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indirecticn · 2 months

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just as info... because im a bitch who has to over explain everything...

i am on like, not semi hiatus but def. semi slow down for a bit and here's why. under the cut is a lot of boring work garbage, feel free to ignore lol

ok SO here's the thing

i think i mentioned it before but like a month or two ago my company fired five people, four of which were like directly in my operations group. we are a bulk liquid e.xport team that specializes in fle.xi bags being loaded like... well, with bulk liquids lmao. its not super hard but it is TEDIOUS as fuck what i have to do on a daily basis.

i have direct contact with suppliers and traders purchasing from suppliers and i coordinate the full movement of product so basically customer tells me: i need X amt of product moved from point a in the usa to point b in the world. they specify, often, the particulars of like.. what steamship lines to use based on rate, or like on end destination preferences, and they expect us to typically coordinate the trucker to pick up food grade containers that then live load or transload at a supplier's plant and then get ingated back into whatever port terminal to get on a vessel and make specific arrival times at their end destination.

like idk some of u might even be in this industry too, so u kno what i mean.

the PROBLEM is that i am expected to get the booking with the ssl, coordinate the trucker, make sure the product gets loaded both within the customer's expected window + within a window where containers can be ingated against said booking's vessel, with OUT additional cost (so things can't sit on yards and get storage or detention for drivers or have additional legs in the trucking which means more money to pay trucker ect ect) and i have to load the amount the customer requests AND

Sometimes the product has to go on rail and that has specific regulations and sometimes the product is hazardous and has to be pre approved on the SSL to even be booked but the customer sent a request asking to load the next week so they get mad you dont get a confirmation within the same day because the haz approval has to be granted by the transhipment port half way across the world too because SOME ports don't take haz and some do but only certain kinds and and and and....

sometimes there is a vessel congestion in the ports or bad weather that shuts down ports or plants, or sometimes drivers have mechnical issues or just miss their fkn appts to load or show up with wrong equipment or ... or there is no container your driver can find because the ssl is out of them at that particular port location or...

yeah.

and so take that and then give me one account that is incredibly picky, sends requests last minute, mostly of randomly haz bullshit, and expects u to lick their boots....

and then another account where i am expected to maintain a perfect constant flow of bookings out of four different ports and the amount expected is like... ohhh 28 a week out of one, 10 out of another, 20 out of two others... and THEN that same customer sends you 75 FUCKING RAILCARS TO ONE SINGLE RAILSPUR/TRUCKER THAT CAN ONLY TRANSLOAD TWO A DAY, MAYBE FOUR TOPS, AND and your boss told them that there would be NO storage charged back to them so you have to now hope to god all the railcars dont show up at once because then you have to meet that four day vessel window and at MOST can load out like 10 of the railcars, if that, if you are lucky with perfect conditions but WHOOPS ALL 75 ARE THERE AT ONCE SO ACTUALLY fuck your life you get storage on 65 railcars and it shows on YOUR account that you lost money

and also?

you have to do the customs filing and documentation for destination arrival and have a window for that too and must have the info perfect or there is charges for fucking it up or containers getting stuck in customs at the destination...

yeah.

my co workers are overwhelmed and they have like maybe 60 containers on their desk a month?

my fucking dumb ass customer gives me a total currently of 450.

and yes, they fired people so i dont have a lot of back up until they hire someone new to take over this single stupid account so i can focus on others.

ive been working from like 6am to 7pm if not later because of this. im looking at other jobs but nothing pays as well currently and i technically like my team its just frustrating because ... yeah.

i hate this industry. i haaaaate it. supposedly im good at it but i dont care. i just want to survive having to pay rent or car payments and getting food, you know?

and i want to be able to do what i love which is write... and this job is melting my brain and just got exponentially more ugly within the last two weeks.

so anyway thats where im at and until i either change jobs or my desk chills out or they hire someone OR i get back on my adhd meds (lol that is really NOT helping to be off of them) im going to be slow.

but whatever, yall are great and i know those that want to will stick around so i appreciate you

thanks for coming to my ted talk bye

#ooc #no i mean like a huge work vent #i have to get it out there #aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #ok bye

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yanderefictinallove · 2 years

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Hey i hope your having a good day :) i love your content.

I was wandering if you could do something like this. Like my family has a "course" that all the woman (in my family) have twins but after some day the twins die😦

So if you could do that. That would be the best🤗

Yes, so here is my first story after my lil hiatus, i as sick for a while and i felt bad so ya, and even when i was better i got sick all over again soooo, im going through all me requests 1 by 1, so bucke up yall.

Playing House

Rengokou x reader

This story is recommended for disrespectful teens like me..so yeah keep that in mind, my adult readers are welcome too

Rated: T+

TW: kidnapped, forced life, depression

"Mommy!" My son yelled at me from across the field. I was hanging clothes out to dry after i had washed them and my twins wanted to help.

As they ran around and played tag i took a break, sat down and thought, what would life be wothout them?

I imagine it would be pretty sad. After all i love my kids.....i hate my husband. My kids wanna be just like him, a demon hunter, i have no problem with that, but why look up to him.

As of now life is as peaceful as it can be, but before i had these little joys, life was absolutely hell. Screaming, yelling, crying, vomiting, and even bleeding.

All thoes were results of when i was "courted" by Rengoku. I was a sweet little village girl, nothing more nothing less. I wanted to be a house wife like my mother, so i dedicated my life to learning her ways.

When i got older i gained an interest in a boy, his name was Giyuu Tomioka and he was so handome and cute, i was shy and flusterd around him, he seemed to be fond of me too. To made me smile when he would come to town.

After a whil of talking and getting to know eachother, he wanted to introduce me to his friends, they were all so kind and passionate about what they do, i never was told what there profession was though.

Then he saw me, his firey eyes looked at my form, and he smiled, and greeted me wth nothing but manners. I felt respected.

As the days went on i got an unexpected and unknown visitor, a stalker. They knew what i was doing 24/7 i was never safe from their gaze. I felt weak and scared.

One day i fell ill to a sickness going around. As i fell asleepnin bed i dreamed of the day i will become a wife and take care of my kids when they get sick.

When i had awaoken i was met with The famle hashira's gaze as he looked upon my sleeping form. The look of obsession in his eyes made me go into tears.

Now, fast forward a few years later, im married to him and have kids, but, i lost will to live, i only live for my kids and hooe for freedom one day.

I want my kids to taste REAL freedom, not this bullshit Rengoku has planned, before they pass. You see, my family was cursed by a demon who was spiteful and horribly sadistic. We don't even know our sins.

But now, when my twins hit age 13, they will die, no matter what. It all will start off with the mom of he house getting nightmares about how they die, then a few years later they meet their fate...

Please, oh great [what u worship] please let me keep my babies don't take them away from me. I don't want them to leave, if they go, I go.

"I have returned!" Boomed a familiar voice, i wipe away my tears to greet my husband. My kids beat me too it, they embraced thir farther and gave him praise. It was time for dinner and we were heading inside.

I was deep in thought at the table all i had on my min was my kids. " Are you alright sunshine?"asked my husband he was gi ing me the eyes, the don't do or say anything stupid eyes. So i just nod "Yes, I am just tired is all." As we finishes our meals.

Later that night i was laying down on our futon with my husband getting ready to sleep, but he does not see satisfied. "I would appreciate it if you didn't throw your little tantrums around the children." He stated calmly "I did no such thing." I responded "Then why were you crying?" He noticed the tear marks on my face from when i was criying before. Shit.

He embraesd me and wisperd" I refuse to let my children die because of a silly demon curse, they will live." He said to me in a calm but menacing voice, before emding hus scentince with a "ill be going out soon, don't try anything unintelligent". Then kissed me on the forhead, this is gonna be a long life...

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Yayy, i finally have mo more writer block. Hope you guys really enjoyed it.

Request: OPEN

#demon slayer #yandere demon slayer #yandere kny #yandere #kny rengoku #rengoku kyojuro #yandere rengoku

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cervelli · 2 months

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hey moose here are some things that’ve happened in my life recently/things ive been thinking about that i thought u needed to know:

- i think that anybody who enjoys the taste of cucumbers after eating chicken is a psychopath because genuinely there is nothing that tastes worse like separately i love cucumbers and i love chicken very very much but i cant ever combine them bc when i do it tastes like stinky socks 0/10 do not recommend

- i started watching breaking bad with my brother we’re having a lot of fun with it we’re almost done the first season and idt ive given any of these episodes less than 5 stars so far it is Hitting

- ive read 10 books in january! which idk if thats a lot for others but it’s big for me bc ive been in a foul reading mood for like the last three years and i fr only read like 30 books!! but im back babyy anyways of those ten eight have unfortunately been my porn books as sabs likes to call them but im having tons of fun so who caaaares

- starting second sem of senior year 😱 i fr died first sem like i think that was one of the lowest points of my life if not mentally then definitely academically i just could not bring myself to care!!!! which means theres even more pressure this sem esp cause i have six diplomas to write and thats scarrrrrrrryyyyyyy

- i started reading more philosophy? specifically ive been reading pluto’s works theyve basically given me headaches (but good headaches?)

- i really wanna own more like dresses but idk where i shld get them and also i dont really know what type i wanna get? like ik im gonna need fancy dresses for grad banquet (which is basically? prom? in canada? at least i think) but i want more casual dresses???

- i was talking to one of my best friends today and have decided i have a spending problem so now im on a spending hiatus until next tuesday but this is unfortunate timing bc im supposed to get a locker for me sabs ria tmrw 💀

- its super late and i shld be asleep but its finally clicked that a new semester is starting i have a headache im abt to get my period and i got woken up by my led strips fricking peeling off my wall so thats something i have to deal with

- also i moved?? like in november but i gen dk if i told u cause we havent really talked in a while do u want a room tourrrrr my visions hasnt been finished yet but im getting there!!!

- theres more but im gonna sleep 😴 ttyl ✌️

i read this months ago but i appreciate the update i hope things are going well!!!!

chicken and cucumbers is vile

hows breaking bad

#ask #ask: exy101 #oscilla tag

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veeaxx · 7 months

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— LIP POINT ★

their s/o uses their lips to point out things, but they think they're asking for a kiss !

note: so sorry for my hiatus!! im trying a new format dont mind me.. it's slightly suggestive in floyd's part but it doesn't go past kissing! m.list is here characters: kalim, jamil, and the tweels x reader

— JAMIL VIPER

his cheeks turn red as he sees you point your lips over to the item beside him, not knowing what ur real intentions were. bby thought you wanted a kiss real bad he didn't have a choice but to smh 😭

you 'were' expecting him to have the item in his hands, so you look up—but you're suddenly brought into a quick kiss, courtesy of jamil. he pulls away, slightly shy. "was that alright, ya amar*?" he asks, looking into your eyes. was a kiss really necessary at this moment? 😖💕 obviously, you smile in return, nodding. "of course it was, hun..but that wasn't what i was asking for." you giggled as his brows furrowed in confusion. babes u had to explain that kind of mannerism was normal from where you were from and he got so fking embarrassed omfg like it doesn't mean you want a kiss??

literally comfort kiss kiss him bc he is sulking in the corner and cannot look at you without blushing. he did give you the item you asked for though. the more you know, right?

either way it was cute so you didn't hold anythin against it jamil viper let me marry u bbg 😻

— KALIM AL-ASIM

oh my god he got so eager and excited when you pointed your lips, but he didn't know it was to ask for smth beside him!!! he was literally like an energetic pup 🥺 he was a bit confused on why you couldn't just ask though

he quickly rushes over to you, kissing your lips for a small amount of time, your eyes widening. he pulls away, smiling. "did you like that, albi*?" he asks, his cheeks a bright red. you smiled, cupping his face softly. "oh kalim, of course i did..but i didn't point out my lips for a kiss.." you replied, sighing in content. obviously he didn't know what the lip point meant, so when you told him he immediately gave you the item you needed while blushing.

is probably apologizing for nothing like?? he's so cute 😭 kalim is more of a positive person though so he'll probably forget about it in no time hajsghahaga

he will take very good note of that gesture, but won't hesitate to plant a kiss on those lips of yours, either. so i recommend you keep an eye on him!

— JADE LEECH

this smug mf. and he's so smooth with how he kisses you, too. if you were expecting him to hand the item over, you got a kiss instead!! cue jade showcasing his usual grin as he lovingly stared at your deep red face.

guess he's still a bit unaware on some human customs, no? he's fully aware of the fact, in fact, he doesnt deny it at all. more or so once you told him about the habit of pointing your lips.

a bit of blush appears on his cheeks, but he smiles nonetheless, content about your reaction either way.

"fufufu..my pearl, you'll have to forgive me." he chuckled, bringing you close. "i'm simply unable to resist those sweet lips of yours, my dearest. " 😳

will definitely remember what the lip point means after that sweet encounter. i can't guarantee he won't play a bit, though. he might tease you by kissing your lips instead.

— FLOYD LEECH

"coulda just asked, shrimpy." floyd whispered, his tone teasing as ever. but before you could reply, his lips collided with yours as he gripped your hips, lifting you onto the counter.

as you melted into the kiss, he teasingly nipped at your bottom lip, allowing a gasp to escape your mouth.

he visibly grins at this, chuckling as he pulled away. his stupid grin only grew wider as your face went beet red!!! i hate love him sm 😠

once you pointed out you wanted something, he wrapped his arms around you, pulling you in closer. "ehh.. that's boring. i like kissing shrimpy better." he kept on insisting on how the kisses are better!!??

would he remember? it depends on his mood. similar to jade, he would play around with you a bit. he most likely wants to get on your nerves (lovingly) 😒 not that you'd reject, though..

TRANSLATIONS:

* ya amar — my moon

* albi — heart/my heart

TWST TAGLISH: N/A

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sungbeam · 2 years

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XNONIE PRESENT !!!!!

i had soooo many midterms to study for, so apologies for the late reply beam 💔 but lemme tell u that i missed u very very much

A LITTLE BIRDIE TOLD ME THAT U FOUND SOME DAREDEVIL FANART (the little birdie being ur post about ur thoughts during hiatus) AND I WILL WELCOME IT IN OPEN ARMS 🤗🤗

i absolutely vibe w/ daredevil x she-hulk too just b/c they both look SO SO SO happy w/ each other & they should just get married alreadt 🫶 i MEANNN i also vibe w/ daredevil x me, BUT i'm not gonna steal the spotlight from her 🥰

"i love making men cry" BEAM?!?@?@?' HELLAUR??? i'm gonna appreciate the angst so much SHDKSJFJ also hmmmm i'm not sure you've seen some of my stuff since i juuust started out. & don't worry, ur not being pushy at all !!!! i'm also very VERY nosy too it's something that dies hard 😭😭

druig mind games would make the e2l go a little faster tbh so that we can start dating right away 😍😍😍 THAT'S THE GOAL BABY

cravity JUST made a comeback w/ party rock!!! u should really check that out if ur into the upbeat & fun songs 🫶😚😚 I HAVEN'T LISTENED TO 28 REASONS YET b/c i was so caught up w/ school!! but it's on my to-do list for listens!

omg... u didn't just ask that BC NONE OF THEM SEEM E2L WORTHY THEY'RE ALL SO SHDKSJDKFK 💔 but HMMMMM:

slow burn/chan (he just seems like the best option on here 🫶), e2l/mark (it would be one sided tbh, like i'd hate him bc he was too perfect or something dumb like that LMAO), fake date/joshua (he's so bf material that i wouldn't be able to fake it honestly LOL)

XNONIE !!!! missed u very much too 🫂🫂🫂 and don't even worry abt it, i totally get that studying must come first 😔😭 but glad we're both back 😃

A BIRDIE WAS HOPING IT WOULD REACH U HEHE (ﾉ´∀｀*) i've actually always been a fan of this person's art style and the way that matt's portrayed here is so 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻 idk it's just so good and as soon as i saw it i wanted to share it w u but i was on hiatus 😔✨

frfr like all power to daredevil and she-hulk but WHAT ABOUT ME õ_ó my main character arc when 😔 /hj LMAOO

OKAY I DO LOVE MAKING MEN CRY NO JOKE 🤩🤩🤩🤩 i love writing about men being emotional 😔✨ we don't get a lot of that irl so 👀💀 ahhh that makes sense!! welcome to the community tho omo 👀👀 i do hope i come across ur stuff at some time ^_^ LOL PLS IM SO NOSY AND CURIOUS I FEEL BAD SO I ALWAYS RESIST MY URGES 😭😭😭😭

AKBXKSJXKDBD PLS THE E2L FASTFORWARDING AND NEVER HAPPENING CUZ HE KNOWS THE EXACT MOMENT U FIND HIM ATTRACTIVE ?1?(!(@299*!1;: HES SO HAWT AND FOR WHAT REASON (´Д⊂ヽ low-key wanna write e2l druig rn where the only reason why it's even over 1k is cuz u keep denying ur so-obvious pining and simpery 😔😔

OOH omg yeah i'll add it to my list to listen to cuz i need jams to bring me out of my depression ayo 🤩🤌🏻 THANK U FOR THE REC HEHE but yES LEMME KNOW ONCE U DO LISTEN TO 28 REASONS it's low-key my villain arc soundtrack (actually i've been really into g-idle recently like owh they're so badass YKW THE GIDLE DISCOGRAPHY LIKE THE I NEVER DIE AND I LOVE R MY ACTUAL VILLAIN ARC SOUNDTRACK)

josh hong IS boyfie material like tbh all three of them are (´Д⊂ヽ(´Д⊂ヽ i would prob go with the same options u picked tbh :0

okok i know there were things i wanted to talk to u abt during hiatus but i cANT REMEMBER RN AHHHHHHHHHH but r u into dc as well ?? like im def not as involved as the mcu obviously but i 👀👀👀 am currently writing something where it's like txt choi 👀👀👀 and like the bat boys 👀👀👀 i hope u know what im talking abt cries but it's my passion project as of late sidbskchkehc but HOPE UR DOING WELL ILY MWAH TALK TO U SOON XNONIEEEE

#sungbeam strikes again #xnonie 💥#omg idek ur pronouns bestie

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yeoldotcom · 2 years

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✋🏼😔 apologies for disappearing the first month of the year. also happy black history month ‼️

#i had a lot to think about. i was trying to do a 'new year new me' except instead of trying to change myself for dumb reasons #i wanted to change for the better and stop feeling so horrible about myself and my life. i worked really hard too #i'm actually still working on it. i'm understanding myself a lot more but it just keep presenting questions instead of answers #anyways lemme explain why i wasn't Here bc i can explain somewhat 😭#so i was on my period the beginning of january. stopped by to say hey n i love y'all but damn those cramps #then i just started feeling bad about myself n such bc i wasn't feeling well (bc pms) and also i was supposed to visit my aunt #but i thought the trip was canceled (long story) so i was basically a bag of depression. then i told myself to stop being a little shit #n try to make myself happier (this is when the new year new me thing happened (why am i explaining actually no one gives a shit 😭))#n e ways i started working on bettering my emotions n found out a few days later that the trip Wasn't canceled so i went to visit my aunt #came back in the middle of the month and was really trying to work on being happier but when i got back it just was really hard #i know now that something is fr wrong w my brain like damn my friends make me sad n they don't even be doin shit #but anyways i was Workin on Me (and also tryna actually work. NO ONE HIRED ME BRO CAN U BELIEVE—) but i hadn't wrote all month #and quite honestly felt like my 'kpop phase' was over... it wasn't. i had a dream about johnny 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ffs i don't even wanna unpack that #he's so — 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 clown antics my bad #anyways that brings us to now. i came on this app today n just got sad. idk same thing about how my irl friends make me sad #this blog just makes me sad. reminds me of all the people i used to talk to and be friends with #all the relationships i made with people and how i literally ruined them all because of my nature (i swear to god i don't know how to talk)#it all just makes me sad. so anyways i spent today knitting and photoshopping a profile pic for my side blog (I MADE A SIDE BLOG !!!!!!!!)#i'm gonna write over there. do whatever i feel honestly ! or that's what i'm telling myself since idk what im gonna post over there #i haven't forgotten about nonstop (i totally forgot y'all my bad) it's probably going on hiatus tbh im never gonna finish that fuckin smau #it haunts me. i never want to have something unfinished but jaemin ... im sorry i wrote your character in a way i usually don't ..#and i've stumped myself. i'm sorry sir i'll avenge ur name ‼️#anyways just wanted to stop by !!! i'm not leaving this blog but y'all i leave too goddamn often 😭😭 maybe a new blog is what i need rn #so i'll spend lots of time over there .. maybe . lemme not jinx it.#yeol.com/zee #i do like the tag system i made on this blog tho... gotta figure out one for that one too

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junicai · 3 years

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boil over.

| summary | Aria gives Jaemin some tough love (and then hugs)

| word count | 2.1k

| warnings | 1 (one) curse word

| era | circa. 2017, Jaemin’s hiatus

29. “NO! You can’t get up, you’re my prisoner for today.”

40. “Get out.”

a/n: anon i am so sorry. u said it would be funny i - it took a turn and i couldnt save it im so sorry

“Nana?”

Aria knocked gently on Jaemin’s closed bedroom door with one hand, rapping her knuckles against the dark wood while her other hand balanced a plate in her palm precariously.

There was no response heard through the door, and Aria frowned. She raised her fist again, knocking once again. “Jaemin? You asleep?”

A low groan sounded this time, and Aria could hear the rustling of his bed sheets.

“Can I come in?”

“No.” Jaemin’s voice was rough with unuse, petulant to the point where Aria could hear the pout she knew he was donning in his tone.

“Too bad,” Aria shrugged, hand pressing the door handle open regardless, “Please don’t be naked.”

A spluttered sound came from inside the room when Aria pushed open the door, eyes trained on the ground. Stepping inside, the door closed behind her with a soft click and she heard the tell-tale rustle of Jaemin’s bedsheets that he was trying to adjust himself into a sitting position.

“Nana,” Aria scolded, turning briefly to place the plate down on the desk on the opposite side of the room before crossing the floor in three quick strides to make it to Jaemin’s bedside. Her hands reached out to help him lift himself but stopped in mid-air when a glare was sent her way.

“Get out.”

Aria could tell the words were meant to be cold, but they just came out petulant when accompanied by the slight whine Jaemin let out immediately following another attempt to push himself upright.

“Oh shush,” Aria muttered, hands slipping underneath the sheet to place one on the small of his back and using the other to press his shoulders up. Slowly, Jaemin shuffled into a more sitting-like position, back pillowed up by several pillows that had been gathered onto his bed from around the dorm.

The Dreamies had banded together and collected what pillows they could spare - Jisung offering both pillows from his bed until Jeno reminded him that he actually needed one of those if he didn’t want to have neck pain every single morning for the foreseeable future.

Stepping back from Jaemin, Aria placed her hands on her hips, eyebrow cocked at the boy who laid sheepishly in his bed, covers tucked underneath his chin.

“How’re you feeling?” Aria asked.

“I’m alright,” Jaemin said, dismissing her with a shrug.

“So. Do you want to explain why you’ve spent the last two weeks moping in your bedroom and I had to find out about it after coming back from practice today? Or shall I find Injunnie and let him explain?” Aria said, head tilted to the left.

Jaemin’s eyes fell away from Aria’s face, suddenly finding interest in the pattern-less sheets that covered his bed. His fingers played with the off-white material while his teeth nibbled on his bottom lip.

Aria let out a sigh, moving to sit on the edge of his bed. It sank slightly underneath her weight, and Aria shuffled backwards so she was sitting comfortably.

“Nana, it’s ok. It sucks. I know.”

“Do you?”

Aria looked up surprised, eyebrows furrowing as she looked at Jaemin’s face. There were deep purple rings beneath his eyes but his skin was clearer; the lack of make-up was doing him good. Slightly thinner - the look all of them get when they’d been too busy to find time to eat a meal. By the plate on the floor beside his bed, still with a good deal of food on it - Aria wasn’t sure if it was the lack of time or the lack of desire.

He looked tired, but also ticked, like something she’d said had rubbed him the wrong way.

“I don’t think you do.” Jaemin’s voice wasn’t angry, but his words held weight to them regardless.

Aria sat back slightly, taken aback by the sudden change of tone. “What-”

“I don’t think you understand this at all,” Jaemin interrupted her, pushing himself further upright with another small wince. “I don’t think a single person understands what its like to be told, a year after debuting that I’m going to have to take a six month or more hiatus. I don’t think you understand that I’m sitting her, watching you all go to practice and learn new dance routines and promote; and I’m being left behind. I don’t think you get the fact that it feels like I’ve been gut punched, and then told to walk it off!”

“Nana no that’s not what’s happening-”

“It is! It is what’s happening and you’re lying to me when you say it’s not. Its like trainee days but worse because I can’t even go to the practice room. Hell, I can’t even go home because the company doesn’t want me seen outside. So I’m stuck here, alone, no one else in the dorms for the most part of the day, can’t go see my family like you normally can on a hiatus, can’t do anything except sit here and be useless! Do you know what that’s like? I can’t see my parents, I can’t practice, I can’t do what I trained to do for years and you’re telling me that you understand? Bullshit.” Jaemin was yelling now, all the words that had been building up exploding on the wrong person.

Aria felt her teeth break the skin of her lip.

“So,forgive me, for staying in my room all day. I just didn’t fancy having to drag you all away from practice to make sure I didn’t fall over myself on the way to the bathroom.” With a resounding bite in his words, Jaemin settled himself against the pillow again.

It seemed like the conversation was over, Jaemin with his gaze fixed downwards on his extended legs. Aria kept her eyes upwards, blinking rapidly. But the fact that they were both still sitting in silence made the atmosphere fill up with tension like a bubbling pot that was half an inch away from an overflow.

Jaemin had his hands folded in his lap, fingers toying with the unravelling string on the hem of his t-shirt as he refused to look back up.

The pot boiled.

“I’m sorry.”

That, was not what he was expecting.

“I’m sorry, that was insensitive of me. You’re right, I don’t know what it feels like.”

Suddenly, Jaemin was simultaneously infinitely grateful and incredibly disappointed that it was Aria whom he was having this conversation with.

Had it been Donghyuck, he could only imagine the screaming match it would have turned into. Donghyuck was always quick to lose his cool when someone was being uncooperative, and Jaemin was looking to get a rise out of someone. It wasn’t even that Jaemin was unwilling to talk to them anymore, it was the fact that he insinuated the fact that they didn’t care about him? Donghyuck would have brought the walls down; and Jaemin doesn’t know if that’s something he craved at this moment or not.

Renjun would have simply turned around and left the second Jaemin got huffy - the older boy had minimal patience for things like this, and liked to remove himself from the situation before he said something he would regret.

Aria, on the other hand, would sit there and let Jaemin yell at her for however long he needed to with her head bowed and hands in her lap. She wouldn’t yell back, wouldn’t rise to meet his anger but would sit there calmly until it fizzled out like a candle wick burned down to the end, wax spilling over slowly until it hardened and became stagnant once more.

Jaemin didn’t think he really wanted to yell; not anymore.

Aria still wasn’t looking at him, choosing instead to focus her gaze on the top of his headboard. Her eyes were darting back and forth slightly, like she wanted to look down at him but kept thinking better of it.

“I don’t know what it feels like, but what I do know is that it’s not going to get better if you hole yourself up in a room for six months,” Aria explained, hands curling into fists.

“The only thing you’re doing is making it worse, Nana. So so much worse for yourself - we don’t care about having to help you do things, we don’t care about being a few minutes late to practice because you needed something from the kitchen and just couldn’t face getting up again; we don’t care. And I need you to look at me right now and tell me you understand that.”

Jaemin looked at her.

“We don’t care,” Aria spoke softer now. “What we care about is the fact that you’re in pain right now, and we care about what we can do to help you fix that.”

Jaemin let his face scrunch up, a retort forming on the tip of his tongue.

“There’s no shame in asking for help, Jaemin.”

Jaemin sunk, boneless, into the pillows supporting him - a crack being multiplied by ten and suddenly shattering. The pot boiled, spilling over the sides and splashing down. Tears spilled over Jaemin’s cheeks, shoulders shaking as a fist was shoved into his mouth to stop himself from making a sound.

“Oh, Nana,” Aria’s voice was saddened, a deep blue colour as she moved to lie beside Jaemin on the bed while being careful not to jostle the boy. “Please don’t cry, it’s okay.”

Jaemin only cried harder, teeth making indents in his skin until his hand was puled gently but insistently from his mouth and was being held in Aria’s hands. With no muffler there, a sob ripped itself from his chest and he choked at the force of it.

Aria only moved closer, pushing herself up the bed slightly to allow Jaemin to hide his face in her chest as he cried.

Jaemin shook through his cries, Aria running a hand through his hair the entire time. It was knotted, like he hadn’t brushed through it in a few days and she made a note to bring in one of their hairbrushes later on when he was asleep.

Slowly, his sobs petered out into small sniffles, Aria’s shirt soaked through but she paid no mind to the wet material sticking to her skin. Her back ached slightly from the odd position she had forced herself into to ensure that Jaemin wouldn’t be twisted uncomfortably.

Jaemin’s breaths evened out again over the next ten minutes or so, eventually to the point that Aria was sure that the boy had fallen asleep until he shifted slightly to look up at her from his position lying on her chest.

His red eyes were stark against his pale skin, and Aria never thought she’d be jealous of how prettily someone cried and yet here she was.

Jaemin rubbed at his nose slightly with the corner of his sheet, sniffling and then sneezing when the loose ends tickled his nose. He let out a watery laugh, throat clogged slightly and he cleared it when Aria began to smile despite herself.

He choked out another weak laugh before pressing himself back into Aria’s side.

The air stilled around them, the pot taken off the heat and now cooling in the aftermath.

Aria kept her hand carding through his hair, letting her other hand move to rub gently at Jaemin’s ear in a soothing gesture now that she didn’t need to keep herself elevated slightly.

Her arms ached, but she paid no mind to it, instead choosing to delicately open their little pocket of serenity.

“You’re so important to us, Nana. You can’t forget that.”

Jaemin declined to respond, instead choosing to hide his face further into the material of Aria’s clothes.

“Even if this hiatus takes seven, or eight months. Or a year. There’s always a place for you in Dream. Always.”

This time Jaemin sniffled, still refusing to speak but let his hand come up from underneath the sheets to intertwine with Aria’s. She squeezed it lightly, holding it tight in her grasp.

They stayed that way for another while, Jaemin slowly falling into sleep while Aria pet his hair.

“Nana,” Aria whispered, moving closer so that he would hear her.

Jaemin made a small hum in acknowledgement.

“I have to go prep dinner for the others, they should be back soon.” Aria apologized.

There was nothing for a second, and then Jaemin was craning up to look back at Aria; eyes wide and sparkling.

“Stay?”

Aria stayed.

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hayjeon · 4 years

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Practical Tips on getting your fics out there!

I’ve gotten an influx of these types of questions here recently, and the more i thought about what i was gonna add, it became really long :(

disclaimer: a lot of the things i bring up are just from personal experience as a writer on this site, what my followers have told me they appreciate, and what i tend to look for when im looking for fics to read! If you don’t like these tips then pls move on :)

although i’ll mention them, i’m also not going to be focusing on cliche tips like “write for yourself” or “grammar issues” cause those are pretty obvious!

1. accessibility of your blog

when you’re trying to get your name out there, make sure that you’re creating an inviting experience for any potential followers! this includes:

a memorable url! be creative!

have some fun designing your blog’s aesthetic! (i love cute blogs because it reflects a bit of the writer’s personality), and (i prefer blogs with white backgrounds because it’s easier to look through/read, say, in contrast to a pitch black one where the words need to be white!)

put your masterlist link in your bio (even better if you can link most recent fic! found this most helpful when i revisit authors that i like and can easily see if they’ve updated or not)

an organized and easy-to-navigate masterlist (personally, i prefer masterlists organized by band, instead of types of fics ie. i hate when i have to choose between drabbles, oneshots, and series masterlists; i really prefer to see them altogether!) --> see section 3

organized tags (if you’re going to be posting a lot of non-fic-related content like pictures or videos, tag them properly so followers can sort through and find your fics easily!), or (if you’re going to be writing in different mediums like drabbles, or answering asks, make sure to use a unified #mine or #writing or #fics to centralize your content)

2. get your name out there!

write write write! once you have some fics that show your talent, don’t be shy!

join writing groups: when i first started out, I joined a bunch of groups that would reblog my fics in the midst of the content of much bigger writers; these blogs developed a following, and as a result of my content mixing in with bigger blogs’ content, so did my own tumblr! there’s been a stigma recently with these groups, but im sure you can find one thats supportive and not clique-y!

send your fics to rec pages: what’s the harm? the only bad thing that can happen is that they ignore you! who cares! get out there!

if you can do the above, i really encourage you to ask your fave writers for advice/to read your fic: again, the worst that can happen is that they say no or don’t respond or don’t have enough time, but it’ll be a good opportunity to get some feedback! i for one read (or try to read) every single rec that falls into my inbox. if i like it, i’ll #rec it, and if i don’t, unless the writer asks me for feedback, i move on!!

utilize your tags!!: i’m not entirely sure if this is still the same or not, but from my memory, it’s the first 3-5 tags that matter the most? so utilize them well; push back the tags that aren’t really relevant (ie. #writing, #fics) and push more the main subject line of what you wrote (ie. jungkook fluff, bts smut, namjoon angst). these will populate your fics into the tags better!

headers!: when i’m scrolling through an infinite page of fics, the headers catch my eye the most; try being creative! you can find a lot of info out there on how to make ur headers super aesthetic, but i can share my tips too! --> see section 3

3. your masterlist

here are some practical tips!

organize by band, not type of fic/member/centralize your masterlist: i went onto a blog recently and clicked their bio mlist link to find a page full of 20~ish “JUNGKOOK MASTERLIST”/ “JAEHYUN MASTERLIST” and when i clicked on each one, they only had like 2 or 3 fics per member. i think it would’ve been better if she’d centralized all her fics! that keeps whoever is looking interested and more likely to click on another fic while browsing

add info about the fics!: when scrolling through a masterlist, it’s easy to get lost; try to add some snippets of info (ie. a short sentence you liked from the fic, a quick summary, a description of the au/scenario, or even a header!) this all gives some info about the fics you have tagged!

headers: this isn’t a requirement, but i personally love a good header on fics i read and i love making them myself as i finish up a fic and get ready to upload it; here are free sources: unsplash for HQ stock pics, crop/edit/filter in VSCO, and then add aesthetic script with fontcandy)

try to fill it up!: after i visit a blog after reading one good fic, i usually browse through their mlist to see if there are any more that i’d be interested in. if there’s a lot to look forward to, i’ll almost always follow; try to write as much as you can in the first few months to try and fill up your mlist and give blog viewers a reason to visit your blog again, follow, or even reblog your content!)

4. try not to reproduce cliche fics:

honestly tumblr’s writing community (and armys) has grown insanely these past few years and, unfortunately, even from my perspective, in the past 3-4 years, all the writers have sort of become blended together in my brain. but, i can say that the ones who consistently stand out are the ones who produce consistent content and think outside of the box!

i tend to gravitate towards fics that have really interesting plotlines (ex. btssavedmylifeblr’s VOID is always a surprise to read because it’s sO unique! i usually don’t read ot7 fics but this one is legit my fave)

I know it’s tempting to try and just write typical smut fics to try and gain some traction, but tumblr is already too overloaded by that kind of content; try to write something that’s special and unique! this will set u apart from the thousands of other writers here --> see next section

5. create unique fics:

this is also personal to my writing style, but i get so bored writing just casual fics about the members, and it affects the fics i choose to read too; i prefer unique fics which you can achieve through:

circumstance/au: create a fun au!; don’t just create an arranged marriage, create an arranged marriage in joseon dynasty, or between a werewolf and a hunter! (shameless self plug); don’t just give me friends to lovers, but give me spiderman!jungkook friends to lovers! (ie. cupofteaguk’s exchanges)

jobs: give them out-of-the-ordinary jobs; don’t just give me enemies to lovers, but give me rival!anchors who end up loving eachother! (ie. jimlingss The Newscasters)

fun dialogue: create good back-and-forth, (something i’m still working on!)! this will help your characters develop personality, and that way, readers will start to develop that themselves as well (ie. dad!yoongi from insemination wars by prolixitae is such a specific character that i love so much!, or obiwrites’ garden characters were so memorable!)

create memorable personalities: don’t give me a flat character, try to develop 4d personalities in all of your characters! (im still working on this too!) this way you can really make an impression on your followers! a great way to practice/recognize this is: “Ask my Character.” Can your followers ask a specific character a specific question, and would you be able to deliver an answer that is very specific to that character’s tone/voice/personality? If yes, then ur doing well! If not, try to think of ways that you can make tht specific character from a specific story, really unique and separate from your other characters.

6. some practical writing tips

be yourself, write for your own pleasure, blah blah blah; yeah you know already haha but here are a few more practical tips!

grammar check: if you can, try and hone your grammar! makes for an easier read

write like you: i personally LOVE this by obiwrites, but even the way she writes exudes her personality and is so specific; try not to be caught up in adding hundreds of synonyms and exquisite language; in fact, simpling it down and being more concise and honest with your writing is better than a superfluous sentence; this will also give ur characters so much more dimension and funk

use those commas/sentence variation: try to use more commas; this will feel like you’re the narrator to your own story; it also makes it more fluid to read in my opinion, over those short. clipped. sentences. (ie. “he came over, sitting down on the corner of your bed with an expression you’d never seen before” over “he walked over. he sat down, looking sad.”)

half-half dialogue/narration: a fic with too much dialogue can get confusing, and a fic with too much narration can get dry; try to balance them out, and weave in and out of each!

quality over quantity: don’t feel burdened to write a 30k word fic. in fact, i think some of the shorter fics (ie. any of versigny’s stuff) made a bigger impression on me over the longer fics because they were short, left me wanting more, and were just so high-quality in such small quantities. try out your hand at drabbles and one-shots, and don’t feel too burdened to try and develop a series right off the bat!

abandon pigeon-holes: i’m guilty of this; i start series and then end up with no vision for the stories and they end up giving me writers block. its okay. just stop or discontinue them or leave them on a hiatus; it’s okay. your priority is yourself, and if abandoning certain works are part of that, then go ahead. it’ll help you progress more.

and finally.......

i’ll add more as they come up! but if you liked this, then pls lmk! i’d love to give more tips and tricks; i think i started this blog 3-4 years ago when there weren’t as many writers here, but im glad you’re thinking of starting out/wanting to grow more! don’t feel intimidated! it’s not all about the notes/followers but creating a blog you’re proud of.

so write what you’re proud of, or interested in, and keep going. i truly thoroughly had so much fun writing this post. if there are any writers who read through this and have some more advice, pls msg me!

all the best to you!

#writing tips #story talk #if ur a writer pls lmk if theres anything u wanna add #if ur a reader then pls lmk any questions or comments!

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lesmismignon · 3 years

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replying to anon messages

In this post I shall reply to the messages that have been sitting in my inbox for a regrettably long period of time. (It is loooooong. Please click “keep reading” at your own risk.)

I’m not a very good correspondent. I’m very sorry. I never know what to say right off the bat, and then during 2019 and 2020 when I was mostly on hiatus, I would just post a chapter or two and poof back out, and on Tumblr I would browse a few things and then poof back out. I do not have a good track record with social media and online presence in general. And with real life problems (mostly due to work), at worst it was impossible to muster even the strength to write. It was maddening.

But there is something about Hellsing and its fandom that reels me back in even when I am far away. Excuse me if this sounds cheesy, but for me fandoms are like the orbit of a comet. If it is something that you loved, and will continue to love even when you are not “active” on it, you will come back to it, someday, somehow. I’ll always be grateful to Hellsing, for being an inspiration to write, for being a bridge to some of my dearest relationships, for some of the kindest messages I’ve ever received in my life.

you freed yourself for a job that was not good for you and related to toxic people (Integra-like – demanding the respect you deserve). That is badass brave – and that doesn’t become less by that fact that maybe the next job you got is not the end of the journey but still part of the way. And you are brave by sharing your work, sharing your stories revealing parts of your emotional world to the outside – that is totally bad as too. I think you can be very proud of you, really. So maybe right now, you might be in situation that does not yet make you happy in way you deserve it. But you know- there is big chance that this is part of your journey to this place – imagine, in some time from now, you may be a successful (brilliant you are already) author and in an interview you say something like “yes, back there in 2016/17 I went through some tough times, that influenced the work very much I got this price for today”. So just in case you maybe cannot see it right now yourself – please allow me to tell you – you are brave and wonderful. And re. the brave decision you mentioned – I know I am not in the position to tell you anything – but please do not do any harm to you. So, thank you so much for your work you share with the world, my life is better with it. Take care for yourself, you deserve the best. (so sorry, I am really not good with words, hope you get my point….)

Anon, this was the kindest thing you could have ever done for little 2016/17 me. Oh God. Time does fly by so fast. I want you to know that I read this message a long time ago, and it gave me strength to go on, even though I’m not sure if I am so brave, to be compared to our lady Integra >< I hope you are happy and safe, wherever you are. I hope you know how brave and wonderful *you* are. Thank you so much.

just wanted to drop by and say I love all your fanfictions! You capture Integra and Alucard's characters so well; I LOVE it. Take all the time you need updating. You deserve it. And good luck at your job! <3

Ah, I probably changed jobs like twice since then. But they have been all good and meaningful in their own ways. I really did not mean to take THIS long in updating but I hope that you enjoyed the recent updates if you are still reading, thank you so much!

Why can I not write here? I just wanted you to know I am grateful for the reading joys that are 'Snow White' and 'Satis'...

Thank you Anon! I am so glad you enjoyed them!

I LOVE SATIS SO MUCH YOUR WRITING IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND FLOWY AND IT MAKES ME CRY PLEASE KEEP UP THE BRILLIANT WORK!!

Thank you Anon! You give me too much praise, but I shall indeed try to keep it up!

Hey so please don't take this as me pressuring you but I absolutely adore Satis! Is there any chance we might know when the next update is coming in? Totally understand if not- it sounds like work is taking a lot out of you and I understand that you're writing fan fiction purely for fun but DAMN IF I DON'T WANT TO READ MORE OF YOUR FIC OMG I LOVE IT SO MUCH ASDFGHJKL!!!

I’m sorry it’s been ages! I’ll tell you my schedule(???) for this year instead! For this year of 2021 I really hope to average maybe at least 1 chapter a month but I don’t know how I’ll fare during the busy months. I hope you enjoyed the recent chapters if you are still reading!

@fierce-little-miana Can you believe that I have just noticed that I had given you any kudos for Snow White or Satis?! Sorry! Your stories are really worth all the praise we can give them. (so I corrected it) Have a nice day!

Thank you! I’m terribly sorry for this late reply. You’ve been so kind and sent so many lovely messages. Thank you again for each and every one of them!

@sinish-tem Hey sorryy for bothering you but. That ALutegra fic was AMAZING!!I LOVE IT!Amazing job sport<3

You’re not bothering me at all! Thank you old sport!

So I don't mean to rush you or be annoying or anything, but is Satis still happening? (plz plz say yes)

You’re not being annoying! I’m sorry it took so long! Yes :)

Hello! So, um, I have to ask... is Satis going to be updated? It’s just that it’s one of my absolute favorite stories by my absolute favorite author!

Thank you! I’m honored! I hope you enjoyed the recent chapters if you’re still reading!

Hi! Are you still around? Are you doing ok?

Yes, I am fine now, thank you :) I hope you are doing well, too!

@aniphine Hi! First off, I want to say that I absolutely love your writing style and am so looking forward to diving into all of your fics! I just finished Satis and it’s definitely in my Top 10 Fanfics ever, which is saying something! Thanks so much for writing it. On that note, I wanted to ask if you had plans to update it? If not, that’s totally cool - what you’ve written already is fantastic. But if so, I’d pledge my life to you in order to get a chance at reading more. 😆 Anyhoo, you’re awesome! 👋

Thank you so much! You are awesome too! I’m honored that Satis is in your top 10!!

@dontfuckingfollowmeifpornblog You still around?

I am now! Thank you!

@comixqueen Hello have I told you that I really love your Hellsing fics? ;u;/ They're among the best out there and I reread them often!

Thank you very much. That means a lot to me from you. Thank you for rereading, I’m always wary of my earlier writing but I’m glad if people still enjoy them.

I have never squealed higher than when I received the notification for the new chapter of Satis. You are a true blessing <3 thank you for your words

You are a blessing! Thank you so much!

Hello! I know you're not very active around here, but I just saw a trailer for a movie based on the letters of Vita and Virginia, and I was immediately reminded of Satis and the quotes you so expertly used in the narration, and I thought I might tell you in case you're interested in the movie (the title is literally Vita and Virginia) <3

Thank you Anon! I did see the trailer! I haven’t seen the movie yet though, but I will, eventually! I am so glad you think I did the quotes justice! It’s such a beautiful quote.

Not sure how to start this, might be a little bold, and yet; let me simply say that I am in love with your written works. In fact, so much so that I read it all again, and again. It never ceases to amaze. And as for you, the person behind it all, you do seem immensely precious as well. I hope that you have the most fantastic day, you deserve no less.

Anon, you are so very kind. Thank you so much for your lovely words. I am just an ordinary person unusually invested in a particular set of fictional characters xD and I am often late to things and a bad correspondent, but I must be doing something right if you’re sending me a message as lovely as this. Thank you again, I hope you are having fantastic days as well.

Honestly ive read your snow white fic years ago but I loved it insanely much and im about to read it again today ^.^

Thank you Anon! Ah, Snow White. I am very glad you still enjoy it. It is so old, and I wish I had the courage to edit it and spruce it up, or even update an extra or two...

Are you ever planning to continue Satis? I’m in love with that piece of work.

Thank you Anon! Yes! I hope you enjoyed the recent chapters!

My literal text to a friend of mine that's also a fan of Satis when I got the AO3 mail about the new chapter was: "NOW THEY'RE FINALLY STARTING TO BE *HAPPY* HOLIDAYS"

I am very glad I was able to bring you holiday cheer. Would it be bold of me if I say I aim to bring you non-holiday cheer as well, now? xD Thank you so much!

HEY JUST CAME HERE TO SAY I LOVE SATIS, OKAY BYYYYE

HELLO ANON! THANK YOUUUUU

#anon #reply

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freckliephil · 5 years

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is it ok to not be able to get rid of a small fear of dnp revealing they’re single/dating other people soon. like i /want/ to be positive but i’ve been rooting for them for so long that i’ll probably just be a little heartbroken if they’re not together anymore. i know people don’t like breakup discourse and i don’t want to fuel that, just want to talk about the one fear i can’t get rid of even though i’m trying not to be too emotionally invested.

i get the fear, i really do. its kinda like how dan mentioned in his video: people get invested in the story of their lives, but at the end of the day they're real people. they could metaphorically pull the rug from under us any day, and then this whole thing falls apart and we're left with a miserable toxic fandom and a bad taste in our mouth. ive been there. when 1d split, when glee started turning into a shitshow, when supernatural got renewed for an 8th season, ect ect. it sucks, its a bad feeling to lose something you really had stake in, especially when it comes as a shock.

the thing is, fear is one thing. fear will be there any time you're in fandom bc it's something you can't control and its a community a lot of people count on, so the thought that that could dissapear is scary. but this fear can't be the lens you observe from, and especially with dan and phil, because they haven't given us any reason to be afraid of them.

i was talking about this with @freckliedan -- a couple months ago, den and i were talking about how the way they've been acting for the past year has been leading up to something big (go back and watch the christmas liveshow that came right before hiatus, they gave us SO many hints). and now think about how toxic fandom got between these last few months, and how everyone was losing trust for no reason (dan kept saying he was coming back, they NEVER implied the gaming channel was done, they've repeatedly said that they love working together and nothing was changing in a bad way. they've been preparing us for this coming out for a whole year). people got mad, sad, afraid, and ripped each other apart for even dreaming a positive outcome such as the one they just gave us. i remember bc i was one of the people saying "hey occam's razor- maybe they're coming out?" and people genuinely ran me off tumblr for even saying that.

they came out together, two weeks apart. dan called phil his soulmate. the part in basically i'm gay where he talks about phil is genuinely one of the most romantic and soft things i've ever heard. they're going to pride and vidcon and vegas together, they've both been so supportive over the other's work, and they've taken every single step together in this process. do yourself a favor and go back and watch any video from 2018 and tell me it doesn't watch the same as, say, a jenna and julien vid, or any other youtube couple. they're together, they're happy, and they don't need to kiss on screen or explicitly tell us every detail of their relationship for us to trust them. the most obvious answer is that they're both gay and have been together the whole time. dan basically told us that with his words (if you don't overanalyze everything out of fear), and they've been telling us with their actions for years. they always choose each other. they're together in everything. they're partners.

and to just give u some comfort, think about the dan and phil we just met in "basically im gay" and "coming out to you", and think about the dan and phil we've known for years. when have they ever, ever, ever pulled the rug out from under us in a bad way? dan and phil going separate ways or saying they're not together, after literally all this, would be the biggest shock in the world to me, which is why i know its probably not going to happen. they love us, like, a lot, and this isn't a drama tv show where breakups and stuff like that are just fun little character development opportunities. they know we care about them and look up to their relationship, and if that wasn't something they were going to highlight in their content anymore, they wouldn't be sneaky about it. they wouldn't make promises like bringing back the gaming channel or yearly mukbangs or continuing baking vids if they didn't plan to. they've always been so very good to us, and i highly doubt that they both went through all the work of coming out to millions of people on the internet just so that they can stop doing that.

#u gotta trust them #thats my take #asks #anon

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pinksweatergettingbetter · 7 years

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warning, the following has mainly snarky (and possibly furious) opinions on Spirit of Justice. Reader discretion is advised.

alright. part two, here we go

“she’s safe”

“I’m afraid you’ve lost me”

the words ‘maya’ and ‘safe’ do not go together in phoenix’s dictionary

...Phoenix’s phone has caller ID??

ooh a phone vocal-blip. cute

ok fuck you how is the Benefactor keeping tabs on them?? Did Atishon use his One Phone Call to report to headquarters or something???

“I admit, I didn’t see that coming”

well spoilers guys I know who the benefactor is, and they have to be pretty fucking stupid not to know that a spirit medium is needed for this.

“its your friendly neighbourhood dragon”

no dhurke, youre not cool enough to be spiderman.

“you cant lay a hand on maya fey, and i mean literally”

>foreboding

[sighs deeply]

guys. just. fucking call edgeworth. he’s chief prosecutor of america and his sister is part of INTERPOL. call edgeworth and just. fix the fucking problem. right now.

“No time to explain”

ggghhghghhghghgh

...oh. there’s edgeworth

...............now watch him be completely fucking useless

.......ARE YOU KIDDING ME

PHOENIX /DID/ CALL EDGEWORTH THE MOMENT MAYA WAS KIDNAPPED AND HE STILL WENT THROUGH HIS FUCKING “DUHHH BETTER DEFEND THIS OBVIOUS CRIMINAL” SHIT??

oh edgeworth. you and your chartered planes.

whenever he does that i like to imagine he hired MJN air.

Edgeworth...

A) Why are you letting Dhurke be involved? Just cut him out, send Franziska and Lang in with a team of guys and kick the shit out of the enemy

B) You don’t need to conceal someone on a charter jet. You chartered it. You can do whatever the fuck you want with it. Besides, Dhurke got into the country p easily, he can get out the same way.

C) Dhurke is a criminal. Depending on what he’s done as a rebel, he could be as guilty in your country as his home country. Why are you acting like he’s innocent? Aren't you kind of by-the-book?

oh yeah and despite the fact that they’ve updated Phoenix’s sprite, Miles still looks like a frozen plank of wood. Thanks :\

Apollo: Sorry Trucy, guess you have to hold all the unnecessary evidence and hold down the fort and be LEFT BEHIND FOR A CHANGE AAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

oh. this is a really nice garden.

the drama theme is kinda harshing the mellow tho

o hai rayfa

um. what the fuck. that mask must make it pretty difficult to do shit pal

Garan, whilst ordering her henchmen online: drama queen or king preferred

UR DIARRHOEA, GAH-RAHN

cool theme, love the use of the royal “we”.

“what about those guards over there”

“ohh, just prepared to fuck shit u–– iii mean help you haha.”

yeahhh... I'm not buying her super calm “my husband is a kidnapper” attitude.

UIGSFILGFLIS DHURKE YOU FUCKING MORON

god he’s such a useless piece of shit. unless he’s trying to get taken so that he can be taken to... idk, wherever Maya is held in some sort of Gambit, he’s a real moron for just up and outing himself like that.

BAAAAARBED HEAD. YOU HAVE SOME SPLAAAAAAAAININ TO DOOOO

man why do they even give us other options if we can’t use them???

“Dhurke... I sure hope he’s alright”

hey apollo wanna hear a secret

i dont

Phoenix externally: Patience, Apollo, patience.

Phoenix internally: we are so screwed at any moment the queen could be all “OFF WITH YOUR HEAD” and i’ll never see trucy or maya again jesus holy mother buddha help me

i love that Garananana is kinda just chilling with them. You got more important shit to do, queenie. like being evil

also open your goddamn mouth once in a while, sheesh

Apollo: I hope no one gets hurt

The entire series of ace attorney as a whole: oh honey

wait ... INGA HAD A RATTAIL?!

ohhh yesss listen to those punches

why couldn’t they have animated it too ;w;

phew. im glad Maya’s ok.

yeesh... poor Rayfa.

i love that even apollo’s like “fuck dad, you didn't kill him, did you?????”

its a beautiful contrast to how adamant he was about Trucy not killing Manov.

um, soundtrack, now is not the time for Grand Revival. I know Edgeworth is on screen but the shit he’s saying is far, far from uplifting.

“it seems prosecutor sahdmadhi has grown quite fond of her”

nooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

“they’ve almost become a team of sorts”

ok so mark Ema down on the list of AJ characters who will never be seen again after this game.

fuck man i’d even take Klema over this

can you imagine if they'd split up Apollo/Phoenix Edgeworth/Athena instead

i really wonder how Athena and Edgeworth would interact. Athena’s spunky enough to be a bit like Kay I suppose, so maybe similar to that.

again, Kooraheen’s detention centre theme is really quite pretty

too bad i have to look at Dhurke’s face while listening to it

...a tasty... hash house

oh apollo’s up for that

well tbh if i was him i could use some hash after all this shit

yEAH YOU TELL’IM APOLLO

SMARTEN THAT BASTARD UP

god apollo he’s not worth it. i’d say leave the fucker to his fate but i guess it is important to find the real killer... sigh

apparently queen Amara liked insensitive fuckbags with masculinity issues

oh well. to each their own.

>:( don’t compare Dhurke’s story to Phoenix’s, Apollo

“you ran?! but why?!!”

oh i dunno, athena, maybe the fucking death penalty?????

hang the fuck on

are you telling me that Dhurke started making trips to his shitty abandoned law office via sewer... while Apollo was still with him?!

Like what fucking reason would he have to drag him down there?! The place is an archive/resistance base, but Apollo and Sadmad lived in the mountains as children; why the fuck would he take his /kids/ into town at the risk of having them all arrested at once?!

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM, DHURKE

that orb better be a fucking laser or some shit cause I'm really tired of hearing about it

oh......... hi sadmad..................... what a pleasure to see you........... again................

just as fucking pleasant as ever

i love that Dhurke is like “what happened to fighting the man, son??”

like even if he is a double agent he can’t very well just be like “psst I'm still on your side!!!!” in front of the fucking guard

i hate that dhurke’s face is so placid during this too.

“Son, why did you betray me? Also how was the sports game?”

“The Nahyuta you knew exists no more”

yeah sure sadblackworth, whatever you say

oh well that was abrupt

meh, onwards to the tomb

“No, that’s the holy mother. She’s the one who brought spirit channeling to Khura’in”

oh so you mean Ami Fey.

oh ema... i’ll miss you while youre off being Sadmad’s lapdog

“You mean His Ephemeral Holiness?”

Yes, Ema, fight it!!! Fight it!!!!!!

“But when he manages a smile and compliments my work, it’s hard to say no.”

...nuts.

wait what do you mean the defendant is someone you know

you met Dhurke like once a day ago

aw apollo took the locked-room-mystery words right out of my mouth. i love him so. why are they going to take him away?

alrihgt back to this shit after like a 3 month hiatus or something

i love how chill everyone is talking about Maya’s kidnapping

“oh yeah he brought her here to the tomb so nobody would see. sensible thing to do. oh also maya almost died but i guess that’s nbd”

casually opens a tomb

casually opens the sarcophagus hangings

casually tries to open the sarcophagus when told there’s a mummy inside

apollo, you're contracting douche-itis from everyone else. this old family of yours is a bad influence.

...we’re gonna yeet this sarcophagus arent we

i love that Amara’s just kinda. depicted standing there as she’s burned to death. i mean i guess theyre trying to preserve her beauty and dignity in death but it also makes her look like an idiot who didnt try to escape the flames.

ooh i like that last one though

pff thats a pretty well-equipped corpse line

“Where’d the other three bullets go?”

“Maybe Dhurke ate them?”

if he did they'd better have a VERY good explanation

“the poor guy”

EMA

HE WAS HOLDING MAYA HOSTAGE

“the cuffs of justice”

love it

“just one of those traditions people do and they dont know the reason why”

“like rolling up your sleeves?”

“or your psychology, if we’re going there” HE FUCKING WENT THERE

OOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE YOU APOLLO

“he said grape juice has something in it that helps you relax”

are we going into grape juice lore here

"Really? ...Um, are you sure he was talking about regular, plain old grape juice?”

Yes, actually, Athena. It’s canonical that it is /actual off-the-vine welsh’s good ol’ sippy cup grape juice/. It’s not a metaphor or a censoring for kids, it’s just juice.

Of course, this is written by the DDSOJ staff. And considering the intense, dark n’ gritty action makeover the series got, I wouldn’t put it past them to retcon the juice into the... “fermented variety”. thanks Athena.

Yayyy not only do they write shitty dads, but they have to retroactively en-shitten Phoenix as an alcoholic father. Gosh, I sure do love these guys.

(obviously this isn’t a dig at anyone who head canons gj as wine, there’s a difference between head canons and malicious retconning.)

hmm interesting mechanic for this chair. i guess since you can’t stuff it in your inventory you cant do the ‘look all over’ thing. but on the other hand, they REALLY wanted to impress you with that hidden blood.

Ema: [performs a blood test in 2 seconds] I didn’t get a match!

Well probably not in that time, babe

i have to commend them on the little cutscene though that was nice.

again, i guess Amara really liked emotionally stunted fuckwads

the devil horns are a bit much, though.

oh damn.

thats a nice ass pendant

...oh thats blood

well, it sets off the pink and gold quite nicely. and its a butterfly... seems like something Dahlia would wear

“speak of the devil...”

speak of the devil indeed. hiiiiiii sadmad... its been a while.

oh ok he didnt say anything

also i find it funny that apollos like “Wait!! wait!! damnit, after him!”

and then you just. go back into the talk menu with Ema. bit of a moment killer, there.

“why does everything have to be so difficult with you?”

cause hes a prosecutor, apollo. thats just how it is on this bitch of an earth

“the law is the law. placing personal feelings above it is beyond reprieve”

ah but placing religion above it is totally fine. gotcha yuts

“And the winner is... prosecutor Sahdmadi!”

helpful, athena

“it’s like he’s trying to cover something up with his pretty words!”

oh did you mean the inevitable reveal that he's actually a good guy and we have to forgive him for being a shitwad?

oh wow. that joke post about sadmad developing generalized anxiety was actually based on a legit thing that happened

is it ok if i hate him even more for it? i mean how did he figure it out? he didn’t let apollo use it in court so where would he have gained the knowledge? unless he knows about Thalassa’s abilities...

...also, how /is/ he doing this? the way Perceive works isn’t just “i can sense that you’re uncomfortable”, it’s that people who can use it have extremely good eye-sight and see tiny little movements in other people. If they’re smart about it, they can tell that the movements mean the enemy is lying. Apollo just happens to get tense when he notices this, most likely because he’s kind of straining his eyes.

But then again that brings up the fact that his power would act up CONSTANTLY, either because EVERYBODY FIDGETS, or Apollo himself could just be stressed and making the bracelet squeeze on its own.

So thanks, SOJ. Not content with ruining Apollo’s canon, you’ve also got to ruin his cool lawyer power. Gosh, you’re just the gift that keeps on giving, aren’t you?

“Powerless in the face of the Holy Mother’s blessings”

SOJ team is now nicknamed the Holy Mother. Or possibly the Unholy Mother.

“Looks like your power won’t work against Sadmadhi. Guess we’ll have to try something else.”

“Yeah, let’s ask Dhurke...”

Yeah. Because you obviously don’t have someone with you RIGHT NOW who ALSo has a special power. You dont even have TWO POEPLE with you with a special power. Guess we’d better talk to the man who birthed this shiteater.

“I won against Mr. Wright”

yeah in a completely rigged trial where losing would be the worst option. thats not really something to brag about, you know.

“...doomed to be reborn as something lower than a bug or a vegetable”

you heard it here first folks Sadmad hates sustaining agriculture and the bees.

>Lang’s scrolls and dickfuckery

>Edgeworth’s by-the-bookishness

>Franziska’s catchphrase

>Blackquill’s backstory twist

These were the ingredients chosen to make the perfect prosecutor. But the SOJ writers accidentally added an extra ingredient to the concoction: BAD WRITING

THUS UNINSPIRED ASSHOLE WAS BORN!

apollo you don’t matter to anyone anymore youre getting the boot. do as your foster pop said when you were a drowning 5 y/o and suck those pussy baby tears back into your skull.

welp thats it for part one of investigation day 2. now (i think) we’re headed over to the delicious pandering of Phoenix and Edgeworth, back together. Will it bring me solace despite being an obvious ratings grab?

good god, i hope so.

till next time.

#sulking over SOJ #im gonna do this; I'm gonna finish it. i swear.]

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yan, my child!!! hope school is going well, i know you’re still on semi-hiatus but i wish you the best (and i’ll reply to your messages soon my bad sorry i was out all yesterday). but,,, i really dont know when i started to follow you?? i know its been a long time cause i’m almost certain you were one of the first blogs i followed because i love kim taedong with my whole heart and it was so wonderful to see another amazing taedong enthusiast someone tell me where my son is, is he eating?? is he doing well??

you are such a sweetheart, like one whole sweetheart ugh i love you. i love that i can always rely on you to tell me how taedong is doing ahahah you always know so much it’s insane. idk if i told you but you were one of my first friends here on tumblr, and im so glad and happy to have you as a friend as you’ve always been extremely kind towards me and everyone else.

mutuals, send me a 🍉 for the reason(s) why i followed u + the things i love most abt ur blog/u

#replies #sung-woons #ask game

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hxrryspotter · 7 years

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i have absolutely no energy to get emotional over the the last clip i really dont. its like when i start to think abt it but chest tightens and my mind quickly starts thinkin abt smth else. pls s4 was a fucking mess but this is too much. for so many months this has been something i looked forward to and thought so much abt, no joke sometimes it saved me at my worst moments. just breathe, stay another day, i told myself, skam isnt over yet dont you wanna watch the characters you love on screen till it ends? dont u wanna have a good excuse to stay alive and completely submerge yourself in a fictional universe so you wont have to think about or feel how much your life is going no where. and yeah, it helped. even that long ass 4 month hiatus was pretty good. but then s4 happened and well. yikes. it wasn't all bad but... yeah, a lot of it wasn't great. after all the shit ive experienced in the past 2 months with this fandom, im not too sad to see the show end, well, i am, but im more sad to let go of the feeling of happiness it gave me. it used to be the only thing that brightened up my day for just a little bit before i got too bitter, im sad to see that go. but alas dont they say all good things must come to an end.

#personal

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candyballad · 7 years

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I kinda have a thing for a radio silence don’t I? hah. This post will detail important information about Candy Ballad and the future of it.

Alright! For those of you who need the gist of it: CB is not cancelled, but is going on an indefinite hiatus. Yeah I know... the term “indefinite hiatus” in the gamedev world is basically a death sentence, but I’m going to explain why that won’t be true for CB.

Backstory time: Both Rum and Rat are really old OCs of mine (I actually made them in this avatar creator back in like 2013.... they used to have piercings too). At the time, they were both a closeted expression of me trying to come to terms with being gay. I grew up in a very homophobic atmosphere (did you know in conservative schools its legal to kick out lgbt students if they even suspect you might be lgbt? yeah... messed up), and was always outcasted by my fellow peers on the suspicion that I was “queer”.

I wanted to be gay.... but I felt so gross because of it. I felt like I was taking advantage of every girl I knew for not outing myself immediately to them and that I was even “abusive” or “perverse”.... just for being a gay in a world of straight people (intrusive thoughts didn’t help this either)

I had this mindset for so long... even while I was working on CB. I just told people that I was Aromantic for years to quiet my brain. Rum and Rat were my way of escaping (”HA ... what im not gay??? ijust wanna make a game about two girls in a loving relationship but I Assure you imnot gay... what do u mean”).

That’s changed though! I’ve learned to accept my sexuality. Right now I’m even in a relationship with a girl. I’m not perfect, and the thoughts are still there, but I’m learning that Gay Thoughts (TM) doesn’t make me bad. And for those of you who are scared or even disgusted at the thought of being not straight, I SEE YOU. I get that feeling and I want to let you know that being gay is a good thing and doesn’t make you a bad person.

What was the point of me telling you this? Candy Ballad is very important to me. This story.. these characters... I want to make them come true. I want to make it wholesome so that others who maybe felt the way I did can feel closure and have media about lesbians where nobody dies and everything turns out good.

I definitely rushed into this game too quickly though. I was so excited after the release of ENTROPY that I didn’t think through the amount of time and energy a game like this would require. I need to complete a few things to feel stable enough to work on this game.

I’m sorry if I have dissapointed you, but please understand that this game isn’t the last you’ll see of it. It’s not over; it just needs a break.

-TEETH

#Candy Ballad #gamedev #gif #sorry for waiting so long to tell you guys this

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