the unfortunate thing about using half of my free time today to clean is that half of my free time was spent cleaning and now i have to go to work for 7 hours. sad.

astro notes for fun lol

HEY! this is my first astro observations post so don't be too hard on me lol unless u wanna then sure maybe i can improve them somehow BUTANYWAYZ this is for entertainment purposes only!! obviously these are just my own observations so if they don't resonate with you don't get offended or you're a big ol' 🅱️uss so here they are!! also SHOUTOUT TO MY AMAZING FRIENDS fyi i got sum help from them by asking them billions of questions to confirm my suspicions so uh hope that makes the observations more accurate LOL ANYWAYS HERE THEY ARE!! i'll probably make more in the future cuz i think they're super fun to make :D also if u couldnt tell uhm this isnt very professional im not professional BUT I TRIED TO MAKE IT PRETTY so pls dont be bothered lol im just doing this for fun i didnt even wanna make an astro page so yea </3pretty unreliable LMAOOO

👩🏻‍🦲 the house your mars is in is what pisses you off the most!! (eg. 1st - people assuming things about you, 5th - people beating around the bush, 7th - things that disrupt the harmony of your environment, 9th - the need to hold back your opinions because others get bothered by them being "offensive")

👩🏻‍🦲 cancers are true ambiverts and i've truly never ever seen a cancer who wouldn't be both introverted and extroverted at times. they are always either social introverts or quiet extroverts lol. or both!! (somehow 0_0) they enjoy people's attention, whether it's wanting to be noticed or appreciated or generally cared for, and they need their alone time. they tend to be very productive at those times, too.

👩🏻‍🦲 ok i have a lot of notes for cancers so it's gonna be a lot lmao sorry anyways!! i've also noticed they LOVEEE breaking loose every once in a while, if not every time they're given the opportunity! thing is, it's usually only if someone else is there to convince them or do it with them. they don't like taking risks alone! they are very impressed and fond of the 'wild child' persona people because they bring out the cancer's wild side!

👩🏻‍🦲 libra moons are absolutely loved by people, it's so crazy! like, no matter what they do they always have attention on them. this can manifest badly if the moon person is actually pretty horrible, things they do tend to be overlooked and others move on pretty quickly from their mistakes, letting them do whatever they want. i wanted to give an example but uh,,,,, i shall.. refrain😳

👩🏻‍🦲 libra suns with water moons are so scary when they're angry..

👩🏻‍🦲 cancer moon is what i deem as the zodiac sign cute-ifyer lol. literally any "tough" sign like capricorn, scorpio or aquarius becomes a super cute goofball with this moon. WEIRDEST THING EVER THOUGH is that it doesn't work for cancer suns?! like if a cancer sun has a cancer moon this just makes the person very confusing but very funny. they can brighten anybody's day without trying!

👩🏻‍🦲 okay uh this isn't an astro note as much as it is me being a phucken simp but uh..... I HAVE AN UNDYING LOVE FOR ARIES SUNS I WILL MARRY EVERY EACHAND ONE OF YOU ISTG. ARIES SUNS ARE THE NICEST AND FUNNIEST PEOPEL I'VE EVER SEEN YOU HAVE THE BEST HUMOR EVER AND YOU'RE SO KIND TO EVERYBODY YOU'RE SO KIND I LOVE YOU YOU'RE TOO GOOD FOR THIS PLANET I WANT TO HUG YOU FOREVER okay jbshxhjn but fr aries are the best people ever?!?!?!?!?!?! pls

👩🏻‍🦲 okay JUST SO THIS WHOLE ARIES MENTION ISN'T JUST A POINTLESS LOVE CONFESSION - i've noticed a lot of ♥aries♥ people use the laughing crying face emojis (😂,🤣) unironically and it's honestly.....the best thing ever

👩🏻‍🦲 taurus suns do this sometimes as well

👩🏻‍🦲 THE MOST UNHEALTHY PERCEPTIONS OF ZODIAC SIGNS ARE PUT ON FIRE SIGNS, NOT THE WATER SIGNS AND THIS IS COMING FROM A PISCES!!!!!!1 every stereotype is always showing fire signs as those sunshine of the group people, the baddies, and the ones with the biggest 'idgaf' attitude. and while this can totally be true sometimes, most of the time it's super different! sad fire signs break my heart pls i just wanna hug you guys T-T they have it the hardest because unlike water signs who are already expected to be emotional, they often repress their emotions for the sake of others and because of the fear of betrayal or judgement, or just generally the idea of "it's better to have fake friends than to have zero friends". YOU GUYS PLEASE. cut these people off from your life you deserve soo much better i know it can be super hard to open up for you u just need a hug omg EVERYONE PLEASE CHECK UP ON YOUR FIRE SIGN FRIENDS ASK THEM ABOUT THEIR DAY N STUFF THEY WILL APPRECIATE YOU CARING FOR THEM! pls stay best and take care sweethearts ily!!!

👩🏻‍🦲 i've also noticed that some of the signs tend to show their sadness through anger - this is not just astrology though so if your friend has been jumpy lately please just check on them they are probably going thru sth😳 anyways the signs i mostly saw this in are pisces, aries and libra.

👩🏻‍🦲 cancers with feminine moons (earth and water) tend to be pretty introspective. they often think they're the ones being mistreated, and while this of course might be true, in reality it usually goes a lonnng way back lol. they often pay very little attention to others!! (masculine moon sign cancers (fire and air) can often be too focused on others more than themselves) this can be good because they don't snoop in other people's business but oh my god, guys, please pay attention to your friends, too! this WILL lead to lost friendships because, let's be real, nobody wants a one-sided friendship with someone who only cares about themselves! i don't want to target anybody here but this is just a pattern i've noticed wayyyy too often, so you might want to look into it and if you think this is you all you need is just to enlargen your perspective and it will all be okay. but please, PLEASE. think about your friends

👩🏻‍🦲 i needed to get this^ out because people often put this on leo placements but tbh i notice that leo placements are THE MOST generous of the entire zodiac and they always think of others first and that's what really makes them so popular. they very rarely are as egocentric as everybody says, they're just really loving and that makes them very lovable!

👩🏻‍🦲 scorpio risings are the prettiest people i've ever seen. not even kidding bruh i could stare at them for EVER their eyes are absolutely gorgeous and their mannerisms are just perfect pls marry me

👩🏻‍🦲 gemini and taurus placements make an individual soooo chill to the point where it often makes them lazy and a biig procrastinator lol. tho i love how they make light of it by using their amazing humor!

👩🏻‍🦲 you most definitely have your IC be one of your family members' sun sign or one of their personal planets. i have a taurus ic and my sister is a taurus sun!

👩🏻‍🦲 sagittarius suns are the best huggers cause THEY REALLY NEED A HUG SO GO HUG THEM RIGHT NOW. pls guys why r u so sad..

👩🏻‍🦲 scorpio mars aren't even as sexual as everybody says tbh. but they definitely do have some interesting.....interests ;)

👩🏻‍🦲 pluto aspects to personal planets are very prominent, but very hidden. if you have them, most likely you will be the only person to know about this side of you and it can be pretty dark..

👩🏻‍🦲 planets conjunct your sun will be the people you attract most in your life (venus conjunct sun - taurus and libra, jupiter - sagittarius and pisces, mars - aries and scorpio EVERYWHERE)

👩🏻‍🦲 your moon sign will be the sun sign of most of your friends

👩🏻‍🦲 if you don't quite relate to your ascendant, look at the sign you have in your 3rd house and at your mercury sign. this is how you communicate, convey your ideas etc. and will often be a major factor in people's first impressions of you :)

👩🏻‍🦲 lilith aspecting your sun may mean there's a side of you nobody knows.. 👁👁 you're also probably very convincing and people can be very drawn to you and they can't explain why. this also goes for lilith in 7th, especially in girls!

👩🏻‍🦲 you and your friends probably have each other's sun signs as your personal planets!!

👩🏻‍🦲 the kindest person you know is probably either a virgo or an aries.. and the meanest person you know is also probably a virgo or aries LOL

👩🏻‍🦲 capricorn suns & risings are THE hardest to read!! if they don't say what they mean people will just assume and they're never going to be right it's wild 👩🏻‍🦲 also capricorns definitely have the most dad energy, while sagittariuses are more like actual dads jdbshxcvb

OKAY THAT'S ALL!!!! im sure i have more but its 2 am i have school tomorrow or actually its today now so bye uh anyways there will most likely be more so if u liked these stay tuned!! oh and let me know if they were true witchu :o thats it love u stay awesome and super cool i love u byebye!!

So I've never actually seen /u/ryans01 excellent post re-posted here on tumblr, and I think it could help a lot of people, so I'll repost it below. Link to the original

Ouch. Sounds like you're having a tough time max. That sucks. I've been there, so I kinda know what you're talking about. I've been in the ever circling vortex of self doubt, frustration, and loathing. It's no bueno. I know. If you don't mind lemme tell you a couple things. You can read em if you want, read em again later if you feel like it. But honestly man, if I spend all this time typing this out to you and you don't let it be a little tinder for your fire, well, you're just letting us both down. And you don't HAVE to do that. You don't HAVE to do anything. But you get to choose.

(Who am I? My name’s Ryan and I live in Canada. Just moved to a new city for a dream job that I got because of the rules below. I owe a lot of my success to people much cooler, kinder, more loving and greater than me. When I get the chance to maybe let a little bit of help out, it’s a way of thanking them. )

Rule numero uno - There are no more zero days. What's a zero day? A zero day is when you don't do a single fucking thing towards whatever dream or goal or want or whatever that you got going on. No more zeros. I'm not saying you gotta bust an essay out everyday, that's not the point. The point I'm trying to make is that you have to make yourself, promise yourself, that the new SYSTEM you live in is a NON-ZERO system. Didnt' do anything all fucking day and it's 11:58 PM? Write one sentence. One pushup. Read one page of that chapter. One. Because one is non zero. You feel me? When you're in the super vortex of being bummed your pattern of behaviour is keeping the vortex goin, that's what you're used to. Turning into productivity ultimate master of the universe doesn't happen from the vortex. It happens from a massive string of CONSISTENT NON ZEROS. That's rule number one. Do not forget.

La deuxieme regle - yeah i learnt french. its a canadian thing. please excuse the lack of accent graves, but lemme get into rule number 2. BE GRATEFUL TO THE 3 YOU'S. Uh what? 3 me's? That sounds like mumbo jumbo bullshit. News flash, there are three you's homeslice. There's the past you, the present you, and the future you. If you wanna love someone and have someone love you back, you gotta learn to love yourself, and the 3 you's are the key. Be GRATEFUL to the past you for the positive things you've done. And do favours for the future you like you would for your best bro. Feeling like shit today? Stop a second, think of a good decision you made yesterday. Salad and tuna instead of Big Mac? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Was yesterday a nonzero day because you wrote 200 words (hey, that's all you could muster)? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Saved up some coin over time to buy that sweet thing you wanted? THANK YOU. Second part of the 3 me's is you gotta do your future self a favour, just like you would for your best fucking friend (no best friend? you do now. You got 2. It's future and past you). Tired as hell and can't get off reddit/videogames/interwebs? fuck you present self, this one's for future me, i'm gonna rock out p90x Ab Ripper X for 17 minutes. I'm doing this one for future me. Alarm clock goes off and bed is too comfy? fuck you present self, this one's for my best friend, the future me. I'm up and going for a 5 km run (or 25 meter run, it's gotta be non zero). MAKE SURE YOU THANK YOUR OLD SELF for rocking out at the end of every.single.thing. that makes your life better. The cycle of doing something for someone else (future you) and thanking someone for the good in your life (past you) is key to building gratitude and productivity. Do not doubt me. Over time you should spread the gratitude to others who help you on your path.

Rule number 3- don't worry i'm gonna too long didnt' read this bad boy at the bottom (get a pencil and piece of paper to write it down. seriously. you physically need to scratch marks on paper) FORGIVE YOURSELF. I mean it. Maybe you got all the know-how, money, ability, strength and talent to do whatever is you wanna do. But lets say you still didn't do it. Now you're giving yourself shit for not doing what you need to, to be who you want to. Heads up champion, being dissapointed in yourself causes you to be less productive. Tried your best to have a nonzero day yesterday and it failed? so what. I forgive you previous self. I forgive you. But today? Today is a nonzero masterpiece to the best of my ability for future self. This one's for you future homes. Forgiveness man, use it. I forgive you. Say it out loud.

Last rule. Rule number 4, is the easiest and its three words. exercise and books. that's it. Pretty standard advice but when you exercise daily you actually get smarter. when you exercise you get high from endorphins (thanks body). when you exercise you clear your mind. when you exercise you are doing your future self a huge favour. Exercise is a leg on a three legged stool. Feel me? As for books, almost every fucking thing we've all ever thought of, or felt, or gone through, or wanted, or wanted to know how to do, or whatever, has been figured out by someone else. Get some books max. Post to reddit about not caring about yourself? Good first step! (nonzero day, thanks younger me for typing it out) You know what else you could do? Read 7 habits of highly successful people. Read "emotional intelligence". Read "From good to great". Read “thinking fast and slow”. Read books that will help you understand. Read the bodyweight fitness reddit and incorporate it into your workouts. (how's them pullups coming?) Reading is the fucking warp whistle from Super Mario 3. It gets you to the next level that much faster.

That’s about it man. There’s so much more when it comes to how to turn nonzero days into hugely nonzero days, but that’s not your mission right now. Your mission is nonzero and forgiveness and favours. You got 36 essays due in 24 minutes and its impossible to pull off? Your past self let you down big time, but hey… I forgive you. Do as much as you can in those 24 minutes and then move on.

I hope I helped a little bit max. I could write about this forever, but I promised myself I would go do a 15 minute run while listening to A. Skillz Beats Working Vol. 3. Gotta jet. One last piece of advice though. Regardless of whether or not reading this for the first time helps make your day better, if you wake up tomorrow, and you can’t remember the 4 rules I just laid out, please, please. Read this again.

Have an awesome fucking day ☺

tldr; 1. Nonzero days as much as you can. 2. The three you’s, gratitude and favours. 3. Forgiveness 4. Exercise and books (which is a sneaky way of saying self improvement, both physical, emotional and mental)

Edit: Wow reddit gold? Thanks! No idea what to do with it or whats the deal but many thanks!

Edit2: Someone asked what I meant by "much more when it comes to how to turn nonzero days into hugely nonzero days". The long and short of it is a simple truth, but it's tough to TOTALLY UNDERSTAND AND PRACTICE. It's this: you become what you think. This doesnt mean if I think of a tree, I'll be oakin' it by august. It means that the WAY you think, the THINGS you think of, and the IDEAS YOU HOLD IN YOUR MIND defines the sum total that is you. You procrastinate all the time and got fear and worry goin on for something? You are becoming a procrastinator. You keep thinking about how much you want to run that 5 k race in the spring and finish a champion? Are ya keeping it in mind all the time? Is it something that is defining your ACTIONS and influencing you DECISIONS? If it is, then you're becoming the champion you're dreaming about. Dreaming about it makes it. Think and it shall be. But do not forget that action is thought's son. Thoughts without actions are nothing. Have faith in whatever it is you've steeled your mind to. Have faith and follow through with action.

Ok, Ryan that's a bunch of nice words n shit, but how does that help me turn slightly nonzero days into hugely nonzero days. Do you believe all these words you just read? Does it makes sense to you that you BECOME WHAT YOU THINK OF? Ask yourself: What do I think of? When you get home and walk in the door. (how quickly did you turn that laptop on? Did turning it on make you closer to your dreams? What would?) At the bus stop. Lunch break. What direction are you focusing your intentions on? If you're like I was a few years ago, the answer was either No direction, or whatever caught my eye at the moment. But no stress, forgive yourself. You know the truth now. And knowing the truth means you can watch your habits, read books on how you think and act, and finally start changing your behaviour. Heres an example: Feeling like bunk cause you had zero days or barely nonzero days? THINK ABOUT WHAT YOURE DOING. and change just a little bit more. in whatever positive direction you are choosing to go.

Edit3: WHOA! This blew up! Major appreciation to Modified_Duck for making this cool ass image: http://i.imgur.com/7xsp7hJ.png

Edit4: Another AMAZING DESKTOP BACKGROUND! http://www.reddit.com/r/GetMotivated/comments/1rowpb/i_made_a_wallpaper_from_uryans01s_amazing_quote/

Disney but just the Queer Mood™ Songs, a full Spotify Playlist

Open to updates should anyone notice a song I missed!

Tracklist with specific lyrics that fuck us all up under the cut:

KEY: A general list of which songs resonate with people. The 🏳️‍🌈is for general songs; if you relate to a song but don’t see ur emoji beneath it, send me a message and I’ll add it!

🏳️‍🌈 General Queer Anthem  🌈 Gays specifically have related to this song  ❤️ Gay Men specifically have related to this song  🧡 Lesbians specifically have related to this song 💕 Bisexuals/Pansexuals specifically have related to this song  💜 Asexuals/Ace-spectrum people specifically have related to this song 💚 Aromatics/Aro-spectrum people specifically have related to this song 🤍 Trans people have specifically related to this song 🖤 Nonbinary/Genderqueer people have specifically related to this song  💗 Polyamorous people have specifically related to this song

Know Who You Are - Moana

🏳️‍🌈

They have stolen the heart from inside you But this does not define you  This is not who you are You know who you are...

I Wonder - Sleeping Beauty 

🌈🧡

I wonder, I wonder, I wonder why each little bird has a someone To sing to, sweet things to, A gay little love melody I wonder, I wonder, I wonder if my heart keeps singing, Will my song go winging To someone, who'll find me And bring back a love song to me...

Mother Knows Best - Tangled

🏳️‍🌈 honestly this is just... a general song for some of our shitty relationships to guardian figures...

It's a scary world out there Mother knows best One way or another Something will go wrong, I swear

Me, I'm just your mother, what do I know? I only bathed and changed and nursed you Go ahead and leave me, I deserve it Let me die alone here, be my guest When it's too late You'll see, just wait Mother knows best

Don't forget it You'll regret it...

Dangerous to Dream - Frozen Broadway Production

🏳️‍🌈

I can't be what you expect of me But I'm trying every day with all I do and do not say Here on the edge of the abyss Knowing everything in my whole life has lead to this And so I pull inside myself, close the walls, put up my guard I've practiced every single day for this So why is it so hard?

I can't dwell on what we've lost And our secrecy and silence comes at such a cost

I wish I could tell the truth Show you who's behind the door I wish you knew what all this pantomime And pageantry was for

It's dangerous to wish I could make choices of my own Dangerous to even have that thought I'm dangerous just standing here for everyone to see If I let go of rules who knows how dangerous I'd be?

Reflection - Mulan 

🏳️‍🌈🤍🖤- literally everyone requested this. everyone. so im just copy-pasting the entire lyrics sorry not sorry

Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride Or a perfect daughter Can it be I'm not meant to play this part? Now I see that if I were truly to be myself I would break my family's heart

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know? Somehow I cannot hide who I am, though I’ve tried  When will my reflection show who I am inside?

How I pray that a time will come I can free myself From their expectations On that day, I'll discover someway to be myself And to make my family proud They want a docile lamb No one knows who I am Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? When will my reflection show Who I am inside?

Everything I Ever Thought I Knew - Tangled: The Series

🏳️‍🌈 when u realize u might not be straight lol

I thought no one could love me And how could I have known? I was wrong, oh so wrong

Everything I ever thought I knew Where I've been, where I'm going Everything I counted on turned out to be untrue Could've guessed, should've known, now I do

If none of it was really me then who am I supposed to be?

I guess I'm someone else now I wonder who I am

God Help the Outcasts - Hunchback of Notre Dame

🏳️‍🌈...yeah. yeah

Yes, I know I'm just an outcast I shouldn't speak to You Still, I see Your face and wonder Were You once an outcast, too?

God help the outcasts, hungry from birth Show them the mercy they don't find on Earth God help my people, they look to You, still God help the outcasts or nobody will

I ask for nothing, I can get by But I know so many less lucky than I Please help my people, the poor and downtrod I thought we all were the children of God

Belle (Reprise) - Beauty and the Beast

🌈 when a cishet thinks ur interested smh

Madame Gaston! Can't you just see it? Madame Gaston! His little wife No, sir! Not me! I guarantee it I want much more than this provincial life!

I want adventure in the great wide somewhere I want it more than I can tell And for once it might be grand To have someone understand I want so much more than they've got planned...

Part of Your World - The Little Mermaid

🌈 SO many people requested this one guys it’s not even funny

Wandering free, wish I could be Part of that world

Betcha on land, they understand Bet they don't reprimand their daughters Bright young women, sick of swimming Ready to stand

When's it my turn? Wouldn't I love, Love to explore that shore up above?

One Jump Ahead (Reprise) - Aladdin

🏳️‍🌈

Riff-raff, street rat I don't buy that If only they'd look closer

Would they see a poor boy? No, siree They'd find out There's so much more to me...

Proud of Your Boy - Aladdin Broadway Production 

🏳️‍🌈❤️🤍

That I've been one rotten kid Some son, some pride and some joy But I'll get over these lousin' up Messin' up, screwin' up times...

Water flows under the bridge Let it pass, let it go There's no good reason that you should believe me Not yet, I know, but

Someday and soon I'll make you proud of your boy Though I can't make myself taller Or smarter or handsome or wise I'll do my best, what else can I do? Since I wasn't born perfect like Dad or you...

Someone’s Waiting for You - The Rescuers

🏳️‍🌈

Be brave, little one Make a wish for each sad little tear Hold your head up though no one is near Someone's waiting for you

Always keep a little prayer in your pocket And you're sure to see the light Soon there'll be joy and happiness And your little world will be bright

Have faith, little one Til your hopes and your wishes come true

Stick to the Status Quo - High School Musical 

🏳️‍🌈 🌈 YOU ALL KNOW EXACTLY WHY THIS IS HERE

No, no, no, stick to the stuff you know It is better by far to keep things as they are Don't mess with the flow, no no Stick to the status quo

Into the Unknown - Frozen 2

🏳️‍🌈

I can hear you, but I won't Some look for trouble while others don't There's a thousand reasons I should go about my day And ignore your whispers which I wish would go away

I've had my adventure, I don't need something new I'm afraid of what I'm risking if I follow you

Or are you someone out there who's a little bit like me? Who knows deep down I'm not where I'm meant to be? Every day's a little harder as I feel my power grow Don't you know there's part of me that longs to go

Where are you going? Don't leave me alone How do I follow you Into the unknown?

Go the Distance - Hercules 

🏳️‍🌈

I have often dreamed of a far off place Where a great, warm welcome will be waiting for me

And a voice keeps saying This is where I'm meant to be

I am on my way, I can go the distance I don't care how far, somehow I'll be strong I know every mile will be worth my while I would go most anywhere to find where I belong

Tomorrow - Annie

🏳️‍🌈 - betcha didnt know disney had an annie movie did u

The sun will come out tomorrow Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow There'll be sun

When I'm stuck in a day that's gray and lonely, I just stick out my chin and grin and say, oh, The sun’ll come out tomorrow So you gotta hang on til tomorrow, come what may...

Learn Me Right - Brave

🏳️‍🌈💜💚

Though I may speak some tongue of old Or even spit out some holy word I have no strength with which to speak When you sit me down and see I’m weak

We will run and scream you will dance with me We'll fulfill our dreams, and we'll be free We will be who we are, and they’ll heal our scars Sadness will be far away...

Strange Sight - Tinkerbell and the Legend of the Neverbeast 

🏳️‍🌈

You stand in the light You're wrong, but you're right And my heart's beating wildly Strange how I'm scared but delighted Afraid, but excited too

I will understand you Strange how I'm drawn to the danger I reach out my hand to you

If you're caught in the shadows and turned all around Lost in the darkness, you will be found If you hear my voice, follow the sound Cause I'm here to guide you home... 

I Don’t Dance - High School Musical 2 

🌈 ❤️ 💕 okay so if you weren’t here for the high school musical tumblr revival you may be confused but listen... it’s about being mlm... 

Step up to the plate, start swinging

I wanna play ball Now that’s all, this is what I do It ain’t no dance that you can show me

I’ve got what it takes playin’ my game So you best skin that pitch you gonna throw me, yeah I’ll show you how I swing

I can prove it to you ‘til you know it’s true Cause I can swing it, I can bring it to the diamond too You’re talking a lot, show me what you got Stop, swing!

Kiss the Girl - cover of The Little Mermaid 

this version is sung by a girl so 🧡💕

There you see her, sitting there across the way She don't got a lot to say but there's something about her And you don't know why, but you're dying to try You wanna kiss the girl

Yes, you want her Look at her, you know you do It's possible she want you too There is one way to ask her...

Can You Feel the Love Tonight - The Lion King 

🏳️‍🌈

An enchanted moment And it sees me through It's enough for this restless warrior Just to be with you

There's a time for everyone if they only learn That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors When the heart of this star-crossed voyager Beats in time with yours

And can you feel the love tonight? It is where we are It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer That we got this far And can you feel the love tonight? How it's laid to rest It's enough to make kings and vagabonds Believe the very best

Beauty and the Beast - Beauty and the Beast 

🏳️‍🌈- a lot of queer people tend to empathize with “beastly” characters so we all latched the fuck onto this movie huh

Just a little change, small to say the least Both a little scared, neither one prepared

Ever just the same, ever a surprise Ever as before, ever just as sure As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time, tune as old as song Bittersweet and strange, finding you can change Learning you were wrong...

Healing Incantation - Tangled 

🏳️‍🌈🤍🖤

Heal what has been hurt Change the fates' design Save what has been lost Bring back what once was mine

So Close - Enchanted 

🏳️‍🌈🌈

A life goes by, romantic dreams will stop So I bid mine goodbye and never knew So close was waiting waiting here with you And now, forever, I know All that I wanted to hold you so close

Oh, how could I face the faceless days If I should lose you now?

So close to reaching that famous happy end Almost believing this one's not pretend Let’s go on dreaming though we know we are So close, so close, and still So far...

If Only - Descendants

🏳️‍🌈🌈

A million thoughts in my head Should I let my heart keep listening? Cause up 'til now, I've walked the line Nothing lost but something missing I can't decide what's wrong, what's right Which way should I go?

Every step, every word With every hour I'm feeling in To something new, something brave To someone I've never been

Will you still be with me When the magic's all run out?

If only I knew what my heart was telling me Don't know what I'm feeling Is this just a dream? If only I could read the signs in front of me I could find the way to who I'm meant to be

Wherever You Are - Pooh’s Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin 

🏳️‍🌈- out of context could be interpreted as romantic, esp since the credits version is a duet (🌈 💕) but the original context is friendship so honestly it’s very 💜💚

I'm out here in the dark, all alone and wide awake Come and find me I'm empty and I'm cold, and my heart's about to break Come and find me

I need you to come here and find me Cause without you, I'm totally lost I've hung a wish on every star It hasn't done much good so far I can only dream of you

But when the morning comes and the sun begins to rise, I will lose you Because it’s just a dream, when I open up my eyes, I will lose you

I used to believe in forever, But forever is too good to be true I've hung a wish on every star It hasn't done much good so far

I don't know what else to do Except to try to dream of you And wonder, if you're dreaming too Wherever you are

I Won’t Say (I’m In Love) - Hercules

🏳️‍🌈 🌈 💕

If there's a prize for rotten judgment, I guess I've already won that

Who d'you think you're kiddin'? He's the earth and heaven to ya Try to keep it hidden Honey, we can see right through ya Girl, you can't conceal it We know how you feel And who you're thinking of

I thought my heart had learned its lesson It feels so good when you start out My head is screaming "Get a grip, girl!" Unless you're dying to cry your heart out

You keep on denying Who you are and how you're feeling Baby, we're not buying Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling

This scene won't play I won't say I'm in love

At least out loud, I won't say I'm in love

Endless Night - The Lion King Broadway Production 

🏳️‍🌈�� 🖤 

Where has the starlight gone? Dark is the day How can I find my way home? Home is an empty dream, lost to the night Father, I feel so alone

When will the dawning break, oh, endless night Sleepless I dream of the day

I know that the night must end And that the sun will rise I know that the clouds must clear And that the sun will shine

Set Yourself Free - Tangled: The Series 

🏳️‍🌈🤍

There's much more inside of you than anyone can see And now the choice is yours Life waits beyond the doors So step on through, the time has come And only you can set yourself free!

No one else can tell you what to do Or who to be! No one gets to say if you will stay or go

Look inside your heart and find the key... And set yourself free!

Bound up by your worries Trapped by your mistakes Forced to play a role you never chose Why not test your limits? You've got what it takes Let it out and follow where it goes

No more letting someone else define you to a "T" You know that you are strong You've known it all along So seize the day, let down your hair You’ll find a way to set yourself free!

So look to the horizon Open up your wings! Fly away to find your destiny... And set yourself free!

Speechless - Aladdin 2019 Remake 

🏳️‍🌈 ALL OF US ALL OF US

Here comes a wave meant to wash me away A tide that is taking me under

Cause I'll breathe when they try to suffocate me! Don't you underestimate me! Cause I know that I won't go speechless!

Written in stone, every rule, every word Centuries old and unbending "Stay in your place, better seen and not heard," Well, now that story is ending

Try to lock me in this cage! I won't just lay me down and die! I will take these broken wings And watch me burn across the sky!

I’m Still Here (Jim’s Theme) - Treasure Planet

🏳️‍🌈❤️🤍

I am a question to the world Not an answer to be heard Or a moment that's held in your arms

You don't know me And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand I'm a boy - No, I'm a man You can't take me and throw me away And how can you learn what's never shown Yeah, you stand here on your own They don't know me, cause I’m not here 

And I want to tell you who I am Can you help me be a man They can't break me As long as I know who I am

They can't tell me who to be 'Cause I'm not what they see Yeah, the world is still sleepin' While I keep on dreaming for me And their words are just whispers and lies That I'll never believe!

Crossing the Line - cover of Tangled: the Series 

🏳️‍🌈 🧡 tfw when u are DONE with that fuckin closet 

This has to stop now This thing where you think that you've been my friend And don't even hear how you condescend The way you've always done

How I've tried to jump that great divide! But I've never got the chances you were given You don't know how much I've been denied Well, I'm not being patient anymore

I'm crossing the line! And I'm done holding back So look out, clear the track, it's my turn! I'm taking what's mine Every drop, every smidge If I'm burning a bridge, let it burn! But I'm crossing the line...

Let it Go - Frozen 

🏳️‍🌈 listen. i do not have to explain this one. you all know exactly why it’s here. we were all tiny gays in 2013 losing our shit in the theater for no discernable reason why. we know

Couldn't keep it in, Heaven knows I tried

Don't let them in, don't let them see Be the good girl you always have to be Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know Well, now they know!

Let it go! Let it go! Turn away and slam the door! I don't care what they're going to say!

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all!

No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free!

I'm never going back, the past is in the past!

Let it go! Let it go! And I'll rise like the break of dawn Let it go! Let it go! That perfect girl is gone!

This is Me - Camp Rock 

🏳️‍🌈 🧡 💕 🤍

I've always been the kind of girl that hid my face So afraid to tell the world what I've got to say But I have this dream right inside of me I'm gonna let it show it's time To let you know It's to let you know

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark? To dream about a life where you're the shining star

This is real, this is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now Gonna let the light shine on me Now I've found who I am there's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be...

Breaking Free - High School Musical 

🏳️‍🌈 🖤

You know the world can see us In a way that's different than who we are Creating space between us 'Till we're separate hearts But your faith it gives me strength Strength to believe

Soarin, flyin There’s not a star in heaven that we can’t reach If we’re trying, yeah we’re breaking free  We’re running, climbin  To get to the place, to be all that we can be  Now’s the time, so we’re breaking free

True To Your Heart - Mulan 

🏳️‍🌈 🌈

Baby, I knew at once that you were meant for me Deep in my soul, I know that I'm your destiny Though you're unsure Why fight the tide Don't think so much Let your heart decide

True to your heart You must be true to your heart That's when the heavens'll part And, baby, shower you with my love Open your eyes Your heart can tell you no lies And when you're true to your heart I know it's gonna lead you straight to me

Someone ya know is on your side can set you free I can do that for you if you believe in me Why second guess what feels so right Just trust your heart And you'll see the light

Never Knew I Needed - The Princess and the Frog 

🏳️‍🌈 🌈 💕

For the way you changed my plans For being the perfect distraction For the way you took the idea that I have Of everything that I wanted to have And made me see there was something missing...

My accidental happily ever after The way you smile and how you comfort me with your laughter I must admit you were not a part of my book But now if you open it up and take a look You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed So when you were here I had no idea You'd be the best thing I never knew I needed So now it's so clear I need you here always

Colors of the Wind - Pocahontas 

🏳️‍🌈 - colors.... rainbows.... yea

How can there be so much that you don't know? You don't know...

You think the only people who are people Are the people who look and think like you But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger You'll learn things you never knew, you never knew

How high will the sycamore grow If you cut it down, then you'll never know And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon For whether we are white or copper skinned We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains We need to paint with all the colors of the wind...

I See the Light - Tangled 

🏳️‍🌈 🌈 - you would not BELIEVE how many of y’all requested this one

Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight Now I'm here, suddenly I see Standing here, it's all so clear I'm where I'm meant to be

Now she's here shining in the starlight Now she's here, suddenly I know If she's here it's crystal clear I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light And it's like the fog has lifted And at last I see the light And it's like the sky is new And it's warm and real and bright And the world has somehow shifted

All at once, everything looks different Now that I see you

Strangers Like Me - Tarzan 

🏳️‍🌈 🤍 🖤- that moment when u find another queer person and ur like “holy shit”

I can see there's so much to learn It's all so close and yet so far I see myself as people see me Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there

Come with me now to see my world Where there's beauty beyond your dreams Can you feel the things I feel Right now, with you Take my hand There's a world I need to know...

Why Should I Worry? - Oliver & Company 

🏳️‍🌈- we’re queer, we’re here, get used to it 

Why should I worry? Why should I care? I may not have a dime But I got street savoir-faire Why should I worry? Why should I care? It's just be-bopulation And I got street savoir-faire

Why should I worry? Why should I care? And even when I crossed that line I got street savoir-faire

Welcome - Brother Bear 

🏳️‍🌈 pride parade amirite

Everyone's invited This is how we live We are here for each other, happy to give All we have we share And all of us we care

There's a bond between us nobody can explain It's a celebration of life We see our friends again I'll be there for you I know you'll be there for me, too So come on!

This has to be the most beautiful The most peaceful place I've ever been to It's nothing like I've never seen before When I think how far I've come I can't believe it And yet I see it In them I see family I see the way we used to be...

The Great Divide - Tinkerbell and the Secret of the Wings

🏳️‍🌈

I'm on your side Let's take this ride And together we're facing the world Doing things nobody's done before And the great divide doesn’t seem so wide anymore

With You by My Side - Tangled: the Series 

💗 - tangled the series was so close to being canon polyam istg

Now; now more than ever We must stick together united

If we're destined to head in our own different ways Let's make the most of these sweet final days Why not go out in a glorious blaze

There's nothing I couldn't do Not with you by my side What in the world would I do Without you by my side...

Love Will Find a Way - The Lion King 2: Simba’s Pride

🏳️‍🌈 🌈

In a perfect world One we've never known We would never need to face the world alone They can have the world We'll create our own I may not be brave or strong or smart But somewhere in my secret heart

And if only they could feel it too The happiness I feel with you

Like dark turning into day Somehow we'll come through Now that I've found you Love will find a way I know love will find a way

Space Between - Descendants 2

🧡 never have i ever seen gays flock to a song faster

And you can find me in the space between Where two worlds come to meet I'll never be out of reach Cause you're a part of me so you can find me in the space between You'll never be alone No matter where you go We can meet in the space between

Even if we're worlds apart You're still in my heart It will always be you and me, yeah

If I Never Knew You - Pocahontas

🏳️‍🌈🌈

And if I never held you I would never have a clue How at last I'd find in you The missing part of me...

In this world so full of fear Full of rage and lies I can see the truth so clear In your eyes So dry your eyes

If I never knew you I'd be safe but half as real Never knowing I could feel A love so strong and true

I thought our love would be so beautiful  Somehow we'd make the whole world bright I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night But still my heart is saying we were right

I’d Give Anything - Tangled: the Series 

🧡 rapunzel’s sad breakup song

So if you find that you're in darkness or despair Though you won't turn to me please know I'll be right there Name any sacrifice, I'll pay the price that's due Cause I'd give anything for you Yes, I'd give anything to relive everything we knew...

Someday - Hunchback of Notre Dame 

🏳️‍🌈

I used to believe In the days I was naïve That I'd live to see A day of justice dawn And though I will die Long before that morning comes I'll die while believing still It will come when I am gone

Someday, when we are wiser When the world's older, when we have learned I pray someday we may yet live To live and let live

Someday, these dreams will all be real Till then we'll wish upon the moon Change will come, one day Someday soon... 

No One Is Alone - Into the Woods 

🏳️‍🌈

Mother cannot guide you, now your on your own. Only me beside you, still you're not alone. No one is alone. Truly, no one is alone…

People make mistakes Holding to their own  Thinking they’re alone 

Someone is on your side, someone else is not  While we’re seeing our side, maybe we forgot  They are not alone, no one is alone...

I Am Moana (Song of the Ancestors) - Moana

🏳️‍🌈 🤍 - it’s about the self-acceptance binch

Sometimes, the world seems against you The journey may leave a scar But scars can heal and reveal just Where you are

The people you love will change you The things you have learned will guide you And nothing on Earth can silence The quiet voice still inside you

I've delivered us to where we are I have journeyed farther I am everything I've learned and more Still it calls me

And the call isn't out there at all, it's inside me! It's like the tide, always falling and rising I will carry you here in my heart, you remind me That come what may I know the way

Show Yourself - Frozen 2 

🏳️‍🌈 - this one was claimed immediately by the queer community and we all have a stake in it but i do want to point out that i got this from a LOT of 🤍 🖤 💜 💚

I have always been a fortress Cold secrets deep inside You have secrets too But you don't have to hide

I've never felt so certain All my life, I've been torn But I'm here for a reason Could it be the reason I was born? I have always been so different Normal rules did not apply Is this the day? Are you the way I finally find out why?

Oh, show yourself Let me see who you are... Come to me now Open your door Don't make me wait One moment more!

(Come, my darling, homeward bound) I am found!

Transformation / Beauty and the Beast (Reprise) - Beauty and the Beast Broadway Production 

🏳️‍🌈

We are home, we are where we shall be forever  Trust in me, for you know I won’t run away from today This is all that I need, and all that I need to say  Don’t you know how you’ve changed me? Strange how I finally see  I found home, you’re my home, stay with me... 

Finale / Let it Go - Frozen Broadway Production 

🏳️‍🌈 this makes me bawl so it gets finale

There’s so much I longed to say Then say it all, beginning with today It’s like a dream I thought could never be  Elsa, you’re free 

Here we stand in the light of day Let the sun shine on 

I take this warmth within and send it up above Goodbye to dark and fear, let’s fill this world with light and love And here surrounded by a family at least  We’re never going back, the past is in the past 

Let our true love go  Let it go!

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

When I was recording New Divide earlier on the smule karaoke app, my mom came in with a bowl of pineapple and she made me some tea. She said she came in and wanted to give me something for my throat cuz she felt bad that I didn’t have a water bottle with me. But when I saw her eyes, it was the look of parental concern & her eyes looked kind of misty too.So I dunno if she was lying and came to check up on me because I probably sounded like I was in pain, which I am. I’m using singing as an emotional outlet so I don’t do something dumb. I just took some anxiety medicine too so I can feel reassured.

I dunno how loud I was singing, I honestly can’t feel anything right now tbh, I’m in a somewhat frozen state I get when my brain shuts down a little.

 But something I discovered thanks to joining YouTube Idol it’s that one strength I have as a singer is emotional delivery, I may not have been the most technical vocalist, but the reason I won over the others was because I made the judges feel something. Ceonn told me its the one thing he wishes he could master, and I look up to Ceonn, he’s one of the most talented friends I have, I grew to accept that strength of mine but I’m also digging deep to understand why I CAN deliver strong emotional deliveries. And this whole Chester news happened, I feel like Chester’s entire career was talking about the feelings that maybe a lot of us want to express but are too afraid to, or just don’t wanna show in public to “save face” or something like that. But the thing is, honestly we don’t take this stuff seriously enough. That man clearly was pouring out his own soul into the music. And THAT’S why his music resonated with people, because there are so many people including myself who can relate to the lyrics and the vocals that are soul shaking. Chester went through all these dark feelings, and anytime he saw a fan or friend struggling with it, he would talk to them till they felt better. And that’s something I try to do as well whenever I see anyone feeling remotely sad, I don’t want ANYONE to feel this horrible thing, I try to cheer up people when I can. I’ve been looking up vids all day to remember Chester and I feel SO bad such a kind, humble artist like that was feeling the way he did. I wish I had tweeted to him thanking him for being a big influence on me. I feel guilty for not speaking up and letting him know. But I can’t do anything now.

I’ve been growing more and more depressed/suicidal as the years go by. It kinda gets worse as each day passes & anytime something like this happens to a person I look up to, it makes me revert back to square one after so many months of progress. I don’t speak up but there are days when I still remember deaths of people I cared about like...just randomly outta nowhere. And it makes me feel numb inside or like an impending doom kinda feeling. I recently went to go see a family friend with my mom & sis so I can have medication (organic though cuz I hate chemical stuff) to help my metabolic imbalances cuz I apparently have some. I swore I would never do that because ( in all honesty I didn’t wanna become dependent on medicine to feel better. And half of me honestly doesn’t care anymore what happens to me, I am convinced it wouldn’t make a huge difference if I just evaporate or something. I dunno, I’m jut goin through the motions at this point). It takes a LOT of energy for me to feel genuine emotions anymore. But honestly things that make me happy is music, well-written shows/acting, abridging & drawing. My creative outlets are what keep me alive & help me HAVE a will to live nowadays.

But like...Linkin Park was probably one of the first rock bands I ever listened to, and it was that band that me and my friends would bond over a lot. I texted Crystal today and she was just as devastated as I was, I am gonna go see her next week. Because I can tell we just need to be in each other’s company, to watch each other’s back... she admitted she’s been feeling down too. I proly told a few people but you know how some people feel better after listening to soft, relaxing music? Well...for me screamo, metal, and hard rock (as aggressive and loud as it may sound) is what I find makes ME feel better, it’s like a catharsis of emotion. I remember in middle school I kinda started to see the harsh reality of the world. And then, I found myself starting to develop a love for rock music. I didn’t know why I wanted to wear black & enjoyed that whole rock scene (most hispanic people back then that I knew always made me feel bad for not liking hispanic music/customs enough, I dunno? So I felt like an outcast growing up?) But I remember my older sibling said “if you turn emo or dress in those fashions that they’d become a problem student”. And I of course didn’t want that, so I hid my inner musical tastes from them, but I hate the feeling of being restricted. I enjoy freedom of expression through music & art and fashion. But I wasn’t allowed to do that, I had to be prim and proper and act like a lady (I hadn’t yet realized I was genderfluid/ demisexual so that’s another reason why I probably felt socially awkward) . I CAN do that now, but I know I am still silently judged about it. When I sing or record sometimes, I go to apologize afterwards (if I wasn’t home alone. I usually TRY to record when I’m home alone so I don’t have to hold back & be more loose) because that’s just how I grew up. Being self conscious all the time and apologetic of who I feel I really am on the inside. And sure, whatever people keep constantly making fun of this stereotype about “emo kids” and the way the dress or sing or things they like. But honestly we shouldn’t do that.

I think that we need to tell people that it’s ok to express themselves however they want. And IF they like something that seems “unconventional” for their race/gender/other dumb labels, that they don’t gotta be shunned for it. Let people just be themselves man. And if we just give people more love and understanding, they will grow up with healthier self esteems.But yeah. I just, I’m probably just really groggy from crying, singing till my throat stings & just having these heavy emotions all day. I am sending everyone who needs a hug a HUGE hug. And I honestly want you to have a good/day/week/year. You are important and lovely and I care if you’re happy. I’m sorry for rambling tonight But I needed to just vent a bit.

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So this is going to be a bit long but bear with me I had what I believe to be a pointless and incredibly frustrating experience with the assistant manager jamie at your auburn hills great lakes crossing location today I have been coming here for three years I frequent your orlando san marcos and new jersey locations as well at least once a year when we stop we usually spend 5 to 10 thousand dollars on your products the system is simple I go in park in a corner and bring bins to my corner sort them bag them move them to the front register and repeat today I brought a personal duffel bag as it holds about 8 to 12 of your bags worth of stuff I get told that i’m not allowed to use it because it’s policy not a big deal at all I say okay i’ll do that for the rest rather than rebag all of this i’ll just go up in line and pay for it and it can sit behind the counter seems pretty reasonable to me nope I got obstructed suggested that I might be stealing something and not allowed to pass stating if I don’t want to follow the system I can leave he then takes my entire duffel dumps it onto the floor and then rebags it into victoria secret bags then moves it to the front counter so it can be rang in I thought this was a little odd but hey he was doing all the work rebagging it so whatever i’m like dude i’m going to be spending about 8k today all I want to do is come in spend some money get out without any drama what’s the problem whoevers in charge should be thrilled with a sale like this we’re spending 8k keep in mind that I told him that I would do what he wanted and it wasnt’ a big deal and the response was to the effect of stop being lippy and just listen I told him what do you want from me I just agreed with you and said I would use your bags i’m not being lippy at all I know this because I said okay dude not a problem i’ll use your bags his response was maybe if you get to buy it i’m like what are you suggesting that an 8 000 order is something you guys don’t want he’s like yeah if you buy it i’m like dude we are spending 8k today why would I bag up a bunch of stuff and spend 2 3 hours picking our your fabulous product to not buy it anyway so I had 4 credit cards one card had 2 000 one had 3500 one had 2000 and one had 1000 because I am buying for multiple people I had 4 different cards all in my name I wanted one receipt for each card not a big deal to me right wrong again he cited some policy and said if the order is more than 750 items that they aren’t allowed to ring in under 750 items on any one receipt id like to point out that that amount is higher than your employees said they could take as a cash payment I asked him to please show me that I would understand better if I could just read it he was willing to do so he brought out the policy book and to my surprise what it actually said was words to the afffect of cash payments cannot be split up or over 750 items I forget the second half my immediate reply was so what’s the big deal im using credit not cash he snatched the policy book away from me at that point and said you know what you can just listen to me or I don’t have to let you buy anything it’s up to my discretion I then called your orlando outlet and your new jersey outlet and talked to the store managers and cited your policy I was given I asked them to confirm if that was accurate and both said if it was a policy it was news to them I then asked if they would let me buy my order using 4 cards and 4 receipts the woman at orlando said oh my gosh yes we do that every single day I asked if I went to her store if I would have any trouble with this in the future and was told no then she said you can always come down here if you’re in the area and i’ll be happy to take your order after that phone call I tried again here’s the video of that attempt I said listen I have 4 credit cards your register girl said you told her she can’t ring up an order under 750 items that’s 3500 if it’s 5 items not all of my cards have that much I have done multiple receipts every time I came here heck I can even supply them to show it he tells me that because I am order so many items that I can’t have less tan 750 items per receipt so I point around to everyone else and ask what about everyone else you aren’t forcing them to spend a minimum of 750 items what about the final charge i’ll have 750 items for two tickets but the leftover isn’t going to be 750 items you’re not going to let me buy them he shrugged his shoulders to say no at this point I haven’t yelled ive been a bit snarky and sarcastic because I know he’s just giving me a hard time two people ring in our order almost every time I am up there and we were there 3 times in the last 6 months spent a bunch each time so at 730 8pm or so we are done shopping assuming that two people could ring us up ended up being a fantasy he forced one employee only to ring us up later on he comes up when its now close to 9pm and says hey you mind if we ring you up on both registers I chuckle and say no I don’t but you do you don’t want to be breaking that 750 rule do you he glared at me and then sent the employee away and walked off after blinking a few times I laugh because after telling me over and over he couldn’t do it he just got caught trying to do what should have been done to begin with a short while later after 9 I find out that everyone is standing uip front except for the one girl and another associate because none of the rest of them are allowed to help her ring us up the only two people left in the store with about 700 more items to be rang in if that’s not enough since it was a holidy all of these employees are apparently being paid overtime to stand around and wait at a bit after 10 all but two girls leave and one girl is waiting to count cash while the other girl sits and keeps ringing stuff in we apologize profusely we expected two employees to ring us up like always and timed our visit to be out around 9 if this had happened instead of having one literally stand there and watch her for 1 hour and 47 minutes after close we would have all been out on time and no overtime or extra hours spent so finally at 10 47 pm our orders are done we thank the lovely girl lauren and jasmine who got stuck staying 2 hours past close because a manager made up some random policy and had to double down when I pointed out he really needed to follow that 750 rule when he was going to toss another girl on the register if this is policy fine it doesn’t seem to be no manager at your other outlets knew what he was talking about the orlando one insisted that the only restrictions are on cash payments and verified I was paying cash or credit it’s a pretty humiliating experience to get hassled trying to buy panties and bras by someone who’s on some type of power trip the only thing I said sideways to him was that I flat out didn’t believe his policy and that credit absolutely is not the same as cash I didnt call him any names scream at him or did anything to disrupt the store beyond what you see in the videos if this is not policy i’d like an apology from that manager in person or over the phone admitting he was mistaken I would hope that the next time I go there I am not hassled but if not I guess there’s always orlando or new jersey who seem to be quite friendly I also want to give recognition to jasmine and lauren lauren is the poor soul who got stuck ringing everything in alone because of the manager’s silly rule and not allowing anyone to help because it would be in violation of the 750 item rule jasmine was the cash counter who had to wait until we were out of the store to count cash even more interesting is that I had a former employee with me helping me buy and she said she never heard of this policy either but it doesn’t mean it wasn’t added since she left she was just as confused because the manager spent over 30 minutes trying to explain and defend this when that time certainly would have been more efficiently spent doing productive things instead of hassling someone who literally sits in a corner and speaks to no one while sorting through your products one bin at a time id love a call back about this or to find out what exactly is going on ive never been hassled like this before and it was a little frustrating and very trying to keep my cool joe rossetti alexandria gunn See Other related products: I Am A Simple Woman Dog Paw Flip-Flop Wine Trucker T-Shirt

WEEKLY UPDATE #11

Dec. 21 (Mon)

1:31 AM. I was going to sleep na unta but I ended up crying because I’m thinking about so many things 😅😅

but i had a good day doeeee its my first time to trade and i earned 400+ but i didnt sell pa basin magamay na nuon aish i’m looking forward to trading gyd doeee its fun and i want to earn money so i can save and buy things hehe also happy for u cos hapit naka maka 100k!!

watched a lot of teen wolf also today and did a task for khalid 😪

Dec. 22

my day was actually going okay. i’m disappointed sa ako self sa trading, but i was okay na with that.

i just spent my afternoon watching tv but then i saw that notif and everything just came crashing down

im really in so much pain and i hurt myself today. its nothing major, just small ones enough lang to make me feel something else. dont saba2 about dis doe. dont feel bad also this is my own choice and im doing this to lessen my emotional pain a little.

i also deactivated my fb doeee this is just temporary but i’m just really stressed.

Dec. 23

today was better hehe i know its ur first month so i really tried to stop myself from thinking that hahah just watched a lot of netflix and tv doeee and tiktok also hahaha

i hope tomorrow will be a better day for you doe :(( you know, when we were together i would get so scared to see u angry becos usahaaay ra gyd kyka masuko. u have so much patience for everything and i hate seeing you angry gyd kay i know nalain gyd ka ana doe and idk what’s making you angry but i hope u resolve it doe with whoever or whatever made u angry. i hope u have a calm and happy heart this Christmas! ♥️

if pwede lang gyd, i will go with u somewhere chill doe like a beach to just calm your mind. u know i’m always here for you and my house is always open for you! 🥰

Dec. 24

wasn’t so busy this day doeee cos sila ra nag prepare wala man mga salad2 hahah i’m celebrating Christmas this year na not as happy as sauna doe becos idk my heart is just not that happy also hehe i wish for a better Christmas jd next year, i wish to be happier next year doe and i wish that for you also.

lost my peace of mind these past few months doe that’s why its been so hard. i think this is one of the greatest gift u gave gyd to me while kita pa doeee i was so at peace sauna doe because i know na you love me and that i will always have you thats why i was also very happy and now i’m still learning to have that peace on my own doe

thank you for being one of my greatest blessings!!! i am forever thankful for all the love you have given me. i may not have celebrated this Christmas with you as my partner, but I’m also thankful that I got to celebrate with you as a friend.

Dec. 25

the weather today is so cold doe nice na nuon mag maoy2 hahah

cried a lot today doe cos idkkk just thought of a lot of things. i think gyd we will not talk na doe months from now cos its so hard to maintain our communication esp if face to face na 😅 but maybe you will be happier that way doe. i think you will be happier if we dont talk na doe cos u dont have to worry about me. if i just had the strength, i will really let you go doe because its for you but its so hard for me because i want to be involved in your life. but its also so hard to get involved in your life doe cos i get so hurt by many things but idk sometimes i find it worth it when i get to talk with you dayon inana btaw aishhhh i feel like im a idiot doe hahah idk

but when you want to not talk to me you can just tell me doeee u know i’ll accept it even if its hard hehe i just want whats best for u

I saw your vids and pics doe from your laag. You look really happy and you look together. I love seeing you happy but it super hurts that you’re happy na gyd with another doe. (not gonna lie i broke down after hahah) idk doe seeing you happy like that makes me realize that maybe i shouldn’t be involved in your life na doe because i’m just disturbing your peace and it’s so hard for me to move on also. i’ve been trying so hard to block out any info or news about u guys but i really can’t block everything out :)

also deactivated my fb doe idk i’m so tired so many things affect me doe. i feel so hurt, so small, so insignificant and so pathetic now. i feel like i’m torturing myself and that the world is punishing me. Looord ansaket huh :(

did it again today doeee aish i shud not do this na sayang ako skin!! hahahah (serious i shud not do this na doe)

alsooo 7 months nata buwag ngeok!! hahah

Dec. 26

today was an okay day doeee my morning was productive because i did my assignment and then cooked yummy fried rice for lunch

i just watched kdrama dayon doeee and i was excited huh cos i tot u will laag here but aish the weather not cooperating :( i even init na carbonara for u unta but aissshhh hahah idk when i will see u again doeee maybe u will not want to laag na hahah u also didnt call me but das also okay doeee 😅 i was very bored at night na dayon doe aishhh

u knooow i think i will just continue to love you doe until i get tired na dayon becos i dont receive the same love back hahah maybe that time maka stop najd dayon ko doeee idk with this heart bsag unsa na kasakit ga padayon gihapon!!! hahahah but maybe gyd doe one day i will get exhausted na and will stop na heheh

Dec. 27

watched a lot of kdrama today doe and just relaxed lang

i miss going on dates doeee huhu i want to kaon2 with someone and suroy2!!!! aish being single is so mingaw and i miss having sex doeee ion like being lonely and tigang!!!!!! 😤😤😤😤😤😤

I am loving anime right now, assination classroom has got ve one of my favorites, it's a far cry from attack on titan but its better on its own way... I think i finally know what i want to do with this account. Since its doubtful no one else is gonna see this (because i wont let anyone see it) you'll serve as my time capsule. Something i can go back to whenever i need something. I should probably start dating you then, 04/06/20 the start of my time capsule.

What i can say about my current life:

its boring being stuck here in quarantine, though you wouldnt imagine how much shows ive immersed myself in, its ridiculous

I recently found out that DELUBYO means hell on earth, thats a cool word and im gonna brainstorm a story tomorrow, should be productive.

Ive been meaning to control my content comsumption because i am going through shows like a cocaine addict on death row, so ive decided that starting tomorrow im gonna try to accomplish my set goals for the day before i wolf down on some content. Also watching shows the proper way so im gonna watch an episode each of a new show then wait 3 days before watching the next episode, this should slow me down at least

I still have trouble re-reading books i want to but it gets boring for me because its predictable, predictability still bores me. Does it still bore you?

I like my life so far. I've been through alot these past few years (the worst being the summer of Gr. 11) but with the help of therapy ive gotten through some of the worst times of my life right now. I hope if you read this and you feel down you have enough common sense to go to therapy.

I like doing this, i hope its not another halfassed abandoned project. I like talking but things are different now and i cant talk as much as i used to. Im still pretty talkative though honestly im trying to cut back from that. Still competitive as hell, i dont like losing, never have. I hope if life didnt go the way we planned its cause you fought the good fight but still lost. If thats what happened then i'd be happy living the simple life. But you have to promise me you fought with everything there is to fight for.

I love petite. She makes me feel complete. Whats creepy is she doesnt even have to try. Shes good to me. She knows how to keep me happy and she never fails to appriciate the good things i do for her. She has trouble listening to me sometimes but she works on that. But you know whats the best thing shes done for me so far? She knocked me down a few pegs. She brought me back to earth. She humbled me. I used to think if i achieve something i should have every right to brag about it. But shes made realize that if i truly did feel like i achieved something then i wouldnt even need to brag. Thats helped me. I hope you're still like that. If you have to change because you will have to. Then please dont let that be one of the things you change. Stay humble my friend. Till the next one.

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sunday morning

1/27/19

I woke up yesterday morning and I didn’t know so much pain could stay in my body.

I called mom. I needed her. 

My eyes were swollen almost shut from crying. 

Heartbroken. But he didn’t break my heart. 

Everyone said the same thing. Mom, Dad, Alex, Amy. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. It’ll come back around. 

I picked up my packages at Speare and sat reading the Creative Habit for a second. 

A single lacrosse player in a white helmet and white shoes was practicing with a lax back outside my window and I cried. It wouldn’t be Daniel though. He’d still be in his peacoat. 

I went to Miss You Like Hell with Julia

I couldn’t breathe getting dressed when I realized I’d worn the outfit I was about to throw on - black tights and my denim dress with my pink bralette with my platform shoes- when I realized I’d created that outfit for the train ride down to Boston winter break to the park plaza. It’d be an easy dress to take off, easy to change into my sexy undies, I was so sweaty when we got the hotel that the entire sides of the dress were soaked from my armpits and we laughed. Change of plans obviously. I wore my new jumper. I’ve never worn it before. I wanted to show him how I looked kinda nice even though my eyes were smaller than usual.

Julia was very kind and listened and understood. It was really important to me that they all didn’t just have whatever Mia’s version of the story was.

The tickets at the ART were identical to my barbershop chronicles one. I sat with lead actress’s boyfriend and mother, who went on about how they’d been dating for 8 years and met in high school show choir. How they were gonna get married and she’d flown in for possible mother-in-law points. How her last show was at the Seacoast Repertory Theatre in Newburyport. That hurts. That hurt a lot. As either mom or dad said after, “Can’t make this shit up” 

The play was incredible. Relevant and necessary and breathtaking. It hurt. And I am in a raw state of being. So everything hurt doubly. When she sang “I’m gonna miss you like hell. There’s a hole in the world in the shape of you. I’m gonna miss you like hell. There’s a hole in the world in the shape of us.” or “You are the bread and I am the hunger” I wept for this mother and daughter who are real they are real and this story is real. And selfishly, selfishly, I wept for myself. I wept for the loss of the love of my life. I wept for the fact that I couldn’t call Daniel after the show and tell him how incredible it was and how I wanna direct something like that. 

At intermission I opened my phone to a long text from Amy. I stood up and suddenly was outside the theatre and I was crying so uncontrollably. Somehow the most painful words there were the first ones. “Hi sweetheart. I talked with Daniel today.” Because of everything that meant. Because it means it’s real. It’s real. Because it means she talked to Daniel my Daniel about how he’s not my Daniel anymore. 

I wish it didn’t happen yet. It had to. I wish it didn’t happen on that day. I wish it didn’t. I wish it didn’t. I wish it didn’t. I hope he knows I didn’t give a fuck about that party. I think he does. 

I hope he feels the way I do, still. I hope that he feels like we did the right thing but God I hope he wants to take it back as much as I do. That’s selfish. I know that. I don’t want him to be in pain and this is the worst pain I have ever felt. Ever. I called Dad when I got home last night and he said it might be permanent it probably is and I screamed that I didn’t want it to be. I don’t want it to be. I wish I could’ve said Daniel. Wait for me. Live your life. Have fun. Love it. Grow. But wait for me. And the thing is, that’s our hope. He said he’ll never not be thinking about me. I believe him. Because I know him, and fuck any hard time I’ve ever had believing him. That boy says only what he means. But I know that life continues. And I want his life to be magical. And I wanna be in it. And I wanna run back to him next week and say was this enough? Is it time? 

But i will see him again. Soon.

I hope we can keep in touch a little. I really think I need that. 

He’s my best friend.

I will never fall out of love with him.

I will always love him.

Right now I miss my best best friend. 

And I can know this: that when I have figured out these things:

How to love myself fairly unconditionally  -or at least not to hate myself. Not to swallow myself. To be kind.

How to make certain my self-love is fueled by my own satisfaction with Who I Am and not how others praise me. 

How to make my own happiness and not let it hinge upon the satisfaction of others with me. 

How to make choices for myself. 

If not what I want to do for the rest of my life, where I’m going next. What do I want now. 

And then, how to get it. 

When have figured out these things, I will find him. I will knock on his door. I’ll say hi. You are the love of my life. Is it time yet? And maybe it will be and maybe it won’t be but someday it will. Someday, someday, it will be. 

I woke up in my Grinch PJs with makeup contacts bra and two layers of shirts and a feeling like there isn’t joy in the world for me. 

I am about to have a productive day and try my very best to get everything done for tomorrow without staying up too late,

I’m gonna try to make Angels fantastic. 

I’m gonna explore some options.

Sixty-nine

Randi

Cayden and his friends were drinking and doing god knows what else while watching the game. I had agreed to let him host the party here, which i was kind of regretting because they were loud as hell and it made it hard to take my mid day naps. I had left for a bit to go and pick up some groceries so i could make some food for them to eat plus some snacks and such and now i was back home. I walked past going to put the stuff in the kitchen.

“Baby, you back?” Cayden said, getting up and coming to the kitchen.

“Yeah, just went to target,” I said, taking stuff out of the bag.

“How’s my baby?” He put his arms around me to grab my belly.

“Active. He’s been jumping around all day,” I sighed. He moved his hand around.

“That’s because he’s a little baller. Or maybe a gymnast if it’s a girl.”

“Mmhm,” i said, putting my hand over his. Somebody scored and the guys got all excited. We both looked over. I started taking stuff out the bags. Cayden removed his hands and started going back to the living area. I glanced at him and saw his jaw was locked and arms flexed. I was confused. He walked up to Rambo and smacked him on the back of the head.

“Damn man!” Rambo jumped. He turned around and Cayden grabbed the blunt that he must have just lit out of his mouth.

“I told your slow ass not to be smoking in my house when my wife is pregnant. Are you dumb?  That’s my kid you fucking with bruh,”

“My bad Cayden, I forgot,” he said quickly. “I’m sorry man,” he said. Everyone else looked to see what Cayden was gonna do. I already knew what he was planning to do and considering he was China’s man and what not i couldn’t have them falling out or that would make things awkward for all of us. I put the milk I was holding down. I reluctantly intervened.

“It’s ok baby,” i said to him from the kitchen. He looked up at me and I gave him a look to calm down and of course he listened and backed down. He just put the blunt out and came to throw it out in the kitchen. He came up behind me and wrapped an arm around me again.

“Sorry,” He said by my ear just so I could hear.

“It’s ok,” I said, leaning up to kiss him. I wasn’t mad, after all he was right, it was bad for the baby. Cayden had stopped smoking, around the house anyways, all together. It was cute how concerned he was about the baby. He kissed my shoulder and I giggled.

“She’s already pregnant dog, give it a break,” ty said as he came strolling in to the kitchen to open the fridge. I blushed but laughed.

“Hey! I just got those,” I complained. But nobody was listening. He was long gone and they had broken into a play fight, crashing on to the floor and rolling around like children. “You’re 26 years old,” I grumbled, picking my rolls off the floor.

I made some stuff for the guys and then took my food upstairs to eat and watch some shows.

I ended up falling asleep after eating, but woke up a few hours later with terrible heart burn. That was happening a lot now. I would take it over being nauseous 24/7 like in the beginning, but it was still very uncomfortable. I went downstairs to go find some tums and realised Cayden and his friends were gone. I looked at my phone real quick and Cayden had texted me saying he was gonna go in to work. I got some tums and some milk and went back to the bedroom. I decided to give Cole a call because i hadn't talked to him in a while.

"Hi Colebear,"

"Hey lil mama. How you doing?" he asked.

"Im ok, just tired and sick all the time," i complained.

"That sounds horrible," he said. "How much longer you got anyways? Tryna make sure im there when the baby gets here."

"Still have like 4 months. Im ready for it to be over, and i just wanna hold my baby already." I groaned in frustration.

"When we gon find out if its a boy or girl? How am i supposed to buy them some swag if i dont know?"

"I was supposed to find out a while ago but i kept missing my appointments. Im going in a few days, should find out then."

"Word? aight keep me posted."

"I will," i said, "so whats up with you and Ty. He came to my house a week ago and from what he said yall had some drama when he visited." I was being nosy as usual.

"Aint no drama," he mumbled.

"What did you do?" i asked in an accusing tone. He sighed.

"I may have iced him out a little."

"Why?" i asked, confused.

"Things were getting...intense."

"Thats how a relationship works Cole," i pointed out.

"I know," he said simply. I smiled a little bit.

"I get it. I was the same way when Cayden and i started getting serious. It terrified me. It's scary to love someone."

"So what did you do?" He asked.

"Well Cayden didn't really give me an option to run. He followed me every time, " i laughed. "Eventually i just got tired of trying to run away and i just dove in. Now i'm married to the fool and carrying his baby."

"Diving in sounds terrifying."

"It is," i bit my lip, thinking back to when Cayden and i were still dating. "But its worth it."

"Ugh. I cant with this sappy shit right now. Im bout to go to practice and i dont need to be in my feelings while tackling a bunch of dudes."

"Okay fine, ill drop it for now. But you need to just accept you love him and move on. Don't overthink it," i said seriously.

"okay mom."

"Oh God, can you imagine someone is gonna be calling me that soon," i said, more to myself.

"I can see you as a mom. You always taking care of people or helping them fix their lives, even when they didnt ask," he laughed.

"What can i say, i dont know how to mind my business," i shrugged.

"Lowkey im the same," he said. "But i gotta go."

"Okay babe, have a good practice. Ill talk to you later." He said bye and then i hung up.

Cayden

"Yo, How's the shipment going?" I asked him, referring to a deal i had going with Sean. He was organising the order while i handled the logistics and such.

"Man i don't think we have enough here. We gotta bring some from the other warehouse. I was gonna call Pat but i wanted to run it by you," he got up and i followed him out to the balcony looking down to the rest of the warehouse. It was busy with niggas at work like usual, organised by product.

"What he want?" i asked.

"Coke mostly, but he talking about he got some guy wants a bunch of crystal. We got 10, 20 pound max here," he said, nodding at the back of the room where the guys were breaking and weighing a fresh batch.

"Who the fuck wants to buy that much crystal?" My brows came together.

"Man who knows, thats your boy, ask him. Im just saying, thats pretty much all our supply from both warehouses, and we have one cook" he said. I nodded because he was right, but that wasn't my biggest concern. It was just weird to me that Sean was suddenly moving crystal when he had never before. I couldn't help think back to the time Randi asked if Sean could be trusted and wondered if she was on to something.

"Dont call Pat. Not yet anyways. Imma have a little meeting with Sean first," i decided.

"Got it," he nodded.

"By the way, thanks for checking on Randi while i was gone," i said. He shrugged.

"Uncle duties and what not," he smirked, "how she doing anyways? You weren't playing when you said she was emotional."

"She tired all the time, i feel bad. She go off on you?" I laughed.

"Nah, just crying and shit. I don't know how you do it."

"Ill take crying over when she gets angry."

"True," Ty nodded. I checked my watch.

"I gotta go find Keisha, i need her to get Sean here. I aint going to Cali, i just got back," i looked around a bit.

"She was here with Kassie earlier, training and what not. How you get her to come back anyways?" he raised a brow.

"I begged," i chuckled. " Why? you still got a crush on her? Thought you were all about the D now."

"Fuck you Cayden," he said, turning to go back to his office. I laughed and went off to find Keisha.

I ended up just calling Keisha from my office and she came up.

"Hey, sorry, Kassie was showing me around. She just left," she said.

"It's all good. I need you to do something for me though. 2 things actually."

"Sure, what is it?" she pulled out a pen and notepad.

"I need you to get Sean here. ASAP."

"Got it," she nodded.

"Also i need you to book me a trip, for 2. Jamaica, not business. Anytime in the next month or so," i looked up from my phone calendar.

"I'll get right on it..." she paused. "It's sweet. I mean, im assuming it's for your wife."

"Yeah it is. Gotta keep her happy," i shrugged. She smiled. Then she seemed to remember something and pulled out her phone

"Oh before i forget, the accountant is coming tomorrow. Just a reminder. Also, your calendar says its Ty's birthday soon, do you want me to arrange anything?"

"Remind me an hour before tomorrow. Get a gift for me, Randi is doing the rest. She throws unnecessary parties, its kind of her thing," i rolled my eyes.

"Okay then. Ill go start on this," she said, turning for the door.

"How was the training by the way?" i asked. Kassie had been here the whole time i was gone, showing her the ropes

"Good. She was really nice. She had a lot of great things to say about you. But i'm not surprised, you're a nice guy Cayden. I cant tell you how much this job means to me, my son too," she brushed her golden curls aside. "I mean i made decent money at the club, but...this is a lot better," she bit her lip. I nodded.

"You should have called me, I always cared about you Keisha," i smiled at her gently seeing her get emotional. She was all tough exterior, it was rare to see this side of her.

"I was embarrassed," she shrugged.

"You aint gotta be. How people make money is none of by business. Bur don't worry, i pay my assistants a lot. You gotta put up with my ass, just wait, you'll be sick of me soon." She laughed.

"Thanks Cayden," she smiled.

"You're welcome," i said simply. She left and closed the door behind her.

Once she was gone i called Randi to check on her.

Randi

Cayden called me just after id gotten off with Cole. He asked how i was and then he was telling me about what he was doing and when he would be home. Then i heard someone talking in the background, it wasn't a guy though, it was a female voice.

“Who is that” I said.

“Who’s who?” He asked. I sat up straighter in the bed chair.

“The chick talking in the back ground,” i said. I couldn't think of any reason for there to be a girl in his office at the warehouse. I knew there were a few girls who were involved in selling and what not but Cayden didn't spend time talking to pedlars or people lower in the chain, he handled all the big time stuff. I started to wonder if he wasn't really at the warehouse but i didn't see why he would lie.

“Keisha,” he said, as if that meant anything. “My assistant.”

“When did you get an assistant? You don’t like anyone, how’d you even pick someone.”

“I told you months ago that I needed an assistant baby,” he reminded me. This was true but still.

“Hm,” I said simply.

“So we good then? I’ll see you in a few hours,” he said.

“Okay,” i said, hanging up. I had been too annoyed to say bye or I love you.

Why would he get an assistant without telling me? If that even was his assistant. I knew there was always random girls walking around that definitely weren’t assistants, the business kind anyways. I wondered what this Keisha girl was assisting Cayden with and my blood started to boil. I tried to not be this person but pregnancy also had me a bit mentally unstable and I wasn’t particularly confident right now. Was Cayden fooling around with another girl because i was becoming the size of a whale? I panicked and started to get up off the bed and pulled on a sweater.

I wasn’t really sure what I was doing until i was driving for 20 minutes and leaving the city to go towards the warehouse. I never came here on my own and I started to second guess myself as I pulled up and security immediately posted up. I got out of the car and locked it. One of the guys looked familiar though and I was pretty sure I’d seen him before.

“Are you lost shawty?” Another guy said, licking his lips in a disgusting way and looking down at me. I was about to release all my fury on him when the familiar guy spoke up.

“That’s Cayden’s wife you idiot” he said. The previous guy shrunk back.

“My bad,” he said quickly, head down.

“Should i get Cayden for you?” The familiar guy asked. I shook my head.

“I know my way,” I said, motioning to the door. They paused but moved out of the way. I adjusted my cardigan and went in. People stared at me because i rarely came period let alone on my own. Also I was pretty pregnant now which drew attention. I went upstairs to the offices and stopped in front of Cay’s. I debated whether or not to knock then decided against it. I opened the door and walked in.

Cayden looked up and his face went very confused when he saw me. He was in the chair and a girl stood beside him, bent over and pointing to the computer screen.

“Randi? What the fuck are you doing here?” He said. My face must not have looked happy because he quickly got up. “I mean is everything ok? Is it the baby?” He came over and put a hand to my lower back. I immediately checked his hand for the wedding band which was there.

“The baby’s fine,” I said, looking him over for lipstick, makeup, anything.

“What’s going on then?” He asked. I looked up at the girl standing and starring at us. Cayden looked up. “Keisha can you give me a minute with my wife,” she stood for a minute looking which was strange but then she shuffled out. I was looking around his office looking for any signs of anything messy when Cayden put a hand to my cheek. “Baby, What’s going on?”

“Nothing,” I mumbled, feeling like the biggest fool.

“You drove all the way up here for nothing. Nah,” he shook his head. I choked up, I couldn’t say I came because I thought you were cheating.

“I don’t feel good,” I lied. I did feel sick to my stomach all of a sudden but more out of guilt. Guilty that I’d thought he’d do something like that and also because the way he looked worried now that he thought I was sick.

“Maybe I should take you to the hospital,” he said, feeling my forehead.

“No I’ll be okay,” I said quickly. “I think I just need to go home,”

“I’ll take you,” He said “someone will come pick me up after.” I agreed. He held me all the way out of his office and down the stairs. Once we got in the car I was still thinking about the fact that he got an assistant and didn’t tell me. That was still sketchy, cheating or not.

“How do you know her?” I asked.

“Keisha?” He asked. I waited for him to lie because honestly I already knew the truth. I was simply testing him.  “Being 100, we used to fuck but it was a long time ago, and we were actually friends.”

“So is that why you didn’t tell me?” I asked.

“This about to be a problem isn’t it?” He asked. “Wait? Is that why you drove all the way down here?” Well shit.

“Well I heard a girl in your office,” I said, defending myself. He turned to face me then.

“And you automatically assumed I was what? Cheating?” He looked upset. I was supposed to be the one angry. “You don’t even trust me huh? Still,” he shook his head. When he put it like that he made it sound bad.

“It’s not like that-“

“What’s it like? You came running, so that’s what you thought.”

“Well...” I started. “Normally I wouldn’t be scared but look at me,” i gestured at myself. “I don’t look tight and right at the moment. And don't eve play me like you didn't just hire a girl you used to sleep with and not tell your wife about it.”

“You’re insane Randi. You’ve lost your mind. I ain’t even gon fight you cause you carrying my kid.” I got frustrated and was fighting the urge to break into tears so i just glared out the window for the ride home.

Ep. 9&10: “I’m just--------peeing quite frankly” - Madi

Steven

Was I entertained by this tribal and Julia playing her idol? Yes I very much was. Was I about to simultaneously puke and cry at the same time? Yes. Yes I was. Can this game have one single ounce of something that wont make me go into tears.

Anastasia

We are so dumb and stupid and dumb and stupid. I dont know why we would all vote for one person?? ESPEVIALLU if the person knows they are going and especially if that person is julia and shes already rlly good at lying. we were all blinded by our mutual force to get her out and we didnt think it out heck frick. sorry moth this is so unfair. moth was trying to get julia out the most bcs julia targetted moth last season. why julia has a thing against moth in this game? i dont know!! anyway we have to get that girl out next round and we will split vote pls it has to happen we cant give up she has to go

Madi

im just--------peeing quite frankly

go off julia, you did that, props to you

Raffy

Julia playing that idol is the best and most iconic play in this game thus far. The dramatics of the fight to ensure that all the votes landed on her? Keeping the people who she knew would get skittish and snake-ish so she has a higher chance of staying next round? Literally, this all works in her favor. To be honest, I don't even want Julia gone at this point. I want someone like Ginnifer or Rachel gone for future security. Sure Julia will eventually snake me, but keep your enemies close and all that.

Ginnifer admitted ON CALL that she almost voted for Steven WHEN STEVEN WAS THERE. She also wanted an alliance with Julia, Madi, Steven, and I in the same call! Then, DeNara gets on call and Ginnifer ADMITS to wanting to create an alliance without her. I'm just kind of shook. Why would I want to work with Ginnifer anyways if she's been targeting me since the swap? There's no reason to other than being chaotic. Then, Julia transitions to pitching with working with her! And Madi is calling her out! This after-tribal call is a mess. But, now the target is fully off of me. Mwahahaha. These people???

Ginny

Moth was idoled out yikes but I tried to make a new alliance but it failed

Steven

Im trying to figure out what Ginny's logic is. First you say that you wanna target all the winners cause we are the biggest threats in the game. Then you tell me TO MY FACE after a wild tribal that you almost voted for me to leave tonight. Even after all that you then turn around and try to align yourself with the winners that you were just targeting to spice it up???????? Im sorry but Im not following this.

Julia

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1AxVD3qWAkVmL_7fWiHERvNIg9VkKFS1W/view?usp=drivesdk

Raffy

According to DeNara, Elle wants to create an alliance with DeNara, Steven, and I. This could be a good back up alliance for the time being. Additionally, it gives us more numbers on our side if we ever need to turn on Gian and Madi. However, I don't want to do that anytime soon. They are great allies to have. Plus, they are able to think and are going after Julia. So, it should all work in my favor. I love being able to slip by each tribal with my target not being shot. I am thinking of throwing this challenge so Ginny can get the yeet though.

Madi

hi its madi and im being messy did I just text DeNara and ask her to be in a tighter alliance with me bc its gonna get to the point where the winners have to go? have I been reinforcing since the merge to anastasia that we are working together and that shes my partner in this game? did I just say “partner to partner” to anastasia that we should start an all girls alliance? did I also ask denara? me, denara, anastasia, rachel, and elle? rachel wont talk to me tho:( bc I “lied” so thats a speed bump denara also thinks she is the only one I told ab this and when I asked if we should tell anastasia she said that anastasia is a “blabber mouth” so “not yet”??????? am I fucking up my game? idkkk come back tomorrow thank the lords I have an idol if this blows up in my face???

DeNara

That awkward moment when you don't remember what your confessionals say anymore and you are repeating yourself a lot lol

Steven

https://youtu.be/2NGxkNjrGdk

DeNara

Soooo after Moth got voted out and Ginnifer decided to go a little crazy and try and make new alliances without us, Elle and I have decided to jump ship on the Lucky Charms alliance. She suggested talking to Steven and Raffy which was a great idea. I talked to them and they said they would be down with that so we are going to make a new alliance when Elle brings it up.

TEA. Steven and Raffy want to stick with our alliance of 5 with Madi and Gian because they trust them but Madi messaged me today saying she wanted to make a tighter alliance with me so we can eventually take out the winners. I am not sure if I should tell Steven and Raffy this or not yet, as it could end up worse for me if I do....

DeNara

You know, I should give myself more credit in this game. I have played the middle so well this season so far. I have an alliance with literally everyone in this game except Julia and Anastasia and Anastasia tells me things when I ask her lol I think I can do well in this game if I play my cards right.

DeNara

Oooooh so I made an alliance chat with Raffy, Steven and Elle. Sounds like we are gonna try and get Ginnifer out before Julia now. I did tell Julia I would try and spare her a round since she didn't vote me out o.O

Elle

✨A New Alliance Has Been Formed✨Me, DeNara, Steven, and Raffy ^_^ Which is great bc I trust DeNara, and I feel really good about Steven and Raf (I don't think?? they would betray us 😂but I am not sure of anything anymore lol ahhhh the post merge paranoia is real) I also feel really good about this challenge. I get to work on my layout designs for the magazine me and Madi are working on which is great! I don't know why I always worm in something I want to be practicing into these challenges lol, probs bc I'm prone to being like "I'll get right on that!" and then... not 😂 so the challenges are good excuses. I also would have Loved to make a tarot deck like the example ugh that seems so cool 😭

DeNara

So I told Raffy and Steven about Madi bringing up a potential tighter alliance and I regret it. I feel like that was something I should have kept to myself Stevenhttps://youtu.be/dWdKo0iuaV4

Raffy

DeNara created an alliance with Elle, Steven, and I. Steven and DeNara still don't want to tell Gian and Madi about it. Ok I guess. If they find out though, I am throwing DeNara under that bus so fast. Secondly, it seems Elle wants to target Ginnifer as well this round. I love ur impact. Now, we just need two more votes. One of them being Julia. The others possibly Gian and Madi if I can convince them. Rachel and Anatasia would probably still target Julia. I am trying to not obviously throw this challenge.

Gian

The way I ate Steven up on this lip sync. It was so fun to do! Im really happy we did this challenge :)

Elle

The judges are judging🎶 (to the tune of "The Lady's Improving" from The Prom) Anyway, I just want to preface that the first ad was supposed to be the only like, purposefully kinda bad layout in the magazine 😂 I was low on time and I regretted the color palette, it was way too saturated but Madi and I had agreed on it and I didn't want to be more annoying than I was already being about the magazine 😅. Also, I need to remember people read these afterward 😂 I'm incredibly bad at not just spewing whatever is in my mind sometimes, I feel like I might've overshared a couple of times but it happens! This probably counts as oversharing bc it's not about gameplay... yes okay back on topic I hope we win, if we don't I'll be okay I'll just be ticked at myself for staying up past 2AM but realistically if I didn't hyperfocus on that it'd be something else 🤷🏽‍♀️ atleast this was productive, I got to work on layouts a little (I mean technically I got quite a few layouts but so many are baddd 😭😭😭 like if a professor saw some of these they'd faint and then kick me out of graphic design lmao). But the point wasn't for it to be professional, so it's okay!!!!! I'm telling myself that so I don't go back and fix everything lol.

Raffy

The plan as of right now is to target both Ginnifer and Julia. Personally, I want Ginnifer out because she has been a very chaotic mess since the merge started. I would rather want that gone now rather than later when we no longer have the chance. I made the plan to split the vote 4-4 against Ginnifer and Julia. DeNara, Steven, Elle, and I (the secret alliance hidden from Gian's and Madi's view) will vote for Ginnifer. Gian and Madi know about this. They, along with Anastasia and Rachel, will vote for Julia. So, it should not matter who either of them vote for. However, it would be nice if they could vote each other. This plan does come with its risks though. I am willing to take those risks. And, if I get a bad smell, I will use my SWP to get out of the sticky situation.

DeNara

Well. Today is tribal day. I have been feeling worn down so much the past couple days and part of me just wants to be carried by others for a while. On the other hand, part of me feels like it might be time to make a big move soon because that is how you win. If Julia is still here after the vote tonight, then I feel like I just need to team up with her because clearly she needs to be blindsided. The lack of chatter has me worried.....like why is nobody talking??? Is it because they have all teamed up and are plotting against one of my alliances, or are they just tired and busy like me? I am not sure... I am suspicious that Julia hasn't really been talking. I know she said she had personal stuff going on but who knows if that is all of it, or just part of it. I am feeling the desire to flip on my alliance soon. Idk if I will because I feel tight with Steven and he plays loyal, but if I told him about Madi wanting to flip on the winners soon I may be able to do something... I kind of want to start actually lying to people, like... full blown lies... muahahaha! We shall see what happens if I am not blindsided tonight.

Raffy

DeNara is so paranoid. This is what she told me: "I am pretty nervous about Julia teaming up with some ppl and making a play tonight. Should we come up with some crazy lie just to scare her? I am not sure what we could say, but I am feeling nervous about her?" Like, do you want to become the target? Doing that is a surefire way of becoming one. Everyone is BUSY. They're DOING things. The situation only becomes dire later on in the day. There's no reason to be doing all this when there is still time to discuss tribal. I might just dip because I am not going to get punished for DeNara being paranoid. Like, if Julia wanted to target us, she would have already done so. DeNara is just... very taxing to work with because she thinks that everyone is against her. I feel like I needed to talk her down from making a move that would have certainly gotten her voted out.

Ginny

Ohhh girl I’m scared tonight I better not get blindsided because Lordy I got it when moth left and I wasn’t prepared whooo Jesus

DeNara

So I have been talking to Elle a bunch and someone told her about the split vote between Ginny and Julia. I am trying to play as though she is the one giving me this information, even though I helped plan it. I actually am feeling really close with Elle and hoping I can get far with her. I might make her my real number one with Steven. I like Steven a lot but I am worried he won't turn on Raffy when it is time. Raffy keeps getting a little frustrtaed with how hard I am trying to play this game (which is fair) so he may have to go after Julia and Ginny. I am getting concerned about these newbies though. We should take one of them out soon to even out the numbers. Also, I have been trying to get idol hunt information from as many people as I can and I remembered that Gian got an advantage during a game, so I am trying to get him to tell me what number it was since he didn't add it to our group chart

Anastasia

Me and Julia were paired together for the challenge. Since we're trying to get that girl out I didn't want to win. I was a little worried that somehow ours would win but we got second to last. Julia was sadly going through stuff in real life and struggled. It's good for me but I sympathize with her.. Anyway Julia is out of here tonight.

Julia

Ok so last tribal was so sexy the looks on everyone’s faces are now burned into my brain

Julia

I’m really hoping it’s Ginny tonight. I’m going to try to pull out some shit and hope and pray put nothings in my hands tonight

Rachel

i am so happy to be playing with such nice people. i really do be getting in my own head sometimes, but it is so nice to be reassured that i am playing a fun game and no one feels ill will towards me in anyway. i feel awesome to be supported by this group. i had a tragic event happen in my life this week, but plan to move forward and try to have the most fun while playing in his honor.

Julia

I’m at tribal right now and I feel like I’m going to puke. It’s definitely me. It’s been a ride friends. Julia out

Madi

So I got immunity, Julia went home. Sad but necessary. I really respect her as a player and would love to work with her sometime but just not this game. Also kinda annoyed that raffy called me out at tribal during the revote..... like yeah I came up with the revote but why call my name out for it???? like what is the deal with that. He is my next target tho so like hehehehe raffy its time to go. I am thinking we convince him ginny is going home and blindside him instead??? idk just thoughts

goodnight!

DeNara

So we just voted Julia out and I am actually sad about it. I am glad the threat is gone, but she was fun for sure. Now my alliance of 5 is standing strong, if I stay loyal...

Raffy

R.I.P. Julia, Queen of the Idol. The plan went off without a hitch which is pretty boring, but it means I have a lot of control in this game. I am excited for Touchy Subjects as it will be a very revealing challenge. If I had my choice, a newbie or Ginnifer would get voted out next.

Gian

My game is borderline UTR/Goat at this point and idk if that’s something I’d want to change lol. I’ve been feeling lazy >-<

Dear Bagel Girl

I did a lot today tbh..it was productive until my nap lmao which is bad cause i really need to study

Today in my chicano class, we talked about school shootings like ALL class. I gave my input and stuff and it was interesting and stuff about what people had to say. 

Afterwards, I bought Martha lunch at my work and she loved the nachos i recommended AND I TRIED THE NEW SANDWICH WE’VE BEEN MAKING AND IT IS SO FUCKING BOMB LIKE DAMN FUCK ME THE FUCK UP

Then while we were there, we tried getting our apartment and it didnt work. Like we were really upset so now we’re gonna hope we can manage financially trying to look for our own.

I went to my consultation today. He told me the type of surgery he would want to perform on me and basically told me everything I expected to hear. Im forever going to have two scars on my chest, and honestly, i dont care. I know a lot of trans people hate their scars, which sucks, but idk.. my story will literally be written on my chest. And just, I’m already in love with them not even knowing how they’re going to look. Of course i still hope I scar nicely but i know they’ll never fade and I’m okay with that. He did tell me a lot more complications that can happen and he said he’s only done 6 specifically for transmen and I know forsure 2 of those were done with the technique he’ll do on me, but being in his presence, i trust him. I’m a little more worried about those complications though cause I didnt know some of what he said and im like fuck..He then asked that I schedule an appointment with a ..doctor? but like its like therapy. Basically she’s going to give the okay on the surgery saying that im not going to regret this decision and that im mentally okay. IT SUCKS THOUGH CAUSE I CANT SEE HER UNTIL APRIL 24TH! So forsure, my surgery is most likely going to happen in August.

I guess it gives me more time to save money for everything by the time august comes? He also recommended that I stay overnight instead of going immediately home after surgery. So it looks like im going to be spending the night in the hospital for my first time :0 but im going to explain this all to my doctor when I see her next week for the monthly check up and see what she thinks

--i just checked my midterm grade..LMAO FUCK i really did fail lmao why am i not sad??? lmao fuck i gotta ace this final smh

I picked summer courses. i didnt officially enroll, but I will be taking two classes from June 23-August 3rd ((hopefully)) which is why I have to wait until August :( but it’s cool cause like my surgeon said Im going to need at least 6 weeks for good mobility so ima be out of work :/ I hope they’re okay with me being gone so long. I would only be going to class Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays but I’ll basically be there all day. THE CLASS ON WEDNESDAY IS FROM 3-7:30 PM LIKE FUCK ME? FUCK. I have to take it though if i want to minor in Education.

Then I went to class after my consultation and THEN MADE A DELIVERY AND GOT AN EASY $20 ;) 

Then took a nap and spent like an hour talking to you <3 i really miss you. More than usual today i think. I really wish I could kiss you and you need to go to Europe so I know forsure that there’s no way I can see you even If I wanted to. I know, right now, in the back of my mind I could see you but it would be just really stupid to, but at least I would know like FORSURE i cant during that time.. :( I think we’ve hit that point where we spent more time apart than together if you dont count the interaction we had last week. It’s a sad thought but im not sad. I’m still very much happy, just miss you is all.

I wish i could kiss you. everyday. 

I love you so much beautiful <3

-ya boi

February 28, 2018 ((OH SHIT ITS MARCH TOMORROW))

JUST DO IT!

this condition is awesome! So, i read every post so far. Truly truly very inspiring! you folks all make me happy just by being you! And i know y’all blow Heavenly Parents mind everyday with your awesome hearts. Honestly, reading all of these has gotten me to look at my own relationship with God. Comparing yea, but not in a bad way or anything -- just observing the differences i suppose. Anyways...

Today was chock full o’ procrastination! kinda disappointing day. So i didn’t do much. I still had a nice time somewhat. yeah...Sorry future Luke.... But here’s what i could gather from today:

I jammed on guitar for the first time in too long! damn it was kinda boring at first! i was worried i got bored with guitar D: but i stuck with the jam and picked up momentum. Just stuck with it and the good came! I played some holy songs too eventually. There’s this one song i used to hate playing on guitar because (1) it was weird to figure out strumming, (2) the timing was odd too, (3) the song just didn’t tickle me like others did. The song i’m talking about is Heart of the Father. but that all changed after i stopped being a poophead. Now i like the song. Today i started listening to the lyrics and the lines, “Tenderly with love he leads us back to life with Him on high”, were right on point or very relatable and understandable to me. especially in the last month ive been drifting away and loosing attention and ambition in my relationship with god. This is not good. I have so many reasons to invest in God and for some reason still find it hard. But God is always working harder than i am and paving the path before i even get there-- 

  --Woa. a-ha alert! see, id been wondering how i felt like i was growing but didnt necessarily feel close to God. Then i just kinda recognized that its very easy to have a life of faith without an actual relationship with God. Id been focusing internally and reflecting and reporting and growing sort of by introspective self discovery and learning about me. I haven’t however been reading, taking in new knowledge of God or God’s heart, and i haven’t really been praying sincerely enough. There’s a small disconnect. so that’s why i feel like i’ve been practicing having faith and leaving space for God and trying to set good conditions but not really having that relationship. I guess like a lot of yall been saying lately too, i’ve just been on the receiving end with God.

So, from the perspective of actually heartistically connecting and understanding  God, To be honest my relationship with God is no bueno. definitely doesn’t suck (for me at least) but its far from actually being good. Gahhh this is my life right now so much of what i know i need to do! and so little acting or doing. But hey, amongst all this stagnation im actually learning more and getting more specific about where i want to go eventually. so its all good. growing reeeaal slow. Tomorrow will be better! more productive! soon! life is gonna explode soon (in a good way)

DEATH CITY DAYS CHAPTER 76

from fire brigade formals to zombies to snowy days

Relan: *stares at the 3rd new commander* "..." iris: she seems jittery... shinra: considering all the controversy surrounding the 3rd these days, i can see why. Relan: "..." *walks up* "Commander?" tennouji: !!!! *salute* 3-3-3RD BRIGADE ACTING COMMANDER HIMARI TENNOUJI R-R-REPORTING SIR!! Relan: ._. "..." *salutes* "??? I...I'm Relan. I was...in the 3rd?" tennouji: oh. i-i-i think i might have s-seen you around. d-did you have a pet rat? Relan: owo "...His name is Buttons." tennouji: ah, so that was you then. shinra: ^^ Relan: "Y-Yes...How are you adjusting?" tennouji: i-its scary Q_Q Relan: o_o "...You should speak to Obi! He is newer at this work and is full of helpful advice!" tennouji: i-i wouldnt want to impose- Relan: "He wouldn't think of it like that. And he's far less intense than Captain Hinawa..." -elsewhere- Hibana: *slurring slightly* "Then that pointy-nose masked jerk is the _real_ villain! I told y'all!" gabriella: *holding her up, to make sure she doesnt fall over* hibana.... ._.; huang: ._.;;; Asako: =_= *takes another sip of brandy* "He most certainly was a dick." Hibana: =w= "Gabby, I know you want to get close to me--" *fiery eyes* "BUT I'M STILL COMPLAINING ABOUT THAT BASTARD." gabriella: ^-^; a-at least be sure to drink some water... Hibana: "Could you pour me some~?" gabriella: of course. Asako: "--and his voice was really disgusting..." -elsewhere- Patty: "!!! SHE'S ADORABLE!!!" hanako: >.< Patty: "Hee hee! And what a wonderful dress! Your moms picked it out?" hanako: ._. *nervous, hiding behind one angel* Patty: owo "...Oh. Didn't mean to scare you..." *backs up* angel 1: it's alright. ^^; hanako: mom said not to talk to strangers... Patty: ^^; "Fair enough..." -elsewhere- Bakugo: *grumbling whining muttering* itsuka: [hey katsuki ^^ ] Bakugo: "..." [yo. how's it goin?] itsuka: [good. craming 4 exams w/ the squad >u< ] Bakugo: [they asked u for help or u volunteering?] itsuka: [study group @ tokage's place.] [PS tokage and tetsutetsu said to say 'hello'.] Bakugo: [tell them my exam grades will be better than theirs] itsuka: [noted] -elsewhere- midnight: *patching her arm up while mt lady is asleep on the couch* Mount Lady: "Zzz..." *loud snore* midnight:...(honestly, what am i gonna do with this one?).... *puts a pillow under her head* Mount Lady: *stops snoring* =w= midnight:.... (she's still young. hopefully she'll mellow out in time.) *chuckle* (i remember when i was young and naive like that. not a care in the world.) Mount Lady: *curls up on the bed, yawns--and grows two feet, her feet falling off the bed* -elsewhere- Black Star: "--and hence, I got a grandfather." tsubaki: it's nice to meet you, sir. grey*star: likewise. Black Star: "And Tsubaki is a great weapon! She has multiple forms, is sweet, smells nice, cooks--" tsubaki: ^-^; Black Star: "And she's a great caretaker to our family--" grey*star: ._. you...have children? Black Star: "I mean, sort of? Adopted." grey*star: ah. -elsewhere- stocking: mom? you ok? felisia: *whimpering, holding her stomach* Mephisto: "...Do you need some time to chat, Sweetie?" stocking: *hugs her mom* felisia: i-im so scared....w-what if i mess up? what if i do something wrong? i-i dont know what to do! *crying* Mephisto: "..." *hug* stocking: it's gonna be ok, mom. we're here for you. and your circumstances are different from before... Mephisto: *nod nod* "We're not going away..." felisia: t-thanks...*rubs her stomach* its ok...im going to do my best for you.... Mephisto: *nods, smiles* "We know..." -elsewhere- Kid: *cradling Shiori* shiori: babu! Kid: *holds up a doll* "And who is this person?" ^^ lord death: hard to believe she'll be 2 next month... Kid: *nods* "Growing up fast..." lord death: ahhh, im getting all teary eyed thinking about it! TT~TT Kid: "..." *whispers to Shiori* "I think Papa needs a hug..." shiori: hug papa. lord death: *HUUUUUGS* Kid: *hug* ^w^;;; -elsewhere- Aizawa: *yawns* "Okay. Location is set for tomorrow..." yuuji: cool. so these kid's quirks... Aizawa: "Surprising, huh?" yuuji: yeah....but this romero kid....i get a bad vibe from him... Aizawa: "...Little prejudicial?" yuuji: s-sorry. 7-7; -elsewhere- Shamrock: "Can't sleep?" mahiru: guess im just anxious. Shamrock: "Given past experiences, I suppose that is to be expected." mahiru: .....*pets kuro* Kuro: =_= mahiru: *small chuckle* Kuro: *kitten yawn* "Stop chuckling..." mahiru: ^^; Kuro: *curls up* "A cute thing like me deserves a fluffy blanket and kitten treats..." -elsewhere- Q: zzzzz.... Adam: "???" zoey: *hums a lullaby as she strokes Q's head* Q: =w= Adam: *listens* ("I never heard this...") zoey: *smiles and hums* Adam: *yawns, sits back* -elsewhere- Victor: owo "...That's new." nozomi: i figured it was time for a new look. i'm gonna have a busy night ahead of me. Victor: "Oh?" nozomi: deciphering my father's notes and what not. Victor: "After the party, though?" nozomi: *she nods* -later- shinra: aahhh. im beat. Relan: "But it was fun..." *yawn* shinra: yeah.... *sigh* Relan: "...What's wrong?" shinra: i didnt see the 4th commander at all. i figured maybe we could get answers from him... Relan: "...Maybe you need the direct approach? Ogun could help?" shinra: maybe. Relan: "..." *pat pat* -elsewhere- Asako: "..." vivian: captain? Asako: "??? Yes, Vivian?" vivian: are you alright? Asako: "...I did not see Grandfather." vivian:......oh.... Asako: *wipes her eyes* "I guess I had to expect it..." *sniffs* vivian:....*understanding hug* Asako: "Th-Thank you..." vivian:...*nod* Asako: "I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring down your night. How did you enjoy the event?" vivian: it was fun. ^^ Asako: *smiles* "That's good...You seemed engaged with your boyfriend." vivian: *giggling* >///u///< <3 Asako: *wipes her eyes* "How long have you been dating?" -elsewhere- Burns: "--and file your report as to the intelligence gathered from the event by 10-hundred hours." Fulham: *nodding off* -elsewhere- lydia: ....... shadowy bull: .... *nuzzles its head against her face* lydia:.... *pets* <thank you...> Ivan: *knock knock* lydia: <it's open> Ivan: "..." <How is it going?> lydia: .... <same as usual...> Ivan: *nods* <No new updates from Master. That means to continue surveillance and preparations.> lydia:... <right. and oguri?> Ivan: "Dotting the i's and crossing the t's." <Checking up on the targets.> lydia: <ah.> Ivan: <So you'll need to be ready for backup...Especially if anyone gets in the way...> *hands a folder* <Some ability users Master located.> lydia: *examining* *One person is marked ???: Ranpo* lydia: hmmm... Ivan: <We're determining who to assign as backup--but you know how difficult Oguri can be.> lydia: <oguri? difficult?> *excalibur face* *sarcastically* <noooo, you're joking.> Ivan: ^^;;; <Please be patient: we'll need Oguri's help, especially as Adam has been--> *crash* lydia: <oh for fucks sake, what now?> Adam: "I didn't know spraying your alcohol-based hair product into a flame was a bad idea! Stop hitting me!" oguri: YOU SON OF A BITCH MOTHER FUCKER I WILL KILL YOU AND THEY WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO PROVE JACK SHIT!!! yana: ok, settle down. Adam: *leaps up into Ivan's arms* Ivan: Q_Q *can barely hold him* lydia: oguri, calm down. oguri: I'LL CALM DOWN AFTER I MURDER THAT WRETCHED SLAG LICKING LITTLE FUCKER!! lydia: oguri. not in front of the child. Q: ?? Adam: Q______Q Ivan: "..." <Keep cursing.> yana: you know, all that sodium isnt good for you....you know...because all the saltiness? Adam: "...OH! I get it!" ^^ -early morning- keek:...happy birthday to me, i guess... Mrs. Harue: "...I'm happy you're here." *holds her hand* keek:...*small hug* im happy too, mom. Mrs. Harue: *hug* *pat pat* "I'll have your cake ready this evening...and your breakfast now?" keek: yeah. -elsewhere- Takehisa: *holding his head* =____= karin: buzzed? Takehisa: "Hungover..." karin: ah. Takehisa: "I only had a sip of my drink, then I just switched to punch...Someone must've spiked it..." -elsewhere- Meme: "Zzz..." EF: we're here. Meme: *opens her eyes* "Huh?" -they're at the hotel- Meme: "..." *pushes the bed* "...Who brought me...*yawn* in?" ao: we all carried you. Anya: *lying on the vibrating bed* =w= "M-M-My b-b-b-back was k-k-k-killing me after..." mio: ._.; Meme: .___.;;; "...Need more quarters, Anya?" Anya: "I-I'm g-g-g-good..." tsugumi: ^^; Meme: "..." *looks out the window* "What's around here?" -there is a movie theater across the street- Meme: "..." *reads the marquee* ((Which city did they get to?)) tsugumi: *reading brochures* Meme: "..." *gets out of bed* "I'm going to shower. Then we can look around..." mio: ok. -elsewhere- Black Star: *snoring* tsubaki: *making a call back home* *phone rings* Shamrock: "Hello?" tsubaki: it's me. how's everything at home? Shamrock: "...About the same as usual?" x_^;;;; tsubaki: ah, i see. -she explains what all happened- Shamrock: "...That is a lot for one trip...And this other one, Magaki?" tsubaki: they'll be under DWMA custody for the time being. Shamrock: "Ah...Are you comfortable with this?" tsubaki: i think so. Shamrock: *nods* "Okay...It's not too much to take on, is it?" tsubaki: i feel i have to try. Shamrock: "Of course...Do not exhaust yourself." tsubaki: right. -elsewhere- Mori: *stare* fukuzawa: .... ? Mori: "...I wanted to play..." fukuzawa: ...alright, what did you have in mind? Mori: "My father used to let me play with paper dolls--to identify their organs..." fukuzawa: um..... *sweatdrop* lets see here.....i have this. *hands him a kendama* just try to get the ball into the cup or onto the spike, but hold it away from you so you dont hurt yourself. be careful. Mori: "..." *small swing up--and the ball misses the spike* "Nuts." fukuzawa: it takes a bit of practice. ranpo: yeah, took me about 2 weeks to get it. Mori: "..." *whispers to Fukuzawa* "Why is that 30-year-old man dressed like a child cosplaying like a boy detective?" ranpo: OI! im only 27! Mori: "Close enough." *continues playing--and catches the ball on the spike* owo fukuzawa: see? *smile* Mori: ^w^ *swings it again--and the ball smashes into his eye* fukuzawa: *gets the medkit* i warned you. -_-; hold on, i'll fix this- Mori: TTwTT "I was excited..." fukuzawa: *patching him up* (at least he didnt break down crying this time...) Mori: "Th-Thanks..." -elsewhere- Ogun: "He hasn't stepped out of the office?" pan: no. i hear him muttering in there sometimes. kind of unnerving. Ogun: "??? No idea what he's saying?" selim *presses ear to the door*........... Arg: *mutter mutter* "--burn--" *mutter mutter* "--Heaven--" selim: *giggles, lava forming at his feet* pan: !!! MORIYAMA! *A crash is heard in the office* pan: !!!! *slams the door open* sir!! Arg: *standing beside his desk...a book has fallen onto the floor...all looks normal in the room* "???" pan: sir are you alright? ogun! get moriyama to the nurse! Ogun: "On it!" *tries to lead Selim* selim: *follows, giggling all the while* Arg: "...Yes, I'm fine. How are you?" pan: we heard a commotion in here, sir. Arg: "??? Just knocked over this book..." pan: *walks over to pick it up* *The book is opened to some pages about photosynthesis--and have three long tears along it...* pan: ??? Arg: "I was trying to open a letter--" *gestures to the envelop opener* "--and darn thing slipped." -elsewhere- Poe: "..." lana: zzzzz Poe: "..." *hug* lana: u///u Poe: *holds onto her* lana:....morning edgar. Poe: "...Good morning, Lana. Sleep well?" lana: yeah....*brushes his bangs back and kisses his forehead* so sweet. Poe: =\\\\= "Lana..." lana: *kiss* ^///^ -elsewhere- katya: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz pushkin: *nudge* <kati? you up yet?> katya: *muttering* pushkin: <that's ok, take your time.> *goes to make coffee* -elsewhere- oguri:..... {oguri: please...tell me...what do you see, when you look at me?} {???: …what i see is- } -knocks- oguri: !!!! IM NOT DECENT! Ivan: *calling from outside* "Meeting in 20." oguri: NOTED! >///n///<; Ivan: "??? Need medicine?" oguri: im fine! >3< *rubs eyes* i just need to get dressed first! Ivan: "Okay. If 20 is not enough--" oguri: I'LL BE OUT!! lydia: *gives ivan a motion to say 'lets go already'* Ivan: "..." *turns, leaves* oguri:....*sighs* get it together, already, mushitaro. -elsewhere- Kid: *adjusts his tie* "So this meeting will be about missions?" lord death: yes. you get to hand out missions today! Kid: "Yay!" *takes them--then stares* "...Father? I think you need to...They look uneven?" lord death: deep breaths, kiddo. Kid: "..." *inhales, exhales* "Okay..." *flips to the first mission* "This one is for--Sid?" -elsewhere- Sakuya: *asleep at his school desk* nygus: mr watanuki? Sakuya: *grunts* naho: *nudge* sakkun, wake up. Sakuya: *sits up* "S-Sis?!" nygus: mr watanuki? is everything alright? Sakuya: "...Fine. Just...fine." *opens his book* "Sorry." naho:... -elsewhere- Magaki: *holds up shackled hands* <I'll need someone to hold the umbrella.> tsubaki: *holding it out* *smiles* Magaki: "..." *small blush* <Thank you.> *walks forward into the daylight* -elsewhere- tsuyu: ... mina: these exams are gonna kill me TT_TT Denki: "I don't want to fail..." Mineta: "YOU BETTER NOT FAIL, MINA! YOU NEED TO BE AT THE TRAINING--" jirou: *SLAM DUNKS HIM INTO THE TRASH* Mineta: D:< "I DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING YET!" jirou: shhhhhh stop talking. Izuku: ^^; "Let's all do our best...I'm sure tutoring is helping?" ochako: yeah, it sure is. Bakugo: *dark aura around him* "I am the best fucking tutor ever..." sato: scary. *footsteps are heard in the hallway...more than just one pair* Iida: "ATTENTION!" *stands up* "TAKE YOUR SEATS BEFORE OUR TEACHER ARRIVES!" Bakugo: -_-# "You're out of your seat, numb-nuts..." jirou: ?? (more than one person?) *The door slides open, revealing Aizawa and--* momo: new students? Aizawa: "Quiet...everyone take your seat. Iida, sit down already." Iida: *slams down into his chair with a crash* .\\\\\. *Four students walk in--one hiding behind the others* girl: ... large boy: .~.;;;;;; Creepy Boy: "..." *sneers* Bakugo: "...The fuck is his problem?" Izuku: "..." ("You're one to talk...") ochako: OwO;;; momo:.... ._.;;; Denki: *shiny eyes* "Adorable..." Mineta: *stuck in the trash can head-down* "What? Is something happening? Is it sexy?" jirou: dont you fucking dare. *shoves mineta back into the trash* Mineta: "GRK! My grapes!" kashiko: um...what's going on? jirou: he's a cursed student, just ignore him and everything will be fine. kashiko: ._.; *blinks* Aizawa: "I know it's unorthodox in the middle of exam studying, but administration decided for your next exercise to engage in some 'exchange student' tactics..." *gestures* "These four are from Isamu High..." Koda: "???" *points at each one...then holds up three fingers* "???" kashiko: it's nice to meet you all. my name is Kashiko Sekigai. dadan: i-im Dadan Tadan...n-nice to....meet you... ._.;;; *sweats* hagakure: aww, he's like a big teddy bear. Romero: "..." *growl* "Fujimi." ochako: ._.;;;; Bakugo: *death glare* "...This jerk's crowding in on _my_ routine..." eijiro: *sweatdrop* Aizawa: "...Yo. Last one. Name yourself." ???: "..." *the one with big hair peeks over Kashiko's shoulder* "..." *spots Tsuyu* "!!!" tsuyu: *looks up* !!!! habuko! Habuko: "TSU!" -HUUUGS~- Izuku: ._. "???" ochako: that's so cute. Izuku: ^^ "Aaaah, despite appearances, any friendship can form--" Romero and Bakugo: "SHUT UP, YOU DAMN NERD--WE'RE NOT THEIR FRIENDS!" Romero and Bakugo: "..." *death glares* mina: this can only lead to disaster. Denki: "...D'aw, Kacchan made a new friend, too--" Romero: *snort laugh* "Kacchan?! That loser who got slimed?!" Bakugo: *slow head turn--180--to glare at Denki* Denki: .________.;;;; jirou: why do you keep saying words? Denki: "Because I'm not Koda..." Koda: *opens his mouth--pauses...then does a "He's not wrong" shrug* jirou: *jabs him* dont be an ass. mina: yikes. kashiko: -_-; Aizawa: "If we are all done...you'll be getting on buses in an hour. Iida, lead the exchange students to the locker room to change into your outfits." -later- momo: so you're the class rep? kashiko: yeah, but it's far from an easy job. Habuko: ^w^ momo: i take it mr fujimi is your 'problem student'? kashiko: oh yes, but he does mean well. mina: so in personality terms, he's a mix of bakugou and monoma. Habuko: "??? I don't know who this Monoma is, but he sounds like an ass." tsuyu: oh trust us, he is. Habuko: *holds Tsuyu's hand* "I missed you!!!" tsuyu: i missed you too >u< Habuko: >w< "We have to talk so much before--" Izuku: ._____. tsuyu: ah right. this is izuku. we're going steady. Habuko: "Oh! I've heard so much about you..." Izuku: *nods* "I heard a bit about you. Tsuyu says you're a great friend--" Habuko: *activates Quirk, stares at Izuku* "YOU HURT HER, AND YOU WON'T HAVE A HEAD..." Izuku: owo;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; tsuyu: settle habuko, settle. *pat pat* Habuko: =w= *inhale, exhale* "Sorry...If anything happened to Tsuyu, I don't know..." Izuku: *nod nod nod nod* QwQ "I feel the same..." tsuyu: guys... ^^ Habuko: "Initiating group hug!" *glomp* ochako: .... *glances at todoroki* ? Todoroki: "..." Izuku: *choking* -and so- Aizawa: "Stand here at attention...Mineta, move from that spot." Mineta: "But why, sir? I got a great view--" *A light is seen flying up through the sky* Izuku: .______. *Everyone but Mineta takes a step back* ???: "I AM LANDING--" *BOOM* *All Might has arrived* All Might: "--WITH A THUNDERING CRASH! ...Did I step in something?" jirou: just a pile of shit. sato: oooh, sick burn. Mineta: *last-minute protection by his Quirk-balls* q_q "...This is going to end badly for me today..." All Might: "Oh. SORRY, YOUNG MINETA!" *steps off...and wipes his shoe along the dirt* "I AM HERE TO WELCOME OUR INVITED STUDENTS--" Aizawa: "Enough. You're late." All Might: .w.;;;; Romero: *shiny eyes at All Might* kashiko: ^u^; Habuko: "OMG I am so getting his autograph!" Aizawa: "Today is survival tra--" All Might: "SURVIVAL TRAINING!" *turns on hologram* "Six teams! Four members each! RUN OR FIGHT! THE ONLY GOAL IS TO SURVIVE!" Bakugo: "..." *gleeful murderous sneer* dadan: ._.;;; Aizawa: "No. Killing. Kacchan." Bakugo: *grumbles* All Might: "CAPTURE TAPE IS THE ONLY TOOL ALLOWED TO BIND YOUR OPPONENTS!" Habuko: "Oooooo! We did a similar exercise! You used that tape stuff before, Tsu?" tsuyu: *nod* All Might: "NOW FOR THE TEAMS! A Team is Midoriya, Ashido, Uraraka, and Asui!" Mineta: "Jealous." mina: cool. Izuku: ^^; ochako: neato! tsuyu: *ribbit* -TEAM B- momo: oh. eijiro: looks like we're on the same team, bakugou! ^^ Bakugo: "I am winning this one, and the rest of you better just do whatever I say." Shoji: "..." *from arm-mouth* "Typical." -TEAM C- hagakure: yay! Todoroki: "Okay...Let's make this one count." Koda: *nods* =w= Ojiro: "Right." -TEAM D- sato: awesome. Tokoyami: "I look forward to working with you." Iida: "Likewise!" sero: ^u^ -TEAM E- jirou: why me? Denki: "Karma, baby!" Aoyama: "Oui." Mineta: >_> "Freaking sausage fest..." jirou: i hope you get mauled by a bear. Mineta: "...I'm not into bears." Aoyama: "???" -TEAM F- kashiko: so we're all on the same team then. Romero: "Time to show these Death City losers how we do it at Isamu..." dadan: ._.;;; Habuko: "..." *inhales* "Okay...Give it my all, give it my all..." Aizawa: "Teams are selected. Go to their starting locations." All Might: "THE TEST WILL BEGIN WITHOUT WARNING IN FIVE MINUTES--" Aizawa: "That constitutes a warning..." All Might: "...Oh. Um...WITHIN FIVE MINUTES!" -and so- *Everyone runs to their locations* Habuko: "Give it your best, Tsu!" tsuyu: you too! Romero: "Enjoy the stench of defeat!" Bakugo: "JOKES ON YOU--I EAT PIECES OF SHIT LIKE YOU FOR BREAKFAST!" Romero: "..." Bakugo: "...Sh-Shut up!" momo: phrasing, bakugou. phrasing. Iida: ^^ --At Team A's location-- ochako: alright, so what's the game plan, deku? mina: you're our tactician here. Izuku: ._.;; "Lot of pressure...Well, we lack the same surveillance abilities that Jiro and others have...And if we start a fight, that attracts other teams to our location--risking that we have a two-on-one fight, and we're the one..." tsuyu: but this is a survival training, right? mina: maybe just wait it out for now? Izuku: "...It sounds like the best plan until something changes." *nods* "Okay. Let's do that." mina: i even snuck my phone in, so we can stream shows. Izuku: ._.;;; "That's...a little too laid-back for 'survival'...Unless...Hmm...Did this facility have any cameras or wireless in order to access GPS tracking to ascertain the locations of *mumble mumble mumble mumble--" -elsewhere- yuuji: ... Aizawa: "Okay, 'spotter', see anything?" yuuji: well- -BOOOOM- yuuji: that. Aizawa: "...So much for an exercise teaching them patience..." *sigh* -meanwhile- jirou: ok, only one person's footsteps. Denki: "So Bakugo's coming alone...Let's surround him!" jirou: *nod* -on the ground- Bakugo: *running* "Heh heh--" *then *then spots a laser coming at him* Bakugo: "!!!" *leaps, dodges--then sees balls coming at him* ("Coordinated concentrated attack...") *sneers, leaps--and slams his fists onto the ground* "TAKE THAT, EARPHONES!" jirou: ABLABLABLBALBALBALEUUUU X-X Denki: "Jirou!" *runs to her* Mineta: "EAT MY BALLS!" *flings them at Bakugo* Bakugo: "..." *swings a blast--which smashes the balls at--* Aoyama: Q_Q "C'est mauvais..." *BOOM* ochako: ?!?! there's another one! *Aoyama is now stuck to Denki and Jirou* Izuku: "Kacchan...Listen to see where he moves next..." -elsewhere- kashiko: *scanning* amazing, taking on eight people at once... Romero: "Pfft. Tadan! Get ready!" dadan: r-right! -BYEEEEEEWM- Shoji: *hears* "!!! Move!" momo: ?? ... !!!!! *BOOM BOOM BOOM* Romero: "Keep going! Then we'll check the field..." -BOOOOOM- mina: ?!? Izuku: "...Is that Bakugo? ...No...Isamu is making its move." ochako: should we go in? tsuyu: ... ??!!! w-what....what is that? -a pinkish fog rolls in- ochako:... get to high ground! this doesnt look good. Izuku: *runs with the team* -on the top of the hill- ochako: todoroki! Todoroki: "Hello. I would be battling you all here--but obviously whatever that is [the gas] is the bigger threat." tsuyu: i just hope the others are alright... Izuku: "Has to be an Isamu student's Quirk, right? Tsu, you learn anything about theirs?" tsuyu: all i know is habuko's. Izuku: "Hmm...That wouldn't be this one then--" *Footsteps can be heard* mina: !!!! there's someone there! Bakugo: *walking...shambling up* ochako: s-something's not right. tsuyu: .... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mina: THEY'RE ZOMBIES!!! AND NOT THE MR SID KIND EITHER!!! Bakugo: "GRAWRRRRRRRRR!!!" Todoroki: "..." ("Seems normal for Bakugo...") *In the shadows of the trees* Romero: "Hee hee hee..." hagakure: how awful. tsuyu: even habuko.... Habuko: "Grrrrrr..." Iida: *running into a tree* mina: they're....kinda slow. ._.; Ojiro: "So we can out-run them to get a report to the teachers...Where the hell is Aizawa...?" Romero: "BWA HA HA HA! Foolish students!" Izuku: ._. Romero: "Impressive, no?" *dramatic pose* "I have out-shined all of you!" mina: WHAT KIND OF HERO ARE YOU, YOU COLLOSAL JERK?! Romero: "The kind of hero who keeps weaklings like you in my shadow!" Todoroki: "...So, you're a fan of All Might. Anyone else you're a fan of?" Romero: "...I think Endeavor is kind of cool--" Todoroki: "Go fuck yourself." ochako: owned. mina:....um.....guys? Romero: .____. "...Jeez. What's up your ass?" *A shadow appears over Romero* *Baku-chomp* Romero: "GAAAAAH!" *collapses* Izuku: "...Kacchan still wants to battle, even when a zombie." Bakugo: *growls* "DEEEEEEEEEEEKUUUUUUU!!!" Izuku: "Eep!" Todoroki: "And without Agent Zero, we can't reverse his poison...Get back!" ochako: OwO;; that means they're still in there somewhere! mina: what now? Romero: "..." *climbs up--a zombie* Izuku: "Like the horror films--don't get bit!" hagakure: ...!! miss akemi! she has time-wimey magic right? Todoroki: *freezes the ground* "And create a barrier..." *Some students shift in the ice* Izuku: "Then we better hurry to find her--before--" -noms on hagakure and ojiro- *BOOM* mina: YOU HAD ONE JOB GUYS COME ON! Ojiro: "GGGGGGGRR..." Tokoyami: "GRRRRRR..." ochako: welp....BAIL!!! Koda: "..." Izuku: "Mina, acid path down the mountain! Todoroki, ice!" Todoroki: *ice slide* -they flee- Habuko: *LOUD WAIL* tsuyu: ..... (habuko....) it's ok, we're going to get help for you guys! *A rock is in Tsuyu's path* tsuyu: AH! *falls* o-ow... Habuko: *snake tongue slithers* "..." Izuku: "TSU!" Habuko: "..." *leans down* tsuyu: ..... Habuko: "..." *tears falling* "Tsssuuuuu..." tsuyu: it's ok habuko. we'll get miss akemi to reverse time to prevent this- ???: *chomp* ochako: !!!!! Izuku: "...OH GODDAMN IT!" Aoyama: *nom nom nom* tsuyu: *ribbit* mina: come on! we got to get homura! Izuku: "Tsu!" *reaches for her--* Todoroki: "We're going, now!" *picks up Izuku* "Who the hell thought this exercise was a good idea--" ???: "HA HA HA!" Izuku: QwQ "Oh, thank goodness! We'll be saved by--" *CRASH, BOOM* All…Might?: *depowered mode* *bleeding out of his mouth* "Aaaaah..." Izuku: Q_Q Todoroki: "..." *facepalm* mina: did some random salaryman fall from the sky? ochako: LETS JUST GO! -they abscond- No Might: "WAIT! I'M NOT A ZOMBIE! I'M HERE TO HELP--" Tokoyami: "Rawr..." No Might: ._.;;;;;;; sato: *pap pap and walks on by* No Might: p_p ("Aizawa...help?") --elsewhere-- Aizawa: "--so let him fix his own mess." yuuji: ....given how this romero kid acted.....are you _sure_ he's a hero? Aizawa: "...I think the categories of 'villain' and 'hero' are being shown to be horribly defined, aren't they?" yuuji:...touche...and i really am in no position to judge, given my circumstances... Aizawa: "It's all what you do with the abilities...And given Bakugo and Romero down there, got a lot of work to do to make them into All Might's, not Endeavor's..." yuuji: right... -meanwhile- Todoroki: *sealing up the entrance with ice* mina: *checks her phone* ugh, no reception. =3= ochako: .... Izuku: *wipes his eyes* "O-Okay...First we got to wait for the gas to clear..." mina: yeah, then everything will be ok, right? ochako:.....*shaking* Todoroki: "Well, if those zombie films my sister and I watch are anything to go by, eventually the zombies will break through here, infect us, then spread the virus out of this state, across the continent, and eventually the wor--" mina: STAAAAAAP THAT. Izuku: *wearing a 'Are you kidding me right now?!' face* ochako: *crying* Todoroki: "!!! ..." *pat pat Ochako's shoulder* ochako: i-i dont want to die, i-i dont want to feel like a coward... Izuku: "We-We're not! Not like this when--" *SHATTER* mina: !!! shit! Izuku: "Okay! Todoroki, get ready for a fire blast!" Todoroki: "...But the ice may not carry far enough--" ochako: l-leave it to us to! mina: yeah! Todoroki: "..." *nods* "Ochaco, gravity the ice to give it distance. Mina, cover me--hit the rocks to give me a barrier." mina: roger that. ochako: *wipes eyes and nods* Izuku: "We'll need to move forward...I'll smash us an escape path forward. Just have to hope our classmates can't feel the damage...Forgive me, guys..." *charges up One for All, leans back against the rocks in a running position* Todoroki: "I'm ready...Mina, Ochaco...NOW!" -acid + gravity = DOUBLE PINK- *BOOM* *The ice explodes forward--knocking a path forward...* Izuku: *tumbles out of the cave, ending at the mountain's rock edge* *pants* "Okay..." Death the Kid: Todoroki: *steps outside* "..." *looks up* "...Um...Ochako? How much gravity did you add to that attack?" ochako: um.... ._.; uhhhh guys? Iida: "I'M FALLING!!!!" Mineta: "WHAT THE H?!" jirou: THIS DAY HAS BEEN TERRIBLE!!! Aoyama: "MERDE MERDE ME--" *into a tree* Izuku: D: "Oh, God, I killed them..." ???: "Not all of us..." Izuku: .___. "...Oh no..." Bakugo: *falling* "DEKU! I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!" *blasts forward* Todoroki: "!!!" *picks up Ochaco, runs* Bakugo: "SURVIIIIIIIIIVE THIS!" *spinning fire spear* ochako: D8 Izuku: *waving his arms* "NO NO NO--" *BOOM* -they were all fine dont worry- -elsewhere- Aizawa: "...Goddamn it, All Might..." yuuji:....well, today was just a big shitshow, wasnt it? Aizawa: "Yep...I get to write letters to their parents. Again." -later- hagakure: good thing for conveniently placed trees, right? Ojiro: *hanging by his tail--having caught Hagakure* "Heh...No kidding." Iida: *bowing* "WE HUMBLY APOLOGIZE FOR THIS UNNECESSARY CARNAGE!" kashiko: it's fine. *glares at romero* romero, apologize. Romero: "...I'm sorry for not telling you earlier how long it takes for my zombie gas to wear off." momo: bakugou. apologize. Bakugo: "...I'm sorry." Iida: "!!!" *smiles* "Bakugo...That is oddly mature--" Bakugo: "Please accept this gift as a token of my apology." *holds up, wrapped in capture tape...Mineta* "Take it. We don't want it anymore." kashiko: ........................................we'll pass. itsuka: ^^; you guys ok? Iida: -_-# Bakugo: "THIS F'ING DAWN OF THE DEAD RIPOFF STARTED A FIGHT WITH US!" Romero: "THIS 1990s ANTI-HERO REJECT WAS THE ONE WHO STARTED IT!" Mineta: -_-# *still tied up* kashiko: ROMERO. DOWN. itsuka: easy there, katsuski. *pat pat* Bakugo: =\\\\\\= Romero: "...How the hell does he have a girlfriend?" momo: one of the school's many mysteries. Iida: ^\\\\^ "Guess there's someone for everyone..." hagakure: you think _bakugou_ is bad? you should meet itsuka's ex. or better yet dont. Monoma: *pops up behind Hagakure* "HOW DARE YOU!" Romero + Bakugo: "SHUT UP!" *both punch Monoma in the face* kashiko:.............you're school is weird. momo: you have no idea. Monoma: *collapses* x____x Mineta: *muffled* "If there is someone for everyone, does that mean--" Iida: "No." Mineta: "...This day sucked." jirou: no kidding. if i see another zombie, im legit going to freak out. Sid: "Oh, Jiro--You missed class, so I brought you your homework--" jirou:...... *lays face down on the floor and sobs* Sid: ._____. "...It's only a worksheet?" -several students hug him- sato: Q~Q we had no idea how hard it is for you. sero: you brave brave person. Koda: *hug* Sid: "..." Q_____Q "Thank you...You don't know how much *sniff* this means to me..." tsuyu: ^^; so habuko, how long are you guys staying in the city for? Habuko: "About a week. Up for showing me the town?" tsuyu: yeah. i'll invite the others too. and maybe one day we could play some mario kart? Habuko: "Hells yay! My girlfriend loves Kart!" tsuyu: awesome. ^^ -elsewhere- All Might: "Midoriya...Please accept the cake as an apology--" Izuku: TT___TT "I can't tell whether you're lying or not..." *bandaged* All Might: "...You kind of look like Miss Nygus--" Izuku: "That is sadly appropriate..." -elsewhere- Anya: "Ice skating rink! Pizza! Museums! Souvenir shops!" tsugumi: *she has her map out* EF: remember to stay close together, girls. mio: yes ma'am. Anya: "Right, of course we will. Right Meme?" *looks around* "...Um...Where is she?" ao: she's right here. mio: *phew* Meme: *staring at bulletin boards* "Hmm..." *writes down some phone numbers* -elsewhere- ochako: ....*tired* Todoroki: "...I'm sorry." ochako: hey, i-it's fine. i was a bit nervous...^^; trixie: *doggy whine and plops her head onto ochako's lap* ochako: *pet pet* Todoroki: "...May I pet her?" ochako: sure, she's friendly. trixie: ^u^ Todoroki: .\\\\. "..." *pet* trixie: *lick lick* Todoroki: *slight shiver* ochako: *giggles* Todoroki: "Heh..." *pet pet* ochako: im glad everything turned out ok in the end. Todoroki: *nods* "More or less...Some injuries will take some time..." -elsewhere- jirou: *collapses onto her bed* uuuugh. bowie: *her parrot* *squawk* jirou: today sucked. i want to sleep. bowie: *squawk* fuck off! fuck off ya piece of shit! jirou:.... *snort laughter* thanks bowie, i needed that today. -elsewhere- yuuji: those kids are gonna need serious therapy for this. Aizawa: "I emailed Marie to ask for help..." yuuji: good call. i heard she's pretty nice...................................i also heard she beat the fuck out of a toilet once. Aizawa: "That's accurate. She...has some issues about relationships." yuuji: i'll stay out of that one thanks. -elsewhere- Yumi: "?! Marie? What's wrong?" marie: hmm? im totally fine~ ^^ Yumi: "Oh, good...You just looked concerned for a moment..." *pulling her necklace away from Shiori* -elsewhere- Black Star: "..." White Star: "..." Black Star: "...The heck is your problem?" White Star: "???" Black Star: "Like, what am I supposed to do with you?" grey*star: *enters the room* ...... White Star: "!!!" <The hell?!> grey*star: *he looks at him with a stern expression, yet there is a hint of sadness in his eyes....* White Star: <Why aren't you dead?!> Black Star: *gripping his fists* grey*star: ....<i suppose we're just that tenacious...> White Star: "Pfft." <Who would want to claim your soul anyway? Worthless thief...> grey*star: <at least i didnt resort to eating the souls of innocent people> White Star: "..." *sneers* <You missed out...> grey*star:.......*looks at black*star* Black Star: "...You know what? Stay locked up in here for all I care. Maybe confinement will teach you some manners." -morning- Izuku: Q_Q "I'm not trying to make this a habit, Mom, I swear..." inko: i know, but i cant help but worry. im just glad that nice old nurse is there to help you. Izuku: ^^; "Yeah, she's great...She even collects superhero Pez dispensers..." inko: ah. -elsewhere- rowena: happy birthday brother! ^^ lana: ^^ Poe: *blubbering* Q_Q "Wah mah...Gah mah-mah wah..." lana: *hugs* ^^; -knocks on the door- Poe: c-come in… ranpo: heyoooo~! Poe: Q////Q ranpo: so i heard it was your birthday today. and i also would assume cake is involved somehow? Poe: "..." -_-;;;; "It's over there..." ranpo: awesome! oh, i got you this. *hands him a new pen set* Poe: *shiny eyes* “T-Thank you, Ranpo…” ranpo: ^^ figured you'd like that. Poe: "I shall start writing immediately! I need paper!" rowena: ah, right! -elsewhere- Anya: "Look at the snow globe!" tsugumi: cool! mio: ^^; Meme: "Yeah, real nice..." *looking behind them* "..." mio:...are you ok? Meme: "Just trying to keep an eye open..." mio: ah... *There's a laundromat, some fast food stands, a road to a nearby university...* mio:...it's nice. Meme: *nods* "Kind of a college town setting..." mio:....*examining* *There's someone exiting the laundromat in a hoodie* mio: ?? *The person turns--she looks...odd in her eyes* mio: ... ??!! Meme: "What?" mio: that person... Meme: "!!!" *runs* tsugumi: .. ??? meme! wait up! Anya: *holding a snow globe* "Hang on!" *throws cash at the merchant* -in the alley- Meme: "Stop right there!" girl: *turns to look at them* ya? what do you want, girly? Meme: "Shaula Gorgon!" girl: eh? you on something? -the others have caught up- Anya: "??? ...Why does that person have a scorpion tattoo?" Meme: "BECAUSE SHE'S SHAULA!" girl: hey, i dont know what she's on, but she needs to step off before i kick her ass. tsugumi: meme... Meme: "We know they can impersonate other people! That's her--I know it!" mio:....*holding her hand* Meme: "..." *shudders* -on the roof- beatrice:..... *walking off* -elsewhere- jordan: dude, i just had the weirdest thought. fitz with a mustache. eckleburg:....eh? Daisy: "...I could see that." -elsewhere- leo: *doing some cleaning* Motojiro: "??? That seems inconvenient." leo: hm? Motojiro: "Maybe a better vacuum..." leo: perhaps. Motojiro: "I could repair one. Give it more oomph." -elsewhere- Kid: "..." stocking: *snuggle* Kid: *sniff, hug* stocking: *kiss* i love you, kiddo. Kid: *nods* "I love you, Stocking..." *strokes her face* stocking: u///u *forehead press* Kid: *small smile, closes his eyes, breathes a little more calmly* -elsewhere- Kuro: *yawn* "How much longer we house sitting?" *glancing at the others* mahiru: tsubaki said she'd be sometime this week. Kuro: "...And you're not worried about...them?" mahiru: .... Kuro: "After what their creator did..." mahiru: … -elsewhere- Habuko: *giggles* "His big hands are so out there!" kashiko: they sure are. dadan ._.;; Romero: -_-# "That mask looks dumb..." -elsewhere- baum: *whistling* dorothy: *walking with him* Steinbeck: *wipes his brow with a handkerchief* "Remarkable..." twain: *vibrating* oscar: so hot =3=; ebie: ^^ *she has a spider on her head* Steinbeck: ._.; "...Ebie?" ebie: it's cool, he's my friend. ^^ oscar: EEP! >~<;; Steinbeck: "Well, if you're sure...Just be careful. And don't let it bite the others." -elsewhere- Arthur: *hiding under sheets* tamaki: *looks at clock* arthur, come on. Arthur: "Keep that quack away from me..." tamaki: come on, the medic wont hurt you... Arthur: "I saw what Giovanni did to people. The medic will take out my brain and replace it with that of a chicken." tamaki: i assure you, she wont do that. shinra: come on, lets go. *pulling at his legs to drag him out of bed* although if he had his brain swapped with a chicken... tamaki: *GLARE* Arthur: Q~Q "UNHAND ME!" *flailing but not really able to do anything* -elsewhere- Lucy: "--and she's still gaga for him." yosano: *sighs* poor girl. Lucy: "He hasn't talked to her, has he?" -elsewhere- Yohei: "Okay, so I called this meeting for an update on your job security." *flips through notes* "Assi and Zuno are at Manhasset--" Assi: QwQ "Mr. Fitzgerald is really intimidating but likes robot action figures--" Zuno: "Why do I have all these letters?" *holds up undelivered letters from work* Yohei: "Mana and Mono are at Deathbucks--" mana: *nod* mono: 7//7; medea: ... Shotaro: "Hee hee...'Mana with Mono'..." mana: *chop to showtaro's head* Yohei: "Medea is working at the consignment shop..." medea: *nod* Shotaro: >3< "Worth it!" Yohei: "Tool and Saki are taking that junk he makes out of trash and selling it to museums--" Tool: "It...is called...ART!" saki: ^^; Yohei: "And Emine--" *looks up* "...Where is he?" *Door opens abruptly, as Emine runs in, panting, clutching a duffle bag and leaning against the door* lin-kimpur: !!! emine, are you ok?? Emine: *pant pant--* *looks up* .\\\\. Yohei: "...What did you do?" Emine: "..." *pulls a wad of money out of the bag, hands it to Lin* "Make them quiet." lin: um- chie: *murderous aura* emiiineeee. ^^# Emine: "I DIDN'T STEAL IT! ...I mean, I stole it, but from other...thieves?" Kepuri: *asleep sitting up because of overtime* nea: from where? ^^# Emine: ._. "...I just remember a lot of guns, and a bad deed to finish--" Shotaro: "Aw, it can't be that bad--" *opens duffle bag* Emine: "DON'T--!" Shotaro: "..." *pulls out an arm--* mono: *SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEAMS* setsuna: o_o; chie: WHAT THE HECK?! mana: EMINE WHAT DID YOU DO!? Shotaro: *pulls the arm out completely--it's a mannequin's arm* "...Hee hee...Fake arm." Emine: ._.;;;; "...It looked real when I ran out...Huh. Guess they didn't kill anyone." Assi: *hiding behind Mono* Kepuri: *still asleep* *snores* akaderu: ._.; Emine: "Look, I was trying to do a bad deed, while also stopping murderers--" Yohei: "Murderers of mannequins." Emine: "I THINK I DESERVE SOME CREDIT!" *KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK* Emine: .______. nea: *checks the peep hole* *Multiple persons with guns are standing at the door* nea: OwO;; chie: *dark shield around io and toru* Yohei: "!!! They must have hacked the security..." *death glare at Emine* Emine: .__________. "I was trying my best to be my worst..." Shotaro: *pat pat* nea: *heads outside* morning, lovelies~ ^^ fine day we're having, no? Gangster: "Get back inside you--Wait...Nea? Nea!" nea: been a while, dearies~ ^^ gangster 2: *kneels* we had no idea you lived here, miss polito! Gangster 1: "...Oh! Right!" *kneels* "We had followed a thief here. Have you seen him?" nea: in a moment~ *drags emine out* he's my servant~<3 Emine: D:< "HOW DARE YOU! I AM NOT--" nea: *clamps a hand over his mouth* he's a bit rambunctious, hoho~ Emine: >_< Gangster 1: "...So, about the money? Is that a deal breaker here?" nea: we'll return it, for a small fee on the side~? and dont worry, we'll give back 'debra' Gangster 1: o\\\\w\\\\o "...It's not what you think." nea: i know, i know, i just know greg will have a fit without 'her'. Gangster: >\\\\< "WHAT FEE DO YOU WANT, MA'AM?!" nea: not much, just something like, say....$50,000. ^^ Gangster 1: Q_Q "The boss will have my pinkies..." nea: was that a complaint? ^^# Gangster 1: Q~Q "No, Ma’am... nea: good. -elsewhere- Todoroki: "...So you're holding the bacon burger...so it doesn't fly?" ochako: hmm? more or less. Todoroki: "...I've heard of pigs flying, but not bacon flying..." ochako: *giggle* Todoroki: *small smile* *sips his hot chocolate* "Any plans this weekend?" -elsewhere- Arthur: Q_Q *rubbing his arm* shinra: now that wasnt so hard, was it? Arthur: "It was awful. Like a tiny joust piercing my epidermal..." iris: still, you're alive, right? ^^ Arthur: Q_Q *meek nod* "May I have a lollipop?" komori: *hands him one* Arthur: "..." *hesitantly takes it...licks* komori: [better?] Arthur: =_= "I like cherry..." -elsewhere- Meme: *grumbling* EF: meme, are you sure you're alright? ao: you've been on edge since we got here... Meme: "Because I feel her--I know she's here!" tsugumi: meme... mio: *worried* Anya: "How do you even know? That person didn't look a thing like Shaula--" Meme: *death glare* tsugumi: !! Meme: "You have no idea what it feels like, 'Princess'!" Anya: "!!!" *tenses* tsugumi: meme, anya, please- Anya: "You're flying off the handles. If you don't calm--" Meme: "Excuse me, don't I have the right to be upset?!" mio: ..... EF: we understand you're stressed out, but you dont have to take it out on us- Meme: "Then how about you help me find Shaula?! Don't you want to stop her?" mio: of course we do. Meme: "..." *shaking* mio:...*hugs* Meme: *shaking still* mio: we'll find her, ok? Meme: *nods* tsugumi: *looks at anya* Anya: "..." *sighs* "I'm sorry...You know we want to stop her, right?" Meme: "...Yeah." tsugumi:...*small smile* Meme: "..." *crying* mio: *hugs her tightly* ao: .... -elsewhere- oguri: *whistling, walking past ivan's room....the door is open?* hm? Ivan: <Is it good, master~?> oguri: ??? *peeeks* .___o ?!?! Ivan: *has a Fyodor doll* =w= oguri: *SWEATS* *backing away and fast walking away* Ivan: "Hee hee..." <So cute...> Adam: *walking from the other way towards Oguri* oguri: dont go in there, just trust me on this. lydia: i wouldnt go into the nurse's room either. *whispers* she's wearing one of his cloaks and spare hat's....and it's all she's wearing -__-; oguri:.... .///.; lydia: D8< oguri: i wasnt thinking anything weird! Adam: "??? 'Weird' like an elephant in a funny hat?" lydia + oguri: ... zoey: *soft moan as she sniffs the cloak* Adam: "??? Sounds like a dying giraffe..." oguri: *cringes* well there goes _my_ libido for the week. Ivan: *soft murmurs and kissy noises* lydia: -____-;;; -elsewhere- Fyodor: *shudders, rattling his chains* guard: oi! keep it down in there! Fyodor: ._. <It's not my fault I felt a shiver up my spine...> guard: ?? Fyodor: "...I feel cold." -elsewhere- katya: *shudder* pushkin: ?? katya: <vachenka's being weird somewhere.> pushkin: <yikes> *The door breaks open* Motojiro: "Someone say something about weird stuff?!" katya: HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT, SKII-MASK?! Motojiro: *holds up--* "A translator! I heard you say 'The kumquats are being weird.'" katya:.......................................................................................................what. pushkin: *siiiiiigh* Motojiro: "...Well, it wasn't lemons being weird, right? That's just goofy." pushkin: *awkwardly laughs and backs up* ^^;;; Motojiro: "Want to talk about science for 4 hours? I got a PowerPoint all set up?" katya: dont you have any other hobbies? Motojiro: "...Want to talk theater?" katya: that's more lev's style. Motojiro: "..." =w= -elsewhere- Black Star: "Zzz..." tsubaki: *looking out the plane window* ... {Magaki: <Will I be abandoned when we arrive?>} {tsubaki: *she shakes her head* <you'll stay in DWMA custody for a while, and after you're let go, we'll take you in.>} {Magaki: <...> *nods* <I don't know that I believe you entirely...>} {tsubaki: <and i dont know how to convince you...>} {Magaki: <...Visit?>} {tsubaki: <ok. i will.> *smiles*} tsubaki: .... Black Star: *stretches* "...You okay?" tsubaki: *nod* y-yeah Black Star: "..." *holds her hand* tsubaki: t-thanks. Black Star: *nods* "Any time..." -elsewhere- Poe: *writing* karl: *snoozing* Poe: *pet pet* karl: =w= -elsewhere- lydia:.....it's strange. Adam: "???" lydia: oguri's only been interacting with the rest of us recently... Ivan: "Should we speak to him?" lydia: i mean, he's only started talking to the rest of us after arriving to the new base. yana: yeah, back at the mines, he just stayed in his room the whole time. though at that time, he was the new guy, so.... Ivan: "He seemed really focused on his tasks..." oguri: gossiping about me i see? Ivan: OwO "N-No?" oguri:...carry on then. *walking off* Ivan: "???" lydia:....maybe discuss this some other time. Ivan: "...If we delay asking him..." lydia: a good plan... Ivan: "...Okay. Well...I suppose I should prep some tea. That may help..." yana: <good call> Ivan: *walks by Zoey's room* zoey: *asleep, still wearing the coat and hat* Ivan: *Excalibur face* <Cow.> zoey: =w= Ivan: "..." *closes the door--with a loud slam* zoey: !! .... *lays back down, rubbing her stomach* Ivan: ("Hope that parasite swallows her up...") -elsewhere- Emine: *sitting in the corner with a sign: "I will not steal from the mafia"* -3- -elsewhere- Anya: *grumbles* EF: *hands her a crepe* here. Anya: "..." *angry nom* =n= EF:....im sure meme didnt mean what she said... Anya: "...Still annoying. She knows I value some respect..." EF: ..... Anya: "...Your silence is very judgy." -3- "I'm sorry for getting upset with her..." EF: maybe apologizing to her directly? Anya: "..." >\\\\> "F-Fine...Where's Meme?" -elsewhere- Kid: "Better?" stocking:....y-yeah.... Kid: "..." *hug* stocking: just having a bad day...remembering bad things.... Kid: *nods* "Want to talk or just sit?" stocking: can you rub my back and comfort me? Kid: "Yes." *small, soft rub along her back* stocking: *hugs him, whimpering slightly* Kid: *light humming as he rubs a bit wider* stocking: .....i love you kid. Kid: "I love you, Stocking." *rests his chin on her shoulder* stocking: mmm..... Kid: *continues rubbing along her back, hums* -elsewhere- Benimaru: "Good day." kirei: *she nods, smiling* Benimaru: "..." *pats her hand* kirei: ^^ Benimaru: "...Have you wanted to travel?" kirei: at the moment? Benimaru: "Sure. Or before." kirei: it never really crossed me mind to be honest. ^^; Benimaru: "Hmm...Obligations have kept me here more often." kirei: ah. Benimaru: "...Maybe that'll change." kirei: perhaps. if we find some free time, maybe we could see other parts of the city? Benimaru: *nods* "I will schedule it..." -elsewhere- Vulcan: *napping in bed* "Zzz..." lisa: zzzz Vulcan: *rests an arm around her waist* lisa: mmm... Vulcan: *small kiss on the back of her neck* lisa: =///= Vulcan: *yawn* "Love you, beautiful..." lisa: love you too, vul... Vulcan: =w= *cuddles, pulling the blanket over them* -elsewhere- Meme: *head buried in pillow* mio: meme? Meme: *groans* mio:...*holds her hand* Meme: "..." *small sob sound* mio:....*small hand kiss* Meme: "Th-Thanks..." mio: any time. Meme: *sits up, wipes her eyes* "...I'm sorry." mio: *hugs her* Meme: *small sob, hugs her back* -elsewhere- ranpo: im hoooome! fukuzawa: welcome back. tanizaki came over to make dinner. Tanizaki: *waves* "How did your day go?" ranpo: visited poe, got cake, it was good. Tanizaki: "...Glad you got your priorities straight..." ^^; maria: *clings to his arm* i wish i could have gone too. >3< Tanizaki: ._. ranpo: is that weirdo mafia boss still here? fukuzawa:....*excalibur* alas...yes. Tanizaki: >_> "He is playing with dolls." ranpo: yikes. fukuzawa: -_-; *actually had to buy dolls today* -elsewhere- Belkia: "How was the trip?" tsubaki: hectic...*lays on the couch* Belkia: "Ah...Well, you can nap if you want. Simpleton and his kitty made sure I didn't blow up the house this time." -elsewhere- Kepuri: *yawns, opens her eyes, stretches* "Mmm..." *looks around* "??? What did I miss?" akaderu: job reviewing, hipster kappas, mafiosos, stuff like that. Kepuri: "...So, typical?" *leans against Akaderu* akaderu: more or less, yeah. Kepuri: "And your job prospects?" akaderu: not sure yet. Kepuri: *nods* "Maybe there's some low-priority work...Maybe the school?" -elsewhere- Chuuya: *yawns* =_= mito: *kitty yawn* Chuuya: "Long day for you, too?" *scratch scratch* mito: *purrs* Chuuya: *yawns* *lies down, nestling Mito* "Just lie down for a bit..." mito: =w= Chuuya: "Zzz..." -elsewhere- Denki: *collapsed on the floor--still doing his gestures from brain-frying* jirou: who's taking him to the nurse NOT IT. Mineta: "NOT IT!" Kouda: *sign language* <*Not it.*> sero: not- dangit. Denki: o3o *groovy movements* Kouda: ._. "???" sero: *carries him with tape* come on, lets get you to the nurse. Denki: "Boogie oogie fever--" *chants* "Woo woo..." jirou: how he's still alive is a mystery. Kouda: *nod nod* Mineta: "Determination." jirou: .... Denki: "Zzz..." =w= -morning, there was a lot of snow- Kid: *yawns...looks outside* "...Wow..." stocking: we're totally snowed in. Kid: "Yep...Guess no time to go out for supplies..." stocking: and plenty of time to snuggle by the fireplace~ Kid: "With hot cocoa?" *cuddles* stocking: yes please~ Kid: *small laugh* "I made sure to get more of the tiny marshmallows...and we got a big blanket." -elsewhere- tomura: *grumbling* Kurogiri: "Even snow gets on your nerves?" tomura: too cold. and everyone keeps going on about that hero killer still! if i hear one more word of it, im going to snap.... Kurogiri: -_-; "Well, I have to put on some cartoons, so--" *turns on the TV* commercal: -built to get the tough stains out- tomura: *SCREAMS and disintegrates the TV* IT'S NOT FAIR! ITSNOTFAIRITSNOTFAIRITSNOTFAIR!!! *punching the floor and crying* Kurogiri: .______.;;; "...Shigaraki? Sweetie?" tomura: IM GONNA RIP MY HAIR OUT AND KILL SOMETHING!! Kurogiri: *makes a list* "Well, there are a few targets to run by the boss--" tomura: *fetal position and sobbing* Kurogiri: "...Oh, this is serious...Um...Buddy? It'll be...I mean...You want some ice cream?" dabi:....that was fucked up. even for our standards. himiko: he just needs a hug dabi: you want to risk being disintegrated by a tantruming manchild? be my guest himiko: like in beauty and the beast? OwO dabi:....why did i fuck you again? mr compress: because you have impulsive sexual urges dabi: -_-# thank you harry hindsight. -elsewhere- Relan: *shiny eyes* "So much snow..." shinra: OwO Relan: "Snow people! Sledding! And snow--" *SPLAT* Arthur: *smirks, tossing another snowball* shinra: oh it is on. -elsewhere- Motojiro: *puts on a record* =w= *sips his tea, opens his window--* ayako: *nomming on cake* ^u^ Motojiro: "Good morning, you beautiful snowy scene!" *takes up a slice of lemon cake* "What awaits us today--" *SPLAT* ayako: WE'RE UNDER ATTACK!! *throws lemon bombs at the attacker* Gin: *at the street level, holding a snowball, staring at the bomb that dropped at her feet* "...Well, fu--" katya: *10 seconds* *kicks the lemons away from them* *BOOM* Motojiro: OwO "...I'm gonna get punished now..." -elsewhere- Lucy: *building a Snow-Anne* aya: *in her snow fort* Tanizaki: *behind the fort, putting together snowballs* Katai: *builds a snow-futon* atsushi: *looks at kyouka and kenji* ok, here's the plan. kenji will act as diversion while kyouka goes in for the target. kenji: aye-aye! Kyouka: *nods* "I am ready." -elsewhere- Ivan: *opens the dumbwaiter* lydia: <find anything?> Ivan: *scrunches his face* <Rats and old food...> lydia:...<like us then?> Ivan: <The furry kind with big teeth...> lydia: <i know. it was supposed to be a joke.> Ivan: <...Ha.> lydia:.... <we should keep looking...> Ivan: *opens another door* <Closet.> lydia: ....<at least the structure's still standing...> Ivan: *light bulb* <I can put a shrine to Master in here~> lydia: <whatever floats your boat, i guess> Ivan: *already taking measurements of the closet* -elsewhere- Anya: "...This...may get in the way of some tasks today." ao: maybe watch some christmas movies? mio: it's January. Anya: "THAT'S CLOSE ENOUGH!" >w< tsugumi: yeah! Meme: "..." *sits down, hugs a pillow* mio:....*hugs* Meme: "..." *leans against her shoulder* -elsewhere- Todoroki: *has already created an outdoor museum of ice sculptures* ochako: neato! momo: wow... Iida: *starts to clap* "Bravo! BRAV--" Todoroki: *carefully takes Iida's good hand, puts a finger over his own lips* "Shh. They are delicate to loud sounds--* *BOOM* ochako: 0-0; Bakugo: "GET BACK HERE, YOU STALKER!" Monoma: *blasting ahead* "Not likely~" Todoroki: "..." *charges up a flame* -elsewhere- Fitzgerald: "That will be $5 for the sled, $7 for the one with jingle bells..." *standing at top of hill with a stand: "Sleds"* jack: thank you sir. what do we say, julie? julie: thanks! ^^ Fitzgerald: "You're welcome. Be careful going down the hill--some employees are at play." Daisy: *making a snowman--out of Jordan* jordan: *nomming a carrot* Mr. Tsubaki: ._.;;; -elsewhere- Assi: *screaming as he descends a hill on a snowboard* mono: -.-; Zuno: *effortlessly skiing* =u= "So peaceful, so swift..." *opens his eyes* "...Who am I again?" nea: ZUNO, THERE'S A TREE! Zuno: "Oh, right! I'm a tree! And there's my family!" *opens his arms as he approaches the tree* "Time to hug the family tree!" nea:....*pinches nose* -_-; Assi: o_o; *tackles Zuno* "Zuno, no!" Zuno: "Umph!" *Assi and Zuno roll down the hill--forming a giant snow boulder that keeps going down...* -elsewhere- Jacqueline: "Warm?" kim: =////= Jacqueline: ^\\\^ *nuzzle* -elsewhere- Poe: *lying in the snow, arms by his sides* "...Have I made a snow angel yet?" lana: you're almost there. here, like this. *demonstrating* Poe: "..." *spreads his arms* " 'Kay? Is this good?" lana: see? you're getting it. ^^ Poe: .\\\w\\\. "Yay..." lana: *giggles and kisses his nose* Poe: >\\u\\< "Hee hee..." -elsewhere- Akutagawa: *standing alone in an alley* naoya: there you are. Akutagawa: "Yes. Hello" naoya: you ok? Akutagawa: *grunts* "It's cold and snowy." naoya:....hungry? Akutagawa: "..." *nods* naoya: ok then. anywhere you have in mind? Akutagawa: "...Ramen?" naoya: sounds good. and i know a pretty good place for it too. Akutagawa: "Good. Okay..." *walks with her* "...What have you been doing today?" naoya: not much. Akutagawa: "...No missions? I would imagine some opponents would use the snow as cover." naoya: too much snow. Akutagawa: "Hmm. Maybe they will freeze to death." -elsewhere- Kunikida: *staring outside at the snow* guard: *walking along* Kunikida: *sighs* ("Quiet...") -fyodor's cell- Fyodor: *humming* ….. <The white snow is gorgeous--when a little color is added to it...> -footsteps are heard. it seems a new guard is starting work here.- guard: *she looks around* Fyodor: "???" guard: what's with him? he's all chained up like an animal... Fyodor: "I prefer to think I'm more human than animal..." guard: ._.; *she looks to the older guard for an answer* Guard 2: "Ignore him. The man is insane..." guard: ._.;;; n-noted, sir! *salutes, with the wrong hand* Fyodor: "Wrong hand~" Guard 2: -_-# guard: s-sorry, sir! im still learning. ^^;; Guard 2: "Right, right--dismissed." guard: understood. -seems her nametag reads 'Erina'- Fyodor: " 'Erina'? Hmm...'Blessing'?" erina: *small blush* um- i-it's gaelic for ireland apparently, even though im only partially irish on my mum's side of the family- Fyodor: "Hmm. In Arabic it also means 'Beautiful lady.'" erina: *blushing* b-beautiful? me? Fyodor: *smiles* "I'm just explaining what your name can mean, dear." erina: um...i-i see... .////.; Fyodor: "Good luck acclimating to this new environment." erina: y-yessir! *walks off* >///<;; Fyodor: *hums again* -elsewhere- zoey: *asleep* {Fyodor: "You are okay?"} {zoey: *panting on the floor, with whip marks along her back and thighs* y-yes...} {Fyodor: "...You know why I must do this?"} {zoey: a-as long as i c-can please you...} {Fyodor: "Correct...This is to instill discipline..." *traces a finger along one whip mark*} {zoey: *soft moan*} {Fyodor: *lies atop her*} {zoey: *blushing, with heart pupils as her breathing becomes faster*} {Fyodor: "Oh? Excited already?" *light grind against her*} zoey: =////= *rubbing against a pillow, sniffing his cloak* master <3 *knock knock* zoey: the door's open. Q: *alert, staring at the door* Adam: *pokes his head in* "Dinner will be ready..." zoey: alright. thank you. Adam: *nods* *looks at Q* "...You want dessert tonight?" Q: yes please. ^u^ Adam: *nods* "I will set it out after your finish your vegetables." Q: >3< -elsewhere- leo: ... Kouyou: *sips wine* leo: do you need me to run any errands for you? Kouyou: "The snow is coming down rather hard...I think we will need blankets." leo: understood. and groceries? Kouyou: "Hmm...Order those." leo: very well...... Kouyou: "And put on that coat." leo: understood. thank you again. *she puts it on as well as some boots and a hat* i'll be back soon. Kouyou: *nods* "Also, take protection..." leo: *has a knife* understood. Kouyou: *smiles* "Good girl." -elsewhere- Shamrock: *shivering* himawari: *gives him a blanket* Shamrock: "Th-Thanks...So cold today..." -elsewhere- Patty: *roasting potatoes* liz: *nom* Patty: "Better in the cold!" *nom nom* "Butter!" *grabs some* Wes: *nom nom* -elsewhere- oscar: *taking a bath in a spring* *humming* Steinbeck: *checking his book against plants* twain: *resting in a tree* this is the life. Steinbeck: "Be more useful if you helped me find the food..." twain: you got it! *looking around* Steinbeck: "Careful of the berries and--" *looks around* "...Where did the rest go?" baum: present! dorothy: yo. ebie: *hanging upside down via spiderwebs* here! Hemingway: *leaps out of the water--covered in piranhas* oscar: doesnt that hurt, earny? Hemingway: "I've built an immunity--and lost most feeling in my skin from sunburns." oscar: ._.; baum: who here is our medic again? emily: i got it. twain: HOLYSHITONASTICK. baum: i seriously forgot you were here. emily: ^-^; Hemingway: "Oh, I'll be alright. I just need some orange juice for the blood loss and some rum to numb the pain. Mix them together and you get a damn fine drink!" -elsewhere- Tanizaki: *buried in snow* kenji: sorry. ^^; Tanizaki: *muffled gasps* naomi: *digging him out with her hands* hang on, bro! D8> Tanizaki: *gasping* kirako: you alright? Tanizaki: *waves* "F-Fine..." *coughs up a snowball* aya: wait shouldnt the snow have melted in his mouth? kirako: he was just buried... aya: oh. naomi: im just glad he didnt suffocate! Tanizaki: *collapses back into the snow* @~@ atsushi: *sweatdrop as he pulls dazai from out of the snow* Dazai: *he's encased in ice* atsushi: D8> -FWOOOOM- shinra: g-g-got im! Dazai: OwO;;; *his shoulder is on fire* "..." atsushi:...*puts some snow on it* Dazai: "Thank you..." *waves at Shinra* "WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO BURN ME TO DEATH?!" shinra: um.....im afraid im not able to do that, sir. atsushi: *chop* bad dazai. you said no suicide attempts during kirako's pregnancy. Dazai: -3- "I know..." atsushi: *sighs* (i hope we can bail kunikida out soon...) Lucy: "Get inside, everyone! We got hot chocolate!" *spots Shinra, waves* shinra: *nods* atsushi: say you're kusakabe, right? shinra: yeah. atsushi: wanna join us for hot cocoa? shinra: i'll have to ask my commander first. Akitaru: *pops out of the snow* "Someone say 'hot chocolate'?" shinra:....you know what, im not even going to ask. sure. Akitaru: "Yay!" *climbs out of the snow, dragging a frozen Takehisa behind him* -elsewhere- Yohei: *holding Toru* "...Did we bundle him enough?" toru: burr. Yohei: "Hmm...I don't think he's too happy about it..." chie: its ok sweetie. toru: =3= Yohei: "It's for your own good--can't have you catch a cold." -elsewhere- Black Star: *shuddering* "C-C-Cold..." naho: join us under the kotatsu. i got pokemooon. Black Star: *dives under* "P-Polar bear diving was a mistake..." Sakuya: *rolls his eyes, playing his game* tsubaki: *gives him one of her sweaters* Black Star: *pulls it on* "Th-Thanks..." -elsewhere- Kid: *sips hot chocolate* shiori: *snoozing* Kid: *smiles, sets down his drink, whispers* "Time to put her to bed..." lord death: *picks her up and places her in her crib, kissing her forehead* shiori: =w= Yumi: *tucks her in* "Sleep well, sweetie..." -elsewhere- Kunikida: *curled up* -silence- Kunikida: "..." *marks again on the wall* ???: doppo... Kunikida: "...???" -a ghostly figure appears and crawls onto him....it's nobuko?- nobuko: doppo~.... Kunikida: "!!!" *tries to pull back--* nobuko: its so cold, doppo....im so lonely... Kunikida: "Stop it--Stop it! You're not here..." nobuko: it's so lonely. *her eyes are completely black, crying some inky fluid* Kunikida: !!!! nobuko: *her face is inches from his. and she opens her mouth unnaturally wide to scream, but all that comes out is loud static* Kunikida: "No!" *pulls back his hand before pushing it at her jaw, ready to slam it shut--* -nothing's there- Kunikida: "..." *pants* -elsewhere- Hiro: [how u holding up?] EF: [been busy] Hiro: [snow got up your way too, huh?] EF: [yeah] Hiro: [how u all been passing time?] EF: [watching movies] Hiro: [snowball fight. in the face.] EF: [u ok?] Hiro: [ice ironically is helping the swelling ^^; ] -elsewhere- Todoroki: *sighs* *rubs his hands* fuyumi: you ok? Todoroki: "Surprisingly cold..." fuyumi: i'll get some hot cocoa Todoroki: "Thanks..." *looks out the window* -the snow fall seems lighter now- Todoroki: "Maybe this blizzard will subside..." -elsewhere- No Might: *wraps scarf more tightly around him* *shivers* inko: *walking with izuku* Izuku: "--and then he slid across the street--and up the building! It was incred--" *spots No Might* owo;;;;; No Might: .___________.;;;;;;; inko: *nods to him, smiling* No Might: *nods* ("KEEP WALKING, KEEP WALKING--") Izuku: OwO;;;;; No Might: *crashes into a light post* inko: oh goodness, are you alright? No Might: *bleeding from his mouth* "Just fine, ma'am!" inko: do you need a doctor?? No Might: "N-Nah! Happens all the time! Just need to take my medicine..." -elsewhere- Akutagawa: *slurp* naoya: tastes good, ya? Akutagawa: *nods* "Good broth..." naoya: glad to hear. ^^ -elsewhere- shinra:.....*anxious* Relan: "...Shinra? Did you hear me?" shinra: !! oh, h-hey rel. *wipes his eyes, smiling* Relan: "..." *holds his hand* shinra:....i-i keep having dreams about her....i-i-im scared she's going to hurt me....im too scared to sleep. Relan: "...I wish I could stop them..." shinra: *buries his face in his chest, whimpering* Relan: *strokes his head* "..." shinra: *sniffle* Relan: "You're safe here..." shinra: t-thanks... Relan: *nods* "You're welcome...I'll be here, as long as you need..." shinra:...c-can you sleep in here tonight? Relan: *nods* -elsewhere- yana: *fiddling with a pen* .... *There are papers and maps in front of her* yana: *examining*..... *sigh* <bored...> *Some of the wallpaper in the room is torn* yana: .... *small yawn* {Fyodor: <Keep the others on their toes.>} yana: ..... (how can i do that, when i can barely keep awake?.....) *There is a blanket on the bed...It looks more comfortable than to be expected for this hotel* yana:.... *prods at it, making sure it's actually usable* *The bed stays up* yana:....*checking for any abnormalities, like needles and such* *Nothing--there's just a pillow and sheets with a blanket* yana:....*removes cloak, little crown, and boots and lays in bed, falling asleep instantly* *Images appear of two people...* yana: *shuffling in her sleep* lydia: .... *puts the cloak over her* {Fyodor: *intense stare*} {Anya: *concerned look*} {yana: what's.....going on? a dream?} {Fyodor: <Have you completed what I wish?>} {yana:....<been getting there.>} {Fyodor: <Not quickly enough.>} lydia:.....she's shaking badly, ivan... Ivan: "???!" {Anya: *hug*} yana: *eyes open*...wha? lydia: are you alright? yana: fine..... Ivan: "..." *puts a hand on her forehead* yana: ivan what the heck- Ivan: "You don't have a temperature..." yana: im fine, im not a baby. =3=; Ivan: "But you have widdle baby cheeks." ^^ yana:.......*completely unamused* riiiiight. thanks, i reeeally appreciate that, gonch. Ivan: <You're welcome.> lydia: ... <in any case> you really should eat something. yana: what are you, my mom? Ivan: <I would say 'no.'> yana: it was sarcasm, ivan. lydia: you really should look after yourself. you've been working non-stop since we arrived. Ivan: <Delegate.> yana:....maybe.....*picks up the crown and examines it* Ivan: <...Shiny.> yana: for the aesthetic, i guess. lydia: didnt you buy it at a costume shop? yana: yeah. the cape's one of fyodor's though. Ivan: OwO;;;; yana:...what? Ivan: "May I smell it?" yana: ...... lydia: *nose pinch* -_-; yana: sure....go nuts...just not too nuts. (maybe i shouldnt tell him the shirt is fyodor's too, that would be too weird.) Ivan: =w= <Thank you, oh glorious leader, spawn of our other glorious leader...> yana: *sweatdrops* Ivan: *laughing giddily to himself as he departs the room...* yana: i honestly dont know about that one. -elsewhere- Meme: *curled up in bed* "..." mio: ..... Meme: "..." *whimper* -elsewhere- Ogun: "How long can one man stay in there?" student: maybe he's asleep. Ogun: "Could be...Need something loud to get his attention--" pan: *WHISTLING* Ogun: *covers his ears* "Y-Yeah, that's plenty loud..." -morning- Kid: *stretches* stocking: *yaaawn* Kid: "Good morning, beautiful." stocking: *sitting on his lap* hello~ Kid: ^\\\\^ "Sleep well?" *kisses her cheek* -elsewhere- Akitaru: *sets out a tall stack of pancakes* shinra: yesssss Arthur: "I want mine in the shape of a castle." -elsewhere- Chuuya: *hands Sonia her mittens* "Almost ready?" sonia: *nod nod* Chuuya: "Okay. We'll head to the store and back for food..." *opens the door, steps into the hallway* sonia: *following him* Chuuya: "Want any treats while we're there?" -elsewhere- Fitzgerald: "--and for one-fifth the price of Rolexes sold in major stores! See? I can be an economical consumer!" louisa:....(should i tell him?) Fitzgerald: *shiny eyes--then all the color fades out of his face...and skin...and suit* "..." louisa:....sir?.....*backs up* sir? Fitzgerald: "...What is a 'Folex'?" bram: it means you got ripped off. Fitzgerald: "..." *reaches into his wallet, pulls out $500* "This should about do it..." -elsewhere- Anya: "--and they have free-roaming bison!" Meme: "..." tsugumi: ^^;..... *looks out the window* shaula:....*walking along* tsugumi: !!! Anya: *still reading brochures* tsugumi: it's her! for real this time! Meme: "!!! Mio!" mio: on it! *hammer-axe mode* EF: O-O h-hey- Meme: *kicks open the door* EF: D8> Meme: *runs out to where she spotted Shaula* shaula:... *smirks and runs into an alley* tsugumi:...come on! we have to go after them! Meme: *following* ("Don't give her a sense where I'm going, what I'm going to do--except to feel my absolute desire for her death!") Anya: "Right!" ao: understood. *follows tsugumi* Meme: ("She's cornered...But she can leap high...Mio...Get ready for my jump!") mio: [you got it!] shaula: *heading into an empty warehouse* Meme: "...NOW!" *leaps* "HUAAAAAA!" shaula: *stinger block* well, look what came crawling back! Meme: *angry smile as she continues to press her weapon in an attempt to break the block* "Not crawling...Standing..." -CLANG CLANG SLASH- shaula: i got to say, there's a fire in your eyes, meme...you want something from me, dont you? Meme: "Keep at it, Mio!" *SLAM* "We're going to get it from her...I want to know where they are!" shaula: they? hmmm, what could you mean by that meemers? i've been around sooo many years, its hard to keep track of all the lives ive ruined, lol~ mio: *jawdrop* [did she seriously just say 'lol'?] Meme: *not even influenced, swings at Shaula's head* shaula: tsk- tsk-, is this any way to treat the one who raised you? so ungrateful... Meme: "YOU DIDN'T!" *holds Mio with just one hand--and swings her fist at Shaula's jaw* shaula: grk-.... you outten't have done that~ *wraps her stinger around meme's leg, throwing her into the wall* Meme: "AAAaaaah--" *CRASH, CRACK* mio: MEME!! Meme: *she's not moving* shaula: wait a sec....oh NOW i get it.... *baby talk* you wants to knows about mommy and daddy, dont yews? Meme: *groans, trying to push herself up* mio: BITCH!! *charges at her with an axe arm* shaula: *grabs her wrist, twisting it* mio: AHHHH!!!! Meme: *bolts up* "Mio! No!" shaula: you want to know what happened to your parents? well i'd be happy to...... NOT tell you~ ^u^ Meme: "Let her go!" shaula: i wonder, how she'll react to the venom~ Meme: "!!!" *a burst of energy flows through her as she runs at Shaula--and trips, falling, pain shooting through her back* "Mio..." *crying* mio: *wince* Meme: "I can't..." ???: "Royal Lance!" shaula: ?? *drops mio and dodges* mio: ah....meme! *runs over to her* tsugumi: oh no you dont! Meme: "Mio..." mio: are you ok? Meme: *can't speak, just shaking* Anya: "The right!" tsugumi: roger! shaula: *dodging* Anya: "Again!" -SLASH SLASH- Anya: "Once more--the wall behind her!" -BOOOOM- shaula: !! SCORPION-SCISSORS! *The wall is collapsing* mio: !!! *holds meme tight* -RUMBLE- mio: !!!...w-wha... Meme: "???" -part of the floor is elevated to keep the rubble from falling on them- Meme: "How..." mio: so that's my elemental alignment, eh?....kickass. Meme: "...Mio..." mio:...ready to kick this witch's ass? Meme: "..." *holds out her hand* mio: *takes her hand* tsugumi: HYAH! shaula: *SLASH* ao: *on the upper level* Meme: *stands, holding her weapon--and aims for Shaula's head* mio: [i have a plan, slam the hammer to the ground] Meme: "??? ..." Right. *walks slowly...before starting to jog and eventually run* ao: *holding tsugumi, who has scythe blade increased* ~MIDORI NO KAZE~ *slashes, sending little wind slices at shaula* shaula: *sliced a bit, but still standing* URK- you little shits! mio: NOW! Meme: *lifts up her weapon and--drops the hammer* ~TERRA SPIKE~ -a line of spikes shoots out of the ground, heading towards shaula, stabbing her limbs- shaula: *SCREAMS* Meme: *pants, leaning against her weapon* "Now then..." *looks up* "You know the question I have..." shaula: alright, jeez....what do you want to know? im not exactly g-going anywhere, haha ow, hurts to laugh. Meme: "...My parents." shaula: oh right....they're dead. Meme: "!!!" shaula: what can i say, i needed an infant for my plan, and its their own fault for being in the right place at the right time. Meme: "..." *clenches her fists, shaking* tsugumi: you.....DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE BUT YOURSELF?! shaula: ah? Anya: "Selfish! Deplorable! Wicked! Evil!" shaula: please, do ahead, i've heard them all before. Anya: "SNIVELING COLD-HEARTED BITCH WITH UGLY HAIR!" shaula: *yawns* Anya: "AND YOU SUCK AT VIDEO GAMES!" shaula: YOU WANNA FUCKING GO BETCH!?!? ao: i see why you're the least favorite. shaula: *crying* YOU KEEP MY MOTHER OUT OF THIS! Meme: "SHUT UP!" shaula: !!... Meme: "...Tell me...Who were they?" shaula:...very well. Jirou Kozuki, physics professor. Asuka Tatane, university student. Meme: "...What were they like?" shaula: hell if i care, but they must have loved you, being willing to try fighting me off to protect you... Meme: "...They died...to protect me...Why did you want me?" shaula: i needed a child to raise for my plans, and i didnt want to knock myself up. so why not just take someone else's kid? like i said, you were in the right place at the right time. Meme: "For what purpose?! What plan?!!" shaula: remember the death city invasions with the traitors? you were a vital pawn for both plans. the first you were a trainee soldier, the second you were my spy. but then you had to go and betray me. Meme: " 'Betray'...Betray? I owe you nothing!" shaula: HA! everything you have now...it's all thanks to me....so you better appreciate it~ Meme: "...There's one thing I have that I don't owe to you..." *picks up Mio in weapon form* shaula: ah? Meme: *lifts Mio and holds it over Shaula's head before bringing the weapon down--* shaula: !!!!! -slice- shaula: *SHRIEKS as her ponytail is cut off* Meme: "..." -the ponytail twitches violently...before stopping- tsugumi:....................holy shit. Anya: ._.; ao: oh my~ *claps* mio:....get. rekt. Meme: *still holds Mio* "Ugly witch..." ao: so do we just leave her here? Meme: *shakes her head* "We have to get her back to Death City...This witch is too dangerous." tsugumi: right. -and so- Anya: *looking around* EF: THERE YOU GIRLS ARE! I WAS LOOKING EVERYWHERE FOR YOU AND WHEN THE DWMA SENT-......what's that? tsugumi: *holding the braid, which now has a ribbon tied to it* war trophy. Anya: -_-; EF:........*JAWDROPS SO HARD SHE BREAKS THE SIDEWALK* Anya: "!!! H-How did you..." EF: HOW DID YOU EVEN- ao: dont question it too much, princess, you'll hurt yourself~ ^^ Meme: "..." *bows to Eternal Feather* "I'm sorry to have worried you." EF:...*sigh* at least you weren’t hurt too badly... Anya: "And we took care of one problem..." EF: y-you-YOU DONT MEAN- shaula: *THRASHING AGAINST THE RESTRAINTS. she's all tied like hannibal lector* -at medusa's house- neian: bu? Medusa: "..." *contented sigh* =w= -elsewhere- arachne:...seems good things can happen after all. Giriko: "???" -elsewhere- Fyodor: *whistling* erina: *by the door, keeping guard* Fyodor: *humming...lightly singing* erina: *nervous* Fyodor: *singing* <Sometimes we pretend we do, just for show...> erina: i dont recognize that one. Fyodor: *smiles* "Old love song from back home." erina:.... .////. i see.... Fyodor: "It's a favorite of mine. I particularly like how it rises..." erina: y-yeah...*awkward shuffling* do you...have anyone you like? Fyodor: "Maybe~" erina: *awkward laugh*... ./////////.;;;; Fyodor: *smiles, returns to humming* -elsewhere- Lucy: *picking up bowls* "...Oh. You." mahiru: ^^; Kuro: *slurp* Lucy: "..." *looks at Mahiru* "Do you need a refill?" -elsewhere- Daisy: *holding an ice pack to her head* -_-# louisa: rough night? Daisy: "I tried to drink away the night--and hit my head." louisa: oh goodness... ._.; Daisy: "And while out, I lost my car keys, so I had to take the bus to work..." louisa: i think they're still on your desk. ^^; Daisy: "..." *loud annoyed sigh* *Suddenly, singing is heard coming up the hallway* ???: "Oh what a beautiful morning..." louisa: *peek* Zuno: "Oh what a beautiful day--" *spots Louisa* "Oh! I got your mail..." *it's addressed to "Louis Fine"* louisa: um...thanks..... (i'll get this to him asap) -elsewhere- Kuro: *in cat form...with a cloth lion mane on him* "...I do this for show and tell in class, and you promise ramen, right?" mahiru: yes, kuro. Kuro: "..." *inhales* "Let me get into character..." *half-hearted 'roar'* "..." *nods* "Okay. Let's do this." -elsewhere- Black Star: *staring at a photo of him and Sid when he was a baby* naho: awwww, you had such squishy cheeks! Black Star: >_< "You're darn right I was adorable..." tsubaki: *chuckle* lavender: mr barret looks so young here... Higan: “It’s like he had a baby face.” -elsewhere- Kunikida: *shudders* shaula: *glares at kunikida* OH RUB IT ON IN WHY DONT YA?! Kunikida: "??? No, not that. I was...just...You know, nevermind..." Alone: "...It's a new look?" shaula:..... *GLAAAARE* grimoire: ..... Alone: ._.; "...It still looks nice on you, though?" shaula: *pouts* what happened to butter-brat? Alone: "Adopted." shaula: well good for her then! >n< Alone: "Yeah, she's with my dream-frog...AND THAT STUPID UGLY MAN-WOLF!" >_< shaula: thats rough buddy. Alone: *sniff* T~T "This place isn't fun...But at last you're back, Stingy!" shaula:..... Q___Q my poor stinger. Alone: "...It grows back, right?" shaula: TT_TT eventually... Alone: "Well, plenty of time to pass for it to grow back...We could play games?" shaula:.....oi, whats her deal? erina: *sweats* Alone: *shrug* "She guards this really smart but creepy prisoner who speaks Russian." shaula: so? grimoire: i would advise avoiding him. Alone: "Yeah, or he might flirt with you, too..." shaula: pass. Fyodor: <Just as well: I don't sleep with worms.> -elsewhere- Meme: *clenching her hands* "..." mio:.....*holds her* Meme: "..." *sniff, wipes her eyes* mio: we're here for you, ok, meme? Meme: "Th-Thanks...I just can't see how to...get through this..." mio: lets take it a day at a time, ok? Meme: *cries, nods* mio: *kiss* shhh...*rubs her back* Meme: *whimpering* -elsewhere- PlushFix: "So, how many we missing?" hina: two. son of a bitch. PlushFix: "So we lost Flowers and Rent-A-Maid..." mimeca: =3= hina: so now what? PlushFix: "I suggest we release this pent up frustration with some thievery, violence, explosions, and all the usual vices." hina: hell yeah, -elsewhere- Haumea: *staring forward* -________- charon: any news on assault's whereabouts? Haumea: "NO! GOD! WHY DO YOU TALK SO MUCH?!" >_< charon:... i barely said anything... ._.; guruna: kururu....i miss assault. he was easy to deceive. Haumea: T_T "He could do the heavy lifting..." Friz: "He still owes me five dollars..." -elsewhere- Adam: *pulls a five dollar bill out of his pocket* "??? Where did this come from?" oguri: i'll take it if you dont want it~ Adam: Q-Q oguri: *puppy eyes* pwease? im saving for something important. Adam: "What for?" oguri: medical reasons. Adam: "...Of course." *hands him the $5* oguri: thank you~ ^^ *heads to his room* -elsewhere- Kid: *snoozing on the couch* "Zzz..." stocking: *snoozing next to him* Kid: *kitten yawn, hug* stocking: so nice and cozy~ Kid: =w= "Agreed..." *pulls up the blanket* stocking: *purrs* Kid: "Hee hee...Kitten..." *nuzzle* stocking: u/////u <3 Kid: *smooch* stocking: hehehe~ -elsewhere- Joker: *shudders* "Creepy..." ivy: hm? Joker: "N-Nothing...Just remembered something..." ("Creepy woman...") ivy:...hm.... Joker: "..." *shakes as he lights a smoke* -elsewhere- ranpo: ever hear this one story about the human chair? Tanizaki: ._. "...Should I have?" maria: *listening intently* Tanizaki: *listens* ranpo: well, apparently, this creepy guy hid in this lady's chair and stalked her while she sat in it. creepy right? naomi: way creepy! >A<; Tanizaki: .__________.;;;;; "...What the F?" atsushi: D8> Lucy: "...And _how_ did you hear this story? Doesn't sound like one of Edgar's..." ranpo: *licks his lollipop* dont rightly remember. Lucy: -_-# atsushi: *opens mouth to say something, but then shuts up* -elsewhere- Fyodor: =_= erina: *standing guard* Fyodor: <Unfair...> erina: sir? Fyodor: "Hmm? Oh. Sorry. It's nothing...Just a quibble." erina: hmm.... Fyodor: "It's just...I'm not used to being able to speak with someone." erina: ah... Fyodor: "I guess that's not hard for you--you strike me as someone who is an engaged speaker." erina: me? well, in school i did do the morning announcements... Fyodor: "Ah. You must have been very popular." erina: not really, i guess i was fairly average. Fyodor: "...I'm sorry. But I hardly think you're 'average.'" erina: .///. um...t-thanks. Fyodor: "You're welcome. Sometimes, it just takes time, and the right people, to recognize the qualities someone has." erina:...*awkward laugh* .////.;; Fyodor: *small laugh* "...Thank you. I appreciate getting to talk." -elsewhere- Ivan: *asleep--clutching one of Fyodor's cloaks* =w= lydia: .... Ivan: *inhales* *sighs happily* <Master~> lydia:.... *sighs and walks away* (why are you like this, ivan? did fyodor really....?) -elsewhere- Hiro: "That's...eventful." EF: no kidding. Hiro: "At least you're in one piece...Unlike Shaula's hair." EF: *chuckles* Hiro: "Any commendation from Lord Death for a job well done?" EF: most likely. Hiro: "Congrats!" -elsewhere- Dazai: *holding a bucket* "Now be careful stepping onto the ice." *he also has a fishing pole* kenji: ^u^ Kyoka: *carrying the bait* "How will we cut a hole in the ice?" yosano: *chainsaw out* Lucy: ._.; "Won't that scare away the fish?" Kyoka: "Not after we drug the fish." kenji: woah! i got something! *pulls out......!!!* lovecraft: ?? Dazai: "...We're eating fried squid tonight!" >w< Lucy: "..." *grabs the chainsaw, aims it at Dazai* lovecraft: unhand me. i need to hibernate. Kyoka: "In water? You'll freeze to death." Dazai: *shiny eyes* "Freeze...Chainsaw...Freeze or chainsaw..." lovecraft: i've slept in colder waters. Kyoka: "...I think Kenji could still fry him up, too--" Lucy: "CAN YOU NOT?!" lovecraft: ??? hello lucy. Lucy: *smiles* "Hello, Howard." *turns back to Dazai and Kyoka, fire in her eyes* "NO EATING LOVECRAFT!" kenji: ok. ^^ Dazai: T_T "Oh, poo." Kyoka: *shrugs* -elsewhere- Steinbeck: "--then a right at the boulder in the shape of a nose..." twain: *holding the map* Hemingway: *passes around the water* "A nose? Kind of an odd instruction..." oscar: what kind of nose're we talking about here? Steinbeck: ._.;;; "I'm just going off of what the notes say..." *flips through the notes* "Maybe there's a photo of it..." -elsewhere- Mori: "..." *opens a book, following a finger along a map* fukuzawa: ?? *It's a map of Berlin* fukuzawa: are you familiar with the city? Mori: "Maybe...I've read about it." fukuzawa: hmm.... Mori: "...I played there?" fukuzawa: was your hometown nearby? Mori: "...Yes." fukuzawa: do you know where? Mori: "...Nearby. Small." fukuzawa:... hmm... Mori: "...Dad's office..." fukuzawa: *listening* Mori: "...I saw people go in." fukuzawa: ... Mori: *shakes his head* "I dont remember them leaving..." fukuzawa: ........ Mori: "..." *shakes his head* "He told me to go play..." fukuzawa: hmm..... Mori: "...I'd like to nap now." -elsewhere- Iida: *skating along the ice* "...This is enjoyable." mina: WOOT! jirou: .~.;; Iida: *does a spin, landing on one leg with arms out* "Ta-da!" Mineta: *stuck head first to the ice* >_< "Show off..." ochako: *spins a circle around him, causing the part of the ice he is stuck to to sink* Mineta: D:< "RUUUUUUUDE...glub glub glub..." -elsewhere- Motojiro: *flipping through pages, wearing headphones* "Hmm...Mmm-mm..." ayako:....WE HAVE A VISITOR! Motojiro: *not noticing, headphones too loud* =w= "So melodic..." ayako: OK IMMA LET HER IN NOW. Motojiro: "La la la~" leo: motojiro? Motojiro: *spinning in his chair to the music, singing--then spots Leo* OwO;;; *and spins off of the chair to the floor* leo: ah! are you alright? *going over to him, concerned* Motojiro: o\\\\w\\\\o *crab walks back* "Fi-Fi-Fi--" leo: ?? Motojiro: "--ine!" *crashes into the wall* QwQ leo: ._.; Motojiro: QwQ "...TEA! LET ME MAKE YOU SOME TEA!" *stands up, limping to his chemistry set* leo: are you sure you're alright? Motojiro: "Okey-dokey positively am I!" *he has a slight nosebleed* ^w^ leo:.... ^^; .... ah! you're bleeding... *hands him a tissue* Motojiro: "..." *tentatively takes the tissue* "Th-Th-Th-Muchas gracias!" *takes it* leo:... *small chuckle* Motojiro: .\\\\. "Wh-What brings you?" leo: just thought i would check in to see how you were holding up. Motojiro: "Oh, I'm a little down. On the floor." ^^; leo:....*chuckles, then laughs until she's actually crying* Motojiro: "!!! L-Leo?" *holds out a hand* leo: *sniff* s-sorry, i-its been a while since i had a good laugh...*rubs her eyes* Motojiro: "..." *smiles* "Well, glad I could help..." leo: ......*hugs* Motojiro: .\\\\\. "..." *pat pat* "It's okay..." leo: .... Motojiro: "Just...whatever works?" leo: r-right... Motojiro: *smiles* "So...tea?" leo: s-sure... *small smile* Motojiro: "Great..." *The tea has already exploded in his chemistry set* ayako: *covered in soot and wearing her goggles* tea's done! Motojiro: "Delightful!" *cradles a broken cup* "To good health!" -elsewhere- Honenuki: "opens his book* "Okay, onto Exercise 5." tokage: alright! Hiryu: >~< "Too difficult..." yui: *signing* <got it> Honenuki: "See? Just need to practice it. Yui, could you show Hiryu?" yui: *nod nod* Hiryu: ._. "But I showed all my steps...and it still doesn't get the right answer..." yui: <did you try this?> *shows an equation* Hiryu: *looking over it* "..." .____. "...I forgot the 1..." ^^;;; yui: *pap pap* itsuka: *super focused* Honenuki: *looks at Itsuka* "???" ("Really good focus...") pony: 'ey nate, can ya help me wit dis problem here? Monoma: T-T; ("It's Neito...") "Sure..." *looks at the question* "How far you get through it?" -elsewhere- Kyoka: "We're back. We have fish." atsushi: that's gre-..... ._.; um... lovecraft: i was......invited.... Lucy: ^^ "Isn't it great?! Howard is visiting!" atsushi: um.....hello? ^^;;;;; lovecraft: *shakes his hand* hello. atsushi:....f-firm grip..... ^^; Lucy: ^^ Kyoka: "I'll get the plates." *drags a big fish out of the bucket* -elsewhere- Chuuya: "Pasta okay?" sonia: ok papa. Chuuya: "That's good..." *adds some spice to the tomato sauce* "And I hope dessert is good. Just needs a little longer to bake..." sonia: ok. -seems she drew some new pictures today- Chuuya: *lowers the heat on the sauce, looks at her drawings* -a few typical drawings a (physically) 6-year-old girl would draw, such as flowers, kitties, kouyou....and rain- Chuuya: "..." *looks at the drawing of Rain* -she seems to be smiling, with angel wings and a halo with some crayon text that says 'mama'- Chuuya: "..." *sad smile* -elsewhere- Tanizaki: "Honestly, this mess..." *brushes candy wrappers off the desk* kirako: wouldnt kill him to clean up after himself... Tanizaki: "He probably thinks it gets in the way of his deductions..." kirako: why is he like this?... -elsewhere- neian: *baby babble* Medusa: "...Enjoying yourself?" neian: ^o^ *happy babble* Medusa: "Well, that's good..." *picks her up* neian: zzzz Medusa: "..." *soft sway before setting her into her crib* neian: zzzzz Medusa: *tucks her in* "..." ("The future...")…. =w= "Still feel that peace...Hee hee...Poor sister..." -elsewhere- Fyodor: =w= "I don't see what has you so upset..." shaula: I DONT EVEN GET ANY ALCOHOL HERE! AND I WAS BEATEN BY A BUNCH OF PREPUBECANT TWITS! Alone: "...Hey, I'm not judging, but maybe re-phrase the last part?" *is making toilet bowl wine* shaula: ..............................................dude, gross. Alone: "Don't knock it! I cleaned the toilet first! Beggars can't be choosers..." *dips his ladle into the bowl--and it dissolves* ._.;;; shaula:.....eugh..... Fyodor: "Fufufu~" shaula: and what's _your_ beef, fyodorkus? Fyodor: "What? I have no...What is this 'beef'?" *smiles* shaula: its what you get from cows- WHAT'S THE DEAL WITH YOU, CREEPY WEIRDO? Fyodor: "Passing time. Same as anyone." shaula: tch-....what're you in for then? Fyodor: "Accessory to murder, murder, conspiracy, theft, kidnapping, mutilation--I've lost track of the charges." shaula: cool story bro. Fyodor: "I may write it...I'm sure your story is interesting as well. After all, I have long heard about the famous Gorgons..." shaula: oh really? Fyodor: "Yes, the Mother of Weapons Arachne. The mad scientist Medusa. And...the third one." shaula: all you probably know about us is just the legends. Fyodor: "Oh? That's a shame. I guess those stories about your victories in deception were exaggerations, too?" shaula: maybe he does know. Fyodor: *smiles* "I hope, while we have time here together, to hear the truth behind those legends." shaula: *grinch grin* grimoire: but i thought- shaula: grimmy, shut it. im gay as fuck, and am willing to take all the compliments. grimoire:................................. *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh* -_-; Giriko: "Feeling alright?" arachne: i feel like all is alright with the world. malaria: ?? arachne: ^u^ Giriko: "Well, that's super." ^^ -elsewhere- leo: thank you for today. Motojiro: "Of course--I hope it was satisfying." leo:.....*small kiss on the cheek* see you tomorrow then? Motojiro: .\\\\\\. "H-Hum-Humma-Ho-O-Okay..." leo: *smiles and exits*..... (feels warm......) *soft smile* Motojiro: "...Legs...failing. Gravity taking over. Fetch me the pillow..." ayako: *throws pillow in just the right position* Motojiro: *falls onto the pillows* =w= "Zzz..." -elsewhere- Nedzu: *brewing his tea* ^w^ "Now, to review--how is progress?" midnight: we've determined the match-ups. Nedzu: "Goodie!" *reviews the files* "Hmm...Interesting...That'll require setting up the locations...What exactly is a 'Denki'?" -elsewhere- katya: *tapping foot, antsy* Gin: "??? What's with you?" katya: n-need to...need to kill someone....feels like sand.....its all feeling like sand.... *shaking* pushkin: !! <shit-shit!> come on, dont you have prisoners who need executing? anyone?? Gin: "..." ("That's a problem...") "We are currently interrogating..." katya: I NEED TO KILL SOMETHING PLEASE! Gin: "Fine. We have one...I'll take you to them." katya: g-get the big guns out.... -in the cell- Prisoner: Q__Q "I need out..." katya: *has a submachine gun, giggling maniacally* gladly~ *sticks the gun into his mouth.............and opens fire, with a look of pure malicious glee on her face* Prisoner: *in their last moments--a look of despair and then, they are gone, the head now a mess left on the floor, the body left twitching before all functions cease* katya: *panting as she puts the gun down* .........heh......*sigh*......... pushkin: you ok in there, kati? katya:...y-yeah....i feel better now... pushkin: *phew* glad to hear. Gin: "...Holy shit." naoya: jeez, overkill much? katya: well, at least im back to some feeling of reality, so im good.... pushkin: *pap pap* Gin: ._. ("...If that's reality...") katya:...............................im fucking parched. *takes a swig of her flask* ah, good shit.... Gin: "...Go rest." katya: *grunts of 'fine fine'* -elsewhere-

Ouch. Sounds like you're having a tough time max. That sucks. I've been there, so I kinda know what you're talking about. I've been in the ever circling vortex of self doubt, frustration, and loathing. It's no bueno. I know. If you don't mind lemme tell you a couple things. You can read em if you want, read em again later if you feel like it. But honestly man, if I spend all this time typing this out to you and you don't let it be a little tinder for your fire, well, you're just letting us both down. And you don't HAVE to do that. You don't HAVE to do anything. But you get to choose. (Who am I? My name’s Ryan and I live in Canada. Just moved to a new city for a dream job that I got because of the rules below. I owe a lot of my success to people much cooler, kinder, more loving and greater than me. When I get the chance to maybe let a little bit of help out, it’s a way of thanking them. ) Rule numero uno - There are no more zero days. What's a zero day? A zero day is when you don't do a single fucking thing towards whatever dream or goal or want or whatever that you got going on. No more zeros. I'm not saying you gotta bust an essay out everyday, that's not the point. The point I'm trying to make is that you have to make yourself, promise yourself, that the new SYSTEM you live in is a NON-ZERO system. Didnt' do anything all fucking day and it's 11:58 PM? Write one sentence. One pushup. Read one page of that chapter. One. Because one is non zero. You feel me? When you're in the super vortex of being bummed your pattern of behaviour is keeping the vortex goin, that's what you're used to. Turning into productivity ultimate master of the universe doesn't happen from the vortex. It happens from a massive string of CONSISTENT NON ZEROS. That's rule number one. Do not forget. La deuxieme regle - yeah i learnt french. its a canadian thing. please excuse the lack of accent graves, but lemme get into rule number 2. BE GRATEFUL TO THE 3 YOU'S. Uh what? 3 me's? That sounds like mumbo jumbo bullshit. News flash, there are three you's homeslice. There's the past you, the present you, and the future you. If you wanna love someone and have someone love you back, you gotta learn to love yourself, and the 3 you's are the key. Be GRATEFUL to the past you for the positive things you've done. And do favours for the future you like you would for your best bro. Feeling like shit today? Stop a second, think of a good decision you made yesterday. Salad and tuna instead of Big Mac? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Was yesterday a nonzero day because you wrote 200 words (hey, that's all you could muster)? THANK YOU YOUNGER ME. Saved up some coin over time to buy that sweet thing you wanted? THANK YOU. Second part of the 3 me's is you gotta do your future self a favour, just like you would for your best fucking friend (no best friend? you do now. You got 2. It's future and past you). Tired as hell and can't get off reddit/videogames/interwebs? fuck you present self, this one's for future me, i'm gonna rock out p90x Ab Ripper X for 17 minutes. I'm doing this one for future me. Alarm clock goes off and bed is too comfy? fuck you present self, this one's for my best friend, the future me. I'm up and going for a 5 km run (or 25 meter run, it's gotta be non zero). MAKE SURE YOU THANK YOUR OLD SELF for rocking out at the end of every.single.thing. that makes your life better. The cycle of doing something for someone else (future you) and thanking someone for the good in your life (past you) is key to building gratitude and productivity. Do not doubt me. Over time you should spread the gratitude to others who help you on your path. Rule number 3- don't worry i'm gonna too long didnt' read this bad boy at the bottom (get a pencil and piece of paper to write it down. seriously. you physically need to scratch marks on paper) FORGIVE YOURSELF. I mean it. Maybe you got all the know-how, money, ability, strength and talent to do whatever is you wanna do. But lets say you still didn't do it. Now you're giving yourself shit for not doing what you need to, to be who you want to. Heads up champion, being dissapointed in yourself causes you to be less productive. Tried your best to have a nonzero day yesterday and it failed? so what. I forgive you previous self. I forgive you. But today? Today is a nonzero masterpiece to the best of my ability for future self. This one's for you future homes. Forgiveness man, use it. I forgive you. Say it out loud. Last rule. Rule number 4, is the easiest and its three words. exercise and books. that's it. Pretty standard advice but when you exercise daily you actually get smarter. when you exercise you get high from endorphins (thanks body). when you exercise you clear your mind. when you exercise you are doing your future self a huge favour. Exercise is a leg on a three legged stool. Feel me? As for books, almost every fucking thing we've all ever thought of, or felt, or gone through, or wanted, or wanted to know how to do, or whatever, has been figured out by someone else. Get some books max. Post to reddit about not caring about yourself? Good first step! (nonzero day, thanks younger me for typing it out) You know what else you could do? Read 7 habits of highly successful people. Read "emotional intelligence". Read "From good to great". Read “thinking fast and slow”. Read books that will help you understand. Read the bodyweight fitness reddit and incorporate it into your workouts. (how's them pullups coming?) Reading is the fucking warp whistle from Super Mario 3. It gets you to the next level that much faster. That’s about it man. There’s so much more when it comes to how to turn nonzero days into hugely nonzero days, but that’s not your mission right now. Your mission is nonzero and forgiveness and favours. You got 36 essays due in 24 minutes and its impossible to pull off? Your past self let you down big time, but hey… I forgive you. Do as much as you can in those 24 minutes and then move on. I hope I helped a little bit max. I could write about this forever, but I promised myself I would go do a 15 minute run while listening to A. Skillz Beats Working Vol. 3. Gotta jet. One last piece of advice though. Regardless of whether or not reading this for the first time helps make your day better, if you wake up tomorrow, and you can’t remember the 4 rules I just laid out, please, please. Read this again. Have an awesome fucking day ☺ tldr; 1. Nonzero days as much as you can. 2. The three you’s, gratitude and favours. 3. Forgiveness 4. Exercise and books (which is a sneaky way of saying self improvement, both physical, emotional and mental) Edit: Wow reddit gold? Thanks! No idea what to do with it or whats the deal but many thanks! Edit2: Someone asked what I meant by "much more when it comes to how to turn nonzero days into hugely nonzero days". The long and short of it is a simple truth, but it's tough to TOTALLY UNDERSTAND AND PRACTICE. It's this: you become what you think. This doesnt mean if I think of a tree, I'll be oakin' it by august. It means that the WAY you think, the THINGS you think of, and the IDEAS YOU HOLD IN YOUR MIND defines the sum total that is you. You procrastinate all the time and got fear and worry goin on for something? You are becoming a procrastinator. You keep thinking about how much you want to run that 5 k race in the spring and finish a champion? Are ya keeping it in mind all the time? Is it something that is defining your ACTIONS and influencing you DECISIONS? If it is, then you're becoming the champion you're dreaming about. Dreaming about it makes it. Think and it shall be. But do not forget that action is thought's son. Thoughts without actions are nothing. Have faith in whatever it is you've steeled your mind to. Have faith and follow through with action. Ok, Ryan that's a bunch of nice words n shit, but how does that help me turn slightly nonzero days into hugely nonzero days. Do you believe all these words you just read? Does it makes sense to you that you BECOME WHAT YOU THINK OF? Ask yourself: What do I think of? When you get home and walk in the door. (how quickly did you turn that laptop on? Did turning it on make you closer to your dreams? What would?) At the bus stop. Lunch break. What direction are you focusing your intentions on? If you're like I was a few years ago, the answer was either No direction, or whatever caught my eye at the moment. But no stress, forgive yourself. You know the truth now. And knowing the truth means you can watch your habits, read books on how you think and act, and finally start changing your behaviour. Heres an example: Feeling like bunk cause you had zero days or barely nonzero days? THINK ABOUT WHAT YOURE DOING. and change just a little bit more. in whatever positive direction you are choosing to go. Edit3: WHOA! This blew up! Major appreciation to Modified_Duck for making this cool ass image: http://i.imgur.com/7xsp7hJ.png Edit4: Another AMAZING DESKTOP BACKGROUND! http://www.reddit.com/r/GetMotivated/comments/1rowpb/i_made_a_wallpaper_from_uryans01s_amazing_quote/