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Waiting for Love - Part Two
Pleasure and Patience
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Content: Summer of 1970, marriage problems, infidelity, smut, some angst, some fluff, 18+
Catch up here: Part One
Vivien arrived back at her apartment building around 6:30pm to find Roxanne pacing back and forth outside the door. “What the hell, Vivien, I was about to call the police and have them send out a search party! Where have you been?” Vivien looked away guiltily as Roxanne continued her rant. “I was worried sick! Are you just getting home from the movies now?”
“No, of course not, Rox, I got home really late and then I went out today and I was gonna call you as soon as I got back,” Vivien explained. She let them both into the apartment and Roxanne dramatically threw herself on the couch. “Tell me everything, and we’ll see if I forgive you,” she announced.
“Okay, so here’s what happened. There were a lot of people at the theater, but I did run into him. I guess he was looking for me. We talked a little bit and then he gave me a very tight hug and invited me to Graceland today to talk about books with him,” Vivien was interrupted by Roxanne’s gasp.
“He invited you over? Did you go? Is that where you’ve been? Tell me!” she demanded.
“I’m trying to, if you’d quit interrupting,” Vivien retorted. “We were having a really nice conversation, and then he was interrupted by a phone call from…Priscilla,” her voice dropped to an embarrassed whisper. “And I think you were right - they don’t seem to be doing too well. He started to tell me how they have nothing in common and then he kind of just changed the subject and got very flirty. And affectionate,” she added. Roxanne leaned in closer, almost holding her breath as Viven continued. “I think I was sending him signals, though. I know he caught me looking at his…thing.”
Roxanne stifled a snort at Vivien’s terminology. “How did it look?” she grilled. “Was it big?”
“It looked pretty nice through his pants,” Vivien admitted. “And thick. Also, I don’t think he was wearing any underwear because it kind of flopped around.”
“Oooh, ready for action, I like it!” Roxanne exclaimed, her eyes lighting up.
“I don’t think it’s like that though,” Vivien tried to clarify before she gave the wrong impression. “I mean, I don’t think he’s unfaithful just for the fun of it. I think he’s genuinely lonely. It seemed like he enjoyed talking to me as much as he enjoyed me accidentally flashing him. Maybe more.”
“Wait, what?” Roxanne almost jumped off the couch at that. “Way to bury the lead, Viv.”
Vivien blushed as she explained, “Yeah, my nipple slipped out when I jumped in the pool.”
“You got to go swimming? This is sounding way more fun than my boring anniversary dinner with Michael,” she whined. “What did he say when it happened? What did he do?”
“With my nipple? Nothing. Nothing right then, I mean. Just made a joke about not having looked too much and comforted me because I was embarrassed.” Vivien couldn’t stop the little smile from spreading across her face at the thought of how sweet he’d been.
“Nothing right then?! Something happened between the two of you, didn’t it? Stop holding out on me!” Roxanne was ready to burst with anticipation of all the details.
“I’m getting to it, I’m getting to it. We were just kind of talking and joking around in the pool. Then he helped me up on the ledge because I was getting cold, and he just leaned in and kissed me! I couldn’t stop it, it was like a force of nature. Or magic or something.” Vivien felt silly trying to explain his aura.
“And how did that translate to him seeing your nipple again?” Roxanne continued her interrogation.
“Well, he just moved his lips down further and pulled my nipple back out and put his mouth on it. And then, um, and then he, uh, put his finger inside me,” Vivien could feel her face turning bright red. Even with her best friend, this was all starting to feel so personal. Roxanne didn’t seem to mind though, she was just relishing all the details.
“You were fingered by Elvis Presley? Some girls have all the luck,” she complained playfully.
“It wasn’t quite that glamorous,” Vivien admitted. “I got embarrassed because he could tell I was a virgin, and then he stopped right away.”
“Why were you embarrassed? Did he make you feel bad?” Roxanne reached out and gave Vivien’s hand a squeeze. “Do I need to kick his ass?”
Vivien smirked at that. As nosy as Roxanne could be, Vivien could always count on her to be the protector. “No, I think he actually liked it. It’s just embarrassing to be 21 and have almost no experience at all.”
“Oh, Viv, you need to stop being embarrassed about that. I bet a lot of guys would love to be someone’s first.”
“Well, he was very sweet about it all and said we didn’t have to do anything. I told him I didn’t want to be a negative part of his life and we should just be friends.” Vivien anxiously fiddled with the emerald ring her parents had given her for high school graduation. She always wore it on her right ring finger. “He seemed fine with that, I mean he even said he still wanted to see me again, but then when he said goodbye I could, um, feel his thing poking into me.” Vivien giggled a little bit at the memory. “Now I’m not sure what to do. If he tries anything again, I don’t think I can stop him. I’ve never had this…desire before,” she finished nervously, looking for Roxanne’s reaction. “Am I a horrible person?” Vivien couldn’t stop from tearing up, all the confused emotions of the last day hitting her at once.
“No, no, you’re not horrible. It’s not on you to make decisions about his relationship; that’s his job,” Roxanne comforted, pulling Vivien into a hug. “See, I knew he wanted to make a move on you. I still think you should just go with it and see what happens. Otherwise you’ll always wonder.”
“I don’t want to be just some random fling, though. It’s not like that for me. He’s…special. I mean, even apart from being Elvis Presley. He’s interesting and smart and funny. He’s actually really funny; he jokes around a lot. And his laugh makes things even funnier. And even his feet are cute!” Vivien finished with a flush.
Roxanne’s expression grew concerned. “Oh, sweetie, you’re in love already. You were just supposed to have a good time.”
“I’m not in love,” Vivien protested. “I just…care about him.”
“Well, what is your plan then? To just be friends and pretend you’re not attracted to him and his amazing laugh and his cute feet? That you don’t want to feel his thick manhood pulsing inside you?” Vivien’s face turned scarlet at that graphic description. “You can’t even think about him without getting flustered. Pretending your feelings aren’t there isn’t going to make you feel any better.”
Vivien nodded in acknowledgement of that truth. “I don’t know, maybe he won’t even call and then this will all just be over.” Vivien thought of how heartbroken she’d be at that, after knowing him for only 24 hours. What kind of spell did he cast on me? she contemplated.
“He’ll call,” Roxanne said confidently. “You’ve presented yourself as a challenge now.”
“It’s really not like that. He’s very sweet,” Vivien insisted, knowing how pathetic she sounded.
Roxanne smiled but still looked worried. “Just don’t get your heart broken okay? You always said you’ve been waiting for something special. What could be more special than this? I think you should just enjoy the experience and don’t make it more than it is.” She could see on Vivien’s face that this advice would not be followed.
“Yes, I should just see what happens, enjoy the experience,” Vivien echoed. “I’ll be fine,” she added, trying to convince herself more than anyone.
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Vivien tossed and turned for what felt like hours, the events of the day replaying over and over in her mind. Sometimes at night she felt a yearning for the warmth of another person beside her, and tonight that desire seemed to have magnified tenfold. She couldn’t get out of her head the image of Elvis’ face, eyelids heavy with lust, as he touched her most sensitive area and groaned as if he were the one experiencing the pleasure. She finally drifted off to the fantasy of his arms wrapped around her, rubbing her back soothingly as he had done in the pool.
The shrill ring of the phone by her bed jolted her awake. She glanced at the clock and saw it was 2am. The only person who would call her at this time was Roxanne, after having one of her nightmares. “Rox? Is everything okay?” she said groggily as she held the receiver to her ear.
“Who’s Rox?” a deep voice drawled out, making Vivien’s stomach flip flop.
“Oh, I thought you were my best friend Roxanne,” she said, suddenly more alert. “Who is this?” she asked, already knowing the answer.
“Honey, it’s me, Elvis,” he said, and she was sure her pounding heart must have been audible right through the phone line. “I’m sorry if I woke ya. I-I-I c-c-couldn’t sleep,” he stuttered out, sounding a little agitated. “I-I need ta talk ta someone. Can ya come over?”
“Um, right now?” Vivien asked, wondering if she was actually still just asleep and this was all a dream. She dug her fingernails into the flesh of her arm, trying to force herself awake.
“Yeah, I would really ‘preciate it, honey,” he responded.
“Well, um, I don’t really like to be walking around at night too much by myself,” Vivien started to explain.
“Oh, honey, you ain’t got no car?” Elvis questioned. “We’ll have ta do somethin’ about that, but for now, I’ll have Joe come get ya.”
Vivien was too confused and tired to understand what he meant about the car, but she did somehow have the presence of mind to find out what she was supposed to wear to this middle-of-the-night soiree. “I’m, um, I’m in my pajamas.” It was half-statement, half-question.
“That’s good, honey, so’m I,” he said reassuringly. “Joe will be outside your building in ten minutes. I can’t wait ta see ya. Just come up the staircase and knock on my bedroom door.” Click. He’d hung up before she could ask any more questions or come to her senses about going to see him in the middle of the night. She looked down at her silky soft lavender pajama set, just basic pants and button-down shirt, and decided to trust him that it was fine. She was too anxious now to try to figure out something else to wear anyway. She wrapped her hair up in a bun, slipped on her sandals and a thin navy blue jacket, and headed out the door.
Joe seemed annoyed but not surprised that he’d been sent on this errand, and Vivien couldn’t help but wonder how often he picked up random girls in their pajamas and carted them back to Graceland. She decided now was not the time to ask. He said very little on the ride there, but she felt the judgment rolling off him. “You know what you’re doing?” he asked when they pulled in the driveway. Vivien blinked, wondering if he was questioning her life choices right at this particular moment. “I mean, do ya know where to go? In the house?” he clarified, an amused smirk playing across his lips as he realized her confusion. Vivien nodded wordlessly and followed him inside.
Once upstairs, she paused and thought for a brief second about running out the door and back to the emotional safety of her apartment. Or Roxanne’s. You’ll always wonder. Roxanne’s words played back in her head, and she raised her fist to knock on the door. Right at that second, it swung open and Elvis stood before her in a pale blue pajama set, similar in style to her own, but embroidered with a navy blue “EP” on the pocket. Her breath caught in her throat as her eyes trailed over his body, down to his bare feet, toes scrunching into the soft carpet.
“Vivien, I’m so glad ta see ya,” his eyes crinkled in delight at the sight of her, and he reached out to wrap her in a warm hug.
“Um, me too, is everything okay?” Vivien asked, a look of concern etched across her features.
“I-I-I’ve just been real nervous, honey, and I can’t remember the last time I talked ta someone who made me feel so calm,” he explained, pulling her into the room and closing the door tightly behind them. “I hoped you could work that calming magic on me again.”
Vivien smiled and looked around the room, wondering where would be the polite spot to sit in someone’s bedroom. Elvis seemed to read her mind again and indicated she could sit on the bed. “I’ll try my best. What’s going on?” she asked as she removed her jacket, realizing right then that she had not bothered to put a bra on under her pajama shirt before coming over. She noticed Elvis’ eyes flit down to her chest briefly as she sat on the edge of the bed, but he didn’t say anything.
“I’m leavin’ the day after tomorrow for Las Vegas. I have to rehearse for my next set of shows there.” Vivien tried to hide her disappointment that he’d be gone. She just nodded, encouraging him to continue. She noted with delight that he fiddled with one of his rings the same way she did. “There’s gonna be a camera crew comin’ to rehearsals and ever’thing. They’re makin’ a movie, a concert movie, with some of the rehearsals and shows. I guess I’m just feelin’ nervous and hopin’ I don’t make a fool of myself,” he finished, shifting on his feet a little bit before coming to sit next to Vivien on the bed.
“A fool of yourself? I don’t think that would be possible,” Vivien said in surprise. “I didn’t think you’d even get nervous.”
“Oh, honey, I get nervous before ever’ single show,” he admitted with a little smile. “It’s gotta be right, y’know, I gotta give the fans what they deserve.”
Vivien reached over and squeezed his hand, the feeling of his skin on hers sending an electric shock through her. “Elvis, your fans will always love you. They see how much you give. I know I do,” she added with a blush.
Elvis looked up and flashed his crooked grin at her. “See, I knew ya could calm me down with your sweet words,” he said. “But I have ta tell ya honey, you’re kinda doin’ my head in with these, uh, signals ya keep sendin’.”
“What do you mean?” Vivien asked, her blush growing even deeper.
“I mean, you told me that ya jus’ wanna be friends, but soon as ya get here, you’re lookin’ me up and down like a hunter set on his prey,” he teased.
Vivien smiled a little but glanced away, trying to think of how to describe her confusion. “Elvis, I am very attracted to you, and I’ve loved talking to you, but I just don’t want to feel bad about getting in the way of your marriage,” her voice dropped to a whisper on the last word, not wanting to even admit out loud that he wasn’t really available to her.
Elvis sighed a little bit and squeezed her hand in between his two large ones. “Honey, listen ta me. When I’m with you, I jus’ wanna be with you. My marriage is complicated. Honestly it probably shouldn’t have happened, but there were certain obligations I had. And I don’t want to say it’s over, but we’re just not really together much like that anymore. It’s jus’ nothin’ you need to be worryin’ about or feel bad about. Like I told ya before, we don’t have ta do anything you ain’t ready for, but I would never look at you as something, y’know, nefarious,” he said with a smile. “You are a ray of sunshine for me. I don’ know what’s gonna happen in the future, but if you jus’ let go of feelin’ bad, we can really enjoy each other in these moments we have together. Do ya understand what I’m sayin’?”
Vivien nodded slowly, feeling all her resistance slipping away in the smooth avalanche of his words. “I understand. And I do want to enjoy you. I just don’t know how quickly I can-”
“Vivien, we can move as slow as you need,” Elvis interjected. “This isn’t even about that for me. I want your company. I like bein’ with you.”
“Me too,” Vivien whispered as she leaned in closer to his warmth. He tilted his head down and pressed a soft kiss to the corner of her mouth. “Your lips feel nice,” Vivien murmured as he kissed her again, this time square on the lips, his tongue lapping against hers. He removed her glasses, set them on the nightstand, and pulled her all the way up onto the bed with him, the makeout intensifying, his hands tracing down her sides. Vivien felt a throbbing in her core that she’d never really experienced before.
“Honey, why don’t ya let me make you feel good tonight?” Vivien tensed a little bit at his request. “It’s okay, we’re not gonna go all the way, I jus’ wanna take care of ya.”
“Okay,” she whispered. “What did you have in mind?”
“Well, I haven’t been able to stop thinkin’ about that nipple you kept flashin’ at me today,” Elvis said with a big crooked grin.
“That was an accident!” Vivien exclaimed, her cheeks flushing as she stared into his sparkling blue eyes while he leaned over her.
“Oh yeah?” he teased. “And what about you showin’ up here with no brassiere, enticin’ me right through this thin little fabric? Is that an accident too?” His long fingers circled around her breasts, getting closer and closer to her hardened nipples that were poking through the fabric of her pajama top. As his fingertips ghosted over first the point of one nipple and then the other, Vivien could barely remember how to speak.
“You, you told me to wear my pajamas,” she managed to get the words out, her entire body starting to buzz with some primal need. “This is how I sleep. And, uhhh,” she let out a moan as he cupped her breast with his large hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. “You didn’t tell me it would be like a meat locker in here.”
“Are ya cold, baby?” Elvis asked with a smirk. “Let me warm ya up a little bit.” He looked down at Vivien reassuringly as he started to slowly unbutton her pajama top. He pushed the plackets to the side until her entire torso was revealed to him, her breasts jiggling slightly from the way her chest was heaving with desire. Elvis let his fingertips trace over her bare skin. “I can’t get over how pretty you are, honey,” he whispered as he leaned down and started pressing soft kisses to her collarbone.
“Th-thank you,” Vivien whispered back, unsure of how much talking she was supposed to be doing. “That feels really good.”
“I’m only jus’ gettin’ started, baby. And this is a soundproof room, so don’ be shy, okay? You can let me know how good it feels.” Vivien nodded, her body trembling as Elvis drew a line with his tongue from her collarbone down to her nipple. He lapped at it before sucking it into his mouth, his teeth grazing the sensitive tip of it ever so slightly. He caressed her other breast with his hand, rolling the nipple gently between his fingers, before switching and lavishing his oral attention on that one, spreading his saliva over the first one with his thumb. With every breath, Vivien let out a little moan of pleasure, her thighs starting to clench from how badly she wanted more of him. Elvis leaned up and whispered in her ear, “Are ya gettin’ wet down there, honey?”
“Mm-hmm,” Vivien moaned, and Elvis slowly moved one hand down her stomach toward the waistband of her pajama bottoms. She started to tense up, and Elvis kept whispering soothingly.
“I’m gonna be so gentle with ya, honey. I jus’ wanna take care of ya. If ya don’t like it, I’ll stop, I promise. Okay?” He kissed the side of her head affectionately as she nodded, and slipped his hand under her waistband and into her panties. “Oh, damn, baby, you’re so nice and wet for me, ain’t cha?” he groaned as his fingers slipped through the folds that lay below her little patch of pubic hair. Instead of trying to explore inside again, Elvis just let his fingers play around her entrance and then slide through the wetness to her clit, applying just the right amount of pressure.
“Oh, Elvis!” Vivien yelled out, the pleasure suddenly starting to overwhelm her.
“Does that feel good, baby?” he asked, leaning down to suck on her nipple again while he kept gently flicking her clit.
“Oh god, oh god, it feels so good,” Vivien’s eyes closed and her head tilted back as her legs started shaking around his hand.
“That’s right, baby, let yourself go, I’m gonna get ya there,” Elvis cooed, increasing the pressure of his finger.
“Elvis, I can’t, it’s, it’s too much, it feels too good, I can’t, I can’t take it, oh, Elvis, ohhh,” Vivien called out, barely coherent, as waves of pleasure coursed through her. Elvis slowed his movements as he felt her wetness coat his fingers. Vivien’s panting started to slow as she caught her breath, and she realized for the first time that something thick and firm was digging into her hip where Elvis was laying, rocking gently into her side. He slowly pulled his hand out of her pants but continued to stare into her face with an expression resembling awe.
“Have ya ever had an orgasm before, honey?” he asked softly, studying her state of bliss.
“No, no, I’ve, uh, never felt like that before,” Vivien said, blushing. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, tears springing to her eyes, although she had no idea why.
“Honey, there ain’t no need ta be sorry. That was beautiful, ta see ya experience that.” He wiped her tears away and kissed her sweetly on the forehead.
“I think I just feel a little embarrassed to be so inexperienced. I guess I’ve always been waiting for someone really special. Waiting for love, maybe.” She started to button her pajama top, suddenly feeling very exposed.
“Well, that’s a beautiful gift ta give ta someone you love,” Elvis said, the word “love” now hanging strangely in the air. The connection between the two of them felt otherworldly.
“It’s funny,” Vivien started out. “There’ve been people I’ve known for years who I struggle to open up to, and then you come along and it’s like an instant connection. I suppose that sounds silly.”
“Not silly at all,” Elvis responded. “I felt that connection too, especially when I saw that book in your purse. It was like a sign that you’d be someone special in my life.”
Vivien looked up at him with a smile. “So, um, did you want me to do anything to, um, take care of you?” she stumbled over her question, feeling excited but nervous to see that thing that had poked her a couple times now.
To Vivien’s surprise, Elvis looked a little bashful. “Not tonight, honey.” He chuckled a little bit when Vivien’s face fell. “Disappointed?”
“Well, I just, um, didn’t even get to see you,” she said, her face turning red. “It just didn’t seem fair.”
“Not for lack of tryin’, though, was it honey?” he teased. “I’ve seen ya lookin’ down at him enough times.” Vivien’s face flushed even more at that. “It’s okay, though, I know he likes ya.”
“How do you know?” Vivien whispered, trying to will herself to stop blushing like a schoolgirl. Elvis grabbed her hand and placed it on his pajama pants, right on top of his still-hard penis. Vivien could swear she felt it pulsing under her palm. “Oh,” she breathed. “I like the way it feels.”
“And he likes ta be felt by ya, honey. He’s gonna make me light-headed in a minute,” Elvis laughed.
“But you don’t want me to-”
“Naw, honey, I told ya, tonight was about you. About makin’ ya feel so good. There will be plenty of time for all the other things we can do with each other. Patience, little one,” he whispered, snuggling her in next to him so that her head rested on his chest. Vivien drifted off to sleep feeling like she’d experienced some little piece of paradise.
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Back at home early Sunday evening, all the emotions began to hit Vivien again. Elvis had been very sweet when they’d woken up earlier that afternoon, but she could tell that he and his entourage were busy getting ready to leave for Las Vegas the next day, so she told him she should probably get back home. He promised to call her soon and had Joe drive her back to her apartment. If she thought the judgment was bad on the way to Graceland, the icy ride back was downright unbearable. She’d almost have preferred to walk home in her pajamas and jacket. Elvis had offered to find her some clothes to wear, but she knew whose closet they’d be from. She drew the line at wearing another woman’s clothes home after falling asleep in her husband’s arms. Although with Elvis, the line seemed to keep moving.
With Roxanne not answering her phone, Vivien sat alone with her thoughts, loneliness suddenly consuming her. What have I done? Given myself to a man I can’t have? Will I ever even see him again? The tears began to flow as Vivien contemplated what to do next. Is falling in love supposed to hurt so badly? Be so confusing? The phone ringing pulled her back to reality. “Hello?” she tried not to sniffle directly into the receiver.
“Honey? Ya okay?” Elvis. “It sounds like you were crying. What happened?”
“No, I’m okay, I was just, um, missing you,” she whispered hoarsely.
“Aww honey, that’s sweet. I miss ya already too. That’s why I was callin’. I was hopin’ you might be able to come visit me for a few days in Vegas, see me rehearse.”
“I’d love to Elvis, but I have to work. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to take time off.” Vivien’s spirits immediately started to lift with the reassurance that he wanted to see her again so soon.
“We’ll get that all sorted out, sweetheart. Don’t be sad, okay? I’ll be thinkin’ of ya. Stay good for me, okay? Remember what I told ya - patience. We’re gonna see each other again soon. I-I’ll call ya when I get there tomorrow.”
“Okay, I’ll be waiting,” Vivien said, smiling through her tear-stained face. “I, um, I’ll be thinking of you too.” Vivien fought the urge to tell him she loved him. It had only been a few days, after all. But what other feeling could bring her from despair to cloud nine just from hearing someone’s voice?
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Henry And Norman's Canonical [and unexplored] Friendship and why it needs more focus in canon and fanon
An essay by me~
So I've talked a lot either in tags or in other posts about Henry and Norman's implied friendship in the canon of Bendy, however implied isn't really the right word, unexplored is more accurate because despite the fact we've never seen them interact, Henry and Norman having been friends is entirely canon with a lot of proof for it!
Don't believe me? Well let me show you why I am obsessed with this duo~
So first we're starting with the games since they are the ones most barren for this implication. We only really have one line in BATIM to go off of in terms of this, but they are interesting and important ones. Specifically we have one line from alice and an achievement to look at. [EDIT: I forgot a note written by Henry! I have added it now below]
Just from Alice's line we know she was under the impression Henry and Norman were friends, which not only shows they were in fact friends but close enough that others knew they were friends. Combined with the theory that Alice created the projectionist [one that is slightly backed up by BATDR confirming she was the one who mutilated the butcher gang] her teasing tone here could be rubbing in the fact such a horrible fate fell on someone Henry was close to...
It's an idea I think fits really well with Joey having created the cycle specifically to torment Henry too, why not make his friend one of the most mindless and horrible monsters down there just to make him feel worse. So close yet so far from one of the friendliest friends he knew.
The other thing I want to draw attention to is the Norman's Fate achievement, this is the Only time the projectionist is referred to as Norman and it comes from Henry's POV. It's a bit of stretch but I think it could be Henry refusing to dehumanize Norman by calling him the projectionist instead calling him by his name. A detail I think is very cute and could show Henry's sympathy towards his friend's suffering... and fate.
EDIT:
However we have another great indicator on how Henry feels towards the projectionist in particular and that's this note left by him on level 14.
Level 14 is the Projectionist's level, one full of the corpses of his victims and where he hunts Henry relentlessly, but Henry still questions The Projectionist being nothing more than an enemy. Their friendship seems to have meant a lot to him, and it seems to be on his mind, even after seeing what Norman has been twisted into. This could also be because the Projectionist literally fights the ink demon too. Who is far more antagonistic to Henry. Either way, I find it very sad but also a nice way of subtly touching on what Henry and Norman's friendship means for how Henry thinks of the Projectionist.
This is also a bit of a stretch but when Norman/The Projectionist peeks into the miracle station Henry is hiding in, in chapter 4, he doesn't seem super threatening, just curious and it even somewhat emulates Sammy's motions when commenting on Henry's familar face. Was there a moment of clarity for Norman there? Seeing his old friend hiding in there? Maybe, it's a little too vague to really dwelve on here but it is something to think about...
But time for us to get into the meat of their relationship, with the books, the media that elaborates far more on Henry and Norman's characters and has the lines from Norman confirming their friendship.
I absolutely LOVE these passages they show off so much more about Norman's character and expand on the idea he and Henry were friends in such a nice way. Norman talks about Henry in a way so unusually positive for him Dot feels the need to point out how much of a compliment it is for him to say he's a decent fellow with a lot of talent. He also speaks with a lot of sympathy towards Henry's blight and the abuse Joey made him endure, doing this all with his feet on the table holding up a projector, a smile on his face and a mug in his hand. He speaks somewhat vaguely and with mystery not exactly with Sammy's theatrics but with his own ominious air.
He also recognizes Henry leaving wasn't personal and that Joey likely held a grudge over it, plus when Dot comments on how odd it is for Norman to speak of someone like this, he doesn't refute it, just agrees with a laugh.
These passages are one of the reasons I think the books are some of the best media to come out of the series and I hope soon others realize what untapped potentional the books hide.
But...
Sadly despite all these interesting implications there's not a lot of canon or fandom content showing Norman and Henry's relationship and even less that attempts to develop and explore it. But for me it's one of the most interesting relationship's we have in BATIM [a series that is rather lacking in implied friendships or relationships between its characters]
Hell Henry's wiki page even mentions their friendship but Norman's page does not, which is strange since he has the most to speak on their friendship in the books. At least it's strange to me
So why is this relationship so fascinating to me? Just because of the dynamic it presents to us and its potentional for fun interactions!
Norman is portrayed constantly as a strange mysterious and almost intimidating figure, he sees everything, he goes to investigate strange noises under his booth with nothing but a light to find out whats making a horrid noise at night, and when Buddy [a 17 year old delivery boy] shows up at the studio and asks where Joey is Norman tells him he's DEAD. Which Buddy can only pick up on as a joke when someone else comes in to tell him Norman's sense of humor is strange, all while Norman bursts into chuckles. He's also pretty easy going esp in comparision to Sammy's dramatic nature.
Henry however is such an every man, a soft spoken and hard working animator who just wanted to have a better relationship with his work and wife. He's always so calm and just a usual guy. How did he come to form a friendship with such a strange and bizzare guy? Did he enjoy Norman's strange sense of humor? What were their interactions like?
There's so many interesting things to do with such a dynamic and that's not even getting into the tragedy of the Projectionist and Norman's fate. I want to see Henry heartbroken by his close friend's fate and death, I want to see more stuff exploring interactions between the Projectionist and the artist.
Whether it's canon or fanon that does it, I want to see more content on Henry and Norman's relationship. Romantic or not, I just want to see more people talk about it! Because it's one of the most interesting relationships in a series that tends to lack a lot of character relationship drama, pushing for more content of these two might be the bridge towards getting more content from canon that generally shows us how these characters all feel about each other.
Something I don't think is an impossible idea too since Meatly straight up asked us what characters we wanted to see interact, showing interest in these two could be a big W for us I'm just sayin [yes that is me down there]
I know I am very biased as a big Norman and Normry/Moving Pictures/Heman fan but I hope this post could show just a few more people the potential of this duo and we get more content of them in the future. Esp since fans have done a lot more with pairings in this franchise with far less content or implications of friendship.
Fingers crossed for a Norman novel where we can see them interact!!
And more content of these two in general <3
#batim#bendy and the dark revival#bendy and the ink machine#bendy#batdr#norman polk#the projectionist#henry stein#normry#heman#moving pictures#like I said not purely shipping here#but i wouldnt mind if this fuels more shipping of them in the fandom >w>#either way hope people read this and hope people like this#I always love making little essays on my passions and this is a topic I absolutely love#these two live in my brain SO much#and now I hope they live in the brains of others too <3#ramblez
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Some thoughts about cpunk and mobility aids
I recently saw this post by @satellites-halo:
I think OP brings up a very good point here: if your mobility aid is obviously dangerous you can’t bring it places you’ll need to go. That said this isn’t the end of the story.
As a practitioner of HEMA (Historical European Martial Arts; using historical weapons from Europe) there are actually a lot of writings on using things like canes and chairs for self defense/offense. For example there was a several year streak in London where walking staffs were the most deadly weapon. When these books and treatises were written they weren’t adding spikes or barbed wire to these things.
I am pretty much a full time cane user due to my hEDS and POTS. I will not use it for a little bit but I end up unstable and in pain afterwards, I mainly do this for exercise/practice. So I have been very interested in learning how to use a cane in this way, as well as seeing how other, similar, aids have been used throughout history.
While not all of these forms of fighting are useful for all mobility aid users, such as full time wheelchair users or some forearm crutch users, there’s a surprising amount of people it will work for. For example, I’m currently reading a treatise by a man who is partially blind, that is his term with modern vocabulary we would call him legally blind, and he is good enough at fighting to be considered one of the most amazing swordsman and cane fighter. (It should be noted that he did not have access to glasses and mainly navigated the world tactually)
The only real requirement is that the aid should be built from a single piece (not any of the foldable kinds) and be of sturdy materials: metal, solid wood, etc. While I recognize that this does exclude a fair few mobility aids there’s still a fair few this works for: canes, rollators (though lifting them into position for fighting might be untenable for some people), forearm crutches (if used like a Roman forearm blade, again some may not be able to do this), and even some leashes for service dogs (used as a rope dart) to name a few. There are probably more in forgetting but it’s a lot.
The key thing about all of this is that you don’t have to add scary spikes that might make the TSA balk at you, you can just use a normal looking mobility aid to do the same thing. It should also be noted that most courts consider mobility aids to be part of the person using them for the purposes of assault charges; if someone touches your mobility aid in a way you don’t like, that’s assault and you can respond in kind. That isn’t legal advice and there’s still ‘appropriate force’ president to consider but twapping someone who is grabbing at your cane, especially maliciously, isn’t out of question for a normal reaction, and being good at doing so is preferable.
Ok, cool Beth, but what do I do with this info?
There’s a little part of this post that’s me trying to get more disabled people like me into a sport I love but I can’t do so without some caveats. Not all HEMA clubs are built the same and some can be downright nasty, please look up any club you consider joining and maybe ask a physical/occupational therapist before launching into a contact sport. If it’s not in your interest then that’s also fine, there are several forums that post book recommendations for learning cane fighting or uses of a chair in WWII fighting (what rollators are great for).
If you’re a cane user, there are actually custom canes that you can order that are especially made for fighting (that aren’t objectionable enough to be confiscated by anyone who does security) but also just getting a cane made from a hardwood works. The website https://canemasters.com has a great selection and a really nice custom ordering system.
I wish I had more for other forms of mobility aids but my research is limited, if you have more sources for this stuff please comment/repost with them. If that’s not your style my dms are always open for cool fighting stuff!
Be safe and stay punk!
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for that ask game: What is a Steddie daydream (fic you have in your head whatever you want to call it) you have frequently? I'm sure you have a nice handful to choose from but whats the main one you conjure up to have feelings™ before falling asleep? Do you often rewrite tiny portions nightly because the angst,etc, potential is too good. Or is there a scene you have stuck in your head that you just NEED to replay? What's it about?
Oh god. This one.
It will always be this one. Had I participated in the big bang, that would have been my fic to write (even if I had a very different idea before this).
The only reason I keep having this fantasy in my mind is because I keep dreaming about situations that could fit in this so perfectly. It is very much related to these twin pieces.
So I'm going to share a few highlights of what goes on my mind. This is gonna be cheesy and cringey, but let me expand a bit on this.
It is a summer fic. They decide to do this, ad they decide to take a trip to California, far away from Hawkins, just the two of them. Eddie suggested it, because he thought it would count as quality time together with no chance to go away and Steve agreed because it was fun and spontaneous. And it escalates to the point that they both feel like they've lost control, but before they reach that point, Steve and Eddie do things like:
Stealing a jet-ski (Steve's idea)
Skinny dipping in the night sea
Party crashing a wedding
A fake date with every cliché of the book
Sex in the nature
These are just a few. I keep having ideas of potential situations that would fit in this story so perfectly.
The problem is I want to write it, but I feel like I can't. I've started it many times, but I know my own limits here. I am afraid I won't be able to actually deliver what's on my mind as acurately. I am not a very skilled writer and I'm pretty insecure about my use of the language, so I'm also pretty slow. I just would love to write it, but I am aware that I'd need assistance. So much. I'd love to make art out of it, too. I know I would need so much help with this, and I don't really want to ask anyone, because people has enough on their plate, so I won't put anyone in such a position.
Writing this is actually making me so sad, it's stupid. I think it would really be a very enjoyable little thing to read, and it would inspire me so much to do art out of it, but... well, I think these "no true writer" issues are definitely in the way.
Maybe someday I won't feel like I can't anymore and write it. I'd love to do that.
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Another chapter!!!
𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓣𝔀𝓸: "𝓢𝓱𝓮'𝓼 𝓐 𝓢𝓲𝓵𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓛𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰..."
You couldn't help but question if it was a polite or stupid move to not approach Alex Turner. You had been prone to overthinking, and ever since you got in the cab to go home, your mind had been cracked with a mental, endless pros and cons list from that one action. To think that you got so close to meeting a star, hell, even meeting your favorite band.
But on the other hand... That was also a strong and good thing of you to not approach them. You had enjoyed your night on your own, and that was all that mattered - The night had been a net positive.
The next few days went by very nicely - You had a lovely job at this cute little book shop in High Green, and had a handful of coworkers who were just the sweetest. There was Henry, who had worked there the longest, and you were convinced that he had read every book they stocked in the store. His parents were from Wales, and were the sweetest people ever, they had even invited you over for tea a few times. Then there was Sahari, a wonderful young woman of Indian descent, and she made the best tea! She even paired certain teas with classic novels, which added an extra special touch to your store in particular. And then there was Josi, a non-binary person of African descent, and they did the best makeup, you two loved sending each other pictures and videos of your individual looks. Josi was also awesome at pushing you out of your comfort zone without ever overstepping boundaries. These friendships grounded you, and we're some of the best people you knew. You were so lucky to have them. The four of you had a book club, and loved analyzing books. Meetings were usually hosted on slow days at the shop. The job was good and sustained you, and the friendships always lit up your days. These three always made you feel comfortable and secure.
Josi said they'd close down the shop for tonight, so you left thirty minutes early. You treated to yourself to the local cinema, the kind that re-ran old movies all the time. This weekend, they were showing a re-run of Mean Streets.
It was a good way to start your weekend. The film ended late, and had a small crowd. Throwing your jacket on, you exited the cinema and started walking home. Yes, it was nighttime, but your home was less than a mile away, you were a fast walker, and had pepper spray and a switchblade - This wasn't the first time you had walked this path, thankfully. There was another break in the rain, the weather had been letting up since an exceptionally rainy Tuesday night.
You turned a corner, and... You noticed a figure... The figure got closer to you, trying to talk... Maybe you recognized the voice, the outline?
A man got a lot closer to you, and through the darkness, he looked a hell of a lot like Alex Turner - Or maybe you were just imagining things, since the subject of this man has occupied so much of the space in your mind. Who the hell in the world would be walking around at this hour? This was a sleepier side of town, and... Wait, was that man wearing sunglasses... At night?
The man lit up a cigarette, and the slight light from the butt finally illuminated his face.
He's either the man you've hyper-fixated on, or... The world's greatest doppelganger.
Oh fuck me - Fate really does exist. Alex Turner thought to himself. He asked himself what to do - He would sound creepy as fuck if he said this was the third time he had laid eyes on you. But he knew that he had fumbled his chance last time, and swore to himself that he wouldn't let that happen again. He asked himself if he should open up with a cheesy pick-up line, or to act normal, or... His options flooded his hand, but you would walk by at any moment, so he simply muttered to you: "Hi."
Goddamn. You couldn't help but think. "Hello." You responded, finally stopping.
This was Alex's chance - What does he say...?
"It's nice to see a lovely lady like you tonight." All he could think was how grateful he was that he didn't slip up or mess up his words.
You heard that deep Sheffield accent - And some blood rushed to your cheeks, finally adding warmth to that area after the wind nipping at your cheeks your whole walk home. Would you offer a name? All three of your closest friends had your location... And you were polite.
"Thank you, how are you?" You responded curtly. You swallowed and finally admitted what was stuck on your mind.
"Oh my God, you look like Alex Turner! Sorry for being so blunt."
Holy shit, she talked back - This is really happening. Alex kept his cool demeanor, and responded quite quickly. "Hey there. You caught me, yes I'm Alex Turner."
Almost all your brain cells shut off. You started talking without thinking of the consequences, you were that starstruck.
"Holy shit, Alex Turner - I'm... Quite the fan. I really hope this doesn't bother you, but may I have an autograph, or a picture? It's alright if you decline."
He's surprised by how chill you seem to be taking this whole situation. He feels relieved, he hates it when he gets people freaking out and acting weird. He takes a quick drag of his cigarette, and smiles softly.
"Always nice to meet a fan, what is your name if I may ask?"
"Y/N." You two shake hands.
He shakes your hand, and nods, his eyes wandering to your body a bit, before he realizes what he is doing and smiles warmly at you.
"So uh, what are you doing here out this late? Just walking home?"
"Ah, you've got me. Can we take a pic and get an autograph, if it's not too much?"
He smiles warmly, thinking it was kind of cute that you wanted these things from him.
"Sure, sure. I always like to interact with my fans as much as possible."
"Thank you!" You two get the pic and autograph done.
He's surprised that you're not asking more of him, he's gotten too used to weird fans. He laughs a bit.
"That was surprisingly quick and easy! You seem very laid back."
"Thank you!" You smile so brightly.
He notices that beautiful smile of yours, your beautiful eyes, and he couldn't help but keep staring. There was something about you that kept him drawn in.
"Well, you're welcome. I guess I could ask you a question in return?"
You nod eagerly.
He laughs a bit, finding it cute how star struck you seemed.
"What's your opinion on my solo project The Submarine EP, if you've heard of it?"
Why the fuck did I ask that? Alex thought yo himself. Does your brain short-circuit the second you see a pretty girl?
He cleared his throat and tried to play it cool.
"Yes, it was beautiful, and Submarine is one of my favorite films." You responded quickly.
His eyes widen, and he looks extremely pleased. He breathed an extreme sigh of relief, so happy that he didn't come off as awkward.
"So you've not only heard it, but you've seen the movie it was for too. That's quite a surprise. Not many people know it's... There, you have excellent taste, if I may say."
"Wow, thank you sir." You responded.
He laughs again, you seem quite respectful.
"No need to call me sir, just call me Alex. Everyone does."
"Well, thank you, Alex. It was very nice to meet you."
He smiles warmly at you, he's enjoying your presence more than you'd know.
"Well, it was just as nice to meet you. I'm glad to see that I have a fan who isn't going to stalk me or be crazy over me."
"Damn, that must be intense and scary..." You said quietly.
He laughs quietly at that, you're not wrong.
"It's why I'm happy to be here now, though I'll be leaving in a few weeks to record." He smiled then continued.
"Yes, the US is quite intense, a lot more fans there than here, and they're so... extreme. I've had people come to my house in America and demand things from me that I am not willing to give. I'm really just happy you're not like that."
"Oh, of course! So sorry to hear that!"
He shrugs, it's just the nature of being famous.
"I signed up for this, it's no worries. But, I am really glad that you're not as extreme as some of my other fans. I think we can be friends if you'd like? You seem quite friendly and genuine."
"You mean it?!" You smile in glee.
He laughs a bit, quite surprised by this reaction, but also amused by it.
"Of course, you seem like a friend-worthy individual!"
"Thank you! Would you like my number?"
His eyes light up briefly, yes please!
"I would, would you like mine in return?"
"Please. What an honor."
He smiles widely, and pulls out a silver sharpie he keeps in his back pocket, he writes his number down and hands you the sticky note.
"You can contact me anytime, and I'm happy to reply as long as I am not busy with things."
"Thank you... Well... I have a celebrity's number... Thanks!" You chuckle cutely.
Alex has to resist the urge to put his hands on his cheeks at how cute she is, she truly is adorable.
"Just remember what I said, you can call me anytime. Maybe we could meet again, hang out as friends maybe?"
"Sure. I won't keep you too long, but text me the details when you get a chance!" You smile cutely and courteously.
He smiles back warmly, you're one of the least crazy fans he's met. It's quite refreshing.
"I most certainly will, I've really enjoyed this small interaction, I want you to keep in touch."
"Thanks, thanks, great to hear!"
"Talk to you soon!"
You smile and the two of you part.
Alex nods and smiles again, his eyes drifting over to your hips, he can't help it, and he blushes a bit. He's very interested in your body. As you separate he's left blushing, and he decides to text you.
"Have a good night, we will definitely keep in touch."
You smiled as you went back to your home, and the rain started up again. You snuggled up in your blankets and flicked on the heater as the warm lights in your room gave you this angelic glow - A supernatural beauty, which was exactly what Alex thought you were, even if you didn't know that yet. You texted Alex again, and then texted your group chat the picture of you and Alex, and tons of caps and exclamation marks were exchanged between the four of you. Alex texted you 'Goodnight', and you finally put your phone away to charge, and drifted off to a land of dreams... And it seemed the future would give you opportunities to pursue new dreams - That could become reality.
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How do you feel about Ikomikidomoe and hikone? I personally think they’re nice additions to the world but I’ve barely seen anyone else talk about them 
I think I did a post on that at some point actually, but I'm not in a position to go digging thru my archive on mobile. (found it, but it's mostly just poking at kanji in names rather than really commenting on the characters themselves, so I guess I can do more of that here.)
Broadly speaking I'm not really big on the LNs, least of all Narita Ryogo's. I know he is kind of the most beloved of the ancillary creators for actually addressing many of Kubo's obnoxious loose ends, my main beef with him is that even though he ties a lot of them off he never ties them off satisfactorily, and seemingly just for the sake of saying he did it; there's generally no thematic meat to any of it, all his hooksjust kinda amount to shuffling around Kubo's left overs. And granted, maybe that's a little harsh or unfair of an assessment, but I'm also not a big fan of light novels as a gimmicky genre/format to begin with, so take all that with a grain of salt.
Anyway. Of all the things he did over course of three books in Can't Fear Your Own World, I do think Hikone was a really neat idea. I like the general idea of exploring artificial souls and synthetic life forms and the hybrid spirits and how that all relates to the nature of the soulking as a lynchpin of reality, I'm just not super about the specific plot he built around it all.
I'm not especially in love with Ikomikidomoe specifically, I feel like it either needed more or just different lore or that it could have been done without entirely. I really think Hikone being an artificial god candidate and the nature of what that means and as an excuse to explore how the other canonical attempts to replace god could/would have gone was enough to center a story around. In particular I was already not super fond of some of the late throw away lore additions about zanpakutou that exist independent of a singular individual. (ala Nanao's family sword, and Oh-etsu's harem). I feel like it raised a lot of questions that got immediately swept under the rug and added nothing of value to the lore at large. I don't implicitly hate the idea of a zanpakutou that embodies a different kind of identity apart from that of an individual wielder, but that idea feels like it requires a LOT of additional explaining that we never got. So the fact that Tsunayashiro has an ancestral sword for no particularly meaningful reason, and that Ikomikidomoe has its whole convoluted backstory always kind of annoyed me.
It's a shame too because Narita seems to ever so slightly brush up against an idea that Kubo himself danced around in world building --that the identity manifested in one's inner world as a sword spirit, and the mask a hollow forms from its heart are the same thing, and thus a Menos accumulating myriad hollows within itself to consolidate into one uniform identity is basically the same process as what Oh-etsu describes is behind creating an Asauchi. So the idea of a powerful hollow becoming a zanpakutou or something similar has precedent, but the weird convoluted choice to make Ikomikidomoe specifically a product of Ichibee and Oh-etsu's intervention, rather than a natural consequence of a Menos ascending toward Vastolorde doesn't sit well with me.
On a side note, it bugs me that Kubo just casually threw in the idea that Asauchi are made of, what, hundreds if not thousands of shinigami souls(?) and then just NEVER addressed this weird implication that Soul Society, and Oh-etsu personally, have just, like, institutionally and systematically been committing mass genocides on the regular for all of recorded history? Huge huge mess of a world building flub. Not that it "couldn't" be answered, but that it wasn't, and that the effort it would take to patch up the apparent plot holes it introduces would just be so much effort for the sake of nothing but maintaining the status quo of the story.
Since you've got me in this rant, it's almost the same with the Ouken thing. I'm already not fond of the awkward retcon(ish) thing Kubo did with making the keys the bones of the Royal Guard as if that somehow answered any questions, when the bigger issue had been the idea that, literal key or not, each of the royal guard members was implicitly baptized in the fire of an apparent Sodom & Gomorrah catastrophes with whole cities or other swathes of land, densely packed with living, spiritually aware people being scraped off the face of the earth, ala Aizen's unfulfilled (and frankly Kubo's seemingly half forgotten) plans for Karakura.
And in the face of that weirdness there was a fun unaddressed parallel in the Royal Guard's private "cities" floating up in the royal realm with the king's palace looking like the perfect inversion of the hypothetical hole in the ground we were shown during the Ouken explanation. Were those cities populated? By whom?? Or were they empty? I don't know which possibility is more interesting to explore; that the royal guard each had a whole cult of ascended spirits living with them, each under the domain of one guard, or that the guard just lived in the hollow shells of the sacrifice it took for them to ascend alone to nigh demi-god status.
Was it that the ouken itself was the condensed souls of thousands of people, just like the later reveal about both the asauchi and White, and they died or were otherwise sacrificed to make this object(or i guess imbue the object that is living bones into becoming it(?) god the bone keys thing was dumb...), or did the souls serve some other purpose? Could it have been that rather than melting down living souls to make the key, as was kind of implied, that to create or imbue a key with the power required to function as the ouken it simply needed the presence of those souls? Did access to the god realm require being actively worshipped as a god, by thousands of people, a united spiritual power of a singleminded cult, a city of followers united in ascending the key holder into the realm of god? Who the hell knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
But on that level, you'd think that's the same as the idea of a family zanpakutou, right? If the zanpkautou imprints or a person to reflect their true inner self which then grows stronger and gains power in the material world thru acknowledging and reconciling with, then implicitly the idea of a zanpakutou shared by a family would imply that its spirit is not a reflection of one person's singular traits, but those shared consistently across generations and in exchange for the lack of personal identity it confers the strength of literally multiple people's worth of power, just all reflected in a single persona.(or maybe not, i dunno, maybe the inner world of a family zanpakutou has some atlab avatar state stuff going on, who knows? Probably not Kubo.) What was the Soukyoku's giant execution blade, its destructive power conspicuously described in a measure of zanpakutou, if not a massive communal zanpakutou?(complete with its own spirit manifest as a phoenix) And what is Ichigo's inner spirit of a younger Yhwach if not the communal spirit of the Quincy bloodline? Andi n the context of these sorts of escalations of scale and power, is then the soul king actually a "human soul" in the way the cycle of human/quincy and shinigami and hollow all traffic in the same base elemental "stuff"? Or was the Soul King not that type of a "person" at all, and just a giant collective zanpakutou, a singular spirit reflecting the inner truth of humanity as a whole, and his "bankai" the wheel of reincarnation itself. Anyway that's veering too far off into speculation and potential headcanon.
Getting back to Hikone, though... I like the idea of there being various different approaches to achieving the hybrid spirit form seemingly central to god status. Ichigo was naturally synthesized that way by the circumstances of his birth, Aizen used the hougyoku and "science" to forcibly and unnaturally synthetize himself, Yhwach was seemingly born not by actively joining disparate elements together but by simply being an offshoot of something that was already a hybrid... And then there's Hikone... and while I feel like plot wise there are a lot of issues to there just having been the means to synthesize artificial life just floating around in the background, while characters like Mayuri and Urahara and even Aizen are out there actively struggling with the process, but I like the idea of a kind of middle ground where, ignoring the stupid contrivance of the Gremmy brain thing, Hikone's fundamental contraction isn't quite artificial "life" in the spiritual sense that Bleach deals in so much as it is a "body" without a brain.
But I like the implicit idea of having to draw a line around that. If you can make a thing that fulfills most of the requirements of life, then which things reserved for living personhood can it do and which can it not? If you elevate that to the level of godhood, then it's a fun question that in the grand scheme of things where apparently someone needs to be stripped of their autonomy and sit in the crystal for forever to hold the world together, then can it just be a fake person with no autonomy to lose in the first place? Where as Aizen thought being god would be cool(and was very probably wrong), and Yhwach doesn't seem to want to be god so much as remove him and replace him with ???(unconfirmed: in which it seemed like(ironically) plan A was originally Juugram, and plan B was Uryuu), Hikone is the Indiana Jones rock and the golden idol solution to the problem: Can I just swap god out for this god-shaped bag of rocks and get away with it?
I'm sorry between being at work, and googling images, and then making this silly edit now, I've totally lost my train of thought... Uh... to summarize:
I like Hikone as an idea: I like "synthetic god" as a plot hook.
I like their name having associations with silk and, like, silk worms, as if they were spun and woven like a fiber but also with cocoon imagery attached.
I also think they're a super cute design.
I'd have liked the artificial souls to have more of plot behind them: like what are Urahara and Mayrui's actual goals in making them in the first place, other than just mad science for mad science's sake
I'd have liked for Ichigo's(and Aizen's for that matter; like how was it different and/or insufficient by comparison to Ichgio, or Yhwach or Hikone) hybrid theme to have a better actual conclusion.
I'd have liked better exploration of the nature of god souls and what that requires/means
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IMAGINE...
• Draco writing a letter home to his mother about you, expressing his feelings for you and how much he adores you...
Scritch, scritch, scritch.
Every stroke of Draco's quill on the parchment formed the finest letters, the product of which was some of the sappiest things he had possibly ever written. He couldn't quite keep the smile off his face as he wrote, his cheeks flushing a faint pink every now and then.
"Dearest Mother,
I know it has been a very long while since I last wrote home, but there has been so much going on. Would you believe it if I told you I'm in love? I still can't quite believe it, myself. Oh, she's wonderful. Her name is Y/N Y/L/N, and she's a half-blood. Now, I know what you and Father are going to say, but I really don't see the problem. Mother, she is the sweetest girl I have ever met, if maybe a bit too nice to be in Slytherin, though.
But that's quite alright. I think that's what I admire the most about her. She has nothing but kindness for those she cares deeply about, but she also has a fierce temper to rival my own. Potter called me a rather unsavory name last week, and Y/N almost tore him a new one. Oh, if you could have seen her! She was nothing short of perfection, I swear it.
I'm really hoping that you and Father will let me bring her home for the holidays this year, so you can both have a chance to meet her, and maybe see her the way I do. Just being around her takes a lot off my mind, she makes me feel more like myself than I possibly ever have in a very long time. There are so many little things I absolutely adore about her...
The way she smiles, the sound of her laughter, the way she always has to sneak a book out with her to the Great Hall, so she can read during mealtimes.... Everything about her is so endearing. Y/N and I have only been seeing each other for all of about three months, but it feels like I've known her forever.
Time feels eternal, endless, when I'm near her... Like things are finally being set right and nothing can go wrong. I'm probably jinxing myself by saying so, but I have a feeling this is going to last for a while. Who knows, I may eventually propose to her, if things continue as smoothly as they have. (With yours and Father's blessing, of course. And her parents'.)
In other news, things are going alright. I've left my Quidditch position as team Seeker, in order to focus on the task you and I talked about at the start of the year. Blaise Zabini has taken over for me, you would like him. He's one hell of a Seeker, and he seems to know what he's doing, if our latest wins over Gryffindor are any indication.
I'm currently top of the class in my Alchemy and Dark Arts classes, which is what I wanted. That reminds me, Y/N is top of the class in Potions, did you know? But I don't think she'll make a career out of it. If I remember correctly, I think she said she wanted to be an Auror, or perhaps something to do with Muggle Studies? I'll ask her when I see her again, and get back to you on that.
In the meantime, I'm hoping you and Father are both well, and that things back home are alright. Here's hoping that everything stays quiet for a bit, you know? At least then we might have a chance. Anyway, I can't think of much else that is new, but please, when you get this letter, send me an owl back as soon as you can.
I want to hear from you and Father, see what you think of my earlier idea, of bringing Y/N home with me. Until next time, wishing you both well and sending my love to you and Father...
Much love,
♡ Draco
He knew adding the little heart at the end might have been the cherry on top, as far as sappy goes. But he didn't care; he was in love and he didn't give a damn if it was unlike him. Y/N was the best thing that had happened to him, and he was determined to keep it that way. With another smile, Draco neatly folded up the letter, tucking it inside one of his family's signature dark green envelopes, before sealing it shut.
And later that afternoon, as he sent away the letter by his family's eagle owl, a sense of lightness and warmth came over him. Who would have thought that he, Draco Malfoy, would ever fall in love?
But it was true; he had (and would continue to have) an utterly unequivocal sense of love and affection for Y/N, until his dying breath. After all, isn't this how things were supposed to be...?
#draco malfoy imagine#draco malfoy drabble#draco malfoy fanfiction#draco malfoy fluff#draco malfoy#harry potter fanfiction#harry potter fandom#harry potter fluff#harry potter imagine#harry potter#fluff#imagine#letters to home
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Was there any responses on the Theon survey that made you feel differently about a certain headcanon, fandom trend or ship?
Thank you for your patience. It is uncommon for people to ask about my opinions but it brought a smile to my face, and your politeness only added to it.
To answer your question, sadly not, but there were still some developments on my perceptions.
Fandomwise I was mostly proven right over things I suspected in the past both in things I find uplifting and things that I find upsetting (TCKs and colonialism children in the Theon corner preferring Dany over Sansa and usually disliking the Theon/Stark ships, Robb Stark being a gift as the prevalent perception among throbb shippers, most people not caring about Jeyne Poole, thramsays being unhinged but very respectful and careful about people's boundaries) but there were a few things that had a positive reaction in me and maybe prepared me for changes.
I think I've made clear how I don't like engaging with Theon/Stark ships and sadly when it came to the squid prince and the steel skinned princess this didn't change at all, on the contrary, but when it came to the squid prince and the wolf-headed boy I was confronted with smaller subsets of the fandom that I felt could actually get me into it.
I used to be a lot more open about the later ship but as time passed it was ruined for me due to many personal vexations involving interpretation, (dismissal or vilification of) characters, themes and the constant use of show-scenes and quotes, but some of the responses from throbb people came very close to things I would theoretically enjoy in them as a ship (and as a closer characterisation of how I perceive Robb, clearly not a villain or an evil-doer but not someone I'd want to spend time with).
Nothing fully changed my mind, I didn't always agree with their reasoning and I am still sceptical because this was only a minority, but I think to some extent it made me more curious and, admittedly, less judgemental.
Here are some examples I am allowed to quote:
On Throbb as a ship, by throbb people
I only mildly dabble in shipping in asoiaf at all, however Throbb Is nice as when its done well It tends to have a lot of what I like (kidfic, canon divergences with some political element and happening around the early ACOK node, very specific hurt comfort dynamics, role reversals (enjoy Robb Is the one who had to experience Ramsay AUs even) exploration of the cultural/identity issues through conflicing loyalty etc . It rigorously has to be by people who love Theon better than Robb though
I'm someone where I will take whatever I can get tbh. All of the above. I do really enjoy stories where Robb is a darker character though, and relishes in the power he holds over Theon. Also just like playing with the theme of the Starks being wolves? And how the Ironborn were called like sea wolves by those in the riverlands and westerlands. It's very fun. I also do indulge in modern AUs where Theon is an unofficial member of the Starks. It's just very comfy. I like it less-so in canon fics because I think it very much writes off Ironborn culture in place of Northern culture. I am picky with them though because some of them are very much in the lane of "the Starks can do no wrong" and nope, the Starks can and have.
I am truly here for literally any Theon ship and they all appeal to me in different ways for different reasons. Robb and Theon - Personally I think it's really interesting how Robb is upheld as this very honourable gentleman-type but he never calls out Theon on his horrible treatment of women or other uncouth behaviour and it's suggested he actually kind of admires him for it? It gives me the impression that Robb lives vicariously through Theon a little bit and I'm fascinated by the idea of them being devoted to each other but also jealous of each other? We never see Robb's POV in the books but I think he's interesting to view through a lens of a young guy with an immense amount of pressure and responsibility on his shoulders (even before Ned dies he has the responsibility of being heir and the pressure to live up to the Stark name). I imagine that Theon is one of the few people Robb felt he could be himself around without any pressure to be respectable or honourable. He probably craves the relative freedom Theon has whole Theon longs for the status and respect that Robb has. It's an interesting dynamic! Also there's the fact that Robb is literally the only person who likes Theon and trusts him when no one else does which makes it even more heartbreaking when he betrays him.
On whether Robb Stark is a gift or not, by throbb people
No. Lol. I mean, the thing is, Robb isn’t really a terrible person or anything – book!Robb especially is young and inexperienced and genuinely seems to be trying his best in a situation that is understandably overwhelming. That said, he’s careless, self-righteous, over-privileged, emotionally manipulative, a bit vainglorious and sometimes extremely selfish, and has a tendency to do things like blame the easiest, most vulnerable (as well as the one most likely to forgive him) target for his own mistakes. He’s somewhat emotionally constipated and fairly low on empathy. He's very loyal to his family (but as we see with Sansa, it’s far from unconditional) and I think he does try to do right by people, especially those he cares about, overall. However, in the context of his relationship with Theon (where this seems to be most prominent as a Concept) he fails rather significantly and the relationship is not nonredeemable or anything, but definitely toxic.
I've only got the impression that he is a gift by reading bran's, Jon's and Arya's chapters not by theon's. In book 1 he is such an asshole to him in that bran chapter... It's more fanon I think to make Robb a gift specifically to Theon and I understand it, the show gave to us a closer relationship and many liked it and projected to Robb a caring attitude we wanted someone to have towards Theon, at least that's how it worked for me idk. Also the potential for romance, angst and tragedy by making them closer is just *chefs kiss is Robb a gift? yes is he one to Theon? they definitely have love between them but I don't think he is one to Theon.
Robb Stark as a character can really be anything you want him to be. I think only seeing him through other POV characters (especially his family) was a stroke of genius on George's part, just as we first meet Stannis in person through Maester Cressen, and later experience him through Davos' eyes (two people who love him deeply). Robb was a 16 year old dealing with some incredibly high stakes situations and a number of traumatic losses. He's mostly just tragic to me.
I still think Robb's relationships to the women in his life (Cat, Jeyne, Sansa, Arya and Dacey) are more interesting to me since they are usually explored by fandom in a more ambiguous and, in my opinion, more canon-compliant light, but yeah these made me reconsider my negative feelings about Throbb.
To some extent this also happened with Theyne, a ship I do ship but always felt weird about and sometimes had this stupid and prideful type of wish to differentiate myself from the shippers who engaged with it in a more "wholesome" manner. I came to see a lot more interest in dubious and less-positive takes on the dynamic in some of the responses and it was oddly relieving, it made me less conscious about my self-perceived discredit of the text when adding romantic connotations to Theon and Jeyne's canon dynamic (although they are somewhat present in the text too. ?????weird situationship of mutual victimhood and hellish non-consensual polycule with their torturer acting as matchmaker, third wheel and sicko lurking on the window)
[...] If it happens, it will be later down the line, probably during a potential recovery arc or even at the very end of the books. I would like to see how that plays out and I think Jeyne as his co-survivor of torture would probably be the most interesting person to play that out with because there is a common history that will remain a can of worms between them, but Jeyne seems to be (just like Kyra who came to Theon with the keys even though she didn't have to do that for her rapist!) a genuinely caring, empathetic and kind person who seems to have already bonded with Theon, seemingly knowing that he just like her did not participate willingly in her rape even though he had been compliant to his torturer's demands out of fear. And all that probably holds true even if he is still in survival mode of "I have saved Lady Arya (do not take on your actual name because that will get us both thrown back to the Boltons, this charade ain't over yet, please keep this charade up for your and my safety)". Jeyne has been badly maimed and (not only, but predominantly sexually) tortured herself, of course, so I suspect that the bond they both share will be fraught with fears and pain and ugly memories that migth feel more pressing than just memories (hello, PTSD), but i can see a way forward for both of them that I cannot see for either Jeyne and anyone else or Theon and anyone else (apart from familial bonds that Theon still has. Jeyne has no-one but Theon now, her parents are both dead and any other relatives haven't stepped up when Littlefinger sex trafficked her and Ramsay ended up repeatedly raping, maiming and psychologically torturing her). They will probably at first feel not great with each other, but I truly believe that they can help each other heal as far as possible or at least manage the aftermath of such severe torture of all kings. If he (Theon) does end up in some capacity in a romantic or sexual re-exploration of identity through a relationship of some sort, I suspect that Jeyne, who was co-tortured sexually alongside and through him (not that he was a willing participant, just someone trying to survive, doing the least harmful thing for both himself and Jeyne by partaking in being forced to rape her for Ramsay while thus becoming a victim of rape himself; apart from his former strongly insinuated sexual abuse and possible genital mutilation), might be the only person able and willing to even entertain the idea of a romantic and/or sexual connection to him, even though I think that her own state after all the sexual and other abuse means that that will be very, very far into the future. Both will probably feel safer not engaging in anything sexual for a long while, if ever, and as for romance, I think it'll probably take on a very fragile, small-gestures-of-care type of form that's more reminiscent of familial love and care rather than passionate. Both will have struggles expressing their minds, their wants and needs freely, both will be scared of physical touch probably, but then there's that image of Jeyne, half-dead herself, extending empathy to Theon and stroking his cheek telling him "you saved me", so there's that part of caring about someone already that seems like some glimmer of hope for both of them. If Theon makes it out alive through the books, I can see him ending up on the Iron Islands and her married to him for protection's sake (seeing as she's got no-one else in the world, and he has proven himself to care for her by saving her from Bolton Winterfell; while nobody else will care enough about her, or him or even be remotely positive towards him to facilitate some other marriage. She's only a steward's daugther, but a minor noble house is still a noble house, so I don't see why in-world class issues would make this impossible. It would grant both of them a safe space to recover from the abuse through each other's now safe company, and maybe find a way to love and be loved despite being more or less dead to the rest of society for various reasons. [...]
Jeyne and Theon - I think their relationship is really interesting to explore as a kind of co-dependant comforting thing where no one else quite understands their shared trauma and neither of them quite trust anyone else any more. But also they have this really soft affection for each other and see things in each other that no one else does. I think they're both seen as kind of irredeemably broken and pathetic post-Ramsay but they see the strength and kindness and value in each other that no one else can.
theon jeyne: i generally prefer nonsexual interactions, however there are ways of doing sexuality that i can like: when it is initiated by and demanded by jeyne who seeks some form of reenactment or redress or nonviolent experience or corrective with theon that she considers safe/available for this and with a theon who is reluctant at best. i like intense dangerous codependency. i don't think regular romance is available to them or rather what they have is already past that.
Asides from those, not so many changes. I think the bigger and better outcome was just learning to be less judgemental and more open. I am honestly happy of having done the survey even if sometimes I wanted to stick my head in the oven.
#I don't know how to tag this#speaking#I don't know if I should tag the ships or if this would be considered as anti-ship#anyway overall more positive feelings about those two which is good.#asoiaf#theon greyjoy#Theon x Robb#theon x Jeyne
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Chuang Asia Thailand Episode 1!
It’s been too long since I got into a survival show lol. I mean my last one was Girls Planet 999 and that was 2 years ago! So anyway I’ll be taking you all with me on this journey by posting the notes I took while watching the episode plus my current top 9. Spoilers ahead!!
•First off before you ask where I’m watching: it’s on the Tencent Video app and it’s free. Ooh and if you’re also watching pls let me know so we can talk about it together!
•I’m happy to see Nene as a mentor! I loved her when I watched Chuang 2020
•This is produced by Jackson Wang? They’ve got TEN??? Okay Chuang Asia I’m interested.
•Looking at the contestant list and of course there are 14 year olds. Don’t vote for the 14 year olds you guys. My personal age minimum for voting is gonna be 17 so I won’t consider anyone younger than that. Contestants that are over 18 get my preference though. The idol industry is bad enough for adults, I’d prefer if we didn’t debut minors as well. I know ironic coming from someone who ults Yeseo lol. (She was the youngest active kpop idol when she debuted in Busters.)
•Also they're really going hard with this being international. This makes Mnet look pathetic for what they did in Girls Planet lol.
•Oh the flirting part with Jasmine was so akwarrrrrrd. 100% secondhand embarrassment.
•I felt bad for Elyn when she was crying and said “No Filming!” But they proceeded to just zoom in on her crying face :( TURN THE CAMERA AWAY FROM HER!
•The trip.com ads are so funny to me because these survival show ads where they pretend to use a product are usually for stuff like snacks or beverages or makeup. But they’ve got these girls pretending to casually book a flight lmao
•The barbie group having only one member thats older than 16 and then proceeding to perform Barbie World where they say stuff like “that pussy so cold” and “he spank me when I get bad” -_- Someone should have made them pick another song.
•OOOH the Avex group’s performance of Left Right was great. Maybe the best of the episode although Mindy was really impressive too.
•Ilene’s little fan moment with Jackson was adorable!
•They announced the first top 9 but I feel like we’re still missing some performances?? Is that an editing thing to get that ranking in the first episode and we ares still going to get more next episode or did they just skip some people? Like I don’t think we saw Ruan and I was waiting for her. I could have sworn there were some CSR members too and I haven’t seen them perform either. I guess we’ll see.
• I watched the theme song on YouTube and it’s so cute!! Weird that it’s all about summer when this is airing in winter though. Is it summer in Thailand?? I thought they were above the equator. Okay yeah they are so idk why they’re singing a song about it being summer. Also I got spoiled for Ruan center! Now I know they wouldn’t just skip her. There’s got to be more intro round performances next episode.
•Okay so my Top 9 picks will be based on who performed in this first episode only so I’m sure it’ll change a lot after ep. 2.
1. R-Jing - She blew me away in the extra performance. Her singing was so pretty! She’s so cute too and apparently trained at SM?? I always latch onto a girl first episode and this is my girl!
2. Akina - Maybe it’s bc of her experience in her past group but she seems really comfortable on stage. I like her vibe and she’s clearly very talented. She seems really nice and down to earth.
3. Rinka - I looked back at her gp999 performances and I can see why I didn’t remember her. She seems to have improved so much though! Her voice stood out positively and she’s got some star power I didn’t see in her old performances. I’m excited to see more of this new Rinka!
4. Lissa - I don’t know how to feel about her strange vibe but I liked her performance. Lots of energy and a nice voice. I’m very intrigued by her at this point.
5. MingMing- such a clear and pretty voice!!! Her and Pangjang together were both the vocal highlights of their team’s performance but MingMing is the only one of the two thats over my voting age limit.
6. Mamcú - Really interesting and beautiful voice. Apparently she competed on the Voice?? We’ll need to wait and see how she does with dancing but she seems really earnest about her desire to he an idol not just a singer so I’ll put my faith in her!
7. Shye - We barely got to see her performance but I was intrigued by what we saw. I don’t know if she can dance yet but I’ll find out soon enough. And lets be real, I have a lil crush on her and thats enough to get you in the top 9 at this point in the game. I mean look at her in her leather jacket!
8. Emma - Her dancing was great and she choreographs her own stuff too! I was really impressed by her dance skills both in her extra performance and the dance battle!
9. Tegan - gorgeous gorgeous deep voice! She’s so pretty too! I really liked her but I have no idea if she can dance. I feel like if she could she would have shown it since she got two performances so I’m hesitant.
Honorable Mentions:
Krista Shim - I’m not voting for Krista because she’s under the age I decided on being my voting limit but honestly I’d put money on her making it to the final group. You can just tell with these shows. It's in the way they edit it.
Mao Xiu Ling & Mao Xiu Ting - Of course we have a pair of twins! I’ve always loved this survival show gimmick. I love their look and their dance together was really cool!
Kaylen - The other half of the Hawaiian Duo! Kaylen pulling Jackson Wang up to the stage with her was such a power move. I didn’t like her solo performance as much as her partner Tegan’s though
Praew- I liked her energy when she introduced herself and then her dancing was insane! I will not be voting for her because she’s 15. She's just a baby.
#cyn talking#tpop#survival show#Chuang asia#chuang asia thailand#watch along#long post#someone talk about this show with me!#come on nct mutuals Ten is a mentor!!
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❗️Stolas NSFW alphabet❗️
(This is actually my husband guys)
A - Aftercare
Usually he’s the one whining to be pampered after sex but once he has been well taken care of he will make sure to ask if you’re feeling okay as well. He will get you anything you need even if he’s exhausted
B - Body part
For him, he loves his long bird like legs and they way they fit so nicely over your shoulders <3. On you he loves your belly idk why I can just picture him giving so many tummy kisses and always holding onto your waist. He loves someone with a little pudge tbh
C - Cum
He wants you to cum everywhere on him. His face, his stomach his chest, anywhere you please he’ll gladly accept it.
D - Dom or Sub?
Hugeee sub and only sub. Most he’ll do is be a service top if you request so.
E - Experience
Not very experienced but watched plenty of porn and is always ready to jump into whatever. Really his only experience was Blitzø. The only time him and Stella fucked was when they needed to produce an heir.
F - Favorite position
He loves a good doggy style but will honestly be happy in whatever position you put him in. If he is playing a service top though he only wants missionary to not only watch you but to know that you are seeing him fall apart.
G - Goofy?
He will be a bit giddy at first but then he quickly settles down once his brain has been turned into subby little mush
H - Hair
Now that I think about it I don’t even think theres hair there. Like I think it’s just more feathers.
I - Intimacy
Very intimate and expects the exact same from you
J - Jack off
Would sometimes try to masturbate but is quickly disappointed realizing it’s very hard to make himself feel the way you make him feel and decides its best to let you take care of such things.
K - Kinks
Pretty much an open book to any sort of bdsm. But his favs are impact play, bondage, and sensory deprivation
L - Location
Bedroom pretty much is it. He loves to fantasize of a public quickie but he is still royalty and does still have an image to maintain.
M - Motivation
Very easily turned on. Touch his feathers the right way and he is rock hard begging to be fucked
N - NO
Again, a pretty open book but I truly cannot picture him being into any bathroom things. Maybe I’m biased cuz those are just my turn offs idk
O - Oral
Doesn’t have a huge preference between giving and receiving oral. He’s a flustered mess when receiving and very much squirming the entire time. He loves to see you face when giving oral and feels so proud he can make you feel good.
P - Pace
Loves it fast, rough, and hard but can never deny a slow sensual banging when he’s tuckered out from a bad day.
Q - Quickie
Thinks quickies are soo hot and loves them on days when he’s busy. Though they would never ever beat a full on scene.
R - Risk
Always game to try something new. He loves adding a spark and experimentation into the bedroom.
S - Stamina
Will last pretty much as long as you please. He gets whiny while being overstimulated but he loves it so much and will let you go as long as you please.
T - Toys
Loves all types of toys. Always finding toys you didn’t even know existed but he loves trying all sorts of tools to help that sexy spark.
U - Unfair
Too desperate to be a tease
V - Volume
Very loud, gags are very handy between you two. During sexy he makes lots of owl noises such as hoots and chirps that you find oh so adorable.”
W - Wild card
Can be whiny but not a huge brat because he tries his absolute best to be a super good boy for you. Though he will sometimes fail to suppress all his fussing if he’s being denied.
X - X-ray
His cock is an average length a tiny bit on the skinnier side. Uncut with a slight curve at the end.
Y - Yearning
Very high sex drive and libido. Like some constant fucking machine (I swear it’s concerning sometimes)
Z - Zzz
He tries to stay awake until he’s feeling a bit better. That way he can properly take care of you as well. He also gets a bit insecure afterwards sometimes so that can keep him up
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hi! i hope you are having a really nice day 🫶🏻
i love how you do the pairings and i was wondering if i could get one with our cod boys!
i’m a girl (she/her) and my mbti is isfj. i don’t really consider myself as shy or timid, but i truly prefer the calmness. i’m getting into the stem’s camp, and i like reading, baking, going to the gym and overall that kind of simple hobbies!
with regard to the physical, i’m 1’66 cm (i think is about 5’5) with a slim body. i have fair skin, my hair is armpit-lenght, very straight and light brown, as my eyes. i like clothes with comfortable materials, soft colors and floral prints, also lace, kind of a romantic yet simple style!
i tend to be attracted to gentle, sweet guys who make you feel safe and protected if you know what i mean (sorry if this sounds weird 😭) i’m not a loner at all, yet i prefer the comfortable presence of someone i care for rather than small talk
thank you for reading, your writing is awesome and you are always so accurate! again, i hope you have a wonderful day ♡
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick (a/n hi anon thank you for submitting and for your kind words :) hope you have a wonderful day as well)
How you met: Civilian "Alright here we go, Garrick," Kyle said to himself in an attempt to get himself into a positive mindset. Despite being young, handsome, and having a great sense of style (which itself is questionable because he always wears the same hat), he lacked someone to write letters and come home to. So he accepted the offer for a blind date from a close friend at the Metro Department. But now he was nervously standing at the hostess stand, as he looked at you. You were even more beautiful than in the pictures, your light brown hair and eyes perfectly added an air of comfort to your appearance. He also noted the delicate floral dress you wore and how the blue details made you look like a Victorian tea set. "She's over there, like I said sir," the hostess said which pulled him out of his gaze. He was planning on standing like that for a few more moments until you looked up from the menu and excitedly waved him over.
"Sorry I was late," he said as he sat down and tried to preserve the nice dining set in front of him. "It's no worries, I wasn't here long," you said politely, "have you been here before?" "No I haven't, let's see if anything is good," he replied and scanned the menu. Not that Kyle didn't appreciate the pleasantries but he wondered if that's all the date would be. However, as the night continued on, you both spent hours talking to each other and sharing your similar interests. From the same favorite books to gym routines, he was happy he had accepted the blind date offer. By the end of it, he walked a way with a lipstick kiss on his cheek and a promise for a second date.
A peek into your relationship: As you opened your eyes to the morning sunlight, you felt the strong arm of your boyfriend on your chest. You peeled him off of you as he woke up with a smile. "Good morning, love," he said softly in a bit of a deeper voice due to the early morning hours. "Morning," you replied and gave him a gentle kiss. Even on leave, you and Kyle fell into a routine of making a healthy breakfast, going to the gym, and then enjoying the afternoon at book cafes or museums. However, this morning all you wanted to do was spend a lazy day in bed. "Ready for the gym?" he asked as he began to get up but you tugged his arm back to you. "How about we break the routine today?" you smiled and he looked at you as you devised a plan. "I'm thinking breakfast in bed and maybe a good novel?" you offered and you watched as the thought for a moment. "But what about-" "Forget the gym, Kyle, let's just enjoy each other's presence for a little while," with that statement and your pleading eyes, he settled back next to you. "A lazy day it is, my love," he replied before kissing your forehead gently, "I'll make us breakfast, soon enough."
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Writer Positivity Tag
As always, thank you @doublegoblin for the tag.
I am not good at being nice to myself so I appreciate the challenge.
What motivates you to write?
Well, I got tired of not being able to read the stories I wanted because they're stuck in my head. Then I found out that people think I have some sort of talent for it. So, I might as well write them myself and actually go through with it. Honestly, having the support system I have found is what motivates me to keep going.
A line/short snippet of your writing that you are most proud/happy of. If not maybe share a line of someone else's work you love (just please credit them)
Misery is a virus that soaks in through hidden places, laying a blanket of pain and suffering, until it spreads to others that try to fix it.
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This was taken out of one of the drafts for my second book in my vampire series. I'm not sure if it will go back in since I have changed the direction for the book a little. I hope you enjoy it all the same.
Which OC makes you smile every time you think/talk about them and what are they like?
Glen. 100%.
In one of my drafts I wrote a conversation where Victoria, the vampire that turned Glen and his dearest friend, is explaining his tendencies to another vampire in their kindred. I think she says it best:
"Glen flirts with anyone he thinks will be embarrassed, angry, or interested. He flirts with me in one sentence and then calls me mom in the other. Flirting means nothing to him, it’s just how he talks. Glen is one of those guys you just have to walk up to and tell him what you’re thinking, what you want, why and how. Otherwise he assumes the stupidest things possible because lord knows what that boy thinks about. "
What process of writing do you enjoy the most?
Adding little details that seem irrelevant. Steering my audience in one direction, keeping them focused on something important, when equally important things have been standing in the doorway and watching them the whole time. I have a friend who reads every writing prompt answer I publish and when it all clicks in his head, I can see it. I can see that my genius and my talent have merged into writing that is as enjoyable for someone to read as it is for me to write.
What part of writing do you think you are the best at? (Yes stroke your own ego it's okay)
I want it to be the "dun dun dun" at the end of a short story but I'm pretty sure I'm actually the best at describing whimsical and fantastical things.
What is something in the writeblr community is most enjoyable?
That there is absolutely someone out there that desperately wants to read your genre. Do you write fanfiction? Tons of people on writeblr will love your stuff. Disgusting grotesque horror that makes stomachs churn or bowels evacuate? Heck, send me your way. I'd love to read it. I love that we all care about each other and understand the struggle and just want to be there for each other.
A writing tool/device you use that helps you with writing? (It could be speech to text, a writing program etc)
Scrivener is so amazing for world building. It is just built for my brain when it comes to doing complex things like the lineage of an alien race across 5 star systems or categorizing which race belongs to which galactic organization. But it costs money and I couldn't buy it outright. I also hated writing my actual manuscript on it.
Now I just use Google docs.
A piece of worldbuilding that you like in your own story? (It could be the magic system, a particular place in the story, a law etc)
That demons and fair folk (fairies) only call themselves that because humans and vampires do. It's a little frustrating that they're not called by their correct "titles" since names hold such importance for all of them but there is little point in arguing with those who are not truly immortal.
I also love the history of vampirism in my story but since it plays heavily into the plot of all three books, I can't say anything without spoiling it.
What piece of advice would you say to encourage others to write if they are having a rough patch?
Your first draft holds the heart and soul of your WIP. Even if all you get out of it is the ambience you're wanting to put in your final story. Your second draft holds the heart, soul, and bones of your WIP. After that you're just adding muscles, tissue, and the good-looking bits to make it easier for someone else to look at. If it takes 3 drafts then it takes 3. If it takes 5038402 drafts then it takes that many.
Remember that you have seen the process of building a story from the soul outwards and sometimes that process is disheartening. It isn't you. It's because things can be a little ugly without the good-looking bits and, unfortunately, the good-looking bits are the hardest to add.
Tag some people whose works you love/have been your biggest supporters
@doublegoblin - makes me happy you tag me in so many games and I love your writing.
@veetvoojagigthemagnificent - will kill me if I don't put them here.
#writeblr#writing#writers of tumblr#writers#writing advice#writerblr#write#writblr#writing community#seriously feel free to tag me
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absolutely loving your god au, it seems so interesting 👀 anything more you wanna share abt it?
oh man yes i have plenty i want to share abt it :DD i should start by saying the au is a collab between both me and @/amena-draws!!
im gonna explain the comic i posted today a bit - so zedaph, or zedeath, was deaths archivist. there are three main people who are responsible for death, the reaper (who is currently mumza but may change in the future - idk much about her in general), the guider (pixlriffs, guides the souls to their afterlife. also title might change LOL), and the archivist (formerly zedeath, currently joe). zedaph decided he was ready to retire from his position, so mojang needed a replacement. nobody really wanted to fill the position; theres not many Cool God Powers that come with it, and there is a lot of paperwork that needs to be filled out. cleo, who is also a god, decided “oh, hey, joe might like that kind of thing!” and recommended joe as the new archivist to mojang without his knowledge. nobody else volunteered so joe automatically got the job.. and still does not know about it At All. cleo assumed zed would explain, seeing as he is the old archivist, while zed assumed cleo would explain, because they were the one to suggest it in the first place.
more about the comic itself; joe was just chilling, maybe hanging out with cleo when she mentioned something about death, and joe is understandably confused. realizing that he has No Idea what theyre talking about, they send zed a message along the lines of “did you tell him about being the archivist yet?” and zed interprets it as “oh, hes ready to take the job over from me!” and straight up just summons him to the domain (an endless expanse of pitch black. how lovely!) imagine being joe in this situation, having a nice conversation one moment and then suddenly being in a dark room unable to see anyone or anything around you the next. fun! none of them know whats going on. they are all very confused. its a mess. also, joe doesnt know how to leave, so thats another whole thing
the book zed hands over to joe is the records of the dead & a very powerful item! think of the reaper’s traditional scythe. theyre never really seen without it. in the last panel joe’s arms start to turn gray spreading out from the book which is meant to represent the power being transfered over to them. also its not that noticable, but zed’s eyes were pitch black while he was still in power and joe’s eyes are black when they get the power - its not noticable because it is a black and white comic and i didnt really draw joe’s eyes otherwise </3 another fun-yet-unnoticable detail is a little bit of background color i added to each panel behind zedaph was pitch black, while joe’s was a lighter gray, until the last panel where joe’s turned black as well!!
this is getting very long which im sorry for, but i like this au a lot!! im always up to talk more abt it :D especially specific details or characters bc it gets my brain going <3
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Ok, I will drop this here in anon form because I need to vent a little and though I'm trying to be as rational as I can, there are so many thing that are adding on top of one another as of late that I'm starting to really dislike. So, I read Lewis' newest bbc interview, and ok, I'm not a team insider so wtf do I know, right? I still don't like they wording he used when talking about George's technical work within the team. I can't help but feel it a bit belittling tho it makes perfect sense 1/2
Hey anon! Feel free to vent! I feel your pain, I’m a chronic over thinker and so I do find myself deeply analysing this stuff on the regular so trust me, you’re not alone.
I’ve always had some questions over the “Lewis sacrificed everything to run experimental set ups and George did nothing” narrative. Was Lewis forced into running experiments by the team or did Lewis choose to run experiments out of sheer determination to find the answer. People have automatically jumped on the first but this article makes it sound more like the latter? And sure it doesn’t matter really, but it does if it’s being used as a stick to beat the other with. George chose to run conservative set ups and benefitted from it, but equally Lewis’ data is worthless without the standard data from George’s car for comparison. It’s still team work.
I think some of the wording is unfortunate and a bit clumsy and I would hope not intentional however I do feel like Mercedes are incredibly bad at protecting their drivers when it matters. They make a big song and dance about Valtteri all the time now, but they very much hung him out to dry last year when he was really struggling and I worry slightly because I can see the same happening again with George. Of course Lewis is their star attraction, but George is their driver and they also have a duty of care towards him.
Toto is the one making comments about them all being little kids left in the rain, but he’s simultaneously harping on about tough love and I think there’s definite limits to that that he maybe doesn’t always recognise. We don’t see the full workings of everything behind the scenes of course but as people have started turning on George it’s almost felt like it’s come from all angles. He’s stated a few times recently that he’s suffering from self doubt, and so seeing Toto contribute to that, along with everyone suddenly saying he’s the worst driver and simultaneously undermining what he has achieved in order to acknowledge that maybe Lewis hasn’t done as badly as everyone tried to imply at the start…it’s not very nice seeing all that happen at once because it feels like a fast track to some kind of spiral if you’re not equipped to deal with it.
I think it’s sadder to me because George is SO vocally outspoken on supporting Lewis and Mercedes, even downplaying his own results at the start of the season, that it does feel kind of sad not seeing that entirely reciprocated whether that’s verbally or via the team social media or whatever. Although I think it’s easier to ruminate when you’re in a fan position and you end up ultimately reading and processing everything that’s said about a driver you like. It is very easy to feel parasocial about it, even if it’s from a protective place. Not worrying about things I can’t control is still something I’m trying to master so I’m not the best person to advise in that sense! At the end of the day, we know he’s had a great season all things considered, the rest of it. The results will go in the history books and the ultimately meaningless discourse won’t 🤷🏼♀️
#ask#a bit ranty#vague mentions of mh#okay tumblr has borked and isn’t letting me edit this for some reason and now I’ve lost what I originally wrote 😫😩
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Twisted Wonderland Reaction Part 13 ~ Dani’s New Hell Edition
Title is a reference to one of my pomefiore ocs who’s abt to have one hell of a wild ride during book 5...I...tried my best to think of a better title for this. I really tried...
Hello everyone!
Welp, months after falling fast for this series, the moment I’ve been waiting for has finally come! However it did come a little too late since I have already read about 75% of Book 5 on my own already and this post is mainly to react to the translations and some of the questionable changes in dialogue. 😭😅
But I’ll be honest, I really struggled to push through it for very personal reasons. This chapter truly solidified my love for Vil and secured his position as my ultimate favorite Twst character above both Rook AND Malleus for the sole reason of just how much we personally have in common. But this chapter has also brought up some extremely distressing flashbacks to traumatic events that happened during my days as an EGL that I thought I was over. And in the end, I still haven’t finished, I think I got to the point RIGHT BEFORE the overblot when I had to pause again.
So you know what that means, EN-only moots? THAT MEANS WE GET TO WATCH THE END AND BE TRAUMATIZED BY VILS OVERBLOT TOGETHER! WOOOOOOOOO
Warning: pic heavy, swearing, meming, flailing, some oc referencing, Rook thirsting, and very minor Neige slander (mostly slander against Disney but Neige catches it too)
Damn, not even five minutes in and we’re already to the violence! But it’s Crewel so...I’m kinda okay with that...👀
Lowkey I really hate this. Like this has irked the hell out of me abt EN for a while and it’s been made worse by the fact that I can understand most spoken Japanese. But now it’s getting ridiculous. They literally changed the fucking logo instead of just keeping it! And the thing is, I really don’t understand why.
But at least they kept the title of the song at least. And on that same note, they kept the song! 💖💖💖
Oh god, I know that “ara” anywhere. This cannot end well...
YESSSSSS!!!! A CROWN, A THRONE, AND I AM ON MY KNEES READY TO SERVE MY QUEEN! ✨👑✨✨
But I think we have learned by now to NEVER challenge Vil to a fight. It can only end one way for you and it’s not good.
OOOOOOOOOOOFFFFFFF
OF COURSE ROOK WAS WATCHING THIS WHOLE THING GO DOWN THIS GODDAMN HANDSOME HUNTING SUS AS FUCK FRENCH FUCKER I SWEAR TO GOD
Nah that title goes to Taima and Iman. But Kalim and Jamil are scary close...
Ohhhh, that’s actually kind of endearing in a way. How he’s still trying to be nice while inwardly he was likely cringing. Such a sweet boy, my only sunshine. ❤
And I love how much he’s developing as a character. It would have been so easy for Kalim to continue to play dumb like some ppl I know irl and not even attempt to resolve what happened between him and Jamil but instead, he acknowledges his culpability and that couldn’t have been easy. Not gonna get into spoilers but he’s going to have some further introspection later on in book 5 and really, you love to see it. Kalim has grown on me so much since the early chapters. It’s incredible, hell, ALL the twst boys are incredible!
How I felt when I did my first pirouette in ballet. 💖
Leona’s face! LEONA’S FACE!!! 💀💀💀
This chapter had a different name in JP that frankly, I liked better. No, EN! My love for Rook is NOT rooted primarily in me having a praise kink and my desire for someone like him compliment me frequently! DO NOT PERCIEVE ME!
What could I possibly say about this man that I haven’t said a thousand times before? And that wouldn’t get me kicked from this site for adult content? 👀
And in addition to everything else, apparently he’s also a LeoVil simp...I’m okay with that...
OOF, that’s why you install ad blocker, Cater!
Okay...so...I really fucking hate this child. I know it’s petty but I really cannot stand Neige as a character but I feel bad for it. Granted he reminds me too much of someone I know IRL but really that probably wouldn’t bother me as much were it not for how he’s designed.
Maybe this is my salt at seeing how Disney meddled with KH3 regarding the Frozen level but something about Neige’s design screamed cooperate meddling and in this case it really REALLY works against him because he’s “supposed” to be seen as more beautiful than Vil. But he’s not. Is he adorable? Yes. Precious? Absolutely. But beautiful? No. The word beautiful to me gives the image of something very compelling but Neige seems (and acts from what little I’ve seen of him) very innocent, cute and pure. And I feel like that could have been Disney’s intention. Like, no one can argue that the twst boys have a certain...appeal to them. Even Chenya has that to an extent. But I wonder if Disney was reluctant to allow a character based on the pure and sweet Snow White have that kind of appeal.
If Neige had a more dynamic design like Vil, maybe I could see him being considered more beautiful. There’s actually an interesting discussion that can be had over the stark differences between Vil and Neige’s design and what we as a society considers more appealing for various reasons, but I doubt Disney was considering that. Yana maybe.
But I’m gonna shut up now before I start waxing more philosophical and potentially upset someone. But yeah...Team Vil forever! 💙
When you’re so radiant, you begin to bishie sparkle! ✨
Lilia’s audition was...interesting. I can’t put my finger on it but his voice has an odd sort of charm but I feel like he wanted to start shrieking towards the end and only barely held himself back...
He’s like a little flame-haired vocaloid!
Jamil was definitely the best tho! His voice left my mouth open and my heart racing! His VA is hella talented! ✨✨✨
Also, I really love the Pomefiore chibis! Especially that I can see the backs of their robes when they move in certain ways. That will be helpful for art purposes in the future! 💙
BUT HOW THE HELL HAS ROOK NOT ACCIEDENTIALLY MURKED SOMEONE YET AND HOW THE HELL DOES HE HAVE PERMISSION TO JUST BE SHOOTING LIVE ARROWS AROUND THE SCHOOL
What in the ten duel commandments shit is this?
Kalim, sweetie, whatever you do, DO NOT PICK UP THE GLOVE
I...these fucking theater nerds...I can’t...
I LITERALLY CANNOT
OMG GUYS LOOK! It’s Maximilian! MY OC Maximilian has made an appearance! Hi, Maxie! This redheaded NPC looks a lot like him. Maybe I’ll try to make an edit of him if I can find this sprite.
Oh Kalim, my poor, stupid sunshine. I feel your pain, Jamil.
This had to be one of the hardest twistunes to date not because of the difficulty but because it was sooooooo hard to pay attention to the prompts cause I was listening to the boys and watching them move! But I still managed to pass it with an SS. Well done, Night Ravens! 🖤🖤🖤
Also kind of surprised we ended here since there are 75 parts I figured Book 5 would be split in 3 parts of 25. At least, that’s initially how I was trying to read it on my own.
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List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last ten people who reblogged something from you. Spread the positivity!! (And obviously no pressure if you don't want to.)
Oh, i can’t believe I only now get around to answering this one, I love the 5 things ask! (got this one 6. Dezember 2022 o.O just over a year ago!)
Thanks so much for this ask, and thanks for the ‘no pressure’ addition too, some of those chain mails can be so pushy :D but for this, I come prepared! A while ago I started writing some down for this specific ask meme, both because it’s a nice thing to write it down when there’s something making you happy, and so the answers to this would have some variety :D
- Using the ginger from store bought (veggie)sushi boxes to make ginger tea aka gollum juice! Idk, it just fills me with such joy every time <3 I used to always throw out the ginger bc I don't like to eat it, and that's just wasteful, so I just didn't buy sushi boxes much, and then when I got into liking ginger tea, the whole ginger I'd buy is just too much for me to use, and not fresh ginger tea just doesn't taste right... but now that I thought of doing this, I get my sushi boxes and my tea and it's amazing! (from Sept 27)
- Wearing long skirts. I never used to - I think I was stuck on the image of them being stuffy and uncool, and I still remember reading one children's/teen book where the protagonist makes fun of the goodie two shoes girls in their plaid skirts... well, anyway, about a year ago or two, I was at a yard sale with my little sister, just looking around, she was looking for some necklaces and shirts I think while I wasn't really searching for anything for myself so I was just looking for her, when I saw this dark striped pleated skirt, and first when I tried it on I still wasn't sure about it but it was like 3€ so I took it anyway... and I haven't looked back since! I got another one in pink and beige at a store, and my favourite vintage green and gold patterned one on eBay, and two layered flowy ones in black and in white on holiday in Belgium last summer, and they're all so nice and swishy and I enjoy the aesthetic of long skirts immensely! There's also the added benefit of them not adding to my chronic pain - I basically just wore hotpants or harem trousers the years before bc I had finally figured out that wearing jeans made my legs ache a Lot (not necessarily while wearing it but also afterwards which is why I hadn't known before, only after not wearing them for a while and then trying some on again I noticed the difference) & maybe child me telling my parents that everything but pyjama pants were 'uncomfortable' and I wanted to wear them to primary school was onto sth lmao Anyway, so I had already found trousers that don't hurt me so the skirts didn't exactly change that, but I also like how they look and feel! (27.9.23)
- Lutschbonbons (it says this without any comment 29.11.21 xD I wonder what sweets I had been eating?)
- Doing crossword puzzles with my mom (9.5.2020 - jeez how long ago did I start writing these down and not use them? xD anyway I still love doing that! We meet weekly on a videocall)
- and right now: the sweet sweet relief of using the biteaway heat burn thingy to cure the itchiness of mosquito bites xD goddamn beasts are everywhere but They’ve Got No Power Here I have a mosquitonet and if one gets me while I’m not there I have my wonderful biteaway thanks again for that @lavendelhummel the thing’s a lifesaver!
#panicatthesocialmedia#Lilo clears out her inbox#5 things#chainmail#ask the blogger#answered#panicatthesocialmediamain#not f#non anon#mine#personal#dec’23#08.12.23#memory#family#likemyblog81223
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