sense without context i just told him to piss off i gues s

i dont know. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive put so much effort into this stuff and the concept that ive been wasting my time feels like too heavy of a weight to handle. god none of this porbobably nmakes any sense ,,,,,,,,, i guess this is why i feel miserable when the fanart and shitpost memes i post get a comically larger audience and attention than the art relating to my silly goofy ocs, because these stupid fucking characters are all thats keeping me going . call me cringe, but is it still cringe if the concept that maybe i too can be around people that love me and instead of having to like me in spite of my faults love me for them keeps me from fucking killing myself is it still cringe?

if a tree falls in a forest and no one's around, does its fall even make a sound? (shit piss fuck sorry i dont remember the original quote and all i can remember is tha t one line from that one musical i dont remember what it was)

if an autistic moron that cant even talk to a cashier without having a panic attack makes a universe full of fictional characters of his own cfreation then an alternate universe, then several alternate universes, then a spin off from that original universe and etc etc but its all just on google fucking docs and no where else except deleted excerpts from a dead wattpad account, did he ever even create anything at all?

its pointless. its all so fucking pointless. its a waste of time. why do i do this at all. its so fucking pointless. it makes no fucking sense. you cant just make a story with characters in it, then make a fucking fantasy au of that universe with the same characters but with different designs and wildly different personalities and then make a whole fucking complicated lore-filled story about the fantasy au version while the original universe's story is still left mostly unfinished like forget about a first draft of the text i havent even finished the first ddraft of the outline yet buckarooooooo

okay fuck you guys thats all i want to tell you im going to go pretend to myself to try to go to sleep and then cry now

#vent #i guess #sorry for saying fuck you guys yall are the only keeping me together and making me feel like i have any importance at all #long post

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monsterfloofs · 6 months

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V1C3 LORE! V1C3 LORE! I am kicking my legs as I look at them in all all their pride and problem filled glory. I am so so curious to see them tested to their limits for their love, one that’s angry and frustrated and fights back. One that makes choices that would threaten the monopolized near anarchy-like control this dystopian is under. To threaten their pride, their iron fist, their very ego, to have it almost crumble into fumbling scraps when the human they care for is scared and livid and nearly dying from the chokehold of this world. Of them. How would that dent their mind? Dent their company? Rust their sharper edges, worn down by beat burst love from squeezing too hard?

Being robotic they probably just get rid of the source of it all, but it hurts. They can factory reset. Too risky, too much information lost. They could filter through and pinpoint these emotions in a program exposing their soft insides, their code, but they’re too useful. They feel too good. Warping their human to be anything otherwise is no less terrifying of a thought either. That’s a scary part of love for someone like them I’d imagine

Fighting and flowing against and with their human’s every more stings and burns but the mere idea of riddance is like a guillotine.

They are so fascinating and I wanna pick them apart and see they stretched out to their limit. It’s interesting to see these rigid controlling types be bent screeching and rough like metal. Thankfully there are ways in the world to break through steel, softening it, heating it, molding it. V1C3 is so intriguing and I need to study them under a microscope and see them put in situations.

I am extremely normal about them odbskanakqmql (if any of this makes you uncomfortable please let me know)

Alternately:

V1C3: Sex is disgusting and primitive, you have millions of other form of enjoyment and you choose to do so in the most depraved manner

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V1C3, having installed various sex toys now and definitely known for fucking the human VERY LOUDLY out of possessiveness (and being asked): …

Other robots: So.

V1C3: shut the fuck up-

(^ probably wouldn’t say this but I think it’s a funny thought)

Oh my haha, that is quite a deep dive! I am totally here for it!!

You mentioned looking at what they would go through, but also!!

On the other hand you got the human that is fighting them at every twist and turn. They h a t e them. But then also get to see a side of them NO ONE ELSE SEES. Something quiet and sweet, what does that do to the human of the equation too?? Is it like quicksand?? Slowly realizing that the villian they have hated all this time has a hand on their heart? 8O WHAT THE HECKIE DO THEY DO WITH THAT???

They can't just forget or delete files, and their wounded heart I am sure hurts just as much if not more! To love someone who is so flawed, and possibly a blight on society THAT WOULD BE HORRIBLE!!

It's like you start out trying to figure out how to destroy them, but then save them? Or save myself? Can I do both?

WHEW-- That is some deep stuffs.

Vice was my attempt at making a romanceable baddie, and there are a lot of messy atrings attatched. <: 3

I know I can say, if they dealt with a fiesty protag. it would take them a lot... longer for them to bond with this person? They also may not have as much inaccidental power over Vice. Vice wouldn't trust them too much. It also makes me think if the beanie really despised Vice they wouldn't have taken whatever offer, or Vice wouldn't have been interested? I am sure people despising them is probably a dime a dozen! Why this specific person?

Putting someone that has known activity against his empire in "house arrest" would be a plausibilty for their character and also for them and the protag. to exist in the same space for a while. Taking someone who is important to the human organization and tossing them in a quinessention lavish jail to laugh in the face of their opposition.

Essentially like: "Oh, I think you have had enough time to scheme for a while. You get a time out."

Heckin rood robo-boss >:I Let me have my vendetta.

And also spear jaded remarks at eathother through dealing with one another.

That might... make more sense and work out potentionally?

BUT OH MAN 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Vice with humans is a little more careful, and considerate, even when their irk him. BUT HOLY CROW VICE HAS A ROBOTTO INSULT THEM?? Oh man. 👁👁 I think they'd crunch the poor bbies face into a wall, and ask politely for a new member of staff SKDKDKSKS

WHEEZE HHHHHHH

Oh man oh man oh man--

Yeah please staff... do not piss this one off, they have no mercy for beings who can fix themselves easily..🥺

A cheeky bot... may easily become scrap metal if you say something that Vice deems as rude.

That's why having a sweetie would be so 😳 The JUNK THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH??

"I stole yo car, I broke out of the house again and I am driving down the interstate at 4 am." 😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎

THAT RIGHT THERE gets an amused chuckle and a "Must we do this again? You know you can't get far. ♡"

While some other poor folk gets hunted down for so much giving them a sassy comment dkskskkdsks HHHHHH.

But- yes ahaha 🤣🤣🤣

NO, NO YOU'RE GOOD, OH MY GOSH I AM GLAD YOU LIKE THEM 👁👁

Thankfully, due to Vice nature, they would give their hooman a lot of space! So no one has to hear intimate time! Unless... Vice is being an arse... >:I

I also can't really see fiesty protag... really wanting any kind of intimate nonsense with them...? 🤔 There may be a way that works out later?? Thinking about hating someone and human emotions that hooman would be more likely to trad insults.. oh man-- I like you dear anon, get really into those details and try and understand the microcosm that is story!

I wanna be able to see how it all would thread together 🥺🥺🥺 That one would definately be a quintessential enemies to lovers trope though, oh gosh!

Most scenarios kind of would be?? But this one, very much so!!

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monstertsunami · 2 years

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okay i cannot for the life of me remember the names of the pafl people (i am. bad at names. as evidenced by me not having one) so gimmie the pafl ship you've got Brainworms about right now. not in the sense of love or hate, but the one that just has a specific rant locked n loaded for and which leaves you awake at night.

HI HIII IDC THAT YOU DONT KNOW THEIR NAMES IM JUST SO HAPPY THAT YOURE SENDING ME AN ASK ABT MY FIXATION DESPITE KNOWING NOTHING ABOUT IT <333<3333<3

temnova/olya would be way too obvious for this SO instead im gonna ramble abt sergei/olya my favorite ever (so-called) m/f ship<3<3

forgive me in advance for fumbling my analysis bc words do not come to me well n settling with the second-best word choice always ends up skewing the meaning.. i am also not good at organizing my thoughts at all lol :p

sergolya (made up the ship name myself bc idk if theres a widley used one oops) is a canon ship and thats why its GOOOD. bc pafl is like. REALISTIC and not in the annoying nihilistic grimdark way but just in the way that the characters feel so natural with how they interact with each other and the world and how they react to situations and how situations effect them... its just. real as fuck. absolutely insane skill on ferry's part. but this is REALLY GOOD for every pafl relationship, romantic or not, because they're complex.

sergei and olya have a flawed relationship! theres a lack of communication, sergei being sergei, olya being olya, etc. but its still so so obvious that they love each other DEEPLY! maybe olya's blinded by her insecurities and maybe sergei doesnt externalize it in an obvious way, but when you look even an inch deep into their motivations throughout the entire story, especially when they make poor decisions, its just intertwined with their love for each other.

now where sergolya REALLY gets developed is in The Mill, which specifically touches on olya's insecurities and sergei's overbearing-ness. yes this is why its my favorite pafl song :3

olya appears stoic and logical, she never looks affected by anything, she is taking a fucking prison sentence with stride. but shes still a very emotional person at heart, shown by her affection towards anya, some random kid that keeps following her home, and her getting so attatched to a mutant that she puts herself at risk to keep him safe. all very illogical, emotion driven actions that you wouldnt expect from her based on her external disposition. olya is not as untouchable as she lets off, and she is especially deeply affected by nikita's view of her. (even before kolya's death he was an asshole. fucking misogynist) she cant help but take nikita's harsh words to heart, and that effects her and sergei's relationship. she's terribly afraid of opening up to him in fear that he will leave her the same as nikita left nadya, and has trouble internalizing and accepting the love he expresses to her. she desperately wants to ask for some reassurance, some promise that he wouldnt one day just decide that shes too much of a burden, that shes not worth it anymore, and abandon her. she DESPERATELY wants him to love her, but she just cant accept that he already does love her for herself.

"ill draw a circle in the sand / drive myself around the bend / in a desperate attempt to hold onto your battered hand"

now this is where the dramatic irony comes in. because seeing his internal monologue in the mill, the same song where olya was lamenting about all that, it is very very obvious that he cares so deeply for olya. now sergei has his issue with being overbearing and overprotective when it comes to those he loves, sheltering sanya to the point where she acts out and befriends yura. its his primary flaw, but god if it isnt the most prominent indicator of sergei's attachment to a person. once you know that about him and how he expresses those types of emotions, he practically wears his heart on his sleeve. he wants what he thinks is best for her and sanya and he really DOES care so so much about them both but he doesnt stop to think and its so. oh my god i just love them both so much u dont understand.

"now my only hope is that one day youll understand / ill wrap the chain round my heart and her hammering neck / and save whats left / though i know that someday this weight will come to break my back"

just the way that sergei and olya have such similar problems that manifest in different ways to affect their relationship. olya masks her emotions bc of experiences with misogyny and shes trying to be a Strong Woman and.. sergei masks his bc the environment he grew up in (& his own experiences and traumas) fostering toxic masculinity(???) and poor coping mechanisms. and so its this ouroboros of poor comminication because sergei doesnt know how to show olya he loves her and he doesnt even know thst she needs that because she wont TELL him and then SHE goes on to think that sergeis percieved indifference is his lack of affection and CONTINUES not telling him out of fear of rejection. i. UGH. these two are destroying my mind

thanks for reading if u got this far. have my favorite official sergolya doodles

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(i could write an extra essay on my thoughts abt these doodles specifically as well but ill spare you<3)

#:3 #sorry this took 4 ever to answer i had to find time to sit down and write this all #BUT I AM SOO HAPPY THAT UR INDULGING ME IN MY WEIRD INTERESTS THAT U KNOW NOTHING ABT #SQUEE #sergei #olya #boss makes a dollar i make a dime thats why i answer asks on company time #pafl #schziobabble #long enough to go in my talk tag

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valkyriecrane · 1 year

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On Writing Trans Characters

(And why it’s important to remember that your lived experience is not universal, and to not just assume it’s OK) Right, first things first, I am Eidolon, I am a 22 year old, white, bisexual, trans, woman. I had a very privileged upbringing. These are a whole bunch of character traits I have, and they inform how I interact with the world. The reason I bring this up is because everything I am about to say, is going to be told through those filters, through the lens of my lived experience, and so again, this should not be taken as universal advice. This is simply my viewpoint, based on my experiences, and I hope it can be helpful to others who, like me are beginning to navigate the minefield of accidental transphobia, bigoted arseholes and fleshing out characters that is writing Trans characters in your stories. :readmore:

Ok first up. Trans people are more than their sexual characteristics. Basic, I know, but frankly we need to start somewhere, and given society as a whole’s fixation on what trans people have in their pants (I have my keys, a couple sticks of gum, and that’s about it because ladies pockets have no space and it sucks), I felt it would be a good idea to start us off with that. If you are writing a trans person, you should not need to refer to their genetalia when describing them, you should not need to talk about our vitriolic hatred of the genetalia we have, because that is not a universal factor amongst trans people. A trans person is still a person first and formost, not a collection of anxiety and depression attatched to the wrong bit of plumbing. Second, you may have trans friends, that’s great. Dont use them as your primary port of call for asking if something you’re writing is transphobic or not, because their views on whether it is or not will be tempered by the fact that they know you, and therefore they will understand your intent better than the random person on the internet who picks up your Ao3 fic and goes “yeah, this is transphobic.” Hey other trans people out there, this one applies to you too. Your in jokes in your discord servers are great, but remember that not every trans person in the world is in your discord server (unless you are and you just havent invited me, in which case Rude). This especially applies to transfemmes writing transmascs. Our experiences are very different, and you should understand that. Third, look for unintentional wordings, and readings of your stuff. You might think you’re making a perfectly fine joke that a transmasc person would make, but you could unintentionally be saying something that could cause a lot of hurt to a large portion of trans people. Obviously dont go to the ends of the earth with this. If someone is reading your work deliberately trying to find something to take offense to, they will find it, and that’s fine. Dont go as far as some trans-zines have and straight up exclude pictures of pre/non op transfemme people (who are totally valid) from it because it causes dysphoria to some other trans people. But do maybe look at your joke about a baking show, and store bought vs home grown phalluses before you post it, and go “ok, how does this read as an X” Ask trans aquaintances “how does this read.” Finally, YOU WILL FUCK UP. I cannot stress this enough, you will screw up and (hopefully) unintentionally, say/write things, that people are gonna read as transphobic. THIS IS FINE, to err is to be human after all, what matters is how you respond to criticism about your trans characters. Take the criticism in stride, do better, dont make the same honest mistake twice, and dont let it get you down, you are learning after all. Hope this helps, Eido

#trans #writing about writing #cw: transphobia #lgbtq #essay #writing advice

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oersteds · 1 year

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yesterday i was in a lengthy vc, just the usual stuff, and i had Many Thoughts as to why i don't really like alicia / alethea (live a live) (spoilers below cut) (also massive textpost under the cut. by the gods i should be in bed sleeping, it's 3 am as i write this, i'll be cursing myself in the morning at this rate.)

i think the main reason behind my dislike is the lack of agency she has. i know that's not exactly her fault, especially given the setting, but that doesn't make me less pissed when her only act of agency that's 100% guaranteed to happen (the trial of heart is optional content) ends up leading to the demise of an entire kingdom, and puts all of time and space in danger.

"oh, but she didn't know it would happen!" is a correct statement, albeit it takes away even more agency from the little she had in the first place. this is probably just me, but i get a lot more attatched to characters that have agency. i find it nearly impossible to like a character that's just being dragged around by the plot. at best, i'll be indifferent to them, maybe wondering "why do people like this character?" and at worst, i'll be wondering "how does anyone tolerate this fucker, in universe or not???" it's why i tend to dislike the "tagalong kid" trope. because all they seem to do is scream, cry, generally make things worse, cause conflict, and make me wonder why they're being brought along in the first place.

if all a character does is cause problems on accident, i find it incredibly easy to hate them. funny, then, how i like characters that cause problems on purpose... now i wonder how i'd see alicia / alethea as a character if she was outright confirmed to actively wanting to fuck over the entire kingdom, or even just oersted through her actions after straybow's death. straybow, for one, wanted to ruin oersted's life by pullin' that shit. he just ruined more than he expected. alicia just wanted to join straybow in the afterlife.

i mean, she's regretful about it regardless, and she tries making up for it by letting the heroes out of the trial of heart while basically goin "hey. fix this" (it's not even 100% confirmed that she opened the portal herself, too, considering that the exit portal in every trial minus the trial of time opens when you grab the ultimate weapon in it. for all we know, it's a coincidence that the portal opened. hell, it coulda been odio opening that portal, or what little of oersted's left in there.)

i'm not saying i automatically dislike characters without agency, mind you. i can enjoy the damsel in distress trope if the damsel doesn't make things worse, accident or not. princess peach in the first two paper mario games? she's doing something there. in fact, she's helping her rescuers out by spying on her captors. so give the girls some agency. i support women's rights, and women's wrongs. let the girls do crimes.

i look at alicia and i think "damn, no amount of fanon's gonna change my perception here, huh." because to me, alicia is defined by her lack of agency. if a fic gives her agency, she's not gonna seem like alicia anymore. which... sucks, honestly. i wish i could see alternate universes as their own thing, instead of a different version of canon.

(tl;dr) it's the lack of agency. + the crimes may be fictional but my annoyance is very real

#live a live spoilers #wow i really rambled here #extra crypty (tl;dr)#do i even maintag this

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lemonade-luvr · 2 years

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I AM IMMUNE TO MAKING CHARACTERS WITH BAD DESIGNS BECAUSE IF A CHARACTER WAS BADLY DESIGNED I WOULD BE SO SAD!!!!!

praico? simple but effective design. good to draw over and over. 2 good outfits.

damien? he is fucking dead and pink. lovecore ghost. heart is so cool and annpying

fihell looks like inuyasha but a catboy but i still love them lots and lots. attatchment swag

fiiore is busting it down nondysphoric nonbinary lesbian style. cyborg w a titty window

taylon has goth fish vampire swag and would cry if you talked to them a little too rudely

comfey is FUCKING COOL.

jimy is just a wizard girl tryna make it in this big world...respect

secret character looks cool because im unable to make them Not look cool but they are a fucking asshole and no one should like them.

#neil.txt #needed to hype myself up #a little #oc tag

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caustic-light · 2 years

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Okay so why is barely anyone talking about the absolutely off the charts level of amazing body type diversity in this movie?

Like, yeah every main character has their own distinct shape (as should be the case for designs of animated characters anyway) but all of the background cast, too. There is no copy pasting of bodies there, there is no defaulting to a couple different shapes, there is so many fat characters all with entirely different bodies. There is so many skinny characters all with different bodies. They understood that two ppl of the same height and same weight can have vastly different bodies based on weight distribution, bone structure, muscle to fat ratio and so on, and they showed they understand this. And as a result all the recurring background characters are distinct.

Bear with me bc I'm gonna gush about Tyler again, as I am contractually obligated to do in every one of my TR posts, but.

It's a little hard to see if you're not familiar with that kinda body type he has, because he wears multple layers of clothes, including a long shirt that covers his butt, so it's easy to not take notice of how unconventional his design is. But not only is he clearly squishy, despite being in the range of vissibly skinny to most ppl (which is something that is already really fucking rare for character designers to go for) but on top of that, he is also naturally curvy as fuck and has big hips and a pronounced butt. And that is a body type a lot of boys and men have, but do you know how many examples of male animated characters I can come up with of the top of my head who have that kind of body type?

3. Including him. The other two are Miguel from Coco and Takato ftom Digimon Tamers.

I can not put into words how good it feels to see a character who looks the way I used to look when I was thirteen. A body type that most designers pretent doesn't exist. That most ppl will not differentiate from basic skinny boy but that a lot of boys feel so self concious about that they will hide it to pass as generically skinny. Dressing for example the way Tyler doed in the movie.

And I figure it's not just him. I am less personally attatched but I can't come up with a lot of characters from anything that look like Mei either. Or like Miriam. I have seen plenty of young teenagers who look like her but her entire vibe and design consists of traits that i feel are usually restricted to older teen characters.

And that's another thing. These kids are thirteen to fourteen. All of them will be at vastly different levels of development and the movie shows it. It shows all the messed up invetweens of puberty, at the absolute height of awkward and mismatched childlike and adultlike traits. You have characters who look like children, you have characters who would probably pasd as adults by the time they're fifteen and you have so much beautiful awkward transitionary phases.

There is a thing happening where visual media tends to pretent puberty doesn't exist. You have child actors for prebubescent roles and almost all teenage rolls are played by either older teens or adults. The amount of media depicting young teen characters by actual young teen actors peaked in autum 2017 when both IT and Stranger Things did it at roughly the same time and since then has kind of gone back down.

This creates an illusion where we kind of stop seeing kids that age in how we percieve age. We kind of just get used to prepubescent children smoothly transitioning into what may as wrll be smaller and more oyuthful adults. And it fucks up our perception of age on a significant level. Look at the discourse about Call Me By Your Name where people called Elio "visibly a teenager" and Oscar "visibly an adult" when their actors were in their 20s and 30s respectively.

This has consequences and they go beyond the awkward charm of Breakfast Club casting.

Imagine what this does to pubescent teenagers. To see themselves erased from representation because that stage of development is too awkward for TV. Think about what that does to someones mental health.

So yeah, ppl should talk more about the body type diversity in this movie.

#turning red #pixar turning red #tyler nguyen baker #tyler turning red #miriam turning red

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archiepudding · 3 years

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Confession | Dom!Dabi x Reader [Part 1]

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Pairing: Dom!Dabi x Fem!Reader (Minors do not interact!)

Warnings: 18+, NSFW, smut, chocking, slapping, quirk play, sadism, panic attacks, assault, dubcon

Notes: Your quirk is telepathy. Anything written in ‘bold and italic’ is the character’s thoughts. [Not necessarily all from the quirk]

Smut section will be in the second part.

Summary: Following one of your shifts at the bar, you end up facing a little trouble. Who knew Dabi was the sentimental type.

Part. 2

11:23 PM 27th April

You weaved in and out of the mindless bodies dancing, sweat lingering with the humidity of the club. Empty glasses and bottles were strung all over the tables, you collected as many as possible and balanced them on a tray. You emerged back behind the bar, the glasses being placed on the counter ready to be put through the wash. You look to your left to find Naomi, one of your collegues, flirting with one of the customers. She was always the center of attention, not that I could say I minded.

“Another round of beer for booth 4" You hear from behind you. You look back at Naomi who was completely unfazed by what your boss had just called out to you.

"I'll cover it!" You sighed, and wiped down the tray, setting down the drinks. You stopped at the booth and placed down the items carefully. Under the low light, you could make out the group of four men around their mid to late forties. However, the one that stood out to you the most was the bald man nearest to you. There wasn't anything special about him, it must have been the way the light bounce of his hairless head, you thought until you noticed the way he smirked made him seem like an asshole. Counting by the number of glasses they had on their table, you noticed they should have been cut off hours ago. You leant across the table to collect a few of the empty glasses, as the bald man's gaze followed you, locking onto you breasts.

"Have I got something on my chest... sir?" You clench your teeth in frustration on your final word.

"Yeah... my eyes" His comment was followed with a wink. You purse your lips and clench your jaw, in attempt to brush off his comment.

‘The things I’d love to do to that sweet body of yours. God, I think I’m getting hard just thinking about it!’

You would have thought that these things wouldn't get to you by now, but they still make your skin crawl. You straighten yourself up and walk away with the tray half full.

‘I do not get paid enough for this shit!’ you think to yourself.

You went back behind the bar, your tray thrown down, empty bottles scattered the side. "What did those glasses ever do to you, you OK?" Naomi walked over to you, a bottle top being played with in her hands.

"Yeah, just one of those nights I think. Nothing that I can't handle, though" You smiled bleakly at her, she didn’t buy it.

“Look, Y/N - “

"Can I get a gin and tonic and a shot of vodka?" A voice echoed behind you. You muster up a bright smile, or what is known as your 'customer service face' and turn face them. Your face dropped as soon as you realised who it was.

“What are you doing here, Dabi?” Dabi was lent on the bar, sweat fell from his forehead. He rolled his eyes before taking out his wallet.

"I’m here for a drink, what does it look like?" You bit the inside of your lip, holding your tongue.

“There are thousands of bars, couldn’t you go to one of them?”

“And miss watching you follow my orders? Now why would I do that?” His lips pulled into a smirk. “Why you even working in this shit hole, anyway?” He shouts as you prepared his drinks.

"I've got to pay the bills some how. Not like I can live the ‘criminal life’ with telepathy and my quirk certainly isn’t up to par with putting someone like you in jail. So both villain and hero are off the list" Your voice was spitting with pettiness as you exchanged his drinks for cash.

“I mean you could steal people’s pin codes...” You weren’t sure if he was trying to give you genuine advice or rub in your lack of ability. Your face contorted into an irritated expression, as you resume cleaning the bar.

“Haha. Very funny, nice to see you still think you have that comedic charm!” Your sarcasm didn’t go unnoticed. He lets out a breath of a laugh, it would have been audiable hadn’t it been for the music. "You look like you could use a break" He turns and hints towards the crowd of people dancing.

"Depends what I'm taking a break from... society, work... you? Either one would be preferable right now."

Dabi shakes his head in amusement. "And you’ve clearly still got your sense of humor."

You rolled your eyes. "I'm glad to be of service." You spit as your eyes narrowed. A smile beamed across Dabi’s face before he grabbed his drinks and started off into the crowd. Just as you thought you would finally get some peace, you hear a faint yell coming from the dance floor.

"Hey, Y/N! I’ll meet you after work!" Dabi’s turquoise eyes met yours, as you turned around, a feeble attempt to mask your smile. You didn't reply to his comment as you simply gave him the middle finger. You guys got on in small doses and he wasn't a bad guy, aside from the obvious reasons that he was a high level villain. He definitely knew which buttons to push, especially when it came to you. You went back to your normal routine for the rest of your shift.

02:33 AM 28th April

The night had a chill in the air which hit you as you began to lock the doors of the club. You threw your bag over your shoulder, the strap pulled down on you (h/c) hair. As you walked under the moonlight you rememberd how this was the only thing that made your job worth it. Finishing during the early hours of the morning the streets were always silent. Your thoughts could run wild without the imposing mutter of people on the street. You were a few blocks from your apartment when you heard the slight chatter of voices.

“She would be lucky to be with such a man, the whore!”

You noticed it was the same men who oogled at your tits earlier that night. Great, you thought. You averted your eyes to the floor, hoping that they would just let you walk past. The smell of putrid, day old sweat mixed with stale beer and a trail of burnt tabacco.

“Hey, sweetie. You got a light!”

“No, sorry. Goodnight.”

“Oh, shit. You’re that waitress from the bar.”

“Why don’t you join us for a good night, sweet heart!” His friend chirped in, his voice almost as sleazy as the first.

“Creepy old men aren’t my type...”

“No need to get nasty, doll. I can show you a real good time” The way his words slid off his tongue repulsed you.

‘I’d fuck the shit outta her!’

Your face creased in disgust at his thoughts “I seriously doubt that!” His eyebrow raised as he seemed to get turned on by your aggressive replies. You caught on “Ew, no! Screw you, old man!” The first slap shocked you as you held you cheek, a small trickle of blood ran down your face from where his ring caught you. You were led by your hair, almost thrown into the alleyway. Your chest moved up and down rapidly as you you realised the danger you were currently in. You shifted your weight as you dodged his attack, his punch nearly coming into contact with your jaw, but your victory was short lived as his other hand caught you square in the ribs. You dropped to the floor as the violence continued in your weak state. A swift kick came into contact with your abdomen as your breath hitched in your throat. You blocked the next one with your arms, as you attempted to get on your feet. Everything was a blur, you could barely see, let alone defend yourself. At this point adrelalin was the only thing keeping you conscious as each blow sent pain searing through your body. His hand grazed your scalp as he pulled your hair, directing your face to his.

“Such a pretty face, it would be a shame if something were to happen to it...” A blade was pressed against your skin, it reflected in the moonlight. Your hands trembled as you tried to push him away with the last bit of your strength. You couldn’t scream. You were fighting with every inch of your life, but you felt hopeless. You were too weak. Your arms felt as though there were cement blocks attatched to them, rendering you powerless as you tried to fight back. You were already on your knees. Despite the shit you had endured, you didn’t want to die. “Please...” His figure didn’t stand that much taller than you but you had never felt so small in comparison. Darkness consumed you, the coldness of the night clung to your skin as you could barly keep your eyes open.

“Get your hands off of her. NOW.” Your attention shifted, as you are dropped onto the dark pavement below.

“Oh who’s this? Mr big shot I see. You think you’re going to get brownie points for being the knight in shining armor?” One of them yelled.

“Keep talking, you bastard. It’s going to make this a lot more fun!” The figure moved under the street light. He wasn’t sure what had taken over him, but in the moment he couldn’t bare seeing you like this.

A strange smell took over your notrils as blue light illuminated the darkness. It was nothing like you’d ever experience before. The smell of burning flesh almost made you sick. You watched as your fellow friend emitted blue flames throughout the alley way, his heat radiated higher and higher with each step. Hairs on your neck stood on end as the men’s screams filled the quiet streets. They flaied their arms around, as they moved them to their face as though they could shield themselves from the battle against the flames. As the flames englufed them, you could hear the sound of them sizzling as though they were meat on a barbeque. You laid there as you watched their clothes melt onto their skin, before their bodies dropped to the ground, their voices fell silent.

A strong arm wrapped around you, your head rested on his chest. “I told you to meet me after work. Why do you never listen.” his voice sounded distant as you chose not to argue.

“Dabi? Where are we... going?”

“I’m taking you to my apartment.”

“No, just put me down... I’ll be... fine” He doesn’t even bother to give you a reply. He knows you are in no fit state to go home on your own. Your eyes begin to fog over before everything went dark.

03:58 AM 28th April

You opened your eyes, your head pounded against your skull. Pain coursed through you as you rolled your shoulder forward.

“Ahh, she’s awake.”

“What time is it?”

“I think 4 A.M, you haven’t been down long. What do you remember?”

“ I rememeber getting out from work, getting jumped by some assholes and then...” You buried your face into your palms, trying to hide from Dabi’s gaze.

“Then what?”

“You killed them...”

“Ahh that’s good. Here, why don’t we try again and see if you can put even more disgust in your voice!” His voice spared you no sympathy.

“What do you expect, Dabi. You didn’t just killed them. I heard their screams as you burnt them to death!” you screamed back, your arms flaied in the air.

“Well things never go acording to plan, huh?”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“What ever you make of it, princess”

“No. I want you to explain!” You demanded.

“You were supposed to meet me after work, Y/N. If you had just waited this would of never of happened!”

“Oh, so I’m to blame for this? Wow, way to make me feel even shitter tonight, Dabi!” Your eyes narrowed.

“You’re such an ungrateful bitch! I put my neck out to save you tonight! I should of just carried on walking!”

You wished in that moment you could just switch off your emotions. His body became distorted as your vision was being consumed by tears. No. You refused to let him get to you like this. You sat up from the sofa, your tone cold.

“Maybe you should of.” Even through your attempts of concealment, you both could tell that it sounded more pained than anything.

He paused before he chose to speak. A sigh breaking his lips. “I shouldn’t of said that. Look, I put a shirt on the bed for you in my room. You’ve got blood all over, why don’t you go get a shower and we can talk about this after?”

You removed your clothes before setting them on the radiator. The bathroom wasn’t very big. As you moved from the door, the toilet was on your right, a white sink and basen opposite. A cabinet was above the sink, mirrors attatched to the doors. The aroma of burnt wood combined with a fruity smell of body wash accosted your senses. As you climbed into the shower, your body immediatly felt soothed, your muscles reducing their need to spasm. You could already feel the tension lifting slightly as you closed your eyes, the water running over you. Tears rolled down your cheek, the water from the shower masking them as you rest your head on the wall next to you. The warmth carressed your skin as you felt safe enough to let your emotions escape. You huddled your knees to your chest as you momentarily flashed back to being in the cold, dark alley. You scrubbed your body as you rememeber where the man had touched you, you almost caused your skin to bleed as you tried to wash away the disgust you felt. Small experations of pain escaped your lips as you tried to supress them, but once you started you began to release an unbroken stream of tears.

A small knock, hit the door.

“Y/N, are you ok?”

“I’ll be out in a minute!” You tried to keep the acid from your tone, but you weren’t sure you were able to censor yourself anymore that night.

You opened the doorway to the main room, Dabi couldn’t help but stare. The way that his shirt fell over your curves, he loved it. His eyes trailed over your breasts, not long falling to your slender waist. He had noticed the way you damp skin glistened under the his apartment lights.

‘I’ve never seen that shirt look so good before. URG! Wait can you hear me? Blink 5 times if you can. Wait, why would you let me know you’re in my head. Shit. Erm, think of something funny..... DAMN! Where is Twice when you need him?’

“Hey, Y/N, you want to watch a movie? I made you a hot chocolate as well.”

“Is that an apology?”

“Don’t push it.”

You enjoy his discomfort as he shifted his weight between his feet. You had almost forgot that Dabi had a soft side. Not many people were shown it, and you felt blessed to be one of them. Underneath, he really did have a nice personality, sometimes it borderlined charming. You took the mug from his hand, your fingers brushed over one anothers during the exchange. Dabi felt his pupils dilate as a grin soon spread across his face.

“Shotgun!”

“What are we? Five?” Your thighs burnt as you charged to the sofa, claiming the middle seat as your own.

You and Dabi were sat on his sofa, the space between you basically non-existant. You were trying your best to maintain your composure, but you kept shaking, it was part of the reason you actually hated visiting Dabi’s apartment. It was as though he had never heard of the word heating before, which is kind of ironic. Out of the corner of his eye, he could see you curled into a ball, your body twitching every so often.

“You cold? Or in pain?” He glanced over to you and then the blanket over in the corner.

“A little of both...” You replied sheepishly. You breathed a sigh of relief as Dabi got up and placed the blanket over you, his body closer now. You found yourself snuggled into his chest as his arm rested on your shoulder, pulling you into him. You suddenly couldn’t concentrate on anything but the sound of your heart jumping out of your chest, you were tempted to use your quirk, to see what he was thinking but you didn’t want to invade his privacy. You hadn’t noticed before but the way the TV light illuminated his face, he looked quite beautiful, his expression somber. It was quite different from how you saw him most days, even though you didn’t agree with what happened tonight, you started to feel guilty for the way you spoke to him earlier, however, before you realised that you were staring, Dabi’s eyes burned into yours, your eyes widening with embarrassment.

“What?”

“Huh?”

“Why are you staring?”

“I wasn’t!”

“I literally just caught you, Y/N. Don’t try and bull shit me!” Your bodies moved slightly apart, you now faced one another.

“Sorry, I...erm. I just wanted to apologise for what I said earlier. You were just trying to help and I acted like a bitch. What I should have said was ‘Thank you’.” After your apology, you both sat there, both averting eye contact. You couldn’t help but cringe at your own words, you can’t believed you just admitted you were wrong to Dabi - of all people.

“Took you long enough!” Dabi doesn’t miss a second before he replied. Your fist collided with his shoulder, pain reminded you off what you had experience earlier that morning.

“Ow. Shit. God, you’re such an ass. I can’t believe I just apologised to you! I take it back.”

“Oh no, you can’t you’ve said it now. You can’t take it back. Tough luck, princess.” he taunted as he closed to small gap between you. His breath hit your face, as you glanced at his lips. You pulled him by the top of his shirt as he leant into you, your mouths begged to be with one another. The kiss was soft in the beggining, it quickly being changed to a deep one. Your moved your hands from his shirt to his neck, forcing him towards you. Dabi obliged, as his body pinned you against his sofa. Your hands crept along his waist as you pulled him onto you, your legs wrapping around him. You winced in pain as his arm brushed over your ribs. He pulled back from you, his hand removed from under your top.

“Are you ok? Do you want to stop?”

Your cheeks glowed red as you slowly pushed yourself out from underneath him, your arms clicked under the pressure.

“I think that’s probably best...” Although he said nothing, you could tell he was disappointed. You were so embarrassed.

“I think I should get going anyway. I’ll just go get my things.” Your voice chocked you in your throat, you felt like such an idiot.

“Don’t be awkward, Y/N. I’ll sleep on the couch. You can have my room. I’m not going to make you walk to your apartment after what happened tonight.”

“Are you sure? I don’t mind, honestly.”

“No, it’s fine. I’ve slept in worse places, trust me.”

You both sat there, the silence killing you both. You decided to drop it and chose to accept his offer, not wanting to get into another disagreement. You were certainly more of a hot head and after tonight your fuse was even shorter. “Ok, well I should get some rest.”

“I’ll see you in the morning.”

You took a deep breath and smiled to his reply. You made your way into his room before you sinked into his sheets, tiredness taking over.

03:15 PM 28th April

Dabi woke up, the afternoon light filling his apartment. He groaned as he rolled off the sofa, cracking his back from his uncomfortable night sleep. Dabi entered his kitchen, and thought after the night you had he would at least try and make today go a little smoother for you. The door to his bedroom creaked open as he walked in with a plate full of pancakes, a few peices of bacon on the side. Not long after he entered, he slammed the plate on bedside counter. His bed looked almost untouched, hadn’t it been for the screwed up blanket thrown over the top, he wasn’t even sure you had stayed. The room felt uncomfortable all of a sudden, he had never noticed how empty it had felt until that moment, but he wasn’t sure why he felt this way. It’s not like he was used to you being there. He returned to the sofa, scanning every inch until he found his phone, your contact hovered under his thumb. He called you, it immediatly going to voicemail, his voice wavered as he left a message.

“Hey, Y/N. Look, I’m sorry about what happened last night. I didn’t mean to make it awkward between us. If you can just give me a call back, when you can.”

As he remained in his apartment close to his phone, he waited for your reply, only to find it never came.

Part 2

#dabi smut #dabi x y/n #dabi x you #bnha x reader #reader x dabi #dom dabi #mha x reader #mha angst #mha x y/n #mha smut #bnha smut #bnha fanfiction #dabi fanfic #soft dabi #dabi #bhna dabi

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mallowstep · 2 years

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Fellow swiftie here and I just wanted to ask what your favorite songs/lyrics are or if you had any songs that resonated with specific characters

hhhng yeah okay! i'm probably not even going to get close to all of my thoughts, but here are some:

stay stay stay is a song that i think is cute but also...like. it gives exactly a specific energy.

HOLY GROUND MY ADORED. fuck. "right there where we stood was holy ground" i just --- i should use that for a tigerdove piece god

all too well. we all know all too well. there's --- okay. it's a good. god. i just. yeah.

fearless! this album was my childhood! so i don't really have. okay i don't really have a lot of character associations w taylor bc she's an artist i love deeply and personally so it's hard to form character attachments. but especially for this album.

fifteen is --- fifteen. god. i have personal emotions.

breathe makes me cry sometimes.

THE WAY I LOVED YOU is just. screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain / it's 2 am and i'm cursing your name / you're so in love that you act insane / and that's the way i loved you

n.b. if i mess up lyrics i'm doing this from memory so just shhh it's fine. i've got her albums open, but i'm just rambling.

change i used to love and now i don't. very. i think it's because i've grown up? like? i am no longer a nine year old? if i want that energy i listen to jackboot jump now. more people should listen to jackboot jump.

i'm i love ALL of fearless but most of it is pretty personal. some of it is personal won't share and some of it is if i talk about my personal connections to these songs it'll take me a year xd.

evermore and folklore got me through a break up.

champagne problems is just. fuuuuuuck.

gold rush: "eyes like sinking ships on water" is the title of my goldenflower character study i swear i'll write some day.

tolerate it is. uh. it's a lot. "i sit at the door like i'm just a kid / save my best colours for your portrait." fuck. "i know my love should be celebrated" is my homescreen.

happiness. yeah.

ivy is used for stolag, so we know THOSE thoughts.

closure. fuuck. just. "i'm fine with my spite and my beer and my candles." i.

the last great american dynasty is just a fun song to listen to lmao, same w mad woman. i actually don't ADORE folklore, overall the album's a bit slow for me, but it's still good.

betty. yeah.

peace. "will it be enough if i can never give you peace." total dovewing thoughts.

and hoax! ultimate squirrelbramble song. "your faithless love's the only hoax i believe in." i think about jessie and squirrel and how desperate it all is, how unfair it all is, and i just.

lover! lover and reputation are underrated.

miss americana and the heartbreak prince is so much fun

paper rings is just. "i like shiny things but i'd marry you with paper rings." and like the whole song. it makes me smile.

death by a thousand cuts is so hard but it. i feel it deep.

soon you'll get better is. oof. it's a lot. uh. personal stuff i don't want to talk about for this one but. what's the line. "holy orange bottles i pray to you" or something. i uh. yeah.

false god is FUCK. first of all the song order is just it hits you.

don't blame me we all know i'm obsessed w this one. don't blame me, my love made me crazy, if it doesn't you ain't doing it right. lord save me, my drug is my baby, i'll be using for the rest of my life.

i'm actually ik i've used don't blame me for something...JUST GONNA CALL YOU MINE! yeah. the whole song is very misty/night for me.

dancing with our hands tied is so. ohw.

new year's day. i just. i want your midnights. i'll be picking up bottles with you on new year's day. and the. "please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh i could recognize anywhere." still makes me cry. hard.

1989: i mean i'm just not into the super poppy sound of this one.

welcome to new york...is it a good song? i don't know. but it still hits.

there's plenty of good songs here i'm just not attatched to them. like. "this love is a worthwhile fight," yeah, sure, but it feels very generic. it's not the sort of --- her other albums get so mundane and personal i feel the love. it's like.

okay i was complaining about romance in warriors and that's how i feel about this album. there's no i threw my phone at your head, there's no my name is whatever you decide, there's no coming undone.

speak now i'm meh on overall, but i like it.

back to december is pretty good.

dear john. oh. now. dear john. i can't. fuuuuuuuck dear john. "don't you think i was a little too young to be messed with?" i have. fuck. if i had to pin this one to a canon thing, it'd be mosspelt, but i have other associations with this song.

mean! mean. mean is. okay this is a little personal but if you're still reading you've earned this little anecdote: i used to walk outside listening to mean on my ipod and pretend it was about my dad. "someday i'll be living in a big ole city and all you're ever gonna be is mean." wish i could tell you, kiddo, you're gonna get it.

never grow up makes me think of my brother.

ours! good song. "this love is ours." i know i just criticized 1989 for being generic...but. "people throw rocks at things that shine" OH I HAVE TO ADD THIS TO A PLAYLIST HOLD ON. uh. for the future and for the friends, adding this to the playlist for "no one held me to the flame." i'm. i'm assuming i've actually told my friends that's the title lmao. but yes this is i was missing this will be good.

and taylor swift. shhhn. yes.

i don't have a lot of thoughts on this one. the only thing i'll say is...

i should've broken up with him when he said he didn't like "our song"

#ask #anon #mine

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duckytobeswrites · 2 years

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Welcome to my unorganized hell hole!

Literally this account isn’t set up yet, and I may disappear for long amounts of time, but sometimes I just wanna fuckin’ write!

I will have rules for this account and I will add more as time goes on. Here are the rules so far:

- I have the right to deny a request no matter what. - If you request something that’s fuckin horrible (r@pe, inc3$t, etc..) it WILL be an instant block. - I will not write female readers/Yn as it makes me uncomfortable. This is only because I’m FTM and it triggers my dysphoria. - I am not required to censor the name of a fandom just because you want me to. (I’ve somehow had problems with this in the past???) - P3doph1ll1@, z00ph1ll1@, and anything where consent cannot be given by both parties is absolutely not allowed. The next rule is for my own comfort and safety! It’s very important and even if you try to say this, I’ve got an extension that will change it.

Absolutely no characters with the name J-s-n (missing letters are A and O) will be written for or accepted.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Those were basically mostly some rules for requests, but it’s 5 am and DAMN am I only surviving on diet pepsi Anyways here’s some things that I will write for! Note that I will take off and add on what I want! And that I’m also fuckin’ horrible at doing some characters so if anything is OOC please don’t complain. Deltarune/Undertale Five nights at Freddy’s: Security Breach Creepypasta (Note that Jeff the Killer IS NOT 13, that’s the age of the fanmade story and not the canon one.) Encanto (just situation headcanons) Haikyuu (I won’t do many matchups of this, so please be aware) Yeah, the list is small but my little pea brain can only list so much Ok also there are some characters that I won’t write for! Not as in “Oh these characters make me uncomfortable” but as in “Oh I’m incredibly attatched to this character and I have psychotic symptoms!” It’s a mess, I have no idea why I’m like this but please don’t be upset by this! The characters are: Jevil (Deltarune) and Ushijima Wakatoshi (Haikyuu)! ~~~~~~~~~

Now for things I will write!! As in headcanons, matchups, and all that

Matchups

Please give me your: pronouns sexuality (or just what gender identity you prefer) A good description of your personality (unless you’re like me and have a hard time with that, just do the best you can!! I believe in you!!) A small description of your looks or things that stand out about you Hobbies And things you’re ok with or not ok with! (For exmaple: PDA!) Please do not put: Your name (I feel like it’s too personal for a one time interaction if you’re only here for a matchup) Anything nsfw Things like MBTI type and hogwarts house, I only find these confusing and not useful Multiple fandoms, as that will stress me out a bit (unless you’re givin’ me two options to choose from!)

Headcanons

So here are kinds of headcanons I am willing to write for! - Hurt/comfort - Only comfort (feel free to private message me for a special request if you’re going through a hard time! I’ll do my best!) - Romantic relationships w/ reader - Ftm Y/N (Also MTF and enby Y/N, though I may get some things wrong so please inform me if I do!) - Male Y/N!! - Friendship only relationship w/ reader - Fluff!! I absolutely love writing fluff!! - I might write things for Y/N with a mental illness (Depression, autism, ADHD, etc...) though with certain ones I will put my own experience into it, so I’m sorry if you can’t relate to some!! - Chubby/Skinny y/n!! We love all body types here!! - Y/N with a specific trait (Example: Acne) Things I will NOT write, some of these are also in the main rules!! - R-pe, in--st, p-d-philia, z--philia, Ab-se, stuff like that. If you support ANY of that stuff then please get the fuck away from my blog. - Illegal things! - Alcoholism, smoking, drug use, etc... It makes me uncomfortable - Nsfw - All the basics, basically!

Matchup trade!

As are many other people, I’m desperate for comfort and some form of attention LMAOIf you ever want a matchup trade, please dm me and we can talk it out! Boundaries are important!!Though be aware, I have NO fuckin’ idea how to properly interact with people so I might be awkward! ~~~~~~~~~~~ANYWAYS UM- I HAVE NO FUCKIN’ IDEA HOW TO BE PROFESSIONAL OR ANYTHING SO YEAH- PLEASE ENJOY??

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mihidecet · 2 years

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Have I just recently started DMing again and am I already TOO attatched to all the characters?

Am I giddy every time my beloved players start enthusiastically roleplaying with eachother and with me?

Am I SO FUCKING EXCITED as every session starts?

Have I been left speechless multiple times?

Am I extremely hyped for everything that is going to happen?

The answer is 100% yes and goddamn I have never been so happy about a campaign

(Kudos to my secret helper and a smooch to my lovely players of course)

#tib stuff #yknow #if you're reading this (you know who you are) no you are not shush

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nlsetsumuri · 4 years

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BNHA QUIRKS!!!

I'm organizing my notes for a character-insert story I'm writing and I felt like sharing them here!!! I think people would be interested in what I came up with.

FEEL FREE TO USE ANY OF THESE FOR YOUR OWN CHARACTERS!!

No credit needed. I made Flourish specifically with Shigaraki in mind because I know a lot of people would like to have a quirk complimentary to Decay so that Tomura can touch them safely.

and hey, self-shippers? I love you so much!! you're so awesome, pls send me some self-indulgent stuff sometime soon!!

also! Quirks that are present in my stories will be marked as IN-USE. this just means that what the quirk entails might change in the future.

FLOURISH - EMITTER (IN-USE)

touch-based quirk. complimentary to decay, rendering the user immune to decay. decay users are unaffected by flourish (cannot be healed). touching something with all five fingers heals/reverses any damage

i like the idea of decay and flourish canceling eachother out because they're complimentary quirks. shigaraki can touch you and??? you don't die?? and???? you touched shigaraki but he's not healing????? fun times

BOND - EMITTER(?) (IN-USE)

user has the ability to use a diminished version of someone's quirk if they share a strong bond with said person. Most commonly found in mutated individuals with animalistic features.

This isn't really a stand-alone quirk but more of an ability, but I still decided to include it because it has really specific requirements.

JACK OF ALL TRADES - EMITTER(?)

user can give themselves ANY quirk they desire (meaning that they can copy someone else's quirk, or create a new one entirely) this ability requires a lot of energy and while in-use, will tire the user out until the stop using the quirk or pass out. (think of it like charging your phone. eventually, the battery power will lower and you'll have to plug it in. Or you're one of those people who doesn't plug it in until it dies.) The more powerful the chosen quirk is, the longer the user will be out for. "OP" quirks like take more energy to replicate/use, and consequentially, will require a longer recovery period. Quirks like Overhaul or Decay will put the user into a comatose state. This quirk is literally just All For One Juniour Edition.

so basically like? all for one but fair. also the quirks aren't "saved" or anything, so if u want to use bakugou's explosion quirk, but ur already using tsuyu's froggy quirk to restrain something with your tongue, you'd have to stop using it and let go so you can use explosion instead.

NULLIFY - EMITTER

Touch-Based quirk. Touching someone with all five fingers will render them quirkless for 24 hours. Only works on one person at a time, and cannot be used on the same person twice in a row. Made with Shigaraki in mind.

i made this purely because i want to hold shigaraki's hand without turning into dust. also... imagine having to constantly remind yourself to keep ur pinky/middle finger off of whatever you touch. idk about you, but that's too much work for me. I'd rather just wear those gloves made for drawing tablets.

GRIM REAPER - EMITTER (IN-USE)

Touch-Based quirk. touching someone with all five fingers immediately kills them, allowing the user to harvest their soul (souls manifest as little cheeseball sized lights. they're all different colors, depending on who's soul it was.) souls can be eaten (they taste like gummi bears) whoever eats it has their body revitalized instantaneously, each and every individual cell replaced by a new and perfect copy. souls can only be captured in jars. they act like fireflies.

firefly rave... also this is literally decay but it only works on living things and also u get a snack. and a corpse. although idk i guess a corpse would count as a snack to someone. also if someone doesn't have a soul, they just die. lol

VAMPIRE - MUTANT TYPE

user is easily sunburnt, does not have a reflection, allergic to garlic (regardless of genetics) and cannot be killed unless the heart is damaged. User must drink a certain amount of blood regularly to avoid loss of inhibition (will attack nearest person to feed) and severe malnutrition, known as "bloodthirst."

honestly? this isn't really that beneficial... sunburns, no garlic bread, if you cant get enough blood you suffer and go apeshit... but I mean at least you've got circumstantial immortality.

HIGH ELF - MUTANT TYPE

user has pointed ears and is considerably taller than regular humans. naturally skilled archers, and have a strong connection to nature.

i couldn't help myself, i love DnD.

BETTA - MUTANT

fish subtype. user has fully-functional gills. The user's hair reflects the different kinds of tail types (plakat = short hair, crown tail = dreadlocs/separated strands, rose tail = long and flowy) and are naturally bright colors like red or blue. lethal close-combat skills and impressive speed. natural beauty is also a bonus

im surprised i'm not including this in my character insert story. it's my personal favorite so far. fishy!!!

WEREWOLF - TRANSFORMATION

exactly what it sounds like. full moons trigger the shift. user cannot control the shift. it's basically like periods except instead of bleeding out of your uterus, you turn into a wolf.

... yeah, i don't know what influenced this the most. the fact that i made vampires and felt obligated to also include werewolves, that i'm a furry, or that this gives me an excuse to push alpha beta omega dynamics onto bnha

GHOST RIDER - TRANSFORMATION

based on that one marvel comic series. when transformed, the user takes on the appearence of their skeletal structure engulfed in flames. the user is able to control flames and a vehicle/form of transport of their prefrence. when user establishes eye contact, the opponent will suffer the pain they have caused for others (if any.) cannot transform in direct sunlight.

i am incredibly ashamed to admit that it was only yesterday that i saw the 2007 ghost rider movie for the first time in my life. i fucking loved it. it was funny, freaky as hell, and so fucking awesome. i love ghost rider, i mean, cmon, like? that's literally what being a punk is about in a nutshell. skeletons. fire. leather jackets. metal spikes. chains. motorbikes. anti-heroes. also i really enjoyed the addition of genuine demon names. i got so excited when i recognized the name mephisopholes. the movie also gave me ACAB vibes so bonus points for that. and the little details like how johnny's fire turned blue whenever he focused on roxanne. god fuck it was a great movie i will be thinking about it for the next week or so. TL;DR THE 2007 GHOST RIDER MOVIE IS AWESOME I CANT BELIEVE I NEVER WATCHED IT. i always end up getting more attatched to the manga instead of the anime and this was no different.

P.S. lmk if you wanna know more about my character insert! i post a lot about him on my twitter account and i'm generally more active there anyways!!

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