Everything went wrong

not doing spoilery art today, maybe tomorrow

instead a blast from the past.

You’re staying, right bro??

I’m kidding, u don’t have to but man I really hope u do

I think I'll be staying but only on YouTube and Tumblr cuz you guys definitely seems more chill.

Everyone is divided on twt and some are dead set on burning that bridge and some feel uncomfortable and some are just floating around and waiting, hopefully things can calm down and we can enjoy stuff again.

Curse of Strahd- Episode 23

Few sessions ago we made our way to the den of werewolves in search of a book we were told to find. Went about as well as one could expect a negotiation with werewolves to go. One bitten and turned, another nearly killed, Theron was surrounded by three of them at one point and somehow managed to get out relatively unscathed aside from a curse of a different kind.

But hey we got the book and cleared the den, what could possibly go wrong?

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I took myself out on a Me Date today, and it sucked. I had a bad time. I have to take an edible now and watch Derry Girls or something.

I am getting ads bout 12 feet skeleton

When ya gonna be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

We’ll see how soon

It’s not like I’m super excited to build that ridiculous thing…

I just have a couple ideas..

Just went outside to smoke. Saw fireworks, was happy. Heard the fireworks, was unhappy. Then saw a random dude riding his bike when he fell all of a sudden. The random dude didn't get up again. Thought, "Hm, I should get over." Walked towards him in joggers and slippers. Realized the random dude was my drunk roommate. Helped him up. Then his shopping bag broke and his groceries fell out

I just wanted to go for a quick smoke lmao

how the fuck did i pass my driving exam im in awe

HOTD 1x07: Older Rhaenyra x Daemon - full analyse

The more I think about it, the more I am disappointed about the Daemyra’s scenes we had, even if I’m glad we have some.

 So missed opportunities with the beach, the dagger scene, the marriage proposal, the wedding, it’s quite painful actually.

 In addition, can someone explain to me why Daemon didn’t speak once to Rhaenyra in high valyrian during the entire episode?!

 - At the beach, the chemistry between Emma and Matt wasn’t there, it was so anti climatic. There wasn’t any passion, lust after all this year? Come one. It’s even worst when we compare it to the scene in the brothel. Also, book Daemon wouldn’t have care that Rhaenyra was a “child” (she wasn’t btw, she is older in the show, more like 17/18 when it happened), what a pity excuse. During the say sex scene, there weren’t any moans, any heavily breaths, lust expression, no camera close-up, no orgasm, just Emma’s dead eyes (sorry, but that’s not the eyes of someone who has reached climax ; Remember Dany and Jon scene in the boat).

- During the dagger scene, Daemon was utterly passive, distant like a vegetable even when Rhaenyra was being attacked by Alicent with his daughters bleedings behind Rhaenyra. He just hold Ser Crispin at one point and that it.

- During the marriage proposal, I have never witness a such cold proposal. Daemon wasn’t even watching Rhaenyra when she proposed to him, no deepest feeling, he was looking up, somewhere else, and at point, he even sit down.

- At the weeding, no words was exchange, no explication were given on this valyrian custom (what did they drink, why did they bleed those parts, ….)

In short, it seems that now that Rhaenyra is older and not so beautiful and innocent, Daemon doesn’t desire her as much as before.

Or am I wrong? I’m loosing my mind?

Everything went wrong AU 2

(Other)

My first try at fan fiction.

Listen, nothing made me want to sent my tablet to meet my grandma more then this drawing...

imperfect eat!

everything went wrong oh god. there was originally supposed to be meatloaf with this but it. caught. on. fire.?

anyway. potatos are roasted (under seasoned too :( )

the cabbage came out good! cabbage steaks are probably the best way to prepare cabbage as a side for me. i don’t like soupy, overcooked greens so a dry roast with oil and seasoning is perfect. these were the only thing to come out amazing.

I can link recipes if only asked :)

Today someone commented on a work of mine I wrote years ago saying they hope I'm in a better phase in life

In fact, ✨ I'm not ✨

So... I've taken a turn for the worse.

I've been trying to get my health under control all year because my inflammation markers are higher than they should be and I'm on a special diet and on medication. But I just keep getting worse. In late August, I got an MRI (MRIs really suck as an experience) and I got a lot worse. Like shooting nerve pain, burning nerve pain, dizziness, cannot drive, cannot lift things, can't sit or stand or walk for extended periods of time (60 minutes max), fatigue got worse, body aches got worse, couldn't sleep a lot due to pain, hard to focus on work, difficulty cooking and bathing and, in general, life.

I missed so many things. I had some fun things planned in September. I had to cancel all of them. I haven't been able to garden at all. I had to have my partner's sister and niece come over to clean the garage. I've gotten another MRI and been to a specialist and started a new medication and my rheumatologist is trying to convince insurance to let her increase my other medication.

Then, the tire on my car started getting low and I recognized a slow leak. We had to have the tire replaced. Then, a relay on the fridge went out and it was an entire drama because we couldn't figure out where the electrical burning smell was coming from at first. We finally figured it out through some deduction but the landlord couldn't get anyone to repair it quickly and we lost almost everything in the fridge and freezer. So money has been terrible.

I don't even want to get into all the family drama going on. I mostly go away and hide when anyone tries to bring me into it. I'm not getting into it. I can't right now and I don't think they'd be able to handle what I have to say if I did get into it.

Works not been fun. There's stuff going on there, too. And it's always nice when you feel terrible but are still working. And you have to be kind and respectful when more and more keeps getting piled on your plate and no one is listening to you.

Mostly, I just feel alone. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about what's going on. No one in my life gets this. I'm worried I won't get better. I'm doing all the right things: tests and medication and communication and physical therapy and talking to a counselor and trying to do self-care and eating healthy and not pushing too hard and keeping moving as much as I can. But I'm still worried. Because this is my life and my one body and my time. If there's anything I have a reasonable right to worry about, it's my health.

And I hate this. I hate being in my early 30s and not being able to spend time with people I care about or go kayaking or hike or get a dog or just pull weeds or scrub out the tub or carry laundry without feeling like I'm going to throw up and pass out. I hate that I've been missing out since my mid twenties. This isn't what I wanted or expected and "there's nothing for it". "It is what it is."

And I'm angry. I'm angry that a lot of other people don't have these problems. I have these problems. I don't want others to have them but I don't feel happy that I do have them. It doesn't feel balanced or fair. And I've been told my entire life that life is not fair. So don't bother reminding me. It feels like a punishment. But I didn't do anything to be punished. Or if I did...I apologize. I never meant whatever it was that got me here. I can do better. Just make it stop.

In the MRI today I was thinking about what I would give up to be healthy. What kind of magic deal with a sus character I'd make to not have these problems. I figured out there's a lot I'd give up. I wouldn't give up my cat or my partner. But I'd give up pretty much any food. I'd give up toes. Chop them off myself if that was part of the deal. I wouldn't hurt someone else because that's not right. It's not their fault and I wouldn't put it on anyone else. But I'd give up time. I'd give up years if only those years could be quality. And my partner hated hearing that because she wants me around for all the time she has. But that's how I feel. I get how people make those terrible, desperate deals in supernatural stories. Being chronically ill makes you feel desperate. Being in chronic pain makes you long for a time you can't even remember, a time without pain.