#and not to mention my COUSIN who is a trans woman who i love so much
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Fuck off and stop interacting with my blog you fuckin terf
gotta be one of the more confusing asks i’ve gotten for 2 reasons, the first being if you don’t want me to interact with you block me then lol, the second being calling me a terf which is literally laughable
#i think both my trans roomates (trans man and trans woman)#and all my friends who are trans women who love me and i love in return#and not to mention my COUSIN who is a trans woman who i love so much#woukd think this is very funny#im not gonna go and make a whole post explaining why i’m not a terf bc at the end of the day i know i’m not and the people in my life know i#im not and someone on the internet who’s never had a conversation with me yet thinks they know me isn’t gonna change that#anyway i love trans women and their presence in our community#trans women belong in the lesbian community and their presence makes it better#also? when have i ever posted or expressed having radical feminist ideologies#weird#if ur gonna accuse me of being a terf which i am not then at least know what terf means#also not a single clue what prompted this#also i feel like this was sent to the wrong blog LMAO bc i also haven’t interacted with many posts the past few days at least not on this#blog#so perhaps they’re just confused bc that’s really the only explanation at this point#AND ANOTHER THING#im sure there’s afab non-binary ppl that are terfs but to me that sounds literally idiotic being non-binary myself and trans exclusive
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Girl I fucking hate christmas
#pet death and family drama warning#mud rambles#i know it's not christmas day but. this time of year jfc#my mom's new puppy just fucking died#and now shes asking me to go to dinner with an aunt i literally cut contact with. and apparently this aunt specifically asked me to come??#i dont wanna cause even more stress to my mom rn but like. no??#that woman made me cry at a goodbye party for my brother moving in w his dad in another state by telling me that my grandmother who i had#cut off had every right to deadname and misgender me?? because she loves me she can do that apparently?? (her reasoning)#the aunt who still refuses to even use my fucking name much less my pronouns?? the aunt who wont allow me to tell her kids im trans bc#'it will confuse them'??? the aunt who still hasnt fucking apologized???#not to mention her and her predator husband are racist as fuck#like that was literally the first of the two reasons i cut my grandmother off for. being racist and unwilling to change. you think im just#gonna ignore that?? be ignorant somewhere else#pet death#pet death mention#fucking hate december#fucking hate winter#this time of year sucks so bad. this bullshit happening when this time of year is already shitty for other reasons. fucking hate it here#idk but im not playing the 'dont talk to me anymore actually nvm u wanna see your kids' thing my family does with each other#i miss my cousins but for my own wellbeing im not doing that shit. i cut you off you are cut off until you not only apologize but actually#fucking change. no half assed shit
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My Trans-Lesbian-Awakening Characters lol
Haruka Tenoh (Sailor Moon)
I believe Haruka was my first introduction to a lesbian and gender nonconforming (gnc) character! Discovering she was a girl along with Usagi and Minako blew my mind. The idea of a masc presenting girl was a revelation and I also found the fact other girls were attracted to her to be enviable, even when I watched the English version where her queerness was erased.
Trixie Tang (The Fairly Odd Parents)
The episode "The Boy Who Would Be Queen" was cathartic for young me. Although the episode was about overcoming gender stereotypes, Trixie's story felt relatable from a trans perspective. Her male persona outside of school and her interests in doing "boy stuff" but feeling pressured to maintain a feminine image for social acceptance resonated with me deeply. It's a shame we never got to see this side of Trixie outside the one episode.
Kaoru Matsubara (Powerpuff Girls Z)
I remember her introduction was her dodging a flock of fan girls on her skateboard. I was immediately pleased that the anime version of my favourite Powerpuff girl was that of a womanizing gender-bending skater girl lol. I felt annoyed along with her that she was forced to wear a skirt in her magical girl form.
Yui Goido (The World God Only Knows)
Even with her out-of-nowhere appearance in the second season, I was immediately enthralled by her princely demeanor and the way she casually blurred gender roles. I had to read her arc in the manga that was tragically skipped over and it screamed trans. Yui's conflict was her being forced to be traditionally feminine. Her body swapping and getting to live as a boy seemed to have given her gender euphoria that when she returned to her body, she started wearing the boys' school uniform, changed her hair to make it more androgynous, and started using "boku" to refer to herself (which is a masculine pronoun). Her personality also becomes a lot more confident, it's like watching a trans masc person finally be able to be themselves! The show may not appeal to me now but Yui was a big comfort character.
Mettaton (Undertale)
Mettaton's unique and subtle trans story felt so palpable to me that it made me resonate strongly with his character. When I learnt about his backstory, I felt genuine sympathy for him and his cousins. I love his charisma and how much queer energy he exudes!
Pearl (Steven Universe)
Pearl will always be a deeply important character to me for how much she contributed to my queer actualization. I think it's because I grew up with her as the cartoon series ran throughout my entire teenhood that she has been the most pivotal character for me. Getting to see this character who epitomized lesbianism and growth felt integral to my understanding of the queer community and myself.
Special mentions of just my overall queer comfort characters lol:
Haruhi Fujioka (Ouran High School Host Club), Yuu Kashima (Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun), Double Trouble (She-Ra and The Princesses of Power), Kou Seiya (Sailor Moon), Carmen Sandiego (2019 version), Ryuko Matoi (Kill La Kill), Frankie Stein (Monster High), Marceline (Adventure Time)
#queer pride#trans representation#trans lesbian#lesbian#sailor moon#sailor uranus#haruka tenoh#Powerpuff girls z#powerpuff girls#ppg buttercup#undertale#mettaton#steven universe#su pearl#the world god only knows#yui goido
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My headcanons for Transfem Leo:
— When she started using eyeliner everyone thought that Karai had taught her, but she actually taught herself. She has an excellent pulse so the eyeliner always looks divine on her ✨️.
— April taught her to paint nails.
— She is curious about wearing a corset. If she could be human for a day she would try one on.
— She loves to wear sweaters and baggy clothes, it's the only human clothes that fit her, but she dreams of being able to wear tighter clothes.
— When she was a child she liked Lilo & Stitch a lot, her brothers also liked it but she more. She admired Nani very much.
— Her favorite Disney princess is Tiana.
— She was always interested in ballet, but she was afraid that her brothers would make fun of it, besides, sensei was already teaching them to be ninjas, she had no time for ballet (that and according to what she saw on TV, she couldn't wear those cute shoes because his feet were very big).
— She often wonders if she is really pretty. She knows that she could never fit the human standard of beauty, but she would like to look cute even for a turtle.
— When she was 7 years old she helped her father make yukatas for her and her brothers for their birthday. At the age of 20 she and her girlfriend made kimonos for their birthday, three montsuki (male kimonos) for her brothers and a Furi-sode (female kimono) for herself.
— She likes gossip and comic and dramatic telenovels.
— She continued to have tea parties with Chloe every Friday and Saturday, and the little girl was the first to find out that she was a trans girl. She went from Mr. Imaginary Turtle to Miss Turtle very quickly.
— One day, instead of having tea, Chloe made her play on the catwalk and named her Miss Universe, according to the blonde that was an official title, she was the most beautiful woman in the world. She was having a bad day so that cheered her up a lot.
— She and Karai made her brothers and April swear that they would never mention how they met, much less in front of Shinigami. Mikey accidentally told Shini, but she chose to ignore it, made a deal with Mikey and pretended that she still didn't know.
— She and Donnie cried when Inside Out was cancelled, they were super fans of the series. Then Donnie tried to hack Netflix and they had to stop him.
— Secretly watch kdramas with April.
— When they were children Mikey for some reason began to call her Sleeping Beauty, she secretly liked that nickname. Years later they remembered that and Mikey said that he started calling her that because she slept just like Aurora when she fell under the sleeping spell.
— She watches a lot of makeup tutorials even though she knows she's not going to use 80% of the products they show, she just likes them.
— When the Barbie movie came out, she wanted to wear each and every one of the clothes changes that Margot Robbie had. This was her favorite:
— After defeating the Shredder, she and Raph improved their relationship, they started talking and they didn't argue so much anymore. Obviously they kept fighting, siblings do that, but at least it wasn't as serious as before. Now she and Raph confided in each other, Raph was the second after Chleo to find out that she was trans, and Leo was the first to find out that he and Mona were going to have babies.
— She and her girlfriend often question whether they should adopt a child, but the conversation always ends with them not being ready. One day they found a stray dog and they adopted it, it was not what they had in mind but they are happy.
—Taylor Swift fan.
— "Not because I like Monster High does it mean that I'm lesbian... Yes, I'm lesbian, but not because I like Monster High."
— "My favorite MH is Abby–"
"That's such a fucking basic bitch answer"
"Oh! Do you want an original answer?!!"
"ª–"
"Marisol Coxi, Abby's cousin who was featured in the 'Monster Exchange' line! THAT'S MY FAVORITE!!"
— Gwen and Pavitr are her favorite characters from Spiderverse.
— Had a time when she was obsessed with wigs, and she managed to have many of them, nowadays she still keeps them but only uses them occasionally.
— She dressed up as Elizabeth Liones for Halloween.
— Once in a while combs Chloe's hair.
— She is ashamed of her emo phase, especially now that she is a diva.
— When she came out of the closet and she said that she would change her name Mikey bombarded her with thousands of options, some names were good, others not so much. She ended up keeping one, but Mikey was disappointed, telling her that he hoped she would choose Artemis.
— The list of names in question is:
Megan
Elizabetta
Suzanne
Diana
Leona
Dracuturtle
She-Turtle
Skull Crusher
Eleanor
Wendy
Chanel
Mulan
Leah
Harmony
Killer Beauty
Kunoichi Blue
Thalia
Tired Mother of 6
Dinosaur Tamer
Lorraine
Stunningly Beautiful Miss Universe
Lisa
Jisoo
Luciana
Lavinia
Leshawna
Bela
Black Widow
Shakira
Selena Gomez
Artemis
Elsa from Frozen
Blue Princess
Turtle-Woman
#Who would have thought that years later she would become Nani#head of the family after the death of her father#with younger brothers to take care of#she meets aliens#with crazy adventures#transfem leo#tmnt#tmnt leonardo#tmnt 2012#2012 leo#leonardo hamato
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Well there was only a little unpleasantness at the lakehouse, mostly in the form of thoughtless misgendering. Maybe one or two belligerent ones, but everybody was at least pleasant to me even though I was masc most of the time. Things like my gruncle saying 'you look lovely in that hat—I think hats look so nice on women,' I'm still willing to chalk up to cluelessness. I got to chill with the guys while we admired the McLaren and talked shop and then swim over and chill with the ladies while they talked about cousin drama. Maybe it had something to do with the queer to straight ratio being a little more in my favor than usual, given it's my gay uncles' house and one of my young gay cousins was there too. He was being an obnoxious anti-vaxx kiddo online so we hadn't talked in over a year but he seems to have matured a lot in that time.
My conservative gay uncle does have a point when it comes to the divisiveness of the social media environment. There are a lot of people I can't stand online who are tolerable in person. Is it because they're stripped of the dark power of beaming their most bigoted thoughts at me while I'm drinking my morning coffee? Yeah. Is it because they suddenly can't summon infinite minions to cyberbully me? Probably. Is it because face to face I have the power of being a visibly compassionate and friendly person with an understanding of lots of topical issues that I've studied while they can barely hold a coherent conversation that goes beyond mentioning a post they saw once? Mmhmm. Will anything I explained to them in these conversations actually make them think and change their minds? ....most likely still no, but more likely than when I talked to any of them online, I bet.
I ended up having some surprising conversations with my grandparents and others. My grandpa asked me what I meant by 'queer' so I explained that and then he asked me about being bisexual and 'if there was a website for bisexuals'—honestly not sure if he was hoping for a link or what lol. I explained that I'm actually ace and, you know, explained it all in a grandparent appropriate way. I was shocked that he actually seemed interested. Later my gran started telling me a story about one of her friends having an encounter with a trans woman in a grocery store. She wanted to use it as an example of trans people being unreasonable and angry but I spent the whole story patiently correcting her pronoun use until at the very end she actually started getting it right. Then we had an interesting chat about the prison industrial complex of all things.
It's such an experience talking to conservatives one on one while you're sipping margaritas in a pool. They'll repeat an earworm they got directly from fox news 10-20 years ago and then you just get to go 'that's not true though and here's what's actually going on.' Ad infinitum.
My gruncle asked me what my name means and seemed to appreciate the explanation. "I never even thought about changing my name," he said. "I never liked mine," I said, "and a few years ago I just decided life is too short, you know? To live with discomfort for no reason."
One older cousin got emotional when we talked about how I don't really have a relationship with my parents anymore after coming out. I wonder if she might have been gnc or queer in a different life. She hugged me goodbye after other people in the fam assured me that she wasn't a hugger. Idk, sometimes you just need the right person to hug?
Overall it was a lot easier to spend time with everyone than it has been for me in times past. I didn't feel the urge to flee and hide out in the attic so often. Nobody bullied me. I felt more comfortable taking up space as myself than I used to. They might not believe or understand I'm also a man but that didn't stop me from being one.
#save me from my family#lakehouse shenanigans#nonbinary#gender fluid#trans joy#personal problems#and then I found 5 dollars
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What are some of your favourite lost theories? Like you said once, Jack could be the smoke monster, and I went and looked it up, and you did convert me holy shit makes sense so I'd love to hear what other theories you believe/really like
oooh, fun! thank you!
let's see here... here are some theories i've fond of
you already mentioned it but jack turning into a smoke creature post-finale. because like, yeah, his death is very fucking similar to what happened to turn smokey into... smokey
david shephard being david austen-littleton when he was alive. the theory that when kate and jack banged before coming back to the island, they conceived a baby. they had a son which kate and claire then raise. along with aaron (making aaron and david brother-cousins!). the limbo world just repurposed david's parentage for the sake of symbolism and stuff, since jack and juliet were a couple in that world. okay so, in limboverse, i believe jack and juliet were made a couple, who then divorced, because in real life they were divorcees but it was like, bad soul crushing divorces. in limbo world, the universe saw fit to be like "what if divorced but amicably? as a treat?" so yeah. and david was given to them to fit that narrative. that and it came across like juliet longed to be a mother in real life but it never happened. so yeah, the universe did some shuffling of david for emotional reasons. but in real life, kate was his bio mom. what helps this is that david is a mini-jack so either one of them could be mama kjhfsjhk. also also! the amount of time between jack and kate banging and the finale? two weeks. thats not enough time to even notice a missed period yet let alone know you're pregnant. so she's in for a surprise when she gets home. i love this because it's like beautiful and angsty. oh, as a side note, evie lilly was actually pregnant in season 6 so her noticeable bloating/pudging up is only helping me!
on this note, the theory that juliet was pregnant when she died. i know it's fucked up but it makes sense. i'm basing this on that one scene where bernard offers her tea with a knowing look on his face and juliet has her hand on her stomach. listen, in media language, a woman resting her hand on her tummy = pregnant
daniel was the one who programmed the looking glass code to be good vibrations. they said a musician did it and he was in dharma. it's not that deep, it's a natural leap to make
i've very fond of the idea that richard is daniel's real biological dad. i have done an essay on this, heres a link. this could never be the case in-universe or at least i wouldn't want it to be because jeremy davies is hella white. buuut in the version of lost in my head? i hold fast to it like it's a fact
it's so hard to reconcile the way eloise is in "flashes before your eyes" and the rest of the show, like they may as well be different characters. so to mildly patch this up, i imagine eloise is one of the people in lost who has powers and hers is to do with... time. or something. i dunno. and maybe the reason the others got her in the first place is because she was a Special Kid, like with walt
that's all i can think of right now
oh and theres all the people i consider bi, trans and/or autistic but that's less a theory thing than like, headcanons
thank you for your time
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Please can we know about your OCs, I've seen the odd mention to them in your fics on AO3
Oh, I love my OCs and can say so much about them.
THE PLAYERS;
Harry Winters - Goal keeper who moves up from the academy team at 16. Good frieds with Noah and Drew, boyfriend of Chloe.
Ezekiel Noah Gordon - Goes by Noah because he hates his first name. Came up from the academy. Plays as a right back defender. Good friends with Harry and Drew
Andrew "Drew" Cameron - A Scottish trans player who also went to the AFC Richmond academy. Plays as a striker and looks up to Jamie and Dani. Unofficially adopted by Paul and Tom.
THE FAMILY MEMBERS
Isabella "Izzy" Rosenfeldt - Anders girlfriend, later wife. They've been together since they were 15. You know the woman who hugs Anders at the end of the last episode when Richmond wins? This is her, I just made her interesting. She's half Spanish, half American. Her dad works for the US Government which is how she ended up in London.
Erin Reynolds - Paul Reynolds wife. They met at church and are the only Richmond couple to get married in a church due to both of them having a Catholic upbringing. Erin speaks Irish as a first language and didn't learn English until she was 16 when she decided she wanted to go to law school.
Olivia Catherine "Liv" Reynolds - Paul and Erin's eldest child. Named after her godparents. She is smarter than most children her age, likes hanging out with the team and calls them all her uncles. Based on the line "You told my daughter..." in series 2 when everyone has a go at Jamie
Emily Grace Reynolds -Erin and Paul's youngest daughter. Based on the line "What about sonograms?" when everyone has to delete photos off their phones.
Sophie O'Brien - Tom O'Briens wife. They met when Tom accidentally crashed his car into Sophie's. They get married after 6 months because they both like each other and they think it is a good idea. Sophie has a masters degree in chemistry and teaches at a private all girls school. She eventually gives up her job to focus on her PhD.
Pippa Kukoč (nee Edwards) - Sasha Kukoč's girlfriend, later wife. She is a nursing student who has a placement in the local Accident and Emergency department which means she sees a lot of the Richmond players. She is Jeff Goodmans cousin so he disapproved of her relationship at times.
Elizabeth - the fabulous creation of @orbitalpirate, she is a curvy goddess who is loved by Thierry Zoreaux.
Chloe Morgan - Harry's girlfriend. Knows nothing about football beyond what colours Richmond play in. Grew up in care so had a rough start in life. Rebecca offers her a job working for Richmond as a means to support herself and she loves it.
THE PETS
Spagetti the Corgi - Arlo Dixon's corgi. Occasionally looked after by Olivia Reynolds. Spagetti is a rescue dog, so everyone jokes Arlo is a rescue human after he moved in with Jeff.
Alfred Bumbercatch - Moe's cat. Alfred turned up one day and that was that. He is a Sphynx cat so Moe knits him a lot of jumpers.
Arthur the Rabbit - Tommy Winchester's rabbit. Arthur is spoiled and has free run of the house. Decan claims not to like him, this is a lie. Jamie laughs every time he hears the name.
Marshamallow McAdoo-Bumbercatch - Isaac and Moe's Pomeranian puppy that they get when they get married. Pretends not to like Alfred. Isaac treats her like a princess and it shows at times.
Cleo the cat - Jamie and Colin's maine coon cat. She is stubborn and only likes Jamie and Colin. She has been known to poop in the shoes of people she does not like.
Rocky the horse - Izzy's horse, brought for her by Anders after they found out they couldn't have children. Izzy swaps horse tips with Rebecca after Rebecca also gets a horse.
There are more OCs to be added, both human and pets but they are still in development.
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Memories that make me love my queer trans body and life even when im hating it:
• cutting my hair short. Boy short.
• coincidentally being roomed with another trans man and a lesbian on a school trip. Painting our nails and blasting Heathers and Hamilton and pillow fights till 4 am.
• being the first person my younger family friend came out to. Getting pancakes after
• a kid telling me "you ARE a man!" because I liked a rap song he liked
• starting 9th grade with people assuming I was a (cis) boy. Being the only boy who didn't struggle filling out the vagina diagram for health class-- treated like a God of great wisdom for that
• doing my first T shot before going to the Women's March
• my cousin giving me shaving tips
• seeing myself in the mirror for the first time
• a substitute teacher calling my absent trans friend by her chosen name, even though it wasn't changed on the roster, after hearing boys in the class mocking her transness
• wearing a skirt for the first time post transition
• my legal name and gender change arriving in the mail
• t dick. Feeling comfortable with sex and feeling LOVED as myself
• an old lady who works at Joaans telling me she liked my voice and it reminded her of a friend
• my grandma calling me her grandson for the first time. My grandpa correcting her on pronouns when she messes up
• fucking around with my brother and our friends. Being one of the boys, as in climbing poles and sitting in free furniture on the side of the road
• the trans woman employee and Sephora and I looking at each other, complimenting each others make up and knowing it meant ME TOO!
• swimming shirtless for the first time in a pool post op after years of avoiding swimming. Kissing my boyfriend and floating on our backs.
• giving a stranger mentioning their transness at a convention, giving them my they/them pin to take back with them to hellscape Texas
• my top surgery, 7 months out, getting moved up to 2 weeks. Sobbing and floating and smiling all day long.
• feeling safe in the hospital before surgery for the first time ever. The nurses so happy for me.
• hair on my stomach. And having a stomach. And loving myself
• a trans kid, no more than 5, asking me if I was trans too, and letting them run around with my trans flag
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Mom's new bestie
After work, Matteo came back home, with Daniele who wanted to spend the weekend with his family for once. He expected to see his mom, Isabella, busy designing new dresses somewhere in the house, but no, she was chatting on the couch, laughing with a woman he had never seen in his life. They clearly were in a deep conversation, so he didn't want to interrupt them, but he felt curious.
Matteo: Mom, who is that?
Isabella: Matteo, this is Farida, I met her yesterday at the conference I attended about spellcastresses and matriarchy. Farida, this my son Matteo, I met him when I gave birth to him.
Farida: Hi Matteo.
Matteo: Are you really wearing that god awful hat again?
Isabella: I am wearing it to show my support to you, because you are my son and I love you.
Daniele: Yeah but he's right. Forest green with a ribbon the pastel color of the trans flag? Awful. Good message, but not a slay.
Isabella: And this, Farida, is my homosexual nephew Daniele. I adopted him when his parents rejected him when he began losing his power as a child.
Whatever, Matteo can just go to his bedroom and let his mom be happy with her little new friend.
Daniele: You look familiar. I think I saw you somewhere before.
Farida: Unlikely, last time I went to San Myshuno was in the 90s, unless you saw me elsewhere. I live in Oasis Spring.
Daniele: I have a friend who's from there, his name is Dawud Sahan.
Farida: ...That is the name of my son.
Oh, yeah that's right. Dawud had mentioned his mom was in town that week. What were the odd. Well, how funny it is that it seems like his aunt is getting along with her, the same way he's getting along with Dawud. Then, he went to his old bedroom too as he had nothing else to say.
Isabella: You didn't told me you had children.
Farida: Oh, I only have one son too. I wanted at least two kids, and at least one daughter, but it never worked out.
Isabella: And what about his father? Cause you mentioned you're single, so...
Farida: Um, well he's dead, but I'm not really a widow. We divorced a few years before. It's sad, I really should have listened to my mother.
Isabella: What do you mean by that?
Farida: You see, my ex-husband and I were both born in the city of Basra, in Iraq, and we both moved to Arizona when we were children...Though we actually didn't met back then, as we grew up in different cities. My cousin, however, did grew up in the same as him and so, when I moved to Oasis Spring for college, my cousin made me met my ex right away. We fell in love pretty fast and six months later, we were married. I was 18, he was 19. My mom scolded me pretty hard, she could not stop us as we were adult even if very young one, but she believed I was worth better than getting married at that age. As to make this worse, I wanted children right away, while still in my freshman year of college. My mother was pissed, she did not abandonned her entire life for her daughter to be a housewife before turning 20.
"Thankfully", either her or Rashid probably had some fertility issues. She tried for years and years to get pregnant, and the few times she did succeed, it ended up having a miscarriage. At least, it gave her the time to graduate and start her adult life without also having to worry about taking care of an actual living baby. Then, shortly before her 7th wedding anniversary, Dawud was born.
However, since Farida really, really wanted a daughter, they went through the trouble of conceiving again. Then it happened, they were gonna have a girl aaaand...she was a stillborn. Every single dead fetus put an extra strain on their relationship, and now an actual dead baby was just the extra little thing to make their mariage also non-viable. This time, after seven years, they decided to divorce.
Isabella: Oh, I'm so sorry. It must have been so rough for you.
Farida: Well, I'm fine now. I'm just sad I never got to have my own little girl. My best friend, who I met in a mommy group when I was expecting my son, had a girl and I'll admit, I've always been a little bit jealous of her.
Isabella: But is your son healthy? Is he making you proud?
After a long moment of silence, Farida simply followed with:
Farida: ...I think he's healthy.
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#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4#simblr#ts4 simblr#sims 4 story#sims story#ts4 story#occult roommates#farida alwan#isabella rossini#matteo rossini#daniele rossini#dawud sahan#rashid sahan#OcRo s2#long post
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Karin and Sesshomaru is one of my favorite oc x canon couples. The ultimate battle couple, the ultimate Prissy Bitch couple, the ultimate service top/pillow princess couple. Always Thinking about Them™
In the ‘yasha verse, the Kobayashi family is a youkai family on the Japanese side, and African American rootworkers on the Black side. It was Karin's grandmother (already fused to a spirit) who came to Japan, and fell in love with (kills yashahime with a sword) the lord of the eastern lands. A lot of Family Drama ensues when he married her and they have twins Sachi and Shio, and their aunt is the one who rules the Eastern Lands after killing her brother and reducing her sister-in-laws and niblings to servant status
Sachi married a human general (demon hunter, perhaps 🤔) and had a gaggle of children, and Shio married a demon woman and had a single son, Karin
Essentially Karin would meet Sesshomaru thru Inuyasha and Kagome, set around the same time the anime-which-shall-not-be-named takes place. At this point, they have their lil girl already. Karin approaches them to ask for their help in defeating the Lady of the East who is doing Shady Shit with half-demons (neglecting to mention she's his grand-aunt and he intends to take her place). At some point Sesshomaru gets involved and Love Happens
Idk if Karin takes his place as Lord and married Sesshomaru anyway (very on brand) or lets his aunt Sachi or one of his cousins take the spot (unlikely, he is a powerhungry lil shit) so he can marry Sessh without a conflict of interest 🤔
He is a very "I will have my cake and eat it too," kinda person so he will probably be like, "Why can't two provincial lords be gay and get married 🤷🏾♂️"
And ofc at the end they have one set of twins themselves (trans rights babey) and it's all good and nice
#can't remember if i use his full name in his tag or not 🤔#i need to be clear: sesshomaru is the pillow princess#you cannot convince me that man puts in the work during sex#karin kobayashi
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omg i remember u mentioning getting a new tat and wanted to ask what u wanted to get but completely forgot dkjfns. so what did you get?
yes it isss!! it took me forever to properly get into music like the only reason i ever started liking specific artists was quarantine lmao. that is so wow omg. so like fearless era? that mustve been fun tho!! honestly i would love to spend half my life a swiftie lol. i was i was!! like omg the bad blood mv is prob one of the biggest "omg girls?!!?!??!!?" moments of my life like that scene w her velcroing on the boxing glove w her teeth,,, the hair, the makeup, just everything. i still scream a little when i see that scene lmao. and also like ybwm, love story, ikywt, blank space (another mv i was obsessed w), etc etc. the popular ones!! and my vocal teacher actually introduced me to cruel summer (which i loved) and also her cover of riptide. like now thinking ab it,,, how did he even know omg??? SO TRUE like inject ivy into my veins its so *chefs kiss*. YES YES YES mad woman is so scream in the car or into a pillow while crying i love her sm. LMAO YES i remember seeing it and genuinely thinking. huh. a happy song cool! and then its just pain for 5 mins which i absolutely LOVE.
AWWW THEYRE SO SWEET I CANT JKMDWMV i would cry if any of them did that to me. so valid so true shes just so !!!??!??!??!?!?!?
yessssssss. rapunzel is such an icon <3 she so issss!!!! OMG I LOVE MAMMA MIA SM!!!!! abba is obvs everything and meryl streep???!?!?!!!! AND amanda seyfried AND julie walters AND christine baranski???!!?!!!? AND colin firth and pierce brosnan?!?!?!?! its such a classic and i could watch it forever jkdmsfvjnm. yes omg i immediately stop the second i feel a bit annoyed w it. okok i def will!!
it is it is njskodjn. haha yea ik a lot of ppl dont really like it lmao but the second i heard it was obsessed. RIGHT??? makes me cry everytime. im very much a sad songs lover <3
yea me too!! like to go to a mall and seeing the massive tree and all the decorations?? so pretty so fun i love it.
glad i could be of service lol ajnsmf <3 yes it did thanks!! my friends and i are planning on watching the black panther movie together so that hopefully!! have u watched it? and wbu do u have any plans? also i realise that i totally spam u in these replies iwdkfvs im so sorry i talk and ramble a lot lmao
xxx ur secret santa
very rude of tumblr not to tell me i got your ask 😒 anyway! it’s a little mermaid rat!! it has the prettiest colours in it’s tail and the design was to raise funds for the mermaids charity who support trans, non-binary and gender diverse kids and families <33333
oooh gotcha i totally get it a lot of my friends aren’t into music like at all but i’m so glad you found a love for taylor’s music hehe yess fearless era!! but you’re here now!! you can be an honorary since-fearless-era stan 😌 love that for you omg the scene you’re talking about it,,, Yes whew on this topic i didn’t know it then but the story of us mv was a gay awakening for me ahdjfj and yes the blank space mv was SO good!! (is it your fav music video?) i will never not be upset that cruel summer didn’t become a single IT WAS RIGHT THERE!!! omgggg stop her cover of riptide is my fav thing ever i listened to it obsessively for ages your vocal teacher knew what he was doing 😌 help i didn’t even process that it’s over 5 mins long it’s so 🥲
EXACTLY EXACTLY!!! i had like post concert (convention 🤔) depression for days after lmao
YESSS it’s such a classic and so feel good i love it so so much!! my cousin introduced me to all the abba songs when i was like 7 and she burned them onto a cd for me under the instructions that id stop singing mamma mia at all hours cause i was annoying her 💀 and then i proceeded to audition with mamma mia the song for my school’s talent show and all the teacher’s laughed cause i was literally 8 years old singing about how i’d been cheated on and i was brokenhearted 😭 shfkgk i have to do that when i overplay taylor’s songs sometimes like ok i have to listen to another album now or i’ll burn myself out smh
it had such a different sound! but i love it now and omg i always find myself avoiding really sad songs 🤧
yeah!! it’s such a lovely time and i adore going to christmas markets <3
omg nice! no i haven’t ahdjf i actually haven’t seen mcu movies 🫣 i never got into them and my friend’s a huge fan who keeps asking to me watch them but it feels like there’s too much to get into now from the beginning shdjf and no omg i love it!! spam away 😌
i hope you’re having a good week!! 🥰
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Coming out and what followed: my experience
tw: vent,biphobia,guilt,mentions of transphobia (non-binary centric), homophobia,and suicidal thoughts.
It was almost two years ago,and yeah,it didn't went as expected.
I came out to my mom as bi,she said things like "you're just confused" "how can you say that?" and,my personal favourite(/s) "is because something I did?" (as if my bisexuality was a product of her raising me wrong or something)
at the end she was,supposedly, "open to the idea that I might be bi" but I just knew she still thought I was confused, actually, she said it herself: "I'm really wishing that you're just confused,otherwise,well,I guess I'll have to accept it" (as if my bisexuality was a deathly illness and she had to go through like, the 5 stages of grief before accepting it)
and to say that her reaction fucked me up wouldn't be surprising to anyone,she shattered almost every ounce of confidence I had in my identity and my hope for the future (now I can't say I'm bi out loud without crying),imagine how I felt when she reacted that way to me coming out as bi,I could only think "if this is how she reacts to my sexuality, what would happen if she knew I'm trans? genderfluid? maybe greyromantic? (I was still questoning I belive)" even if she said she still loved me, I was devastated.
I'm not going to talk in depth about the six months of daily suicidal and self-destructive thoughts, I'm just going to say: my mental health was really damaged (I'm better now,but I'm easily triggered,I need therapy)
a lot of conversations later,she apologized for everything she said,even if she insisted she didn't remember everything she said (how can you be genuinely sorry for something you don't even remember?,how can you forget the words that make my life hell?) and she said that I should be more sympathetic to her,that I should be more understanding of her because she grew up in a time when none of this things were normalized, that she's trying her best,and I get it but I just can't I can't forgive her I can't I can't- and I feel so guilty for it because she loves me but that is not enough,I feel guilty for feeling this way because I love her too,so much,I can't not love her.
but she has to calm herself down when I say I'm bi,she gasped in horror when I mentioned to her that I had kissed a girl before, and then just tried to convince herself that it was just because I was "young and curious and confused", she says she accepts me now but I don't think she's ever tried to educate herself more about bisexuality or how to support me better.
have you ever met someone who's a good person but the only thing they have wrong is that they are (however mildly or strongly) queerphobic? and because it affects you you suddenly can't see that person in the same light but you feel bad because you really liked that person?
anyways,she also discovered that I'm aromantic through my old twitter account,but I don't think she really understood what that means (which,I honestly prefer,I can't imagine how she'll react to knowing that I'm not romantically attracted to people but I still feel sexual attraction)
and in one conversation we were having the topic of nonbinary people came out and even when I tried to explain it to her she said: "if they're not woman,or men,what are they, animals?" (as if our gender is the thing that makes us human) and at that moment I knew that if I tried to come out as genderfluid to her,she wouldn't understand it.
the worst thing is that she may be the best reaction I get from someone of my family,my aunt is religiously homophobic (god created man and woman blah blah blah),my family from my father's side (and himself) are as well,my mom's cousins may be more understanding,but I honestly can't bring myself to trust anyone of my family with this after what happened with my mom
I don't know how to end this,I just feel really lonely and like everyone I'll ever meet will be mildly queerphobic at best and that I'll never get to be fully comfortably myself with someone.
#vent#tw vent#tw sui ideation#coming out#biphobia#bisexual#genderfluid#nonbinary#personal#raysaystuff#aroallo
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TW: r*dfem-lite, r*dfems, calling out bigotry:
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Special rant, because I was blocked for standing up for mspec-lesbians, and I’m fucking tired:
(DO NOT seek to bully and harass anyone you think I might be talking about. I DO NOT support harassment or bullying of any kind. Calling out people for being bigots means calling out their actions, and making other people aware that these people are not safe to be around, nor to follow. I’m not mentioning anyone directly, only their actions. Thank you for paying attention.)
This is for all of the radfem-lite blogs that try so hard to act as though they’re not radfems.
Do not say you support queerness or trans people, and then turn around and say you’re against queerness because they’re “contradictory” and “don’t fit” and “you need to use this because this is for you”.
First of all don’t nobody need to use SHIT for your comfort. Queerness is about being “contradictory”, and weird and not fitting in, etc. We do not need to fit into shit.
You’re an exclusionist, a radfem who doesn’t even want to admit it, you’re a full on terf through and through, and you attract so many fucking full-on radfem, and radfem-lite blogs it’s ridiculous. You claim to hate TERFS, but you are literally their cousin. I told you to get over it, after explaining MANY TIMES that you should mind your own damn business, and stop thinking that people need to all be the same or bend to your limited rules, and I meant that, and you trying to come into my messages to persuade me into becoming a bigot is not what the fuck I’m about.
You also said “male lesbians cannot be lesbians”, which was a red flag in and of itself. Definitely sounds like something a terf would say about TRANS LESBIAN WOMEN.
It’s giving “trans women aren’t real women” because, first of all, a lot of trans women do not want bottom surgery, or cannot afford it whatsoever, and are poor, like many trans people. Second of all, body does not equal gender. I don’t know how many times I have to say that, but clearly you do not care, and it shows.
Trans women, regardless of how they look, are women. Seems like you forgot about that when you spouted that terf shit to me.
You only “support” trans women when it appeals to, and suits you. You’re fake, and I shouldn’t have been so nice to have explained so much, and used so much of my damn energy, because bigots do not deserve kindness, nor my time. They do not.
I am so fucking pissed off because I spent all MY fucking energy trying to explain to you that people are different, and that just because some lesbians also like other genders, doesn’t mean that YOU YOURSELF need to. That is why we call it DIVERSITY.
Then you went on to say that non-binary people can be lesbian, and be with lesbians. Okay which is it???? Are lesbians only attracted to women, or can they be attracted to anyone? Cause it’s giving “nonbinary people are actually just special women/women-lite/femme women”, and are therefore “safe”.
Nonbinary people can look like ANYONE AT ALL, and they can especially look like cisgender men, and it’s funny how you didn’t answer my question as to why you will accept enbies, but not mspec lesbians… it’s very funny. Very suspicious. Very radfem.
You reblog from a post saying “if you like the word queer, reblog.” Yet… you’re against queerness… hm… it’s giving queerphobia indeed. You only claim to support being queer when it appeals to you.
You also reblogged a post saying “I HATE MEN!!!”
Hm… explain why you’d do that when I’m also a ma- oh wait… no… I’m just a spicy woman. I forgot. I’m “safe” for you to throw your rhetoric at me while I sit there and you pretend I’m just a cisgender woman with pronouns that people love pretending don’t exist. Cause you felt real comfortable telling me, a man, that all men are basically evil monsters out to get everyone, when that is not how you hold cisgender men accountable. That is excusing predatory actions, and basically you’re saying: “all men are evil and predatory, so there’s no holding them accountable because it’s in their nature”, and blaming mspec-lesbians, which is victim blaming.
Mspec-lesbians do not make predatory cis-men. Predatory cis-men make predatory cis-men. Cisgender men, cause you forgot to specify the CIS, do not have to be anything at all to hurt other people. To hurt women.
I needed to say all of this for people’s safety, and for people to realize that just because someone claims to support you, and throws in a few trans and queer positivity posts, doesn’t mean they actually do. They are trying to make themselves look good, and that’s what you call a liar.
As soon as they find something they don’t like, they will quickly show their true colors.
When someone shows you who they truly are, believe them.
Anyways thank you for paying attention. Be wary and be safe.
I’m fucking tired.
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Also, mspec lesbians and gays are valid and cool, and exclusionists can fuck right off.
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Think I got a delayed emotional reaction to OFMD season two because I just started crying HARD listening to This Woman’s Work on the way home from the gay bar tonight. Weepy sad faggot details beneath the cut:
I’ve already said mentioned sort of not explicitly in the tags of a lot of posts what I’ve been going through the last few months but this is a fucking boiling point so let’s get into it.
I kissed a random man at the club tonight. He was gorgeous. He ticked every box I could think to have ticked. Otter, but a bit (lot) fruity. We were at a bear bar, I saw my friends do an awesome drag show, I was having a wonderful, happy time. Got flirted with and desired by a random man, the only thing I as a gay trans man have ever wanted. Almost was like “please, just take me home and fuck me” but he was off to another club and I didn’t feel like comitting to the bit as they say. Because here is the sad truth.
Ketan is the only person I’ve been able to see myself with for months. I love him. I hate that I do, but I do. He kissed me like I literally have never been kissed by a man before, this cisgender gay man, kissed me like I was the most beautiful, desirable man he’s ever known. We’ve known each other for
Eight years.
I’m absolutely not monogamous. I’ve had feelings for other men during the time I’ve had feelings for Ketan. This crush came on when I was still with my ex fiancée, I’ve felt this way for YEARS.
But the mother fucker had to kiss me, make me feel worthy of something for the first time in my life, say “I know,” when I told him I’d felt this way about him for years and kiss me again harder after our lips pulled apart that first time, keep kissing me that whole night over and over and over, and then pull a 180 and suddenly become too scared to talk to me ever again and tell me he was heartbroken and he couldn’t deal with this, when he was the one who came on to ME, because I as a gay trans man am so convinced every cis gay finds me repulsive I’ve never even made a Grindr despite desperately wanting to be dicked down most every day and night.
He had to say “you should have told me how you felt. I still might have done this but I would have been prepared” but then completely ghost me for an entire month.
He had to refuse to discuss it to the point that seven months later I still am so fucking confused I don’t even know how to explain to our mutual friends what the fuck happened.
And now here I am. Kissing a random, beautiful man but thinking of him. Thinking about how insane I went when he wasn’t talking to me at all, how I nearly lost my job because I was so suicidally depressed I would wake up every day and have my first thought be “I don’t want to be alive.”
I should be hoping, but I can’t stop thinking.
The fucking OCD mood.
This weird part of me keeps thinking “you two are meant to be together in the end, just be patient, this is the love of a lifetime and nobody has ever made you feel like this before, you two literally can talk to each other with just looks, every single damn thing about your lives is a mirror of one another, this is fate, this is a higher power doing this” but the rational part of me is so, SO fucking upset and hurt STILL and I hate both of these parts of me and I just don’t know what to do besides cry and dare to hope this might work out like it does on TV.
I miss you so much, Ketan. You’re literally only a few hundred feet away, posting “dinner for one” on your IG story, and I’m so much of a coward I can’t even text you and tell you what I feel.
And there has to be a god damn fucking tv show starring my COUSIN who LOOKS LIKE ME making it easy to project with a song that I’ve loved for years and just cuts to my core because it could be about US and I’m driving home from the club when I should be so over the moon that I got to kiss some dude who was so beautiful I’m just crying instead and…
Ketan I miss you so much. Why the fuck is this so triggering and so hard.
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Vent, transphobia, personal experiences, Genitalia mention, Transmisogyny, Ableism
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It’s wild to me, what I experienced for transphobia when coming out. Everyone cited a trans man, who had done a full medical transition, and then said they wouldn’t recognize me until I did as well.
There wasn’t an attempt to convince me to be a Tom boy, that was for children, I needed to grow up and be a proper woman.
Similarly how I wasn’t allowed to marry if I didn’t “give sex” to my partner, I needed to have attraction or I was awful.
This actually didn’t impact me a lot, but it weighs on me now.
I was supposed to be a feminine woman. Not an androgynous (wanting to be masculine) trans man.
I needed a full transition, despite citing that I didn’t want bottom because I didn’t like the results, and wanted something I can’t get as a trans man. (I still have this hang up and won’t do bot for a while until I figure this out or another alternative comes along.)
It was the denial to the services I needed, because I had to stay as my AGAB.
And then the experience of hearing my family horrifically discuss trans women.
I was more acceptable if I clicked off the boxes of a full transition and behaved 1:1 for men, performing hyper masculinity, a trait I wasn’t able to do since I didn’t know what that was like.
My cousin, a GNC Cis Man, also couldn’t exist without being treated like shit, if he had been trans, I worry how violent our family would have become.
I faced homophobia for years, on the basis of being bisexual, and had a surprising amount of homophobia over biphobia.
They wouldn’t have accepted a lesbian, they hadn’t for years when I was certainly close to being one.
They didn’t accept the trans man, who was conflicted on transition.
They just wanted the meek little girl, who was 100% at all their grades, who should be a brain surgeon right now.
They even went as far as to deny I’m disabled and have autism.
That I lied and got onto the system that way because I’m not “r-slurred” enough.
Then they used it to deny my gender, my parents financially abused me, kept me from transitional resources, and every other person went out of their way to force me to detransition, but my experiences are mirrored in my friend, who says that my experiences made her concerned about ever coming out.
I was visible, compared to a known trans man, I was never denied in medical settings, access to medical care I was needed, until long after leaving my area.
I was never told to be a GNC woman.
My experiences fall under transphobia.
My formative, horrific experiences at coming out at eighteen, never felt exclusive. Because they aren’t. The transphobia I faced, was overlapped with everything that my trans femme friend would face, with the added thing of I wasn’t in danger of violence.
I was offered conversion therapy. Make me a lovely woman.
Had it defended to my face.
I was the person who fought queerphobia in my family, and I lost for a majority of it.
I don’t think anything would have been changed if I was a trans woman other than genuine violence to my person, and more violence than what I faced growing up.
But I was never denied things for being trans, except my transition by my family.
It made my autism evaluation hard, but that was due to being afab in general.
And I just don’t… relate to the community.
Like I don’t want to call myself trans, I don’t want to say, “hey I’m afab” I want to call myself a man.
I’m transmasc/trans man by others.
But to me I’m just a man.
I’m just. So tired of seeing things for “universal trans experiences” and looking at my life and going, “this doesn’t relate to me, this was things other people who aren’t like me experienced due to their own circumstances/identity.”
I am just so tired.
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Not that I have any respect left for my aunt (on my mom's side, who cheated on my uncle who's from my dad's side) but I GUESS I can see where her resentment of my grandmother and my uncle's deep love and loyalty to his mother comes from?
My mom and her siblings lost their mom when I was about 4 years old. This was well before any of my oldest younger cousins were born, and the oldest on my mom's side after me and my siblings are from the aforementioned aunt and uncle. They, like my brother, never got to meet my maternal grandmother.
My aunt I think has unhealed trauma from losing her mom that she projected on the relationship between her husband and HIS mom. I could be wrong as I'm not a therapist, but she has been angry about her husband being a "mama's boy" despite how well he loved his wife and kids and his loyalty and generosity etc. My aunt wanted to be unequivocally The First in his life and somehow felt that continuing to have such a close relationship with his mom meant she was second? Prob a misattribution of her hurt feelings over not having that same relationship with her own mom.
So many years of marriage and three kids later (the youngest of which isn't yet 18) she decided to cheat on him, and when the other man ended up injured in a card incident, she had to come clean that she's going to go see this man because they're dating or some such.
Now my uncle is just waiting for his son to turn 18 and then he's divorcing her. Which is great good for him for knowing his worth.
This is the same aunt that misgendered a famous trans woman repeatedly in conversation with me until I angrily came out as trans to her on Facebook, who always had a holier-than-thou pious self righteous complex, told my mom (who is older than her) that she wasn't allowed to wear a mini skirt, said that ppl on food stamps are mooching off her tax dollars just cause she saw ONE family pack their ebt bought food into a bmw, and then tried to backtrack when I mentioned that my wife and I have had to rely on food stamps on more than one occasion, accused our church of idol worship because there was a small decorative statue of a Native American in the hallway, refused to enter a family function for thanksgiving/my dad's birthday and kept her father from attending and meeting his great grandkids as well (legit they just stayed outside when my uncle and his kids and everything were inside having a good time with my niblings and everyone there), and is constantly, CONSTANTLY judging other people for absolutely petty insignificant reasons. Like. I do not like her.
She is my mom's baby sister tho, and as much as I dislike her, my mom still absolutely loves her. I get it, and she does see how her sister fucks up on the regular and is disappointed, but still loves her all the same. So I begrudgingly continue to be civil and kind if and whenever we need to interact. I was taught to be polite to people, to give respect. And as much as betrayal of any kind is the absolute bane of my very being and cheaters get ZERO remorse from me, I do it for my sweet tiny Mami.
But fuck that aunt tho. Let all the karma come raining down on her. Fuck you.
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