God fucking damn it I don’t want to live in America. I’m so angry. I am so so angry. What the actual FUCK. If you’re happy about this literally fuck right off.

I don’t know who needs to hear this but…

PREGNANCY SHOULD NOT BE CONSIDERED A PUNISHMENT FOR HAVING SEX!

i don’t want to hear a man say that “women have equal rights. we don’t need feminism” ever again. have you ever woken up at 9 am on a random friday and found out the government is telling you what you can and can’t do with your body?? no?? then shut the fuck up.

I'm so tired. This country is absolutely abysmal. I'm afraid for myself, my daughter, my son, my family and my friends. What if my daughter ever needs an abortion? Will she be able to get one legally and safely? What if one of my kids decide they aren't comfortable with the gender they were born and want to change? Am I going to go to jail for supporting them? What if one of my kids realizes they're gay? Will they be able to marry their partner whom they're in love with like I was able to marry their father? Are my LGBTQ+ friends who are married get to stay married? And what's going to happen to their kids? Are we ever going to live in a country where it doesn't matter about the color of your skin, but the content of your character? Are any of the dozens of apps I have on my phone or our alexas going to be hacked by the government in the name of national security just to invade my privacy? Are my kids going to get shot at school because the GOP refuses to ban guns? I don't feel safe and I'm scared for the future my kids are facing. I fucking hate it here. America IS NOT the land of the free. It's the land of the rich old cis white men who make the laws and expect us to follow or be faced with imprisonment. Fuck our government.

welcome to the united states of america! we care about our citizens*!

*except for the ones who are women, who are BIPOC, who are LGBTQIA+, who are poor, who are children, who are first generation americans, who are homeless, who are orphans, who are victims of assault, who are mentally ill, who are disabled, who are anything other than a cis, able-bodied, straight, white male.

I'm kind of pissed at how few people are even talking about the fact that race based affirmative action policies were struck down in the US only two days ago. I'm kind of pissed at how few people are even talking about the fact that SCOTUS is now arguing in favor of legacy admissions, which literally existed to limit the number of POC able to be admitted into colleges/universities per year. SCOTUS wants to pretend to make college admissions "not see color," while upholding white supremacist systems that will make it much easier to discriminate against POC and much easier to favor white people when admitting students.

They're basically trying to fully reinstate segregation at this point with their promotion of Jim Crow relics and I haven't seen a single white person fucking talking about it.

The society is so anti-people and I feel like every experience I’ve had recently just proves that. Internationally, a genocide is happening and we’re just funding it while arresting people pointing out how wrong it is. Nationally, the Supreme Court is deciding if a live adult woman’s life is less important than the fetus she’s pregnant with, even if the pregnancy is killing her. Personally, I witnessed the police use overly-aggressive techniques to arrest a woman while letting her toddler run away. Everywhere I turn it feels like humanity is falling apart and I don’t understand how I’m expected to just continue on living my life when this is the world I live in.

for yall who wanted an explanation on the Cyrodiilic religion

this post may be disjointed and repetitive bc I’m tired af but if your first TES game was Skyrim, then 1) same here, 2) 90% of TES lore is really confusing, complicated, ridiculous, and mostly boring, especially because a lot of lore comes from stuff that got retconned as the franchise went on, but that either fans or devs wanted to make sense in the world-building.

okay, so there are multiple religions worshipped on Tamriel during any and every era, but in most games, the biggest is the Cyrodiilic. the state religion of Cyrodiil is the, uh, Cyrodiilic Pantheon, or the worship of the Divines. the overall religion was codified (founded) by St. Alessia, who basically combined a bunch of local religious traditions together, made them as similar as she could, and decided official names and such. the main deities are: Akatosh (the most prominent deity and chief of the other deities), Arkay, Mara, Kynareth, Dibella, Julianos, Stendarr, Zenithar, and, after a certain point in time, Talos. the religion (especially once it has Talos) is often called the ‘imperial cult,’ and just keep in mind that it is the state religion of the Empire, not the only religion of the Empire. so while there are other religions in Tamriel, they’re mostly local, and the Cyrodiiic cult is present outside Cyrodiil bc, again, state religion. 

so, just so we’re clear: the whole religion of the Divines is not native to Skyrim, it is native to mid- and southern Tamriel. eg: Christianity is not native to the Americas, but the largest Christian populations are the US and Brazil. also Islam isn’t native to the Middle East outside the Arabian peninsula*, but you can find it from the ME all the way to the Philippines. 

so there are still a bunch of other religions in Tamriel. usually (not always!) religions are, uh, unrealistically consistent with race/culture/province. the Aldmer worshiped their pantheon, and that religion eventually split and separated into the various elven religions which we will not cover here bc they’re not relevant. what is relevant is that by the time of Skyrim, several of the provinces that were part of the Empire and had to at least give some official recognition to the Divines (though they probably weren’t forced to worship them, from what we can tell? though uh, still very much state sanctioned and protected), now have independence and no longer recognize the Divine pantheon. and, in fact, a lot of them are kinda bitter about being forced to recognize the conqueror who used the TES-equivalent of an atomic bomb against them as a god.

addendum: I FORGOT TO ACTUALLY INCLUDE SKYRIM. .............. later, then.

(end note: also, don’t read or listen to Michael Kirkbride. his writing - specifically how he does theology and philosophy - honestly just fucking sucks. it’s pretty much just really, really, really fucking bad esotericism wrapped in layers of what the average high school-age redditor thinks Nietzsche’s philosophy is. there, I’ve just saved you so much time and effort.)

since today is the 4th of july, i would just like to say a very warm...fuck the united states of america. i wish you guys had never won the war. your country, if it can be even called that, sucks and i hope it burns and if you celebrate the 4th because of "freedom" or "independence" or whatever dumbass patriotic reasons you have to celebrate an imperialist, capitalist hellhole that not even two weeks ago, took away fundamental human rights from half its population, fuck you, fuck your family, fuck your stupid ass country and i really hope something terrible happens to you today. thank you :)

So is the affirmative action program that allows billionaires to buy off Supreme Court justices gone too, or just the part of affirmative action that tries to help level the racist playing field?

"Amanda Zurawski, from Austin, lead plaintiff in the case, was denied abortion care after she experienced preterm pre-labor rupture of membranes (PPROM) at 18 weeks of pregnancy. She was seen at a Catholic hospital in Austin, where she was denied an abortion because her doctors could still detect fetal cardiac activity. Three days later, she showed signs of infection and was diagnosed with sepsis, a life-threatening condition. Although doctors then performed an emergency induction abortion, she spent the next three days in the ICU fighting for her life. She ultimately survived, but the infection caused one of her fallopian tubes to become permanently closed, compromising her future ability to have children. She has been forced to turn to in vitro fertilization (IVF) in attempt to start a family."

The death penalty is being used for pregnant people throughout the US.

supreme court more like LOSER court seriously why the fuck was affirmative action even on the table

I am just so MAD

As usual, the US gets worse and worse, and the bigots keep ruining the lives of millions. I’m so exhausted even hearing it from afar. I’m thankful to be in Australia where things are relatively sane, but I’m so worried for my friends and family. And visiting my red state country home town in the future will suck even more. And my student debt burden is coming back without hope. Honestly fuck the US and the whole GOP. Being a US citizen feels like being shackled to a corpse

Hearing Clarence Thomas even suggest that they should reconsider the ruling on the law that gave us contraceptive rights scares the fuck out of me. For a country who claims to be so free, they sure do like taking rights away.

Literally, I can't believe I live in a country where guns and dead babies have more rights than a living breathing person with a uterus.

I know this isn't a really political blog but I needed to get this off my chest. I'm sure a lot of you would agree with me anyways. I really do wish the "justices" who voted yes live the rest of their horrible lives bothered and afraid. I want them to feel scared.

Good Friday morning to all of you still fighting, even if that means just putting one foot in front of the other, and a very merry fuck you and your mama to the US Supreme Court. I hope centipedes crawl in your ears.