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thishazbinamistake · 4 months

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In my opinion, Loona is a character with some of the most wasted potential in Helluva Boss.

Though we don't have a ton of information about her background, we do know she lived in a shelter for much (or maybe even all) of her childhood. Loona is cold and distant to her adoptive father, and outright rude to many others, particularly Moxxie, who she constantly mocks and belittles. I'm thinking that this behavior is either a result of her upbringing, or perhaps it was even the reason she was put into the shelter to begin with. But until more is revealed about her past, I want to complain about the way she's currently written.

Loona is abusive, plain and simple. The way she treats Blitz, her adoptive father, goes way past simple angsty teenage rebellion and well into the abuse territory. Any semblance of Loona being remotely sympathetic was thrown out the window in Seeing Stars, when she kicks Blitz in the groin, all because he was relieved to see her and wanted to give her a hug. And all of that after she gives Octavia the "cut your dad some slack" speech.

I've seen people try and defend this behavior by pointing out that Loona has childhood trauma, and this is why she has these behavioral issues. It's certainly not unheard of for victims of childhood abuse/neglect to have anger issues and poor emotional regulation, and I would have absolutely no problem with this being the case if it was shown to actually be a problem, but it isn't. Not once does Loona get called out for her behavior or face any sort of consequence for treating others poorly. If anything, this abusive behavior is treated as a joke more often than not.

It's extremely ironic that one of the most despised characters in Helluva Boss, Stella, receives so much hate for being abusive towards Stolas, when we've seen Loona do far worse to Blitz. I honestly cannot think of a logical reason as to why we're supposed to like Loona, while also hating Stella. We see Stella nearly hit Stolas and it's (rightfully) treated as being abusive. But when Loona is constantly beating up her dad for no good reason, we're just supposed to laugh? It seems extremely hypocritical on both the writers' part, as well as many of the fans'. I honestly can't tell if the writers genuinely think this behavior is okay (when it's coming from Loona) or if they just see it as a quirky character trait of hers.

If we're supposed to find Loona likeable, which we clearly are, then the writers seriously need to start making some changes. I'm not saying they should just completely retcon Loona's character and suddenly make her nice, but they do need to start being consistant with how they portray abuse, and they seriously need to stop excusing and coddling her horrible behavior, regardless of if she has childhood trauma. That is not how you grow as a person and overcome your issues. Yes, it's a process that is often long and difficult, but it hasn't been shown that Loona is actually trying to make any change at all, or that anyone is actually encouraging her to change.

If you want an actually halfway decent example of a character overcoming their trauma (at least within the Hellaverse) look no further than Blitz himself. It's clear his father was abusive and explotative towards him, not to mention he accidentally caused the death of his mother and the maiming of his close friend. Both of these things likely contributed to many of Blitz's flaws and issues as an adult. But the thing is, despite all that, Blitz himself isn't abusive to his daughter. He has shown nothing but unconditional love and devotion to his daughter despite his past. I'm not saying Blitz is a perfect character by any means (I won't excuse him literally threatening to rape his employees), but it really goes to show this whole argument of 'Loona acts the way she does because she has childhood trauma and that makes it okay' doesn't hold up to scrutiny as much as her stans seem to think.

I think a good idea would be to start showing more of how Loona's behavior negatively affects those around her, something which would give her the motivation to want to change. Show how hurt Blitz feels whenever Loona lashes out at him. We get a taste of this in Spring Broken when she hurts Blitz's feelings, but it's clear from both her dialogue in the scene as well as her later actions that the writers apparently don't want her to actually learn from her mistakes and grow as a character, which is such a shame.

Loona had the opportunity to be an extremely complex and compelling character if her aggression and violent outbursts were actually addressed as being a problem she needed to overcome, and if she actually tried changing herself for the better. Seeing the effort she puts into treating others better and breaking the cycle of abuse would have made her character feel so much stronger and more likeable. But instead, the show just treats this abusive behavior as a quirky, edgy joke and "lol that's just classic Loona!! What can ya do lol!!!"

She does have her moments where a good character actually shines through, but they're so few and far in between. I want to like Loona so much, but as it currently stands, I just can't, and that makes me sad.

#helluva boss critical #vivziepop critical #loona critical

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chaifootsteps · 3 months

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I think this show brings out the worsts in the creators/stans. One of the artists for the show (or maybe they're just a stan? I can't remember with Dani-Draws), drew a comic of Charlie offering to star in one of Valentino's films so he'd let Angel go.

And in the comic for it, Charlie's about to do a scene with a Hellhound who looks suspiciously like Loona.

Plus I recently saw a comic of Lucifer r*ping Adam (if it isn't r*pe it's at the very least non-con since they use the same 'joke' with Sir Pentious from episode 6, but with Adam instead)

I hate it here

They're a ratio of degeneracy to puritanism that shouldn't be physically possible. It's mindboggling.

#Anonymous #vivziepop fandom #viv stuff #actual blog post #rape mention

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mikaroji · 3 months

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KNY music headcannons - modern AU

this was 100% inspired by @peachdies, because radiohead and giyuu go together a little to well

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❀ Himejima Gyomei - IDK man, I feel like his top Spotify track of the year would be "peaceful river noises" or "subtle ocean sounds." He probably also listens to a good amount of alternative rock like the Cranberries. His guilty pleasure is Dua Lipa, but don't tell anyone that.

❀ Shinazugawa Sanemi - Dad rock for SURE. Gets down to Guns n Roses, Def Leppard, and Van Halen. Is secretly a HUGE Nicki Minaj stan, but would literally die before anyone found that out. I had to come back to him after writing this cause MY GOD HE'S ALSO SUCH A LANA DEL REY FAN LMAO.

❀ Obani Iguro - Refuses to pay for Spotify premium but also constantly skips songs so half of his listening time is ads. He likes grunge punk like the Garden and Foo Fighters, but secretly cries to Mitski.

❀ Tokito Muichiro - Super into the indie scene and only a little bit pretentious about it. Strokes, Pixies, Arctic Monkeys - super vibey.

❀ Tomioka Giyuu - Listens to actual underground music and a lot of smaller bands, but also listens to a lot of Radiohead and the likes. Went through a huge emo phase with Panic! at the Disco and My Chemical Romance and still cries to Helena from time to time.

❀ Rengoku Kyojuro - Imagine Dragons makes him hyped for the morning:D But alongside that he actually has some banger music taste as well. Gets down to some City Girls and Nicki Minaj from time to time. Not afraid to shake some ass.

❀ Kanroji Mitsuri - Love love loves pop and dabbles in k-pop as well! I'm thinking Doja Cat, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Lizzo, Loona, Red Velvet, and the likes. Enjoys dancing around to it as she gets ready in the morning and holds her own little concerts in her room.

❀ Kocho Shinobu - A true toss up I think. I can see her liking metal like Slipknot and Korn, but I also see her as a Fiona Apple lover so it's hard.

❀ Uzui Tengen - God he's so unbearable. Listens to a lot of soundcloud stuff and thinks he's better than you because of it. He probably also listens to a lot Lady Gaga and will probably play you a super popular song of her's like Just Dance and say something like "it's super underground you probably haven't even heard it."

❀ Kamado Tanjiro - AJR and Imagine Dragons, probably.

❀ Kamado Nezuko - Physically cringes when her brother turns his music on. She's eclectic, though. She hangs out around Mitsuri and Kanao a lot, so bubblegum pop and goth are worming their way into her heart. Traditionally she enjoys a lot of indie pop, though (think Clairo and such.)

❀ Shinazugawa Genya - Dad rock like Sanemi, except more refined somehow. He also branches out more and got super into QUEEN and the Rolling Stones.

❀ Tsuyuri Kanao - Godly music taste, I'm convinced she and Giyuu are silently judging everyone. Goth music but like real good goth music (as a goth music enjoyer I'm projecting.) Joy Division, Depeche Mode, Type O Negative, all the classics.

❀ Hashibira Inosuke - I don't know man....... He probably plays all of his music off of a rock. I seriously cannot decide for him. Probably listens to whatever his friends are listening to.

❀ Agatsuma Zenitsu - ONE DIRECTION BABY. But for real, I feel like he would love love love the Beach Boys! A BLACKPINK fan as well.

❀ Kokushibo - He and Kanao would get along so well because I also think he's another goth king, probably more like a Sisters of Mercy type of guy. He hates Douma's music taste, and will eavesdrop on Akaza playing Phoebe Bridgers from time to time and get emotional.

❀ Douma - BLASTS Megan thee Stallion throughout the infinity castle and knows every word to every one of her songs.

❀ Akaza - Phoebe Bridgers fan until the day he dies.

❀ Kibutsuji Muzan - White noise.

#demon slayer #demon slayer hcs #hashira hcs #hashira headcannons #tengen uzui #kny sanemi #sanemi shinaguzawa #genya shinazugawa #shinobu kocho #Rengoku #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer imagines #kokushibo #rengoku hcs

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beautifulpersonpeach · 5 months

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I’ve been reading your blog for the better part of the year and it’s helped me rethink many things. This year was weird for me and I’ve been reflecting, I finally got courage to write this confession and I only feel comfortable sending it here. It’s okay if you post it. I think there are other people like me.

My Confession:

I’m an Orbit-Blink shooter who used to fight with an Army shooter daily until she died during the earthquakes in Turkey this year. I didn’t realize how much of my life and fan experience was tied to her until she died BPP. The way I got into shooting was through my Blink friend who introduced me to Loona when they debuted. At first I thought I was defending Loona and then defending Blackpink, but at some point shooting on its own for any reason became addicting. I would jump in on a ratio, throw insults and post gore and graphic images to people’s DMs for any small reason.

There was one Army shooter I hated because she was always there with screenshots or videos to drag Blackpink. Whenever there was a fanwar I knew I would see her there. And times when she wasn’t in the fight, I would use another account pretending to be an Army to tell her what was happening so I could rile her up to join the fight. I didn’t know it at the time but I loved fighting with her. She made me feel alive. The way she was passionate about BTS made me want to get some of that passion directed at me in any form.

Now, after months of reflecting, that’s what I realized. Because when the earthquake happened, I didn’t know she was dead. I kept checking her account for days, sending DMs from my fake Army profile, wondering why she was not replying. I even created a new scandal for Taehyung in our shooter group but she didn’t tweet. Then 2 weeks later her cousin tweeted from her account to say she died in the earthquake. BPP, it was like my whole life stopped. I became extremely depressed and dealt with extreme self loathing. I couldn’t look at any fandom fight without thinking about all the things I did to her. I hated myself and wanted to die. I went through that Armys profile and saw how her love for BTS was genuine. After months of therapy now I understand more why I acted like that, but it’s something I’ll forever be ashamed about.

In the depths of my depression I deleted Twitter, TikTok, and Instagram. After some weeks of missing what’s happening, I got Tumblr and found your blog talking about fandom behavior. In so many ways you’ve saved my life BPP. The way I was shooting was more for other shooters than Loona or Blackpink or even myself. I realize now there’s a whole subculture of kpop shooters and I think what they have is an addiction. I notice the same things with how solo stans behave. They think they’re doing it for the idols but it’s for them and other stans they’re fighting. It creates destruction. Life is short. Why spend it on something destructive?

I’ve changed everything about how I behave online. Through therapy and reading your blog, I realize people use fandom to express themselves, and if that expression is mostly negative, there’s deeper problems with that person that needs solving. Now I curate my space and avoid shooters and fanwars completely. I now focus on what I enjoy which is good lore and good music (I still enjoy a good fight but I now satisfy this need by getting engaged in Munk Debates in my city). Loona’s lore was the reason I was interested in them, so after weeks of stalking that dead Army’s profile, I learned that BTS has lore too. I fell down the BTS rabbit hole and officially became an Army on Jimin’s birthday (after reading your blog I’m now Yoonminkook biased hehe)

I’m a very new Army but an ‘old’ kpop fan and reformed shooter. I’ve committed to live a life that’s critical and compassionate. Because of how I’ve become Army, some things I’m seeing in how fans of diff fandoms act has a different meaning to me. I still struggle with shame and sometimes when I see fanwars or see solos trending hashtags and things, I remember me from what feels like long ago. I remember that Army shooter who feels like someone I owe my life to. I remember how so much is going on in the world and we could do with more kindness but people use fandom to be awful assholes. I was one such person, attimes I still have to bite my tongue. But what I do now is log off, go do something physical and positive that makes me tired, or scroll through your blog archives.

There might be people like me trying to get away from the shooter mindset and struggling because it’s hard. It’s like an addiction. I want those people to know it’s doable. Recognizing the problem is the hardest part for real so if they are at that point, it gets easier from there.

Thank you for having this blog BPP. I hope you stay here in 2024 as well.

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Happy to hear you’re in a better head space than earlier this year.

Take care of yourself. Really.

#bts #kpop #kpop fandom #fandom behaviour #BTS army #BTS fandom #bts solo stans #fandom shooters

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a-casual-kpopfan · 1 year

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Two Worlds. - Yves

A fun idea Ghost and I came together about.

“Have you heard the new Loona comeback?”

“Heard? I attended a fan meeting! They were so cool!”

Amongst the excited chatters of the relatively small café, there is only one person who feels exactly the opposite from everyone.

That’s you, of course.

“Great, another wave of brain-dead fans spamming ‘Stan Loona’ to almost every account on social media.” You groan lightly, sipping on your coffee.

As if to mock you further, Loona’s latest comeback, ‘So What’ start playing on the speaker, to the excitement of everyone, and the disappointment of you.

Exasperated, you put in your earbuds to play your own favorite music than to listen to another single second of that god forsaken song.

Even with the music blasting in your earbuds, you can still hear the loud noises of the fans singing along with the song or doing fan chants, the combined voice of everyone overtaking the music in your earbuds. Fucking hell.

Before you manage to turn the volume to maximum, however, you feel a hand on shoulder, prompting you to look up and see your friend, the only reason why you’re sitting at this café instead of your usual place.

“Looks like you aren’t enjoying the atmosphere, huh?” She snickers at you, sitting down opposite you, as you are taking your earbuds off.

“Gee, I wonder why.” you roll your eyes at her, earning a small giggle from her.

“Come on, relax a bit, it’s just music you know.” Your friend snickers at you. “Yeah, but I don’t go onto every social media pages just to spam ‘Stan Loona’, Sooyoung.” You let out a groan. “Seriously, the fans need to chill a bit.”

“I take it that you still haven’t checked out the new song?” Your friend, Ha Sooyoung asks casually, ordering a cup of coffee from the waitress.

“Well, you already know how I feel about Loona.” You shrug, taking another sip of your coffee. “I-” Before you start your usual rant about Loona, Sooyoung interrupts your words.

“Yeah, yeah, you don’t hate the girls, but it’s the fans overhyping them, and your friends are those type of fans as well, so you purposefully avoid Loona, just to spite the fans, your friends included, correct?” Sooyoung rolls her eyes, even with her mask and hat on, you can see the annoyed expression on her face.

“Exactly, you know me so well, Sooyoung-ah~” You chuckle, teasing her a bit with a wink. “Please, how many times do you think I’ve heard you said that?” Sooyoung receives her order, only to pull her mask down to take a small sip before pulling her mask up again, acting very suspicious.

“You know, what’s with that getup?” You eye her curiously. “What do you mean?”

“Well, the bucket hat and the surgical mask, not mentioning those spectacles as well, it’s like you don’t want anyone to see you.” You squint your eyes, looking at her in contemplation, to which Sooyoung just groans in annoyance “I was busy, so I didn’t do my makeup, ok?”

“Well, in my opinion, you look good even without makeup, so be more confident, ok?” You offer her a small smile, causing her to blush slightly underneath her mask.

“Bah! You and your silver tongue!” Sooyoung turns away, her eyes looking at the people who is singing yet another Loona song on the speaker, her gaze softens slightly, to your utter confusion. But then again, you aren’t really curious about anything Loona-related.

So, in an effort to change the topic of conversation, you look at your friend’s appearance, before noticing something new.

“Did you cut your hair?” You ask, causing her to look back at you “Hmm?”

“Your hair.” You gesture towards her hair “You cut it?”

“Ah! Yeah, I did, I figured I want to renew my image.” Her eyes crinkles into a smile, starting to make a few poses to show off her hair. “How does it look? Good?”

You roll your eyes playfully “Duh, you always look good.” Sooyoung smiles back at him, although her mask is still on, you can somehow see the beautiful smile underneath it.

Without realizing, you chat with Sooyoung for a long while. Despite Loona’s songs blasting, along with the boisterous fans screaming their lungs out with the song. You surprising don’t mind them, too engrossed in your conversation with Sooyoung to care about your ‘hate’ for Loona.

If only you can meet her more frequently.

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“Hmm, she is quite late….” You mutter to yourself, eyeing your watch for the 5th time today.

To say that you’re excited is an understatement, because today is quite special, for you at least.

You get to see Sooyoung again!

Given, it’s not like you don’t meet her often, but with how hectic your schedule is, with both college and your internship, and Sooyoung’s schedule, both of you rarely get to meet each other, often going for months between meetups.

Besides that, this is also their first meetup after her-

Before you continue your line of thought, your vision is suddenly covered by something soft and delicate as you hear a very familiar voice behind you.

“Guess who?~”

Chuckling softly, you reach for her hands, pulling them down gently while looking up at your girlfriend, Sooyoung, smiling down at you. “Hey Sooyoung” Unbeknownst to you, your lips automatically curl up into a smile at the sight of her, as she does the same to you with her bright smile.

“Hey honey~” Sooyoung takes a seat next to you on the bench, one of the usual spots for your meetups, seclude and quiet, just like how Sooyoung likes.

“This is the first time we’re meeting as a couple and you’re already calling me ‘honey’?” You raise an eyebrow at her, your tone full of teasing. “Oh, don’t act like you don’t like, Mr. Dense.” Sooyoung rolls her eyes playfully.

“Ouch, guilty as charged” You scratch your head sheepishly.

You really have nothing to say, given the fact that it took Sooyoung to kiss you for you to realize that she wasn’t just being nice to you for the past year, that she wanted something more, and that you were too oblivious to your own feelings to recognize that.

Suddenly, the atmosphere turn quiet as Sooyoung leans her head against your shoulder, her hand intertwined with yours as both of you sit in somewhat comfortable silence, just enjoying each other’s presences.

It’s rare how quiet Sooyoung is today, because for as long as you know her, she has been always full of energy, whether it was talking, or teasing you, or playing games. You can always feel her abundance of energy.

It’s like you’re seeing a whole new side of her today. But you like it. Well, to be more precise, you like her.

“Tired?” As much as you want to enjoy the silence, you can’t help but ask about her schedule, being worried that she may be overworking yourself.

“Mhmm…” You feel a nod on your shoulder and a hum instead of a verbal answer, but it’s enough for you.

“So, what do you want to do today? You did say you want to do something fun for our first official date.”

“Let’s just, stay here for the time being. I like it here, especially with you.” Her words cause you to lose control of your expression, and blush furiously, earning a giggle from her. “Cute” She leans up for a quick peck on your cheek, before resuming her previous position, this time both of her hands playing with yours.

After a few minutes of silence, you remember something that she told you to do a few days ago.

“I listened to the song.” You say suddenly, to the confusion of Sooyoung. “‘Not Friends’. The song that you recommended. I listened to it.” Let it be known that in all the times you know her, you’ve never seen her brighten up instantly like today.

“Finally! I specifically chose that song because I know you would like it.” She smiles proudly, her cheeks puffing up in a cute manner, causing an urge in you to pinch them.

“I only listened to it because of you. You know I avoid Loona-”

“Yeah, yeah, I know. But do you like it?” She cuts you off, staring you at you expectantly.

It doesn’t take you long to break under her gaze. “I like it, it’s very catchy.” Looking at her expression, you can see… Disappointment?

“What, that’s it?” She asks you, seemingly in disbelief. “What, I just listen to the song like you said, and I like it, isn’t that what you want?” You are confused at her reaction.

“What about the singers? What do you think about their voices?” Sooyoung decides to promote you for an answer. “Well, their voices are very nice, and one of them has a similar voice to you, so I like it?” To you utter confusion, you watch as Sooyoung grows more disappointed.

“Did you watch the video I sent?” She asks you in a serious tone with a glare, causing you to tremble slightly. “N-no, I didn’t have to the time to check it, so I just listened to it on Spotify while I work…”

Sooyoung lets out a sigh and shakes her head in an exaggerated manner, seemingly very disappointed. “I suppose I expected too much out of you.”

“… I’m sorry?” Is the only thing you can say, not even know why she is so upset.

“You’re lucky that I like you, and I’m very tired today, so we are heading back to your place, and we’re going to cuddle the whole day, got it?” She glares at you, seemingly not taking ‘no’ for an answer.

Despite being taken by surprise by her very much weird demand, who in their right mind refuse a cuddle session?

“Ok, let’s make a detour to the convenient store for some snacks, then we’re going to watch some Netflix while cuddling?” You know her too well at this point, that you can guess what she wants, and thank God you are correct, as her expression brightens up significantly.

“Now that’s more like it~” She giggles, grabbing your arm “Let’s go! There’s a new series on Netflix that I want to check out today!” and she pulls you off towards your apartment.

Later….

“It’s too bad that he hasn’t figured it out yet, I really wanted to see his reaction…” Sooyoung mumbles to herself.

“Hmm? You were saying something?”

“No, nothing at all.” She smiles softly before leaning against you, the both of you comfy on your couch as you start the Netflix show, knowing that inevitably it’s going to end with the both of you asleep at the halfway mark.

But you don’t really care about it, you only care about spending time with her.

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“Oh my god Hyeju please you can step on me aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.”

“Please, for the love of God, shut the fuck up Zach, you’re giving me a headache here.”

Lunchtime, and currently you are sitting with your friends at the cafeteria, wanting to enjoy a rare breaktime that all of you share in your hectic schedules. However, a certain someone must spoil the peace and tranquility with his severe fanatic simping for someone.

One of your friends, Zack, is currently hyperventilating while holding his phone, watching some Loona performances on the phone that you can’t even care about.

“Bro, if you’re not going to eat your food, I will.” Your friend Kaylen who is sitting next to you points his chopsticks towards to Zack’s lunch, threatening him.

“Ok, ok, sheesh, don’t act you guys don’t fanboy them as well, except you of course, you Loona hater.” Zack reluctantly pipes down, not before poking you with a comment, clearly meant to tease you. However, you’re not one to take this lying down.

“Well at least I don’t annoy other people by constantly tell them to listen to Loona. I don’t go up to every comment section of every social media page available to spam ‘stan Loona’. And I especially don’t claim people that don’t even know I exist as ‘my wife’.”

Grasping the chance, you unleash a triple combo attack at Zack, shutting him up completely. However, your other 2 friends were also attacked by that last statement.

“Goddamn it Zack, why did you have to trigger him, now all 3 of us are attacked.” Mike, who is sitting opposite of you, grumbles, hitting Zack on the shoulder.

“How would I know he would retaliate like that?” Zack tries to defend himself. “Zack your dumbass, we’ve been friends with him for so long and you can still say that?” Kaylen lets out a sigh.

However, you’re not done yet.

“I still hate ‘So What’ and ‘Why Not’.” You decide add salt to injury, knowing all three of them used to dislike those songs, but warm up to it.

“IT’S AN ACQUIRED TASTE!” As expected, the other 3 glare at you instantly, though you don’t really give a damn about that, continuing with your lunch instead.

“Yeah, yeah, whatever you say.” You snicker, looking at your friends, lowkey satisfied that you manage to trigger them again.

“Ugh, it’s been a long time since they debut already, why don’t you give them a try?” Zack is still trying to rope you into being an Orbit. “Yeah, I did, and I hate the song.” You refer to the two songs that you mentioned previously.

“Dude, just give up already. The more you try, the more this guy resist.” Mike pats Zack on the shoulder, maybe a bit too harshly.

“Ow-, fine” Zack finally shuts up and eats his lunch, leaving the 4 of you eating in comfortable silence.

However, knowing your friends, silence can never last too long when you’re with them.

Soon enough, all 3 of them are watching the Loona performances that Zack was watching halfway through beforehand. Each of them silently fanboying to their idols.

Rolling your eyes, you decide not to trigger them for now, letting them enjoy their ‘simping’ time.

As you take out your earbuds, intending on enjoying your music, you accidentally catch glimpses of the video playing on Kaylen’s phone, and you freeze suddenly. Kaylen of course notices your weird gesture pretty quickly. “What’s wrong?” he looks at you weirdly.

“What are you watching?” You manage to find your voice despite the surprise, pointing at Kaylen’s phone. “Oh, It’s Loona’s Butterfly performance on Queendom 2, Why?” Kaylen raises an eyebrow at your question.

“Nothing, nothing, don’t mind me” You say quickly, causing Kaylen to give you a weird glance before resuming focus on his phone.

You, however, immediately search up the video, and watch it. Since you don’t know which part it was that you saw, you let the video play naturally.

Fortunate for you, you don’t have to watch for long to confirm your suspicion. One and a half minute into the video, and you see the face of your dear girlfriend, Ha Sooyoung, as one of the idols performing in the video.

“Holy shit!” unable to contain yourself, you exclaim loudly, garnering the attention of all your friends. “The hell? What’s gotten into you?” Kaylen exclaims, peering into the screen before letting out a huge “OHHHH” with a sly grin on his face.

“Mike, this guy is captured by Yves” Kaylen turns to Mike, and with a brief sentence, everyone at the table understands (or rather, misunderstand) the situation entirely.

“Really? This guy is fancying my wife?” Mike is rather surprised. “Although we are finally to pull him down the rabbit hole, I’m not sharing my wife with anyone.”

Hearing Mike say that you look down at the screen, then up at Mike. “Who are you calling ‘your wife’?” You ask, trying your best to suppress the spark of jealous that growing in your chest.

Oblivious to your feelings, Mike nonchalantly points to your phone screen. “Her, Yves, or rather, Ha Sooyoung, love of my life.”

Let it be known that you’ve rarely felt jealous about anything in your entire life. Nonetheless, seeing your friend professing his love towards your girlfriend with such love stricken eyes make you suddenly want to punch Mike. In the face.

It takes you a few deep breaths in order to suppress this stupid jealousy feeling in his heart. It’s so stupid, Mike doesn’t even know who’s your girlfriend, he’s just simping his idol. Stop being jealous.

Despite telling yourself that repeatedly in your head, you still find it hard to cool your head. “I’m heading to the restroom.” You abruptly stand up with your phone and bag, heading out of the cafeteria. Your mind filtering out any kind of sounds right now besides your own thoughts.

Zack was in the middle of his passionate speech about why you should stan Loona when you abruptly stand up and leave, causing him to stop midway. “Why is he leaving?” He scratches his head, confused at your action. Mike and Kaylen only roll their eyes at him.

At the restroom, you splash your face with cold water a few times until you regain your composure again. Afterwards, you just stand there, leaning against the sink, looking into your reflection in the mirror, your mind sorting through all the clues that you obliviously missed throughout your time with Sooyoung.

Her various combinations of masks, hats and shades to hide her face. Her favorite spots being secluded places like that small café and the small park to avoid her fans. Her hair constantly changing, from long to short, from black to brown and now, pink due to the comebacks. Her hectic schedule, of course being training and promotions and such. Her bruises, aches, and general exhaustion as well, thanks to the training for the performances in Queendom.

All the signs were there, yet you were too dense, too stubborn to figure it out. All because of your petty grudge.

“Aish, Sooyoung is right, I really am dense….” You let out a groan, leaning your forehead against the mirror.

Though, you can’t help but chuckle at the ridiculousness at it all. You, who vehemently avoid any and all Loona related contents, is currently dating one of its members.

Taking one last deep breath, you pull out your phone to dial a number. Her number to be exact.

The phone ring exactly one time before the call is connected, and you hear her voice on the other side.

“Hey honey~”

Only after hearing her voice that you realize you don’t know what to say about what you just discovered. You can only let out a small chuckle “I’m such a dense idiot, aren’t I?”

Soon enough, you hear her giggle on the other side of the line.

“Of course, you are, but you’re my dense idiot, and only I am allowed to say that to you!” You can’t help but smile softly, your mind already imagining her puffed up cheeks while saying that.

“Is anyone bullying you?! Just tell me, I’ll protect you!”

Biting your inner cheek, you feel like this need to be a proper conversation instead of a phone call, face to face, so you ask her out for a date instead.

“Actually, I want to meet you, when are you free?”

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“Ok, ok, I get it honey, I was blinded back then, you don’t need to bring it up again.” You let out a sigh as all of a sudden, your girlfriend starts to reminisce about their past, more specifically, your dark past. And she is determined to make sure to remind you of it.

“Nah, I’ll never let you live it down as long as you’re alive~” Giggling, Sooyoung nuzzles her cheek against your chest as the both of you are laying down on the couch in your apartment, getting some much respite amidst the turmoil that is the bullshit stuffs BBC is putting Loona through.

“I still can’t believe it took you a whole year to figure out that I’m a part of Loona though” Sooyoung snickers. “And you even dared to say in front of my face that you dislike Loona. How ironic it is that you fell in love with me~” Sooyoung continues with the assault, not leaving you any leeway at all.

Knowing that Sooyoung has been very tensed for the past days, you decide to let her win this one, not saying anything else. Nonetheless, being quiet doesn’t mean you’re not doing anything, as your hands found their way around her back, gently circling around her back, earning a soft moan from her.

Thing stay quiet for a while, with just you and her, enjoying your quiet time together, in the confine if your apartment, well, with how much Sooyoung stay over ever since the whole shitstorm with BBC start, it’s more like your shared apartment with her.

“Honey, how long have we been together?” Sooyoung asks softly, looking up to you.

“Hmm, 2 years. Why?” you look down at her, raising an eyebrow.

Sooyoung just shakes her head, smiling softly. “Only 2 years? It feels like a lifetime already.”

“Well, we’ve been through quite a lot together, you know.” You can’t help but return that smile as well. Sooyoung then moves up a bit, until her face is hovering right above yours, with her nose barely touching the tip of yours.

Without saying anything, she just stares at you, her eyes seem to be searching something, as you can feel her gaze scanning every inch of your face.

“What are you doing?” “Admiring my handsome man~” Sooyoung wastes no time flirting with you, and she never fails to turn your face into a tomato. “Shut up.” You groan, avoiding her eyes in order to save what’s left of your pride and dignity. Heh, as if you have any from the start.

“Hey” Sooyoung whispers, pulling your attention back to her. You gaze back at her beautiful, near flawless face, your eyes locking sight with hers as the both of you momentarily forget what to say, both are just too enamored in each other’s presences right now. You seem to lose control of your body, as your hand almost automatically reaches up to her face, cupping her face gently with your thumb slowly stroking her cheek, and you can see and feel Sooyoung leans her head more into your touch, nuzzling against the palm of your hand like it’s the most natural thing ever for her.

“Hey” You respond back to her, despite it being a late response.

Looking at her expression, you can tell that there are million thoughts in her head right now, with her trying her best to sort her thoughts and trying to find her words. You patiently wait for her.

Eventually, she settles for something simple, yet incredibly meaningful.

“I love you.” She smiles softly, her lips curl up gently along with the crinkle of her eyes, her cheek exposing just a hint of a dimple, looking absolutely adorable right now. It was because of this smile of hers that pulled you down the rabbit hole that was “Ha Sooyoung”. But honestly? You never regretted it, not for a second, because….

“I love you too” You respond to her, your thumb moving across her cheek with slow and tender strokes. “Always have been, and always will be.”

Sooyoung giggles softly, her cheek blushing quite a bit. “You and your silver tongue.”

“Said you, Ms. Yves who flirts with girls she met.” You let out a chuckle. “Honestly, if I’m not already with you, I would have thought that you have like, a harem of your own.”

Sooyoung then leans down for a soft kiss, her body onto of yours as you feel her arms wrapping around your neck, your hands unconsciously holding her waist like it’s second nature for you.

“I don’t need a harem. I just need you.” Her head then buries into the crook of your neck, nuzzling further against you.

“I know honey, I know.”

Once again, silence fills the apartment, with the only audible sound being your rhythmic breathing.

And once again, it is Sooyoung who disrupts the silence. But this time with a loud yawn,

“Have anyone ever told you, your heartbeat is very soothing?” You manage to catch some of her words, before feeling her body loosening against you.

“This girl….” You can’t help but chuckle fondly, before leaning down and place a kiss on top of her head. “Get some rest, my love.”

It doesn’t take long for you to feel sleepy as well, with you being equally tired as her from all the recent lawsuits. But now isn’t the time to think about that. Now is the time to rest, and you intend to get a good night sleep, with your loved one by your side.

“Heh, I guess in the end I couldn’t avoid Loona for long.” You chuckle softly to yourself before joining Sooyoung in the dreamland shortly afterwards.

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