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“the TSH characters are terrible people and Richard is an unreliable narrator”
okay??? Mentally I am still at Francis’s lake house. Nothing bad has happened yet and Charles is making everyone ice-cream floats.
#for my own mental health please stfu#i’m trying to live out an elaborate fictional life goddamnit#the secret history#tsh#donna tartt#richard papen#francis abernathy#charles macaulay#camilla macaulay#henry winter#bunny corcoran
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How do you tell a friend that's def gonna be offended that they should stop being so classist
#and i hate confrontation#but this bitch is really pissing me off rn#like okay i dont have a camera at my doorbell#you have seen the fucking apartment i live in#i share a room with my sister#just bc you parents own a successful company and you're an only child doesnt mean you can just be so rude/oblivious#about how other people live#and shes always like that about stuff that doesnt affect her#like she obv understands what its like to be at a disadvantage bc you're queer and have mental health issues#but ofc poor or homeless or fat people are disgusting and its their own fault#like hoe just stfu please if you cant say something nice
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Could you pls write a Johnnie guilbert x f! Reader where reader is a famous song writer and she’s up late at night like around 2:00-3:00 am working on a new song and Johnnie is sick and tired of her staying up all night and not taking care of herself so one night he gets up and hauls her ass to bed and when reader try’s to protest he tells her to stfu and plops right on top of her so she can’t go nowhere.
☆ Ahhhhh yes omg thank you anon x
☆ Sorry it’s short ☹️
☆ Johnnie Guilbert X Reader
☆ Fluff
☆ If you are going to request: please check at the pinned post if requests are open,otherwise I will delete your requests which I have already been doing
☆ Creds to @cafekitsune for dividers :)
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“Pumpkin,come to bed.” Johnnie whispered as I shook my head, “I can’t,I have to finish these lyrics.” I whispered as I barely looked away from my computer screen.
“When will you come to bed? It’s already midnight.” He told me and I nodded my head, “I know,I’ll be in bed by one,I promise,but I really have to finish this.” I told him with a sigh.
“If you’re not in bed by one,I’m turning off your pc.” He told me jokingly and I giggled, “Sure.” I said lightheartedly with a smile.
I continued to write as Johnnie walked off to bed,I had to finish these lyrics because the deadline was in three days,I was already behind and if I didn’t get this posted to them I would be worse off.
The amount of emails I was getting about the deadline was finally getting to me,the pressure put on me was keeping me up at night.
Ironically enough it was a song about the love between two people.I’ve always loved Johnnie,since the moment I saw him,so the second I got the chance at a love song I took it.
I hummed a tune to myself,listening to the beat of a song and editing the lyrics to fit the best I could. I knew I would end up scrapping and editing a few lines but I didn’t mind,as long as I got a base for my writing.
“You’re my my my lover~” I sung softly to myself as I checked if the lyrics matched the beat.
It was the most ironic situation I’ve been placed in,Johnnie was always looking out for me,taking mental health days off with me and always making sure I got enough sleep,he was the perfect example for a boyfriend.
I hummed softly to myself as I mind mapped some feelings for the song,the best I got up to was :
•love
•kindness
•looking out for people
•Caring
This was before I realised I was writing a song about Johnnie essentially. I was listing everything Johnnie had done for me,past and present. Johnnie was the perfect model for any love song.
I sit there tapping my pen against my paper,slowly running out of ideas before I edit a few more words.
“This is our place.” I hum to myself and quickly edit the line before I forget to,I smile as I realise i have my own house with the person I love. The realisation pulling a smile into my face.
“Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?” I whisper as I read out the lyrics,humming the tune to myself. This had become a love song about Johnnie and no one would know,I laugh to myself at the actualisation.
And before I knew it the click of the clock on my laptop changed the time to 1am, “Hey sweetheart,I need you to come to bed please,this isn’t good for you.” Johnnie whispered standing in the doorframe.
“Five more minutes,” I say as I look up at him, “Please!” I whisper to him as I see the disapproval sat on his face. “Okay,but after that im gonna have to drag you to bed.” He laughs but I know he would probably do that.
I mean ; not literally but Johnnie would drag me kicking and screaming if that’s what he had to do to get me to snuggle up to him in bed and sleep.
I edit a few lyrics and words before resting my head on the desk for a brief moment. A brief moment then turns into Johnnie tapping my arm, “Love wake up,you can’t sleep here,come to bed.” He whispers lovingly.
“No I have to finish this.” I say quietly looking up at him, “No,you’re coming to bed come on.” He says as he picks me up by the waist,holding me up to his waist without a reaction.
“Okay.” I whisper quietly.Tiredly I rest my head on his shoulder as we walk into our shared room,i strip myself of my clothes and put on my Pyjamas before huddling up in bed next to Johnnie.
“I love you.” I whispered as I kiss his cheek, “I love you too,princess.” He whispers before I drift of back into sleep.
#spotify#smut#song#romance#cute#fluff#colby brock smut#sam and colby#sam and colby fluff#colby brock#jake and johnnie#johnnie guilbert fluff#johnnie guilbert smut#johnnie guilbert#johnnie guilbert x reader
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Spencer Reid x Famous!Reader
Part 1. Part 2.
Synopsis: After your home is broken into by a stalker, your bf cheats, the FBI is called and a new romance begins to take over.
Told through Instagram posts
TW for mentions of stalkers
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e!news ‼️BREAKING‼️ Police called to Y/n L/n home after attempted break in by armed perpetrator.
Sources say Y/n was home with her boyfriend, singer Matt Carter, at the time of the break in but security chased him away.
This is not the first time an attempted break-in has been made on Y/n's property.
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y.n.is.life Oh. My. God. Praying she's okay rn 🙏🏽
user732 Why are ppl so disgusting. She's a human being. 🤬
y.nfan HE WAS ARMED 😭 so glad security chased him away!!!
user864 She must've been terrified 😢
jojo396 NOT THE FIRST TIME?!?!?!?! STAY SAFE Y/N
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yourinstagram To my fans. Due to recent events it is with a heavy heart that I will be postponing my tour for the foreseeable future. I am so, so, sorry. The horrific events of these past few days have shaken me to my core. We have discussed this back and forth for hours and we decided that for your safety and my own this was the right course of action. Please keep your tickets and we will try and get new dates ASAP. Thank you for all your love and support. I love you all. Y/n and YourTourName Team. 💜
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Fan872 I'm going to be fucking SICK. Y/n's boyfriend Matt is in Greece with some random girl!!!!!! They've been papped kissing and at restaurants!
Her house got broken into FOUR days ago and someone tried to attack her. She CANCELLED her tour due to safety concerns and HES IN GREECE CHEATING 🤬🤬🤬🤬
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y.n.is.mother WTF!!!!! SCUMBAG!!!!!
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stan.y/n GUYS THATS BECCA!!!! Y/NS BEST FRIEND!!!!!!
matt.is.life No it isn't. Stfu. Stop spreading rumours
stan.y/n Uhhh yes it is.... open your eyes
sarah12 You can't even see her properly?
youralbumname13 Poor Y/n!!! 💔
user Love isn't real. Stg. 😭😭
stan.y/n they were so good together!!!!!
matt.fan I feel so bad for him. The pressure he's under. He needed a break from this
fan872 YOU FEEL BAD FOR HIM?! HIM?!
y.n.matt.4ever SHE ALMOST GOT ATTACKED AND YOU FEEL FOR HIM?!?!?!?!
user234 siding with the cheater💀Gross
selena.fan No. Just no.
rach12 And cheating was the way to go??
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e!news ‼️BREAKING‼️FBI arrive at Y/n L/n's condo in New York.
This comes after a second stalker incident.
Y/n's team has refused to comment.
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y/n123 How is she going through all this? 😭
username3 Poor Y/n! WE LOVE YOU ❤️
user1name Why's she in NY??
y/n.becca.drama Where have you been?
user926 Her home got broke into in L.A. Then her bf cheated on her with her best friend.
user1name OMFG?!?!?!
mama.sel OF COURSE THEY DIDNT COMMENT?!?!?!?!?! WTF?!
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lovebecca Becca has been receiving so much hate and death threats after recent photos of her and Matt Carter have surfaced online.
This is absolutely disgusting!! Cancel culture at its finest, yet again.
She hasn't done anything wrong.
Y/n stans are crazy and will do anything to make her look good and innocent in the media.
Y/n and Matt had broke up because Matt couldn't cope with the stress and his mental health deteriorated. So, Becca and Matt went to Greece together to cheer him up.
They're adults.
Grow up.
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justice.for.becca 💯💯 FACTS
y/nnnn I've never seen someone so wrong b4 😂
queen.tyler Ummm. No? She literally went on holiday with Y/n's bf while they're still together and going through a traumatic experience?
jessicat She's literally a home wrecker
ethan4 Imagine taking Y/n's terrifying experience and spinning it into an excuse for why you cheated 💀💀
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queen.y/n The Devil works hard but Matt Carter works harder.
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e!news Singer Y/n L/n has first public outing since the attempted break in of her home and break up with boyfriend, Singer Matt Carter.
Y/n, 24, was pictured in New York earlier today with her FBI protection.
The recent Grammy winner cancelled her tour stating security issues and mental health issues to be the cause two weeks ago.
Just days later, then boyfriend Matt Carter was spotted in Greece with Y/n's best friend Becca McKay. The two pictured in intimate moments together have led to online speculations that the two are now dating even though Matt was in a relationship at the time.
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user74 That agent though 🥵
ginaxx I know!!! He can protect me!
y.n.stan Look how thin she is 😭😭😭
hater927 "Mental health" mmmkay snowflake
bi.queen You get stalked, have someone threaten your life and have your bf cheat on you with your best friend and THEN we'll talk about your mental health. 🤡
grow.up.y/n She looks gross 🤮
y/nnnn The irony of your name.
love.you.y/n So happy you're going back outside!!! Stay strong ❤️
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everything.y/n Y/N CONTENT!! I'm so so so happy that she feels comfortable posting again. Even if comments are heavily monitored.
I missed her so much! I hope everything is going OK with her and she's staying safe.
P.s. she also deleted every single pic of Matt and Becca off her IG. We Stannnnnnn!!!
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girl.bossss Even her shadow slays 😭
dantheman She seems comfortable around the FBI. I'd be tense all the damn TIME
oui.oui. her deleting every trace of them is such a power move!!! Revenge era.
y/n.queen SHES AT THE PIANO! WHATS SHE WRITING?!?!?!?!?!?!
matt.fan The pic of them 2 in the HP robes is so cute 🥹
bye.segual. Was. Was so cute. Not now
hate.y/n Her need for attention is sad
doc.martina Why are you HERE THEN?
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yourinstagram Figuring out what to do next has been one of the hardest things to do. After thinking it over for the past month we have all agreed that being on stage is the right thing for me right now. Life tests us all and this is my test and I will not lose. I will not back down. You all mean so much to me than you will ever know and Yourtourname will continue in NYC in two weeks. Your support has filled my heart with so much love. Stay safe. I'll see you soon 💜
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#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fanfiction#famous!reader#spencer reid#celebrity!reader#fake insta post#spencer reid x famous!reader
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social media shy
f!potterer!reader x quinn hughes
warnings: swearing
(sidenote: qhuggyhes is quinn's private account - only mentioned once)
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ynofficial: holy mac'n' cheeseballs i'm gonna be in vogue
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fan1: *takes deep breath* I'M SO PROUD OF YOU
fan2: no more gatekeeping, only girlbossing
fan3: we must gatekeep her from the stinky men though
fan4: you're so beautiful
fan5: i actually can't wait
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ynofficial: can someone get me a cat? i'm in desperate need of a housemate that purrs when cuddled. a cat would also keep me company in this big apartment
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fan6: my grandma's cat just had kittens and she's in vancouver if you're interested?
ynofficial: ooh yes please!
fan7: what's wrong with your current housemate?
ynofficial: he smiles and falls asleep on me and leaves vancouver for work often :/
fan8: what's wrong with a smile?
ynofficial: it makes me like him even more that's what's wrong
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qhuggyhes: please don't play the guilt card i WILL fold
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fan9: repping lana as we should
ynofficial: the one and only
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ynofficial: meet harley!! she's so adorable i just want to cry...also she's an incredibly annoying bedmate at times (but she's cute so i'll let her off)
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fan10: you're a crazy cat lady now, welcome to the club
ynofficial: i'm honoured
fan11: i'm assuming harley is the cat?
ynofficial: your assumption would be correct yes
trevorzegras: and harley is YOUR cat?
ynofficial: stfu yes
jackhughes: i see what you did there. clever.
ynofficial: idk what you're talking about
fan12: why the sudden influx of nhl players?
fan13: i don't even know who any of them are
ynofficial: neither do i
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ynofficial: i want you to know i take being a cat mother very seriously and that i'm going to start referring to home as HQ for personal reasons
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lhughes_06: HQ being harley and...
ynofficial: you used to my favourite
lhughes_06: what am i now?
ynofficial: on thin ice
fan14: pretty sure luke hughes has a brother called quinn
fan15: yeah he does
fan16: quinn is in the second photo and i think the last?
fan17: wait does hq = harley/quinn????
_quinnhughes has added to their story
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ynofficial: new 'dainty florals' set on the market!
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fan18: are you on the market too?
fan19: LMAO no
fan20: i'm analysing her hands now
fan21: POV you're here bc of that twitter thread
fan22: me
fan23: the moon mug is giving fairy garden and i love it
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_quinnhughes: been busy lately
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fan24: babe we all know *wink wink*
fan25: that's definitely y/n
fan26: quinn rn: sorry i haven't been posting i've been having a lot of sex
fan28: everyone knows
jackhughes: and i'm still patiently waiting
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ynofficial: congrats on your-
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fan29: -record breaking of 263 games to assist 200 times?
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jackhughes: 🐔
ynofficial: bet
fan30: even the fucking cake is canucks themed
lhughes_06: if you don't i will
ynofficial: it's cute you think i'll let myself be blackmailed
fan31: it's impossible for it not to be quinn at this point
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_quinnhughes: i was told to say 'alexa play cornelia street' as a caption
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bradytkachuk: you're so whipped
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fan32: this is literally the same place y/n posted in her last post
jackhughes: TAG HER
fan33: jack losing his patience is all of us rn
_quinnhughes went live 3 minutes ago!
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jackhughes: because these two IDIOTS are refusing to actually do anything about it, i'm taking the matter into my own hands for my and your mental health. this is ynofficial and _quinnhughes and they are 100% dating and 1000% in love to the point where it actually melts me. thank you and good night
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lhughes_06: i didn't think you'd ACTUALLY do it
jackhughes: do not underestimate me
_quinnhughes: and then you wonder why luke is y/n's favourite
fan34: WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE!!!!
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ynofficial: i hate you
jackhughes: you wish you did 😘😘
fan35: i love how y/n and quinn are so private that the only way their relationship would ever get exposed is if someone did it for them
fan36: fr they fit each other so well
fan37: THEY! ARE! PARENTS!
fan38: omg y/n has a harley and a quinn in her life
fan39: HQ makes sense now
#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes imagine#nhl social media au#nhl fic#nhl imagine#hockey fic#hockey imagine
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predictions/ hopes for s3 because i’m not ok
1. someone asking for death at the coffee shop. just like in the background of some other scene or mentioned by nina or something idk i think it would be funny
2. snake crowley please i want more snake crowley i beg of you neil please
3. crowley and aziraphale get locked into a room or something and start yelling at each other because that is the only way they will talk to each other and it slowly turns softer until they are actually having a conversation
4. someone saying i’m sorry and actually owning up to their mistakes (please i need this)
5. when (i’m manifesting stfu) they kiss again or hug or do the physical affection™️ the initiator nervously asks if they can BECAUSE CONSENT IS AWESOME
6. aziraphale grabbing crowley by the vest and kissing him
7. metatron getting an ass beating
8. muriel being autistic
9. muriel reading to crowley to make him feel better
10. crowley sitting in az lap
11. wild west ineffables
12. female presenting aziriphale
13. recruiting adam and the Them to help with whatever they need some help with
14. (this is getting really long wow maybe i’ll make a part 2 if people like this) crowley getting some Mental Health please i want my boy to be happy
#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#good omens 2 spoilers#good omens spoilers#good omens headcanons#good ineffable omens#good omens season two#good omens s2#good omemes#good omens season 2#crowley good omens#good omens season 2 spoilers#go2 spoilers#go season 2#gos2 spoilers#go2
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Unsolicited Mom/Grandma advice
Dear young tumbles
Please reach out for help when you are struggling mentally. I felt depression creeping in the last couple weeks and yesterday that stupid depression voice in my head was screaming and drowning everything else out.
One conversation with my loved ones telling them what was happening helped me so much! That stupid voice is just a whisper now and I’m back on my way to feeling better. BTW the voices name is Jen don’t call me Jenny But she can STFU!
Anywhooo I wish I had reached out last week and saved myself from that horrible time fighting her myself, but sometimes that is hard to do and I am feeling hopeful now.
My advice young tumbles is to please reach out to family, friends ,anyone you trust, including health professionals as soon as your own Jen starts whispering awful thoughts in your head.
You are not what she says and she’s a lying bitch.
You are loved and you are worthy. You shouldn’t try to fight it alone. You are not alone.
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meet the admin post (*^▽^)/★*☆♪
contains:
1- some things about me
2- my boundaries/ dni list
3- what i will write for!
☆ 1- some things about me !
im a lonely pal named kaheri online
my irl name is cielle- i don't mind being called this online but 🧍🏻♀️ please call me that only if i say so/ we are close
im a transmasc demigender/agender or pangender really struggling to find my identity rn but 🧍🏻♀️ im gay and go by any pronouns (neos included :D) except she/her
huhh im also autistic, have adhd and bpd so please bare with me ( ｡ﾟДﾟ｡)
i started writing ever since i was a kid and i crave online validation (/hj) so i decided to post online
atm i don't have a regular post schedule because if i did it'd be way too much pressure on my mental health so ( :ﾟ皿ﾟ) i try to at least post twice/three times a week but i ain't promising anything
+ don't be mad at me if there are any spelling mistakes im not a native speaker and ?? even though i was i wouldn't give a shit that's my blog 🤓 /lh
my requests are always open unless stated otherwise ! please refer to the third part for what i will write about :>
also speaking tones are very much appreciated 🫠 /lh
☆ my boundaries/dni
dni stands for do not interact which means well i don't want people who do things above
homophobic/"neos aren't valid" people
"only cis women have their periods" ppl
adults‼️ following/liking/reblogging my stuff is more than ok but i draw the line at dming me
UNTITLED/BOTS LIKE BLOGS YALL GO STRAIGHT TO BLOCKLIST /nm
uhhhhhh thats all ? i'll update it later
oh and also "self diagnose isn't valid 🤓☝🏻" stfu you stupid ahh ableist
☆ what i will write for!
i can write for pretty much anything but if it's not something from the list please provide me a little information on the characters because it won't be accurate if i do research on my own
SPIDERMAN INTO/ACROSS THE SPIDERVERSE OMG PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REQUEST ME STUFF FROM IT
i can write for any characters except the spot because well.
uhhh i most likely won't do full fics on demand except i reallyy like what you're proposing. also i won't write anything with gwen don't ask why i just really hated her behavior.
uhhh i can write both nsfw and sfw js specify :D also this goes without saying but if i write nsfw it will be in an aged up au!
the amazing world of gumball!
i loved this series ever since i was a child so <3 <3 OBVIOUSLY NO NSFW?!?! and hum yea hcs only
overwatch !
it was my previous hyperfixation so >:)
mmm i'll only write stuff for hanzo, mc cree, kiriko and- i forgot
yea i can write nsfw with no problem 🙆🏻♀️
south park omg
it was also one of my previous hyperfixations
so 🙆🏻♀️ huh ill only write for the four main characters and prob wendy 🕺🏻
aged up au if nsfw 🦅
CHAINSAW MAN
uhhh yea any characters but i didn't read latest chapters so yea ( ﾟﾛﾟ)!!
nsfw ? idk i'll see
ok i think that's all? have a nice day ( ﾟ∀ﾟ)人(ﾟ∀ﾟ ) <3
#x reader#lgbtq#anime and chill#chainsaw man#csm daily#anime#actually mentally ill#denji hayakawa#overwatch#overwatch 2#atsv#atsv hobie#atsv headcanons#across the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#miguel ohara#hobie brown#queer writers#writers on tumblr#miguel o'hara#miles morales#south park#kenny mccormick#kyle brovlofski#stan marsh
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what icks do you think the aot boys are guilty of having lol
aot boys x icks! (part 2) (jjk version)
now THIS is content i can get behind
eren:
is the type of guy to think that just letting the water hit him in the shower is washing his body... like you're showering together and ur scrubbing ur legs w body wash or something and he's like wait... you wash your legs? like you don't just let the water and soap hit them? WHAT
tries to start a podcast and thinks hes making really profound points but its the most basic and bare minimum conclusions like "working out actually improves your mental health"
his hair gets greasy really easily but he doesnt like to wash it every day bc it dries it out. you recommend dry shampoo and he REFUSES because it “makes his hair look gray” and ur like no not if you apply it like this and rub it in!!!! he doesnt listen
accidentally airs ur dirty laundry and secrets to all of ur friends LMFAO he really doesnt mean to though but youll all be having dinner or something and someone will order a specific food and he’ll be like “wait baby isnt that the food that gives you really bad gas?” goodbye
the classic "THIS IS FOR YOU <3" and misses
armin:
uses the 🥺 emoji way too much for a grown ass man. like its cute sometimes but its definitely his most used emoji. also says "sowwy" when ur mad at him :/
loves when you scratch his back/head but only does urs for like 2 mins LMFAO. ur taking turns in bed and when its his turn to scratch he does it for like 30 seconds and then is like my turn :) or im tired goodnight :) also gets mad when you stop unexpectedly. gives you side eye
drools in his sleep LMFAO. sleeps with his mouth open and its not that big of a deal unless he’s sleeping on you and you wake up with a fucking wet patch on your chest as if a baby was just napping on you
prefers you without make up and doesnt really understand that you wear it for personal or creative reasons, like he automatically assumes its because you’re insecure or covering something up. like youre going out and having fun getting ready and looking pretty and hes like “why do you wear makeup when you are so beautiful naturally? :)”
buys millennial merch like “dont talk to me before my coffee” or those signs that say “dogs welcome! people tolerated” also calls dogs “floofers” and “doggos”
jean:
genuinely says sheesh. like not as a joke. he'll be like sheesh baby you look so good today and you'll have to hide ur embarrassment lol
is the type to NEVER let you get away with stuttering or fumbling ur words. you know that tiktok thats like "you ever stutter so hard you just have to stfu" thats you around jean LMFAO. you mispronounce one word and hes never letting you forget it
NEVER FINISHES A WATER BOTTLE. he will leave half filled bottles all over the place and then have the audacity to open a new one and drink it in front of you???
sleeps like a LOG. will not move. when he snores and you try to kick him a little bit to be like hey turn over ur snoring, he is not waking up. he gets up the next morning whistling a little tune looking like he just had the best sleep of his life and you crawl out of bed like a gremlin who almost fell off the bed and listened to his snores for 10 hours
such a music snob. he will be like “baby i recently discovered this really good song you probably havent heard of it its super underground” and its tame impala LOL
connie:
hes a mouth breather. he also chews so fucking loud. you guys are sitting at the kitchen table, eating breakfast & minding ur own business, and he is going to TOWN on his food. close ur mouth. imbecile
kinda the same topic but definitely bites his ice cream / popsicles. you are starting to think he doesnt have feeling in his front teeth anymore. he crunches the fuck out of ice as a "snack"
laughs along with a joke that you know he doesnt understand PLEASE it could be an inside joke w you and your girlfriends and hes trying to butt into the conversation like "HAHAHA"
his phone is always greasy and has crumbs in the cracks of the case and shit. ur like oh babe can you take a pic of me real quick??? and its so blurry because of the shit on his lens
leaves the toilet seat up every. single. time. especially not fun when you pee in the middle of the night and fall in with sleepy tired eyes
levi:
sleeps with socks on. LET UR DOGS BREATHE LEVI. he thinks sleeping barefoot is nasty so he puts on a new pair of socks every time he gets into bed
has to correct you, even on tiny minute details. youre telling a story and youre like "so we waited in line for like 30 minutes" and hes like "it was actually 45." or "we went out to eat last monday" "it was tuesday but ok" like ENOUGH. let me have something
worst. backseat. driver. ever. you could break a little too quickly ONE time and hes so dramatic about it. “that wasnt a complete stop” “you’re supposed to be in the next lane” “that car was in your blindspot and you didnt even look”
answers the phone with “what” every single time. not a hello??? how are you??? how was your day??? it sounds like a chore but in reality he just doesnt like technology and thinks phone calls/texts should be as concise and quick as possible
has literally no decor in his house/apartment like it actually looks uninhabited. has like one couch and a bed. you offer to help him pick some things out and hes like “im always at work anyways why would i need a table”
reiner:
likes drake LMFAO not even old drake (when he was good) but like new "say that you a lesbian girl me too" drake
repeats a joke that didn't land because he thinks you didn't hear it. but you did. it just wasn't funny
when you guys first started talking he was definitely the guy to be like "ur so beautiful, whats a girl like you doing with a little ugly boy like me???" when you guys are in a relationship youre able to see that its just his insecurities manifesting but. it was cringey at first
i just know this man has dirty fingernails. like they are short and well kept but there is always DIRT AND GRIME under them. you make him wash his hands before he touches you
cant be quiet for the life of him. he has loud ass footsteps. like ur sleeping and granted he is trying so hard to be quiet but he literally cannot. slams his drawers, shuts the door so loud, will play a video on his phone full blast. and then when you stir from your sleep and glare at him hes like “good morning :D”
porco:
genuinely says "without me? :(" when you say you are about to shower LMFAOOOO its kinda funny when you guys are in an established relationship bc u can just smack him but he is definitely guilty of saying it seriously when you two were in the talking stage
accidentally mansplains things to you. not in a demeaning or belittling way but like youll make a joke about "why cant we just print more money" and this business major bitch is like "baby...are you serious...because inflation will-" like OKAYYYY it was a joke
his hair is so crunchy from all of the hair product/gel he uses on it. sometimes when hes fresh out of the shower youll compliment his natural hair as an attempt to get him to lay off the gel. his hair is so hard you could drop a brick on his head and it would deflect
backwashes in all of your shared drinks
manspreads, especially in public. youll be sitting in a crowded place and he is openly sprawled out extremely comfortable while a woman with a baby is giving him a dirty look
i had a lot of fun coming up with these! i hope this was what you were asking for :3 thanks for requesting!
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as your name and brand begin to grow, you and rúben are definitely footballs most loved couple
I don't own the images, most were found on google so creds to original owners :)
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theathletic We are literally in love with this couple😍 In this weeks special Birthday edition, we share (y/n)’s story; Overcoming Myself. We chat to rising photographer (y/n) on her battles with confidence and mental health, about when she decided she wanted to get into sports photography and how Manchester City centre back Rúben Dias is her ‘biggest fan and most prevalent inspiration’. We seriously love these two!!
yourinstagram felt weird being in front of the camera this time, but thank you for giving me this opportunity to share my passion with you guys and sorry for the soppiness!
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yourinstagram birthday vibes!! thank you all so much for your and love on my article and all the birthday wishes. feeling truly blessed by you all and so lucky to have friends, family and rubendias especially on days like this. cant say how much love i have in my heart rn ♥️🥺
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Smoking doesn't make you skinny: a rant
So I keep seeing this as "advice" on how to suppress hunger and as a smoker myself, I'm begging you to stop and stfu! If you think smoking is worth it just to lose weight, I'm sorry, but you're wrong (and spreading dangerous advice) and I will explain why.
I started smoking because it was the only coping mechanism I had to deal with trauma and mental health issues. I've been smoking for years, since I was a teenager and into adulthood so I've pretty much seen most of the aspects of it - more importantly, the negative ones. I'm sure you're aware of lung disease, cancer, and other health risks involved with smoking, but if those aren't enough here's more things that suck about smoking.
- Smoking in combination with an eating disorder is dangerous. Smoking on an empty stomach especially. It fucks with your blood pressure and there were several times when I almost fainted because I had a cigarette on an empty stomach. If I fainted outdoors in an area that isn't busy with people, I could've easily died without anyone finding me and getting help. Your body is already weak and subjecting it to smoking only makes it worse, and I'm talking chronic illness and death, not aesthetic suffering.
- You will stink. Not "sMeLl Of SmOkE", stink. Most people don't like the smell and won't hesitate to tell you so. My boyfriend doesn't want to kiss me after I have a cigarette because of the smell and taste, and I honestly don't blame him.
- Your teeth, fingers, and nails will turn yellow from nicotine. No amount of brushing will remove it. I brush twice a day and my teeth are still yellow. Say goodbye to aesthetic long fingers with perfect skin and nails and beautiful smiles.
- If you smoke indoors, the stench will eventually become more and more difficult to air out, and it will stain your walls. If not, good luck going outside in all kinds of weather just so you can have a cigarette.
- Your social interactions will suffer. You will either have to leave your friends several times for minutes at a time to have a cigarette in a separate area, or be anxious for hours because the situation doesn't allow you to have one.
- ... Unless your friends are smokers too. In that case, you will smoke more because of social smoking. My friends who smoke and I go through several packs of cigarettes in a single evening of drinking when we're together. After that, you wake up with your mouth and throat feeling like sandpaper.
- It is very, very, very time consuming and mentally exhausting. You will get to a point where you will plan your days based on when and where you can have a cigarette, how to organise that, how to get there, how much that will take etc. If you're a student and/or employed, you now have to plan your smoking breaks into your already busy schedule.
- Even if you don't develop a deadly illness (which you most likely will, especially in combination with an ED), you will chronically suffer in some way. Whether it be the smoker's morning cough, damaging your vocal chords (goodbye singing), or just generally feeling like shit, it will happen.
- This one stings: WEIGHT LOSS FROM SMOKING ISN'T EVEN TEMPORARY! Studies have shown that people lose a little bit of weight when they start smoking and then gain it back, even if they continue smoking, and especially if they do the right thing and stop. So if you're thinking about smoking "a little bit" and then stopping so you can kickstart weight loss, just forget about it.
- It gets addictive quickly. It becomes a comfort and a habit and it's very difficult to control yourself because it doesn't feel like a big deal even though you're harming yourself. It's also a very nagging thought to have in your brain, especially if you already have urges and obsessive thoughts because of your ED.
- It's EXPENSIVE. Holy fuck, it's expensive. Packs cost a lot. Buying tobacco to roll your own cigarettes is a bit cheaper, but still costly if you're smoking regularly. Most smokers I know and myself resorted to finding less legal ways to get cheaper cigarettes and tobacco, but that's another hassle in and of itself. "But I can just buy the cheapest kind!" I mean, if you want to smoke something that tastes like bitter ashes mixed with hot asphalt, go for it, but as someone who's been there I can promise you you won't last long.
I don't want to wag my finger at you, but please, if you're not smoking already - and ESPECIALLY if you're a minor - don't even start. It's not worth it.
And please, don't spread harmful "advice" like this to already vulnerable people and teenagers/kids. Smoking is not romantic. It's not an aesthetic you can wear when it suits you, it consumes your entire life and affects your body, mind, health, bank account/allowance, time management, and social life. It has so many downsides people never mention and there are better things to do with your body and money. And again, IT WON'T MAKE YOU SKINNY IN THE LONG RUN, so it's not even worth it.
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Absolutely DISGUSTED by the mainstream media’s smear campaign of Johnny Depp
there are literally tapes of Amber Heard admitting to hitting, punching, throwing things at Johnny Depp, being a gaslighting lil’ sh*t. And only a handful of MSM reported on those. And that’s not to mention SHE ADMITTED IT UNDER OATH during her deposition.
But ONE frustrated text is being reported by all of them. The double standard is absolutely outrageous.
And not just the fact that they spread it like fire, but the HOW. Threatened. Vowed. etc. I’m sorry what? First of all, the text message was:
1. sent to a friend, NOT Amber. She didn’t know it existed so she couldn’t have been threatened by it.
2. Followed by saying “I’m too f*cked in the head to spray my rage at the one I love” so what vow when he literally said he’d never do it?
Amber Heard is someone who provenly cheated on Johnny Depp with multiple people. Abused him mentally, violently physically, nearly killed him, made false allegations about him, turning the story around on him, which lead to him losing his good name and his career, his kids being bullied, him having suicidal thoughts.
BUT HIM BEING FRUSTRATED BY HER BEHAVIOUR AND VENTING IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO A FRIEND IS THE PROBLEM HERE? THAT MAKES HIM AN ABUSER OR A HORRIBLE PERSON? Or means he doesn’t deserve to feel sorry for?
I HAVE SAID WORSE THINGS ABOUT MY OWN ABUSIVE FATHER. I wished he’d d*e, so many times. Does that make him any less abusive? Does that make me and my family any less of abuse victims? Am I an awful person for wishing the abuse to stop?!
Does this make Rose McGowan any less of a victim? Does it make Harvey Weinstein any less of a disgusting abuser/predator/rapist?
If you answered “NO” to all of those then there’s zero fcking reason for these texts from Johnny Depp to make him any less of a victim, any less innocent, than he was before.
If you answered “yes” then honestly F*ck you. It happens. There are cases when a victim killed their abuser when they just couldn’t take it any more. Which is an extreme, certainly, but it can happen and while the person would still go to jail, you’d still feel for them because they were a victim of abuse and they just couldn’t take it anymore.
JOHNNY DEPP DID NOTHING BUT SENT A FRUSTRATED TEXT MESSAGE. And pushed her away when she was attacking him. That’s the restraint he had. And that is CONFIRMED BY HER ON THE DAMN AUDIO. And her own parents confirmed she was not abused and told Johnny he has the right to feel angry she made those allegations.
And let’s put one more thing into perspective, shall we?
We all know Johnny had struggled with addiction in the past. He started taking pills to deal with his mental health and the abusive household he grew up in. Obviously that’s something you struggle with your whole life.
But I don’t think anyone could argue against him being perfectly fine before Amber Heard. You all know he was. Then Amber Heard happend and all of a sudden his problem was back. Want to know why?
After sending that ONE TEXT, he immediately followed, not only by saying he would never hurt her, but he went and HARMED HIS OWN DAMN SELF by taking pills to numb the pain. But the media won’t write headlines about that, will they? lying cowards.
HE SACRIFICED HIS OWN HEATLH rather than harming her. THINK ABOUT THAT.
And you all now can mock him that he’s a drunk or does drug. Having fun with that... and what fun it is. Mocking an abuse victim for being in so much pain he had to do drugs so often to numb himself. Congratulations y’all.
I feel the need to point out, they have 70 000 text messages and THIS is apparently the worst thing they found, him venting to a third party, followed by saying he’d never do it and him harming himself instead. WOW.
Of course saying those things is not exactly okay. But you are lying to yourself if you say that’s not COMMON, to have violent disturbing thoughts about your abusers or people that have hurt you or someone you love. It is common. We’ve all done it. We’ve all wished someone to suffer and die because the pain they caused was so big (sometimes people even say “I’m gonna kill you” about stupid things). The thing is you DON’T actually act on it. You think it to relieve yourself, to vent your frustrations. If you say you’ve never had such a thought, you’re either lying, or have never been hurt.
And to all jumping on this thinking it’s a proof he abused her. Please, wake the hell up. The text doesn’t say “this is what I did”. There is still no evidence against him.
And his one angry text certainly didn’t cancel out the MOUNTAIN of evidence of her lies and her abusing him. It makes me feel sick the way the media jumped on this to report it and the remaining abuse apologists, latched onto it the way they did.
Take a good look in the mirror. You people have tweeted disgusting things about him. Wishing him death, wanting to strangle him, wanting him to die of a serious illness. I used to see these tweets constantly at the high point of the “johnny depp is an abuser” fiasco. So don’t act like he’s the worst person ever for having a moment of anger he put into words. He had every right to feel angry. He still does. This woman along with media DESTROYED him over something he didn’t do. He gets to feel angry. He gets to feel whatever he wants to feel. As long as no one is getting hurt. And well, she’s not burned, is she? So stfu.
I will finish but a little detail most people are again ignoring. Both The Sun and Amber Heard, who he sued, have tried to make the evidence private. WHY? Why would either of them want the evidence private if it proves they are right and he was the abuser? Why is he the one fighting to have it ALL public, even the seemingly bad parts. Why is she the one trying to dismiss the case, where she could prove she’s telling the truth once and for all? Why is Johnny Depp the one fighting to have the case go to trial in front a judge and a jury? Abusers don’t do that. Abusers lead smear campaigns and try to run away from a trial.
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in my skin
i’ve been thinking about writing this for a long time, and I think I’m at a place where, more so than being comfortable talking about it, putting my thoughts down might help me continue to chip away at my complex.
I want to preface this by saying that my fixation on how my body looks is infuriating to even me. this is for 3 reasons:
1) there is an endless list of more important, broader existential crises to be concerned with instead of how I look (what am I heading towards? am I genuinely happy pursuing a capitalistic, societal definition of success? what is purpose or value in my life???)
2) even on an individual level, so many other aspects of a human make up their person and make them interesting other than how they look and its stupid to be so concerned with this one thing that means so little if anything at all
3) I’m not even that stupidly far away from societal beauty standards anyway wtf like stfu
regardless, I think my thoughts about my body are reflective of how I think about myself relative to the world in general. I’ve also found that the relationship I have with my body is often a symptom about how I am feeling about my self worth at a certain point in time, and also manifests in how I see and treat the people around me. for these reasons I think it can be valuable to unpack these feelings even though they may seem asinine.
the first time I became conscious of my body was in my primary school dance club, when we had to get measured for our costumes. most of my friends were generally skinny and I wasn’t significantly larger than any of them. but the nature of (chinese) dance and the kind of girls that joined it made the general impression that it was better to be lithe and delicate - the moves just looked better that way. the revelation that I wasn’t as thin as I could be was not groundbreaking. it didn’t trigger any immediately toxic thoughts either. it was just a thought I hadn’t had before, that my body wasn’t perfect. It also didn’t affect me much because I had a lot of good stuff going on in school; I had great friends, I did well in school, everything looked good on paper and in real life (I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I peaked in primary school). so it wasn’t a huge trigger for anything, just a planting of a seed, I guess? dormant.
as I grew into my teens my body was often too busy serving its intended purposes for me to be concerned with how it looked. I played sports all the time, I woke up early and went to bed early (when possible). I ate well and I was active. It wasn’t difficult to be relatively fit, so I wasn’t really that concerned with how “good” my body looked. like all teens, I did become more concerned with standards of attractiveness and whether or not I conformed to them. I noticed how people’s bodies differed and what people liked. I was aware that I was not on the top of my teenage male acquaintance’s who-would-you-bang list, but it wasn’t that big of a deal. I wasn’t super pleased with my body but I definitely wasn’t unhappy with it. and frankly speaking, I didn’t think I was unattractive lah like ya I might not be hot shit but I was definitely not ugly and I was pretty confident with what I had to offer. this was probably also due to the fact that I did well in school and extra-curriculars, so I found my validation elsewhere.
for a short time between high school and college I had a body goal I wanted to work towards, time on my hands and a motivated support system, so I started working out for an aesthetic. It wasn’t super serious and there were no hard and fast rules, plus it was genuinely fun to work my body. I had been an athlete for several years at this point and I knew I felt good when my body was well-worked and maintained, so it was never difficult to bring myself to work out. the results were a happy bonus. looking back that was probably the time when I had the healthiest relationship with my body. I liked using it and spending time on it for the sake of doing it, I liked how it made me look but never to the extent that it became my main motivation for working on my body. if I had the luxury of unadulterated, stressless time, I could probably do it again. when I started college I was healthy, I looked good and I didn’t even care (we’ll come back to this).
when I started college things started to fall apart. my time in university was, overall, pretty shitty for my mental health. it was great in a lot of other aspects, and I can say with little doubt that it’s helped me grow into a person I not only want to be but am comfortable with. but the process was a shit show to put it lightly. when it comes to my relationship with how I look in particular, I think my years in London have unfortunately left me with a considerable amount of trauma. to make a long story short, I had an ideal of what I wanted my college experience to be like, but half a year into it I found myself severely unsatisfied with every aspect of my life. I wasn’t doing well in school, I felt like I was underperforming socially, I was conscious about the difference in affluence between me and the people around me and I was generally unhappy with the space I took up in my own and other people’s narratives. amidst all this, I put on some weight because (1) I wasn’t working out anywhere as much as I used to (2) the weather, my mental wellbeing and the food readily available made me eat a lot of junk. but instead of acknowledging and focusing on the underlying inferiority complexes that were eating away at me, I sought alternative validation through things I could seemingly control i.e. how I looked. it became the case that it was no longer that I looked a certain way because I worked out, but that I worked out because I wanted to look a certain way. and when I didn’t look a certain way because I was eating shit or going out or because it just plainly was not realistic given my living situation, the lack of validation would further aggravate the inferiority complexes and unhappiness with my person that started this toxicity to begin with. i ended first year treating the people around me like shit, not having anything to show for the hours of studying i put in, and a lot heavier than when I started it. family and friends pointed it out and i was pretty chill about it whenever it happened. i honestly thought i wasn’t that affected by it (again, brushing under the carpet the problems I had with the expectations I set for myself), and that i could lose the weight if i put my mind to it.
then in second year i developed an eating disorder. a couple months into second year I hadn’t made much progress with either my mental or physical health. I often ate till I was physically uncomfortable because I had a general problem with self control (I had none, in fact I didn’t want any, but that’s a story for another time). One night after eating too much, I went to brush my teeth and I was so full that when I gagged lightly from brushing my tongue, I involuntarily threw up the food that was filled up to my gullet. A normal person would’ve registered this as a cue that they should be more conscious about how much they’re eating. I saw it as an opportunity to eat as much as I wanted (for what?) and still be (or at least feel like I am) in control of how much weight I put on. and so I developed bulimia. the bulimia was closely followed by a binge eating disorder - seeing that now there was a mechanism to keep my intake in check, I could let my eating habits, which were in fact reflective of my control problems unravelling, go crazy. I told a couple friends about it because I thought maybe I needed help, but I never really told them how bad it could get. some nights I would go down into the kitchen in the middle of the night twice. thrice. seven times. I would look for anything I could inhale. cashews dipped in peanut butter. seaweed with a cup of yogurt. three packets of chips and a large slice of cake. instant noodles and jam straight out from the jar. it didn’t matter. it all ended up coming back out of my mouth and into the toilet bowl anyway. I would go out for meals with my friends and we would over-order. the paiseh pieces would be left on the plate and if no one wanted them, i would eat them. immediately afterwards I’d go to the restaurant washroom and throw it up. and all this time while I treated both food and my digestive tract like they were toys, my fixation on how I looked grew. spoiler: i did not lose weight from being bulimic. but I very much did lie to myself about it in order to keep at what was actually a coping mechanism for the rest of my life that was falling apart around me. I threw up everything I ate today, do I look different? I didn’t throw lunch up, but I worked out, so it should cancel out, does it show? I ate a salad but because for dinner we had baked rice I threw half of it up, it didn’t make me bloat did it?
towards the end of second year I had a rude awakening that forced me to drag myself out of the shit hole of a mindset I had casted myself into to address the personal issues and the lazy, irresponsible, selfish attitude that had gotten me to this point. luckily, when I dealt with the underlying dissatisfaction I felt towards myself, my problems with food disappeared along with it. right now I don’t have an unhealthy relationship with food. if i were being generous, I’d say it could even be considered pretty healthy. my relationship with my physical body is also pretty good. I eat balanced meals, I sleep well, I work out when I want to and lay in bed and eat junk when I want to. I don’t force myself to get activity in, I don’t force myself to eat more or eat less. in fact, I think I am really inching towards getting the intuitive eating and living thing down. I’ve lost some weight and I definitely don’t hate how I look anymore. so I think I am in a good place for the most part.
my relationship with body image and the validation I feel from how I look however, has been (permanently?) affected. as it stands, I am scared about two things.
first. I like the person I am right now. my life is not super in check, but I’m holding it down pretty well. but in the past two years, when i had nothing under control, the way I looked was the only measure with which i valued my worth. do I only place less emphasis on how I look right now because, like when I was in high school, I have other things going for me? if, come one day, life happens and the going gets tough, will I once again come down on myself because I don’t look perfect, even though I don’t look shit? will how I see my body and how I feel about it be affected every time something else in my life causes anxiety or unhappiness, and if that happens is there a risk of it starting a vicious circle of self-toxicity?
second. like I said, I don’t hate how I look right now. but I also don’t love it. since coming back home, after a shower or when I’m changing or whenever I’m deciding what to wear, I stand in front of the mirror, and I look into it for what I can tell is longer than I would like. I don’t give myself shit for how I look or dislike what I see. but why am I looking anyways? am i checking to see if i like my body any more or less today? why do I care? why should it matter how close or far I am to society and my own definition of an ideal body?
recently I watched a video that said despite the positive intentions of the body positivity movement, a better approach would be radical body acceptance. body positive says that even though I’m fatter or shorter or flatter or whatever-er than the beauty standard, I am still beautiful. radical body acceptance argues that words like fat or thin or flat or short or thin should just be neutral words. there is no good or bad linked to them and there is no good or bad body type. bodies are not “beautiful however they may look”. they are just bodies. I’m trying to strive towards this idea of body perception, to go back to a place of not caring how I look in and of itself or relative to anything else. how I look will just be how I look. to be clear, I don’t think this mindset is the best one that should be universally promoted. I do however think it is the best method for me. this is because I’ve found that ever since developing a fixation on my body and how it looks, sometimes when I see other people the things I take notice of most are their bodies as well. I don’t think I go as far as to assign worth to their person or character because of how their body looks, but I can tell that I’m developing a fixation on other people’s bodies (even if I don’t compare it to mine) and I feel like it subconsciously blocks a clear, genuine perception of them as people. and, of course, it feeds into my obsession about how I look. the more I care, the more I care. so I want to focus on caring less, and eventually not caring.
I would like for a day to come where I can put on clothes and not feel the need to change out of it because I don’t like how I look in something before leaving the house. I would like even more if I didn’t feel the need to look in the mirror before leaving to begin with. I would like to be able to not feel badly if someone points out I gained weight, but I would like even more to not feel happy because someone says I’ve lost weight. I would like to stalk fewer girls on instagram to see what their bodies look like in different photos. I would like to stop being concerned about how my body looks in different photos. I would like for a day to come where, whenever I’m not actively thinking about it, I forget how I look. slowly but surely, I will take steps to make this happen. it took a while to rebuild a healthy relationship with food, and then a healthy relationship with my physical body. surely it will take longer to rebuild the relationship with the image and idea of my body in my mind. I think the moment I forget the image exists will be the day I manage to do so.
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This is so irrelevant to your blog but sometimes it’s easier to ask for advice from someone you don’t know personally. You’ve only ever mentioned some things about your personal life and some darker moments you’ve had but what should someone who feels down a lot and overthinks should do? Its hard to understand but lately this overwhelming feeling of mediocrity has engulfed me. You’ve always got such wise words for anything you speak about and any advice might be helpful rn 💖
Hey anon!
I’ve been dealing with mental health issues for the major part of my life (I’d say about 2/3rds) and it’s… a battle. A never-ending one, with hills and valleys. And with the world we live in today, I believe every person has some mental health challenges to a certain degree, that they need to work on.
You haven’t given me any specifics, so the first thing I would encourage you to do is seek professional help if you can. There is absolutely no shame in doing so, because trust me, literally everyone is struggling in their own way. Some people just deal with it/hide it better. Almost every single person on earth needs therapy; not because something is “wrong” with us, but because life throws a lot of shit at us that we are just not taught how to deal with it in a healthy manner. A therapist can help you identify your problem areas, analyze your patterns, and suggest better methods of handling difficult things. If medication can make your situation better, then certainly consider that too. You would take medicine for anything else that was wrong with your body, so please give your brain the boost it needs. Do not buy into the stigma that surrounds mental health. Mental health IS a health issue and must be dealt with appropriately by people who are trained in the area.
For feeling down: Try and identify what triggers these low moods. It takes a little time and introspection, but you will ultimately be able to do it. Is it anxiety over something you’re dealing with currently? Certain people/places/situations? For instance, I tend to avoid noisy, crowded places, because dealing with that truly drains me. I’m a picky eater, so I don’t eat with anyone who would disparage me for that. I do not entertain people talking about my body, whatever their opinion may be, good or bad. Identifying WHAT makes you feel bad goes a long way in helping you minimize that thing from happening and protecting yourself.
For overthinking: Personally, the best advice I can give you is to take it one day, hour, or even 5 minutes at a time. Focus on what needs to be done for these time intervals, and get through them. The last five years of my life have been especially tumultuous, and this is what has gotten me through. Life is so fucking unpredictable and fragile, and no one knows if there’s even going to be a tomorrow or what it’s going to look like. So what’s the point worrying about it from today and squandering your time on something that may not even happen? You’ll deal with it when you come to it, just like you have with everything else in life. So use your present well, spending time and effort on things that serve you well. Whatever that may be - education, work, hobbies, entertainment, or even people. If it doesn’t add value or joy to your life, then why are you spending your limited resources on it?
For feeling mediocre: It’s hard in today’s world, especially with social media and everyone stunting on it as if they’re all having the time of their lives. Trust me, everyone is dealing with shit. You see only what people WANT you to see. For example, you see my cute cat and his adorable do-no-evil face, but you cannot see the sheer amount of fuckery he has put me through every single night for the last 7 years. (STFU AND GO TO SLEEP YOU LITTLE HELLION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP ZOOMING AROUND AND YELLING AND KNOCKING OVER MY STUFF. AND NO I DON’T HAVE ANY TREATS FOR YOU RN, LEAVE ME ALONE. WOULD IT KILL YOU TO SLEEP ON MY SHOULDER AND CUDDLE LIKE ALL THE OTHER FUCKING CATS ON INSTAGRAM??????????????)
My point is, don’t compare yourself to others. You are the only one living your life, with its unique set of circumstances and your personality and…. everything. Other people aren’t accomplishing what you are, or dealing with the setbacks you are dealing with, or working in the environment that you are, so how is it even a fair comparison? Maybe if they were in your exact situation, they’d be failing. In any case, there’s nothing wrong with being mediocre. What you lack in some areas, you more than make up in others. That’s why it’s called “average”. Coz it evens out. Look, the Wright Brothers may have invented the airplane, but we continue to fly because of thousands of unnamed pilots. That is, there are certain people who are special and may achieve amazing things, but the world continues to run smoothly thanks to mediocre, nameless people quietly doing their thing. Of course, you should aspire to better yourself in every manner you can; but not coz you want to beat someone else, but because you want to do the best you can. Your best is enough. You are enough.
Also, I would urge you to try your best to avoid that part of social media where everyone is being inauthentic and just showcasing their “stuff”. “Stuff” doesn’t really make you happy. You buy/experience it, and it fills a void in you for a few hours/days, and then you’re back to square one. Am I telling you to never buy things ever again, like a cuteass but frivolous mug that looks like a unicorn? No, if it gives you joy to drink your morning coffee out of that thing, go ahead by all means. But don’t buy it coz someone on insta has it and styled it nicely. Real life does not have pristine white backgrounds and artistically strewn wildflowers and a perfectly photogenic slice of avocado toast, all laid out casually. Try and live mindfully, doing what feels best for yourself, than trying to fit into a mould that people are pushing on you.
If you’d like to come off anon and message me with the specifics of your situation, you’re welcome to. I certainly don’t have all the answers (lol my own life is quite in shambles), but maybe I can offer some solace and an outsider’s perspective, that could help you?
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5) Honestly, imo it would made a lot more sense if Serena got involved with the Resistance after 2x08. She's a writer and a good propagandist, June's an editor, they could carefully go behind Fred's back. Also, Commander Lawrence is there. They could have brought down Gilead from within. Maybe I'm being simplistic, but I think it would have given a nice msg. An instigator (and impassioned supporter) of a misogynistic (and homophobic) totalitarian regime becomes a victim herself, but decides to
6) to do sth about that monstrous situation she created, even if that means that she will go down with Gilead. Then again, I do understand why the creators didn't go there. This is the handmaid's tale, not the redeemed fascist's tale. Regarding 2x10, oof. I pride myself in having a hard stomach, but that scene made me REALLY, REALLY uncomfortable (and ENRAGED). (A lot more uncomfortable than the previous ceremonies, which were terrible enough on their own, AND Eden's death* .) And given that
7) Serena has the gall to tell Fred that June hates him, because he raped her. Like bitch, stfu, it was YOUR idea! You raped her and used Fred for the penetration. And not only that, but she manipulated Fred/played him like an instrument. She knows at this point that he's a serial rapist/abuser AND in love with June, so ofc he wouldn't decline the opportunity to abuse her once again. It really is telling that June was screaming Serena's name, not Fred's. I wonder wtf was going on Serena's mind
8) to put the baby's life in danger. She could have punished June after the birth if she really wanted to. That being said, I personally think that Serena was kind of OOC in that episode. Not because she's an angel that is not capable of such hideous things. But, after taking under consideration 2x08 and 2x09, I felt that her 180° change came out of nowhere. Especially, since she took a small taste of her own medicine. She knows what abuse/domestic violence feels like. As for the marital rape,
9) it may have been clichéd, but it would also have made sense. A person that repeatedly rapes a woman, beats his wife and is okay with mutilations draws the line at forcing himself on her? Since when do creepers have standards? One last thing, because I've spammed you enough. *I mentioned Eden's death (which made me cry like a baby). How do you feel about her? Bc was disappointed that the fandom blamed a 15 year old child that was forced to marry a man twice her age. Not only that, but she
10) forgave him and kept Nick and June's secret? // END OF RANT // My apologies.
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“Then again, I do understand why the creators didn't go there. This is the handmaid's tale, not the redeemed fascist's tale.”
I had to laugh IRL there. Cos, it’s true. It’s June’s story, technically speaking, not Serena’s. And I dunno but I feel like I suspect that’s where they eventually want to take the show. But S2 is too early for that? I personally don’t know why. There’s no law an American programme must go one for 14 seasons. It could easily be a 4 season series. Or 3! But I’ve read things that Hulu wants to keep it going as long as possible. Huge mistake, imo. Organically speaking, Serena changing course after 2x08, or even, at a push, 2x09 would have made much more sense than this “will she? won’t she?” BS they keep doing with her. I think she’s come around in a way she hadn’t before by the finale (or Eden’s murder). But it still doesn’t seem like it’s something she’ll carry through with--especially without June. It’s interesting how much Serena relies on June for incentive/encouragement. Basically everything Serena’s done in resistance since mid-S2 has been because June has done or challenged her or said something to prompt her. I feel on her own, she would be ~meeker. Even things like, “Hey, so I know this way to possible save the baby... what do you think?” is clearly her going “Please say what I want to hear!” It’s like she can’t just do it herself. She needs June’s input. June was calling almost every shot in 2x08. In 2x09, when left to her own devices, Serena folded. It took June screaming at her in 2x13 for her to do anything about reading. So, without June around I feel like Serena will just go back to old ways. Which is ridic cos she is an intelligent, powerful woman when she actually has the balls. The only thing Serena manages to do on her own is assault, hate speech, and war crimes lol. The easy shit.
That said, I kinda like how they ended 2x08. I loved Fred seeing the rose on June’s bedside and putting all the pieces together and seeing that as the true threat: Serena and June as friends/partners in rebellion. The beating scene was horrific too, mostly cos I’m not one of those weird fans that was sitting there cheering, “YAY I’M SO GLAD SERENA GOT BEAT! SERVES HER RIGHT!” (I just... want to throttle every single person who’s said that. Not necessarily cos I wuv woobie Serena sfm but because way to miss the point of the entire series.) but the aftermath was even worse, imo. June reaching out and attempting to maintain the bond, but Fred managed to break Serena really easily. Like it’s just so awful how easy it was for him to snap that bond, cos he knows his wife and her pride, etc. It was ... so manipulative and evil genius. (Although it doesn’t take a genius to figure that out, Freddie boy.) It was just such a prime example of exactly how they maintain power in Gilead and how they managed to get it working: estranging women from each other. And it was just such an apt way of visualising the concepts June talked about in S1 about keeping women at arm’s length of each other, suspicious, etc. in order for men to keep power. So, in that sense, I thought it was well done. But then... I was like, “OH FUCK THIS. NOT AGAIN. FUCKING SERENA. WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT. WHY CAN’T SHE BE STRONG LIKE JUNE. UGH.”
I dunno.
Yeah. 2x10. I was “lucky” to have seen that scene ahead of time... so I was prepared when it happened during the episode. But it was still repulsive. Aside from the nonsensical writing of the whole thing, it was just gross. And I think maybe you’re the first person that when talking about this has mentioned how grossed out you are by the other Ceremony scenes. So many people just... don’t really mention them. I remember the article about 2x10 and how the showrunners were saying something along the lines of “Is it really that big of a deal when the same thing has been happening the entire time?” Nobody reacted the same way those times, because the Handmaids are quiet and well-behaved during their rapes, even though, on some level I think Serena and some other wives (IIRC) are completely aware of how terrible it is (Serena even admits as much...but does it anyway uuuggghhhhh.) This is the only time June ever fights back and suddenly not only are Fred and Serena faced with the brutal reality of the act but as the audience we are as well. It’s easy to look the other way when nobody is crying or struggling but WHAM. Fuck that. This is gross and horrible and here is what it REALLY is. And it’s hard to swallow.
June crying Serena’s name was probably the absolute worst part, cos it just makes it crystal clear that everyone knows exactly who is responsible for that rape. June knows who has the power, whose idea it was, and she knows the only one to stop it is not Fred. (God, I fucking hate Fred but like you said, he was totally played by Serena. I don’t let him off the hook for it but really it was her idea, 100% and he just thought “Hell yeah! Sounds good!”)
I feel like as much as Serena understood the Ceremony is pretty bad generally, I don’t think she recognised it as “real” rape until that moment. I feel like a lot of those Gilead people are just so willfully blind and selfish and horrible that they actively refuse to see things. Like Serena’s weird ass enthrall about child brides. I know some of that was to get back at June but she seemed genuinely awed by how beautiful it all was. NO BITCH IT’S NOT. IT’S CHILD ABUSE AND SEX TRAFFICKING.
I just have given up trying to understand why Serena would do such a monumentally STUPID and DANGEROUS thing if she honestly cared about the baby--which, incidentally, I do believe she truly loves Nicole and babies. As crazy as that is. Even if her love of Nicole specifically is totally a self-centeredness. But she loves babies. Babies above all else apparently, including other women. And she’s not an idiot. Baby health aside, that is a HUGE crime in Gilead to rape a pregnant Handmaid for any reason. I’m supposed to believe Serena is just so massively upset about June’s false labour that she goes mentally insane, even after being subjected to the similar treatment like a week earlier? It’s a huge, nonsensical risk on basically every single level.
I’ve come to the conclusion, considering all those things you did, it was just bad writing. Her 180 just... is bonkers. I give up. I don’t think there’s any way to logically get from 2x08/09 to 2x10 without taking some leaps. Do I think Serena would punish and abuse June for humiliating her? Absolutely. That’s her MO. She lives for that shit. But rape? It... I dunno again. Fucking weird. I don’t know if it’s on purpose or what, but I do find it interesting that after that Serena never raises a hand to June again, when she had some opportunity. She still punished her by separating her from Nicole but she never physically assaults her again. (Not that I’m saying she’s a changed person or anything. I just thought it was curious but I don’t know if it was deliberate on the show’s part or just a symptom of lack of real opportunity.)
ITA re: the marital rape too. I see no reason Fred wouldn’t escalate to that. It’s all Joseph Fiennes fault. Which is probably what pisses me off the very most. He decided that was just too much for his character? C’mon. That’s too much but what Fred does in the next ep is peachy keen? Oh, right, because in 2x10 we can blame Fred’s behaviour on his evil wife. It’s not really his fault. I see. But you can’t blame Serena for him raping her. Ugh. So, cos, Fiennes doesn’t like it, we lose way more context for Serena--who, lbr, is the more important character in this whole series out of the two of them.
EDEN. OMG BB EDEN.
I’m with you. I was actually pretty disgusted at fandom’s response to her. SHE IS A CHILD. But all these Nick/June shippers were going hogwild attacking her for getting inbetween their precious self-insert fantasy relationship. (I have a particularly low opinion of Nick/June shippers primarily because of their reactions to Eden, tbh. Before that, I was like whatever, each to their own.) This is a story about women and girls in a horrible society, and the focus seemed to be on tearing apart this female child for something she had zero control over. I never got the “Eden is evil and gonna fuck shit up for Nick (and June)!” vibe. She seemed to be a regular girl caught and raised in a misogynistic awful place and just lost. I absolutely ABHORRED the way Nick treated her the entire fucking time. (I honestly hate him so much, and most of that again is due to him since the forced marriage, both in the way he was with Eden and with June. And the number of fangirls fanwanking away all his shitty fucking behaviour and throwing Eden under the bus didn’t help my attitude.)
She’s a KID. FORCED TO MARRY A GROWN MAN. A man who it wouldn’t kill to just be straight up with her and a little bit kind. Fuck. (Serena’s grooming certainly wasn’t good either. Like, seriously lady, shut up. Stop pressuring the kid to fuck an adult man who hates her by telling her “Well maybe you can like it too!” AHHHHH.)
To me, aside from the babies/children, Eden was the most truly good character on the entire show. She was patient, kind, caring, FORGIVING, loving. Completely innocent bb girl. And then she gets fucking murdered for kissing a boy she actually likes and wants to be with. Which, was ........... wow. Gilead’s hypocrisy killing a pious young girl, presumably fertile... Yikes.
And that little girl was more brave than ANY other character. And maybe some of that is teenage thinking but still she was staring down death and refused to back down. Sure, it’s unreasonable, and an adult likely wouldn’t have made that decision... but also what was her option? Repent... and become a Handmaid? That would have been her fate since she’s an adulteress and fallen woman. And since she truly believes in goodness, and God, and Heaven (presumably), she sees it as a way for her and Isaac to be together. Meanwhile, it took a literal death sentence for Nice Guy Nick to actually recognise he could have maybe been a bit kinder to her. Then she’s asking for HIS forgiveness. AH. Eden bb.
I have a lot of feelings about Eden, and the way fandom treated her. Even when she was killed, fans were still calling her stupid and annoying for her choice--likely the ONLY real choice she has EVER had for herself. (I think that concept gets forgotten.) Like WTF sort of world do you live in that you watch a show about fascism and female oppression and turn around and bitch out the YOUNG GIRL strictly for being a young girl in a fascist society?
But hey, this is the same fandom that calls Janine annoying and crazy, and says Serena deserves to be beaten and mutilated by her husband/Gilead. Way to miss the point of the entire show. But that’s a totally other rant for another time, heh.
Also, anon, NEVER APOLOGISE FOR YOUR RANTS. They are so wonderful to read cos I completely agree! And it’s just such a relief to see reasonable people around these parts.
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rant no. i don’t remember35687
posted this on my private instagram account
honestly it is scary to openly express on my main
i cannot believe there are still people out there
capable of hating in this time
do you even know how fucking DARK and SAD and unfortunately POWERFUL the word HATE is?
and you truly can do that?
i hope you heal
truly
so coming back 2 da point
rant no. i don’t remember :
got to wash my fucking hair today and that’s amazing cause i woke up at a good fucking time when society’s solar could take the fucking hot water and let me be hygienic cause now i’m genuinely wanting to have a fucking shower so that i take care of myself but life has its own ways no so i couldn’t for like 2 days 😃but i’m grateful for the hot fucking water i finally got today to pour on my body and clean up my bathroom real well and put up these beautiful fucking flowers that i received on 22nd january which is my birth date lol and i absolutely fucking love sunflowers and siya got me white ones and wow that is so thoughtful and i was really proud of myself for cleaning up n making this fucking sink look all clean and organised and nice and was wanting to share this dump on my main so spread some positivity but i’m so fucking tired 😄 of pretending so now i will fucking rant 😄 and not pretend. and maybe share all of this fucking shit on my main itself when i have the desire. cause social media should be fucking real. waah. waaaah. what a rant. waah. bye. ok. that was so much anger 😄😃 and now i will go back to praying for papa and making some music and writing 10 more songs i am too fucking sHY AND NERVOUs to share to the world FOR WHat 😃😄😃😄 IDK but i shall figure it out 😁😄😄😀 i love you all always man thanks for accepting me for who n what i am and whoever got till the end of this rant. mAN WHAT PATIENCE YOU HAVE i love you ok gn bye 😃 pls gimme also. but if u did reach the end let me know who u r. pls. <3 :) I JUST really want my father to be conscious and awake soon and his heart to recover it’s working only at 25%, he couldn’t sleep the whole night AND HIS artificial OXYGEN REQUIREMENT INCREASED AGAIN for his lungs 🫁 NO I WILL NOT LET thAt HAPPEN😃 logically possible?? nO 😃 SO I WILL FIND Other ways but please this cannot happen bye. see u soon cause i know this account is gonna turn CRAZY 😄 FULL 😄 YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED leave b4 it’s 2 late then don’t tell me i’m ‘too much’ just stfu 😄😃👋🏼😄😶 ok enuf said hAHA amruta OBVIOUSly ok stop-
i really don’t want my father to die
honestly i’m shook how i haven’t run away already and fallen for my impulse and not made selfish decisions and im still alive wow yay therapist said that me strong u all say me strong but me sometimes don’t feel strong
but thank u for reminding me that i am strong
maybe i am
guess that’s how im alive
but aren’t we all?
therapist also said i’m drowning further
cause i’m getting so deep into my diagnosis
cause in life a lot of people i love and love me back
have unintentionally labelled me with words
and diagnosis
and then i started doing that 2
but therapist said diagnosis are for doctors to understand
i am my own individual. i am not my diagnosis.
honestly now i just want to concentrate on being alive, making sure papa is alive, my family and loved ones are healthy and make some music. but before papa gets better my entire focus is just going to be his recovery.
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whilst all of this happens my mother and uncle happen to be the only 2 emergency contacts in mumbai cause due to covid none of us are allowed to be in the hospital
i will be allowed to see him once he’s out of the covid unit
in case of emergency only i will go cause god forbid covid doesn’t leave and papa decides to i want to see him
cause in covid they don’t allow you to touch the bodies
:)
and and and guess whatttt
and meanwhile, my brother??? -_-
MY BROTHER who claims to be a mental health supporter
feminist ( pls this is the worst first apologise to ur own sis) -_-
kRanTikAari
i am in so much of shock :Ddddddd
my brother went and tried to take Hope’s ownership
from me too
his father’s genes
have started acting up
since he turned 25
they actually always existed and showed and it was fucking sad
and today the golden champ
i fucking loved so much
is a narcissist himself
a fake feminist
misogynist basically
tried to bring the whole family down
and says blocking everyone who ever says anything upsetting to him…so basically not convenient to him is ‘his approach’ to trauma -_- escape
oh -_- so you get to ‘run away’ at 30 -__-
conveniently use your ‘sister’ for ‘public support’ -__-
still keep the funds like a king that i have no idea about -__-
then still take money from the family you apparently hAtE -___-
then run away with Hope and separate her from Peace which is genuinely the biggest sin you can do due to which both of the pups go through so much of separation anxiety :(
then also block sister after she asks you to not involve her in your social media stunts -__-
right after you share Hope with her and she decides to help you -___- even financially
and then try to steal ownership from her
of her pet !!!
because you conveniently started calling her ‘yours’ after not even knowing what shampoo she’s been using for her body and her skin issues since 6 years -__-
due to lack of acceptance of your own mistakes
you go ahead and call everyone wrong
i wish you healing truly brother
i wish you truly work on healing your trauma
without lies and delusional stories you make up
for ‘public support’ and ‘amplification’
just to justify the trauma you have caused otherwise -_-
you aren’t the only one hurt !!! is my point !!! if only you understand, accepted and acknowledged this with the amount of grace you accept your own hurt with.
i don’t know why doesn’t your father do that for you -_-
and how do you get to blame us all -_- but ur own dad
go find him na -_- why every1 else -_-
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