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mangosrar · 4 months

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call it what you want pt2

matt sturniolo x fem reader.

pt1

"i mean come on y/n, its a perfect chance for you to get back at your parents and a perfect chance for matt to get back at jess, how could you say no" nick stated.

"fuck no, jess can eat shit, and besides, id rather die lonely than have to ever be close to that loser" you replied, walking into the kitchen, with matt, nick and now chris who had walked in on you and matt screaming at each other just a few minutes before.

"shes right matt jess can eat shit" chris added, causing matt to glare at him and roll his eyes.

jess was matts bitchy, stuck up, brat of a girlfriend, well ex-girlfriend of 4 months. they had broken up about a month ago when she came to matt and told him she wasnt in the right place for a boyfriend, then posted a photo of her kissing jason atkins on her Instagram story. you honestly found the whole thing hilarious; she was some blonde bimbo who thought the sun shone out of her ass, and matt was the complete opposite, he was grumpy and dark, but someone how they ended up together.

"y/n your childish side is showing, i mean please do not fucking flatter yourself, i would rather gouge my own eyeballs out than have anyone think im with you, but i want my girlfriend back, i miss her" matt said, running a hand through his hair, leaning against the counter opposite you.

"aw are you gonna cry matty?" you mocked with a fake sad expression.

"y/n" nick said flatly. "you need this, come on" he continued.

you sighed, trying to really think this out. nick was right, but you also werent sure he would be so happy with this whole situation by the time you murdered his brother. there was a pause for a moment, all three of them staring at you, waiting for you to give in before you spoke up.

"how would it even work?" you asked.

"we post together, tell people were together, go to parties and shit with each other but in private i wanna stay as far away from your annoying ass as i can." matt said shrugging his shoulders while looking at you.

"what about school dumbass?" chris added.

"the same i guess, but dont be all up on me in the hallways i dont wanna be that annoying couple" matt grimaced.

"you and jess were that annoying couple, always making out in front of everyone and shit its gross, so just make sure you swap saliva in private" nick said, jabbing his hand out in front of him as he spoke to get his point across.

"this conversation is giving me literal back ache, im dipping, just figure it out and dont kill each other while you're at it." chris sighed, standing up and walking away.

"me too, just...no mean words towards each other, you're dating now remember" nick pleaded.

"no promises" matt muttered, watching nick walk out of the room, leaving you and matt in awkward silence.

neither of you really wanted to do this, but it was ideal, it was just annoying that you had to be so fucking rude and stubborn and attractive and smell so good. and it was infuriating that matt had to be so mean and punchable, and so sexy with a face that was so sittable. the two of you really couldnt resist stand eachother.

neither of you wanted to make eye contact, both just looking around before you broke the silence.

"do you really wanna do this?" you asked.

"no but its my only option" matt replied, still staring at you, sitting on the counter, from his position, leaning on the opposite side.

"so were really doing this?" you stated.

"i guess we are" he whispered, looking down at his feet.

"no kissing or anything though" you squinted at him. matt just hung his head and laughed before pushing himself off the counter and sauntering towards you, stopping when your knees met his stomach.

matt placed his hands on the counter, next to each one of your thighs and leaned his face closer to yours, making you suck in a breath from the closeness. "why baby? scared you'll like it?"

you couldnt deny the insatiable heat that was now blooming between your legs, he smelt so goo, his eyes looked hungry and the heat radiating off of his body onto yours made you dizzy. you swallowed thickly, desperately trying to regain your composure. there was no way in hell that he was going to get you that easily.

"i dont know where that mouth has been baby" you replied with a sickly-sweet smile, before pushing him back by his shoulders and hopping off the counter, making quick progress out of the kitchen and as far away from him as possible.

you heard him chuckle before he shouted.

"see you on Monday girlfriend" you could hear the smirk in his voice, and it only made you wanna turn around and slap the shit out of him more, but you just rolled your eyes and continued your decent from the kitchen.

god this was going to be torture.

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sturnsbabie · 2 months

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SWEETBOY-M.STURNIOLO.

pairing: bf!matt x gf!reader

summary: in which matt and y/n have been dating for eight months now. they both are virgins, waiting til both of them are ready. recently they have been getting super close to the real thing as they been having heated makeout sessions. what will happen when they finally feel ready for the real thing.

warnings: swearing,making out,p in v,matt talking u through it, MAJOR FLUFF.

i need me a matt sturniolo☹️

matt and i have been together for eight months. we both are virgins. we have talked about it before and we both want to lose our virginities to eachother. we didnt want to rush it so we waited.

we have been getting pretty close to having sex recently. we have been nonstop making out in his room everytime we hang out getting pretty touchy with eachother.

matt and i were currently in the car with nick and chris on our way back to their house. we had went to grab some food together.

matt had his hand on my thigh rubbing circles as he was driving. it was driving me crazy. i just needed him in many ways.

we got back to the triplets house, nick and chris went to their rooms. matt and i went into his room.

i was currently laying on matts bed as he was ontop of me while we were making out. i felt him getting hard against my clothed core.

this was a new feeling, but i wanted it more than anything.

i pulled away from the kiss as his forehead was against mine. “matt….im ready for this.”i said softly

“yeah?are you sure youre wanting this now?” he asked as he looked at me.

“yes…im ready if you are.” i said softly as i held him close to me.

“i want this.” he said as he pulled me into a soft kiss

the kiss was slow and passionate but it turned heated quickly. i felt matt grind himself against my core making me let out a small whimper.

he pulled away from the kiss as he slid his shirt off. i put my hands on his stomach as i looked at him.

“matt.. need to feel you in me please.” i said as he looked at me.

“are you sure princess?” he asked nervously as he wanted to do this aswell.

“yes baby. i want this. do you want this? we dont have to do this if you’re no-“ he cuts me off with a kiss

“yes i want this.” matt said softly as he started to take his sweats off leaving him in his boxers as i took my shorts off.

we both were left in nothing but our panties and boxers as he kissed me softly rubbing my body.

he pulled away from the kiss as he slowly slid my panties off. he then took his boxers off as he hovered over me.

“you still want to do this princess?” he asks

“yes matt i want this.” i said as he lined himself up with my entrance.

he slowly pushed into me as i winced at the stretch letting myself get adjusted to his size.

“m-move.” i whimpered out as he started to slowly thrust into me.

it hurt a lot but the way matt held me close to him as he kissed me softly made it all worth it.

soon the pain turned into pleasure as i let out a small moan as matt let out a groan.

“youre doing so good princess.” he said as he pressed a kiss to my forehead.

“f-faster.” i moaned out as he suddenly started thrusting into me at a fast pace as i felt myself clench around him.

a loud string of moans left my mouth as he interlocked our hands together as he kissed me passionately.

“youre taking me so well.” he went deeper as i held him close to me.

this felt so intimate and right. we werent just fucking we were making love to eachother. he was whispering sweet nothings into my ear.

i loved the way he fit inside me and the way he made me feel. i was so inlove with him, and this made me feel even more connected to him.

“i love you sweet boy.” i moan out as i pressed a soft kiss to his lips.

“ i love you pretty girl.” he said softly as he looked at me.

i felt myself getting closer to my orgasm as he started to thrust into me faster and deeper as his tip was hitting my gspot.

“gonna cum.” i moan out as he kept hitting my gspot.

“cum for me princess” he said as he kissed me softly

i felt myself cumming around his dick as he kept thrusting into me.

he helped me come down from my high before he pulled out cumming all over my stomach.

he hurriedly got up walking into his bathroom grabbing a wet towel coming back and wiping me off.

he laid down next to me pulling me into his arms as he kissed my forehead softly.

“that was great baby.” i said softly with a small smile.

“ i love you princess. lets go take a nice warm shower yeah?” he said

“i love you baby”i say as he picks me up carrying me into the bathroom so we can take a shower.

as we were showering together he held me close to him as he washed my hair as i was washing his body.

he kept saying sweet nothings to me as he was peppering kisses all over my face.

after we showered i put on one of his shirts and he went to the kitchen to get us some popcorn and rootbeers as i was picking out a movie for us to watch.

he came back with a bowl of popcorn and some rootbeers as he laid next to me.

we cuddled and ate popcorn while watching mean girls.

the night ended in matt falling asleep in my arms as i held him close to me running my hands thru his hair while admiring him.

i was head over heels inlove with him. my sweet boy.

#matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #chris sturniolo #chris sturniolo imagine #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #sturniolo triplets imagines #christopher sturniolo #christopher sturniolo imagines #matt sturniolo imagines #matthew sturniolo imagines #mathew sturniolo

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81folklore · 5 months

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picnics and painting - OP81

pairings: oscar piastri x private!reader

type: written

authors notes: idk what this is but i just started thinking of dates id like to go on and this happened!! enjoy?? idk😭

series masterlist

favorite dates

pottery painting

yn loves pottery painting, she always has a million ideas, but her favorite things to paint are mugs. she will do one and oscar will do one

oscar doesnt mind pottery painting, hes not very artistic but he likes the biscuits the place makes. his favorite thing to paint are plates, he finds them the easiest to paint (which makes it fun in his opinion)

picnic dates

they both love picnic dates, they both like different parts of the date but each date follows the same routine.

the day before they go shopping and prep some food, morning of the date they make either sandwiches or pasta. then they walk to their spot, the lake, and settle under an oak tree

the rest of the date follows a pattern of eating food, reading books and playing with eachothers hair (yn loves putting flowers into oscars hair, he happily lets her)

cooking/baking dates

cooking dates honestly dont happen a lot, yn and oscar dont argue a lot, but trying to cook when neither party are very good is extremely stressful and often ends in sulking (which is solved very quickly, neither can stay mad at the other for long)

baking dates however, are something they both love. yn loves finding new treats to bake and oscar loves making his grandmothers recipes. these dates dont happen enough, due to oscars meal plan (i mean who would want to have a baking date and not eat what they make?!) but when they do they have a lot of fun

bookshop dates

now yn loves reading but hates choosing books, even though she has a whole tbr list she find the whole process of picking one long and boring (which is actually a lie, she just finds it difficult to pick just one)

so they came up with a fun solution, oscar picks her books. these dates might seem strange to some but for them its fun! they go to their favorite bookstore, oscar having yns tbr list and a list of her favorite books, and they start browsing

typically their date will start with them both looking at books, before yn ends up just admiring oscar as he browses. she loves how concerntrated he gets, its so lovely to her, seeing how much he cares. he always searches so carefully, sometimes picking books from her list and other times picking ones he thinks she’ll love (spoiler she always loves the books he picks, he has amazing taste)

dinner dates

they love dinner dates, both lunch and dinner. they have a favorite restaurant and very rarely branch out. they both enjoy dressing up but prefer lowkey restaurants, they werent the fancy type.

dinner dates were the most common dates for them, they were easy to plan if they were away for oscars races, but were also good to plan last minute

they both loved italian so if they werent home and couldnt go to their favorite restaurant, they’ll find a (usually) family owned place to eat and while they rarely branch out restaurant wise, they both love to try new foods, so its not all bad

movie dates

pretty self explanatory, but they swap who picks each time. and whoever doesnt pick, gets to choose the snacks (which is usually either ice cream or popcorn). these dates are some of their favorites, just getting to relax and spend time with their person

these are also the dates that happen most on race weeks (other than dinner dates) as theyre easy to set up in a hotel room and help oscar sleep a lot (which is extra good on race weeks!!)

#f1 x reader #oscar piastri #oscar piastri x reader #formula one x reader #formula 1 x reader #f1 headcanons #private!yn!oscar #f1 fanfic #f1 drabble

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magicdefendorwolf · 1 year

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Hello! This is my first time requesting, so I hope it's not too bad hehe. It will be nice if you expand on your yanqing x fu xuan's daughter! Like did fu xuan and/or jing yuan know? How did they know? Did they caught them together? How did the citizens know? Like, they just watching a forbidden love kind of love story unfold. Thank you in advance! ♡♡

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They did not know,they had to find Yanqing and you on a date,and even then they didnt believe it was a date,so they watched from afar

Jing Yuan already had suspicions you two were dating or already liked eachother

But your mother,Fu Xuan, was still in denial that her daughter could date the general's son

But how the heck could she deny it any longer when she saw you two kissing?

Your mother was beyond shocked,so shocked that she blew her cover and you both turned to Fu Xuan and Jing Yuan that had been previously hiding

You both froze up,you werent worried about Jing Yuan,he was more laid back,rather you were worried abiut your mother finding out

But Yanqing was internally panicking about both of them

"What is the meaning of this?!" Fu Xuan almost sounded angry,but she had a mix of shock and anger in her tone

You obviously tried to nervously explain everything while also calming her down

But your mother just didnt understand,why him? How did you even fall for him? Didnt you hate him?

She definetly needed time to process this

If you had told her of your own accord she would have been calmer and more receptive to your explenation

But instead she took you by the hand and told you that you were going home with her

Not before Jing Yuan stopped her,he had his own fair share of questions for you two,but first,he had to calm your mother down from blowing up

Which didnt help much,but eventually Fu Xuan calmed down enough to listen to you two,she was okayish with the relationship,just upset you didnt tell her

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Sorry its so short,exams barely give me any free time,i hope you enjoy! But later today or tomorrow ill post a short vampire!Blade thingy

#yanqing hsr #honkai star rail #hsr x reader #x reader #yanqing #hcs #honkai star rail x reader #yanqing x reader #headcannons

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kikosaurscave · 1 year

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Since you're taking requests. Could you do neteyam with a human s/o who likes drawing. You could write a scenario where he catches her drawing a beautiful portrait of him. The rest is up to you. All is fluff and make sure to take a break if you need to

Neteyam x human!s/o

thank u for the req anon i hope it something like what you expected, if not i hope you enjoy it

he can never get over how gorgeous you are when you get lost in that trance of yours whenever you draw , its pretty much how you two became so close

when you were both children , norm would give you a mask and tell you so go play with stick outside incase there was a potentially dangerous thing in the lab. so you did , you would grab a stick and just start drawing

as a child around 4 or something seeing a blue boy fall from the sky and onto your drawing of mountains scared you at first

the curious look you can eachother was js something

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years later and all he will do is drag you around the forest to explore it with him and his siblings, you get along with them and he loves that but he doesnt want you here for them

either way you always let him know you enjoy it, but he knows this already because that light brown book of yours is almost always in use, youll draw anything, anywhere at anytime

its crazy to him but its so cute to him seeing a (S/C) little human like you caught up in the moments that only he can give to you

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after a while you both become busy , the hormonal stages of your lives are starting and the tension between you both is thick yet thin enough to be cut with a knife

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at some point you misplace your book while in a hurry, neteyam will pick it up and see a drawing of himself, hes eyes will soften, widen, squint and admire for hoursss, YOU had drawn HIM. your gorgeous and he wants to be your partner forever

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maybe he shows his dad and jake is wary but nonetheless tells him to talk to you (he does this BEFORE he tells neytiri that their first born wants YOU a human, she cant be mad at this, its sort of like her and jake and besides youve taken care of her kids alongside nete so she trusts you)

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when you both start dating, hes always ecstatic to see what you end up drawing everyday , before eclipse he always makes sure to visit you so you can both talk about your day, goes on small dates on his ikran and he'll even pose for you , your stuck in his head as he is yours

youll be sitting atop a tree, drawing the details onto your latest drawing of your boyfriend, his braided hair, yellow luminous eyes, his smile that keeps you in the trance of his love

your so caught up you dont hear anything at all as he sneaks atop the branch above you, admiring you as you draw, youre so gentle with you pens and pencils, your focused face envolves your mouth agape , eyes slightly wider or more squinted according to the detail of what your drawing

"that guy looks very hot," that dumbass grin of his startles you enough to almost fall off the thick branch if it werent for him grabbing your arm

hes strong, especially since youre so much shorter and weaker as a human compared to him

he pulls you up to the branch his on and you roll your eyes with an ecstatic smile, showing him what youve been drawing for the past 2-3 hours

he loves it, he wants to show it off to everyone he knows, for now he'll tell you how greatful he is for a girlfriend like you, give you praises of which you and your artwork deserve(all while inbetweens soft kisses on your lips)

he hopes and prays to eywa for many many more days like this, spent with you

-end :)

#neteyam x reader #avatar 2 #anon ask

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bingusbongu · 6 months

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Ok ok so hear me out-- romantic or platonic tadc jax x fem! reader-where the reader is kinda a meanie like him but more so in an oblivious feral way-like they just love pulling pranks & dont rlly think of the consequences of there actions ( idk if youve seen the show but just ignore this if not ggbgghfvgv but theyd remind me of max & nikki from camp camp-) cant wait to c what you do with this !! 🐇💜

Authors note: omg, this was an intresting request! This one ended out shorter than the other one, but i wanted to squeeze out another one for today! Sorry if its abit wonky! I hope this works!!! Thank you so much for requesting!

Jax × Fem! Prankster reader

○ when you first showed up in the circus, Jax could really care less about you. He really only thought of you as another didgital meatbag that he could try to push around, figuring that you wpuld either end up shy like gangle, or a mom friend like ragatha

○ what he didnt expect was you being the one pranking him first

○ it hadnt even been a day since youve been in the digital world, and you already stole and hid all his keys for him to find himself, which was tough mind him, the circus was a huge place, and you managed to hide them in places he never even thought of

○ at first, he would be annoyed with you, when you sometimes made snarky comments to him, like his appearance, calling him the 'bun boy' which got on his nerves

○ though, once he sees you pranking the others, almost out doing his own pranks. Like putting more than one centipede in Ragathas room, writing a fake document for Pomni, like an old record of the circus and make her go on this wild goose chase, etc.

○ he got a good laugh out of it

○ one time, you attempted to prank Caine, and nearly sucessed at it, befoe you were caught ad trapped in time out, and no one liks time out

○ and befoe you knew it, Jax wooshed in and found a way to release you from your prison

○ "i didn't do it because i like you, i did it because i need a good laugh"

Platonic

○ Jax got intrigued by you, and eventually started up a prank war, going againts eachother and seeing who can pull off the funnist prank, either on someone else or on the other competitor

○ you always found a way to out do him, which annoyed Jax, but in the end youd both get a punishment and it was worth it. You two just laughed a storm right after

○ after that, Jax and you became close friends. Hardly seen around without one hanging around the other. It was annoying to everyone else, because wherever you two went, chaos followed

○ you were a frightening duo lemme say that

○ he unironically finds you funny, especially when your making comments to one of the othed characters

○ you and Jax would do pranks together, though you were the one who took it farther sometimes, abd usually faced the harder punishments, but Jax always would come aroubd and free you so you werent waiting to long

○ def uses his keys to get into your room when he is bored just so you two can plan your next prank plan

○ no one likes you two but you guys could hardly care

○ once he realized how oblivous you were to when someone asked why you were so mean, amd you were like, "huh????" he made it his duety to keep you that way so he could actually have a friend (he needs one)

Romantic

○ it would still be the same, with the pranking, but instead it would be more like dates. You two would hold hands if he allowed, and watch tge entire circus glow ablaze with smiles on your faces

○ would call you 'doll' as your nickname, he really just does it to tease you

○ definitely takes you outside the tent to plan a trap for whoever walks outside next, and you two would just sit outside and watch and wait

○ jax likes seeing how your face lights up when one of your guys's plans go off, especially if it was one he planned. It makes him all proud.

○ Jax isnt the type to really care about what happens to others, but he cant help but admire how unafraid you are to take your pranks to anothsr step. He likes that about you, but he would be dead before he ever admitted that

○ when im private, will let you sit in his lap as you two plan. He would complain about it at first, but he really dosnt mind

○ i think he would be touch-starved, after being in the circus for who knows how long.

○ All you need to do is put your hand around his cheek and speak softly to him for Jax to immediately agree with you

○ watches you closely, just to make sure you donf get into trouble with caine while he is doing something else (will save you regardless)

○ now that you are together, Jax always has plans on how to get you out of caines punishments. Almost exactly when it happens, he is freeing you and running away with you close behind

○ jokes about you being a damsel in distress

○ he lets you use his keys, to get into other people rooms, he likes to snoop, and if you like to snoop, it makes ut even better to have a snooping partner

○ you two share all the gossip in the tent istg

○ youre one of the first people he actually likes in this place, so expect him to go wherever you go, youre not getting him off of you

○ points out flaws in your plans and helps you with making a better, fullproof one

○ never admits it, but he admires and loves your personality. Just like him! But not the same gender, and with a few more extra steps

○ again, everyone hates your duo, but you two are inseparable

#jax x reader #tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus #the amazing digital circus x reader #reader insert #x reader #Chatic duo #tadc jax

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filmbyjy · 1 year

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I want angst to fluff

youre dating heejake but you feel like youre not bcs they are always together, when 3 of you are in dates they would always be close to eachother, so you decided to end thjngs with them, they were grieving so much and they only noticed they werent giving you affection, one time you posted on like insta or smth but the caption is " ty for being my friends you guys were the only one who were there for me" (insert pic of friends). Heejake saw your post and went to apologize to you but they saw you with jaywon , they were showering you with hugs and kisses on the cheek. so they decide if its the best to leave you alone, you were happy with heejake but not happy as jaywon.

IM SO SORRY IF ITS TOO LONG

a/n: no!! long asks means its a good thing!! I will have bigger idea and its been narrowed down to how you’d like it! so yes, I don’t mind getting long asks!!

pairing: heeseung x fem!reader x jake

genre: polyamorous relationship, angst and fluff

warning: there is angst for the first part but don't worry! the ending was meh, i'm so sorry :')

word count: 1.3K words

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don’t leave me

it had been a total 245 days since you’ve started dating these two boys. about 8 months or so. you love them both however, recently...you were feeling like a thirdwheel. you knew your two boyfriends were practically attached to the hip.

they were best friends since middle school, they practically grew up with each other. at first when dating them you knew what you were signing up for. you knew they were very close but you just didn't expect them to literally ignore you at times. it was like you weren't there at times and it hurt you.

you tried telling them about this. expressing your feelings. they did try to improve on it but then they just went back to how it was. you had enough with it, you couldn't deal with this anymore.

"let's break up." you told them as they were laughing in the living room talking about all the crazy fun things they had done together at the arcade. you weren't even invited to it.

it went silent. the two boys staring at you wide eyed. you looked away from them so you couldn't see their expressions. you knew you'd breakdown the moment you saw their faces. you still loved them a lot but you couldn't handle more of this. you didn't even feel like a friend, you’re just like an outsider to your relationship.

— placing this in case the read more messes up —

"what, why?" jake voices out. his tone was soft, he knew you'd cry any second now.

"just because." you simply said.

"babe-"

"i'll pack my bags and leave tonight. you two take care, alright?" you left the living room and went to your room.

it had been a month since the break up. you've moved out of their house and left not a single trace. you had such a hard time for the first 2 weeks. you didn't leave the bed. not even once. your two friends jay and jungwon had tried to pull you up. get you out and make you happy but it was hard.

jay and jungwon were a couple. though, they frequently deny they are in a relationship but it was obvious they liked each other. you assumed they didn’t want to put a label over their ‘relationship’.

jungwon nudges your shoulder, "hey there, pretty. here, a glass of water to sober you up."

jay drapes his jacket over you. you smiled at him and thanked him.

"look, i know you want to forget about them but sometimes it's okay to say that you miss them." jay says. you laid your head on jungwon's shoulder.

"is it obvious?"

"very." jungwon says. you smacked his arm. he chuckles and grabs your hand, playing with your fingers. you've never experienced this when you were dating heeseung and jake.

sure, they did a little affection but they did more together then with you. jay and jungwon always gave you the perfect affection. they both initiate it on you (despite being only friends with those two. it was simply platonic)

"you know...if you want them back, we could always devise a plan." jay says.

"a plan of revenge, hyung?" jungwon asks. jay smirks and ruffles jungwon's hair.

"god, now you are making me feel like a thirdwheel." you groaned.

"ah, no. you aren't a thirdwheel! you know we love you (name)."

"yeah yeah. just bring me home. i wanna sleep, i'm tired. i don't wanna deal with life anymore." you mumbled out. jay and jungwon sighed. they brought you home that night and tucked you into bed.

jay dials for jake.

“she’s asleep.”

“that’s great.” jake says.

jay sighs, “look, I know you two miss her. it’s obvious every time we hang out. I literally can see you two pouting every time we mention her.”

“we don’t-”

“cut that bullshit. you two love her a lot still and the break up was stupid. the three of you could’ve worked it out if you talked. (name) told you about it and you did nothing.”

“we did try something but it didn’t work. maybe we were never meant to both date her.”

“what do you mean. you both brought the best out of her. she was happy. yeah, she’s happy with us but she’s not as happy as when she was with you.”

“well it’s over.”

“not if you two get your asses back to her, get on your damn knees and apologise.”

“but she won’t-”

“jake, both me and jungwon love you but sometimes…I JUST WANNA SMACK THAT IDIOTIC FACE OF YOURS.” jay yells. jake winces.

“alright. we’ll go talk to her tomorrow.”

however, they never did. well in the morning nor afternoon but you heard the doorbell ring at like 1am. you had just gone out of bed to grab a glass of water since your throat felt dry. the moment you opened the door, you swore your heart dropped at the sight of your exes.

“(name).” heeseung says. you wanted to shut the door on them but you couldn’t. you were frozen in your spot. it’s been too long since you’ve seen them since the break up.

“we came to apologise.” jake adds.

“can we come in?” heeseung cautiously asks.

it was freezing and the two boys had simply thrown a hoodie over their body. you knew they both got cold easily and you would feel bad to let them freeze so you let them in your home.

all three of you settled on the couch in the living room. jake kneels down on the ground. you were shocked.

“(name). we are so sorry.” he voices out. heeseung does the same and kneels in front of you.

“boys, get up.” you pulled them up. “why are you doing this?”

“we can’t forget about you, (name).”

“we also feel awful about ignoring you. we didnt intentionally do it. it’s just-”

“our first time getting into this kind of polyamorous relationship. moreover, you are our first girlfriend.”

“we didn’t know how to act and to be honest, it was a jerk move to completely ignore you and not communicate with you.”

“you deserve the world, (name). we didn’t treasure you enough and for that…we’re extremely sorry.” jake says. the moment you looked up to meet their eyes, you noticed the tears falling from both of their faces.

“jake, heeseung.” you pulled them into a hug. it felt too long, you missed this. you missed them. however, you knew you’d be a fool to accept them back. what if they continued with the same thing again?

you let go of them once all three of you calmed down.

“I’ll be honest, I don’t know if I’ll be ready to fully accept you guys back. i’m afraid that you guys might ignore me again and we’d just go back to how it was. i don’t want that to happen.” you say. they nod.

“we completely understand. we should leave, thank you for hearing our apology (name).” heeseung says. he pays jake’s shoulders and jake stands up. poor jake sniffles, he already feels like crying once again.

“wait.” you say. they turned around and you hugged them again. “i love the both of you.”

“we love you too.”

they left that night feeling guilty and sad. however, nothing could fully prepare themselves for when you appeared at their front door. kissing the living daylights out of heeseung since he opened the door.

it had been too long. since you’ve felt your lips against his.

“hyung, who was at- the front door..” jake pauses. he did not expect to see you. you pulled away from heeseung and turned your head to meet jake’s eyes.

“umm hi?” jake says. you walked over to him and pulled his onto his collar before smashing your lips against his. jake yelps in surprise. he wasn’t complaining though, your kiss was truly something else.

his hands wrapped around your waist. you pulled away.

“why did you-”

“i know i’m stupid but I really don’t want you guys gone from my life. i really love you two. i umm, can we try this over?”

both heeseung and jake looked at each other.

“of course.” jake pulls you into a hug.

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azrielfiend · 8 months

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CRINGETOBER DAY 2: Self Insert

if i could insert myself into any world you bet your ass im going to nevada (just kidding id die in an instant but how cool would it be to see deimos in action?)

a story below about how this topic is actually all connected to my current favorite friendgroup atp

we wouldve never met if it wasnt for someone on the meme account, big_chungles on instagram (yes really!) who wanted to make a madcom themed account and were asking people to join as admins. a few days pass and i see an account named sanfordtits! i followed and had a few laughs for them for a while. and they announced their public server, so i decided to join it. and to my surprised i was dunked and candle wax that was cheese flavored and got cannibalized by kon and niko. (thanks kon for doodling the feast image.) there were a few major events in that server. i also met alfred in that server. yuck. anyways, there was a talent show and i performed osu mania there. it was soooo embarrassing since it didnt capture my audio and my osu was glitching and lagging so hard the judges werent able to even watch me play. niko won that talent show. we had some sort of rivalry-friendship thing going on and would bicker at eachother. (this is important later, i promise.) he was given the supertitter role since normal members were just named titters. i eventually got one myself, and zardy also got one too. due to being active members of the server, we would greet new members, talk alot yada yada alot of stuff. we were also thinking of doing a dating sim where i was one of the routes, and there was a lore behind it, i wont spoil it of course but i drew alot of stuff for it, and some writing which can be see on a doc here. there was also an fnf mod which you can actually see i had the sprites/concept art for it here. theres a lot! let me tell you that. and we had around 3 bgs, completed around 5 characters worth of sprites, a few music and charts done... until. i started to notice something, there was this admin where they babied and constantly praised just because they were a partner of another admin in the server. there was an art channel there right? i often post my art there along with others, and their pencil sketches would get way, way more attention than everyone else in the whole server. i bought this issue up with my friends and wanted their opinions on it, before calmly confronting the admins. and their reactions were not expected. they acted harsher towards us and called me a lying prick (?) i cant remember their exact words, but when i wanted to speak out against this behavior theyre doing and they wanted to shut me up as soon as possible. they were announcing that the servers getting shut down, and they were trying to ban me off of the server. admittedly i did something stupid and made a "kys challenge" joke to them which, well, they got mad at me for. i shouldnt have said something so vile back then. i was emotionally very immature back then. i hope theyre doing well now. i eventually got banned from their server, and they put me on blast on their instagram, which resulted in me losing a very close friend because their story captioned something like "these people harrassed my partners, theyre so gross, please block them" which.. well. youre kind of right but not really? we didnt harrass that person, only called out the admins.....childish behavior. although i did missacted and made a kys joke there too, so im not surprised on why theyre mad. i do take accountability for it. i cried for a bit. we were both wrong in this. but eventually made a new server for the people that were on my side. first it was named something like.. landfill? not exactly appealing, hehe. but it was eventually became bunkers, and its still my strongest bonds with my friends ever. and what a wild journey its been hm? if all of that never happened i wouldve never met the great friends i have today and my amazing loving boyfriend @woopdeloopei <33 (love you btw) its crazy how that spiraled but it all ended up pretty good in the end. a few of my friends got out of their depression and is happier now. i guess we matured! but seriously, so much history for such a small friend group. im so thankful for them right now. if it wasnt for that madcom admin on that meme account.... ah! i wouldve been just dead! thanks for reading all the way through the story!

#my art #digital art #madcom #madness combat #madcom deimos #deimos madness combat #deimos #deimos madcom #self insert #cringetober 2023 #cringetober #sona art

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yourbpdgf · 2 years

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OOO WOULD A DATING JEFF X READER X EJ POLY HCs BE ALRIGHT?

yes yes yesssss! im gonna have fun w this one! these are just randoms hcs that came to my mind since you didnt specify what you wanted 🤷‍♀️. s/os can be interpreted as a pasta in this seeing as theyre friends with other pastas and are implied to live in slender mansion.

poly jeff tk and eyeless jack hcs!

• you guys whole dynamic is chaos ☠️.

• its literally ej and jeff on your top all the time and you messing w them 😭.

• jeffs not TOO bad hes just a little very jealous...

• like if you and ej even TRY to do something without him hes gonna be bothered. it could literally be something as small as grocery shopping.

• "you guys are going grocery shopping? without me? wow i thought this was a three person relationship, i guess you two dont care about me, huh?"

• he doesnt mean it, hes just really dramatic.

• dont even get me started on when you hang out with jane. hes so jealous. hell do his best to sabotage your day.

• hes ESPECIALLY pissed when ej goes to hang out with liu. hes scared jack will like his brother more than him.

• dw he gets over fast tho just give him a quick hug and kiss.

• now onto our beloved ej.

• jack just has the need to know exactly where the both of you are at all times. like he doesnt care if you do something just you and jeff, he couldnt care less, but what he does need to know is where you are.

• because what happens if someone kidnaps you? what happens if you get lost? what happens if what happened to him happens to you? what if-

• jacks never really been a relationship before so hes extremely paranoid. he just loves the both of you though he doesnt want jeff to know that so much and he cant stand the thought of losing you.

• when jeff doesnt remember to tell ej when hes going on a long mission or something he loses his shit.

• ej may be a sweetheart to you two but when hes mad? hes a fucking demon, literally.

• he does not care about anything. he goes to slenderman demanding to know where jeff is. he interrogates everyone at scalpel point until he finds out.

• and when he does find out? he goes to check and lovingly whoop jeffs ass.

• people get pissed at you and jeff for making them go through jacks wrath. jeff does it on purpose sometimes, just to fw them. you do too your just not as obvious as jeff.

• your a completely different story though.

•if you go somewhere and "forget" to tell ej he will still go bother everyone but when he finds you he doesnt do the same things he does to jeff.

• when ej finds you because he needs to confirm that people werent lying to him about where you are so he'll check everywhere until he finds you hell calm down. he might even be more clingy to make sure hes with you at all times to protect you.

• jeff and ej both are simps for you, too. anything you want them to do? its done. like anything you could ever want is yours.

• liu tries to use this to his advantage and hangs out with ej alot so jeff gets mad. jane does the same with you.

• liu and jane proudly say fuck jeff and that theyre team ej x y/n even though youre all together. they just want jeff to be mad.

• ben and tobi try to get things off of jeff and ej through you. ben'll be like, "heyy y/n! were friends, arent we? you should definetely get jeff to do the dishes for me <3."

• or tobi will say "y...y/n can you as...k jack to do this mi...mission for me?"

• ofc you say no. youre not trying to give your bfs extra work.

• but sometimes you hang out with jane, liu and ej without jeff to get him mad.

• and maybe sometimes youll go to the corner store without ej knowing every once in a while, so he can panic a little.

• overall jeff is kinda jealous, ejs protective and you like messing w them but you all love eachother <3.

im so stuck w my other writings so i just decided to have a little fun and make this. here u go 🤲🏼

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#jeff the killer x reader #jeff the killer x reader fluff #jeff the killer fluff #eyeless jack x reader #eyeless jack x reader fluff #eyeless jack fluff #jeff x reader #jeff x reader fluff #jeff fluff #ej x reader #ej x reader fluff #ej fluff #jtk x reader #jtk x reader fluff #jtk fluff #fluff #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x reader fluff #creepypasta fluff

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cupoftaae · 1 year

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Prompts 1 & 11 x Namjoon

""give me time, give us time" x "we're not just friends, and you fucking know it"

see prompt list here

for @ultimatenoona ! thanks for requesting and keeping me busy :) I wrote this on the train ride home from work

you asked me to pick between one and eleven, decided to merge them because why not

Enjoy!!

warnings- angst, swearing, sadness

you remember the night often, it was a new years eve party and all your friends were off somewhere either drunk, making out, high or depressed.

Where did you fall in the middle of all of that?

on the back balcony with your best friend Namjoon, who had just taken you off guard, kissing you when the clock had struck midnight.

you dragged him outside to speak privately

"Im sorry if I made you uncomfortable, I never meant to" he mumbled shyly, unable to look at you.

"you didnt, joon, I was just kinda shocked....I wasnt expecting it"

He nodded, his eyes stuck on the beer can in his grasp.

"Hoseok actually is the one who told me to do it" he snickered, making you smile

"oh yeah?"

"mm" he finally looked at you, hearing amusement in your voice. "He told me to man up and just confess already...which probably is something I should have done before...you know...kissing you"

You blushed harshly, making you reach out to grasp his hand, "I think you just did"

He giggled quietly and nodded, seeming embarrassed "yeah...guess I did"

You smiled at him softly

"I mean, can you blame me? you are so beautiful"

"joon" you giggled, covering your face

He stood up, looking down at you "all my friends doubted me whenever I told em about you" he began "they tried to brush off the closeness as just friendship....but"

You stood up, taking his hand and meeting his face closer

He whispered, cold breath hitting your skin "we're not just friends...and you fucking know it" he smirked

You nervously bit your lip, smiling

To be fair, this thing with him has been slowly burning for a while now, and so although you were shocked he made the move to kiss you, you weren't as surprised to hear that he had an infatuation with you.

You couldnt lie....you had developed feelings for your friend as well

"No.." you shook your head "I guess we aren't huh?"

the memory makes you smile, its something that provides a warm feeling every time it comes into your brain.

You wish that in this current moment however, things were similar to how you two bonded then...all those years ago.

Now, you were adults with responsibilities and work and family.

The both of you had been dating for almost 6 years now, moving in together, doing everything by each others side, you loved every second of it....but you also needed more.

Not from him, but from life itself.

You both werent worried about if you had a wedding or not, it wasnt a main priority for either of you despite your parents urges.

He worked a job 5 days a week, mostly gone from 7am, and getting home at midnight, all while you stayed home and tried to keep yourself busy.

You both had even tried to have a baby, but after months of no luck and a doctors appointment, you were told that it wouldnt be possible. It broke you, leaving you not want to leave home even more so, and of course it took a strain on your relationship.

He stayed out later, you never left that damn room unless it was to cook something for him that he wouldnt even end up appreciating.

You loved him, so fucking much, but you felt helpless as if nothing you did could or would fix the position you both had been in for quite some time. You wanted to live again, You wanted to go back to school and work and begin to experience life once more...but it was impossible to do here.

You both never spoke to eachother anymore, that is, until one night

"we cant keep doing this." you mumbled into the pillow, it had to have been around 4:30 am when he climbed into bed, he reeked of alcohol.

"what?" he was startled, looking over at your laying body, facing away from him.

Finally, you sat up with tears in your eyes, facing him

"honey...." he frowned and tried to hold your hand but you pulled back, "what is going on joon?" you whispered

"what do you mean? everything is fine"

"fine? this is the longest conversation we have had in weeks and you call this fine?" you sniffled, scoffing slightly as he sat against the headboard.

He wasnt sure what to say, so he shrugged

"im tired" you suddenly spoke again

"then...go to sleep sweetheart, im sorry i woke you-"

"no, im tired of this. tired of you pretending you care when you dont, because if you did you wouldnt fucking be coming home so late, you would fucking text me, you would fucking show me some appreciation once in a while, and you would at least fucking TALK TO ME!" you began to shout, standing out of the bed in frustration as warm tears fell off your cheeks.

His eyes widened, heart squeezing as he felt the wind knock out of him. Yes things were rough, but he didnt know it had been this bad.

"and yes..I know we have had a hard year, I know Namjoon, and Im sorry to put it all on you, but we are supposed to be a team, I love you and it feels like you stopped loving me back"

He stood to his feet quickly and made his way in front of you, "no- no no, Y/N, I-I love you so much, baby.." he held you, "why didnt you say anything earlier?"

"because you are never home!!!" you cried, pushing away

"im sorry...i dont blame you for anything, you didnt do anything wrong, the baby-"

"its more than that, I feel stuck here" you gestured between the both of you, anger filling your body.

He looked at you, pleading eyes

"I cant...I cant do it anymore" you exhale shakily

"no" he stepped closer, instantly falling to his knees in front of your legs. "baby...im sorry" he whispered, feeling tears prick his own eyes. "i'll do better, we can get better I promise, Whatever you want ill get you, we can get married, is that it? is that what you want? anything.... just please- dont leave me" he pressed his face against your thigh as you looked down at him

"I dont know what to say Namjoon" you cry, hand wiping your tears "I am over all of it"

He grasped your hand and looked up, "honey...please no no, im here, I will change we can do better" his eyes were wide, youve never seen him so vulnerable. "give me time, give us time....we- we can do it, yeah?"

You shrugged helplessly "we are gonna need to fix a lot more than you think...."

He nodded quick, "anything baby, anything, we will start as soon as we can....i cant do this without you" he pressed himself closer to you as you both cried, emotions on ice as the rooms tension and sadness infiltrated your hearts.

"dont leave...dont leave..." he whispered, repeating it to himself.

"....I wont"

#bts #bts fanfic #kim namjoon #namjoon #bts namjoon #namjoon x y/n #namjoon smut #bangtan #bts fic #junkook #hoseok #seokjin #jimin #yoongi #taehyung #writing requests #bts requests #open requests #requests open

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p0is0nvalz · 2 years

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EDDIE AND READER AND THEN ROBIN AND STEVE JUST YELLING AT THEM TO KISS LMFAOAOOAAOA

*baby laugh sound effect*

Warnings: stupid idiots in love, akward eddie and slightly less akward reader

“welcome to family videooooohi eds!” Your bored tone was nowhere to be found when you noticed it was him, feeling heat creep up your body “hi y/n” he grinned nervously “what can i get for ya?” “I just came to ask if you were free tonight?” He was basically red “i am free!” “Great!.. um because i was thinking you could come over to my place and we can watch movies? Last time i checked i still had your favorite movie”

While you and Eddie were talking, steve and robin decided to spy in on your conversation “oh he totally wants it to be a date” steve whispered to his best friend as they creeped closer near the counter

“so.. its a date?” You nervously smiled as his eyes widened “yes! Yeah..” he spoke very fast, stumbling on his words. Suddenly, you both heard little whispers chanting and looked at eachother to make sure you werent the only one who heard it.

it got louder and you could hear what the unknown voices were chanting “kiss..kiss..kiss..kiss..” “Steve!? Robin!?” You and eddie stood there in shock, eyes wide “kiss! kiss! kiss! kiss! kiss!” They were full on shouting by now as you both looked at eachother with giddiness as you both leaned, connecting lips and both melting into it.

the kiss lasted a good 30 seconds before you both pulled away, robin and steves cheers couldnt be heard as it felt like you were the only people in the world

#vals works🕸#stranger things x you #stranger things x y/n #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #robin buckley #eddie x reader #stranger things

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bunnyluvs-blog · 1 year

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Baby Blue Love (RottLeo x reader)

❥ Hiii loves so this is a Leo x reader inspired by the song "Baby Blue Love" by TWICE, (this takes place before the movie) this will be a one shot because i dont think i can do a full series for a while, school is making me wanna strangle my stuffies 😒 anyways enjoy !!

You've known the turtles about the same time April has, and you love those green reptiles to death. Sometimes you wish you could take them everywhere with you but you knew that couldnt happen. During weekdays, seeing the turtles was the only thing to keep you sane, but one of them was the highlight of it all. Leo, the leader, and the second oldest. While all of them were amazing, there was something about how Leo would "flirt" with you that just made you fall for him. He was touchy but in the way that didn't make you uncomfortable like it did with other people. If you wanted too you could go on forever about him, but sadly you had homework to do, and just like that you heard a knock on your window.

"Psst, open the window and let me in" you heard him quietly through the glass before you opened it. It was just leo today, which wasnt weird. Sometimes it would be everyone, or just Leo. "What are you doing here? Its almost 2am!" you said to him, it was a saturday and assignments from school somehow would their way onto your desk at home. "Wellllll i knew you were gonna be busy with school and i couldnt wait for you to come down to the lair, soooo i just came to you!" He said with a little to much enthusiasm but thats just how he is. You smiled and handed him one of your airpods, he accepted as you put in the other one. Y'all had this kind if relationship where words werent needed to make it feel not awkward.

You shuffled your playlist and the song "baby blue love" started playing. Now no matter how much you tried not to, this song always reminded you of Leo. He was your baby blue love no matter what. You hummed along softly to the song as you did your work. Leo peeked over your shoulder to see what you were doing. "Whatcha working on?" he asked. "Math, tbh Mrs.Vincent has it out for me" you said resting your head on the desk. Leo took this as a sign to rub your shoulders. "Yk you could always work on it when the sun is out" he said sarcastically as u sighed. "But fr you need to sleep, its late even for you" he said picking you up and putting you in bed. Both of you were fine with the friendship where people couldn't tell if you dating or not but now, tonight. you couldnt have him leave you. And you didnt know why but you couldnt be alone.

"Leo." you said softly but strongly. "What is it pretty?" He responded. "Im in love with you." shit, thats not what you wanted to do. You just wanted to ask for him to spend that night but now he knows that your IN LOVE WITH HIM. "Haha very funny" he responded. Naur dude thinks your joking. You sit up and hold his face with your hands. "Im. Not. Joking" You could hardly see his face turn red but you still could. "I- im in love with you too, idk how or why but your always on my mind and you make me lose my cool when you laugh, i just, ive been inlove with you for a while" you hear him as he pours his heart out to you. You both looked at eachother for a minute until you giggled. "So does that mean were, together?" You asked softly. "Nope, i can't contain my love for you anymore mí amor" Lord, whe. he spoke to you in spanish it always had you melting. You patting the spot next to you on the bed and he snuffled over to it. Tonight woild he the first night you and Leo would be cuddling as lovers, not as friends, and damn it felt good

#leo x reader #rottmnt #leo tmnt #rise leo #x reader

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coconutredbulllover · 19 days

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to the anon who sent this ask im not showing the whole thing sorry but theres always gonna be that one person who reads smth and runs wild with it and i dont want that to happen. i dont want to be the kind of person who irresponsibly shares around the contents or even vague somewhat conclusive descriptions of smth that never shoudlve been shared in the first place no matter what it was.

so after cutting out the majority of what you said and the context of what was said in this part(again im sorry) im gonna respond now. anon you made a very good point, i agree the stuff indicated some type of relationship past just friends and probably past jsut hooking up too. im still a firm believer in “seriously no one knows the truth or true timeline”, but if you ask me this is just part of my ‘they know where home is’ theory (BASICALLY i agree with u that theyre married but with some extra steps) bc no matter what their true past is i feel like after they crossed or started to blur the friendship line they kinda just stayed in a forever homoerotic relationship like ulg idek if that made sense like i feel like even if they took breaks from eachother they knew that no one else the other couldve been with would matter bc theyre coming back ‘home’ no matter what, so even if they had a ‘platonic’ period of time where they werent exclusive or werent doing anything non platonic they probably never stopped acting any different with eachother and were like i said a homoerotic friendship 😭. i rlly need that to make sense bc explaining things is hard 😭. by homoereotic friendship i guess i mean like super close friends who are intense bc smths there and theres tension but for them specifically i dont think it wouldve been bad tension or with any repressed feelings i feel like they both fully know what they are to eachother and want to wait for a time where they know they can fully commit to a relationship that will work out bc they love eachother. like for example imagine they really were dating at 16 or even if they were 20, theyre young and neither of those are not the age where u know you want to be committed to one person forever and maybe they understood that so they stay contently connected but not committed so they could experience other things before eventually coming back to eachother🤷‍♀️. like ik yall see that bond and it aint going anywhere thats why i believe in my ‘home’ theory. and despite me believing this i have a rational other half of my brain that sees that i and everyone else doesnt know squat doo doo about their lives other than the snippets we see so i dont see my own theory as anything more than a theory i just BELIEVE that its the thing that makes the most sense in my own head if i try and think abt all the moments ive seen over the years and its a big IF!!

if i yapped too hard sorry, if anyone skipped that paragraph the jist is i believe pazzi is just the most secure situationship in the world and that even if they arent together or were never together or were together and broke up theyll end up at home eventually (eachother)😭

olease guys i tried my best i want to fully andwer this ask so bad but i cant bc i cant properly answer the ask without saying stuff that people wont be able to guess what i mean 😭

to the anon bro dm me if u wanna talk abt it and i mean have a respectful and non invasive conversation with someone who knows what your talking abt, like we know we’ll keep it to ourselves. idk sometimes its just nice to be able to tell someone ur thoughts and know the other person doesnt mean any harm by talking abt it 🤷‍♀️(im specifying that i do Not mean hey lets talk abt bad stuff i rlly js mean in general 😭) [guys why do i never make any sense its like im born to get my point across but forced to yap 🥲]. plus itd be a safer environment than a public blog post where hundreds of anons and other people can see it and run away with the half baked info 😀. i understand too i saw it all and ur the first person ive seen who knows the extent😭😭😭

#eriyap

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midnightmisadventures · 5 months

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Dream catcher lol

uhhhh...... well i was with Liam and this other guy on what felt like chip den couch.

And the one guy liked me, he was a black ALI. Then sarah and this random girl came stumbling in, we were all chillin ready to party. But she immediately was talking to me and was like "whos ur friend??" talking about Liam saying that hes hot.

And actually i think i knew the girl? from work or something. I think she was the sopranos girl. And then the black guy who liked me thought SHE was hot. So he was trying to get her off of Liam.

So he immediately was like "thats liam arielles boyfriend, but let me introduce myseelff" Like he so causally just said Liam was my boyfriend in front of him....and me and sarah and sopp. I didnt really know what to do.

I remember thinking when we were just sitting there the three of us, that this is the first time things have felt peaceful with Liam in ages. Like we're sitting here, im giggling constantly. I was nervous my laughing so much would look like flirting and being too much. But i was like honestly i cant help it he makes me giggle so much.

But we were respecting boundaries. We werent talking a ton, just casually sitting next to eachother and things were going well.

NOW, black guy just said liam's my boyfriend, and i didnt know whether to be like "NO NO HES NOT" because one, i dont liam to think i dont like him, two i dont want the bitch sopp to think hes up for grabs. But i also couldnt just say "yep" that would be way too much and could scare Liam off? we're barely friends.

I forget who said what next exactly. But i remember Liam saying something along the lines of "sarah and i have never dated." Lmao like i cannot remember why that was in question?? So then sarah was like "uhh yea, Liam, youve never dated any of us!?" I think meaning anyone "in our social group" not.....the five ppl talking right now? Regardless his response was "Yes....i have sarah" Saying it like shes an idiot. Not defensive just like, Yes i have but dont worry about it your drunk vibes. And it felt like he was trying not to look at me but also talking about me like huh?? maybe he was my boyfriend idk.

So then im up from the couch im doing something, and i remember thinking. This is so dumb i cant lose BOTH of them. Talking about Liam and black guy. I dont think i had feelings for black guy?? maybe a little or maybe i just liked the attention.

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So now, we're on a school bus, and we're riding somewhere. Same tour, travel, dads show at 11, flight in the morning, roadside carnival convention center cruise port bullshit. hahahaha

And Liam is one row ahead on the other side. Things were still good i think. But i had the son of neptune?? a HoO book i was reading. And flipping through the pages there were paragraphs and paragraphs notes i had handwritten on blank pages? notebook pages in the book? idk. So i was trying to read, and all of a sudden the book almost flew out of my hands and out the window. I just caught it by two fingers or so. Like it was so forcefully almost RIPPED out of my hands. And was flipping open to the pages i was journalling.

So i was kinda like, i gotta hold onto this more carefully cause i didnt want anyone to read my stuff but especially Liam i think. It seemed like 6th grade scribble vibes so it wouldnt make sense to actually be about him.....but you get it. We're on a school bus in a dream lol

But i looked up and my window was the only one half way open, and that felt weird?? like why would it be only mine and i dont need air i hate the window open. I wanted to close it but was so afraid to put the book down, like i would lose it again. '

Everyone on the bus saw btw and they were like woahhh. So the guy in front of me asked if he wanted me to throw the book out the window. And i was like no??? wtf im not TRYING to get rid of it. I have writings in it i was trying to read.

Then i started to flip through the pages to find the writings to reference and i....couldnt....find them....

It was like the wind was some spirit that took, my words and sent them to liam without my permission.

Anyway. Twas weird.

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2bit-sunshine · 9 months

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Saw some tiktok like "its okay to mourn the life you thought you were going to have" and i just felt. Slapped. Like idk. Its no ones fault but my own but ive never known for the life of me what life i wanted. I think i wanted to be a therapist? I wanted to help people? But i remember as a kid being like. Idk if this is what i want but people have an easy time talking to me and i like psychology. So. Yeah.

All i know is i need to work to live. I need to drive to live. I need to do all the stuff i hate to live. Theres nothing i want but to make my loved ones happy. If it werent for them. If i were utterly alone in the world. Well i probably wouldnt be in the world at all for much longer. But i have loved ones and theyre happy to have me so i will live. Even if it hurts and i prefer dreaming to being awake. Ill make it work.

Idk what i want and am just. Drifting along. Idk if i have any ideal life to mourn. But i dont want to be mourned. Not yet.

I have a dog and shes chasing after rabbits in her dream i think. Shes laying with my mom whom i am thankful for all her help. Shes married to my dad who taught me good morals and kindness and patience. They had three other sons beforeme whom i love even if they dont always like eachother. Im thankful for john trying to be my brother. Im thankful for mike always trying to get me to think about the future. Im thankful for richard for showing me what it is i love in life. Video games and lore and music.

John started dating a woman along time ago, now married together, and she had a kid named Kyle before they met who is my best and oldest friend. He dated a fellow named Zoey whose become a great friend, even after their break up.

I dated a guy named Alex back in high school. It didnt work it out and it was far from perfect but is the happiest thing I have from those years. We still talk and hang out and hes another bestie. He got me back in touch with some other guys from high school whom he lives with and one to whom he is married to. Theyre both great fun and i appreciate them and their love for alex.

He got me in touch with an old friend from high school who graduated before us. Elliot tries hard and is just a swell guy.

I have friends I met through the Collective who I play Pathfinder with every week. If it werent for them id probably never to get to play a regular ttrpg. You guys know who you are. They have such fun characters and put up with my endless repeating questions.

I have other friends on here whom i love and other friends I havent mentioned from irl but i love all them too.

Lastly is my nephews. One is like 19 and grew up so fast I never really knew him. Love him to death though. Then theres my brother mikes son. So young and still learning to walk and talk. I dont want to leave a hole in his life before he starts to grow up. Ilove his babbling.

This has gotten really long but tbh ive been dealing with some heavy thoughts for a while. I think i needed the chance to count my blessings. Ill be okay though i promise

#personal #long post

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mybitchingandmoaningsafespace · 10 months

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28 years ago two humans decided to fuck in an old Ford Ranger. Around 9 months later, yours truely escaped the womb. Those two humans decided they hated eachother and I became a pawn in their game. Through all of my life my paternal grandparents have been a constant. I could almost give them credit for raising me. My grandmother passed when I was 12 or 13, and took my world with her. Now, my bond with my grandfather is the strongest bond I have with anyone in my life.

My parents seperated when I was two, a few years later their divorce was finalized. My mother got remarried to a man she met when he was about to go into a diabetic coma. He had 3 daughters from two different women and my mother took over their parenting. These girls sexually abused me, but I was too young to understand at the time, all I knew was I wanted to be accepted by them. Eventually,my nother divorced this man, as he was cheating on her. She had several boyfriends and was known in the town for her promiscuity. Several years ago she married ny current step father, who has been an absolute blessing. I got a new step sister, who I get along greatly with. My father went on to remarry a wicked witch, who made life a living hell. My father took her side, no matter how emotinally and mentally abusive she became. When I was 10, they had a child together who I raised more than they did. I continue to love that child with all my heart. The relationship between myself and my father and stepmother was always tense and my mother was my rock. At 13, I said I'd rather be dead than go back to my fathers house and was put in a psych ward for attempted suicide. During my stay there, was the first time I found myself attracted to a female. At 15, I found my first love. A boy who was just as damaged as I was. We damaged eachother even more with our on again off again dating and toxic behaviors. At 16, I had my first lesbian experience with my best friend. At 17, I was sexually assaulted by a guy my best friend was pining for. I lost my best friend and a part of myself all in one night At 18, I quit splitting my time between my mother and fathers households and ran away to stay with my mother full time. I was finally able to get enough distance to stop running back to the toxic relationship that had carried me through my teenage years. Life was finally looking up. I did a lot of soul searching and working on deciding the person I wanted to become. This meant coming to grips with parts of my past that werent pretty. Eventually, I started to rebuild my relationship with my father. My mother, who was once my best friend, became my enemy. We didnt have a common enemy anymore, so I became the person she hated. When I moved out to move in with my husband, she turned her anger on my stepfather-who does not deserve the treatment he gets, but refuses to leave her.

At 20, I feel in love with a new man. I was ready to give my heart to him. But he was still stuck on his old relationship. In a series of painful events, we split ways, and I met my now husband. We came up with great plans for our life, until life got in the way. At 24, I started to gain a lot of weight and get very sick. At 25, I was diagnosed with Crohns Disease and Cushings Disease. At 26, they removed a tumor from my pituitary gland in the hopes it would fix the Cushings. During all of this, I was struggling to hold down a job. My husband was trying to be helpful and supportive, but due to his own trauma, really didnt (and doesnt) know how. Although, we signed up for eternity, through sickness and health, neither of us planned on this.

Currently, life is a struggle as I am having issues with my health and my job again. Finances are shit, our home is falling apart around us, and everyday is another balancing.

This page is just going to be my bitchfest page, a diary of sorts. Maybe one day, Ill show it to my therapist and save us both some time.

If you have nothing kind or supportive to say, scroll on.

#diary #cushings #crohns #trauma #bisexual #marriage #mental illness #chronic illness #invisible illness #parental abuse #parental issues

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