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catiuskaa · 4 months

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missed me, missed me, now you gotta...

SUMMARY: minho wasn’t grumpy, nor he was jealous. but he hasn’t been the same ever since he fell in love with you.

REQUESTED! by a sweet annonie right here. pookie, your idea was lovely to write! lil grumpy minho, im melting… it’s a bit short, but I hope you like it! <3

CW: use of (crack) text messages to convey the plot, starring: han quokka as cupid + reader’s bsf, clingy minho as king of my heart, and ngl, type 1 diabetes fluff ahead. keep insulin shots close just in case! lol

WC: 1.1k

A/N: i love how i’m slowly turning into a minho blog/page lmaoo, only minho: the man, the myth, the legend!

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The same ringtone buzzed again during rehearsals. Its ding had sounded so many times already that it had started to get repetitive really quickly.

Minho frowned as he looked in the mirror, retouching his rolled sleeves just once more for what he secretly knew it had been more than twenty times. In the span of ten minutes. Maybe even less.

But Minho wasn’t ‘grumpy’.

He so wasn’t.

His day had been normal so far. He had no reason to be grumpy. Not one what-so-ever.

He had woken up in between your arms, and even if he had ‘complained’ about it, he loved being the little spoon. And also, his cats jumped on the bed and, just for once, none of them landed on his face.

There had been just one thing.

…

Well. Technically more than one.

You had rushed outside this morning. You claimed you didn’t have time to have breakfast with him, because you were late for something he didn’t really get. Because of that, you hadn’t come over to the JYP building with him. He had to drive over alone. And you hadn’t pecked him goodbye at the entrance like always.

But he. Wasn’t. Grumpy.

Not. At. All.

> sunggie: girl, did you hide his cats or smth?

< minho’s owner: lol, wdym dude?

> sunggie: he looks like he’s going to kill me.

> sunggie: And he loves me! Wtf??

“Jisung-ah.”

Han shrieked in his place in the sofa, his phone almost falling off his hands. He quickly turned it off, hoping that the grumpy dancer hadn’t seen the old or new messages.

“Who were you texting?” Minho frowned, deeper this time.

“Oh.” Jisung chuckled. “Just checking in on noona.”

“My girlfriend?” The way Minho enunciated the title felt a bit possesive. Jisung eyed at him weirdly for a second. Even he felt weird himself.

Jisung nodded sheepishly, turning his phone back on but quickly opening a random app.

“Yeah. I owed her a call back.” He shrugged, nonchalantly accepting that he had opened Subway Surfers, and started to play.

As the catchy music came from Han’s phone, Minho shook his head.

Not grumpy.

Not at all.

But the thought that you had been texting Han and didn’t text him —instead of him— did funny things in his chest.

Now, keep in mind that Minho would never describe himself as a jealous man.

He trusted you with his cats, of course he trusted you regarding your relationship. But he had barely got a hold of you all day. And Han had. By call and text. Like he was doing now.

Not grumpy.

Sure.

< minho’s owner: you dead yet?

Jisung groaned.

> sunggie: no! you made me lose my score!

> sunggie: and I don’t have any keys! ㅠㅠ

< minho’s owner: sucks to suck, lol

< minho’s owner: but what’s wrong with my future husband? did you do something?

> sunggie: he’s moody since he came in this morning.

> sunggie: you weren’t here tho. smth wrong between ya?

< minho’s owner: no…? just had to run to work early…

And then, something in Jisung’s paboracha brain connected. Probably because of how he had named your contact in his phone.

> sunggie: omg

< minho’s owner: what?

> sunggie: that corny dumbass

> sunggie: he’s so stupid

< minho’s owner: bitch what is it???

> sunggie: he’s moody bc u didn’t come in with him today!

You hesitated. Could that be it?

< minho’s owner: really? u think so?

> sunggie: bitch I know so!

> sunggie: imma go get boba for the boys, get your ass here and come w/ me

Jisung’s brain started to work at cupid’s speed.

< minho’s owner: omw. be there in 5’

“Guys, I’m gonna go get boba. Do any of you want something?”

The rest of the gang blabbered something while some kept going over the steps of the choreography and the others rested on the couch, doozing off or on their phones. Han quickly noted down everyone’s orders, not before being squinted down by Minho. He held back a shiver.

“Clingy prick…” Jisung mumbled, leaving quickly.

He walked out of the JYP building, waiving and half bowing to the staff members and other artists in the building.

< minho’s owner: just parked! ^^

Jisung entered the boba place next to the building, smiling at the cashier as he read down the orders on his note app, and stood aside, waiting for the drinks.

“Hey!” You smiled widely at him, taking off your scarf, merely leaving it hanging on your shoulders. He clapped your hand, playfully slapping your back.

“Working hard?” Jisung snickered, pointing at the bag on your other hand.

You side-eyed at him, giggling softly.

“Took some snacks before heading off.” You shrugged. “We can sneak these in, right?”

Jisung scratched the back of his neck. “We’ll… come up with something.”

You both struggled carrying the drinks, teasing each other and betting who’d make a mess first. But all giggles came to an end when the security guard stared at you.

“Name and business?” He asked in a low huff.

Your body stiffened.

“She’s my sister,” Han chimed back. You were in fact far from being his sister, but that didn’t matter when the guard seemed to nod. “She’s just helping me carry the drinks inside.”

“And the bag? What’s inside?”

You cleared your throat, smiling. “Clothes for him to change once he finishes training.” You lied.

Thank God for his imagination. And for his stupid idea of shoving your scarf and his hoodie into the bag of snacks.

“Ok. You may come in.” The guard smiled politely.

Only after the both of you had gotten into the elevator you allowed yourselves to let out a sight full of relief. You two then smirked, high-fiving.

“Thank you, bro.” You teased in a snicker.

He cackled. “You’re welcome, sis.”

You both laughed and joked until you reached the training room.

“The person you dream of is back!” Han cackled.

“Noona!” Felix grinned happily.

“Yeah, that’s me!” You cackled at Jisung’s faked frown.

You smiled and greeted everyone as you entered, leaving a certain bunny boy for last.

You sat next to him on the couch, and without missing a beat, he took your legs and layed them on his lap.

You took a sip of his drink, and he stared at you, almost with a squint.

“You’ve made me jealous of fucking Han Jisung.” He stated matter-o-factly, making you practically choke on the tapioka pearls.

You coughed. “What?”

“You texted him all evening. And me? Not even a good luck kiss this morning.”

“Aw, are you grumpy, kitten?” You grinned teasingly, speaking only towards him in a soft tone to his ear. You pecked his cheek.

He needed more of those.

Grumpy, huh?

“Yes. Very.” He mumbled, hiding his blushed and pleased grin in the crook of your neck. “Need more kisses.”

“Well, you know how it goes.” You mumbled in a snicker. He hummed at you, waiting for you to explain.

You kissed his forehead softly, his hands stroking your thighs.

“Missed me, missed me, now you gotta kiss me.”

~Kats, who can write this in one sit, but can’t figure out how chemistry works (yes have exams, why did I choose this for myself, help)

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aphroditness · 2 months

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hiiiiiii can you please do Kokichi, Kaede, and Shuichi (separate) with a fem!s/o who needs help feeding themselves? Like at home one of their older siblings or parents has to help them bring the spoon to their mouth and/or spoon feed em because they're so nervous about eating? I have OCD type ARFID and I'm always really scared of eating to the point I need help feeding myself and comfort from my favorite characters might help 😭 im so sorry if this makes you uncomfy

No its alright! I dont mind at all <3

Kokichi, Kaede and Shuichi spoonfeeding their s/o (fem!y/n)

Kokichi

He'd think about it for a moment, pretending as if he's against the idea but it's just to tease you, he'd feed you every day if he was asked to.

He loves being able to feed you because not only is he being helpful, but he feels good about himself knowing he can take care of your needs.

Definitely starts giggling every time you open your mouth to take a bite.

Like I'm not even joking, sometimes he'll drop it before he can even feed you because he's kicking his legs too much.

You'll raise a brow at him because he's starting to twirl his hair, and now he even insists on calling himself your wife.

"Kokichi wtf are you doing?" "Shhh.. Let wifey take care of you... Blinks eyelashes aggressively"

But the first time when you asked him to, it wasn't that he was uncomfortable, but you could've sworn he started to sweat and his hand was shaking the whole time.

When you ask him if he's okay, he'll "Nishishi~ Don't worry about it!" it's off but he's trying to make sure that he doesn't hit your face with the spoon or something.

Also he does a taste test before he feeds you. Just to make sure that it's not poisoned, yk? Totally not because he wants to see if the food is yummy.

Imagine if you look inside your bowl because for some suspicious reason, the spoonful's aren't even full. They're just tiny portions. And the bowl is like, 80% empty because your stupid boyfriend ate everything.

It's a disaster, but it's out of love.

Shuichi

REALLLLLLYYY shy about it.

He wants to so badly but it's like he can never get used to it. Not when you look so cute whenever you let out a little "aah" before taking a bite.

He'll short-circuit halfway through putting the spoon in your mouth.

Apologizes for EVERYTHING.

If even a bit of food was on your lip, he's gonna give you a thousand apologies, and he's not gonna stop until you tell him to politely shut up 😭

"IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN T-" "Shuichi.. It's okay.. You can stop now.."

He's a clever boy, when you asked him to feed you because you needed help, first thought was just to do what you asked for because it was probably for something important.

He's not the best at it, but much better than Kokichi. At least he doesn't eat your food..

Insists on giving you seconds because he wants to make sure your satisfied and healthy.

If you're eating or munching on something unhealthy like ice cream, he'll probably sneak a few bites though. Not because he wants to actually eat your stuff, but he just doesn't want you getting diabetes or smth LMAO

Anxious little baby, and it's obvious too

Kaede

Hands down literally the best most caring sweetest girlfriend ever it's baffling.

Even if you don't ask to, she's still gonna feed you because she loves showing that she cares.

She's smiling the whole time and it makes your face get all hot every. single. time.

Starts humming in the middle of it

When you're finished, she washes all the dishes, and plays some piano for you afterward.

It gives you baby fever because she has that motherly kind of care to it.

When you asked her the first time, her face lit up like a Christmas tree and she didn't even ask any questions about it either.

"Hey Darling? Could y-" "Of course cutiee!~"

She makes sweet little comments while you're taking bites like "Awh your eyes are so pretty!" or "Have I ever told you how perfect you are?"

She always blows on the food before giving it to you so you don't burn your mouth.

If you're eating soup or having something messy, she'll tie your hair up first so nothing gets in the way of you enjoying your meal.

She's such a romantic it makes me wanna melt.

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k0uk0 · 8 months

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God i love Spiderbit im telling you.

qCarre logged into the server and decided to try and mess with them as soon as he discovered that they were married.

The thing is, it's not easy to make spiderbit miscommunicate or jealous of each other. They have a healthy relationship, mfs literally will meet up first thing in the game when they log in and then they always check on each other to see if they want to work together or not. Perfect example is qCellbit today noticing right away that qRoier was not doing well. Right away, as soon as he noticed his husband having dark circle under his eyes, he asked what is wrong and then he told him to talk to him afterwards so he could check up on him properly.

They know each other extremely well.

qCellbit knows qRo copes with humor, he is a fun guy to be around but he's also secretive with how he feels. qRo knows qCell really well too, he saw him changing the skin and how he was not okay and after trying to joke around he offered that if qCellbit felt like he wanted a hug, he could call him and ask.

Said this, qCarre trying to make them jealous is not gonna really work, as we already saw.

First attempt was to say to qCellbit how qRoier touched him - help i laughed so much for this part, i love u qCarre - and of course qCell directly says "nuh uh, he wouldn't, i trust him", finishing this all off with qCarre that says yeah, it was a lie, as they laughed it off.

Second attempt was qCarre saying to qRoier that qCellbit flirted with him and basically kissed him on the lips. Which didn't really work, qRo always replies with something along the lines of "did you like it? I like it too when he kisses me" and, between me and you, I think it's a sort of sarcasm/joke because qRoier knows too well that qCellbit would never do that since he's extremely loyal (jesus christ this is so sweet i get diabetes only rereading it). And the reply of those who want to make qRoier jealous is always them being surprised because, why would they continue annoying them if qRo's reply is positive to something like this? It's really funny from my perspective.

Anyway, I love them very much, I miss them too, the way we will not hear from them in a week i think I will starve.

#qsmp #qsmp cellbit #qcellbit #spiderbit #guapoduo #qsmp roier #qroier #cellbit

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kysuguru · 10 months

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you REPLIED IM SO HAPPY😭😭🤞 btw the fact that suguru AND satoru are both her love interests im so HAPPY stsg for the WIN!!! i love how suguru and shoko automatically know what satoru is implying cause hes so so OBVIOUS!

i cant imagine the troubles suguru and satoru would have with reader.. shes so enduring and she allows them to do whatever because shes too sweet! ofc shes serious when the time comes down to it but i just know she takes the two lightly and cares too highly of their opinions to really say no to them. i 100% know suguru is worst when it comes to teasing her. in this universe i want to believe suguru does not deflect so he stays there w them. although reader probably does not realize the two actually is in love with her, she probably assumes they are with each other so she does not want to intrude.

what if shoko and reader were discussing about first dates and she finds out reader never had her first anything and sets her up with one? maybe rin or shin?! LOL and behold satoru and suguru being menaces and completely mean to her . the trouble they would cause to the way they would be so upset. reader actually enjoyed her first date but shes confused why stsg are so upset over her. they always teased her for not having a bf and when she does try theyre even more ruthless?? bc in reality to stsg they always thought she belonged to them and they’re actually in shock that shoko would do that knowing about their crushes on reader? (cue shoko laughing in the background)

i love these asks smmm😭 tysm for sending. and ur right!! i have chapter one and two written and posted on my ao3, but suguru doesn’t defect, i cant allow that. and yes… stsg are sooo annoying when it comes to jealousy. like they are so suffocating..

this is new, very new.

it was a brief conversation, so mundane you wouldn’t bother to remember it unless brought up. shoko asked a simple question. “you ever been on a date before?” after talking about her horrible experiences with lousy men. it was an easy answer, “no.”

and you thought it’d end there. of course it’s normal for girls your age to go on dates with other people, experience the life of romance at a young age, but it wasn’t odd to meet a girl your age who hadn’t been on a date. so you weren’t sure why shoko put you up to this.

rin sits across you with a beaming smile, the fluorescents of the cafe highlighting his freckles. you fiddle with the warm cup of coffee in front of you. you weren’t much of a coffee person, but you panicked and ordered the first thing on the menu. it was bitter, terribly so, you weren’t sure whether you’d prefer this or satoru’s cups of diabetes.

you sip on it occasionally, to make yourself look engaged. you hope your poker face has improved, you’d be humiliated if the bitterness on your tongue manifested itself onto your expression (rin noticed, but felt too awkward to speak up).

it’s weird, and you try pretending this wasn’t set up at a romantic date.

you like rin, he’s really nice, but you’d never even imagined him romantically.

he’s beaming at you, you think he’s blushing, and he looks as if he’s in a daze with his cheek resting on his palm. the look of adoration is so shell shocking you’re gazing around the cafe at other customers he might be looking at.

you chalk it up to excitement of being in such a nice place.

conversation with him is easy though, you realize.

it’s unlike satoru or suguru. suguru’s a listener, unlike satoru who’s a talker. they fit in so well with one another it makes it hard to fit in. you don’t mind that, watching from afar is enough for you. but you still yearn.

maybe that’s why shoko did this in the first place. to get your mind off of them. you suppose it wouldn’t be bad to broaden your spectrum, you needed more friends anyway. you couldn’t always hang onto shoko, suguru, and satoru forever.

hours pass, and before either of you know it, the sun sets.

rin was full of stories, he had so much to tell about kyoto, his classmates, and his missions. he was so fond of it all that you couldn’t bear to stop him. it was nice listening to someone on the same level as you. not that you disliked listening to satoru boast about his missions and how awesomely strong he was, but it was a nice change of pace to hear such things come from someone of your caliber.

you could get used to this.

your entering the school with a content face. you feel them both before you see them.

satoru drapes himself onto you, talking obnoxiously loud in your ear as suguru sends you a soft smile. your company with rin was wonderful, but you didn’t realize how much you missed your favorite people until you see their visages.

“where were you at for so long?” suguru asks calmly, though there’s a hint of something else you can’t really decipher. maybe suspicion.

“shoko set me up on a date with rin.” you say sheepishly, scratching your cheek.

they both freeze, you can feel the way satoru’s breath stutters as his hold gets loose. you look up at them both, brows raised.

…

it’s so silent. was it something you said? were they perhaps upset you didn’t say anything? did they want to tag along? you would’ve said yes immediately.

“rin from kyoto?” satoru whispers, and you think he sounds angry. you can’t fathom why, so you try and brush if off. even though there’s a seed of dread starting to grow in the pit of your stomach.

“yes... shoko said something about chemistry. whatever that means!” you chuckle nervously.

satoru let’s you go, backing away. now you’re worried.

“i-is something wrong?” you look up at suguru for assistance but he’s turned his head.

you shuffle your feet, anxious. they’re obviously upset, but you don’t know why. “did i do something?” that’s the only thing you could think of. or did they not like rin? he was a nice guy, so you wouldn’t understand why.

satoru rubs your head, startling you.

“it’s nothing, sweets,” he says.

but he’s walking off before you can speak any further, he makes a point not to let you see his face as he departs. suguru gives you a strained smile before he’s following. “night,” he mutters.

and even though satoru reassured you, that seed of dread continued to grow.

satoru and suguru are busy. satoru hasn’t asked for your notes in awhile. you wanna assume that he’s got it down until you hear him loudly bugging suguru for his notebook. your heart drops at the fact that satoru just hasn’t asked you. you don’t know why that hurts, it shouldn’t. maybe suguru just conveys the answer better, there’s nothing wrong with that.

they go out for lunch, leaving you and shoko in the empty cafeteria with your cold noodles. shoko’s great company, of course, but the lack of satoru’s loud voice and suguru’s scolding makes it feel eerily quiet.

nights in the common room have shrunk to just you and shoko. it’s been like this for a few days. only a few days. yet you feel as if these days are dragging on slower than usual. shoko notices, and rolls her eyes, muttering under her breath how pathetic boys could be.

you think she’s spoken to them, for they look at you a little more now. but they barely talk to you unless the situation calls for it, even then, they’re awkward.

but it isn’t until shoko has been in high demand after a dangerous mission that the first years came back from that you’re alone with them. you’re nervous, feeling their eyes trained on you. you don’t dare make contact.

they begin talking to each other, and you feel joy consume you at the familiarity of it. you’re looking up now, making eye contact with the both of them. satoru opens his mouth, but you intervene.

“i’m sorry!”

their eyes are wide.

“i’m sorry for whatever i did. it’s just.. you guys feel distant. if it’s because of me then—”

“i should say sorry,” your eyes flit up to suguru’s as he scratches his neck sheepishly. “i was being childish.” he speaks into his palm. “we were being childish.” he corrects himself, eyes glaring into satoru’s, who huffs and crosses his arms.

“so it was something i did?” your brows knit as a frown etched itself onto your lips.

“it’s more complicated than that,” suguru says. but you’re not convinced.

satoru mutters something under his breath, you catch nothing but rin’s name. so you ask him to repeat himself.

“i just don’t like rin, is all.”

you blink.

“d-did he do something?” you needed to know, if he hurt or insulted suguru or satoru in any way you were ready to break it off—

“no. not exactly, we just… don’t like you being alone with him,” suguru admits, flushed.

oh!

you felt relief fill your chest.

“i think i know now.” you smile, happily. they stare. they both lean slightly forward, anticipating. “if i ever go out with him again i’ll invite you both out!” you clap your hands together.

they were upset that they weren’t invited along. that makes sense. you’re relieved. satoru did eye that cafe whenever you three passed it.

they share a look, one of amusement and one of exasperation.

“such a ditz,” satoru grumbles.

“we’d like that,” suguru smiles.

you’re happy, so happy you could cry tears of relief.

“i’m glad, i thought you were both gonna hate me forever.”

suguru grabs your hand, caressing your palm, your heartbeat spikes. “that’d never happen.”

satoru scoots closer to you and drapes himself over your shoulders, the familiar action has your cheeks hurting from how big you’re smiling. he squishes his cheek against yours, rubbing softly as he speaks, “never go out alone with rin again, okay? you need at least me or suguru there, not even shoko’s enough!”

they will never forget how she betrayed them so.

“of course,” you exhale, joyful.

and yes, abt stsg ur also right! this is kinda a poly thing. stsg love each other and the reader

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lemmetreatya · 1 year

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baker!reader who sees jotaro a few times a weeks when he comes to the little shop to get a simple treat to go with his afternoon coffee, engaging in small talk that gradually becomes more friendly and comforting making the guy look forward to his *now* daily treat

this didnt go the way i wanted but ykw? im equally as okay with that 🥹

When Life Gives You Pastries — Single dad!Jotaro x baker!reader

“Hello, hello! Daily bakeries, happy to serve!”

Jotaro is impoverished with the sickeningly sweet greeting as soon as he enters the small bakery.

He doesn’t say anything back because he’s here for one thing, and one thing only, and that’s his breakfast.

It was already a hassle getting Jolyne ready for school and in the rush of trying to cook his breakfast, he burnt hers and so in the orderly sacrifice of a parent, he gave her his and went without.

Jotaro scours the small selection for a gathering max of three minutes before slapping a plain croissant and a takeaway coffee cup onto the cashier table.

“Will this be to go, sir?” You ask, your smile wide and attentive despite the broody man’s disposition.

He hadn’t even registered that you’d spoken to him at first, his eyes emptily boring into your apron as he mentally flicked through today’s to-do list like a flip book.

It’s only once he realised you were giving him an expectant look that his ears caught up to his brain and his brain to his mouth.

“Yes, to go. Sorry.” He fumbles.

“No worries!” You chirp, as understanding as ever.

Jotaro pays for his purchase and patiently waits as you make his coffee of choice — a Long Black.

(“So an Americano?” You clarify.

“No. A Long Black; Hot water first and then the espresso, not the other way round.”

Jotaro notices how you smile knowingly at his correction and without taking any offence.)

When it’s done, he then leaves a mandatory tip before leaving without any further thought.

“Hello, hello! Daily bakeries, happy to serve!”

The next time Jotaro finds himself in this same bakery is when he’s on his afternoon break just a week and a day later.

He vaguely remembers your first encounter but hadn’t thought much of it until now. He does however vividly remember your diabetic customer service greeting and it stimulates him to reply back.

“Hey…” He aimlessly mumbles.

“Already got your coffee today?”

When Jotaro places the wrapped plain croissant by the counter, he’s shortly thrown off guard by your question.

Looking down at his styrofoam cup which donned his work company’s logo, Jotaro is confused why you ask him this.

“Y-yes?” He thinks hard before looking back up at you.

You ring up his item on the till, your smile still cloy.

“Then I’m guessing no Long Black today.”

Realisation finally licks Jotaro’s brain and his face slightly widens in clarity of that.

He remembers now; how he ordered coffee from here last time, and how it kept him proactive through the day. Not like the cheap instant stuff his office gives for free. What you gave him was a true espresso infused coffee and for that he’s grateful.

“No, not today.” He finally answers as you hand him a small bag that contained his croissant. “Maybe next time.”

You give the man another warm smile. Jotaro leaves a cash tip this time despite only buying a croissant.

“Hello, hello! Daily bakeries, happy to serve!”

“Afternoon.”

The gap between when Jotaro last visited the bakery was shorter this time, he was back three days later.

Jotaro had thought to himself that he should buy Jolyne a treat for when she gets home from school. He’d gotten a call not too long ago from a teacher who was rather pleased with her progress and thought to let him know.

It was small encouragements like that which spurred Jotaro on. Being a full-time working single father was hard and a lot of the time he was unsure whether he was doing a good job or not. Yet, noticed achievements like that, regardless of how big, he was determined to celebrate.

When Jolyne won, so did he.

“A croissant and a cherry bakewell. Unlike you.” You jokingly spar when Jotaro places the items on top of the counter.

He’s already getting out his wallet as you package the food up.

“It’s for my daughter, thought I should treat her today.”

At the mention of his kin, you looked up in warm aptitude.

“Oh, that’s so sweet of you. Hopefully she enjoys it.”

Jotaro internally gleamed at the prospects that you thought him sweet for treating Jolyne. Not that it meant much (he tells himself) but to hear a compliment on behalf of his parenting skills always made him keen.

You didn’t share anymore conversation after that. The both of you were quiet as you made his Long Black.

Once you passed over the package, you smiled once again.

“Thank you.” Jotaro says, as he leaves his tip and a very minute smile.

“Hello, hello! Daily bakeries, happy to serve!”

“Are you really?” Jotaro asks almost immediately after you say the phrase.

Taken aback, you blink over at the man rapidly.

“Huh?”

He realises, now that he’s said that out loud, how intruding that must have sounded. Figures, since the phrase had absolutely been rattling like a ligma bean throughout his mind all week and that was his verbal fruition of that torment.

But he doesn’t mean any harm. If anything it’s just bridled curiosity and so Jotaro pauses within the middle of shop to clarify what he meant.

“No, it’s just…your small greeting thing you say. That you’re happy to serve.”

The explanation offers little context to his verbalised brain funk but still yet, you try to piece together as much as you could.

“Oh. Well, I guess I am. I enjoy what I do.”

“That’s good.” Jotaro hesitates before he moves towards the designated area where the croissants usually are. “It’s good to enjoy what you do. What keeps you getting out of bed, I suppose.”

There was an easy lulled silence as Jotaro hovered by the croissants.

Even though he got the same thing every time, he still liked to make sure there wasn’t anything else he fancied.

“Do you enjoy what you do?”

You ask once Jotaro places the croissant on the counter.

Already shuffling through his wallet for his card, he answers your question with his head down.

“Not really. But it pays the bills and it helps me keep Jolyne happy, so I guess it figures out.”

“Jolyne — your daughter?”

At the mention of her name, Jotaro looks up at you, a pause in his thinking at how you could have possibly known her name, but he then realises that it was from his own Freudian slip.

Jotaro slowly unveiled the card he planned to used and placed it on the counter.

“Yes. Yes, that’s her name. Jolyne.”

Your smile was light as you kept the conversation going as you rung up the items.

“Who named her?”

“Uh, I did. After her late mother’s favourite song.”

You halted in your actions, your fingers hovering over the till screen. The look of regret washed over your face at the prospect that you’d gotten too comfortable with the man and opened a messy can of worms.

“Oh, I’m so sorry.”

Jotaro shook his head as he gingerly tapped his amex over the card reader.

“No, it’s fine.”

As you sheepishly handed him his package, Jotaro backtracked his words.

“Well, I mean it’s not fine but you just gotta keep moving.”

“Of course.” You say with a nod.

Jotaro offers you a weary smile.

“Thanks.” He lifts his bag in solidarity to as he beckons his way out the shop.

“Hello, hello! Daily bakeries, happy to serve!”

The chiming and opening of the door alerted you of a new customer but from behind the counter, you didn’t see anyone come in.

With a face of confusion you looked over the counter to be none other than met with a rather small face looking up at you.

“Hey, there.” You greeted the individual.

The smile on your face was wide as the little girl looked up at you with massive curious eyes.

She didn’t say anything in reply, just stared right back up at you as you questioned her presence in your bakery.

Leaning your arms over the counter top, you pouted down at her.

“Are you lost?”

Before anymore exchanges could happen, the door to the bakery chimed once again.

“Hello, Hello! Daily bake— Oh! Hey!”

Your smile widened once you recognised who had walked into the store.

For a second, you hadn’t recognised him without his usual suit and tie, but you guess seeing him within his casual attire was even more of a nice surprise. You then connected the dots once the small girl had run up to the man’s leg and stretched her arm upwards so that she could hold his hand.

So this must be the infamous Jolyne.

“Hey, sorry for that. She unexpectedly ran ahead of me once we turned the corner.” Jotaro said whilst taking his daughter’s hand in his.

With an easy smile, you shook your head.

“No worries.”

In the duration that the two of them weren’t at the counter, neither you or Jotaro spoke to each other. Which was understandable considering he now had to entertain Jolyne.

“Dad, I want the one you got me last time.” She said.

“Yeah? Have a look and see if you can find it.”

Jotaro took one glance back at his daughter before approaching the counter. Rather than his usual croissant, he placed down a pain au chocolat.

“Good choice.” You muse

“Thought I ought to shake things up on a weekend.”

The both of you shared a polite bought of laughter between each other. Upon hearing the exchange, Jolyne skipped up to the counter before holding her bakewell tart in the air.

“Found it!”

She was too small to reach the counter top so you didn’t require that she place her treat there.

“Well done, Jojo.” Jotaro plainly laid his hand on top of his daughter’s head before removing it again. The touch wasn’t much but it secured a triumphant smile on Jolyne’s face.

Placing Jotaro’s treats into a bag, you directed your question towards the smaller girl.

“Jojo! That’s a very cute name.” You muse.

Hearing you engage with her, Jolyne’s eyes lit up as they flitted towards her dad before dancing back to you.

“Thanks. It’s dad’s name too, we share it!”

“Dad is also called Jojo?” You smile as you now look towards the larger man.

The man was quick to correct you as he took his bakery goods, his demeanour seemingly bashful at the prospects that his in-house nickname was being used anywhere but.

“I—As a nickname, For Jotaro.” He feigns.

“Jotaro.” You repeat.

For some reason your cheeks start feeling hot at the prospects that the man had just shared his name with you.

“Nice name.”

“Thanks.” He eyed you back,

And you weren’t lying, the name genuinely did suit him. A large stoic man who shared names with the daughter he begrudgingly, yet gladly, went to work for and brought to his favourite bakery shop on weekends — The name complimented him very much and in a very odd way, you found yourself smiling at the prospects of that.

Jotaro easily used his electronic watch to pay for the items as he hovers it over the machine. The cute ding signalled that the payment went through.

“Well, Jolyne, Jotaro. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.”

Collecting his daughter by her small hand, Jotaro widely smiled as he nodded his head in a bid goodbye.

“And you.” He firmly said back.

The jingled ‘Byeeee!’ from Jolyne along with the opening bell of the door rung together as the two left the store.

#jotaro kujo #jotaro imagines #jotaro headcanons #jotaro x reader #jojos bizarre adventure #jotaro x black reader

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ddlcbrainrot · 15 days

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I love how your mind works so much everything you say is canon now bc I said so.

Since you've done Monisuri, Moniyuri and Natsuri thoughts, do you plan on doing any other ships? Sayonika would be cool/nf

my mind is a cat, a red panda and a raccoon in a trench coat pretending to be human, or so i’ve been told so thank you

if people ask me to, then sure!

sayonika makes my brain go brrrrr and i stop thinking proper thoughts bc i love them so much every time i see them i just go hehehe so this is going to take a while bear with me

m…monika and sayori,… kithes…

ok but srsly, i think the reason i like sayonika so much is bc its a very versatile ship. You want cute best friends to lovers? Side stories are right there. You want angst fest, hurt no comfort with no happy ending? Base game is right there

If we are talking about base game, a lot of questions pop up. Like how did they even get together? (probably some time after the ending, maybe since both have gone through the epiphany they bond over that) Can they even be in a functioning relationship after the events of ddlc? (a functioning one? no lol, but maybe after a lot of work they make something special) Does Sayori ever forgive Monika? (surprisingly, yes after a long time. I actually can see her "forgiving" Monika right away, only for her to build up resentment over time and snap and so she realises that she needs to actually feel and process her feelings of anger and betrayal before she can forgive Monika) Does Monika forgive herself and lets herself be loved? (THERE IS NO WAY LMAO). So yeah, the main headcanon i have for them in base game is that Monika never fully forgives herself, no matter how much Sayori insists she forgives her. Because i love suffering.

Anyway lets step away from the sad sad world of base game and get to the happy stuff of side stories :D

So yeah, bffs that slowly realise they like eachother

I think ive mentioned this before, but they give off first sapphic crush/relationship vibes. if you know you know

Both had a hard time accepting they like each other bc both were like "shes too good for me..." (dumbasses)

Acting like a couple before even being together, im talking hand holding (how lewd...), cuddling, compliments, you name it

And when Natsuki would be like "you guys act so gay for eachother" they'd be like nnNnNoOoOo We're just gals being pals (dumbasses p2)

Who would confess? Probably Sayori. But only in a last resort situation. She'd be expecting to be rejected too. Surprise surprise being the kindest person alive gets people to like you who would have thought

PDA couple.

Sayori's physical affection and Monika's words of affection? You can't be around them without getting diabetes

Im not kidding when i say they would be the worst couple to be around. But like in a sweet way

Sayori steals Monika's clothes

They paint their nails the eye colour of the other person, so like Sayori paints them green and Monika blue

When one is having a bad day, the other gives little notes filled with cheezy puns throughout the school day to cheer them up, and they talk about whats bothering them after (sayori started this and it has become kind of a tradition)

I can keep going but if I do this will end up longer than the declaration of independence

#ddlc #ddlc sayori #ddlc monika #ddlc headcanons #sayonika #asks

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The Gods and Humans as i baby is just so AHIDKDNDKDJDBZHAJZHD 💓💓💓💓💓💓 i need to see Hades as a baby 💜💜 to imagine him as a little baby? 💜 the idea is BAKDJBEEKS 💖💖💗💞💞💘💕💘💖 AAAA SO CUTE ❣️❣️❣️

Im so sorry for my explode, they are just sooo cute i think i have diabetes 💗💗💗

I wonder if I should be warnings up for fluff this sweet. I don’t wanna get sued ;P

-You woke up, expecting to hear your husband snoring softly, but you startled away, hearing the crying of a baby.

-You sat up and saw a toddler that looked exactly like your husband, your eyes wide as you gawked before you picked him up, holding him to your chest, “Now-now (God), it’s okay, no more tears.”

-Almost instantly he calmed down, sniffling softly as he looked up at you while you were internally panicking, questioning how did this happen?!

-You found some clothes to dress your toddler husband, as it was the middle of winter, it was chilly, and you didn’t want him to get sick before you made a few calls about what to do.

Hades- He was mostly stoned faced when you picked him up, holding him to your chest. He looked up at you, blinking as if he didn’t recognize you before he instantly smiled, cooing up at you. Your heart nearly shot out of your chest as you cooed, rubbing your cheek against his, “You’re so cute!!” he giggled sweetly before you took him to the kitchen, to get something to eat for the two of you. He ate the sliced apples you gave to him before he called out to you, glaring as you turned around, smacking his hands on the table, looking upset. You picked him up, a smile on your lips, “What’s wrong love?” his hand reached up, hitting lightly against your lips, pouting. You instantly smiled at him, “Aww~ you want your kisses?” his glare increased, as did his pout which made you nearly squeal before you walked to the living room so you could sit down. Your lips met his pudgy little cheek and POOF, you had a naked, normal Hades on your lap, staring down at you in confusion. You almost immediately pouted, as you wanted to kiss his cute little baby cheeks a bit more, but your hands slid up to his cheeks, making him smile at your affection as you told him what had happened while he sat while you wrapped a blanket around him, making a Hades burrito.

Loki- If you thought your husband as an adult was a gremlin, you had to wonder how in the hell did Odin survive raising him with his sanity intact. First you had to chase the butt naked toddler around the house as he laughed, thinking it was a game, until he ran into the patio door, feeling the icy cold from the snow outside and he immediately ran into your arms, giving you big puppy dog eyes, cooing so cutely up at you. You bit your lip, unable to stay mad at him, getting him dressed before wrapping him in a blanket, pulling him into your arms. He cooed so sweetly up at you, hugging you, batting his eyes and you couldn’t help but giggle, dancing with him, which made him giggle. After getting him to eat something he threatened to run again, but you caught him easily, making him laugh as you fell back into the couch, “You’re so cute~~!!” he pouted at you, knowing that he wasn’t cute, he was cool, pushing himself up, his hands on your boobs. He looked down and instantly smiled brightly, smacking your boobs lightly, not hurting you, giggling brightly while you rolled your eyes. After wearing himself out, he was quickly knocked out, his head on your boobs, sleeping soundly. You took a few pictures before you managed to lean down a bit, pecking his forehead before you fell asleep. When you woke up, Loki was still out, his arms wrapped around your torso, now back to normal, although naked. You pulled a blanket over him, and he nuzzled down into your chest a bit more, remaining asleep as he squeezed you, mumbling out your name quietly.

#record of ragnarok #ror x reader #ror loki #ror hades

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ed-recovery-affirmations · 2 years

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hey im in recovery for atypical anorexia (was afraid to eat but for reasons other than weight/appearance) and my mom has recently started suggesting I cut out as much sugar as I can from my ration. now, sweets are literally the reason im alive rn bc it's all I felt safe eating and I just. simply like the taste? and I don't even eat as much as she seems to think, for goodness sake. but she believes shes doing it for my health, since you know, weight gain, diabetes, bad teeth etc. how can I get it through to her that it's genuinely triggering to hear that and what I eat is my decision first and foremost?

Hi, I'm sorry this took so long for me to answer! You can read my pinned post, my life is kinda weird rn.

But I think this is an all-too-common problem, honestly! I feel like when people give out diet tips that they think are genuinely healthy, it "doesn't count" as triggering. But of course anything can be a trigger, food relationships are complicated, and it sounds like she herself is so caught up in diet culture things like "sugar panic" that she genuinely can't stop herself from reacting with fear when she sees you consuming sugar. I think she feels she's expressing her love by caring this much about your health, but that doesn't mean you have to accept the consequences of her lack of understanding! That will not help you heal, of course.

So first let me address that situation. Your response will depend on whether or not you are living at home. If you're not currently at home, you will be able to use these boundaries much more liberally and with less complication because you will have the power to leave a given situation. So what you say in that case might go along the lines of:

"Mom, I hear that you feel strongly about this and I understand that, but I'm stating the boundary that talking about this isn't good for me and I won't do it. If you continue to talk about this with me, I am going to leave."

When you state this boundary, REMEMBER that the goal isn't to keep her from feeling whatever feelings she may have. So if she starts to say anything along the lines of "why won't you listen, that's so disrespectful, I guess this is what I get for caring" or any other defensive response, do not engage, and do not get drawn into a pointless argument that'll only make you tired. Just say, "I'm sorry you feel that way. However, that's the boundary I've stated. It's what I need to stick to right now for my own sake." And then uphold the boundary. So if she brings it up further, or if the conversation stays negative, calmly say "All right, I've stated this boundary and it keeps getting crossed, so for the time being I am going to leave." And do it. Again, be calm. Don't make it a fight, even if you have strong feelings and you want to. But do show her that when this boundary is crossed, you will do what you need to do to maintain it. Don't make it personal, don't make it mean. But do be firm.

If you live in the house and need to maintain an ongoing living-together relationship, it might be more complicated. You can let her know that you are not going to engage the conversation and that you're going to take some space in your room to get yourself calm, but I don't know if your mother is the kind of person who would try to follow you. Again, don't make it personal and try not to engage in emotional appeals when you yourself are triggered. Remember, you are the child and she is the parent. It isn't your job to manage her mental health. End these conversations with "I'm sorry you feel that way, but I'm doing what I need to do to manage my own mental health."

But on a more positive note, this does seem to be her misguided way of showing caring for you! SO, if she seems open to listening at all, you might be able to approach her in a calm moment. Make it clear that this is really important to you and you want to be able to have open conversations about this, but you need the conversations to be healthy. You could prepare a list of "do's" and "don'ts" beforehand, and if the conversation goes well, you might even find yourself adding to it! If you think she would genuinely respond to your input on how to help you, you can provide her with suggestions on things she COULD do to be supportive, whether that's creating an environment where you feel safe to try fear foods, getting you access to vitamins and supplements, and/or learning some therapy strategies to try with you. Whatever works. Please do keep in mind that, by force of habit, she may slip up, so be prepared to calmly remind her about the "do's and don'ts" list for your healing.

On the subject of healing, I'm sure you are aware of this, but your body does need more nutritional content than is available in most sugary products. You do what you need to do to stay alive for now, but if you're not taking advantage of ED resources around you, I might suggest you look into a few other things. (SEPARATELY from your mother, at least at first, I think! Going to nutritionists' appointments with her would probably make you feel very defensive at first just because of this relationship.) But I'd recommend working with a nutritionist, and making sure you're taking enough vitamins while you try to ease yourself back into eating a wider range of foods. Perhaps you could attend psychotherapy, but there are also feeding therapy techniques for people who are avoidant to specific foods.

One more thing - if you try any or all of these things and they don't work, and your mother just won't stop, it is going to hurt that you tried to open up to her and that she would not listen long enough to approach healing on the terms you need. Understand that it is okay and valid to feel this way. If you find yourself feeling these feelings, allow yourself to process them, and know that you are allowed to feel them even if it sucks that you have to. Remember, it's not your fault or your responsibility to make any one person a better listener if they are not trying. If you come to her genuinely trying to open up about your needs and she shuts you down, that is a reflection on her ability to process tough conversations, not on yours. And you will eventually find people who do show their caring and their love by attending to you in ways that work for you.

Best of luck in working on this issue with your mom!

#ana recovery #ed recovery #ARFID #diet culture #arfid recovery #food mention #ed cw #long post #family relationships #healing

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toadkisses · 2 years

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alistairs years in review part three

alistair is continuing his public journaling; the gist is i am writing down a summary of the life events that have gone on in the past two years or so, since i used to lifepost a lot more on here. its been nice reflecting especially since i can see a bend up ahead where my life will change again somehow.

this entry will be about the medical adventures ive been on including misdiagnosed diabetes and hrt stories.

part one about dog grooming school / part two about meeting my wife

this will contain discussion of eating disorders, suicide, and medical stuff! be warned :K oh and me coming out to my family

i dont have a clear "where we left off" point like i did last time! the beginning of this saga is in july or august of 2021. rose and i had been dating for a few months but already called each other our wife. i begin working in a corporate dog grooming salon, and i like it well enough; my manager can be taxing at times but i get along well with my coworkers.

i came out to my parents as trans right before starting the job, and it didnt go as badly as it does for some people but didnt go as well as i dreamed?

it was impulsive. i told my mom i was trans, and i thought things were maybe okay? rose was there, my mom and i cried a lot, and my mom told me i had to be in charge of my dad.

i felt sick to my stomach because coming out was the first thing i could remember doing entirely for myself and my comfort without prioritizing other people. rose and i went and got food so i could collect myself some.

after getting home, i was asked to come talk to both my parents. it felt more standoffish? like i was in trouble? i told my dad and said i would answer any questions they had. and my mom was kind of weird like "thats a big thing to just toss out here" and i was like "well i feel really really really bad making problems like this" and she said that i wasnt making problems but i also didnt get like "you have trusted us with this information we love you"

i actually had an appointment with my shrink the next day and my mom came with, where doctor confirmed gender stuff is something ive been talking about for years and its not just out of nowhere. and i cried a lot about how bad i felt for having to come out and how i was worried about disappointing my parents etc etc

and i think for a little bit it helped, like i was able to be in the same room as my parents without wanting to run but we had a meeting all three of us that i dont remember a lot of besides my dad accidentally saying im not a boy and my therapist exclusively using she and birthname for me. i didnt feel like i had anyone on my side and i remember thinking about trying to find somewhere to crash until i could get an apartment because i was so upset. which i didnt do because it wasnt economically feasible haha. but yeah it went really poorly and i refused to tell them my preferred name because i was so hurt. i actually never told them! they know it from like mail i got but we have not had the conversation.

i actually went back to my shrink a while later and she lead with the amazing blunder of "yeah, when we finished up last time i was worried 'i wonder if shes never coming back'. oh, oops, ali im so sorry" like GIRL you REALLY fumbled this one right out the gate

anyway i did tell my mom i was going to look into getting hrt but besides that we have had very few conversations about Alistair Gender. things are normal, im able to be around them which is good because i live here, they try not to call me overtly feminine things? we still do activities like we did before. it was sweet that apparently they had a conversation about shutting down any possible trans jokes their friends might make when we went to visit them (to clarify NOT jokes at my expense, they dont know and would be very abashed if they did happen to make one at my expense, they were preparing in case the topic came up in abstract and someone cracked a joke, that they would make clear they dont approve of being a jackass about it. end clarification)

a year later uhhhhh coming out is still defined by regret but different than it used to be? like instead of my previous "why did i do this i feel so bad for making a fuss about myself", now i wish i hadnt come out because i was and am happy with the family dynamics we have, and realized that like its not disingenuous for me to be different people for different people? like of course my mom interacts with and experiences and perceives me differently than my brother or my girlfriend does, but the person they all know is still me? and i feel bad because i put my mom in a difficult position because she didnt want to out me by talking to her friends about this big emotional event, so she was left to deal with it on her own. and maybe ill feel differently someday but its how i feel now which i guess is why its good to journal it. in summation i feel like suffering for everyone could have been avoided if i had realized coming out isnt mandatory.

i need to tell them all this still and who knows when that will happen haha. especially since, after taking testosterone for 9 months, i feel like WAY more comfortable in my skin and have no desire to tell any other family members or coworkers about gender stuff, because it doesnt make me uncomfortable to be seen as a woman. ive actually been wondering if 14 year old alistair was right all along and im just a transmasc lesbian? food for thought. not what this post is about.

anyway. BACKGROUND INFORMATION DONE GOD THIS IS GONNA BE SO LONG.

i went to an informed consent clinic and the doctor is super cool, like him a lot. they took bloods from me. my blood glucose was high but i had eaten like right before.

next appointment. i get the prescription for testosterone but they took another non fasting glucose and it was still higher than normal, so they draw blood to check my A1C. i also didnt really uh get taught how to do my injections? because my doctor told a nurse "he needs his flu shot and instructions on how to do his injections", and she uh. just assumed that i could not be the aforementioned "he". so i was checking out and said like "nobody told me how to do injections", the receptionist calls my doctor over like "nobody told her how to do her injections", he tracks down a different nurse who spends 60 seconds with me and tells me to watch a youtube video. it is worth noting that this IS specifically a pride clinic that advertises itself as such? spoiler alert i did wind up filing a formal complaint like "i understand why im getting misgendered, but im worried about how it might impact the wrong patient and it DID impact my quality of care" after i had a prescription issue and they were like "she needs her testosterone filled"

i got my A1C results back and it was a 7, which put me past prediabetes and in the diabetic range. i was leaving on a trip to visit friends in texas in like two days, and the only medical person who could see me to tell me what everything meant was a nurse practitioner.

it was a really dreadful experience ;_; she told me to cut out soda and desserts, watch what i eat, and theyd retest my A1C in three months to see if i was still elevated. and i told her i dont do soda or desserts, and that i was worried about really closely monitoring my food, (specifically checking nutritional labels and calorie counting), because of my history with restrictive eating and purging. and i asked if she had any advice on how to avoid a relapse like that and she honest to god told me "dont look at that part of the label"

i also asked if i should get my thyroid checked because i was already following all the diet rules they recommended, was active at my job, and had no family history of diabetes. BUT I DO HAVE A FAMILY HISTORY OF THYROID DISORDERS. and she was like "yeah sometimes it just happens. probably dont need to check those"

to add insult to injury the trip to texas was stupendously awful and i am not friends with them anymore!

i had my first testosterone shot on september 20th 2021. it was really cool.

when i got home from our trip, i stopped eating bread, pasta, rice, milk, and anything sweet, since i was told "carbs bad" but not given any guidance beyond that? so i stuck to a diet of like. salad with olive. chicken and beef. cheese sometimes. beans. maybe an apple BUT NOT TOO MUCH FRUIT THATS SUGAR.

i saw an endocrinologist in january, and my A1C had dropped into prediabetic range. she referred me to a dietician since i told her unfortunately she also said i should write down "i hate ice cream" whenever i craved it, which. wasnt great for my eating disorder brain. she also took me off my antidepressants because some of them can cause insulin resistance. this was really unfortunate because come to find out, mine is not one of those.

after three weeks of awful antidepressant withdrawal symptoms, i saw the dietician. and like i feel bad being like "these people didnt help me" because they were all really pleasant but God it was not helpful to be given a mass produced booklet about how to lose weight and fix your bloods, when i was already following a more restrictive diet than they recommended and at a bmi they liked. and i told her going in like "I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER, IM WORRIED THIS WILL MAKE ME RELAPSE" and she still gave me the calorie counts. ;_;

the next day at work i think i honestly had a mental breakdown? i still groomed all my dogs but i was openly crying while i was doing it, my coworkers were really worried. i was the most suicidal ive been in years. i didnt see why i should continue to live if i had to work at a very stressful job, get yelled at by customers every day (you know how retail is), not get paid enough to live independently, and track what i ate every day while fighting a relapse. i wasnt even ABLE to take a lunch most days because my manager had the habit of overbooking us.

i narrowly avoided being taken to the ER. my Big Manager was actually really cool about me taking a few days off until i could see my shrink for Emergency Appointment Alistair Is In Crisis. i was at home for a couple days.

then a very close friend attempted suicide and eventually passed. i dont feel comfortable giving more detail than that because he was a fairly private person.

i resigned from my job. i lost 20 pounds because i stopped eating. i stopped seeing my shrink. longtime alistair fans may remember that puberty really fucked up my mental health, so out of desperation, i stopped taking my testosterone in hopes that i might get ANY amount of relief. and it did take me from "lying in bed trying to figure out how to kill myself without destroying my girlfriend and family" to "hoping i get killed in a freak accident". i was also able to start eating a bit more regularly, and i wasnt restricting any specific foods.

three months post-breakdown i was finally able to see a nurse practitioner to see what antidepressant i could take without messing up my sugars. turns out the antidepressant i could take was the one i HAD BEEN ON. so started that back up. nurse was really great, she was interested in having my thyroid checked as well as my A1C. and it turned out my A1C was back in normal range, but my thyroid stuff was abnormal and likely causing the blood sugar issues! fuck me running! and i did confirm with hrt doc that testosterone wouldnt make those abnormal, if anything it would just make t less effective.

still figuring out what to do about thyroid stuff but cool to know we could have maybe avoided a lot of this food suffering if theyd agreed to test my thyroid when i asked.

i dont seriously consider killing myself anymore! which is great! and while i still monitor what im eating and my weight, i DO eat three meals a day again and have stopped losing weight.

ive regressed in a lot of ways though. like im a good driver, i drove 3000 miles to texas and back without incident, ive navigated chicago traffic, i know what im doing. but even driving to the store is paralyzing, i have anxiety attacks trying to drive through town. talking on the phone is hard again. i have a lot of difficulty being around strangers, and being in public drains me very quickly. im always expecting someone to yell at me. the nurse who prescribed me my stuff referred me to a therapist for ptsd, but he kind of told me to go see my old shrink since ive been seeing her since i was like 14 haha.

i did go see her last month and was able to reorient some goals, what i think has been working for me vs not, etc. and i actually feel optimistic that working with her will go well? she wants me to add an anti anxiety med which i am PRAYING will help

onto more positive things. testosterone was really cool. bottom growth happened like within the first few days, which i was pumped about. my voice dropped, its not super deep but its a noticeable change. i really liked the new body hair but a lot of it went away when i had to stop :-(

like its weird the only lasting changes have been voice and bottom growth, but i feel so much more confident and happy body wise (editors note that my eating disorder stuff has always been more linked to control than physical appearance, this isnt a contradiction)

ummmmmmmmm i feel like we're caught up on my major life events. going forward...

get anxiety drug

contact job counseling

biggest stressor these days is needing a job but still being fucked up brain. im looking for help there. lets see if i find it! life goes on forever and ever and ever though. eventually something will happen. hopefully it will be good! it could be bad. but bad things keep happening and i keep living through them to new things. so i guess it has to be okay because it will be given enough time. ta-da!

#alistair talking post #god this is long #again ftr nobody has to read all this #youre allowed to! but i do it mostly for nostalgia and self reflection #not proofread ive been writing for forever

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restinpeacesensei · 3 years

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#boueibu #akoya gero #kusatsu kinshirou #kinshiro kusatsu #my art #my comic #kinako #talisman975 agjhvghs i love how you said his pres thank you again for your tags!! i mean akoya definitely does this right??#also your tags are SENDING me criesss thank you so much;; \;;////;;/ it made me really happy you said you were getting diabetes from it ajvs #im sooo honored!!! >/////< but also i can send a little circle of angel akoyas to heal you bc i dont want to cause you any diabetes #i did this before when someone said i killed them with cuteness and i wanted to fix it with cuteness too #am3liora ahh!! yes i read all your sweet comments im so glad it made you so happy!! ;;--;; thank you for looking through my art!! >///<#it makes me happy when you leave the little comments saying aww thank you so much;;#and avjsdfjhfg im really happy you're loving the little comic of kinchan and akoya thank youuu..!!!;;; ;;////;;#im so happy you think frogs are so cute too i agree!!! >////< i want to see them again in summer..!! ;;--;;#fierysunrises YELLLLLSSSS thank you so much for your tags im cryingg my heart is full this means so much...!!!! \;;___;;/#thank you so much!!!! it means so much to me you said they're so cute and describe everything that happens dsjhsghsfgdfg >////<#my heart is filling up with so much fluffy cotton candy reading this big AWWWWWW and then how you said akoya wants to be sure it's ok;;#im so happy you noticed that it's important to me;; he definitely wants to make sure this time >////<#and kinchan is so embarrassed agvjksghdj but it paid off in the end ... thank you i love how you describe it your tags are beautiful;; >///<#MY HEART IS FULL TOO there are little shoujo bubbles floating around me now.. thank you so much for your warm and kind words wahhh!!! ;////;#merelatio !!!! aaaaa!!! the shoujo bubbles are filling up my whole heart from reading your little tag with the cute little face thank you!!!#your words are so kind and precious cries thank you for saying such a sweet and adorable thing;; ;;////;;#i love how the little face's little eyes are a little apart from its little smile it looks even more cute and precious;;; ; u ; thank you!!!#fortune-maiden AAAAAAA you commented on my kitty post THANK YOU SO MUCH I AM MELTING INTO A LITTLE KITTY-SHAPED BLOB OF DOUGH NOW!!!! >////<#oh!! you named my kitty thank you!! Kitty Sensei is such a cute name im so happy!!! :DDD #it makes me soo happy you said the hot spring looks so comfortable!! T__T im so glad it does! i wanna imagine it feels really nice!!#OMG you went to a hot spring in hakone that's amazing?!! one of yumoto's springs that's perfect!! ;;u;; im so glad you had a good time!!#it makes me sooo happy you said my sparkly eye kitty is cute!!! ;;__;; and that you made the imagine spot w akoya sound so cute too!! >////<#i love how you described it that way it sounds sooo adorable!! >////< i feel so warm and fuzzy now i will bake into a kitty loaf;; yaaay!!!!

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mydekuacademia · 2 years

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Hi! Could you do Tamaki Amajiki with an s/o that has a service dog due to multiple mental illnesses (depression, anxiety, schizophrenia?) and they seem to think they can't become a hero or even a good person because of it? But at the same time they always push their limits and cheer him and the others on. Only if you're comfortable, of course! It'd be very comforting for me. Thank you!

Heck yeah! I've considered getting a service dog for my mental illnesses, but my current treatment plan is working for me :)

I'm gonna write the dog as a female, but it super doesnt matter. I just dont like referring to dogs as "it" lol

(also, hi, sorry i disappeared for literal months lmao. Im alright, just got really busy with work and school)

Warnings: descriptions of the symptoms of mental illness, including self harm and hallucinations. Please please please don't read if topics such as these will negatively affect you in any way!!!

Tamaki was intimidated by you at first (but he's intimidated by everyone, so its not a big deal)

He knew that people with disabilities can sometimes get a service dog, so he was both confused and impressed that someone with a service dog is in the hero course

His main source of confusion was the fact that he'd never seen you show any sign of a disability, so he assumed you had something along the lines of epilepsy or diabetes or something. His guess was solidified when he saw a patch on your dog's vest that said "Not All Disabilities Are Visible"

He avoided you for a long time (again, only because he avoided everyone. It had nothing to do with your dog). Eventually, Mirio started talking to you and introduced you to Tama

He quickly realized that he had nothing to fear when it came to you. You were sweet and friendly and more than accomodating of his anxiety

Bb boy grew closer and closer to you every day. You introduced him to your dog and even let him play with her when she was taking a break from her duties. They were best friends

After some time, he felt close enough to you to ask what your dog was for. When he saw your face drop in response, he instantly retracted his question

You assured him that it was fine, you were just self conscious. But you were willing to tell him

He watched as you took a deep breath and stroked your dog's head before beginning your explanation

You were diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia several years ago, and previous treatments werent enough. Eventually, you found a combination of therapy, medication, and treatments that worked well for you. You weren't cured, for sure, but you were in a much better place

Tamaki's brow furrowed and, for just a moment, he was able to move past his anxiety and grab onto your hand and attempt to comfort you. You gave him a shy smile and squeezed his hand

"What does (dog's name) do to help?"

You told him about how she helped ground you when you were dissociating and hallucinating, pull you out of panic and anxiety attacks, and disrupt harmful repetitive behaviors (like scratching or hitting yourself)

You also told him about how you used to self harm, so your dog was trained to stop you if you were holding anything sharp when she sensed you were in a bad state of mind

When you told him that, tears began welling up in his eyes. He hated that you ever felt that low, even if you assured him that you hadn't felt that way in a long time

He couldnt help but sweep you into a tight hug, cradling the back of your head and wrapping an arm around your waist. You were frozen for a moment before returning the hug and burying your face in his shoulder

Not long after that day, you and Tama began dating

Everyone in your class thought you were absolutely adorable, especially Mirio and Nejire. They were also incredibly grateful to you for bringing Tamaki out of his shell, and to him bringing you out of your shell

#boku no hero academia #bnha #bnha x reader #my hero academia #mha #mha x reader #amajiki tamaki #tamaki amajiki #tamaki amajiki x reader #tw sh #service dog #mental health #mental illness

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soulvee-animationz · 2 years

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Okay so stories with Soulvee. So earlier this morning I was making myself sole oatmeal for breakfast, same thing as usual. So, oatmeal is finished, now all I gotta do is add the brown sugar to it. In the process of taking the brown sugar out of the cabinet it accidentally hits the counter and cracks (glass containers), so my dad had to scoop out some of the brown sugar for me to put in my oatmeal so that I didn’t accidentally eat glass. Usually if I just put it in myself I give myself like 2 scoops and a half scoop of brown sugar (scooping being done with about like a medium sized spoon), sometimes just 3 scoops. So my dad’s doing that for me, I ask him to put in the 3 scoops. And like, afterwards he makes some snarky ass comment about how I’m gonna get diabetes from eating that much sugar and it’s like-

I mean yeah, valid, I don’t think I will since I generally don’t eat sweets but that’s an alright concern, I get it, I understand. BUT ITS THE FACT THAT HE SAYS THIS AFTER GIVING ME ALL 3 SCOOPS

LIKE- FINNA WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THE THING THAT Y O U GAVE ME?????? YOU COULD HAVE STOPPED ME AT 2 OR HELL EVEN 1, YOU GAVE ME ALL 3 AND THEN DECIDE TO COMMENT ABOUT IT AFTERWARDS???????? IM JUST CONFUSED LIKE WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT AFTER DOING THAT????????????????

#bro I can’t tell if I’m the asshole here or if he’s just stupid idfk man #storytime with soul #text #like I didn’t say anything about it or like be rude I’ve kinda just been thinking this in my head

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eunchancorner · 2 years

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hey! im in love with ur fluffy fics hsgsgsgsg

I was wondering if you could make a fic of momo having jiro agree ti test momos quirks efficiency with making items better then they were originally. and she decides to make some incredibly tickly feathers to wreck jiro with?

Thanks for the request! I love this idea, with the floofy feathers and Momo being a sweetie while tkling Jirou silly and just being soft and cute and AAAAAAAAA

Ler Momo, Lee Jirou

Warning: you may get diabetes from the amount of sweetness-

Word count: 714

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Jirou was always up for spending time with Momo. Whether it be working on homework, studying, watching a movie, working on some moves or just vibing, she was always ready. She wanted to be able to devote her time to her crush and hopefully, one day, get enough courage to ask her out.

So, naturally, she was quick to jump at the chance to help Momo try some improved versions of stuff she usually creates with her quirk.

So, there she sat on Momo’s bed, surrounded by different things, currently holding a hollow titanium pole, while Momo was thinking of something else to create.

“What about researching some stuff, like, say, everyday items. Maybe you could learn how to use your quirk for other stuff,” Jirou suggested, and Momo nodded, smiling a little at the idea.

“Smart idea, Jirou. That’s why I ask you to help me!” Momo said, pulling out her phone and not seeming to notice Jirou blushing at the compliment.

She looked up the chemical makeup of a few things (teddy bears, tea kettles, even a phone charger) before something caught her eye.

Chemical makeup of feathers

Now, before UA, she wouldn’t have had a second thought about it. But, since moving to the dorms, tickling had become a regular thing, and now it was all she could think about looking at these feathers.

One would have expected her to go into a lee mood, her mind alive with images of the feathers fluttering all over her belly, making her squeak and giggle and squirm.

Well, instead of a lee mood, it was a ler mood.

And instead of her being tickled, she imagined Jirou.

She decided to take a chance and made two, one red and one purple, soft and light, nearly weightless in her hand as she turned back to her helper.

“Jirou, come look at the feathers I made,” she said, holding them out. Jirou took the purple one and spun it around, watching the fluffy tendrils wave and dance in the air, and gently ran her hand over it.

“These are really soft, Momo,” she stated the obvious (but Momo didn’t mind), “and pretty fluffy. They kinda remind me of down…”

Momo didn’t respond, sneaking around to the other side of the bed, feather in hand, poised to attack. She waited for Jirou to look up where she used to be before leaping onto the bed and pulling Jirou against her chest, lifting her shirt a little and fluttering the feather all over the headphone hero’s belly, already pulling bubbly giggles from her system.

“Hehehey! Momohohoho!” she got out around her giggles, squirming in her crush’s hold.

“Sorry, Jirou, but I just couldn’t resist! You’re all too cute when tickled, and when I saw the search option, I couldn’t help myself!” Momo said, smiling at the smaller student, who squealed when the feather brushed over her belly button.

Jirou waved the feather Momo gave her around but didn’t use it to tickle back, and also didn’t seem to be squirming too much, and Momo already knew Jirou liked being tickled, and concluded the Jirou was already in a lee mood (which Momo thought was the most amazing coincidence ever) as she used to the hand that held Jirou in place to gently claw at her ribs.

Jirou squealed and kicked a little, her giggles rising in pitch. Momo aw’d at her (cute) reactions to the tickling, daring to dip the feather into Jirou’s belly button, causing the small student to move from giggling to laughing at the incredibly ticklish sensation.

“Momoohohohooo! Nahat thehehere! It tihihihickles! It tickles soho bahahahad!” she squealed, kicking her legs and gently batting at Momo’s hands. After a few more minutes, Jirou tapped Momo’s arm, signaling she couldn’t take any more, and Momo stopped, switching her hold to a comfortable cuddle, rubbing the remaining tingles out of Jirou’s belly.

“Dihid… did you mean ihit?” Jirou mumbled out, Momo tilting her head in confusion.

“Mean what?” she asked

“That I was… cute?”

“Oh, well, yes, I suppose I did.” Jirou could’ve died happy right then and there, looking down at the feathers they both held as their tendrils intertwined each other.

One day I’ll be brave enough… and I just know she’ll say yes.

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Hehe finally got this one done. Feels a little rushed, but I’ll allow it, and now to go to my inbox where there is more work for me to do!

#lee!jirou #ler!momo #bnha #bnha tickles #bnha jirou #bnha momo #mha #mha tickles #mha jirou #mha momo #eun writes #SO FLUFFY

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levinneheart · 4 years

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Home, Sweet Home

➳ Pairing: Aone Takanobu x F!Reader

➳ Genre: Fluff, Hcs, Engagement Proposal, Domesticated, Established Relationship

➳ Warnings: Slight manga spoiler if you squint, extremely long, may or may not give you diabetes cuz of sweetness overload, self indulgent cuz i need smth soft to enlighten my emo mood, also me being a hopeless romantic so be warned

When he became a college student, you two moved in together along with a couple of his vb teammates at a two story flat

You and Aone ofc shared a room while the others had their own rooms separately, although sometimes his underclassmen Koganegawa would barge in to ask if he could pratice tossing with your bf

Not that you hate him or anything but... one time, he almost walked into you two doing the deed 😳 Aone bless him immediately reacted by pulling you close, tucking you underneath him before covering you both under the blanket and pretended to be asleep

Poor baby chick was so clueless and confused cuz he thought he heard both of your voices and assumed that you two would be together inside, I— 💀

But that’s a story for another time~ 😝

You would always laugh when you remember that tho, while Aone would just have his usual small smile with that soft doting look in his eyes as he watches you

This man knew right there and then that he was gonna marry you so you could stay by his side forever and he would come home to you making dinner

He could even imagine himself waking up everyday to see your face first thing in the morning and stare at you lovingly while thanking his lucky stars for bringing you in his life

He mayhaps.. start thinking of making a family together with you in the future, it doesn’t even matter if you don’t want kids cuz he’s satisfied with fur babies too 👉👈 aww 🥺

His friend Futakuchi was def the first one to know, next are his upperclassmen in vbc and lastly everybody else he was acquainted with

Aone, despite being quiet, would already have something planned out so he lets everybody in on it and nobody gets left behind, just cuz he babie 💗

Ngl everybody was highkey shooketh and impressed when he told them his plan of proposing since it was simple yet so meaningful

Everyone helps out as much as they could and started calling it ‘Mission: Get Aone Engaged’ or Mission GEA for short

Time skip to the day of the proposal — Aone held your hand and began leading you to his car before driving off to somewhere as you soon as you got into the passenger seat

You quietly watch the scenery passed by the window for a while before glancing back at your ever so quiet bf “Are you taking me there? Where you wanna show me smth?” You asked as he hummed in response, looking at you through the windshield and smiling softly

You smiled back and continued to look out of the window while enjoying this little adventure and his company duh, ofc you were ecstatic yet nervous at the same time cuz it’s been a while since Aone took you somewhere and surprised you

Last time was when you came home late and drunk from a night out with your colleagues after work, he took you outside of the backyard where it was decorated with fairy lights and lanterns with a pillow and blanket fort in the middle

He got you sober by making you eat snacks and drink water as you two played board/card games all night before binge watching some anime and streaming any disney/barbie/ghibli movies on your laptop

This called me out as single lmao

You two arrived at what seemed to be an empty house, it was decently sized with a somewhat large backyard, a porch and a small garden up on the front

You heard a grunt from Aone, making you turn around to face him and gasping at the sight: your tall light-haired sweetheart was kneeling down on one knee with a small box help up held up in one hand

He slowly opened it to reveal a note attached on the inside lid of the box that said ‘marry me?’ and a cute simple pearl ring before ‘locking onto’ you

Bonus:

Ofc you said yes, how could you say no to him??? Aone’s literally husbando material, FIGHT ME 😤 jkjkjk

You also show him the ring that you were supposed to give him when you proposed— Well, if he wasn’t already whipped for you, he is now but more intensely 🥴

When you did, the whole deadass Date Tech came out of hiding, popping wine and confetti everywhere while congratulating both of you

Everyone tells you that Aone planned and built this house with the help of others and them ofc, but he planned everything so he gets all the credits 🥺

Your reaction would literally transition from 😮 to 🥺💗💞

Your heart mayhaps had exploded from the overwhelming love and adoration that you have for him ✌️😌 same tbh, loves

Futakuchi rolled his eyes at the sight of all the lovey-dovey stuff he’s just envious cuz he’s still single lol and was about to say smth snarky but Moniwa smacked him right on time lmao

When the congratulation party was over and everybody had gone home, you asked Aone why he picked this day in particular

“It’s the day we first met.” “You remembered?” “Of course.” “Aw, Nobu.” You cooed before leaning up him, their lips touched for a soft kiss before parting

“Guess, this is: home, sweet home.”

Since I promised y’all that if my first Aone fic reached 100 notes, I’ll write another w/ a surprise bonus so here it is

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