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Prompt #966

Two trauma-endo systems – one who initially assumed they were only traumagenic, and one who assumed they were only endogenic – talk about how they discovered the other side of their origins.

sometimes being a plural system sucks. I have a dad in-sys, and I can never ever introduce him as a separate entity out of my own body to other people. I can never take a "true" photograph of him. I can never physically get hugs. I want to be able to show people I have a wonderful relationship with my dad, but I can't because the only way I can depict it is through "stories" that most will take to be fiction. I hate feeling like this, because I have such a wonderful relationship with my dad, both as coworkers and as family, but I can't share it with anybody because nobody can really understand the relationship or how it works since we exist in the same body. I hate being plural sometimes, I hate my heart sometimes. I love my dad, but sometimes I wish he wasn't in our body, that he was another person in the outerworld I'd taken as a father figure and our relationship and dynamic was all in the outerworld, but I'm so so grateful for what I have now that I feel guilty for feeling like this. I feel silly (/neg) for being upset about this, because we have such a wonderful relationship and we are so happy being each other's family in the innerworld and in-sys.

⚠️tw death, abuse (of numerous kinds), religious and political extremism⚠️

Two years ago, our sperm donor-- a physically/emotionally/sexually/emotionally/spiritually/verbally abusive, evangelical, cult-leading, n-zi hate preacher-- FORTUNATELY passed away.

Not a day goes by that we aren't affected by his actions, even though he's no longer here. The numerous nights we wake up in sweat. The constant moments we look over our shoulder, thinking we've heard his voice. So on.

Only now have we had the courage to speak out this much.

With all of this in mind, we wrote an angry vent-poem at the request of our primary partner.

Enjoy.

So something I wanna talk about after seeing a video about ableism in spiritual spaces (and idk who reblogged it but no shade to the video, it had a decent point about not encouraging the delusions of strangers or being anti-medication to people who may need it or suggesting using stones over healthcare) but like...

Something can be both mental health related and spiritual.

My psychosis harms no one, aside from occasionally being a bit personally distressing, and I have made the choice to deal with the distress without medication because I have decent non-medicinal coping mechanisms. The cognitive/negative symptoms of my schizophrenia are a bit more difficult, but still not to the point of needing treatment.

Some of my psychosis - delusions especially - form core parts of my identity, especially my spiritual identity. I am endel. I am POSIC. I experience double bookkeeping. Even the distressing delusions are to me a layer of the realities surrounding us that I simply refuse to engage with.

So I would like to ADD to that video - don't DIScourage the delusions of people you don't know, even if they believe them to be angels or demons speaking to them. Don't pressure them into seeking medication. Let each of us, as individuals, set the expectations for how we want our mental health handled. For some of us, it IS spiritual. And if you reality check our system personally, you'll catch a block so fast your head will spin.

We will ask people we trust if we want a reality check.

For us it is no different than our system origins being partially spirigenic/schizogenic. For us, the neurological and metaphysical are inextricably intertwined.

Just... let us take the lead. We are capable of doing so. If we are not a direct and present danger to others, don't say "don't get medication/try stones instead/those are spiritual entities trying to reach you" AND don't say "that's just mental illness/seek help/etc".

Just putting this out there because while I fully support everyone who does medicate, finds their symptoms entirely negative, and for whom linking the symptoms to spirituality is dangerous; not very many people talk about how it is ableist to, to DENY the spirituality of mad people on the basis of their mental illness/neurodivergence.

And my experience with ableism has been people trying to deny the spiritual aspects of my mental health conditions. Don't do that either. And DEFINITELY don't act like we're not capable of deciding which case is healthy or otherwise right for us!

Headcanon: Bubbles from PowerPuff Girls is endoamour, traumaendo, bisexual, genderfreak, and a low-support autistic! :0

hi lovelies !! this user is most likely bait , and is definitely looking for attention, but “did-is-not-real” has been going around bullying && harassing other systems on this site. if you have been harassed by him, please report him for harassment. he has no need to be involved with our community. please also don’t doom-scroll their account or what not; it’s giving them the attention they desire. plus, it’s really sad to just look at and see what he(?) had said. he is blocked on our blogs due to our safety, but yeah. putting it out there .

if you need to block them from something like a side blog, i’m pretty sure that you should be able to do it manually in your settings on desktop. that, or or you can message them like an x or something from the sideblog , then block them from there!!

in other words, fuck that idiot. you are valid and loved, and most importantly, you are real. stay safe, love u guys xx

some system positivity art!!

(with the lovely "the future is plural" phrase by(?) @sophieinwonderland !! [hope the @ is alright uaug])

just gonna say it one more time for anyone who didnt hear it:

ENDOGENIC IS NOT SYNONYMOUS WITH NOT DISORDERED. ENDOGENIC SYSTEMS CAN BE DISORDERED AND HAVE TRAUMA AFFECT THEIR SYSTEM EVEN IF IT DIDNT FORM FROM TRAUMA.

is "I love you guys" to plurals what "I love myself" is to singlets?

sometimes i wanna just

All systems are welcome to interact!

I wish every 'endo free traumagenic blog' a very realize mixed origin systems exist

gods i wish we could browse discord servers regularly and not have to have our protector do it because we don't know whether or not the server will hate us for existing. We can't trust when it says it's "system friendly"; we have to go in and read the rules and sometimes even make an intro, look for sysmed dogwhistles, and even if we don't find anything, unless there's something explicitly including systems of all origins we're STILL paranoid about it. Syscourse/sysmedicalism have heightened our trauma so intensely and the fact that our traumagenic members have adapted to cover for that really goes to show how dangerous it is. We're so tired. The hatred and bigotry in the system community is so common in fandom spaces claiming to be accepting. There aren't many places where it's safe to exist