On this post on Castle Swimmer details that I haven’t completely threaded together but have been floating around my head: Kappa and his connection to turtles.

After episode 100 was released, one of the main things that quickly stuck out to me, other than the emotional devastation I was quickly going to feel, was how the main character from the story Kappa got his name from and the god that destroyed the witches’s castle we’re both turtles. Asides from setting up some more neat parallels between Kappa and the witches, it was something I kept in the back of my mind for when we learnt more about this mini god that destroyed castle and, oh boy, did it bring forward implications for the rest of the story.

When we first learnt Labbu’s name in episode 120, we found out they aren’t just any mini god, oh no, they are a full on god. The god of the abyss, the creator of the mini gods and the only other god that we know exists in this world other than the god of the surface. Knowing this put the turtle link in a whole new light, since it recontextualizes Kappa’s name having a link between the mini god that destroyed his friends’s castle to Kappa’s name having a link to the likely main antagonist of Castle Swimmer. As a result, it has caused me to go back to that children’s story now and again with Labbu in mind. I’ve seen the idea that the Kappa from the children’s story and Labbu are one and the same, and while I don’t think it’s the case, I do think that the children’s story could have parallels to the creation of Labbu. I don’t have a complete picture of this theory yet, but since the mini god’s powers come from fossils, Labbu being the source of this power and the fossils likely coming from the work of the ancient people, my money at the moment is on Labbu being some creation of the ancient people, whether it was intentional or not. I’ll probably try to make a proper theory post about this idea when I’ve smoothed out more of the details but I think it’s the idea that makes the most sense at the moment.

While I’m still on Labbu, thanks to episode 155, we now know for sure that there are, or at least were, multiple beacons. Since Labbu is the creator of the mini gods, this revelation really fuels the idea that the mini gods could be Labbu’s attempt of creating their own version of the beacons. Could they have something to do with what happened to these other beacons? Possibly, but either way, it’s going to be interesting to learn what exact feelings Labbu and the God of the Surface have about each other.

On a more outer-story discussion, it seems like these decisions around turtles could be based on Kappa in mythology. For those who don’t know, Kappa’s name comes from the mythical creature of the same name. A kappa is a reptiloid kami with similarities to yōkai found in traditional Japanese folklore. They are typically depicted as green, human-like beings with webbed hands and feet and turtle-like carapaces on their backs.

If both Labbu and Kappa from the children’s story were chosen to be turtles as a reference to Kappa in folklore, that’s a really cool detail!

I love Ren presumably using "we" and "us" because he's acting as if both his and Tango's souls are still present as he is possessing Tango, but also like lore-wise. Just considering it in lore is like.

I'm reading this whole thing as Ren taking over Tango when his character didn't really need to have a sub. In Pearl's case during Limited Life, she was taken out because she didn't have enough time to recover from how much Double Life affected her and Cleo just. Idk needed a break from their messy family drama or something. However with Tango and Ren, Ren was acknowledging Tango kore than Lizzie or Gem addressed Pearl and Cleo. Ren even explicitly says that he feels like something inside him (as much as that sounded. Horrible in the moment. Goddammit he can't escape the innuendoes, can he?).

Idk I've just been....thinking about. I'm not the smartest when it comes to this #Lore stuff, and idek if this is coherent but MAN. The idea of Tango vaguely knowing something is up, but not really being able to do anything about it is just.

u said u wanted fluff rqs? cuz im here to deliver

honestly, anything w malleus literally anything i love him sm, but if u want smth more specific maybe smth abt love languages? idk im not very inspired rn either

this only happens on dreams, that's what I thought until I met you.

character/s. malleus.

includes. gn!reader, and fluff :D

cw. none

note. I like to think that his love language is physical contact and quality time (and also gift-giving because he literally gifts you a ton of expensive stuff.)

PHYSICAL CONTACT!

"malleus dear... you've been clinging to me for the past 2 hours.."

"I apologize beastie. your company is just enjoyable and you are also very warm."

Malleus is the type of guy who doesn't mind being the big spoon or the small spoon, It honestly depends on his mood. whenever he's feeling down he just wants you to cuddle with him and wrap your arms around his bigger frame... it makes him feel secure, safe, and loved (it also reminds him of his younger days when his grandmother comforts him by spooning his small frame and patting his back). but whenever you're the one who's having a tough time he always makes sure to do the same to you and whispers sweet comforting things to your ear as he hums a lullaby, lulling you to sleep as he pats your hair gently.

Malleus often wraps his arms around your waist and squeezes it a bit just to hear you laugh because of how ticklish that is and he loves to listen to your cute laugh <3 (it doesn't matter if you have a gruff voice or a squeaky laugh or even similar to a car window swiper laugh. he loves to hear it anyway)

Malleus always makes sure to take off his gloves whenever he holds your hands because he wants to feel your hands and how different it is from his. it also reminds him that he's not alone and you're still here with him even though he knows that you'll disappear someday because you're a mortal and he's immortal. love is a bittersweet thing after-all.

HE LOVES LOVESSS IT WHENEVER YOUR FINGERS BRUSHES THROUGH HIS HAIR !! he loves the feeling of your fingers on his scalp.. it reminds him of home and he likes the comfortable silence that befalls around the both of you

QUALITY TIME!

Malleus likes to be around your presence so much that he practically becomes your shadow with how much he's around you... he doesn't mean any harm. he just wants to spend time with you because you're his lovely mortal&lt;3

Malleus adores your and his nightly routine. the way you always tell him about your day and other things you find interesting today without any fear in your voice, he loves that. it reminds him of how you aren't scared of him even if you already know his reputation and what the other students spit out about him. He always makes sure to listen intently and remember all the details you say and if you happen to bring up something you saw that you really liked but couldn't afford to get it? don't worry beastie, he'll get it for you right now! but then again he can't just leave so he'll have to get it for you tomorrow! :)

LATE-NIGHT TALKS. LATE NIGHT TALKS>>>>

whenever you guys don't do your usual late night talks it always makes him feel unnerved and unable to sleep peacefully (Afterall he always sleeps with a smile on his face remembering your earlier conversations) and when you found out about that you always makes sure to talk to him or send him a message (a letter because he always breaks his cellphone's screen with his long sharp nails)

I've found that, when interacting with others (or myself), it's useful to consider the lessons I'd want to teach a growing child.

If a child makes a mistake, I wouldn't want them to feel shame. I wouldn't yell at them, humiliate them, or in any way indicate to them that their mistake is a reflection of their worth or of who they are as a person.

Instead, I'd want them to associate the process with love and joy. If they say something that hurts someone's feelings, or otherwise ostracizes someone in some way, I'd compassionately explain to them. Ideally, they'd walk away knowing why they said / did it in the first place, how to handle similar situations in the future, and would accept the consequences (e.g. if a friend no longer wanted to hang out with them).

While the consequences may sometimes be painful, I'd do my best to instill in them that mistakes are human and natural, and that the process of learning from these mistakes is an opportunity to improve connections with others and express love.

I have a tendency towards excessive guilt. Memories in which I've said / done something ignorant or hurtful are infused with this guilt and shame- but ideally, I'd feel a sense of love and peace, and perhaps happiness, when looking back on them. Because they were moments of growth, moments I learned how to be more compassionate (even if the actual learning came years later).

So I'll put this out into the void:

When you make a mistake, that is not a reflection of you as a person. It is a moment in time, a moment which was informed by your past experiences. Humans are not static labels, or monsters in an RPG game. We are social creatures who live and learn and react and grow and experience and love. Be gentle with yourself and move forward knowing you're doing so in accordance with your values.

so...some past trauma has been reactivated which...fucking sucks. but it also means i might churn out some good writing?

Random ass thought I just had but I just want to like see people put their narrators and narrator designs in like a little ring and just witness them fight while people gamble which ones would win

Fundamentalist christians don't care if something is a lie as long as it isn't "unbiblical".

new byan song unlocked as i reconnect w one of my favourite bands... and slowly continue building my byan playlist

no but actually, when I was like 16 I decided to get in deep with the cult, like fanatically deep. Donating my entire allowance and dedicating myself to biweekly bible study deep. Mainly because I had deluded myself into thinking that if only I could become a perfect jehovah’s witness, god would heal my crippling gender dysphoria by either taking pity on me and simply give me a dick and testosterone for the low price of my freedom and dignity, or alternatively taking it away all together and let me live my life blissfully as a cis woman for all eternity in paradise. The latter never sounded appealing to me, and I’m not going to pretend that the blatant sexism within the cult wasn’t a part of it at all, but even if you removed it, I still didn’t particularly care for having tits. I did realize that the former alternative probably wasn’t likely to happen in the end, and that’s probably one of the big reasons I never could admit to actually just being a guy, even though it was kinda obvious. Cause when you know you can’t ever have something, it’s easier to pretend you never wanted it in the first place, lol

early co-captaining moment where one of the revenge crew members approaches both stede and ed with some kind of problem and neither of them want to deal with it so they keep trying to peg the title of captain on each other like, “no he’s captain right now” “no HE’S captain right now!”

Soulmate of a Watcher

Part 2

After reading a fic with Watcher!Scar it’s got me thinking about that idea and what I’ve read of it. I already have a trait sharing AU and in it Grian is relieved that Scar only inherited his avian traits, but what if Scar inherited some Watcher stuff. This was me just spewing out ideas, so I might write more at a later date. Grian has no idea btw.

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To say that Scar was having a good time in Double Life would be the exact opposite of how things are going. He’s honestly starting to lose his mind a little. He’s starting to feel the eyes always following him, he’s starting to see them. Of course that’s not the only thing he’s starting to see, and he feels like he’s going insane. Scar wants to talk to Grian about this, but in the vein of seeing things, he sees the same eyes on Grian that are watching him. It’s only brief flashes, but he knows he sees them.

Of course none of this is what has lead him to where he is now, pressing into a corner of the Red Velvet Keep. He whimpers as he stares at the eyes on his arms, all staring at him. As his vision fractures into more views, as he starts seeing his face from the perspective of those eyes. This is not something he can just hallucinate, not like everything else he’s trying to convince himself is just a hallucination. Scar doesn’t know what to do as they stare at him, blinking uncoordinatedly. He can feel that he’s on the verge of tears, hell, he can even see. After what feels like an eternity of trying to will them away, they all vanish. He can still feel the magic of them prickling under his skin even as his sight returns to normal. This is hell. Worse than everything else that’s happened in these stupid death games before. He’d rather take that horrible isolation again then have to feel what he’s feeling now. He curls up tighter into a ball, suppressing sobs.

When he first found out he was paired with Grian, he was happy, having longed for what they had again. But, now? After feeling all of this, he’s not so sure anymore. Part of him is even considering finding a golden apple to sever this damned bond.

whoever advertised scrivener to me i am bowing like a peasant in front of his liege lord this shit is life-changing bro i am saying once again this will save my dissertation writing process i just know it. fairly certain it was @sevarix-blogs king you saved a guy's life for real

Reading a book about the autism spectrum and like

God I have never related to a book more

Like this guy loovesss door locks and when he's talking to someone it's more of a "speaking at them" rather then with them and he's mostly talking about door locks...

Dude....

Me too

new blazblue hc rachel just started fucking gnawing on gii like chewelry a few time loops in. i like to imagine she does it when she’s bloodthirsty

oh i’m 😃 violently uncomfortable

thinking about when i was on a date with this guy (he was a major loser and a cheat anyway and a mormon who listened to imagine dragons) and he caught me totally check out this girls ass that walked by and i remember him thinkin it was so like crazy or funny or maybe he was even a little offended. i dont rly have a conclusion for this i just think its funny af every time i remember