Well, just reminiscing and it’s almost 1 year since my suicide date, last October and the October before that, but it was less serious. A lot has changed and I haven’t self harmed in almost one year, as well. No, I’m not weak for wanting to commit suicide, no I’m not weak for wanting to self harm, no I’m not weak for hurting but I’m strong for healing as much as I can with the time I’m given. Yes, I was drugged and on PCP when I planned to kill myself and I’m glad that I went to the hospital to get help at a mental facility that day because I had Covid and was admitted to the hospital and found out I was very intoxicated and I didn’t know why. It was normal for that to happen but the PCP was not a good trip for me or the amphetamines. I was going to commit suicide because I didn’t feel like myself and didn’t feel like my life was worth living but something kept me from doing it that day and I’ve made it almost a year longer than I thought I could have. Maybe it was the fact another person committed suicide at the same park I went to that day.. but, I keep going for myself but I also do it, even more so, for my children. What mother would I be if I didn’t live for them as hard as it is to feel everything so deeply. Deepest wishes and condolences to them, love you always. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 #suicdeawareness #sextraffickingsurvivor #rainbowbabies

I made this song when I was battling depression and a bad addiction happy to still be here today

My new song Toxic is available on all streaming sites

@yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou thanks for the words to help shine some light

20 years. I can't even believe it's been that long since I've heard your voice. I think about you all the time still and I hope you know how much you're missed. Thank you for being someone I could count on and someone who cared about me. I love you and I will miss you forever Nicole. “I guess by now I should know enough about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone-you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.”

Vent art, i wouldn’t be here without my cat Uffe <3

Safe to say I don't want to be alive anymore

I have to go to the hospital to visit a friend of mine who is transgender today. She attempted to take her life.A lot of people think it's easy being Transgender and to get to where I did which is fully female I can tell you it isn't easy to get here and many transgender people don't make it and get lost in the system and don't get to be their true self and that is sad. My friend is at Grey nuns hospital here in Edmonton I can tell u when I was early on in my transition and I was in grey nuns hospital for the same thing I was lost in the system and getting no help in my transition and decided that if I couldn't transition I didn't want to live. I was lucky I made it but many trans people don't I have been in grey nuns hospital I can tell u it's a shit hole. In the cell they put you in with a steel toilet and a bed that is basically a piece of plywood platform with a mattress thrown on top and a steel sink it's a jail cell. I have been there at this hospital and I sat alone in there with no one coming to visit me. That's why I am going to see my friend today and see how she's doing. I hope she gets out soon. It saddens me to see my transgender friends in the hospital because they attempted to end everything because of not being able to transition or because of family who turn their back people because of who they are. There are a lot of things that can happen. They need to make the transition process here in Alberta Canada easier for trans individuals. I can tell you that even once you get to where I am which is fully transitioned you still face discrimination I just got pushed out of my home by Boardwalk REIT LLP AKA Boardwalk Properties a major apartment rental here in Canada due to the symptoms of my disabilities and because of my gender identity being Transgender. So even once you get to where I am you still face discrimination on the basis of who u are. Don't rent From Boardwalk they are scum! #transgendered #suicide #transgendercommunity #suicideawarness #stopsuicide #transwomenarewomen #translesbian #transgender #transgendersuicide #transmenaremen #lgbt #lgbtqia #lgbtq #hardknocklife #noteasy #discrimination #family #translife #translivesmatter (at Grey Nuns Community Hospital) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpSz5IOpjR_/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Child suicide article very sad yet something that deserves to be remembered since people tend to forget suicide has always existed in children

Never decrease your value based on someone's inability to see your worth. Re-read that again if need be!

LEAVES

Today's weather was extremely windy.

I gazed at the fresh young leaves

 that had fallen on the ground 

as I strolled about;

 they were not yet old enough to fall.

Have they given up?

They were just not

Strong enough

They simply lacked the 

required strength.

Others did not fall. They stayed despite the harsh 

and unfair wind that sought to 

separate them from their tree.

I'm one of them that stayed, 

and as I will

always find myself standing still 

in these windstorms.

 I hope you do as well.

Love letters to my depression.

You and I have been together for so long now. I am sure you will never leave me. We've been together for more than forty years, and we have been through some shit. For now I'm just gonna talk about this century. Who knows, maybe I'll feel like talking about the last century later on. I'm going to try everyday to write about something and how I did or didn't really get through it. Talk about self medication. For me, it was opiates. That blessed numbness that overrides your emotions. Hopefully this will be therapeutic for me and maybe helpful to someone else who may be struggling.

I love Picrew. The story behind this her twin sister died in by suicide, but her sister still visits her grave every night no matter what the weather is.

My sweet beautiful friend, I'm writing this today because you've been on my mind a lot lately. I never realized that meeting you at 8 years old you'd have such a significant part in my life. Growing up together was filled with laughs and goofiness mixed with some sadness and hard times. Getting to share such important memories with you is something I will cherish forever. Both being only children having each other was like having the sister I always wanted. Losing you in such an awful way is still difficult and I still have a hard time with it. I want you to know that I will miss you forever and until my time on earth is done and we finally meet again, I will keep your memory alive and in my heart. I love you forever

Sad pokemon comic :( <3

"No one ever talks to me. I'm alone in the world. But somehow, I've got a feeling once I finally go through with it. People at my funeral say, ' I don't know why he did it.' ~Madd Maxxx - Fuck Life

SUICIDE AWARENESS QUOTE 2 OF 3 Tuesday, September 27, 2022

"Suicide is a form of murder - premeditated murder. It isn't something you do the first time you think of doing it. It takes getting used to. And you need the means, the opportunity, the motive. A successful suicide demands good organization and a cool head, both of which are usually incompatible with the suicidal state of mind." - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted

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