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romancefranaticstay · 2 months

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This is comedy, drama, romantic serie

All members are included but its technically...

Hyunjin x reader

A new day, at a new school... In Korea. At the moment your life was upside down after the sudden decisions your parents made.

Your parents wanted to move to Korea, because it is a safe country, but they never thought about you. You knew how to speak the Korean language, okay, you know how to write it... but you had to leave everything you loved behind.

Your friends, your childhood...

It wasn't very easy to step in that airplane, it really wasn't. Your parents had to force you to go in that plane.

The worst thing first, you heard the Korean school system was pretty strict and there was a high percentage for bullying at those schools. You tried to mentally prepare yourself during the summer vacation, but there was only a week left.

Your uniform was at least decent....

To be honest, the schooluniform was pretty awesome. Because your old uniform was pretty... how an you say it... horrible... a crime towards fashion you might say.

You were actually the most scared of the students, because you were scared what they would think about you.. would they judge you because you weren't actually born in Korea? Would they judge you because you have (choose a country) roots?

Maybe they would be fascinated... yeah lets hope for the best you know!

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During the last week you tried to change yourself up a bit. And you also tried to think about other stuff in the mean time. It didn't really help the stress, but you could atleast try...

You had a lot of fun actually decorating your room. It was very cozy actually your new room, and you actually hope to get your 'k-drama' school life...(ofcourse that isn't going to happen... really not).

The last two days were actually pretty calm, your moods changed from time to time and you weren't really focusing on it. You were missing your friends back home, ofcourse you always could call them or chat with them, but its never going to be the same...

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You were laying in bed, staring towards your ceiling, and you were stressed out. Today was official your last day and tommorow was your first day. Actually you were stressed but also kind of exciting. A new school is always a bit exciting.

You went early to bed, you alreaddy packed your school supplies, you went to the hairsalon alreaddy, you did set a alarm for tommorow at 6 a.m. just to be sure,... you have done everything to be prepared for your big day...

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*beep beep beep beep*

'Dammit.' you gasped, reaching out for your heart. You slammed on your clock to put it off. Ofcourse not slamming to hard, so it wouldn't break.

You weakly stood up and went towards the bathroom.

'I am a fricking mess.' you thought by yourself. You started to brush you teeth, to style your hair, to put some 'natural-girl' make-up on and ofcourse some earrings.

You went downstairs, greeting your parents and getting your lunchbox.

'I am going to head out.' you waved. 'Bye bye.'

You took your bike and started to drive off. Looking around, just fascinated about the surroundings. It felt off, to be here. You saw some other students on your way to your school. You also saw someone who immediatly caught your eye while passing by.

A boy with big plump lips, dark eyes, and black hair. His face was just, how could you describe it, lets just call it 'chefs-kiss'. His uniform was the same as yours. So that meant you went both to the same school. You hoped that you will see him at school frequently.

You walked inside and everyone stared at you. Nobody ever saw you at this school so it was pretty normal. You also weren't from Korea, maybe thats why.

You explored the school a bit, looking around, wandering behind people. There was a big library at the school, it was well organized and actually very quiet. I know you might say: your supossed to be silent in a library, but still. Not even a single word. You couldn't hear any whispers. It was a bit weird you thought.

The bell ringed and you first went to a secretary. Because how was you supossed to know were to go?

'Goodmorning miss, mine name is I/N Y/N. I am new at this school and i never got the information where classes are or where to go.'

'Oh sweetty, i will get you all the papers and someone to show you around. No worry's!'

'Thank you.' it was a very nice old lady behind the desk. She didn't seem very old but still.

You waited for maybe 2/3 minutes when she arrived with some papers.

'Here are your classes, the number of the classroom you can find next to your lectures. I will lead you towards your classroom, okay darling?'

you nodded. You followed her into a big hallway, with everywhere classes with learning students. They were very focused. You two walked a bit further until she stopped infront of a classroom. Classroom number 705.

She knocked two time's.

'Goodmorning, i've got a new student for you.'

'Ahh, welcome miss..' he looked towards a piece of paper 'I/N Y/N.'

'I will take care of her further.' the man said to the old lady.

'Could you introduce yourself to the classroom?'

'Mine name is I/N Y/N, like you all heard. I am sixteen, i just moved to Korea maybe two months ago.'

'You can take a seat at the back next to... Han Jisung.' he pointed towards a young student.

You seated yourself next to him. He was quite silent, even tho his face shined some kind of cozy, warm type of feeling out. He wasn't very talkactive at first, but when the teacher assigned you both to do some groupwork it was laughing, pointing and angry teacher.

It all started like this...

'Hey, mine name is Y/N, by the way.'

'Nice to meet you, mine name is Han.'

'Okay lets start with it! So what do we have to do?'

'Why are you looking at me? How am i supossed to know?'

'Look i am the new student here, i shouldn't be alreaddy in the end-zone.'

'I shouldn't either.'

'Lets just look what the others are doing will you?'

'Why are they mixing something together.'

'Because maybe this is science?'

'Oh yeah, thats right. How hard can it be?'

'Yeah actually, its just mixing some stuff together.'

'Okay lets just take this.' he had a cup of purple stuff in his hand.

'Why that?'

'Because the colors of the rest are like magnenta kind of color, so we will just mix purple and blue together.'

'Thats actually smart.'

(by the way, it wasn't right.)

'Okay so... uhmmm why is it boiling?' you asked.

'Uhmmm, this wasn't supossed to happen actually...'

'O my god, its rising.'

'Oh no no no no.'

'Lucky that we are in the back of the class.'

'O no noo noo, it doesn't stop rising.'

'Oh no no no no, what are we going to do?'

'I don't know, how am i supossed to know?!'

'Why don't you know anything?'

'Wait i have a idea, just pour it out in the sink next to use.'

'You sure?'

'Yeah, yeah just do it.'

you poured it out in the sink and... nothing happend. Strange...

'You smart-pants, nothing happend.'

'See, mister smart to your service.'

you both laughed.

'You know, because you are new, we are officially now friends.'

'Thats cool.'

'So i will introduce you to mine friendgroup if you don't might.'

'Why would i?'

'They are kinda hyper-active, you know?'

'Thats okay.'

'You sure?'

'Yeah yeah.'

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You both were walking out of the class, talking and gossiping about your class-students. You two really had a connection. You both also were very loud so those students alreaddy knew you talked about them.

You saw a bench full of boys. They alreaddy turned their heads when they heard you both laughing and shouting loud. Han waved towards them from a distance. You saw a familiar face...

'Hey whatsupp guys, this is Y/N.'

'Hey.'

'Whatsupp.'

'Hello.'

'Hi-i.'

'Hey Y/N.'

'Hi.'

'Mhm.'

You felt someone staring at your body. Suddenly you locked eyes with that boy, that boy you saw on your bike.

'This are Seugmin, Bangchan, Changbin, Lee Know, Felix, Jeongin and Hyunjin.'

... His name was Hyunjin.

'Nice to meet you all.'

'So you are the new student?' Changbin asked.

'Yeah, i am.'

'So are you single?'

'I am a single pringle, indeed.'

'Your funny.' Felix smirked.

'I know.'

'Aahaaa, i know, you know, Lee Know!' Han shouted.

They all laughed but suddenly Lee Know stood up and he ran after Han.

'Oh no, here we go again.'

'What are they doing?'

'Yeah something with tissue's.'

You saw Han running away from Lee Know but Han tripped and fall into the grass. He pinned him down into the grass and putted tissue's in his mouth.

'Very interesting.'

'Its his habit.' Hyunjin said to you.

'Are they a couple?' you whispered towards him.

'They never admit it, but i think they are.'

you both giggled.

Lee Know helped Han to get up from the grass. Their hands interwining with eachother. They are very suspicious to be honest.

'Sorry for that.' Han came running towards you.

'It was funny.'

'Finally someone who finds it funny.' Lee Know commented.

Everyone started to talk about different thema's. Some were talking about their teachers and some about random stuff they saw online. You were just sitting there, next to Hyunjin. The bench was very comfortable. And the sky looked very bright today. You were observing other students when Hyunjin tapped on your shoulder.

'I forgot to ask, could i show you around maybe?'

'Oww, yeah sure, why not.' you smiled.

You both got up and started to walk around, you two, alone, without the others...

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'These are the girlsbathroom they are very neat. Don't try to hide in here when you try to skip class. They get checked frequently.'

'Good to know.'

you two walked further.

'And here is a 'secret' room.'

'If its that secret, how come you know it?'

'All the students know about this room.'

'Really how come?'

Hyunjin cheeks turned bright red.

'Its... its just a place were.' he went silent 'were, couples like... you know.'

'No i don't know.' you smirked.

'Were couples can be alone.'

'Never heard of such place's in schools.'

'Really?'

'Yeah in mine school, you just had the bathrooms.'

'The bathrooms?! Ewww.'

'I know, its disgusting.'

'Are you familliar with that concept?'

'You mean.... umm even tho its normal for teenagers... i never really had interest in that stuff... you know?'

'Yeah yeah, i understand, but why?'

'I just want to save myself for that one person.'

'I understand, you have an idea who that one person might be?'

'I don't know, but i don't want to waste myself before i met him or maybe her, you never know.'

'Yeah, you never know.'

You both smiled weakly at eachother.

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HIS POV

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I totally embarassed myself, why dammit why would i start a conversation about that kind of concept? What is wrong with me? You know just be calm, be calm, okay its just a girl.

Just a girl...

'So you like the school alreaddy?'

'Yeah its cool.'

'Cool.'

Do not ask it Hyunjin, don't you dare... don't do it, don't do it.

'So are you single?'

Dammit dammit dammit.

'What?'

'I mean, you like jingle? Like christmas jingle?'

Smooth dumbass.

'Yeah, i love christmas.'

'Me to! I love the winter.'

'Me to! Wow, you know what i love the most about Christmas?'

'What?'

'The decoration, its just so warm and cozy. Just make's me feel warm.'

'The films are also great don't you think?'

'Yeah ofcourse also the films and also the food.'

'You can't forget about the food, can't you.'

'Everything about Christmas is beautifull you know?'

'What is that noise?' she asked.

O dammit, i swear if Changbin followed use...

'I really don't know.'

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YOUR POV AGAIN

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You saw the boy named Changbin running towards you both.

'What are you two up to?'

'We litterly saw you 5 minutes ago.' Hyunjin said.

His arms were around yours and his shoulders. Hyunjin gave him a side-eye.

'Stop leaning on me-eeee.'

'StOp LeAnInG oN mE-eEeEe.'

'I don't find it funny.'

'You never searched for it.'

'Clever.'

'As always.'

The bell finally ringed. The bell almost gave you a heartattack but it was worth it.

'Yeah, i am going to mine class. Bye!'

'Do i need to bring you there?' Hyunjin asked.

'No worry's, i will find mine way.'

'Oh okay.'

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HIS POV

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Yeah i messed up. I am not sure, but problably. She thinks i am weird, i feel it. I feel the spirit.

'So you like her don't you?'

'What?'

'I see the way you looking at her.'

'Is that all your basing on?'

'Thats all i need to base on.'

'Okay small-bean.'

'STOPPPP calling me short.'

'Awww, StOpPpp cAlLiNg mE sHoRt.'

i started to pinch him.

'Awaaaa, stop pinching me.'

'AwAaAa sToP PiNcHiNg mE.'

'Not funny.'

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I cannot stop thinking about her. Girls around me try to get mine attention by asking for stuff. Asking for help during art class. Trying to play with mine hair.

I don't understand, why i cannot get her out of mine head. I just met her. Her face is adorable and her little hands compared to mine. I want to hold them forever. I want to hold her face between mine thumbs. I want to feel her waist, i want... i want... i want her. With me, here.

'Hyunjinnniee, can you please help me with this painting.'

'You are so tall Hyunjinniee.'

'Please help me.'

It annoys me, i do not want all those girls, i just want her. Here with me. Is that to much to ask?

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Your POV

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'Y/N?'

'Y/N?!'

'Huh what?'

'Whats the answer to question number four?'

'Shouldn't you try it yourself?'

'I tried like 20 times, but math just isn't mathing.'

'I came out 20.34'

'How did you- how?! I came out 18839.93.'

'How is that even possible?!'

'I don't know ask mine calculator?!'

'Just write off mine paper, here.'

You gave him your paper with all the answers alreaddy.

'Thank youuuuu.'

'Your welcomeeee.'

You couldn't stop thinking about Hyunjin, it was very strange. You just cannot imagine a life without him right now. Maybe thats a bit over dramatic. You only knew him shortly, so how is that even possible.

'Psst.'

You turned around and came eye to eye, to a very cute boy.

'Yes?'

'Could i borrow a pencil?'

'Sure, here.'

you gave him a pencil from your pencilcase.

'What is your name by the way.' you asked.

'Mine name is Min Yoongi and yours is...'

'Y/N, Y/N I/N.'

'Cool name.'

'Thanks, mine parents picked it for me.'

you both laughed.

You two started to have a deep conversation, about all sorts of things. He was very interesting. He never seem to be understood by the students around the campus. His story's made your heart sink and fall over again. He told about his passion about writing music, also about his friends, and funny enough, he could passiontly talk about sleeping.

After hours of talking you could tell he really liked sleeping. He liked sleeping so much, he could just stay in bed for hours. Even tho it isn't that healthy.

'You are a very interesting person Yoongi.'

'Thank you.' he blushed.

'We really should hang-out sometime's.' he proposed.

'That sounds wonderfull.'

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AUTHORS POV

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Hyunjin saw both of you smiling and talking together. His heart sank towards the ground. He never felt such a pain which wasn't physically. It was another sort of pain.

He went home with a broken-heart, even tho he didn't know you felt the same for him.

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Part 2 coming soon

xoxo

Rachel

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lizthewriter · 4 months

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making me want you / ted logan

PAIRING ted logan x shy!nervous!reader

SUMMARY ted logan asked you out on a date and you both proceed to freak out. (fluffy blurb).

TAGS ted logan x shy!nervous!reader, fluff, blurb, cute, first date, this is so cute 😭😭😭, anon i hope you like this i tried my best, i procrastinated my stats homework for this

QUOTE "you take my hand and drag me head first, fearless, / and i don't know why but with you, i'd dance, / in a storm in my best dress, fearless," - fearless by taylor swift

WRITTEN 1.14.2024

WORD COUNT 900

"she's going to think i'm totally weird, dude! why did i think i could do this? why did she even agree to go out with me, man, i'm a nobody! i'm -"

"hey!" bill exclaimed, gripping onto both of ted's shoulders. ted had polished himself up for his first date with you, but his hair was already a bird's nest after anxiously messing with it so much. "dude, your self-esteem is most egregious! you have to believe in yourself. you're my best friend ted! you totally got this!"

"okay," ted responded, nodding rather quickly. "you're totally right. i can do this." he didn't sound so confident in himself.

"just remember what i told you about babes and you'll be fine!" bill exclaimed, patting ted on the back.

"oh god, i'm going to totally blow this date!" you quickly added some last finishing touches to your makeup.

"just don't blow him." you grabbed one of the eyeliner pencils and chucked it at your best friend, who had thought that now was a good time to make a comment like that. "hey, i'm being serious!"

"so am i!" you responded with a pout. "i'm not trying to get in his pants and he's not trying to get in mine!" you sighed as you spun around in the chair that had faced your dresser. your best friend didn't seem too happy at the idea of you going out with ted logan. "he asked me out on a serious date!"

"to the mall?" they asked with an arched brow.

you snatched your bag from your bed and stood up. "please, can you just be supportive, okay? i know you're not his biggest fan of ted but he's a really nice guy, okay?"

your best friend sighed and stood up with crossed arms. "all right. don't be nervous and if you are, don't start rambling on about something because you talk too fast when you get excited and no one can understand you. don't order food that you could accidentally spill or make a mess with, like pasta. most importantly, don't pretend to be who you think ted's dream girl is - be who you are. if he doesn't like that, then he doesn't deserve you. got it?"

you attempted to smile and wrapped your arms around their neck. "thanks. i'll see you tommorow."

you waited patiently in front of the music store at the front of the mall (ted had told you to meet him there in a few minutes). you were so nervous you were scared that your pants were stained with the sweat you had wiped off your hands. this was a nightmare! you were going to totally embarrass yourself in front of him and he'd never want to talk to you again! god, why couldn't you stop sweating?

"babe!"

your head snapped in the direction of his voice and found ted jogging towards you from the parking lot. you felt a little more relaxed now, thoughts of him ghosting you dissipating from your mind. he bore one of his usual sloppy grins and waved at you. as he crossed the street, he narrowly avoiding being hit by a car (tripping over his own feet but inevitably standing straight once more).

"hi," you said with a breathy laugh, anxiously shifting your weight between your two feet.

"wow!" he exclaimed loudly, looking you up and down. "you're totally pretty!"

you blushed furiously and stared at the ground. "thanks, you look pretty too. or handsome! if you prefer that. since some guys . . . not to say you're not pretty - if you don't mind me saying that, i mean." you internally cringed at yourself. you just needed to shut up and get on with it!

"oh, thanks," ted responded in a small voice, suddenly feeling shy. it was awkward now, the two of you just standing there in silence, rocking back and forth on your feet. you felt incredibly stupid, not knowing what to say. how were you supposed to behave on a first date anyways? should you take the lead? you didn't want to order him around or anything.

"so, should we, uh . . . " ted furrowed his brows in concentration and stared up at the ceiling. he didn't seem to know what to do either. "uh . . . " he started to become more jittery, his mind drawing at a blank. his shoulders slumped and he looked back at you. "i'm sorry, babe, i swear i had a whole plan and everything but . . . uh, well, you see . . . i've never taken out a babe before. so i'm totally drawing a blank dude! dudette? . . . babe. babe?"

"well, i've never been taken out by a guy before, so . . . you're not the only one," you responded with a nervous chuckle.

"no way!" he exclaimed in blatant disbelief. "but, you - you're fantastic!"

you stared at him with wide eyes. "you really think so?"

"of course! you're really pretty and smart and funny! just ask bill, i talk to you about him all the time!" he then seemed to realize that perhaps he shouldn't have said that. "wait, i'm not supposed to say that. one sec . . ." he pulled a crumpled piece of paper from his pocket filled with notes about how to behave on a first date that bill had copied for him from one of missy's magazines. "uh . . . okay, uh-huh . . . right!" he crumpled up the paper and pocketed it again. "confidence! babe, would you like to go eat in the food court?"

you stared at the hand he held out to you and suddenly, you didn't feel as nervous anymore, knowing what you did now. "yeah, let's go!"

#— [ glizzy posts ☆ ]#ted logan x reader #ted logan x you #my writing #fanfiction #my fanfiction #my fic #writing #fanfic

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hypnoneghoul · 9 months

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Hi, same anon from a few weeks ago that was asking if you could write some little sick Phantom.

I was supposed to go to the concert last night that got rescheduled, luckily I still get to go but I've been crying all morning and now am at work trying not to cry more even though it's kinda dumb because I get to go tomorrow.

Do you think I can get some more little Phantom comfort?

Thank you in advance if you do ❤️

I'm so sorry this happened darling :( and feeling like this it's not dumb at all, it's completely valid! I hope you're better now <3

this is short and rushed because I just got off work but wanted to deliver this asap, I hope it's decent

sorry for the asks that had been waiting, I'll take care of everything tommorow because today was my last day at work

First time it happened he was so scared.

He didn't know what was going on, the only thought in his fuzzy brain being "wrong". It never happened before and he was scared and didn't know what to do, where to go.

Something in his mind started to slip after his panic when he messed up again, another song. He knew it was normal, each and every one of them messed up and he never ate himself up for doing so.

But that day... he was tired. Another show in a row, not being able to get enough rest on the loud and jumping bus in between them, Phantom was exhausted. He grew to love touring, playing, but it was tiring. And he was on the verge.

Everyone was getting snappy and he was sure someone was close to actually smacking him over the head, not just playfully for the show.

He cried, under the mask, when he messed up that night. Tried to calm down, take deep breaths through the fabric muzzle and tell himself to not be dramatic. It didn't work.

Well, not exactly.

He felt his brain slowing, but not stopping at just "calm". It slowed further, until all he could think about was how scared he was of punishment for his mistake. Mistakes.

Phantom has no idea how he got through the rest of the show, but he did his best, even if he was practically shaking with held back sobs by the time the last song ended. He hoped no one noticed, he was so stupid, dramatic but he was so scared, he-

"Hey, bug," Swiss' voice cut through the haze as he squeezed Phantom's hand. When did he grab it? His eyes widened, he wasn't fast enough to hold back a whine. "You alright?"

He opened his mouth to say yes, but his words just wouldn't come out. His heart sped up impossibly, shoulders slumped as his fear only grew.

What was going on, why couldn't he think, why didn't he understand what was going on around, what was everything so loud, why his limbs felt so heavy, why-

"Calm down, kid, you're okay," he heard Swiss again.

Kid.

A kid.

That's... that's what he was.

He was just a kid who ended up in front oh thousands of people full of expectations and he failed them all. He failed his packmates, his Papa. He was just a kid but he was already a failure.

Somehow he ended up on a couch. When did he get to a couch?

The couch was... warm. And its shape was weird.

The couch was talking.

"Back with me, bug, it's alright, I've got you," it wasn't the couch, it was Swiss.

Phantom jumped, he failed Swiss too, he couldn't be comforted by him.

"Shhh, it's okay, baby," the multi ghoul cooed again, smoothing a big, warm hand over Phantom's back. It was nice. "There you go, that's the happy purr."

Baby.

Purr? He was purring?

He tried to say something, anything, but he couldn't. There was so little words in his head.

"Don't try to talk, kid, there's no need. Just relax."

Kid.

Phantom liked that, it was like Swiss... understood. Even if he himself didn't. It was nice. Swiss was nice.

He couldn't say it, but he cuddled closer, curling up more in Swiss' lap. He hoped Swiss would understand.

"There you go, yeah, just like that, kid, I've got you."

He did, Swiss did have him, Swiss was home, he was-

"Safe," Phantom mumbled, the only word he seemed to have right now.

"Yes, you're safe," Swiss chuckled.

The quintessence ghoul whined in protest, though, shook his head, "You... safe."

"I'm... safe?" Swiss asked, Phantom shook his head again.

"I... mean safe?" that got Swiss an enthusiastic nod and a happy chirp before he burrowed back into the crook of his neck. "Yes, baby, safe with me. Always safe with me."

When he was himself again, Swiss made him talk with Rain about what happened. How exactly did he feel, how did his head feel. Phantom was embarrassed, he told them it was just stupid panic attack or something, he was just being dramatic, he was tired.

Rain begged to differ.

He told Phantom he regressed. Something that Rain themself did sometimes, Dew and Mountain too, though slightly different. He told him it was normal, that he could learn to enjoy feeling all small.

Phantom could believe that... but only if Swiss would be there to keep him safe.

#im sorry theres not nuch comfort :(#hypnone's asks #hypnone writes #the band ghost #nameless ghouls #phantom ghoul #aeon ghoul #swiss ghoul #little ghouls

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flowerisevil · 2 years

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Please do a Harwin Strong where he meets the reader (Tyrell) at Harrenhall and then again when he comes to Kings Landing. They marry after Rhaenyra and for some reason Rhaenyra gets all crazy with the reader getting into a fight causing the reader to find out she is pregnant. Or something along those lines please

that's a great idea but may I ask, are they gonna get wed after Rhaenyra and the reader fought and found out they're pregnant? or before? (btw I'll edit this after i finished the story)

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Field of Roses | Tyrell!Reader x Harwin Strong.

a/n: hope I did your request right, English is not my first language so expect grammatical and typos errors. also I love Rhaenyra with all my heart but I have to paint her as the bad one here.

Growing Strong.

That was your house motto and what your ancestors wants for the next generation to strive to be, a house where you can have the best bride-to-be.

And you are one of the best examples of it, smart, elegant, graceful, obedient, and of course undeniably gorgeous. Many men tried to have you in their arms but no one succeed no one until he came.

Harwin "Breakbones" Strong strongest knight in the Seven Kingdom had win you heart. You both first met when your father and brothers decided to visit the Harrenhal for some political reasons you didn't want to come at first, you heard the stories about the castle and it really scared you to go there but when you arrived there with your family Harwin made sure to always look after you and never leave your side he found out through your brother about your fear in their castle so he decided you always accompany, as days goes by you can't help but to fall for the tough knight he was such a gentleman when it come to you.

But it wasn't easy even you two are now together, you're scared how your father and brothers will react about it, they trusted him with you and thought that he only treated and saw you as his younger sister. Also Harwin is involved in a rumor in King's Landing about him being the princess Rhaenyra's secret lover and the father of her children.

"You shall not worry my love I understand" is what he answered when he told you that you still can't tell them.

You sob on his chest feeling guilty that you have to hide your relationships, Harwin rubbed your back and use his hand to lift your chin up to him as he connect his lips to you.

You snaked your arms around his neck locking him in your embrace as you played with his curls, he smirked as he slowly walked carrying you with him and dropped you to your bed.

"Let's make this night unforgettable" he whispred to your ears.

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He caressed your hair as you were laying your head to his bare and hairy chest, you always love his chest hair it makes him look hotter.

"Can I ask something?" you said, you're voice sounds weak and soft probably it's because of the muffled scream you made last night.

"What is it darling?"

"Were you really Princess Rhaenyra's secret lover in King's Landing?"

She felt him stiffened, she looked away from him ashamed of her question, maybe it's too personal you thought.

"No, I am not I knew this day you would ask about that and I'm assuring you I am not the father of his sons, though me and Rhaenyra was once infatuated with each other but I realize how wrong was that so I stopped" he explained and stroke your hair.

You felt you heart relieved, you smile and looked up to him before placing a short kiss to his chin.

"Thank you for explaining to me"

"I have to say too" Harwin states, "I'm going back to King's Landing tommorow" your heart dropped.

He's now leaving of course he will, he's the Commander of City Watch now he has bigger duties and responsibilities. You looked at his hand when it reached for yours and place it on his chest.

"Do not worry, your family and mine have convinced the King for your siblings to visit and stay at the Keep, King Viserys also offered your brothers a job in the council and you..." he trailed and kisses between your brows.

"The King had requested you to be the Queen's lady-in-waiting" you sat up instantly, mouth open and eyes widened, the King had requested for you?

"How? I mean- I haven't been there how-"

"I told them about you when they're looking for a lady in waiting for the Queen I immediately thought about you, with that we can stay close to each other so I told them how smart and honorable my darling is and then my father mentioned your brothers then its settled, we talked about it with your father and he was okay with it" he proudly said, your heart was flattered how he did this for you.

"I love you" you blurted and hugged him, he chuckled as she hugged you back.

He just wants to be with you without separating you from your family sadly only you and your brothers can come since no one will look after in Highgarden, Harwin loves you more than anything, you matter to him, your smile, eyes, body, face, soul, literally everything.

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The day you and your brothers have to leave was sad, you cried before saying goodbye to your father it's your first time being away from him and you just hope that he would take care of himself.

When you arrived at the castle the royal family welcomed all of you and even invite all of you in dinner, both King Viserys and Queen Alicent complimented you.

"It's such a surprise how you're still not wed, you are very beautiful Lady and based on Ser Harwin you are also intelligent" the King said.

"Indeed she is your Grace" Harwin answered, while everyone is having fun and laughing you can feel someone throwing dagger looks at you and saw princess Rhaenyra glaring at you beside her is her husband Laenor with their three kids, you examined the three kids.

They're no Harwin's you can tell the only similarities they have is a brown hair and nothing at all you studied the whole history of the noble families and found out that princess Rhaenyra's husband Ser Laenor Velaryon's great grandmother was a baratheon with brown hair perhaps that's where they get their genes from.

You're stay in the castle was great although you're brothers can't stay there because they're always sent somewhere far away but they never forget about you everytime they come home they make sure that they have gifts for you though it didn't bother you whenever they're away it only gives you and Harwin more space and alone time.

"So has anyone had caught your attention lately?" you looked up when you heard the Queen speak.

"Oh no one had caught my attention your Grace, I am here to serve you not find myself a man" you said while folding her new dried clothes, it wasn't really necessary for you to do that but you also don't want to just stand there.

"Really? Not even Ser Harwin Strong?" Alicent looked at you while a small smirk appeared on her face.

"You both are two obvious come on, those stares from afar, the small talks you both do and don't get me started everytime he make excuse so he can have you all for himself" she added and put her hand to your shoulders.

"We're just friends your grace, our family is so we are too" you tried to protest but Alicent just smiles not believing to your lies.

They both looked at the door when it opened revealing the Queen's sworn protector Criston Cole "Your Grace, princess Rhaenyra had asked for Lady Tyrell" Alicent instantly looked at you and looked back to Criston,

"Tell her Lady Tyrell is busy" Alicent answered, you're thankful that she didn't let you go to Rhaenyra god you have no balls to see her after the impression she made to you when you first arrived here.

"I think it's about you and Harwin god that girl can't really move forward with her life" she whispered and walked out of her chamber. You were alone there so you just decided to clean the Queen's room.

While cleaning her bed you can feel cold sweats forming on your forehead, you started to feel dizzy so you decided to go on the infirmary. You squealed when someone pulled you while you're walking, you saw the princess looking at you and pushed you against the nearest pillar.

"You..."

"My lady-"

"Don't my lady me! you're the reason why Harwin left right? the reason why he abandoned me" she shouted, you looked up to her and can't help but to frown in outrage.

"Abandon? you're a married woman princess" you spat venom, you watched how the cat caught her tongue but Rhaenyra didn't back down.

"You know marriage between royals are political so you don't have any say to my decisions!"

"What decision? for you to make Harwin your personal whore?!"

"I am warning you, stay away from him or I will have your head" she warned you but you weren't scared not even a bit.

"Even if you killed me or not, he wouldn't go back to you anymore princess" you replied, you didn't care if she's a princess or not.

"He wouldn't choose someone like you, a woman that is nothing without her father's name" with that your fist met her face and grabbed the collar of her dress, you finally snapped you can even feel your forehead burning.

"You're fucking childish and pathetic! you forgot you're also nothing without Viserys atleast I, had earn a clear reputation for myself not like you" you said and let her go you thought you could finally walk away not until Rhaenyra reached for you and slapped you. Hard.

It was so full of force that your feet stumbled and your back hit the edge of the window near the both of you making you dropped on the ground.

"Learn your fucking place" she said and looked at you who's now groaning and crying in pain, the princess looked at you through your thighs and saw something dripping down on it.

Blood.

You cried as you felt pain forming in your stomach and back, your scream caught the attention of some guards walking by they were all horrified when they saw your state and grabbed you, someone carried you but that's all you remember as you blackout

You woke up and saw the Queen's and King's worried eyes staring at you beside them was Harwin that's holding your hand.

"Finally you're awake, now tell us what happened? the guard saw you bleeding on the ground while you're with Rhaenyra" The King said, you looked to all of them as they waited for your answer.

"I was feeling dizzy and I accidentally slipped on the floor perhaps the princess saw me" you lied and Alicent definitely didn't bought it before she can even speak the Maester entered the room.

"Sorry for being late your Graces" he started and stand beside you on your left side.

"So? why did she bleed?" Harwin asked.

"I presume it's because of her tiredness and it's all the works here in castle, you just need to take a rest especially for someone like you Lady Tyrell" all of your frowned of what the maester said.

"What do you mean by that?" The Queen asked.

"Lady Tyrell is six weeks pregnant you're grace" he announced.

You froze at your position, pregnant? Harwin's gaze dropped to you he was nervous when he saw your reaction.

"Pregnant?" Viserys chuckled awkwardly "That can't be Lady Tyrell is always in the Keep" he insisted, god the Lord Tyrell trusted him with his daughter if he found out about this there's high chance that man will have a problem with them.

The Maester just shrugged before excusing himself, tears was flowing down to your cheeks you can't be pregnant..... not if you not even married yet.

"Lady Tyrell we deserve an explanation, now." the King demand Alicent gave him a warning looked to not pressure or stress the girl.

Harwin sat on the bed and held your hand gently caressing it he heard how the Queen whispered to Viserys that they should give them privacy and leave.

"My love please speak to me...." he plead.

"My father will be mad and disappointed to me if he found out I'm pregnant with a bastard" you let out a cry as you hugged your knees.

"You're not gonna bear a bastard! I'm gonna marry you"

"Marry? how? clearly that princess' Rhaenyra of your still haven't get over with your little lovey dovey before!" you spat.

Outside your angry but inside is mixed emotions angry, sad, nervous and worried your father has a high expectations from you, what will happen if he found out his only son is carrying a child after she left their home.

Harwin leaned closer to you and hugged you "I am gonna marry you, I promise I will send ravens to your brothers and father so I can formally announced to them your pregnancy and ask for your hand in marriage after" he told you his plain actually he's been thinking for days how to propose to you he just hopes this is the right time and with that he pulled away and kneel in front of you.

"My love, Lady Tyrell, my beautiful rose will you accept my offer of marrying you? cherishing my time with you? serving you? protecting you? and loving you?" a happy small tear formed in her eyes.

You nod to him and jumped out of the bed to hug him, your nose touching his curls makes you giggle.

"I will marry you, we will make a great and happy family" you told him, Harwin pulled his face away and held both sides of your face.

"I will make my new life with you and this little buddy we have here" he said and dropped his hand to your stomach.

You both just stayed there hugging each other, you felt contented, you're still nervous about your family but you know Harwin wouldn't leave your side, you trust him with everyting, heart, life, soul, everything.

a/n: I'm not satisfied with this but I also felt like it's enough? what y'all think?

#harwin strong x reader #hotd fanfic #house of the dragon #daemon targaryen x reader #daemon targeryan #criston cole x reader #rhaenyra targaryen #harwin strong imagine #daemon targaryen imagine #fanfic

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ellsellmesoull · 11 months

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Helloo,!! Please help me! I am conducting a survey so if you know a child aged 3-5 please consider answering some of my questions, especially cus the deadline is tommorow! T~T

-sincerely someone who does not understand how children work.

Alright storytime- I am a college student and I was invited to an innovation program for students to publish their ideas and receive help from the government.

I am hoping to work on game design so I want to create a product that involves games. And a criteria to the programm is it must solve problems faced by ordinary people.

So my idea is to make a game that children aged 3-5 yrs could play and learn helpful things.

Problem is that we have a submission deadline of tommorow cus our college decided to join super late.

Id like to do my best and submit my idea but I need a way to know the problems faced by kids these aged. Cus we also have to submit a survey we did.

1. How is it to raise them? Do they behave? Do they understand what's being communicated to them?

2. How do they play? What games interest them?

3. How messy are they? What kind of things do they make the most mess of? Do they tidy up?

4. Would you prefer if the kids cleaned up their mess?

5. How do you discipline them? Are they scared of something? What do you give as a treat?

6. What gets their attention? What looses their attention?

7. What price range do you look for on average when looking for furniture for the child?

Thank you if you answer, and if there is anything you do not want to answer or anything you do not know, it is alright. Thank you,

I dont have many followers especially on other sites and I cant really physically move to conduct survey especially in this short amount of time due to physical and environmental reasons that's why im resorting to this.

But I would really appreciate it if you could answer , or even reblog this so more could see it.

#help #survey #kids #children #kindergarten #game #game design #play #playschool #parenting #parents #parent #childhood #kids toys

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kuro-reiko · 2 years

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• Thoughts And Confessions •

max mayfield x gn!reader

genre: fluff

warnings: none

pairings: max mayfield x gn! reader

requested by @max-mstan

summary: You finally got a day's rest after a stressful and overwhelming week. You lay on your bed as your thoughts wandered then gathered themselves again, but now with thoughts about her.

You lay on your bed with a thump; sounds of rain thumping against your window fills the room with an ambience. It feels nice being able to think about things slowly after a horrifying week. I mean, who could have guessed that the town you live in since you were a fetus is above a hellish monster-filled place called the upside down? Kinda ironic if you ask me.

A sigh escapes your lips as you close your eyes. You breathed in for a moment, then let it out after another. You open your eyes again, staring at the ceiling as your mind wanders. Though it wasn't your previous thoughts that were currently present, it was now about *her.*

Maxine Mayfield, though she prefers to be called "Max" for personal reasons, is one of the most interesting people you have ever met or got acquainted with. You saw her as a rough person with a tough exterior when you first met her at the arcade along with the party. She had a smug aura around her along with confidence you once thought was misplaced; you were wrong. Yet even as though that is your first impression of the auburn haired girl, she still somehow made herself a place in your heart. The feeling is mutual, it wasn't bad or good per se (just felt weird and foreign to you).

Everything she did around you, whether it was laughing at a really bad joke you made or to how her eyes just shine in admiration when she sees something she likes, it would always undoubtedly make your heart flutter and drop. *Wait, 'flutter and drop..?' don't tell me.*

You jolted awake upon the realization as your body immediately sat up right. You brought your hand towards your mouth,

*"Oh.." You breathed out feeling slightly overwhelmed.*

As things around the town start to calm a bit before the inevitable storm, you finally got the chance to think about your feelings for the girl. The question of *how* and *why* were still unanswered but you didn't pay any mind to that, as all you care about in the moment is the fact that you do *have* a crush on Max. *'No wonder why she always makes me feel weird,'* You thought as a smile tugs along your lips; you are satisfied with what you have realized.

"What are you doing outside at this hour and in the rain?!" You scolded her as she swooped down and entered your room. "Just wanted to see you." Casually, she replied, now taking off her yellow jacket and shoes, placing it on the floor below the window. You sighed, locking the window and proceeded to scold her more, "It's the middle of the night, Max. What is something so important that you had to see me right now and not until tommorow? You could get sick!" She crossed her arms on her chest and huffed in reply, "Firstly, I wore a jacket so I couldn't get wet that much. Secondly, I just wanted to see you and lastly, I JUST WANTED TO SEE YOU." She uncrossed her arms and dramatically started jabbing it on the air to highlight her statement and for you to realize that yes, she just wanted to see you and also to realize that no, it wasn't the only reason.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the window, wait a knock? There shouldn't be anyone outside at this hour, even more so someone on the other side of the glass pane. "Y/n? You there?" The person asked as they knocked again but louder, You recognized their voice immediately and went to the window, pushing aside the curtains as you unlocked it.

"God, what am I gonna do with you." You mumbled. After a few seconds, you asked her, "You're going to stay for the night right?" she looked at you like you were stupid, "Yes of course I'm staying for the night, also why is your room so dark? I thought you were scared of the dark." She answered and asked you back, now walking to your door and flicking on the light switch beside it. "Again, I'm not afraid of the dark, I'm afraid of what's inside it." You clarified to which she nodded rarely agreeing to. She walked back to you and sat on your bed, making you sit beside her. "Y'know, seeing you isn't the only reason I went here." She started, now fiddling your blanket with her fingers. "Yeah I figured." Replying, you laid your back on the bed, gaze occasionally switching between her and the ceiling above. "Do you wanna talk about it?" You asked. She looked at you with blue eyes filled with nervousness, "I wanna but it feels difficult to talk about." You nod in reply, reassuring her that you were willing to listen and wait. She stayed silent as her gaze returned to your blanket, fiddling with it again. These were rare times, where Max Mayfield, the smug energetic ball of sunshine is quiet, she also had a look of indecisiveness on her face which worried you. You didn't want her to force herself talking about it so you sat back up and gently placed a hand on her shoulder, "We don't have to talk about it if you're uncomfortable saying it." Her gaze was back on you again, "But I really want to. I really really want to.." She raised her hand slowly and placed it on your cheek. You looked at her confused yet eventually closed your eyes and leaning into her touch. She smiled and leaned in towards you, pecking your lips before immediately leaning away. You opened your eyes in suprise, cheeks red as her hand twitched, she pulled it back by your reaction and sighed. "That's what I've been trying to tell you.." She mumbled quietly, her gaze down to where her hands rested on her lap.

That was interesting, you've never figured her out of all people would hold such feelings for you. She was brave to do that despite not knowing her feelings were equal to yours, one which you deeply admired, your eyes softened as you gently reached for her hand and took it, wrapping it with yours as she looked at you, confused by it while also waiting to hear what you are going to say or do. You smiled and leaned in, kissing her. You felt her smile and giggle, using her other hand to cup your cheek and kiss back deeper before pulling back, "I love you." Those words were strong yet held such meaning, the way she said it to you held so much meaning. Your heart full of warmth as she hugged you. Sounds of rain filled the room again, enveloping both you in solace as you hugged her back.

"I love you too." You replied, now resting your chin on her head.

#max mayfield x reader #maxine stranger things #stranger things #fluff #just fluff

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tatumslollipop · 1 year

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Y/N teleporting to scream 4

I wake up "I wanna sleep" I growned as my alarm clock rang again.I stood up and got myself ready. Brushed my teeth,washed my face and brushed my hair and straighten it. I choose my fav band shirt , baggy jeans and white airforces. But then I found a note in my room saying"You are in woodsboro I needed to go so its not the same as your universe. On monday you have music,geography and latin. On tuesday you have physics,german and english...." You read it through and couldnt believe it after you found out that jill roberts was your bestfriend. JILL ROBERTS. I AM IN SCREAM 4. Im so gonna get killed. You packed your school bag but putting a pocket knife in your bag too. Just for protection. You got your headphones and walked to the bus where you met all "your" friends. Kirby and Jill. "Hii" I said hugging kirby. But Jill looked at me kinda mad. Weird... You tried not to look scared. Maybe shes not ghostface in this universe and im wrong but I need proof first. Kirby ripped me out of my thoughts as she told me that marnie and jenny were killed and we need to stay safe because there could be new ghostfaces. The bus came and you three sit beside eachother you in the middle "So do you have any plans for the weekend?" jill asked you two nod. "What about a sleepover at my house?" she asked."I'm in" I say. Kirby says the same so after school we all go to jills house. "What do you guys wanna watch?" idk what came out before 2011... wait I have a idea "The Shining" "Ok sure" she said. But then a woman suddenly comes in probably her mom. "Hi girls I just wanted to check on you" she said smiling and I start blushing. WTF is wrong with me thats my bestfriends mom. "Y/N thats my cousin sidney" oh fuck I thought.... "Ok so guys have some fun but dont stay but too late you have school tommorow" she says giving me a smirk and then walks out the room. "Y/N wtf was that dont tell me you like my cousin" jill says but I can seem to know if she was serious or she said it ironicly. "NO!" I said laughing. "sure" jill said giving me side eye. After some time jill cuddled to my side I think she kinda found it scary.

I then went to the bathroom to change into pyjamas and brush my teeth but then jills cousin appears. And pushes me against the wall in the hall and starts kissing me. I start kissing her too after a few seconds. It is filled with passion and lust like we would do it often. Dude she did not write that in the letter maybe thats the reason she left but I dont really care shes hot. "Why wont you be a good girl for mommy and go with her to her room?" she says in a calming voice "But the girls" I said shy but she replied "Its gonna be fast" she said and omg am I gonna lose my virginity to sidney FUCKING prescott? she holds my hand and leads me to her room. Pushing me to the bed,removing my shirt and start giving me hickey all over my neck. "Tell mommy what you want" "Want mommy to fuck me real good" I start playing along now because its fucking hot. She nods and start unbottening my jeans and slips her hand in my underwear and starts making circle movements which made me moan "Baby you need to be quiet dont want jill and kirby to hear do you" I nod and she pushing 2 fingers in my now tripping pussy always hitting my g-spot. "Feels so good" I almost moan. She picks up the speed and adds one finger into my cunt while sucking on my tits. "You are such a slut for mommy arent you?" I nod. "Words" she said demanding. "Yes I am your slut to always use when you want" "God you always know what to tell mommy" It felt so good. "Cum" After that I release all over her fingers. She licks her fingers and says "So sweet" after that I pull her into a passioning kiss but then I say " I think I got to go now" sadly. I went to jills room. The movie was already finished and they started watching the new twilight movie. #teamjacob. I layed beside kirby and cuddled into her which jill looked not happy about that and lays beside you cuddles you. Till im pretty sure that shes a jealous girl im probably not gonna trigger it once more. I dont want any end up dead. Suddenly my phone starts ringing. I looked at the number its called mom <3. Tommorow at my house? Got you a suprise "Hows that" jill asked looking at me."Its just my mom" I said. I replied "sure ;)" Then I pretended to fall asleep still in cuddling kirby and jill cuddling me so its kinda hard to maybe find jill going outside to kill someone but in the movie she barely killed anyone so shes probably gonna make a call. But I never heard something so I fell asleep.

To be continued...

#mommy k!nk #milf!sidneyprescott #sidney prescott #jealous jill roberts #jill roberts #kirby reed #scream 4 smut #scream 4 fanfic #scream #scream 4

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deltaruiner · 2 months

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Alright, so!

Cinnamon, Periwinkle, Mauve, Blush, Fuchsia, Vermilion, Lavender, Umber, Razzmatazz, Saffron, Fallow, Plum, Chartreuse, and Burgundy!!!

Omg thank you, im glad you think im cool and that i help you laugh and have a good day, i really wonder sometimes if people actually enjoy or just tolerate my presence-

As for talent, while im happy you think that im not quite sure what original content i've ever uploaded here? like i write random thoughts sometimes but those arent stories or any kind of prose?? thanks though~

your passion and inspiration is part of an elaborate plan i've conspired to turn the people of tumblr to the light of madoka-san through religous ecstasy, i expect you at our morning sermons starting tommorow.

Oh you want to know about me!! um... im kinda secretive and closed off usually tbh... but i wont get mad or annoyed at any questions! i might not always answer either is the thing... and i'd love to chat with you!!

On one hand i am very complimented you'd share your favorite food with me, but on the other im scared i wont like it because of my selective taste. if i don't like it id still eat something else with you though!

Running through the unclaimed north with a friend is such a dream~ i love the cold and i love being comfy and with company~

homies 💪😐🤜🤛😐✊️

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rosietaeyongswife · 2 years

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water under the bridge | johnny

WATER UNDER THE BRIDGE

PARING: johnny suh x reader

GENRE: established relationship, angst, break up

WC: 10k

SUMMARY: johnny and you were dating for more than three years for now. collage passed quick and you were two lovebirds who tought they found perfect match. after all the years johnny feels like they aren’t meant for each other. you can not let go of johnny so easily because you’ll fight for him and even tho you’re not meant for each other you still loved him.

TW: cursing, alcohol consumption, mentions of sex

being a student at university in chicago was fun to you because it was new adventure in your boring life. also, united states of america were much different than south korea so you could learn new things outside of your country. parents are always worried about theird children but when you annouced to them you are going to study abroad in states they almost had a heart attack. they knew you were very ambitious person and with your grades you could do anything you want but they were scared of their little y/n being alone in a new country. after a lot of fights and conversations they gave in. it was new chapter in your life and you were more than ready for it.

well you were ready for everything but not for your future boyfriend called johnny. study in states wasn’t that hard as you tought it may be so you have much more free time than expected to have. going out and meeting new people was your pleasure and fun way to get away out of routine you were afraid to be stuck in. that’s how you met johnny. a tall man was hanging out with his friends when you and your friends came in to the club your friends knew pretty well. as soon as johnny saw you he knew you were going to end up together in some way. the way you looked at people dancing on the dance floor or the way you smiled at whatever your friend said was mesmoraizing to him. he wanted you from the very start of this relationship. ready to let go of anything and have a talk with you he approached you.

“hey. are you student from chicago’s university?” handsome stranger asked you while you were sipping a drink. “because you look so familiar.”

“oh i am. my name is y/n.” you smiled. “i study english at the university.”

“english sounds dope. my name is johnny by the way.” he giggled. “i study informatics at the same university i suppose.”

“that’s for sure. are you here with your friends?”

“yeah, one of my friends has a birthday today and they wanted to celebrate so bad here that i gave in and came here.”

you couldn’t focus at anything he was saying because he was looking at you with his deep eyes and you were lost in them.

“say happy birthday to him from me.” you giggled. “would you like to dance? i mean, we are at the club so we should dance like others do.”

“i think we should.” johnny smiled. “may i?”

johnny offered you his hand and you took it with big smile on your face. dancing on the dance floor of some random pub in chicago was one of your best memories because you were dancing with a stranger to biggest hits and you had a lot of fun. you even forgot about your friends who were gone for the rest of the night. it was first time meeting your future love.

next time was at university when you and your friend melissa were in cafeteria eating your lunch. most students had a lunch break now and cafeteria was full but sadly a lot of items was sold out including your favorite strwaberry milk you always drink.

“y/n c’mon. let go of it.” mellisa rolled her eyes. “you are going to buy another one tommorow or something.”

“but without it i feel uncomplete.”

“then you should came here sooner. sorry not sorry but it’s out. let’s find a seat and-”

melissa didn’t finished because a tall man was standing next to both of you with warm smile on his face and a strwaberry milk on his left hand.

“you can have mine.” johnny handled it to you. “i don’t usually drink milk and you need it so have it, please.”

“oh no. i can’t have it.” johnny laughed. “wait i’m going to pay you. how much was it?”

“y/n don’t be silly and take it.”

johnny hanled you his milk, and you took it shyly.

“thank you so much. you don’t have to, i can-”

“you can go out on a date with me.” johnny shrugged. “you know. to thank me for this milk i gave you. it would be nice of you.”

“yes of course.” mellisa looked at you with eyes wide open. “yeah, we can go out. it’s not such a big deal.”

“cool.” johnny smiled. “here’s my phone number. call me when you’re free and we can go out somewhere nice.”

“alright. see you johnny and thanks again.”

“no worries.”

johnny walked off while you and mellisa were staring at each other for more than ten seconds. she was surprised you knew who he was and he asked you out.

“do you even have any idea who the hell he is?”

“uh, johnny suh?”

“it’s not just johnny suh.” she said with grin. “it’s one of the most popular guys in his year.”

“wait.” you went to sit. “how old is he?”

“two years older i guess.”

“oh shit. he graduates this year?”

“right. girls from his year are head over hills because of this man. he is the most handsome giy you could seen here. i mean it.”

you grinned and looked at the strawberry milk you were holding.

“so he is a playboy.”

“no, he is not.” mellisa snapped. “girls want him but he rejected every one of them. propably he had never dated anyone from this university of something like that. he is single for a long time as far as i know.”

“oh then it’s cool. he maybe have a high standards or something.”

“maybe he does. not sure.” she smiled. “you don’t even know how lucky you are to go on a date with johnny suh himself. many would kill for a chance with him.”

“mellisa it’s just a regular date. i don’t think he would be into me much since johnny seems to have a high standards towards women. besides that.” you opened the milk. “it’s just a date nothing extreme or promising.”

“we’ll see about that. i feel like both of you start dating each other. i am telling you.”

talking with mellisa made you realize who are you going on a date with and all you plans were ruined because she was right. it wasn’t reagular date but date with senior who girls fantazise about. a perfect man who has everything. someone so perfect must have high expetations towards their partners and it was stressing you out.

“what the hell?” you said as soon as you saw when johnny drove you. “are you kidding me? we are here for real.”

“yes we are. we are going fishing my dear.”

you have been expecting anything but for sure it wasn’t fishing at the ten pm. there was literally no one but just two of you and river where there shouldn’t be any fishes but you had no idea to be honest.

“it’s so original. i would never guessd you would get me on a date to fishing.”

“of course. who would do it if not me?” he smiled proudly. “i hope you will learn quickly and we would have fun together.”

indeed you did have a lot of fun. being on the edge of ground while fishing was so fun and you would never imagined yourself in such a situation. both of you were laughing out loud and crying because of laugh. you even caught few fish which was surprising. after this you could lay down on some grass while drinking cheap as bears johnny bought on his way to date with you. he was always unique and hated boredroom so that’s why he took you out on fishing. also, that’s why he didn’t buy you some expensive wine but regular bear.

“i have never had this much fun in my life.” you smiled warmly. “thank you johnny. i had time of my life wishing with you.”

“i am glad to hear that. i also had a lot of fun. i can’t remember when i had spent such a nice time with anyone. wish i could do that more or do any other cool things. you know.” he looked at the river. “i’m tired of being perfect and doing boring things.”

“if you’d like to we can do other cool things together.” johnny looked at you and you panicked. “i mean it’s not like i am asking to be together. i just wish to have more fun in my life and if you also has this problem then we can go out more.”

“ah sure. it’s not like you asking me to be your boyfriend.” johnny teased. “i think it’s dope. we have to spend more time together to know each other and have fun right.”

“of course.”

“then maybe we should go on urban exploring?”

as soon as you heard him say it you were shocked. you had been thinking about urban expoloring and how fun it is but you had never made any attempts to actualy do it and here you are sitting, drinking bear with johnny by river after fishing session.

“i’d love to do it. i am lowkey scared but it would be fun.” you giggled. “but where would we go? i have no idea. i don’t know any haunted places or worth seeying.”

“let’s say i have few ideas in my head for it.” he took a sip. “oh my god. we are going have to by bike and it’s only one here we can borrow.”

“shit. i am supposed to be home for an hour now.”

“we’re kind of drunk.”

“oh lord.”

johnny get on bike first and you sat in front of him on little stick on bike.

“are you ready for ride of your life?” you only nodded and held him tighter.

ride to your home was kind of crazy because johnny nor you could sit still and bike was moving to the sides which cause few falls but nothing serious. both of you were riding on a bike drunk before midnight. not a single sight of people and just peacful night with your date. it seems like scene from books but you were actually living through that scene. you have known johnny for over few days now but you felt safe and happy next to him.

as soon as you cameback you had a ton of butterflies flying all over your stomach after tonight’s date with johnny suh. it was your first date as a young adult now. last date you have been on was in second grade of high school with some weirdo who asked you out. smile appeared on your lips as you were thinking about events from just a few hours ago. out of excitment you texted mellisa who wanted to know how did it go.

when you were at university mellisa would ask a lot of questions and would give you some advices about johnny. she had knew few people including jung hoseok who was his classmate. for a few things he would tell her anything she’d like for you to know. that’s how you were well preapered for a date with him. everyday you were waking up you were happy no matter what even dumb exams at uni didn’t make your mood drop. you developed crush on johnny and it was keeping you busy most of the time. everyday you would text with johnny or hang out with him at cafeteria or at chill rooms.

you: i am back.

mellisa: oh shit

mellisa: how did it go????

mellisa: did he take you to this expensive ass restaurant at the other side of chicago?? answer.

you: we went fishing lol

mellisa: you went where?

mellisa: you’re kidding right y/n?

mellisa: WHAT THE FUCK

mellisa: JOHNNY SUH TOOK YOU OUT ON FISHING?

you: yeah but it was so cool

you: i had a lot of fun with him

you: we were fishing and drinking some beer who didn’t taste that bad tbh

mellisa: i expected something more boujee

you: thanfuly no <33 i had time of my life with him. we are going on a next date on urban exploring

mellisa: so johnny suh is a damn weirdo instead of hottie from senior year

you: lol

you: he is better than that

mellisa: gtg, glad to know you spent good time :)

rumours about you two dating spread in speed of light because johnny was literally crush of majority of women on university. even few proffesors felt shy around him because of his apperance and overal aura. few girls would come to you to ask about your relationship with johnny but you weren’t even dating. johnny at the other side didn’t answer their questions but instead of he would smirk and walk off with smile. you weren’t dating yet. it’s going to change in a few days.

“johnny where are we going?” you asked with bandana on your eyes. “i need to know like for real. it’s our fifth date and i want to know what’s another weird place we would be at-”

before you ended your sentance, johnny took bandana off of you. to your surprise both of you were in a small diner. there were wooden furniture and lights all around. place was basically empty only two other people eating by their tables. right next to this diner was a landscape of big buildings and empty road.

“today we are not doing anything extreme.” johnny took your hand and lead you to your table. “we are going to have a nice conversation at this chill diner. hope you don’t mind that y/n, cause if you want we can go do something fun.”

“are you kidding?” you snapped. “it’s amazing. i love this place. it’s so cozy and comfy as hell. being here is also fun johnny. i like it.”

“cool.” he smiled. “i ordered our meal and dessert. i had no idea what to chose so i hope whatever i ordered, you are going to like that.”

“i am not picky eater, and thank you for your efforts.” you smiled warmly. “i really appreciate how much efforts you put in our dates and it made me feel so lovely. and oh my god. johnny thank you.”

johnny was looking deeply into your eyes as you were speaking to him. no matter what was going on around both of you, it felt like it’s just the two of you in here and no one else. johnny felt safe besides you.

“it’s just pleasure to see you happy and enjoying our little dates. i am glad to know you like that and you still go out with me.”

“how can i not? johnny you’re literally one of the most pefect human being out there.” you giggled. “i am more than joyful to be here. with you.” you added whispering.

“of course. time with right person passes quickly and nice so yeah. our company is enough.”

both of you were talking about some minor things when a older woman came to your table handing your dishes. she was also asian and she was smiling widely as soon as she saw johnny who also smiled at her. she was looking at both of you now and couldn’t stop.

“uh my little johnny finally brought a woman.” she pinched his cheeks. “how you like my grandson, my dear? isn’t he lovely?”

“grandma.” he complained. “don’t embarras me in front of her, please.”

“no, it’s fine.” you smiled. “yes, he is very cute indeed. i am y/n by the way.”

you bowed down, and she did that too.

“nice to meet you y/n. i hope you will take good care of my grandson. he is already 24 and finally brought a woman to my diner. i am more than grateful our little johnny found a girlfriend.”

“grandma please. we aren’t dating yet.”

“i feel it deep down you are.” she pet his head. “enjoy your meal and your date. bye y/n.” she was walking away but turned away. “you can come here often if you like the food. it’d be nie to see you two again.”

she winked at you, and was now gone while you couldn’t hold you giggles in for too long before you were laughing out loud together with johnny.

“she is so nice, oh my god.” you laughed. “why didn’t you tell me it’s your grandma’s place?”

“becacuse i wanted to tell you later.” he shook his head. “it’s very special place for me and i wanted to bring special person here.”

heat went up to your cheeks.

“i am glad i was that person for you.”

meal you ate was one of the best. it was so deliciours you ate everything and wanted to came here more. dessert was also very good and you made a mental note about this place and food here. as soon as both of you were done with your meals, johnny and you payed and thanked his grandma.

walking to the closest store to buy some wine, johnny was thinking if he could hold your hand but wasn’t sure if it was right time. you kinda noticed he was trying to catch your hand but before he had haned you, he would pull away. after nth time you just grabed his hand as soon as it was possible, making johnny’s hear doing back flips.

bench of beach you were right now was empty. no person in a sight but just dark water and sand. as you were sitting and talking with johnny while drinking some wine both of you had this weird feelings inside. it felt different than other times.

“y/n, for how long have we known each other?”

“i guees four months passed.”

“right. four months already passed since we are going out on our dates and i know what i am about say will sound silly.” your heartbeat speeds up. “do you want to be my girlfriend?”

your heartbeat was so fast it almost jump off your body. moment you’ve been waiting for already came to reality. johnny is asking you to be his girlfriend.

“of course. i’d love to.”

you hugged him tightly and johnny was giggling to himself. finnaly he could have you for himself only. you’re officialy johnny’s suh girlfriend. it’s going to be your best time of life.

“y/n can you come here?”

johnny voice made you came quickly from your bedroom to living room when he was sitting with breakfast. it was his day off from work and you tought both of you would spend it together.

“what’s up?”

“i’m going to hang out with my co-workers today.” your smile dropped. “i think i will be back tommorow evening because we tought of going to busan.”

“okay. have fun.” you smiled politely. “who would come with you? if you don’t me asking, of course.”

johnny felt little annoyed at your question.

“me, doyoung, hoseok, jongin and sooyoung i think.”

“alright then. do you need help with packing or making food?” you went to the counter. “i can make you dinner and-”

“no, i don’t.” johnny hissed. “i can get it done by myself. it’s like 9 am, aren’t you going to do something?”

“not really.” you said with little smile. “if you need something call me. all your clothes are in laundry at the basement. your shoes are at the closet but in our room since one in corridor is broken.” you tought of important things he might need to know. “if you need any medications you can take them from kitchen.”

“thank you.”

johnny didn’t even look at you. without saying anything back you just came back to your bedroom and lay down. lately things with johnny were much more complicated than usually because stress in his work is growing on him and he needs to focus on work first. at least that’s what you were thinking. past two months are weird and you noticed shift in his moods and actions towards you. johnny try to be as nice as possible but you feel like it’s his duty to do. it’s forced.

even kissing seems like a duty. neither of you would speak up about it and just pretend as if nothing has happened. you do your job, and he does his. sometimes you would talk in living room but there is no intrest in conversation at all. not mentioning last time you had sex. johnny is always tired and you just feel uncomfortable asking about it.

“y/n.” johnny walk in while you were reading a book. “i’m leaving. i’ll text you later and please. do not contact me until i do. i am not a child.”

“yes johnny.”

he looked at you last time, and left. johnny didn’t even say goodbye nor anything like “i love you”, he just left. you had weird feeling about it but you tried to brush it off. couples do have crisises in their lifes and you were going through it. couples usualy work things out and maybe a little break from each other helps in it.

three years passed so quickly you didn’t even notice when. during your university years every girl was jealous of you and your boyfriend since both of you were stereotypical ideal couple from college. it was happiest moments of your life. being with johnny taught you so many new things and made you help in learning about yourself. you were growing up by johnny’s side.

his friends also liked you. especialy jongin and hoseok. they would always praise you when they visited johnny and johnny always felt proud when someone was talking good about his girlfriend because you were his partner. sometimes johnny would get jealous but with time he just didn’t care much about what they were talking about you. it became just a routine for him - everyone loved his beloved y/n. but with time it made him annoyed whenever someone mentioned you. johnny was out with friends to chill not to think about his girlfriend.

“maybe both of you should talk instead of ignoring each other?” mellisa rolled her eyes. “few years of dating and you lack in comunication. you are adults now and ignoring wouldn’t help.”

“i am scared of it. i don’t want to talk with him if this would make things worse”

“what’s there to be scared of?” she laughed. “he is your boyfriend. it’s not like he doesn’t love you anymore.”

“it’s not.” you agreed. “but i don’t want to annoy him more. he had a lot of preassure lately at work and i don’t want to add problems in relationship to it.”

“but y/n. if you feel like something is off with your love then you should take actions. problems won’t solve by itself honey. just be a little more confident and ask him if somethings wrong at work or in general.”

you knew mellisa was right but you couldn’t get yourself together to ask johnny about anything since he is triggered easily. johnny was like ticking bomb, wrong move and he will explode causing another fight.

a week passed and you still were trapped in your toughts when you were doing food for johnny since he will be up in five minutes. for a moment you zoomed out and didn’t notice johnny was talking to you.

“sorry.” you said when you felt pinch to your arm. “here’s your lunch.”

johnny looked at you with weird gaze.

“yeah, thank you. what have you been thinking about?” he asked while he was doing his coffee. “it’s seems like you are zooning out pretty often.”

“about us.” you whisper. “i am thinking about us for last few weeks, johnny.”

“what’s there to think about?” johnny sat with his cup and confused face. “i don’t understand why would you be busy thinking about us while there’s everything fine.”

“there is not.”

you snapped and johnny could only hiss.

“what do you mean.”

“i mean it’s not the same. you always busy with work and you have never time for us. i am also busy with my job but i try to make time for you but there is none. what was the last time we were out on a date?” johnny couldn’t remember. “you ignore me and you get mad at me for smallest things ever. i feel like i am trapped in a cage with you.”

johnny tried to play it off but deep down he knew what you were talking about. he couldn’t explain why does he need to avoid you. he couldn’t explain why he was angry at you for dumb things.

“i am sorry.” you sat down next to him. “my boss is making me do a lot of work lately. i am busy 24/7, and new things in job are on their way. i try to do my best but i can’t. there’s still preasure on my shoulders. i’m sorry for not paying much attention to you. i promise as soon as i’ll have my work done then we would spend some time together, okay?”

you nodded, and johnny hugged you. for first time in a while, he felt guilt. he felt guilt for making you uncomfortable and sad because of his stupid actions. you were his lover and he was so bad for you these past weeks. johnny knew he had to make it up to you.

“mrs. y/n.” your boss was standing infront of you. “i tought i made it clear that your work have to be done due to today. why aren’t you done yet?”

she was holding up papers of informations needed to have work done. she made you stay over hourses just to do work you were supposed to do quickly which was quite impossible in such a short amount of time.

“i am so sorry but i don’t think it’s enough time. there’s still around five pages to check and another five to write.” you were looking down. “five days wasn’t enough for me, and i am sorry for it.”

“sooyoung.” a taller woman stood up. “plase, take after y/n and do it until midnight. i know you wouldn’t let me down like others.”

“of course. it will be done quickly.”

sooyoung was looking at you with rude eyes. you couldn’t believe your boss gave her your work even tho sooyoung was lacking in a skills you had and was much less competent to your job. all you could do was to sit down and stay still. after the meeting everyone was busy with rest of their work and you was mad that sooyoung took over after you.

“i’ve heard sooyoung took your work.”

jongin smiled at you with cup in his hand while he was standing by your desk.

“don’t make me mad again jongin.”

he giggled and sat down on your desk.

“don’t be so angry. it’s not a big deal, and i am sure she will fucks it up easily since it’s sooyoung.” he laughed and bowed to you. “if not her father she wouldn’t make it here.”

“i know but it’s so frustrating. it was supposed to be my deal.”

“of course it was. but try not to think about it much.” you smiled. “by the way. why aren’t you eating? it’s lunch break. i saw johnny at cafeteria with hoseok.”

“i am busy with work.”

“screw this. you have to eat to be healthy and to concentrate well.” jongin stood up. “get your ass with me and let’s go eat.”

“jongin, i would like to but i have to do it.”

“stop complaining, and go.” he rolled his eyes. “would you like to eat pasta? i am craving it for such a long time now.”

“sounds good.” you hissed and get your things.

jongin was your boyfriend friend’s. he was just a year older than he is and he would treat both of you as his closest friends. jongin took care of his friends and of you. he simply liked you and wanted you to be happy and healthy as his other friends. when you were passing cafeteria, you noticed johnny, doyoung and sooyoung hanging out together. johnny was laughing at whatever she was saying and doyoung was busy eating. you haven’t seen johnny in such a mood in a while.

“so how was your time in busan?”

jongin looked at you confused.

“busan? i haven’t been there in a two years.”

“but johnny-”

“ah.” he laughed. “i couldn’t come. he was there with hoseok and sooyoung.”

“why did he lie to me?” you felt your heart clench. “he told me that he will go there with you, doyoung and two of them.”

“i have no idea. i told him week before tha i can not go.”

“sure, it’s nevermind.” you brushed it off. “why couldn’t you go.”

“i had to go help my parents. they adopted a dog and they’re still learning how to take care of him and oh god.” he pulled his phone. “just look at him. it’s golden rotveiler. he is still a puppy because he is around six months now. his name is cho since it’s means handsome.”

small puppy popped on a screen and you felt cutness attack. little doggo was sitting on his parents knees while they were petting him on head. picture looked so cute it made you pet him.

“he is so cute. bring him with you or came with him to us.”

“when i be able to take care of him for a day or two then i’ll come to you and johnny. cho is friendly dog and i am sure he would like to visit both of you.”

“sure he is. then i can’t wait to see little cho and play with him.”

few hours passed to 8 pm and you finnally could be back at home but to your surprise johnny was already home because door were unlocked.

“what were you doing with jongin at lunch break?”

it was first time johnny asked you when you threw yourself on a couch.

“we were eating?” you were annoyed. “it was lunch break. what else we were supposed to do?”

“eating.” he hummed. “i don’t understand why would my best friend be alone with my girlfriend during lunch break, eating outside of work.”

“johnny plaese. don’t be delusional.” you hissed. “i have no complaints when you spend time with sooyoung or eat with her instead of your girlfriend.”

“y/n, what are you saying.”

“why didn’t you tell me that doyoung and jongin couldn’t attend your silly tour to busan?” you asked with raised eyebrow. “i don’t mind her going with you but why did you lie to me.”

johnny was confused because he didn’t think you would find about truth.

“because doyoung had to stay at work, and jongin had to help parents. we had already restaurant and place at hotel reserved then we went there.”

“whatever. i don’t understand why would you throw a fit over my meeting with jongin.”

“because you didn’ tell me.”

“and you didn’t tell me about this trip without them or your lunch with her and doyoung. by the way, i didn’t know she makes you laugh so hard.”

“are you for real?” lough giggle left his mouth. “you’re jealous over sooyoung? it’s sounds so stupid y/n. you’re insecure and that’s why you’re mad at me for being around her.”

“i am not insecure. it’s just bother me when you hang out with her and enjoy it more than you do with me.”

“i don’t enjoy being around her more than being around you y/n. don’t be dumb. she just asked me earlier if i want to eat with her and doyoung and i agreed.”‘

you rolled your eyes because johnny was really making excuses when it’s come to him.

“sure then. i’m glad that’s how you see it.” you smiled. “it’s the same way with me and jongin. you didn’t have to be mean to me because i was at lunch break with him. let’s end conversation here.”

johnny tried to say something but before he could, you were already in your bathroom. arguments with johnny were pointless because he could never see his fault in anything but blame you for smallest things ever. it was tiring at some point.

“mum, i don’t know if johnny will be free in the friday.” you sighed. “mum, i have to ask-”

“it’s your cousin marriage annoucment. you have to be there together with johnny. i haven’t seen him in ages.” she laughed cutely. “ask him then and be there around 6 pm. don’t buy or cook anything, alright?”

“yes. bye mum.”

johnny and you haven’t spoken to each other for two days and now your mum called to ask you to come. you wish he couldn’t be there because he is busy or something. you didn’t want to go there while being mad at each other. people would notice quickly and ask awkward questions which would make you uncomfortable.

another thing on your mind was sooyoung. it’s not like it’s her fault but she was your enemy at work and yet johnny has good relationship with her even tho he knew about all your issues with her and vice versa. you heard she was lesbian but no one has ever confirmed it to you and johnny’s behaviour towards her was strange.

“wait.” mellisa said. “your cousin is getting married? hyemin?” you nodded. “then it’s great. she was lonely for such a long time and now she is going to be married soon.”

“good for her. i just don’t want to go there while me and johnny were fighting lately. it’s going to be uncomfortable.”

“again? y/n maybe johnny needs space. both of you need space.”

“space? what you’re talking about.”

“i am sure when both of you couldn’t see each other for few days both of you will gone crazy. maybe it’s the solution.”

“i am not sure about that one.” you smiled at her. “it’s far more complicated than doing breaks.”

“i know but at least it would help figure things out.”

space for sure wasn’t something you want with johnny. you loved him after all. you just wanted the best for you and johnny.

“i should talk with him.”

“why it’s always you. he should start conversation not you. again.”

“i know but he isn’t going to do so for sure.”

“then talk with him.”

as soon as mellisa was done with her drink both of you left small pub and came back to your homes. it was wednesday and johnny won’t be home because of work so you didn’t expect anyone at your place. alcohol was working on you slowly since your mind went fuzzy and you couldn’t walk in straight line. few strangers looked at you with raised eyebrows and few just laughed when they noticed you. when you were in front of your door you couldn’t unlock it due to your hands shaking.

“fuck.”

you murmured under you breath. damn key couldn’t wen in to the lock and it was making you so angry, you were crying out of frustration. after alcohol you always cry due to smallest issues which wasn;t such a big deal in majority of situations.

when you still tried to go in, doors opened by themselfs and you could see johnnys sillhoute.

“what are you doing?” his gaze and voice soften as soon as he saw you. “y/n you’re drunk. come here.”

he took your hand and lead you into your apartament. he sighed to himself because of your state and care he will have to take of you. smell of alcohol but more speceficly vodka and some whiskey was getting into his nostrils and he was annoyed at smell. you were stinking because of drinks you had an hour before. bathroom was covered in your clothes, as johnny put you in your bathtub. you were sulking all the time.

“johnny.” you moaned. “why do we fight so much? i love you the most in the world, and you are mad at me so quickly. why?” you sulked. “did i do something wrong?”

“no, you didn’t y/n. it’s nothing serious. couples fight sometimes.” johnny run a sponge on your back. “we are fine. i am not angry anymore. see? we’re good.”

“my mum asked us to come at party to their house. my cousin is getting married but i am not sure if you will be able to attend.”

johnny looked at you and smiled softly. his hurt was aching because of how hurt you sound.

“i can do it. when’s the party?”

“friday at six.”

“then we will go.” he was running water down your hair. “i am free and you are so we will be able to see your parents. i missed them.”

“me too. i want to hug them.” single tear went down your cheek. “they wanted to see you.”

“and i am glad to hear that. look down.”

johnny ended your bath but as soon as you were put into the pijamas, you had to throw up. johnny was holding your hair high while you were down on your knees and throwing up to the toilet. after you felt better, johnny brushed your teeth and took you to the bedroom.

“do you love me?”

johnny was caught off guard.

“yes i do. y/n you’re drunk go to sleep.”

“so what. i am drunk but it’s seems like you don’t have. when was the last time we kissed? or had sex? or just hug each other?”

“we haven’t got enough time for it y/n. now sleep and can talk in the morning.”

party starts in a few minuts and you’re in the car with johnny. ride to your parents house wasn’t awkwards since you and johnny made up with each other. johnny apologized to you and atmosphere between you two have been much more easier. during car ride none of you spoke since you liked silent rides in a car. it brought you comfort of safe place with good person.

everyone was eating, cheering, drinking or talking with each other. the youngest members of family were walking around johnny and you since both of you were their favorites among relatives. your mum was taking pictures of everyone having fun because she would love to make an album with photos of her family being happy. as soon as she saw you with johnny together running after kids she had to take a picture. she wishes one day you will be running after your own child.

“come here minyeong. we are going to store, can you stay here alone or you want to go with us?” you asked your boyfriend who was exhausted.

“i am good. please, buy me ice cream too.”

“chocolate one?”

“chocolate one.”

you smiled and left. johnny was finally left alone after long lastings games with children who begged him to play with them. living room was full but everyone was busy with talking and sociolazing sine such an events aren’t frequent among them. young man just sits on the couch and check his phone but quickly after he could feel presence of someone next to him.

“hyemin is getting married soon but when you are going to marry y/n?”

question made johnny dizzy. he looked up to meet your aunt with wide smile on her face. he had never tought of getting married yet. he wasn’t ready to ge married but johnny couldn’t simply imagine family with... you. that question made him annoyed and realized that he had never imagined or wanted to share future with you. family with you. johnny didn’t want to get you pregnant or see you in a white dress.

“we have a lot of time.” johnny laughed. “we are still young but i don’t think anytime soon.”

“aish, johnny.” she slapped his shoulder. “why do you want to wait? you’re getting only older and y/n won’t forever be this pretty. beauty ages, my dear. think about it.”

johnny nodded and aunt left him to go to her children broking glass in the kitchen. tought of marriage, kids and future were going through his mind and he couldn’t focus anymore. well, johnny never tought about it but since your aunt asked he realized it’s not for him. at least not in this relationship with you. his hurt aches because it wasn’t supposed to be like that.

“here’s your ice cream.”

“thank you.”

you left quickly to talk with your cousin and your parents. before you left you looked one last time at johnny and you could tell he was busy thinking about something. johnny at the same time was thinking about his choices and life with you. a lot of things went into his mind since he understood how your relationship looks like. you don’t have much in common. opposite hobbies and you dislike what he likes and vice versa. both of you can’t comunicate well but try to make it up. his toughts were stuck together and more, more and more cons came to his mind while thinking about you. frequent fights are just cherry on top. maybe you aren’t meant for each other?

“dude.” jongin rolled his eyes. “what the fuck did i say?”

“uh-”

johnny couldn’t answer his friend’s question because he was day dreaming.

“what’s with you lately? nevermind. boss wanted you to adjust page for our new client and asked you to come see him after you’re done.”

“ah, thanks jongin.”

older male left with raised eyebrows because of weird behaviour of his friend and co-worker. doyoung was sitting at the other side of office so jonging approached him.

“do you know if something happened to him?”

“i have no clue. he’s like that for a week now.”

“you think it’s because of y/n?”

“most likely.” doyoung looked at johnny. “he mentioned they were fighting and they had made up but still.”

“alright, thanks.”

at the same time you were happy doing your job. mellisa smiled when she noticed your smile and even sooyoung didn’t bother you much. your life was getting slowly together because work is only easier, johnny and you talked and your social life is good. also, you are financly stable and you have no worries for now.

your work today had ended at two pm so you could get to home to make lunch for you and johnny since he will be home in an hour. at the time lunch was gettin ready you cleaned whole place. your being felt much better since it was clean in your apartament. before johnny walked in you made him coffee.

“shit, you didn’t have to all of this.” johnny said as soon as he entered living room. “thank you so much.”

johnny kissed your lips, and hugged you which was first time in a while. it wasn’t that forced.

“no worries. hope you will enjoy it.”

johnny smiled but deep downed he was disapointed in himself. he practiced what he should confess you he would like to take a break or break up completly. he wanted you of course, you made a lot of great memories but it wasn’t enough for none of you. you deserved better. someone who will understand you no matter what. johnny wanted to do it today but he didn’t want to fuck up things you have done for him.

days went by and you felt only better whan johnny feel drained. his mind is at one place and he can never get rid of toughts of break up. he feels like it would be the best since it’s clear you’re not meant for each other but he is scared of breaking your heart.

“y/n can you sit down?” you did as he told. “i think we should talk about it since it’s growing on me more and more. i can’t live like that. both of us should take a break from each other.”

“what?” you were suprised. “i tought we had good time, that we are working things out.”

“we’re not. please, it’s drianing me to the core to do it. i can’t be like that with you since you deserve someone who was destinated for you. i have no idea how to put it in words.”

“johnny we’ve been together for such a long time and now we are broking up?”

“it’s for the best.” he sighed. “i can take things and move out in two days if you don’t mind.”

“of course.” you sobbed. “thank you for everything.”

johnny walked off since he was afraid of crying in front of you. sight of you crying was enough to make him regret his words and whatever he was doing. doubt was hitting him like a knife stabbing his heart. grip tightened on a phone and not clear vision. johnny just broke up with you.

all your friends were concerned about you. no texts from you. no calls. you took week off from work. last time you left your parent’s house was a month ago. parents tried to talk with you but you just ignored them. no one could understand pain you are going through due to break up with love of your life as you tought. you wanted to hug johnny and talk with him. think about other solutions instead of breaking up. you loved him and at some point johnny loved you but it’s seems like faith isn’t at your side.

“dad.” you rolled your eyes. “i don’t want to talk with you.”

“y/n you can’t be locked in your room your whole life.” he scremaed. “left the damn room and act like a human.”

at some point he was right. but you couldn’t help the feeling of loneliness. being wihtout johnny was empty. you felt useless. like some part of you disapeared and can’t come back. your toughts were interrupted by ring.

“what are you doing here?”

you snapped at man standing in doors of your room. it was johnny. he was holding boqute of roses.

“i’ve missed you.”

“now? now you’re missing me?” you hissed. “get the fuck out.”

“let’s talk. your mum called me-”

“why the fuck would she do it.” you raised an eyebrow. “damn it.”

“y/n, plase just a few minutes of conversation.”

“there’s nothing to talk about. we are done.”

“we are but i wanted to see you.”

“what are you playing?” you hissed again. “don’t play with me and my emotions.”

“i am honest right now. i was stressed without you.

“do you want second chance?” you asked strictly. “that’s why you here?”

“not really but i’d appreciate it.” johnny smiled. “i’d like to try.”

“do you think we deserve second chance?” you asked while holding his hand and he nodded. “if you say so.”

month later and you still are in a relationship with johnny. you were happy about it but at the other hand you felt not enough. you were scared johnny will break up with you again even tho he hadn’t give you any signs. image of perfect girlfriend made such a impact on you it was frustrating becase you tried your hardest to show your best side to johnny. also, johnny stopped being so harsh on you. he was soft while being around you. he had felt like second chance wasn’t right choice but it’s seems like he never can make it out the door. he can never leave because he lost all the courage to do it. johnny tought that both of you deserve second chance but it’s impossible. he feels like both of you fail in this relationship but at the other hand he can’t seem to let go. memories hold him tight along with your voice. whenever he sees you all he could think about are memories of you two. everything you have done together. but johnny treats them as past. he never come backs to them and leave it behind. none of you mentiones memories you shared together.

“are you going to make a dinner?” you asked when johnny was standing with pan in his hand.

“i’d like to try.” he smiled. “but i have no idea how or what to do.”

“it’s pretty easy. whatever you’d like to do.”

you smiled and johnny could only whine. in terms of food it was you who cooks here but him and it was one of the thing he tought that could get you close.

“i want to make vegetables with rice.”

“i am not sure if we have everything.”

“then we should chceck.”

johnny was looking for chicken, rice and other ingredients but there was small amount of everything he needed.

“it’s fine. i can go to grocery store.”

“will you? thank you so much.”

store was less than one km so it didn’t take you long to go there. while walking you had different feeling in your chest. something was wrong and you could feel like it was warning. it was driving you crazy how stupid it was.

dinner was good and to bo honest johnny was a good cook. everything tasted just fine and he seems to be proud of himself. after cleaning it was around ten pm and johnny felt heat. something shifted in him. all of sudden he felt need of touching you. feel you.

“i’ve missed doing that.” johnny whispered by your neck. “please, let’s do it tonight or i’ll explode.”

your heart skipped a beat. johnny haven’t touch you in a two months or more and now he is desperate to do it. even tho you wanted to do it you still weren’t sure.

“it wouldn’t be good if you explode.” you giggled

johnny was kissing down your neck and came to your lips. kiss was like a mark of your love which was complicated. both of you let go of any toughts and just went straight to the business.

an hour passed, and johnny was already sleeping but you couldn’t. sleep didn’t want to happen and it was making you annoyed. you will have to be up at seven and you’re craving good sleep but it’s seems like your mind has other plans. all you could think of was johnny. sex with him felt wrong and different. it wasn’t making love but it was.. just sex. empty. that’s how it felt to you and you had no idea why. you loved johnny but you felt it’s not the same from his side. for last month he tried his best but it didn’t feel right. it was fake. your intuition tried to warn you but you are ignoring it.

17.10.2021 was a date when johnny asked on a meeting. it wasn’t date. for sure it wasn’t. deep down you felt that something that happenes today will make your life different. not sure what but you kind of feel coming to an end. johnny is going to be at home around seven and then take you to the place he choose. you still had some time so you managed to get dressed in a beautiful red dress johnny bought you on your second anniversary. black high heels, pair of pearls and light makeup with red lips. you even straighten your hair because you wanted to feel pretty tonight. your guts told you it’s night changes. changes will happen tonight for sure. looking in to the mirror made you smile softly because you looked as beautiful as ever.

“i can’t believe we’re here.” you said when you saw similiar diner. “i’ve missed this place so much.”

“me too. i tought we should visit it.”

johnny tried not to look at you too much because he couldn’t focus.

“your grandma still take good care of it.” he nodded. “nothing has changed.”

“yeah, it’s seems like we’re on our date from three years ago again.”

“i know right.”

johnny made an order and you waited. his grandma smiled widely when she noticed both of you having a table. she was happy because of her grandson and his girlfriend.

“it feels differet now. maybe place is the same but our goal is different.” both of you giggled but it was one of this awkward ones. “it’s so awkward, oh god.”

“i know what do you mean, johnny.” you smiled even tho you felt like crying. “if you’re going to let me down, do it gently. i can’t live any longer in such a situation.”

johnny already felt scared.

“we’ve spent perfect three years together. every thing we have done together is preciours and is one of my most valuable memories. i love you y/n and i’ll will for sure for some time more. i wish we could spend more time together but we’re in blind spot.” you didn’t want to cry but tears were faster. “we’re not meant for each other. i guess we don’t feel each other gasps. we’re too diferent and we are fighting way too much. our passion on love disapeared long ago.”

“johnny don’t tell me you love me. maybe you did a long ago at some point but if you’d love me everything would go another way. our love is like water under the bridge. it’s a past we don’t regonize today.” few tears wend down your cheeks. “maybe i’m not the one for you. i mean, for sure i am not. we don’t fit each other as we tought, don’t we?”

johnny felt like he is going to lose it when he saw you crying.

“i tried to make our time better. i wanted to but it’s impossible. maybe in another universe we are bond to be together.”

“i hope we’re happy in another universe.”

“for sure we are. it’s hard for me to do it but we have to part our ways y/n.” single tear went down his cheek but he was fast to get rid of it. “i’ve spent my best years by your side. i am thankful for everything we had. i am thankful for you and your presence in my life. i don’t know what else should i do.”

“you see, i didn’t want much. i have never asked you for much all i wanted was you to love me but unierse has other plans towards us. i still love you but you’re right. our relationship is past and we’re not meant for each other. i want you to be happy with me but it’s not possible.” you smiled through tears. “please, take care of yourself and find your other half in some time but don’t do it too quickly.”

man in front of you knew what you meant. even tho you’re in present you think of past. whole relationship is past now. johnny suh is now your past.

“of course y/n. just know i’ve truly loved you and i appreciate you today. our love wasn’t enough to keep us together back in days.” johnny didn’t notice when he was crying. “it’s hard to let go of person you spend most of your life with.” he giggled sadly. “let’s eat and move on.”

all you could do was to nodd. johnny and you split ways after few years. time was right but it was wrong person. love you had in yourself wasn’t supposed to be johnny’s but someone else who was mystery for now. for today you know it but you don’t want to let go of you, now, ex boyfriend. you wish it was a nightmare and you wake up to johnny holding you tight.

grandma noticed both of you were crying. she was confused because johnny didn’t tell her anything specific about your date.

eating while crying was different kind of pain and you felt like an idiot. johnny didn’t even look up because he would start crying again and he knew his grandma was watching both of you from afar.

“it was lovely time.” you spoke while getting up. “i’m going to go. take care of yourself johnny.” he was looking at you but you avoid his gaze. taking your things you left.

grandma was looking at you with concern. “aigoo, why are you crying? did something happen?”

“no.” you smiled. “food was amazing as always. thank you.” you bowed.

an older woman didn’t have a chance to ask another question since you already left moving towards bus station. she just looked at her grandson and come there quickly.

“what happened?” she sat in front of him and johnny just couldn’t keep it in. he was crying like a little boy. “aigo, my child.”

older woman came to him and held him tightly, comforting him.

“me and y/n broke up.”

“aish, my love.” she whispered. “that means you weren’t destinated. i am sad she wasn’t the one but there is no reason to let yourself down. you need time.”

half a year later

your life changed a bit. you dropped job you had to get hired in a new company. your friends and co-workers tried to make you stay but you knew if you do then you will never get rid of johnny, and you will never be to move on. besides your new job was much better and they paid you ten times more. thanks to money you earned you could buy a small house at the edge of the town. it took you a while to move on from johnny. many nights and many crying hours passed until you were able to get over him. you declined any contact with him to avoid feelings and ache in your heart.

“i am so proud of you now.” jongin took a sip of coffee. “i am glad you’re doing good now. and i’m glad we’re basicaly neighbours.”

“me too. it’s good to have you next to me and thank you. i feel better now.”

jongin and you were in johnny’s grandma diner.

“don’t you think about him no more?”

“i don’t think so.” while talking you were looking at the view and you could remember memories of you and him. “i still love him deep down but i don’t think about him much. i am free of him.”

“good for you. your healing process is done now. it’s time for you to open your heart to other people. stop liviing in the past and live your present.”

laugh and giggles could be hear around you. you felt at peace now. while your conversation, mrs. suh was looking at you with warm smile. she adored the way you was now much happier than she had ever seen you before. she also wished her grandson was the one with you right now but she knew it’s not supposed to be like that.

“ma? what you’re looking at-”

johnny asked but quickly went silent when he looked at the spot his grandma was looking at. sight of you laughing with jongin made him sick. all the memories hit him in a seconds. he could only stare and watch both of you having fun.

“i think it’s her other half she needs.” she whispered to his ear. “they’re meant for each other johnny. i see it in the way they look at each other.”

“he is my co-worker.”

“so what?” she slapped him in the shoulder. “you can’t take his happines to granted because you’re friends at work. i guess she still loves you and isn’t ready for relatonship but when it will happen don’t do anything stupid. she doesn’t know yet.”

“if that’s what makes her happy.”

of course johnny had a bit of feelings to you. they have never disapeared completly and it was killing him. he had no idea it was jongin who was supposed to yours from the beginning and not johnny.

while you were talking with jongin, you could feel someone was watching you. at the corner of your eye you caught well known sillhouete of your ex boyfriend. johnny was looking at you few more seconds and was gone. sudden urge to cry took best of you but jongin was there to take care of it. jongin was comforting you while you were crying because of love towards your ex.

couples aren’t perfect from the beginning and in the most cases none of them were meant for each other just like you and your ex. everything comes to and end and that’s how your relationship looked like. past. it was painful past you can’t live in forever. johnny suh was your past and love both of you shared was like a water under the bridge - unspoken past.

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