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#it’s not cuz they can’t tell what my gender is…
lesbiansanemi · 6 months
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I think… I have figured out the reason I never get gendered as a guy anymore and it’s making me have…. A lot of really complex feelings
#most of my life I’ve been VERY androgynous#and ever since I cut off all of my hair when I was 16 and started dressing in men’s clothes#I tended to get gendered as a man or woman p equally by strangers#(until I talked because my voice tends to be a give away which is a whole other thing I have Thoughts about but that’s a different issue)#but in the past oh… idk… six months or so? I literally NEVER get gendered as a guy#it has happened ONCE#like sure ppl will ask for my pronouns but I know that’s just cuz I look like stereotypical genderqueer afab person#it’s not cuz they can’t tell what my gender is…#and I’ve been wondering what’s so different. why don’t I ever get gendered as a man anymore#I haven’t changed how I dress I still have a masculine haircut most of the time my facial features obviously haven’t changed#SO WHAT DID#I… I’ve figured it out….#I’ve gained weight. but only in my hips and thighs#all my pants that I’ve had for YEARS are suddenly too tight and too small around my hips and thighs#I’ve NEVER had curves anywhere before I was always stuck straight and now… I do#and like part of me wants to be happy. I’m gaining weight!!! I’ve always been so horrendously underweight#and I’ve battled severe disordered eating for so long that was the cause#this past year I’ve actually very steadily been eating three meals a day instead of one#I can eat whole portions without getting sick#and I’m really proud of myself for that like I’m def not upset I’m gaining weight#it’s just. it’s just that it’s literally all in my hips and thighs#and it’s giving me a more feminine figure which I’ve NEVER had before#and I know your body goes through more changes in your twenties and that’s probably part of it too#it’s just. I don’t want this. I don’t like this.#I haven’t felt genuinely dysphoric in a long time and now I want to crawl out of my skin whenever I look in a full body mirror#cuz I see it now. I see the change. and I just. do Not fucking Like It#but I can’t do anything about it 😭#and idk what to do#ugh#kaz rambles
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queer-reader-07 · 6 months
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i think one of my spiciest takes is that i think cis people should be cis on purpose and not because it’s the “default”
ok hear me out before you go into the notes, i have reasons.
the main idea is that i think EVERYONE should explore and interrogate their gender identity and what their gender truly means to them. because 1) i don’t think any harm will ever come from wanting to understand yourself and your existence on a deeper level and 2) if everyone, including cis people, explored their gender it would be more generally accepted. thus, trans people or people questioning their transness wouldn’t be as othered when they start questioning and exploring their gender.
because here’s the deal. every trans person i know can tell you what their gender means. they can tell you what it means to be a man or a woman or neither or both or some other nebulous concept. they can describe it to you and explain it to you. they can tell you what their manhood or womanhood or neitherhood means to them, what it represents, how they knew that’s who they were.
every trans person i know (including myself) can articulate what their gender is in more words than “well i’m *insert gender* because i’m *insert gender*” (yes i know i’m always saying i can’t be bothered with gender but i do actually have a lot of feelings and words on my own)
i’ve talked to a lot of cis people about gender and they just simply can’t explain to me what womanhood or manhood is to them. so often it’s “well i’m a man cuz i’m a man. i look like a man i act like a man etc etc.” but what does a man look like? what does a man act like? and it’s usually people who consider themselves trans allies saying these things!
people should explore their gender. they should understand it more deeply. i don’t say “explore your gender” as a way to try and force anyone into a realization of transness, i say it because i want people to understand their gender. whether that be cis or trans or whatever.
to understand yourself more deeply is to understand your place in the world more accurately. learning more about who you are, and why you are, and how you are never hurts in the long run.
so yeah. be cis on purpose, be cis because you know deeply that you are cis, because you understand what that means to you.
and be trans on purpose. use the labels you like deliberately. dress in the way that brings you euphoria and mitigates dysphoria because you deserve that.
simply be on purpose. walk through life with deliberate steps, with solidified intent. because without doing so, how can we find our purpose on this earth and in this life?
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baileypie-writes · 5 months
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Hii :))
I was hoping you could write either a one shot or headcanons for a male or gender neutral, what ever might you prefer with Veneer from trolls! I was thinking that the reader could be either Vel and Veneer’s assistant or manager while the reader has a big fat crush on him. :) thanks!!!
A/N ~ Sure! I decided to do headcanons(cuz they’re my favorite write) and a gender neutral reader. Somebody also requested the same thing, so I hope you both enjoy!
~🎤Assistant!Reader Having a Crush on Veneer🎤~
Fandom: Trolls 3: Band Together
Reader: Gender Neutral
Relationship: Crush(feelings are mutual, but Reader is unaware)
Warnings: Veneer teasing Reader, cringe
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(Sorry for the low quality pic lol)
~ You work for Velvet and Veneer. You’re their assistant. You help get their outfits and makeup ready, and you do the effects for their shows.
~ There’s one thing that makes your job harder than it should be though, and that’s Veneer. You have the biggest crush on him. It gets so overwhelming being around him so much. Especially when you have to do his makeup. You get to hold his face in your hands, and sometimes he stares at you while you do it.
~ Unfortunately for you, Veneer knows about your feelings for him. I mean, it’s not hard to notice. He finds it so cute and funny how you avoid eye contact with him. And how you sometimes stutter when you answer a question from him.
~ While Veneer is the nicer twin compared to his sister, he can still be a little bitch. He purposely looks you dead in the eyes when you do his makeup, because he knows it makes you wanna die of embarrassment. He will also “forget” to put on some of his accessories before going on stage, just so you’ll rush over to him to put it on for him.
~ After this has been going on for a while, he comes to the realization that he may have a crush on you too. He was not expecting that. So now, Veneer’s actions are less about teasing you, and more about being closer to you.
~ Veneer will ask you specifically to do his makeup first. He claims it’s because you take longer with Velvet’s makeup, but he just can’t wait to be near you.
~ When he’s done with a show, he’ll immediately run up to you, asking how he did. He looks like a little puppy, waiting to get a treat after doing a trick. Of course, you tell him that he did an awesome job, and Veneer’s happy for the rest of the day. He also compliments your work on the stage effects, saying that you made him look more fabulous than he already is.
~ Now, you guys are both smitten with each other. You can’t stand being apart for even a few minutes. Velvet hates this, and she wants to throw up every time she sees you guys being all cute. You guys are basically already a couple, even though you have no idea Veneer feels the same you do.
~~~🎤~~~🎤~~~🎤~~~🎤~~~
~~baileypie-writes
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refrigeratorwrites · 5 months
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⊹ ࣪ ˖୧ ‧₊˚ ACE'S MAJOR: LOVING YOU
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PORTGAS D. ACE x FEM!READER
SYNOPSIS: in which your loving boyfriend is hopelessly distracted when it comes to studying with you.
CONTENT: 1k words, fluff, established relationship, college! au, y/n is a stem major, written with gender neutral reader in mind (but has like, one use of the word, 'girl'), also features lil bro luffy :p
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between pastel highlighters and scribbled sentences, ace is enamored by you. perhaps inviting your silly boyfriend (who only attends lecture after he fails the midterm) to a study date was a bad idea. but who could resist when he juts his bottom lip out at you after you tell him you couldn’t hang out with him because finals were coming up? finals be damned. no one is keeping him from his lover.
“babe, i can’t focus.” except, his own brother maybe.
“ace, we’ve only been here for 30 minutes,” you sigh, setting down your pen to look up at his eyes, which are oddly narrowed by something behind you. “and you haven’t even opened your laptop yet.”
“i can’t help it! luffy’s been making weird faces at me since we walked in,” he grumbles. his eyebrows furrow in frustration. cute, you note. “it’s like he forgets i’m his ride home.”
your heart warms at the thought of the two brothers. despite his incessant complaints about luffy, you don’t fail to catch the softness in his glares and gentleness in his tone when he tells you about the younger boy’s habits.
“weren’t you the one who suggested coming here?”
“‘cuz he wouldn’t stop going on about the tangerine pastries here,” he explains. “plus, he promised to get us some after his shift.” 
you hum in response and his frown deepens.
“babe?” another hum. ace fiddles anxiously with the cat pen from your pencil pouch. he remembers picking it out for you at the bookstore you both went to the other week. reminds me of you, you said, clicking the ginger tail down to test the ink flow. now, i can always keep you with me. his heart swells a little harder recalling your words.
“please, baby, if you don’t pay attention to me for longer than ten seconds, i might start crying.”
“ace, i love you.” you start, looking up briefly to catch his intent gaze directed at you now. “but if i keep rereading the same sentence again, i might start crying."
“but… i miss you…” your boyfriend whines, reaching towards your unoccupied hand. “and i think data structures have seen you more times this week than i have.”
your fingers interlock and you finally lift your head from your textbook to give him your attention. 
“there’s my pretty girl.” the dark-haired man grins cheekily. 
“babe, i really hate being a stem major.” 
your frustration is evident when your eye almost twitches in annoyance at the smug look on his face. you begin analyzing your sweet boyfriend’s features further. well, maybe you couldn’t pretend to ignore him for much longer. just the sight of the soft curls framing his face and littered freckles eased the stress lines forming on your forehead.
“no worries, sweets,” he rubs your hand. “luckily for us, i’m already graduated with the most important major of all time.” 
“oh, yeah?” you knew for a fact that this man has not yet graduated. but it was decided that there was no harm in humoring him a little. “and what would that be?”
“a major in loving you, of course.” 
“hm. with a minor in lame flirting?” you resist the urge to smile. 
“only for you!” he beams. “let’s go visit the cat cafe across the street.”
the saccharine voice of your lover is enough to make you reconsider the rest of your day, but you can’t seem to let him win yet. as you’re about to reply however, a figure makes their way to your table.
“y/n, here’s your order!” luffy exclaims, deeply inhaling the buttery pastry before he sets down your plate. “hope my brother isn’t annoying you too much.”
“luffy! i should be saying that about you.” the two start bickering in front of you. sighing, you continue copying down some more notes as you quietly listen in on their conversation. 
“ewww i thought you guys were studying. why are you holding hands?” you chuckle at the younger boy’s questioning.
“thanks for the food, luffy,” you smile at the boy. he gives you a wide grin in response. “you can have it though, ace and i were just about to head out.”
“oooo don’t mind if i do.” he happily takes back the pastry into his hand. “you’re the best! ace, forget your homework, you should really start taking notes here.”
“you wanna go?�� ace chooses to ignore him with an eye roll, sending you a lifted brow. you figure one day couldn’t hurt. not when your clingy oaf of a boyfriend was itching at the thought of spending more time with you, lecture recordings could wait.
“i would never turn down the opportunity to see my cute boyfriend with some even cuter kitties.”
“aw, you think i’m cute?”
“guys…” you almost forgot about luffy still standing there. “i wanna go too…”
“what? you’re still working!” his brother counters.
“i can trade shifts with usopp, i’ll be off soon!” another giggle escapes your throat at his persistence. “please wait for me!”
“we’ll wait for you, luffy.” the boy across from you widens his eyes in betrayal. despite his countless refusals, he’ll always have a soft spot for his brother and you can’t resist his charms either. 
“sweet! thanks, y/n!” he scurries off before ace can protest any further.
“we’ll go if luffy can come with?” you send your boyfriend a sly smile, giving his hand a soft squeeze. a fond smile creeps on his tan skin.
“as you wish, my love.”
and yes, maybe ace will forever be distracted by your beauty as you condemn his lame flirting attempts. even then, however, you’ll always be there to return his loving stare in stolen glances.
(you should really stop going on study dates together.)
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NOTE: welcome to my first lil blurb! this is my first attempt at fan fic so pls go easy on me… had to write about ace bc THATS MY BOY
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silverflqmes · 2 months
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໒⦂ 𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄’𝐒 𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐇𝐂𝐒.
synopsis. valentine’s day ( haikyuu version ). ever wonder how the haikyuu boys would spend the so called romantic holiday with you?
genre. fluff + crack
for @melukonova , @hearts4yuji / @kozuwhore , @reawakened-goddess , @diorlumx <3
ft. tooru oikawa, hajime iwaizumi, kotaro bokuto, daichi sawamura, koshi sugawara
gender neutral! reader.
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➫ 𝓞𝗜𝗞𝗔𝗪𝗔 𝓣𝗢𝗢𝗥𝗨 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
⌗ oh you’re getting spoiled, that’s for certain. he’s got plans that involve chocolate, flowers, and a very cute plushie of himself<3
⌗ lots of kawa hugs and hand holding!! i stand firmly w the fact that he gives the absolute best hugs cuz he’s just so cuddly and sweet aaaa❤️
⌗ “happy valentine’s day my love~ today you get all of my affections for the price of your own!”
⌗ for a surprise date, he would take you out to a botanical garden and tell you the meanings of each flower that further conveys his love for you. isn’t he the sweetest? YES HE IS SHUT THE FUCK UP BC TOORU IS THE SOFTEST MOST INNOCENT BOYFRIEND EVER🙁❤️ but like i mean when he’s antagonistic i mean🤭 ANYWAY-
⌗ ahem, furthermore i believe pocky will make an appearance, maybe strawberry flavor!! and he will share his box with you.
⌗ finally down to the last stick, he would look at you with a smirk before letting out the most exasperated sigh.
⌗ “oh no, oh no y/n-chan.. there’s only one stick left! what other choice do we have but to share.. care to make it a competition, hm?”
⌗ he won. no further explanations needed.
➫ 𝓘𝗪𝗔𝗜𝗭𝗨𝗠𝗜 𝓗𝗔𝗝𝗜𝗠𝗘 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
⌗ ah, iwa-chan.. the poor thing had to go to his dearest best friend a week beforehand for advice.. a tragedy, truly.
⌗ after a few threats to give his friend another injury to worry about, however, the wing spiker received all the necessary information and ideas required to execute valentine’s day to perfection for you!
⌗ hajime opted for a rather simple approach to valentine’s day that started with a letter he would hand to you. a formal invite to his home with an rsvp thing there as a joke LMAO he’s so silly
⌗ his cheeks were burning with red, a pout evident on his visage as his brows knitted together — something you found completely and utterly adorable as he asked you to read his note.
⌗ it was a heart clenching sight as you opened up a cute nintendo themed card that had happy valentine’s day written with a few silly video game puns. and just like that, his plans were revealed to be a date at home with the wii and any video games of your choice, since you liked them so much.
⌗ it was needless to say, that despite being rather decent in video games, especially mario related ones that he grew up on.. his skills dropped BELOW noob level because all he could focus on was you.
⌗ you just looked so happy playing, and the twinkle in your eyes made it impossible not to stare.
⌗ for each time that you whined at his lack of awareness, he would just laugh and say it was too hard to focus when your smile was right beside him. something he would much rather look at.
     ➫    𝓑𝗢𝗞𝗨𝗧𝗢   𝓚𝗢𝗧𝗔𝗥𝗢   ୨୧   ˎˊ˗
⌗ his valentine’s day wishes for you was over the top, on behalf of the fukurodani volleyball club wishing you with cute posters once you’d arrived at the gym that day to see your boyfriend — who was acting weird all day because he wanted to tell you so badly..
⌗ his plans for today were to take you to a trampoline park! it just sounds super fun and he wants to show off a little.. but he ends up losing dodge ball to some kids😭
⌗ bokuto emo mode ensues.. but then he remembers you’re there and brightens right up again LMAO he’s so simple when it comes to you fr
⌗ took you to a bakery afterwards to get you your favorite desserts — and because he might have wanted some too.. come on, he can’t help it when they just looked so so good!
⌗ on the way home, you guys petted some kitties along the way and even commented that some resembled your friends back at nekoma high
⌗ he gifted you a light and dark gray owl plushie holding a rose as your gift and as a reminder of him always being there for you!!
⌗ “there you go, y/n-chan! now you’ll always have me with you and when you’re feeling down, just look at plush!”
⌗ valentine’s day ended off that night with long needed hug and the promise of seeing each other once more at practice the next morning<3
➫ 𝓢𝗔𝗪𝗔𝗠𝗨𝗥𝗔 𝓓𝗔𝗜𝗖𝗛𝗜 ୨୧ ˎˊ˗
⌗ after some pushing from his trusted setter, koshi, to do something special, daichi finally got the courage to actually do something sweet for you this year
⌗ what are his plans, you might wonder? it’s simple, yet lovely. he found this spot where the sunset is prettiest in miyagi, and decided to take you there after preparing a nice late lunch at home and homemade chocolates that suga helped him make earlier in the week
⌗ he gave you your favorite flowers first thing that morning at school and a kiss on your head with a small grin
⌗ the team, however, didn’t fail to fluster him with their giggles and snickers as he yelled at them to get back to training..
⌗ it brought a laugh and smile to your face regardless, to see your boyfriend looking as silly and cute as he did, flustered despite how he normally carried himself
⌗ at last, the time came for your date and you were incredibly excited for where sawamura would be taking you. it was almost dusk, but that was exactly what he waited for
⌗ the two of you sat together on a blanket ( and one around you as well ) he’d brought with two cups of hot coco he’d poured out of a thermos he brought and shared a nice meal he’d prepped once he got home from school that day
⌗ the change of color in the sky was a beautiful sight, and yet he found himself looking over at you, a soft smile on his lips that he was able to spend the way with you
     ➫    𝓢𝗨𝗚𝗔𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗔   𝓚𝗢𝗦𝗛𝗜   ୨୧   ˎˊ˗
⌗ he has seen enough romcoms, listened to loads of taylor swift and scrolled through hella cheesy couple related posts on pinterest to be able to devise the perfect valentine’s day outing with you!
⌗ koshi brought you chocolate covered strawberries he’d prepared the evening prior to valentine’s day all wrapped up in a pretty box with a note attached that conveyed his valentine’s day wishes for you<3
⌗ for his plans, he’d decided on taking you shopping at the mall and to a restaurant of your choice as his treat to you before taking you to karaoke
⌗ whatever music you like, he’d be happy to sing it with you and just have a super good time worth cherishing as memories<3
⌗ he’d searched up online which flowers to best express his love and created a bouquet for you that he would have had with him when he went to pick you up for your date
⌗ “ahaha, too much? happy valentine’s day, dearest y/n-chan!”
⌗ lots of hand holding, his hands are super soft and taken care of since he’s a setter and his hugs send you on cloud nine, he’s just so soft<3
⌗ it’s rather late when your finish your date, and he finds difficulty in allowing the day to end since he wants to be with you longer.. so you both have a sleepover woooo✨
notes. weehee happy valentine’s day brought you by some of the haikyuu boys because they are free therapy, wym it’s just a volleyball anime? anyways, also dedicated a bit to my girliepops, their favs🫶 enjoy<3
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kaizensluvr · 1 year
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heyy hope ur well! can i request aib characters x gender neutral reader who experiences nightmares from the games
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aib men comforting gn reader who experiences nightmares
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author note! hi thanks for requesting ❤️ this will be in two parts. but anyways, enjoy.
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ryohei arisu ㅤ
- he is scared when he sees you frantically kicking and screaming beside him
- immediately he leans over and grabs both of your arms to start shaking you
- you’re startled and so confused, so you keep kicking and end up sobbing
-wraps you in his arms and reassures you telling you that you’re safe with him
- he’s actually flustered when you stop crying as soon as he says that.. does he make you feel protected?
- holds you tightly on his chest and will ask you about your dream tomorrow, for now he needs you getting rest
shuntaro chishiya
- boys confused at first but once he realizes what’s up he is full on bf mode
- he makes you hold his hand and does breathing exercises until you calm down
- once he is sure you’re ready to be alone for a second he goes to the bathroom and gets a cold towel for your head ㅤ
- will keep asking you how you feel and he wants to hear you talk about your dream
- since he knows you so well, he knows you’ll get tired from talking and just want to sleep again
- will hold your hand until you’re asleep, and whisper words he can only dream to be able to say.. one day he will finally open up ㅤ
suguru niragi ㅤ
- he wakes up to your screaming and crying in fight or flight mode and we’ll of course chooses fight.. “y/n what the hell who’s here!?!”ㅤ
- scans the room, picks up his gun, then sees ur body wailing over nothing
- he quickly wraps himself around you and starts shaking you but then he remembers what happened last time where you punched him
- the man is freaking out so he just gently grabs your hands and starts hitting them (again, gently)
- as soon as you wake up and realize it’s niragi, you pull him in for a hug ㅤ ㅤㅤ
- pulls you onto his lap and tells you “there’s nothing to be afraid of, my baby” as he kisses your neck up to your face until you just end up falling asleep in his lap
aguni morizono ㅤ
- he’s gonna think you’re being attacked, i mean you kinda are ig ㅤ
- you’ll hear him say “honey! why are you scared?!” and he will instinctively hold you to his chest ㅤ ㅤㅤ
- then he’s like oh a nightmare and he will rub your back while whispering to you affirmations
- as you are frantically telling him snippets of your dream he can’t even pay attention cuz he hates seeing his baby cry
- will just end up shushing you and cuddling you, will try to stay up even as you fall asleep just in case it happens again, which it doesn’t since he’s holding you so safely <3
tatakora samura / the last boss
- he is prepared bc of the last time and as soon as he hears you scream he just looks at you and calmly says your name while holding onto you firmly
- hates seeing you like this and ends up telling you stories about his life as he plays with your hair ㅤ ㅤㅤ
- will get you anything you need, a glass of water, a snack, even just a kiss
- hearing his voice puts you in a trance and you fall asleep to the sensation on your head as he whispers good night and kisses your cheek
- he’ll end up being the big spoon as you’re protected in his arms
chota segawa
- first he’s super worried and terrified and confused
- will turn his head scanning the room and once he sees nothings there he just goes and grabs you and starts shaking you
- “y/n!! wake up! it’s just a dream!” and once you wake up he’s gonna stroke your hair
- he’s taking it very seriously rn, but i’m sure later on he will tease you about it (wants to see u laugh)
- he’s not sure how to calm u don’t exactly cuz it still feels so real so he will cuddle you and just have u sleep like on his arm kinda
daikichi karube
- he knows what you’re experiencing so he doesn’t freak out when he wakes up to you kicking him and panicking
- he will grab your hand while sternly saying your name and once your conscious he’s gonna just be like “it’s not real y/n. you’re okay i got you now darling” and you find his voice soothing
- pulls you onto his chest so you can calm down by hearing his heartbeat as he whispers sweet words into your ears
- he’s gonna rub your back till you’re sleeping and hold your head
- just wants you to smile and get good sleep
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coral-melon · 5 months
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Heya!! CM! (Get it your user!)
Its 🍓 again :3
Would you be able to write imagine/hc thingys how they would react to seeing your human form for the first time when you go to the human world with them! Im thinking along the flustered fluff/ possibility suggestive thoughts about mc =^=
Any of the brothers/dateables u want! But if your looking for specific just mammon & levi as personal preference :3
(AFAB preferred but No description of gender js cool too :3 )
Aghhh sorry this is worded so weird I’m not the best leaving suggestions i feel too askyy ;^;
Your writing is lovely and i can’t wait to see more!!
- 🍓
Hello again -🍓! Love the ‘CM’ nickname! And by all means, ask whatever you want and however much you want! I’ll always make the time to write any requests~
Also sorry for taking so long; I really wasn’t too sure how to write this, and I’m sorry but I kinda tweaked it and lil bit.. ^^’ I was going to make everyone but I ended up only doing Mammon cuz I thought it would’ve been a very long post. BUT! I can most definitely make separate posts for each of the brothers if that’s something you and others want!
A and as always, if it sucks just lemme know! Constructive criticism is always welcome >;)
Cotton Surprise
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Obey me! Mammon x Sheep!MC
Genre: Fluff, crack/shenanigans, slightly suggestive
What’s it about?: Seeing your human form for the first time!
Not that many but They/them pronounce; mainly AFAB
A throwback to Lesson 19 from the original game but tweaked it as well
Edit: ((There were minor changes cuz someone made a comment that pointed out to me how maybe some people didn’t understand what I was telling. Totally my fault ^^’🙏))
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None of them ever understood why you turned into a sheep. It happened as soon as you first arrived to Devildom. But the more time they spent with you, they got used to it — some even forgetting you’re a human all together.
One day, most of the Brothers were sitting together in the living room. It was mostly quiet until Asmo brought the question: “Hey, What do you guys think MC looks like if they weren’t a sheep?”
It left them a bit dumbfounded that they hadn’t even thought about it. They got so used to you being a sheep so it kinda just slipped their mind. It also got them to start bickering a ton of what they thought you’d look like.
— “What’s with all the commotion?” A voice interrupts their conversation. Lucifer walks in with you in his hand, talk about perfect timing!
— “We were just talking about what MC looks like if they were in their human form.” Beel explains.
— “Oh right.. none of you have seen them.” Lucifer remarked, chuckling softly under his breath.
— “What does that mean?” Satan says with already irritation in his voice.
— “Well, it’s only right that I know what MC looks like. I was the one who picked them, after all.”
This got many of them heated! Jealous that Lucifer was pretty much the only one that knows. Mammon, Levi and Asmo were whining about how that’s not fair, Satan was gritting his teeth, and Beel along with Belphie just sat quietly watching the scene. They quieted down once you said, “I could just describe what I look like, y’know.”
All of them gathered around like a bunch of kindergartners getting ready to listen to a story book. They payed such close attention to every detail you said and tried to visualize it in their head to the best of their ability. It only made them even more eager to see you for themselves.
And it didn’t happen until the very last moments before you had to go back to the human realm..
… With a true loves kiss! >;D
Cliché, I know. - -’
Mammon
After dipping the House of Lamentation, he ends up in who knows where but more importantly, away from Levi. After he was done huffing for air, both of you start laughing from the absolute fun of stupidity you guys had. You couldn’t help but think about how odd it must’ve look from someone else’s perspective.
You two eventually eased off and took the time to catch your breaths. And then realize the beautiful view you guys have of Devildom. He sits you down gently on the thick stone fences while he rests his body on it. There was a short, soothing silence between the both of you — a soft, cool breeze blowing while you watching the city lights together. Mammon eventually brakes the silence and says,
“Y’know what? It’s always fun whenever you’re around.. I’m always smilin’ and laughin’ when we’re together. There’s never a dull moment..” he says softly; when you look up at him, he’s not looking at you but can tell he has a blush decorating his cheeks.
You smile at him warmly, before looking down at your tiny trotters. You were a sheep till the very end.. you had fun, but you can’t help but get a little sad thinking about it. Like just now, you would’ve been able to run away with him instead of being carried like a pillow.
“W-Who needs the human world, eh? You don’t gotta go back! I want you right here in Devildom, I want you here with me, all the time..!” Mammon looked straight at you, you perked up at him once he said that. He looked at you as if you were the greatest treasure he’s ever had. He wasn’t kidding around, such an unusually serious and determined face…, you felt butterflies in your stomach.
There was a silence again, you looked at him with in awe eyes. He slowly leans in, you leaning slightly forward.. letting whatever was going to happen, happen. Until finally, his lips reached you.
☁︎ —Poof— ☁︎
Light clouds suddenly surrounds you, Mammon was completely taken aback; and then he just freezes. When the clouds disperse, it revealed you.
You felt.. different. Blinked a couple of times before you looked down again. And to you completely surprise, the troopers you looked at but merely a few seconds ago were replaced with hands! You touched your face, your hair, your legs.. they were all back! You give a yell for joy, your curse has been broken! But then you also realize how you didn’t have any clothes on… you looked at mammon — who had his face completely red and eyes glued on you, completely frozen in place. Which made you freeze for a moment.
(Him)→ ╭( ⸝⸝๐_๐)╮ (○□○) ←(you)
— “AAAAAAAHHH!!!”
— “AAAAAAAHHH!!!”
You tried to cover yourself to the best of your ability; but first of all, you can’t really cover much. Second, he already saw everything! Both of you were very flustered, embarrassed, and still shocked by what just happened. You weren’t a sheep anymore! What’s up with that?!
Thankfully, Mammon at some point finally snaps out of it and covers you with his uniform’s blazer. You grip onto it tightly and covering yourself to the best of you ability. You mutter him a ‘Thank you’ under your breath. But both of you were still quite frantic, looking at each other with wide eyes while huffing to calm you nerves.
“Aha! …Found you!” A voice suddenly says from a short distance. It was Levi!
“Oh shit..”
“Mammon, Give me back my moneeey!!”
“Yikes! Time to go!” He says, lifting you up into his arms and making a run for it. And man did he run! He probably ran faster than when he was being chased by Lucifer. Levi didn’t see it coming’.
You were in a daze, you’ve been carried by him countless times.. but today you felt like a princess that’s been swooped by Prince Charming — a very peculiar one, but still charming.
He — at some point — stops running and hid in whatever corner he thought was good enough so that Levi wouldn’t find you two. With his back to the wall, he collapses to the ground. With you still in his arms but making sure you didn’t fall. You can’t help but laugh and pull him into a tight hug.
Mammon felt like his face was going to explode any second now, he just couldn’t believe that he was holding the actual you — and naked at that! But whatever was going through his head completely perished once he heard your lovely laugh. You were so happy.. embracing him with all your new found excitement. It felt like it was only the two of you in the whole word, so nothing else mattered.
“You broke my curse, Mammon!” You say. When I say this guy’s ego got inflated, I mean it. He felt like nothing could stop him now. That’s right! The great Mammon just did that! No one else!
He takes a closer look at you face; he always kept in mind all of the details you said that day, but you looked way better than what he had imagined. He couldn’t believe his eyes…
You suddenly pull him in and give him a passionate kiss; and oof, was he over the moon! After that one, he starts feeling greedy. Just one kiss isn’t enough..!
—☁︎
Later on, he bought you a few clothes since, of course, you didn’t have any. And decide to go back home.
When he went back to the House of Lamentation, he wanted nothing more than to just sneak in without his brothers knowing. But much to his dismay, Levi was already waiting for him at the gates. And when he realizes that the person he’s holding is you, he goes hysterical and now the rest of his brothers know..
“Oi, that’s enough! Step aside! Can’t ya see MC needs to get to their room??”
He’s always looked out for you.. from beginning to end. You felt like you were falling in love with him all over again. It was hard to believe that life here was coming to an end.. You want to make the most of it before having to go back home. But at the moment, you just wanted time to stay still, just for a moment..
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I had a lot of fun writing this! So tysm for requesting it -🍓. Tho again, I’m sorry for not really completing what you asked for.. I still hope I was able to put a smile on your face! Take care~
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marlenesluv · 7 months
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(Oscar/gn anon) awesome thankyou! I can't choose, but i reckon a smau maybe with some short fic snippets if that's not too much :) otherwise a normal smau is great :))
Softies. (OP)
yeah, of course! and yess, i love smau’s with fic snippets. i’ll definitely write this :))
request: “hey! I love your work, but can't really relate to the beautiful woman reader. would you be able to do an Oscar piastri/gender neutral Australian archaeologist living in the UK fic? maybe first time at a race/being introduced to some of the grid, or a casual soft launch on insta? but anything you want is also brilliant! pure fluff please, i love the idea of him being proud of me/talking about me a lot. please no fc/physical description, and he calls me his partner not gf/bf. if you write anything I'll love it, but no pressure!!! thankyou!!!”
pairing: oscar piastri x gn!reader archaeologist
fc: none! j pinterest pics used (no physical descriptions)
note: sorry this took me a bit, ive been having a lot of recs! also, i said people were staying in hotels in monaco and ik most drivers live there, but for the plot let’s pretend not, okay?
masterlist here -> masterlist link
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going to oscar’s races when you were busy with work, was difficult. luckily, your boss thought your recent discoveries were out of this world and rewarded you with extra time off. and of course, you texted oscar immediately, knowing that he would want you to go to his next race, which is also what you wanted.
the grid loved you, but you hadn’t released your relationship yet to his fans. oscar had never had a partner before, at least not while he was in formula 1. so you were nervous, and you guys wanted to soft launch over this weekend.
later that night, you packed your bags on facetime and flew out to monaco for the grand prix. living in the uk was great, it’s how you met oscar! but you had always wanted to visit monaco.
before arriving though, you wanted to post a little something on instagram.
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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y/n.user: i wonder..🇲🇨🧐
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formula1updates: is y/n going to monaco for the gp??
charles_leclerc: ratatouille!!
↳ y/n.user: i love ratatouille!
↳ charles_leclerc: me too!
user8: i wonder if they are gonna be in a paddock?
↳ f1wags: 🤔🤔
archeologyfinds: my fav archeologist is going to an f1 race??????
yourbsf: the food🤤
↳ y/n.user: it was soooo yummy
f1editpage: can’t wait to see you on the paddock!! (cuz we all know that they will be, lolzie)
↳ user3: what, you think y/n is dating someone in the grid??
↳ f1editpage: honestly, yes. y/n seems to be extra close with charles and oscar, i’m having suspicions
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
after landing, you got into the uber black that oscar had called for you, and made your way to his hotel.
at first, you were nervous to be seen by fans going into the hotel. just two hours ago, all of the drivers pictures were plastered on twitter, instagram and tiktok of the hotels they were seen entering. and only oscar and lando were in the maybourne riviera hotel, meaning that people’s suspicions could be confirmed if they saw you.
“oscar, what if they see me? and if they don’t like me? oh my gosh, what if-“ you were rambling in your shared room oscar has requested. one bed, a living room, a beautiful water view, and of course, a huge bathroom and kitchen.
“y/n, take a breath. its okay. i don’t care what anyone thinks, you’re my partner, not theirs. besides, i want them to know that i’m taken.” oscar smiled, giving you a hug as you sighed into his chest.
as he pulled away and gave you a kiss on the forehead, he went to pick up the phone, “pick out what you want for dinner. we’ll stay in tonight and watch your show.”
not sure if you could have asked for a better boyfriend, you scanned the menu and pointed to what you wanted as he ordered the food to the room.
“alright, let me tell you how much i love you while you eat your pasta, mmk?” he raised a brow and cuddled up next to you as you giggled. “okay, osc.”
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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oscarpiastri: p3 in quali in monaco, lfg🧡🇲🇨
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piasstri.fp: THE SECOND PIC?
↳ f1fp: FR. WHO TOOK A SHIRTLESS OSCAR PIC?
↳ piasstri.fp: hes GOTTA have a partner, bro. i’m srs
landonorris: congratulations, man!! let’s pole and podium this!!
↳ oscarpiastri: thank you, landoooo! congrats on p2. we’ll do so good 💁‍♂️
user1: congratulations on the p3 and the partner! (it’s obv pls just tell us who)
y/n.user: mclaren 🔛🔝
↳ oscarpiastri: 🧡🙏
↳ landonorris: ohhhh yeahhhhh
y/n.editpage: is that y/n y/l/n??? WTF MY WORLDS COLLIDE
mclaren.fansss: LETS GO
user6: you’ll win🤗
danielricciardo: congratulations, oscar!!!!!
↳ oscarpiastri: thank you, dan!!!
wagupdates: vv suspicious picture there, oscar
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
qualifying was amazing for oscar. he got p3 and couldn’t be happier. i mean, he did say he could i he had gotten p1, but he was over the moon when he got p3.
after qualifying, came race day. which also happened to be the day that oscar wanted to announce your relationship on instagram after the race.
what oscar didn’t tell you, was that he would in fact be kissing you after he won. which he did.
he finally won a race as a rookie, and you couldn’t be prouder. your heart was full as you were standing by zak, waiting to congratulate oscar.
what you didn’t expect, was for him to run to you first, giving you the biggest hug and a kiss, earning hoots from his team and a slap on the back from lando, who came in p2.
“oscar!” you shouted, smiling as he but his lip and smilied. “i’ll see you in a bit!” he shouted back, running to the podium, hoping on the first place one.
zak laughed, warning your attention, “what?” you asked, suddenly a little shyer than before. “nothing. just couldn’t wait for you two too finally make it official.”
“oh…wait- what do you mean ‘finally’?” you stared wide eyed as zak rolled his eyes, “y/n. everyone in mclaren knows. hell, im pretty sure the whole grid knew!” zak left to go stand on the podium with oscar as you looked around.
when they got their trophies, you laughed and watched oscar spray lando with the champagne, and then spraying some charles, who got p3.
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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y/n.user: congratulations, babe🧡
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oscarpiastri: i love you❤️
↳ y/n.user: i love you too❤️
formula1updates: HOLD UP. I SHIP
landonorris: they finally made it official, ladies and gents!!
↳ oscarpiastri: get your own partner and then you can FINALLY stop coming on our dates
↳ y/n.user: we look like a family when you come with, lando. pls get a partner
↳ landonorris: no. im happy with third wheeling
user4: AHHHHH IT HAPPENED EVERYONE STAY CALM
piastripage: OSCAR HAS A PARTNER?? who are they??
↳ y/n.fanpage: y/n is an archaeologist! they are amazingggg. loveeeee
user9: you guys are the cutestttt. my friends and i saw you in the paddock!!
paddockgirlies: need me an oscar. he’s so boyfriend
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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oscarpiastri: my partner is so smart, they know archeology stuff 🏛️🤗
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y/n.user: osc🥹🫶
↳ oscarpiastri: 🫶🫶
f1updates: and the most supportive bf award goes toooo🏆
lilymhe: cutiessss
y/nandoscarship: the way he went with them to a work trip? the bar is so high for me now
user4: okay, we get it, you guys are adorable
mclareneditpage: plzzz i need me an oscar
user8: the way y/n calls him ‘osc’🥹🥲
pastry81: my favorite couple on the grid now, thx
danielricciardo: y/n is a better australian than you
↳ y/n.user: this means a lot coming from you, thank you
↳ danielricciardo: you are welcome 🤗🤠🇦🇺🦘
↳ oscarpiastri: oh😕🥲
user1: pretty pictures oh my goshhhh
f1editttt3: where r they??
↳ y/nfp: athens!!
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
(reposts, comments, and likes are appreciated!^-^)
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genderkoolaid · 1 month
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advice on how to get over the fear that t is going to make me ugly? or that i’m going to miss “the old me”
i’m a queer trans guy and i’ve been questioning going on t for years now and i know i definitely want bottom growth, body fat redistribution and more body hair.
but im err on the side of face and voice changes. i’m scared of disliking my new voice and suddenly growing dysphoric over it (i dont have too much voice dysphoria now) and disliking how my new face will look. i’m kinda genderfluid as well so it’s complicated. but i don’t want to go my whole life without knowing what it’s like to be on hrt. but i can’t get over the fear of looking/finding myself ugly and undesirable and losing my community... which is ironic cuz i find other trans men attractive as hell. i discussed this in therapy and i still feel this way :/
i wish there was a way for me to start without telling anyone and then breaking the news when i’m experiencing changes and feeling more confident about it. i have my gender dysphoria diagnosis and i can start if i want to, but i need my family’s financial support. i don’t want to make it a big deal since it’s just something i’d be trying out to feel more like myself in certain ways.
sorry this turned into a long ass rant and you don’t have to reply but i’m just gonna kindly leave it in the ask box 💀
There's a post that goes like "all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second" and I think thats something good to keep in mind when you are thinking through this. You are already living with a body that has changed and will continue to change in ways largely out of your control. You are already living in a post-irreversible-alteration body.
If you do go on T and find you don't like how your voice sounds: for one, you can stop at any time (& if you haven't checked out microdosing as an option, you should). But two: plenty of people live with a deeper voice than they want. Plenty of people live with facial hair they dislike. You can pursue the same therapies and procedures they do. Or maybe you don't, and you find ways to live with a voice or face you aren't totally in love with.
So much detransition fearmongering, especially directed at transmascs & assoc. trans people, heavily relies on the specter of the fallen woman, itself steeped in trans-misogyny & intersexism. The idea that, for one, a "woman" who has mixed-sex features is ugly and undesirable, and two, that a "woman" made undesirable is forever doomed to be miserable and worthless. The transphobic story of detransition keeps our bodies stuck in this moment of revulsion and regret, narratively preventing us as characters from being able to move on and live happy lives in atypical bodies. Even if you do regret/dislike some things about T, you are not forever stuck in that feeling. The story does not stop at that! You will just keep living and find new ways of dealing with your bodily feelings!
The social aspect of this is a bit more complicated but I also have some firsthand experience with it. Because, as mentioned before, there's a lot of transphobic misogyny/misogynistic transphobia that affects transmascs & others who go on T, who have to confront the feeling of losing your potential desirability. And then there's also the way many people are treated after going on T, facing a whole new area of bodily scrutiny: you may suddenly have people making comments about how someone needs to force teenage boys to shave because their facial hair is a personal offense. I went from being self-conscious about how high my voice was to being self-conscious about how undeniably trans my voice was. And, specifically, my facial hair, voice changes, etc. were all signs of my transmasculine desire, and I became self-conscious about how obvious it was that I desired being trans, I desired this body. I could no longer let everyone pretend I was a cishet girl at family gatherings and avoid confronting these issues, because I had essentially written I WANT TO BE A TRANNY all over my physical form.
This is something I'm still struggling with myself. I, like many other queer & autistic people, already struggled with feeling desirable or worthy of being seen alongside conventionally attractive cishet people who could act normal. Being visibly trans, and taking a huge step away from the desirable cis-perisex-girl body, can really open up that can of worms. Especially being genderfluid/genderqueer! Because we often cannot find a comfortable space for ourselves within the conventions of attractiveness for cis men, like some binary trans men are able to.
But ultimately, I don't regret going on T at all. I would have had body issues regardless, and I got a lot out of going on T. I think mentally preparing yourself to struggle with these things, and seeking out other transmasc people, is a big help. Again: all of life is irreversible. we cannot go back a single second. We are already living in imperfect bodies we struggle to love or see as worthy. If you know you want some of the things T can offer, and you don't want to go your whole life without knowing, then just do it. Dive in, and don't feel any shame if you decide to get out. Just keep living and finding ways to live better right now.
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Lesson number #8 Love is complicated.
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A/N: the finale is here!!! Thank you all so so so much for all the love that you have shown this series. Your support means the world to me 🩷🩷🩷🩷
Warnings: smut.
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“Mia….” Matty whispered, regret already audible in his voice. He lifted his head up, slowly, peeling his body off of hers, the sweat that glued their skin together resisting the separation slightly.
Amelia studied his face anxiously. If you say ‘I love you’ to someone and they respond by saying your name, followed by an ominous pause, it’s probably not a good sign. She sat up, her heart pounding furiously in her chest. The excited smile disappeared from her face. “Oh god….” Her hands covered her eyes in embarrassment. “oh my god. I’m an idiot. I’m such a fuckin idiot.”
“Don’t say that, Mia-“
“No! Stop that. Stop calling me ‘Mia.’ Stop trying to flirt with me and reject me in the same breath. Just….stop it!” She surprised him with her sudden assertiveness. He began to shrink into himself, retreating slowly, getting off the bed and reaching for his underwear off the floor.
Amelia shook her head. “I- I can’t believe this. I love you, and you don’t love me-“
Matty rolled his eyes, “You don’t love me!” He scuffed, “it’s- it’s— uhhh- it’s the orgasm talking. You just think you love me. It’s the- the adrenalin and the dopamine and-“
“Oh, shut the fuck up, your dick isn’t THAT magical.”
“Wellll…” he titled his head, his eyebrows raised, as if to say “ but isn’t it?”
She threw a pillow at his face, which he dodged, but just barely. “get over yourself, Matty Healy.” She wrapped herself in the top-sheet, getting off the bed and collecting her own undergarments; “don’t tell me how I feel. you’re being such a man. You really wanna tell me about my own feelings?” She sneered.
“Don’t fuckin call me that!”
“What? A man?? News flash: you ARE one.”
“Yeah, but you don’t mean it like in a gendered way. You mean it in a derogatory way.” Matty buttoned up his jeans and began to loop his belt back in.
“Well, stop acting in a derogatory way.”
“That’s not really a thing. Grammatically I mean.”
She was speechless. She had just confessed her love to him and he wants to debate grammar rules? “Unbelievable,” she muttered, more to herself than to him. “Truly, unbelievable. I just- I told you I love you and you don’t love me back and now you’re going on about…Fuckin adjectives and adverbs.”
“I never said I don’t love you! Of course I love you, Amelia.”
“You- you love me?”
“you know I do.”
“Not in the right way though. Not the way that I love you.”
“How did this conversation turn towards me? It was supposed to be about you! You- you- don’t love me. It’s- it’s the whole inexperienced girl falls into bed with her slightly promiscuous (and ruggedly handsome) male best friend bullshit. It’s- it’s a cliche for a reason. You’re….just confused cuz you’re high on sex hormones and I-“
Amelia felt her eyes sting with tears. She sat back down on the bed, shaking her head, wondering where it all went wrong. “Are you calling me a cliche? Is that really what you think of me? Just some inexperienced doe eyed little thing you can take under your wing and show her the ropes?”
“That’s not what I said! I said the whole story- is a - a cliche. it’s just a good story. That’s all it really is. This isn’t a romance novel, Amelia. This isn’t the final chapter where- where all the stars just magically align and we ride off into the sunset together.”
“And I’m a bumbling idiot who thinks real life works just like romance novels, right?” She looked up at him, with Matty towering over her, his foot tapping against the floor anxiously. Her eyes wordlessly begged him to disagree. To fight - to say anything to her at all.
Matty shrugged, seemingly content. “You’re the one saying ‘I love you’ right after we had sex.”
“Gosh you’re such a dickhead….so, what am I to you, then? This whole thing- just sex?” Tears streamed down Amelia’s face.
“That’s not fair. We talked about this at the start. We agreed it was going to be just sex. What do you want me to say here?”
“So, all those times that- that you held me close….you kissed me and called me your love, told me I was perfect, said I was your good girl… it was all just sex to you?”
Matty shook his head slowly. “It’s….not that simple, Amelia.”
“To me it is.” She stood up as tall as she could, still feeling small and pathetic. “Look me in the eyes and tell me that you love me, too. Or get the fuck out of my house.”
“Amelia, wait- maybe we should talk about this another time. You know, once we’ve both had time to think -“
“Matty, get out.”
His eyes softened, he seemed to cower. “Amelia, let’s think this through-“
“Think? What is there to think about?! You either love me or you don’t. This isn’t one of your enduring existential questions.” She launched into him with her full strength, crying, and shoving his chest, “get out of my face!”
Soon, he was stumbling backwards out of the door, watching it slam shut in his face. “Amelia, don’t be insane! Open that door!” He banged on the door loudly and desperately. “Amelia, please!” He put his ear to the door “Amelia. Are you there? I’m shirtless over here. I’ve still gotta get the rest of my clothes.”
To his his delight, the door clicked open. But only briefly. She tossed him his leather jacket and his shoes. No shirt or socks. Defeated, he took what she gave him, began to walk away but the crying that he’d been repressing this whole time made him weak in the knees. He stumbled, leaning on the wall for support. He allowed himself only a few seconds of crying. Then, he wiped his face with a swift but harsh motion of his hand, making a deliberate effort to pause the trembling of his lower lip. It was better this way. it’s easier for her to let him go if she believed that he didn’t love her back.
***
“Well, I think we’ve given this track everything that we can for now.” George declared, sleep laced into his voice. “I say we go home. Have another go at it tomorrow.” He stretched his arms above his head, leaning into the chair with a sigh.
Ross shot him a look, nodding in Matty’s direction.
“It’s fine. I’ve got him.” Adam mumbled, standing up and walking towards Matty. “Matty, c’mon. That’s enough of that. We should- take the night. Or what’s left of it anyway. C’mon, mate.” Adam gave Matty’s shoulder a squeeze, hovering over to look into his eyes. “He’s shit- faced.” He reported to his friends, as if the empty bottles surrounding him weren’t enough of a clue.
Before he knew it, Matty was being squeezed from both sides of the couch my his friends all sitting by him.
“Bro, you can’t keep doing this.” Ross admonished, Adam and George sleepily nodding in agreement.
“I might just be tired, but, remind me again why you and Amelia can’t….just be together?” George asked, rubbing his eyes.
“Cuz I’m too…too…much for her.”
“Any idea what that means?” George whispered into Ross’s ear; Ross shrugged.
“It meanssss” Matty yelled out, “everything’s…too messy. I need to be good for her. I can’t do that right now. The- the tour. The whole slutty thing- the panicking on the inside- that’s not a good way to be in a relationship. It’s too fucked up.”
The boys nodded along, knowing exactly what he meant. While each incident, considered in isolation, seemed minor, a mere consequence of Matty being Matty, they knew him well enough to know that he was internally unraveling. The peace and order that he’d worked hard to established had been disrupted on tour and he’d found it all too easy to fall back on old habits. He overcompensated by projecting outwards what he lacked inwards. Because the boys knew him so well, they also knew that it would be pointless to step in before he asks them to. He has to be ready to make the change for it to happen. Perhaps, this was his cue to change.
“C’mon, Matty,” Ross tapped his friends knee as he stood up. “C’mon let’s take you home. You’ll feel better in the morning.”
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“Was that George on the phone, just now?”Amelia watched Charli with hope in her eyes.
“It was. Just sorting out the setlist for the MSG afterparty.”
Amelia didn’t need to say much, what she’d been dying to ask was written all over her face.
“Let him go, Amelia.”
“I- just- I miss him. He and I were friends before anything else. I miss my friend.”
“You’ve got plenty of other friends, babe. I’m your friend. Aren’t I enough for you?” Charli hooked her arm into Amelia’s. “We should go out tonight. Get drunk and talk about this afterparty.”
***
Matty struggled to sit still in the uncomfortable, wooden restaurant chair. He folded his hands over his chest, but that only lasted a moment. Next, he tried tapping his fingers against the table, cracking his knuckles, resting his chin on the palm of his hand, even sitting on his hands to keep from fidgeting. Nothing he did could keep the distracted energy at bay. He wasn’t even listening to the conversations that people around him were having. He hoped no one was trying to include him in any of them. It took everything in him not to ask Hann if Amelia had said she’d come tonight or not. He figured it might be less embarrassing to ask Carly; he even led with “so how many people said they’d show up” before “oh and is Amelia not coming?”
To sound less desperate.
“Amelia’s away for the weekend.”
Carly studied his face carefully before speaking. “Her boyfriend’s taken her on a weekend away type of thing. His parents, umm, own this cottage out in the middle of - well, nowhere and- yeah. So she couldn’t come I’m afraid.”
Matty lost grip of his knife, dropping it against the plate with an ear-deafening clink. He gave Carly and apologetic smile, expending all his self control on making sure his face maintained the illusion of calm indifference. It felt like his heart was being carved out of his chest as he sat there, staring down at his food.
For the rest of the evening, Matty’s thoughts cycled in endless repetition. Amelia has a boyfriend. Who isn’t him. He loves her. But he let her go. What was she supposed to do? Form a shrine to him and abjure the company of men entirely? He had know right to have any feelings about any of this, yet, here he was, unable to shake the thought that Amelia has a boyfriend who isn’t himself and that he dug this grave and must lie in it, even though he loves her. Love, as he’s learned time and again, is never enough.
****
Matty stood in the corner of the room, the drink in his hand slowly absorbing the vibration of George’s loud afterparty playlist. He closed his eyes. Leaning his head back against the wall. The sound waves were now in his skull.
“Never thought I’d catch you at a party without someone’s tongue down your throat.”
Matty’s eyes shot open. His heart split in two. It was Amelia. He noticed, instantly, how beautiful she looked. “You made it!”
Amelia watched his exhausted, sleep deprived eyes light up with joy as he leaned forward to hug her.
“Of course, I made it.” She wrapped her arms around him. Matty caught a whiff of her perfume, and it unexpectedly hit him hard. It was his favorite. She knew that because he’d told her as much the first time that she’d put it on. He couldn’t help but wonder if she’d worn it, tonight, specifically for him.
“Well, I wasn’t sure if you would. After….how we left things.”
“C’mon, Matty. You know I’d never miss MSG.” She smiled, and suddenly, Matty was dead to the world. He only focus on her, his face involuntarily mirroring hers. “Besides, why should I punish George, Adam, and Ross for your misdeeds.”
The words stung but he did his best to take them in stride. “My…’misdeeds’?” He affected a lighthearted laugh. “Is that what we’re calling it?”
“I have a few more aggressive words in mind, but I think ‘misdeeds’ is alright.”
His eyes shot down to look at his feet, hoping the dim light of the party would hide the blushing of his cheeks. “Does- erm- does that mean that I’m still being punished?”
Amelia took a moment to respond, delighting in his anticipation, despite knowing that it was a tad cruel. “Nah,” she grinned. “I’m over it.”
“Over IT or over HIM?” Matty wanted to ask. “Good,” he breathed a sigh of relief, “good, cuz - erm… I’ve missed you. Don’t like not havin you around.”
His words made her happy, but what mattered most was finally being able to see him again. To be able to look into those beautiful brown eyes and feel the calm that only Matty’s presence could bring wash over her.
As the night went on, and they stood there, in their secluded corner of the room, Matty could not shake the guilt over his misdeeds. It took being in her company again for him to allow himself to feel everything. He had not only hurt her when he didn’t return her declaration of love, he’d also deprived both of them of each others friendship when he let her go on, for months, without reaching out. Every bone in his body ached for her. He wanted to hold her. Touch her. Feel her touch. Knowing that she stood right there, and not being able to bury himself in her was the loneliest he’d felt in a long time.
“You’re tired.” Amelia simply observed as Matty’s eyes fought to stay open.
“Mhm.” He gave her a faint smile. “Gone are the days when I’d be right in the middle of that dance floor.”
“Dancing to your own songs,” Amelia conjured up an old memory, making Matty laugh.
“Do you- wanna go somewhere quieter? With less dancing?” Matty spoke reluctantly, already wincing and hoping he hadn’t overdone it. Things still felt fragile. Rocky. He wouldn’t want to strain their friendship.
“Sure.”
“My - erm- hotel is…not too far from here.”
“Is it the same one as last year?”
“It is.”
“Oh, I hope they still have that chocolate dessert for room service.”
****
“You wanna watch a film, or something?” Matty handed her the plate of dessert, following it up with a fork.
“Sure, I saw that they have the option for Netflix actually.”
Matty plopped down onto the bed next to her, his own plate in hand.
“What’re you in the mood for?” Amelia turned to look at him.
Initially, Matty was lost in her eyes, with their faces inches apart, it was hard not to. But he smiled as soon as his eyes dropped to her lips.
“What? What what’s the matter? What is it?”
Matty giggled, “nothing’s the matter- erm…you’ve just got a little something on your face. Chocolate from the…”
She blushed, “oh god….”
“It’s alright. It’s only me, calm down. I’ll get it.”
He swiped his thumb across her lower lip, wiping away the remains of her decedent dessert.
As if acting on instinct, Amelia’s lips parted, slowly taking his thumb into her mouth, her lips closing around it and sucking.
“Amelia-“ the words vanished from his mind, blood rushing through his body. “We shouldn’t…” he couldn’t quite remember why, in that moment, but he didn’t want to risk their friendship again.
Slowly, looking directly into his eyes, Amelia’s lips let go of his finger, her wet, perfectly red lips leaving a string of spit between them.
She took his face in her hands, kissing him.
“Amelia- we can’t- you’ve got a boyfriend…i-“
“I broke up with him.” She mumbled, pulling him back in for a kiss.
“Oh,” he moaned into her mouth. “I’m so sorry,” he was breathless but smiling.
“Tell that to your face.” Her lips crashed into his again, fingers fumbling with the buttons of his shirt.
***
The night felt a hazy blur as Amelia laid her head on his naked chest. She knows she was on her knees at one point, hearing him whimper and attempt to tell her that he’d thought about her mouth countless times over the past few months. She swears, at some point, he had effortlessly pinned down her entire body with one arm, fucking into her until she couldn’t remember to say words anymore. None of that mattered, though. Because she was in heaven in that very moment. His big hand playing with her hair, caressing her cheek, and his lips occasionally reaching lower to place small kisses over her face and nose. She felt his heart pounding in his chest, still coming down for the high of it all. Or perhaps high on her in his arms. Neither one of them wanted this moment to end.
“S-so” Amelia cleared her throat, blushing slightly when she realized that it felt hoarse from screaming. “What now?” Her eyes shot up to look into his. Matty’s hand slowed its stroking of her hair, but it didn’t stop completely. “Are you- uhh- flying back out tomorrow?”
“Mhm.”
“And how long will you be gone for?”
“Six months.” Matty sighed audibly.
“Wow, six months. That’s a long time.”
“Yeah,” He nodded.
THE END
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writerblue275 · 14 days
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I read Heartsteel!Sett becoming a dad and AUUUUUH MY HEART I LOVED IT 😭❤️😭❤️
and now I gotta predictably ask about Heartsteel!Kayn becoming a dad cuz I’m wEAK HFJFJFHHF
Mystic!! Hello!!! I’m so glad you enjoyed my Heartsteel!Sett dad headcanon! But ooooh Heartsteel’s resident bad boy becoming a dad? I love it. Let’s gooooooo! (Also listen I totally get it. I’m WEAK for Kayn too he's just such a menace to my sanity I swear to god.😭)
Heartsteel!Kayn becoming a dad
Previous members: Sett
Genre: Headcanon
Type: FLUFF (with slight frank discussion of unprotected sex and v slight suggestive undertones at one point.)
Gender: Not necessarily specified but mention of carrying a pregnancy and such (though sex does not equal gender as we all know).
TW: Swearing. Discussion of risks of unprotected sex. Discussion of pregnancy things and labor.
Extra context: In this instance we’re assuming a well-settled relationship. Like cohabitation and shit.
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So the start of this really depends on on an important factor: Is the baby planned? Because while I think Kayn’s course of action and thoughts would eventually line up on the same path regardless if the baby is planned or not, his initial reaction I could see being SUPER different. In this scenario, let’s say the baby isn’t planned:
Now of course Kayn knew there was a risk. Both of you did. No matter how prepared and careful both of you were before/while/after having sex, nothing is truly 100% effective at preventing a pregnancy besides abstinence. And let’s be so for real, abstinence and Kayn are like oil and water. Also it’s not like you didn’t want him. You certainly enjoyed yourself as much as he did.
And sure he’d thought a little bit about an accidental baby.
But not MUCH. And he certainly didn’t expect it to actually happen.
So when you tell him the news and show him the positive pregnancy test, it’s almost like he’s hit by lighting.
Kayn freezes, his wide eyes glued to the positive pregnancy test in your hand. “P-pregnant? Holy shit, (Y/N), you’re pregnant?
You sigh and nod. “Y-yeah…and I-I don’t know what to do…I don’t know what you want to do. I kn-know this isn’t r-really part of our p-plans right n-now. I-I wasn’t positive that’s what was g-going on until I took the s-second test today...” your voice fades off and your bottom lip wobbles ever so slightly.
The change in your voice has him looking back at your face, and seeing the distress in your eyes, Kayn quickly, but gently, reaches out and pulls you to him, wrapping you in a tight hug. He realizes this is as much of a shock to you as it is to him.
As you burrow against his shoulder and let out a sniffle, he kisses the top of your head. “Hey…hey, it’s okay, angel,” he murmurs. “Please don’t cry…please don’t cry, baby…I’m just surprised, that’s all. Yes this isn’t what we planned for right now, but I guess when the hell does life ever go according to plan?”
“Y-you’re not upset? Or mad?” your voice trembles.
Kayn gently makes you look at him, pecking your lips softly. “Baby, why would I be upset or mad? It’s not like you’re at fault for anything. I was just as much involved in this. Besides, we talked about the possibility of having kids in the future. And while we didn’t expect this part of our future to come so soon, what I know is you’re the person I want to have my future with. I love you. You make me the best version of myself and I can’t see my future with anyone else but you. If you want to have this baby, then I’ll be right next to you the entire way, helping you kick pregnancy’s ass and we’ll raise the coolest and most badass kid anyone has ever met.”
You let out a little laugh at that and wipe your eyes.
He grins at your reaction. “So don’t worry about what I want. Because all I want is for you to be happy, (Y/N). Whatever you want to do, I love you and I’m with you all the way.” He emphasizes his point with a kiss to your forehead.
Kayn’s reaction was better than you could have ever imagined. And you know he means everything he said, so…you and him decide to become parents.
And while of course becoming a father meant some things had to change, it wasn’t as big of a behavior shift as one might think.
He’d already given up drinking/substances (sober!Kayn headcanon returns!) and he wasn’t as much of a party animal as he used to be before he met and fell in love with you. He wasn’t kidding when he said you bring out the best version of himself.
Can you imagine Kayn telling the rest of Heartsteel the news? (I think he’d tell them early on since he’d want to be able to go to your appointments and such.) Their mix of shock and glee.
Ezreal: *Nearly levitating in excitement* “No fucking way!!! Wait can I be the godfather??? I call dibs on being the godfather!!”
Everyone else: *Jaws dropped, eyes wide, and staring at Kayn. Yone’s second cold brew of the day is now splattered on the floor.* (😂)
Kayn: *frowns* “What?? Turns out the idea of being a dad actually sounds pretty cool...”
*Raucous cheering commences and Kayn becomes the bottom of a dog pile of happy band mates/friends*
And trust, he’s keeping all of Heartsteel updated on how you’re doing. They are now very used to Kayn rambling on and on about your last appointment, how the nursery is going, how big the baby is this week, etc…
You might not expect it, but he’s super involved in your appointments, asking your OBGYN all sorts of questions. He’s genuinely curious and he wants to make sure he learns and understands as much as possible.
He will take off as much time as necessary to take you to appointments and Lamaze classes. Thankfully the rest of Heartsteel understands and they are cool with it.
And when Kayn sees the tiny blob at your first ultrasound, you notice him discreetly clear his throat as he hugs you tightly.
You quickly realize this kid has their father already wrapped around their little finger…and their little finger isn’t even developed yet!
Surprisingly excellent at helping you through bouts of morning sickness. He’s happy to hold back your hair if need be, and he’ll always help you straighten/freshen up once you’re through a spell.
Wasn’t prepared for the hormonal mood swings at first, tbh. The first time you burst into tears over a cute little kitten video, Kayn was genuinely a little alarmed. But he quickly realized what was going on.
Your crazy cravings don’t phase him. He’s always down to run out and grab you whatever food you want.
And not just food either. He’s ready to run out and grab any kind of supplies for you (though he very jokingly complains about it. But he makes it very clear he’s just kidding and he doesn’t actually mind).
And despite all the physical changes to your body, Kayn makes it clear he still finds you attractive. He makes that VERY clear. 😉
Being with you already brought his soft side out. That just increases exponentially while you’re pregnant. Kayn absolutely loves to play the guitar for you and the baby. He’ll play lullabies while you two are unwinding from the day. (If you sing, sing along with him because oh my god it makes him so happy when you do. He’d love to pass on a love of music to this baby early.)
And when he’s not playing guitar, he’s reading through the absolute mountain of parenting books he bought/borrowed from the library.
He’s trying to be as prepared as humanly possible. But there’s also an underlying anxiety to his obsessive reading. The last thing he wants is to let you or the baby down. Be sure to reassure him you believe he’ll be a good dad.
(In the Heartsteel universe we’re not exactly told what Zed is to Heartsteel!Kayn, but considering his role and the relationship between the two in base Runeterra lore, I’m imagining Zed as Kayn’s adoptive father.)
He’s calling Zed often and asking him for advice. And Zed is ready to assist you if Kayn is busy with Heartsteel or out of town for something. Just text him.
Kayn’s super eager to find out the sex of the baby. One of the first questions he asked the OBGYN was “How long until we know whether it’s a boy or girl?”
He doesn’t have a preference one way or the other, he just wants to know. The baby will be so loved regardless.
So once the two of you are at the 20-week ultrasound appointment, he’s so excited to finally get an answer.
And when the OBGYN reveals the baby is a girl? Holy shit Kayn’s so thrilled. He’s so happy he starts crying and laughing as he hugs you. (Tough bad boy becoming the biggest girl dad oh my GODDDDDDD 😭.)
And now that he knows the sex of the baby, this man is going to go OFF when it comes to buying things for her.
He found a black onesie with a pink skull and crossbones (with a bow) that says “Punk Rock Girl.” He bought four.
And once it’s time for the baby to come? Kayn is incredible. There’s a small wave of panic at the beginning because “holy fuck oh my god it’s actually fucking happening.” But he quickly realizes that panicking won’t help shit in this scenario. So he takes you to the pre-packed car (that he did himself and triple checked), takes a deep breath, and gets you to the hospital.
Kayn is your biggest advocate in the hospital. He’s making sure you are being listened to when it comes to how you’re feeling and what you want.
He’s encouraging you the whole way. Leading you through your Lamaze techniques, telling you to squeeze his hand as hard as you need to, and encouraging you to swear as much as you need to.
And even when you start cursing him out from pain for being “a god damn sexy and charismatic jackass and doing this to me, putting me in this position,” he keeps his cool, instead apologizing to you and telling you he’s right here and that he loves you.
Once it’s time for you to push, Kayn is right next to you, wiping your forehead, making sure you’re taking deep breaths, and counting you into pushes.
“Look at me, (Y/N). Eyes on me.” Kayn’s voice is gentle but urgent as he gently puts his finger on your chin and turns your head towards him. “That’s it, beautiful. Holy shit, you’re doing so well. I love you so much and I’m so fucking proud of you. Like doc said, one more big push and she’ll be out. Deep breath. I’ll count down from three and when I say “push” you give it all you got, okay? Ready? Alright angel, let’s meet our little girl. Breathe in....and 3…..2…..1…..push!”
And you do it. You give one final push and out she comes, squalling loudly, covered in vernix (newborn goop).
And Kayn finally lets all his emotions go, hugging you tightly and nuzzling your neck as he starts to tear up.
His voice is muffled against your neck. “I’m so fucking proud of you, (Y/N). She’s here….our daughter is here.” He lets out a happy laugh and kisses your forehead, gently wiping away your tears. “You alright, Angel? Can I get you anything?”
You hug him tightly, exhausted but happy, shaking your head. "Not besides babygirl. How is she?”
He nods. "They’re getting her cleaned off. (Y/N), she is perfect. Absolutely perfect. Just like you.”
The L&D nurse walks over. “Dad? Would you like to cut the umbilical cord?”
Kayn’s face lights up and he smiles at you. “Hell yeah…”
The sight of your partner carefully cutting your daughter’s umbilical cord is extremely sweet. He's being so careful, almost as if he's afraid he'll accidentally hurt her.
And as he looks down at her tiny form, he swears to himself right then and there, he's not letting anyone or anything harm her.
And once they hand her to you and you gently tease him as his happy tears fall, he just looks up at you with a grin, not even trying to play his tears off as "dust in my eyes" like he sometimes does.
You can’t help but laugh as he comments on her lung capacity and how she’s already ready to be a singer.
"She's what, not even ten minutes old and she already beats Ezreal's lung capacity and his higher range! He's gonna be so fucking jealous!"
(A/N: Ok so I know I stopped with Sett’s at the hospital right after labor, but I have an extra tidbit for Kayn’s and I NEED to write it down.)
You know how when athletes/musicians have babies/little kids, the other parent might bring them to cheer on the famous parent but they cover their ears with really strong noise-cancelling headphones to protect their ears/hearing?
Imagine doing that for Kayn at Heartsteel shows!!! Dressing up baby girl in a small version of his paranoia jacket with custom Kayn-designed stitching on the back (courtesy of Sett).
And imagine if Kayn got custom ear protection for her. And on each earphone is a print of his Rhaast mask, matching the custom necklace he bought you early on in your relationship. “So everyone knows who's with me.”
Ah! That would be so fucking cool. And when he sees the two of you the first time you bring her, oh my god, his heart is ready to burst. Especially when you blow him a kiss and wave one of her little hands at him. Kayn can’t help but grin like an absolutely besotted idiot for a second. Honestly you two being at his shows to cheer him on is his favorite thing. It reminds him why he does what he does. For his little family.
Who knew this bad boy could turn into such a family man? 🥹
Ahhhh thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed my latest contribution to Dad!Heartsteel headcanons!! I was so excited to get this request!! 2/6 done. Let me know which Heartsteel member should become a dad next! 💙
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oracleact · 11 months
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You can totally choose to look past this cuz it might be a lot (Tw trauma?) I just got Carried, you know when Carrie (from the movie) she gets a bucked full of blood over her head on prom? A guy asked me out and to my surprise, I was blessed with ketchup, eggs and flour by him and his friends, the subway didn’t let me in and no Uber would accept me getting in a car, so I had to walk home. No one asked me what was wrong
I’m still processing that actually happened,. I’m assuming it’s bc of my weight, I’m tall and overweight, I mainly keeps things to myself, am a introvert, idk what other thing could be a reason besides my body. Could you please write a comfort scenario with the tmnt boys? Or one of them, you can choose, Could be platonic, romantic, idk, just reader (who’s usually friendly but don’t talk much about their romantic life cuz they don’t feel like it’s worth investing time, and when they finally decide to change that, thst happens) crying as a mess in front of them for the first time, saying they are tired of living in a body that feels more of a curse than anything,
It’s a lot, I know, you can delete this if you aren’t comfortable doing it (I’m 100% serious)
Thank you Eitherway and hope you have a good day
first of all, I’m so sorry that happened to you. back in high school, I was doused after classes so I can definitely understand your pain here. they are absolutely pathetic for even thinking about doing that to someone; they are total assholes because they acted on it too and I wish for it to haunt them one day when (or if) they mature. you did amazing on your way home that day - I hope that, with time, things will get better for you. you deserve great things. I haven’t written anything with all of the boys before but I wanted to give it a try for you to cheer you up. I wish you well, and I hope you can find comfort in our wonderful turtles!
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tmnt x reader / angst + fluff
notes: 1.6k words, all turtles included, platonic relationship, gender neutral reader (no pronouns used,) first person pov, I was thinking of 2012 tmnt while writing this but it probably fits with most iterations.
I can’t believe I’m walking home in the dark, completely covered in miscellaneous goop. I’m glad I didn’t tell anyone about the date that was supposed to happen tonight because, if someone saw me right now, I don’t know what I would do. no public transport let me on covered in eggs and flour, the same for taxis, so now I’m stuck dragging myself home by my own two feet. they are awfully heavy despite my hurry to get back which doesn’t seem fair at all - it’s like my body is laughing at me in equal measure to the rest of the crowd back there.
put your head down and keep walking, put your head down and keep walking, put your—
“hey guys, look!” I stop in my tracks as soon as I hear that voice echo through the night sky. it sounded too much like mikey to simply ignore it.
“mikey, for the last time, shh! ninjas, remember?” that was definitely leo. they all must be up on a roof somewhere but I don’t dare to look up. my feet won’t move anymore regardless, they’re refusing to pick up and run. my body really does hate me tonight huh?
“mikey is right though, look down - hey there!” I slowly crane my neck towards the sound of their chatters and am met with possibly the worst sight I could see at this exact moment: all four of my mutant friends standing on a nearby roof, just as I suspected.
“hi everyone,” I give an awkward wave as they stare down at me.
“want to meet up at the entrance to the lair to hang? we’re just heading back,” raph calls out.
I need a plan, and fast.
thankfully, they can’t see that I’m covered in mush from where they are, but if I go to the lair then that will change. however, if I say ‘no’ to hanging out with them then they’ll get suspicious anyway and follow after me. they’re my best friends, my favourite thing in the whole world is hanging out with them. even if I genuinely can’t hang out we still find a loophole to be together.
either of these choices leaves me doomed to talk about this disaster of a night eventually so…
“sure, you go ahead and I’ll be there in a second.”
…I go with option one.
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I knew the boys would get there first so I’ve had more time to come up with some lame lie before I face them: one point to me. I slap on a brave face and a ridiculously wide smile in the hopes that it would distract them from what I have going on all over my clothes. taking a deep breath, I turn the final corner to enter the lair.
“hey bud!” mikey bursts through the rest of the guys and comes skipping towards me. I freeze and simply wait for him to see me in the light. “woah, what happened to you?”
after hearing mikey’s question, everyone starts to crowd in around me, thinking I had been hurt or something on the way here. to their surprise, I have no cuts or scrapes…just a bunch of different types of produce in my hair. they begin to mutter more questions but my mind is too hazy to hear them clearly, opting to stand there and stare into the space behind them. leo notices me zoning out pretty quickly and leads me to the seating area in the middle of the lair by my arm, the rest of the boys following with worry in their eyes.
I sit down on the couch; raph bends down in front of me, donnie sits on my right, mikey hangs over the back of the couch to lean on my left, and leo rests his hands on my shoulders from behind me.
“who did this to you? I’ll kill them, I’ll punch them into the ground I swear to god—“
“raph, calm down. we need to know what happened first before we start going haywire.” I’ve never seen donnie look so aggravated before. it looks like he secretly wants to join in with raph’s immediate anger instead of acting ‘rationally’ this time.
“no need for punching anyone or anything ha! I— uh— tripped while I was walking home and fell straight into a pile of garbage surrounding a dumpster. how clumsy of me ha! I’m so silly. I wasn’t watching where I was going and it was dark so…” my words trail off as I finally look directly at my friends. none of them are believing this story at all.
“tell us the truth, it’s alright. you’re safe here.” leo speaks with such a warm tone, it makes holding back my tears even harder than it already was.
“I’m fine! I promise I’m fine, really I just tripped!” I force my lips into a thin line, trying to twist them into some kind of smile, until mikey pokes at my cheek. I turn to him.
“please tell us what’s wrong.” is he giving me puppy eyes? damn it mikey…
I couldn’t push back my tears any longer and the flood gates exploded. I was in hysterics, sobbing so loudly it bounced off the walls of the lair. I couldn’t stop, each sob rippled through me and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. the boys cooed at me, all of them placing a hand somewhere on my body to ground me and to let me know that I’m not alone as I cried. they tried still asking me questions but I couldn’t get out any words, only heartbreaking whimpers left my mouth. they accepted their fate of silent sobs though and simply stayed beside me.
after a while, I’ve calmed down slightly, and I see the boys look at each other and nod in the corner of my blurry eyes. then, all of a sudden, raph and leo run off. they come back not long after with a basin of water, towels and some other things that I can’t quite see cradled in their large hands. my curiosity is answered in a split second though as the four begin to wipe away the dirt that covers me, still allowing me to ride out my cries in the meantime.
raph gets back into his bent position to gently clean my face, donnie and mikey clean down my arms, and leo starts to brush my hair the best that he can. it must be a brush that april keeps here at the lair, since I don’t think I’ve left one here before.
they continued like this - softly wiping and rinsing - until they were sure that they had done all they can do to rid me of this sticky mess, and until I was able to stabilise my breathing and speak somewhat clearly again.
“april is going to be mad that you got ketchup on her hairbrush,” I say lowly between hiccups. leo laughs and assures me that the brush is perfectly fine; no need to worry.
it is silent (apart from the sound of my sniffling) while they put down their tools and clear them away from the couch, until donnie speaks, “we don’t want to push you to talk but we are here to listen if you want to.”
maybe it is finally time to talk about it. as much as I don’t want to, I think I need to. I’m always the one with a bright smile and cheery attitude but I need to let that go for now. I need comfort, and I need to admit that to myself - even if it’s for this singular moment.
I begin to explain the story of the date and how it went terribly wrong - just the vital details to build the story rather than adding my feelings about it. being vulnerable like this isn’t my strong point so I need to prepare myself to talk about that part with truth and from the heart.
I can see the pure rage in raph’s eyes as he sits in front of me, his teeth grinding together and a low growl coming out of him. he goes to say something but donnie stops him with a hand on his shoulder. he gives red a pat and he seems to understand what he is signalling, inhaling and exhaling with his eyes closed before fixing his posture to listen to me again.
“you know, I don’t know if I want raph to rough up him or rough up me at this point,” I let out a laugh to try and soften the atmosphere but the expressions of the boys tell me that it didn’t work. they look confused; sad. “a good rough up might fix whatever is wrong with me, because it’s obviously me. look at me! why else would he have made plans to humiliate me like that? what do I need to punch into shape - the way I look? the way I act?” I laugh again with the same intent as earlier despite knowing that it is going to do nothing to lessen the impact of my words.
“did he specifically make you feel like that?” raph says through gritted teeth, “that you’re not good enough?”
“no, I guess I’ve been feeling that way for a while. he just made it worse - a lot worse.” my eyes start to burn again with more tears. I’m surprised I’m not dehydrated yet.
mikey grabs my face in his hands, his eyes also look clouded with tears, “you are so beautiful. really, you are. I remember when I first saw you I was like ‘woah, they’re even prettier than the humans I see on tv!’ you don’t need to change anything about the way you look, I can tell you that for sure.”
“nor do you need to change anything about your personality or how you act,” donnie chimes in. “why do you think we like you so much? you’re awesome! you’re smart, kind, caring, plus you treat us like we’re golden and we’re literally in the sewers right now,” we all giggle at the last statement he makes.
leo pats me on the head, signally me to look up towards him, “you are the greatest friend we could have ever asked for, and if we need to remind you of that more then we will. you deserve to feel that you’re worthy and loved and I can tell you with certainty that you are when you’re here with us. there’s no need to hide from us, we’ve got you’re back.”
raph grabs my hand, “and seriously, if you want us to go and talk to that guy we will.”
“raph!” the others shout. I laugh at the slight panic hiding in their voices - it’s fully directed at their brother and his fists.
“what?! I said talk not bash into the ground so what do you want from me?!”
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(Kuai Liang) Sub Zero x Sick Reader
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I’m a sucker for sick readers so here is one with one of my favourite MK characters I’ve been getting back into the fandom so hopefully this won’t be OOC
Summary: living with Kuai was wonderful well most of the time but when your sick it can be a little hard especially when your shivering
Words 600+
SFW/ Comfort/ Gender Neutral/ Establish Relationship
Being sick was the worst thing that could possibly happen but there was nothing you could do about it. When ever you were sick it was always bad, Kuai always knew had to make you feel better. Well he sure did try it was hard for him to care for someone that isn’t himself, he’s been alone for a while. You were laying in bed as he opened the door holding a tray. “I’ve made you some soup you should try eating.” You roll over to see him in the door way making a sound in response. He puts the tray down on the night table as you sit up, he places his hand on your forehead you lean into the touch.
“You’re running a fever.” He goes to move his hand from your head as you grab it putting it back. Everyone knows Kuai body temperature was much colder than most, in this moment if felt amazing. “Don’t leave you’re so cold it feels so nice.” He giggles and helps you eat the soup, but you couldn’t help but lay against him. You both giggle at this bud eventually finish eating putting it back on the table. “You should get some rest it’s been a while since you’ve been able too.” You lay down. “Only if you say cuz I’m way too hot and you’re nice and cold.” He smiles and lays beside you holding you close. “Anything to make you feel better.”
You managed to fall asleep fast Kuai was able to cool you off fast, you didn’t know if he was asleep. But when you woke up you were shivering not exactly cuz you were cold mostly just cuz you were sick. He seemed to have noticed cuz he pulled away from you, trying to grab him back. “No don’t leave come back.” He looked at you a little confused. “You’re shivering I don’t want to make you any more cold.” Ignoring what he said you lay against him again. “I don’t care I want to lay with you it makes me feel better.” Trying to hide his smile at this comment. “Well maybe we can put a blanket between us i want to make sure you stay warm.”
Clinging to him even more. “Nope.” Smirking up at him. “I can’t argue with that but honest if you’re too cold tell me.” Not really listening you agree. “Yeah ok I will I promise.” You both cuddled together even if he was cold you couldn’t help your self, this will make you feel better faster. You both have been laying together for a while now when he got up and walked to the door. You were too tired to move but asked where he was going. “I’m going to make you some tea and get a snack.” He answered as he was walking out of the room, you sit up a little. After a few minutes he walked back in with a tray. “Here I also brought medicine.”
Taking the medicine and a sip of the tea. “I was thinking we could go for a walk the fresh air could really help.” Kuai agreed helping you get up. “Sure that sounds like a good idea, just let me put this away.” You put on a jacket and your shoes leaving the room and waited for Kuai. “We shouldn’t stay out too late.” All you did was smile and grab his arm as you both went outside. You both had a wonder walk that seemed to help you a lot and decided to head to a cafe. Having a nice hot chocolate by the window, sure being sick sucked but being with Kuai can make it better.
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thepalaceofharuhime · 5 months
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Hmmm…
Looking at your fandoms, I can’t help but think some sort of Bingqiu in Spy X Family (or a SxF Xianxia fusion) could be super fun!
The question is… what would their roles be.
Assassin Luo Binghe, or spy Luo Binghe… and which of them gets gender swapped. 🤔
Oh!! Maybe Shen Yuan was meant to be an ally of the female half of the main duo, Liu Mingyan, but through shenanigans he somehow ends up with her role instead, and the System demands he fake marry Binghe anyway. 😂
This is exactly the kind of prompt i was hoping for! TY!!! 🙏
The way i see it Binghe would definitely be the assassin, Shen Yuan is too big of a softie not to mention one who so easily put on the mask of another man before so he would definitely be the spy.
But also being oblivious to feelings yet a capable badass, bad in the kitchen, feeling inadequate as a partner? All Shen Yuan. Binghe with his protagonist Halo meanwhile would fit better with Mr. All around perfect Husband. So i guess it'd be a little like Yor and Loyd had switched professions.
Shen Yuan's over protective brother in a position of power? I wonder who that would be? Enter Shen Jiu haha. Rather than secret police he'd be a detective looking in to all the murders rather than keeping state secrets from spies though. To keep that rivalry between him Binghe. The family member Binghe became an assassin to provide for? His mom. The gardener AKA the guy who hired him and hands him his missions? Meng Mo. Franky,the spy's funny informant and gadget supplier, occasional babysitter and not to mention bestfriend? Shang Qinghua.
I dont know if i should replace Fiona with Liu Quinge as Fiona's character really would fit Binghe better. But Liushen is a weakness of mine even if onesided and those two were just made for coworker romances. Maybe I should give Binge someone trying to woe him too? Sha hualing? Then if i dont go with your other idea of having SY transmigrate in to Liu Mingyan (which i am saving up in my head because i absolutely love the idea) then i can add something in the background with her and Sha hualing. I'm positive i could find a way to write in Mobei for SQH or i could go with Scumplane and have him end up Shen Jiu and actually yeah that would work, need to distract SJ long enough for Bingyuan to get it on afterall. Oh what about SQH x SJ x LQG? Or should Shen Yuan get a second husbandafterall? Alternatively imagine LQG crying over a bowl of icecream.
Next question is if SY didnt transmigrate into LMY then who is he? What about Ning Yingying? Who could be SJ's little sister in this world? Or he couldve just been put in there as a female version of himself. Or like it was with Shen quingiu a character who vaguely resembles him and has a similar name. She just happens to be a woman though. Or maybe go with the mulan aproach and have him crossdress? But then how does he explain to his brother that he's suddenly - he could say that he's in love with binghe and the only way to marry him was fake his papers to pretend to be a woman since queer marriage isnt yet allowed in their fictional country. Like no one cares if they date its just they havent gotten to the legalisation of marriage yet. And if SJ asks why they had to get married so suddenly anyway (cuz no way in hell is SY getting away with saying he forgot to tell him for a year) he could say that they had to so they could adopt their daughter. Who in this case scenario could be Ning Yingying, should she still have Anyas powers? damian could be Ming fan or the little palace girl or whatever (im not yet far enough in the books to now her and the old man that well so id have to check the wiki) and i could make the palace master donovan desmond and have SY and LBH team up to take him down in the end.
Anyways yeah these are just some ideas, and again thanks for the prompt! I can't wait to write this! Maybe i'll draw something for it later too. ❤️
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old-poptart · 11 months
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Hi! I hope i read the rules correctly and didn’t miss anything. I was just wondering if i could get Teru tsukasa and Hanako with a diabetic s/o? Like their first reaction on how s/o just goes poking their finger for the first time to check their blood? Please just delete this request if you can’t do this or Thank you :]
a/n: HEY THERE!! yes of course you can 😜 i don't have diabetes myself so i do apologize if i misrepresented!! ANYWAYS ONTO THE HEAD CANONZ!!!!
warnings: uh oh blood, pricking your finger with a needle
Hanako 🌺, Tsukasa 🥀, and Teru 🤺 with a diabetic s/o (gender neutral):
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Hanako 🌺:
"it looks like i need one too, you're too sweet for me~"
even though you and hanako have been together for a while, he's never seen you prick your finger with your kit, he didn't even know you were a diabetic!
that all changed though, the two of you were hanging out in the bathroom as per usual, you two were chatting about your upcoming date and having lunch together! how cute~
right before eating though, you had to check your blood sugar as part of your routine. so, you got out your kit and pricked your finger like normal
you had forgotten though about how your boyfriend doesn't even know that you were required to do this, so it had shocked him
he doesn't know much about about modern medication, so seeing you prick your finger for no apparent reason caught him off guard
"but yeah! the rooftop is a nice plac- what are you doing?"
he tried to stop you cuz he thought you were hurting yourself, bless him-
you stopped in your tracks due to his sudden action, realizing you had some explaining to do
once you told him that you had to do this daily thing due to your lack of insulin, he immediately switches up
he's not very squeamish so he doesn't mind when it's time to do your thing
BUT he will always make sure that you're not hurt afterwards and always gets you a cute little bandaid for your finger
if you refuse he will make you wear it (jk)
he also carries candy (and steals candy from the mokke too) for whenever you need it, such a sweet darlin </3
Tsukasa 🥀:
"can i help you?!"
tsukasa loves taking naps with you
again he’s like a cat, all over you and you can’t escape muehehhehe
like between class periods or after school he luvz getting all cuddled up as y’all snooze togetha
you usually do your routine when he’s already asleep, not on purpose though you just aren’t aware that he’s already going honk shoo
one faithful day he was just aboutta fall asleep next to your beautiful self but somethin caught his eye!!!
some kinda pointy concoction was moving towards your finger!? and it’s gonna hurt you!? no ma’am nah uh
he swatted that thing as far as possible (to the other side of the broadcasting room) and looked back at you to see if you were alright
“tsukasa i need that to feel better..”
“THAT makes you feel better!?”
“let me explain this-“
once he was educated about your condition (it took ten times to explain and two charts), it was his plan to make sure you stay healthy!
he wanted to have an extra diabetes kit on him but having a prickly needle at his reach wouldn’t be the smartest idea..
the boy jus wants to take care of his sweetums’ 😕</3
can he even call you that
Teru 🤺:
“whatever it takes for my dear to be at their best”
atp dawg this man is educated about anything
if he isn’t you bet yo precious ahh he will learn about it until it’s engraved into his mind
whenever y’all can he takes you on cute lil dates!!!!
flowers every time, he pays every time, lets you pick where y’all are gonna go
he’s so cutie patootie keep him forever
unlike hanako and tsukasa he’s known about your diabetes for a while, before y’all started going out actually
he found out obv when you pulled out your lil kit and did your thing, asking if you needed help with the needle and such
“pfft, and do you know how to work this thing?”
“..and there!”
“you’re telling me i’ve been doing it in a way less effective way and you jus did that in seconds.”
all funnies aside he carries lil sweets for you and reminds you to take your test before you eat and sleep, he even helps you on your dinner dates 😓🫶🏼
marry him rnnrnrnrnnrnrn
GAHHH SOSOOSOSOS SORRY FOR PUTTING THIS OUT SO LATE I HAVE INZANE WRITERS BLOCK BUT HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!!
-ooga :D
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“Swimming lessons” (Aonung x Sully!Reader)
@ollieollie0-0 @jellyscreamer @hyperfixatedfandomer besties look at me coming out my comfort zone 😩
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A/N:This I’m first time trying to write an actual story 😭 and yes I did write this with the Aonung aid roleplay bot. I’m pretty sure it’s gender neutral but it’s not proof read so take that with a grain of salt. You’d think after taking AP English I’d be a better writer 🙄
WARNING :fluff, teasing, mentioning of bullying, probably OOC Aonung cuz I’m not a good writer
WORD COUNT: 1,432 words
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"I can't believe I'm asking you this but... can you help me practice swimming?" You utter avoiding looking at the taller Na’vi.
It’s pretty obvious to anyone with eyes that you and Aonung are not on the best of terms. Who could blame you after Aonung bullied your sister and fought with your brother before sending him to a death trap. However, father insists you make peace with the boy.
Aonung looks you up and down with a confused look. He looks back down at the knife he was carving before sighing.
“Do you really expect me to do that?” He asks, looking back up with a raised eyebrow. He’s clearly annoyed at having to deal with your request. He has a small smirk on his face that grows as you notice. “What do I get in return?”
You sigh, of course it wasn’t gonna be this easy.
“I don’t know, what do you want?” You say putting your hands in your hips. He scratches his chin, his eyebrows raised and his lips forming a small smile, as if he’s considering your request deeply.
“Well,” he takes a breath, and then his smile grows.
“Being nice wouldn’t kill you, I want you to say please.” Aonung crosses his arms before he scrunches his face, trying not to to burst into uncontrollable laughter, he knows he might be pushing his luck, but he’s curious how this will go.
You look at him in slight disbelief crossing your arms, “Will you help me practice swimming please.”
You can’t help but feel the smugness as he says, “Of course I’ll help you,” before he turns away to the reef and begins to swim.
“Follow me!”
You roll you eyes and follow him into the water. You both spend the next hour bickering over your “swimming lesson.”
Although you two constantly argue, Aonung still makes the lesson a decent one. He gives you tips how to kick your legs and move your arms. When you are good enough at that, he teaches you how to float, the correct form for diving properly. He even gives you a few pointers on how to hold your breath for long periods of time. Although a little snarky and passive aggressive, he’s good at his job.
You emerge from the water, after just swimming to the bottom of the ocean floor 20 feet below, smiling at you accomplishment before turning your attention to Aonung.
“Not bad for a tree hugger.” He teases but you can’t help but notice the smile on his face.
“Whatever Fish lips.” You laugh.
At this point eclipse is right around the corner, pinks and purples paint the clouds. He turns his attention to it and breaths it in.
“I love this time of the day,” he remarks before turning his attention to you “It’s really pretty, isn’t it?” He asks.
You’re slightly taken aback by his change in demeanor. “I- uh… yeah it is.”
He grins, “I haven’t really ever taken the time to enjoy the colors, but today I had some free time. It’s beautiful.” He says with a small smile before turning to you. “It matches your eyes” his voice is genuine, like he hasn’t spent the past hour teasing you. He means it, and you can tell. He looks away, not knowing what to say. Awkward silence fills the air. The two of you continue to stare at the water, watching the sunset until it slowly begins to become less vibrant.
Aonung eventually turns back to you, not entirely sure what to say. A smile sits on his face, almost to try to clear up the situation,
"H-hey, this is a one-time thing only. don't let me being nice to you get to your head." He states trying to bring back his tough persona. Although his tone is more serious, his eyes betray what he is really feeling just like the smile he is trying so hard to hide.
You chuckle, “sure thing Aonung.”
As the night continues to loom over, Aonung looks towards the night sky. “Do you want to hang out again?” Aonung asks, sounding surprised as the words come out of him. He shakes his head lightly when he says it, his cheeks flushing. Aonung is used to being alone; he doesn’t like meeting many people, and certainly doesn’t make new friends very often. But he is curious about you.
“I- sure.” You smile at him. “Just don’t tell anybody, I don’t want people to think I’m friends with you or anything.” You joke looking at him.
“Oh, because it’s so embarrassing to be friends with me?” He replies with a smirk, his tone clearly playful and sarcastic, his eyebrows raised in faux horror, although he has a small smile on his face, clearly enjoying your company, but not wanting to show it.
“Duh, I don’t want to be associated with your horrendous looking group of friends.” You giggle.
He scoffs, “Horrendous? Are you saying we are not a handsome bunch?” He chuckles his voice is full of fake confidence, his eyes dart to the side for a moment before resting on yours, looking at you body wading in the water. He pauses for a few seconds “You on the other hand…” he says with an eyebrow raised, smiling.
“Don’t you dare!” You gasp playfully. He moves closer to you and looks you deep in the eyes. “You are not horrendous, no. You are absolutely hideous.” He says with an absolutely straight face. He continues to look you in the eyes for another few seconds until he can’t hold his laughter anymore and he starts laughing. He covers his mouth with his hand as he continues to laugh. “Sorry, sorry.” He laughs, looking away. “Skxawng” You laugh, “If I’m hideous you’re revolting.” Teasing him back. “Well if I’m revolting then you must be atrocious.” He looks up to you again, a twinkle in his eyes, and he can’t help but smile lightly. “It’s good you can dish it back.” He remarks. “It’d be boring if I didn’t.” You say.
He looks out to the reef. “We better get back, it’s getting late.” He motions to you. “Race to the land?” “You’re on.” you say before diving underwater to get a head start. He looks at you with a smirk before diving into the water. You hear him surface a bit behind you before he swims ahead and you get a glimpse of his smirk before he speeds off.
Although you try your best, he ends up beating you to land. “Too slow.” He teases. You playfully shove his shoulder, “shut up.” His smirk grows. “You were never going to beat me.” He teases, “But at least you tried. I guess I can respect you a little,” he says with a small smile. “A little respect goes a long way.” He winks with a small chuckle. You roll your eyes before tilting your head to the side to squeeze the excess water out of your hair.
“You know if took those braids down your hair would dry a lot quicker.” He tells you referring to the Omatikaya hairstyle.
“Oh really, so you’ll do my hair next time I take it down?” You say sarcastically before shaking your head.
Aonung glances at you before bursting out laughing. “Sure,” he laughs sarcastically, “Maybe I will.” he laughs again, looking up at the night sky. You can tell he wants to make a move, but you can’t tell what it is. He looks down before turning to you. “So…..You uh… really wanna do this again sometime?” He adds, his blush growing. You giggle, “I already told you yes silly.” You say before walking closer to him. He looks to you as you approach.
A small smirk grows on his face, although his face is completely red. “Wait you weren’t joking?” He asks with a small frown. He raises an eyebrow, his look of uncertainty is adorable. You playfully and dramatically sigh “No Aonung, I wasn’t joking.” Grabbing his hand lightly, “I hate to admit it but I had a lot of fun hanging out with you.” He blushes again and smiles. “I hate to admit it, but I did to,” he smirks before letting go of your hand and looking up to the star. “Maybe it can be a weekly thing?” He suggests, his tone sounding playful, but you can tell his nervous of being rejected. You cup his cheek and direct his face to look at you before kissing him softly.
You smile as you pull away, “how about a daily thing?”
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