Ok I am going to do this simply because the first thing I will put here I NEED to do it and I have 0 motivation to do it even though it is EXTREMELY important
In fact, I think that's the reason why I don't want to do it... anyway
If this gets to 30 notes, I do that thing ✅️
50 notes, I call to ask if my doctor's appointment has been scheduled (I've been avoiding it for two weeks now) ✅️
100 notes, I go wash my shoes that have long needed washing and are just sitting there, existing, waiting for me to deign to wash them. ✅️
200 notes, I finish organizing my room (I organized it halfway and then left a bunch of things that still don't have a defined place) ✅️
500 notes, I use the things I have to bleach and color my hair. The only thing that has stopped me is the fear of doing it wrong or being too lazy to maintain it. ✅️
1k notes, I stop doing things that I know will trigger my chronic pain with the pure intention of confirming that the pain was indeed real (don't do this. 0 recommended) ✅️
5k notes, I try some new food without fear of wasting money by buying something I most likely won't like (my autism hates new foods) ✅️
10k notes, I wear my bi flag earrings in front of someone I wouldn't usually wear them with. I trust that they possibly wouldn't have a problem with me being bi, but I would never get up the courage to tell them anything ✔️ (I haven't, but that person was in my room next to where the earrings are. They were 0% hidden)
20k notes, wtf I have absolutely no idea. If it comes to this, ehhh... Honestly, I have no idea what I'm doing here. Do I promise to be honest in therapy and stop telling them that everything is perfect even though nothing has ever been perfect? Yeah, that probably works. Please don't go this far, I don't know how to do this. Maybe I should... but... it would be awful to learn it
April 2024: I stop procrastinating editing this post with the things I've already done. I WANT THE HAIR SO MUCH BUT IT'S SO DIFFICULT
May 2024: Red hair, red hair, red hair. I'M CROWLEY, RED HAIR!!!!!
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Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.
Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).
Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.
Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.
Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).
AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.
But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s
At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.
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obv i want my hockey ocs to be focused around when they’re actually playing BUT god is it enticing to write them after retirement just. doing whatever they want
p1 bc the formatting is getting weirddd
cael retires like, before most of the content begins, and i can’t imagine adri retiring even for the purposes of this post so cael’s gonna have to wait BUT he’s also always at the rink working medical so he’s literally with him everyday + whatever adri decides to do afterwards will probably mean they’re together everyday anyways lol
cael is not a doctor but has basic med training (and is learning on the job/is not the dude who’d step in for like. serious stuff) PLUS the background knowledge of a lot of different players’ conditions so he just generally shoots the shit abt that stuff while he hangs around
plus i like to think cael travels for games whereas the actual doctor doesn’t always/there are two depending on the location of the game bc one is always on rink staff, the other works at the local hospital and just helps out when he can SO cael is always with everyone even after he’s done playing
plus he doesn’t have any injuries (long or short term) so he even plays goalie for alumni games--which is also good bc he literally can only play hockey goalie. he is not good at any other sports
doesn’t mean they don’t get him to play forward bc they wanna see it but
[fourth line guy, no name i’m sorry] knows that [third line? guy] wants pets but doesn’t have any of his own bc he travels so much + they all travel as players so there’s no one to stay at home to care for them during the season
3rd line guy also always volunteers at an animal shelter and if he gets too tipsy/drunk, he gets emotional abt all the pets at the shelter who don’t have families
i like to think that’s remedied bc they’re like why don’t u film a little video or smtn?? like this is how to apply to volunteer, this is what ur responsibilities are, here are the supplies we always need, etc etc AND they get an influx of adoptions bc he introduces all the pets in need of families lol
and bc that shelter is going ok + he’d probably be upset abt adopting pets from there knowing he’ll have to go back to see the ones that didn’t get adopted, 4th line guy is just like fuck it there are three of us at home now, we’re getting like 3 cats
and torje (4th line, other partner of theirs) doesn’t know/is cool w it but is also like ??????? when 4th line guy is like i have presents for all of us but mostly 3rd line guyyyyy
torje catches the box moving while it’s being hidden in the other room and is like oh my god he’s gonna lose it (thinking it’s just one animal lol)
and 4th line guy is like “okay let me explain. i did this on my own bc i know ur indecisive and figured i’d just choose for you. and if there’s a problem we can just. get more??
and just brings out the box and lets him open it and there are three cats, all older bc they don’t get adopted often, and hey they’re all chill and get along so why not get all of them
and they just let him lay on the floor and cry and speak unintelligibly and let the cats crawl all over him
they kinda end up with a cat per person but it’s just who gravitates to who i think OR 3rd line guy decides based on like “oh i think he likes u most he’s ur buddy”
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best thing ive ever been commissioned for in my life, shadow wizard money gang fight stick art. the rings are set up so that buttons are like gems
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