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twice-inamillion · 4 months

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The Company

Asking for a favor

Smut and Story Building (Sex, Teasing, Anal sex, Deep Penetration, Creampie, use of anal plug)

Chapter 4

2630 Words

(Irene, like a good girl, is used by the Company CEO. He makes her wear a butt plug to get her accustomed to having something inside of her when she is to service her boss in anal sex. She uses this opportunity to get on the good side of her boss, even if it means being used like a sex toy.)

“Fuck, this is so embarrassing. Why is he making me wear this in public? I hate it him.” Irene walks through the main building, making her way to the CEO’s office. She greets the trainees who are coming from their biweekly evaluation meeting. “Good Morning, girls.”

The trainees wave back and bow at Irene as she holds some paperwork through the busy hallway. She presses the button on the elevator, scans her access card, and selects the top floor. She faces the glass and sees the view of the campus, busy with trainees going to their classes. She starts to walk to the end of the hall when she drops some of the folders, “Damn, why is this happening to me?” She squats carefully so as not to reveal her panties and the plug she was forced to wear as punishment by the CEO. She quickly picked up the files and quickly felt the back of her skirt to make sure that the plug in her behind wasn’t showing. After checking, she makes her way to your office and knocks on the door.

“Irene here. May I come in?” dreading to see your face this early morning.

“Yeah, come in.”

She opens the doors, walks in, and immediately closes the door behind her. She sees the smirk on your face, knowing that you’re laughing at her. “Good Morning, sir.”

“Good Morning, Irene. How are you doing today?”

“I’m okay. Thanks for asking.” With an annoyed face, she gives you the files you requested, “Here are the files you requested.” You take them, review the files, and set them on the table. You get back on your desktop but notice Irene standing before your desk. “Did you need something?”

“Sir, I want to ask you for something.”

“Speak.”

“Well… I reviewed the evaluations from the trainees who were tested two weeks ago, and four stood out to me. Would you mind looking at them?” handling your files.

“Ah, yes. You mentioned one of them before, right? A girl named Wendy.”

“Yes, sir. She’s from Canada. We sent someone to recruit her based on her viral YouTube video.”

“Okay, and what about the rest?”

“The rest went through the Korean auditions. Most of them are good singers and have been performing well in their evaluations.”

“I see that there is no that’s not of age yet.”

“Yeah, her name is Yeri. She recently joined that company a few weeks ago, but I think she has the basics down.”

“Okay, and why are you showing me this?”

“Well… I wanted to see if you would consider these girls for a girl group.”

“Irene, You know we already have a group in mind.”

“Sir, but I think these girls would do well.”

“I don’t know. I’ll think about it.”

She walks over to your side of the desk, “Please, sir, let me be responsible for the group. I promise you won’t regret it.”

“So you want to be in the group too?”

“Yes, I would like to debut with them.”

You see the desperation on her face, making you want to tease her more. You remember the punishment you gave her and say, “Seems like you’re serious. You must really want this.”

“Yes, I do.”

“Alright, show me how serious you are.”

“What do you mean?”

You place her hand on her behind, giving it a nice rub and smile. She reads your expression and knows what you are trying to do. She slowly spreads her legs and pulls her panties down to her knees, giving you access to her cheeks. With your right hand, you go up her skirt and grab onto one of her cheeks, feeling her pale and soft flesh, “A nice ass like always.” She tries to think of something else as you caress her ass cheeks by squeezing them, cupping, or slapping them until they’re slightly red.

Once you get your fill, you focus on what’s between Irene’s cheeks and slowly move your hand toward the bud sticking out of her. You grab the pink glass plug and gently give it a tug, causing Irene to twitch. You try to give it another pull, but her body tightens out of reflex.

“Come on, you know the drill, relax.”

Without a word she spreads her legs a bit more and bends towards the desk. You give the butt plug another pull, and this time, you’re able to move it. Grabbing onto the nub, you give it a twist, which makes Irene moan. Seeing her reaction, you decide to pull on it, “Remember to relax.” With a firm grip, you begin to pull on the nub, which causes her pucker hole to stretch slightly. Irene gets firm to the table and feels you pull the plug out of her butt. She moans with every centimeter you pull until her hole is stretched to the size of a glass ball.

“Ready for the last bit?”

“Shut up, just pull it.”

All you hear is the popping noise of air escaping her now gaping hole, trying to clench onto the foreign object it held earlier before. “Fuck, lot at that gaping hole,” as you stare at the inside of Irene’s exposed hole. You stand and watch as her pucker hole constricts, turning you on.

Not wanting to wait any longer, you undo your belt and drop your pants to the floor. You take out your cock and give it a full pump, getting it ready for some action.

You open the bottom drawer and pull out some lube and squirt some on Irene’s ass and on your cock. Slowly and gently, you rub the lube all over your cock and between Irene’s slit. The cold lube causes Irene to shiver in anticipation of what’s to come.

Now, the long-awaited meal that you have been craving is here. You press your cock against Irene’s ass and gently push it into her asshole. She groans as she feels the tip of your hardened cock spreads her puckerhole, “Uggh…fuck…” biting her lip. A cold sensation fills her spine as she takes in your massive cock.

“Fuck, you’re still tight.” You press in even more, feeling the flesh of her walls wrapping around your cock. You take a better hold of her waist and warn her, “I’m going to go all the way!”

Irene tries to prepare herself and adjusts her position on the table but loses her balance when she feels a stab in her womb, “Wait! You’re going to mess me up!”

Her knees become weak from just one stroke, and it’s not the last one. You pick up the pace and mercilessly fuck her ass. You enjoy hearing her groan in pain as she takes you massive length. “Stop! Stop! Give me some time to adjust myself. You’re going to ruin me!”

You move your hand and insert two fingers into her wet cunt and collect as much fluid as you can. With those two fingers, you shove them into Irene’s mouth and say, “Shut up and suck like a good girl!”

Without a fight, she welcomes your fingers and begins to suckle. “Yeah, that’s right. Sucking on your own nectar like a slut you are.” She tries to respond, but you slam your cock back inside, reaching the deepest parts of her ass, causing her to gag on your fingers.

After five minutes, Irene is a complete mess; she groans, “You’re turning me inside out. Please, pull out…”

“Alright, I’ll let you rest, but let me cum first.”

You pull out your cock just enough to leave the tip and slam it once more, releasing a large wave of cum, “Hmph… fuck!!” She loses her balance, falls on the desk, and goes silent. “Fuck, your ass is so just tighter, it’s milking my cock.”

You turn to Irene and see her passed out, so you pull out your cock and see Irene’s motionless body. You grab your phone from your desk and take a picture of Irene’s gaping ass, “That’s so hot.” You walk in closer and see a large puddle of cum just at the edge of her puckerhole, just waiting to ruin Irene’s thigh. You grab her ass cheeks and spread them, causing your cum to spill out and drip onto her underwear.

Not wanting to spill any cum on the floor you pull her panties back up and sit on your chair with Irene on your lap. You move her panties to the side and insert your semi-hard cock back inside, and continue to work on the computer.

After a couple of minutes, Irene wakes up and feels the hot sensation of something buried deep inside her and lifts her head up. She slowly regains her vision, and the first thing she sees is your chest. She tilts her head up, “Wh…what are you doing?”

“You fell asleep, well more like passed out. I didn’t know I was that good.”

“Stop. Let me get off.”

“No.”

“Come on, I need to get back to my duties.”

“These are part of your duties, remember.”

“Fine… just get it over with.”

“That’s no fun, but whatever. Let’s see your reaction after I’m done with you.”

Irene feels your semi-limp cock throbbing and getting harder as you bounce her small body on your length. With a firm grip on her ass tries to turn her head away, but you stop her, “Don’t look away. Look at me.” She moves her gaze at you, making direct eye contact. “That’s right, just like that. Now, I’m going to let go, and I want you to ride me.”

You could see that she was going to talk back, but instead, she holds the words in her mouth and does as she’s told. She continues the rhythm you previously had and, little by little, increases the pace. You place your hands on her back, and she places hers on your shoulders; you stare at her, teasing that she is doing all the work like the good little cum slut that she is.

“How does my cock feel up your ass? Good, huh?”

“It’s not bad.”

“Remember when the first time?”

“Don’t… don’t bring it up.”

“Why not? It was cute seeing you struggle.”

“I couldn’t walk straight for two days because of you.”

“Hey, it’s not my fault your body is so small.”

“It’s not my body, it’s that your cock is too big.”

“But you like it” as you give her a smirk. She doesn’t respond, but the silence gives away her answer. Instead, she picks up the pace to get her duty over with. “Fuck, you’re getting tight again. You’re so good at tightening your walls. If only your future members knew how much of a slut you are.”

“I’m not doing it because I want to; I’m doing it because I have to.”

“Oh, if that’s the case, why don’t you let me fuck that tight pussy you have right there” as you rub your hands on her nicely trimmed cunt.

“No, you can’t.”

“Come on, it’s been over a year since we met, and you still haven’t…”

“Don’t. Remember, you can only fuck me anal if you don’t do it from the front. I’m saving myself for someone special.”

“Alight, I guess… You’re lucky I’m nice. If it was anyone else, they wouldn’t think twice about having all of you, if you know what I mean.”

“Haha don’t think you’re so nice. You still got your with me, even if it’s through my ass.”

“Let’s change the subject. How about you make me cum in two minutes. If you can do it in less than that, I’ll let you start your little group.”

“Promise?”

“Yeah.”

Without a second thought, she increased the pace of her straddling. She moans as your cock reaches the deepest parts of her rectum. “Ahh… ahh.. it feels so good!” She lifts herself up and slams herself back down, causing her to tighten her walls. “Cum already, please…” as she looks up at you. “Almost.” She repeats it a couple more times, making you cum only five seconds before the two-minute mark. She groans as you fill her ass once more, causing her to lose strength in her body and collapse on your chest with a heavy breath.

It takes her a couple of minutes for her to regain a part of her strength, and when she does, she pulls herself out of your cock but don’t before you go for a passionate kiss to, which she does not reject. After you kiss, she musters enough energy to pull away, gets off your lap, waddles to the sofa across the room, throws herself onto it, and slowly closes her eyes.

You get off the chair and walk towards her and whisper, “Congratulations on your new group. Make sure not to disappoint me,” as you smack her ass. You walk towards the desk and grab some tissues to clean yourself off. You see the plug on top of her skirt and grab it before walking back to Irene. “Don’t forget this. I want you to walk around with my cum inside your ass for the whole day, okay” as you insert the plug back into her butt.

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Irene spends the whole day with the plug as you order her to. The first thing she does when she returns to her apartment is go straight to the shower. She turns on the shower, lets it run for a few minutes, and places her head against the shower wall. After a long day, she tries to clear her mind and pulls out the plug. She watches as a large amount of cum pours out of her tight butthole and into the drain, “He pumped so much in me. It’s better for it to be my ass than the other whole and ending up pregnant. I’ll never let that man impregnate me. That would be the end of me…” as she takes a hot shower.

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A few days passed, and Irene was heading to the meeting room to meet with her future group mates when she saw a group of women entering through the main entrance. She sees IU and Taeyeon coming out of the elevator and walking toward the women. “Hey, IU. Who’s that?”

“Oh the group?”

“Yeah.”

“They’re Taeyeon’s groupmates. They came for a tour since Taeyeon wouldn’t stop complimenting the place. She will show them around the campus and maybe meet with the CEO if he’s available.”

“Oh, okay. Good luck then.”

IU catches up with Taeyeon and the rest of the group and passes by Irene. They introduce themselves one at a time, but only one catches her attention. “You must be Irene.”

“Yeah, I am.”

“I’m Jessica, by the way. Taeyeon told me I should communicate with you and IU if I had any questions.”

“Yes, IU and I are the CEO’s assistants and are more than glad to answer any questions you have.”

“Okay, good. I’ll catch you later. Can’t miss the tour of the company,” as Jessica waves goodbye to Irene.

Irene waves back better, heading to the meeting room. She opens the doors and sees a group of four girls sitting next to each other, waiting patiently.

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magnoliavasconcelos · 3 months

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"He's just a baby"

Pairing: Jungkook x fem!reader

Word count: 382

Warnings: explicit language, suggestive themes

Content: fluff, established relationship, one shot

Situation: your food is too good, Bam is too clingy and Jungkook wouldn't swap his little family for anything.

"What the fuck is this?"

The first words came from a tired Jungkook, dressed in baggy black clothes, hands on his waist and a smile growing on his face.

"What?"

"Have you seen yourself?"

He said, pointing at Bam and me, lying on the sofa with a blanket, Bam's head on my chest as I pet him.

"He deserves pampering, look at his face." Jungkook laughs in disbelief. "Have you seen his size?"

"I think someone's jealous, but who am I to talk, I would be too if a beautiful woman like me wasn't paying me any attention." I say with a small smile looking at Bam once again.

"Of course I am, I know my rights." He says, as he leans in to kiss me. "I made us food." I say, pointing to the kitchen worktop. I see his doe eyes growing as he looks at the food I've prepared. His favourite ramen, with green onions, soft boiled eggs and sesame seeds.

Smelling a sweet scent through his button nose, he looked over and there were small freshly made chocolat cookies with hearts on top.

"You did all this?" He asked me, his eyes wide. "Yes, I went to buy the flour at the shop of that older couple we met."

Ahhh, that day. He thought. A week ago, when we had gone to walk Bam, we found a precious shop, run by an elderly couple, where everything seemed to be in perfect condition. But nothing was more perfect than his girl in a yellow sundress and his dog always on guard around her.

"I love you." Jungkook says as he looks at me with such affection that I feel like I'm going to explode. "I love you too..." I say and then he interrupts me. "No, I love you. In an inexplicable way, in a way that makes me want to enjoy every moment with you. In bad times and in good times, when we laugh like fools, when you get upset about someone at work and I start planning to kill them, when I miss a step in a routine and you cheer me up, when I complain that Bam steals you away from me but I love that he loves you like a mother, the fact that I came home to delicious food you made. I'm just madly in love with our home life."

"Stop it..." I say and feel my cheeks heat up. Jungkook walks up to me with a mischievous smile. "I won't stop, pretty thing." He starts kissing me all over my face, while Bam starts snuggling closer to me, pushing Jungkook further away. "Bam stop stealing my girl, you've had her all day, now it's my turn."

"Don't talk to him like that, he's just a baby." I look at the Doberman. "Who's Mummy's cutest baby?" I ask in a baby voice, causing Bam to climb on top of me and lick my face.

"Give me some attention, I thought I was your baby too." The singer, with tattoos and piercings adorning his smooth skin and bulging muscles, looks at me with an irresistible pout, making me grab his face and kiss him. "You'll always be my baby, my sweet boy, my golden boy, my Kookie..."

He takes me round the waist and kisses me like a hungry man. "I'd really like to eat you right now, but I think we'd better eat the food you've prepared and deal with it later." Jeon tells me without a hint of shame, leaving me all soft. I just nod and we head for the dining table, sit on his lap and enjoy our meal before moving on to the next one.

This is my first fic, hope I can get better.

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analyzingn · 2 years

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UNDERSTANDING THE K-POP IDOL PERSONA: why it exists, why it remains

How can idols feel? What are the things they hide behind the mask of perfection? Is your (fan) relationship with them really a relationship?

Persona is an archetype related to the mask we use, masks that are created to fulfill social roles or external expectations. This is the summary of Persona.

Shadow is also an archetype, but it is related to repressed contents of our personality, traumatic experiences, good or bad things that we somehow ignore, don't know about ourselves or don't want to accept in ourselves.

We are a society based on Personas, even more so on social medias, since we are always wanting to show ourselves to others, to convey certain images, even if they do not correspond to everything we are. This is even more true in scenarios where looking good or near "perfect" is necessary, including to sell ($$$$).

We are all human. When a human being accepts to live on the limit between his/her real personality and an invented character, what are the consequences for his/her emotional and for his/her identity?

SPEAKING IN ANALYTICAL PSYCHOLOGY LANGUAGE,

If a person is absorbed in Persona, where is his/her Shadow? And his/her Self?

From Carl Jung, a particularly important theorist for Analytical Psychology, we can learn that there is no healthy psychological life without contact with the shadows, with what is deeper and sometimes even painful and not well accepted by people.

When people focus too much on living through their Persona, they give up on themselves. I say this because there is no self-knowledge without embracing your Shadow, without allowing everything that you disapprove or that you were taught that is reprehensible to be faced and felt.

The Self is lost, and the being is focused on its Ego, a very superficial sense of what he/she is. the Persona of an idol, but is focused on pleasing, on fulfilling other people's expectations, on being almost perfect (this is required of many artists, but I see it being even stronger for k-idols). and that is not healthy for anyone's mind and personality, that's for sure.

Never say that it is a pleasure to live oneself. It will be no joy but a long suffering, since you must become your own creator.

Carl Jung

First of all, I would like to take you to a reflection. An exercise to put yourself in their shoes, if possible. I want to make people notice what can be behind this curtain of smiles, awards, and satisfaction. Could it be that when the curtain goes down, the public is not around, and the lights go out… is it still like that? Let's reflect:

Since people can put themselves in other people's shoes more easily when they see themselves in certain reality, think about yourself in their place, 'transporting' yourself as much as you can to their reality.

*p.s.: nothing I say here is intended to victimize the idol figure, saying that they are poor people who have no choice. they had. they really chose. but that does not justify all the exaggerations on the part of others, all the limitations imposed on them. and at the same time, in the end, they are as much a part of it as the company is. no one here is a victim, that is for sure. unfortunately, it is all part of the 'game’.

One thing I can say with certainty: They want to be artists recognized for who they are.

I cannot hold on to the fake and so widespread idea that “the fans are everything to them and they just need the fans' love”. this is an illusion. And not only an illusion but also a limitation, because the love coming from the fan in general can be (and is) selective, and they are originally there for the success that the artist is making, because if weren’t for the success and visibility, they wouldn't meet the artists.

When all these idols walked the street back in the day, before they became famous, no one stopped them to say they loved who they were. Today it is easy to say that you love the famous person you follow for who they are. You feel affection, but not real love – when you meet someone and value them for who they are. Fan love is a conditioned love, not that love we experience in a relationship with family, boyfriends, girlfriends, and friends, because we live with these people, and we have the possibility of being known for who we are. Obviously, that seems to be it, it seems to be true love, a genuine love, after all you are devoted to someone, but it is not.

First because the idol does not even show him/herself for real. Second, that in order to attract their attention, a number of things were done - marketing, image planning, advertising creation and, finally, the creation of Personas. Who you meet on the street, an unknown being, or the people you know that you do not even value that much, they don't have a persona designed to shine and get your attention.

Even if one of them is an amazing person, you won't be interested in meeting her the way you were interested in meeting the artist if she/he doesn't have something very attractive: fame, numbers, everything that blindly makes us believe that we are very “inferior” to these people, and they are so good that we are far from them.

Therefore, we need to idolize them. Sometimes a person who does not have any fame could be more inspiring and exemplary for you than the famous person you idolize, but okay. Let's proceed.

Artists who, since they gained the opportunity to show themselves to the world, have to “trim” themselves, removing their “yellow” leaves from the view of others, so that they become a completely green tree. Less natural and closer to perfect. Less Self and more Persona. It happens that when a love is based on ideas of not accepting everything from a person, in addition to not being a complete and true love, it is not a love that nourishes. It is a love that doesn't involve trust to show itself, it's not a love literally "home" and coziness.

Can you understand the difference in love? In words it may even be, but in attitudes it is not. In its deepest nature, it is not. And nurturing this idea of a “deep relationship” between fan and idol does not only have negative effects on the idol. In this text I delve deeper into the effects on the fans.

Imagine yourself being in a life like an idol is and having to deal with the frustration of not having space to be yourself, not being able to feel true love from someone who will not be there to judge you, from someone who doesn't look at you waiting for what higher in the face of aesthetic standard, for example. A person who will treat you with a degree of normality, who will see you as an ordinary person. A person that being close to you does not live wanting to photograph your every step, a person doesn't want to post around the world how beautiful and sexy you are when you touch your hair. A person who really knows you, and who values you in the depth of what you are, and who does not need to expose you to the world because of your degree of fame.

Somewhat, normality does not exist in the life of an idol.

When they are with the fans, they cannot admit romantic relationships. They cannot date because fans feel they are "their property.”

In this situation, can one speak of true love? no, we have only conditioned love.

They cannot relate to anyone – at least in public - because they have to deal with the issue of the privacy and the boundary between what they want to bring to the public and what is private is disrespected. People going about their business and throbbing as if they were puppets and mere characters in a fictional story; not in a reality with the right to live their lives in privacy, at least a little. Everything personal becomes public and nothing is respected. In this situation, we cannot talk about love. With all respect.

1. Relationships, in particular dating

The fear of dating. The reaction of the fans. Company. All things involving “love relationship” + idols. We may not even think about how an idol feels to be deprived of it, but we cannot deny that at this point (and not only at this) they don't live the same way we do.

Imagine your whole life being deprived of love, being deprived of throwing yourself into romantic love and living it.

Love changes us. Love helps us when we are tired. Love is what gives us a sense of peace when everything wears us down, including work (speaking of work, fans are part of their work, not 'personal relationships' as many think). I think that their dream has always been to show their music to the world, being who THEY ARE, not basically becoming shaped beings. Unfortunately, it is a condition that is part of an entire industry that uses exactly that as an attraction to the public: an almost perfect image of an artist. An artist that will be limited of some freedoms because now he/she has a signed contract.

And most importantly: an artist who will serve you. He/she will be one moment your friend, the next almost a romantic partner. And for that, that person cannot be in a relationship, the person must be available to you.

I am sure that being deprived of living one of the most important parts of the development of a human being, which is the relationship, especially the loving one, feeling loved and being loved, was not in their life plan. But became a part.

Remembering that I am talking about k-idols, where they are even more limited in terms of dating (by the company and the fans). Very few assume relationships and when they do, they start living not a relationship for two, but with the whole audience, and imagine how unbearable a relationship that receives guesses all the time. Would you like to have the world pressure (and sometimes even against) your relationships?

2. Comment

When all these idols walked the street before they became famous, no one stopped them to say they loved who they were. Today it is easy to say that you love the famous person you follow for who they are.

You feel affection, but not real love – when you meet someone and value them for who they are (Fake Love from BTS is a great song about it). Fan love is a conditioned love, not that love we experience in a relationship with family, boyfriends, girlfriends, and friends, because we live with these people, and we have the possibility of being known for who we are. Obviously, in idol-fan "relatiomship", that seems to be it, it seems to be true love, a genuine love, after all you are devoted to someone, but it is not.

Even if one of them is an amazing person, you won't be interested in meeting them the way you were interested in meeting the artist, because she/he doesn't have something very attractive: fame, numbers, everything that blindly makes us believe that we are very “inferior” to these people, and they are so good that we are far from them. Therefore, people need to idolize them.

Sometimes a person who does not have any fame could be more inspiring and exemplary for you than the famous person you idolize, but okay. Let's proceed.

Since they gained the opportunity to show themselves to the world, they have to “trim” themselves, removing their “yellow” leaves from the view of others, so that they become a completely green tree. Less natural and closer to perfect. Less Self and more Persona. It happens that when a love is based on ideas of not accepting everything from a person, in addition to not being a complete and true love. It is not a love that nourishes. It is a love that doesn't involve trust to show itself.

Somewhat, normality does not exist in the life of an idol.

When they are with the fans, they cannot admit romantic relationships. They cannot date because fans feel they are "their property.”

In this situation, can one speak of true love? no, we have only conditioned love.

3. Emotional - idols cannot openly talk about everything they feel and are

Whether about sexuality, characteristics considered defects or weaknesses; having to do with not being able to open up and say what they feel… They know the limitations they have, because they know the fuss it makes or how unnecessary it would be to talk about themselves, to ask to be heard about their most “disapproved” feelings (since there are fans in the world who judge an idol as “weak” when he/she shows a more fragile and hidden side of itself).

In addition, there have been and will still be many situations in which they felt things, but which they could not explain because it went against what the company believes or against the company's economic interests. Rare possibilities to speak of what they believe, to defend their own thoughts. Have you ever thought how many people think things we do not even know? Whether for a good or a bad side... People who do not explain what they genuinely believe (biased, racist, very sexist thoughts, etc.) because they need to be perfect, and at the same time people who wouldn't like to hold hands with conservatism but who end up saying yes because they can't express everything they think. That is why I find it so strange to put idols on pedestals claiming that they are the most critical beings in the world, when in reality sometimes they don't even express truly what they feel.

4. Mental health

Going deeper and talking about mental health, the trainee phase can already be enough to develop some suffering. And few people understand who has it. And few can talk about how it is. And when they say about something they deal everyday: it doesn't even half of what they really feel, because it is so difficult to put something that is so taboo into words, isn't it?

And when I mention the trainee phase and the possibility that mental problems and vulnerabilities may develop in it, I say this because many forget this phase, which is so important because it marks many things in their lives. It is a very demanding phase - internal and external, where it is possible that ideas of being insufficient no matter what you do are born (or strengthened); of needing external approval; of wanting to please too much; bad feelings that do a lot of harm to a person's internal life, but that came about for a reason: the trainee period is when the person charges him/herself the most and is charged. It is an absurd rigidity where the focus is much more on the mistake, a tendency that makes the person also focus more on the mistake than on the successes in their attitudes.

And the problem does not stop there. The tensest issue is that after you ran and ran against time and "against yourself", after you have sacrificed so much in your life to be an idol, everything that was negative left inside you can't be treated with so easily because it is NOW that you will have to put into practice that idea that you were taught so much: smile, always smile; charisma, charisma. Be the Persona, we teach you to be. The idol that gives positivity and joy to everyone, even if inside you have several pieces, several open wounds, several insecurities. Be the example!

In addition, the perfect body pattern. I've discussed this idea a few times, and some people told me that K-pop is the genre that "most revolutionizes" the world today. In some terms, really. But I don't accept the idea that just because so many of the lyrics are about self-love, the genre has an immense and intense critical sense. If K-pop were so open to diversity, people could express their sexuality without being kicked out of companies, homo affectivity would not be used as bait to profit (fan service), and we would see a variety of bodies and personalities. Most groups have a weight standard that reflects exactly how very conservative K-pop is and is the biggest representation of what is called the “dictatorship of beauty.”

K-pop has a politically correct side (which is used for profit) that mentions the issues we struggle with the most these days and mentions it very cleverly. This genre seems to fight for the end of the dictatorship of fashion and beauty, the end of fatphobia, it seems to advocate in order to people accept each other. The lyrics convey a message à la the body positive movement, but the attitudes of those who sing them do not fit... The idols live "taking care" of their bodies so that they will never be inside what would be considered “ugly” for them. Contradictions?

5. Imagine yourself living under an “worldwide escort” literally 24 hours

This escort composed by the media and fans. For each step they take: millions of simultaneous reactions, opinions, photos, people analyzing each step and expression they make to build analyzes that fit what the person wants to say, the narrative they created in their fertile head. There is a strong use the image of famous people.

6. The sexualization of idols

Speaking of narratives that fans create: this subject deserves its own topic.

As if it wasn't enough to blindly project yourself into them, believing you know them when in reality all you're doing is seeing yourself in them, seeing something you'd like to be (that’s why they feel so close and so familiar to you). As if it wasn’t enough, there's still all the sexualization and a disgusting habit of stepping into the most intimate area of ANYONE's life and saying what each of the idols would do in sexual situations.

People creating images for each of them, who “serves” in the sexual relationship and who “dominates”, applying this filter and vision pattern to each of their behavior, to literally narrating sex scenes and making it normal and banal. With the excuse that “sex cannot be taboo”. Yes, it can't. But it is ridiculous to scandalize and use people as sex objects, exposing them on social media and ridiculing them (because they are not relating to you, and if they have, consent is important).

However, have you ever heard that when people are in a group, even doing something so irrational, they feel so right and correct? If the crowd is wrong, at least I am not alone. I would not feel myself proud for it.

What you do is living your relationships that should be lived by you projecting yourself into them, creating romantic bonds between them and going crazy when this is contested by someone from the outside (because, of course, your theories are irrefutable). It's about living your personal life spending 24/7 defending them as if you were defending your own integrity and identity, it's about feeling that your life is fulfilled by being with people who have been trained to smile and please you (and that when they disappear, because it's something normal, they leave you empty). It is being so dependent, but anyone seems to notice this. It is about transferring your sexuality to them, once again projecting yourself onto them and thinking that this whole life that is ultimately fictional is the greatest fulfillment you could ever have.

7. Imagine yourself traveling somewhere, but not being able to go outside

Not being able to go out to enjoy something alone, or with friends, because when going out someone finds out (as if it were negative for the person to leave) and then the internet, the fandom STOP to write, react, and analyze the departure of the human being out of his hotel. What a rare event, a phenomenon that definitely deserves a LOT of analysis, isn't it? Like a solar eclipse that deserves to be very well appreciated and observed.

8. Constant work, little rest

Constantly pushing yourself and releasing two albums or more every year, mixing that with comebacks, tours, are things that really mark the life of a k-idol. It is surprising to see them claiming that taking few breaks is essential - that's how they've been taught to live. And the fans - those who consume everything that is placed on their tables and sometimes seem to live off of it - use exactly that as an excuse: they are adults and they know what they do, they are not children so having few breaks is their choice. It is just that imagining yourself without the “pampering”, the emotional food, the dopamine, oh FOMO…

It is like saying to a non-famous person who works in a company and receives little that it's okay because, hey, she/he asked to go through this, she/he joined the company. No one should criticize anything. Sit there, after all, you get your salary, even if you know there are things wrong there. Here the point of problem is the salary among many others, but in the case of idols they are all those I mentioned. But it is like they say: “ignorance is a gift” and “the world is like that”.

9. The idea of “deserving” for the routine they live (meritocracy within K-pop)

I've seen several tweets in which an idol is on the ground so exhausted and in reaction we have many fans saying: that's it! we need to reciprocate. That's why I buy and stream, that's why I vote. Don’t you never stopped to think that… is that part of the whole machine? This is the whole idea, this is the intention of everyone behind the industry: to create diligent and very committed idols, who literally live only from work, and who through these "hardwork" attitudes manage to pass on to fans ideas that they deserve to be rewarded, because you've never seen someone work SO MUCH. I've never seen a genre with as much pressure and demand as this one. Yes, we have a lot of common issues in all the industry.

But here we can see people who not only charge themselves, but also like to pass on to others - even if unintentionally - this philosophy of life that leads people to perfectionism: no pain, no gain.

And through a romanticization of exaggerated work, of people who live being workaholics, we continue to feed the culture that produces the most content and which sells the most. This content is not directly related to music, if you stop to notice a good part of the things produced, transmitted and sold in K-pop are outside of what is the song and the music video, and, obviously, what else makes your idol work.

A song called “i should do” by rapper Jooheon highlights this a lot, the need to always be on the move when you're an idol and the sense of deserving to be rewarded for it all, how hard you end up working. And how much you aim to reward (buying and streaming) to those who work so hard. This is the narrative that everyone who is part of K-pop culture sells (company, idols) and buys (fans) so well.

10. Obligations and expectations

Photos, called selfies, and always wanting more. Imagine yourself having some obligation that at certain times becomes even more frequent, intense, having the obligation to post a photo, to make posts on another member's birthday - because people who "know you so well" (aka fans) need to see you posting photo to confirm the narratives they create before, during and after the birthday of a person who is on the other side of the earth.

They make so many posts about how they “know!” that idols are right now in the same house, such a rosy narrative. And are eagerly awaiting the post. And if one does not appear, wait for the reviews.

There are charges to do live videos, to answer messages in chat. And whoever thinks that all this is done by them without being seen as a routine, a task, an obligation is considered a monster by fans. They have a schedule to appear, to post a photo (and not always what they posted was actually taken at that time).

For those who live so alienated and trapped in this whole situation, interactions with fans always comes from the heart and never from the obligation to appear. In some cases, it may even be. But why do you think that when one member shows up, all the others start showing up right away? There is no deep relationship, the most that can exist here is an identification and a connection, but not unconditional: it came to exist because they fulfilled a series of attributes very well. A series of attributes to get here, to become “idols” who before being artists are like presenters of entertainment programs, trained to make others smile. And then, only after fulfilling all this did, they get to where they are today.

11. We are in a relationship with them. Really?

Fans often think and believe too much that they are in a deep relationship with their idol and that it doesn't get any better than that. They don't need anything else: with the K-pop group they have it all. This is extremely worrying, because as the idol feeds (on the sense of worth, of belonging to something, having a “relationship”.), fan becomes increasingly dependent on it. When they leave, even for a little bit, things get ugly and there's a void. But wait, for that came a way out! The company will post a new documentary of them. Oh, how wonderful, so I don't feel empty anymore. And off we go with more doses of addiction. And it turns into such a big cycle.

The person forgets to dedicate time from their studies to developing their personality and focusing on their own things. Unlike other genres that also have a lot of problems, K-pop is the first and the smartest (and no, that's not a compliment) not to give its consumer only music. It gives exactly everything that plugs the emotional holes. And it seems that this is commendable, commendable, a wonderful thing. But it is not, because it creates the feeling of dependence, it's like a medicine you can't do without.

All the releases of different things that often come out one after the other, without even time for the person to digest what was present in the previous release. It creates anxiety, it creates a feeling of being on the alert all the time because something is going to be released, so you need to be there always. You can't miss anything. In Psychology this is called FOMO (Fear of missing out), which is the fear of losing things, opportunities, fear of being left. I need to be online 24/7 because I will be: I - a good fan, not an “ungrateful”, but exactly the one who serves my idols very well; II - I will not feel alone; III - doses of dopamine is what I won't miss.

However, like all dopamine: it comes and goes fast. And then you go in search of more. Within the whole adventure, outside of FOMO, outside of anxiety, people teach each other all the time that numbers are worth much more than content, because we need to be diligent and hardworking to keep the darlings at the top because “their success is our success”. Psychological projection and feeling that the conquest of the other is your conquest.

All this is part of a strategy to keep people even closer and more devoted. At the same time there is the idea that they are almost perfect and superior. K-pop makes you “intimate” with the one that my god, sometimes unfortunately you don't even know each other, let alone that you will know him.

On psychological levels, this is not healthy at all.

The feeling of dependence is also added to obligation. obligation to be present. I saw a lot of fans that blamed themselves for being offline, even if it was due to personal circumstances. They feel like “horrible fans”. As if they had an obligation to serve that person who is so far from them. Do you feel guilt when you walk away from people who are actually close to you?!

THE IDOL PERSONA: Why it exists, why it remains and what makes it appear.

- Why does it exist? It exists because within K-pop, with the molds and structure it has, it is necessary to mold a person until they are completely pleasant to everyone or the vast majority who are outside. the purpose of this Persona: to trim (uproot or hide) unattractive sides of the personality and bring out only what is stunning and “perfect”.

- Why does it remain? This Persona remains because it is necessary for everything to continue flowing. If an idol rips off the mask of perfection, the glamour it's gone. Problems and chaos (which was supposed to be normal) creates the feeling of being weak. And the feeling of being “weak” for letting everything come out too.

I feel that idols, when expressing themselves emotionally, showing weaknesses and insecurities, don't feel as understood or safe in doing so. This is because whoever receives these messages, who reads and listens to an ‘outburst’ from them, sees it as something almost “extraordinary”, not common for them.

Imagine what it's like to already have a pressure to carry, but still having to bear the fact that if you speak, people will see you as one of the few who talks about it - which could be seen with good eyes -, and who is seen as someone who "failed".

- What makes Persona appear? this culture of fanaticism itself and a need (what is used by the industry).

For Carl Jung, a particularly important theorist for Analytical Psychology, there is no healthy psychological life without contact with the shadows, with what is deeper and sometimes even painful and not well accepted by people. When a person focuses too much on living through their Persona, they give up on themselves. I say this because there is no self-knowledge without embracing your Shadow, without allowing everything that you disapprove or that you were taught that is reprehensible to be faced and felt.

The Self is lost, and the being is focused on its Ego, a very superficial sense of what it is. the Persona of an idol is focused on pleasing, on fulfilling other people's expectations, on being almost perfect. and that is not healthy for anyone's mind and personality, that's for sure.

Suffering must be overcome, and the only way to overcome it is to endure it. Carl Jung

Never say that it is a pleasure to live oneself It will be no joy but a long suffering, since you must become your own creator.

Carl Jung

Seldom, or perhaps never, does a marriage develop into an individual relationship smoothly and without crises; there is no coming to consciousness without pain. (Contributions to Analytical Psychology, Page 193)

People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own souls. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. (Psychology and Alchemy, Page 99). Carl Jung

A fan is a mere consumer that feeds the whole culture, even if being part of it is also becoming dependent on something. It is not always so good to drop things in your life to devote yourself to others, people who are not always helping you to evolve, in something that doesn't give you a direct return.

It is not always so good to simply spend so much time on a social network where, in the end, everything ends up being ephemeral and fictitious: the assumptions of who they are, their relationships, the analyzes of their behavior, the outbreaks by the times they appear, the struggle to make their numbers rise, without it bringing you anything direct return, without helping you to develop your personality, on the contrary, it brings you an attachment to someone you don't know but who falls so well into the temptation of “living together” because that's what everyone sells: you know us better than anyone else, you are everything to us.

This fan-idol relationship is sometimes flooded with selfish interests and does not always “save” the fan as is said. Sometimes, anxiety increases, feelings of emptiness too, the search for always wanting something new to feed on, the need to project yourself in them and live FOR THEM relationships that you believe they live, in an attempt to fill an internal void. The fear of being left out (FOMO) and the desperation of belonging to a group (fandom), defending hard “your ones”, uttering unlimited offenses to others who don't like the same as you. And simply spending a lot of time discussing the steps of your dear idols, analyzing if certain thing and attitude was right, this and that. All this, believe me, is not healthy.

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◇Yandere Concept◇

•○ 《Ryu Shi-Oh》 ○•

『This is just my own concept but not the general and true view of the character as a yandere, although canonically he may or may not present these... behaviors』

〔Warning ⚠️: This may or may not contain Spoilers for the show in question, please do not read it if you have not yet seen the mentioned K-Drama. In addition, somewhat sensitive topics such as child abuse, drugs, mentions of sex and among others will be included.〕 Postscript: There may or may not be spelling errors, misplaced character pronouns (I'm dyslexic) so I'm sorry for the inconvenience because this was written at night and I was sleepy, and I'm not a fan of English, so this might be bad.

A puppet of the Russian mafia, Ryu Shi-oh is ruthless and unscrupulous. Depending on how you have met him, he will treat you differently. He would most like a Darling who is as lively, positive and almost like the protagonist of the K-drama where he comes from.

》☆ Obsession:

Ryu Shi-oh will take quite a while to trust you, since he has the police and other enemies after his head. However, if you're the gentle type (if you go all in with this yandere, it would be best for both of you), he'll see you as his emotional refuge, the only source of light in his dark life, though that doesn't mean it won't take a little effort for him to be open to you. Despite his yandere tendencies, he feels a desperate need to protect that vulnerable part of himself by sometimes seeming distant (or perhaps he is at first).

Once he is aware of his feelings for you, then things will change (not much but at least he won't always be on guard with you). You will see him as shy, loving (in his own strange way). Of course, he will be somewhat slow in his feelings but VERY loyal once he is sure of them.

》☆ Obsessive Control:

Russian mafia upbringing has instilled in him either consciously or unconsciously, a need for absolute control and even to the point of violence. Ryu Shi-o monitors every move you make (that's only in his facet of having just met you), from his daily interactions to his friendships. Since if it's at the beginning of getting to know you, he wants to make sure there are no betrayals or double-crosses on your part.

On the other hand, if you've known each other for a while, then his vigilance will be more about getting to know you in depth since he is somewhat clumsy in interactions (other than about his work or murder). He will know everything about you, even things you may not even remember. What kind of flowers you like, X item you've been lusting after and so on.

》☆ Dark Gifts:

To express his love, Ryu Shi-oh tends to give you expensive and luxurious things (When he is getting to know you they are more like decoys) But then he gives you things that you might like, as I mentioned in the previous post, but often these carry a hint of double interactions (He stressed, Ryu Shi-oh doesn't trust people much, he has traumas.... Someone get this man some therapy for god's sake!!!).

》☆ Intense Jealousy:

The thought of losing you arouses a fierce rage in Ryu Shi-o. He can become possessive and jealous, going to extreme lengths to keep you tied to his side. His traumatic past contributes to his constant fear of being abandoned or betrayed, he horribly hates lies (This is Canon by the way, he said so himself).

Since he grew up in a precarious and horrible environment, his concepts of love are null to say the least.... he doesn't know anything about the real meaning beyond what is written in books or Google. So when his jealousy is present, he usually lashes out in anger because he doesn't understand or know how to handle his emotions well, that's why he is always stoic and avoids emotional contact with others.

He thinks at the beginning that these emotions are a weakness (because of his upbringing obviously) so you will understand his attitudes and actions at the beginning.

Back to the scenario (depending on whether you work for him or otherwise were Nam Soon's sister, so to speak). However it was, before and after he met you until he gained your trust, his jealousy is powerful and terrifying.

For example, if you deny him or are somewhat alien to his feelings (ahem! Nam soon) then Ryu Shi-oh may or may not threaten those you hold dear or end up killing the subject of his jealousy if provoked enough.

He may or may not send you videos of it, who knows, he's a fucking mafia-bred man.

》☆ Demonstrations of Power:

As CEO of Doogu, Ryu Shi-oh uses his influence and resources to protect you from his enemies, though also to investigate you, but often does so ruthlessly. He uses his position to eliminate any perceived threat (whether real or not, as in the case of being jealous), regardless of the consequences.

When it comes to, for example, demonstrating how happy you could be (excluding that he is a mobster and has a front business for the real thing, drugs) he can afford a whole restaurant for just the two of you or go on trips when he is not busy.

Also when it comes to dealing with you, depending on whether or not you agree to go out with him, he will use his resources. Either way you will end up with him (if you don't want innocent people hurt).

》☆ Hidden Insecurities:

Despite his confident facade, Ryu Shi-o harbors deep insecurities. Fearful that the reader will discover his dark side, he struggles not to show his vulnerability. This can manifest in moments of emotional self-isolation. More common when they are getting to know each other, refusing to accept their emotions more as a passing interest.

When he already falls for you, he refuses to see you leave him for someone else (Or when you don't want more than a friendship) He clings to the feeling you give him or your kindness/courtesy. He has never felt the comfort you give him, you treat him as human and not the tool the Russians used.

》☆ Future plans:

Although his methods are questionable, Ryu Shi-oh looks for love in you. He sees in that relationship an opportunity to find peace and redemption for the sins of his past, even if his actions may be morally ambiguous. He really is a yandere who would give everything for you, though of course after fulfilling his goals.

Since he has experimented on himself, his strength is inhuman and that may or may not lead to use on special occasions... special occasions. Going back to his plans with you,if you behave just by staying out of it, you will have a dream life.... On the other hand, if you are a treacherous liar like Nam Soon (Ryu's own words) Even if he loves and cherishes you, he won't go easy on you.

He will first take it out on your loved ones, then ruining your life until everyone forgets you even exist.... Only then he can stop being angry with you, he is cynical about it.

He will tell you: "But Honey! You did that to yourself... You shouldn't have betrayed me, I gave you everything, I trusted you with my secrets and you were a spoiled whore..... Accept the consequences, only then can we forgive each other."

》☆ Violence as a last resort:

Although he doesn't hesitate to resort to violence towards his subordinates (regarding the real drug business) He never uses it with you as he doesn't want you to see him as someone bad, he tries to keep it as a last resort (We already gave vast examples of which situations can lead him to that) The contradiction between his desire to protect and his ability to be brutal reflects the complexity of his character.

You will always see him as the suave and polite gentleman although distant in his interactions, but as you get to know him better he is just someone traumatized and hurt by his past (He doesn't justify his current actions but he explains why) He never touches a hair on your head if you treat him well (Ryu Shi-oh has the philosophy that his enemies he treats harshly and his allies worse or something similar, what do I know I am just a brat of 18 years old).

》☆ NSFW

》☆ This will be short, but having sex with Ryu Shi-oh is the most sensual thing you could imagine. I won't add much because I need to learn more about the character, well he likes to bite and scratch. He will be slow and very gentle with you when starting this, but when he gets excited like every man he loses his mind and you may or may not end up with whippings or broken bones given his superior strength (literally).

》☆ Ryu loves when you suck his cock or his neck, his favorite parts of your body are those where he can squeeze (female breasts or buttocks). He likes to suck your breasts and play with your neck. His cock is introduced slowly so when you are ready, he gives you everything he has.

》☆ In the end, you will end up tired but satisfied (Unless you have done wrong and Ryu is angry when making love, there it is not smooth and he could even take it out on you due to his jealousy) Afterwards, the care he gives you is soft and sensual, always apologizing for breaking some bones.

In general, having a yandere like him can be a double-edged sword. Ryu Shi-oh can be so kind or cruel depending on your reactions and treatment towards him. It's like swimming on nails, you have to watch where you're going or you'll end up getting hurt.

This is all independent of the K-drama "Nam soon Super Strong Girl" since it is merely my interpretation of this beautiful villain who, from my perspective, didn't deserve so much pain even though he brought it on himself in the end.

[For those anons who asked me for something, I promise that as soon as I get my ideas together I will start writing because I am a mess at this. I could barely do anything right with this yandere concept.]

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