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scoonsalicious · 9 days

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Unwanted: Chapter 26, Unsurprising - Pt. 2

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn’t be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language, mentions of sex trafficking, drug use, jealousy

Word Count: 890

Previously On...: You and Bucky had a good discussion about how to forgive.

A/N: "Brother?" Yeah, that's a whole different kind of fic... lol

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Thank you to all those who have been reading; if you like what you've read, likes, comments, and reblogs give me life, and I truly appreciate them, and you!

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The two of you fell into an easy rhythm after that. Working together came as naturally as breathing, and you almost wished you had had the opportunity to do it long before now, before everything had gone to shit between the two of you.

Though you were feeling better, Bucky insisted you call in for that night’s shift at the Wiggle Room. “You just experienced a major trauma,” he’d told you. “Give yourself a night to heal, please.” You really couldn’t argue with that, so you called the club, putting it on speaker.

“Viggle Room,” a heavily accented voice said on the other end of the line, “vhere every viggle haz a purpose, every giggle iz magic. Ziz is Dimitri speaking.”

You stifled a laugh at the clubs heretofore unknown tagline. “Uh, hey, Dimitri; it’s Cherry.”

“Ah, little dove!” the big man bellowed across the line, “you are to be coming in soon to see Dimitri tonight, yes?”

“Uh, yeah, about that.” You nibbled nervously on the skin of your thumb. “Listen, Dimitri, I’m not going to be able to make my shift. I, uh, had a bad reaction to some pills I took last night,” you offered, hoping he would buy your fib. “Ended up having to go to the hospital.”

“Little dove, no!” Dimitri sounded genuinely concerned. “And zat durak boyfriend of yourz haz left you alone. Does little dove need Dimitri to come take care of her?”

Oh, fuck. You’d forgotten that you’d used the excuse that you and your ‘boyfriend,’ Sam, had broken up, and that’s why he wasn’t going to be around anymore. You’d have to make sure to tell him that Dimitri thought he was an idiot.

“Um, no, Dimitri,” you said quickly, “I’m alright. My, uh…” You paused, trying to think of some excuse to keep him from trying to come over to the safehouse. “My brother’s here with me,” you finished lamely.

“‘Brother’?” Bucky mouthed with a smirk and a quirk of his eyebrow. You gave him a panicked look and shrugged; it was the best you could come up with on the spot.

“But thank you so much for offering, Dimitri,” you added, wanting to keep Kozlov’s right hand man on your side in case you ended up needing more from him in the future. “It’s just so sweet of you to offer. Really.”

Dimitri chuckled on the other end of the phone. “Tell no one, but little dove iz Dimitri’s favorite of all Kozlov’s girls. Only little dove iz so kind as to take time to speak to Dimitri, ask about hiz day. Little dove haz good heart. Dimitri not forget zat.”

You were momentarily at a loss for words. Sure, the man had ties to a sex trafficking operation, but you didn’t know the extent to which he was actually involved, and he had always been kind to you. It made you a little sad to think about how you’d only been manipulating him this entire time.

“Thanks, Dimitri,” you said, needing to end the call before you said something stupid. “You’re my favorite of all Kozlov’s guys, too, you know.” That wasn’t even a lie. The bar was just really, really low.

“Ah, little dove make Dimitiri blush!” he laughed. “Now, go get rest, Dimitri will tell Kozlov little dove is sick. Oh, and little dove?” he added. “Zis iz vhy you should not be taking all Kozlov’s drugz, yes? Iz not safe.”

You assured him you’d learned your lesson about illegal substances (that was the truth, at least) and, thanking him, disconnected the call. You looked up to see Bucky scrutinizing you, an unreadable expression on his face.

“What?” you asked, moving past him to place your phone on its charger in your room.

“Nothing, little dove,” he said, mouth turning up into a smirk. “Just hadn’t realized you were… fraternizin’ with the targets, is all.”

“Stop,” you warned, turning around to face him again. “It’s not like that.”

“Oh, it’s not?” Bucky asked, and this time you noticed a hard edge to his teasing. “Tell me, little dove,” he said, giving the words every bit of the same accented inflection Dimitiri had, yet somehow making them sound so much fucking hotter, “how was dear old Dimitiri planning on taking care of you, then? He one of your twenty-eight?”

Holy shit, you thought with some sick satisfaction and sense of pride, was he actually… jealous? A part of you wanted to play into it, see how far you could push him, get him riled up, but the part of you that had had her insides scraped out last night honestly wasn’t in the mood.

“Don’t be gross,” you said instead. “He’s decent. Honestly, the only guy in that entire damned place who’s been remotely kind to me.”

“Decent?” Bucky asked, clearly not buying your assessment of the Russian henchman.

“Yeah, well, you know,” you defended, “as decent as a guy whose boss is on the Hydra payroll probably can be. He’s never been inappropriate, or creepy. Or even stared at me too long when I danced. Not once. And he’s been on my ass about the drugs.”

“Yeah, alright,” said Bucky with a chuckle. “This Dimitri’s a saint.”

“Not a saint,” you countered. “Just, you know, not evil.”

Bucky shrugged a shoulder and waved a hand. “Semantics.”

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 5 months

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Tumblr Fandom: A Year in Review 2023

Tagged by @mistmarauder and I'm pretty sure I'm contractually obligated to do as she says so...

Top Five Blorbos: Eddie Diaz, Evan "Buck" Buckley, Patrick Jane, Edgin Darvis, Xenk Yendar

Top Five Fandoms: 9-1-1, Fast & Furious, Dungeons and Dragons: Honor Among Thieves, The Mentalist, The Witcher

Top Five OTPs: Buddie, Xedgin, whatever the hell Dom/Brian is called (there is so little fanfic for them I am weeping), Jisbon, House/Shenanigans uh I mean House/Wilson/Cuddy

Shoutout to Some New Friends: @princessfbi and @tulipfromtheinternet have been very kind to me, leaving treats out on their porches for me to sniff. I even let them pet me after a few months of slowly earning my trust!

Shoutout to Some Old Friends: @mistmarauder and @catdadeddie are two friends I grew closer with this year, and have done a lot to restore my trust in people. They've put up with an unfair amount of prickliness and distrust on my part with grace and love. @evcndiaz has also put up with me dropping into her inbox with fun (horrifying) facts about human anatomy, which earns her a gold medal. And of course @givemeunicorns @devilsbrokerank @captainofthefallen and @extasiswings continue to be my rocks and remind me that there are good people in this world, and that some of those good people might actually love me.

Favorite Creation You Posted This Year: Genuinely I feel like with my Halloween fics I have done the best work in my fanfiction career. I'm shocked at how proud I am of the fanfics I put out this year, including my Wednesday fic and my Xedgin fics. It's impossible for me to choose a favorite.

Favorite Creation Posted by Someone Else This Year: @kittykatthetacodemon had me reading fic for fandoms and ships I'm not even in or shipping? she's just that fucking good? holy shit go watch Mag7 and then read her fics just. just do it.

People Who Brightened Your Year: @lisbonsteresa always and forever brightens my days, and it was a delight this year to be in the same fandom again as she got me hooked on The Mentalist, @mistmarauder always makes me laugh even (especially) when she's roasting me, and @extasiswings helped me get away from the real world a couple times when I needed it.

Anyone Else You'd Like to Mention: I'm so grateful to all of my readers, always. Your enthusiasm and comments are what keep me going. Thank you thank you thank you.

Five of Your Favorite Authors This Year: I'll be honest I have barely read any fanfic this year since I simply haven't had time but a quick shout out again to @kittykatthetacodemon because Mist forced me to read her fanfics at gunpoint and I've never been so happy to be at gunpoint after reading them. I've reread her Hobbs & Shaw fics literally a dozen times, she nails the hysterical over-the-top banter from the F&F films and it has me giggling every time.

Oh and @henswilsons. Forever and always making me laugh with your delightful fics. Never stop, dear.

Five of Your Favorite Artists/Gifmakers/Podficcers/Etc. This Year: @captain-hen so many times I see a gifset that makes me insane and it's by you, you menace. @like-the-rest-of-la lovely art from a lovely person. @bucksketch you make art that has me screeching and twirling my hair and kicking my feet. @mistmarauder your podfics, babe, you know how much I adore them. Um I'm terrible at remembering urls (I'm even worse with names). Uh. Um. Uhhhh. Uhhhhhhh... *we're all still waiting days later*

Three Things You're Looking Forward to in 2024: 9-1-1 SEASON SEVEN BABEEEEEEY

#tagging thing #about mads

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intersexfairy · 1 year

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I know a lot of minors aren't taught internet safety, so here are some internet safety tips. I learned these growing up, and by not being safe as a minor. Please note some of these have exceptions if a trusted adult is involved.

First, throw away the idea of the internet as a safe place. It is not safe. It never was and never will be safe. There are far too many people and things running around on the internet for it to be safe for anyone - adults included. But we can modify how we use it to minimize risk - that's all "internet safety" is. So, that said:

Do not give or display personal information (especially not to people you don't know offline). Use an alias, even on email accounts. Don't tell people how old you are, or where you live. Don't post your face, or pictures of anyone or thing that could be used to identify you. Keep any account with personal information private, only viewable to people you know in person. Make sure a trusted adult or friend is aware of what you do online - someone who knows things in case anything happens.

If you need to break some of the above rules due to dangers you face in person, stay anonymous. Blur your face and other identifying info. Make throwaway accounts. Only share what's necessary to help you, and nothing more. Be careful about where you seek help. If possible, find an organization with online resources or a hotline.

Stay away from adult spaces and pay attention to content warnings. Filter tags and phrases (ex: minors dni, nsfw, [insert your trigger here]). TW/CW tag content you post, too. Don't follow NSFW accounts, and certainly don't make one - there is no exception. Any sexual expression is best kept between you and your friends, in a safe, offline place. And any adult who tells you it's okay to be in 18+ spaces as a minor does not care about your safety.

Also, ideally, follow age ratings on media - social media and apps included. I know, this one isn't fun. Even Tumblr is 17+. You can have some really positive experiences on apps like this, so I wont tell you to gtfo. But you can just as easily have some awful ones. If you ever feel unsafe or distressed on a platform, please know you have every right to leave. Nothing is more important than your safety and wellbeing.

Lastly, I'm upset to say this one, but please dont fucking harass people. If you don't like someone, block them. And if someone is harming someone else, report them and let others know to block them. Harassing people online can, genuinely, kill them. I saw it happen the other day. (I mean this in the least hostile way possible) If you can't understand why this is wrong - that your actions and views may not always be justified - it is not safe for you to be online. In tandem with this, don't engage with upsetting things. Delete your discourse blog. Trust me - it's better to spend your energy on things that are actually fun and positive.

In summary: Stay anonymous. Keep private information private. Curate your online experience. Stay out of 18+ spaces as a minor. Be careful with who you trust, and treat people how you want to be treated. And while you do all this? Have fun! Remember, the internet (probably) isn't going anywhere. If you need a break, take it. Be kind to yourself - and others. The more people do this, the safer we all can use the internet.

#ifairy #internet #internet safety #tumblr #tumblr meta #social media

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xiaojuun · 5 months

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to my beloved mutuals who contributed to the big birthday project spearheaded by millie i truly can't tell you how special and loved you all made me feel 🥹 it really means so much that all of you would take the time to share such thoughtful and lovely things. now that i have had all day to process and time to sit down to thank all of you ... let's gaaaur 😎

roro! @sunghanbin thank you always for your kind words and for seeing in me what i can only believe is the warmth reflected back from what you put out into the world 💖 i'm glad you've stood by me from my filtering nct era to my full on nctzenization without even batting a lash, even if my bias reveal was unexpected 🤭 #thanks_jaehyun

vianey! @souladies thank you so much for taking the time to wish me well and contribute to this. you are such an integral presence in my tumblr experience, i am always so happy to see your creations in my tag after a long stretch of not being here, and in so many ways it's you who always makes me feel welcome back 🥹

aweks! @awek-s my sweet bean, i hope you know i'm always cheering for you! i wish for a world where everyone can feel seen, heard, and supported by their healthcare team - i know it's far from the reality, but i'll always work hard to be at least be that nurse myself. you are so important to the world and to me, pls don't forget it 💖

rosie! @kimjiwoong I MISS U first of all and thank you so much for adding your love to the mix 💖 i cannot remember the day we first talked but that's probably because it's just felt like you've always been here, and i'm always excited to see you 🥹

lili! @ninqz my little crabby ... thank you for taking the time to contribute to this (and make me a gifset!) when i know it's been a hard and busy semester. thank you for always entertaining my random fun facts and for thinking they're fun in the first place ahbgjha and i hope we'll get to catch up more soon 💖

brina! @aquablues my babieeee and of course my little sibling 4ever (4brina). i'm so proud of you and learn a lot from the way you live so true to yourself. honored to be a virtual big sister and excited to see where life keeps taking u !! my love will be in that cargo pants pocket every step 😎

lulu! @fushigojos as you know i am always so fond of u ! even if we aren't living txt comeback to txt comeback together anymore . i'm glad we both feel the same 'forever-friend' kind of love. i'll always be in your corner !! 💖

sofi! @yeofi thank you for always caring about me and sticking around since the beginning of it all! no matter how busy we may get or how hard both of us are working (sometimes too hard) we always have each other's back 💖

miha! @jaebeomtual i got emotional for real 😭 thank you for being so generous with your love, i'm someone who i think struggles with putting affection into words and you make it look so easy while still feeling so genuine and managing to make me laugh at the same time as i am like my heart is going to burst rn . i'm so grateful to call you loml and hope you know how much positivity and peace and laughter i get from you.

aléks! @possession1981 one day we will hang out irl and it will be the easiest and best time ever. i'm always here for you and so glad that you trust me and that i can be like a big sister to you when you need it 💖 i always admire you and am so grateful for our friendship!

rachel! @gnanii my ate 💖 though we are definitely different, i think that's what makes us strong. i think i've said it before but i always have had a hard time letting people take care of me, and yet you manage to make me feel so taken care of in a way that's easy. thank you for being willing to travel for me, for sharing the pain of teumeism with me, for every jae selfie you make sure i see bc we all know i don't get weverse notifications, for sharing the highs and lows of real life as well as kpop, and for being the amazing friend and person you are. can't wait until we see each other again 🤗

mary! @dongkwan so weird to tag you in a tumblr post when we spend all the time just texting each other lol but i have to give you a shoutout for somehow managing not to tell me that this was being plotted. i'm so glad that i decided to get into kpop, immediately told you about it, and for how much it's continued to bring us together ever since. looking forward to embarrassing myself at omega x with you soon 💖

meg! @hozierbyrne what can i say really ... thank you for everything you did to help make this happen. you are a wizard of making me feel special and listened to all the time but it never ceases to lift me up regardless. i read all the things you think about me as a friend and i'm like no way, that's you! but i think it goes to show that we really are aligned in what we look for in a friendship, which is probably also why it's felt like we've been friends for decades instead of whenever things escalated on tumblr to the point of me being like sure i will get on a plane and share a bed with this person i've never met , . and i'm glad we keep getting on planes and i'm so excited for when you'll get on one to see me here. i promise to have the best, most cancelable powerpoint yet ready to present to you 💖 love u

millie! @berryjaellie clears throat what the heck this was so unbelievably lovely of you i can't believe you even considered for half a second that i wouldn't like it. i loved it !!! thank you for taking so much time to consider all of these Things About Me and talking to people about them and then putting it all together in this incredibly thoughtful, detailed, super cute package that i cannot stop staring at and have shared with my parents + irl friends because of how much it meant to me. and of course for everything you yourself had to share and say. ever since the first time you said something along the lines of 'not just a friend like you, but you as a friend' i really have started thinking more in that way and using that because it really makes a difference and i want you to know that i'm just as glad to have not a friend like you, but you as a friend. i laughed, i cried, i felt so treasured as i looked through this (multiple times) and that's all you and your thoughtfulness. thank you for being the first to wish me a happy birthday in the most powerful, loving way. it, and you, mean so much to me 💖

#WHEW ... TLDR I LOVE U ALL !!!!!!!!!!

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writingquestionsanswered · 1 year

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Where and how do I get a critique partner and at what time of writing should I get one, when I'm beginning or half way or done

Guide: All About Critique Partners

What is a Critique Partner?

A critique partner is another writer who reads your draft and provides constructive feedback in exchange for you doing the same for them. The key here is the "exchange" part. You shouldn't enter a critique partnership unless you are willing to put in the time and effort to read the other person's draft and offer well thought out feedback.

When Should I Look for a Critique Partner?

It's best to wait until you have a finished draft before you look for a critique partner. Otherwise, you run the risk of having to write as you go, which can drag things out and be an inconvenience.

Some writers like to do some level of polishing--even in a first draft--before they give their manuscript to a critique partner. This way, the CP doesn't get snagged on spelling and grammatical errors, typos, missing punctuation, etc., and can put more thought and effort into other areas of feedback.

How Do I Find a Critique Partner?

The best way to find a critique partner is to find a writing community that you like, start interacting, and see if you click with anyone. Or, see if anyone there is looking for a critique partner or is interested in partnering up. You can find writing communities on every social media platform, here on Tumblr, and on writing forums like NaNoWriMo, Absolute Write Water Cooler, and the Reddit writing community. You can also often find groups, posts, or threads specifically dedicated to finding critique partners. I have one here at @wqacritandbeta however it's not super active. There are a few recent posts, though, so well worth a look!

You can also try putting a call out on you Tumblr. You can use the posts on wqacritandbeta as an example of what kind of information to share in a post like that. Then, be sure to use tags that will get it seen by the Tumblr writing community and writers in your genre.

What Should I Look For in a Critique Partner?

Since critique partnerships are a partnership, it's important to seek a critique partner who is at a similar skill level, similar experience level, and a similar stage in their writing journey. Otherwise you risk being out of sync and giving or receiving feedback that is below the skill level needed for improvement. Look for someone who:

-- you seem to click with well -- writes the same genre or same type of story as you do -- is at a similar skill level -- is at a similar experience level -- is at a similar stage in their writing journey -- (ideally, but not necessarily) is at the same draft stage

How Do I Know I Can Trust Them?

Many writers worry that giving their story or manuscript to a stranger puts them at risk of having their work stolen or plagiarized. While this is a natural and understandable concern, when you consider the number of manuscripts being swapped during any given week or month, it genuinely doesn't happen that often. However, there are things you can do to help protect yourself:

1 - Look for established members of your chosen writing community. When someone interacts in the writing community and seems to be friendly with other established members, there's some built-in accountability there.

2 - Look for someone who has at least a small social media footprint. If they have a reasonably active social media account where they talk about writing (at least occasionally), and seem to have some other writer friends, that's another layer of built-in accountability.

3 - Look for someone who is ready to swap manuscripts when you're ready to swap. If they're willing to trust you with their manuscript, there's a better chance you can trust them with yours.

4 - Get to know them before swapping. Spend a little time chatting with them in DMs or e-mail before you actually swap manuscripts. Not only is this an opportunity talk about expectations, if they're someone you can establish a bit of a friendship with right off, you're probably in good hands.

5 - Start with first chapters only. A great way to test the waters with a potential critique partner is to start with a first chapter swap. This is a good way to make sure you're a good fit, and it's also a good way to build up a little rapport with them ahead of the big swap.

What do critique partners do, and how do swaps work?

In general, your critique partner will read your first chapter and/or draft and make notes on what works, what doesn't, plot holes, pacing issues, characterization problems, continuity errors, really anything that jumps out as an issue. Some critique partners are happy to also note errors in spelling, punctuation, grammar, formatting, etc. It will be up to you to talk to your critique partner, let them know what you're interested in, and see what they're willing to do. Feedback is typically left within the document, such as via the review feature on Microsoft Word. Before you swap first chapters or manuscripts,you should also take a few minutes to outline your expectations and set some ground rules. What kind of feedback are you looking for? Are there areas you want them to focus on or not worry about? Do you want them to be gentle or go scorched earth on your draft? Is it okay with you if they reach out with questions about your feedback and vice versa? Also: be sure to figure out when you'd both like to be finished with the swap so you have an agreed upon deadline.

What happens once I get my feedback?

Once you return their manuscript and get yours back, you will read through their feedback and take it into consideration. You may find that you don't agree with everything, which is fine. You're not obligated to change anything based on their feedback, however, it's a good idea to seriously consider their thoughts. If they're okay with you reaching out with questions, feel free to ask if there's feedback you don't understand. However, it's not the time or place to get defensive, argue, or try to explain things. If you have to explain a story element to the critique partner after they've already read your manuscript, that's a good sign that you need to work on that element.

That's about it! Good luck with your search!

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Hi! I'm terribly sorry for bothering you, but I would like your thoughts if you don't mind!

I'm having a hard time enjoying my own writing. I genuinely think it's terrible, and that anytime people say it's good, I think they are lying. I really try and like it, but most the time I end up not liking it. I would not say I'm a good writer, but I'm not a bad one; just somewhere in between? If that makes sense?

I want to get better at writing, which takes practice, and I was wondering if you had an advice possibly?

Thank you for your time 😊

Hello there!

No worries, you are not bothering me at all! In fact, I quite like talking about writing, so anyone should feel free to ask me such questions!

Now, I'm not sure if you're looking for advice on how to get better at writing or advice on how to not dislike your own writing. So I'll kinda talk about both since they tend to go hand in hand.

First and foremost, I totally understand the feeling you're describing and you should know that you are not alone! This is by far the type of thing people ask me about writing most frequently. Is it normal to not like your own writing? How do you overcome it? Do you ever get to a point where you feel like your writing is good?

It's really difficult to tell how good your own writing is. You're always going to see it differently because you wrote it.

How you should perceive your own work depends on your reason for writing. I tend to assume people here are writing fanfiction for fun. In that case, the best thing to do is to judge your writing based on how much fun you had writing it. If you enjoyed writing it, then it actually doesn't matter if it's good or bad. You wrote something, you had fun, and you gained experience about how to write while doing it.

It's like playing an instrument. You have to practice a song in order to play it. You aren't going to play it well the first several times you try. But you can still have fun playing, even if you play badly. The more you do it, the better you get, until you can play the song well. And you had fun the whole time.

Writing is the same. You write bad stuff continually, getting better and better each time, until eventually you're writing good stuff. The key is to have fun writing the bad stuff. (Or at least, what you perceive to be bad, which is never as bad as you think it is.)

How to get better at writing in general aside from practice? Read.

Read the kind of writing that you want to get better at. For instance, if you want to write mystery novels, read mystery novels. If you want to write novel length fic, read novel length fics.

But also read about how to write. Read books about how to create scenes, how to develop characters, etc etc. Find blogs of writers you admire and read through all the writing advice they've posted. Listen to podcasts about it, watch youtube videos, basically find any kind of writing advice out there and consume it. You don't have to actually do any of that stuff. But it will give you things to try and might also give you your own ideas for writing methods that might work for you.

The more knowledge you have about the craft of writing, the more you have to draw from when it comes to doing it yourself.

For what it's worth, I almost never re read my own fics. For me the fun is in the writing, not the reading. I trust the reactions of people on tumblr far more than I do my own thoughts on it. If someone here leaves me a single reblog with comments in the tags, I consider that fic a success, whether I like it when I read it or not.

It gets easier with time, but that feeling never really goes away. You just learn to challenge it and question it. Because it's never accurate.

I hope some of that helped! Please feel free to ask me anything you like, I'm happy to talk about writing all day every day lol!

Good luck with your writing! I believe in you!

#it's all mind games with yourself lol #the hoops we have to jump through sometimes to create I swear #writing #writing advice #thefandomthings #misc answers

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yesmissnyx · 9 months

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Hello, Miss Nyx. I'm around 25, and I've only recently gotten into this sort of thing- and mostly on a sideblog, until I realized how much more limited they are. How do you get past the fear of being judged for kink/being sexual in public places like tags?

Hey there! Oh man, this is a question that got me thinking. So, uh, long post incoming!

Okay, so...being unapologetically horny has been something I've been wanting to do for most of my adult life, but I've only managed to get over my fears of being judged/being seen as inappropriate this year. In my 30s. A little past the point where greater society sees as conventionally desirable, oops.

That being said, it didn't just happen magically! it's taken a lot of working on myself and introspection to get to the point where I feel confident enough to do this. What's helped the most though, is the following:

-> Trusting in myself enough to read the room, and post things in appropriate places. I'm generally careful to make sure my stuff is mature-locked (which, THANK YOU TUMBLR for finally adding that!) and finding tags that can be easily searched AND filtered.

Blocking/filtering makes it so that someone only has to see me ONCE before they can block me and never see me again. It's not my responsibility to make myself everyone's taste, you know? It's not even possible! If someone doesn't want to see me, they are more than welcome to block me or my personal tags.

All I can do is go, "This is the content I want to create," create it, and then put it places where it can be found.

-> If I do mess up, or someone gives me feedback that makes me question whether I should change something, I also trust in myself to take criticism with grace and respond to it rationally. Sometimes criticism (or feedback) is coming from a place of genuine helpfulness. Sometimes it's coming from a place of entitlement.

Either it aligns with my values, or it doesn't. By knowing what kind of content I *want* to make, it's easier to decide what feedback I want to give space to.

-> And finally, I trust myself to deal with any harassment, bullying or negativity that comes my way. It'll feel bad in the moment, but I've dealt with enough of that during my life that I know the bad feelings will eventually pass, and I'll be okay in the end.

Like I said--I have no intention to be everyone's taste. There are going to be people who get mad at me for any number of stupid reasons!

(People are very good at doing that, especially on social media.)

But all I can do is try my best to save that mental real estate for the VERY KIND and VERY LOVELY people who have shown me appreciation for what I do.

It sucks, because the reality of the situation is that you have to put yourself out there to receive that kind of support, and find the emotional freedom that comes with receiving that kind of support.

It's hard, and it's taken me a long time to get here, but so far it's absolutely been worth it 💞 Good luck on your own journey!

#long post #ask nyx #nyxrambles #Also this is only one of my homes on tumblr! Go make another account if you feel like it'll help!#Compartmentalization is good and we should all do it more in the current era of socmed #And before anyone asks no you do not get to see my main ;)#kink discussion #kink and mental health

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starredforlife · 3 months

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Jeez, do really so many people say they find you intimidating? Granted, I don't know you irl, and even here through Tumblr I'm just one person who follows you and that's it, but still, to me you always seemed nice? Enthusiastic. Goofy, even. I like your style, it IS masc and #cool, but like... I don't feel like that makes you intimidating. "Nomás sos canchera", to put it in Argentine terms.

Btw I'm just sending this due to your tags on that poll 'cause Ik you have mentioned that before andbI felt like the outsider who doesn't find you mean and intimidating, don't pay that much attention to me 😅

Idk it’s like conversations I’ve had with a couple people recently and it absolutely isn’t all based on appearance BUT that’s part of it that’s been told to me. Not suggested but cited. So!!

However I would say it’s more personality. Ofc on here I’m more fun n goofy bc it’s Star’s Mind Palace. I repost pictures and draw werewolf art and I’m vain and silly in the tags. It’s relatively earnest. When I meet people I’m not like, guarded in a mean dog way, but I put up a front. Most of how I talk comes out as a mask of metered and Sharp jackassery, with a confusing blend of genuine interest in people. I’ll talk to you like I need you to prove yourself to me. But also I want to make sure you feel included. This, I’m learning, terrifies people. Mostly I learned this when I was young bc I had to prove my intelligence constantly, so I emulated that intense scrutiny in conversation, I think, and I work in a v male dominated industry that absolutely hates the gentle approach to conversation (for the record, I do not hate it and respect it immensely. It’s also just not how I naturally work unless I’m in a more vulnerable setting).

It can be summed up by the fact that I shake girl’s hands when I meet them in gay bars. Apparently. That is not. The expected thing to do.

Idk I had a whole paragraph after this but it disappeared. I was saying smthn abt how I was. Working on it. Essentially. I Don’t Care how people perceive me bc I trust my perception first. I’ve always designated it as the other person’s problem if they dislike me. I’m learning how people perceive you matters for specific things. Especially friendships. This is very hard for me to grapple with bc I don’t like when others tell me what to do or how to be, At All.

It’s all in moderation ykwim. I’m not going to give up my confidence or my standards but I will work on trying to not make people feel like they’re cornered into a social pass or fail exam when they first meet me. I am intense and I can’t stand bullshit and sometimes I’m genuinely belittling or judgmental if I’ve decided I don’t like you off the bat (if you have failed the Vic Standards, which are always under deconstruction) and the latter is, in some parts, fun if the other person is a proven asshole. But it’s not really healthy. And I can’t start conversations with earnest intentions that way. So I have to grow. I have to let it matter a little bit.

Sorry, you got like. A Vic psychology breakdown. I’m also intimidating bc I’m great at lying, I speak very professionally, and I respect myself enough to make others feel like they have to do the same. I’m not scared easily and I like making arrogant men feel one step behind me. I maxed out on whatever deck makes you both charismatic and completely unapproachable. You’ll probably never meet me irl but I do think it’s v interesting how im perceived on here and so I appreciate the insight and the question!!

#star’s asks #uhhhh yeah I am not who I am on here irl and people who know me from irl can probably attest #I’m not vastly different. despite this wall of text response I am friendly and sometimes funny and often wholly genuine #it just so happens that I’m also Like This.#I’m just sharp around the edges. I think that’s it.#o thank u for the compliment also!!

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delusion-of-negation · 10 months

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Nang has been arguing with wandering-wolf, a user known to be an asshole, and seems upset that wandering-wolf won't accept and play nice with people giving them extremely homophobic abuse. As in, I'm pretty sure that abuse comes from the n*zi side of Tumblr. Wandering-wolf thinks that nangbaby might be n*zi adjacent because they refuse to condemn what was said and instead attacked wandering-wolf for a stupid tag

my posts about/arguing with nang:

wandering wolf's posts (those I could find):

I assume there's more, given nang's harassing tendencies, but I struggled to find any, given how shit tumblr's search function is

nang has called me an abuser, a groomer, and akin to someone murdering black people, for blocking nang, being friends with a couple of homeless people, and the block again, respectively, it honestly isn't worth giving that harassing bully your time, as the absurd claims nang makes about people to accuse them of legit crimes, over completely normal behaviour, is just disgusting tbh

whether or not nang is a nazi, they certainly like harassing queer people and then berating them for the "abuse" of blocking the lil asshole. they also like being racist and weaponising the murder, oppression, and abuse black people endure to pretend the mass blocks they endure for their disgusting behaviour are the same. meanwhile, they post a picture and name of a woman who they claim is them, but I'm dubious of this claim, and thus have tried overall to avoid spreading or linking to posts that contain it, as it could be dangerous, to the best of my ability while also needing context/evidence of their behaviour. I don't trust nang to be this genuine actor with a genuine ideology, I think there's something going on that I'm, frankly, not equipped to dig into. block them.

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the-slasher-madame · 2 years

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Bro not u saying u have ADHD and autism 💀 doctors say you don't have it, u don't have it. Stop trying to be "special" there's nothing cool with having ADHD or autism believe me, I know. So stop pretending and bullshiting, u make the rest of us look like we're pretending and I'm tried of this shit, go get a actually hobbie instead of faking illnesses

Bro not you sending this anonymously 💀

In all seriousness, a lot of neurodivergent people accept self-diagnosis as a valid thing. The diagnostic criteria for autism and ADHD were developed based off of people who were raised male. Being raised male or female usually means there's different traits that present, and most of the ones that present in someone raised female aren't recognized. Not to mention, both ADHD and autism are a spectrum, meaning a person can pass of easier as neurotypical and still be neurodivergent. And masking is absolutely a thing, as I'm sure you know. Personally, there's a lot of things that I just do that I've never had a name for before (apparently picking my lips is a stim?). And on stims: I was "mature for my age" and thus constantly told myself "you don't need to do that" cause I didn't know stimming was a thing. I'm pretty happy to say that I stim more, and I'm realizing that as a kid, feeling an emotion so hard that you feel like you need to move to properly get through it isn't something everyone does.

Also, you have absolutely no idea what goes through my head on a daily basis. You have absolutely no idea what kind of research I've done, or opinions I've gotten from other nerodivergent people who have told and shown me what these things I feel are, and that they're ok to feel. You don't know the amount of self-loathing I've gone through because I can't make myself get up and draw like I want to, or work on a school project that's due soon and I should really start. You haven't seen how I visualize my mind, how I see it as a cross between a conspiracy board and a mad scientist's lair and a hurricane disaster area. You haven't seen the look of "oh my god there's a name for that?" when I learned that hyperactivity can be mental. I also live in the American South, with a mother who very much cares about how other people perceive both her and her family and about conformity, so I haven't had access to other people's experiences until I hit high school. I also had a lot of influences of "you need to look like other people" and a habit of being too logical with myself. Maybe I don't need something like I need air or water, but I need it in the sense that it greatly improves my experience of life. I've done a lot of this stuff and never even realized there was an explanation, I genuinely thought that I was a bad person and that there was something wrong with me. And I still question that validity of my experiences, but I do my best to learn to trust myself, my experiences, and my friends.

So that's my piece, I promised my bestie that I would be nice. I'm also gonna tag @immortal-velociraptor because I consider them my Tumblr Parent and figure they might have something they want to add (Fang it's ok if you don't wanna deal with this, I get it <3)

#self diagnosis is valid

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stressed-chaos · 2 years

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Memories - Part 14

Sorry for ending this on a cliffhanger, answers will come very soon!

The song lyrics used are italicized (since Tumblr isn't letting me underline)

Hope you all enjoy this part! Comments are appreciated!

I'm also doing tag lists, so if anyone wants to be added, then can tell in the comments.

Warnings: Language, mentions of burning, mentions of crying, pain and manipulation.

(Let me know if I missed any.)

The ride to their home wasn’t too long, but Ben purposely made some unnecessary turns just so he could spend more time with her, he also didn’t want to admit he was genuinely lost. Granted they were still going to be together at their house, but there was something about seeing her humming along to the song on the radio, before getting a little nod from him and both of them singing at the top of their lungs.

Y/N was unknowingly humming to their song, You’re still the one by Shania Twain. The song’s lyrics fit perfectly with their relationship, almost as if it was made for them. They’ve been together for almost a decade, still going strong. Despite the minor inconvenience, Ben is sure she loves him as much, if not more, than before. Her immediate trust in him was all the assurance he needed anyway. They didn’t have the best reaction when they told people of their relationship. In fact the people who were elated about it were Sebastian, (he had been secretly shipping them ever since he met them), Ben’s family, and hesitantly her brother. Her parents either were fine with it, or simply didn’t care, she could not know, their lack of response forcing her to assume the latter. It didn’t help when he got together with that one redhead named Emma, back when he was a teen, before realizing the one he needed had always been by his side.

Ben watched her as her lips moved, mouthing the words to the song, probably not remembering it was the one they danced to the day before she got kidnapped. The actor wasn’t a really big fan of dancing, but he just adored the little dance sessions with her in his arms more than anything. She was scarcely moving in her seat, trying to match the beat, palms flattened on her thighs, leaning back and eyes closed. It looked like she was sleeping, but she was actually thinking while enjoying a song she felt she could relate to, trying to find out why. When she focused hard enough, she could see a man and woman dancing to it, her one hand on his shoulder, while the other interlaced with his and him having his other hand around his waist. She saw a flash of hair that looked suspiciously like the person driving the car, but it disappeared before she could dwell on it.

Lost in her thoughts, she did not see Ben also mouthing the words to the song, eyes moving back and forth between the road and her, stealing glances. He also contemplated keeping his hand on hers, while remembering the times they swayed in their living room, birds chirping in sync with the song. It was a surprise as to how he could drive without crashing into that nearby tree or lamppost, while his brain had put him on a nostalgia train. Was he that of a skilled driver? He gathered up courage at a dreadfully long red light, the road was also pretty empty for mid afternoon, almost like the universe wanted him to work his guts up while extending his hand, “May I have this dance, my lady?”

Y/N chuckled before responding, “Why of course kind sir. But promise me you wouldn’t crash into that comic book store.”

“As you wish, m’lady,” he did his best posh accent.

Fingers interlaced, their voice almost drowning out the original song, they did not notice the song changing to Blackbird by The Beatles. Y/N quickly commented on Ben’s wonderful voice. He blushed while thanking her and looking at her fondly, their eyes met and they got momentarily lost in their gazes, the distance between them slowly shrinking and if it hadn’t been for that blue car’s horn and the song changing to Johnny B. Good by Chuck Berry, which caused her to let out a little squeal, something would have happened.

Ben muttered a quick apology and drove ahead, purposely missing the right turn they had to take. Even the stars couldn’t get him to kiss his love now, could they? Stupid Car. He understood why Mr. Bean hated that car. Stupid Traffic Light for changing abruptly. The old lady just couldn’t have taken a few more moments to cross the road? He would’ve kissed his wife after waiting for more than a year, which was a million in his book.

In Spite of All the Danger by The Quarrymen started playing and Ben could vaguely relate to this particular melody. In spite of everything, he would do anything for Y/N, whatever she asked him to. If she would’ve asked him to burn all his books, (which he is certain she would never), he would’ve, a bit reluctantly yes, but her love would’ve won. He would’ve become Icarus in a heartbeat if it meant fulfilling her wishes. He looked after her as he’d never done before and will continue to do so, if she lets him. In spite of all the pain that came with her not remembering him, or them being apart due to their job or due to that one time where she pushed him away, thinking she wasn’t good enough for him. He would continue to do anything and everything she wants, just to see the smile reaching her eyes and making them shine as if they had miniature versions of stars inside them.

Ben took another unnecessary left turn, although they weren’t very far away from home now, and in sync with him taking the turn, Girl Crush by Little Big Town started playing. It wasn’t the original song, but it was a Harry Styles cover they were playing. Ben was flashed with painful memories as Y/N started singing along. He did notice one thing though, she minutely altered the song. Ben smiled and continued driving, his nostalgia train arriving on a station he prefers to avoid.

Y/N was nervous, with an equally nervous Ben standing beside her. Sebastian was trying to calm her down, seeing as Emma was trying to calm ‘her boyfriend’ down. She wasn’t doing a really good job, but she wasn’t letting Seb do anything and Y/N was in no condition to. Their reasons for being nervous were the same yet different, though Ben didn’t come to know about it until many years later.

Sebastian knew though, just as everything about their relationship and was trying her best to encourage her, while also hoping Ben would come to his senses and end it with Emma, who had tried to separate him from everything he cares for many times, Ben of course oblivious but thankfully rejecting her futile attempts.

Someone had let it slip that Y/N could sing, she did not believe it in much herself, but the teacher somehow had, and had asked her to sing a song of her choice. She wasn’t really scared of making a fool of herself, she was nervous about the performance in general, and about singing a song that are basically her words to Ben.

“Why didn’t they pick you to sing?” Y/N spoke, getting her senses back.

“Don’t know love, but I'm actually glad they didn’t,” Ben retaliated. Taking her hands in his, and completely ignoring Emma, who was trying to get his attention (which earned her an eye roll from Seb and a muttered comment along the lines of “Just fucking date already.” Sadly, it was unheard by anyone but Emma, who scoffed.) he slowly whispered, as if speaking any louder would break the little bubble they were in (a pin named Emma was trying to, and Sebastian wasn’t going to let that pin succeed), “You’ll do amazing out there. Though, you know, it would help if you told me what song you chose.”

Y/N shook her head, “For the 50th time, it’s a surprise.” Ben sighed, giving in, knowing her stubbornness.

The teacher called her up and the opening melody of Girl Crush by Little Big Town began soaring through the room, Y/N clearing her throat mildly before beginning, making direct eye contact with Ben.

I've got a girl crush,

Hate to admit it but,

I got a hard rush,

And it’s slowin’ down.

He recognized the song and mildly made a proud noise, knowing her love of this song. He remembers her telling him that the song holds some actual words she wants to say to someone. Though she did not tell him who, and Ben gave up after he tried bribing her with chocolate or even faking a whole drama or even giving her a speech about their friendship (failing to notice her frown at his words), she still did not give in.

I got it real bad

Want everything she has

That smile and that midnight laugh

She's giving you now

Her eye contact with him didn’t break and he wondered if it was to him. He shot that thought down, slowly, and continued basking in her voice.

I want to taste her lips

Yeah, ‘cause they taste like you

I want to drown myself

In a bottle of her perfume

He was really angry at the person who made her have these thoughts about herself. Oh how he wished she was saying those words to him. He would treat her like she deserves. She wouldn’t have to wish to be anyone else. He didn’t want her to use anyone else’s perfume, her familiar smell was his home. That mixture of strawberry and kiwi and a little of after rain with a little bit of wood, was his safe place. If she started using any other fragrance, he would lose his safe haven.

I want her long red hair

I want her magic touch

Yeah, ‘cause maybe then,

You'd want me just as much

He noticed her gaze flickering just for a second between him and the person on his right. He followed her eyes to see her looking at his girlfriend. Wasn’t the lyric, blonde hair? Did she really mean him? Was it him who had made her feel all that? Him who had made her think she wasn’t enough? Wanting to be someone else? A voice at the back of his head screamed “Yes" and he hated himself and the voice for being true.

I've got a girl crush

Every lyric started making more and more sense now. All the dots connected to change in her behavior, her kind of avoiding him, well…to be fair he noticed the redhead trying to do that too, trying to separate him from his best friends. He was actually about to end things with her today, not giving her a chance to manipulate him even further.

During the last part of the song, Ben saw her eyes fixated on his left, on Sebastian with tears pooling at the edge of her eyes. While everyone else was applauding and congratulating Y/N on her performance, she ran off with Seb going after her.

Ben didn’t waste any time and followed them. He was halted though, after merely two steps by a hand encircling his wrist. He looked up to meet Emma's fiery green eyes, which were nothing compared to his love’s stars-capturing eyes. He knew what he had to do. He shook her hand off, ignored her calling him back and threats to end it and went backstage. He reached just in time to hear “that oblivious bastard.” He deserved more harsh words than this, but with Y/N’s shaky muffled voice it felt like someone had ‘stickest a dagger in his heart.’

He just went and joined the hug, feeling Y/N stiffen and relax against his body. He did not say anything about it for almost another year, when Sebastian literally begged him to, and assured him for what was the millionth time that she sang it for him. He regrets not saying anything sooner to this day, and apologized profusely when everything was alright.

He was broken out of his walk down the memory lane by his neighborhood. It was an amazement of him being able to drive, let alone the correct way, when he literally saw the flashes of his memory. He could still see her holding the mic, little tears in her eyes, his guilt returning . This time, however, he was broken out of his express of thought by another blood curdling scream from Y/N.

#ben barnes #sebastian stan #benjamin barnes #benjamin thomas barnes #ben barnes x reader #ben barnes x y/n #ben barnes x you #sirius black #fanfic #fanfiction #bin bons #sirius orion black #shadow and bone #Memories #i had to give some school days in this one

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incarnateirony · 2 years

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wonder if it's occurred to all the motherfuckers that read my blog that even if they have amnesia about How Wayward Was Made, and Refuse To Believe Current Events Are Happening, that I was the origin of blacklisttaw, and basically the number one event monitor, lead line and legal binder collaborator and it's genuinely funny that people even from that alone don't think anyone of anyone actually reads this blog or somehow engages another method that is beyond tumblr.

Like jesus christ guys just that alone. Yeah I'm saying this shit right in front of all their faces all the time and even see them on the statcounter and a certain motherfucker in central california that NEEDS TO STOP USING MICROSOFT EDGE

but that aside, like. you realize. an author followed my youtube literally like. 4-5 years ago right. And others started sharing my mythic meta starting S14 to pile in atop the actor views from the old shit? Oh wait, you're just going to flat ass deny all that shit like wayward.

Like you realize they 100% know what I say and I'm 100% fucking okay with that even if they don't say anything (or at least very rarely do, there's been a few exceptions even on main). That includes Jared knowing exactly what I think of his politics or whatever else.

It also means idiots like Pat are immortalizing themselves like this to just about every motherfucker part of making the old show

good job

you'll fucking deny that too but whatever. I don't like Mark P on my blog either but goddamn even he shows up to make sure I didn't finally blow his career up this month with blackmail and trust me that's the bottom of the barrel bullshit that streams through. Just waiting for you to just. wrap your grey matter around it. like yeah i blackmailed the FUCK out of Mark P and William Shatner why the fuck do you think they stayed out of blacklisttaw and even shut down TAW stans using MP's tags while they and taw were begging and tagging them for support from historykJDFSDJF rip i'm fuckin mark pellegrino b gon these days. shows up preaching capitalist jesus and I clear my throat behind my new icon and he fucking yeets lmfao

Definitional difference between actual Influencers in name and action, and bigassed wannabe tryhards like pat over there

pat's accomplishments are 7 years of being aggressively wrong about literally everything that wasn't some vague fortune cookie take of his on tumblr and looking like an idiot to an entire crew he never perceives watching and will refuse to believe because that would be SUPER embarrassing.

can't figure out why I rando tag shit like talking to meg fitz about lost world whether or not she answers that given day like. you realize these are real people that grew up with real interests and inspirations and stuff they loved watching right like you guys get this right. If I told you to ask her about Cassie or the Bee she would spurge for hours to you and enjoy every minute but these fandom climbing sons of bitches would never appreciate it, they don't find it convenient, they don't show real interest, and then they don't know why nobody worth a fuck talks to them.

Ask them how their colleagues are doing, not what they're doing. Let her rant about what a genius bobo is and fanperson along with her and treat them like fucking people not faucets you goddamn douchecanoe.

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emeralddoeadeer · 2 years

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So I an very late to this, because i a) wanted to re-read all of Everlong before C22 and b) realy don't know how to summarise everything in the space of one comment.

I stumbled across Everlong by searching the jily tag on AO3 (which is funny to me now because these days I pretty much only read recommended or re-recommended fics from the Tumblrs I follow to avoid questionable things in the tags) and it was genuinely the thing that brought me back into the fandom in any proper way. I've still not made it to the Discord (#anythingispossible), but Everlong has kept me invested in the jily fandom throughout lots of unpleasant nonsense both fandom-wise and life-wise, and I can't thank you enough for that.

Throughout, the characterisation has been so perfect - the way Lily and James interact but also with Marlene, Sirius Remus, etc is so much like what I imagine for them, and I've loved every single side plot. I even loved the Emmeline story - that you managed to make everyone rot for jily and against her without making her an irredeemable bitch. You're an incredible writer, and I feel privileged to have read this fic for free - I'm going to be invested in Ev erlong jily for *so* long.

I'd love it if you ever considered writing anything further for the Everlong universe - past/future oneshots, etc - but am also so excited to see what you write next. I was almost sad when you uploaded C22 because I didn't want it to end and really don't have the words to describe how great a story you've created, but really wanted to at least say something to tell you how much you and your work is appreciated. I'm constantly amazed by what people are able to put out there, and incredibly grateful that you all even try because it makes my day/week/month when you have a new chapter. I really can't express how much love I have for you Doe - thanks for making the life of someone you don't even know exponentially better. Be well, you amazing person xx

@chasingshadows-catchinglight

I am so overdue to respond to this, trust that I've read over your message a bunch of times and had to abandon a response because words failed.

It blows my mind that this is the fic that the jily tag presented you with, I'm so pleased you have enjoyed it and found it a suitable gateway to the incredible fics that flood our fandom.

The everlong crew went through a lot and while I'm sure there's more to tell of their stories I've no plans as yet to do so - doesn't stop little scenes popping into my head or my notes though.

Thank you so much for taking the time to reach out and share your experience with this fic, that it made an impact on anyone is a real joy to me.

Hope you're finding more fic to get your teeth stuck into and that life treats you well 💕

#people being nice to me gives me all the feelings #everlong #the end #late reply #ask #chasingshadows-catchinglight

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I want your personal opinion. We see a lot of shipping controversy when it comes to MHA, but none of the ships have actually been confirmed, just teased. And I find that the biggest tease is Tododeku, honestly. Do you think there is even the slightest possibility that Horikoshi could just bless us with this ship? Do you think there is something there, genuinely? I want this ship canon, and honestly I'm really not feeling it with Ochako at all. What are your opinions on her? I dont know if you agree, but her character revolves around the main character in a way that makes it annoying and unbearable and I cant stand the interactions, yet it seems that Horikoshi seems to have given up as of recently. Do you think so?

Please don't take this as hostile because I don't mean it as such, I just struggle with tone. But.

This ask is kind of strange to me because 1) I don't write meta that often; 2) I've never written meta about BNHA; and 3) actually, in the past four months I've reblogged a grand total of nine posts about BNHA.

It's a fandom that I'm a part of but that I barely talk about on Tumblr — if you only followed me on here you'd think that I'm barely into it.

So what on Earth would make you ask me my opinion on this, anon?

Like, you see a profile with a Fullmetal Alchemist icon talking about Sonic, Ladybug, and Spy x Family and go: "Yeah. This is the person I'm gonna ask about Boku no Hero shipwars"?

Besides, considering how this ask is worded, it looks to me like you have a fully formed opinion and just want some sort of validation for it.

And I checked the recent stuff in the tododeku tag and I saw at least one more person responding to a very similar ask to this one, so there's that.

I'm prefacing with this to clarify that I'm aware that this is some sort of bait (even if I'm not completely sure what you're baiting for, anon) and that you probably went through a bunch of people that had posted/reblogged tododeku stuff recently and sent them similar asks.

However, I do have an opinion, and my ego can't resist sharing it, so here we go. Buckle up, I started rambling.

Honestly, I'm not entirely sure of what you are talking about when you say that tododeku has been the most teased ship.

Their dynamic is solid and well-written, and they've had a lot of page/screen-time to develop together. They're close friends (Midoriya is Todoroki's best and favourite friend, without a doubt), they're at ease around each other, understand and trust one another — in sum, they care and there is a lot of proof of that over the nearly 400 chapters of the manga (plus spin-off media).

This would be a good basis for a romantic development in their dynamic, it'd make for a good love story, but I don't think Horikoshi has ever intended to go in that direction, not even in subtext. I don't think he would even if a gay/bi protagonist was allowed in a battle-action shonen.

I think the "tododeku teasing" is the inevitable outcome of having two characters impact each other's narratives in such a way. Of course there are a lot of Moments™ between them that can easily be read in a romantic light — fighting Izuku in the Sports Festival was literally a turning point in Shoto's life! But Horikoshi just wrote them that way because he wanted to advance their character arcs through their friendships.

(It's a huge theme in BNHA, in my opinion. Class 1-A constanly inspire each other, make each other better. They don't just develop on their own, it's with the support of other people that the characters move forward. Deku is the epitome of this: his gifted power born out of the sacrifices of eight other people, his fighting style inspired by his mentors and his friends. And he's not the only example: Tamaki and Mirio; Kirishima with Bakugo and Ashido; Uraraka, Iida, and Todoroki himself of course. Horikoshi is good at writing admiration and friendships.)

And after all, good friendships tend to (although not always) make for compatible romantic pairings.

Listen, if tododeku ever became canon, I'd end up in the ER because my heart wouldn't be able to handle the joy and the surprise bursting out of it. I don't hope it to, nor do I particularly want it to be canon (romantic subplots are not my priority in BNHA), but it would definitely make me very happy. I've been on this boat for, what? Five years, give or take a couple of months? Tododeku is probably my actual OTP (as in the meaning of the acronym, my one and only true pairing).

(And that's without taking into account how massive it would be in terms of queer representation in Japan. The male protagonist of a top Shonen Jump nekketsu manga, bisexual and in an overt relationship with another major male character? Kohei Horikoshi would make history.)

But back in 2017 I went in fully expecting it not to be endgame, and that hasn't changed in 2022.

First of all, because regardless of Horikoshi's intentions, this is shonen manga, c'mon. It's Shonen Jump Magazine. The only gay action we see in this demographic is questionable yuri pandering to male audiences.

Although to be completely fair, BNHA does have confirmed queer characters: Tiger, Big Sis Mag, and Toga. However, you'll notice that none of them are gay men, only one of them has any relevance whatsoever, and not all of them are handled with the same care (Magne is... oof. People make excuses for it but I'm too familiar with Japanese media not to recognise that her design looks just like a transmysoginistic charicature, and the theory that Horikoshi is doing a social critique by making medical transitioning not accessible to her due to marginalisation is utterly fanon interpretation. It's not anywhere in the text, it was made up outright. It'd be amazing if it were true, but considering how unsubtle Horikoshi is with the politics of BNHA, as manga tends to be, if it's not there, it's because it wasn't supposed to be).

Second, because if Horikoshi wanted to make his main characters boy lovers and was allowed to... Well, in all honestly, I think he'd go for bakudeku (if, ya know, Bakugo makes it, which he probably will). They're one of the central dynamics of this story, their arcs don't make any sense without each other. They're not up to the level of, say, sasunaru, but they're not that far off. It's the most popular pairing in this fandom, both in the West and in Japan, for a reason.

(And if not bakudeku, I think kiribaku would have the biggest chance. Mostly because there's quite a lot of evidence to support a queer reading of Kirishima, and I'm not entirely sure it was accidental.)

Of course, if anyone gave me the reigns, I'd make Bakugo and Midoriya queerplatonic and make Todoroki and Midoriya marry but alas, 'tis not the case.

Nevertheless, there might be no canon ships whatsoever.

I'm still holding out for a time-skip and a sequel, despite what Horikoshi said earlier this year about ending the manga — a lot of things feel unfinished in ways that can't be resolved in one single arc. So hey, maybe he'll surprise us and pull a Shippuden.

But if he keeps his word and this is the end of Boku no Hero Academia, then he definitely does not have the time to include a romantic subplot of any kind. Not at this stage, not so near the end and with all characters in the middle of battle like this.

So, yeah, maybe you're not feeling it with Ochako because you're not supposed to. Midoriya had some mild interest in her at the beginning and she used to have a crush on him, but that was that. Which would be a nice subversion, to be honest, since an izuocha endgame is what everyone and their mother expected ever since their first interaction, based on the usual romantic tropes of this genre.

But, another thing, because this interpretation of Uraraka ("her character revolves around the main character in a way that makes it annoying") is one that I see echoed everywhere in this fandom and it does annoy me a little. It's a parroted opinion at this point, because the absolute lack of nuance implies that most people saying it haven't actually analysed Uraraka's character and are just repeating what other people said before them. Not saying that you're in that group, anon, maybe you did think it through and just disagree with me, and that's fine.

This critique of Uraraka comes from a larger criticism of Horikoshi's writing of female characters — criticism that is not undeserved. He is capable of writing good three-dimensional female characters (look at Rei Todoroki, or at Himiko Toga), and I think Momo Yaoyozoru's character arc is one of the best that he's written for a supporting secondary character of any gender (it's simple but well-executed!). But it's true that he has way fewer female characters than male ones, and a lot of them are underdeveloped and underutilised to boot.

(Part of that has to do with a more general problem. Horikoshi ended up biting way more than he could chew with his gigantic cast of characters, which is a conversation for another day, but long story short: it's not easy to juggle that many plotlines and character arcs, and sometimes he pulls it off but a lot of the time, particularly in the later half... eh. But it just so happens that a lot of the characters he's unable to give the time and space needed happen to be the few female ones that he has. Well.)

I do feel this is somewhat the case with Uraraka, because considering how she started out, she should've pulled more narrative weight than she has, at least for the arcs that she participated in (the Overhaul Arc did her dirty, let's be honest here). And she's the main female supporting character, it makes it more evident.

But I think that people get so focused in looking for what should have been there that they miss that already is there. People will criticise her arc for revolving around Deku and then completely ignore the parts of it that have nothing to do with him, funnily enough. You guys don't look past Deku's shadow either.

Midoriya inspires Uraraka in a similar way that he does the rest of his classmates and his friends specifically. That's what he is to her — an inspiration, a friend. Much like Midoriya himself does with Bakugo and All Might, she decides to go on her own hero path while taking some of Midoriya's determination as an incentive for her.

Her childhood in poverty shaped her desire to be a hero, and the kind of hero that she wanted to be — she wants to make people happy through helping and saving them. And when she starts the race towards her dream, and she sees her teachers and friends hurting, she's the one to ask the question no one else does: who saves the heroes? Who heals them? Who makes sure they're okay and happy?

And now she's going one step further, and she's trying to save a villain — Toga. And this has nothing to do with Midoriya. He isn't even in the picture right now! Hell, their last conversation before the final battle was about Toga (and other things, but it was obvious Toga was at the forefront of Uraraka's mind)!

Yes, her relationship with Deku is important (he's the protagonist, c'mon), but not the end-all be-all of her character arc. She sees Iida decline Midoriya's offer to join his team in the cavalry battle and decides that she's not going to be all dependent on friends either — and then comes up with a better strategy to fight Bakugo than even Midoriya had thought of. She catches feelings and immediately tries to shake them off because they're a distraction she can't afford for the sake of her own goals. She becomes an inspiration for him, as much as he is for her.

Their friendship is pretty neat, and while Uraraka could be more, let's not act as if she was nothing but Deku.

So.

To conclude.

Look, anon, from your words I can tell that you're obviously very invested in tododeku. I understand that, I really do, but I'd advise you to get over it. At the end of the day, it's just ink on a page. The emotions that they make you feel are real and valid (that is what art and storytelling are for) but if it gets to a point where it genuinely upsets you that two characters don't end up together, that it feels like a need that they be together in canon, it might be the time to take a step back.

I say this as someone who still gets angry over klance lol. But it's true.

I think you can find a lot more joy than you realise in simply not giving a shit about canon. And while shipping is very fun, I don't find it recommendable to look at all media only through that lense.

As I said before, all the "tododeku teasing" you mention is just one particular interpretation of their interactions, and at times it can be one that removes the actual themes written into their dynamic.

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[Id: a traditional drawing of gerry keay from the magnus archives from the back. The drawing is done in grayscale except for a pile of books in front of him on fire, which are drawn in bright oranges and reds, and a flame from a lighter he is holding. He is sitting by the fire and looking up at the smoke that rises from it. End id]

Burning books

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I smear paint on something resembling canvas and hope it will mean something eventually (it's the closest I've been to a god)

The paint stains my hands and arms, and it feels messy but true (cleanliness is not godliness)

I paint and I paint and I paint and I can't help but beg for something out there to tell me how I fit into this mess, this canvas painted over with broken warriors and stubborn fools (somehow I don't think anything can hear me)

(hello?)

(is anyone out there?)

(if the void is perceived does it become something else?)

(does that make me a god of this emptiness?)

the sunflowers come together slowly (I don't know if I brought them to life, or if the were always there, just waiting for me to find them)

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34 notes - Posted February 7, 2022

I'm playing botw and you know what's hilarious? Link having no idea what his and miphas relationship was actually.

basically "okay, I have exactly one memory of her, where it kinda seems like she's asking me out on a date? Ok, that tracks with what sidon's been saying, she was in love with me, but wait, the zora tunic is made for the person the zora princess is going to marry, and she clearly would have had to have some sign that her feelings were reciprocated for her to make them for me, so... Wait. WAS I ENGAGED??? No no that can't be right, if we were actually engaged surely the king at least would know and would tell his advisors in order to get them to chill, wait, WE'RE WE DATING AND WAS SHE PLANNING TO PROPOSE??? no, no, once again, someone would have known. I've known myself all of 2 weeks and I can say I probably would've been so clingy, so someone probably would have noticed. BUT WHAT IF EITHER OF THOSE THINGS WERE THE CASE??? IT WOULD EXPLAIN HOW SHE GOT MY MEASUREMENTS CAUSE THIS THING FITS LIKE A GLOVE!! AAAA I DON'T KNOW!!!"

and then talking to mipha in the divine beast to TRY and figure /something/ out and she is no help whatsoever

71 notes - Posted July 15, 2022

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I genuinely love doing this again! by dirtbag boyband bears in trees because it feels like a song you'd make up to sing to yourself but at the same time it's got some serious moments "every morning I wake up and I drink my silly little oat milk coffee and text my silly texts" silly little lines to sing as you drive. "I hope to be happy I hope to be calm I hope to be somewhat content, every morning I wake up and think to myself 'oh God we're doing this again'" mood, serious statement about repetition of every day and how exhausting it can get.

Also you can sing the chorus to reverberate to the "every sunrise every street sign etc etc" bit and I think that's neat

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