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verstappen-cult · 2 months

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I have a request for max!

Reader is a strategist for Mercedes. Max and her, they got married in secret and have a 2 year old daughter together.

I know this is not much to work with but you do you!

(I love your fics <3)

hi bestie! i left the mercedes’ strategist plot out of this, but i hope you still like it! btw this was gonna be really short and ended up being this other thing. <333

You look out the car window and then to your daughter playing with her favorite plushie next to you. She doesn’t know that you’re about to be the topic of conversation for the next week — month even. She only knows that there are gonna be a lot of people trying to take pictures of you both, and that you’re gonna see Dad’s friends too.

“Hey, baby.” You whisper, brushing a strand of blonde hair out of her face. “You’re ready to see Daddy?” She smiles at the mention of her favorite person in the whole world, forgetting all about her toy.

“Where are we?” She asks, looking out the window.

You lift her up onto your lap, placing a kiss on her temple. “We’re gonna watch papa just like we do from home every Sunday.”

“We have fun watching papa.”

“Yes, so,” You take your bag and her plushie before taking a deep breath. “let’s go and have some fun, then.”

It’s no secret to anyone that you and Max have been dating for quite a few years now. You used to be more public about your relationship, but then you got pregnant and Max decided that it was best if you kept things a little more private, and you were more than happy to do it until you started to miss going to the races and seeing him more often.

Max was a bit reluctant at first, but after some — a lot — of convincing he accepted. The two of you agreed to put some boundaries and to take things slowly. The first step was going to the Monaco Grand Prix, so, you wouldn’t have to travel and he could be home by the end of the day with his favorite girls. And, if things become too much, you can just go home.

The moment you set foot on the paddock, you know there is no going back. You feel nervous and like your whole body is on fire, but when you look at your daughter’s smile as you hold her in your arms, you forget about everything.

“Mama, look! Papa!” She points to the giant banner to your left. And there he is, alongside a few of the other drivers.

“Oi!” Dani calls from a few meters away. You wish he would not have done it because it draws attention you really didn’t want.

“Uncle Dani!”

You see the exact moment people recognize you, reporters starting to make their way to you at the same time you hurry to Dani’s side. He has a big, bright smile on his face, he’s always smiling but you think he’s genuinely happy to see you and your daughter.

“Hi, Dani.” The Aussie wraps an arm around your shoulder and kisses your cheek as a greeting.

“Hey, angel.” Your daughter makes grabby hands at Dani and, obviously, he immediately takes her in his arms. “Did you miss uncle Dani?” She nods, wrapping her tiny arms around his neck.

“Have you seen Max?” You ask him, but he shakes his head, too busy paying attention to whatever your daughter is telling him in the ear.

You don’t feel comfortable. It’s been so long since you’ve been in the paddock that now feels like you’re attending your first race for the very first time. You were nervous then, you are terrified now as you see reporters approaching, calling your name and asking about your daughter. It’s not that they don’t know you and Max have a daughter, you and Max have been pretty open about her but always leaving her face out of the family photos you share on social media. However, this is news to everyone. This is a headline. And you know they’re just doing their job.

“Let’s go find him, okay?”

You barely hear him, trying to politely tell the reporter by your left that you will not give any interview and to stop asking about your daughter. Daniel has to give you a little pat on the back to make you walk, sending death glares to the people surrounding you in the process.

There are phones and video cameras following you along the paddock, and you think you should’ve accepted Max’s offer of waiting for you at the entrance. But you didn’t want to be a burden. You were pretty confident about handling things by yourself but now… not so much.

“Hey, are you okay? You’re a little pale.” Dani’s voice is soothing. You’re glad he’s carrying your daughter because you don’t feel strong enough to do it. Someone behind you — one of the many, many people following you — pushes you, making you bump into another person by your side. “Watch out! There’s a baby here!”

Daniel is mad and doesn’t hesitate in wrapping an arm around your waist, guiding you inside the nearest place that turns out to be the McLaren hospitality.

“I’m gonna call Max, alright?”

“What’s happening outside? Oh, you’re here!”

“Uncle Lando!” Your daughter’s voice is what finally pulls you out of your head.

You walk to Dani, taking her in your arms. “Did you miss Uncle Lando too?”

“Is something wrong?” Lando asks again, bopping the little girl on the nose.

“So many people,” You breathe out, closing your eyes for a second. “I didn’t think it was going to be this way, really.”

“Well, it’s a big deal that you’re here. Both of you.” Lando looks outside, reporters and cameras ready to catch a glimpse for when you have to leave. “Do they know? The media, I mean, about…” He looks to your hand, right where your wedding ring is.

You groan, hiding your face in your daughter’s neck, making her giggle. “No, but I’m sure it will be worse when they notice.”

There’s a huge commotion outside that draws your attention. When you look, you find Max trying to make his way through the mass of people. Seeing him makes you relax immediately, but then he’s pushing a man when this shoves a microphone in his face and you don’t feel so relaxed anymore.

“Shit, shit” Daniel is quick to open the doors and go outside, a few members of McLaren following him. “Can you hold her, please?”

Your daughter goes willingly with Lando as you run outside. Daniel stands between the reporter and Max, his hand on your husband’s chest trying to stop him from jumping over him to get to the man.

There’s a bigger commotion when they see you, everyone shouting your name and asking questions that you don’t pay attention to, but it’s enough to make Max forget about fighting the reporter.

Max runs to you, hands cupping your face. “Hey, baby. Are you okay? Something happened?”

“I’m okay. Just—let’s go inside, please.”

Max doesn’t hesitate. He grabs your hand tightly, not caring about being seen going inside McLaren hospitality, not when you and his daughter are there needing him.

“Papa!”

Your husband’s face lights up, that pretty smile you love so much making its way onto his face. "Mijn mooie meisje.” The tension on his face goes away the moment he takes her in his arms.

“You wanna go home?” Lando asks you, handing you a glass of water.

“Yes, you’re going home.” Max answers for you, hugging his daughter tightly against his chest.

“We are not. We knew this would happen, well, not at this scale but,” You shrug, taking a sip of water. “I don’t wanna go. We should’ve planned this better.”

“Yeah, you should have.” Daniel jokes, but when no one laughs he just stands there awkwardly. “Look, she’s already here. You’re not gonna send her home, are you?”

Lando bites his lip before saying, “You won’t be able to hide forever.”

“I know!” Max sighs, putting down his daughter on one of the sofas. “Why don’t you play while I talk with your uncles for a bit?” Unaware of everything, she just takes her plushie and waits for you to be finished. “I don’t want you to be uncomfortable or feel unsafe.”

“We’re safe here. Everyone will take care of us, I know that.” You take his hand, thumb caressing the back of it. “It was just the shock of experiencing all of this again. It reminded me of the first time I attended a race.” You say, shyly.

“Oh, I remember that.” He has that special glint in his eyes that tells you that he remembers every little detail of that day.

“Uh, gross.” Lando pretends to throw up, earning a playful push from Daniel.

“You sure you’re gonna be okay?”

“Yes, love. Besides, how are you gonna tell her she won’t be watching papa race?” You look at your little baby, talking with her plushie and showing the toy around. “I don’t know which one of us is more excited.”

“You know it’s only a matter of time before they notice this?” Max takes your hand to his lips, kissing your wedding ring.

“I want them to know.”

“Oh, thank God!” He exclaims, peppering kisses all over your face. “I hate not wearing my ring on race weekends.”

#꒰꒰ 📁 ─ verstappen cult files ꒱꒱#f1 x reader #max verstappen x reader #max verstappen fluff #f1 imagine #f1 grid x reader

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palskippah · 5 months

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Hi!

I've seen people draw Bowser's dad or talk about him in fics, but I wanna think Bowser only had a mom :y just for the fun of it asdkaslkd

It's under a keep reading bc it's a tad bit long, if you'll read it then prepare for nonsensical rambling :y btw it's silly too

Like, she was a very big royal koopa queen who he doesn't remember because she left when he was too baby still (kicked the bucket 🧍) and Kamek (and Kammy) had to take care and raise him since then. And maybe Kamek jut did the bare minimum for him to remember her and Kammy actually put more effort into it- but it's because her death hurt Kamek too much.

Also he and the queen were in a sort of situationship JDKDHD

Anyone would notice he stared at her a bit too fondly, and Kammy made sure to let her sibling know he was being a lovesick fool and everyone could tell. Even the queen. Especially the queen.

But alas, she was the highest rank of royalty and Kamek was her advisor, so it would raise suspicion if they had something, he worried about people thinking they were colluding or something (my paranoid magikoopa that missed the chance of his life-)

She's just like Bowser but maybe beefier and more regal and likes to use her crown and jewelry always. She has a huge lot of confidence and is very assertive.

But they have a close relationship, and one day she's like: "Kamek, may I ask you something? Not from queen to advisor."

"From friend to friend? :>" he says smiling. But the queen shakes her head.

"No, from gorgeous koopa queen to lovesick fool-"

And anyway, that's how she asks him out.

So, the queen (who maybe is called Magma River or something volcanic-themed like that, she gets called Queen River?) got fed up on waiting for the silly advisor to take the lead, so she did. And then she died. So there's that. And Bowser was barely a year old.

Anyways.

Like imagine Queen River had Bowser the same way Bowser had Junior. Also she can't change her size at will, so when Bowser hatches she's like ??? bc royal koopalings are very small, but she's not sure she's even seen one, and by the size of his egg, she thought he'd be small, but not that small.

The baby is named after the queen's father, mostly because she pretends to have no idea what name to choose, so River unsubtly leaves it up to Kamek (and that makes him very joyful, bc naming a child is very important, and she's trusting him on it, as if he were the father 🙏- Kammy teases the hell out of him after they're out of the queen's hearing range)

So, they're prince Bowser the second :] (then they become he or whatvers jaskdja when Bowser's older)

-Anywaysss, imagine that in Bowser's castle, where there is this stone sculpture of his head in the front, is actually queen River's face- Bowser just looks way too much like her, sans the purple scales and shell, so the sculpture is never taken down, just like, reused as Bowser's?

-When years pass and Bowser's a toddler and then a kid, Kamek spoils the hell out of him. He gets him one hundred toys, let's the koopaling order him around, and even at times Bowser get very disrespectful and hits him- at that times it's Kammy who has to put her foot down, bc Queen River wouldn't have let her kid talk to anyone the way Bowser did to the servants or Kamek. The queen was straight forward and respectful of the staff- so Kammy tries to right Bowser's behavior now that he's small- it doesn't work very well, bc he still has an awful temper, but at least he treats the workers at the castle decently.

-Maybe the queen dies in a tragic way or whatever, and it has something to do with another kingdom, so they have a war and the koopas win and they have another kingdom to rule or whatevs. Also (here's more rambling) what if the Darklands is like a Yugoslavia (or something??) and Queen River did a great job of ruling all the lands but then she died and it all went down bc the advisors and council don't know how to rule properly -and the queen didn't have more family apart from her baby-so the Darklands dissolves and becomes only the Koopa Kingdom, the Goomba Kingdom, the Bob-omb's and all that - (Then when Bowser takes the crown, he decides he wants to rule all the Darklands again and that's why he starts wars and wins them and whatnot-? He forces the Darklands together again :[)

-Bowser gets curious about the rest of the kingdoms too, so he arranges meetings to meet the other rulers. Particularly in the Mushroom Kingdom, there happens to be the young princess Peach who has recently taken the lead of the kingdom. And when Bowser sees her, she's very beautiful and nice and has the prettiest eyes he's ever seen, and he determines he'll set things right with all the other kingdoms to gain her favor, so she agrees to become his queen and wife.

>So he does, and the kingdoms have a truce and a good relationship, and Bowser and Peach are maybe something close to friends, but then he proposes, and she rejects him. And then from there it's all the kidnapping stuff bc Bowser's young and stupid and obsessed with her in an unhealthy way.

[This part has to do with my Bowuigi family au-] So, the name of the mom was Magma River, and when the koopalings suggest names for their soon-to-arrive baby sibling, Morton suggests 'Magma :]' and Luigi's like, 'ooh, that's a good one :D' and Bowser's like 'hey that was my mom's name :3' but Kamek's like :'U inside bc that's his love's name! And wouldn't it be amazing if one of Bowser's children had her name??

So, he's very very glad that Luigi finally says 'Magma it is!' all happy bc they have an official name for their baby now. And maybe when Magma's born and shifts to koopa form, she looks so much like the queen (actually she looks like Bowser- but let the magikoopa dream) and he's like :'V

I got off the rails 🧍 that's what I had to say shdjdh the queen enjoys being a mom all of one year and then she dies :'v

River always got all excited to talk anyone's ears off about her amazing little child and showing photos from a wallet that has like 12546 photos in it to anyone that talked to her-

Kammy and the queen were close friends too! It was the magikoopa that suggested Queen River better do something about her relationship with Kamek, bc her idiot sibling never would and all that.

Anyways, as usual, bless you if you read till here sjdksj

#super mario bros #my art #bowser koopa #headcanon #?#kamek #text #luigi mario #big fan of Dr. E. Gadd and Kamek as an old couple that debate magic vs science or whatever JDKDHD so there's that too 🧍?#kammy #River had no family apart from Bowser #and Bowser has a big family #there's something in there maybe alksdas #also royal koopas live very long #so maybe her dad the king gave her the reign and then he died and she was like D:#bc River's all alone now and she focuses on ruling the darklands well #and many many years later she has bowser and she's like :D woo family!

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fainthedcherry · 15 days

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HAPPY TURTLE TUESDAYYY TMNT FANDOMMM!!!! I have a treat for y'all artists who love to make TMNT OCs!!! If you love the 2012 era, you're gonna love this one too!!!

A FREE TO USE TMNT DARK HORIZONS FLASH GAME CHARACTER SELECT TEMPLATE, MADE FROM THE ACTUAL GAME SPRITES!!! (Scroll below for the Google Drive of the files, credits first to the artist though sorry! :D)

(ft also the fancy animation particles for when you get to this menu, for those who wanna add it too! (( the GIF is the raw version, without the effect settings/scripts added in Flash tho.)))

PLEASE KEEP IN MIND!! I DID NOT CREATE THESE ASSETS, NOR HAVE I DRAWN THEM

(I am an artist posting this, who has replicated the game's art as a fan, so I want to disclose clearly, that these are NOT MY WORKS HERE.)

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give all the credit to the SENIOR ART DIRECTOR working on this Flash game, Damian Aliberti and his team of artists from Quadramma (I could not find sources online that confirm who are said artists unfortunately, so I can only credit the art-director for now)!!!

He even made a page about this project, for his portfolio! Check it out, it's AWESOME!! (CLICK MEE / TAP MEEE)

^I didn't know they planned to bring this to mobile, so you can predict that I'm happy, that this game is still seemingly loved by the Italian studio that made it seemingly. x) (I can only assume they're Italian, due to the file-names, don't quote me on this though, barely any info exists on this Flash game as you can predict LOL)

GOOD NOW THAT YOU HOPEFULLY READ WHO MADE THE PRETTY ART: CLICK ME OR TAP ME FOR THE GOOGLE DRIVEE (drive provides the GIF, a PSD, SAI2, PNG and MDP file!! [the joys of owning several art programs, making this much more accessible to people :v])

btw, also like..Maybe not use this for commercial/profit purposes though, that'd be profiting off resources you didn't make, and that are copyrighted. I don't think that's legal. :"v

NO CREDIT REQUIRED. COMPLETELY F2U. I did not after all make the assets, nor will claim so. :V as I mentioned, I extracted these from the actual game, which is why these are all so crisp and nice looking, instead of me using a snipping tool like 2 yrs ago for my fun challenge of recreating the game's artstyle LOL

I do NOT claim these assets or the art I've extracted as my own, this is all purely from the game, and very obviously, these are I guess, owned by Nickelodeon, so I ask you ofc do not...Do some legally questionable things w/ this stuff sdfklsd, pls behave fans, I'd rather not get reported for something I didn't do for providing this to the internet. xD

Whilst credit would be nice, and linking back to this would be even nicer for other fans who might just like me,, wanna replicate this cool game's aesthetic sdfskldglk, it's optional, completely LOL. It did only take like 2 hrs to piece this stuff together, to look like a real screenshot thank god. xD

FEEL FREE TO SHOW ME IF YOU ALSO DRAW IN THE GAME'S STYLE OR WANNA BANTER ABOUT TMNT OCS OROROR YKNOW USED THE THING AND WANT ME TO SEE ITTTT I GLADLY STARE AT TMNT POSTS NO MATTER WHAT ERAAAAA~

I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO APPRECIATE THIS GAME'S ARTSTYLE NGL. THAT'S ALL I WANT. And if more ppl also would wanna draw in it it'd make me so happy. I am like...The most acoustic TMNT fan out there man, I have the weirdest wishes in mind xD

Hope anyone wants this orrr like needs it orr dreamt of doing this too orrrr just never thought about doing it, but now that a free template is out there, someone might also wanna do it!! I love whenever like- fandom templates and stuff is made. I plan to maybe make this a Toyhou.se code too, since I do have the raw files of the games and could try to see if I can replicate the animations and stuff and make it non-premium and premium!

(Maybe I should make fandom codes more often in general tho at the topic of that, did it before for Terraria and helped out w/ a Monster High code, to give it a mobile compatible version LMAO)

If anyone or me figures out the artists behind the sprites, I'd gladly show them too, bc GORGEOUS GAME MAN!!!! THEY DESERVE ANY PRAISE THEY GET FOR THE ART AND THE GAME ITSELF ANSAHSHAJS, here I go again I swear, I'm done yapping now. I should participate in internet olympics when it comes to writing essays in every post I ever made. xD

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cherryozyi · 1 year

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OG Tag from: @mspa-reader

Glad you asked because technically I have a small AU concept of a Deltarune inspired Universe!!

(Rambling starts here so)

I say inspired because instead of Bosses being already in a dark world, some classmates become the bosses the trio have to face. Also it's more of a Fun AU that isn't meant to be taken too seriously like Deltarune is. Also every classmate (except Squish Pod and Peggy) just thinks it's a dream.

Example for Chapter 1 & 2

Lynnwood is the Boss for the first Dark World and his world consist of a Theater Theme rather than a Chess Theme. His design/how he'd see himself would be something similar to Phantom Of The Opera design would be. Shirley is there too and she'd take a more Susie like role but unlike her she wouldn't stick with the team. Though she would get something out of it, she'd learn to be better friends with Squish and his friends and grow as a character similar to how Susie grew in that chapter. Although it would be both Squish and Shirley having their character arch's since the chapter would most likely focus on those two if that makes sense.

Chapter 2 is Helen as place of Queen and her world is a bit tricky to come up with but so far it still would be a science tech like world but it's mostly because of Franny's influence on her. (Also admittedly she does look up to her girlfriend but doesn't say much out of embarrassment and pride) OR something more based on Socal Media or something. But I like th first idea better

Also Franny and Basil would take the role of Noelle and Berdly but obviously with major changes. Here Franny and Helen would have a character arc but instead of with the trio it's with eachother. (Obviously the trio would help sort things out). Since Helen and Franny are pretty new to dating there is alot of doubt and insecurities both would hide or have, which would get resolved in the end and yes they'd still be bitter towards the main cast after everything. Basil does have his own arc and reason to be there but that will be explained another day because I'm wondering if it'd would work or not. It is similar to the last Chapter where Shirley and Squish work something out. (Also its based off another idea for the show itself and need to explain that first before I can explain it in AU form)

Anyways..

This AU is mostly in my head and I haven't drawn anything, except of a very very messy sketch when I was still new to the whole Squish TV Show but that doodle is literally just Squish as Kris, Pod as Susie and Peggy as Ralsei costumes. Now they'd have new designs and keep their same personality but I never gotten around to draw it yet. Also because this is all in my head I didn't exactly have everything set in stone yet and yes there are a few plot holes that needs fixing. One thing I can confidently say is there is no Secret Bosses like Jevil or Spamton and there is no Genocide or "Player" controlling Squish. It's just the trio accidentally stumbling upon a RPG like world. This is just an AU for fun.

Apologies for this making no sense btw, tried my best to explain everything.

(picture is just used for filler)

#squish (animated)#squish animated series #squish super amoeba #squish #squish au #squish deltarune au #cherry talks

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amazing-spiderling · 3 months

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for the fandom ask game: 5 6 11 16 23 24

something you see in fics a lot and love

I really love seeing Foggy sort of leap-frogging over his panic and anger and confusion in moments of crisis to get right to the part where he works on being helpful. That, "We are going to fight about this later, but right now I need to stop that bleeding" sort of thing. Foggy is absolutely allowed to have emotions and fall apart in a crisis, but he has a good head on his shoulders and certainly after a certain point he's had to learn to compartmentalize just to survive being in Matt's life. I think it's comforting to imagine having a friend or partner like that- I guess it speaks to the idea of there always being an undercurrent of love. No matter what else is going on in the moment, no matter how furious or scared or worried the events taking place right now make them, they do not supplant the love that is at the basis of the relationship. I just think that's neat.

something you see in art a lot and love

When artists really have fun with the clothing, paying attention to details and making things really specific. When someone really pays attention to drawing a certain kind of shoe- I'm just... yeah, that's the good stuff. :)

if you’re a writer or artist, what fic or piece of art are you proud of making?

Well, I'm a little bit of both- but I guess a fic sprang to mind first so I'll answer for that. (tw for fictional CSA mention btw) So, as I've not-so-casually mentioned, one of my first big/long term fandoms was Metal Gear Solid. And I know that some of the memes from that series have escaped containment, and to the outsiders it might look like "Call of Duty but with the occasional zany moment" but it does have a lot of story (too much, some might say XD) and intricate character relationships and lore and, ugh it's just SUCH fertile ground for art and fic and all the things that make fandom great. But, it *does* also very much appeal to gamer dudes of the usual type. And normally this is fine, the transformative fans and the archival fans largely keep to their own fandom spaces- but sometimes there is crossover that rubs one group or the other the wrong way.

One such case is that there is a character who has an "affair" with his step-mother, but I put that in quotes because when the dust settles, it turns out this happened when the character in question was 16. There is TERRIBLE fallout from the event (family trauma, suicide, estrangement) and the game plays it all straight- this is something that broke the already fragile family to pieces. BUT for a long time, the joke was "haha character banged his stepmom". Which. Ew.

Anyways, I always really wanted to write a story that sort of expanded on those events, not the actual relationship/abuse/fallout, but more the events that precluded it, mostly what made the character an easy target. (Isolation, otherness, a lack of confidence in who they were as an individual). Basically, I wanted to really tell a story that treated the matter with the needed level of seriousness, if only to say, "hey, this isn't a punchline, this is a traumatic experience".

I ended up watching, "The Graduate" a few times as sort of... research? Partially for tone, partially because the themes and characterization in that movie matched the vibe I was trying to go for in my own story. (I can't help but think that Kojima, known for referencing movies in his games- might have had it in mind due to some shared imagery.) This was maybe the first time I did something like that, watching a movie to pick it apart for nuance in tone, as opposed to looking at it for canon events, timelines etc.

So that story ended up being, "Surface Tension", which first appeared in the "Metal Gear Solid: Lost Years" zine, and then eventually got posted to AO3. It's not my best reviewed fic by a long shot (understandably, it's a difficult subject material and not shippy or anything), but it's one that I can say I am proud of.

a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate

Wow, this one is tricky for me- I feel like a lot of fans are way more detail oriented than I am when it comes to canon. I'm always the one in awe when people are like, "Oh in episode seven, this one song is playing in a car as it drives by, and that's significant because it came out in 2013 and that was the year that..." and i'm just like "you guys know the names of songs?"

I guess to that end- I always liked the line in, I think it's season 1 where Matt says it's a "90's Top 40" kind of guy. I think it's really funny because people characterize him as having... well, let's just say "better" musical taste, but like, no. That dude would bop his head if you played the Spin Doctors.

the fandom you’re curious about because of a mutual

I have no idea what's going on in the Trolls fandom, and at this point I'm afraid to ask. But they all look like they're having a great time.

how has fandom positively impacted your life?

I've made so many friends, and as someone who doesn't get out as much as I'd like (especially as an immunocompromised person in the middle of a pandemic), my fandom friends are so, so important to me. I love the feeling of having a group of people who love the thing I love and being able to waltz into a space and say, "Hey, who wants to do this crazy thing with me?" and have even a few people say "Yeah, let's fucking GOOOO". ^^

I also think I wouldn't write nearly as much if it wasn't for fandom, and writing has certainly gone a long way towards helping me become better at unraveling the balls of yarn in my brain and making them into sweaters and scarves, as it were. I think a lot of the time when you write, you're practicing empathy- because you're forcing yourself to see the world from someone else's perspective. Maybe the character you're writing about had something in common with you, maybe that's what drew you to them in the first place, but identifying that also helps you understand more about yourself *and* how you relate to others. So I like to think that writing has helped me relate better to other people, even the ones I disagree with, and made me more able to slow down and ask, "well, why does this person feel/think that way?" Storytelling is so important for a lot of reasons, but that's a big one for me.

#thank you for the ask #i got wordy oops

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fishedeyelenz · 7 months

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Oh fishy! That Billy and Camille mood board was…..*sighs dreamily* everything. Agh!! You just have no idea!! All of y’all!! All the billy writers and artists, the billy mutuals, I know I lurk, anonymously…not unlike how billy does, but in my mind y’all are the attic gang. My attic gang, all of us loving and bullying the attic boy, and also the wall boy….I just…aaah…perfection. Anyways, your stories are keeping me alive woof, I’ll be catching up on the latest chapters of rats in the shadows (gee I hope I got the name right lol) later when I can (life you know) and I’m losing my marbles thinking about BEAN. BILLY BEAN BILLY’S BEAN!!! And how sweetly devoted he is to his Camille and Bean!! It’s just….*sighs happily* so so sweet….all these mood boards have been cracking me up they’re so SILLY!! I keep wishing to stick a sticker of canned beans on Beans’ forehead…these dark urges smh…

Okay but yes, right right, I need to get to the actual reason for my silly little ask, okay so, how would billy be with an s/o who’s very musical? We know he loves Camille in all her drawing and painting glory, (does she paint too? I know she draws, I guess I just assumed she might’ve dabbled in paints as well, apologies if not) but what about a musical gal? My family is extremely musically inclined, we all sing and everyone plays instruments (I draw too but again, we have our answers with precious Camille! And Thank goodness, for I’d love to draw with him, or draw a mustache on him while he sleeps if nothing else) and so I always wonder if he’d like music like I do…..I very much rely on music, it helps me, and I wonder if it’d help him too! The beat of the music grounds me, I can copy and mimic almost all the specific voice of all the singers I listen to, it’s patterns that I can rely on….it’s just all very soothing and helps me be happy while also calming! It’s like….a sturdy rock. Always consistent and nice!

And so I always imagine singing with Billy, (I know he’s a terrible singer but it’d be so wonderful and fun still!) dancing with him, teaching how to tap dance, singing and humming to him while holding him and running my fingers through his hair, playing my concertina for him, playing the piano with him, making up sound games, like, me play a tune and he has to mimic it, or him make up a tune and I’ll try to play it for him, it just seems so fun! All of it! Always singing and dancing with each other!! Loud and fast when we are okay! Or softly and slow, very quiet songs when either of us need soothing or comforting….it just all seems terrible sweet to me, I’m just a sucker and have been having so much fun practicing my concertina, so I’ve just been really having this on the brain eheh (btw I feel like a little sailor with my concertina, I freaking love it aaah)

Hello!! Glad to hear from you again dear anon, I was wondering about a couple of days ago actually!! You always leave such sweet messages <333 The part about the attic gang made me giggle heheheh <333 well, if it means anything, if you ever wanna go off anon I at least will be very accepting, and I'm sure others will do. But I respect your decision to stay anonymous if that's more comfortable to you!! I hope you have a fun time reading the last few chapters, I'm quite proud of them!!

Little Beanie baby honestly deserves a little treat in the form of a sticker on her forehead. Little guy <333 Also yeah, Camille is a painter!! Shes a painting mayor actually. Hats why shes in the college, or I guess the academy she goes to. And Camille would draw a mustache on him ough <3 As for the part about a musical s/o you're pretty spot on!! Certain types of music would definitely be very grounding to him, and could help a lot with calming him down. He in general likes simple little songs I think (think Daisy Bell like in the commentary) and I do think he sings to himself to calm down!! Though he is pretty tuneless... and his singing voice is not pleasant even if he tries... though he usually sings the sing badly on purpose to entertain himself lmao. Hes like a very loud, annoying parrot in human form.

That's why he would love to have a s/o who is actually musical lol. At first it would be to annoy them honestly, ruin their flow with singing badly, mock them when they can't reach a high not and things like that. Being a little shit in general. But as time moves on he would grow to appreciate their talents more. Sometimes he would quiet down when they start playing their instrument and listen carefully, maybe even clap for them in the end if he gets exited. Sometimes his lovers would would sing him to sleep after a hard day. And he would genuinely start joining in on them when they are singing, not to make fun of them but for them to share a moment together. In fact, he would use any chance he can to sing with his s/o, sometimes asking them to join in on singing a silly little song.

One thing though, is to watch over your instrument when around him. It's very fun that you play a concertina but there's always a chance he could break it. Whether on accident from being clumsy, or in a moment when he loses control of himself and breaks everything around him, or maybe out of pettiness after an argument. Either way after the fact he would feel immensely guilty, which will send him spiraling and so on and so forth. Not a pleasant experience for either of you.

This reminds me that Bean will be a musician in the future. She will play bass and melodica and will play in a band. I wonder what else I could do with this concept in relation to Billy...

Thanks once again for sending me this ask, I always am happy to hear from you!!

#asks #billy lenz #dilf billy lenz #oc: camille #oc: bean #my writting

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reiiieii · 1 year

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OCD and Perfectionism, what’s the difference? But…it’s mostly about OCD.

Many people think they have OCD, while they’re actually perfectionists, or they think they’re perfectionists while they actually have OCD.

This is a post for you to educate yourself on this topic and know which one’s about you, from a person who actually has OCD!

OCD:

Have you ever written a word, and erased it because it felt bad?

Have you ever felt severely uncomfortable because you stepped on the black part of the pedestrian crossing?

Seems like a pretty OCD thing mate!

People with OCD are often germophobes as well, I’ll give you some examples.

1. You’re saying hi to someone, and they shake your hand, you start feeling dirty, and very uncomfortable, even though their hands weren’t necessary dirty.

2. Constantly washing your hands.

3. I personally won’t drink water from the same bottle someone else did.

4. Another thing I do, making sure everything is definitely clean.

(When I was a little kid, I used to have one of those gels that kill germs on your hands that I would take everywhere.)

Another thing is even numbers (2,4,6,8,10,) and for some reason 3 and 15????

(Also, many of us have favourite numbers as well.)

You may ask, “Jane what. Why numbers????”

Well!

I, for an example do things a couple times, (2,3,4,6,8,10,15) like tying my shoes! Or saying something to myself a couple times.

And much, much more.

Phobias, another thing.

People with OCD are considered neurodivergent, with means that we also have hyperfixations and severe phobias.

Phobias, so severe, that we can’t do anything about them.

It’s mostly

1. Germophobia

2. Emetophobia

Things like that.

Some people also have ticks!

I was misdiagnosed with Tourettes when I was like seven.

Because those “ticks” might sometimes look like those that people with Tourettes experience, but there’s one thing that makes it different - people with OCD can mask (resist those “ticks”).

They are very often linked to intrusive thoughts, AKA thoughts telling you to do something or else…

Like “turn on the light 4 times or else you’ll get a bad grade”

But this is just an example, many people get much worse or elses but I will not list them to not trigger anyone, and I’ll greatly appreciate not writing any in the comments, thanks!

Perfectionism:

Have you ever seen a thing so asymmetrical that you wanted to stab your eyes out?

You might’ve thought “Hey, that seems like a problem!”

Well…you weren’t wrong!

Perfectionism is not fun, but one of the things that make it different from OCD - you can look away and go on with your day without constantly feeling stress and panicking every second.

Perfectionism is something that’s not a disorder, meanwhile OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)is.

Perfectionism is when you’re cutting cucumber into perfect squares, or when you’re cleaning the kitchen and sort everything by colours or sizes, when you draw a perfect line or a perfect circle.

Perfectionist characters are often shown as people who care about aesthetics and details, meanwhile characters with OCD are often shown as… well, freaks!

Perfectionist or OCD characters:

DTK from Soul Eater -

I was thinking about it for a long time, and at first I decided that he’s a perfectionist, but then I realised that his obsession about symmetry is way too big for him to just prefer that things look perfect.

Also, remember his obsession about number 8!

I personally think that he has OCD.

I also love him.

Monica Geller -

Same as DTK, I thought that she’s a perfectionist, but in one of the episodes with Richard she was talking about the “weird obsessions she has” which instantly made me realise she has OCD, and most likely is a perfectionist as well.

I personally think she has OCD.

Teru Mikami - Has Repetitive Behaviors And Compulsions!

For an example, there’s a scene in which he says repeatedly the word delete. I know this from the article linked below.

(Something that I also have, btw) he has OCD!

Levi Ackerman -

I’ve heard that throughout the whole series we can see his obsession over cleaning, which is often associated with OCD, but, the thing is… I never watched AOT, so I think he’s a perfectionist. Why? Because just because he’s cleaning a lot doesn’t mean he has OCD. Maybe it’ll change when I watch it and actually see for myself?

Aoyama from Keppeki Danshi! Aoyama-Kun -

I’ve heard…yes again, heard.

I did not watch it, maybe I will.

But! He is a germophobe, yes, on the OCD scale.

I personally think he has ocd

Kita Shinosuke -

“Kita tends to stick to a handful of daily routines, such as cleaning or practicing at specific times. He's stated that everything that happens to him is the result of upkeeping his routines.” …is what Google says. (I linked the article below)

Superstitions are also a big part of OCD.

I personally think he has OCD!

Thanks a lot for listening! -Jane

#ocd #perfectionism #ocd awareness #actually ocd #ocd things

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tonberry-yoda · 1 year

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Hey there! :DD

I saw your requests are open and I was wondering if I could get an (romantic or platonic, it’s up to you) Overwatch Matchup? Headcanons, or a small drabble if you prefer (cooking or shopping together?)

Sorry, this is gonna be all over the place, but:

I’m a demigirl and gay asf (women iykwim). A bit taller and kinda chubby? My hair is pretty short and I have a tendency to impulsively dye it with wash out colours. I’m also an audhd kid lmao. Born and raised in Austria, so I’m fluent in german as well as english (I know a tiny bit of spanish too!)

I live for cute things!!! It’s round and soft? I need it!But I come of as kinda scary because I dress more punk/alt, which is a shame because I’m touch starved and want a hug real bad. I also have a very strange sense of humor, which I’d need a partner who wouldn’t mind that.

I love vocaloids and goth music and I think that sums up my personality perfectly haha (my favorite musician rn is Shilpa Ray!!!) I listen to music pretty much 24/7.

Ideally, I’d like someone who’s fun to be around, yet still respecting of my boundaries. My love languages are gift-giving, parallel play and physical touch and I’d need a partner who would be excited about randomly getting leaves or just memes from me. I love baking and cooking for people I care about!! I also draw a lot, alongside other creative things like sculpting, photography, cosplay and writing. I tend to stim when really excited and if someone joined me in doing that, it’d actually make me want to marry them or keep them in a glass terrarium to observe their activities. I also just LOVE shopping, even if I don’t end up buying anything.

To sum it up: scary looking chubby girl with a love for cute things and way too many hobbies who makes too many jokes for their own good

I hope that’s alright? Also no pressure to write this at all!!

(Btw I love your writing style!!! <3)

hi there!!! this was perfect!! it was super easy for me to pick a character for you!! and seriously, thanks for asking for an overwatch matchup because i do not do enough overwatch requests lol. alright im rambling, now onto your character!

the character I chose for you is...

MEI!!

like women you say??

LIKE CUTE THINGS YOU SAY???

this is the cutest woman in town!

plus y'all are both a lil chubby making cuddling THE BEST

like cuddles are the absolute best with this girl!

she will 100% help you dye your hair

round and soft you say???

here's your new girlfriend!!

she doesnt mind if you come off as a little scary, if anything, she's obsessed with the dynamic of the both of you

she's super cute and wears just soft outfits and you look all grunge and punk

it's awesome

she likes the music you listen to, but it definitely isn't her go to, so just know that she will be putting on lofi and you will be groaning in the background, waiting for the aux back lmaooo

she LOVES to laugh

she doesnt mind a weirder sense of humor because she definitely has a goofy one

like those really random gen z memes are her shit

send her those at 3am and she will be laughing for hours lmfao

SHE NEEDS PHYSICAL TOUCH AS MUCH AS YOU DO

i mean, she is cold all the time, so warm cuddles are what she needs the most

expect a lot of random hugs from out of nowhere

she loves baking and cooking just as much as you do (that's what your mini fic below is gonna be about tee hee)

please tell her about your hobbies

she loves to see you excited

and please ask about hers

she loves talking to you for hours <3

she thinks it is sweet when you stim, so she will grab your hands and jump in the air with you when you're both excited

definitely not bothered by your adhd at all

she will help you when you need it most

she will 10000% go shopping with you and even end up buying you stuff even when you say she doesnt have to

and you will do the same lmaooo

just know that she loves you with all her heart and couldnt ask for a better girlfriend/partner!! <333

NOW FOR THE MINI FIC TEE HEE

MINI FIC

You giggled and watched Mei as she was fully focused on icing the cake you two had made together. Her tongue was slightly sticking out to help her focus and she had a dot of white icing on her nose.

She pulled back for a second to look the cake over and you needed to help get rid of that icing that was annoying you so much. You kissed her on the nose and licked off the icing making her giggle. "Ew, don't lick me!" She said jokingly, lightly pushing you away.

"You had icing on your nose." You said, taking the piping tool from her to finish up the details on the cake.

"Did I really?" She asked, her face going a bit red.

"Yeah, but it was cute." You stopped icing for a second to give her a kiss on the cheek, making her smile.

"You know, I think this is the best cake we've made yet," she said, putting her hands on her hips proudly. "What do you think, babe?"

"Oh, definitely!" You finished icing the cake, satisfied with your work and stood to admire it for a moment before taking a picture.

"Are we gonna eat the crap outta this thing?" Mei asked, already grabbing a fork.

"Oh hell yeah we are!"

~~~~~

matchup rules --- pinned post

@tonberry-yoda

#i really hope you like it!#mei is such a cutie and it just fit perfectly #writing #fanfic #my writing #fanfiction #<3 #overwatch #overwatch 2 #overwatch x reader #overwatch 2 x reader #ow #ow2 #ow x reader #ow2 x reader #mei #mei overwatch #mei x reader #mei overwatch x reader

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fallout-lou-begas · 2 years

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i uhhhhhh got elden ring for free. you know. cus i didn't wanna waste £50 on a game i might not have liked. so i haven't experienced the sheer terror of the multiplayer invasions bc i can't play online and honestly i think i would have given up faster if i was constantly getting gooned by some fromsoft nolifer who picks on da little guy. sure it also means no co-op but honestly it's making me rely more on getting better so its win win tbh. also update: the ancestor spirit is so cool....

(cont. from this post) Yeah it's not always that bad but when it's bad it's real bad. For every one invasion I've experienced that's well-balanced, interesting, or otherwise just, y'know, actually a fun encounter whether I survive or not (on either side), I've experienced a half dozen others that are a complete curbstomp to where I can't imagine what's in it for the other party besides sadistic pleasure. It's just griefing, plain and simple: getting off on intentionally ruining the game for other people.

That's not to say invasions are inherently griefing, like I just said, sometimes they're a great when everyone's a good sport. But for example, I created a new low-level character the other night to help out new players in the starting areas (since all my other files have weapons too highly upgraded) and multiple times we would get invaded by the same overpowered individual at the same place. You've got these people with high-powered weapons and spells that deal severe blood loss, frostbite, scarlet rot, and other status effects that low-level players literally do not have the tools to deal with, and they only have them because they've either played through the whole game very carefully to remain in the low-level multiplayer pool despite their progress or have just had a friend give them to them. And these people just camp out in the Weeping Peninsula just to invade low-level players trying to get through Castle Morne, or whatever. It just sucks the moon clean out of the sky, especially when you're playing with someone specific and intentionally using the password system, because ultimately Elden Ring co-op is just extremely fun, and people want to have fun, and getting invaded by someone so much more powerful than yourself ruins that fun, so it's a no-brainer why the seamless co-op mod has been as well-received as it is and why it's stolen so much of the playerbase from vanilla multiplayer.

That being said, I keep going back to vanilla multiplayer, because as I've said in a previous post, the combination of nonverbal communication, character customization, and sense of spontaneity reminds me at its best of fucking around in Team Fortress 2. Much like TF2, it's a machine for memorable moments with people you'll only ever know ephemerally. On my aforementioned low-level helper file (btw his name is Hamburger, because he's a helper), I got summoned to help a very obviously brand new player with Fort Haight, funnily enough because he'd intercepted the summon sign I'd left for my husband. When we got to the top of the fort, decided to gift her my character's Reduvia dagger since I wasn't using it myself, and the host picked it up. She switched to dual wielding it with her own Reduvia immediately and started playing around with the dual-wielding moveset, and I could sense her joy and disbelief innately, and then she repeatedly crouched up and down in one of the universal video game gestures of positive emotion (since it's only teabagging if there's an enemy under you). It was amazingly cute! I probably made their whole day! And that's the kind of thing you won't ever really get in the seamless co-op mod, which is much more structured and restricted by design, but it's a shame that invasions are in such a state to where evenly matched invasions are so rare ("evenly matched" even when accounting for the power difference of a 2v1 or even 3v1 in the host's favor, and the invader retaining all of their flasks and not drawing enemy aggro).

And also yes the ancestor spirit is one of the sickest fights in the whole game. I went into it the first time too underleveled to do a lot of damage but too skilled to get hit by its attacks too much, so it was a very long and drawn-out spectacle, and with that music and the whole presentation of the arena and the fight, it truly felt meaningful.

#elden ring #asks

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syds-shitposting-arena · 2 years

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sup nerds

my name is syd but atp u can js call me ud or sud

i'm a trans man, he/him pls!!

i'm just flat out abrosexual at this point bc idk my sexuality- it CHANGES EVERY 3 MONTHS I SWEAR TO SATAN

i have ptsd and DADDY ISSUES

i heart my bf

now the fun part, interests!! (oooooOOoOOo)

BREATH OF THE WILD 🫶

my fav anime like ever is probably jojo's bizarre adventure but i'm not active in the fandom. well, not as active as i used to. you may see a few jojo posts or reblogs every now and then.

i heart the fnaf movie, elvis (2022), priscilla (2023), bob marley one love (2024) [you seeing a pattern?] and the mandela catalogue

i love elvis, icp (vj is a pedo so not anymore uhh), bob marley, afourteen, TEENAGE DISASTER UGHUGJNF thorne marry me please

ayo my spotify playlist(s) are hella messy btw

there's 1k songs on my main and my other playlist is getting near there (it's 100 songs bro nowhere NEAR)

fun facts:

i'm ok at violin but i haven't played in 2983877343 years

i love rollerskating lmao- i don't do it for the tricks tho it's a pretty leisurely ride and hey, it gets me from point A to point B so i'm not gonna complain! i also like to listen to my chaotic playlist while going on a skate, it helps me relax :3

i can draw somewhat good, been attempting realism lately and it's ok ig

^my silly doodles^

oh btw i like satan 👍

I LIKE DRAG AND SOMETIMES DO DRAG MAKEUP AND SHIT also yes i do present femme in drag and yes i'm a masc presenting trans guy out of drag so stfu terfs and transcums

you can add me on scratch! my user is linkyaya, i make games :3

and wattpad, i'm still very active but not in the sense of stories. i'm a reader and commenter!

quotev (dead account dead account) yo

i also have soundcloud and i occasionally make new material buuuuut that's not often nowadays dhujnsuhsn (user is simply syd)

here's some examples

my user is sydthesloth6969 pLEASE ADD ME

okay buh byr

penis

#about me i guess #introductory post #long ass post

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bisexual-bitch-blogs · 3 years

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"Cowya"

( not my drawing btw)

NSFW! Sub Kaeya X Dom Fem Reader

Includes: Mommy kink, male lactation, toys, overstimulation, pegging, slight Somnophilia(?)

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Poor Kaeya was now suffering from the consequences of being Albedo's guinea pig. The experiment took a turn when Klee 'accidentally' poured a random potion into his tea.

The effects of the liquid made the blunette's nipples hard, leaking some sort of white substance and his chest swelled, making his breast bigger than before if possible. However, this made the tall male hold his chest in pain. The white haired alchemist wanted to analyze him further but Kaeya ran away.

-Timeskip-

The tanned male quickly ran through the dark streets towards his shared home. Once he arrived. Kaeya quickly stripped, leaving a trail of clothes onto the ground as he practically tripped into the shower. Letting go of his enlarged chest. Kaeya saw his hard pink nipples were steadily producing a stream of white fluid.

Slowly, he pinched his pink buds which made him cry out. The mysterious fluid splatter onto the shower walls. It hurt yet sent pleasure which awakened his 'junior'. He felt frustrated. He wanted the swelling to go away. The tanned beauty sniffled, tears began to cloud his vision. He needed mommy's help.

! BANG !

"I'm home, baby~ I bought toys!"

Kaeya's eyes widen as he cries out.

" M-Mommy, help!"

There was sounds of bags crashing onto the ground. Familiar quick sounds of footsteps made their way into the bathroom. There stood his lover.

"What happened?!"

The blue lilac eyed man explains, tears running down his face.

"Albedo took me for an experiment. And then Klee dropped a potion into my drink and then all of a sudden m-my chest became bigger! And then it hurt! Then came this strange-! Strange liquid! I tried touching them but it-"

Reader's POV

I kissed him while untying his hair, brushing my hands through his dark turquoise locks. I held him close to me.

"Shhhhh baby your mumbling. Mommy got you new toys. So, be a good boy and go to bed, okay? Mommy will help after grabbing some items to help okay?"

The tall male nodded, making his way to our bedroom. I smirked.

After getting the much needed items. I opened my bedroom door to see Kaeya squirming on the bed, uncomfortably.

I cough to get his attention. He turned to me with a teary red face. I grabbed the suction cups from my bag and placed them onto his chest. It immediately latched onto his leaking buds, sucking whatever the white liquid is. Kaeya moans, loudly, his back arching.

"NNNGH!"

How fascinating. I grabbed lube from the bag next and poured all of it onto the blunette's lower half. My hands made quick work of his throbbing member while rimming him.

"Nggh! Ughnn! Mommy!"

I slipped in a finger then added another one. Before he knew it. I had 4 fingers thrusting in and out of his wet hole. Suddenly, he tightens around my fingers.

"Aahh!"

Kaeya came onto his stomach, panting. I smiled.

"Oh? That was much faster than I thought. Mommy isnt finished yet though baby. Or should I say my little calf since I'm milking you?"

Taking my fingers out. He whines at the loss of fill. I took a pink pill like shaped vibrator from the bag and shoved it deeply into the tanned male's hole. I made sure it was at the lowest setting before starting.

Putting on the new bright blue 14 in sized strap on. I entered, shoving into his abused hole all the way in, not bothering to wait for him to adjust.

" Aahh! Mommy!"

He came for the second time.

" Your very sensitive today, baby. I didnt even get to set our toy inside you to the max. How about you moo for me and I'll start moving?"

At my words. I set the vibrator to the max. He thrashes not knowing whether to escape or grind against me for more.

"M-M-Mooo~"

I gripped his hips still before pulling out my cock and slamming it back in.

"NNgghhh!."

Thrusting in and out, I took one of his leg over my shoulder and pounded him. He screams.

" Mommy! Mommy! Mommy! NgH!"

Kaeya chanted like a prayer. He came again for the 3rd this night. After a few rounds, Kaeya's words became incoherent babbles of mooing sounds. Fucked out of his mind as his mouth was wide open, drooling, his tongue sticking out and his eyes were rolled to the back of his head.

I spanked his fat ass.

"Are you sleeping on mommy? Either way Mommy will fuck you until daylight."

At the end of my sentence. The male came for the th time then fell unconscious, his body twitches as he slept. I stopped for a moment to take of the suction cups. I licked the mysterious white fluid leftover on his rosy bud. A wonderous flavor exploded in my mouth.

"Delicious,"

The machine collected almost a gallon of Kaeya's milk.

"Speaking of milk. We ran out. He wouldn't mind tasting his own milk right, my little Cowya?"

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Fun fact: Reader was the one who told Klee to pour the potion into Kaeya's drink.

Sorry if he is OOC.

#genshin impact #x reader #nswf post #kaeya ragnvindr #kaeya x reader #genshin x reader #genshin kaeya #genshin imagines #genshin impact x reader

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k8felge · 2 years

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[ @kittyboyrobin was going 2 write a bunch in the tags but. it's an essay atp so i'm writing here LOL. this is a bit of a ramble / long post on my experience with batman so don't feel like u have to read everything - there will be TL;DRs throughout - i just have a lot to say on this in general. and i also have adhd lol. once again though, i don't expect anyone to read this all the way through but if you do - thank you!! ]

okay. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!!! oh my god this is literally the biggest joke the universe has pulled on me. bc i used to be you. looking at ppl draw, write, and talk about superheroes going "um... smile and wave y'all!!" ( i know u didn't mean it maliciously btw i'm just making fun of my situation LOL )

when the marvel infinity war shit was going down i felt like an outsider looking in because it was so much information to keep up on and everyone just Knew what was going on. and it was so bizarre seeing people just act like knowing all the movies ( or those ppl who actually read the comics ) before watching infinity war or whatever was normal. i had seen like 4 movies at the time and it was all so very stressful, considering the fact that i was in high school at the time so i literally did not have enough time to like. scratch the surface with it.

because of the stress that came about from that time, i was put off from superhero movies and media for a WHILE. so i never thought i would EVER get into dc or marvel like. on a fandom level? but i think that's also because it was one of those interests i consumed as a kid - and when you revisit something you were into as a kid, it's kinda... jarring to see people "fandom-ifying" it if that makes sense. it's like you have that moment of realization where you go "Oh huh. I guess I didn't realize people could do that? and that people still like this. Huh." and you stand there for a second, looking at these people. and then you eventually move on with your life, right? WELL... it's a long story.

first, i think i need to establish some context because it can help justify WHY i became so suddenly obsessed with these superheroes. so, yes. this is going to be a very long post. what the hell, it already is.

i grew up with batman. i can't say i grew up with marvel, because for me it was tobey maguire's spiderman - not marvel. a lot of kids grew up with '02 spiderman so this isn't news. but batman - i grew up watching batman the animated series since my dad was a huge batman nerd, he wrote a college paper on batman and he even has a first edition hq print of batman: the killing joke!! but i digress. what I'm trying to say is that it really helped that my dad also had a lot of love for the series. the score in batman: tas is incredible and the animation is still so good, you can really tell that they put a lot of love into the series. the show aired '92 so i was literally growing up watching this - so it's a core memory.

flash forward to 2005 - batman begins comes out, and my dad buys it on DVD as soon as he can. the movie was so cool - here batman was in real life - and my mind was blown!! i never watched any of the old batman movies, so this was my first introduction to live-action batman. the nolanverse movies were a refreshing take on a series i had only seen animated as a kid, but i know i preferred the animated series' noir story-telling in comparison to the action-packed scenes in the nolan movies. ( scarecrow's actor was foine as hell tho * lip bite emoji * )

now LASTLY flash forward to 2009 - rocksteady makes batman: arkham asylum, and holy shit. my brothers were CRAZYY for this game let me tell you. if you don't already know, this game helped pave the way for other superhero games that would release afterward, a common example being the spiderman games. i remember watching my brother play these games because the stealth mechanics scared me ( and also the game was just? STRAIGHT UP TERRIFYING? and it still holds up to this day - the tone and atmosphere of the first game are unrivaled with the sequels that would follow. ) I want to say we didn't get it on release, though I can't remember.

Then the sequel, arkham city, releases (2011) and my brother is ALL over it. i had watched my brother play the first game, so you know i was going to watch him play this one. and this one had so much more!! when i was playing the arkham games later for myself, i remembered sooo much more about arkham city because my brother would play this game so much. i think he replayed it more than i can count - and despite me not playing this one either, the story was still so engaging my dad - being the batman buff he is - even got the special edition statue/figure + controller for the game, which was funny because i don't think we understood why our dad was THAT into it.

THEN AGAIN, another sequel comes out ( there was another one but we didn't get it ) called arkham knight - we get the special arkham edition ps4 that comes with the game. this one's a different story though, my same brother played and beat this game - but i never saw past the opening part of the game ( the opening is really fucking good though, i remembered it vividly as i played arkham knight ). I don't know why i didn't bother to watch, but i guess i just had other things. i felt my focus on batman slipping away finally - but i still loved the series to death. i was just simply getting into other fandoms for the first time, i think i want to say mlp was my hyperfix around that time.

TL;DR (#1) - batman was a big part of my childhood - largely batman: the animated series, the christopher nolan movies, and watching my brother play the batman: arkham games. i lost interest in batman as a whole around the fourth game's release (2015) due to other hyperfixations.

okay now flash forward to the present: i wanna say early october? my boyfriend is streaming injustice in discord, and i don't know anything about this game. it has a slew of dc characters i'm not familiar with, save for the batman ones. but now he's playing this stage with a stage transition and in comes scarecrow - but more specifically his arkham version. and i'm staring at the screen in awe because it's been like what? 10 years since i had laid eyes with arkham asylum's scarecrow - and here he is beating the shit out of the character in a fucking stage transition. it's one of the coolest things i've ever seen, because the 10-year-old in me that watched my brother play arkham asylum is jumping up and down. i didn't remember how obsessed i was with batman until i had that moment of just. unfiltered nostalgia. i was hooked again. there was another stage transition with the arkham city designs of the batman rogues - and i remember my bf, my friend jar, and i were just yelling off all of the characters in surprise as the animation showed them all. it was too fucking good.

[ here's the stage transition in question if you're interested. needle tw for scarecrow's hand needle things ]

and because this is what. early october? i had yet to figure out a halloween costume - and my ass was obsessed with scarecrow's arkham design again, so i decided to make that my halloween costume!! i don't have any good pictures because there's still some work to be done with it but i made everything myself on that baby. if you haven't noticed already, i really like scarecrow. ( which is funny because i don't even think he was my FAVORITE favorite as a kid? but the whole fear toxin thing is so good. )

as i'm working on my costume throughout october, i buy the arkham games on sale and start arkham asylum. oh my god. it's wayyy creepier than i remembered and the graphics were surprisingly still good? the combat was a little janky but i quickly got used to it, but my god. the story is seriously so good in these games, i'm largely biased because i know there's flaws with each game - but they're all so good in my book. and the stealth was not even that bad - in fact i was enjoying the stealth segments the most - this game seriously makes it so fun. if you ever want to try to get into batman, i would recommend picking up the games on steam when they're on sale. there's a good mix of combat and stealth so you're never really tired of it. also the combat is fucking rhythm-based - even if it feels janky in asylum, it feels so rewarding when you eventually master it.

TL;DR (#2) - beginning of oct. my bf streams injustice 1 in vc and i get a nostalgia trip for batman, so i play the arkham games for the first time. i make my halloween costume the arkham asylum scarecrow. and i have a lot of fucking fun playing the first two arkham games.

and the last part of this ESSAY?? this was supposed to be like 3 paragraphs at most. what the hell happened. okay whatever. the next part goes that batman: arkham knight ( technically the fourth game in the arkham series but this was the third arkham game i played ) goes into the backstory of another character whom i played briefly in injustice 2 ( i played this game a little bit after my bf showed injustice 1 ) and ZAMN. people say the story in this game is lacking but gawtdam my bar is in hell bc this game fucked me upppp brah. also, scarecrow was back * heart eyes emoji * but that's beside the point.

so now i'm interested in this character... i feel myself going ill... and i find out there's an animated movie ( based off of a comic for him ) and i just HAVE to watch it. i finally get my grubby little hands on HBO because everything dc is fucking locked on there and BEHOLD!! i watch the movie. but then i watch some more dc movies. and shows ( the harley quinn show is actually really funny ) and now my same dc friend and my bf are telling me i gotta watch the flashpoint movie. so i do. and then we watch more dc movies - not just batman. and well. that's the end of my story because that's where i am now. i'm doing fanart of fucking hal jordan green lantern who i never thought i would ever draw in my life. and now i know who each of the robins are and who fucking. reverse flash is. this is my life now i don't know what went wrong. something happened. something shifted. but NOW YOU KNOW * grabs you and shakes you around * NOW YOU KNOW WHY I HAVE LOST MY LIFE TO THESE SUPERHEROES. I CAN'T GO BACK I CAN'TTTT

[ also side note: i watched the new venom movie prior to this ( it was really good! i liked it a lot. ) and then i watched the first venom. and then the trailer for spiderman no way home drops - teasing the old spiderman villains i saw as a kid. another nostalgia trip for child-me to grab in her small, trembling hands. and - mind you - this happened before and during the same time as my aforementioned batman/dc craze. i think i may have adhd /hj ]

TL;DR (#3) - arkham knight introduces me to a new batman character, and goes over his backstory enough but i want to know more. i find out there's a movie for him on hbo, which has almost everything dc. i watch it and i watch more dc movies + shows, but not just batman. now i'm drawing fanart of other dc characters and i look extremely ill. also on a side note i also am excited for the new spiderman movie. THE END

#I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENED WITH ME OKAY. I DON'T !!! KNOW #apologies for this unnecessarily long post but i have a lot to say. you don't have 2 read all of this robin bc i said a Lot #but i really did want to write down my feelings about this so thank u for prompting this in a way :]#i don't often write these long blurbs so this was a neat experience #this is like a love letter to batman i guess. i'll write an essay on batman at this point idgaf #also i apologize if i over-explain things about dc/batman u already know - i just want to prevent any possible confusion #long post #rambles #batman #dc

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omnicom · 4 years

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Pokeshipping Week 2020

Day Five (5): Studio Gh*bli AU

Decided to change this day’s theme just because I wanted to do the Studio Gh*bli AU theme more~ And I wasn’t sure where to take First Times, so...

I brainstormed with some of the lesser known (less popular?) works because I really like some of Gh*bli’s quieter films. Only Y*sterd*y, When M*rnie was Th*re, and Wh*sper of the H*art to name a few. Originally, I was going to do Only Y*sterd*y but due to time, I decided to change it to Wh*sper of the H*art as it was smaller scale. Initially, I didn’t want to go with a straight homage to the poster/cover for the film but I also didn’t want to spoil the movie for anyone who hasn’t seen it. So, hope this isn’t too boring~

Thinking, though, that if I get enough time I might do a bonus drawing to what I wanted to draw with Only Y*sterd*y in mind. It might be fun but like I said a lot of work. We’ll see~

(btw, the asterisks in the names are just so they don’t pop up in those tags. This post is more Pokemon than anything else, and I don’t want people who follow those tags get something only very tangentially related.)

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skypxllar · 2 years

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[OOC] Reflection

Oh goodness it's been so long since I posted on this blog. It's kind of weird to make a follow-up post over a year after you make such a grande post announcing your departure. Heck, I haven't even re-read the whole thing in a long time.

Wait. Hold on. Let me just....

Ah. That’s much better. Name’s Skye now btw. Don’t go by Bagon anymore.

Anyway, I know that there are people around that may know some of this, especially the few people I kept in contact with, but I wanted to make an official post clearing the air about what's been going on and maybe giving an update on my life. It’s a little long so I’ll post it under a READ MORE.

Since leaving this blog behind, I've moved to a suburb (and soon to move back to my hometown) and started working nights at my job. In addition, my life has drastically slowed down, giving me the time to work on my mental health and rediscover who I am, what I want from life, and what I want to do with myself. I've taken a back look at my past, my hobbies, my sexuality. I've come out to my family and friends as ace/aro. I've taken up drawing and music and streaming Genshin Impact and some *slight* game development recently. Most notably, I've taken the time to... just take my time. I've been on such a rapid pace and tight schedule for so much of my life that everything feels like a roller coaster. I'm not going to bore you with my life's story (plus, I think a good chunk of people know it already), but since joining the RPC in May 2016, I've gone through and dropped out of college, was forced to endure living with my abusive mother until she kicked me out, and then go from relying on a friend to prevent from being homeless to being fortunate enough to find a job and comfortably live on my own (and then with a few friends in a suburb somewhere).

Last year when I left tumblr, I was depressed, unsatisfied with my life, and just desperately let life pass me by. Now, since taking the time for myself, talking with a therapist, slowing down my life, and picking up a hobby or two, I think I can proudly say that I’m, at the very least, going in the right direction again. My friends (both close and long-distance) all care about me. I have a small idea of what I want for myself. I have a plan in place. And I’m back to enjoying my hobbies. It’s honestly so refreshing to know that I went from nearly in a mental gridlock to my current state in just a year, and I hope it only gets better from here on out.

When it comes to Tumblr, I felt so trapped. Being on this blog was fun, but it was stressful. This is going to sound weird honestly, but ever since my first year here, I felt so overwhelmed here. I would say one thing as a joke or an aside, and suddenly I would get several messages from others (mutuals, friends, non-mutuals, etc.) commenting about it at once. While this was fun every here and there, sometimes it became a little too much and caused me to stress out in the very place that I was supposed to enjoy myself. I still remember back when I got asks accusing my muses of terrible things that would cause me to freak out, or when I tried to appease certain people, only to have them harass my friends and try to drag me into plotting some uh... not great things with my muses (I swear. It’s always Zinnia that gets dragged into this lmao) or when I made a Cynthia blog for self-confirmation that people aren’t just talking to me because I was “popular” or whatever. I remember the “Nazi Cynthia” incident that caused me a panic attack. I remember those times that I would make a random, silly comment before bed, only to feel the need to stay awake as 5-10 people would message me commenting about it or replying to it. Needless to say, I didn’t have a healthy relationship with this site and it was only fueling my feeling of being lost and trapped in my life, so I left (you can probably go back and read my goodbye post if you want the full, unfiltered feelings on the matter though).

I want to thank you all for the several years that we’ve spent together. I know my departure was sudden and that I said that I would never return, but a year of change prompted me to reflect. I know that I’ve confused or pissed off several of you with my actions from a year ago, and, to that I have two things to say: firstly, I’m sorry that I had chosen to cut you off. You deserved better than what I had done and I should have communicated with you in a healthier manner. That being said, I don’t expect you to forgive me, nor do I want things to go back to the way things once were. At risk of vagueposting, there are some people that I cut off like that for a reason, and I know that going back to them will only either inflict main onto me or tempt them to try to drag me back in the cycle that I worked so hard to get out of.

Anyway, all of this is to say that I’ve changed for the better and that I want to thank you all for everything that you guys have done for me. If you read this far, thank you so much for hearing me out. It really means a lot.

Now, let’s get to the final task at hand: this blog. Because of the associations with this blog and some fears of mine, I’m afraid that I’m going to continue to archive this blog. I don’t think I can return here anymore without thinking of the pain and suffering or the risk of falling into old habits.

So, am I going to be on Tumblr at all then? Well, I’ve actually made a new blog 6 months ago. You can find it here: https://mxstball.tumblr.com/ (I can’t @ my own blog lmao). This blog still features all of the fun kids that you are familiar with, and I’m even continuing to plot there. Feel free to stop by and follow if you wish to see me, but just know that I may be a bit more slow to follow than before. I’ve been loving the feeling of being small to the point where I debated even linking it in the first place.

As for anywhere else? Well, here are some things:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/SkyeTrickster Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/skyetrickster Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/sky-trickster Itch.io: https://skyetrickster.itch.io/

I do have a Discord as well, but I’m not as keen to post it here, y’know? If you want that, dm me either here or on mxstball.

I’ll pop online here every day for a few days in case someone wants to message me and ask something, but otherwise, I hope you guys have a wonderful day and I hope you have a good life.

#ooc #mod #out of dragons #updates #blog updates #//insert comment about 'last post? lol'#//this is mostly posted for closure for myself #//but if anyone wants to talk then feel free to.#//there are a few people that I need to reach out to anyway

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phalene33 · 3 years

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Choptop x Kat (OC) Part 2

Nubbins is alive in well in this story btw.

Warning: Mention of sexual things

Choptop and I had a wonderful time together, and because he agreed to give me the album after I came to one of his band practices, I decided to drive him home. I was immediately greeted by Drayton who mentioned that I said I would have dinner with them. I got out of the car and walked inside with the two brothers. What I noticed first was a rather large man who nervously sat at the dinner table. His mask looked different but I shrugged it off knowing my own since of style isn't the norm either.

We had a nice dinner together, and I could tell that Choptop's twin brother was just as energetic as he was. At one point he got up and chased me around the house. What was the reason? Don't know but Drayton took care of him. After dinner I was about to leave, but I was pulled into a living room. Decorated with suspicious looking bones. Choptop told me they were from a Halloween store. I don't know how much I actually believe it, but it's the only normal reasoning they would have them.

Choptops younger brother, who I found out was named Bubba, put in a movie for us to watch. The movie was called "Tangled". "Ugh not this one again, come on Bubba does she look like the kind of girl who would want to watch this crap." Drayton grumbles off and looks over at me. "Oh my little sister Link loves this movie. I don't mind watching it with you guys." I give Bubba a reassuring smile. Drayton just groaned again and kept quiet. As the movie played Choptop would mention something about each scene. He especially liked the music bits and we both sang along together at those parts.

"R-Rapunzel should have k-killed that bitch sooner." I chuckle to myself. "Maybe you should make a parody movie so she can kill mother Gothel sooner." He looks at me and smiles. "I w-would be a very p-pretty princess." "I'd bang you whether or not you were a prince or a princess." I focus my attention back to the movie. "H-he so wants t-to fuck R-Rapunzel." I roll my eyes at his comment. "Bobby this is a children's movie." "S-so what?" I heard an auditable sigh come from Drayton. "Would ya shut up and watch the damn movie?! And stop saying such dirty things around our guest." "Oh sh-she don't care! R-Right Kat?" I just shrug and ignore them both.

For the most part Nubbins was quiet. I think it was mostly because he didn't care for the movie. But some scenes he was quiet interested in what was going on. "Th-The f-fuck boy is g-going to die! Yes! Yes! W-wait?! No! D-Don't save him!" Bubba was quiet emotionally invested in this movie which I found was cute. He would gasp whenever something intense happened and would squeal in happiness when a romantic scene was on. Speaking of romantic scenes. Chop put his arms around me when the first one came on. But after that things got too intense between us whenever Flynn and Rapunzel were doing their thing. Chop would not stop trying to kiss me. I knew this man for about 2 days and I've never met anyone who was this quick to get into a relationship. As the good girl I was I'd push him away everytime he would pull me in for a kiss. Eventually I settled on letting him kiss my cheek because I'm a people pleasure and I could tell Bubba would get happy when Chop kissed me.

After the movie I yawned and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. "Eh I'll see you guys later I better head home." I stand up about to leave but arms behind me grabbed my waist and pulled me into them. "H-Have dinner w-with us again th-this Friday. L-lets hang out t-tomorrow a-also." I nod and gave Chop my phone number and agreed to have dinner with them again.

The rest of the week Choptop would not stop calling me. Even late at night when I was trying to go to sleep. Sometimes I wouldn't be able to hear what he's talking about because he would have his radio blasting in the background. So I figured he just wanted to hang out with me. I call him up on Thursday and ask him to come over to my place to hung out. He sounded really excited. Not even 30 minutes later I could see his truck driving quickly down my driveway. No wonder the damn engine overheated.

I sigh getting up and open the door. Choptop was already at the door. "Hey Choptop, come in, we can listen to music together and talk." "O-Okay!" Choptop runs to my couch and turns on the radio that was on the nearby table. "D-Do women e-ever look at their b-boobs in the m-mirror?" I set next to him. "I don't personally nor have I seen anyone else do that." Choptop think about this for a minute then continues. "H-How many sex t-toys do you h-have?" I look at him for a second. "What? Uhh that's none of your business you.. Umm... British teeth looking ass." Choptop gives me a confused look and scratches his plate. "Wh-What do you do for fun?" "I like doing art related things such as drawing and painting. I make pin designs and I do some sculpting with air dry clay. I'll take up any artistic hobby as long as I find an interest in it." Choptop gets really excited once he heard this. "C-Could you make m-me a Iron B-Butterfly pin?!" I smile to myself. "Of course, would you like me to make you another pin?" "Y-Yes please, make one for me b-but don't tell me what it i-is, I wanna find out when I-I get it." I nod and pat him. "Alright well I'll do that for you." Choptop hugs me tightly. "Th-Thank you, a-and I'll make something for you too."

A day later Choptop showed up at my house again. He seemed to be hiding something behind his back. "Hey I finished your pins." I hand him the Iron Butterfly pin and another pin that looked tie dyed. "I-I drew you something, i-its not p-perfect but I-I worked hard on i-it."

I look at the picture and smile. "Aww I love it it's so cute, I'll hang this up on my wall in my bedroom." I hug Choptop tightly as he hugs back. "Th-Thanks, a-and don't forget y-your having d-dinner with me a-and my family tonight." I nod in understanding and take Choptop to my couch where we talk about whatever pops up in his head.

Part 2 is finally done. I'll do a part 3 if I decide I want to continue this or if someone asks for one.

#chop top #chop top sawyer #tcm 2 #texas chainsaw massacre #the texas chainsaw massacre #slasher community #slasher fandom #chop top x reader #slasher fucker #x reader

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