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girlwithfish · 4 months

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oh exactly a year ago i was at my exs familys house and his two cousins from california were visiting and he and his siblings are all super close w cousins bc theyre all around the same age and it was like. me, my ex, my exs brother and his gf (who had been on family trips w the whole family w cousins so knew everyone), my exs sister and then the two cousins and i felt very outsider even tho everyone was very nice and it was chill and i didnt think i was acting like standoffish or like unfriendly at all sure i wasnt the most social like getting into conversations w ppl when wed just be hanging in a room together w everyone kind of doinf diff stuff but idk it was like Never enough for my ex. he made me feel so bad and was really unkind lol. i remember his cousin was talkign to us nd idk i dont get social cues sometimes and all 7 or 8 of us were in onr tiny bedroom and i was sitting on the edge of a mattress in a weird spot and idk i wasnt making eye contact w her or didnt realize she was pike telling the story To me idk but my ex got mad at me abt it or like wld call me out on stuff like in front of everyone it just felt embarrassed. oh reminds me when hed air my business out whenever wed b in public like talking abt my splitting when we were like. on campus in line somewhere it made me so madd lol. anyway and then we went to this nearby town one day cuz i was there for a couple days and likee the cousins and sister were all in the backseat w headphones on like his brother and gf were in front seat just talking to each other and my ex was txting me saying im not being social enough or need to try lol and we got on some stupid fight i dont even remember anymore but then we got to this restaurant and we were in line and i had been saying maybe i shld just go bc idk the argument over txt while in a car full of ppl made me feel so bad and my ex was being so pushy? idk when i fekt i was trying really hard to fit in and be normal. and we were in line waiting to b seated at a restaurant and he ended up calling me a bitch in my ear and it made me so fucking madddd lollll. and then when we got back to the house i was being kind of short w him or not talking tochim much or when we were all getting out of the car i was kinda snarky w him or said like u can go or something cuz there was like 5 ofnus trying to get out of the car. And he got all mad at me later upstairs saying i was rude to him in front of his family idk at that point i wanted to go home and hew as stressing me out so much and git mad at me for crying LOLLL. yay! new years memories

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ferretwhomst · 5 months

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hey ferret im tired and you know exactly who i am (probably). its like 12 am for you no. or 12 30 idk. im Tired. we have a Good Five Hours until our Next Step, and i am Terrified. amd.im stuck here until then :) (HGH) we are tipping in neutral territory and we're gonna go meet someone who's coming with us and i Hate them. augh. im probbably gonna text u later about non binary jesus christ because talking about eve will likely fix me. wnsndnnsjhdhdjsjs. hey. how u doing. does parallel dipper have a crush on wendy still. are wendy and soos even still present i hope they are. ty for ur time :(

"(probably)" oh i know EXACTLY who you are, *any month of the year here* >:) who else is going to message me out of the blue about non-binary jesus christ?!! <- don't take that as a bad thing btw you have no idea how much i've missed these random inbox drop-ins EJFSDJKSDVKJSDK

it was like probably 1pm when you sent me that message? i think? damn. either way travelling is a rough and tiring process man, hope the time passes soon ejrfdmdm

to answer your au questions tho-

i am considering retconning dipper's crush on wendy for this fic because as much as it is a Big Thing in canon i don'ttttt really feel like writing about it........... also i want to give wendy a role in this fic which isn't just Girl Dipper Likes. i want to give her a personality, a PRESENCE. which will be slightly difficult because this fic is primarily abt the stans beefing, but i want wendy to shine in whatever scenes i write for her. i might let the crush thing be but make it a much smaller deal than it was before. or i might put a funny little aro twist on it by saying that parallel dipper specifically isn't sure if it's a crush or if he just really looks up to her. we'll see. probably will just go for one of the first two options, but if i change my mind i will gladly dump my aro experiences on parallel dipper . i can and will make Any character arospec

YES OF COURSE!!! i am still figuring out what exact role they play in the fic itself/what scenes to put them in but don't worry there are very much there. as for wendy, she attends the institute's summer school program. she's no Star Student (she skips class a lot lol) but she's really knowledgeable about anomalies and knows how to take charge if a situation goes awry. ford is very fond of her, she's a charming young lady and also y'know. she reminds him of stan. (since the writers didn't want to draw parallels between wendy and stan in canon it's up to ME to do so. gestures towards the other wendy&stan ficlet i published months ago and never finished) as for soos... still working out what to do with him exactly. as with canon he's a janitor and works for ford, probably studied at the institute when he was a teen first though. he has a different dynamic with ford than he has with stan in canon; he hasn't been working for ford as long (ford is above child labor unlike STAN smh :D they are gonna get along so well... oughghgh

#asks #friend tag <3 #ferret rambles #blood brothers au #parallel wendy #parallel soos #not gonna maintag this one because there's some personal stuff and i don't want your travel plans going in the falls tag #SEFVJKDKJFVKJFS

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veethewriter · 2 years

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Could i request Malleus acting as a wingman for MC who has a crush on Epel? And if it's okay with you Epel's point of view as well?

I love Malleus and MC's friendship so much!

Tbh im not really good with doing two different point of views on the same thing but ill try my best! Also sorry this took so long i had writers block. Hope you like it!!❤❤

You weren't so sure about this plan, than again you weren't sure why you choose malleus as your wingman either. Even tho you guys are great friends, malleus doesn't really seem to know much about how humans show they like each other. His first idea was to give something of yours that was shiny to epel and it had to be hand made. All you had to do was hoped it worked out well.

A few days ago you stood nervously outside the classroom epel was in, waiting for his class to be over. Holding a shiny bracelet that you had made for him in your hand as a gift for him, however you don't even know if he would like this. Considering he didn't really like anything thing made him seem prettier which most likely included jewelry. Pulling you from your thoughts the bell for class to let out had ring, you quickly put the bracelet in your pocket waiting for epel to come out of class.

🍎epel's pov🍎

Epel quickly grabbed his things heading out of the classroom before hearing his name called out as he exited. Looking around his eyes quickly landed on you as you walked up to him, he was surprised to see you by yourself since you usually had grim or one of the other first years with you. He quickly asked you "Mc what are you doing here?"

Epel noticed you looked nervous as you had reached into your pocket and pulled out a bracelet. "Umm i wanted to give you this as a gift." You had quickly placed the bracelet in his hand and now that he got a closer look at it he noticed how shiny it was. He also noticed the details of the bracelet it was mostly white beaded with a shiny apple in the middle of it. He could also tell it was hand made based off the fact that where you tied the bracelet together showed a lot. He looked at you confused "I appreciate the gift but what is for exactly?"

✨Mc's pov✨

You should've known this wouldn't have worked, you glanced down the hall where malleus was hiding behind a wall peeking at what was going on. He gave you a pushing motion as if telling you just to confess to epel, you blushed looking at your feet nervously before looking back at epel than to the ground again. "Well I-I... I wanted to show you that i liked you epel."

Finally looking back up at him you noticed he was now blushing but he still hadn't answered you yet. He than looked at you shocked at what you just told him. He quickly cleared his throat before rubbing the back of his neck with one hand while the other one still had the bracelet in it. "I like you too mc..." He put the bracelet on before softly grabbing your hand holding it. As you two blushed and talking to each other, walking down the hall together. A certain fae smiled to himself, glad he was able to help his friend before leaving the hall hinself.

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chthonicgodling · 8 months

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~*Seph's Daughters*~

first - next - last

cranking out Melinoe content as the one person who knew abt her before Had2 comes out - JOAKS,, anyway fr do you too forget all the time that Maci and Meli are half sisters bc OOPS!! though of course Meli's since been adopted by Euriales so -

weeelll for the uninformed, since i dont talk about Meli much here (anymore ah), lets delve into a very long recap<333 for you new people but also for you old people for funsiess – ahem! underr the cut! This is a massive lore dump!!!

FIRST: Melinoe! version: BLANK. the backstory – 2,000 years ago, she was born the daughter of persephone and ZEUS, who saw an awful "opportunity" when the Underworld royal family was in turmoil immediately following the thanatos debacle and seized it :(( Melinoe was born with two physical souls inside of her, one of them the embodiment of all good and the other the incarnation of all evil, prophesied by Fate to lean one way or the other but ONLY one at a time depending on how she was treated

Her “family”… fuckin ignored this and proceeded to neglect and ignore her for eight solid years – mostly Hades but YES also Maci who 1) is not always the best person im sorry you had to find out this way fjfhfhg but also 2) was heavily influenced by Hades who was manipulating the fuck out of her too so idk I guess she cant fully be blamed??? She certainly should be tho cmonn. The Blank Early Melinoe, while the dual souls inside of her each waited to seize control of her vessel, did not speak (actually fun gross fact whenever she’s Blank shes got no physical tongue fhfhg), or sleep or really do anything, just quietly haunted the palace. Her aura was split down the middle black and white! and then!

SECOND: iiits OrigiMel! version: EVIL. “origiMel” is not a real name first of all its just Melinoe but she is considered the ORIGINALL incarnation of Melinoe hence the OoC nickname to differentiate, by age 8 the evil side of her had had enough and wrested control of the physical vessel and assumed her role as Goddess of Ghosts, Most Evil Creature In the Universe and thus began a reign of terror that would continue for two fuckin millenia. Her aura turning black. She murdered lots and lots of mortals and has done SO many awful things! Shed also hypnotize their ghosts of mortals she killed to serve her as endless slaves and playthings forever. Bc she reached her full powers so goddamn early thanks to Hades and Seph an Maci treating her like shit, Melinoe is forever 8 years old (out of universe this is. Because when I created her 15 years ago I was fucking obsessed with the ring that’s literally it. Self callout ig whatever lmfao) but was theeee most physically powerful being in the entire underworld.

Eventually due to her persistent hatred for Maci and family she focused all of her evil energies on the mortal Maci was DATING 2,000 years later – this of course was Tory – and she terrorized HIM specifically in some really really awful ways, before they got together, AFTER they got together – shes actually a huge part of Maci and Tory's story as their main villain forget about fuckin Thanatos,,, well this all culminated in the absolute last straw when she murdered Tory’s mother :((( in,, front of him,,, , eventually the Elysium gang figured out that by erasing her memories, they could reset her Blank again and give the good half of her a chance to take over, so after she was captured following that murder, Epi and Maci and Tory and Lethe forcibly erased OrigiMel's memory which turned her Blank indeed and then-

THIRD: finally, Meli! version: GOOD. That’s exactly what happened! When OrigiMel’s memory was erased, she was taken in by Epi and Eury (before they had other children, she was their first ,,) who adopted her as their own and cared for her lovingly, eventually the good half of her seized control. This is the Meli of today! She is sweet and kind and compassionate, still eternally eight years old, she has a family who she loves and so many siblings (including Ty and Bel who are her BABY BROTHERS no matter how old they get!), she loves to draw and hang out with her best friends whomst are all ghost children fggkgkh.,, The first thing she did as new Meli was cut her hair.

Meli’s aura glows white – WITH PATCHES OUT OF IT, becauuuse well oh god it’s a very long story but years later the evil half of her briefly escaped and umm killed Epi and eury’s first bio baby Melanie, before she was immortal in utero, tearing her soul to shreds as goddess of ghosts and uh. Aahh. Meli found all the pieces and glued them back together using parts of her own aura :’))) Melanie’s soul was reincarnated into Ty and Bel hence why they’re one split into two!!! Anyway as for Maci and Meli – i guess tbh they never really formed any sort of formal sisterly relationship since Seph's so disowned her and Meli is so completely Epi and Eury’s daughter, but Maci does love her and uh. Is super embarrassed and regretful of allowing all that to happen so. Happily ever after now!

Aaaaand that’s it weeooo. Anyway enjoy these three pictures rffjghjgjhkgggjkfgj i didnt need to write all that if you made it to the end. hi. thanks.

#my art #blood tw #ask tO TAG /#death and murder and violence mentioned in that cUT AAHH #MELI TAG

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crowning-art · 1 year

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TGCF SPOILERS AAAHHHHHHHHHHHGHHDHHFDHJFJX

GUUUUYYYTSSSSSS WTTFFFFF I DID NOT EXPECT THIS I DID NOT EXPECT TO READ THEIR FREAKING CINFESSION TODAY OH MY GOD I CANT EVEN TYPE RJFBFJFNFJTJFJGJ

Accurate depiction of me reading the absolute wild events I read rn:

Literally, like that exact face of disbelief, happiness, confusion, shock, conflicted, etc etc

First of all I DID NOT EXPECT WHITE NO FACE TO SHOW UP SO MUCH WHAT????

YAASSSSSS LETS GOOOOOOOO NEW PEEPS ADDED TO THE REUNION AND THIS TIME IT IS MY FAVES DJDJJDJXJD AHHH IM SO HAPPY I MISSED FENG XIN AND MU QING SO MUCH DJDJDJFJ

Ok but like I was trying to take this part seriously but all I kept thinking of was that one scene in that one barbie movie from like ages ago where she gets buried in an avalanche (mainly cuz I used to re-enact it with my siblings ALOT when I was kid lmao) the point is....I couldn't take this scene seriously lmao if you know, you know

When Xie Lian turned back to save Nan Feng and Fu Yao, that moment he delayed allowed the wave of snow to swallow him whole. The cold and heavy wave of snow surged without rest, breaking him and Hua Cheng apart. Xie Lian was falling all over from the force, tumbling down with the white wave, but still managed to keep struggling somehow. However, there was too much snow, the surge too powerful, and time and time again covered over Xie Lian’s head, bringing a series of sudden suffocations.

In the end, Xie Lian shouted, “SAN LANG!”, unable to hang on, and was buried down after all, disappearing within the icy snow current.

It was from this exact scene that I started feeling anticipation cuz I knew stuff here and there about the statues and confession but I didn't really know what I was getting into...

Xie Lian was already used to Hua Cheng having the answers to everything, yet this time, Hua Cheng replied, “I don’t know. Most likely under the snowy mountain.”

Xie Lian was amazed. “And here I thought it was a shelter San Lang found. I can’t believe not even you know where this is?”

“No,” Hua Cheng said.

LMAO THIS WAS SO FUNNY THO

The moment Xie Lian fell into the pit, those white strings of silk instantly charged forward and tied him up nicely. The rest of the cobwebs were then slowly crawling about, further securing the “cocoons” on Nan Feng and Fu Yao’s bodies. Fu Yao was going mad with rage.

“How come you fell too? Now look at us, three dumb fools! Let’s all just die here together!”

Yooo they are 2 brain cells shared among one another and today it is with NEITHER LMAO

It was like Fu Yao couldn’t believe his real identity was so easily seen through, and was relentless. “When exactly did you find out? How did you find out? There must’ve been something that gave it away, what was the flaw?!

But like this part was so cute, like I genuinely love their friendship so much and like vice versa cuz they also recognized Xie Lian's statues just as quickly

If he couldn’t guess who were under those two skins, then he would’ve lived all those years for nothing.

Ah, wait, hold up, what deed are they talking about? When Mu Qing was accused of stealing or is it something else that's mentioned later? I'm confused :(

Feng Xin also added, “Stop thinking people are as narrow-minded as you. Even when that shitty deed of yours landed you in Heaven’s Prison, His Highness still tried to help you…

LMAO OK THIS WAS ALSO HILARIOUS

“…What’s with those faces?” Xie Lian asked. “Don’t get me wrong. The red string I’m talking about isn’t something so frivolous as the ‘red string of fate’, it’s a spiritual device. Just a spiritual device.”

Only then did the two stop their twitching.

Feng Xin replied, “Oh, I see.”

Mu Qing on the other hand, was doubtful. “And what kind of spiritual device is that? What does it do?”

“It’s quite useful,” Xie Lian said. “It’s a red string tied on both our hands, with an invisible connection in between. One can use this red string to find the other, and as long as one is still breathing, the red string will never break…”

Before he even finished, the other two couldn’t listen anymore and cut him off.

“HOW IS THAT DIFFERENT THAN THE ‘RED STRING OF FATE’? IT’S EXACTLY THE SAME THING!”

LMAO THEY ARE SO OVER PROTECTIVE IT'S SO CUTE FJFJFJFJGUC but like ughhh get you some besties who would point out all the bad things in the new dude u bring home and are willing to put their lives on the line to protect you T-T

The whole convo really went:

Fengqing: He has red flags ALL over him!!!

Xie Lian: well...umm..red is my favourite colour *twirling hair shyly*

Ya so at this point I was like oh dear lord....things are going down

“I can’t believe there’d be a day that an arrogant character like Crimson Rain Sought Flower would be afraid to cause unnecessary trouble,” Mu Qing said.

Ok guys be prepared for a literal essay lol

I'm going to use different words to describe Hua Cheng's feelings for Xie Lian but bear with me for a bit.

This paragraph is the first to start to explicitly state how obsessed Hua Cheng is with Xie Lian and like ya we knew all along with the subtle (or not so subtle) hints but it has now been "exposed under the sun":

Looking closely, every single statue here was carved as if they were alive, the details more than detailed, almost to the point of frightening. It was easy to see just how closely the sculptor had observed the subject of his divine statues. Xie Lian dared say that even the most renowned of sculptors of Xianle back then would not be able to carve to this level of excellence. It was as if the sculptor’s mind was completely filled with this person, and his eyes only saw this person.

Like I don't think the magnitude of Hua Cheng's...love? Obsession? Worship? Is truly comprehended cuz imagining a HUGE cave filled with 10 thousand sculptures of varying heights like that's insane (essay continued after the next bullet point lmao)

Lmao there are so many lines in here that are my favorite ESPECIALLY THIS ONE LOL

Mu Qing could not believe his ears. “…Did he actually cast something on you to confound your mind? I think even if he was to write ‘suspicious’ on his face you’d suddenly become illiterate.”

Uh oh........

“Didn’t I say not to touch things randomly in someone else’s territory?”

Back to essay!

As seen in many places, Hua Cheng has made Xie Lian his everything and clearly he is so shaken up by everything like genuinely rejection from the one and only person who matters to him is the one thing that would make him wish for death...(you see what I am getting at 😏)

Both Xie Lian’s face and mind were going to burn up. He was scared Hua Cheng might see, but Hua Cheng didn’t look at him at all, keeping to his promise completely, never crossing the line. He kept his head slightly turned, averting his gaze from that half-exposed white shoulder.

And this part! Oh my God! This part works so much in Hua Cheng's favour because despite how crazy he is for Xie Lian, he doesn't lose the respect he has for him and retains both of their dignities in such an honorable manner (and it is also seen when he was young and Xie Lian had been in that cave where the whole temptation thing was going down, both retained that dignity and honour there as well).

But at the same time, it's like the mere the thought of Xie Lian being parted from him for even a second is enough for him to want to die

By then Hua Cheng had already come to his side and clutched one of his hands. He pulled him up and pressed him hard into his embrace, whispering, “…How can I possibly let go.”

I think the main point that I was trying to draw at was that I saw people say many times 'oh my God Hua Cheng is a stalker' 'He is so creepy' 'That's taking things too far' 'he's too obsessive' (yes looking at fengqing as well lmao) and while I had the same thought when I heard about this scene a while back out of context, now I actually disagree with this. We look at this from the lens of normal people but that was NEVER Hua Cheng. He always WORSHIPPED Xie Lian and i think people tend to forget that ALOT. What happens with them (which makes them so perfect as a couple imo) is that while Hua Cheng treats Xie Lian as the revered God he is, he also treats him like a normal person and act like a typical couple which gives such a perfect balance of unconditional love while acknowledging flaws within the other person. It just works so

✨️perfectly✨️

As Xie Lian says himself, none of them are normal in this world so how can they expect their love to be normal?

So ya, the 'stalking' and 'obsessiveness' is not weird in the slightest. (Obviously in the real world it would be major problem tho lmao)

WTF

Wtf

WTFFFFFFFFF OH MY GOD

Soon after, “Feng Xin” and “Mu Qing” before them disappeared, and what replaced them was a tall and slender white-clad young man.

Judging by his form, this young man was about seventeen or eighteen years of age, and he was wearing a mask, half of it crying, half of it smiling. While his face couldn’t be seen, the crisp and bright voice of a youth came from behind his mask.

He said warmly, “How are you, Xie Lian.”

HE IS HEREEEEEEE IN THE FLESH OH MY GOOOOD WHOEVER THE HELL WHITE NO FACE IS THIS DUDE IS HERE OH MY GOOOOOD

And the finale....

IT IS THE CONFESSIONNNNNN RJFJFJFJFJFJJFJFNFJ AHHHHHHHH FJFJFJFJFJFJFJFJF

After a pause, Xie Lian asked, his voice flat, “You…don’t want to know…how I feel about this?”

“…”

Hua Cheng turned his head slightly, like he wanted to look back but at the same time was afraid to look Xie Lian in the eyes.

I was like holding my breath the entire time when this happened like pin drop silence

So, only the two streaks of blood on his cheek could be seen.

“Will Your Highness…not tell me?”

Even his voice was cracked.

And THE ABSOLUTE FEAR LIKE MY MAN WAS READY TO LIVE IN THE SHADOWS AND NEVER MEET XIE LIAN AGAIN BUT EVERY DAY WOULD BE LIKE LIVING A THOUSAND DEATHS

And then

He heard Hua Cheng’s staggering voice coming from above.

“…Your Highness. You really…will be the death of me.”

WHAT HE WAS GIFTED INSTEAD WAS JUST ONE DEATH BUT THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND BLISSFUL DEATH OF THEM ALL AND IT IS JUST SO POETIC AND BEAUTIFUL AND IM LITERALLY ACHREECHING WHAT THE HEELL THIS WAS AMAZING IM LOSING MY MIND OH MY GOD I can't I genuinely have so much to say but like U GET THE IDEA and u don't understand how perfect the whole scene was created for me cuz I have a tgcf playlist i listne to while reading and the moment I started reading this part, the opening song for the donghua started playing and I was shook like IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL I CANT

#tian guan ci fu #tgcf #heaven's official blessings spoilers #heaven’s official blessings #hua cheng #xie lian #tgcf spoilers #tgcf journey #ch 173-177 #Oh mt god #like i know the confession is like yes finally #but its so more than that for hua cheng #and like all the emotions that he must have felt in that moment #i genueinly cant imagine #wow #so well written #i cant even imagine how much better it can get

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aego-philautia · 5 months

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Philautia; (φιλαυτία, philautía) means "self-love". To love oneself or "regard for one's own happiness or advantage"...

Icon by @rosyrosethorns

Howdy ho! Call me Aego💜🖤

Info under the cut!

This is my sideblog to my main art account(@aegos-eros) where i will rant about things and post shit post doodles

I’m interested iiiinnnn:

Vocaloid(Like. Very much.)

Other music(I listen to a lot of different things, just ask!)

Genshin(Also very much but I’m more chill abt it now I promise)

Drawing!(And by proxy, internet/youtube drama)

Japanese Culture

Cozy Things/Videogames

Idk what else to put tbh

I like purple too, as you can see

ALSO

Two years ago my brain latched onto this guy:

and hes been bothering me ever since SO ive decided to bestow upon him my ✨greatest honor✨: A deeply traumatized wife with an unnecessarily complicated and constantly changing backstory!

Aaand I somehow managed to simp for her too like a useless bisexual, so now I'm allowing myself to be annoying about them here. If you are only here for me losing my mind about life every now and then, then their tag is: #My Loves💜❤️

❤️❤️HERES THEIR YUMESHIP CHART💜💜

My apologies, but I am uncomfortable with sharing 😔

I’ll mainly focus on him when it comes to OC x Canon but I DO have other OCs and pretty much all of them have an OC x Canon ship(not all are romantic). I’ll mention them at some point if I remember.

💜More Aego Info💜

Im some kind of ace pls don't ask i barely even know tbh BUT I do still very much like talking about/making and interacting with NSFW things, don't worry I likely won't post/reblog any but if I ever do get the urge ill make a tag for it dw.

Minors can interact with my posts, just don't follow me please, Im not comfortable with it.

I'm pretty shy tbh, pls be patient w me or else ill cry this is a threat.

Still very happy to talk to ppl and answer questions tho! Especially about my oc x canon ship or anything I make or just about anything in general!

I also have inattentive adhd as well as social anxiety, and while I am getting much better especially recently, it can still get the better of me sometimes, so I deeply apologize if it seems like I'm ignoring u or anything! I promise I'm not I'm just a bit of a mess lmao

I typically try to refrain from discourse of any kind, it annoys me/stresses me out and I usually just ignore or block, but if I get over myself enough to speak on something I’ll tag it as : tw.discourse

^adding to the above point, I do not typically check blogs that I reblog from, and I also block freely, if you don't want me to interact w u/see me interact with questionable ppl, do inform me and ill deal w it as soon as I have the energy.

About oc x canon, I am also Normal™️ about other characters, I'm just really fixated on Kazu and have been basically since he first came out. If you want to know about them, just ask!

🌸TAGGSSS🌸

#My Loves💜❤️ (Oc x Canon shipping and art/writings)

#praise the son☀️ (posts abt MY BBY BOI MY SHINING STAR THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE my cat)

#dewdels (Exactly what it says on the tin)

#i must scream (me talking about things)

#oooh shiny (reblogs of things i like)

#tw.discourse

#goatluuvsqueue!!💜💜(queue ofc!)

More tags to be added as needed!✨

That's it that's the post, go crazy aaa go stupid aaaaa~✨

#My Loves💜❤️#dewdels #i must scream #oooh shiny #praise the son☀️#goatluuvsqueue!!💜💜

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thetwelfthcrow · 6 months

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not the original anon but here https://x.com/varmilt0n/status/1633488359728226310

what always makes me laugh is when months after nico’s retirement lewis was asked if he talked to nico recently or something along those lines and he told a story about how he was on a run in london and heard someone running after him and when he turned around he saw nico who jumped out of his car just to talk to him 😭 nico was doing all that as if they don’t live in the same building im cryingg, them being in a whole different country but still being in the same place at the same time is crazy tho

but nico said like a year or two ago that they see eachother in the elevator sometimes and that lewis gives nico’s children presents so idk they’re confusing

I AM CRYING I LOOOVE how he's instantly 'yes' and then DIES immediately. this is so so fundamental to everything. i love it.

oh my god that's !! insane. god. i hope lewis releases an autobiography in a few years and lays out exactly how he feels about it all bc i feel like he's the one that hides away from nico more than nico does to him - that nico's someone who tries to reach out (but also! make sneers lmao) whereas lewis is like oh nope nope nope.

and yeah the presents!!!!! what the fuck is up with that. what is their bond. they need to be thoroughly studied for REAL.

#Anonymous #anyways all of this is PERFECT #i'm gonna trap lewis with nico in one space for real #and it'll be accurate hehehhee #anyways. fun times. thanks everyone for the help <3 #zhalia’s lil’ chit chat

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justicecaballer · 7 months

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continuing to talk about The Fic

today i figured out the mechanics of whats happening. the How of it. and it took a while but i also managed to figure out the Why of it, from a purely plot-based perspective

thats great. but NOW i need to figure out how that all exactly relates to The Theme. i need to figure out how to make it resonate emotionally. i can draw parallels just fine i suppose but i need to be able to actually convey that in words. i will tell u it all feels Extremely Bullshint but thats what happens when u make stuff up on the fly. its ok tho because it doesnt actually matter How Extremely Bullshint something is as long as u can sell it

ITS MESSY. ive been reading save the cat and ive been trying to fit things into that structure: for the first time ever! ive written exactly one long form story, a nano novel, a few years ago, and i didnt know shint about the application of story structure so thats all over the place too. im trying this out on purpose and its hard but by god am i Trying

there are some nice serendipitous things happening though thay give me a little more confidence. the tighter im able to tie things together the more in control i feel. which is good. wild to think u can feel like youre not in control when (my good friend angie voice) my brother in christ u are the one writing the words. but thats just how it is sometimes

anyway i have to write like a two line description of an office and i dont feel like it

#whumptober 2k23 more like whingetober 2k23 #ITS OK . I'LL FIGURE IT OUT .

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izacore · 1 year

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Im gonna need people to understand that Freddie being listed as louis' son in some legal documents doesn't mean shit😭. My mum's friend cheated on her husband had two kids with another man and the kids were under the husbands name until like three years ago lmaoooo

I love learning about other people's business akjhdkj

[answering anons in bulk under the cut]

You mean that email they said one of the fans? Hm. Some info from Louis or his team would be nice tho :P

They are probably just excited and want it to do well, but I agree about the mindset changing after the pandemic especially when it comes to perceiving being a fan as a job.

That's promo by lthq for you :P Although I still doubt waoyf is a legit single.

Thank you for the block list, haha! But yeah, they really need help.

I guess they just want to cater to a group that isn't me or you since we don't find it flattering. What's sad though it that they haven't corrected enough after they saw how it's not working, but decided to push even harder. And here we are.

That's what I was talking about, kinda shows how irrelevant he is in the current pop-culture-sphere, which, if they want to reach the goals I suspect they do, doesn't bode well. They had years to come up with a revamp and a new, great narrative that would do well in current climate and yet.

Exactly, which makes you wonder why they are so determined to push this fake ass narrative that is only palatable to the minority of his fans 🙃

Mhm, it makes sense in the twisted minds of lthq somehow so 😀

Oh we did... but then at some point it became the only content we were getting, apart from NFT, NFT spaces, shouting out other artists and babygate so people got fed up.

#ask #anonymous

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lucysweatslove · 10 months

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I woke up to a text from the rural track director saying she + the assistant dean for the rural programs want to meet with me at the end of the week.

So basically my anxiety went from a standard 4ish to like 8.

Idk exactly what I’m expecting but it’s somewhere along the lines of “we don’t think this will be a good fit” and various iterations of that.

Like i was trying to think about out WHY they want to meet me and there are a couple possibilities running through my head rn. One, the preceptors at the clinic I was at earlier gave feedback to them about me that was negative and/or concerning. Two, there was some program wide zoom thing that I didn’t think was required and didn’t attend. There was a link to RSVP and you could say you weren’t attending, and it was virtual anyway so like there weren’t place settings or other work to accommodate people. And nothing indicating it was required, so I didn’t think you HAD to go. So I didn’t. And maybe that was like some kind of program faux pas?

The other possibility: that reflection I turned in where I admitted to having some difficulty was never graded. Obvs I did it and turned it in, but it’s the only thing that isn’t technically graded in the system atm. Kinda wondering if that raised some kind of red flag, and either they want to say they don’t think I’ll be a good fit in general or just want to address the concern? Like I could see this going in a neurodivergent un-friendly way where bc I mentioned that there was some difficulty that relates to my neurodivergence, they now think I can’t be successful at all / don’t want to risk it (irony being, I didn’t actually say anything was wrong with the program nor the clinic itself- I said I needed to figure it out and find ways to manage my responses etc). But also I want to believe these people and the program are far less malignant than other schools and would just want to check in and ask how I’m doing and feeling, my personal levels of self-efficacy and if I feel supported to be successful, talk about disability services should I want to go that route etc.

Idk but now I’m worried. Best case scenario imo is that last one- but as much as I want to believe in it, it’s just never been my experience and it feels more likely to be some sort of reprimand. Im getting the same vibes I got when the unit manager at the ped psych hospital (years ago) pulled me into her office to tell me that the dress code is specifically jeans and my jeans were too stretchy to be considered jeans and therefore I needed to wear different clothing to work. Or that one time I got fired from Target bc I called in sick too much (context: actually sick one weekend and then they didn’t get the schedules out on too and scheduled me in conflict with another job).

I guess if they do decide I’m not actually a good fit or whatever I would likely set the record for the shortest time spent 🙃 Would suck tho because I’ve already paid tuition and spent a lot on books.

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yahargulian · 11 months

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im gonna send you a bunch of these fic asks xgxbdhnxjs SOOO 7, 27, 41, 43, 58, go!

Catch me kicking my feet excitedly hehe here we go!!

7. Post a snippet from a wip.

"Satisfied that, for the moment at least, they were in no immediate danger, Leon let his stance loosen just a touch, the hand hovering over his pistol falling away to his side. He took a deep, steadying breath. That was his first mistake. Because the thing that this line of work never prepares you for – never could prepare anyone for, really – is the visceral nature of shit like this. Sure, logically it makes sense that if flesh burns, you��d be able to hear it, smell it. And, it also makes sense that such an experience would be... unpleasant. But they had just melted a body – a very large body at that – in molten metal. Unpleasant didn’t quite cut it. " This is also the last thing I wrote for any of my wips! This is one of the two fics I'm actively (slowly) working on - the other one being the key fic, which I've posted a snippet of before - and I'm so excited for them both honestly. This one in particular I'm trying to make like.. As Visceral As Possible. Just go absolutely ham asgjkdhasg it's gonna be fun!

27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

I'm trying to figure out how best to word this, but like.. Structuring sentences and things to help get the Vibe across. I've always typed exactly like I talk, even in messages, so I'm always like. Kind of thinking about how to best express myself using not just the words, but also the way the words are gonna be read and, hence, interpreted. Or, well, that's what I think anyway ashgkjadsjg tho I got told recently that I have a distinct voice when it comes to how I type and that it's present in my writing too, so hopefully I'm doing something right! (And I'm still not over it like.. I have a writing voice? Me? For realsies?)

41. Who’s your favourite character you’ve written?

Leon! And maybe I'm biased, because he is literally just. One of my favourite characters ever, I love him. And also maybe this is influenced by the fact that I hadn't actively written much for a good year or two until I fell into RE fandom all of three months ago. But anyway, I love to burrow my way into his head and poke around and see how he works and take stock of all the emotions and vibes, and then absolutely put him through the wringer ahdjkgahjgsdj It's an expression of love, promise! But a very close second would be Wanderer from Genshin Impact - and for pretty much the same reasons. His whole situation is way, way more complicated than Leon's, but he fascinates me in the same way. There's a lot to consider with them both. A lot of 'what if's and regret and guilt. Trying to do some good for the world. Both stories of a young, bright-eyed and naïve guy who gets thrown into a situation way beyond his control, and comes out of it as one of the only survivors. A situation that kills a part of him.. I think I have a type.

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?

Soulmates and time loop fic - and these both come to mind immediately because I'm planning to do them both in one go sometime soon! Yippee! I really want to finish a sex pollen fic. Or just anything in that specific kind of trope. I have one wip (in a document titled 'eeby deeby') that's sitting at like 4,000 words and has been for two years now and one day. One day! I will finish it adshgjkh And, not a trope, but I want to write something that's just a little unhinged. Just in general really, not even in a specific circumstance. Sometimes the best way to fully express an emotion in writing is to take it to an extreme, I think

58. Do you have a favourite piece of figurative language you’ve written?

"Through Azar’s hand, the path of Sumeru’s future was cut in cursive." Now like. I am kinda happy with just this as a line, but the context for it is what makes it my favourite. Because this is a wip (that I really need to finish for a friend omg) where one guy kinda gets off to this guy having really good handwriting? There's more to it than that, but something about having this line in this fic - which I wrote based on a joke that got out of hand - just brings me so much joy ahdgjkhgd

#thank u so so much for the ask aaaaaa #talking about writing is making me wanna write ahgjdhas #success!#santonali #answered

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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masato/aoki has been a hyperfixation of mine for almost 3 years now unfortunately he's a little worm in my brain slowly killing me off. this is half a response to some asks i've seen, a sort of explanation to aoki looking different to masato (which is definitely nonsensical in ways) may be because he's somewhat healthier than when he was as masato, hence he's not deathly pale, tired looking and a bit of weight gain maybe? (personally love his hamster cheeks as aoki). as a disabled person myself i don't think rgg really thought much through in his disability and the shit it can bring?? hoping yakuza 8 brings more context for him though i doubt it. again unfortunately,,, he's important to me regardless and ngl the hate he gets makes me upset sometimes. like he is definitely awful awful, especially aoki. my autism could write a whole deep dive essay about his character that no one wants to hear lmfao. also your masato art is a joy, just to let you know <3 as a fellow daigo enjoyer,, masadai ex boyfriends is the most valid and superior ship for masato lmao. ty for your service in this fandom 💪

damn im honored to be gettin a letter from THE ceo of ryo aoki themselves.. even if its anonymous ill still frame it on my wall hiii ty for writin <3

BUT YEAH that's what i figured in how drastic masato is from aoki- like his eyes notably lose that dark ring and his skin and lips get more color (tho that could be because he's in the sun more but who's to say it can't be both).

i really REALLY wish RGG wasn't so flippant about his disability, i go insane trying to figure out exactly what it is or what it could be so i can approach it better when portraying him and also just thinking about him. 'weak lung syndrome', surprise surprise, can mean a lot of things

it's already p cringe that they just poof it away with a lung transplant and get rid of it all together in ishin when there was no real reason to have him stand at all. like. he's literally in two scenes, one where he is sitting but the other he's just talking to the air while takechi sits in the room.

never mind im curious if he ever had to deal with his body potentially rejecting the new organ for a bit since that is a very real concern when it comes to organ transplants, but i get not really finding the need to dive into it since that transplant would have been 20 years ago and the chance to talk about it is slim. still, they could have at least give his initial illness a proper name or diagnosis if they were just going to make it disappear literally one chapter later

anyway, ty again for writin !!! i'm happy i can feed the worm that lives in your brain 🥰🥰🥰

#long post #snap chats #omg hi another aoki enjoyer //froths at the mouth// i am very normal about him #Real though the second i finished Y7 like.he broke into my brain and has been living there ever since #i sneaked some posts about him but i figured most people followed me for daigo/mine stuff or he'd just be kind of awkward to talk about #but. well. im cringe and free now LMAO plus i got at least like three people to enable my postings so #ALSO ANON I'D LOVE TO READ YOUR CHARACTER ANALYSIS <3<3<3 #one of my fave short analysis pieces for aoki is him and his relationship to glass #UGH i love visual symbolism so much im so weak for it and while i already had some thoughts on it when it came to his glasses #op just expanded on it SOO much and SOO well and just really highlighted /how/ much of aoki is behind a glass or screen #im gonna end up gushing about it in the tags oh no.... ill wrap this up #thank you for validating my insane masadai ship <3 ok not MINE i'm just a deranged follower of it but thank you #i am vaguely on the right path then.. hehe

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gaypleasantview · 1 year

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dirk (and dustin if u want) for the ask meme? :3

hell yeah!!

Dirk:

Sexuality Headcanon: gay, i enjoy other headcanons for him too but the version of Dirk that lives in my head is definitely homosexual/homoromantic, just feels so right to me. im thinking of putting him on the asexual spectrum somewhere (where is my drink) probably demisexual. his type is probably straight up someone like Dustin if we're being honest here

Gender Headcanon: trans guy! came out as a kid long before Darleen passed away and got lots of support from his parents about both his sexuality and gender <3 i don't know if he realized both around the same time but he knew himself pretty well pretty early on, good for him

A ship I have with said character: ever since i realized the possibility of Dustin/Dirk it has changed my life lol. like it was really always there and it's such an obvious set up but it went completely over my head like it did for most of us i guess, the way maxis seemingly intended is good too because Lilith/Dirk feels like a very exciting couple to play with if you see Dirk being attracted to girls/whatever gender you hc Lilith as. D&D live in my mind rent free tho. it's an easy enemies to lovers for me and some would argue that trope is overdone but there is not nearly enough content about these two that fit the trope perfectly sooo i wanna make that content. speaking of Dirk in this relationship, at first he admits Dustin is cute but hates the dude's attitude so he's gonna be in denial about his Dustin situation for the longest time. he's probably gonna be the one to make this actual relationship happen even though he's gonna be scared. but when Dustin opens up Dirk starts feeling really comfortable with him and falls in love deeply

A BROTP I have with said character: easily him and Lilith, in my hc she's a lesbian and they are fake dating while actually being besties so they don't even have to pretend much. these two are an opposites attract situation too but their energies match so well?? i should probably make them other friends though because no one has more than 2 friends in my stories 😭 i mean Dirk's also good friends with his dad but. yeah

A NOTP I have with said character: this must be about romance but i don't have much to say so i'll talk about enemies instead in this question. well i dont believe he has enemies aside from Dustin and that one's not exactly fitting for this question as we already know so probably no one lol. Dirk doesn't like Angela too and i never realized until just now btw that his relationship with her after he gets with Dustin is gonna be REALLY AWKWARD

A random headcanon: he's a giant bookworm, tries to be the best at everything and is quite grumpy, i feel like he would be very successful in college because he's just a shining star however you look at him. absolute delight (but can be a bitch). he loves cats and the color purple (i actually thought of making it his signature color but he's already assigned blue by maxis so im confused). also a big taylor swift fan

General Opinion over said character: gives off rainy vibes but is actually such a sunshine. i love him so much and im so glad i discovered how great of a character he is a few years ago, he's a certified son of mine (it's actually crazy to think that if he's a teen he's younger than me... like that is a noticeable age gap. huh)

Dustin:

Sexuality Headcanon: i would say the definition that feels right to me is homosexual/biromantic, sometimes i think it could be one or the other but i always remember that it doesn't have to because sexuality is a wide spectrum and im very happy to represent someone who has different romantic and sexual attraction! his gayness is powerful and i also cherish the girl-liking side of him and i think it's beautiful. i don't know if he's allosexual yet but i feel like he's probably demiromantic i hadn't even realized that until just now! im excited

Gender Headcanon: im still wondering about this, i see him as a guy and currently as cis, i really like the idea of him being trans but given how i hc him and his family i feel like by the age of 16 he would be unlikely to freely express himself or maybe even discover himself at all? he's quite emotionally repressed and doesn't give himself time to process his feelings so he probably wouldn't even know what the feeling means if he had it. hmmm

A ship I have with said character: Dirk ofc. Dustin didn't know he was gay and likely had inner homophobia but after meeting Dirk he knew what was up and he embraced it (after they stopped hating each other first heh). he had a pretty wonderful relationship with Angela so i like these two a lot together but with Dirk it's just a whole another story. Angela is like a comfort place and with Dirk it's like a rollercoaster and Dustin is just addicted to the feeling. he will be the first one to make a move but it's gonna be in a bit of a stupid way of course because he's secretly really awkward so it'll take time for them to actually see what's up

A BROTP I have with said character: Angela. she helps him with the kids and just generally spends so much time with him and they genuinely love each other so much as bf and gf but then as friends too, the breakup is hard for Angela but after some time it definitely gets better and they are just a great couple of peeps who care for each other :) i would say i need to get Dusty other friends too but i'll be honest with you i don't even think he has any. poor boy i gave him like 2 or 3 nice points

A NOTP I have with said character: Lilith hates Dustin and wouldn't engage 😭 she learns to tolerate him but imagine these two put in a room they would fight to death

A random headcanon: Dustin is a huge family boy and the only times he is genuinely expressing his feelings is when he is with his little siblings. Brandi and him have a weird relationship that is full of fights but in its core their relationship is not the worst, she's a loving mom just not very good at it. he probably has some obscure hobbies but i don't remember which rn. he likes sports (sadly). he's a very angsty teen and 100% listens to angsty teenage music in his room. he's gonna be such a great man in college when he matures and starts being honest with himself about things and this is the best glow up ever

General Opinion over said character: i love Dustin. i am so proud of his growth and bravery <3 he is kind of a menace in the beginning of my story, super mean but i don't want to throw him under the bus because his soul is so beautiful. wait is that bus thing even a saying or did i make that up. anyways boy needs therapy and hugs

thank you so much for the ask!!! this is really long but i love talking about them <3

#dirk dreamer #dustin broke #project: cr #sim ask things #socialbunny

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padfootastic · 2 years

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1 and 44 bc i love listening to you rant about anything

*blushes, twirls hair* stahhhhp 🫣

1. How long ago did you start reading fanfiction? Writing fanfiction?

uhhh my earliest posted fanfiction is oct 13, 2016 (which. fuck. almost 6 years?) and i used to write on wattpad before that. reading was def way earlier than that, tho. i was reading rpf as far back as 2013-14 iirc (and i think everyone’s had a ‘1D kidnapped me on tour 😱/Zayn Malik is my BROTHER?!?’ phase lmao) but that died out pretty quick. i’ve been solely fanfiction territory for the past 6-7 years. different fandoms but i keep coming back to hp for some damned reason.

44. Rant about anything writing related.

oh my. we’re literally matched in heaven bc i also love a good rant lol but uhhh writing related let’s see 🤔

idk if this fits, exactly, but i hate how seriously some people take writing fanfiction these days? like, i don’t mean it in a ‘don’t write deep stuff, u must only be frivolous’ (i’ve read some absolutely wonderful ff that tackle all these super intense issues) but more of like—stop acting like fanfiction is a public service announcement or moral education ykno? like. it’s totally fair to want to write (and read!) stuff that’s educational or healthy or raising awareness. but like,,that’s not the only purpose of fiction and honestly, shouldn’t be either. if real life is policed and fiction is sanitised then where one even go? how are u supposed to explore?

(i was listening to this podcast which mentioned that abstract moral riddles like the trolley problem are thought experiments deliberately alienated from reality so that actions and attitudes and ethics can be judged/quantified w/o influence from other factors. i feel like fiction is something similar. it allows u to play around with concepts you otherwise would never touch, in a safe space) and im seeing so many people take that so seriously these days? that writing isn’t valid if it doesn’t come with 8739 disclaimers and caveats and justifications.

i also think this attitude has also started seeping into my own work? like i feel pressured to include all aspects of human psychosocial development, even if i just wanna write harry cuddling w sirius, because otherwise is it really valid? if i’m writing a headcanon or doing something meta-adjacent post/ask, i feel the need to caveat it with this and that. and that’s,,,not fun. it doesn’t inspire joy or creativity or any sort of interest. doesn’t make me wanna continue creating stuff.

bouncing off this—i genuinely think it has made writing, and by extension he fandom experience, much less fun. i used to be (and still am rly) a hardcore multishipper. i don’t care if my headcanons follow a linear chronology. it doesn’t matter if two of them are directly contradicting each other. but recently, i’ve been feeling like i should do that. ‘can i talk about emotionally vulnerable sirius after discussing at length how much i hate drama queen characterisations of him?’ like my god pen it’s not that serious!!!! and yet.

just idk. i feel like writings become infinitely more complicated and we’re all scrambling to keep pace with these unspoken rules that keep cropping up out of nowhere. and like. that’s not what i’m here for ykno? if i wanted to live in a place w this kind of pressure and punitive rules and implicit norms i’d just like,,,turn my phone off and go outside, right?

From this ask game

#i fear i may have taken the rant part of this ask too seriously #and idek if it’s relevant to the question lmao #but a rant u asked for and that is what u shall get dani #even if it’s all over the place and a bit incoherent #so much of this i’ve only started feeling since i’ve begun using tumblr #like this place has been both good and bad for me #but this is definitely one of the negatives #this almost intrusive unwelcome sort of self introspection that doesn’t lead to anything constructive #but mhm #i’m done now lol #pen’s asks

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