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#I tended to get gendered as a man or woman p equally by strangers
lesbiansanemi
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6 months
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I think… I have figured out the reason I never get gendered as a guy anymore and it’s making me have…. A lot of really complex feelings
#most of my life I’ve been VERY androgynous
#and ever since I cut off all of my hair when I was 16 and started dressing in men’s clothes
#I tended to get gendered as a man or woman p equally by strangers
#(until I talked because my voice tends to be a give away which is a whole other thing I have Thoughts about but that’s a different issue)
#but in the past oh… idk… six months or so? I literally NEVER get gendered as a guy
#it has happened ONCE
#like sure ppl will ask for my pronouns but I know that’s just cuz I look like stereotypical genderqueer afab person
#it’s not cuz they can’t tell what my gender is…
#and I’ve been wondering what’s so different. why don’t I ever get gendered as a man anymore
#I haven’t changed how I dress I still have a masculine haircut most of the time my facial features obviously haven’t changed
#SO WHAT DID
#I… I’ve figured it out….
#I’ve gained weight. but only in my hips and thighs
#all my pants that I’ve had for YEARS are suddenly too tight and too small around my hips and thighs
#I’ve NEVER had curves anywhere before I was always stuck straight and now… I do
#and like part of me wants to be happy. I’m gaining weight!!! I’ve always been so horrendously underweight
#and I’ve battled severe disordered eating for so long that was the cause
#this past year I’ve actually very steadily been eating three meals a day instead of one
#I can eat whole portions without getting sick
#and I’m really proud of myself for that like I’m def not upset I’m gaining weight
#it’s just. it’s just that it’s literally all in my hips and thighs
#and it’s giving me a more feminine figure which I’ve NEVER had before
#and I know your body goes through more changes in your twenties and that’s probably part of it too
#it’s just. I don’t want this. I don’t like this.
#I haven’t felt genuinely dysphoric in a long time and now I want to crawl out of my skin whenever I look in a full body mirror
#cuz I see it now. I see the change. and I just. do Not fucking Like It
#but I can’t do anything about it 😭
#and idk what to do
#ugh
#kaz rambles
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