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#Maybe that's why we're so toxic? Haha
toubledrouble · 11 months
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Interesting fact I think you didn't know (and which I've learned from my chemistry teacher that worked in different branches of the industry his entire life):
Czech people are kind of radiation resistant because we literally live on radioactive soil (the entire country is filled with uranium. When Marie Sklodowska Curie discovered radiation, she was using Czech uranium).
And that's also why we handled the Chernobyl radiation so well - we're used to it and basically immune to it.
That's right folks, Czechs are basically radioactive
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cosmicpoutine · 1 month
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leaving a lil rant here :]
I love Tim and his ships sm. Me personally, I only really ship TimKon. Those two are perfect for eachother and have so much clear queer coding that it’s crazy, and they have dialogue that’s just. gay shaped.
I also get TimBart, I don’t ship it romantically but I get why people do!! Tim and Bart are close as well, and the balance they get between ‘depressed tired wet cat’ and ‘living breathing embodiment of adhd’ is great.
I also get TimBartKon, they’re a trio. They are always a trio, so many people like to bring up how TimKon has so much coding and one of the big examples they use is when Tim tried to clone Kon. You know who else he tried to clone? Bart.
The only Tim ship I don’t get is TimBern, or any ship involving those two. When Bernard first appears, he’s Tim’s bully. He actively makes fun of tim and puts him down and then that character is forgotten about until Tim comes out as bi, then they just rework his character and go “haha guys this is his boyfriend not bully ygs are crazy” and just forget about all the bad stuff Bernard did? Reworking a character is great and all but, it just feels a bit weird and out of place for me. There’s always going to be that certain toxicity for TimBern, at least for me.
homie... bully??? im flabbergasted- im speechless- im jason todd (dead)
okay, im gonna start off by saying you have all the right to not ship them, and im not here to defend timbern as a ship. im here to defend BERNARD DOWD.
first thing bernard does is give tim advice about teachers, and he clearly says they're gonna be good friends.
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if bernard was a bully, tim wouldn't hang around him so much. besides, i hate it when people place tim as a helpless little boy who would get bullied. he has put himself in situations where he looks weak on purpose to keep his identity safe, but he's not a victim at all. tim is a social butterfly because he's really good at masking and reading people.
not to mention, both bernard and darla push tim a lot because they're trying to get him to open up and be closer to them, but he keeps pushing them away. tim is a professional liar.
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and when tim has to quit robin and start hanging out with normal people, he invites bernard over.
and bernard is acting relatively normal, and he wants to play video games and talk about how hot tim's stepmom is.
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bernard is a normal teenager who has no idea one of his friends is the hero he's so obsessed with. he even shows concern for robin dying and makes up an entire conspiracy theory about batman havin a robin orphanage. you can tell he's afraid of robin being gone for real because at this point they haven't seen robin in months bc tim retired.
i dont know what about all of these interactions gave you the vibe that he's a bully because all i see is a normal teenager teasing his friends and being jealous tim gets more bitches.
im not saying that bernard was never mean or weird around tim, but he definitely wasn't actively bullying tim.
bernard is obnoxious and cocky, yes. but thats just because they wrote him as a real person. he's the school's chameleon, maybe even a little bit of a loser, too. he knows everyone but keeps a safe distance so that he doesn't get pushed into a box. im not sure if, at this point, he was already in a cult or being indoctrinated, but when we see his parents and the dowd home in tim drake: robin that just doesn't look right.
also homie talk about "forgetting all the bad things bernard did" (which in my opinion is none but okay lets follow that logic) everyone forget about all the bad things batman did to tim, he was not a kind and loving mentor, he was cruel to both tim and steph. we forget that batman was kind of an asshole to damien in the beginning. all those things are forgotten for the sake of the batfam.
in conclusion: we're just so used to the idea that superheroes can only ever form strong friendship bonds by having near death experiences together that we forget that the secret identifies exist and that the people who know them by their legal name also means a lot to them. after all, these people are the reason why they're heroes.
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wispscribbles · 1 month
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hi i just discovered your beautiful art so i obviously needed to scroll down your whole blog to catch up on everything you posted haha
i just wanted to say that i got way too emotional after reading that post of yours regarding mw3 and your mental health… on one hand i’m so sorry that you felt that way, but on the other i feel it with my whole heart
ghoap content especially for me helped me these past few months with my mental health in ways i would never have expected, it was my solace and inspiration, i started working out too and got back into drawing, got a lot better at it as well!
but unfortunately i get way too fixated on fictional stuff and there comes a time that my brain switches up and connects the things i liked and comforted me with things that make me extremely uncomfortable and stressed out, especially if i fall down a fandom rabbit hole that i would never have searched up, beacuse i know myself, i know my limits and triggers but i feel like i’m not a part of the fandom if i don’t like and interact with every single headcanon, art and ship
these past days i was really down because of that, and the things i read (why did i do that???) and now when i think of ghoap i think of that stuff and im scared that i alienated myself from the one thing that made me happy
but discovering your art and with that your post reminded me that im not alone in these feelings, even if it’s not the same exactly, and i wanted to thank you, for sharing your thoughts that time i guess haha <33
((sorry for rambling))
Long reply under 'keep reading' !! CW: talk of triggers and MCD
Always feel free to ramble my way!!! How nice you could find some comfort in my art and ghoap stuff. Especially in my mw3 post. I've been considering deleting it a few times, but hearing it maybe helped to read in some way makes me happy I left it up.
I get where you're coming from - I very much use these fictional characters as a safe space, but ppl view them very differently. There's room for it all, "don't like, don't interact" is very much a policy I agree with. It's important to mute words and be aware of your own triggers as you browse stuff in this fandom, because there's such a wide variety of stuff out there. You do NOT have to interact and agree with every thought people have on this ship, that's impossible and super stressful. There's plenty of stuff and headcanons I don't vibe with. There are no 'requirements' that you have to meet in order to enjoy fiction.
It's part of why I enjoy ghoap - that their dynamic resonates and has sparked so much creativity and outlets for so many - but it also means there's gonna be a lot of stuff u don't necessarily agree with or feel comfortable with. For example, a lot of folks use the MCD in mw3 as a way to explore grief, which I think is really cool, but on a bad day that could potentially get my brain in a bad headspace, so I only check out that art and those fics when I feel okay. There's also a bunch of stuff I'd never want to interact with, and that’s fine !!
I'm personally quite vanilla and a sucker for exploring the softer, more domestic aspects of these characters. It's what brings me joy. I know there are parts of this fandom who don’t vibe with what I make at all, and would call it untrue to the characters. Some creators enjoy exploring the more violent or toxic sides to the source material. That's just how it is, we all need different things from fiction. As long as we're capable of chilling in our respective sandboxes, then all's good.
But if you're like me, and enjoy the softer things, then definitely be aware and careful while exploring this ship and fandom. I've seen takes on these characters that are so far removed from how I view them, that they're basically the complete opposite, and it can leave a very bad taste, especially if you're the type to hinge your safe space on fiction.
Just... be mindful of yourself and your potential triggers, be respectful and don't interact with things that make you uncomfortable to the point of feeling unsafe. Shape your own online experience to your best ability.
Hope you're doing okay and still find joy in ghoap <3
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ellieswifie · 6 months
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hi!! i wondering if you could do a matt fic based off of the song “all too well (10 minute version)” by taylor swift? maybe it can take place a few moths after the reader and matt’s breakup? i love your writing btw!
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all too well tmv | matt sturniolo
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♪ all too well tmv - taylor swift
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summary: you and matt were happy, but push comes to shove and years later you guys see each other’s future and your not in it. (ft. all too well 10 minute version short film.)
warnings: matt!exboyfriend x fem!reader, no happy ending (i’m sorry guys!), shouting, cursing, little gore, toxic relationship , use of y/n (once), the other woman
authors note: so this has been the drafts since august bc i don't think it's one of my best works. i tried my best to incorporate the film to this fic as best as i could but i believe i failed. i’m glad you enjoy my content, and i hope you enjoy this too!! ps!! i skipped some lyrics so don’t get too confused haha.
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an upstate escape, past
your walking hand in hand with your boyfriend, matt as you walk through the door of his parents house. it was freezing outside mid october. leaves were falling, air was cold, everything felt perfect.
"i walked through the door with you, air is cold. something about it felt like home."
matt’s head turned to you while he untwined your hands and rushed to turn the heater on. the house was quiet as you followed matt towards the living room where he lit a fresh fire in the fireplace.
you couldn’t help but smile at his face noticing how quickly he was to turn the fireplace on. his face grew flushed as you reached for the scarf hanging around your neck to place it on the near by couch.
“and i, left my scarf there at your sister's house and you've still got it in your drawer even now"
before kneeling down besides your boyfriend and wrapping your cold hands around him.
"warm enough?" he whispered, rubbing his hands towards the fire.
you nodded, kissing his cheek. a cheeky smile spreading against my face.
there isn’t much to do in small town boston. going into city causes loud noises and angry drivers, two options why you and matt decided taking a stroll through the woods is a better idea. matt grew up going to this creek that wasn’t too far away from where he lived. he enjoyed growing there with his brothers and old time friends.
you’ve met chris and nick several times before you and matt called things official. you admired how funny chris was, and how quick nick is at speaking his mind.
and matt. you lived just about anything matt said. the smallest things he’d say or do made you smile and stare at him like he was everything to you. and he was. he was everything you needed and cared about always.
"oh, your sweet disposition. and my wide-eyed gaze"
"so when’s nick and chris coming up?" you asked as you sat in the passenger seat while matt drove. his eyes were focused on the road ahead, attempting to find a parking spot or somewhere to park before the two of you started your trail.
"umm chris said sometime later tonight. but it’s chris he’ll probably not be leaving til tonight." matt replied, switching through the radio stations. you nodded your head, watching him. he turns and smiles at you before reaching for your hand once he’s found a good song on the radio.
"we're singing in the car, getting lost upstate."
your eyes tore from matt’s as you tightened your hold on his hand. nothing with matt felt real. it was incredible how the air felt so crisp and clean, the way the wind in your hair caused goosebumps along your skin. the leaves falling down like december snow.
it was like heaven with matt.
"autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place. and i can picture it after all these days."
the first crack in the glass
when matt asked you if you wanted to meet his friends, you were immediately excited at first. you already knew some of the kids he grew up with in the past, but meeting his new youtube friends seemed exciting, but also incredibly nerve racking.
you all sat at a large dinner table seated for eight while matt, nick, and chris and all their friends sat around it. you were seated beside matt as you listened in on what the group was talking about. majority of the group was doing big things.
it was youtube, music, podcast, etc.
but you. you were just you. continuing your major in college, just shaking your head when someone mentioned if we’re getting into social media.
matt and you knew social media wasn’t in the pictures for you, but you lived what matt was doing with his life and supported him and his brothers channel.
you listened as nick and chris called matt out for all of his silly childhood behaviors. you couldn’t help but laugh at your boyfriends flushed face when his brothers started pulling out pictures of him from when he was younger.
"photo album on the counter. your cheeks were turning red. Your cheeks were turning red. You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed."
his friends all around laugh for a long moment, before bringing out more social media career opportunities. it made you feel out of place, unwanted. your eyes looked towards matt while he continued listening to one of his friends talk about touring. you wanted to feel matthew’s comfort in any shape or form, but his eyes were glued to anything but you.
you groaned, picking at the food in front of you, thinking about some of past conversations you’ve had with matt. every little conversation ending in sweet "i love you’s" or meaningful kisses. you just loved that about him. you loved his love language was always physical touch and affection.
"and your mother’s telling stories ’bout you on the tee-ball team. you told me ’bout your past thinking your future was me."
so you did what any girl who wanted comfort would do. you reached to hold your boyfriends hand, but his body jerked slightly, placing your palm back on the table where it was before. he patted softly, pissing you off, but crowding your thoughts with sadness. you couldn’t believe what just happened.
you felt embarrassed.
you just wanted to walk out right then and there, and leave. but you just sat there, staring at it hand for a long moment before meeting eyes with your boyfriend. he sent you a smile which made you more angry.
so you turned your body away from him, making yourself feel invisible.
"you taught me 'bout your past, thinkin' your future was me.”
"hey your quiet.." you heard matt whisper behind you as you tossed the remaining dishes from your guest into the sink. "what’s up?"
you wanted to ignore him so bad. you felt childish for getting mad over something so small and meaningless, but you just felt so out of place and angry. it just felt like he didn’t care. like you were a ghost.
"he's gonna say it's love, you never called it what it was."
"nothing." you hissed back, scrubbing the dish a little too hard. "i’m just tired."
your boyfriend nodded, moving around the kitchen to place a soft kiss against your forehead. "i’m tired too, dinner was good."
"yeah, sure whatever."
matt head darted toward your annoyed tone. he was finally catching on. “what’s wrong with you?"
the breath that escaped your lips was heavy. you wanted to shove your arms at his chest and shout and scream at how angry he made you feel, but you couldn’t snap the cord, not yet.
"nothing. i’m fine."
"you sound pissed and far from fine." he repsoned, leaning against a counter, across from where you stood, back turned.
"i’m not pissed, i’m just-" the plate in your hands shattered, making a loud clattering noise. you gasped, a large piece of glass scraping against your palm, causing blood to drip. "shit." you hissed, immediately grabbing the cloth.
"'til we were dead and gone and buried. check the pulse and come back swearing it's the same."
"fuck-" matt curses under his breath. walking toward you, but you placed your steady hand towards his chest, stopping him.
"and then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you. but all I felt was shame…"
"i’m fine." you argued. matt stepped back watching your eye brows draw together in anger. "just- why do you have this fucking problem with me when we are around people? it makes my skin crawl."
matt grew confused watching you. "problem? what are you talking about, babe?"
you nearly laughed at his comment. he knew exactly what you were talking about. it’s like he has this on and off switch. when your together, alone he’s obsessed with you. buying you gifts, loving you, he only has eyes on you. when you guys are in public, with friends it’s like he’s distracted, never noticing your there.
like at dinner…
"oh i don’t know, maybe the fact you dropped my fucking hand in front of everyone. then send me a smile like it didn’t happen."
matt stood still, watching you grow angry. he didn’t know what to say. that he’s sorry? no that’s just pathetic and a dick move.
"i’ve never felt so out of place, matt. it was like i was invisible, sitting in a room crowded of people." you confessed, letting the blood bleed through your towel.
"i look like a fool." you frown, noticing that the cloth isn’t helping and your just ranting.
matt switch turned back on, rushing to grab a larger cloth from the stove, placing it onto your hand. his eyes met yours as he shook his head. "your not a fool."
"i’m a fool." he whispered, looking at the wound. "the one girl i care most in the world felt uncomfortable and hurt and i was an asshole for not even noticing. i didn’t mean to drop your hand. i was distracted and just was being a dick. i’m sorry."
you just stared, watching him closely. his eyes were apologetic and his words seemed like they had some meaning, but you just weren’t sure.
"okay…" you whispered.
"i mean it. i’m sorry. your the only person i care about. you know that right?” you shrug, just nodding. "okay. good."
you both starred at the space between you guys, before matt mutters "come here", wrapping his large arms around you. "i really am sorry." he whispers against your hair and you just nod.
"and you held my lifeless frame."
"i know." you respond licking you lips. "it’s okay."
are you real?
"'cause there we are again in the middle of the night"
a smirk placed on your face as you held a single uno card up to your face. you had a plan, one the was currently working. you played your weakest card, so your now holding your strongest one, just about to win.
matt wasn’t too far from you, he had four in his hands, taking forever to take his turn.
"we’ve been playing since six matthew. it’s three." you giggle, wanting him to just play a card so you can win.
“wait your turn pretty girl, i’m thinking."
you blushed at his comment, narrowing your eyes at his lips pressed together, before you lock eyes with the cards.
"pretty girl?" you teased, twirling your hair with your free hand.
"yeah," matt whispered, placing the cards face down on the table. "you are very pretty."
you moved the hair tangling in your hair to poke his nose playfully. "thank you… but it’s still your turn boy. go."
matt held his hands up in defense, before placing down a plus four. but you weren’t fazed. you stared at the card, before stacking your draw four ontop of his. you giggled at his stunned reaction before jumping up from the table and dancing in his face.
"i win!! loserrr…" you teased, before matt snaps, and grabs you by your hips, spinning you around. you laugh at the sweet touch before wrapping your arms around his neck.
"you definitely cheated." he replies, swaying your hips as you guys began slow dancing in the middle of the kitchen.
"we’re dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light."
it’s dark, but you can see the light in matt’s eyes when his hands fully sneak around your waist, pulling you closer.
he looks beautiful in the light it’s impossible to look away from him. he’s smiling and his cheeks are a small tint of red.
"i’m no cheater," you whisper. his brows raise for moment, before he lifts your arms, spinning you like a princess.
"down the stairs, i was there. i remember it all too well."
"and there we are again when nobody had to know."
you bit the inside of your cheek as you stood behind matt, hand holding his behind his back. his head glanced down at you smiling, before he turned back towards his brothers nodding and listening.
you hated how this was how things was. you felt secretive, hidden, unaware of. you just stood in matt’s shadow always.
"you kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath.”
"what about you?" you heard nick say to you, lifting your head to face him. "tacos or burgers?" he asked, smiling.
matt rubbed his finger along the back of your hand, waiting for your answer.
you lips licked before smiling at them. "tacos?"
matt kissed your head, smiling at your answer, before slipping away from your hand. "tacos it is!"
"sacred prayer and we'd swear. to remember it all too well, yeah
the breaking point
when you wanted to ask matt to come over, your intentions was to hangout with your boyfriend and cuddle up along the couch. but when you opened the door and watched him linger there, you knew something was off.
his poster was low, his eyes seemed dark, he didn’t look himself.
you held the door waiting for him to walk in, kiss you numerous times, but he stood, quiet.
"well, maybe we got lost in translation, maybe i asked for too much."
"hey is everything okay?" you asked, forcing a smile. you stepped forward and matt backed away slightly, reaching his hand to his ear to scratch. you notice these small ticks. he only ever did it when he felt uncomfortable or nervous. you never made him feel either of those things through your entire relationship so seeing him now made your heart sink.
"but maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up."
"i’m fine- can we talk?" he asked, voice shaky, hands moving to shove in his pockets. you head turned to look over his shoulder. your neighborhood was walking into her apartment with her significant other, giggle and matt followed his glaze, tilting his head down. "please?"
"runnin' scared, I was there. i remember it all too well."
your head shook for a moment, bringing yourself back in time. "sure." you muttered, stepping from the door, hands feeling shaky. you moved towards the long couch, taking a seat as matt made his way in front of you, standing. your head looked up at him while he looked around your apartment.
it was cleaner, more decorative. you spent all of yesterday making the place look nice for matt, but seeing the expression on his face, you hated yourself for changing the place.
"the place look really nice." matt said, glancing at the pillows and blankets laid against the couch.
you ignored him, looking at your hands. "what do you want to talk about?"
"and you call me up again just to break me like a promise. so casually cruel in the name of bein' honest."
matt looked back towards you, kneeing down on his knees to sit in front of you. you looked at his face, seeing his eyes wonder anywhere but yours. he’s always distracted. "i wanted to talk about us…"
your breathing picked up as he placed his hands on your thighs, reaching for your shaky fingers. "i love you so much." he says, meeting your eyes. "your important to me and i want you to be happy always."
you waited for the but. there’s always a but.
he intertwined your fingers, looking at how small your hand looked in his. "but things between us have been off." he whispers, and you look away from his face, staring straight ahead. your eyes felt watery, but you weren’t going to cry. not in front of him. "and i know you’ve noticed, because filming and the podcast and everything really."
his voice gradually got quiet as you felt him just listing out excuses.
"i’m a crumpled-up piece of paper lyin’ here. 'cause I remember it all, all, all."
"matt stop-" you chocked out, stopping him immediately. your fingers slipped out of his and you kept staring away from him. "just stop."
"they say all's well that ends well, but i’m in a new hell everytime. you double-cross my mind."
he pushed back slightly, watching your watery eyes drop to his face. "this isn’t love." you whisper. "love is magic. it’s happy and healthy and you fight for love. you don’t push someone away because it’s getting too hard."
"i’m not pushing you out i’m-"
"matt you saying things have been off. we can work though off. if you care for me you’d fight for me."
"i’m doing what i think is best for you." "you said, "i think we should stop seeing each other."
"and that made me want to die."
"seeing each other? matthew what the fuck." you stood, causing matt’s eyes to lift you and follow you. he rose from his knees, standing up in front of you. "we’ve been dating for years matt and you think we’re just seeing each other?"
"no-" he quickly said, tilting his head down. "that’s not what i meant- you know what u mean."
"the idea you had of me, who was she?" a never-needy, ever-lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you."
"no matthew i don’t. you’ve been off. not us, you. it’s like your some switch where you don’t act like yourself when we’re with other people. it feels like i’m clinging to a fucking shadow. and i’m sick of it."
"not weepin' in a party bathroom, some actress askin' me what happened, you. that’s what happened, you"
"you don’t mean that." he breathed. "you’ve just been distant to us and it’s confusing me."
your nose scrunched as you stared at him. you were done you hated what was happening and it made your stomach twist, but you knew what had to be down. "matt get out."
his eyes widened and you were quite surprised yourself. "what?"
"i said get out." you said once more, but quieter and more hesitant.
"i wanted to talk, not us completely cut off communication."
"you’ve said and done enough." you whisper, looking at his eyes. "you want to stop seeing each other, then leave."
and so he did. just walking out, not hesitating.
the reeling
"time won't fly, it's like i’m paralyzed by it. i’d like to be my old self again, but i’m still tryin' to find it."
picking up the phone, you stared at the black screen for several long seconds. you weren’t happy. you were absolutely miserable, laying in your bed til twelve, falling asleep til three, you were unlike yourself and growing unhealthy.
it’s only been a month or two since your harsh break up and you couldn’t help longing for a message or a call from him, but you knew it wasn’t happening. you knew he was happier, healthier. and it made you want to die.
"after plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own. now you mail back my things and i walk home alone."
you finally turned on the phone, opening instagram and searching up his instagram. his posts hasn’t changed since you checked, his inactive on his insta. which didn’t bother you, it made you feel a sense of comfort.
you then open his shared account with his brothers. scrolling through the latest posts with him either smiling with his brothers or posing for the camera in the next. you smiled at how happy nick and chris looked, a small tear falling from your glossy eyes. you let your eyes linger on matt for a moment looking at the red sweater he was wearing.
"but you keep my old scarf from that very first week. 'cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me. you can't get rid of it"
it reminded you off the old scarf from you and matt’s past trip from the beginning of your relationship. it made you tear up even more, curling up in your bed, to continue scrolling.
"'cause i remember it all too well."
thirteen years gone, present
you rubbed your shivering hands together as you walked inside the small coffee shop. the autumn air was cold, it’s suppose to be a busy day in the office, so a small coffeee in the morning wouldn’t hurt
you found a small empty booth in the back of the coffee shop before pulling out your phone. the line is long and standing while waiting didn’t seem like your crowd. you quickly place a mobile order, waiting for your coffee.
you pull out your laptop, hiding in your tote bag, before scrolling through your recent works for work. your an interior designer for some company you applied for last spring. you love your job so much and the environment is healthy and makes you feel safe. your coworkers are crazy nice, and you have never felt happier.
as you scroll through your up coming projects, a waitress delivers you your small coffee to you. you mutter her a thank you before you hear the front door ding, causing you to raise your eyes.you have a bad habit of watching people in big scenes. not in a stalker way, but more in a curious way.
but when your eyes land on the man walking in, you nearly drop the hot coffee in your hands.
you handed seen him since he walked out your apartment years ago. it took you months to finally grow from how horrible and torn that relationship make you feel, and now seeing him dressed older, wiser, happier... it makes your heart sink.
"and i was never good at tellin' jokes, but the punch line goes, "I'll get older, but your lovers stay my age. from when your brooklyn broke my skin and bones. i'm a soldier who's returning half her weight."
his blue eyes still look and make your heart race the same. you can't help but let your eyes linger at him. his hair looks more put together, he has grown a few inches maybe, and his style as certainly improved. you have to tear your eyes away from him when you start getting flash backs from your past relationship.
"and did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?"
you stare at the computer seated in front of you before you hear your name from the side of you. your scared to turn and look, because you know who it is. it shouldn't surprise you he wanted to talk, it's matt.
your eyes turn and meet his bright blue. he's got a small smile, while he carries a refresher in his left hand. your not sure what it is, but it looks refreshing...
you let your eyes travel before they stare at the small ring wrapped around his ring finger. it looks beautiful, elegant.
you want to say something, smile, do something, but your heart is racing and your brain is fuzzy.
"i can't believe your here." matt says softly, letting his smile fall. "you look incredible."
"just between us, did the love affair maim you too?"
you loved when matt complimented you. it always made your insides curl and explode with butterflies, but does he compliment his wife like he use to compliment you? where is his wife? what does she look like? thousands of thoughts and questions about his relationship with this other woman fills your brain.
'cause in this city's barren cold. i still remember the first fall of snow and how it glistened as it fell."
a cold breeze goes straight to your cheeks when you hear the door ding again. you turn and see a smiley woman walk in. she looks around for a moment before she sees matt and smile. she walks towards where you and matt are, giving matthew a quick kiss.
matt whispers something to the woman and she then sends you a smile before finding a small booth. your eyes go back to matts, while he avoids yours.
"how have you been? it's been... forever." matt asks, looking back at you, and now your avoiding his glaze.
"i remember it all too well."
"i've been fine." you whisper, trying your hardest to hold in tears. "you seem to be doing fine yourself." you add, clearing your throat.
matt turns to the table the woman is seated at. "yeah... that's gigi. do you remember her from high school?"
your head shook, earning an oh from matt. a long pause escapes between you before you both speak up.
"y/n-"
"matt-"
"no please you first." matt says, stopping himself.
you have so many things to tell him. you want to shout at him for not fighting for you guys, you want to scream at him for breaking your heart, you just want him. again.
“just between us, did the love affair maim you all too well?"
you head falls, looking at the computer time. it's nearly nine and you don't want to be late for work. you start backing up your belongings, while matt stares at you confused.
his hands rest on yours as you feel your whole body react to the physical touch, but you tear yours away quick enough so gigi cant see.
your eyes lock with his and it feels like your nineteen again.
"i-i have work. i'm sorry." you swing your bag over your shoulder and matt watches you try to escape.
"do you need a ride? i know how much you hate driving in the cold-"
"matt." you stop and you both just stare at each other. it was so painful just standing there remembering how little he cared back then. your head just shook, grabbing your coffee and ignoring his pleading glaze. "goodbye."
and it was just a goodbye.
"just between us, do you remember it all too well?"
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yxstxrdrxxm · 2 months
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SYNOPSIS: Detectives are supposed to be trusted, right? So why does it feel like the one with her felt so… Hollow?
TW/s: delusional thinking, yandere tendencies, unrequited love, toxic dynamic/s, Heizou is fucked up in the head, short term isolation, pre heikazu matchup, nsfw tws include horrific imagery, body horror, arson, mutilation(?). Please dni if you are uncomfortable.
NOTE FROM HR: Happy late Valentine’s Day, miss Phitre (@a-dose-of-phitre). It seems your date went well with Heizou, but I’m rather concerned with how you’re looking right now. Is it just me, or did you plan to go with someone else?
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Heizou is regarded by a lot of people for his expertise and quick wits as a detective. That in and of itself is normal, considering how he seems to excel in those aspects. However, what they don’t seem to remember about him is that he’s a bit of a trickster to the people he found… Fun to be with.
Don’t get him wrong, he likes doing it all in harmless fun. He doesn’t enjoy taking things too far if he could really help it, and to him, he didn’t want to put his recent dates through the horrific things he can do. But for some of them, they like stepping a bit too far from those boundaries he set for their sake.
One such incident is actually days before that happened. He has always wanted to save the ones he loved the most for last, since he thought that it felt more fitting to savor the time with his beloved, Kazuha.
“Oho? It seems that my partner in crime is up bright and early! And here I thought I have to get you again,” he told the woman as they met up by the park, grinning madly upon seeing her try to catch her breath. “Oh dear, relax, breathe. I’m not going to leave you behind, Febronia.”
His date, though, huffed. Catching her breath, the woman turned her head to face the cheeky detective, hitting his arm in return.
“Yeah, but not when you decided that we’d meet this far from our usual spot!”
The latter laughed once again. Oh, he knew what he did wasn’t right, but can you blame him? He wanted to play a little joke on her, and their destination would take ages if they met up in their regular area to walk there.
He’d have to blame Sara for that. She had told him he couldn’t use his motorcycle due to too many joyrides, and to add insult to injury, she confiscated it back at the agency! He couldn’t even show his face to her when it happened, and even Kazuha has told him that it was only inevitable.
The horrors, he says! All because she didn’t know how to have a sliver of fun… What a tragedy indeed.
“Well, you’d have to thank Sara for keeping my ride from me. She’s the one who told me to quit it, saying that I was only doing it for my leisure. The audacity of her to assume that I'm not even doing my job, too!”
Febronia rolled her eyes, hitting his shoulder with a scoff. It was obvious that he was simply being a drama queen, which isn't foreign to the two of them.
… Although, maybe it should have. After all, Heizou isn't always the one to act such a way, right?
“Anyways, why don't we go and see what you want to show me? If we spend too much time here, we're bound to miss whatever appointment we have for the trip.”
“Haha, right you are, my partner. Right this way!”
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Arriving to their location, Febronia could tell that he has a preference with his choice of escape rooms. As a detective, he must be so keen and excited to be able to go through them, since he solves cases faster than a person can think.
Still… she did wonder if he remembered that she couldn't solve it, or to actually inform her that their venue would be so extravagant.
“Heizou, did you forget to tell me that this place would have a theme with masquerade?”
“Ah, I didn't,” he answered truthfully, snapping his fingers with a smile on his face. “Actually, I wanted to keep this as a surprise for you! After all, I've always thought about visiting a venue such as this, and we also have the appropriate attire before we head inside.”
Really now? She found it hard to believe. After all, this is the same man that knowingly hid this information from her, deeming that it isn't important. What a bother.
Still, by the sparkle in his eye, she found it hard to tell him no. It would simply be far too rude for her to turn him down when they're already at their destination.
“Okay, okay, fair enough,” Febronia answered, sighing. “I do hope you have the right outfit for us, mister detective. If you forgot about that, I'd seriously question if you want us to be shamed in there.”
“Nonsense,” he replied, patting her head with a cheeky grin. “It won't be that bad! All you need to do is just relax and have fun. After all, the outfits we'll get won't be too restricting… or even too eye-catching. I'd rather not have people stop us.”
Stop us?
“What do you mean by—”
“Anyways, here they are! Come, Watson!”
Heading inside, the masked guards simply nodded and stared at the dumbfounded date, this time out of confusion. He just cut her off, like he didn't want to hear her ask.
… What a strange predicament. She felt like something was up with him.
“Partner! Aren't you coming?”
Her eyes flitted over to the waiting Heizou, and she ran towards the entrance, ignoring the sorry looks of the masked men that followed the detective.
“Sorry, I got distracted,” she apologized to Heizou, but he simply shook his head. Holding her hand, he smiled and spoke, “It's alright. Anyway, let me lead the way.”
Walking down the empty halls, her eyes trailed down to their hands. Although hers were warm, Heizou’s felt… cold. Like there was no semblance of body heat coming out of them, or maybe he's not as warm there than other parts of his body.
Still, it made her worried. He doesn't talk much about himself, and this set of one of the many alarm bells in her head.
However, she kept quiet. She didn't want to make this awkward as is.
Arriving at the dressing room, he let her in first before he followed inside. Closing the door behind him, they were greeted with the multiple closets and drawers of clothes of all kinds: dresses, suits, gowns, and even others that aren't tied to the masquerade theme.
She reached over to one of the clothes, eyeing it then putting it on her body. It looked a bit short, so she dropped it.
“I'll go ahead and change in the bathroom,” he told her, opening the door to her left. “Just knock if you're done, okay, Watson?”
“Alright. It'll take a while before I can get dressed, so I hope you're fine with waiting.”
“Haha, I won't!”
It was only when he left that she turned her attention to the dresses, eyeing each and every one of them. Some were too gaudy, too revealing, and a few were just… nonsensical.
Sifting through each and every article of cloth she was given, Febronia’s brows furrowed in confusion. There were far too few that fit her taste, and it felt like she would be stuck there forever if she couldn't find something that fits her.
Then, she stops as she stares at the dress that fits her style well.
Granted, it was a pale white dress, the beading and accessories were that of crystals and golden leaves. There were even feathers that are on it, and combined with the heels and how it was tailored, it covered her enough that she could breathe but have the right places shown.
It was also not a form fitting dress, so she was relieved. The weirdest thing, though, is the veil of the mask that came with it. It was almost as though it wanted to cover her face.
Taking the dress and its mask, she looked down at the others and shrugged, turning around to put it on. The dress smelled nice, like it was freshly doused in mild perfume and washed as well.
Come to think of it, it looked cleaner than the ones she had to check. It's almost like it had been deliberately picked and hidden so she could find it.
What a strange coincidence. She felt like something isn't going so well because of how fortunate the tides have gone in her favor. Alas, it may just be a simple fluke or something of the sort.
As she discarded her original attire and put it on, she felt the weight of heaviness prior leave as it was on her body. And she was right—it fit her like a glove, and it complimented her body well. Though, looking at the colors, she's reminded of what a dove would look with it's pearly white condition.
God, I hope I don't stain this. It probably costs a fortune to even clean the slightest bit of stain here, too.
Walking to the door with her new get up and the heels that came with it (she swore she'd fall, so she needed to take her time walking in them), she knocked on the door.
Knock, knock.
“Heizou? I'm done changing! Are you done yet?”
… Nothing.
She knocked again.
Knock, knock.
“Heizou? Come on, this isn't funny.”
No response. The lights are flickering, but she paid no heed. She needed to see what was going on.
Knock, knock.
Knock, knock.
“Hey! Answer me, Heizou!”
This time, she turned the knob of the door, and was surprised that it wasn't even locked. No, she could open it.
What the hell?
Pushing the door, she rushed inside, catching a whiff of metallic and soot. Coughing, she swiped her hand so she could see and breathe clearly, and her eyes simply widened at the sight before her.
Heizou wasn't inside, but the room was up in flames. Some of the items were already burnt down, and the flames were reaching to the walls and on the door.
Stumbling out, she dashed to the exit and found that it was jammed. Febronia could only panic as the flames got out and entered the room she was inside.
“Heizou?! Heizou?!”
Slamming the door, she began to try and find something to use. Grabbing the chair, she began to slam it repeatedly, but to no avail.
Tossing it to the fire, it traveled to the clothes she discarded and it began to melt, letting the terrible stench of plastic greet her and make her wheeze. Some even traveled to where she was, touching the glass heels and plastic dress she wore.
Then, the flames got to her skin.
The pain of being burned alive was making her scream. She tried to put it down, but it went further up, making her let out cries. Some descended from below to her head, setting her hair up on fire.
The flames and plastic got to her form, to which she was only greeted with the feeling of pure and utter agony.
It hurts to be burnt alive. It was a fate she wouldn't want anyone to have, as her skin was becoming nothing but charred. And God, did it hurt. It was even worse with the plastic melting in her.
Her eyes began to bulge as she heaved, crumbling onto the ground. She needed to breathe fresh air, but all she could even get was smoke that filled her lungs.
What ripped from her throat was screams of anguish and rage, blaming the one that led her there— the damned detective, who left her for dead.
… Which was funny, for even she can't blame him. After all, had she paid attention, she would've found out the truth of the detective she's with.
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Several investigators came to the scene after the locals have brought up the concern of hearing screams late at night. It had been days after the incident that led to the manor burning, and they wanted to see what was left behind.
An anonymous tipper has left them something vital to investigate, especially for the disappearance of Phitre, a lady who was last seen being with “Heizou”.
When they got to the scene of the crime, one of them leaned over to the burnt plastic that was made to be dresses and cringed at the stench. Some were not even taken care of, and it was almost like it had been taken decades ago.
However, what caught their eye was the mask laid next to a charred, disfigured and melted body. It smelled the same as it had been prior, and even when the dress melted into the skin of the victim, the mask remained pristine.
The only difference, though, are two pairs of jeweled eyes that stared right back at them, like the corpse still looked at them with disdain in their soul.
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mulletmitsuya · 2 years
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Toman groupchat
Warnings: suggestive! the word dick is here a lot, swearing
Desc: some people don't like that kazutora and hanma r friends
Kazutora: your balls r kinda small
Kazutora: nvm it's the angle
Kazutora: these pics r goofy as hell💀
Kazutora: but they're good ig, now stop spamming me with dick picks
Mitsuya: ....??
Mikey: hello??????
Baji: 🤨
Chifuyu: 😐
Draken: uhhhh
Kazutora: LMAO
Kazutora: wrong chat
Mikey: who was that suppose to be sent to??
Kazutora: uhm
Kazutora: y'all don't like him, and i don't wanna start a fight so i won't say anything
Chifuyu: i'll break up with you
Baji: yeah
Kazutora: HUH
Kazutora: WHY?
Chifuyu: because some dude is sending you dick pics???? wtf Tora
Baji: yeah wtf Tora
Baji: it's basically cheating
Baji: this hurts more than that time you stabbed me
Kazutora: ok fine, don't be mad tho😐
Mitsuya: don't you guys have a separate groupchat for relationship stuff? this doesn't seem like it has anything to do with us
Baji: stfu Mitsuya
Mikey: i'd like if we got back to the point ☺
Baji: it's none of your business shrimpy
Mikey: then leave the groupchat😐
Mikey: and i'm not fucking shrimpy
Mikey: if someone calls me shrimpy one more time, i'll nuclear kick you into orbit
Draken: but
Mitsuya: you're are kinda shrimpy
Baji: lol
Baji: Kazutora
Kazutora: what?
Chifuyu: i'm losing patience
Kazutora: it's Shuji
Chifuyu: 😀
Baji: who's Shuji??
Mikey: Kazutora istg
Kazutora: dude chill
Draken: HANMA????
Mitsuya: wtf why is Hanma sending you dick pics
Kazutora: we're friends
Draken: not an explanation?
Draken: i'm friends with all of you but i wouldn't do that??? i dont think anyone would do that??
Kazutora: well it should be a thing
Baji: BRO FUCKING HANMA??
Baji: THAT CREEP??
Kazutora: yeah
Chifuyu: the one who helped plot Baji-sans murder 🙂
Kazutora: we all make mistakes
Kazutora: i was the one who attempted the actual murder but look
Kazutora: you all love and accept me for my mistakes and flaws haha
Kazutora: right?
Draken: he-
Draken: he's tried to kill me several times?
Draken: he tried to kill Emma??
Kazutora: he's just goofy bro
Smiley: i'm late but i really fucking hate that guy
Smiley: just something about the way he looks
Smiley: it doesn't sit right with me
Kazutora: Smiley, you have naturally orange hair😐
Smiley: what about it
Smiley: at least i'm not evil
Smiley: wait nvm
Smiley: i'll have to sit this one out
Mitsuya: Kazutora, cut ties with that dude, seriously
Kazutora: but guys, he's so funny
Kazutora: we're besties
Kazutora: he likes leopard print 🙁
Kazutora: you guys are being so toxic rn
Kazutora: why r u being so insecure, we're just friends
Baji: bro
Baji: HE'S SENDING YOU PICTURES OF HIS DICK?
Draken: if my boyfriend was receiving pictures of a dick that wasn't mine, i'd be pissed too
Draken: do you genuinly not see the problem with this
Kazutora: why did u say boyfriend Draken? are you gay?
Kazutora: what if i tell Emma about this? huh? what then?
Kazutora: was she right this entire time? worrying about Mikey? wow
Mikey: what are you talking about rn?💀
Draken: why are you trying to change the subject
Draken: and for your information, Emma knows i'm bi, so is she
Draken: we ACTUALLY communicate
Mikey: Emma's gay??
Draken: guess it runs in the family🙂
Mikey: 😐
Kazutora: ughhhhh
Kazutora: fine i'll tell him to stop sending me nudes ig
Kazutora: you guys are so boring🙄
Baji: maybe stop being friends with him completely?
Kazutora: 😒
Kazutora: fine (lying)
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skygirlstars · 4 days
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❤️🧡💛🏳️‍🌈 for unpopular asks game!
yayy thank you for the ask!! this was so fun. it's yappin' time
❤️: Which character do you think is the most egregiously mischaracterized by the fandom?
this is a tough one because there's so many lol. Barriss (not a villain), Han (not a player), literally SO many of the Jedi, the list goes on. but I think Luke is one of the most interesting cases because I feel he's mischaracterized in different ways by different sides of the fandom. there's the dudebros who think he's just badass, which he is, but nothing else. his most important character trait is quite literally his compassion because it drives the plot of the whole OT. he's a kind and empathetic person, not some embodiment of toxic masculinity bullshit. on the other hand, there's the poor little meow meowfication and infantilization of him from another side of the fandom. yes he's a ray of sunshine but that doesn't mean he can't be tough too!!! he's nice but he also has zero tolerance for bullshit, is headstrong and stubborn, and the furthest thing from shy. many people (myself included) headcanon him as gay or bi and that characterization of him also enforces really harmful stereotypes and narratives about queer men. so in summary, a lot of the fandom mischaracterizes him through a lens of either toxic masculinity or harmful stereotypes. not fun. that got way longer than it was supposed to be, whoops 🙃
🧡: What is a popular (serious) theory you disagree with?
in-universe: that Padmé was somehow manipulated into loving Anakin, whether by Anakin subconsciously using the Force, or by Palpatine, or whatever. nope, my girl Padmé just has horrendous taste in men (case in point: my least favorite SW character, Clovis 🤢). she saw the red flags and decided red was her favorite color. stay delusional queen. out-of-universe: DISNEY LUCASFILM IS NOT GOING TO RETCON THE SEQUELS FFS. that is the dumbest shit I've ever heard sorry not sorry. Disney admitting they made something not good??? not possible. I can't believe people still honestly believe this. the sequels are not my faves either but with the amount of money made off them anyway, a retcon is not happening
💛: What is a popular ship you just can't get behind, and why?
do we consider Reylo popular??? it's very divisive so idk if it counts. but I hate it lol, it's the yucky toxic BookTok type of enemies to lovers. bro deadass tortured her. me personally, I wouldn't let that slide. they also feel like Force cousins or something in a weird roundabout way...? we've already had one incestuous kiss in SW, don't need another. also Rey is lesbian imo. if we're not counting Reylo as popular, I quite dislike Sabezra just because I see them very much as siblings. honestly, any ship where I see the characters as siblings feels icky to me -- Anisoka, Rexsoka, Obikin, etc (although siblings vibes is not my only complaint with those examples, unlike Sabezra).
🏳️‍🌈: Which character who is commonly headcanoned as queer doesn't seem queer to you?
quite honestly I think this is the hardest one for me because I headcanon so many characters as queer HAHA. my personal philosophy for fictional characters is bi until proven otherwise lol. maybe Ben Solo/Kylo? idk how much he's HCed as queer but I think he and Hux are shipped fairly often and I just don't see it lol. that's a straight man, I'm afraid. but he's really the only one I can think of off the top of my head, though I'm sure there are more
here's the original ask game if anyone else wants to have a go or wants me to answer any others (please send me asks I love asks I love yapping)
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esprei · 1 year
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have recently learned there's a bit more hate around trainwreckshipping than i was aware of so i guess i just wanted to talk about it a bit and give my two cents on the ship, how i see it and i guess my perspective on things. i've kind of always wanted to talk about it, but i just haven't been brave enough until now haha (sorry, i am not super eloquent when it comes to writing things like this so my apologies) ((also throwing it under a cut because it may get long and might also include some slightly sad-ish things so i don't want to just throw that in everyone's face you know))
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i think i'll just preface things by saying i've always totally understood why trainwreckshipping has gotten so much flack since its inception. or hate, because maybe flack just isn't strong enough of a word. but i do understand. there were mischaracterizations of emmet by portraying him as violent to volo because it was assumed that volo was directly responsible for ingo's disappearance. i was guilty of it. suuuuuper guilty. and i can understand why that put the ship in such a position for many people. toxic, unhealthy, etc. but... i think what i'm a bit confused on i guess is the fact that it's still viewed so much this way to this day. viewed as one of the worst ships because of how toxic it is. how unhealthy it is. all because it started that way in fanon only. but you know, from a canon standpoint, it has nothing. nothing at all. so really, this ship could be anything because it's based in fanon only. no canon interactions of emmet and volo exist yet. there is no official basis on how these characters would interact with each other. and yes, while there were misunderstandings of both characters early on, that certainly doesn't mean it's still that way today. that doesn't mean that people haven't studied and looked at these two characters a little closer to understand them better and to try and make them more realistic to their canon portrayals. to make more accurate depictions of these characters and how that fits in to a healthier perspective with them. i dunno. it just kinda baffles me that with the variety of trainwreckshipping content out there now, some still call it toxic and unhealthy as if we're perpetually stuck in that time period of when it was. like it's not allowed to be anything but that ever just because it started that way. and what makes me the saddest about it all is now seeing so many friends and people in the community of the ship start to get disheartened and discouraged from enjoying something they really actually enjoy because there's still such a bad stigma to the ship. personally for a long time i've just ignored that stigma because i try not to let that stuff drag me down. but i will admit that yes, it has made me more reluctant to post any art i do of it. i've definitely had my periods where i've questioned uploading my emmet/volo art, usually as wholesome as it is, because it does have such a dark cloud around it fandom wise. it's why i made my side blog, in fact. because i just didn't feel very comfortable uploading mostly emmet/volo art here to my main because so many people dislike it or outright hate it.
and in regards to the ship itself, i think i've always thought of it in a slightly different way than most. not so much enemies to lovers but rather through the lens of how volo might could change, be redeemed, see the how his actions in the past inadvertently affected others (and by that I mean his involvement in opening the rift... like yes, that could be what caused ingo to be sent to hisui, but we don't know that for sure... and even if that was the case, volo didn't do it specifically to target ingo. volo was only ever interested in trying to get to arceus and build a better world in his vision).
or how volo could look at emmet after getting to know him and potentially see the beauty and value of the current world through him. you know, seeing someone like emmet and admiring that he can still find a reason to smile and be kind despite all of the pain and suffering he must have gone through since ingo's disappearance. volo starting to see a different perspective than he did before (aka wanting to build a new world because the current one was too full of pain and suffering) because of emmet. i dunno. that's just me personally. because since actually looking more at volo's character and his dialogue in game i've been real interested in redemption paths for him. exploring those possibilities. i just enjoy exploring said possibilities mostly through the dynamic i have in my head for him and emmet because it's fun. it interests me. i see cool potential in it. i enjoy it a lot. and while i don't think i ever portray volo super accurately, or even emmet for that matter, i still think i've come a long way since first finishing pla and ever looking at emmet/volo interactions. but regardless of all of that, that's the beauty of a ship of this nature. a ship that has absolutely no basis in canon. because it really can be anything you want it to be. it can be enemies to lovers, it can be more wholesome, it can be whatever. it's not locked into a specific dynamic because the characters have never officially met each other, let alone had a conversation. and even if that were the case... AUs are still a thing. :D
anyway that's pretty much all i had. just wanted to talk about it a bit because i've seen a recent uptick in people mentioning all of the hate and dislike for the ship etc and i dunno. i enjoy the ship a lot. it's just sad to see that there's still so much hate around it even though a lot of the content now is not like how it originally started. not from what i've seen, at least.
and while i don't expect anyone who hates it to ever warm up to it, i just wish it could be understood that the more toxic, unhealthy dynamic is not the basis of anymore. there are healthier portrayals of it now.
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valfeathers · 1 year
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OMG YOUR ART IS SO GOOD! Gonna go on a reblog spree tomorrow or something <3<3<3
Anywho, care to share some (more) of your opinions on Wammy's House? Saw a few text posts and they caught my interest 👀
Like, how do you think L feels about his successors or something. Or just rant about why you hate Watari and Roger (omg or more BB talk LOVE that). I dunno I can just ell your opinions/takes are *chef's kiss*
i'm so sorry this took so long but!! i had no idea where to start lmao
i spend so much time just thinking about L in any capacity,, i mean it, he occupies a scary amount of my waking thoughts (blame the autism)
so for starters, as much as i shit on wammy's and its terrible negligence, i find myself putting L & the successors into little found family scenarios & i often draw them all together
(eg. here's some older sketches of L & the kids)
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now i know that canonically they probably (definitely) weren't like this but,, i want them all to be loved
i can understand why/how other people would have a different interpretation of their dynamic, but portraying L as a mentor/brother/father figure is very near & dear to my heart :'))
(this is also partly projection as i'm an eldest son who loves their sibling & wants the best for them, who also deeply relates to L so do with that what you will haha)
most of my wammy family art is for comfort! and maybe it can comfort other people too :')))
maybe one day i'll come back & explain the extent of my hcs about this dynamic but i'm not confident in my ability to like. word my thoughts coherently yet so !! for now u get art & some surface level stuff :)
but anyways, sometimes i question what being at the centre of a program like that must feel like. i try not to overanalyse L's backstory and dictate what he must have thought because i know that he's a complicated character and a lot of his morality/actions are up for debate but like,,,
having your guardians look for a replacement for you while you're still alive? that's like saying 'we're just waiting for you to die/mess up/become useless to us and then when that happens, we can instantly replace you with a new & improved version'
even if they were trying to do a classic 'heir' system where a person inherits L's position and this wasn't meant to send that kind of message,, the environment that was produced is still incredibly toxic. that still isn't good. they used children. malleable, vulnerable orphans. that's no coincidence.
and idk that's a little messed up to me.
i don't really know how else to word my thoughts on this situation rn? i just acknowledge that that's no way to treat a person and move on bc,, what else can i say? :'/ it's a terrible situation for everybody involved and watari (& roger) are fucked up for creating a cycle of abuse and putting L right in the centre of it.
and a prime example of how damaging this system was is B. he wasn't born hateful and vindictive and violent, something made him that way. we are all products of our environments, and his was inhumane by definition.
this post is getting long as fuck, jesus,,, okok i'll wrap this up by saying that i'll expand on B at a later date
and reminding u that this is my interpretation and you're free to disagree! we all read into characters & their relationships differently
but yeah a lot of my thoughts about them tend to be really sad so i pad it out with sweeter stuff like above!
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howlingday · 10 months
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The Most Toxic? No!
Setting - Nora Valkyrie loves to play Mario Party with her friends, but she can be kinda... TOXIC. So they made a challenge where she must be NICE, and if she isn't, she has to skip on the star for that turn. Here's how it goes...
Getting started - 0
Weiss: So, if you have to be nice...
Nora: Weiss! No! It doesn't start until we choose the map, so stay away from my Daisy!
Weiss: Oh, really? Shouldn't you start now?
Nora: No, because I got to choose the theme for this game, which means it's my game, WHICH MEANS I'M DAISY!
Weiss: Hm... Fair point. Uh, counter-point. (Chooses Princess Daisy)
Nora: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Weiss: Up-bup-bup! You have to be nice to me. You can't give me any sass.
Jaune: Come on, Weiss, be nice. Let her be Princess Daisy.
Weiss: But-
Nora: Please! It's canon that I'm Queen Daisy!
Weiss: If you want it, you have to nice.
Nora: No, because I already told you that I'm not starting being nice until we choose the map. Having said that, give me Queen Daisy or I burn your house to the ground with you inside of it. NOW!
Weiss: And what's stopping you from saying, "Oh, it doesn't start until Turn 5"? Or Turn 12? Or until next game?
Jaune: Weiss, just give her Princess Daisy.
Weiss: Fine. You're both really cringe. (Unselects Princess Daisy)
Nora: (Chooses Princess Daisy) Thank you. You're so nice~!
Jaune: See? We're all one, big, happy family.
Yang: Fuck that! I want VIOLENCE!
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Nora: (Princess Daisy) Okay. Starting now, you will see, "Nice Nora".
Weiss: (Luigi) Uh-huh, and get ready for "Super-Toxic Weiss".
Yang: (Wario) Please, Ice Queen, you should get ready for "ULTRA-TOXIC YANG"!
Jaune: (Yoshi) I'm Yoshi.
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Rolling Roles - 1
Nora: Six!
Yang: Nine!
Nora: Sixty-nine?
Weiss: Seven!
Jaune: WHOO! I GOT TEN!
Yang: Nora going last? That's embarrassing.
Nora: Yeah. Yeah, it is pretty unfortunate.
Yang: I'm filling in for Nora.
Weiss: Yeah, because we've been stuck with this imposter!
Nora: I'm just happy to have fun here, playing Mario Party with my best pals! I'm here for a good time.
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Jaune: Okay, here we go...
Nora: Great roll, Jaune!
Jaune: Aw, thank you, Nora! Thank you so much!
Nora: You gotta teach me some time!
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Jaune: Aw, man... I wanted the custom dice.
Nora: Yay! Go, Jaune! Double Dice are a great item, King!
Weiss: PFFT!
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Yang: Alright, big rolls, big rolls...! Shit! Why am I getting low rolls?!
Nora: Yo, next time, Yang. Next time, Queen. It-It wasn't meant to be, y'know? It's not easy, but you'll pull through.
Weiss: Ugh, this is so gross seeing you like this. You're like some kind of gross parody, like gray Ruby.
Nora: Haha!
Yang: (Bland) Aw, what's the point?
Weiss: MOTHERFU- HOW DID I ROLL SO FUCKING LOW?!
Yang: Really? A 1? That's embarrassing! Wait... Uh oh...
Jaune: Weiss, how are you already so toxic on just Turn 1?!
Yang: And just like that, we're all behind Nora.
Nora: Wow. You know, maybe kindness is the move.
Jaune: Right?
Nora: ...Okay, maybe not.
Weiss: Wow, Nora! You rolled so low! Doesn't that make you want to... flip a table?
Nora: Uh, no, because I'm gonna get ten coins.
Nora: ...Or a Double Dice. That's still good.
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Yang: WHY DID I DIE?!
Weiss: WHERE DID I GO?!
Nora: Yay, we did it, Jaune! Let's go~!
Weiss: AT MY EXPENSE!
Nora: Weiss, Yang, y'all got it next time, Queens. Don't worry!
Weiss: FUCK YOU!
Jaune: Hey! Whoa!
Nora: Wow. That really hurt my feelings. Very uncalled for.
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Toxic Rise - 2
Jaune: Geez, Weiss! Why are you so toxic, and it's not even Turn 2?!
Yang: Okay... Hidden block? ...DAMMIT, COME ON, MAN!
Weiss: Hup! What the shit?! I rolled a one and a two! I guarantee I'll get a three next turn, and then a four.
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Jaune: Wait, what am I supposed to do here?
Weiss: Just be better.
Jaune: I- I actually can't do anything to you guys! It's frustrating! And you're just camping the same spot!
Nora: Jaune, this game is really hard. Especially when you are the one in this one-v-four. So you know what? You did your best, King. It's okay.
Weiss: Ugh... What a cringelord.
Jaune: (Sniffles) That is actually the nicest thing you've ever said to me... Thank you~!
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FLASHBACK
Nora: JAUNE!
Nora: Shut the fuck up, Jaune! Don't ever talk to me again!
Nora: Shut up, Jaune!
Nora: Jaune, how are you so bad at this game? It's literally aim and shoot! You are so bad, it's embarrassing!
Nora: No, Jaune is over. He should've gotten last. I don't know why he's-
Jaune: What are you talking about?!
Nora: Let's go, Jaune~! I'm happy for you, King!
Jaune: No you aren't!
END OF FLASHBACK
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Toxicity Builds - 3
Weiss: DUST FUCKING DAMN IT! A THREE?! What, did the game fucking hear me?!
Yang: Pfft! You actually rolled a three!
Nora: Come on eleven! ...Darn.
Weiss: I think if you really wanted to be not toxic, you should give the star to me. Right, Nora?
Nora: Uh, there's a difference between being non-toxic and throwing.
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Nora: Oh, it's this game. I don't like this game, so for the sake of remaining toxic free, I'm not going to ground pound anyone.
Weiss: Really? It must make you frustrated. Couldn't you just... KILL SOMEONE?
Yang: ...What?
Weiss: Poor, little Nora, constantly caught on the bottom of my foot. Doesn't that make you mad with your two points?
Nora: No... No, I'm... I'm happy.
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Toxic Love - 4
Nora: Wait, who won the last game?
Yang: Me.
Nora: Way to go on that last game, Yang. You've always been the most skilled at the game. Like, all the time.
Yang: Oh, well, uh, thanks, Nora. Oh! Nora, check it out! It's Turn 4-20!
Nora: AHAHAHAHAHA! THAT'S SO FUNNY, YANG!
Jaune: Do we have to do this?
Weiss: Wow! That was so funny, I forgot to laugh.
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Weiss: Please don't be a four... Oh! Well, that's good. It's not a low roll, at least.
Nora: Hidden dice block?
Weiss: YES!
JY: NOOOOO!
Jaune: NORA, YOU WERE TOO NICE!
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Nora: I get the first star? How lucky am I?
Weiss: Yes, congratulations, Nora. Perhaps you'd also like to... rub your victory in our faces?
Nora: ...I do. But I won't. Because I'm a nice person.
Nora: So nice that maybe I could get myself a hidden dice block~?
Nora: Aw...
Weiss: No, you already gave your hidden dice block to me, remember? I appreciate that, by the way. It was very nice of you.
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Toxic Up to Bottom - 5
Nora: You got a star, Yang! You're in first! Honestly, I couldn't choose a better rival. You're way better than me.
Yang: Aw, thanks, Nora. I can just tell you are SEETHING with pent up anger. You really want to tell me how bad I am!
Nora: No, no... But now the star is so close to you, Weiss! You just need a five or above!
Weiss: Well, it is Turn 5, so you never know if- FUCK! Ugh! Why me?!
Yang: Just get your item, Ice Queen.
Nora: Ooh, be careful on this one, Weiss. Items can be hard to get here. But you got this because I believe in you.
Weiss: I also believe in me. In fact, I believe I'll get exactly what I deserve.
Weiss: YES!
JY: NOOOOOOOOO!
Nora: Wow! Way to go, Weiss! You won a cursed dice block!
Weiss: Thank you, Nora, but the real winner is you because YOU won a cursed dice block.
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Weiss: Wow, you almost messed up on jump ten? How embarrassing would that be, Nora?
Nora: Uh, it would be unfortunate, but it would also be a valid loss because this game is very tricky. Very tricky! VERY TRICKY!
Weiss: Oh! F in the chat for Nora!
Nora: I didn't want anyone else to get last, so I took it for you.
Weiss: Uh-huh, sure.
Jaune: Aw, thanks, Nora! You're too kiIIIIND!
Weiss: Whoa! I almost burned myself!
Jaune: YEAH, SO MAYBE YOU SHOULD STOP TALKING, WEISS?! STOP TALKING!
Yang: I can do this all day, Weiss-Cream!
Weiss: I can do this all da- Shit! Shit! FUCK!
Yang: Damn. We almost made it to a hundred. We could've tied.
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Toxic Snowball - 6
Jaune: WHAT THE-?!
Weiss: Yang, you actually saved me! Oh, but I can't say thank you because that would be nice, though. I will, however, repay the favor. Oh, one sec.
Weiss: Hi, Nora.
Nora: NONONO-!
Weiss: Bye, Nora.
Nora: You didn't have to go right for me!
Yang: Okay, good game, Weiss.
Weiss: Wait! No! I CAN'T MOVE!
Yang: Okay, good game, Weiss.
Weiss: I'M STUCK! HELP!
Nora: Thank you, Yang, for avenging me.
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Next Toxic - 9
Weiss: I may have lost the last time, and the second time, and the third time-
Jaune: And the next day! And the next day! And the next day!
Yang: Pfft! That show can be used for any reference.
Jaune: And the next- FUCK!
Nora: Jaune, it's okay, King, you'll get them next time.
Jaune: And the next day! And the next day! And the next day!.
Nora: Pfft!
Weiss: Give in to the hate, Nora. There's no way you can be nice after watching such a sheer failure like-
Jaune: SHUT THE HELL UP, WEISS!
Jaune: Look, Ice Queen! I am flustered like you wouldn't believe! I've had technical issues out the wazoo, AND I DON'T NEED YOU TO RUB SALT IN MY WOUND!
Nora: Exactly. Jaune is under a lot of stress, so we should cut him some slack.
Jaune: NORA, I KNOW YOU'RE DOING A BIT, BUT THANK YOU!
Nora: Jaune, it isn't a bit. It's me being very genuine.
Weiss: Ah, and here comes Nora to pour honey in the wound.
Yang: Wait, honey in the wound?
Weiss: I was going for something like the opposite of salt-
Yang: FUCK!
Weiss: And with Yang out of the way, this will be my FIRST MARIO PARTY WIN OF THIS GAME! AAAAAH! I'M AMAZING AT THIS!
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Toxic, Toxic, Toxic, SHOOT - 10
Nora: I knew how bad you wanted to win, Weiss, so I threw that last game. Good job!
Weiss: I don't believe you. I think you actually lost because you are actually very bad at this game.
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Weiss: Wait, wait, wait! You could steal from me, oooooor you could turn this into content!
Jaune: You're right, I could, so I'm letting you and Yang decide who I take from.
Weiss: Okay, then we'll decide this right now! Yang, play Rock, Paper, Scissors with me!
Yang: What?! Why am I being involved in this?!
Weiss: Ready? Three! Two! One! Shoot! Roc-
Yang: Paper.
Weiss: Okay, okay, that's a point to you. Three! Two! One! Rock!
Yang: Paper.
Weiss: WHAT THE FUCK?! WHO PICKS PAPER TWICE IN A ROW?!
Yang: WHO THE HELL PICKS ROCK TWICE IN A ROW?!
Jaune: Doesn't matter! We all know what this means! Thanks for playing, Weiss~!
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Melting Point - 19
Yang: Alright. Chance time.
Nora: Oh man... My life is in the hands of Yang! Please...
Yang: Okay. Star...
Weiss: Me... Me... Me...
Yang: Aaaand... Boop!
Nora:
YES! YES! YES! SUCK MY FUCKING DICK! LET'S FUCKING GO!
Weiss: That sounded toxic! Nora, that sounded so toxi- WHAT THE FUCK?!
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!
Weiss: ...I'm out. I'm done.
Nora: GET FUCKED, WEISS! GET FUCKED! YOU ARE SO FUCKING TRASH AT THIS FUCKING GAME!
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Nora: I... I am crying right now... Weiss, can you imagine being in LAST PLACE with ZERO STARS?! THAT'S EMBARRASSING!
Jaune: HAHAHAHA! SHE DID IT!
Weiss: YOU FUCKING CUNT!
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Weiss: Guys~! Guys~!
Jaune: I'M ROTATING, DAMMIT!
Yang: WHAT?!
Nora: YOU ARE ALL FUCKING ASS, BRO! PLEASE QUIT THE FUCKING GAME! NEVER PLAY THIS GAME AGAIN!
Jaune: H-Her toxic powers are making her too strong...
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Remedy- Final
Nora: Hey, uh, Jaune, you're gonna go random with the star steal, right?
Jaune: I'm sorry, Nora, but you revealed your true colors!
Nora: Nooooooo!
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Nora: Wait... I'm gonna get blasted?!
Jaune: Good! It's about time someone blasted the toxicity out of you!
Weiss: Oh, I'm going to enjoy this.
Nora: NOOOOOO! DAISYYYYYYYYY!
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Weiss: I'll let you two handle this. I'll just sit here and watch.
Nora: Jaune, we can't let Yang win!
Jaune: Agreed! Let's do this!
Yang: Hup! Hup!
Nora: NOOOO!
Jaune: FUCK!
Nora: I FUCKING HATE YOU, WEISS!
Jaune: I HATE YOU, TOO, WEISS!
Weiss: Oh, you know me; just doing a little trolling~.
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Results
Jaune: Wait, there's a shopping bonus?
Nora: Pretty sure that's you, Jaune. Unless it's me, but I'm pretty sure you- YES! YES!
YOU GUYS FUCKING SUCK! LET'S GO! NEVER PLAY THIS GAME AGAIN! I WIN! I'M CRAZY!
Nora: IN THE END! TOXICITY WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER WIN!
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Thank you for proving my point.
A Tae anti who always think he's the bad guy in your jkk story with always bad intentions. Exactly like tkks making jimin the villain in tkk. I hope you can see how the both sides of you are toxic, pitting members against eo. Grow up. The ML, all the 7 love each other more than you or any army in this fandom have ever loved them. We're just an outsiders who they let us in. So who are you to explain and pinpoint Tae's intention toward jikook? Let jikook see you talking about him this way haha we're gonna love to see their reactions. Especially from you a hater who'll only set up bad claims about him and always take his actions in a bad way when all what he does is maybe just talking about his members whom the armys grew up with and would love to know about. But you only fixated on him brining up jk right bc God forbid that he and jk are close as friends, who their bond is also popular and loved by majority of armys (it doesn't have to be bc of shipping) who they also happened to be the only 2 members who have had free time and naturally decided to have fun together instead of being all alone all day.
Just to expand your knowledge, or to reminde you about things that it might help brush off the evil speculations you have on Taehyung. Do you know how much he also talked about Jin in his lives when no one would ask? Just from the first part of his recent live of him he was only waiting for Jin and didn't talk to armys until Jin came and only talked to jin? And when Jin had to go he also said he wants to turn off the live but the comment section kept asking him about "taennie" and he thought they meant "tannie" and showed them how's tannie doing lmaooo this was hilarious.
And the clueless ass of you don't know that when he goes live(where you cry why he's talking about jk), is actually and always bc of the comment section full of ppl asking about jk? Don't blame him if his comment section is only about jk and tkk. Just like when jk got questions in instg story about jm and jikook and he. Yeah, also it's when he once asked armys to talk and ask him about something new other than the shit he usually see in his comment section. He's also sick of tkks, believe me. You see, maybe when your head is clouded with negativity and someone else fill you in with more content and knowledge to know better about the one who you don't vibe with, at the end of the day, Tae isn't that bad, ay?
I can make up bad shit and call names about how, just from today, jk mistreated jm and the way he and tae were glued while jm was left alone in his own world. But I won't. Bc the deference between me and you is that, I'm not a jk anti. I don't assume and think bad of any members behaviors towards eo, bc I know how much they love eo and I trust them with eo. You guys and tkks should just free the ML atp. They deserve better.
Anon,
You should have just started your messages with this part and we would have finished our conversation faster:
"I can make up bad shit and call names about how, just from today, jk mistreated jm and the way he and tae were glued while jm was left alone in his own world."
You are vile. How did you even think of this? Because there was 0 indication of that happening. The only ones who could come up with this scenario are are tkkrs. And yes, your entire message is full of ttkr junk.
You are not here defending Tae because you love him, you are here because you hate Jimin.
Jk left Jimin alone? Is that what you all are thinking?
Ok:
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Let me make that clear for you:
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Jk was with Jimin. Making him laugh. Hovering like usual. Waiting for him when they exited.
Haven't you seen the countless times that Jk corrects Tae so his shippers don't get ideas? Like here:
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You think Jk doesn't know about the hate tkkrs like you spew? And that's why he debunks taekook and never mentions Tae anymore? I don't doubt their friendship but Jk doesnt feed the shippers like Tae does.
You think Tae doesn't know the cute name for his relationship with Jennie? Lololol
Jimin may love Jungkook or Tae or Suga or Hobi or whoever. Sure. But I am not Jimin and I don't have to love what Jimin loves. That's weird.
I'm not setting Tae up. He has set himself up. Im not the only one who sees his weird behavior. Lots and lots of people do. And yeah, I would call him out in front of Jikook and Tae too. Why wouldn't I?
Some people act like these men are perfect gods. You need to stop believing in celebrities, for reals.
Sure free the ML line, sure. Typical ot7 crap, typical tkkr crap. Jimin should be free from people like you.
Look, we don't call you vermin for no reason. I can tolerate "insecure jikookers", solos but not tkkrs like you.
So refrain from sending more asks because, either way, I will continue pointing out what Tae is doing. I will stop when he stops. How about that?
Thanks for stopping by.
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FIVE PRISONERS LEFT TO JUDGE!! LET'S GO!!
i have a feeling like i know what eiko's verdict is gonna be this time, but still.. i'm kinda curious to see where this goes! after eiko's trial ends, i'll be able to figure out how exactly kei, shun and eiko's dynamic will look in season 3 :) it won't be good either way
Warnings for Eiko's VD: None, except some mentions of toxic relationships
Warnings for Eiko's MV: I guess there is kind of, like.. a mention of animal death? It's not detailed though.
(sounds of footsteps)
Miki: .. Eiji-san, I think you should take a break.
Eiji: I'm fine. I told you I'm fi-
Miki: Does your arm hurt a lot? Let me check-
Eiji: DON'T TOUCH IT!
Miki: ...
Eiji: .. I'm sorry.
Eiji: It's just.. How? How did this happen? No, actually, how does this keep happening?
Eiji: First it was Shun, now it's Kei..
Miki: .. It's weird how you're the only guard that the prisoners are allowed to touch. 
Miki: Hmm..
Eiji: What, do you have any ideas?
Miki: O-oh, no, no, I-I'm not smart enough for that!
Miki: But, uh.. 
Miki: I have this thought, maybe.. So if there's something that protects us from the prisoners, do you think it's possible to.. "remove" it in some way? Or maybe "turn it off"?
Miki: And if that's possible, you most likely can turn it off for a specific guard, because, uh..
Miki: Well, when I'm in one room and you're in a different one, the prisoners are still not allowed to touch us, so.. Maybe those things work separately..
Miki: I-I don't know what I'm saying, I'm sorry-
Eiji: No, I.. I actually think you might be right.
Eiji: Obviously, there are people who are more powerful than us, you know, the people who created this place.
Eiji: And.. If they can give us as much power as we want..
Eiji: M-maybe they can take it from us too..
Eiji: "But why me?"
Eiji: "What did I do wrong? I'm more loyal to Milgram than Miki is, I've never questioned anything and-"
Eiji: ".. Unless we count that one time."
Miki: Eiji-san, so are you going to take a break?
Miki: I can interrogate Yoshioka-san, if you want-
Eiji: No, it's fine, let's do it together.
Eiji: .. I don't think she will try to hurt me anyway. It's not like I'm scared of it, obviously..
(the door opens)
Eiko: Ah, you're finally here!
Eiko: Hehe, I missed you two so much~ Eiji-kun, can I give you a hug?
Eiji: No. Sit back down.
Eiko: *sighs* You're as serious as ever. 
Eiko: So, the second trial, huh?
Eiko: .. You two look like you've gone through a lot. What happened?
Miki: I-it's fine, we're just a little tired..
Eiko: I can imagine. 
Eiko: Well, I'll try my best not to cause much trouble. Seriously, ask me anything you want.
Eiko: I've said it before and I'll say it again: I can just tell you everything about my crime. I have a lot of secrets, but my murder doesn't count as one.
Eiji: Okay, first question.
Eiji: .. Why are you so calm about it?
Eiko: What do you mean?
Eiji: If I'm not wrong, you said that if I vote you innocent, that will mean that I just want you to feel like you owe me something. 
Eiji: Or that I just want to feel good because I've saved.. uh..
Eiji: "A pretty woman like you", as you would say. 
Eiji: So why did you accept being forgiven by me so easily?
Eiko: ...
Eiko: *laughs* Well, Eiji-kun.. 
Eiko: I feel like I just knew that you will forgive me.
Eiko: And like, what did you expect me to say? Did you expect me to say "No, that's not the verdict I deserve"? Did you expect me to hate you?
Eiko: I'm seriously okay with anything. Forgive me, punish me, I still won't change my mind, so why bother?
Eiko: Also, I feel like it would be boring for you to punish someone as calm as me, so..
Eiko: Yeah, you forgiving me is not that big of a surprise.
Eiko: Honestly, sometimes I feel like.. 
Eiko: It's like I just know what verdict each prisoner is going to get and not just me.
Eiko: Haha, maybe I just know you really well.
Eiji: T-then, another question.
Eiji: .. What's going on with your relationship with Kei?
Eiji: A-and Shun too, I guess.
Eiko: .. Huh, well that's interesting.
Eiko: I wouldn't be surprised to hear a question like that from Miki-chan, but.. why are you so interested in it?
Eiko: I thought you don't really care about what happens to Kei?
Miki: I-I actually wanted to ask you that question-
Eiji: I'm just reminding you that I'm the one who's in charge of punishing the prisoners. Not you and not anyone else. Not even Guard 002 is allowed to do that.
Miki: (to Eiji) *whispers* T-that's because I don't even want to punish them!..
Eiji: (to Miki) *whispers* I know.
Eiko: Hm.. So you think that what I'm doing to Kei can be considered a "punishment"?
Eiko: *laughs* Well, to be honest, you're actually kinda right.
Eiji: Wait, what?
Eiko: You see, I thought long and hard about how I can thank you for forgiving me. 
Eiko: You know, like, I didn't even ask you to forgive me or anything. I just said that I will be okay with any verdict, but I was still voted innocent.
Eiko: And I don't know why you had decided to "save" me and I'm not sure if I even want to know that, but hey, that's still a nice thing to do, right? Especially when you're this cruel and sadistic guard who is hated by almost everyone here.
Eiko: So I was like, "What would make Eiji-kun the happiest man in the world?"
Eiko: And then I realized something.
Eiko: "It would be seeing his older brother in pain".
Eiko: Hehe, so, was I right?
Eiji: .. You're doing all of this for me?
Miki: Wait, but what about Ishizu-san? Eiji-san never really said anything about hating him-
Eiji: Now I hate him more than I ever did.
Eiko: Ah, about that guy. 
Eiko: *shrugs* Listen, I'm not even doing much. It's not like I asked him to make Kei's life worse or something. 
Eiji: But you're not really trying to stop him either.
Eiko: He makes my job easier, so again, why should I bother? I'm doing all of this for you, you know.
Eiji: Oh, so now you're just using me as an excuse?
Eiko: What Shun does is none of my business. That's his real self. 
Eiko: Honestly, if you want to blame someone, you have no one to blame but yourself and Miki-chan.
Eiji: *stands up* What are you trying to say-
Eiko: I'm trying to say that you and Miki-chan have way too much power here and you don't know what to do with it.
Eiko: Honestly, sometimes I look at you and think..
Eiko: .. "What kind of person was he before all of this happened?"
Eiko: I can see that you love being a guard a lot, Eiji-kun. But do you love it because you genuinely want to help this world become a better place or just because you have nothing else to do?
Eiko: .. Ah, I see.
Eiko: It's like.. your life finally has a purpose.
Eiji: .. Y-yes, and that purpose is-
Eiko: Yeah, yeah, you want all criminals to die a painful death, whatever. Seriously, Eiji-kun, I like you, but you need to get a hobby.
Eiko: Anyway, did you learn anything from my video? Do you know how my crime went now?
Eiji: Kind of. But yeah, it did look like you've killed someone for not being as good as you thought he would be.
Eiko: Yeah, that's exactly what happened.
Eiko: So, what else do you want to know?
Miki: .. What did you mean by him not being as perfect as you thought he would be?
Miki: Was he not attractive enough? Was he not smart enough?
Miki: I'm sorry, but I still find it confusing..
Eiko: No, no, it's okay, sweetie. 
Eiko: Well, let's see.. About his appearance: I guess some people would still think he's cute, but if you ask me, his looks were completely average. 
Eiko: And I don't think he was that smart. *laughs*
Eiko: I mean, he sure was manipulative, but I think it was his friends who helped him with everything. I doubt he came up with all of that himself.
Eiko: I still hate him though.
Miki: He manipulated you.. in what way?
Eiko: You see, at first we were just online friends. Nothing more, nothing less. We had a couple of common interests, though honestly, I think he just lied about his hobbies. That guy knew nothing about fashion, that's for sure.
Eiko: We started to bond over our problems too. 
Miki: Problems?..
Eiko: *nods* Like, yes, I love my family, my father is the kindest man I know, my little brother is adorable and I respect my mother a lot, but sometimes.. 
Eiko: They were a bit-
Eiko: .. Haha.
Eiko: I think I became someone who's so obsessed with everything being perfect because of them, to be honest.
Eiko: And he had a lot of problems too. So we talked about it and we became closer and closer.
Eiko: Eventually, we started falling in love. And this is the first time I've ever fell in love with someone.
Eiko: He promised me a lot of things. He said that he wants to make me the happiest woman in the world, he said that he will do anything to make me smile and that he just wants me to forget about everything that makes me sad.
Eiko: Romantic, isn't it? Well, then he stopped replying to my messages.
Eiji: What, did you kill him because he wasn't online for like two days?
Eiko: It's been four months.
Eiji: Oh.
Miki: F-four months?.. B-but did he read your messages? Was he even online?
Eiko: No, and that's what scared me. 
Eiko: He was that guy who couldn't live without social media, you know? So if there was something that could've made him stop using it for four months..
Eiko: That would mean he's most likely already dead.
Miki: .. But he was still alive, right?
Eiko: Yeah. But when I saw him for the first time, I thought..
Eiko:"It would be so much easier if you really were dead."
Miki: I just.. I want to know what exactly he did. 
Eiko: Well, let me ask you a question.
Eiko: Let's imagine there's someone who you really don't like. Maybe you're scared of them or maybe they're just annoying. But they still want to talk to you and they still want to become closer with you and you have to see them every single day of your life.
Eiko: What would you do in that situation?
Miki: .. I-I would probably try my best to.. y-you know, avoid them..
Eiji: I would hope that they will die soon. 
Eiko: Haha, I didn't expect anything less from you, Eiji.
Eiko: Well, just keep my question in mind when you watch my video. I don't know what it will show, so I just hope that you will get all the information you need.
Eiji: Why can't you just tell us everything already? Didn't you say that you're okay with doing that?
Eiko: I sure am okay with that. But also, I really do think that you have to see everything for yourself. 
Eiko: When I say that he wasn't perfect enough, I don't mean that he wasn't as pretty as I imagined him to be, or that he wasn't as smart, or that he had problems with money, or anything like that.. 
Eiko: Though he did lie about all that.
Eiko: I mean that he ruined my dreams of perfect life without any worries. 
Eiko: It's like I've already had a plan, but he just had to, again, ruin everything.
Eiko: And also, he just..
Eiko: *takes a deep breath*
Miki: Yoshioka-san, is everything okay?..
Eiko: Sorry, it's just that what he did was so terrible, it actually makes me want to kill him again, even though I know that he's dead.
(the bell rings, machinery sounds)
Eiko: Oh, it's already time? That was a nice conversation.
Eiko: Honestly, I'm feeling a bit.. lighter? I don't know how to explain, but it's like I really needed to talk about all of this with someone.
Eiko: Ah, before you extract my video, can I ask you a question?
Miki: Y-yes, what is it, Yoshioka-san?
Eiko: Eiji-kun, what happened to your arm?
Eiko: Why are you holding it like that? Are you okay? Does it hurt?
Eiko: .. Wait a second, it was Kei before me, right?
Eiji: I'm fine. Stop asking.
Eiko: I know that we can't touch you and all, but.. 
Eiko: If that guy hurts you, you really should tell me.
Eiji: What, so that you can protect me from him?
Eiko: Yes. 
Eiji: .. Stop saying things like that. I can protect myself.
Eiji: Prisoner 006, Eiko, sing your sins!
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Eiko's T2 MV Descrption.
Her MV would mostly have a lot of black and white and also darker shades of blue, green and teal.
Eiko's MV starts with what appears to be a flat-screen TV in a dark room. The screen is glitching and it's hard to tell what's going on until it slowly gets closer and we can clearly see Eiko's face. She appears to be crying and we can see her parents and her younger brother comforting her, though if her father and brother seem to be genuinely worried, her mother is most likely only pretending and she even leaves to answer a phone call. We get a close-up of Eiko's crying face again and then her expression suddenly becomes more emotionless and Eiko finally starts singing. 
We see Eiko sitting on a couch and watching that same TV while wearing an elegant black dress and a hat and we can also see a few young men sitting next to her. If you look closer, you can see that one of them actually looks very similar to Eiji. Also, he appears to be wearing much better clothes than all the other men and he has a calmer face expression than the other guys, who actually look terrified. 
"Huh? What's wrong? Stop feeling sorry for him
Why don't you feel sorry for me? Comfort me, calm me down, tell me he deserved it"
Eiko looks bored and she turns the TV off.  As she's about to get up, the guy who looks like Eiji suddenly grabs the remote and turns the TV on again and we can see Eiko there as well, but now it looks like something has changed. The "real" Eiko walks closer to the TV and sees that the "TV Eiko" looks more happy and the people around her are clapping their hands, praising her for something and her family looks happy for her too, though we can't see her mother's face expression this time. 
"Wait, are you telling me you've solved it?
Even though you have all the facts, you still think I was in the right?"
The real Eiko starts to realize something and she smiles brightly and turns back to those men. 
"Well, I can't just ignore it
So let me give you a reward for your kindness"
And then she presses one of the buttons on that remote and all men disappear except that Eiji lookalike. 
The chorus starts playing and we can see Eiko leaving the house and the whole video becoming brighter and more colorful. Some people stop to greet her or simply look at her as she's walking. 
"Yay, she did it, good for her! What a queen, am I right?
Haha, thank you, thank you! Serves him right, I know
You've forgiven me, darling, so let me thank you properly
Tell me what you want, I will give you everything and more"
Eiko is having fun while shopping and she actually looks happy for real. But as it's getting dark and she decides to go back home, she checks her phone and while she does that, she suddenly trips and falls.
"But I know I can't be lost in perfection forever
Time to open up my eyes, this world isn't as fun and bright as everyone wants to believe"
Her phone breaks at that exact moment and everything becomes black and white again.
Now it looks like she's home now and she's lying on the floor while her parents are talking about something. She just has the same emotionless face expression while her younger brother is poking her cheek and trying to "wake her up". 
"But is it so bad for me to wish for a better life?
Is it so bad for me to want more?
I know I'm not perfect, but don't I deserve better than this?
So come on, promise me a safer world, I'll believe your every word"
She slowly gets up and goes to what appears to be her room and locks the door. She takes her laptop and sits with it for some time until her eyes light up and her cheeks become more pink. She starts typing faster and overall she looks happier. Her room actually looks much softer and comfortable now. It doesn't have that cool and elegant aesthetic anymore, but it feels warmer, maybe a bit more messy, but it's like Eiko is finally acting like her true self.
"Maybe it's okay for me to be happy
Maybe it's okay for me to ask for more
I know you're just lying to me, but please
Let me act like a lovestruck teenager for once"
Looks like a few days have passed and we can see Eiko walking into her room and checking her laptop. Judging by her disappointed face expression, looks like she hasn't received any new messages. 
"So where are you? Are we over? Are we done?
You're not going to keep your promises, are you?
I wish there was a world where I wasn't mad at you
So that I could move on and forget all your lies"
We can also see that person's profile picture which appears to be a cute drawing of a frog. 
She keeps waiting and as she does so, she cleans her room, picks out an outfit, does her makeup.. But still no new messages. As she checks it again, her brother suddenly runs into her room and calls her and she follows him. 
Eiko walks into what is most likely a living room and sees that her parents are watching TV, this one looks more "old" compared to the more "modern" one from the beginning of the video. Eiko stops for a minute to watch it too and we can't see the screen, but we can tell from Eiko's face expression that something horrible has happened and she leaves the room immediately. 
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for blaming you
I forget about everything except myself when I'm angry
Forgive me for being so selfish
I promise I'll try to become as perfect as you"
Later we can see her crying herself to sleep and when she wakes up, the colors are warm again, but Eiko looks confused for some reason. 
"So are we over? Are we done?
Sorry for asking this, but I just want to make sure
I know you're in pain, but I just want you to keep your promises
So let me act like a lovestruck teenager for once-"
She lifts her blanket and.. she sees that there is actually a frog in her bed. 
She doesn't even panic and she grabs the remote, which was lying on the floor for some reason and we can't see all the details, but it's easy to guess that she used it to hit that frog. However, now we get a close-up of Eiko's face and she actually looks scared this time and it's hard to say what's going on, but there's much more blood on her bed than it was supposed to be and it's also starting to look like it wasn't a frog lying next to her, but a man. We can't see what he looks like because of all the blood though. 
"Yes, I knew you were a liar from the start
But this is even worse than I thought
Why would you do that? Was I not enough for you?
Or actually.. Maybe I was too much?"
Eiko slowly turns around and sees that flat-screen TV again and it turns on. She can see people applauding her and the chorus starts playing again, but now it sounds much slower and more distorted. When it gets closer to the end, Eiko smiles and we can see that she's sitting on the couch with that man who looks like Eiji again and they turn the TV off together.  
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Ed is my favorite character but I am also very much an Izzy Hands enjoyer and I am baffled by the "Ed is a innocent lamb uwu everything bad and mean about Blackbeard was Izzy but also Izzy is incompetent and Ed never needed him for Blackbeard at all!" sentiment I see. Like....? How do you reconcile that? Also Ed "doesn't kill" but we see him order a man to be flayed alive with a snail fork and then thrown overboard. We see that. Izzy isn't there. Izzy didn't "make" him do this, just like Izzy didn't make him cut off his toe, which happened hours after their fight, in a calculated response that took into account Stede specifically recoiling from the idea (there's something to unpack).
When they say Ed had people kill their pets, Ed doesn't deny it or in any way indicate it wasn't his idea. The entire plan of killing Stede and taking his place was Ed's idea, not Izzy's! Ed could have ordered him to stop at any time and he didn't, he didn't even have the stomach to watch Izzy stab Stede (I love the contrast between this and the act of grace moment), and people act like the whole murder thing was entirely Izzy's idea and desire and Ed is just a helpless bystander. Ed is the one in charge except when he can't or won't be, but he still wants things done his way, wants all of the positives and none of the negatives (who can blame him? We all want that. But Ed doesn't seem to recognize that isn't actually possible).
If Izzy is so diametrically opposed to everything Ed is, and just a horrible hateful little man, why has Ed kept him around? Why is he his first mate? Why does he trust him more than anyone else, and let him in more than anyone else, until Stede? Why does their relationship read like they came up together, like they've literally known each other decades, like there is a depth and history and so much nuance to the relationship and yet you have people acting like Izzy is just some guy assigned by the pirate temp agency to Blackbeard shortly before the show starts? That Ed doesn't have the authority to fire?
There's abuse and toxicity coming from both Ed and Izzy in this relationship, and we're seeing it as it crumbles. The fact that it crumbles so painfully and dramatically - along with just every single thing about the way they interact, I feel insane - speaks to there having been a foundation of genuine friendship and partnership and maybe even love through the years (there are so many ways to love, what Ed & Stede have is glorious but just one). They're both in crisis. Izzy is making horrific, hurtful decisions but so is Ed. Ed has been hurt by Izzy's actions but Izzy has been hurt by Ed's as well (I'm not even talking about the toe! I'm talking about the years of relying on Izzy and having him do his dirty work, with very little thanks).
Ed and Stede have protagonist bias working in their favor (see how so many people ignore Stede's casual colorblind racism and that he can only be funding this adventure through exploitation and violence) - they also had some tragic, traumatic back story shown on screen. Izzy didn't - do people think that means he doesn't have one? That he was just born like this, has always been like this for no reason? That isn't how humans work. Real or fictional.
Ed deserves to be happy, it's what I want most. I want him to heal. I want the same for Izzy. They're both struggling and in pain and nothing I've seen from either of them as fictional people in a romcom makes me think they're undeserving or unable to be redeemed.
Anyway I love your Izzy posts. Keep on keeping on. Sending this anon because I don't want my own haters haha.
All of this, anon. All of this. The Revenge and the rest of the Pirate World are two entirely different stages (up until the end of ep 10), and when they swap between those worlds, the rules shift and change. You go from Pirate Drama (ala Black Sails, for example) to Rom Com and back again. Because of that, pretty much everyone who joined the Revenge who isn't Stede is an objectively awful person in their own ways who have made their lives by killing, plundering, looting, even torturing. I think that's why I love them all so much, because they're being given the chance to evolve past that. It's almost like starting a series with an entire cast of villains heading for redemption. It's excellent.
If Izzy is so diametrically opposed to everything Ed is, and just a horrible hateful little man, why has Ed kept him around? Why is he his first mate? Why does he trust him more than anyone else, and let him in more than anyone else, until Stede? Why does their relationship read like they came up together, like they've literally known each other decades, like there is a depth and history and so much nuance to the relationship and yet you have people acting like Izzy is just some guy assigned by the pirate temp agency to Blackbeard shortly before the show starts? That Ed doesn't have the authority to fire?
omg anon this bit here i was nodding along ready to contribute my own thoughts and then i hit PIRATE TEMP AGENCY and i fuckin LOST IT. thank you for that.
But also I think one particular bit really stands out to me from the POV of their friendship. Two, actually, one less than the other so I'll start there:
the first one is that Izzy specifically sends Calico Jack after Ed. He knows enough about Ed's temperament, and about his relationship with Jack to know that Jack is absolutely perfect to drive a wedge not only between Ed and Stede but between Ed and everyone on the crew. And he DOES. It's an absolutely FLAWLESS plan up until the point they're in dinghy and Jack has to be a bitch and talk about Izzy. If he hadn't done that? If his jealousy, ego, bitchiness hadn't come out so strongly? Damn. That plan was flawless and Ed would firstly have never known about the English and secondly gone back to Izzy.
Because Izzy knew him.
But the bit I specifically wanted to talk about in relation to your piece up there is after Ed hits him at the start of Act of Grace.
First off; Ed only hits him. He socks him real good in the face but that's it! I subconsciously assumed he was testing to see if the English would stop him, and then would surge on with something new but no. He thinks Izzy has completely betrayed them, and he even says so to Stede ("He sold us out.") but all he does is hit him. He doesn't hit him then try to shove him over the side. He doesn't try to bounce him off the mast. He doesn't pull a knife! He just socks him once real good in the face.
And then comes what Izzy says after that:
"That's fair. That's fair. Remember though, you said when you made me first mate, 'above all else is loyalty to your captain'. You're my captain and I was never gonna stand by and let you destroy yourself for that... twat. And this? This is a humane way of ending this. It's quick, it's clean. Edward, you know that."
And oh, my god. I could go on about this line for days but I'll try and keep it brief: Edward is the one that told Izzy that above all is loyalty to him. Edward. Knowing what Ed is capable of, knowing the kind of shit he's done not only in episode 10 but also the skinning and god knows what else? Who knows how he instilled that into Izzy, that his loyalty is to Edward and Edward only. A lot of people think the X on Izzy's cheek is his signature, and fuck. Imagine if that was when he gave him that? Imagine if he literally tattooed his signature into Izzy's face because his loyalty is to Ed and Ed only. (If not that X, perhaps a Blackbeard brand under his glove? Who knows.)
Then, after that, he goes on to say he wasn't going to let Ed destroy himself. This isn't a betrayal, and I think the fact Ed doesn't kill him here, doesn't cast him off the ship at the end of episode 9, doesn't tell him to go fuck himself, proves that Ed doesn't think it's a betrayal either. Regardless of his feelings for Stede, the only time he thought it was a betrayal was when he thought Izzy had handed them all over hook line and sinker with no regards for anything but himself. Izzy did not betray him. Izzy, in fact, kept his pledge of loyalty.
And then finally, the humane way of ending this? Izzy's job is keeping Edward happy. Izzy's job is keeping Edward safe and happy. That's why Stede is, in that scene, about to die by firing squad, not in some gruesome show at Charlestown or whatever else might have come his way. I would lay bets that Stede dying quickly and as painlessly as possible was part of the deal Izzy made.
I would also bet that the words, "This is the humane way of ending this, it's quick, it's clean," was what Edward said about Fang's dog.
They're both in crisis. Izzy is making horrific, hurtful decisions but so is Ed. Ed has been hurt by Izzy's actions but Izzy has been hurt by Ed's as well (I'm not even talking about the toe! I'm talking about the years of relying on Izzy and having him do his dirty work, with very little thanks).
This! This! This! I also want to reiterate very strongly that we never see Edward actually tell Izzy what he wants. He says he wants to retire and he's going to kill Stede and take his place, but when he changes his mind he never actually says, "Izzy, I'mma be honest with you mate, I love Stede and I want you in my life too but I don't want to kill him, and I don't want to be Blackbeard anymore. I want a change." Or whatever way Edward would say those things.
Edward communicates with Izzy zilch, which honestly I think is probably how things have always gone. Edward half kills some guy then goes, "Oh, Izzy?" and walks off and it's up to Izzy to finish it off. One of his crew members does something? He scoffs and scowls and that means Izzy has to handle it. Izzy has had to learn to fill in all those spots that Edward can't or won't, and that's what he's doing throughout the show, but he hasn't yet been told that Edward actively wants these changes.
Hell, I'm willing to say that he thinks Edward is becoming not just something Izzy can't recognize but something Edward actively abhors. You don't tell someone to toughen up and kill their own dog because you like softies. Which begs the question of how much time Edward has spent actively trying to toughen up his crew and remove any soft sides, just to turn entirely into that soft side?
(Also, I'll be honest, I do not think that breakup robe!Edward should be his final form. He was not himself there either, and that's because he's so actively pretending that he's none of the kraken things that he was. He's almost imitating Stede, in a way, trying to hide his pain by being someone else. I imagine his final form will be someone very capable of violence, very capable of anger and being awful, but someone who also has a deeply soft side and cultivates a lot of love and trust from those around him, someone who will murder in defense of his loved ones, rather than just 'cause he can. Which, to me, is who he was when he was younger. He killed his father for hurting his mother, that's made abundantly clear, especially since we never see his father raise a hand against him.)
...they also had some tragic, traumatic back story shown on screen. Izzy didn't - do people think that means he doesn't have one? That he was just born like this, has always been like this for no reason? That isn't how humans work. Real or fictional.
Honestly yeah. I think that's likely what they think.
Which brings me right back to the fact Stede is very much an outlier. Oluwande says himself that him and Jim have no other choice. Do they think Izzy does? Who knows what his past is that led him to piracy, anger and repression at sea? Who knows what makes him so goddamn anxious about everything running Correctly?
And yes, I do read him as anxious. He hates the situation he's in because everything is wrong. Lucius won't do his job, no one does the things they need to do to run a ship, and he is actively seen as a villain in their lives by them when he tries to get them to be the crew of a pirate ship. He nearly got thrown overboard for making them work!
Ed deserves to be happy, it's what I want most. I want him to heal. I want the same for Izzy. They're both struggling and in pain and nothing I've seen from either of them as fictional people in a romcom makes me think they're undeserving or unable to be redeemed.
THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS!!!!! I want them both to heal, and Stede too!! Stede has so much trauma he hasn't worked through that colors everything he does (as illustrated by the fact this middle-aged man is bogged down and smothered constantly throughout the first few episodes by memories of being what... ten?)
Not to mention that a forced arranged marriage cannot possibly be anything short of traumatic (cultural arranged marriage being very different and depending on the situation etc, I'm not talking about modern arranged marriages, I'm talking specifically about the type Stede and Mary were forced into, and even more specifically their marriage). I don't think either of them were abusive to one another, but being forced to have sex solely by society and those around you to make children? Especially if Stede is gay not bi (which I read him as; gay), that's so... awful? It's basically that both of them had to agree to their own rape, almost? It's a really complicated and horrible thing and god knows what Stede felt after having to do those things with her, especially if he knew she wasn't into it with him either.
Anyway I love your Izzy posts. Keep on keeping on. Sending this anon because I don't want my own haters haha.
Thank you so much for the message because it was GREAT and your own meta was downright excellent. If you ever feel like de-anoning, feel free to DM me! And here, have another Izzy post! lmao hope you enjoy it
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Fic Author Self Rec
Fic authors self-rec! ✨ When you get this, reply with your favourite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers.
Thanks for tagging me, @kay-elle-cee <3 I found this very hard haha as self-reccing goes against everything I hold dear, but nonetheless here we are...
the way you left me || At nineteen, James vanishes, and Lily breaks.
I wrote this in a fevered rush, and I think it's the one I'm most proud of overall. Not entirely sure why, which doesn't lend itself to this sort of post, does it? It's sad and sweet and painful and all the things I like writing most. Angst with a happy, hopeful ending is my sweet spot.
2. Uninvited || With NEWTs looming, friends gather at the Potters' cottage in Wales to study and let off steam during the Easter holidays of their seventh year.
What's not to enjoy about pining, a Welsh beach and a 'there was only one bed' scenario? It includes this sentence, which I feel nicely encapsulates the gang:
They ate their fill; Mary tried to teach them a strange Muggle game called cricket, which James had a natural affinity for (“ever the fucking sportsman,” Marlene jeered from her position on the opposing team); Sirius tried to lead a team into the shallows, forgetting that the waters around the British Isles were frigid at the best of times; Remus built a bonfire in a bid to stop said team from developing frostbite.
I mean, what more can I say?
3. Forget-Me-Not (cw: sa). ||. At eighteen, Lily Evans fell - and fell hard - for James Potter, a classmate she had never given much thought to before. He seemed as into her as she was into him, so why is it, when she starts a new job almost a decade and a lot of water under that particular bridge later, that her new boss - James Potter himself - doesn't seem to remember her at all? A Don’t You Forget About Me by Mhairi Mcfarlane AU fic.
I wasn't going to include this one, but I guess I changed my mind? I'm proud that I a) finished this fic at all, and b) hopefully managed a very fine balance in dealing with an extremely sensitive subject. It was all a very personal writing experience and I guess I'm glad it all came out okay in the end.
4. A Lesson in Communication || There's a rule at his school that teachers are strictly not allowed to date the parents of pupils. James has never minded this rule before...
This largely started because it so amused me to think of James wrangling children at sports day. This is one of those stories that was supposed to be a quick thing, and then morphed into a nearly-12k monster whereby the misunderstandings piled up on top of each other like delicious pancakes. Yes, if anyone asked a straightforward question this fic would be about 500 words. Yes, my favourite bit is still Remus' reaction when he realises James' mistake.
5. The Price We Pay || As the summer before their sixth year comes to an end, Sirius, Remus, Lily and James consider how things may be different on their return to Hogwarts. When Sirius finally breaks free from his toxic home, it should be a fresh start - but unfortunately, it's the start of a spiral that will threaten the foundations of friendship, and change their lives irrevocably.
Last but not least! That blurb could do with updating, really, given that now – 27 chapters in – we're into seventh year and rather a lot has happened, haha. Still, when I started it, I didn't think I'd write more than maybe five or six chapters, and then it sort of grew its own little legs and scurried away from me. You know, how writing does? It's my original baby fic and I love it so but I also go through phases where I worry it's all utter bollocks, so it's very much a rollercoaster of a relationship. There is something both wonderful and challenging in writing a canon multi-chap, especially in this fandom where there are so many amazing canon multi-chaps. We battle on.
What a strange, therapy-esque post this ended up being 😅
Tagging (please feel free to ignore if you don't fancy it/have already done it) @wearingaberetinparis @mppmaraudergirl @clare-with-no-i @thequibblah @isahorcrux
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total-drama-brainrot · 2 months
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no yeah that was me, just forgot to sign off! i think your idea is hecking neat as well (and yes i am a fairly intense vocaloid fan as well! and project sekai but we aren't here for that. milgram started in august 2020 and we're at the tail end of the second trial now). was the project itself named after the experiment? yeah probably, a lot of focus on how es is being made to be the one doing this by jackalope (chris in this au. but also fun fact jackalope does all the cooking. so basically, chef as a marginally larger jackalope in a chef outfit). jackalope also says that es can judge by how much they like the prisoners which come on. tell me chris wouldn't do that.
anyway do you get why i want warden noah now? my other choice was jo, hm.
may as well talk more about why i assigned those two numbers to alejandro and sierra specifically: canon 001 is heavily implied to have a learning disability and to have killed for parental attention and envy of another kid, and canon 006...
This Is How To Be In Love With You Psychogram (MAHIRU cover) Love is mine
...yeah that's sierra. that's toxic love. rules out cody as a prisoner though. i cannot delete that indented quote for some reason so you will just have to suffer it.
some other possible prisoners: anne maria 002 (no abortion though, something worse), mike 009 (who fun fact is also a system!), courtney 004 (little miss playing the victim herself we love you mu kusunoki) shawn (no number yet), scarlett? maybe if she's reimagined as less cartoonishly evil (which i already do usually)
coherence is not my strong suit when rambling haha. - lindsanon
☝️ This is for the person asking for the MILGRAM AU, since I couldn't provide for them. Lindsanon's got you covered!
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Fireworks in the Fog dashboard simulator part 4
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Aug 31, 2014
I'll make a new post cause my mutuals completely derailed the other one, making my dashboard unusable for the whole week.
I don't want to be cringe like I'm in a teen romance novel, but on the other hand, that quote from Wuthering Heights really popped into my mind these days, thinking about him "whatever souls are made of, his and mine are the same". It's not just the tattoo, although even just that speaks volumes. It's the fact that, from all the personal conversations we've had, it seems like we had to deal with much of the sake struggles throughout life, such as toxic parents, being a former straight A student, burnout, depression, losing friends etc. We definitely have the same life philosophy and very similar worldviews, even though he never even read Cioran haha. We're both rather lonely.
Isn't that what we all want, to be understood?
#yearning hours
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🥀 ladylazarus1991 Follow
Sep 3, 2014
He's nothing like my ex, though?????? Like ok I was very attached to my ex at the time cause he was the only one in my group friend who didn't leave me, but I learned later that he assumed I was the only "normal" person left from that group, and, feeling marginalised, he trusted me more, but that his "trust was broken" when he learned the truth about my mental issues, and that he doesn't need any more "crazy exes". It was somebody I trusted who completely turned against me and made me feel worthless. Why did we even get together in the first place? Good question. I think we were united in our shared hatred towards many things, and people, but ultimately, looking back, we weren't united by a shared love of anything, to be honest. And I've grown as a person since then, too. I'm less bitter and eager to make being a hater my whole personality.
With my crush it's like we share so many things that we love, and also met as if at the perfect time for us to connect and really understand each other, at an age and stage of life when we're mature and experienced enough to do so. I usually don't believe in fate, and I know I can't really trust my feelings, but it really feels like something special this time. But if you're still suspicious of him, don't worry, we aren't even together. I may be here posting about how I'm falling in love and he might not feel the same about me at all. We get along great but I can't assume he thinks of me as more than a work friend and maybe a cool person, until proven otherwise.
#personal #yearning hours #crush
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🥀 ladylazarus1991 Follow
Sep 26, 2014
Since I notice myself talking a lot about him, I'm gonna have to find a nickname that's better than just "my crush". I was thinking maybe "Ben", as like a reference to Breaking Benjamin, which he mentioned being into when he was in his emo phase. I think I'll settle on this one
#personal #crush #liveblogging #ben posting
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