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billieeilishshusband · 6 months

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Summary: Billie invites you to an hot ones interview in the back. After the interview she goes to McDonald's with you

YN'S POV

I have been friends with Billie since High School. We became good friends she refuses to leave without me behind her. She invited me to an hot ones interview.

Finneas was sat there as well. "She adores you, Billie I mean" Finneas whispers as the man asks Billie questions when she is trying not to cry with the spice "really?" I whisper back. He nods after one of the last few spices I laugh at her reaction

"oh your laughing? Here take a bite" she gets out of her seat and puts a load of spicy sauce on it and gets close to me. She puts it into my mouth and I cough "fucking hell, how do you manage to do this so much?" I said coughing while looking at the guy "that's what I'm saying" she laughs getting back in her seat.

After the interview was over Finneas had to head back to the studio, she decided to invite you for a McDonald's trip. "Of course you know I can never turn down McDonald's!" I say grabbing hoodie. Finneas had taken her big jacket because she said she wasn't cold. Right after finneas left she complained about how cold it was.

"It's fucking freezing" she says basically hugging herself. "Here take my hoodie" I take it off and hand it to her. She smiles gently realizing she smiled and had a red face she makes an comment "it smells like mens sweat" she says I look at her and give her a weird look "I mean I'm a dude so I think it would smell of my sweat. I think like that was supposed to be an insult" I laugh. We make it to McDonald's her face not looking at you due the Redness.

We get there and find a seat. " I don't know what to get" I say sitting down looking at the items flashing on the big tvs. "Hey, I have an question asking for a friend" I looked at her "ask away" I smiled "if a friend was really close with someone but they had feelings for them. Like for example you and me if I really liked you but we were so close should I still ask you out?" She questioned looking at her hands

"Yeah go for it if the hearts wants its worth a shoot right?" I smiled. She nodded looking at me. We ordered food and I started to eat the chips while she sat and looked and her food "you okay?" I said putting down my fry. "Will you go out with me?" I looked at her confused "were out right now?" I said biting into the fry "no I mean like- nevermind" she said digging into her food.

"I'll pay!" I smiled pulling out the money. She thanked me and we left. She decided to go to the studio to see finneas. I waved goodbye to her

Billie's POV

I walked into the studio seeing finneas sat there "Billie, hey how'd it go?" I gave him a not so happy look "oh no did he say no?" He said a bit concerned "no, he didn't get what I meant" I explained to him about what happened and how I chickened out and couldn't tell him the truth

He patted me on the back "here how about you right on a piece of paper your feelings and hand him the note" I smiled weakly and nodded grabbing a piece of paper. The next few hours I was sat there writing and rubbing out. It wasnt fun.

YN'S POV

I woke up to the door being knocked on. I groaned before getting up and seeing Billie at the door. Still in boxers after opening the door I tried to grab clothes "I came here to hand you this. I'm heading to the studio and I needed to give you this." I dropped the clothes I was looking for and took the piece of paper from her. She ran off before I could ask.

After getting changed and having a shower I read it

'yn I wasn't sure how to tell you this without getting scared of how you would react but I have feelings for you.

Yesterday I tried to ask you out and I don't think you understood and I was too embarrassed to say anything.

I have liked you for a long time and I understand if you don't feel the same way and I'm sorry if this makes our friendship awkward from your favorite O'Connell sibling Billie:)'

"OHHH that's what she meant yesterday I thought she wanted more McDonald's" I mumbled to myself. I quickly ran out the door wondering to look for the studio when I messaged finneas "hey man do you know where Billie is?" He replied quickly "she just left to go back to the apartment by the studio" I walked around to the apartment

I had been given a key a while ago so I opened the door myself "Pirate?" She knew it would be me if I called her by her real name to make fun of it.

I heard shuffling "Billie? You there?" I said walking to her bedroom door and knocking "...yeah" she said sounding a bit down. I opened the door and sat next to her on the bed her back facing the door.

"You alright?" I said not looking at her but getting closer "I think so, depending on what your response is going to be" she said quietly. I turned my head to face her and pulled her head to face me. Before closing the little space there was.

The kiss was long to the point we're she fell on the bed I was on top of her. "Good response right Pirate?" I laughed "shut up" she chuckled with me. We must of been so caught up we didn't hear the front door open or when finneas opened the door

"Yuck, wear protection freaks" Billie threw a pillow at him. He left the room with the door now closed. I kissed her neck softly, turning her head to the side to face the door. I went to kissing her jaw after. She let out a small gasp.

"You okay with this?" I pull away "y-yes" she stuttered putting her arm in front of her mouth. I smiled before diving back down into her neck, now sucking on it. She let out little whimpers.

#billie eilish x male!reader #billie eilish headcanon #billie eilish smut #billie eilish x reader #billie eilish x you #billie eilish #eva swarm #billie eilish x yn #eva x reader

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ludinusdaleth · 27 days

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hey, i'm new to cr fandom and wasn't there when c2 was airing, may i ask out of curiosity what was the fandom's problem with its ending?

i want to start by saying this post is meant as a personal memory and not an incitement of any discourse. i do not want a lot of asks or replies or anything about this if i can help it. i would also politely ask that no one reblog this as i really just. dont want attention about this when ive discussed it to death on twitter. i also apologize for not having screenshots but i truly cannot bring myself to wade through that again. it was bad enough i still have nightmares about it.

basically, about 3 eps before c2's end, matt clarified on twitter the campaign was coming to a close, and that. did not go well. you see, folk (myself included, though i wasnt part of the following clown show) were very sure c2 would continue a while. it felt unfinished as the empire/trent had to be taken down, and for some of us ludinus was clearly the big bad, etc. so this was incredibly jarring to a lot of folk. and with that came anger. a lot of critique came down to fear of things being rushed, a lack of closure, claims of extreme neoliberialism due to not taking down the empire (i could write an essay on and cite multiple leftist activists who have stated c2 is truthful to the activist tale, not neoliberalism, and also how c3 deconstructs beau & caleb's actions, but everyone is allowed to have their own opinion on it), and that if shadowgast did not fuck in this short timespan the fans were going to kill liam & matt. and threats of killing were the least of what ensued. im just gonna put a tw here for discussion of extreme harrassment and even threat of necrophilia/rape:

people were. atrocious. beyond atrocious. know why 4sd/a lot of q&a events of theirs for a while had no fan questions? partially bc fans were frankly terrible at asking non-ship questions on talks machina, but mainly because folk FILLED their inboxes with insults (and a twitter account was made of screenshots bragging about it) that only the crew would get to filter out, not the cast. know why dani was terrified to show her face on 4sd for a bit? c2 fans would not let up on how it was her cishet fault fjorjester happened. people thought the solution to alleged neoliberalism was to therefore @ travis saying they would defile his veteran fathers corpse. if there was any solid discussion critiquing c2 happening, it was so drowned that actors who had nothing to do with the show told cr fans to stay away if that was how they treated their favorite creators wanting a break. it really didnt help that a certain disgraced talks machina host was firing potshots on twitter when the cast seemed to be just trying to take it all in, so more discourse was kicked up from him. in general besides all of that, you had the average death & even a few rape threats you would expect from the pits of fan entitlement. the way they were hardly the most notable of the insults hurled their way still rattles the mind. and thats just what i saw. my friends have claimed to have seen worse, but if we can help it we dont discuss it in detail, it's that bad. like i said, any idea of an actual conversation about c2 and how someone felt about it from an analysis perspective was not even a drop in the bucket; there was no actual discourse but rather spitting hatred pouring over that mistook personal grievances for excuses to mistreat quite literally anyone around them who didnt agree that threatening to defile someone was funny bittersweet revenge.

the thing is, after the c2 finale happened? i mean, a lot of folk didnt originally like it (i think it's generally pretty well liked now, and i enjoy it), but it wrapped up a lot of issues pretty well. all that terror & terrorizing over a fictional story was really for nothing. and even if it had ended undebateably badly did anything warrant that fallout?

there are of course a few other factors that seperate cast from fandom now. laura also got innumerable threats from tlou fans for playing some antagonist character, twitter is a dysfunctional shithole, and it's just rational the more popular you get to not be buddy-buddy with fans. but that was. a Time, for sure. c3 is a decent campaign but im far from the first person to note that many of its traits are set in trying to find vox machina's fixed story beats so no story beat is left "unturned" and being as un-m9-like as possible, even when they love the m9. a lot of the worst m9 fans now who harrass other campaign enjoyers and lament c2 being "an unloved middle child" are folk who never left the bitterness they held in that time. for as much discourse as c3 has kicked up i really dont think any of it compares to the sheer scale of what happened late may 2021, and im hoping with all my heart it never does reach that level ever again (i think c3 has a slightly smaller (at least online) fanbase compared to c2, and isnt marked by a pandemic hiatus, so hopefully that means something).

i hope i answered your question. i really hate remembering this time but sometimes i think it should be remembered so folk know what the cost of extreme parasociality is. the distance the cast has from fans now is not only earned but maybe should have always been there, so things never evolved to that extremity. but now it's done and gone. i envy people who watch cr on their own merits and didn't get sucked into twitter at the time; it has been fascinating watching folk say they love the travelercon/aeor arcs and the ending. rewatching later c2 really emphasizes how many complaints hinged on extremely online & parasocial headspaces - you definitely wont hear anyone nowadays say liam is a biphobic cishet abusing matt by not making caleb kiss essek yet. i hope new fans have a better time than we did. oh - and get off twitter.

#van speaks #asks #long post #really dont want to tag this as anything related to the show lol

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notjennyfromtheblocked · 14 days

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Putting the whole truth out there in the hopes it could help someone.

As many of you know over the summer last year I did some pretty horrible stuff towards two trans people. The rundown foe those who don't know: I got a crush on a trans man, not knowing he was trans at first, but he eventually came out as a trans man. I had a friend who I met in college who was afab. I asked my male friend out and he told me I wasn't his type. I decided, based on nothing more than him saying I wasn't his type, that he said that because he was T4T. The three of us were friends for about five years.

My other friend came from a very abusive family. When she started college she sought therapy and was diagnosed with BPD. She told me that when she was in high school she once joined theatre because she had a crush on a guy in the class.

After my trans male friend turned me down, she came put as bigender and wanted to go by either she/her or he/him. I decided that because she had been diagnosed with BPD, and didn't come out until after he had turned me down and I decided that meant he was T4T that she was faking being trans to trick him into dating her. We are all on pur mid 20s.

I started a discord for fandom reasons and a bunch of 16 year olds joined. I convinced them that she was manipulating him and basically raping him against his will and faking being trans because shebwas bigender and not presenting androgynously enough for my liking but the truth was I was jealous and finding Amy excuse to blame her. I talked so much ahit on her on this discord and kept showing tiktok videos about how people with BPD are evil. I convinced these 16 year olds to brake into her (I'm using her pronouns since she's OK with both and I don't want this to get confusing by saying he/him too much and I genuinely cannot remember the fake names I gave them in the AITA) anyway I convinced them to break into her apartment with me and have an intervention. We basically pinned her against her counter and insulted her, called her all sorts of names and pushed her a bit. Like physically pushed her. So she started freaking out and screaming and the noise we made got her in trouble with her landlord. Anyway I immediately tried to seduce her boyfriend and tell him not to ever contact her again because she'll lie about me but he didn't believe me. Anyway I ended up with two restraining orders. I made an aita and I purposely worded things and left details put to make it look a certain way but nobody fell for it and then she made a rebuttal which kinda made me spiral a bit ans double down.

Eventually the response kinda woke me up and I realized I had fucked up. In fact i sterted thinking about a lot of my behavior for years. I thought about how i planned my hallway routine between classes to basically follow my favorite male teacher. I had him as a teacher and then one day the office pulled me into the office and topd me thet i needed to be in a different class and they needed to change my schedule ans it wasnt until recently i realized he mustve asked them to take me out because i qasnr subtle about following him. I srill continued to follow him though he wasnr my teacher. I even found out he would be shopping at a certain time and basically threw a fit until my mom went shopping at the same time but didn't tell her why I asked and I followed him at the grocery store too. And then he moved to a different school and I told everyone that he and I had had an affair. Mind you I was in my mid teens so I definitely wasn't too young to understand what I was doing was inappropriate. He actually had to leave thebjob hed just got hired on because the staff found out about my rumor. Of course i immediately admitted once the cops got involved that i just lied so he was able to get another job. But still.

On top of that my behavior in collegevwas also inappropriate. Despite calling my bigender friend a slut because she made out with people at parties BEFORE we ever met our trans male friend, I was constantly going up to the attractive guys at the party and trying to bump and grind dance with them. I was asked to leave multiple parties and after I once made put wirh a passed out guy on the couch when I was sober (he was literally passed out and not responding) I was physically thrown out and everyone was aware that if I tried to show up to any more parties I was immediately kicked out. My behavior wirh my trans male friend was also bad. I was constantly grabbing his thigh, sticking my hands in his hoody pocket, calling him sexy, baby, honey etc, even after he told me to stop several times.

So I sought therapy but I didn't exactly have a lot of money so I saw a free counselor within my parents' church. The counselor doesn't have a license but was given the position within our church to be our church counselor. Anyway so I stert telling her about my trans friends and my restraining order but instead of calling me put on my behavior she was disgusted at how they reacted and disgusted at the response I got here on tumblr. The more I talked to her the more I felt correct. She even supported my behavior, telling me that they were dealing woth the consequences of their action. She misgendered my trans male friend frequently saying that God had been trying to use me as a conduit to teach them to follow the commandments and the Bible. And it sounds absolutely ridiculous but it was addi ting at the time to basically be told I was a hero and everyone else was a villain.

So I started talking on the discord again and I kept getting angrier ans angrier the more I ranted and my counselor agreed and sorta egged me on by saying that bad people deserve to be be punished and that they were bad people because theybwere sinners due to living together before marriage as well as being trans and leading me on etc. So on discord I would say mean and violent stuff whole talkong with one of the 16 year olds that hadn't blocked me after it all went down and because of my restraining order I convinced this teenager to attack my bigender friend because I knew of she got hurt or died then my trans male friend would be hurt emotionally and may be receptive ro me trying to comfort him and I could use the situation to make him fall in love with me. Well she was hit in the face multiple times with a can. She was injured really bad. And the 16 year old ratted me out because shebwas like "well the bitch deserved it, she's a freak of nature and a psychopath"

I had told so many lies. I was living in a fantasy world in my head. I was constantly making plans and fantasizing and daydreaming about my life as if it were a movie. I convinced myself that my bigender friend was a bad girl boyfriend for the guy I had a crush in and so therefore everything she did I twisted to make her a villain so I could swoop in and play hero and use "story stucture" to earn his love like I lived in a movie.

Ive been charged with several crimes and all my chats and discord messages have been provided as evidence, as well as photographs of me violating my restraining order (I had it in my head that if I made sure to stay outside the official 'parameters' of hoe close I could stand that it didn't count. So I would literally count how many feet away from their house, walk an extra ten feet away, and just stare at their house and watch them for hours, same at grocery stores. Even though I totally thought that I was legally in the clear because I was technically not within the certain feet.) andnacreenshots of posts I've made online that were clearly targeted towards them. My parents bailed me out over Christmas but I still had court dates.

Well initially this angered me so I tried contacting the 16 year old again and just fully violated my restraining order by leaving threatening messages on her phone and sending him messages begging him to realize shebwas abusive and that because he and I were both introverts we belonged together and that all extroverts were psychopaths and that for his safety he should put her down like a dog. He blocked my yet another throwaway account and obviously informed the right people so I was arrested again and by thst time there were mountains of evidence.

However as people looked over all my social media and screenshots and behavior they decided that I have something wrong with me in terms of mental health so they're currently trying to Gove me a different type of sentence where I go to a mental health hospital facility instead of prison. It's still a type of prison but for people who have mental health issues.

They required me to speak to a licensed psychiatrist and I'm currently on house arrest and there will be an official for real sentencing court later on. I'm being charged with stalking, several types of assault charges, charges similar to like hiring a hitman, exploitation, etc. There are a lot. I've been talking to my psychiatrist and there are several theories as to what I might have and what comorbidities that come with it. We are trying various medications until we find the right combination that fit me and the aide effects aren't debilitating.

I just wanted to give you a little update on my life and to explain tlnot only that I was wrong, but full disclosure on the extent of how badly I messed up and several instances of me messing up. I have been thinking about maybe trying to explain further so other people can spot warning signs that they need to re evaluate their lives but I truly don't think that I have the credentials to do that.

But to those who encouraged me: you are bad people. You are not my friends. You need help. Please get help before it's too late and you hurt people the way I hurt people. I loterally, literally ruined multiple lives, lives of people I really loved, ans will absolutely be spending a lot of time in a mental health facility for criminals. I will never, ever be able to mend my friendship with either of my former friends and several teenagers have criminal records now because I convinced them to do bad things on my behalf. I intentionally manipulated them knowing I could convince them because if their age. It doesn't matter how sorry I am. Someone has a permanently disfigured face because of me. None of these people will ever forgive me because I genuinely don't deserve forgiveness and it doesn't matter how mentally unhealthy and what disorders i have because many people have mlsimilar disorders and don't do ehat I did. Like. Thisbshit not only ruined my life but more importantly the lives of many many other people and anybody who encouraged me or turned me into the hero is as I was/am and YOU NEED TO GET HELP before you end up like me and hurt people and yourself.

#i'm sorry #personality disorder #Transphobia #Stalking #Violence

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mbappie · 1 year

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yeah so he wasnt talking about number of matches see...... like he wasn't shitting on argentina and brazil, but he was shitting on every other team from south america and I personally still think that's bullshit, especially bc yeah maybe they aren't as good as the top european nts but there are also so many european teams that can't compete with those south american nts

i know he wasn’t talking about the number of matches it’s stupid to say they’re not as good but the truth is south american teams aren’t as “advanced” because of the lack of money/funding european teams obviously have a lot more money to train young players to scout talents etc and maybe that’s even what he meant to say in the end we don’t know but it’s ridiculous to act like he just completely insulted south america and disrespects them completely

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junietuesday · 4 years

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it’s 3 am and i’m crying over gay fanfiction

#june speaks #personal #june pines #it’s just„„ ok its old haunts by caswell and im crying bc like. michaels realizing hes in love with jeremy and like ‘‘gay’’ has been used as #an insult a couple times and its been building to michaels coming out and anyway theyre high and michaels like. ‘‘i want to kiss my best #friend. im in love with him’’ and im just thinking how theyre so close to my age and michael realized he was gay the same age i did and like #im Emotional thinking about realizing you dont like the ‘‘opposite’’ gender and youre in love with who you shouldnt love. and all the soft #mushy feelings that can come with it. that came with it in this fic. and im just thinking about how i realized my gayness too #like there was the girl i like and idk what really happened but when we came back from summer break all of a sudden she was just. so pretty.#and i wasnt really putting too much thought into it bc it wasnt a crush so i had other things to focus on but then it got„ more intense?#as in like i was actively acknowledging ‘‘wow shes pretty’’ instead of it being a subconscious thing like everything else had been before it #and just. i was like ‘‘oh. i think i’m a lesbian.’’ which was weird bc like ive been tomboyish all my life so my parents keep saying stuff #like ‘’what are you a lesbian?’’ and before i barely knew what it meant but now i have to like. awkwardly shrug it off bc while i cant bring #myself to outright deny it i obviously cant come out. and a family friend of mine also keeps teasing that she thinks im a lesbian bc of in #games like truth or dare or kiss marry kill id always choose girls ‘‘bc theyre better than boys’’ or ‘‘itd just be less weird’’ or whatever #i have distinct memories pointing to my gayness like that. like on my ebook itd rotate between different authors on the cover when youd turn #it off and id always turn it on and off until it landed on virginia wolfe bc i ‘‘thought she was kinda pretty’’. and i remember on the first #day of school in like 5th grade? we were waiting in line to go inside and i was behind this girl with wavy brown hair and i was like ‘‘wow #her hair is so pretty’’ and then i frowned at the thought and wondered whether it was bc i wanted my hair to look like that but then decided #i liked my hair and it would be too weird to have hair any different. and then i was wondering why i thought her hair was so pretty then #and when i saw fun home (before i knew) i couldnt stop staring at the actress playing big alison. and i didnt know why and i was confused #about why i thought she was so nice to look at and somehow i didnt put the pieces together while watching an entire show about lesbianism #also i related so much to ring of keys and through the embarrassment of watching changing my major next to my dad i think i vaguely thought #that it sounded. really nice to just like a girl like that?#and when i first started learning about queer rights i felt. weirdly emotionally attached to the movement? like i just thought i was a #really intense ally but underneath something felt kind of. weird. like there was some missing piece somewhere in my mind #idk maybe it’s just 3 am making me all emotional #also it’s now 3:23 am that whole ramble took over 20 minutes

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randompurplepanthergorl · 2 years

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Eddsworld shipping incorrect quotes cause I can

IDK I'm board and wanted to do some incorrect quotes with my current favorite Eddsworld ships (I don't own any of the quotes, I just slapped on names for whos saying what and swapped up some dialogue here and there-)

Ft. @/just-call-me-bin 's Todd too cause I really like JonTodd with her Todd it's too damn cute

Anyways on with the quotes:

Mark: Not everyone is in love with you, you know.

Eduardo: Just because you’re in denial doesn’t mean you should lie.

(Eduardo and Mark are out on the rooftop looking at the stars and moon)

Mark: It’s so beautiful out here.

Eduardo: Yeah, it’s just me, you, and the moon.

Todd and Jon, on the rooftop: HEY! YOU TWO SHOULD KISS!

(They ship it, also Mark and Eduardo have an umbrella so that's why Mark ain't wolfy-)

Edd: Eduardo, I have a question-

Eduardo: I don’t have a thing for Mark at all! I don’t think he's hot!

Edd: That wasn’t the question.

Eduardo: Oh…

Mark: Until I fell in love with Eduardo I thought my attraction to men was purely physical.

Matt: So you were gay… and then you realized you were EVEN MORE gay?

Edd: Do you want to know your gay name?

Tord: My gay name?

Edd: Yeah, it's your first name.

Tord: Ha ha. Very funny Ed-

Edd, getting down on one knee: And my last name.

Tord: Oh my god.

(I thought this fit them also this one is where all the "The End" crap and plans never happened, cause if it did this would never work-)

Matt: I don’t date boys.

Tom: *walks in the room*

Matt: I marry them.

Eduardo: It’s so frustrating.

Mark: What is?

Eduardo: How in movies the guy keeps dropping the most obvious hints that he's into a girl, but the girl is so oblivious!

Mark, wearing a t-shirt that says “I love you, Eduardo. Please Date Me.”: Oh… Yeah… Hahaha…

Eduardo: Oh come on. No one thinks Mark and I are dating.

Edd: Uh-huh.

Edd, to everyone: Guys, raise your hand if you thought Eduardo and Mark were dating.

Everyone: *Raises their hands*

Eduardo: …

Eduardo: Mark, put your hand down.

Eduardo: I have an excellent gaydar, I can determine if a person is gay or not with just a glance.

Todd: Mark has been in love with you for years.

Eduardo: HE WHAT?!

Eduardo: Truth or dare?

Jon: Dare.

Eduardo: I dare you to kiss the cutest person in the room.

Jon: Tord?

Tord, blushing: Yeah?

Jon: Can you please move aside? I need to get to Todd.

(I don't judge you for shipping Jon and Tord but I don't ship that cause Tord took Jon's life subscription in canon-)

Edd: Kiss, Kill, Marry: Me, Matt, Tom.

Tord: Marry you, kiss Matt, and kill Jon.

Jon, hugging his boyfriend in fear: I WASNT EVEN ONE OF THE OPTIONS!!!

Eduardo: Am I the only straight person in this house?

Mark: I’ve seen the way you look at me. You’re not that straight.

[Todd and Jon are staring into each other’s eyes]

Eduardo: *opens a can of soda*

Jon: We’re having a moment!

Eduardo: I’m having a diet cola!

Eduardo: I’m straight.

[Looks at Mark]

Eduardo: I mean, I’m mostly straight.

Jon, trying to reach something: Todd, could you give me a hand?

Todd: Sure!

Todd: *holds Jon's hand*

Jon, blushing: Adorable, but that’s not what I meant.

(I thought this fit them and it was cute)

Jon: Todd gave me so many kisses today!

Eduardo: He what?!

Jon, holding a bag of Hershey’s Kisses: Yeah, he gave me a whole bag of them! :]

Tord: Great news everyone! Edd’s not my friend anymore!

Edd: Tord, that is the worst way to say we are dating ever.

Edd, at Tord: If I were a gardener, I’d put our tu-lips together.

Tord: Awwww!

Tom, at Matt: If I were a gardener, you’d be my hoe.

Tord: *kisses Edd*

Tom: Uh, Edd?

Edd, pulling away from Tord’s kiss: Yeah?

Tom: Sorry, you had a Tord on your face. But it’s gone now, you’re alright.

Matt: I will fight the next person who insults my boyfriend.

Tom: No one understands me and I hate myself…

Matt: Alright you handsome noble creature, square up.

Markuardo haters: I don’t even really buy them as a couple. I mean you’ve got this big, strong, macho alpha surging with testosterone.

Markuardo haters: And then you have Eduardo.

Tom: Love is only a weakness and an evolutionary mistake.

Tord: You're literally making a Valentine's Day card for Matt right now.

Tom, pointing his hot glue gun threateningly: You're on thin fucking ice.

Tord: I wanted to kiss you today.

Edd: Why didn’t you?

Tord: I can’t reach your face

Eduardo: Are you in the mood for a quickie?

Mark, choking: W-What?!?!

Eduardo: You know, one of those cake things.

Mark: …

Edd, yelling from the fence: IT’S PRONOUNCED “QUICHE”!

Tord: Tom, what’s that on your neck? Is that a hickey?

Tom, blushing: No! Uhh, it’s a mosquito bite!

Matt, entering: Hey guys!

Edd: Hey, mosquito.

Tom: So are you the big spoon or the little spoon?

Tord: I’m a knife.

Edd, from across the room: He’s the little spoon.

Jon: Knock knock.

Todd: Who’s there?

Jon: Olive.

Todd: Olive you too.

Eduardo: Guys, that’s really starting to get old.

Jon: Knock knock.

Eduardo: Who’s there?

Jon: I have a boyfriend and you don’t.

Tord, entering the room: Hey Edd, where’s Tom?

Edd: He tripped and fell on his bottom.

Tord: *gasps*

Tord: Is Matt okay?!

(Matt is a power bottom change my mind (you can't) and Tord's a switch that mostly bottoms change my mind (again you can't))

Eduardo: Guys, this is my ex-boyfriend, Mark.

Mark: I told you to stop calling me that.

Mark, showing his ring finger: I’m his husband.

[The neighbors are at the movies]

Todd and Jon: *Both reach for the popcorn at the same time and their fingers touch. They look into each others eyes*

Eduardo and Mark: *Both reach for the popcorn*

Eduardo: Get the fuck off my popcorn.

[Matt and Mark are playing ping pong and it’s starting to get REALLY competitive.]

Matt: I’m sorry, I think, I THINK, the ball missed the table!

Mark: Oh, do you?

Matt: Um, yeah!

Mark: Do you?!

Matt: Yeah!

Mark: DO YOU?!

Matt: YEAH!!

[Tom and Eduardo are watching the chaos go down. Eduardo is enjoying it, Tom is horrified]

Tom, about Mark: You really find this attractive on him?

Eduardo: Oh yeah. Are you telling me your not even a little attracted to Matt right now?

Tom: *looks over to Matt*

Matt: *sweaty and a dirty mess from the game, with a hint of crazy in his eyes*

Tom: I think this is the first time in our relationship that I felt like the more attractive one.

Mark: I slept with Eduardo.

Jon: Oh? I hope you both grabbed extra blankets.

Mark: No, I mean we had s-

Jon: I HOPE YOU BOTH GRABBED EXTRA BLANKETS-

Tord: My boyfriend is too tall for me to kiss him on the lips. What should I do?

Tom: Punch him in the stomach then when he leans over in pain, kiss him.

Matt: Tackle him.

Eduardo: Dump him.

Jon: Kick him in the shin.

Edd: NO TO ALL OF THOSE. JUST ASK ME TO LEAN DOWN-

Eduardo: I wish Mark was here. I miss him...

Jon: Okay, if Mark were here right now what would you two be doing?

Eduardo: ...

Eduardo: *smirks*

Todd: What are you guys, animals? It’s four o’clock in the afternoon!

(Eduardo was being a little dramatic at the start Mark's just out doing somth-)

Tom: I sleep with a harpoon under my pillow.

Tord: Weak. I sleep with a gun.

Eduardo: You’re both pathetic.

Tom: Oh? What do you sleep with?

Eduardo: A buff as hell werewolf

Eduardo: I would want my boyfriend to be the bravest and-

Mark: *Sees bunny, screams like a little girl, and runs away*

Eduardo: -I want that one.

Mark: I’ll speak French between your legs.

Eduardo: That’s the hottest thing I’ve ever been told.

Tord: I’m just picturing someone screaming "bonjour" at a d***

Matt: SACRE BLEU MADEMOISELLE HON HON HON TITTY CROISSANTS!

Edd: TITTY CROISSANTS-

Todd, HEAVILY offended: None of you should be having sex. Ever.

Alright thats enough

#eddsworld #markuardo #jontodd #toMatto #tommat #mattom #eddtord #tordedd #tw: sex mention #cw: sex mention

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nixonio · 3 years

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Bakugou Apologized and I Have Some Constructive Criticism

So, I read the fan translation for Bakugou's apology, and I figured I'd analyze it to the best of my ability. Well, not analyze, more like give my opinion on it.

I want to start off by saying that I'm not an anti. I'm I'm a stan either. I'm tagging this as both, though because I want to hear every side, and think about everyone's opinions so that I can make sure mine is the best it can be.

Also yes, I know it's fan translated and that the official will probably be different, but I wanted to have fun and do it anyway🥰

Please note that this is my opinion. You are more than welcome(in fact encouraged) to tell about your own opinion in the replies, but please be respectful.

Everything I write here is to be read in the most respectful and kind tone. It's how I was meaning for it to be read. I'm sorry if it doesn't come off that way, but please know I am in no way trying to be rude with anything I say.

Now then, let's get started.

First of all, he starts out with a bit of an insult "you were always far behind me" thats not true, but it's Bakugou's opinion. I'm not sure I like how he states it as fact. "You were always so far behind me." Rather than "I used to think you were always so far behind me." or "I thought you were so far behind me."

Bakugou does, however, imply that him looking down on Izuku because of him being quirkless is wrong, and I think that's awesome.

After this, he starts giving a reason(a pretty illogical one, in my opinion) as to why he bullied Deku. Bakugou felt that Izuku was somehow miles ahead of him. Next he goes into what he felt, why he felt the need to hurt Izuku. It's because of something he was feeling. And of course, how could you talk about that with someone? Especially being immature and at that age(around five or so). He didn't have to talk about it, but hurting someone is never the option(we knew this already).

Next he talks about how he was distant. And OK, that's good. He should have been distant.

Except he wasnt distant.

I can admit that on normal circumstances Bakugou didn't go out of his way to speak to Midoriya, but when Deku would speak to/compliment him, insults were thrown. Bakugou should have been distant then. Also, "I grew up distant and always tried to beat you down" are contradictions to eachother, imo. Bakugou, back in middle school, went out of his way to bully deku. That's not distant. Now back when they were small, yes. I'd say Bakugou was kind of distant. He still made fun of Izuku though, so he probably wasn't as distant as he thinks he was.

Next he talks about he could never truly be superior to Deku, how he always lost. But this is(in my opinion), unnecessary. He's giving all these reasons as to how things didn't work out for him, and that last part being placed well....last kinda makes it seem like because everything didn't work out right, he's sorry. I know this isn't how its meant, but I feel it could have been worded differently. I can't help but wonder, though, if Izuku had submitted, if Bakugou had been superior in his own eyes, if he'd succeeded, would he still be sorry?

In alot of cases, though, Bakugou succeeded in beating Midoriya down(temporarily). Physically anyway(the final exam, and when he impaled Izuku with his headpiece).

(Note: A differing opinion has lead me to think differently about this. Bakugou had become distant in an emotional sense, he and Deku weren't as close as they were before. No longer besties, if you understand me.)

At least, after this, Bakugou explains that he realizes nothing he said really matters. I like that he can understand this, and I appreciate that he feels Izuku is owed an explanation at least. The one thing I hate about this is that his reasoning for doing what he did is longer than his apology. His apology is one line.

It's just one. If someone told me that they put me through hell because of an idea they'd placed in their own head that was so incredibly far from the truth(like Bakugou saying that he thought Izuku was looking down on him during their first battle at Ground Beta), I wouldn't feel any better. As a matter of fact, I'd feel worse about it. There is literally nothing Izuku could have done to prevent the bullying. Even if he wasn't quirkless, Bakugou back then, might not have been able to fathom the idea of someone being even a little better than him. So he probably still would have bullied Deku. Only this time Izuku might have been able to fight back depending on the quirk he would have been born with.

If someone murdered my mother, and stood in court explaining why, far more than being sorry, I wouldn't be any happier. Yes, the reason matters, but the amount of time you spend explaining the reason should be virtually nonexistent compared to the time you spend showing remorse and sorrow.

I very much enjoy how he understands that Izuku wanting to leave UA and go it alone wasn't necessarily wrong. I think Bakugou is correct here. Nice Bakugou, very cool.

I'm also very happy that Izuku apologizes for saying that everyone couldn't keep up. Very cool, Izuku.

Please don't get me wrong, though. I'm proud of Bakugou for even bringing this up regardless of how he did it. I think that Bakugou apologizing is a huge step in the proper direction. I cant help but be concerned over how he'll be different in the future though.

Well, why would I be worried about this? Because he's shown promise before, but soon after goes back to being pretty rude. Bakugou explained to that child that looking down on others would prevent him from realizing his own weakness "If you keep looking down on everyone, then you won't notice your own weakness."(My Hero Academia Episode 80(sub): Relief For License Trainees -16:00). Yet, he continued to look down on others in a sense, even as recently as the Endeavor Training Arc. Bakugou's arrogance continues, even when he realizes that looking down on others is wrong. He claims that Todoroki could never notice something he didn't already notice(My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -7:18). And when he claims that Endeavor, the Number 1 Hero, is ripping off of his style "He's copying my Explosion" (My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -6:50).

Truly, I hope Bakugou's arrogance and negative confidence will subside, and we'll be able to witness him being blatantly and openly kind to others. I'm not asking Bakugou to change his character, he could become an Inosuke(Demon Slayer) of sorts. He could even become a more obvious Tsundere, with the narrative showing his thoughts and agreeing with him actually caring in a more obvious fashion.

But, that's just what I think

Once again, feel free to comment your opinion on my criticisms of Bakugou's apology, or even tell me what you think about it! I love hearing differing opinions.

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lady-ragnvindr · 3 years

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Wicked Game

Scaramouche x Fem!reader

Warning: Angst, Diluc being a caring friend maybe some heart break 😐

(Part 1)

(artist: @ssssS2222_ on Twitter)

"So, let me get this straight, you like a guy who you are having a hook up with?" Drinking the last bit of dandelion wine, you nodded. Diluc let out a hum as he observed you, grabbing the towel and swiping the bar, listening to your story.

"And you think he doesn't like you?" Lazily looking up, you nodded. Letting a sigh out, Diluc placed the towel down and walked around the bar, sitting besides you, putting away the bottle of wine and replacing it with a cup of water.

"Drink, that headache of yours won't help at all in this situation"

Grabbing the water, you slowly gulped it down and with that you put the glass down. "Lulu, how do you push away these feelings?" You looked up at Diluc who was silently watching you. "Well, I'm not an expert when it comes to this type of feelings since I have never experienced it but I will say that maybe talk it out with him," putting an arm around your shoulders, he put his head above yours and softly said, "and whatever happens I'm always here for you" Looking away, the realization hitting you and for the first time, you felt your eyes sting, small tears started to fall.

It was bound to happen

Hugging in the comfort that Diluc gave, you knew the truth.

This was a game, a game of loss

It was bound to happen that one of them were to lose.

A knock ranged out the house, picking your cigarette and throwing it on the trash bin, you walked to the door. Standing infront of it feeling the weight on your shoulders, you raised your hand.

Don't.....

The sound of thunder was heard, rain droplets hitting the roof of your house.

Are you sure?

Your hand lingered on the door knob, a storm forming inside of you. You knew who it was, knew what was going to happen once you opened the door.

You knew the last piece of your heart was going to fall.

How long are you willing to play?

Opening the door, your eyes widened, in the rain stood the man who your heart feared, his eyes looking at you not with the same coldness he used to look, no, his eyes held....

Sadness?

Moving aside, you let him in, his footsteps being a remainder, that these was the last time. A silence settled, their was no insults, no words filled with venom, their was just silence.

And for that one time, you cursed it. For the many days you wished their was silence with him, wanting to be at peace and now, now here it was, mocking you.

"Tell me (Y/N)" Scara's voice broke the silence, their was no venom in his words neither hatred.

No, their was sorrow.

"How long do we keep this up? What am I to you? Do you even care?! Is this just some rando-" His voice rising with every question and you only looked at him. A cold gaze stopped him from asking. Your eyes didn't had the same fire they used to have, your eyes didn't had the same warmed that he looked for, no, the same cold eyes that he once looked at you, were the ones glaring at him.

Am I enough?

"Have you forgotten? You wanted this, you were the one coming to me!," You stepped forward, glaring down at him as you felt your chest hurt, "how dare you, if I care, if i fucking care? I do care and you know what's the worst part," Looking him straight in the eyes, your facade almost falling as his eyes showed you his emotions, tears were forming, his eyes betraying him.

Broken pieces falling

"I-I fell in love with you" your voice didn't held nothing other then sadness, looking away, you stepped away from him. A shadow overtaking you as you slowly sat on the chair a hand covering your face as you felt your heart hurt more. Unlike you, Scara's tears started to fall, his strong hold on his emotions broke at your words, daggers stabbing his already broken heart.

He looked at your shaking form, his feet guiding him, each step heavier then before and as he stood infront of you, he knelt down. Grabbing your hand from your face, he gently caressed your cheek. You looked at his eyes, and as he looked at you a soft smile graced his lips. And with the softest voice he said, "I fell in love with you too," afraid to break you, he leaned in, tears falling but yet he held the smile, a genuine smile.

It hurts

"And I'm sorry, I-I was afraid, I know I treated you unfairly, and....and everytime I came here I wanted to apologize, I wanted to hold you, I wanted to stay in your arms, I wanted......to feel love again" Your eyes widened and your heart broke, tears falling, you reached out to him, your hands cupping his face, holding him you kissed his lips.

There was no lust, no hatred neither love. This was the last time and you both knew it.

Pulling away from him, you caressed his cheeks as he leaned in.

"I'm sorry that I can't take care of you like you wished too, maybe not now, maybe in the future we could....be together" Pulling you into a hug, you finally let the tears fall. Scaramouche ran his fingers through your hair, sitting besides you and holding you close.

"I'm sorry love, I'm so sorry"

I don't want to fall in love

Your tears fell on his clothes, your heart mourned, his hands caressing you, holding you as his eyes looked away, not wanting to feel the hurtful pain.

What a wicked thing to do

His heart building the walls he once had.

Time flew, minutes passes and as you fell asleep he carefully moved you, and stood up.

The storm raging outside was finally calmed. The morning sunlight showed through the room, calmness surrounded you. But for him, it meant something else.

Grabbing a blanket, he covered you with it, putting a pillow under you head and as he caressed your soft skin he leaned down, kissing your forehead.

To make me feel this way

He walked away. And as looked one last time at your sleeping form, the walls around his heart were done.

Forgive me

I definitely wasnt listening to sad music.....

I was planning a happy ending, but......oh well

Anyways, imma go and cry

Sorry 😔

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin x you #genshin impact x reader #scaramouche #scaramouche x reader

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skippyv20 · 2 years

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Happy Birthday Skippy! LLU

Thank you...but not my birthday..... Good Evening, tomorrow Eugene and Zara are having a joint christening of Lucas and August at Windsor with HM the Queen possibly attending and Prince Charles providing the Holy water, let’s see how Princess Pinocchio tries to out do that event 😂😂

Oh isn’t this the best! Love it!😂😂😂😂😂😂 The comment section on Ellen's video is lit! Those comments are all general public's opinions and not stans or trolls so its amazing how most people see how and who Maggot is truly is

We waited so long for this!

Pinocchio’s Canada...The freaking nerve of this soulless Satan disciple! NOT HER Canada....never was..never will be....I think she is locked out of the UK and Commonwealth Realms.... 100% agree with you Skippy! It is NOT her Canada and NEVER will be! I do hope reporters and Valentine Lowe look into the truth behind their Canada House visit and why she was all Ms Sweaty Pits. Lots to uncover there!

Oh and it will all come out! After the court ruling, this is what the NYTimes wrote: For Meghan, an Image Rendered in a U.K.-U.S. Split ScreenShe has re-emerged in America as a formidable A-list celebrity and social activist. In Britain, however, Meghan remains a polarizing figure.

The US can keep her! Posting a news heading from the DM below. Now, hope you see why the US Media is in the Markles pockets. " Former New York Times journalist says the paper deliberately HELD her story condemning Kenosha rioters until after 2020 election: 'The reality of what brought Kyle Rittenhouse into the streets was one we were meant to ignore'

Pinocchio commented on that? That photo of princess Anne is so beautiful !

Very stunning! So is Archie now double jointed? The way he's holding that basket is pretty awkward. I know kids are flexible, but that arm and hand position is counter intuitive in an otherwise casual stance. Try it yourself- holding your arm and hand while standing like that drops your shoulder a little. Plus he's holding a basket which puts a little more weight on the shoulder.

It’s the usual weird! Well if she’s trying to be relatable, I’m at a loss for who her audience is now and what the Sussex brand is attempting to convey.. Certainly she’s not supporting the Queen.. Prime time for that title to be removed—then again maybe she wants to ascend to be Princess Squat-a-lot 😂

Princess Squat-a-lot!😂😂😂😂😂 I think this latest stunt is her crisis management teams idea. It is so shockingly embarrassing that it diverts attention from the perjury and the shameful veterans awards... i agree something is not right and seems set up but the question again is why. you are right skippy that there was no concern at the gala however this could be because 1. no shame 2. knew the stunt was coming to distract. 3. all of the above

Well, as you know....everything and anything is possible..... The only thing that upsets a narcissist is being ignored. Public humiliation is still attention, and feeds into the "I'm the victim" routine.

You are so right! The BRF are doing it right....its the rest of us that keeps the attention going.... I dont agree PH was coerced to marry MM. I believed in this in the start but not anymore. He would never do this to his family if he wasnt really with MM. Thats why HM allowes this to continue. The BRF dont want to be seen as racists but as a "united family" who still loves the Sussexes. I think PH felt in love with MM, simple as that. If he sees she is toxic I dont know, but he still keeps attacking the BRF just like her. I dont believe anymore he is "protecting his family". No, he is crueling damaging them with no remorse.

Well, I will agree to disagree.... “When you have one kid it’s a hobby, and two children is parenting.” Meghan, Duchess of Sussex.

Proof once again....not a parent! Very insulting as usual.....to all us parents that only have one child....

I knew it. Once meg or h have bad press, a new one comes for Andrew. From the SuN SHOCK SNAP Grinning Prince Andrew picture kept as ‘trophy’ by Jeffrey Epstein in paedo lair where he molested underage girls.

Always timed....

As the Go To Girl as to what is happening with Harry / The Crone and the Royal family.. what is going on? You said H was living in London with his pup? He wasn’t with her? Please please help us out here Skippy xx

Oh my...I am certainly not the Go To Girl.....I cant figure out anything....is it possible he only is in the US once in awhile sure. Here is the thing, anything and everything can be happening...I’m just watching it all. I see more he isn’t with her...and i dont believe there are children! This is all Kabuki Theatre biography. com/crime-figure/jodi-arias also lists a liar who later admits to lying bc of ( insert excuse ).

Thank you I am really upset with ED. Didn't she take into consideration that Markle is a VEGAN and therefore MUMMA ONLY DRINKS OATS and other Vegan friendly milk. How unkind. I hope Markle didn't get sick after the show and is okay after that episode.

Great point!

She would definitely seek out and read Piers Morgan's wonderful write up of the atrocious Ellen show .. go Piers!

YES! Love you Piers Skippy, Ellen asks her how Harry likes Cal and she never really answers. She said we came here during covid, nice weather and blah blah blah! She never said what Harry thought. I don’t think they are together and just show up together when the blackmail is being used. I think we will learn that Harry goes to the UK for Christmas! What do you think?

I think Harry will go to UK for Christmas, and we won’t hear anything but Harry spends Christmas in California stories.

Thank you all so much! I appreciate each and every one of you!😊❤️❤️❤️❤️

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aenniesryu · 3 years

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tsukikage middle school exes

tsukishima kei and kageyama tobio. both in their first year of high school and are also teammates since they played in the same vb team for their school

ofc everyone is well aware of the fact that these two kind of hated each other. not that it was an obvious fact to begin with since ever from the beginning the two would constantly bicker and throwing insults at one another

however, that was it. that was the only thing everyone knows about the two. the team even had to separate the two of them when things escalated quickly just to make sure none of them will started to throw fits

no one knows the actual reason as to why they would bicker every so often. the team just thought that the two have so different perceptions towards volleyball that makes them so hard to get along with

the team did tried to help them to get along but it just ended up with them constantly at each others throat arguing about whatever it is

what the team actually didnt know is that tsukishima and kageyama once dated back then in their middle school days.

so basically the entire thing going on between those two were just them being salty because of 1) the break up and also 2) their mindset when it comes to volleyball

tsukishima and kageyama once dated before despite them not attending the same school

but, both were living in the same neighbourhood and their houses were basically next to each other making it easier for them to constantly see each other

however, that was a year ago before kageyama's family decided to move to another neighbourhood

no, the break up was not because of them moving because they would still see each other if they put more efforts in it

the break up on the other hand was because of this one major thing. it was a silly reason but nevertheless it was the thing that made them broke up and that thing is volleyball

yes, volleyball. even tho both were playing for their respective teams back in middle school, their perspective when it comes to volleyball differs too much.

kageyama being the volleyball freak he is would just spent most of his times practicing his serve. even on the weekends. tsukishima, however didnt really took it seriously when it comes to volleyball ever since it was just a club anyway, right?

with kageyama spending more and more time with his practice, tsukishima was left alone. they barely even get to meet each other because of them being in different schools and then kageyama's free time was now full with volleyball alone

tsukishima might felt a lil bit jealous since kageyama, his boyfriend at that time would constantly talked about oikawa. it's always oikawa this and oikawa that. he knows kageyama only meant no harm and hes just looking up onto his senior who plays really well.

tsukishima was fine with that. yeah, he really does because never once did he ever tell kageyama to shut up whenever he talks about oikawa.

what was not fine was that kageyama spent the only free time they had on volleyball. it was the only time that they would be able to hang out and go outside but suddenly it stopped. no more seeing each other, no more dates and no more talking to each other

yes, kageyama did tell him over and over again that he feels sorry and that he just needs to prepare himself to be the best for their team

tsukishima did understand him but as time passed by, tsukishima became selfish. well that's what he thought. hes tired of waiting. he shouldn't be blamed when all he wanted was for his boyfriend attention

then 2 months before the very important match for kageyama, tsukishima went and break things off. and just like that they are no longer boyfriends or friends

kageyama moving to another neighbourhood just make things a lil bit easier since they wont be seeing each other anymore after the break up

"What the fck was that kageyama?" Tsukishima is now in rage with his once called boyfriend. They were in the middle of a practice match where they were divided into two different teams and just to make them work along together and maybe become friends, coach ukai and daichi thought it would be the best to put them into the same group. Oh how wrong they were because now they are fight again.

"I just did what's the best for the team. All you need to do is jump a lil bit higher than usual for that toss. you are already tall enough, make sure of it for once" kageyama was surprisingly calm when he said that but only god knows how scared he felt whenever tsukishima raised his voice at him because he got irritated. it wasnt a pleasant sight to see and get into especially when tsukishima is dmn mad. like the situation they are in now.

"yes my height alone is enough and that is why, you as the setter should take in mind that I would perfectly score if you just tossed me the ball right at where my hand can reach. making me go through all the hard work just to reach that fcking ball you threw is just wasting my energy" tsukishima is really not having it. not only did kageyama sent him a high ball, hes also pissed that kageyama made him wasted his energy in jumping higher than he normally do.

"excuse me? I'm just doing what's the best for the team. I'm taking out that fcking capability that you have in you that you decides to freaking hide and toss it away, just because you think putting an effort even the slightest of it into the match is a waste of your time" now kageyama started to boiled up. he knows that tsukishima has a lot of talent when it comes to volleyball, he knows that really well. perks of being his boyfriend throughout their middle school years. well honestly kageyama thinks tsukishima is just wasting his talent with his kind of mindset.

everyone at the gym are just staring and listening to them arguing. daichi was closed to tear them apart and continue with the practice match, but before he can do that sugawara stop him. daichi was not having it but sugawara had something else in mind. he thinks that maybe them arguing this time would make the rest of the team to get a grip on what making them argue in the first place. and maybe the truth would unfold without them needing to ask tsukishima and kageyama. coach ukai seems to have the same thoughts too since he make no moves in stopping them. so the team just understands and silently look at them and wait for more.

"I dont get your obsession with drawing the team's talent or whatsoever because you ended up getting more demanding. I thought you were a setter. didnt setter usually can already feel his teammates thoughts? im here just doing what I have to do during practice and waiting for it to end like it always did but you? you just have to screw up everything. im already tired but you clearly didnt see that! just what kind of a setter who acted like a dictator and yet hes not even the leader of the team? tell me!" tsukishima yelled his frustration out. he wants this to end just so he can go back to his house and do whatever he finds interesting. and basically volleyball is not one of them.

kageyama didnt said anything after that. he felt bad and all the memories from when his old team abandoned him during a play starter clouding his mind. to make it worse he's on the verge of breaking down. his eyes are filled with tears but he held them back. hearing those things from someone you love didnt really felt the greatest.

"what? now you decided to stayed silent? why? just realizing how my words are true and theres no point in denying it? did you ever just sit back and think about how your shitty your attitude is in court? about how tired your teammates felt trying to satisfy you? this is literally the reason why your old teammate decided to abandoned you in the middle of the match. because you are so demanding and it stresses them out more than the actual game is" just when he finished saying what he needed to say, kageyama slap him. when tsukishima turn to see him, kageyama is already crying.

"YOU! out of all people in this world should know how important volleyball is to me. you should've known that theres literally nothing I can do aside from volleyball. you shouldn't have said that if you know what I went through the entire year. and then at the end? what did I get? I get abandoned. not only by my teammates but I was also abandoned by my own family. just to make things even worse, you fcking break up with me at the times when I needed you the most kei. the one person i thought that would always stay by my side. but you didn't even listen to the shit I have to tell you because you completely shut me off. I went through every single thing alone. All by myself. I practice alone, think of the best strategies for my own team on my own because I was pressured AND threatened by the coach, I came back to an empty house and freaking live alone. theres no one I can even call and relied to!! I cant even call the person I love because hes sick of me. all I ever wanted was people to appreciate my efforts even tho it's only in volleyball. I wanted YOU to be proud of me above anything else because I cant reach your level when it comes to academic. I wanted to be perfect for you and all I ever wanted was for people around me to be proud of me for the one thing I'm capable of but all I get is people abandoning me!!"

silence. theres no sound can be heard in the gym aside from kageyama's heavy breathing. everyone is just stunned with the sudden confession. not only did they just heard kageyama's biggest fear but they also heard the part where he mentioned about their break up. tsukishima and kageyama were a thing before? they were dating? since when?"

"tobio-" tsukishima breaks the silence. hes panicking but he didn't know what do to because everything is just too sudden and all he can think of is how shitty of a boyfriend he was during the time that they were dating. thats what his brain has been saying. after all never once did he ever asked how kageyama was feeling. he was indeed selfish and everything is all his fault. if only he stayed-

kageyama seems to snapped back into reality when he heard tsukishima called him by his given name. he panicked. he just spilled everything in front of the team.

"i-im sorry. I should just go home. I'm really sorry you guys have to witness such a pity side of myself" kageyama chuckled and wipe his tears. "coach, i would like to take a break from the team for the time being. again, I'm sorry for the inconvenience. I'll see you guys later" and with that kageyama walked out of the gym ignoring his teammates eyes and the calls.

"what the hell just happened" tanaka said as the argument really is tensed and they literally just heard something that is kept secret between tsukishima and kageyama.

"tsuki, you and kageyama-" yamaguchi said softly as to not add any more anger in tsukishima. after all tsukishima kind of had an anger issue.

"ugh fuck, yes we did." tsukishima sigh. theres really nothing he can do. everyone knows and they probably think its his fault anyways. but the team has the opposite thoughts than him

"I honestly dont know what to say" sugawara said to him. he really wanted to help but it's not in his power to do so. all he can do is give them advice.

"ha, no need. I already know it's my fault. you guys can blame me. I would gladly accept it"

"What? No" were the replies he get from his team members. he was clueless coz after all kageyama wouldnt turn into a tyrant if only he stayed and didnt leave.

"we didnt blame you. both of you were young that time it was just normal for you to feel he loved you less. but you two lack in communication which leads to this whole entire mess. idk what you two went through and how long you've been together, it's not my business. but, all I can say is that you two need some closure. and clearly none of you even moved on from the past. arguing with each other every other day isnt the healthiest way to cope with the break up. just please sort this out with him. hes in pain and so are you." enoshita who has been quite the entire time decided to speak up. he do got a point especially with that lack communication between tsukishima and kageyama. sooner or later he needed to settle this whole mess before it started to drag the entire team. kageyama is the regular player in their team, and even with sugawara who can replace him as a setter, kageyama really is needed in the team. hinata also needed kageyama.

"I know I'm the last person you want to hear this from.. but tsukishima please bring kageyama back to the team. I needed him. the team too. and I think you needed him too. so please, I will do whatever it takes to help get him back into the team" hinata cried out. after all they were the freaky duo. they relied more on one another.

"but didnt kageyama only asked to take a break? it's not like he would just quit" nishinoya chipped in. "indeed he said that, but we are not sure on how long would the break be. it can be days, weeks, months and even years." coach ukai reasoned.

"let's just stop here. you guys can go home now. I will cancel tomorrow's practice so please just take a good rest. We'll continue our practice on the day after that. And you tsukishima" coach ukai added and turn to look at tsukishima with a soft look. It was a rare sight to see but they know it's for the best

"yes?"

"idk what you are planning to do. whether you sort things out and talk to kageyama or you didnt do anything about it is up to you. just clear out your minds whenever you came intl practice. we already less in one member, we didnt need to lose another one"

"thank you coach!"

listen, idek what I'm doing but I'm just gonna post this even tho I know it was bad because honestly when I reread this I felt truly nothing lmao but my friend said it was good/okay idk dont really trust her but hey, the very least I can do is post this here so I can move on(?) welp, enjoy ig.

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backtobackbakubabe · 4 years

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Stuck in the Middle with You (Part 2)

Bakugo x Reader

Reader is a closet couponer and when word started spreading that there was going to be a mandatory quarantine to fend off a virus you weren't worried. You had enough supplies to last for months. However it wasn't until now that you realized you had no idea how to cook and you relied on take out and fast food for most of your meals. The only person who knew about your crazy couponing habit was Bakugo, so when he called and asked if he could raid your stash you got an idea.

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You tried not to moan as you took your first bite of Bakugo’s pancakes. They were so delicious, but you didn’t want to add to his already huge ego. For the most part you both are in silence, locking eyes every so often before immediately looking anywhere else but at each other. There was still some awkward tension between the two of you. He had kissed you, like actually kissed you but neither of you wanted to be the one to bring it up.

You knew he only did it to try and help you through your panic attack. There was no way he would have done it for any other reason. He was Bakugo after all and you weren't even convinced that he even liked you as a friend. Sure he always attended movie nights, and yeah he brought you coupons. But that was it. The two of you never hung out one on one and you rarely spoke to each other over the phone. You had known the man for years and you didn’t know a damm thing about him.

It wasnt until he cleared his thought that you realized you had been staring at him, “Do I need to teach you manners as well as cooking? Lesson number one, don’t stare at people.”

You snorted, “Oh that’s rich. A lesson on manners from the same person who manages to find a way to insult anyone who dares try and speak to him.”

He slammed his fork down, “Well at least I wasn't the one staring at another person practically drooling while they ate!”

You stood up and tossed your plate into the sink, “I was not drooling! I was just thinking...”

Bakugo came up behind you and rinsed your dish as well as his before putting them in the dish washer, “You really shouldn't leave dishes in the sink. Its a bad habbit...”

When you didnt answer he took a deep breath, “If we’re going to be stuck here then we should probably at least try and get along.”

Again you were struck by how little you knew about him. How had you been friends with him for this long and not know anything about him.

He groaned, “Are you even fucking listening to me?”

You nodded and pinched the bridge of you nose, “Yeah sorry, just was thinking again... I can be kind of spacey.”

He softened a bit before leaning on the counter next to you, “So I’ve noticed... What are you thinking about?”

You blushed slightly before regaining your composure, “Honestly you... Not anything weird... It’s just. Well I feel like I actually don’t know much about you. Like are you a morning person? Whats your favorite color? What kind of movies do you like? I know none of that seems important but for some reason it just weirds me out that I dont know.”

Bakugo scratched the back of his neck, “Well I mean you never asked...”

You hopped up on the kitchen counter and swung your legs that were now dangling, “Okay well to be fair that can go both ways. I’m sure you don’t know anything about me either.”

He seemed to think for a minute before nodding, “Well I guess it’s a good thing we have some time to catch up. Just promise me that what you learn stays between us. I dont need any fucking extras thinking they know me.”

You rolled your eyes at his abrasiveness. “How about you pick something to watch and I’ll go raid my closet for things you could wear. I doubt you want to wear the same clothes every day for the foreseeable future.”

“Tsk as if I’d wear girls clothes. The director from my hero agency said he’d send someone over with some clothes. It’ll probably just be a bunch of training gear with the agencies logo on it but I guess beggars cant be choosers.”

Bakugo was right because halfway through “Gladiator” a man showed up with a duffle bag full of grey and black shirts, shorts, and sweats with his agencies logo on it. They were all still wrapped in plastic just to be safe.

He threw the bag full of clothes behind the couch and reclaimed his spot next to you. You were bundled up in a blanket, trying not to fall asleep but you were drained after your episode earlier. It was only a little after 8 and you could feel your eye lids growing heavier.

At some point you woke up and to your horror you were leaning on Bakugo. You would have panicked except you could feel his arm draped around your shoulders holding you to him. This was odd. You slowly sat up and stretched. “Sorry. You could have pushed me off. I wouldn't have blamed you. Especially with social distancing or whatever.”

He chuckled, “Oh believe me I thought about it. But you were cold and if we stuck together I cant have you getting sick.”

You saw a slight blush creep up his neck. You knew there was no way you would have gotten sick from being chilly in your own living room. But you also knew he was probably more comfortable doing something nice if he had an excuse. So you game him a genuine smile. “Thanks. I’ll be honest that's the best nap I’ve ever had. Well best I’ve slept in months actually. I’m always tossing and turning.” You turned off the tv that was now playing the credits. You had seriously slept through the entire second half of the movie.

You walked over and started pulling out pillows and blankets from the hall closet. “You can sleep on the couch. It pulls out into a bed but honestly its more comfortable if you just sleep on it normally. We can take turns sleeping in the bed if you’re here long enough.”

He accepted the blankets but held tight to your hand. “Hey you know I meant it earlier when I said you could talk to me. I’m the last person to voluntarily open up about my feelings, but you know... I worry about you sometimes.”

You plopped down on the couch with a huge sigh. “I appreciate your concern. But I wouldn't even know where to begin... I’m just... I don’t know. I’m fine.”

Bakugo took a seat next to you, “You’re what? Smart? Strong? Badass? Because those are the first words that come to mind when I think of you...”

You could feel your eyes prick with unshed tears. “Well those are definitely not high on the list of adjectives I would consider for myself. More like small, scared, and incompetent.” You leaned your head back on the couch and stared at the ceiling.

Bakugo crossed his arms over his chest in mild frustration. “Why? That couldn’t be further from the truth! Well except the small thing. You are kinda little. But last I checked that wasn’t a bad thing. If anything... its kinda.... cute.”

You looked up expecting to see him blushing. But instead you saw him giving you a nervous smile. You wiped a tear from the corner of your eyes and returned his smile, “Well you know how my quirk can be really vague? I only get fragments of the truth and even then it’s up to me to decide what they mean... That’s a lot of pressure. I cant be wrong. Ever. And there was this one time when I was a child... I was living with my mom.. I interpreted something wrong and someone died because of it. That kind of thing sticks with you.”

Bakugo reached out and took your hand, “Is that why you decided not to be a hero?”

You nodded as you wiped away another tear, “Yeah. Now I work behind a desk, looking at files, and no body gets hurt.”

Bakugo surprised you by pulling you to him and giving you a tight hug. “I’m going to say something and you better not ever repeat it.... But I was always nervous to spar against you. You always seemed to be able to read me like a book. You worked harder than the rest of us including me. You were always in the gym or the library. I’m not saying I don’t understand your decision. I just want you to know that I think you would have been great.”

You leaned into his hug, “Thank you... for everything today. For helping through my panic attack, for making me dinner, for hanging out with me. I know you say you didnt have a choice. But you really are a great friend.”

You both laid there on the couch. Bakugo holding onto you taking deep breaths, “You want to talk about earlier? You dont have to but it might help me out to know what might trigger you if we’re going to be stuck here.”

You buried your face into his chest. “I dont really want to talk about it. But I will say I dont do very well when I feel trapped, especially if I have to be alone.”

He gave you a quick squeeze, “You going to be okay alone tonight?”

You sat up and swatted as his chest, “Bakugo Katsuki! Did you just ask if you could spend the night with me?”

He rolled his eyed before he pushed you off the couch. “Sorry for being concerned. I promise it’ll never happen again. Next time I’ll just let you suffer.”

You giggled, “There’s the Bakugo I know.” You started your trek up the stairs to your room calling a goodnight over your shoulder to the man who was getting cozy on your couch. When you had woken up this morning there was no way you could have predicted your day would end up like this. You didn’t know what was harder to believe, the lockdown, or the fact that Bakugo was a secret softy.

You were already so exhausted that it was hard for you to fall asleep. The hard part was staying asleep. You woke up several times, tossing and turning. Your anxiety was truly kicking your ass tonight. At one point you felt compelled to go and check that Bakugo was still there. Not that it would make any difference. There’s no way your insomnia would magically be cured by knowing that Bakugo was still there.

But logic wasnt on your side tonight.

You wrapped yourself in a towel and tip toes across the cold hardwood floor. You tried really hard to be silent, slowly making your way down the stairs. It was so dark, but you could just make out the silhouette of his rising and falling chest. At least he could sleep.

After you had satisfied your irrational need to make sure he was still there you stood and turned to go back up the stairs. You were almost to the top when the board groaned under your foot. You froze.

“Y/n?” Bakugo slowly sat up. “Y/n what are you doing up?” He picked up his phone and groaned. “Y/n it’s four in the morning!” You remained frozen to your spot on the stairs. “Y/n I can see you... Are you okay?”

You sighed, “I’m fine, I was just having a hard time sleeping again. Its nothing new. Go back to sleep.”

He stood up and wrapped the blanket around his half asleep form. He slowly made his way up the stairs. When he got to you he didnt stop but kept walking towards your room. He only paused when he got to the door. “Are you coming or not?”

You silently nodded and joined him in your room. He laid down on the floor next to your bed, which looked extremely uncomfortable. “You sure you’re going to be okay down there?”

He scoffed, “Of course I’ll be okay. I’m no cry baby.”

You rolled your eyed and threw a pillow at him, “At lest take a pillow!”

He muttered something under his breath but excepted the pillow none the less.

You rolled over and pulled the covers up to your chin, “Thank you Bakugo.”

“You’re welcome smalls.”

Smalls.... It was a nickname he had used during your time at UA. You used to hate it but after tonights confession, you found it endearing.

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sergeant-donny-donowitz · 4 years

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The Real You (DonnyxFem!Reader)

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________________ You were working as a bartender in a pub in Belgium for as long as anyone knew. Meaning, you were 'trustworthy,' enough to hear things from collaborators, the resistance, any and everyone that walked into the pub on the corner of an occupied Belgian town.

Aside from the careless prattle and discrete whispers from drunken soldiers, and nameless fighters, you had a keen ear for languages that were not your own, under a name that wasn’t your own, tucked away in a town that was not your own.

In fact, most of the people that stopped by in that pub were far from home, and took a drink or two to get war off their minds.

But not off their tongues.

Now, there was a particular group of men with a penchant for whiskey and beer, who happened to stumble into that pub one day, just days after parachuting into France.

It had been a year or two since then, and by then, those boys knew what you knew: Hearsay mattered, and it mattered a lot.

So they often hung around your pub in between missions, getting clued in on a lead or two.

But after all that time drifting in and out, something else began to matter.

And to a young yank sergeant named Donny Donowitz, you started to matter.

He couldn't lie to you anymore.

There was something you needed to know.

He stood at the other side of the counter as you dispatched cheap cognac for a brash collaborator who was a regular, and rhye for a Canadian spy, hidden in the lion’s den, who you knew by name. You gave him a double, with a knowing, empathetic nod and smile.

You glanced at a booth in the back of the bar, spotting nine others basterds just like him, wearing stolen uniforms, and then Donny himself, at the counter, like always.

"Another round of shots, sergeant?" You whispered, knowing they had to keep quiet and stay low there. You couldn’t believe there was not a single basterd that didn’t speak French or Dutch. Though, you winked, and smiled as you started to line a few glasses up.

"No, Veronique..."

You sighed, you forgot sometimes that they knew you by a name that wasnt yours.

Still it was the only way.

You grinned, "No?"

"Well...yeah, for Aldo, Hirschberg and Wicki. But, what I meant was...uh...There's somethin' I wanted to tell ya."

"Really?" You leaned over the counter, resting your elbows on the granite, and your chin in your hands as you looked up at him, as you mused, "Then tell me."

He nodded and said, "I'm a basterd."

"Darling! Everyone knows that!" You laughed as you poured three drinks.

"No. Not a bastard. One of the basterds." He spoke a little too brashly, too exasperated for someone trying to keep his cover, and his head from being blown off.

It might have been the dumbest thing he’d done. So dumb, it caught you off guard. "Oh?"

"I'm the Bear Jew." He sort of puffed his chest out, with pride, tilted his head up a little, his jaw jutted out, as if he wasn't impressive enough.

But, you shrugged, trying to play it cool as a way to get him to quiet down, for his own good. "Oh yeah?" And poured some drinks out for other waiting patrons. You looked up at him with a gleeful wink, as you slipped into an almost playful whisper, "And I'm a Soviet spy."

"No but-"

Then, two of the basterds pulled him back.

They'd heard him admit he was basterd, and the Bear Jew, all the way from where they were sitting..of course, he was generally a loud guy, he was from Boston, for crying out loud, and a basterd no less.

But...they knew he'd say it again to get you to understand it wasn’t a joke. So they dragged him back, along with the drinks, and a quick, clunky “danke” to cover it up.

The night went on, and Donny kept glancing out to you, wherever you were in the bar. He wanted you to realize it wasn't a joke. Not this time.

See, from the first time he spoke to you, he made you laugh.

He liked hearing you laugh, it made him feel as though there was no war. Nearly everything he said to you was a joke, which he was beginning to rethink since you now probalby thought this was also a joke.

A little later in the night, you got to their booth, just before closing time, with another round of shots, and you smirked as you whispered, "On the house, boys."

Aldo smiled, "Veronique, you really know how to take care of us, huh?" He smiled kindly, seeing the glances you and Donny exchanged, so he nudged Donny.

Donny hung back a little as the rest of the basterds and the drunken regulars shuffled out at closing.

"Veronique?"

"Yes?" You smiled a little, but kept wiping down the tables.

"Come on, V." He chuckled as he wrapped his arms around your waist.

You giggled and turned to face him, "Yes, darling?"

He sighed as he looked down. They were going back to France, and he wasn't sure if or when he'd come back. That was war, after all.

You knew what he was goinf to say. You shook your head "No..." You looked away, smiling softly "Don't do this. Not now..."

He couldn’t go another day without saying it. No matter what you did, you couldn't stop him from saying it. He smirked a little as the words sank into your heart. "I love you."

Part of you wanted, no...needed him to be joking about that. It would hurt a whole lot more, knowing he knew a whole lot less than he thought. To begin with, he didn't even know your real name... It hurt, because you thought, somehow he'd know. He'd find out, and he'd hate you, because he never knew the real you. So, it took you a moment longer to respond than it should have, but, that was one thing you couldn't lie about to him.

You said something that was, perhaps, too true, "I love you, too."

He looked away for a moment, then back at you. "About what I said earlier, I need you to know wh-"

You shook your head, "Say no more."

"But you don't understand! I-"

You laughed a little, and kissed him.

He was stunned for a moment, but he smiled, looking at you, as you reassured him, "I understand more than you think."

He was unsure what you meant, and he wouldn't ask.

He realized the less you knew about him, maybe the safer you'd be.

So he left, with the rest of the basterds, and marched back through enemy lines.

*************

The basterds were on a mission from the OSS.

"That...is the most security I've ever seen in my goddamn life!" Smitty marveled from the basterds’ perch, behind a grove, watching a mansion, surrounded by nazi guards.

Aldo smirked, "You boys thinkin' what I'm thinkin’?"

"Take em shitbags down." Hirschberg was practically bouncing from excitement.

Wicki nodded, with a slight smirk, "Whatever it takes."

An allied spy ring was compromised, and all captured members were being held and interogated there by nazis.

One by one, the basterds took down each nazi in their way, and made their way through the mansion, securing each missing agent. Omar, Aldo, and Donny were outside of a room, where they could hear two muffled voices. They were speaking English.

One was marked by a German accent, demanding answers from a beaten, bloodied spy, "WHERE IS HE?!"

Followed by a woman’s voice, shaking through a forced breath, with a distinct accent the basterds recognized. "Wh-who?" Still, it was tinted with a shade of a snicker.

The nazi raged, "THE BASTERD IN THE BAR, WEARING A STOLEN UNIFORM."

"Everyone in that bar is a bastard. Most of them have some uniform or other."

"THE ONE THAT YOU SPOKE WITH."

The basterds heard a blunt thud, followed by a cough, forcing through blood, "I told you. I'm a bar tender. I speak to everyone in that bar."

"You speak English well for a simple bar tender."

"You speak English well for a German."

Donny’s mouth dropped. Only one person could sass like that.

He shook his head in shock, mouthing "Nooo..." it just couldn’t be...

The nazi snickered, as he stepped torward you, "If you dont tell me the truth..." He seemed to hesitate for a moment.

"Yes, Fritz?"

The nazi snapped, hearing you say his name, "You were my friend, Veronique." He grabbed your hair and pulled you to him.

Donny’s heart stopped. It was you.

The nazi swung, his fist bashing against your nose for the millionth time, "Or should I say, Y/n."

"Fritz, please, not in public." You looked up at him grinning through the blood pouring from your nose, beginning to drip into your lips.

He shook his head, pulling a knife out, pulling your hair up, giving him a clear strike at your throat.

"Of course you know what this means, Y/n..."

"C’est la vie." You shrugged and grinned looking up at him.

"You're not even French! You’re not even Belgian! What....you,” He laughed in disbelief, through years of insult, and deception, “You, liebling, you played me for a fool. You've had a nice run. But....” He sighed, and tsked “You've been such a dear little thing to me... How about I give you one last chance."

"Is that right?" You gathered a breath or two, your eyes slowly moving up, through gushes of blood from your forehead, and pained, swelling from a black eye.

"Tell me where the Bear Jew is, and I’ll let you live."

"No." You knew it was useless. Even if you did live, it would be underground, in a prison, or in a camp. You wouldn’t live for long. Besides, you loved Donny too much to give him away.

"Well then I'm afraid you’re useless to me, my dear Veronique.” He basically spat at the name. That name was a lie, he’d whispered state secrets to it for years. “Then, I'll have to-" His threat was interrupted by a thud, then a sharp, pained gargling, followed by another thud.

"Hm? I'm listening?" You cocked your head to the side, with a slight grin.

He dropped to his knees, his skull bashed open.

You saw Donny standing behind him, his baseball bat in his hand.

He was torn when he saw you covered in your own blood. He kneeled by you, pulling his jacket around you, "Hey, hey Ver..." He didnt know what to call you anymore, but he still knew his heart was still in your hands. "Come on doll, we got you."

He wrapped his jacket around you along with an arm to help you up, "I got you..."

He looked at you, your black, swollen eye, and he gently touched your chin up, trying to see what those animals did to you.

You flinched when he touched your bruised cheekbone, and he couldn’t help but mutter, "What did they do to you..."

You managed to smile. A real one this time as you held his hand, "Nothing I didn't train for."

"Train for?" He furrowed his brow, "And...why’d that asshole keep callin’ you Y/N?"

"That’s my real name."

"Real name? At.. What are you? Why were they asking..why are you here?"

"I told you, back in the bar. I'm a soviet spy."

"I thought you were joking!"

"Why would I be joking?" You raised your eyebrow and winked with your good eye.

"That! That's why!"

Then you heard a third voice, "Yeah I don’t know kid. Joking’s more of Donny’s thing than yours."

You turned and realized all the basterds were there, with some of the other spies... Some of them didn’t make it...

Aldo sighed and grunted, "Omar, why don’t you keep your fuckin' mouth shut, let em talk." You smiled gratefully as Aldo ushered everyone out.

"W...well what happened at the bar? How-"

You shook your head, "That's not important."

You heard a voice feom the hall just outside, "DID THEY OVERHEAR DONNY TELLING YOU HE WAS THE BEAR JEW?!"

Followed by Aldo grumbling "ULMER."

Donny looked to you and you both laughed.

"So... You're really a Russkie huh?"

"Konechno." ‘Right.’ You smirked and winked.

"...all this time...but..I... You knew everyrhing about the town, you spoke all the languages. You were...I thought...everyone thought you were fucking Belgian!"

You shrugged, "That’s the point."

He managed to mumble in awe, "Prove it." You rolled your eyes, holding your right hand up to your bloody nose. Completely disarming him, and knocking him to the ground with your left hand, in the blink of an eye. He looked up at you, his lips parted, a gasp of shock, admiration, and....well, two kinds of admiration.

"Holy shit..." was all he could mumble, as he smirked, and held his hand up to his jaw, moving it side to side to counter a dull pain as a result of that stunt. He pulled himself up, and you smiled a little, your hands wrapping around his suspenders as you looked up at him, "I'm sorry, solnishko." He smirked a little, "That don't sound like Belgian..." You rolled your eyes, "Belgian's not a language, Donny." "I knew that...." He laughed as he wrapped his arms around you.

***** The basterds took you and the rest of the spies to an OSS hideout.

You were sitting on a cot, after a medic set your broken nose, and gave you a pill to get the dull pain to subside. You heard a not-so-subtle not, and looked up to see Donny. Your face flushed, a little shame beginning to rise up, still guilty, feeling as though you'd strung him along to fall in love with someone that didn't exist. "Y/n? What's wrong?" He may not be the brightest basterd...but part of you still wanted him to be your basterd. You sighed, "Nothing," He sat by you, "Hey, no lies." "You've had enough of those, I know. I'm sorry, solnishko." He tilted his head to the side, looked at you, and figured it out. He may not have known a lot, but he knew you. That was dead certain. "Hey... You had to do what you had to do. I get it." "But-" "There are things, Donny...Things you dont' know. It's just so..." "Well, I know your names not Veronique." He winked and chuckled, resting his hand over yours, "And I know you're Russian, but you speak enough French, and German and Dutch to fool anyone... I know you're a spy. One hell of a spy." He winked, and you smiled. "Donny, we can't." You shook your head, breaking your own heart for the millionth time, "You've fallen in love with someone that doesn't exist." "Really?" He held your face up, "Y/n, you seem to be right here. Ya look pretty real, too, ya know." He smiled and spoke softly, for omce, "Yeah, Veronique ain't your real name, but the real you ain't your name." No, he smiled, knowing the real you had that same smile. That smile, he saw between shots of whiskey, and the first crack of dawn for the past few years. The real you has got the same laugh, and sneaking wink and damning sarcasm that he heard from you a few hours earlier. The real you had the same eyes of indifference as the spy looking up at death, as the starlit bartender in that old, familiar pub. He shook his head, "The real you's the same you that said, 'I love you,' aint it?" You raised your eyebrow, slightly smiling as you figured out what the hell he just said... "Same me, solnishko." He smiled, not knowing what that meant. Not knowing that you called him your sun, because every time the double life in a run down pub, surrounded by enemies seemed the darkest, that little ray of sunshine (not so secretly known as the Bear Jew) walked in, and lit up your world.

Suddenly, someone popped his head through the doorway, "Agent L/N...that is you, ain't it, kid?" You chuckled, "Yeah, that's me, lieutenant." Aldo smiled, and said, "Well, I done spoke to the general, 'n said, maybe we could use somebody on our side that speaks'um French, since we are in France." "Most of the time," Donny smiled, and Aldo sighed, "Yeah. So, he said, I had a point. Now, I saw some of your work in this here file..." He waved around a yellow folder, stamped with the word 'classified' in four languages. He was definitely going to be chewed out for that. "And goddamn, little lady, I think we could you some'n like this on the team...if that's alright with you." You looked at Donny, and that sliver between the hope of you saying yes, and the fear of you giving in to your guilt. "Yes sir, that's alright with me." Aldo smiled, but before he cold say anything, a higher ranking officer's voice rang down the hall, "LIEUTENANT RAINE!" He looked down at the file and muttered, "Damn..." And quickly, saluted the officer, and disappeared out the door. Donny turned to you, "So the real you's been a basterd all along, huh?" You rolled your eyes, and chuckled, "I guess so." "I can't believe I didn't figure it out." "Well you're not the..." "What?" You cleared your thraot, "Never mind." He shrugged, and slipped his hands into yours, and said, "You were under my nose, all this time, huh doll?" He planted a soft kiss over the strip of gauze covering your nose, and you melted, as you looked up at him, his dark eyes. He meant it. He meant all of it. He didn't mind, he knew what war as, he knew you had to do what you had to do...and at that point, it had kept both you alive. There was nothing to forgive. There was nothing to be upset about. He knew you all along. He knew you loved him, and he knew he loved you, no matter what langauge was yours, what country you called home, or what you were called. It was you, and it always had been you, who he loved. It was you that gave the basterds a warm place to sit, and a good shot to take the edge off, when they needed it most. It was you who kept his name and his life, safely tucked behind your heart. Basterd or spy, Belgian or Russian, Veronique, or Y/n, it didn't matter. It was you who kept his heart, and he wouldn't have it any other way.

#donny donowitz x reader #donny donowitz imagine #Donny Donowitz #the bear jew #Inglourious Basterds #inglourious basterds imagine

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I don't really get it when hawks haters say hawks gaslit dabi. Like I think hawks questioned him about being sad cuz hori wanted to point out that dabi wasnt greaving twice as a friend but as a tool and get him to make his speech. Like I don't think it was supposed to reflect badly on hawks, but on dabi. I just don't see how it they can say hawks is shitty for gaslighting dabi in that scene.

Why do people keep insisting that Hawks gaslit Dabi??? Do they even know what "gaslighting" means? If they want such a loose definition of it, one could argue that Dabi tried to gaslight Tokoyami for choosing to save Hawks, too, lol. Ugh, tired of this BS.

Different anons but same subject so I’m going to answer them at the same time ^w^

I’ll be honest for a moment, before coming to tumblr, I wasn’t really sure what gaslighting was, to be more specific I knew it was an abuse tactic but I wasn’t sure what the exact definition for it was. While tumblr can be a really great place for information, it is also a great place to spread misinformation and so I decided to do my own research instead of trusting blindly what tumblr tells me.

To start with, gaslighting, according to google is when you: “manipulate (someone) by psychological means into doubting their own sanity.”

A basic definition from a basic search. If I were to just use this simple definition and apply it to the scene that many have claimed was Hawks gaslighting Dabi, then yes you could argue it was gaslighting. Hawks questions whether Dabi was upset about his friends death at all and considering Hawks had just killed said friend and Dabi was very obviously lashing out, you could potentially see it in a sense that Hawks was trying to get Dabi to question his own sanity because of his untypical reaction to Twice’s death (the grinning).

However this was just a basic search and you never leave research at a basic search so I decided to dig a little deeper into gaslighting.

Next I checked out a psychology website about gaslighting. This website not only labelled 11 warning signs of gaslighting, it gave us another definition of gaslighting too, which slightly differs from the one given above, with the interesting part being “...It is done slowly, so the victim doesn't realize how much they've been brainwashed.” This is interesting because it implies that for someone to be gaslight, it has to be done over an extended period of time. I’ll get back to that in a moment (as it’s one of the 11 warning signs of gaslighting)

Let’s see how many can apply to Hawks!

1. They tell blatant lies.

Well, this is a bit tricky. Hawks did tell lies and he did do it for the purpose of manipulation, however he didn’t do it for the same purpose as someone who will gaslights lies for. Hawks lies were lies, they weren’t lies meant to be seen through, in fact they were supposed to be the opposite. A gaslighter will tell a blatant lie because “once they tell you a huge lie, you're not sure if anything they say is true. Keeping you unsteady and off-kilter is the goal.” That was obviously not Hawks intention when he told his lies, his lies were only blantant because Dabi never believed them from the start.

2. They deny they ever said something, even though you have proof.

This is something we have neven seen Hawks do, to Dabi or anyone in canon (...Well, unless you talking about the scene where he pretends he hasn’t just revealed knowledge he shouldn’t know to the commission but I don’t think he was trying to gaslight them.)

3. They use what is near and dear to you as ammunition.

Another tricky one. Hawks did question whether Dabi cared about Twice at all which is where this biggest claim as gaslighting comes from. However, looking at the example given in the article, it’s how the gaslighter will use what is your identity against you and attack the foundation of your being. I’d argue that wasn’t Hawks intention in this scene as he doesn’t exactly know what is important to Dabi in this scene, he makes a guess of friendship but Dabi shoots that down (whether by telling the truth or telling a lie, that’s up to the readers interpretation).

4. They wear you down over time.

Told you I would get back to it. I’d argue that Hawks didn’t have the chance to wear Dabi down over time, he barely even spoke to the man by the looks of it when he infiltrated the league, he spoke to Twice and the other members of the PLF in order to get information on them. In fact, Dabi and Hawks were probably the most distant from each other then we’ve seen in the manga due to the fact that neither served a purpose for each other at the moment.

5. Their actions do not match their words.

I’m pretty sure all Hawks was doing in this scene was cowering from Dabi’s flames and trying to cover his face. I don’t think this point applies.

6. They throw in positive reinforcement to confuse you.

Has Hawks ever complimented Dabi? In all seriousness, I don’t think Hawks has ever complimented Dabi or the league beyond his lies about believing in there cause. Also, the positive reinforcement this point is talking about needs to have the blantant lies and insults of the person’s character happen in order for this to work, all things I’ve already established Hawks hasn’t done.

7. They know confusion weakens people.

This could potentially be another tricky one. It depends on how you view Hawks intentions when he asked Dabi about him caring about Twice. Hawks was in a position where he was about to be killed, I don’t think his question came from a place of trying to “uproot” and make Dabi “question everything”, I believe it came from a place of genuine horror at seeing Dabi smiling. As such, I don’t think we can label it as an attempt to cause Dabi confusion.

8. They project.

According to the article, a gaslighter will project to draw their victims attention away from their own behavior which I don’t think is what Hawks was planning here. He never questioned Dabi to distract him from his own feelings about Twice’s death or project them onto Dabi as that wasn’t shown in the narrative. I’m sure if that had been the case, Horikoshi would have brought attention to it.

9. They try to align people against you.

Hawks has never aligned anyone against Dabi. Who could he? Most of the people in the PLF kept Hawks at arms length because they didn’t trust him and everyone else trusted Dabi more. This point is about the gaslighter trying to isolate their victim, which is something Hawks never did.

10. They tell you or others that you are crazy.

Hawks mission was a secret and he never told anyone about it until he finally gathered enough information about how to take down the PLF. The only person he probably could have done this with is Twice however Twice was much closer to the league members then he was to Hawks, this tactic wouldn’t have worked even if Hawks tried it.

11. They tell you everyone else is a liar.

And finally, this never happened either. Dabi and Hawks weren’t that close, they mutually used each other for their own purposes and that’s it.

In conclusion, using these basic warning points, I could confidently say that Hawks didn’t gaslight Dabi. He didn’t have the bond, the time or the influence over Dabi he would have needed in order to do so. As the first anon pointed out, the purpose of Hawks questioning Dabi was to get him to make his speech about Stain and the league and finishing it off with the black speech bubble that made all us readers want to strangle the man in rage. And as the second anon pointed out, if we were to use the first, basic definition of gaslighting without the added context on what exactly gaslighting requires, then you can easily make the argument that Dabi gaslit Tokoyami when he questioned him. In fact, a lot of things could become gaslighting if you used that definition which is probably why psychology articles add more context such as time and influence and purpose.

...Man this got long XD

#bnha #bnha hawks #hawks #thanks for the ask!!#I hope this is alright #it's not the most professional #but it actually took me a long time to write and go over #Anonymous #the website in google is 11 warning signs of gaslighting #i did link it but tumblr hid my post so I'll label it in the tags instead

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kendrixtermina · 5 years

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What ppl dont get is that Fodlan *already* had one Ruler, and it was Rhea

And if there were a second one it would be Thales, who casually had the last generation of rulers replaced to install his own agents, though he was only able to do so by making use of the corruption, xenophobia, inequality, crest obsession, instability that Rhea's... lets be generous and call it incompetence, had allowed to fester

She's kinda sad and lonely and had her good days she didn't enjoy her existence as it was, she was acting out of fear and a desire to return to her peaceful childhood, but thats good writing not goodness. There's a critical mass of badness where we can safely use the world evil even if the person has some redeeming qualities and isnt a cackling disney villain, though as with all things involving threshold this is bound to be somewhat subjective.

But ultimately it doesnt matter how you do or do not label her. Lets say shes dark gray not shiny black.

But clearly no surface dwelling humans had any say at all before the war. Remember Dimitri's father who wanted to make peace with the neighbors? Nooot with those corrupt xenophobic nobles around, nooot on the Slither bois watch.

Why do you think Rhra made the hated enemies that *butchered her family* out to be heroes? So the ruling elite couldnt defy her as their legitimacy came from the church. So that all power came from the goddess so people don't even get the idea in their heads that they can attain any sort of power that doesnt come from her. That goes beyond just protecting herself.

Also though its at a tiny scale compared to all this lets not kid ourselves about what she expected to happen at the holy tomb.

She was 100% justified up until the moment she gave Nemesis that well deserved stabbing but to judge and subjugate the next 1000 years worth of people for something their ancestors did? And she wasnt ever going to let them go!

Its actually kinda ironic that her own lies ended up biting her in the ass. The ten elites and Nemesis had it coming, but whose fault is it that this is not common knowledge? Who purged all the records? Its not like Edelgard took the stories from her ancestors as fact without trying to look further, she moved in a big troupe of sholars to sift through the archives.

Claude had to extract the truth directly from Rhea and before that point fairly late in the game he knew no more than anyone else. He didnt just stumble about with minimal effort, that notion is actually more insulting to Claude than to Edelgard... hes a man who is in info gathering mode 24/7 and also the smartest person in the game, period, and the cast *brims* with astute cookies lets not shortsell him.

And in the end its not Rheas past that Edelgard is basing her response on but the results of her actions in the present.

Edelgard didnt "impose her will on the people" - was there anyone who wanted to be ruled from the shadows? She made it so the people had any say at all. She stopped someone else's will from being imposed on them...

That btw includes the routes where she perishes in the endeavor.

Either way Seiros is dead or out of power, the Slitherers are dead or at least suffered a major setback, and someone halfway competent winds up on the throne and steers the society a more equal direction... since its actually a government meant to help ppl not control them.

Edelgards beef was always with the shadow factions, both of them and them only. Which one is she gonna fight first? The bigger one of course. Throw them AT each other, pick off the smaller one at the end, dont risk having them throw the (heavily infiltrated) Empire into civil war. They were gonna do their evil deeds anyway; If she sticks around she can curtail them, or at least shed be around to end them eventually.

She disseminated info about the Churches actions and gave everyone the chance to choose sides - She knew that she probably would have to go through the Kingdom and possibly some of the Alliance because of the Church's influence and indoctrination (they literally have all aspiring leadeers exterminate rebels) and was fully prepared to pay that price (for it's lower than the price of letting all the injustice go on and on forever) but if theyd just stayed neutral you wouldnt have seen her complaining.

Any peace at the start of the story was wholly illusory - casualties were piling up left and right like... ALL the characters backstories.

Edelgard stauched the gushing bleeding wound, even if she had to do so by cauterizing it first, or amputating the infected limb if you will.

#fire emblem three houses #three houses #fire emblem: three houses #edelgard von hresvelg #seiros #edelgard #opinion time

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I can only hope that this helps those who felt pain when finding out about the end of Rise of Skywalker. It was never about Kylo Ren getting what he deserved or seeking redemption, it was about ending the pain within Ben Solo. I had to find some sort of positive reasoning behind all of this before witnessing it for myself tonight.

SPOILERS AHEAD.

Any negative reason given for why Ben Solo deserved to die isn't convincing, because Ben didn't do any of those things.

He was born into a family of Legends; expectations were set for him before he could even talk. The truth of his grandfather was hidden from him by his family. Facts of his bloodline would have given him insight as to why he felt the way he did, but they were kept away from him, leaving him to feel completely alone with a growing pain inside of him that he couldnt confide with anyone about. His whole family was painted as a perfect, lightside, good guy team. Saviors. Warriors. Heroes. Legends. So how could it be possible for him to feel the conflict that he was trying to hide? He would never be good enough or strong enough to belong to this family. He grew up feeling worthless to his parents who were always gone. The only place he could find self-worth was the darkness reaching out to him, wanting to help him and show him how to end his pain. But he didn't want help, he wanted to do it on his own. He wanted to push through and make his family proud. And when he learned the truth about his grandfather being Darth Vader, (a truth which he learned through the government his mother worked with, NOT from his own family) the teachings of Jedi being good, peaceful people became a joke to him. Good people don't lie. Good people don't turn a blind eye to the suffering of someone they claim to love for the sake of their own desire of not having to address something they'd rather forget. And good people own up to their mistakes - they try to right their wrongs.

Nobody did that for Ben. They saw a darkness in him and chose to fear it instead of face it. They chose to train him and raise him to be what they considered "good". They chose to invade his thoughts during his sleep and make of it what they wanted, deciding on their own that he was destined to belong to darkness no matter what measures they took to prevent that from happening.

Ben saw Luke standing above him with every intention to murder him. So Ben defended himself, disabling Luke from hurting him. The emotions he was constantly burying pushed through to the surface - his own fear, loneliness, anger, and confusion. He had done everything asked of him. On the outside, he was everything they were trying desperately to create and yet... he still wasnt good enough.

And those voices that had been with him since he was born called to him to go and find his true ally - the one who would make him as strong and fearless as Darth Vader.

When the light betrayed Ben Solo, the darkness welcomed him with open arms. It comforted him, embraced him, and accepted him, thus rising the darkness that Ben Solo tried desperately to run from.

Kylo Ren, who was birthed from his parents carelessness towards him and his uncle's betrayal, killed Ben Solo. And though Kylo still felt the same as Ben, he was now being given what he believed to be genuine help to forever end the pain.

And that's all he ever really wanted.

He was manipulated into believing everything he was doing would eventually bring him the peace he craved. He was convinced what he was doing what was right. He was told that the darkness would give him all of the things his family never even attempted to. The dark side became the good side and the Jedi didnt deserve to exist anymore.

He's told that killing his past will allow him to become who he's always been meant to be, and since he has no idea who that is, he's willing to do whatever he has to in order to figure it out.

Then he meets Rey, who makes him realize Ben Solo isn't really dead and that Kylo Ren is just a mask he wears.

Then Rey defeats him in a duel, wielding his families lightsaber. What a slap in the face. Some random girl from a desert planet who has never trained her Force abilities, never really even knew she had these abilities until she met him, was never directly involved with any Jedi, and totally naive to everything she was able to do that he was put through hell and back to learn, just beat him with his own families weapon.

And instead of being sympathized with by the person who swore to help him since he was a kid, he's spit on about it. He was told none of the others ever faced such a task like he would when encountering his own father and by killing his father, reguardless of how he truly felt about it, he expected praise for doing what was suggested to have been the hardest thing he would ever have to do to prove himself worthy, yet he's spit on about it. He's back in the same neverending loop of being a disappointment.

His family saw darkness inside of him and the darkness saw his family inside of him. He couldn't win with either side.

So the Force gave him someone else to turn to, connecting him to this girl he should hate, but felt no hatred whatsoever towards. Instead, he was intrigued by their bond, impressed by her strength, and comforted in the realization that he found someone who felt exactly as he did. He ignored her threats, her doubt, her insults and her disgust towards him because he understood it: Ben Solo felt the same way about Kylo Ren.

He saw so much of himself before his turn to darkness in Rey and wanted to be for her what nobody was brave enough to be for him.

He knew that the only restraint she had on becoming what she longed to be was her inability to let go of a past she didnt need. He saw her strength, potential, determination and hope when she didn't see herself as anything. If he wanted to coax her with him inside of a life of never ending pain, he wouldn't tell her to kill her past, the thing that caused her pain, he would tell her to embrace it, allow it to consume her and feed off the power that pain could give. Her fear of accepting that any family she had is dead was the only source of darkness inside of her - it was her greatest weakness. He tells her of his own families betrayal as a means to say having a family isn't always what she's convinced herself it is. And he's so aggressive about it because he envies her: she has no one determining her path for her. She is free to be whoever she pleases and would face no judgement about it, and yet for some reason she aches to belong to someone.

And she eventually sees him for who he really is; the person inside of him that he's been silencing because he knows he could never go back to that life. She has seen him murder in cold blood, she has felt his conflict, she knows for certain all the horrible things he has done, yet still tells him that it isnt too late, showing him the hope she has in him - a hope he was never shown even before he committed the terrible acts he's done. There in his darkest of days, he's finally found that one person who accepts him, and he has absolutely nothing to offer her.

Still, she goes to him to save him from the darkness that has always been there and because of that, he is able to kill the thing he rightfully assumed was trapping him in that darkness.

He doesnt want to belong to any group, he doesn't want to set himself up to fail again, but he wants to be with this girl and keep the feeling of validation she gives him. So he pleads for her to allow everything to end so that they could start a new order - a new life - together. But she doesn't view it the same way he does. She wants him to go back with her, to the light, but the light already rejected him. He doesn't belong there, even if he wanted to.

There's no common ground then, and she leaves him.

The emotions he is left with cause him to feel the dominant presence of the darkness he had rightfully assumed he killed, and he goes on a rampage, deciding he will end it all himself, only then to be stopped by the single person who's doubts towards him hurt the most. Surely killing his uncle would be the way to end his internal war...

But again, he was wrong.

He sees no other option now but to consume himself in his own misery, and uses his new title as Supreme Leader to cause as much death and despair as he's endured his whole life.

He figures out why his conflict exists when he learns from Lord Sidious that all of the voices he has heard were simply from Sidious.

And Kylo becomes a puppet for the dark side once more, tasked to kill Rey and destroy all Jedi once and for all.

So Kylo faces Rey again, senses his mother's death, nearly dies by Rey's hand, faces his father within that near death, then awakens by a Force ability used by Rey to heal him.

Knowing that Rey should have left him to die but didnt pushes him to help her end a war he helped create. He destroys his own Knights and stands beside Rey in the light to defeat their common enemy. While fighting along side her now, he feels whole. He feels like he has found where his destiny lies. And her small grin, her gleaming eyes of hope as she looks at him, prove that she feels the same way.

During the battle, he is thrown into a pit by their enemy, leaving Rey to fight alone. The physical injuries Kylo sustains in no way hold him back from trying to get back to her. He acknowledges his pain and he accepts it; he doesn't let it physically or mentally hold him back. He doesn't let it control him. And as he climbed despite the pain and weakness he felt as he did it, he accepts his past, and he rids himself of it. He accepts his parents distance from him, his uncles betrayal, the darknesses deceit and his ignorance to the truth. He accepts himself for who he is, what he has done, and where he comes from, because none of it mattered to him anymore. He needed to make sure he hadnt failed Rey the same way people always failed him. He needed to be sure she wasnt pulled to the darkness by her own bloodline. He needed to make sure she was safe, help her end this, and see where they may be able to go from here.

Ben Solo made it back to the surface, leaving Kylo Ren in the darkness of the pit.

But he was too late.

He fell to ground, pulling Rey into his arms. Pain returned to him, only now it was much worse. He has nothing. He has nobody else. He gave his life to the darkside because he trusted it and then he lost everything and everyone he ever loved because of it.

Looking at her lifeless eyes caused Ben to lose any hope for himself he may have had left. He knew Rey had so many people who would mourn her death, cry over her, need her, miss her...

No one would do the same for him.

It wasnt hard for him to find the strength to do what he had to do. He didn't even hesitate.

Through the Force, he gave all that was left of him to the only person he felt truly accepted it - it was all he had left to offer. A descendant of one of the most feared Sith Lords became a source of hope for so many, and was a light too pure to let fade.

Ben was able to accept his life and feel total peace within it when he felt Rey's hand hold onto his. Her smile when she saw him, the joy when she said his name, and the thrill when she kissed him allowed him to feel a happiness he would have otherwise never been able to feel. His own smile felt foreign to him, but he was thankful to feel it one last time.

He was thankful to pass away while in the arms of someone who cared for him. Thankful to have been able to make use of a life that never felt like his.

Ben Solo did not die as a legend. His sacrifice would be seen by others as an act of redemption, though Rey knew he didn't save her for that reason. He never felt as if he needed to seek ways to redeem himself for the damage he had done, because he was always lead to believe he was doing what was right.

Ben Solo was simply saving what he loved, and he was finally free of his pain.

#spoilers #rise of skywalker #ben solo #kylo ren #star wars #rey

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