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spokelseskladden · 2 years
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no but actually, when I was like 16 I decided to get in deep with the cult, like fanatically deep. Donating my entire allowance and dedicating myself to biweekly bible study deep. Mainly because I had deluded myself into thinking that if only I could become a perfect jehovah’s witness, god would heal my crippling gender dysphoria by either taking pity on me and simply give me a dick and testosterone for the low price of my freedom and dignity, or alternatively taking it away all together and let me live my life blissfully as a cis woman for all eternity in paradise. The latter never sounded appealing to me, and I’m not going to pretend that the blatant sexism within the cult wasn’t a part of it at all, but even if you removed it, I still didn’t particularly care for having tits. I did realize that the former alternative probably wasn’t likely to happen in the end, and that’s probably one of the big reasons I never could admit to actually just being a guy, even though it was kinda obvious. Cause when you know you can’t ever have something, it’s easier to pretend you never wanted it in the first place, lol
#ex jw#isn't it funny that I even entertained the idea of fucking JEHOVAH giving me top surgery or some shit?#dude are you daft? the babykiller who hates the gays? You really think THAT GUY would support trans rights?#also. my OG mutuals probably remembers me sort of coming out as nonbinary back then‚ and i want you to know that I was not#practically everything I ever said about my gender back then wasn't real and I KNEW it wasn't real. I was just scared as fuck lol#cause I couldn't open that can of worms and then close it again. and like yeah. experimenting with gender can be great and important#but I wasn't experimenting‚ I knew it wasn't completely right from the moment I said it and idk. I want that out in the open I guess lol#funny thing is I kinda did that thing AGAIN not that far back when I was like oh yeah any pronouns goes :) oh no it's they/them achtually#oh now im he/they and oh I just want to define anything and blah blah blah#and I was sitting there and I just asked myself what the hell I was doing cause you're a grown ass man and you KNOW you're spewing bullshit#like i thought i would keep things ambigous but in hindsight. the url i had and having my other name in my bio was kinda stupid#in my defence i didn't think about my url and i still don't really mind my legal name so lol#but i realized i was just pussyfooting around everything and i'm tired of it so yeah!#anyway. look at me revealing my fucking lore here. i've gotten way off track and idk what i was trying to get to#if you read this far you get like. knowledge about me you probably didn't want#you're welcome i guess? idk lol#insert drive through meme or something
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differenteagletragedy · 4 months
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your olba drabbles are singlehandedly fueling my obsession and i look forward to them every day thank u sm!! i was thinking of the olba boys comforting you through finals cram time (....im not projecting no.......) like cove would absolutely be the meme of the bf stopping at the library to drop off a bagel and a kiss on the head for you
I love projection requests! Self inserts are self care, spread the word!
-- You know that moment when you thought you lost your homework and Cove gave you his because your schoolwork is important to you and you're important to him? Yeah, that.
-- If you go to school together, then you are the most important thing. You might need to remind him that he needs to study too.
-- He's going to be studying with you, it doesn't matter if you're in the same classes.
-- Will stay up as long as you want to help. Will also go over your flash cards with you as long as you want without even thinking about complaining once.
-- Please remember to take breaks too! If you want him to take you for a drive or to the store or something, just ask.
-- Going to that one restaurant that's open 24 hours in the middle of the night with Cove because he's a hungry boy and you're not done going over your notes yet.
-- But can you even imagine Cove in a Waffle House lol
-- Derek has got this under control. Snacks, drinks, notebooks, highlighters, index cards, etc. etc. etc.
-- Cove will get you snacks, but Derek will make you eat because he takes care of you like that.
-- He is also against the concept of pulling an all nighter because you need your sleep. Will tell you facts about how your brain processes information while you're asleep and how beneficial it is.
-- Derek is the ultimate hype man. "You're going to do great! You've got this!"
-- If at all possible, he's walking you to your classroom and waiting for you after to provide support.
-- Fist bumps all day long.
-- Baxter is totally fine with an all nighter, he prefers it. If you need coffee, he has plenty of coffee.
-- He's going to support you and cheer you on, but he's also going to remind you that one test isn't going to determine your future if you get too stressed out.
-- Will force you to take a break to do something fun.
-- He'll also probably be too flirty, like shut up Baxter, this isn't the time.
-- Unless you want it to be, I can't tell you what to do.
-- Will have something planned for after finals are over! Maybe it's a little trip, maybe it's a nice cozy night in, but he's got something up his sleeve!
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nanowrimo · 11 months
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How to Unstick Your Camp NaNoWriMo Project
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Every year, we’re lucky to have great sponsors for our nonprofit events. ProWritingAid, a 2023 NaNo sponsor, helps you turn your rough first draft into a clean, clear, publish-ready manuscript. Today, author Krystal N. Craiker shares some tips on how to push through to the end of your writing project when you’re feeling stuck:
Camp NaNo is the ultimate test of your creativity. You push your writing skills and habits to a new level. 
It’s inevitable that at some point this month—or any time when you’re writing a novel—you’re going to get stuck. 
You’ll run into a plot conundrum, or you’ll feel creatively drained. You’ll stare at the page and have no clue what to write next.
It happens to all of us, so don’t worry. Here are some of my favorite ways to get my stories unstuck and my creativity flowing once again.
1. Go Outside
Writing is an isolating process, and writers are notorious for losing hours of the day to the computer screen. But when you’re stuck in a rut, staring at the page stressed out doesn’t make things better.
Get up. Go get a drink of water. Then go outside. What you do next doesn’t matter. You can get some exercise in or drive to the coffee shop. Birdwatch, play with the kids, splash in some puddles—you get the idea.
A little movement and some sunshine will help you feel refreshed when you sit back down at the computer.
2. Brain Dump
This is my tried and true method for NaNoWriMo. When I reach a point in my novel that I don’t know what to write (or just don’t want to write), I insert a random brain dump. 
I’ll write what I’m feeling about this scene and type out what I think the issue is. Sometimes, it’s just a bulleted list and others it’s a stream-of-consciousness flow. Here’s an example:
“I don’t know what to write here. I was going to kill off that character but didn’t. Somehow I need to get to X plot point from here. How do I do that? This is so frustrating. Now that I didn’t kill them off, I need a good reason for them to stay in the story. What are their motivations?”
If that’s all you write during a writing session, that’s okay. You were still working on your novel, so it still counts.
3. Use AI
It’s the first NaNo event since Chat GPT opened to the public and countless AI tools are popping up. AI can be a great way to brainstorm and spark inspiration.
As writers, we often get hung up on finding the perfect way to say something. But you don’t need to let one sentence slow down your writing flow.
Rephrase by ProWritingAid is a brand-new feature meant for writers like you. You can highlight any sentence, click Rephrase, and generate a new sentence. Shorten or lengthen a sentence, change the tone to formal or informal, or add sensory detail. 
Here’s a boring sentence I wrote: “Quinn entered the dark and cold forest.”
And here’s a sentence Rephrase gave me: “Quinn shivered as he stepped into the cold, dark forest, the air thick with the scent of damp earth.”
I can build off that! Now I’m more excited to write this scene that was feeling bland. 
Sign up for ProWritingAid to get access to Rephrase and more than 20 in-depth writing reports.
4. Keep Going
Whatever you do, don’t give up! Getting stuck is part of the process. When you hit that creative wall, give one of these methods a try.
Your story still wants to be written, so keep writing.
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Krystal N. Craiker is the Writing Pirate, an indie romance author and content writer who sails the seven internet seas, breaking tropes and bending genres. She has a background in anthropology and education, which bring fresh perspectives to her romance novels. When she’s not daydreaming about her next book or article, you can find her cooking gourmet gluten-free cuisine, laughing at memes, and playing board games. Krystal lives in Dallas, Texas with her husband, child, and two dogs.
Top photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash  
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luvitria · 2 months
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girl Sangwoo is dangerous as my bias wrecker. IDK HOW I STAY LOYAL TO JM. Especially when Sangwoo wears backwards caps. Like ooh yes.
Like imagine this guy using a backwards cap as a signal. Let's say you meet the JustB boys at the practice room and hug a little too long on the other members. As soon as Sangwoo locks eyes with you he turns his cap around. (Insert Morgan freeman's meme of this is when he knew....he f*xked up) You know you are in for it as soon as that cap turns around. It's just a little signal between the two of you and it looks completely normal to others.
Oof. I'm going down a rabbit hole now.
I FUCKING LOVE THIS CONCEPT HOLD ON.
I am a firm believer than sang has a high sex drive like you cannot tell me he doesnt...
and the backwards cap thing UGH. you guys make it a thing that whenever he turns his cap...its going down. making a random excuse to leave the studio 5 minutes after he does just to have your arm dragged into an unoccupied room. his arm immediately flying to the door as he backs you against it, "i dont like the others touching what's mine."
he'd have your front pressed against the mirror as he fingers you from behind, forcing you to look at yourself as you take his fingers. god he loves watching your reactions as he drives you insane. but what he loves more is seeing you fuck yourself on him from behind. flipping your skirt up and pulling your panties down mid thigh as he runs his head through your folds, teasing you slightly as he loves seeing you squirm, your body reacting to him. he'd plaster a smirk on his face as he watches you desperately push yourself back onto him, his arm reaching for the mirror infront for stability. he'd let you have your fun till you get tired, perfectly jumping on the opportunity to pull on your hair, forcing you to make eye contact with him in the mirror as he pounds you from behind. his hips starting and maintaining a fast pace as he uses your cunt as he pleases. he'd reach his high before you do, pulling out to release some onto your back, the rest in your panties still down your thighs. but as soon as he's come down from his high he shoves his fingers back into your cunt to help you finish. no mercy as he goes at an inhumane pace, the squelching noises and rubbing the pads of his fingers on your walls is enough to have you clenching around them. a slight moan leaving his lips wishing it was something other than his fingers :[
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spicyraeman · 3 months
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Well interacting with you makes my week too! **aggressive friendly fist bump**
I hope your holidays are going well 😁
Wolfheart is ending me. Can I pet that dawg? CAN I PET THAT DAWG? (https://vt.tiktok.com/ZGeN9U7kG/)
I love seeing the hairy SH art! PCOS / trans / wolf girlie, I stan all versions I see. We're not cowards here! The new band drawings are fire, still making my heartrate go jglcbxlw. And seeing the growth? Honestly it's magic to me, I think it's perfect then it becomes even more perfect and I'm just how?? How possible?
Veteran'zel, Baby'zel, Beam'zel, Horny'zel, Rat'zel, all I do is love'zel! The cheetah/dog doodle + wet rat'zel made me hiccup from laughter, we were blessed.
Buddy, Karlach's got her tail docked like the gith children, that's why! See, problem fixed **insert Flex Tape meme**
Also for Lae'zel's accent : yes, she would have such a harsh accent! As a foreign speaker, the pronunciation isn't always intuitive and is sometimes paradoxal. She probably never used some sounds, and it's hard to guess a lot of them. It's so inconsistent. I lack air in the middle of my sentences because of the tonal accentuations differences. Languages are crazy man. Lae'zel would have a stroke, struggling to say "library" with Gale correcting her.
I've been upgraded to bestie? Careful, I feel like the most specialest goblin in town now 😎
I also wanted to share with you my recent victory : I passed my exams with unexpectedly high grades! It's been 10 years since I succeeded in anything school related, I feel strangely proud and hopeful. I attribute this partly to the intense hyperfixation for BG3. I can come back to this fandom and get comfort when I feel burned out and in need of motivation. Thank you for being part of it and sharing your blorbos with us. Good soup for our cold starving souls. So yeah, you and your art matter even if you find it bleh sometimes and you doubt yourself.
I wanted to be brief but I'm incapable of shortening shit even if my life depended on it. Violently dumping my brain in your ask like I'm late on garbage collecting day. Sorry not sorry for the awkward emotional stuff. Take care of yourself, bestie ✌️
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Sry for answering these “backwards”, I just needed to get the conlang stuff out first before all my good braincells shut down lol
hope the holidays are going well on your end as well :]
To pet a werewolf truly is the dream isn’t it, wereshart is prob my fav hc for her it just fits so well. I've been trying really hard lately to figure out how to draw her recently bc despite the art disparity her and lae’zel are neck in neck at being my fav characters. Seeing the growth in the bass drawing really gave me that boost of confidence that I'm at least slightly getting there lol
I truly do love Lae’zel in every form, but wet rat’zel rotates in my mind more than it should, sadly its not a hc I could ever commit to considering I can’t even remember Karlach’s canon tail lmaoo I really should just hc that karlach got her tail docked at this point, that or I need to make a checklist for her so I can go through and make sure ive got all her bits when I draw her
Also Ive already posted my big rambling mess about Gith accents but yeah harsh accent lae'zel best lae'zel, it just makes sense
But yoooo big gratz on the exams! Def something to be proud of!! I can agree this fandom really is a huge motivator, I haven’t had this much drive to do anything I've been doing recently in years. Glad I could help provide a lil comfort spot full of blorbo soup for the soul lol
Dw about shortening shit as you’ve prob seen i’m prone to rambling and also every emotion I experience is awkward so that's just par for the course here.
Hope life treats you well till the next ask, peace ✌️
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xstarkillerx · 8 months
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*let me do this again my dumb ass couldnt find the ask lmao*
dude i saw you reblogged my brian o'conner crash fanart, i was about to plug my A03 (i can't really post my delirious fantasies here since this is supposed to be a blog for my art collective 👀) BUT THEN i saw you already posted my shit here BUNNIE IT WAS YOU ALL ALONG insert iasip meme ILY <3 <3 <3
BASSE-FOSSE YOU ARE SO FAMOUS TO ME HELLLOOOOOO!!!!! It is me, you found me! I definitely should've put two and two together that the person posting art of Brian as Gabrielle and the person writing wild crash-f&f crossovers was one and the same lol. Although, as I've come to learn through your awesome recommendation that led me down a bit of a podfic rabbit hole, there are some bonkers, fantastical fics for f&f with super out there concepts but are really really well realized, which was pleasant to discover. I'm gonna keep blabbing under the read-more, because I'm so happy to have found you on tumblr, but I'll end off by saying I can't believe you posted to ao3 twice in July and I didn't know, I'm literally about to feast rn.
Anyway so nice to see you!!!!!
For anyone curious about what we're taking about, here you go!
I should take this time to say crash blew my mind, you were so right about the final scene being extremely similar to the end of the first f&f, to the point where my friend and I's reactions when we did that double feature were pretty much identical, it was so funny! We watched Crash first, and there was something about seeing that Miata finally get knocked off the highway, that was soooooooo... Like, I may be reading too much into this and I definitely don't understand the movie entirely yet, but MX-5 Miatas are one of the most personified cars out there because of their eye-like headlights and mouth-like vents, they literally look like 😃 it's so cute. Miatas are almost always portrayed as innocent, Friendly, and childlike, so to see the destruction of one (which the movie was def building up to), AND TO WATCH JAMES FUCK CATHERINE IN WRECKAGE , like it's such a good image to end on… it really drives home the irreparable effect being introduced to Vaughn's "world" had on them, like they basically went through the a fucked up version of the hero's journey and were left on the other side of the threshold not knowing how to cope, my jaw was on the floor!!! The unattainable fantasy of ultimate orgasm because of the resiliency of both cars AND human bodies, it was so good. "Maybe the next one, maybe the next one," still gives me shivers.
So watching F&F afterward was hilarious because my friend basically had the same reaction to its ending, that truck impact hit her real hard (she too wanted them to ugly fuck on the busted charger lol). I had told her that this was essentially the most blood we would ever see in the rest of the franchise which is not a lot, and we ended up having a whole conversation about comparing the fantasy set in place by both movies. The fantasy of F&F is essentially 1) the characters' inability to die/stay dead or get injured and 2) the seemingly omnipotent ability of cars to take down larger and larger vehicles, starting with 18-wheelers and progressing to yachts, trains, Humvees, planes, it's endless!! Whereas the fantasy in the world of Crash IS to die, to be scarred, marred, for every dent and scratch on your car to be mirrored on your skin until you're one and the same. It's the next evolution of man, to be melded with machine in a way that's gorey and sexual. Both works involve little family institutions, people who get it, people who have your back, and a fearless leader running the show. Where Dom Toretto literally can't die, or even lose, because it's in vin diesel's contract, Vaughn was fated to! What kind of example would he be setting for the others if he couldn't achieve the nirvana of dying on the toronto freeway.
Ugh I totally did not mean to give you an entire book report but I've been sitting on all of this for so long and I figured you of all people would understand being immensely effected by these two movies being put together lol. Anyway thanks for reaching out! I'm around if you ever wanna talk f&f, I loveeeeee the way you view that universe. Much luvvvv 🫶🫶
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buckybarnes-1917 · 2 years
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SPENCER REID~ IMAGINE
Dad!Spencer; Husband!Spencer
Summary:
You walk in on Spencer playing dress up with your daughter.
Warnings:
None!
Contains:
Fluff!
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*I DO NOT OWN THIS GIF*
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Getting off of work after a long day was always amazing, especially knowing what awaits you at home: your daughter and sometimes your husband, Spencer, if he wasn’t off working on a case for work.
You call Spence to let him know you were on the way home, something the two of you have made a habit after being married for 10 years and being best friends since the two of you met. He was your tutor in high school while he going on to get his PhD, crazy right? You married a man with an IQ of 187, something you were still mesmerized to this day.
After calling him twice and receiving no answer, you get worried. You knew Spence was off today and spent the day with your daughter, Rose Marie Reid. He normally is really good about answering his phone, even when he was busy at work, insisting that you and Rose Marie were more important than work and would always answer no matter what.
A grueling 20 minutes later of fast driving and lane swerving to get home, you finally reach your destination. You see the lights on in the house, as well as Spencer’s car in the driveway.
You get walk through the door and announce your arrival, but no response. Now you were definitely worried.
Rushing up to your daughter’s room, you hear Spence and Rose laughing loudly which instantly brings a smile to your face. Knowing they were okay, for one, made you happy but also hearing the sound of them laughing warmed your heart.
You peak your head into the room and see you husband crouching down to the 4 year old’s height while she applies makeup to his face. Not only is this a funny sight, but you see him in an old dress you used to wear that was stuffed into the back of your closet. He had to have really dug for that one, you thought.
“Daddy be still! You move too much!” Rose Marie cried out, causing Spencer to chuckle, frustrating her more.
“Well, if you didn’t keep stabbing my eyes I wouldn’t move!” he exclaimed back jokingly. Spencer had the widest grin on his face as he looked at his little girl in adoration.
To say you were lucky is to say the least.
You watched in on Spence and Rose for a few for minutes, laughing quietly to yourself when they would start to ‘argue’ over a plethora of things: him moving, her stabbing his eyes, him breathing too much and his breath ‘stinking’, and her taking forever with the makeup.
“Daddy if you move one more time, I will tell mommy that you weren’t playing princess with me like you promised,” Rose Marie spoke, a hand going on her hip in the process. Lord, did she have your attitude.
Spencer’s eyebrows lifted in confusion,”But I am playing? I don’t just wear dresses and makeups for anyone, you know.”
She gave him a mischievous smile before speaking,”I’ll still tell her on you. Mommy will get onto you,” after saying this she stuck her tongue out at him.
Now was your time to make you presence known, confused as to how it went this long, but nonetheless. “So you were going to tell on daddy for no reason?”
The other two Reids’ heads snapped to you, Spencer’s smile brightened as he noticed you were finally home. He missed you a lot today, even though he enjoyed his time ‘Father-Daughter’ bonding with Rose Marie, Spencer loved the three of you spending time together more than anything in the world-aside from his alone time with you of course. *insert Debbie Ryan meme*
“Mommy!” Rose screamed as she ran up to you. You bent down to her level and caught her as she ran into, throwing her arms around your neck, “I missed you so much today!” she pulled away from you and began speaking again,” Daddy and I had lots of fun though, he took me…”
As Rose was continuing on to you about her day with Spencer, he walked over to you and crouched down next to you, smiling over at you as he watched you listen to the daughter the two of you shared.
Spencer never thought his life could be as perfect as it was in this moment. He has all he could ever ask for, you and Rose. His perfect little family. Spencer reached his hand out to your back and began rubbing circles on it while Rose continued to babble, much like he did with his facts.
A small smile graced your lips as you felt Spencer’s hand on your back and you side-eyed him as Rose kept talking. You were struggling to hold back laughter as you looked at him, completely forgetting his face was covered in multiple different shades of makeup and wearing your dress. The things he’d do for Rose, you thought to yourself.
Later that night after the four year old was put to sleep, you were in the kitchen cleaning up from supper while Spence was upstairs struggling to get the makeup off.
“Hey, Y/N?” he questioned as he rounded the corner from the hallway. He had gotten majority of the makeup off, though you’d hope so after him being in the bathroom for 20 minutes with your makeup wipes.
You hummed in response, locking eyes with him as he got closer to you, his tall frame towering over you more and more as the distance between you two closed.
Spencer walked up and gave you a loving kiss on the lips, before pecking your lips three times and pulling away. The two of you smiling as you did so,
“How was your day, sweetheart?” Spencer asked as he wrapped his arms around your waist, looking down to you.
You wrapped your arms around his neck,”It was good, I had two court cases today and won both of them. I just wish I could’ve been home with you and Rosey. Help her get you all dolled up and what not.”
Spencer rolled his eyes, still smiling,” Haha. Laugh it up. You’re just mad that I looked amazing in your dress.” With that, he proceeded to take one of his hands ‘flip’ his hair back in a diva like fashion.
You both laughed, and talked for a few minutes longer before making your way to the bedroom. The two of you showered together that night, in a non sexual way, but still admired each other’s bodies. Both of you wondering how in the world y’all got so lucky with one another.
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Thank you so much for reading! Send requests if you want another Spencer or whatever character you want that can be found on my page!
Love each and every one of you lots❤️
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misc-obeyme · 6 months
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hi i LOVE your threads that bind series (and all ur other work). i was curious about if you had any more info on arsenios? like, his power seems to be persuasion through song, is it in like a siren kinda way or? and any other tidbits if youd like to share *insert marge simpson 'i just think theyre neat' meme* <3 also every demon ever being 100% done with solomons shit before he even opens his mouth lmao
asldfjkaskldf anon... you have no idea what this means to me lol.
I will be posting the next chapter of The Threads That Bind tonight! It really kinda took on a life of its own when I started writing it, but I actually like how it turned out. It means so much to me that other people are enjoying it!
As for Arsenios, well... I have a lot of info on him lol. It just happened that he fit in with this story so I decided to include him because I am fond of him and I really wanted to write about him more. Being asked about him makes me sooo happy!
So to explain his power a little more, it was initially inspired by the concept of human musicians making a deal with the devil in exchange for musical talent. The ones who come out of nowhere and play amazingly well, but then die young tragic deaths. I figured it made sense that the demon who was making those deals would be good at music themselves and maybe their power was rooted in all things musical.
Arsenios spent a lot of time answering summons from humans that wanted to make deals to gain musical talent. He had to make pacts with them and in that way lent them his power in the form of skill. Of course, these were just regular humans and not immortal sorcerers, so they did inevitably die young, thus releasing Arsenios from whatever pact he had made with them. And of course he got their soul out of the deal.
Something really terrible happened to him, though, and changed his whole life, so he doesn't actually do that anymore. It happened some time after Lucifer and his brothers fell, but before MC showed up in the OG.
Now he mostly spends his time performing at gigs in various places throughout the Devildom. He's not super famous, just kind of a local musician, but he's busy enough that he needs a manager to book things for him. He only goes to RAD sporadically because of this and he only goes at all because Barbatos talked him into it.
He can choose whether or not to weave magic into his song and he rarely does it. But it is kind of like a siren song when he does do it. Depending on the intention, he can persuade people to do things. But it's kind of subtle, he was really going hard in The Threads That Bind lol. More often, he uses it as kind of a suggestion and he only needs a handful of notes. He can use instruments to do it, too, but because he often doesn't need much, he usually just sings.
I had him singing in what I called the "ancient language of demons" because I didn't wanna make up lyrics lol. But the lyrics can have an impact on the power of the song. For instance, if he sings in a language that the person being influenced can understand, it lingers a lot longer in their mind and can be more powerful. He's nervous about doing this to humans because he doesn't want to drive them mad by accident, so he sticks with demonic for them.
Arsenios could write entire songs that weave complex spells if he really wanted to, but he has no such ambitions, so he doesn't bother.
And you know it's so funny because I LOVE Solomon, but Arsenios only barely tolerates him and it is so fun to write. I think they could become friends eventually. Arsenios actually respects his power and he's secretly impressed by it, but good luck getting him to admit it lol.
Anyway, I didn't mean for this to get so long! But I felt like some context was needed about where the idea for his power comes from. And of course I could write about him all day lol.
Thank you so much for asking and I'm so glad you're enjoying the story! <3
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brainrotdotorg · 1 year
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You know all those posts about how humanity is the same it's always been. Like the boy who drew himself on his homework, the large building where someone carved the equivilant of "I was here" in the roof beams, the infamous clay tablet bemoaning the crappy copper, the graffiti in Pompeii. And all those posts about how historians in the future will be putting internet textposts and memes in textbooks as they try to decipher old human culture and humor. Well they got me thinking about how few of things survived to show that humanity has always been so inherently human, the small things we do that even through countless societal changes we can still find traces of (kids that like to doodle, the desire to leave traces of ourselves like carving our names or graffiti, wanting to explain the irritation at something lower quality than we were expecting. That it's a miracle how some of these things survived (the clay tablet literally only still exists because the dude kept a collection of his hate mail and then like this house burned down or something and was the perfect temperature to turn the tablets into essentially pottery) and if the internet disappears there will be such a huge part of our current society that if it disappears it'll be such a big loss to future historians in understanding us. Anyway my two main points are
1. There could have been ye olde tumblr sexyman/woman and plmm conests and we would have no clue
2. Historians might never know about the great bot war of the plmm polls
(Insert that one pic of the anon at a drive through window, sorry i just had an edible and my brain decided to do this)
- HM anon
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(except imagine the drive thru worker has an expression of insightful wonder)
god damn youre right. like the idea of the through-thread of humanity also being like. arguing about who the best character in a series you enjoy is. what i wouldnt give to hear those conversations! to gain an inner look into someones mind from the fucking 1400s when they were talking about how a piece of literature touched them! fan culture has always existed and we are a part of it. makes me so scared to think about like. these large swathes of history being lost somehow.
i am so fascinated and grateful towards internet historians- people who collected seemingly anachronistic and small pieces and bits of information, screenshots, saved forum threads and stories about fandom culture. i watch deep dive videos on this topic all the time and think its incredible. absolutely love that idea that, now, i am involved in something that people will look back on. its fascinating. and its something that unites me not only with the people in my time, but the people in the future. i hope one day i can be like those trekkie fans that are in their 60s-70s and are still online talking about what it was like in their day. and i really hope that things like the plmm polls are preserved and remembered.
i would take an edible with you in solidarity but unfortunately i have class lmao
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Can I just say you're my favourite writer for the Ted Lasso fandom?? 😊🥰 Every time I see your name pop up in my email it's a delight!
I have a headcanon I wanna run by you if you'll indulge me for a moment, I'm very interested in your perspective on it 👀👀.
The reason Jamie gives for not getting a secret Santa gift doesn't make sense to me, like I could see an initial confusion if he'd never heard of it before but he should have known that he was expected to do SOMETHING, and season 2 Jamie would've asked someone if he didn't know what he was supposed to do (I love that season 2 Jamie actually asks for help, insert "y'know what that is? Growth" meme here 😭❤️). BUT I think the reason he gives is probably what he thinks other people would accept as a reason that makes sense for him, and he's just using it as a smoke screen! My personal headcanon is that he thought Santa would STAY SECRET and he didn't realize they would be giving their gifts all publicly and he's embarrassed for people to know what gift he brought. Not sure what gift it would've been, but with everyone else gifting booze I could see him being embarrassed about literally anything that wasn't booze 🤔. No one else is really talking about this but that scene just doesn't settle right in my brain. Do you have any thoughts on what gift he may have purchased in this version of events? Or do you have a different idea of what was happening there?
Sorry for the monster ask lol but I love how you write Jamie's thought process! (I know this isn't in the form of a prompt, but if you answered in mini fic format I would be positively tickled!!)
Jamie knows what Secret Santa is, of course he does. It’s just, well. He hadn’t realised they’d be giving the gifts out publicly, and now his feels way too personal. Nearly everyone else so far has handed over a bottle of booze. Moe had knitted a scarf, sure, and Colin had seemed pleased by it, but there had still been a moment of “is this weird” before he’d hugged Moe and Jamie doesn’t want that for him.
The day after the Dubai Air protest all the main papers had carried photos of their protest, mostly in the Sports section, but the Guardian had actually had it on their front page. Jamie had seen it while out buying a coffee the next day and he’d bought a copy. It had seemed important, a reminder of him doing the right thing, supporting his teammate in something that meant a lot to him.
And then he’d gotten Sam in the Secret Santa and it had seemed perfect. He’d had the front page properly framed - after checking that the Guardian was the kind of paper Sam might agree with politically - and wrapped it nicely. 
But now, well, it feels too personal to give out in front of the rest of the team. What if they think it’s weird or cheap of him? So it’s a relief when Ted finds him a bottle of whisky and they all help him wrap it. He knows they think he’s an idiot for not knowing what Secret Santa is, but better than any awkwardness in front of the team.
Sam seems chuffed by the alcohol anyway, and he sticks the bow that Keeley had added at the end to the top of his head, so Jamie makes it through without any embarrassment. At the end he hangs back and waits for the room to empty out before digging his original gift out of his cubby and tucking it into Sam’s. He doesn’t want it to go to waste, and he’s pretty sure Sam won’t guess it’s from Jamie. That done he heads out to his car ready for the drive up to Manchester and Christmas with his mum. He’s definitely gone overboard with her gifts, but she’s used to that by now, barely puts up a token protest or anything.
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Found these ship memes from last year that were almost done so I thought I might as well finish em up real quick :>
Didn't have the energy to draw portraits tho so I just used some old picrews of my ocs and whipped up some of their partners hdfjkdg
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incoherent ramblings under the cut cos i cannot and will not shut up <3
Liam & Fenris
both parties are so overprotective it's not even funny. guys your separation anxiety is showing
Fenris: *insert bugs bunny meme* our wardrobe
idk i just think they are saps and like saying each others each others' names over pet names
Liam isn't shy about PDA per se, he will absolutely hold hands or be otherwise sappy in public (Addie is suffering constantly), but he is very private about anything that goes farther (this is about them and for them and not for anybody else). Considering how Fenris throws himself at Hawke before the last battle tho I assume he is not quite as reserved lol
Lilan & Isbela
Bela doesn't fit in all of Lilian's stuff but generally they swap clothes whenever they feel like it
probably should've put Bela's awkwardness level lower but w/e. Lilian however absolutely is an awkward mess in the beginning lol. Girl has no idea how to deal with These Weird New Emotions
No the low jealousy does not mean they don't care, it means that I imagine they're just.. very secure about their devotion to one anther. They're both flirty and both liberal with their sexuality and they know that none of that threatens what they have.
Also smh i feel like they wouldn't be too huge on PDA? Like they're not averse to it but not super keen on it either. Which is funny cos I don't think they would mind with other people at all, only when it's the two of them
They are at their core just as sappy as fen and liam you can fight me on this
Kala & Alistair
Tbh most of their awkwardness comes from neither of them having any experience (plus their upbringings in general) and both of them having to figure everything out. It's nice figuring it out together tho :)
Yes Kala is a Dwarf yes she is a big spoon.
I can totally imagine Ali exaggerating screaming about bugs bc he thinks it's fun to be over dramatic (and to have kala come to the rescue)
I wasn't really sure where to put them on the protectiveness scale cos I imagine they are very chill most of the time, because they both know they can handle themselves just fine, but at the same time they have "don't you dare look at my partner wrong" kinda vibes
June & Cullen
not a romantic ship but I'd say that the.. *gestures vaguely* whatever they have still counts lol. They live together, in any case, so,,,,
FR why does June even buy clothes she just steals everyone else's anyway
Should've put June further towards the "affection through words" side cos she is very vocal about her feelings in general and on the other had struggles to show her love through actions properly
Can June drive a car? Questionable. Will she do it anyway? Take a lucky guess
I think it is very funny to think that they are both horny mfers, but June is very blunt about it while Cullen still has that chantry boy attitude about it lol
maybe should've raised cullen's jealousy meter p: the more i think about it the more he strikes me as the type to get jealous xd
Ari & Josie
They're so fun. I love them. I really don't talk about them enough
Took a while for Ari to start using pet names, and Josie does it a lot more, but it's turned into something like a game between them
They love cooking!! And they're mighty good at it too. Beware tho if you try their food, they like it hot and spicy
Josie may seem coy and proper but I think the would totally be up for PDA. Get people talking, cause a bit of a scandal, yknow? She doesn't cos Ari isn't fond of it, but she would.
Ari doesn't get super jealous, but he can't help being at lest a little surly when some snob gets overly flatter-y and honey-tongued with Josie.
i feel like they're both protective but in a passive way, if that makes sense? Like they know they are both well equipped to navigate the kinds of dangers they deal with, but they'll still take precautionary measures in the background to make extra sure nothing happens. And they're not in-your-face about it, but they know and appreciate it anyway
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tiredassmage · 1 year
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🖊 Theo!
Oh my god, this bitch... Haven't heard from him in AGES and yet I was just thinking about him the other night... My god...
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First of all, I need to re-establish that Theo is a funny little guy who is almost as complete in my head as my mains are and yet I never touch him. He doesn't pay rent, btw. Man's still stuck somewhere in Heavensward afterstory because I think I low-key loathe the process of getting through HW almost as much if not more than ARR. I obviously continue to make alts and replay the first several hours of ARR because I make poor decisions or something, buT ANYWAY.
It also means I don't talk enough about Theo's absolutely incredible relationships. Theo is Carvallain's favorite absolute bastard, first and foremost, and absolutely used it against him to help the Scions secure passage to Kugane. Theo is also an absolutely massive flirt, but this is something they establish rather clearly in their relationship that they... may have never labeled, actually. Sure, it's a lot of Theo annoying the absolute piss out of the captain, but, in their moments, Carvallain is also generally the first person to hear about anything that troubles Theo. The stupid shit of tomfoolery and shenanigans and the "all of my friends and I were almost arrested for the apparent death of the Sulatana" level shit. It probably was born out of some stupid flirting on Theo's part and then they just sort of... stuck together. Sure, Theo still (with Carvallain's knowledge) messed around here or there, but he always came back and never passed anything under Carvallain's radar. I've jokingly said that Theo doesn't kiss and tell - to anyone but Carvallain. Theo's needled him about being jealous sometimes, but all in his usual good fun way. It wouldn't still happen if it genuinely upset them.
And then Theo goes to Ishgard! [Insert the Monty Python Ishgard meme here]. And he meets Stephanivien. And Stephanivien gives him a gun. And Theo also really thinks he's the cutest shit. And hot. And they trade makeup insights, tbh. (Seriously, this man's eyeshadow is incredible).
It more or less ends up with Theo taking Stephanivien home to Limsa at some point like he just found a new stray puppy and begging Carvallain to let him keep it. Theo says he has two hands, that means a hand for each boyfriend, right???? And he's a rogue, so he's very good with those hands, wink wonk.
And I love the whole thing because it's still largely Theo being a shithead to Carvallain, but also an absolute angel (as much as a charming rogue can be) to Stephanivien. By no means is Stephanivien ever oblivious to Theo's nature, but Theo and Carvallain also have agreed to an unspoken rule that they will not raise complete hell for each other while Stephanivien is around. Stephanivien sits in between them and they still poke and prod one another around his shoulders, but what might otherwise descend into a chaotic pillow fight and Theo recklessly pushing Carvallain's buttons to - ahhem - drive them to take this matter elsewhere and to another level is contained to narrowed eyed glares and Stephanivien possibly smiling knowingly about it all while they're busy making faces at one another.
They do, however, mutually agree that Stephanivien is the one they have to take care of the most. It's what they like to do, anyway. He's the most workaholic of the three and also maybe just a touch far more innocent of mind than his rogue and pirate lovers (at least at first, there's no way that lasts with an idiot like Theo around), so he doesn't always catch Theo's occasionally innuendo-filled bullshit. Which is, truly, part of the charm.
Theo also carts him around in piggy back rides and you cannot change my mind.
There's also that time he kinda gets sweet on Leofard, tbh. Leofard and him tangle over the Void Ark business because what is Theo going to do, ignore a perfectly handsome scoundrel of a pirate right in front of him??? Absolutely the mcfuck no he won't. It's a lighter affair that still has some of its deeper moments because Theo has, to my great surprise, also proven an incredibly sensitive listener to his lovers who refuses to let well-enough alone and also is unafraid to pry at the harder secrets because bottling that shit up forever isn't a good look on anyone, love. This, ultimately, doesn't develop into a long-term relationship, but Theo still flirts. Theo's your friend that platonically flirts with you as long as you're comfortable with it. But he's also a gentleman even if he is a rogue, and if he's told to pack it up and tone it down a couple notches, that's also a-okay by him.
So, the short and long of it is that Theo has two hands and two boyfriends. They all happen to be elves and I, personally, find that hilarious. Theo takes up a lot of the bed when given half a chance - sprawls out like a massive dragon with his horde. Stephanivien is a cuddler and has frequently nodded off against Carvallain's and Theo's shoulders. Carvallain has never been and never will be paid enough to deal with Theo's shit, but loves him anyway. Sir, if you roll your eyes any harder, they might get stuck back there. He generally takes most responsibility for keeping Theo semi-functional and Theo generally takes most of the responsibility for making sure Stephanivien doesn't spend 5-ever in the workshop or tinkering with something endlessly because they all do, unfortunately, need sleep.
They're kind of all night owls. Carvallain generally passes out earliest. Theo claims he snores. Whether or not this is true is debatable, but Theo's going to keep telling him he does because it irritates him.
Oh, and Theo loves to steal his hat. Carvallain continues to make a big deal out of this because they're both into the chase. Carvallain has never admitted a breath of this in his life, but Theo knows.
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sunriseverse · 4 months
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If you're still interested in these asks 4 for 'the water remains water' and 9 please?
of course! i’m always interested in ask memes, especially ones about writing :)
4: What detail in [insert fic] are you really proud of?
ah, for the water remains water, probably the second portion and slowly showing xiaoge’s shifting mental state! i think i did a decent job, and i’m very happy with how it turned out. i think that sort of thing (capturing an evolution in self-conceptualisation) is hard to pull off, and i think i wouldn’t have been able to do it justice even just last year, but i’ve improved enough as a writer to be able to handle it now, and that’s something i’m very proud of.
9: How do you find new fic to read?
i am a serial tag stalker. i probably check my favourite tags a minimum of once every two days. i’ve been through the tags for my favourite pairings in entirety at least three times, with each time increasing the net of what i’m willing to read (first time i’m the most picky, but by the third time the only things i filter out are those which i am truly, 100% unwilling to even touch). in larger fandoms checking things repeatedly helps me stay on top of the tag and avoid a backlog of works i haven’t seen, though in smaller fandoms it drives me a little batty when nothing new has been posted in a week lol. i also occasionally have things recommended by friends, which increases the likelihood of me actually reading whatever it is. i used to get recommendations off of fic rec lists, but………..those seem to be a dying breed these days, unfortunately.
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warisara · 8 months
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Trying to figure out what I want to do and how to do it. 
13 Aug 2023
I want to continue exploring Mali and religion. I will do this by trying a few more things with this topic. First thing is to try a reshoot with a more intentional backdrop (projection - to continue the play with shadow). 
I plan to make another shrine and leave one as a stripped back version and decorate one. I want to compare how differently they will read with the new props I have (sacred fabrics to wrap around the shrines). 
As for the projection, I want to make a video of Mali in her home. Confused why she has to live there and trying to leave. I’ve met many people born into strict religious families and I wonder if it’s how they feel. I think my father is agnostic (we never really talk about religion), my step mum is buddhist who practices her religion persistently. Other than attending rituals and religious studies classes at school, religion was never forced on me but I have always been curious. I think it could be an interesting way to address religion through Mali and my own views. I want to believe for the protection and healing aspect of it but I find it hard to do so because it’s hard to believe in a god when so many people experience intolerable levels of hardship. 
After the November seminar I will be travelling to Thailand again and will be there for 2 months. I want to make work there. This will be looking into homesickness, cultural identity as a biracial women. Last time I was visiting my family. I was driving around in my stepmom’s car. She has a dash cam that records automatically as soon as the car is driving. I want to get some footage from the dash cam and experiment a little with it. Also, definitely want to do something fun about the food.
Below I have inserted some memes that are relatable. I think convey my thoughts quite well haha!
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lanci53 · 10 months
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Hey, get a job!
O.K. I don’t mean to be rude, but I need my couch, thanks.
If you just graduated, you’re Gen Z and being blamed for killing industries that millennials already killed, unemployed or like me underemployed, then you’ve come to the right place-- a little corner of the Internet that’s not LinkedIn and doesn’t take itself seriously.
First, I must tell you about this cool other website to spend half your day on whenever you’re not on Tumblr:
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http://www.wtfshouldidowithmylife.com/
You got that? It’s going to help you in your journey from being a recent grad, (Tim Robinson voice) a piece of shit or just a normal human being experiencing the ebbs and flows of life as it unfolds with or without a job already-- ready to throw caution to the wind and begin something new.
As such, I’ve already hit the button 25 times and will now humor you in whether or not you or I could succeed in our new roles.
First up...
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Fashion blogger? Are you kidding me? Have you seen my closet? It’s just a bunch of hockey jerseys, which I mean, I guess is cool for a certain demographic but I do not know the rules of fashion beyond what’s in and what’s out among home, road, alternate and throwback jerseys.
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I have some experience in a way since I once attended a “take your kid to work day” and got to play the role of an advisor in some sort of The Price is Right/Deal or No Deal mashup that they had us kids play. I told them to take the money and run, limit their risk or whatever. What’d they do? They probably didn’t listen to me. I don’t remember. I hope their business failed (the kid’s, not the company that was nice enough to have us skip school for the day).
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I am not Eminem. Nor am I Post Malone. I’m sorry.
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Is this what they mean when they say “Meta is hiring”? Does this mean Mark Zuckerberg needs a friend in the Metaverse? Am I going to be paid to be his friend?
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Sounds expensive and like more school would be required.
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Seems unrealistic. Don’t even get me started.
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Also sounds expensive, but if we could ultimately be half as good as A24 then we’re onto something. In that case, we might try our hands out at being a distributor first and go from there. Oh it’s just for commercials? Commercials are cinema too!
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Insert “bisexual barista meme” here. A little too on the nose don’t you think?
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And for my next trick, I’ll move to Maine! That doesn’t sound so bad, actually.
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I have no idea what this is, yet I’m intrigued as someone who likes a good road trip minus a cracked windshield and all the other things that could go wrong. Have you seen how people drive on highways these days?
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Jamie Tartt do do do do do doo
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Sounds like a lot of liabilities and paperwork involved.
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Would be great until I inevitably write about Coldplay too many times for everyone’s liking. If anyone knows Chris Martin, though, please let him know I’d like to be friends.
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I discovered a beekeeper on a Live TikTok one time while scrolling through my “For You” page and sat there for the next 30 minutes just watching him go about his job. I would 100% be down for this. Also I’ve never been stung by a bee, so I’d have no fear going into it.
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I have actually done this before and you should hire me for it (for real).
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I play guitar, so... ...I’m looking for a drummer myself.
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That’d mean I’d have to acquire a bike first, which if we’re looking to keep this at a minimum upfront cost, well, I have some news for you. It’s not happening.
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This would be a lot of fun, but again the whole cost of moving, you know...
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Don’t think that I haven’t already thought about doing this. Life could be so much simpler. You’d also live in a desert, but simpler nonetheless. Plus Salvation Mountain is right around the corner and normally I rag on folk art, but this is the one folk art I am willing to accept (not, like, as a religious thing-- just from an art perspective).
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Seems like you’d have a hard time getting any Federal job after this, though.
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I already am. I perform concerts daily in the shower. Tickets are hard to come by however.
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I would absolutely do this for the free food and shit, but I need some lines so I’ll get paid and residuals.
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I could maybe do this. Would request one log cabin with great Internet access to make it work.
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Watch me turn $0 into $0!
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When in doubt, you can always just go home and do less of the things you’d really like to do for fun because your parents are around, but on the rare occasion that they’re away for the weekend you can call all your friends who, by now, have moved far, far away and get them together for one last party if any of them show up. On the plus side, you’d have access to all your favorite streaming platforms or whatever and you probably wouldn’t have to pay for your Internet access to keep reading Tumblr (though you could always just steal Dunkin’s WiFi for that).
Remember, nothing matters. Everything is made up. Eat Arby’s. Eventually someone will hire you and you’ll prove people wrong, which is always a great feeling (not that anyone was doubting you). Now hand me the remote, please.
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bonnie-is-bumbling · 11 months
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Oh, man is my anxiety high lately. It's troubling not to know if it's because of something real, or if ye olde AFAB body is not being fab.
I have PCOS which, to stay short and sweet, means I have a bit more testosterone in me than your normal AFAB person will. This causes PMS, periods, and cycles to go absolutely out of whack. If you're curious about it, I highly reccomend Google. Or you can ask me, but know I am absolutely NOT a medical professional. I work at a bloody hotel. I can tell you what I do know, and I can tell you what I gather from that, and my own thoughts on it- But I repeat: I am NOT a medical professional.
But this post was about anxiety, so let's hop back to that.
Today, I got on Facebook. Not because I regularly use it. In the spirit of honesty- I use it 99.9% for memes. But today, I had a question, one that had been burning a hole in my mind.
For some context: I live in a town of about 9000 people (about half-ish of which are the inmates of the state prison, which is hosted in our town.) We are about 100 miles (roughly 161 km) from any larger civilization. That said, if you make a fool of yourself, the whole town knows. The windiest in the state, and sitting at an elevation of 7000 feet (2.13 km), I really wondered about our local airport.
I hopped onto the local Facebook group and for WEEKS I had let this question burn- I was so bloody scared that I was just making a fool of myself. Or that I was asking in the wrong group and would be mocked. People would see me and go "That's the dumb kid that asked a question she should have already known the answer to!" Or "What are you asking about aviation for? You work at a hotel!"
People really aren't usually so mean. But my brain immediately thought they would be, just because it was me asking, and not someone more qualified to ask.
When I finally jumped the gun tonight and asked, I told myself "You know what? SOME people are going to be assholes. But this is a non-offensive question. It's a reasonable question, and I'm going to state at the beginning AND end of my post that I'm legitimately just curious on how pilots take off and land at our mountainous, windy airport that's subject to the cruel winters and thick ice.
And I was pleasantly surprised.
People actually were up and willing to answer my question, and it sparked conversation that was neither mean, nor degrading. Nobody thought my question was silly, childish, ridiculous, or dumb. And in retrospect, it really isn't a dumb question. Maybe not a commonly asked one is all. And that's okay.
It just seems I over thought once more. And as many of us with anxiety can probably relate to- I always have to think things through. But I worry- Am I not thinking deep enough into it?... And here begins the spiral- I start thinking waaaay too hard and it just grows more and more negative- Sometimes driving me into utter inaction. It's not better to just sit and wonder than look stupid, but my brain will absolutely convince me it is.
Tomorrow, my 17 year old dog meets his new groomer. I'm absolutely worried about what the groomer will think. But I have to keep in mind that my dog is 17, and is expected to look, feel, and act like a REALLY old dog. The groomer is related to his recently retired groomer, and is aware of his age, condition, warts, blindness and all. She is also very aware that he's a dog with a constantly snuggly and licky attitude. Groomers know animals. She's been at it for decades, and likely has seen worse.
This is all affirming, but my brain is so obsessed with this thought I wish it would quit bringing up. This thought is that on this dog of healthy weight, happy temperament, and wiggly tail, she's gonna see his rough skin and have him taken. Which in reality, worst that would happen is I would be told "Hey, I can't groom him today, but you should ask the vet about [insert whatever here]."
My dog, a cocker spaniel at seventeen years old, is a good 24 pounds, always on the move, eats, sleeps, drinks, potties, plays. His hair, though thinning, is shiny and soft, free of matting. For seventeen, he is absolutely doing well, and I know my brain is being utterly irrational.
And for me, that's the hardest part of anxiety.
For me, anxiety is almost always very irrational. My house settles, as a 123 year old house does with changing temperatures. It's spring time here, and so the old bones are having a stretch. My roof is fine. I have personally checked. And yet my brain still reacts as if the house is about to just cave in... And with all the literal proof I have, I'm well aware my brain is talking nonsense.
It's absolutely irritating to know something, but have a nagging little voice in the head telling you you're wrong, always wrong, in danger all the time, not safe, error 404 braincell not found. It makes me mad at myself, upset that I can't make a decision, I can't make a move, feel stupid for asking for help. I don't know everything, and that's a fact. But I know SOME things, and my own brain treats me as if I don't. Not without absolute proof. Proof not even a 'Karen' can argue with. Proof that NOBODY can deny... And do you know how impossible that is?
I don't need seven scientists to tell me I'm safe to sit down in this chair or ask a question to quench my curiosity. Really, why can't my own mind and I be in sync? I blame anxiety. It could be something more, or I could just be an incompetent buffoon like my brain insists and treats me like. I don't entirely know, but I will say it's absolutely turbulent and irks the hell out of me.
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