being a star wars fan is going through stages of grief over a mediocre show/movie over and over again and gaslight yourself into believing that fanon or your own headcanons are actually part of the canon so you could sleep at night
I want to be weirder. I want to be strange and foreign and to feel like I'm actually in control of my life and myself and the perception of me in some way. I want to allow myself to unmask and breathe and not be afraid to be "too autistic" or "too adhd" or "too mentally ill" or...just too much in general.
I've always been made to make myself smaller. My whole entire life. Vocally, physically, socially. It's better to be skinny and polite and normal. I don't want to be normal anymore. I want to be accepted. I want to be respected. I want to take up as much space as I need, be given the consideration I need, and allowed to express the emotions that I need even when they are deemed "too much" by others. I'm sensitive and angry and kind and tough and soft and stern and stubborn and just so so sad but also very happy. To deny any part of myself has been absolute hell and I want to accept me for who I am in every way imaginable. I want to be more creature than human, more monster than man, because different isn't evil it's just different and I've always been different. I've never been normal and I'll never be normal for this era in this world in this universe. Normal is relative. To what? Depends on so many factors and facades. I'm too tired to keep putting on a mask and pretending. I'm a strange malformed creature and that's okay. I don't fit beauty standards, or abled standards, or mental standards or spiritual standards or intellectual standards. I don't fit anywhere except for the space shaped exactly like me. Me exactly as I am in any given moment. People are change and I am people, very literally plural but also just a being worthy of kindness and love and respect, exactly as I am. I want to allow myself to just be so so SO weird. I want to be me.
I’m sorry but I just love that Poseidon was in the same shirt when he came to save Percy that he was when he talked to Sally. You can look into it as deep symbolism or smth but I just love the idea that the all powerful sea deity has like. three shirts. or that being thousands of years old he repeats clothing at all. sustainable king!!
I really love to think about how weird in the force Ezra is
imagine Lothal's wind following him around, his hair always swaying in the air, or the moon shining brighter on whatever planet he's on
the grass grows taller as he passes through the fields of Lothal, its rustle whispering something he can't quite understand
if he stands in one place for too long the grass will grow around his legs and he'll start sinking into the ground, the planet ever-yearning to get its child back into the soil
Ezra saw the universe through the whale's eye and the universe never left his mind
I've been working on trying to get a good interpretation of everyone in The Amalgam for a while now. It took a long time to get all the sketches done up right, and finally finish the full art.
I didn't do one for myself yet, mostly cause I have like a million personas. My "True self" vs "the body" are very different and I'm not entirely sure how to depict myself yet, but I'm sure I'll think of something.
Either way, this is what I have. I can't really get Greyson's tattoos down, so I opted for just not doing them for this one. I also forgot his and Belly's freckles, but tbh this is close enough for now as I've been eager to post them for a long time now.
Maybe at some point I'll post individual things for all of us but rn I'm having a really rough mental night and need to do something else.
I’m a big proporter of “k_k isn’t stupid he just likes to act like it bc he thinks it funny to make people mad or confused”. and other such doodles of him