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reverie-starlight · 1 year

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hiii, just poppin' in to say i love ALL of your writing (no matter how self indulgent) it's always so so amazing

i also wanted to ask about your favourite headcanons of your favourite haikyuu boys/girls?

AWWW ANON ILY THANK YOU SO MUCH, THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME <333

and oooo that's a tough one... I'm gonna do relationship HCs and I'm gonna try to limit myself to 5 but we shall see how that goes...

(...I only did some boys in this one cause it was getting long but if you want me to do one for the ladies of haikyuu I absolutely will. alisa and kiyoko are my wives.)

{relationship HCs for various hq boys}

gn!reader, pure fluff <3

timeskip spoilers!!

includes: kuroo, atsumu, oikawa, sakusa and semi (who would have guessed)

kuroo

the light of my life. my first husband.

like he could be so attentive to your every want and need

but you need to communicate with him what those things are before he actually picks up on them

but once he does? you're gonna feel like royalty with how amazing he treats you

kuroo is definitely the type to rile you up for his own enjoyment

like not enough to make you actually angry but just mildly annoyed, or to get you into the same playful mood he's in

usually you'd go into playful banter from there

he loooovvveeesss kissing you

like so much it's actually concerning (but you love it anyway)

doesn't have a specific place he prefers to kiss you but he will admit to purposefully kissing you in sensitive spots (like your neck or stomach) so he can hear the noises that come from that

if you're like me and get anxious/too in your own head sometimes, he would be so good at keeping you distracted and calm

would hold your hand squeeze it every so often to ground you

(side note he would have the nicest hands, second only to akaashi maybe, and he's aware you like them)

gently cups your cheeks a lot when you're having a conversation, it's so common that neither of you even notice it anymore, so when you're out with friends and he does it, they gag at the affection

also yk that thing where you knock your heads together as a form of affection??? you guys would absolutely do that, it's his favourite thing

since I literally have his jersey in hoodie form, I have to mention that he would purposefully buy clothes he thinks you'd be more likely to steal from him

he lovesss seeing you happy, so your relationship is a lot of fun. he's always making you laugh, which in turn, makes him laugh too

will CRY if you whisper sweet nothings to him after a long, hard day, pls validate him and tell him you love him and he's all that you want and more

and he will absolutely do the same for you, even if you had the best day. he wants to give you everything, so let him !!

scratch his back while he lays on top of you and rants about his day and he turns to putty

he's just very in love with you and wants to make you the happiest person on the planet, he wholeheartedly believes you deserve it <3

atsumu

we all knew he was gonna be on this list

fun fact, kuroo and akaashi were my top two characters for like a year and a half, and then one day atsumu shot to first place (if you couldn't tell from my blog)

anyway if favoritism shows, no it doesn't

he will pick you up at any chance he gets and drag you to your room for cuddles

he is SUCH a cuddly guy I wholeheartedly believe that.

does not mind being the big spoon one bit if that's what you prefer, as long as he gets to hold you in some way

he goes all out for anniversaries and holidays, you actually have to reign him in a lot of the time

will go to the gym and send you mirror selfies with horribly cheesy captions saying how much he misses you and how he wishes you were there with him

the jackals all love you and will 100% side with you in a petty argument just to tease atsumu

his favourite place to kiss you is definitely on the lips. he's not sure why but it just makes him happy

he LOVES it when you kiss his forehead tho

you guys have an entire arsenal of inside jokes

truly your relationship is two dorks best friends in love

after a long day his ideal destress routine would be to make dinner with you and then watch a show on the couch before going on an evening walk together

will show you off at every event he brings you to

he gets so giggly whenever you show him affection without him having to ask for it, it's the cutest thing you've ever seen

this man flirts to see you hideaway and then turns a million shades of red if you give it right back

he is just so proud to call you his partner <3

oikawa

this man is my favourite character in all of haikyuu

he's my favourite character but like, only top 5 in terms of my simp list yk??

but you'd better believe I have some HCs for him

I've said it before and I will say it again, even if Spanish isn't his first language, he would absolutely use Spanish terms of endearment on you while/after living in argentina

things like mi vida, mi sol, mi amor, etc...

i'm half costa rican, you can't blame me for adoring pet names in Spanish, and if you do I will simply ignore you <3

bro is so romantic.

like I genuinely believe he would be one of the most romantic guys out of any of them

very affectionate, but I feel like he wouldn't be so much in public despite what everyone else says

he'd happily show you off at events and stuff, and it would be obvious you two are together, but I think he's definitely more affectionate alone with you

loves loves loves skinship

will literally stick his hands under your shirt when you're cuddling just to trace shapes into your skin

loves gently running his fingers over the features of your face

he just wants to feel you a bit

kisses your temples and fingers the most I think

loves taking baths with you as well, he loves just sitting with you and talking about your days

he always wants to hear about every little detail

he lovesssss when you start rambling on about something and will listen to you so intently bc he knows what it is to feel passionate about something

if you run your hands through his hair he will melt into you, but you didn't hear it from me

he will also melt if you call him any pet name. he'll never admit it, but you know his favourites are the ultra-sweet, tooth-rotting ones he claims to hate

if you're ever insecure about anything in terms of your physical appearance, he will spend so much time complimenting you and kissing every place you point to <3

looks for you in the crowd at his games and smiles at you before he serves bc you're wearing his jersey

i want to give him a million kisses all over his face after he wins a game to see him smile and laugh, I have no problem feeding his ego actually

damn maybe the favoritism showed up more in this one

sakusa

take this as his bday post bc i forgot to get something out for the actual day

i LOVE this guy

I do already have some fluff HCs for him and a clingy!reader

but these are gonna be more general

okay so I do genuinely believe he would be soft for his partner

in public he is not outwardly affectionate

but that's okay bc you love all parts of him and respect his boundaries

however behind closed doors

he will bask in your affection

loves having your arms around him, loves being pressed against you

he's not a robot in public though, oh no

he has a very dry sense of humour, i think, which you love

bc if he has a sly remark or something to make about someone, he'll lean in close and whisper it to you

doesn't matter where you guys are, if he thinks of something, he's gonna want to share it with his partner, especially if he thinks it will make them laugh

his pet names for you range anywhere from "sweetheart" to "you little shit" tbh

lots of playful debates with him too

he likes to subtly match with you, either through colours you wear or like, homescreens that match up when you put your phones side by side

loves to kiss your palms the most and when he's holding your hand or you're cupping his face, he will hold your wrist and press tiny kisses to it

very observant so he will always be picking up on any mood changes or things you're hinting at

his morning voice is god tier, just saying

loves it when you play with his hair right when he wakes up, will literally purr like a cat if you do it long enough, but he will deny anything and distract you from it with a kiss

what a guy <3

semi

THE SEMI APPRECIATION AGENDA LIVES ON

i've said it before and i will say it again: he plays the guitar for you and writes songs with you in mind

he is a literal godsend when it comes to attending to your needs

does not mind one bit if you ask him to get you water at midnight

he is always down for late night drives as well, and has two playlists specifically curated for them and he picks one to play based on whether you're tired and need to get extra sleepy or if you're energetic and want to jam out with him

he's a government worker by day, musician by night and whenever you go to his shows, he will dedicate a song to you

speaking of performances

bringing this one up again, but always has you write something on him before he goes on stage (I have a mini fic based on that idea if u look on my page!!)

HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH OKAY??? would literally worship the ground you walk on if you told him to

gets you souvenirs from wherever he plays a show and presents them to you all dramatically and grins when you laugh at him

you most definitely have a necklace or bracelet with one of his old guitar picks hanging from it

semi is affectionate. not stingy with it in public but not crazy with it behind doors either. he's just. affectionate. most of it comes out in his songwriting anyway.

his main love languages are probably words of affirmation and acts of service

will ABSOLUTELY whisper sweet nothings to you completely unprompted when he's feeling soft just to get you flustered and/or in a sweet mood with him

he is in love, your honour

@emmyrosee more kuroo as promised!!

hope you all enjoyed!! please like and reblog <3

#sakusa x reader #kuroo x reader #atsumu x reader #oikawa x reader #semi x reader #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu x reader #kuroo fluff #semi fluff #oikawa fluff #sakusa fluff #atsumu fluff #hq x reader fluff #haikyuu x reader fluff #sakusa x reader fluff #oikawa x reader fluff #atsumu x reader fluff #kuroo x reader fluff #semi x reader fluff

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startwi-light · 3 months

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You know I'm so bored that I'm going to talk about the first time I read wmmap.

You could say that I'm 'new' to the fandom because I just started reading the manhwa when it was ending, in fact, I literally started reading it because I saw a tiktok of Athy's coronation and I found it very nice and then I decided to start it in June.

(these images in particular caught my attention and it was with the Katy Perry song Unconditionally) i still have that tiktok i think.

But before starting I watched some videos on Tiktok to get an idea of what it was about. It wasn't my first manhwa, in fact it was the third (1st The remarried empress, 2nd Happily ever afterwards) but I wanted to have an idea of what it was about before starting.

And the idea I had was so wrong lmao

First of all, it never occurred to me that Claude was Athanasia's father, however, due to his type of attire, I believed that he was a God who had taken Athy as his pupil 😭

Then I saw a lot of videos of Athy with a silver-haired boy so I assumed he was the ML and since the comments kept talking about a certain Lucas I thought HE was LUCAS.

Yeah, I thought Ijekiel's name was actually Lucas.

Felix? Lily? Luke? Jennette?

I never saw them on tiktokt videos so I had no idea they existed and I was actually very surprised when they showed up.

Before starting the manhwa I told a friend what I was going to do and she told me that she had already started it years ago and there she told me that actually the ML was a boy with black hair and that his name was Lucas, no the other.

She also told me that 'God' was actually her father and that there were several people who shipped them and I was like... whatt???????

At that time I only knew webtoon but I was determined to start that manhwa so my friend told me about an app called tappytoon and that's where I went to read it.

And guys, I didn't want to believe those people who shipped the father and daughter but when I saw the banner I thought Diana was Athanasia and I was really freaked out.

(THIS ONE)

I sent a message to my friend and everything and there she told me that that woman was not the daughter but the mother.

and there I calmed down.

When I started the manhwa I found out about Jennette's existence and that she WAS HER SISTER AND I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT ANY SISTER.

And what ijekiel was actually the 2ML.

I was also very surprised by the novel 'lovely princess', as you saw before my first manhwa was The Remarried Empress which is not a regression manhwa and Happily Ever After is a regression manhwa but the protagonist is reincarnated when the story is already finished so you don't have to worry about the plot.

But in Lovely Princess Athanasia she did exist in the plot and had a horrible end, her father ignored her all her life, abandoned her, then they convicted her of something she never committed and they killed her and when it was discovered that it was false, no one cared. When I read that I was so angry I had to stop reading. Suddenly I didn't want a 'cute father-daughter story' anymore, I wanted revenge.

As I read, I fell in love with Athanasia. idk there were many reasons I really liked her personality, she was fun and cute, and she used her appearance to get more chocolate idk I just loved it so I could make a separate post about everything I liked about her.

As the story progressed I hated Claude several times but ngl i did enjoyed the cute moments between them. I'm still a little resentful honestly.

I could talk about my first thoughts as the characters appeared but that would be too long.

Anyway, I finished the manhwa just because of Athy, sometimes it got very interesting and other parts very boring. Also, when my friend told me that the manhwa was about family, I thought that we were going to see different types of families, I mean, other family situations of the characters, for example the family of Lily, Felix or Ijekiel, so when that didn't happen I I was a little disappointed.

I also know that many confused the name 'Athanasia' with 'euthanasia' but I personally confused it with 'Anastasia'.

#wmmap #who made me a princess #athanasia de alger obelia #manhwa #claude de alger obelia #(in fact this makes me realize that another parallel between Yona and Athy is that neither of them takes revenge)#suddenly i became a princess one day #suddenly i became a princess #my thoughts

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scary-monsters · 6 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by @crown-of-winterthorne, thank you friend!!! 🧡🧡🫶🏻

1. How many works do you have on Ao3? 33 total! i've got 8 for jjba, 25 for haikyuu

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 473,497 🤯🤯🤯

3. What fandoms do you write for? currently only jjba, i don't anticipate anything else for a long time since my major interests tend to last for years

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? unsurprisingly they're all ushiten 😭 i won't link them but: "i'm a house with no windows" (200k friends-to-lovers), "shuffle" (fake dating/only one bed tropes), "fascinating facts about geckos" (high school teachers au), "on display" (nsfw oneshot), and "morning routine" (my very first fic ever posted :')) aw)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? i try to!!!! sometimes i get really behind (like i am right now ugh) and that's either because i'm busy or i can't properly put my gratitude into words 😔 but i think i get to most of them eventually. i don't really reply to the ushiten ones anymore, but they still mean a lot to me.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? i.. don't think i have any?? i love writing angst but i really cannot handle sad endings.. i'm a sappy little romance-obsessed fool, i fear i'm incapable of anything but sweet and fulfilling endings

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? i mean it's gotta be "i'm a house with no windows".... they literally grew up together and got married and then visited their hometown as middle-aged men.. i don't know if i can out-do that. but if we're talking jjba then probably my most recent diego fic, "ritz to the rubble"

8. Do you get hate on fics? i have before LMAO, nothing too horrible but honestly i just shrug it off. i like my writing and i know lots of other people do too so i can't be bothered

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? ummmmmm yes.. i write a lot of it HFDSKLHGKLS.. i won't detail that here bc this isn't a nsfw blog but my ao3 speaks for itself.

10. Do you write crossovers? nope! the idea hasn't ever even crossed my mind

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? i feel like.. i remember someone telling me that one of my ushiten fics was on wattpad at one point but i never saw it myself and that was years ago so ??? MAYBE?? i truly don't know

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? i couldn't find evidence of it but i remember someone requesting to translate a fic of mine to chinese?? and i had no problem with it but AGAIN LOL these things happened in like 2016 or 2017 so it's been a hot minute and my memory is garbage

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? not really, i attempted to collab with a couple friends in the past but it really didn't work out very well.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship? diego and me (im kidding. kind of.), i mean currently it's dinopants and dinoballs. i love diejoni as well but the other two reeeeaaally hit that sweet spot for me. i like ushiten in a way that's like... aww.. those were my boys and now they're grown up and moved out ?? they are cute but they aren't My Guys anymore

15. What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? UGH I HAD a dinopants university au that i started over a year ago but i ended up using one of the previously written scenes for my recent fic so i doubt i'd ever finish the original one. for the most part i finish what i start, though.

16. What are your writing strengths? DIALOGUE !!! at least to me, anyway. i think i'm really good at getting into a character's head and analyzing them and how they'd handle social situations, which is funny bc i have trash social skills. i fucking love character analysis in general

17. What are your writing weaknesses? i think i tend to overuse words sometimes... maybe lean too heavily into dialogue.. i'm always always always trying to get better, so in a way i think i look at everything as a weakness that i'm constantly working to improve

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? i've tossed in little fragments of Italian when i write gyro but other than that i don't think i'd personally do it.

19. First fandom you wrote for? realistically? naruto 💀 my original old-ass clunky desktop had several word docs of deidara fic, i'm like 99% sure. too bad limewire and heaps of viruses killed the damn thing

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? atm i think it's gotta be extra hot, well stirred, light foam :')) i was so iffy about it while writing but i think it's such a perfect balance of funny and sexy and i'm quite proud of it. it would make sense to say a fic from a while ago but i don't like my writing from back then.. i just think i've gotten so so so much better

IM TAGGINGGG @reclusiverisottonero @swallowed-teeth @hammerofspace @penny-lane-123 @phvntom-limbs but no pressure, lovingly patting y'all on the head regardless 🧡

#EEEEE i love tag games 🧡 and i love my writer friends and i wanna see their answers

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vendetta-if · 2 years

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1K Followers Celebration Q&A, Part 1 🎉

Hey guys! First of all, I'm sorry for not being too active on Tumblr lately. I've been pretty busy spending my break setting up various stuff for "Vendetta" as listed on my checklist and answering all these QnA questions.

Without further ado, here are all the questions and answers for the 1K Followers Celebration Q&A! This is Part 1 (I gotta split them into parts because it'll be too long if I kept them all in one post)

『Viktor, in your opinion, which ending would you want your child to choose? Vigilante, hero, heir?? Also, if you've seen both of the funerals, how did it make you feel?』

Viktor: "I—I honestly don't know. I just want my child to be safe and among those three choices... I would want them to be the heir, I guess. It'll be easier for Luka, my father, and Ash to protect them. Being a vigilante or a hero is too dangerous. They'd have to fight dangerous people and criminals, most of which are powered as well, and they may attract the attention of the wrong people.

As for the funerals... They're... horrible. I want to be there so badly, to say a final goodbye to my family and close friends, console them, make final amends with my father, and tell all of them to just let it go rather than keep hurting by holding on. But most of all, I want to hold my child one last time. To see them so clearly hurt... and I can't do anything about it... It just hurt. I'm glad Luka comforted them and is taking care of them."

『For Yvette: Do you actually love your child?』

Yvette: "O—Of course, I do! What kind of question is that? I care for them, okay? Even if I hadn't met them in years..." Yvette fidgets in her seat. "Next question, please."

『Rin, would you have any interest in MC if they weren't part of the Morozov family?』

Rin is silent for a moment.

Rin: “If they were not a part of the Morozov Family, then there was little to no chance of us ever meeting each other anyway. So, that’s a moot point.” Their voice is stiffer than usual.

『For Viktor and Yvette: given the chance, what’s one thing you would say to your child right now if you had the chance?』

Viktor: "I love you so much, my little sunshine. Please, don't be sad or angry anymore. I don't want you to avenge me or find me justice. I want you to enjoy your life to the fullest, find someone to love and maybe start a family with, and spend time with all the people in your life. And remember, to always take care of yourself and I'll always be proud of you, no matter what."

Viktor is silent for a second before shaking his head lightly. "I'm sorry, I know you said one thing... But, I just have so many things to say to them..."

Yvette: "I'm so sorry, baby. Please, give me another chance and I'll prove how much I meant that and how much I want to be in your life. After all, it's better late than never, right?"

『For Yvette: How was Viktor's personality? And why did you fall for him?』

Yvette sighs dreamily, a light blush spreading on her cheeks.

Yvette: "Where to start? He was a true gentleman and always tried to protect me in fights... Even to the point of taking hits that were meant for me... He was also really charming and also funny at times. Can get really teasing and flirtatious, but was really loyal once he was committed in a relationship with me. Just between you and me, I think he was a true hopeless romantic!"

『Ash & Rin if they could change their power to anything of their choosing, what would it be and why? Thank you <3』

Rin: “Hmm… I love my precognition and it really helps me so far. I wouldn’t want to change it to anything else.”

Ash: “C’mon, you party pooper, just imagine for a second!”

Rin: “How about you start first, then?”

Ash: “Gladly! I think MC’s umbrakinesis is pretty cool and flexible. Shadows are everywhere in almost every moment of the day. Also, it can be really intimidating and destructive as well. I would love to have a power like that.”

Rin: “Fine... If I have to… I think telepathy would be pretty useful. To be able to hear what the other person is thinking and planning, or even to influence them subtly... Although, the constant chatter of other people’s thoughts would be annoying…”

#celebration event #if: vendetta #vendetta if #char: viktor #char: yvette #ro: ash #ro: rin #if game #if wip #dashingdon #choicescript #choice of games #hosted games #cyoa #interactive fiction #interactive novel #interactive story #interactive games

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your-sweet-cookie · 11 months

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Important announcement, please read

Mun speaking: Hey guys, I'm posting this now since I'm seeing that a lot of you are online so maybe you'll see and read this. I just want to let you know that I am honestly NOT doing okay at all emotionally speaking. I've been actually hurting deeply for quite some time and due to recent events, I have finally hit rock bottom and just can't take this anymore: Thing is that lately I've started to feel extremely unwanted and unloved by the community and that my relevance on here has dropped to nothing (best proof being my activity stats that dropped to under 10 notes on more than one occasion these past few days and maybe weeks), soo I guess the haters were right, in the end I am nothing but a boring person with an even more boring character.

And it's okay, you don't have to lie to try to make me feel better, because I just know it's true and even if I tried to be strong, I just can't do it anymore. There were more factors that contributed to this and I'll try to briefly explain them:

First of all, no one reaches out to me to send in stuff outside of memes and no one wants to talk to me, except 2-3 people with whom I'm mostly only talking about stuff outside of RP anyways. The stuff I usually got in my inbox were just memes that never got feedback or went anywhere and If I disappeared it's clear that no one even noticed, so it means that my presence on here truly is useless, life moves on without me anyways. All my ships are dead, all my threads ignored/forgotten and my inbox is an empty desert.

Then, there were of course the haters. At first I thought they were just a bunch of jealous people, but now I realize they were right, I am just a no one who nobody likes and I am just tired of receiving pity from others, since it won't change a thing. If people truly cared, then they would've proven the haters wrong with concrete action, but since no one did so, it's too late to change the facts now.

And lastly, what hurt most, was the way I was treated by those I saw as friends, who just decided to just abandon me one day without any further notice. I won't name names, but just know that what you did truly hurt me because I trusted you and I cherished you! Yeah, I am not perfect, I make mistakes, but I believe that I am entitled to at least one explanation and a 'break-up' note to at least allow me to move on knowing that there's no more hope left for that friendship. Ghosting someone is never the right answer!

With that said (which I am sorry if it came out as mostly bitter, but I'm emotionally drained completely), I've decided to retire from the RP community, since it's became literally painful seeing the dashboard go on given the current circumstances. This acc won't be gone, I'll keep it for memory's sake and to maybe post artwork related to Kukki and her friends from time to time, make memes and chat with the Muns I am still close with. In regards to the all-mad-hare's event, I will still deliver my entry since the sketch is almost done and I am very pleased with the result, but I just wanted to let you guys know that I will stop using this acc for role-playing because I just can't go on like this anymore. There's no pain worse than feeling horribly alone, despite being surrounded by soo many people. I just don't have any drive or motivation left for writing. It was fun at first while it lasted, but now it's just painful and I'm tired of crying everyday and feeling anxious and stressed whenever I see the dash going on and then remember that no one gives a fuck about me.

With that said, I hope there won't be any hard feelings and know that I still love you guys and so does Kukki, but even the strongest warriors have their limits and this one reached hers.

Wishing you all the best, S

#ooc post #ooc interactions #post from mun

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kaixserzz · 9 months

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Dottore having a huge crush on you back in the akademiya would be so cute, he'd most definitely look at you from afar and just admire you for how you act and what you do 🤭 he'd get all flustered when you compliment him and ask about his interests, making him feel like you genuinely care about him and his hobbies, which in turn makes fall inlove with you even more 😭😭

If you're his roommate, then you may as well crank that up because now you've basically seen how and what he's like, it makes it more personal to him YK??

Anyways,

If you reject dottore, he'd be sad, of course. He never anticipated rejection, he never even thought of it in all honesty, but he understood your reasonings.

From then on, he wouldnt reach out to anyone anymore, you were– and still are the only person he's ever cared for– loved for. He could never replace the love he held for you. Even if you didn't reciprocate his feelings, he'd be nothing but respectful towards you. With his demeaning and cold demeanor, you'd think he'd be more of a r/nice guy abt it but nope! He'd of course give you space if needed and let you reevaluate your guys friendship, if you choose to stay friends with him that is.

He will still pine for you, but only in the confines of his room where nobody would see silent wallowing.

Staying friends with you was better than not being friends at all, he was just glad then that you didn't cut him off. He still loves you, even if you choose not to love him back.

Anyways,

dottore is legit inlove with everything you do, he hates seeing you interact with other scholars, so much so he'll purposefully take up as much of your time as possible 🥰🥰❤❤ he's such a cutie pie

OH BTW I'm the anon who wrote those 2 post about modern!dottore and that akdemoya one 🤧, could i be 🎠 anon??

AWWWWW he's so glad you still accepted him as your friend 🥺🥺!! you're literally like, his only friend HELP DSHDHA he's so nice and sweet to you, like even you'd notice it!!

I LOVE HOW YOU MADE HIM SO RESPECTFUL 💖💖 but he's so not subtle of his affections for you no matter how hard he tries 😭 he'd literally be staring at you with heart eyes, and he'd be a flustered mess when you look at him with a teasing smile, refusing any of your 'accusations'

he'd definitely still try while respecting your boundaries, tho!! he's still a little hopeful!! (besides i dont think id ever say no to him 😭💖) i just think he's so so cute when akademiya zandik is in love ,, (it makes me wanna mess with him,,)

WELCOME 🎠 ANON!! i see you have horrible dottore brain rot huh? me too anon, me too!! 😭😭

#˚₊໒💉꒱kai talks₊˚#˚₊໒🎠꒱anon₊˚#╰┈➤ il dottore #i love ur brainrots sobs

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shslpunkartist · 2 years

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Hey, this is just a little random observation from me, but I notice your take on the Corruption seems to be the only one these days that goes with the old popular theory where the corruption isn't its own entity that eventually overtakes its host's body but rather something that simply corrupts & changes those who it infected while amplifying certain traits of theirs along with some influence from it but not outright actually taking control.

I always prefer this take over the canon one because I feel it makes everything much more interesting, especially how it makes the corrupted more like a wild card of sorts. It also gives everything a more tragic feel to it as well.

A good example of what I mean exactly would be the situation with Otis in your Corruption AU. He fought to the bitter end to protect Morgana from Komet, making absolutely sure that they were able to escape unharmed and most importantly uncorrupted. Even once he was fully corrupted, Otis still didn't give up. He was overwhelmed and pretty much defeated, and yet he still refused to give in.

Then Komet happens to see his true desires through their shared bond with the corruption.

Said desires are nothing terrible on their own. After all, it's normal for one to wanna keep their friends and loved ones safe. His wish for his family to be together and be a happy family again is also a normal one. A bit selfish maybe but hey we all have a bit of selfishness in us and there's nothing wrong with that!

... but then Komet proceeds to use this wish against Otis. He pulls some emotional manipulation on him while he was in his most vulnerable state.

What makes it so tragic is that you made it clear Otis had initially tried to not listen to Komet- tried so so soooo hard to shut his voice out. But Komet... just keeps on talking. Kindly too. Even tells Otis what happened on that day when the Corruption outbreak happened, why exactly he's doing this, and so on. All of this, combined with Otis's own doubts over whether it's even possible for this ruined world to be saved, eventually resulted in Otis believing Komet is right.

And to make this even more heartwrenching here? You made it clear that deep down Otis KNOWS this is wrong and that he's being selfish here but he doesn't care anymore. At this point, all that matters is that he's able to protect his remaining family no matter what if it results in him becoming hated for it.

.... But fortunately for us all, Otis knows better than to try to corrupt Morgana in their current state; as horrible as this will sound, it's a good thing that Morgana was not in a good mental state when Otis found him. So instead of corrupting Morgana to keep them "safe" as he originally planned, Otis instead focuses on protecting Morgana. Sadly that doesn't mean Otis has given up on his original plan but you had stated that Otis will only corrupt Morgana once he's in a muuuuuch better state of mind... and as you added on, that won't be happening any time soon (un)fortunately. So Morgana is safe for the time being.

Ah sorry for the long ramble. Didn't mean to get so carried away here saskjasjk

But anyway, to wrap this all up, your take on the Corruption AU will forever be one of my favorite AUs out there. Thank you for making it again and hope to see more on it in the future one day! But please don't feel obliged to rush to get content out after seeing this! I love your works but I don't want you to force yourself to get content out all because you felt bad there! If you do that then I will give you a gentle bonk on the head, okay? /lh

I'm happy you like my version! Tbh I was kinda eh with the au at first, probably because it was all over my feed when it was in the height of its popularity, but having you guys helped me expand and develop this version more, and now it's fun for me (in a bittersweet way)

Having your inner feelings come out in a possibly chaotic way, gaining powers and altering forms, quick to action when something goes wrong.. and the fact that one person can appear more coherent than another is interesting. I'll probably write out a proper description of my version for the newcomers soon

#Otis and Morgana are such a sad case #granted they're all sad cases but thinking about that one hurts

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whinecrate · 3 months

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I could be overthinking everything.

But when he changed over the course of the relationship i didn't really think about the possibility of him changing for the worse ig?

Worse is strong opinion i suppose.

But I mean... just ..more like every other guy who just wants sex etc..

Like maybe it's fine and he won't be anything like that.

Maybe it's fine and it's preemptive and it's reversible ig idk.

Just the whole convo really threw me off and made me take a step back and it felt like i didn't notice him change a bit too much into a completely different person than i thought he was. Well that's dramatic but it was just a side i thought he didn't really have and it makes me question things he has said before the whole sex being a need thing and i always thought he was supposed to be idl sweet and considerate and emotional n all but i really don't know anymore. Considerate i mean is he ik he wants to be and probably thinks he is but in reality he's not that much like a lot of it is basic stuff i laid out for people in general and I'm a pretty open book anyway. And he thinks he has no ego but imo i feel like he just has a different kind of ego about being laid back and chill and no ego basically about being flexible and nothing fazes him or whatever about being soft and considerate and thoughtful and romantic and now about being smooth and flirty and confident and good in bed in the sensitive guy way who wants to make up feel good cuz he cares when in reality I'm pretty sure it's about the ability to make to feel good to brag that he has me wrapped around his finger that he could make me cum so easily and with the right guy idem feeding that delusion i just no longer know if he's the right guy. And sometimes the romantic stuff the cute cheesy stuff idk how much is actually worth anything what if it's all just bullshit what do ik. And i feel so shitty about doubting all this in the first place. Idk idrk anything rn.

And I'm probably making it worse with the whole thing about us not having a future. If we did then maybe he would have been more for staying with me but idk if it's just genuinely how he sees it now or any level of resentment. Maybe he genuinely thinks all that or maybe it was atleast partly to hurry me or whatever ig but also at the end of the day he's a blr guy so what else did i expect but maybe he took that as an insult and the rest was retaliation or something idkkkk.

And the friends with benefits thing I mean I don't know how I feel about how he thinks about it or about how he looks at sex now so casually. And tbf why shouldn't he what's so wrong with it. But ig i worry about what that means for me for us does he just see me as idk. Ig not will he eventually just see me as a way to get sex or just something to fantasise about or idkk. But that from him would probably really really affect me ig.

And it's horrible timing cuz he has the interview tomorrow (well today considering I'm writing this at 1:30 am) so I can't ask now or tomorrow cuz another test and maybe interview but should I be talking about it in the first place cuz he's allowed to think whatever he wants those were honest answers honest thoughts and I'm just his girlfriend and we've accepted that it's not going anywhere so what right do i have to say anything to feel anything about it at all.

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servin-up-surveys · 11 months

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Are you interested in any reality TV shows? I like some like cooking shows or other competitions when I'm watching TV with others, which is the only time I ever watch television anyway. Historically I've fucking adored animal documentary series, like Meerkat Manor or Orangutan Island, and I remember I loved one featuring rhesus macaques as well, I just don't remember its name. I am VERY interested in watching animals just live their lives.

What’s your favourite thing to have on toast? Light butter, cinnamon, and sugar. Childhood delicacy, man.

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever had to deal with at your job? So much social anxiety that I would end up in the bathroom having a total meltdown regularly. For external things though, just impatient people.

Do you think being born was a mistake? No.

Do you have a large dog? If not, are you afraid of them? We currently only have the smallest species of dog lol, but we've had a boxer mix before. I'm not afraid of them at all, I love big dogs.

What is something you used to always do but don’t anymore? Once upon a time I lived off of soda, like it was ALL I drank for many years, but I've cut back immensely, I'm working towards getting to a point where I'll only drink one personal-sized (not a two liter) bottle a week. I enjoy soda more than I do eating, and I've absolutely noted that it can bump my mood up quite a bit, so getting to where I am now is a big fucking deal if you know me.

Has anyone ever told you that they loved you, and you didn’t say it back? Yes, that's when I realized things had gone too far.

What’s your favorite hairstyle on the opposite sex? I sincerely love emo hair help 😭

Have you ever done a Mason jar craft? No, but I find those SUPER cute.

Who is your favorite photographer? Anastasiya Dobrovolskaya tops the list, her work is SO dreamy, and the animals featured are all humanely owned.

Were you shy in high school? Yes, but I'm way worse now.

Do you wish karma were real, or are you glad that it isn’t? Oh I very much wish it was real, but it's quite obvious to me that it's unfortunately not.

Who are the cutest babies in your Facebook newsfeed? None lol, I only have one friend with a child who is truly a baby instead of at least a toddler and god I love this person but the baby is NOT cute lol, but I very rarely find very young babies to be cute anyway.

Are your ears pierced more than once, if at all? Yes, I have two on each earlobe, and my right tragus is pierced. I want more.

Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any piercings? Nah, he's not into piercings for himself personally.

Do you actually love your parents? I most certainly do.

Do you know anyone autistic? My niece, and I am FINALLY being evaluated for it myself I want to say next month. I know I have at least one autistic acquaintance, too.

How about someone bipolar? That I'm already diagnosed with, type two. My oldest sibling is also bipolar, but she has type one.

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? I celebrate yearly ones, yes.

What was your very first pet like? He was a long-haired (I'm pretty sure silkie breed) orange and white guinea pig named Squeak. <3 He loved attention and was such a character, always gentle and we'd do excited guinea pig squeaks back to each other haha. <3 He was sadly kept in an inadequate cage (you know, the shitty rectangle ones you find at chain pet stores that are actually horrible for them), but I of course didn't know better with how young I was, but he was always a good boy. I'm thankful he lived the proper lifespan for the little guys, I just wish I'd been aware enough to give him a more enriched life.

What’s the coolest hobby one of your friends has? I actually really find D&D to be super interesting; I have multiple friends who do it and wish I had that level of comfort to do stuff like that without being embarrassed by it, I NEVER could do it, I'm way too fuckin awkward.

Have you ever pet a cow, a sheep or a pig? I've pet a small pig. <3 I'd love to pet a cow and sheep too, though!

What is the wallpaper on your best friend's cell phone? IT'S LITERALLY JUST FUCKING GRAY I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE WHY

Do you like your girlfriend’s/boyfriend’s parents? I adore his mother, she's such a fucking sweetheart with a ginormous heart and is SO damn accepting. She's been an absolute darling to me ever since she met me. I never met his dad, he died of a very sudden heart attack or something similar like over ten years ago, so I'm not comfortable making a judgment about him. I know Girt's always explained him as having been a hardass, but a very caring one that loved his family to death. He's mentioned that me and him are quite different, primarily politically, so we might've butted heads but he was ultimately pretty confident that he would've loved me. I really like hearing stories about him, and pictures are always super cool because holy SHIT Donald Sr. put his fuckin face through a copying machine and plastered it onto his son lmfao, like it's unreal.

Do you like Polaroid photography? YES, I find it super super aesthetically pleasing and so nostalgic; I myself would really like to have one to take fun little pictures with it sometimes.

Is there a friend of yours who curses nonstop? Who would that be? Haha you mean me? Girt's even worse than I am though, he's one of those people that will curse freely in public, not to be rude or provoke people, but because he just straight-up doesn't realize he does it. He's the person who has more than once gone "SHIT I shouldn't be cursing" NOT quietly in public lmao, I've sometimes just had to give him a lil nudge for him to realize when in public or around kids. Girt is extremely intelligent, he really really is, but he will often just do things very mindlessly and without evening beginning to realize that he's doing them.

What internet browser do you use? Chrome.

What do you usually do to let your feelings out? Listen (usually very loudly) to music, vent to people I trust, sometimes do artistic stuff like write or draw. I cry very easily, and sometimes doing that will help relieve stress. On VERY few occasions I've screamed into a pillow, and boy does it feel good when I'm REALLY upset enough, even though I absolutely hate doing it. Even though I know factually it's harmless and is even a good way to ease frustration in a way that doesn't hurt others or property, I feel like an aggressive person the few times I've let myself do it and just really don't like that.

What was the last thing you uploaded/plugged into the computer? Uploaded, a picture from my phone. I last plugged in my phone to charge; it fits the charger for my mouse so I can use it when I'm in here.

Are you participating in Project 365 (you take a picture of you/something every day of the year and post it)? I've considered doing this with photography, and I'm certain it would further train my artistic eye, I just... haven't. I'm not really one to take pictures with my real camera unless I really desire to take a certain picture, I don't just trash it up with random things. I honestly should let myself do this though, I KNOW it would be beneficial as an artist.

Do you have a Flickr? If so, post the link. Yeah, it's Ozzkat on there, but I don't use it very much at all. It's a lower-priority art platform for me, I mainly focus on deviantART despite the fact I quite dislike the website now for how aggressively and unabashedly it endorses AI "art." I've just been there the longest and have the biggest following there by far, so...

Do you think it’s dumb when a band smashes their instruments, or do you find it totally radical? I honestly do find it dumb, like... why. Why destroy what is generally a great quality instrument if you're a band playing it on stage to an audience. If you want a new guitar or some shit, just donate or even SELL the damn thing, don't break and waste it.

Have you ever made a gif? If not, do you think it’d be interesting to make one? I've made many over the years for various purposes, yeah. I tend to go through episodes of making them and then not.

When you feel uninspired, do you feel like you need to go somewhere to become inspired? Not really, actually. I tend to become inspired by observing others' artwork and stuff. It is very much about the content I surround myself with.

Have you ever lived on a university campus? No.

Do you play any games on your phone? Only Pokemon GO. I would like to be able to play more, but my phone is trash with VERY limited memory, I've had to delete plenty of things just to keep that one game updated and therefore playable, lol.

Have you ever shaved your face? Yes, there's this tool I use that's not quite a razor, it's a vibrating tube thing that looks almost like a lipstick case, but I use it on my upper lip, chin, and I've started to use it between my eyebrows too.

What was the last vaccination you got? It was a tetanus vaccine refresher, I think?

Who’s your favorite rapper? And your favorite song by this favorite rapper? Eminem, and probably "Love the Way You Lie," I was OBSESSED with that song when it was new. I also like "Space Bound" a lot, though.

How about your favorite band? And your favorite song by this band? Oh fuck. For Ozzy it's proooobably "Trap Door," but I'm also very much adoring of "See You on the Other Side" (actually listened to it today) and "Mama I'm Comin' Home." The Rammstein song I enjoy the most in terms of catchiness/most often in the mood to listen to is "Zick Zack," however I consider my ultimate favorite by them to be "Stein um Stein" because it's a fucking artistic storytelling masterpiece imo.

Has anyone ever made a promise to you that they’d change? Who? Juan probably did at some point in high school.

Have you ever had any painful dental work done? If so, what? Oh yes, I wasn't afraid of the dentist until recent times when I was finally paying for neglecting my teeth due to depression and I now realize also executive dysfunction issues later in the timeline. I had a lot of cavities, a few that were quite severe, and fixing one required me to get a numbing shot THROUGH THE ROOF OF MY FUCKING MOUTH, like I could FEEL the needle go through and deep into my fucking gums, and it was my worst EVER experience with a needle, that shit HURT. I'm finally getting better with taking care of them, thank fuck; I think seeing how severe the consequences were becoming really kicked my ass into gear. It doesn't matter if I hate my body, it's my responsibility and I'm going to do all I can to make it better and comfortable to live in. I also had braces for a large chunk of growing up, and getting them tightened always commenced a very painful few days afterwards for all of my teeth. I recently had a wisdom tooth yanked out, and while the numbing shots did suck, they definitely used an adequate amount of it 'cuz I sure didn't feel anything other than pressure. I only got scared when the tooth broke, the sound made me jump.

Is there anyone you’d like to apologize to? Jason. I doubt I'll ever get the chance, but god do I wish I could express how sorry I am to his face. I also want to apologize to Sara for how I severed our friendship, I should have been more direct (I had my honest reasons for thinking it was better not to be so confrontational, but I know now that I was wrong in that part), but I know it's better that I don't stir up settled dust. It's better for both of us that we just don't have contact with each other. Like yes, I think it would help me to just get my apology off my chest, but when you consider I don't seek reconciliation with her whatsoever, it'd be a pointless amount of possible upset.

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend? HELL NO, we're dating and serious with each other so even going a day without some amount of contact is out of the question for us. A month without talking to him would be MISERABLE.

How has your style changed since you were in high school? Well back then I was your average emo kid, still pretty emo at heart but a bitch is wearing comfortable shit these days, lol.

What was the last new drink you discovered that was delicious? Strawberry banana smoothies.

What is your favorite way your hair has ever looked? Probably how it is now, but when it was newly dyed a seaweed-y green.

Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? No, neither of my parents grew up in NC. Well actually, during my last college attempt I DID have an English teacher that previously taught my mother like a semester prior; she got her degree only a few years ago.

Where’s the nearest GameStop near you? Shit bro, probably not even three minutes. It's in the same complex where our Wal-Mart is.

What was the last thing you took a video of? Probably either Roman or Cookie being silly.

What’s the biggest risk you’ve ever taken? Overdosing on cold medicine.

Do you believe your ex cares about you? No. Maybe he does, but I'm not so sure about that.

What was the last compliment you received from the opposite sex? Girt said something about me being a positive influence, which meant a lot.

Have you ever been to an orchard? No, but I'd REALLY like to.

Who was the last family member of yours that died? My maternal grandmother, that I know of.

What is your favorite color for cars? Pinks, of course. I am also a big lover of burnt orange cars.

Do you have any gay family members? I know I have at least one on Mom's side, it's like her distant cousin or something, I'm not entirely sure on what he is to her.

Did your last relationship end because of you or the other person? She instigated the breakup, so her.

Would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? No, I know I'm an extreme minority that gets zero enjoyment out of porn. I'd only be bothered if my partner seemed more into watching that than doing things with me, his actual girlfriend. I don't know or care if this is something he does when I'm not around, and if he does okay cool, I don't feel like I'm actually competing with a porn star or whatever. I suppose maybe this would depend on who my partner IS too, like I deeply trust Girt and what he feels for me so the idea of him watching it does nothing to me. It's not like he'd actually pursue his favorite porn star or whatever.

Have you ever had crabs, turtles, or lobsters? I've had a few hermit crabs in my life and very briefly a turtle that I shouldn't have even had.

What is your favorite type of cat? Oriental shorthairs!!!!!!! I REALLY want one of these one day.

What if a friend asked you to go with her to get an abortion? I'm walking in there right beside her and holding her hand if she's fine with it. She will have NO doubts that she is loved and supported.

Who of the opposite sex has seen you at your worst? Either Jason or Girt, depending. The night of the breakup when Jason very briefly came over to check on me because of shit I said, I was FUCK-ING HYSTERICAL, but Girt came to the ER following my suicide attempt because I tagged him as someone I directly wanted to say thanks and bye to, and I feel like that was truly my lowest point ever in life, in that hospital bed with an IV in me wearing scrubs. I was ready to die and was so done with existence, I was dirty and hideous and crying but he stayed for a while anyway.

Are you sitting in a spinning chair? Yes.

Are you one of those people who will not use a public washroom? I definitely avoid them if I can, but I'm more comfortable going depending on how well-kept the place is. For example, I'm WAY more comfortable using the restroom in like The Cheesecake Factory versus a gas station, haha. If I gotta go though, I gotta go, I just do the thing where you place toilet paper over the seat.

Have your parents ever disapproved of the person you’re dating? Like, the person I'm CURRENTLY dating, or any partner I've ever had? Either way I think no; I know they've always approved of Girt, but I suppose Dad might have not been thrilled about me dating a girl once, but I really have no idea what exactly he felt. As it turned out Mom didn't like Sara either, but it had nothing to do with her being another woman, she was fine with me dating a girl.

Were you raised by someone other than your parents? No.

What’s the last chore you did? Vacuumed.

What is your favorite jungle animal? Very close call between tigers and clouded leopards. I'm also quite fond of kinkajous!

Is your father injured? He has a bad back and has for a very long time, but I don't think he has any noteworthy, current true "injuries."

Are you part Native American? No.

What are your pets’ names? Roman, Venus, and Cookie.

Have you ever worked two jobs? No, I can pretty fucking much GUARANTEE I would never be able to do that.

Who is the oldest sibling in your family? Katie.

What are some of your happy thoughts? Being with Girt, a hopeful happy and content future together, the idea of being a successful photographer who gets to travel a good amount, having a poetry book published, be surrounded by well-provided-for and loved pets one day... just a lot of visions of the future I want.

What are the names of all the dogs you’ve ever owned? Trigger, Angel, Teddy, Dale, Delilah, Harley (maybe? I can't remember if she only stayed with Ashley?), Cali, Bentley, I think her name was Lola (we had her very briefly), and now Cookie. Maybe one more in there somewhere, I feel like Mom's mentioned a dog's name that I don't remember at all before.

Would you ever get a face tattoo? I'd NEVER get a big one, but I'm doubtful I'll even get a tiny one. I'm quite sure I don't want any on my face.

How much was the rent/mortgage at the cheapest place you’ve ever lived? I have no way of knowing that because I've never been involved in the finances of anywhere I've lived.

Who in life have you felt the strongest need to protect? Uhhhh... that's hard? There are multiple people who come to mind, all in different sorta ways, but I SUPPOSE the absolute strongest would ultimately be for my older sister's three kids. I would fucking kill for them, with ZERO hesitation.

What is the cruelest thing a person has ever said to you? I really, really enjoyed being called a spineless, weak-willed deadweight that exaggerates her trauma, that was super cool.

Who do you think was the worst criminal in history? Probably Adolf Hitler, but idk. There have been many sick people, but Hitler definitely left the biggest impact with I'm assuming the largest casualty numbers in his name.

Which laws would you most like to change? Abortion needs to be a GLOBAL right, heightened gun control is FUCKING mandatory, LGBTQ+ rights should be a guarantee everywhere under the sun, capitalism should fucking burn to the ground, and I know there are SO many more, I'm just drawing a blank atm while knowing I'm missing very obvious shit.

Who is the person you most wanted to have an affair with but didn’t? I can confidently say I've never wanted that.

Who have you most feared in your life? My dad.

What is your strongest reason for your opinion on abortion? The being that already has a novel's worth of thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, and memories comes WAAAAAAY fucking before the developing cells that have none of those. Full fucking stop.

What one natural thing would you most like to see? Aurora borealis.

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primalspice · 11 months

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Ivy - 🎮, 🎶, 🔶, 🚫, 💯, 🎄 , 🍎, 💘, 🍸, 😊, 🤔, 😓, 👨,

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🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

She really hasnt had time for hobbies in a long time but she likes reading and gardening and stress journaling

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

I'm not going to say she's also a prog fan but im also not going to say she isnt.................... sorry idk wtf else is going on in the 60s-70s

🔶 LARGE ORANGE DIAMOND — does your oc know cpr? do they have any other medical expertise?

To both, of course. She can do cpr, first aid, plenty of other Doctor Things. Specifics of her medical expertise is that shes a medical oncologist but does radiation therapy also. has participated in Tumor Boards. has participated in research and experimental treatment distribution. and is now stuck in region zero with shitty supplies and unfair working conditions and depression. Great.

🚫 PROHIBITED — does your oc drink/smoke? do they do it regularly, or is it more on occasion or for special events?

On special occasions she'll drink, she's never the type to get super crazy with it unless its insane coping hour tho really. Cursed to always be the designated driver if it's a going-out occasion anyway -__-

💯 HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

1. YES she owned a gun for self defense. obtained from commies more willing to resort to violence than anyone in her immediate company at the time being. She eventually told Leslie about it, but not selma. one of the few secrets successfully kept between any portion of those three.

2. Faust gets to be named after irrelevant german folklore so so does she. her middle name is Lorelei.

3. Unlike her brother she is horribly afraid of public speaking. Research presentations or like. the entire process of moving to Region Zero even tho it wasnt particularly public (just stating her case to a bunch of new people all the fucking time) is all a fucking nightmare for her. But she perseveres <3

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your oc's favorite holiday?

Her birthday, if that counts. Fuck the other guy who was born on that day tho.

🍎 RED APPLE — where was your oc born? do they still live in/around their place of birth or do they live somewhere else? how do they feel about their birthplace?

She and that other guy were born and raised in London Ontario and lived there most of their lives up until college. Ivy went to college in Toronto and continued to live and work there up until Region Zero. As for how she feels about it.... pretty indifferent? Shes of course homesick about it once shes stuck in Region Zero, but while she lived there i think she kinda felt she outgrew it. she didnt, really, but no point in worrying about that anymore <3

💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?

Shes more individualistic than she comes off/than is expected of her by her Friends but Selma and Leslie are still her besties and still important to her people-wise. Faust too to some degree but ITS COMPLICATED. She liked him more before he sold out -__-

As for other things she finds important, she kinda has Faust's aforementioned disease to where she really feels the need to succeed and mean something to the world, but i mean shes kinda doing a good thing so ??????? she really Does care about helping people it's not entirely selfish, but i think anyone who has such high ambitions is a LITTLE attention-seeking. That doesn't really answer the question tho. What she cares about is healing people LOL towards the End she really struggled to find much purpose at all but generally speaking thats a priority, even if its unrealistic to do it on as large of a scale as she'd wish.

🍸 COCKTAIL GLASS — what is your oc's favorite alcoholic drink, if they can drink?

I think she likes to keep it classy with a wine/champagne situation but i think she should drink more and be less picky, god knows she needs it.

😊 SMILING FACE WITH SMILING EYES — what are your oc's career/general life desires? what do they want to get the most out of life?

She wants to be someone who helps people and helps the world. She wants to be an activist and leader in her profession and she wants to be remembered that way even after she's dead (before dying was an immediate concern, anyway) and she hopes its not selfish to hope for such a thing. SOMEONES gotta do it. It's not shocking that she was the perfect Region Zero candidate, tho, as someone who attaches so much of her worth and being to her career. but being a doctor is more than just a career, right, its PERSONAL. Shes someone who just wants to do the right thing, but if theres two things shes learned its that there never is a right thing and the closest thing to the right thing will never be enough.

🤔 THINKING FACE — what are some of your oc's quirks/mannerisms?

Shes a very quiet/shy/softspoken person in comparison to her obnoxious friends, regardless of her level of unhingedness over the years. She is often caught lost in thought and people think shes really introspective which i suppose is true but its mostly just the depression. She is very accidentally and/or deadpan funny. She suffers from a Canadian accent.

😓 DOWNCAST FACE WITH SWEAT — is your oc open-minded or stubborn? are they inquisitive or do they prefer to keep to their bubble of knowledge?

She's openminded and inquisitive, maybe a little too much for her own good clearly, but she can stick to things that actually mean something to her....except maybe cutting of her shitty brother.....or not using guns.....but that's besides the point. She loves learning and going to new places and hearing different experiences. One might say region zero was the perfect opportunity for that at least <3

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 FAMILY WITH MOTHER, FATHER, SON AND DAUGHTER — how many people are in your oc's immediate family? how many people are in your oc's extended family? do they have aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, etc? who in their family are they closest with? are they close with their birth family, or do they have a found family?

She grew up with her mom and dad and Faust, who's her only sibling. They were quite spoiled and loved ofc. Im sure they have some grandmas and cousins and such that were also relatively close, but not like her best friends or anything. I think she eventually grew real distant from just about everyone once she started becoming more intense about her work, but the love was still there. when she (and faust) left for region zero, they were rightfully quite concerned but figure that if the Good Twin chose to do it then it couldnt have been too awful of a decision. Oh little did they know.

#ask game #ivy

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ambreiiigns · 1 year

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HIIIIII HOW ARE YOU 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i got your message a few days ago BUT i wanna watch both those films first so i can give you a proper response 💞💞

i started watching Nyx Fears and i'm liking her channel already!!!🥺💖 i love youtubers who make discussions about disturbing shit feel like you're hanging out w a friend who's telling you about fun horrible things<33 i found a couple of those lately but cannot for the life of me remember the channel names so i'll have to check 👀👀👀👀

ALSO i finally watched Hellraiser today because it's been on my (very long) to watch list for a while and people at work were saying they found it terrifying, and like? it honestly felt to me like if an episode of doctor who was gory, like yeah it was fun and i did enjoy it but. once again no fear 😔😔😔

ANYWAY how've you been, what've you been up to!!!! found anything particularly terrifying yet??? HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT 💝💝💝💝

HIII NATE I'M VIBING HOW ARE YOU!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰

ye that's how you do it baybayyy unfort i don't remember what i wrote you anymore but i'm pretty sure my goal was just like. is it worth the watch or not question mark 🤔🤔🤔 and i hope i didn't spoil anything. i don't think i did but i have been living in fear. YEA LET ME KNOW IF YOU WATCH THEM THO LET ME KNOW ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!

YES YES YES YES YES NYX FEARS LICHRALLY. THE VIBES. OFF THE FUCKING CHARTS. THE ENERGY SHE HAS THE ATTITUDE UGHHHH!!! and she's not. i apologize if i said this already but [EDIT: i have in fact said it already. a couple of sentences have therefore been redacted xx] i Knew you would also find use in the channel hell yeah brother 😎 curious to know if you remember any other youtube guy tho!!

oh Tell me about that. i simply can't get into hellraiser i haven't really seen any :-( it's one of the things i stumbled on as a kid along like. nightmare and child's play but i haven't really cared to watch it??? i really should i KNOW it's fun i know it's silly i know the gore and sfx are Insane but it also feels like... it gets Too sci-fy almost? 🤔 that is Not the right term but. in short i am very conflicted abt it so Tell Me Nate which one did you see how was it i know we're not getting scared but was it fun do you think i should commit do you think it's worth watching 👁👁

i got nothing new for you unfort! apparently i watch two heavyweights in one sitting one after the other and then i step away for a while huh!! i NEED to change this pattern or i'll go insane!!!!!! but i've been showing my brother some slashers here and there and the last one we watched was house of wax 2005. nate it's soooo you us core have you seen house of wax it's so fuckin fun and silly and slay. i wanted to make brother watch pearl 2022 next but apparently no pearl in italian yet :-( so we're either doing like maybe ginger snaps or silent hill next :-( blowing u kissies wishing u a nice time too 💜💜💜💜

#for the love of god i have terrible Forgets Asks If I Don't Answer Immediately disease #ask

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birbs89 · 1 year

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Smiths last hurrah

I got into writing and when I say got back I mean just sitting in class and writing when I'm done with work but gonna upload them at random gonna do this one first pretty proud of it ngl I guess you could this and the others ones creepypastas I guess? and here's a description and tws so ya enjoy this! :]

descriptions: A man named Smith gets ready for his talent show playing the trumpet! but when he does go on stage and plays his worst fear comes true

tws:suicide shotgun gun implied gore yellling mocking insulting hearing voices in head (technically I guess idk)

chapter 1: fears come true

The date was 2007 and Smith was getting ready for his big show, a show he had been preparing and waiting for over months, the show being a talent show and he was the main star and he would be playing the trumpet at this show which he was very good at but he had to prove this Infront of an entire room full of people so he got himself cleaned up and headed up onto stage. After he had started playing he got a reaction from the crowd he was not expecting but feared they had started booing him throwing trash, drinks, and other things while also insulting him and those insults got louder and louder in his mind as they continued it felt like every single voice was one big laugh at him and soon he broke covering his eyes crying and running off and out of the auditorium and back home. As he ran home he could still hear those voices the insults they said looped over in his mind "you suck get off stage" "why did they let a worthless guy like you on stage" "you should just stop now before you embarrass yourself anymore" "your nothing" until he got home and running straight up to his room throwing his trumpet in the trash and curling up on his bed sobbing until he fell asleep. But even in his sleep he couldn't escape what happened that night he relieved it again and again and again and again everyday even the newspaper even mocked him by their headline "worthless untalented guy makes town into embarrassment" his coworkers were hurling insult after insult telling him that he's ruining their company and that he was the reason they were failing. Until one of his friends came by worried about his mental health after not seeing him for days since the incident at the talent show.

chapter two: one last chorus

Tim his friend had come to his house to check on him since he hadn't seen him in days and with what happened at the talent show he was worried about his mental state and after finding the front door was unlocked he let himself in and up the stairs to Smith's room where it was trashed looks to be from Smiths anger outburst form what happened and at the end of the room stood Smith. And when he said hello Smith turned to face him and he looked horrible huge bags under his eyes from lack of sleep. A look of complete sadness mixed with anger he said "what are you doing here come to insult me like the others?" "No, I'm worried about you Smith! I haven't seen you in days and with what I heard happened I wanted to check if your ok and by the looks of it your not" "who cares who's gonna notice anyway no even cares they all just either stare at me or point and laugh" "but you were great you don't have to b- "NO I was horrible I made an embarrassment out of the town and the company and now look at it the company it's failing and there all blaming it on ME" "no that isn't your fault you made no one look like any kind of embarrassment you actually made it look good!" "stop pitying me, it's not going to do anything or help" "but I'm not I ju- "SHUT UP GODDAMMIT!" and then he snapped it started when smith grabbed at his hair tugging and pulling as he heard the booing mocking and insulting he heard at the performance it got louder and louder it got worse with each passing second until he couldn't take it anymore with all the anger sadness and despair he screamed at the top of his lungs until his throat started to hurt "WHY CAN'T ANYTHING GO RIGHT FOR ME" "WHAT DID I DO TO THEM TO ANYONE I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO THEM" "THEY THINK THEY CAN MOCK ME" "BUT NOW" Tim watched in horror as Smith grabbed a shotgun from his bedside dresser loading and pointing it to his face. "THIS TIME I'LL SHOW THEM WHO THEY'VE BEEN MOCKING" "ONE LAST CHORUS ONE LAST ENCORE THEY WILL SCREAM MY NAME" and with that he pulled the trigger #BANG# The shotgun obliterated the front of his face, his body falling backward and a thump as he landed on the floor. Tim could only scream in horror as his best friend killed himself because of some stupid performance he immediately grabbed the phone and dialed 911.

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thoughtsofnowandagain · 1 year

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22 feb 2023

When I went though a crazy low dark place (I was 15, even today I still have no idea what that shit was about), my therapist (well, she was my counsellor but 'therapist' sounds so much nicer so we'll call her that from here on out, regardless of how american that sounds) ... I'll start again but stop with the parenthesiseseses.

When I was 15, I went though a weird phase and my therapist told me to start writing down my feelings which back then felt almost too big to even think about let alone put it to paper but now that I'm a little older, it's actually quite nice. It's only the second post but I look forward to it. It's almost like a game, one of those where you get rewarded with virtual coins every time you play, except instead of coins I get mental clarity.

I wonder what I would read if I had listened to my therapist then, because I couldn't tell you what I was upset about. Bar that time I fell out with Rach. In school, I was in a group of 5. It was Me, Rach, Penny, Pippa, and Cherry. I thought we were really close, having sleep overs at each other's house but in hind sight I was a horrible selfish person back then. My inner monologue felt too big and as a result, I have no idea who those girls are. I don't know their parent's names, where they lived, who their sibling were, not a clue. How bad is that?!

But one night, I had a horrific houseparty. Again, I was 15 and desperate for people to like me. I had a boyfriend called Joe from the rougher parts of town, which isn't a financial thing, more of a revenge porn, pressure you into sending him nudes and then leak them around the school type of rough... morally rough. And so Joe was a year older than me, and once he heard I had a house party, he invited all of his also morally rough friends from his year and complete trashed my mums house. An event that no one in my family has ever let me forget 10 years later. Rach made out with Joe. This wasn't a big deal to me, I didn't really care about him, I don't think I ever did. I just wanted to be liked. Plus, him getting with my best friend was very on brand for him being morally rough and all. I think she was somewhat ashamed of being with my ex, because she acted very strange around me and didn't talk to me anymore. I assume they had sex and if his treatment of me was any indication, he told his friends which got round the school and somehow everyone blamed me for telling people- which I didn't ... because I didn't know... because I wasn't there... and yet no one fucking believed me and I was dramatically outcasted from the group and I never heard from them again. I really really went to a very very dark scary place after that. And 10 years on, I don't forgive them. I resent them for making me feel that way.

Rach was friends with Megan and Hannah for a few years because they went to Uni together. Rach is engaged to a guy called Lewis, thank god she got away from that awful Joe. They live a hour or so away and she's so infatuated with him, I think like me, she's alienated herself. Sometimes, she'll get in touch with Megan and Hannah and ask to hang out more. I've told Megan and Hannah how uncomfortable I am about the thought of her being in my life again but also I don't want to be outcasted again. Luckily they are the most wonderful people and they completely understand. Though a part of me does want to confront her, just for some closure maybe. This encounter would've happened about a year ago now and Rach has not reunited with Megan and Hannah, not that I'm aware of anyway.

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crisalidaseason · 2 years

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People probably won't care but I'm gonna say it anyway.

It's interesting how Armin's character was built and I don't think people notice that very much. I have a few points about him that I wanted to share.

Warning: Those are my interpretations based on canon information. I am not an expert nor a phsychologist, please don't take this personally. I respect everyone's opinions and I expect to be respected as well. Also, english is not my native language and I apologize for any mistakes.

SPOILERS FROM SEASON 1 UP UNTIL THE END OF THE MANGA

We see him very young being bullied for most likely his appearance and behavior. From a very young age his self esteem was damaged. Besides that, he was always very intelectual and well spoken, we all know those kind of kids get super picked on because they don't really fit with the majority.

He probably has a lot of abandonment issues because of his parents. We don't know much about them, but a child will always question why they were left behind even if it was for a "good cause". Besides, his parents died because they wanted to explore the world and I think Armin would feel even more betrayed by that.

Meeting Eren and Mikasa doesn't mean he was instantly safe from the bullying. Even if he was protected, the damage is already done. Eren and Mikasa helped him a lot, but healing self esteem problems is complicated and children don't know how to do that. Besides, Armin would feel like a burden to his friends and try to offer something in return.

This entire situation set Armin up to rely on his words and brain to defend him and his friends. He wasn't born a manipulator and he doesn't manipulate for his own pleasure. He turns into a manipulator as a defense mechanism because he doesn't trust his strength (even after becoming a soldier or inheriting the Colossal Titan). When he has to kill or manipulate people we can see it's not a pleasant thing for him.

His morals are twisted by the environment he's inserted. He isn't a good and perfect angel, but also not an evil mastermind. He cares about his loved ones and will do anything for them, including mass murdering an entire army and ships. Does he like killing massive amounts of people? No. But he does it anyway. At the same time he sacrifices his best friend so humanity outside paradis can keep existing. There are many other situations that Armin has conflicting morals and I find it so human and relatable.

The leadership role he is sometimes given is not conventional. He can be a good leader, but he's never the in the front line when it comes to actually leading (remember that Armin is a brain and words person, but does not have an imposing figure nor does he radiates confidence). The ones close to him know he's a good strategist (Erwin himself told him so) but the outside people won't see him like that. Without the shield of Erwin, Hange and his friends he has a hard time being heard and this must mess with his head a lot.

When Eren goes completely brain damaged on season 4 we see an interesting side of Armin. He is stressed 24/7 and also exhausted. At this point he is conflicted between helping, stoping and understanding Eren. Also, he is also watching Mikasa's pain and sorrow over Eren's behavior. They used to be a trio with established roles between them and now everything is a mess and he feels useless and helpless. We see Armin snap at the table scene. Pure rage is NOT something we have ever seen on him before. Suddenly he goes for the violent option when he is all about words and calculated actions. Can you imagine how much built up anger he had to just burst in blind rage like that?

In paths we can see how vulnerable he is. When he screams at his own self laying on the ground. He is screaming and telling horrible things about himself. It felt like he was always waiting to breakdown and finally he couldn't wait anymore. He seems like a very "suffer in silence" guy. Sometimes he might even tell how he feels but mostly will keep it to himself.

In the end, when he is about to confront Eren, he is determined but also a mess. He puts on Mikasa all his trust. He really is trusting her ability to finish this nightmare of the rumbling despite her very painfull and damaged feelings. He knows Eren is gonna die, knows that Mikasa will have to do it and also knows he has to get the blame. It takes so much to know all of this and not hesitate for a moment.

Overall, I think Armin is a very complicated character (almost all aot characters are complicated). He has a special place in my heart and sometimes I would like to chat with Isayama about him.

That's all, folks!

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Heyy idk if this'll make sense but,, I'm ugly (or at least not as pretty as others) and a lot of times guys would be dared to say "oh my friend likes you" while laughing at me. It made me very insecure growing up and makes me suspicious of compliments now... idk if anyone can relate but can you write a fluffy comfort scenario with Bokuto, Kageyama, or Tsukki? Maybe with reader laughing at a confession because she thinks it's a joke or something? Thank you, I love your work and stay healthy ❤️

Aw bby~ I’m sure you’re absolutely goregous <3 hope you enjoy your request!

Insecure S/O Reacting To a Confession (Bokuto, Kageyama, Tsukishima)

This is set in a time in which you’ve developed trust issues because a confession before had been a joke- so a little angsty ngl

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Bokuto

“She’s not coming, is she?”

“Calm down. You told her to meet you after school- the bell let out less than five minutes ago.” Akaashi’s voice sounded through the spiker’s phone as Bokuto releases a bigger sigh than he expected. Nervousness tingled through his muscles while the burly boy seemed to tremble in both excitement and fear for what was to come, leaning against one of the many exits to the school as golden eyes scoped the area for your figure.

“Today’s the day, Akaashi, I just know it!”

“Yeah. You said that yesterday. And the day before that one. Not to mention every day for the past month-”

“I think she’s coming!!” A hand slipped out of his pants pocket as he pushes off the wall giddily.

“Well, be careful- I don’t know if you heard about it, but-”

“See you at practice, my #1 Wingman!”

Bokuto ends the call, the last thing he hears being a sigh of Akaashi’s at his abrupt cut off. That could wait. A growing grin began at Bokuto’s lips as you, confused, approached him with a crumpled paper in your hand- looking as beautiful as ever in the eyes of the ace.

“Bokuto-san...?”

“You made it!”

He couldn’t see the hesitation in your steps, or the nervousness in your movements for the national-known volleyball spiker had his gold eyes downcasted at his feet, a hand nervously coming up to rest on the back of his neck as he internally prepares himself.

“Was there something you needed from me?” You wrung your hands out, biting your lip as you seemed to fidget in place, the scenario being all to familiar with what you once had to go through. However, you knew better- it just simply wasn’t possible.

Bokuto was always friendly towards you, but previous events had placed a limit in your head on just how far that friendliness just happened to extend. Until-

“Y/N...do you maybe want to go out with me?”

Your jaw slackened a little as you still in shock, watching as the boy you thought was eons out of your league blushed a little, squeezing his eyes tight as the question came out rushed, the words fumbling over each other.

But you still heard it.

Your chest sunk and heat flamed in your cheeks as you push out your first instinct- a laugh. A laugh bubbled up in your throat at the question, and Bokuto opened his eyes, confusion and anxiety rising in his stomach at the sound that still made his heart race. Nervously, he began laughing too.

“Alright.” You make out between giggles. “Who put you up to this?”

All laughter stopped on his end as you continue to giggle, but your eyes were a tad bit poignant as your fists clenched at your sides. Bokuto straightens, furrowing his brows at the ridiculous question.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean, this is a prank right?” Your voice wobbled. “Was it Rui? His friend Droy?”

“Y/N, what-?”

“You shouldn’t play with girls’ feelings like that, you know?” You continue, smiling yet your eyes screamed of another story. “But in my case, it’s funny- right?”

Bokuto blinked, mouth agape at the accusation in your words as you take a shaky breath, trying not to show weakness as Bokuto takes a careful step in front of you. Was this what Akaashi was trying to tell him?

“Y/N, I’m serious!” The ace exclaimed, causing you to finally meet his eyes with your slightly watery ones. “You’re absolutely goregous, there’s no way this is a prank!”

“Y-You’re taking this too far...”

“I’m not, because there isn’t anything to take!” Bokuto grabs your hand in his, intertwining your pinkies as you can’t help but smile a little at the childish gesture. “I promise you, Y/N, I like you! Way too much, I’ve been trying to tell you for the past month now, but...you scare me. In a I’ve-never-had-these-feelings before kind of way.”

You find yourself leaning into his palm as Bokuto smiles, golden eyes gleaming genuinely as he cups your face. “Who made you think of yourself this way?”

“N-No one in particular...” You lie, looking off to the side as you feel yourself being tugged gently into the sweet boy’s chest, causing you to yelp a little as Bokuto crosses a boundary, digging his face into the juncture between your neck and shoulder.

“Please.” You stop trying to push him away at the sincerity in his voice. “Can I change that? I can. I promise you I can, if you give me a chance!”

Shakily, you look up to the sky, feeling Bokuto’s warm breath on your neck as he spoke, wondering if this was worth learning to trust again, your arms wrapping around his mid-section as you did so.

Your voice quiets, cracking slightly as you hold him back just a little tighter.

“One chance. Don’t let me regret this.”

Kageyama

“This is ridiculous, you moron!”

“Trust me, she’s gonna love it Kageyama-Kun!” Hinata flashes his setter a big thumbs up as Kageyama groans, glaring into the bouquet of flowers with pink dusted across his cheeks. After Hinata had snuck a horribly written note into your shoe locker- Kageyama couldn’t put his confession off anymore, much to the setter’s dismay. Admiring you from afar had been enough, and confessing you face to face had once been a daydream-

“Can’t I just, you know, text her?” The raven haired boy attempts to escape one more time as Hinata points a finger to the spot where he was standing stubbornly.

“Nope! As if you could get her number anyway-” Hinata dodges the hit coming his way with ease, sidestepping as he continues his tangent. “So you’re going to stand right there and wait for Y/N-chan to come! I’m going home now, and tomorrow- you better have a newly minted girlfriend!”

“I should’ve never asked you for advice.”

“See you tomorrow, and you’re welcome.”

Kageyama scoffs, snarky reply falling on silent lips as Hinata mounts his bike and takes off before he can get it out, leaving the blue-eyed setter standing at military position near the courtyard, red roses tightened in his grasp around the less thorny areas. He hoped Hinata was smart enough to not mix up the two locations.

“Kageyama-Kun!”

Said boy almost drops his flowers when you round the corner, now changed out of your school shoes as Kageyama swallows- a futile attempt to aid his now dry mouth. You took small steps towards him as you find a lump growing in your throat at the scene before you, memories flashing in your mind at what once had been.

Regardless, you managed a tight smile as Kageyama blinks once. Then twice as if to make sure this was really happening.

“You...wanted to see me about something?” You question formally, ignoring the red hue of the roses as Kageyama stutters out a response, bright blue eyes darting all over the courtyard.

“I...um....you are....UGH-”

In any other circumstance, you might’ve found this cute- but the only thing you could think of was how good he was at acting.

“Take your time.” Your eyes dim down a little as the familiar unease rises in your stomach.

“D-Date!” Kageyama manages, the pink on his cheeks now turning into a bright red. “I want to g-go on a date with you...!”

You press your lips together as a heat pricks the corner of your eyes, the one image you didn’t want to remember blurring perfectly over the one in front of you.

.... Again?

Kageyama curses, offering you the roses with one hand shakily as the back of his hand covers his mouth, blue eyes seeming to glare off to the side in utter regret. “I heard you like flowers, s-so....”

“You don’t need to do this, Kageyama-Kun.” You find yourself saying, surprised at how stable your voice was as Kageyama’s arm slackens a little, the bouqet lowering in height as he takes in your words- in his case, your response.

“It’s cruel, you know? I get it- you’re popular, attractive, and people want to be your friend- but this? I know I can’t be with someone like you the way I am now, so you have to show me firsthand?”

“Huh?”

You chuckle humorlessly at the genuine confusion in his voice before laughing a little. “It’s hilarious, isn’t it? Poor, naive, ugly girl believes for just a second that the boy she likes wants her back.”

Kageyama’s eyes widen a little, still trying to process what you’re saying as the roses fall slack at his side. But the only thing he’s able to get out, is-

“Wait, you like me?”

You spin on your heel, flustered you admitted it, before beginning to walk off.

“Goodbye, Kageyama-Kun.”

“W-Wait!” Before he can stop himself, he finds himself grabbing you from behind to stop your leaving, your eyes widening as the bouqet of flowers remains tightened in his grasp as he does so, your back against his chest. The aromatic scent fills your nose as he successfully stops you from going anywhere.

“I-I don’t know why you think you’re ugly or any of those things, but you aren’t.” Kageyama mumbles quickly, and you’re shocked to see that he’s trembling at the touch. “But I wasn’t lying, or trying to play you. I want to go on a date with you...and if you like me too, there shouldn’t be an issue, right?”

“Shit!” Kageyama releases you right away, and you step away subconciously as you find yourself believing him, a hand over the clothed part of your chest as you do, cheeks blooming with a pink of their own.

“...I think I’d like that.”

“Like what?” Kageyama questions obliviously as you groan, blushing in a way that made the setter want to admire you even closer than from afar.

“The date, don’t make me say it!”

The blue-eyed setter releases a sigh of relief, his heart being sent on an emotional rollercoaster coming to an end as he chuckles the slightest bit at your embarrassed stature, offering the roses again in a now relaxed-manner.

“Right. So can you maybe take the damn flowers and be my girlfriend?”

Tsukishima

“I regret this. I’m going home.”

“Tsukki! No!” Yamaguchi whines, pulling on his friend’s sleeve for the second time in six minutes.

“She isn’t coming. Waiting outside her classroom is creepy anyway. She might’ve even already gone home.” Tsukishima says straight on, glancing at his childhood friend before the freckled boy could interject. “What are you even doing here?”

“Moral support!”

“Yeah, could you maybe...do that somewhere else?”

Yamaguchi sniffs once, frowning. “I get that you’re nervous, Tsukki, but don’t take it out on me. Text me later and send Y/N my regards, okay?”

“I’m not nervous.” The tall blonde claims, swiping through his playlist when in reality- the butterflies in his stomach said otherwise.

“That’s all you got out of that?” Yamaguchi sweat drops, shouldering his bag a little more before waving as he begins to walk off. “Be nice to Y/N!”

“Wasn’t gonna kill her.” Tsukishima mumbles to no one as he’s left by his lonesome in the empty school corridor after school had ended, mostly everyone leaving or going to attend their club activities. He knew from Yachi who shared your class- that you stayed a little after school to study for a bit before leaving.

Tsukishima had discovered about his emotional surge towards you when you had visited practice one day to drop off Yachi’s notebook- only to notice you more and more each time you had passed him by to the point where you would smile and wave while greeting him by name. Soon, all other girls seemed to become see-through, leaving you bright in a sea of unfamiliar heads.

“Crap!” You stumble back, a relieved laugh filling the corridor as the blonde blinks, wondering how he had gotten so lost in his thoughts he hadn’t even seen you emerge or make himself known.

“You scared me, Tsukki!” You whine, shifting your bag upon your shoulder before blinking in confusion. “Wait, what are you doing here? Is the volleyball club off today-?”

“Go out with me.”

Your breath hitches at the sudden attack.

Tsukishima remains indifferent, thankful he was able to even say it, as he shoved his hands in his pockets, eyeing you seriously through his spectacles before you find yourself back there again. Back where your trust was stripped and your pride was stomped on before you smile- a smile that was anything but cheerful.

“That’s not a very funny joke, Tsukki.” You laugh a little, hand tightening around your bag strap as you refuse to meet his eyes, your gaze falling on his shoes as you become overwhelmed with past events.

“I’m not joking. Go out with me.” He repeats, not asking, but in a way where it sounded like he was basically telling you.

“...How far are you willing to go?” You feel wetness brim your eyes, but your smile still remains- shaky yet present- as your voice cracks differently from the way you used to call his name.

“What the hell are you-?”

A smirk and multiple laughs ring in your head from your memories before you finally snap.

“Stop screwing around, alright?”

Tsukishima’s brow quirks up once, and in the next few moments, you gasp as your back is suddenly touching a nearby locker- Tsukishima’s hand resting by your side to create the illusion of entrapment as he leans in to you, and you don’t have to look up to know that his gaze was searing into you with a mixture of frustration and something else you couldn’t pinpoint.

“Who’s screwing around?” His voice was quiet and irritable, and you swallow the lump in your throat as a few stray tears slip.

“I’m just a joke, right?” You mumble, barely audible as you breathe in his scent from decreased proximity. “You boys always toy with girls like they’re your little playthings-”

“Are you talking about that shitty prank that bastard pulled on you a few months back?”

Your eyes snap up before you can stop them. “You...know about that?”

“Why the hell are we here wasting our breaths on them?” Tsukishima questions, irritation evident in his tone. “I don’t do these kinds of things, ever, and you seriously think I’d be here telling you I like you as some kind of shit joke? Give me a break.”

You blink, believing his harsh words as Tsukishima sighs, relaxing his neck so his head falls on your shoulder.

“On the bright side you finally looked at me. Understood, I hear you loud and clear.”

You bite your lip when he moves to step away from you, your hands clasping at the sides of his shirt before you can stop yourself.

“I...I’ll go out with you, Tsukki.”

The blonde’s eyes widen a fraction as you bury your head in his chest.

“Just...please please don’t be like the others.”

“I thought I told you.” Tsukki’s pointer finger prods at your chin, causing you to look up at him as he leans down so your noses brush.

“You’re wasting your breath on the wrong thing, Y/N.”

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