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clanwarrior-tumbly · 10 months

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Yay requests are open! :DDD

Can I maybe get something with mandela catalogue because WHY NOT YLDLYDYLDLYFK

I maybe went beyond you with Alternate y/n but can I get something like so fluffy and they so God damn sweet it so silly like????

They so kind and Affectionate to everyone like wtf (maybe hug out of no where they would squeeze the hell out of the person or compliment non stop with heart eyes like <3333 *nothing suspicious Of course!!*)

Would like Scenario with mark, any Alternate (might intruder specifically but whatever u like!) And Gabriel! :0

U can choose or make more than one I would be 10× happy <33

I know it's tough or annoying and you are free to ignore this request but please tell me so I won't wait <3

Love your writing please keep going and take care of yourself!

I just did the three you requested ^^ Took me a bit to figure out scenarios but hope you like 'em!

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--Mark--

"Your place of worship has..quite the vastness. Are all of them like this?"

"There's smaller ones around town, but this is the one I've pretty much grown up in."

"I see...it's quite lovely. All the flowers and stained glass windows add a nice touch."

"Mhm.." Mark nodded his head, keeping a vacant gaze on the church's altar as he fiddled with the rosary tangled in his fingers.

You, in the meantime, were intrigued by this house of god--the same place Preacher once infiltrated to adopt one of the nuns' forms. But luckily, she had moved on since then and hasn't disturbed these grounds.

It was a surprise that Mark actually allowed you to accompany him tonight..considering you were quite adamant about stepping through the doors. You thought he'd become distressed upon learning his sanctuary had no spiritual nor physical barriers that kept Alternates out.

But he apparently knew that already and accepted it, as he invited you anyways, insisting he didn't wish to be alone.

When he knelt down to pray for some time, you left him be while exploring the church for yourself, looking at the architecture.

You continue to be impressed by what humanity has built for their religion.

When you returned to the pews, Mark was no longer kneeling, instead sitting there with a blank stare. And judging from his empty responses to your remarks, he seemed...lost.

Didn't he come here to put his mind at ease? You thought you'd see him become less tense after finishing his prayers, but he looked just the same--if not more upset.

"...I couldn't think of anything new this time."

Confused, you sat down next to him. And he took your silence as a sign to elaborate.

"I mean...I-I keep praying for the same stuff. For my friend to be at peace, wherever he is, my parents to talk to me again....and for things to go back to normal. But it feels like I'm asking for the impossible. It just..doesn't seem worth it anymore.."

"I believe all of those things are still worth praying for, Mark..be it one time or a hundred." You softly interjected, frowning a bit. "Life may not entirely go back to what it once was, but you can always pray for better days ahead. You have survived the worst of them, and you'll survive plenty more."

He was quiet for a moment, before shrugging. "It feels like even that's too much to ask for nowadays. Maybe...He forgot about me, or my prayers aren't enough-"

"I doubt anything's ever "too much" for your god. I'm sure He hears you and knows you're trying to stay faithful in such difficult times. If I were Him, I'd think your prayers are good enough for...."

Stopping, you heard him sniffle and gazed at him in worry, seeing his shoulders slumped. "Mark?" You were especially alarmed when he suddenly began to sob, bringing his hands to his face.

In that moment you feared that you've accidentally said something MAD-inducing. "I'm so sorry. I-I didn't mean it like-"

"I-In all my years going to..c-confession..nobody's ever told me that." He cried quietly. "They said my soul was doomed the moment I met that intruder guy...a-and there's only a small chance I can be saved if I keep praying.."

You blinked, bewildered by what you were hearing. "Your whole church knows about that night? And they blame you for encountering him? But that wasn't your fault...you were a child."

"Th-They don't care. They never did. But of all people..I never expected an Alternate to tell me something so....r-reassuring..." Mark looked up at you, and the smile on his tearful face confirmed he wasn't upset with you in the slightest. "Thanks, [y/n]. I..I really need to hear that."

"But of course." You smiled back and brought him into an embrace, squeezing him tightly as relief swept over you. "There's no need to weep anymore, little lamb. For I am here and I see your good heart and soul..even if others don't."

All he did was nod in response, and that was enough for you.

You'll definitely have Six's head on a silver platter for this someday.

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--Intruder--

"Tell me, Six..have you grown soft for the prophet?"

"..what ever do you mean, traitor?"

"Does "I cradled him in my arms, my sweet boy" ring a bell?"

Six scowled as you mimicked his voice, grinning cheekily at his reaction.

You were just getting a kick out of angering him at every possible turn. Especially ever since he knew you've been "siding" with humanity as of late, looking after a young man you've come to see as a friend.

He didn't like that one bit--yet he couldn't say anything to Gabriel.

Your leader figured you were only acting this way as a means to destroy humans from the inside-out once you've gained their trust enough.

But Six, on the other hand, knows you true intentions. You wanted to protect them.

Unfortunately for him, the "angel" threatened him not to disrupt your plans again..lest there be severe consequences.

"Oh come now, why the long face, brother?" You teased. "Over 3,000 of their kin you have abducted..and none of their sweet faces have ever touched your heart?"

"What heart? We don't have those, and you know it."

"..what about that Heathcliff boy you spared? You know..he drew a picture of you and showed it to his class a long time ago."

"It wasn't the right...wait, he did what..?" He blinked, surprised that a child would want to draw him. Usually, he frightened them most when he appeared to them in reality and not as their best friend "Stanley".

But nothing surprised him more than when you had Mark's actual drawing in-hand, giving it to Six and allowing him to look at it. You watched his expression carefully, seeing his gaze soften considerably as his eyebrows furrowed.

"This..was made by him? How did you-?"

"His teacher confiscated it, but I've recovered it." You tilted your head, your smile only growing more. "Are you sure you don't care? Because now you look like a father who is proud of his child's artwork-"

"You're wrong. I don't feel any sentiment towards them. Everything I've done was to manipulate them into doing our master's bidding." Immediately, his scowl returned and he glared back up at you-

Only for him to flinch as you wrapped your lanky arms around him without warning.

He squirmed about, realizing you were once again doing this...awful and disgusting thing you've adopted from humans. You've shown it to other Alternates, but he despised it. "Release me!!"

"Don't lie to me, brother. You're weak to their influence as I am." You laughed, squeezing him tight. "There's no shame in admitting it-"

"GET OFF!! Traitorous black sheep!"

Six suddenly glitched out of your embrace, disappearing from reality altogether. You looked around and eventually spotted his silhouetted figure in the nearest TV, white eyes glaring at you.

He was safe..for now. But you've had your fun with him, so you simply left him alone.

Though not without laying the drawing down on the floor where he could see it.

You never noticed his hand creeping out from the screen and grabbing it, dragging the paper into his realm.

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--Alt!Gabriel--

"How is your deception of humanity fairing, my child?"

"It is going well." Smiling up at your Savior, you clasped your hands together in front of you. "I'm learning more about what they enjoy..and what their sorrows are. Soon enough, it'll become easier to watch them rot from within."

"As it should. I do want to apologize for the...erratic behaviors of your dearest brother. He does not understand your mission as well as I do."

At the mention of Six, you nodded, trying to bite back your utter disdain for him. There's a lot you wanted to say about him, but you didn't come here to complain about him the entire time.

He wasn't worth wasting your breath.

"No he does not. I liken him to a petulant child." You sighed. "He's convinced you're..."playing favorites" with me when I've done nothing particularly extraordinary compared to-"

"Now, now..you mustn't speak that way." Gabriel's chuckles reverberated through the dark void you two stood in. "Give yourself a little credit, won't you? You have done well, and I know you'll continue to be quite the spy. I was right to bring you into creation..my most loyal servant yet."

Flattered by his praise, you couldn't help but kneel before him, trying to hide your growing smile.

"Thank you, my divine leader. I shan't forget this life you've breathed into me. I receive your generous words wholly."

"..hahaha..so eloquently spoken. You may as well be a human yourself! I commend you for adapting their language so quickly." You felt his hand reach down to pat the shadowy top of your head.

His eerie smile stretched even wider than yours, knowing he had you wrapped around his finger perfectly.

Of all the Alternates, you've complimented him the most. The others were too mindless to converse with him as long as you did.

Of course, Six was the exception..but all he ever did was complain about you like some tattle-tail.

You, on the other hand, never acted out of line or questioned his demands.

You were as obedient as a sheep. Exactly as he wanted.

"Now rise, my child, and go forth. We still have a lot of work to do."

#clanask #mandela catalogue x reader #tmc x reader #mark heathcliff #tmc intruder #tmc six #alternate gabriel #alternate reader #alternate y/n #fluff #platonic

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kimbap-r0ll · 2 years

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Vil and Neige (separate) with a usually shy and calm s/o who absolutely turns ruthless whenever their safety comes into question :0 perhaps a crazy fan tried to put their hands on the boys and suddenly their s/o has the fan pinned to the ground with a menacing look on their face (think of Yor's face in Spy x Family when we first see her get a job to assassinate someone)

Hello, thank you for the ask!

Vil, Neige x shy!s/o who is also a menace

Vil

He likes your company. You make him feel at ease because of your usual calmness. He also really likes spending quiet times with you, just vibing as he's fixing his hair and while you're reading or so.

But one thing that he was upset about was the fact that his popularity meant there would be paparazzi along with some crazy fans. You always said that you wanted to travel with him on tours or fashion shows, but he declined all the time because he was worried about your safety.

He saw that you weren't happy when there was too many people and you got overwhelmed when you were the center of attention in front of a class, so he thought you would hate traveling with him. The last thing he wanted was to make you feel uncomfortable!

Yet, you persisted and he finally caved in and allowed you to go with him to the next fashion show he was attending. Once you two get to the hotel you guys are staying at, there's already a whole crowd in front of the large glass doors.

He tried make it seem as though you were just a coworker or a friend, but a fan suddenly broke the security lines and ran towards you two. The next thing he knew, the fan was pushing you to the side and so were other fans. He was going to reach out to you but he suddenly saw you grab the fan, pin them to the ground like you were doing Taekwondo, and give them the scariest glare he had ever seen.

"Leave." You said, you're voice much more menacing than he remembered it was. The fans stopped and Vil gave you a smile, offering a hand to you and you two went into the hotel together. Basically everyone found out that you were more than a coworker then.

He tells you once you two are settled inside the hotel room that you were amazing out there. "Didn't think you could do that back there, quite alluring," he says before going to bed. You blush, looking down at the floor. "No worries dear, I'm just glad you're safe. Now get some rest, we're getting up early tomorrow."

Neige

He's super bubbly, and it was probably an opposites attract moment for the two of you. He liked taking walks with you in the forests or parks when he was with you. Neige didn't care much if you spoke a lot during the walks or not, he was just happy holding your hand.

But he would often invite you over to his dorm or in school grounds, mainly because he was a celebrity. He didn't want to see you distressed because of paparazzi or crazy fans that tried to harm you. He mainly kept you out of his celebrity career, but you seemed interested in it.

One day, you asked him if you could go on one of his trips, a shooting for an advertisement to be exact. He looked up at you from the crochet scarf he was making (for you) and set it down. "I don't want to see you stressed though, the last thing I want is to see you upset," he replied. But you seemed persistent, and finally, he caved in.

He helps you pack for the right things and gives you some information on what he's doing. He says not to worry about being near him. "We'll just keep walking, or we can say that we're a couple, whichever one you're comfortable with."

You two made it to the hotel after a long trip. It was in a limo and when you two stepped out, you were blinded by the flashing lights of cameras and you're ears were ringing from the fans screaming for Neige's attention.

Neige helped you out and walked next to you while still being friendly with fans. Everything was alright. Until a fan got loose and pointed out that you were too close to Neige. Other fans got riled up too, and you were about to get stampeded by fans.

He tried to do something, but before a fan could push you, you grabbed them and threw them on the ground. Your eyes held a different light from the soft ones you had and you didn't say much but you said this: "Next time I'll break your neck." Neige tries to calm the situation down and asks if you're alright before fleeing into the hotel with you.

Once inside, he tells you that he was so sorry that happened, but he was super amazed at how you fended the crazy fans off. He doesn't admit that he was a bit spooked by your sudden change of aura, but he was also awed by it haha.

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst imagines #twst scenarios #twst headcanons #anon ask #twst x reader #twst neige #twst neige leblanche #twst neige x reader #twst vil #twst vil schoenheit #twst vil x reader #vil headcanons #neige headcanons #gn!reader

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romanarose · 1 year

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"Comfort Show"

Steven Grant x Reader

Summary: Steven has tocomfort you after your comfort show.

Warnings: *SPOILERS FOR THE LAST FEW EPISODES OF THIS IS US!!!* Dont read if you havn't seen the last 3 episodes but want to!!! Mentions of tv show character deaths. Crying but not actually sad, just sad over a show.

A/n: Inspired by the time I walked out of my room after an episode of This Is Us, bawling my eyes out to find my mommy is the living room, looking at me like :0 she asked if it was one of my shows or if something really happened. I said it was just a show and she let me explain the last 6 or however many seasons of this show lolololol

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You heard the sound of the key turning in the apartment, and knew Steven would be in shortly and very distressed at your crying, but you couldn’t help yourself, you continued sobbing uncontrollably with hands over your eyes on the couch as the Hulu home screen advertised other options to quell you.

“Hello love!” A cheery Steven walked in the door, face undoubtedly falling as he took in your crying. “Oh dear, oh no, what is it now?” He said, setting the groceries down on the counter and he rushed to you, wrapped up in a blanket on the couch. “What’s happened?” Gently, Steven takes your hands to reveal your puffy red eyes and blotchy face, you’d been crying for a little while now.

You look at his worried face and feel a little foolish, and laugh a bit. “It’s not a big-”

“No, no don’t do that, you don’t have to mitigate it”

You laugh again, you did have a tendency to act like huge things were no big deal, or invalidate your feelings; this was not one of those times. “No, no, baby it’s actually so stupid” But you keep crying. “I watched more of This is Us”

Visibly, Steven relaxed, letting go of your hand in favor of placing it over his heart, sighing in relief as sat back on the couch. “Oh god love, darling you startled me.”

You feel bad, going to embrace Steven as he gained his breath again. “I’m sorry Steven” You said sincerely, and when Steven looked at you, it was once again with concern.

“Sweetheart, you look terribly upset still, I thought you agreed not to watch it until one of us were here, you knew damn well this was going to happen!” Steven chastised, but there was no real malice in his voice.

You sniffle, tears welling up again. “I thought she’d die in the last episode, I was going to wait for you to watch that, but they did it early!” You break down crying, Steven taking you into his arms.

“God, no wonder you’re a mess!” Steven didn’t watch the show avidly, but he’d sit in on episodes here and there, and listened intently as you explained things from your show.

You mumbled something into his chest he couldn’t hear. “What’s that, lovely?”

Lifting your head off his chest, you repeat yourself. “Miquel died before Rebecca, his heart condition” and there, you were, ugly sobbing again.

“Oh no, not Miguel.” Steven laments. Again, he didn’t watch the show as much as you, but Miguel was his favorite.

Steven continued to hold you as you cried, and lamented to you, “Why do you watch this show when all it does is make you cry?”

“It’s my comfort show…” you mutter.

Steven laughs a bit, pulling you off him and heading to the kitchen. “You don’t seem very comforted, darling.”

“I am… so happy right now.” You joke through tears.

“I’m sure you are. How about we go visit your grandma this weekend? I know This is Us always makes you emotional about her.”

Smiling at how well he knew you, you nodded. “That would be great, Steven.”

When Steven brought you some hot tea, just how you like it, “How about we watch we real comfort show to cheer you up. New Girl? Or Are you in a movie mood”

You consider for a moment. “Star Wars Episode thr-”

“No!” Steven bursts into a laugh. “You know damn well that one always makes you cry at the end!”

“I won’t cry! I promise! I just wanna see Anakin’s pretty face!”

Steven sighed. “Fine, if you promise you won’t cry.”

By the time ‘YOU WERE MY BROTHER ANAKIN’ played out of the screen, you were sobbing again, muttering how it didn’t have to be this way. Steven was holding you under his left arm, ordering pizza with his right hand. No more “Comfort” movies or shows tonight.

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Anywayyyyyy just some Steven cuteness <3

My masterlsit links got FUCKED UP bc tumblr so everything is under construction so please be patient with me XD

should have another piece out this week, i have something planned for Marc for Passover, a bit with him cleaning out his dad's house an dreflecting over things. Will serve as a epilogue for my Seattle series, but not necessary to read Seattle for this <# if u arent on the Seattle tag list and are interested, let me know!

@welcometostayingawake @my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction @jake-g-lockley @in-between-the-cafes @milkymoon2483 @apollo-enthusiast @luciannadraven33 @0bsessedwithfictionalcharacters @ninebluehearts

#steven grant #steven grant x reader #This is us spoilers #steven grant fluff #steven grant reader #moon knight fluff #fluff

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longeyelashedtragedy · 5 months

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how did u fall into lamps

O gather round children, it's a longer story than some may think

the date was july 16, 2022, the place baltimore maryland, the event arsenal vs everton. i went with my friend nina, and while we were waiting for granit and the gang to come and warm up, i messaged our group chat with our mutual friend who was like, a hardcore liverperson from the gerlonso days, to tell her where we were, and when hearing we were seeing everton she said something along the lines of "oh, Fat Frank the Tory!" i was like oh...there's definitely some backstory and some lore here that i have no knowledge about and now i'm amused and intrigued/

right before the game started, the coaches came out, and i was struck stupid by mikel in his all black shortsleeves hairy armed top energy off the charts charisma passionate glory. we weren't sitting that close to the pitch, but it was still so easy to pick up on his vibe. it was clearly not "just a friendly" to him.

i was then kind of just as struck by the contrast in the two uh gentlemen who'd just come out. mikel in the sleek black, lamps chonky in the weirdly overly casual everton summeroutfit. the contrast was immediately appealing and so were the aesthetics. (i'm so consistent--we all know as far as looks go everton franko is my favorite franko lol) exhibit a:

we beat everton 2-0 and the whole time mikel was passionately charging around as he does and lamps was just sitting on the bench looking so annoyed and so defeated and i was like who is this chonky sadboy...i'm Fascinated and Pleased. like honestly, being the football toddler that i am, i knew very little about him. HOWEVER that didn't stop me from bringing him up frequently enough in conversation to nina that she was like FYI you talk about this man a lot!

but let's fastforward to one of the most distressing months of my life AKA may 2023. granit transfer rumors were ripping brutally through my life and they really seemed real and as we all know i was crying about it literally every day! i think by some point my brain was just in desperate need of something else to think about, and conveniently, i saw the god amongst fic authors @protect-daniel-james 's fic "Just," and not gonna lie, just the summary alone got me, but the fic finished what the summary started and i read it like 7584930 times, plus a couple others that had popped up in the tag after that (shoutout to @new-berry 's "Proud of heart (pride of London)" which was a fantastic twist on their relationship and ends with a BIBLE VERSE). then i read the NYCFC-related interview with him where he mentioned that one of his favorite NYC restaurants was this one that's like a 5 minute walk from me, and the very crude foundation of what turned into Digestif started forming in my mind. my summer vacation started just a couple weeks later, during which i did the world's fastest speedrun of a Person, and the Lampardverse began to gather strength.

the rest is Long Eyelashed History!

#anonymous #answered #long eyelashed tragedy #i'm sure i could add to this LMAO #the first thing i ever learned about lampsy was during the pandemic #when he was whining about how as the only english manager of a big six club ppl were harder on him #i was like that's really somethin...complaining about being oppressed for being an english man

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caitlynmeow · 2 months

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i can’t remember if you’ve said anything about this yet but i’m picturing ur cass going into labour and. how is girl surviving this once let alone THREE times when she reacted to PUBERTY like THAT 😭 just from the sheer panic alone

omg anon i haven't talked about this but it's Cassandra okay girlies is a MESS during all three times 😭😭😭

From way before giving birth, like soon after Alcina knew that Cass was pregnant she had a private meeting with wife and was very clear about making sure Cassandra goes for an epidural and there shouldn't be any of the no drugs option. Wife looked at Alcina and said seriously "What makes you believe your daughter is going to brave this one out?" Because she's known Cass for a few years and can tell that this will never be something to think about. Alcina has no reason to assume that Cassandra is going to do this because she's the kind of person who would cry over a paper cut. So giving birth without medication is not on the table.

And yes, wife is there to keep things under control to the best of her ability. Because as dramatic and out of control Cassandra can be, her wife can maintain calm and be the voice of reason during many situations. She’s not complaining at all, the dramatics are part of Cassandra’s charm that she fell for and she won’t have her any other way. As long as she knows Cass is okay and not in any real pain, she can take whatever comes her way.

Cassandra on her end was doing just okay until about 25 weeks into her pregnancy, then it downed on her and she started to actually panic every time she thought about it. She’d constantly tell herself: “People give birth every day, literally I WAS BORN!” And still get a tight chest because of all the anxiety.

She also was convinced that she was going to die, so it felt more like a countdown to that instead of having her baby because is she going to survive a human coming out of her? Not likely. She was ready with a speech to her wife, mom, and sisters.

When she was at the hospital, Cassandra was in full panic mode because she simply wasn't ready. But since it's time to give birth, the matter is out of her hands but she isn't known for giving up quickly. She was in no pain, physically. Her wife did ask her if she was in any physical pain, to rate it from 0 to 10 which Cass answered truthfully and said that it was at a zero. "Emotional pain?" Wife knows she needs to check on that because this is what's making Cass so anxious and distressed. "200" Cassandra answered as she burst into tears.

That wasn't the end of it. Since she couldn't feel anything, Cassandra's brain convinced her that she could keep this up for probably another day or two. And since she is absolutely not ready to give birth just yet, she decided that wants to leave and come back the next day when she's better prepared. But of course, there is no way she can leave while in active labor and contractions being so close to one another. But then again, she was feeling very panicky and overwhelmed and she wanted her mother because she wasn't going to do this and no one could make her do it.

There is no way wife is going to leave Cassandra's side and go get Alcina, so a nurse has to be sent out for the task. When Alcina saw the nurse approaching, she panicked thinking that something bad had happened. But the nurse told her that everything was okay but her daughter needed her.

When Alcina got into the delivery room, Cassandra thought she finally had an ally and that her mother was surely going to stop this madness and make her go home (she's persistent like that and also very delulu) but Alcina wasn't on her side, and told her that it's too late for that now. She will go home in two days anyway.

"I can't do this! I don't know how," Cassandra confessed, she was openly crying by that point and it broke Alcina's heart to see her like this. She always hated seeing her daughters in pain, and she knows that Cassandra is not in any pain but she is scared and getting very emotional because of it. Alcina hoped for a way to help ease her daughter's distress, but unfortunately, this was one of those things that her daughter had to do alone. "You don't need to do anything, draga. Your body knows what to do, and it's already pushing your baby out on its own," Because at that point, the baby's head was already out and this entire thing will be over very soon.

Sure enough, a few minutes later the room was filled with the baby's cries. And just like that, it was over.

Alcina did get to see her granddaughter as soon as she was born because she was right there providing all kinds of support to her daughter who was finally registering what had happened. Though she was pouting and tearful still, she did complain that no one listened to her, especially her mom and wife because they were supposed to be on her side. But she was soon distracted by her baby and forgot all about labor a few hours later.

Even Miranda wasn't mad that they only called her after Aurelia was born because she knew that Alcina was definitely going to be busy with Cassandra. Miranda called it first and suggested they have an OR on standby just in case this one granddaughter refused to give birth for whatever reason.

Donna was also frantic, knowing how near impossible it was and for once she sided with her mother. But Donna was in favor of them forgoing the whole delivery and going straight to c-section because 'there is no reason to torture the little doe,' as she put it.

It took a lot of coaxing, a very long process, and lots of tears (for no reason, really) but Cassandra did it eventually (with the support of both her mother and her wife and a very patient medical team).

#cassandra dimitrescu #resident evil village #bela dimitrescu #daniela dimitrescu #donna beneviento #mother miranda #house dimitrescu #resident evil 8 #alcina and wife were stressed tf out okay #Alcina could have sworn it almost felt like she was the one giving birth not Cassandra with how worried she was #Alcina had 3 daughters with no problems or complications so she knows how easy it is. all three and she was reading one time #on a conference call another time (this one was with cass because she was there for a WHILE since cass was taking her time in coming out so #mama did some work while baby decided whether to come out or not #nothing for dani because when alcina's water broke dani was born literally only two hours later her youngest has no patience in her at all #yet despite that being in the room with cassandra while she was giving birth was the most stressful #she was just worried because cassandra is not built for this #she's like a wet noodle when it comes to these things she has the whole family worried about her because 'how is SHE going to go thru this'#like everyone KNOWS #then there is cass waltzing home 10-11 months later announcing she is pregnant again #like woman can u NOT #and yes she was also dramatic the next time and the third time #she just does it differently every time because girlie really does overthink a lot and gets herself worked up #plus she's actually a delicate baby princess and def not made for this kind of thing #but she wants kids so ://#wife and mama will have to suffer with her #second time at the hospital alcina joked 'do u need me this time too?' and cass nodded tearfully 'yes i can't do this omg'#so it was round two of the same thing #like alcina was more stressed during those times than she was during her own time giving birth #she's too old for this but cassandra insists on putting her mama through it #cass can do it but she needs someone to hold her hand throughout the entire process

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its-koili · 2 months

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hey guys. sorry for being gone for so long. heres an update

(tw for: mention of violence / gore, general distress, mental health issues)

(tw below)

basically i had a huge mental health crisis. i was having 24/7 constant rolling panic attacks from may of 2023 to january of this year. my last big meltdown was in early february. been processing a lot of CSA trauma and some recent trauma that ive gone through. i think i talked about my panic attacks before leaving social media but idk i dont remember. isolated myself from absolutely everybody.

the main thing that made me leave was that while i was keeping up to date on the g3n0c1d3 (censoring bc idk how tumblr is about it), and when i was looking in the replies / related of the awareness videos, i came across 4 accounts dedicated to using gore for clicks / shock. not videos of the g3n0c1d3 (thank god bc of how they were using the vids) but of unfortunate every day situations and cam footage. like, the kind of stuff you could see on liveleak back in 2010. just out in the open on twitter. they all had usernames like "(insert number here) ways to die)". they were all content farms for click/ad revenue. it was too much it was a huge trigger and i had a full on meltdown. the bluecheck ppl on twitter were using the replies of the videos people uploaded for raising awareness to upload mindless g0re for money. the fact that peoople have 0 compassion for human life sent me into a spiral that i couldnt get out of. (i reported 3 out of the 4 accounts i was able to and 3 got taken down but 1 is still up and it odesnt seem to be uploading the hardcore g0r3 anymore. so thats good. but that was one of the reasons i left social media. ive been keeping up to date w the news but thats it. i left my socials entirely and ive only been on my phone to look up recipes or to use my computer for media research groceries and gaming and shows

that was the main thing that pushed me to leave. i just couldnt take it anymore. during the start of my crisis last year, i was planning on taking a small break, but all of that pushed me over the edge and i dropped everything. after that, my issues got worse and i dont remember most of it. thankfully. but i couldnt bring myself to talk to anybody. i isolated myself and just. laid in bed. but im doing better so i guess thats good

on another topic ive beeen nervous to post this on main but during all of this (ive talked abt tihs a little bit on my priv before i left) i found out that im a system a long while back. my dad (one of my abusers) had/has DID and it terrified me to think that i could be anything like him. i also knew cereal abuser who pretended to be a system to get away with stuff/abusing their friends (and then years later admitted that they werent a system and siad that systems are fake.) LOTS of tears. lots of crying over this. was in denial for a few weeks. cried some more. then eventually came to terms with it.

i dont want to post abt my system online too much bc i dont want to act like this is some fun trendy thing bc its not. it makes day to day living very hard (some lighter/funnier issues that make it hard are: arguing with an alter bc YOU dont know where THEY put YOUR MEDS, not being able to cook because one alter can and the other cant, your art style not being consistent because their styles are different). i dont want to really make it a massive part of my identity online bc its not a big deal! theres just Multiple Little Guys in my brain. so. im a system! im the same but....this explains why i dont remember talking to certain people SUIDHUFHX. i always felt bad. makes conversing with online friends hard especially if icons/usernames are changed. ill make a separate post about this someday thatll go into detail a bit more.

i went years thinking it was just "kinning" but it wasnt lol. it turns out that your personality completely shifting, tastes in food / music / art / media changing, the way you walk / talk dress changing, and having complete memory blackouts when you """"kin shift"""" isn't normal. /lh (dw ive had a lot of time to come to terms with this)

but basically right now ive been spending time getting to,,know myself?? iive been using simplyplural for myself for several months and im uncovering a lot of my memories / trauma ect bc alters can write down what they need to in the chat. so i can go back later and read it. its been v helpful!

i will not be coming back just yet. i have no interest in using social media rn or drawing or writing unfortunately. ive been working on my original stuff here and there but i havent been drawaing fandom stuff bc im not hyperfixating on a fandom.

also. some things have come up. im not going to say anything until the party in question is stable/safe/comfortable before i even suggest anything for context (i dont plan on talking abt anything at all unless they start talking publicly). right now i am helping someone through abuse. their wellbeing is my #1 concern. i'll think about other things after im sure theyre okay.

i dont really have any resolutions as to how things are going but i do feel better and im not having as many panic attacks. i dont really know where im going with this now sorry. just trying to brush over the basic topics before i go. idk if anybody remembers me bc ive been gone for so long so idk if im just talking into the wind but if i am thats fine honestly this is helping me reorganize my thoughts (i type these vents out a lot on docs so i probably wont remember posting this hiudhvu)

other than that. i dont draw or write anymore. i think in the past 6 months ive drawn like....5 things. its. weird. im completely disconnected from fandoms now. coming up to a full year of not having a hyperfixation at all.

my bday was on the 6th. im 27 now im very old (everybody forgot it asides from my husband (and the people he reminded) n my abuser). ive been trying to cook and bake more and ive been playing video games again. planning on getting back into drawing soon and working on my original stuff. when i come back im planning on redesigning my profiles and updating my social media bios and stuff bc theyre so old. also ill make a section on my carrd for my system. there you go theres some positivity to the update nxfjdfjh. sorry if i dont seem very enthused im very tired so typing has been a chore hfuidshuifv.

sorry that this was a lot or if it seems disjointed i was trying to put down as much into this as possible without making it too long

bye!!! see u all soon!

#vent

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asgoreandbud · 1 year

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Why i love ASGORE so much (o´▽`o)

Well i don’t really know where to start but i think Asgore is such an amazing character…the first part is a bit of prelude to meeting him so feel free to skip the ramble…

you first only hear of him (other than in the history book at home) when Toriel warns you against leaving the ruins and mentions Asgore in red text and telling you that he will likely kill you along with the other monsters. However you here of the same man as “Mr.Dreemurr” described papyrus who describes him as a nice guy who would gladly let you free from the underground. Undyne mentions his full name and clarifies that they are the same person when she talks about him collecting the final human soul…You hear of him a couple of more times until you finally leave the Core to get to the capital, Alphys tells you that you need a boss monster soul to reach the surface meaning that you must kill Asgore, she looks visibly distressed and runs off to her lab. At the next SAVE point, there’s no cheery message ‘filling you with determination’…there’s only silence…(this may possibly be do to either your dismay or Chara’s if you go according to the Chara being narrator)

You only first see much of him in new home. The first room is the living room with 2 padlocks welcoming anyone to come in and talk if they need to get anything off there chest (this made me burst into tears…but i can’t really say much since the game made cry 17 times) you see his home almost identical to Toriel’s. But everything is grayed out as if theres something missing…(and you learn about how he lost two children in one night and then having his wife leave him) the armchair is unused…he has crumpled recipes for the same butterscotch pie Toriel gave you, trying to recreate his old memories. There’s still snail containers in the fridge…he even offers food to any guest who arrives in his castle. You see in his room old projects Chara made for him. The diary in his room (more on that later) and even the sweater for “Mr.dad guy”…he longs for the past where he was once the father of a happy family…you finally enter the last corridor and then the throne room…Asgore turms around amd greets you…and then looks shocked. He’s in immediate distress knowing that your a human. He knows that his job is to take your soul but he still tries to comfort you. He’s reluctant to fight and gives you every chance to turn back. When you finally reach the barrier he introduces the magical seal of of the underground and offers to go back…if you decide not to fight he’ll let you know that you can take the time you need. Even just to take a short walk or read a book. If you go back he’ll ask…”How are you feeling?” He still cares. But once the fight starts he destroys the mercy button. Not because he wants to kill you but most likely because he believes he doesn’t deserve mercy…i wish there was a way to give him that mercy…At 0 exp if you’ve refused to inflict pain he’ll listen to your words and he’ll even be moved to the point of his stats lowering. Eventually all you can do in the end is to fight. I’ve never fought Asgore myself but once you reach him down to 1 Hp he’ll yield down and begin telling you the rest of his story. How Toriel was disgusted by his decree against humans…

people in the fandom have spewed hate on him for his morally ambiguous actions…but what could have he done? His killing isn’t justified in any way but he needed to give hope to the monsters…and he was filled with grief and anger toward the humans for killing his children (he knew nothing of Chara’s planned death)…with all that…and all that he’s been through, why was he so hated? i wish there was more empathy in this world…so many people have suffered and isn’t undertale about kindness and empathy toward others?

If you fight he dies smiling glad that he’ll finally rest in peace and justice will be served for his actions…if you spare him, he’ll offer to take care of you and even hopes to be a family again…but flowey takes that dream away before you can even accept…

Tw: suicide and if Flowey doesn’t kill him under the right circumstances (If you fought him already and spare Asgore again) And give him mercy, he will realize that his wish is just a fantasy and speak about the prophecy of the angel who will free the underground. Placing the burden upon you he compares you to chara with the hope in your eyes and knowing of your powerful soul. He’ll take his life and give you his soul…”I am sorry I could not give you a simple, happy ending…but i know that this would have been what my son…ASRIEL…would have wanted…” and then…he turns to dust…he was willing to sacrifice his life for the underground and hoped to repay his misdeeds…even though he never deserved it…

However in the pacifist route Toriel intervenes…and thankfully he’s spared…Toriel rejects him and Asgore asks just to be friends again but Toriel rejects even that…He’s gone through so much and even past the underground can’t reunite with the one person left from his family (I used to be an Asgoriel shipper because i so badly wanted to have him not alone again) He’s such an amazing father and husband who has led his kingdom through thick and thin. He still manages to be a strong leader and caring at the same time…he’s kind and understanding to Alphys for her mistakes and was like a father to Undyne…He’s such an amazing character and so hunky i mean…handsome…no no! I meant his majestic beard….oh gosh…>///<…(´,,•ω•,,)♡

(Mushy warning) Honestly Asgore is such a kind, strong and fatherly character that truly deserves his happy ending…here’s a list of positive traits of his…

~kind

~an amazing leader

~compassionate

~brave

~strong

~jolly

~friendly

~deep

~caring

~Romantic

~selfless

~purposeful

~just

~Loving

~manly dare i say it (unpopular opinion)

~and fatherly

…i just want Asgore to hold me in his strong arms…resting my head on his chest as he holds me in his burly hirsute embrace his beard resting just on my head…i so badly want to be with him and for him to be happy again, and to be a family because Asgore husband is best husband uwu…and i think that in the end…

#Asgore x bud #asgore x reader #ask asgore #asgore #asgore headcanons #asgore december #undertale headcanons #undertale x reader #undertale #undertale anniversary #the last part get’s mushy uwu #undertale oc #undertale x oc #I love asgore #soulmates #i love asgore #true love #true pacifist

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allisoooon · 2 years

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What is your opinion on the babying of klaus? From what I seen since season one their constantly constantly infintalizied, saying klaus is baby, their child, son, etc way more then the other siblings. Considering he is arguably the most popular sibling in every social media aspect of the tua fandom except maybe TikTok with five this probably was to be expected since he is “skinny” “ frail” “ fragile” “ more traumatized “ as ppl like to say and whatnot. Never have once seen anyone formally hate klaus dislike them not even a hate post where as the other siblings get treated like complete dust and shitted for all their actions/scenes and tons of hate post made on them whereas klaus is on this throne of some sorts. It sucks since klaus is so much more since the dude literally went thru Vietnam, the 60’s thinking they were the only sibling alive, and just their life in general and not some damsel in distress that could do no wrong and if someone does anything to them their atuomatically hated on ( in reference to the siblings ).

With a lot of comfort characters like Klaus and Five, I sometimes have this feeling that what people like isn't actually the character because they gloss over the less glamorous parts of them instead of loving them as they are.

I am weirdly protective of Klaus' flaws--all of their flaws, really--partly because it's what makes them human, but also because it's what makes their growth as characters so compelling. You didn't love Luther this season just because he was wholesome--you also loved how he crooned "Total Eclipse of the Heart" and the fact that he knew all of the words. You didn't just love Diego for how good a brother he is, you also loved him for how bad a father he (initially) was. Klaus actually says it perfectly when talking to Ben about Ben: being a mess, embracing their mess, makes them easy to love.

And when I read a fic with some idealized version of Klaus whose problems are 0% his fault, I don't feel like I'm reading about the same character. Then when people demonize anyone who is remotely mean to him, it actually downplays something that is good about him: he doesn't take everything personally. He's tougher than he looks. He has some areas that are incredibly fragile, but he knows a "sibling I-love-you" when he hears one. You know, like when Diego says "I still think you're an idiot." That's just his way of saying "I love you." So is "Let's go find your stupid mother." Also "I hate your face"/"I hate all of you." It willfully misinterprets the context in which he exists, which in turn misinterprets him.

There are worse things than your fave being a coward, or being self-involved, or having a victim complex. Your fave could be perfect. That is so, so much worse.

#tua s3 spoilers #the umbrella academy #klaus hargreeves #luther hargreeves #diego hargreeves #five hargreeves #tua meta

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deerinstinct · 16 days

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Ok so my insane posts two nights ago were about this. THE BIG ALKAKUREI FINALE EVENT. As you can hear here it made me feel dizzy. I’m so so excited because the premise of having them swap leaders means soooooo much potential for interactions I’m so thrilled. If the name is a reference to the movie that makes it so transgender to be honest I’m sure Matrix is a word that existed before The Matrix though. The expressions here are so good I feel crazy. The leader-swap is SUCH a good premise. The outfits… aaah… so good.

The matching Amagi 5☆ of my dreams… I knew they’d be the 5☆, but I didn’t expect them to match!!!!! (＞_＜。) I feel crazy. Something about the art direction for all of these cards is also just very very good.

Ai-chan is one of the 5☆ which I was hoping for i’m sooo excited. I wonder what exactly she means, by “why did you have to change like that?” After all, they are narrative foils and have so much substance in the main story, especially with how Aira essentially served as his saviour in a sense; reminded him what truly matters. She is like if Rinne were untainted, if he had been saved before it was too late, if his love for idols remained pure. It could be something silly though, but for videos like these the quotes don’t match the CGS, & the CG IS SO SILLY. She wants Hiro-kun back so badly. I understand why she would be against the unit leader swap literally calling herself an anti but I am excited to see what will come from it.

For Mayoi & Rinne too, with their seemingly matching CGS & discussion of the Amagi village. Which, since HiMERU is on a bus, it would be exciting if they go to their hometown, but I am afraid of how they will handle it if that is the case—their track record has been… not good. Not egregious, but bad. So I am nervous, since people say this. I hope there will be no micro aggressions from the cast for 0 reason, sad as it is to have to say. It is realistic ignorance, but it doesn’t hold value at all, and there are real people with ainu blood who play the game. To anyone, really, it is uncomfortable to experience. The story itself is already rather anti-indigenous in it’s messages of them being backwards & something to escape from. But… I won’t be a pessimist because of it. They could be normal. In fact, it could even be sweet...

There is so much potential for growth… it’s so brilliant. I’m excited, I am keeping my hopes up for this event. Despite the value of !! Era being lesser at times for preexisting units, & the fact they could have done better for the new units it brought to the table in the last 4 years, I’ve found everything so interesting nonetheless… the main story, the side pieces to go with it, obbligato, it is good. Speaking of obbligato; as I had said on twitter, “I’m actually really glad there seems to be no Kaname action because I would much rather it have been in a different big event or Crazy:B specific event to give him the focus he deserves & make it hurt more since there’s already so many characters to give focus to in alkakurei.” Some may not agree with this, but I love Kaname, and I am crazy. So I want it to be done right, for this reason, even if others would take any sliver they can get. I simply do not agree.

I am still very happy with HiMERU’s 5☆. In love with it. Unfortunately he looks very cute, like a beautiful woman of some sort, with a cute tiny little blue sticker on his laptop that looks just like Kanamy…?! One may say Kohaku gave it to him. But he has eyed cute things in the past, in a store. His expression in the bloomed is very beautiful… it looks very authentic, not like the role of HiMERU he plays, but something more real from the depths of his soul. The Tojou within him, something unnamed yet real.

I really love this Tatsumi card because he’s like we’ll resolve everything like we always do while looking so very frazzled. Distressed. I love when handsome young men are distressed. Things are happening to him, and he still sits so politely, so lady-like. It is wonderful. Tatsumimi.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen Kohaku smile so wide. It’s so Mamaful, isn’t it? And who he is talking to is most definitely Hiiro, someone he had no connection to other than through his friends. It’s exciting.

AND THEN THE MV DROPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING THIS & I SQUEALED. NIKI & TATSUMI DUET. AMAGI HUG IN REALTIME. Aichan exuding her adorableness onstage like no other. The kohaku aichan highfive. The part with the lanterns and the shutting off of the artificial lighting, their stage illuminated with the love of their fans, the sweat dripping down their faces, the emotions in the songs! It’s amazing. It really killed me. I was not disappointed for a second. Mayoi, HiMERU, everyone else, were very cute. Aaahuuhhh…

#ʚɞ #espost

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featheredadora · 10 months

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Imporyant question:

I recently agreed to adopt two parrots from a work friend. She wasn't exactly sure what type of birds they were, but from the pictures she sent, I've found that one is a conure, and the other is what I believe to be a quaker parrot. I've read quite a few pages saying that these two shouldn't be housed together, as quakers can be cage territorial, but from what my friend has told me, the two were purchased together and have lived in the same cage with no issue. This is made even harder by the fact that these birds have not been tamed at all, and I don't currently have another cage in order to separate them into. What should I do?

Hi! So first, main thing for me to say: I am absolutely just a guy who likes birds, I have 0 official knowledge/qualifications, and no experience of quakers myself. So while I can give you my personal opinion, please do treat my opinion as like asking a random guy on the street.

In answer to your question, my feelings are that I personally wouldn't want to risk it (but it is a nuanced situation!)

Like, it might be different if you really knew the birds yourself personally maybe. But for me I would be worried about something bad happening. I have a conure, and she is totally fine around my tiels and budgie - they are out together most of the day, every day. But I still wouldn't risk letting her sleep in the same cage as them. Maybe that's too paranoid, and I'm sure she wouldn't do anything. But you never know what can happen when tensions are high, or someone has a night fright, etc. I don't think I will ever let my conure sleep in the same cage as the others.

That said, when I first had just tiels and budgies, I felt similarly. I bought seperate cages so that the budgies would sleep seperately from the tiels. But after I had them for a while and got to see how they were together, I allowed them to sleep together because it was clearly what they wanted and there were no signs of fighting. You mention that your birds aren't tame, and so I understand that it, quite frankly, would be difficult to force them into separate cages anyway. My budgie and tiels aren't tame, and they choose to sleep together every night - it would be difficult for me, and distressing for them, for me to forcibly separate them. So I appreciate that that complicates things.

Another big thing for me would be thinking about the size of the cage you have. Obviously there's no hard and fast rule, and especially when a bird might be territorial, but generally: smaller cage = more fighting over space.

I feel like I've been super unhelpful here, but I imagine I feel partly how you must feel too: it's difficult to know what's best when you haven't had time to get to know the birds yourself yet. As always, I'd recommend asking a vet more than anything (and, as a key first step in general, I would make sure you've got them registered with a good avian vet). But yeah, my feelings are: I would be worried about it, but I understand there's nuance, things are often more complicated than just 'what is correct', and I appreciate that those birds will already be going through a big change moving to live with you, so keeping things as close to 'normal' for them as possible might be the best thing to do.

Wishing you all the best with them!

#asks #anon #Sorry for not really having an answer to this!#This is more just a dump of my thoughts on the topic #But I wish you the best!#long post

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svturn-exe · 1 year

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OK SO !

Cesar is kinda a cognito hazard SCP, he only shows up on recordings and never in anything else. If you replay a voice recording or rewatch a home video or something he may just. Fucking be there. And part of his anomalous properties is that anyone who did find him on said recordings didn't think anything of it and was convinced they knew him.

While the foundation cannot confirm he's a real person, I can! The details around his situation are very vague but he's a very real person he just.. lives on a different reality plane than normal.

So now! Incomes Mark, who's a mental effect related anomaly. His presence carries with it an infliction of instant paranoia and eventually suicidal thoughts. Mark is sadly also effected by this. The more distressed he is the wider this effects range is as well.

By way of his paranoia anomaly, it overrides Cesar's and so when he showed up on Mark's camcorder he was HORRIFIED! Cesar, upon finding someone who he can actually interact with was beyond overjoyed and after convincing Mark he wasn't going to hurt him the two become fast friends. Eventually they r both taken into foundation custody together, where Mark is allowed to keep a personal handheld recorder to talk to Cesar.

Cesar will interact with the staff and stay contained if he's allowed to talk to Mark, and Mark's aura is kept on a smaller range thanks to Cesar's comforting presence to him.

Jonah is another Keter class SCP like Cesar, but in his case it's involuntary. Jonah has the horrible ability of randomly teleporting to places, and he only does so before an accident or death occurs. Thing is, Jonah usually causes said accident by... Well accident, due to him freaking out upon just appearing somewhere and people freaking out at that by proxy.

Adam meanwhile, has the anomalistic ability to. Nullify any other things ability he's in the vicinity of. He was captured as the foundation had been following him for a while, as it's quite eye catching when a teenager is capable of interacting with and surviving multiple anomalous encounters, and as soon as they were able to confirm he was infact an anomaly himself he was taken into foundation custody.

There, he was paired up with Jonah! The two don't get along great at first as they're in a very stressful and hard to deal with situation, but eventually they start to get along and become friends. Jonah is Adams comfort when he gets back from foundation testing.. his ability makes it so he can properly interact with cognito hazard SCPs but.. that doesn't mean they don't still fuck him up. He used to be reckless and fearless but.. from what he's seen now? He just wants to have peace.

On a goofy note, there's Dave !!! :D! His classification is constantly shifting as he's just. A dude. Thing is, his effect is no one can see him as a bad guy. It's just OH it's Dave what a great guy I love that guy! Even though he just killed someone or something. Adam and Cesar are unaffected by this while Jonah and Mark are. Dave escapes quite often

Also have some number ideas for the four vicitms

Mark - SCP - 8992

Cesar - SCP - 8913

Adam - SCP - 8009

Jonah - SCP - 8500

yooOOOOOOO HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY'RE ALL SO KJBVHFRLKVUHS COOL

i. cannot imagine how distressing jonah's life b4 meeting adam was kjH:LKJVHOUIOSD JUST. randomly teleport somewhere then oh god

15 car pileup on the interstate oh fuck-

n also both pairs of besties like,,, helping eachother w their respective shit........................... i love these Homies!!!!!!!!!!!

cesar's anomalous properties r so fuckign cooL he rly is like that horror trope of the monster tht only appears in the photo/video/screen/mirror except he's just vibin g

ndfjkbhv;adfsviluad;v

is mark's number based on like. his canon death date? :0 bc w his properties thatd b pretty sick

dave's file int he database is just

#scp catalogue au #nmklVHLUISDH #i am #goign feRAL #asks4saturn

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retro-watching · 4 months

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seaQuest DSV S1 Ep2 The Devil's Window

Okay I have to start off by saying I have since learned that they never used a real dolphin on set. It's an animatronic and I am BLOWN AWAY by that. Like they have footage of real dolphins in the sea but Darwin that we see "talking" and swimming about the ship is an animatronic and that's clearly what all their effects budget was spent on (I joke. The effects were impressive at the time)

So the effects are never dropping below a 6 because of Darwin

Talking about this episode this plot is so predictable and silly.

Darwin gets poisoned with bacteria from a sample taken from a "black smoker" (a deep sea vent) as it's being taken up and of course gets sick. Which none of the many scientists and geniuses aboard the ship can figure out what happened even though they know he was swimming about when they were bringing the sample up.

Anyway we first learn he's sick because he swims up to the bridge and PSYCHIC BEAMS HIS DISTRESS AT BRIGERS AND JAXOR

Jaxor is a major character in this by the way. (I know its mean to call Ted Raimi Joxer but I say it with affection and also because they don't call his character by name in this ep. He's just Lieutenant)

Anyway yeah they got a Psychic dolphin as well who keeps saying "Light is Dark and One" which they eventually figure out is him being scared to die alone so they find his mom and let him go and everyone is very sad

Except for the scientist who is in charge of the Black Smoker research and is very upset that his project is being delayed because of a sick dolphin (Who also at the drop of the hat pontificates grandly about how they "entering the birth canal of the earth" and to "touch the bones of the world" He's great!)

Anyway Sad Bridgers is going to open a new sample container even though the doctor now knows it's what made Darwin sick and is frantically trying to call him but he can't hear her because it's loud. But it's okay! Because he's smacked in the face by an adult dolphin flying at him

Also Darwin's mom brought him seaweed which cured Darwin.

Lady Scientist: This has antibacterial properties and signs that it grew near a black smoker! Bridgers: But dolphin's can't swim down that deep Lady Scientist: Well if we knew everything we'd be gods not scientists

What.

It's a weird episode but Darwin is back and safe and Joxer is still Feeling Things from being psychic beamed by a dolphin and they gave the earth a suppository (and yeah they joke that that's exactly what it is)

What I was delightfully surprised by is that they end on a science fact! They tell you about when Black Smokers were discovered and some facts about it given by Bob Ballard an actual Marine scientist he has a wiki about him

Anyway the ratings:

Story: 5/10 -because I predicted most of the plot in the cold open

Acting: 6/10 - almost everyone is overacting just a little too much except for those who are overacting more

Cheese: 9/10 - psychic dolphin and also a man got hit in the face with rubber dolphin and that's not even getting to the earth suppository

Enjoyment: 8/10 - I am still happy to be here

Effects: 6/10 - Darwin is spectacular. Now I know I can see it but it's a very convincing animatronic. The lava was shit

Cringe: -2/0 - psychic dolphin, Darwin's mom bringing him medicine what the fuck

Aged Like Milk: -1/0 -but I feel mean about it just because our knowledge of deep sea vents has increased a lot so their info is a little out of date

Overall Ranking:

B Tier

#retro watching #s1 ep2 #seaquest dsv #the devil's window

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whumpshaped · 4 months

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I'm probably super late & no pressure to respond but I want to share a scar story! (Maybe it can inspire writers who want to read a firsthand experience about some OUCHITY OUCH pain.)

I have a tiny straight line of a scar along the nail of my big toe. But the interesting bit is just, the painful part tbh. It's wild but might be squick. So again, no need to respond or read it all. Bail if it gets too squick. Nothing life threatening or gorey, just big ouchers.

(CW: I had a Matrixectomy/partial nail removal. But he forgot the local anesthetic.)

I was like 14 yrs old and had a really infected spot on my toe where my nail had become ingrown that kept getting infected again if I stubbed my toe etc. so my mom took me to a medical clinic & they performed a Matrixectomy. But without a local anesthetic.

So it's one nurse, one doctor guy and my mom. He just gets right to it after all of the tools are brought out and was pushing teeny mini scissors/cutters into the infected skin area that was really tender and painful by just barely walking on it, cutting a straight line on my nail to the base of the nail to remove the problem area. With No injection for numbing. I was like a 90lb stickboy of a beanpole but my mom had to help the nurse hold my legs down bc it was so hard to stay still and not roll around in pain. I tried not to cry too much and didn't scream bloody murder because I didn't want to inconvenience the doctor or freak my mom out but that shit HURT. Then he applied the acid with a q-tip or something that scars the area so the nail in that section doesn't grow back. That also hurt.

Once it was over I sat up and nearly passed out so they had to make me lay back down, & brought me a wet towel for my forehead. Once I was good to get up we walk out the door to pay or whatever, idr, I just know I almost passed out in the hall on the way to the counter, and then one more time in the parking lot before I got in the car to go home. The gauze was so tight my toe was throbbing, I was literally just writhing in pain on my mom's bed for 1 or 2 hrs till I loosened the wrapping and the pain finally went down enough that I could sleep it off with an Ibuprofen.

A couple weeks later the nail still curled into my skin and got infected again. 🫠 I nearly cried when I saw the pus it was gross and I didn't want to go through the procedure again, I was an anxious wreck over it. We go to another clinic, get told the first guy did it wrong/incorrectly somehow, then get directed to a podiatrist to fix it for real this time.

That podiatrist was the nicest doctor in the world. When the nurse brought out the tray with the tools right before they were going to start my eyeballs took one look at the instruments and just WEPT without my say-so. It didn't even feel like crying. It just felt like water coming out of my eyeballs without my consent. They were so understanding about it. 😭 I felt like I was being a big fat wuss, or a crybaby. But I was scared. "Sorry. I'm good. It just really hurt last time." And they'd heard the story so they knew so I was gonna trust them to NOT do that they reassured both my mom and I they'd make sure it didn't hurt.

Then he injected the local anesthesia to numb my toe and get to work. All I felt was him vaguely pushing my toe around for a better angle and a little bit of pressure and then bam. It was over and done. 0 pain whatsoever. It was fuckin INCREDIBLE. 20/10 experience.

IDK why that first guy kept going when the patient was clearly in so much pain or distressed he had to be held down. I was like 14. >:( But it makes for a good story to tell.

& that's my traumatic scar horror story of the smallest scar I have. :D

THATS INSANE. SOME DOCTORS ARE SO DUMB AND SHOULD NOT BE PRACTISING. also yeah i know abt this procedure bc .. i obsessively watch videos w it.. dont even. dont even say anything. i know. i know.

im soooo sorry u went thru that shit thats so bad. but im glad it got fixed later.

#i had smth cut out of my foot when i was younger that idk the name of in english but i can confirm the local anaesthesia part #it rly does numb the area #but the needle was fucking huge my mom said she was waiting for it to just go thru my entire toe and come out the other side lmfao #anyway i also didnt make a sound bc i was afraid of inconveniencing the doctor #i do that w every doctor ever #im a horrible patient #they tell me 'hey let me know if it hurts' and im like ok :D and then stay silent. so silent.#im just so afraid of being a nuisance #ANYWAY #asks #scar stories and gore stories

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saltminerising · 1 year

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Beloved saltmins I have a question/request! I know that Dream himself is a banned topic, so I was wondering why other, equally racist people from his circle aren't banned topics? There are people talking about making fandragons for dreamsmp people who straight up use racial slurs and like one user mention use "jew" as an insult. It's distressing/upsetting seeing anons proudly proclaim that they want to make/have made fandragons for them, especially when Dream is already a banned topic. Can we please extend it to the rest of them?

So unfortunately 0/3 mods know anything about the Minecraft duders, if we knew that the other people were part of it we would not have posted those either. I’ll go look up the people and we’ll read up on it so we can catch stuff better because yes, the whole thing is still a banned topic. We need a Minecraft consultant or something /hj

#salt asks

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Bernard reacts to the events of Batman #125.

Summary:

Bernard came across the news video purely by accident: Tim Drake-Wayne Shot at Flugelheim Gala.

His worst nightmare had come true for the second time. All he had was Stephanie Brown’s phone number and numb panic.

Relationships: Bernard Dowd/Tim Drake, Stephanie Brown & Bernard Dowd, Cassandra Cain & Tim Drake

Characters: Bernard Dowd, Tim Drake, Stephanie Brown, Cassandra Cain, Dick Grayson (mentioned)

CW: gunshot wounds (the effects are described but the wound is not shown), mentions of a school shooting, hospital settings, minor self-harm (no blood, after effects from the pain cult in Sum of Our Parts).

—0—

Logically, Bernard knew Tim had been shot before. At least, he remembered seeing it on the news, what felt like ages ago, back before he and Tim reunited.

But he didn’t really think about it. Or maybe he just tried not to, a little scared of entertaining the thought for too long. He was sorely regretting that now. He should’ve thought about it. He should’ve looked into it. Figured out some sort of plan.

That’s what he was realizing, far too late, when it was already happening again. A news video, stuttering on Bernard’s old laptop, was saying Tim got shot.

“...Flugelheim Gala tonight, an attack purportedly orchestrated by the Penguin. Drake-Wayne was taken to the emergency room by his father, but there have been no updates on his condition…”

The call tone on Bernard’s phone dully continued its ring, as it had since Bernard had called Tim’s number in a panic. Tim’s face grinned up at him from the screen even as the call went to voicemail.

“Please don’t be real, please don’t be real.” Bernard felt his breath stutter with every word, but Tim still wasn’t answering his phone.

Bernard didn’t bother leaving a voicemail. He called again. No answer again. Bernard didn’t realize how hard he was pulling on his hoodie string until he noticed his finger going pink from it. His body felt far away as he exited Tim’s contact to find another.

The calling tone came again, nearly drowned out by Bernard’s carefully controlled breathing. Usually she was good about answering. At least, she had been the few times they’d called each other since Tim had introduced them. Please let her answer.

“Hey, what’s up?” came Steph’s voice. Nonchalant. Distracted. Light, not distressed enough to be worrying about…

Bernard let out a breath so fast the world swam around him, and he paused the news YouTube video as he realized it was still playing.

“Have–have you seen the news, Steph?” Bernard’s voice came out high.

“Uh…no. Should I have?” Steph said.

Bernard scooted back on his bed and pressed himself against his pillows and the wall, curling up as he did. “You–it’s on the news. Have–have you seen Tim?”

Please say yes. Please say he’s right next to you and he’s fine and the news is wrong, it was just a nightmare, he’s okay.

“No. I think he’s with Bruce. What’s wrong?”

Bernard went limp, his head banging against the wall behind him. No, he’s not with Bruce. If he was with Bruce, that means he was at the gala, and then he was at the—

“Bernard? Are you okay?”

His hand felt numb, but it was still holding his phone to his ear. “I need to get to the hospital.”

“What? What happened, are you–” She sounded alarmed.

Oh, right. She thought he meant he needed to go for himself.

“I’m not hurt, I’m—” He clenched his free hand tight enough for his nails to press into his palm. “Steph— the news.”

A pause, then rattling on the other line. Faint tapping. Bernard could hardly breathe, distantly realizing he should just be able to find his keys and drive himself to the hospital on his own. But he couldn’t move. He was stuck here. Like he’d been stuck before, standing to the side in the nurse’s office while Darla—

“Oh, God. Tim,” Steph said.

Bernard pressed his legs up tighter and glanced over to his laptop screen, where the video was still paused, with a photo of the extravagant building where the gala had been held. A building that couldn’t be much farther from a public high school, yet it had fallen to the same violence.

“Bernard, I’m—I’ll keep this call up, I just have to talk to some people right now, I’ll find out if we can—I’ll find out what’s going on.”

The thought of Steph leaving made Bernard’s stomach jolt, but true to her word the call didn’t end, just went quiet. With trembling fingers, Bernard switched it to speaker mode and reached out to slowly pull his laptop closer. His mind was buzzing. He didn’t want to know, but he had to know, and Steph might not be able to learn anything.

Bernard opened a new tab and typed in the gala’s name, stumbling on the spelling but still managing to get the right results. Maybe reading a news article would be better than hearing everything out loud.

Despite the anxiety rolling through him, Bernard’s brain manages to focus on the articles enough to gather a bit more information:

1) Penguin and Clayface had done this, according to witness accounts.

2) Batman and Robin had been there, and they’d purportedly saved everyone in the building from being gassed , but they hadn’t been able to prevent some injuries.

3) Tim. Tim was one of the injured.

4) Robin was another.

By the time he’d read through four articles, Steph was back.

“Alright, I—I got more info on Tim. He’s at Gotham General. Cass and I are driving over there, but we’ll probably have to wait a while to see him. Do you need a ride?”

Bernard closed his eyes, tugging at his hoodie string again. He glanced at his wall, where he had taped a bunch of photos of Tim next to his newspaper clippings of the Robins and his notes. “I—I have a car.”

A pause. “No offense, but I don’t think you should be driving right now. Plus, it’ll save on gas if we just pick you up. Do you want to go to Tim?”

She sounded so calm now. No wonder Tim had fallen for her. “Yes,” he croaked.

“Okay. Grab some stuff to distract you in the waiting room. See you in ten.”

His phone beeped as the call ended, and Bernard lowered it to his bed, then managed to pull himself off his crumpled covers and robotically stuff some items in his bag, pull on his shoes, and sit down against the wall by the door, staring at the floor.

A knock pulled him out of his thoughts, and when he opened the door for Steph, she gave him a strained smile and wrapped an arm around his shoulder warmly as she tugged him toward the car.

Steph sat with him in the back. Time felt muddled. One moment, they were putting on seat belts, the next they were out of the neighborhood, with bright lights reflecting off the window. He was pretty sure Cass was driving. The lights in the window were really bright, red and blue and—like the cop car lights when Bernard had walked out of that wretched school.

They made it to the hospital. The waiting room was packed, or at least it felt like it. Like everyone was pressing in on him. Steph directed them to the right area, and this time Cassie, one of Tim’s favorite siblings by his own admission, was the one to sit down next to Bernard while Steph went off to talk to—someone.

Bernard concentrated on his breathing, even in and out.

“Touch?”

His head jerked toward Cass, who looked at him with a slight quirk of her eyebrows indicating her worry. “What?” Bernard said breathlessly.

“Can I touch you?” she said.

“Uh—” Bernard blinked at her, then remembered the photos of her Tim had on his phone, where she was often leaning on his shoulder or hugging or even kissing her family members on the cheek, in a few prized photos Tim always smiled over. Cass liked touch. She was good at it. “Sure. That’s—okay?”

Slowly, as if giving him a chance to back out, Cass wrapped an arm around Bernard’s back and leaned into him, her head resting on his shoulder. She felt warm, or maybe it was just that Bernard was cold, and her touch was firm and reassuring. After a few seconds, Bernard sagged into the hold, his fists unclenching.

“He’ll be okay,” Cass said, voice quiet and vibrating through Bernard’s chest. “Tim’s…stubborn.”

Bernard bit his lip, trying to make himself believe in her words. But Darla was stubborn too. And they didn’t know how bad it was. Even if Tim was okay right now (which they didn’t know, none of the articles had known anything, he could’ve died right after he got to the hospital for all they knew), he might not be later. Darla had been in the nurse’s office. Bernard had been there. Waiting. Waiting. She’d survived. Until she didn’t.

Cassie’s hand touching his own brought him back to the present. She pried his fingers apart where he’d been gripping his sweats hard enough to hurt. He had to watch that. He’d been trying to, trying to stop hurting himself. To shake off the destructive habits the cult had taught him. He’d been trying to get better, and he had been. Getting better, that is.

But. Tim got shot.

Steph sat down in the seat across from them. She didn’t have any news—he could see it in the anxious line of her face.

Bernard wasn’t entirely sure how long they waited. At one point, Dick, the oldest brother, came bustling over and got more information on Tim’s condition. He was alive, they’d managed to control the bleeding. He was getting an infusion because it was an arterial bleed and he’d lost a lot very quickly. But he was doing pretty well so far and Dick and Cass got to go visit him for a bit before coming back.

Bernard felt numb at the news. He tried to remember that Darla had never even made it to the hospital, and that was part of why she’d died. She’d been stuck in that damn school with only basic medical care for too long. But Tim was already here and had been for a while now, so his chances were higher.

Mom called him once, but he didn’t answer, and she didn’t call again. He wondered if his parents even knew where he was. They probably didn’t.

-0-

The chair by Tim’s hospital bed creaked with every movement Bernard made, but the beeping of monitors drowned out every other sound. The lighting was dimmed, but Tim almost seemed to glow with how pale he was. Somehow even with all the blood they’d given him, he still looked like he didn’t have any.

Cass was somewhere in the room, having curled up on the floor for a nap. Bernard had made a half hearted comment about that sounding uncomfortable but Cassie had just smirked and quirked an eyebrow before laying down. Apparently sleeping on the floor didn’t bother her. Bernard needed to reassess those news articles he’d read once that’d posed hypotheses about Cass Wayne’s life before she was adopted out of nowhere.

That was a while ago. She must’ve fallen asleep by now. The room felt too quiet.

Tim’s fingers tightened in Bernard’s hand, and Bernard’s eyes flicked back to Tim’s face. Tim’s eyes fluttered open, eyebrows wrinkling drowsily at the ceiling.

“Tim? You awake?” Bernard said in a low voice.

Tim’s eyes settled on him, and his jaw worked as if he was going to speak.

“Don’t,” Bernard snapped, then swallowed and softened his voice. “Your throat needs to heal. Just, um, nod.”

Tim narrowed his eyes, but relaxed his jaw. He gestured around the room with a tired movement.

“You’re in the hospital. Bruce brought you here.”

Tim’s eyes widened and one hand flew to his face, feeling the skin under his eyes. Bernard quirked an eyebrow, worry gnawing at his stomach. “Tim? You okay?”

A nod and strained smile, then a frown. Tim pointed at Bernard.

“Me?”

Another nod.

“Am I okay?”

Tim nodded again, and Bernard’s instant thought was, Don’t ask that while you’re in a hospital bed, you thoughtful jerk.

“I—” Bernard’s voice faltered, and he looked away a moment, but before long his eyes were drawn back to Tim’s, which glimmered with concern despite the meds he was on and the fact that he’d been shot only two nights ago. “I just—”

His limbs stuttering with hesitation, Bernard leaned forward and slowly reached his hand toward Tim’s cheek, watching Tim’s eyes for any protest yet finding only trust.

He cupped Tim’s cheek and felt his own lips quiver. “I just thought…like…I was scared. I’m just glad you’re okay, but I…”

Tim raised his own hand to rest on top of Bernard’s. “Bernard…” he murmured, voice hoarse and weak.

Bernard shook his head, and took a deep breath. “It’s okay. You’re gonna be okay. Cass said so, and I believe everything she says.” He was being half truthful. He couldn’t imagine she would lie, but his mind kept betraying him.

Tim seemed like he wanted to say more, but he just said, “Cassie?”

Cass popped her head up next to the bed, making Bernard jerk in his seat a bit. Had she been awake the whole time? She flopped her arms and chin onto the side of the bed and touched Tim’s arm, mouth quirked in a soft smile. “Hey.”

Tim’s mouth quirked in an almost identical way. “You—” His voice gave out before he could finish and he winced.

Cassie flicked his arm gently. “Don’t. Just use ASL.”

Tim glanced over at Bernard, as if hesitant to use ASL when Bernard didn’t know any, but Bernard just shrugged. Tim moved his hand off Bernard’s to sign something to Cass, his hands a little shaky.

“Bruce is fine,” Cass said aloud. She signed something else back to Tim, then aloud she added, “No one else was hurt so bad. Have to stay here for…hmm, a while. Doctor’s orders.”

Tim scrunched up his face unhappily, and Bernard swallowed, running his hands through Tim’s hair like he had on their last date, this time trying not to imagine how much blood they’d had to wash out of his hair…

“Too bad,” Cass said to Tim, responding to whatever he’d just signed. “Um, I told the doctors you know ASL, they said there’s an… interpreter?” Bernard glanced at her and nodded, and she continued, “You can use that to talk before you can do it without pain. I can’t do the…interpreting.”

Tim signed something else, and this time Bernard recognized it faintly as fingerspelling.

“Steph was here earlier. She’s coming back later, and so is Dick. Have to wake up again for that, Tim.” She ruffled Tim’s hair, grinning as she displaced the strands Bernard had straightened.

Bernard took a deep breath, and found that some of the tension had gone out of his shoulders. Seeing Tim’s eyes opened helped. It…it made it different, from seeing Darla. When she’d been shot, she hadn’t opened her eyes again after she’d first gone unconscious. And that time when Bernard was kidnapped by the Chaos Monster, and he’d been pulled away from Tim unconscious on the floor…that time, Tim hadn’t opened his eyes either. But now he’d already woken up, even if his eyes were already drooping again.

Bernard let himself smile and cupped Tim’s cheek again before leaning in to give a kiss to Tim’s forehead. When he leaned back, Tim was blushing and Bernard couldn’t help but grin, and Cass laughed.

“Rest up, Tim,” Bernard said. “You have to sleep so I can plan our next date without you sneaking spoilers. It’s supposed to be a surprise.”

Tim huffed a bit, smiling, but he just grabbed Cass’s hand in one of his own, and let his eyes fall closed while Bernard combed his hair with his fingers.

He’d be okay. And Bernard…well, if Tim was okay now, then Bernard could sort himself out later. For the moment, forehead kisses would be enough.

#tim drake #timbern #bernard dowd #batfam #stephanie brown #cassandra cain #timber #dc #fanfic #my fanfics #my writing #heroesriseandfall

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