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imwetforyourmom · 13 hours
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heading for the door pt2
pt1
summary: what happens after the breakup?
warnings: mentions of cheating, mentions of lack of eating, crying, swearing, fem!reader, ive never been in a club so mb if its poorly described, meantions of drinking and alcohol, help yall idk what else
sorry this took so longg
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y/n held her knees to her chest as she sat on her bed. she was only staring at the wall infront of her. the creamish popcorn wall. nothing special about it, nothing special going on.
the only special thing she could think about was matt, even though she knew she shouldn’t. she was only tearing herself down more and more.
the thoughs of matt holding her, mumbling hush words to her with a sweet and caring tone of voice, the memories of them going on picnic dates together and laughing and giggling the entire time came flooding back to her, just as her tears did, overflowing from her eyes.
the realization of her actions and what had happened only sunk in after matt left, and that was almost a week ago.
she’d been in bed all week, no motivation to get up, shower, get dressed, nothing. she couldnt bring herself to move herself to do important things, such as eating, the last she’d eaten was almost two days ago.
but as of right now she couldnt focus on the gurgling and rumbling of her tummy, the way her body ached, the constant pounding in her head, the overwhelming thoughts, no. all she could think about was how she’d never feel matts touch, hear his voice, see his clothes lying around, as much as she hated picking all of it up, now she’d absolutely kill to be able to do it again.
but no. everything, absolutely everything was gone. and there was nothing she could do about it, except wait until something happened, just hope that maybe she’d find the motivation to move her sore and aching body off the bed, take a nice and warm shower, brush her teeth and take care of herself, eat a delicious and big meal.
she hated how she felt, how she couldn’t even look at a bracelet on her dresser, a bracelet her and matt had made to celebrate their two year anniversary. their two years of loving one another, two years of giving as much attention and affection as possible, spending two years of their lives together.
all of that was gone. she couldnt relive any of it, she couldnt bring it back somehow, she couldnt do anything except accept that she ruined everything, she ruined the love they had for eachother, the life they built together.
“am I not good enough for you?” the words rung through y/ns head, being all she could hear. the words she never wished to come out of her matt. the words she absolutely hated since he spoke them. she hated the way they made her feel. she hated how she felt sick to her stomach when the words processed through y/ns head.
knowing that he felt as if he wasnt enough and was basically worthless to y/n absolutely destroyed her. knowing matt was everything, everything. he was everything to her. without him she didnt feel like herself, and now that he was gone and gone for most likely forever she’d always feel this way.
she couldn’t feel complete, a part of her would be missing for forever and she’d never feel comfortable with herself. never feel normal. never feel the same joy she felt when she was with matt.
god, she built her entire life around matt, relying on him for her everything, her happiness, her grounding, her safety and comfort. she was so used to being with him, that everything she saw or heard reminded her of him, and what did that do? nothing. it only made her feel worse.
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“come on y/nnn, you havent left your bed in a weekk, just come out, and you’ll feel better.” the text read, y/n stared for a moment, thinking all the thoughts of what would happen if she went out.
what if she saw matt? it wouldnt matter. they’ve broken up anyways.
what if another man reminds her of him and she breaks down and sobs? highly doubt that would happen, matts one in a million.
what if she gets black out drunk and calls matt? she hopes she does, maybe they’ll get back together.
y/ns thumbs moved across her keyboard quickly, pressing the letters and forming a sentence.
reading it over and over again, y/n made sure this is what she wanted and what she wanted only, not basing it off of anything to do with matt.
“yeah ill come out. pick me up at 9.” she pressed send and clicked her phone off.
she took in a breath, moving her legs to the side of the bed, pushing them to the edge and onto the floor.
the harsh cold wood on y/ns feet(sies) reminding her this was reality and not some stupid dream she’d made up.
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y/n quickly thanked the uber before stepping foot out of the car, immediately being greeted with a very enthusiastic “hiii!!” by ryleigh, her voice high pitched as she wrapped her arms around y/n.
y/ns arms wrapped around ryleighs body, saying a quick “hi” aswell, maybe a small smile at her lips. she still felt disgusted with herself, with what she did to matt. she’d never be able to feel the way she did before she’d done what she did to matt.
hell, she couldnt even utter the words of what she’d done. the words brought her great pain, a nauseous feeling to her stomach and tears to her eyes.
“are you readyy?” ryleigh asked, her voice just as comforting and encouraging as y/n needed it to be.
ryleigh pulled away from the hug, her grin ultimately comforting y/n and reminding her she was in a safe space with ryleigh.
“yess! by the way, love the dress babe, you look beautiful!” y/n answered, her lips curving into a grin, matching ryleighs.
“thankss. lets go inside.” ryleigh pulled y/n by the hand, pulling her inside the club.
as soon as the door opened loud ass music, neon lights and chattering engulfed y/ns senses. the lights really getting to her, they were just.. so much brighter than inside her bedroom.
ryliegh, on the other hand was enjoying it all. the sweaty bodies she and y/n moving against others as they walked to the bar. everything going on was just what ryleigh needed.
“hello ladies, what can I get ya?” the bartender offered a warm smile towards the two. his voice sending shivers down rylieghs spine. it was a husk, and deep voice, ultimately pulling ryliegh in.
“uh- um.. I- ill take a majito.. um.. y/n? what do you want?” ryleighs shaky and flustered voice turned to y/ns direction.
“I dont want anything. thank you though, ryleigh.” y/n answered. as easy as it would be to consume alcohol and drown out all her thoughts with matt, she knew it wasnt right. she shouldnt because she needs to live the reality of what she did, and also, because drinking alcohol like that is not a good idea, whatsoever.
“alrighty, then. thats all.. mister..?” ryleigh trailed off as she turned back around to face the bar tender, leaning her forearms onto the counter.
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y/n left ryleigh and the bartender. they were just flirting and shit. she didnt want to be the third wheel. wheres the fun in that?
y/n was currently enjoying her night, atleast trying too. as much fun as someone who just ruined their relationship could.
she lightly swayed with the music, her hips moving side to side gently with the music.
she lightly hummed the words of the song, suddenly being so consumed by the beautiful sounds of the singers voice and the background music.
then, everything stopped. her body movements came to a halt. the music suddenly going quiet. her breathing stopping and her heart rate quickening, as her eyes laid on matt.
she immediately bit her lip and took in sharp breaths. her arms twisting together as she stared at him, her eyes darting down his face and body.
the way his silky and shiny brunette hair fell perfectly ontop of his head. the way his green shirt looked so, so good on him. the color perfecting his skin.
god, everything she wanted in a person, yet she couldnt have, but once did.
matt stared at the crowd of bodies infront of him, all moving under bright lights. his eyes trained on each and every individual, his eyes scanning the way each body curved and didnt curve, the features of their faces and their clothing. studying each person for no other reason than being bored.
his eyes were currently laid on one girl, his eyes trained on her hips moving, not even bothering to glance up at her face, nothing.
he could only think about how familiar the movements looked, how perfect she moved her hips.. but more importantly how it looked so familiar like he’d seen it plenty times before.
suddenly, her bodys movements stopped. his eyebrows raised in confusion, wandering why the girl had stopped. he moved his eyes from her hips to her face.
he didnt even have to look for another second to know that is his girl- that was his girl. once was, never (at least, what a part of him wants) again.
he quickly took in how she took in sharp and small breaths, her arms twisting together in the same way she always used to, when she was nervous, he quickly recognized.
fuck.
suddenly his eyes began filling with tears as his lungs slowly deflated with no air. he couldnt find it in himself to take in a breath, without atleast letting out a small sob.
as much as it pained him to look at the girl he only wished was still his, he couldnt bring himself to look away.
he missed the way her arms felt around him, the way her words always got to him, comforted, brought happiness, anything he wanted her words always seemed to do it. the way her beautiful eyes stared into his, the beautiful color of her irises bringing such comfort, warmth and nervousness over him at any given moment with no failure.
as much as what she did with koda absolutley kills him, he still loves her, he still hopes she was in his bed with him everymorning, he still wishes she was the one to always hold him as long as he needed it.
all he wanted was her, and he knew he could have her back, but he knew she didnt deserve him.
y/n stood in her spot, her feet planted to the ground as she took in her shaky breaths, so badly wanting to walk over to matt and talk to him, she just wasnt sure if she was ready or if he didnt want to talk to her. why would he? she basically cheated on him.
her eyes couldnt help but to stay on the boy, until he motioned for her to come to him.
she nodded, before looking away then untwisting her arms and flailing them to her sides, shaking her hands for a moment to get the nerves out and to prepare herself.
she brought one foot infront of the other, walking to matt in a quick motion.
“hi.” matt breathed, seeing y/n standing infront of him. seeing the girl he wanted so badly stand infront of him.
“hi.” she spoke, taking in a breath before quickly saying “alright, listen. I am so fucking sorry for what I did matt. I would absolutely do anything for you. I’d- I would do anything matt. words cannot describe how drained ive been without you, I havent felt the same, I don’t- nevermind. this isnt about me, this is about you and what I did.” she took in another breath, collecting herself before starting again.
“alright. what I did was absolutely unacceptable and absolutely disgusting of me. you were my boyfriend and I should not have done what I did with koda. its absolutely sickening and- and, wrong. no man could ever amount to you, you’re everything and all of everything ive ever wanted. koda is- is not the one to blame here. its me. but I need you to understand that I still love you and if I could I would treat you so so much better than what I did before. i am, truly, so sorry matt, and i do hope we could date again- or atleast be friends.” she finished. exhaling a large breath, feeling a huge amount of weight being lifted off her shoulders.
matts eyes stared down in awe at her. all of her words went straight to his heart. he’d completely forgiven her the moment she opened her mouth and admitted what she did was wrong.
his hands slowly came up to her face, his hand cupping her cheek and pulling her face into his, pressing their lips together in a passionate and sweet kiss. nothing sexual behind it.
y/n crumbled into the kiss and closed her eyes, until matt pulled away and pulled her into him. wrapping his arms around her body as he hugged her. he muttered words into her head, “I forgive you, I forgive you.” he repeated, his hand coming to the back of her head as he pulled her into even more of a warm hug.
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gideonnotgordon · 1 day
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They should let me kill everyone in sight.
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bubblegyu00 · 3 days
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BF MATTHEW TEXTS - PT. 2
a/n: he's been running through my mind all day 🙁
tw: suggestive, kinda nsfw (?) mdni
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ourflagmeansbts · 17 hours
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Source (Season 2 - February 7th 2024)
sambaschutte: Today’s Crew Shoutout: the adorably lovely @davidfane_ aka Fang🏴‍☠️ Funny story about our spa day scene, an eel attacked us🐉 Video to come. You can always count on Dave for some playfulness, and oh that magical laugh. Just don’t piss him off at Monopoly Deal☠️ Fang almost wore a veil at the funeral🥹 Roach and Fang had many moments that didn’t make it, but we all know they make a killer duo…⚔️ “Do weeeeee?”
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stillmonstr · 9 hours
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♯ 🗯 𓍼 it’s hard to be at a party
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when i feel like 𖦹 an open wound ʚ₍ᐢ ›̥̥̥ ༝ ‹̥̥̥ ᐢ₎ɞ
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heart-for-god · 1 day
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Matthew 26:24
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joneevarts · 2 years
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Smoke Break
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anabimelo · 1 year
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SEASON 2!
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maria-taiwin · 2 years
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This panel was really peak comedy
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guaaa-camole · 2 years
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has anyone done it yet?
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disturbedwoodelf · 1 month
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Dad!Matt headcannons
warnings: none, just pure cuteness, may cause baby fever 🫣
taglist 🏷️
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Dad!Matt who takes his daughter to her ballet classes while mama is at work
“Look at you go babygirl! Pose for mommy!”
“Do I look pretty daddy?”
“You look beautiful sweetheart! How about when you’re done with class, we go get ice cream? Just don’t tell mommy!”
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Dad!Matt who does daddy/daughter days with his daughter
“Matt, is she wearing a face mask?!”
“What?! She said she wanted to look like mommy!”
“AND ice cream before dinner?! Matthew!”
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Dad!Matt who insists on co-sleeping
“Matt, it’s her bedtime, she needs to sleep in her own room tonight.”
“No! Look at her! She even brought her book for us to read to her!”
“*sigh* fine, but it won’t happen again, tonight’s the last night.”
and that’s said every night and she never ends up sleeping alone
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Dad!Matt who does typical reckless dad things, almost giving mom a heart attack
“Matt! Put the baby down!”
“Why?! They love it! Look at that smile!”
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Dad!Matt who signed up his kid for hockey as soon as they were able to walk
“Oh, god, isn’t hockey dangerous?”
“Don’t worry, they’ll be fine!”
“They do look pretty cute in all that gear.”
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Dad!Matt who teaches the baby video games
“Okay, we have 5 minutes before mommy gets out of the shower and tells me I’m rotting your brain, let’s win this battle royale.”
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Dad!Matt who insists on taking the baby on a roadtrip to Boston instead of planes because he heard the plane fumes can harm the baby
“Matt, I think it’ll be okay to bring them on the plane.”
“No way! I heard the fumes from the air can cause the baby to grow an eleventh toe.”
“…where did you hear that?”
“TikTok, it’s a great source of information.”
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WHEEW IM OVULATING GUYS AND I HAVE SUCH BAD BABY FEVER OH MY LORD
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tapedsleeves · 4 months
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"Fucking Timmy and Sanderson are dead"
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academicblorbo · 11 months
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Dream & Matthew in Hell like
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ellieswifie · 3 months
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playing fortnite with your boyfriend!matt
𐙚 head cannons!
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warnings: matt!boyfriend x fem!reader, fortnite, cursing, pet name (baby), short hc
authors note: i’ve been playing fortnite a lot like the dork i am a lot recently and i just couldn’t help myself but think about playing fortnite with matt.
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streaming. i feel like streaming with bf!matt would be so fun. you guys would either be having a split screen stream, or you’d be sitting in matt’s lap while he plays. his hand would be resting on your thigh while you read the comments. but when your both playing, you’d be focusing less on the stream itself and just laughing with matt.
pet names. he loves and i mean LOVES calling you baby. when your in the middle of attempting to kill someone. he’ll be encouraging and call you baby while he watches you attempt to kill an opponent.
"baby he’s right there! get him!”
"fucking hell matthew. i’m trying!"
teasing. while your struggling to emote after a kill or trying to figure out how to build, he’ll definitely tease you just to watch you grow frustrated (in the cutest way possible).
"need some help there?" he’d say as your attempting to aim your gun at someone.
"no. i don’t need your help." -ten seconds later and 10 percent health left- "matt!! im gonna die! helppp!!"
skins. a silly part of me believes that matt would buy you a fortnite skin. you you mention liking someone’s skin character during a match or in the lobbby, he’ll immediately take notice in this a buy you a silly skin. it’s a cute romantic gesture and absolutely adorable.
lego fortnite. since i’m currently obsessed with lego fortnite, i think he’d have you building a cute little house you guys share or like a small village you both say you ‘live’ in.
there would also be cute animals you guys would spend all day naming and feeding.
victory royals. well you guys get very little of them, but when you do your both practically screaming with joy and laughing. it would be the cutest thing ever omg.
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ourflagmeansbts · 4 months
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Source (Season 2 - November 6th 2023)
ourflagonmax: It's been a pirate's pleasure sailing with you all this season... Don't miss the final episode of #OurFlagMeansDeath Season 2, out now. 🏴‍☠️
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kindlyanni · 2 years
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Dream bros
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