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Shapeshifter who gets horribly grotesque and mutilated when flustered
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Sometimes, you do the right thing, and people get hurt by it.
Sometimes, you do the wrong thing, and people love you for it.
Sometimes, you do the wrong thing because you were misled, but it's still your responsibility.
Sometimes you do what you think is right only for what you think to change down the line, and suddenly you can't stand to face the person you were anymore.
Sometimes, you do the right thing for one person but the wrong thing for another.
Sometimes you have an opportunity to be better but you don't see it until it's too late.
Sometimes you could stop someone from doing something wrong but you don't.
Sometimes you do try to stop them and you only make it worse.
Sometimes you do the wrong thing and it turns out to be for the best in the end.
Sometimes you do something to help someone, only to not be able to keep it up, and when you finally have to take away that help, suddenly it doesn't seem like you helped them anymore. It seems like you left them to die. And that's not really untrue.
Sometimes, the line between what you can and can't do is so blurred that you can never really know for sure if you could've done better or not.
Sometimes, you do something with the best intentions only to hurt everyone.
Sometimes you make a mistake and it's "just a mistake" but other times you fuck up so bad that even though it was an accident, no one can quite bring themselves to forgive you. And you know they're not wrong for it.
Sometimes someone hurts you and you know it was the right thing for them but the wrong thing for you. And sometimes you don't know.
Sometimes you just don't know.
I'm not sure if this eases your concerns at all but it can actually be pretty hard to be a bad person without noticing. Being a bad person isn't about doing bd things, but not caring about the consequences and avoiding accountability. Good people can do bad things, but they usually try to mend their mistakes and grow from them. as long as you try your best to be respectful towards others you'll be okay
I appreciate it but it's a lot more complicated than this I'm afraid ;-;
I can't really find a solid definition of what I believe to be "good" vs "bad", due to factors like my views on things changing frequently with my experiences, the way that context can vary so much, and the fact that other people have different ideas of what good and bad means than I do. This uncertainty is at least on some level what fuels my ocd and its impossible to give me a definitive answer, only what you think to be true.
Anyways I'll try not to get all philosophical and spiral here but thank you again for trying to help, it's still valuable for me to know what other people think even if it doesn't answer all my questions.
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tiktok is such an awful app, it's almost designed to feed you misinformation and expose you to insane discourse. unlike beloved tumblr, the app that feeds me misinformation and exposes me to insane discourse
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I'm not sure if this eases your concerns at all but it can actually be pretty hard to be a bad person without noticing. Being a bad person isn't about doing bd things, but not caring about the consequences and avoiding accountability. Good people can do bad things, but they usually try to mend their mistakes and grow from them. as long as you try your best to be respectful towards others you'll be okay
I appreciate it but it's a lot more complicated than this I'm afraid ;-;
I can't really find a solid definition of what I believe to be "good" vs "bad", due to factors like my views on things changing frequently with my experiences, the way that context can vary so much, and the fact that other people have different ideas of what good and bad means than I do. This uncertainty is at least on some level what fuels my ocd and its impossible to give me a definitive answer, only what you think to be true.
Anyways I'll try not to get all philosophical and spiral here but thank you again for trying to help, it's still valuable for me to know what other people think even if it doesn't answer all my questions.
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Person: you're overthinking this
My ocd: don't let them lie to you! "Overthinking" isn't real. You can't *think* too much. That's crazy. It's just a lie invented by the government to discourage thinking
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I'm constantly haunted by the fact that I have the capacity to be a bad person, just like everyone else. I don't know why I think I should be exempt, as if I'm anyone special, but by god do I wish I was because I'm so scared all the time about how easy it would be to slip up. How easy it would be to be bad without even noticing
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I regret to inform you that your finger bones actually can "decay" (sort of- osteoarthritis is more like an erosion of your joints than decay but still) just in a different way than your teeth will
Teeth are bullshit. What do you mean you’re decaying. Get a fucking grip. You’re a bone now act like it. You don’t see my finger bones decaying from jerking it too much now do you
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I've been very productive lately at the expense of all my spoons :')
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We really need to collectively stop saying "get therapy" to people who are just being freaks. Harmless behavior + ratio + their therapist encourages them to be a freak actually. It's healthy and you should try it sometime.
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queer stories are still queer if they don't include romance btw
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Is it just my ocd or am I a bad person
#me when i struggle to accept that i have the capacity to be a bad person (like everyone does)#but that doesnt mean i am bad. just that i could be#but see the problem is i dont know how relaxed i can be about that because then i have to keep constantly#checking and making sure im still good and havent carelessly slipped into being bad
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defend against the smear campaign by becoming irreplaceable
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tumblr are you telling me something
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sorry for being weird online. i'm even worse if you see me in person
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You suddenly switch bodies with your icon. On a scale of 1 to 10, (10 being the highest value) how well are you coping with that change?
#7...? i guess#cause id still have to transition but I'd have naturally blue hair which is slay#also hatsune miku would make a very attractive boy imo
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Being an adult is so amazing
I get to choose who I want to spend my time with and be invested in, a luxury I never got as a child. I was constantly forced to be around people who would tear me down, verbally and sometimes physically too. They were people I didn't even like, people who made feel worse and also act worse towards both myself and others. None of them accepted me for being trans or asexual and I felt so hopeless knowing that none of them even saw who I really was. But I was trapped having to be around them because they were my family or they were in the community that my family was a part of.
Since becoming an adult, I've been able to make the friends *I* want- people who I relate to, people who make me better, who actually encourage and support me, people who respect and accept me, and who I consider family.
It's not just people - I'm able to make my own decisions now too and do what I want. When I was a kid, my parents were very against mental health care, but now that I'm an adult, they don't get any say in the matter. So since then, I've gotten on the antidepressant and anti anxiety meds that I've always needed and, while it hurts that I never had this opportunity sooner, I couldn't be happier that I at least get to have it now.
For any kids that have been told adulthood is so much harder and so much worse than childhood, I just want to reassure you: it gets so much better. Adulthood can certainly be hard in some aspects but it's not as bad as people will make you think. It's worth it.
Hey adults: Why do you like being an adult? What do you like about your life?
A couple weeks ago I told the kids at my work that "Being an adult is pretty nice, actually," and they looked shocked, laughed incredulously, and told me I was the first person they'd ever heard say that
So clearly we adults need to talk about this way more often
The past few years have been hard for a lot of people, me included. Covid sucked. I lost three relatives and three pets in one year. Right after lockdown ended, I got badly injured, and ended up housebound for six months and (much more) disabled for two years, and that sucked too.
And you know what? Literally all of that was easier and better than being a teenager.
I like being an adult. I like my life. Even when it's hard, it's mine, and I am building to the best of my ability the a life that I want to live.
I talked about a lot of why being an adult is something worth looking forward to in my last post, so right now I'll simply say this:
I love actually knowing who I am now. I love that I learned and am learning what I want and need. I love that I have independence and autonomy and don't get treated like a kid. I love the fact that I'm the one who gets to decide want I want to do and what I need.
I also love that I'm learning to sew. I love that I've had pet rats, and next will have a pet cat. I love that I got top surgery. I love the way I've decorated my room. I love traveling to visit and crash and even just hang out and do work with my friends, when I can.
I love that I started reading good news every day, and that I actually have hope for the future, and that I started this blog and have been able to help give so many other people hope, too.
So, here's a call to action for my fellow adults: comment or reply or tag what you like about being an adult. What you love about your life.
Let's give some kids some reasons for hope.
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I'm really good at having super fucked up dreams btw. Like psychological horror movie plots every night
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