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everybodyloveshippos · 4 months

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Children of Malice

Vierna, Maya, Briza Drizzt, Nalfein, Dinin

redraw/redesign of the Do'Urden family (probably will draw Malice, Zak and Rizzen next)

design notes/headcanons under the cut

i usually just have thoughts about the character as im designing so for a few things i was like 'oh thats a thought' also yes i know children of malice is a CR thing too haha

-i wasnt originally gonna draw 'lolths embrace' since these are just my own designs not visual dictionary but like....facial markings are really cool and so i ended up looking up various spider markings (i only used those specific realworld spider designs for dinin, who i also gave darker marking as opposed to lighter) and briza

-i also prefer the idea that its not actually anything to do with lolth, its just a genetic marking that some have and some don't. also the proximity to magic/faezress theory (?) was cool so there's not a huge meaning here; though i guess im guilty bcus I didnt give them to drizzt or vierna

-maybe zak doesnt have them and neither do his kids which sorta spurs on the heretic theory when its actually just a genetic thing that has no actual bearing on lolth's favour

-the women wear more gold and the men more silver, however the men can wear gold; they just have to be wary with standing out more than their sisters. any given day could be too much and cause for a beating

-nalfein likes jewelry and decorations/makeup and is more flashy when he's away at sorcere. his ears are marked up from training with/lessons from zak, who frequently would smack his ears when he was displeased with him. they blend in with lolth's embrace and he will cover them with makeup or a glamour on occasion. i just got the sense he was somewhat insecure given how he kept challenging zak and was written off by his family as mediocre. i think he liked being at sorcere more than at the house

-drizzt takes out his braids whenever he can. he likes his hair loose

-so does dinin. i think a lot of his appearance is meant to attract attention and establish his individuality

-i've always given vierna bangs and a ponytail BUT i love her braids in the comic so I gave her those too. her hair is unruly, like drizzts. she has a couple visible scars as opposed to her sisters because she trained more with zak. he felt bad about it but a bit relived when she didnt make a big deal out of getting a bit marked up. malice was angry

-maya has markings on her ears, so she doesnt pierce them. she wears makeup but forgets its there, and sleeps in it and wipes it off by accident. since her hair is shorter she decorates with little spider gold clips

-i will die on the headpiece hill. og drizzt oldman swag

-compared to my older art of them (first fanart of the series! i knew i was in when i drew all the siblings lol) i think i changed nalfein most to be less ...square....i hit him w a yassification beam and gave him eyebrows

#clare's art #legend of drizzt #dnd #dungeons and dragons #drow #drizzt do'urden #dinin do'urden #vierna do'urden #briza do'urden #maya do'urden #nalfein do'urden

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anonymouscheeses · 8 days

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Big fckn redesigns here. Well mostly Charlie but Vaggie somewhat too 🥰🥰

Blue fits Charlie soooo much and I cease to see that many redesigns with this color. I still want red to be used in most of their designs because well. They are in hell, but not too present so to make way for other unique colors. Charlie has several physical traits from her parents but also she has some details in her clothes that match with them. When I uhh, introduce their designs you'll see lmao. I also tried to make her have a more roundish design, I jst LOVE those typ of designs omg. I just want the characters with not too many sharp corners pls Viv bro... 😔 oh yeah she's mixed cuz her mom's are darker in their redesigns. Alot of their genetics went down to Charlie so she doesn't look like an exact copy of Lucifer, I kind of hate that trend with hh and hb characters, like did the moxxies dad give birth to him bro 😭 also I kept her bow because it looks so cute and silly on her it just fits, I wish they made it bigger in her show design because it would fit her silliness so much. She has a cape with stars because morningSTAR smh why didnt they do something fun with that, missed potential but whatevs yknow I still love og designs no matter what anyone sayss. Did you know I love Charlie, I could ramble for days. I think I love Charlie guys. Maybe jst a hunch idk... also... s-snake fangs.. jeepers anddd..... snake tongue.... shiver me timberz

The wife ever. I had animation in mind more when I designed her, not like in a "How easy or hard would this be to animate" way. But I like to imagine when she's shocked her hair kind of fluffs out plus her actual fluff, when she's mad her bow turns into kind of horns and then her jacket expands like wings. Gave her a more hotel like outfit, she likes to work for fun (ew). Her socks are socks but she has some fluff under them she just tries to cover it up because she hates herself 🤪 (she doesn't hate her bigger body she actually feels much more comfortable chubby than when she was skinny with Adam. She was burdened with the weight of Adam's image of women... In this sorta rewrite she gained weight when she goes to the hotel because she's more happy. I'm dying I love chub Vaggie so much guys please) headcanon: she kind of likes fashion, it's like a fun hobby of hers to stitch together clothing and go out and buy clothes she'll never wear. She taught Charlie how to stitch and she SUCKS so you can jst see it on Charlie's pants.

Second outfits! Charlie's hotel uniform for. Well. Hotel stuff. She usually only wears it when new people come to the hotel, which.... isn't often, if at all. She still likes to keep it just in case. Also she goes really cartoonish when it happens, she does the looney tunes run and changes into her clothes in like 2 seconds. Can you see my vision? 😭😭

Vaggie's is in her armor. She has several pairs of armor lying around in the hotel in completely hidden spots. It's kind of surprising uhh. Yeah she wears it alot more than Charlie wears her alt uniform but still rare to find her in it. I don't get the whole thing with the exterminators and them not being able to fight according to Carmilla. Which is kinda stupid, I'm not gonna lie. So, instead of that, Vaggie has just let her guard down and has gotten much more comfortable in her surroundings so she feels like she doesn't need to fight anymore, she's just gotten rusty 's what I'm sayin. I have no idea how to draw armor. You can tell...

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BABY CHARLIE!!! With the heads of my redesigns for Luci, Eve, and Lillith. Haha you still cant see them. Uhh, ill definitely finish the thing one day. Its not even that big of a project thing, i think i jst keep going to other drawings so im like not focusing on one thing lmao. Lucifer has heterochromia because he was cursed to forever be reminded of his betrayal. I only explained that because Charlie has it too, it's kind of a curse on the entire blood line where at least one eye is red. This is like. Slightly older Charlie than the baby Charlie in show? I jst wanted to put her in overalls cuz omg that's jst so cute ughhh 😭😭

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel charlie #hazbin hotel vaggie #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel eve #hazbin hotel lillith #chaggie #varlie #rainbowmoth #charlie x vaggie #vaggie x charlie #ill get to the other........ one day #art #fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #charlie morningstar #vaggie #i hate her name. its now Valerie. or was it Valarie. i dont remember. uh. hi #i totally forgot abt my human au ILL ANSWER QUESTIONS SOON YOU GUYS I JST HAVE ALOT IN MIND RIGHT NOWW #lillith morningstar #lucifer morningstar #eve morningstar #WHY AM I SO HAPPY THATS A TAG. ITS LITERALLY CANON THEY WERE PRT MUCH POLY. I JST LOVE THE FACT ITS ACCEPTED 😭😭#hazbin hotel chaggie #hazbin chaggie #lucifers stolen wives #could that be the ship name for those three. or if someone comes up with a better one 😭🙏 im ass at ship names #baby charlie #also every morningstar member has a curse of some kind. sooo ill explain in the other post thatll come out in 2069 /j

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lolotheparagon · 1 year

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Rating Every TNBA Redesign Cos Why Not

The New Batman Adventures was the last season of the infamous Batman the Animated Series, although it moved to another less strict network. Because the producers wanted to do crossovers with the Superman animated series, they gave the series and its characters a more streamlined style to it. Now I dont wanna blame Bruce Timm entirely since there were many artists on staff back then who did the redesigns but because I hate this coomer, Im going to anyway. In BTAS, you can tell each character apart and they have their own unique outfits and looks to them. But here, these are some of the most unimaginative superhero/villain designs Ive ever seen. Although some did surprise me and were not that bad. So, for a bit of fun, here's my look at each Batman character's redesign in the final (and worst) season of the show.

(Not counting Robin cos he's a different character to Dick Grayson or characters that had very little changes like Clayface or Harley Quinn)

Batman

The big emo rodent himself. For his redesign, I like the more sleek look to Batman's cape...thats it. His original design is really hard to perfect. Its got everything. Why tamper with perfection?

Batgirl

I actually kinda like Batgirl's redesign. The yellow gloves and boots really help her stand out and its the one of the few times the darker toned outfits actually accentuate a design rather than ruin it. Too bad Bruce Timm couldn't stop salivating over her and the rest of the women in this show. So next time you see someone consider Bruce Timm this legendary storyteller of Batman, give them a healthy reminder that he shipped this college girl character with her mentor/surrogate uncle figure FOR YEARS.

Alfred

Its like they sucked away all of Alfred's snark and replaced it with a cardboard cutout. Literally, he looks so sterile and empty. Who had the idea of making Alfred look more bored and done with everything? Also whats wrong with his chin??

Commissioner Gordon

Good ole Commissioner Pringle got off pretty much unscathed but I think they made him a touch too old considering they gave him a more lanky body, which makes him look more feeble and weak. Dude looks old enough to be Babs' grandad

Joker

Ohhhhh boy. So Joker's redesign is infamously considered by fans as one of the show's worst redesigns, to a point even the showrunners were like yeahh. And thats not unwarranted. He looks like an inverted Dr Draken and im so glad they redesigned him again for Batman Beyond and onward.

Seriously he's A CLOWN WHERES THE MAKE UP?!!

Two-Face

I know Two Face is just a redrawn version of the original design with the TNBA streamlined art style but I want to draw special attention to the monster side of Dent's face. Notice in the original it looks more manic and feral? Heavily contrasted with the conflicted, guilty look on Dent's normal side? But here, in the redesign the monster side is less scary and Dent looks way too bored and angry. The overuse of black lines doesnt help.

Catwoman

She looks like Harley Quinn or Barbara wearing a catsuit. Starting to see a pattern here?

Baby Doll

Its a tough call cos they both look very good but Im gonna lean towards the redesign cos shes got that creepy doll look down to a T (Annabelle would be proud) whereas her original design looked more like a Tiny Toons character.

Scarface and the Ventriloquist

I like the redesign cos of the exaggerated style of the rest of the show perfectly captures Scarface since he's, yknow, a puppet and having the Ventriloquist be shown to be scared and submissive really does show how the puppet is ironically the puppetmaster.

Penguin

Actually I like both of them. They both give off that sophisticated element Penguin is known for and after so many reiterations of him being this crass Scouse-talking crime boss, its nice to see versions of him going back to his rich asshole roots.

Bane

In the original, he has a luchador-style mask and wrestling suit fitting his Spanish roots. Here, he straight up looks like a gimp. Its really bad. Embrace your heritage, Bane!

Riddler

They went from Frank Gorshin to Jim Carrey for Riddler (fitting cos Batman Forever came during TNBA's development) and I love that. So I love both of them. Nice to see a villain with some fucking colour in TNBA cos im tired of seeing all this black outfits. Also his cane being an extended question mark instead of a question mark on top of a regular cane is genius.

Mad Hatter

Both of them fit Hatter's deranged stalker vibes perfectly, but I wish they kept the colour scheme for the redesign cos Hatter's new colour scheme looks too rounded and doesnt stand out.

Poison Ivy

Killer Croc

Finally, now he looks like an actual crocodile instead of whatever the hell he was supposed to be!

Scarecrow

Okay, who the fuck decided to make Scarecrow look like the Babadook? Cos I want to give them a raise. Holy mother of piss, that is terrifying. That shit belongs in the Arkham games. I still prefer the old design cos it has that perfect blend of goofy and gothic. He looks like a Cacturne now that I think about it.

Mr Freeze

HONEY WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO YOU?!! WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE A FUCKING FUTURAMA HEAD?!! WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK?! YOU HURT MY HUSBAND, TIMM, NOW ITS PERSONAL

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kairiscorner · 10 months

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Ri. Ri. Ri the rizz master. Meron akong brainrot ulit 😭

beh, u should def watch maria clara at ibarra. Its so good like man 😩

but imagine… miguel/noir in a noli au. The clothes???? The plot??? The tagalog OMGGG, like imagine miguel using really old tagalog, as in, the days where ppl still used señor/señorita. Words like maharlika and the like. (Sana tama yung spelling ko hahahsj)

i could go on and on about imagining them in old filipino literature. I can’t. Im so far gone.

-leonara <3

NAKO ATE ARE YOU TRYNA KILL ME????????? man i found ibarra hot there though HE'S THE STANDARD YOU CAN'T BLAME MEEEEE

anyway, so imagine,

miguel o'hara in a noli au

ok so we were both colonized by the spanish right, so i think that YES, YOU BOTH WOULD'VE UNDERSTOOD EACH OTHER IN SPANISH KUNG MESTIZO/A KAYO; but if not, bc from what i remember, the indios weren't taught spanish, you'd kind of just..... listen to him, and if he says a word you understand in tagalog, you'd answer him in tagalog and JUST--

i think if you really didn't understand him bc of how malalim tagalog was back then, which was way more common than how my conyo ass speaks, you two probably wouldn't come to an understanding, you'd probably resort to using your body language to tell him LMAO

also am i the only one who thinks filipino/filipina beauty, doesn't matter if you're moreno/morena or pale or darker than that, really captivates miggy? like even if you didn't look like mestiza women at the time and were a pure-blooded filipino/filipina, HE WOULD BE ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH HOW YOU LOOKED EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T GO ALL OUT FOR HIM (he knows you're perfect :>)

he would try to impress you with his spanish, but honestly, you couldn't care less bc YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HALF THE SHIT HE'S SAYING, so you just... nod... and... leave.......

when you're waiting out by your window, or nagpapahangin lang ykyk kasi mas malamig noon, he'd call out to you and say you look lovely tonight in the MOST FANCY OLD TAGALOG WAY (fuck di ko alam kung paano, BUT LEMME TRY SOMETHING HUHU)

"aba'y binibini/ginoo... ikaw ay punong-puno ng kagandahan ngayong gabi; ang mga tala sa langit ay daig pa sa iyong ning-ning."

then he fuckin winks and you're dead

if you knew him ever since you were younger, he would write those letters ibarra sends maria clara, AND HE'D GAZE OVER AT YOU SO LOVINGLY AS YOU READ THEM OUT LOUD, AND WHEN HE CATCHES YOU BLUSHING HE'D SAY IT, HE'D CALL YOU OUT

"aking binibini, ika'y... namumula. kay ganda ng pula sa iyong mukha, ika'y tilang isang rosas na namumukadkad."

(((oh the urge to kiss him right then and there fuckkk)))

he would harana you. that is FINAL. he would sing in spanish because that's how he expresses himself best, and because he's more familiar with them. but i think he'd compose his own songs in spanish AND TAGALOG FOR U

IF YOU FR DON'T GET THE HINT HE LIKES YOU, HE WILL STRAIGHT UP ASK YOU ONE DAY IF YOU'D WANT TO RUN AWAY WITH HIM AND LET HIM TAKE CARE OF YOU

HE WANTS A FUCKING FUTURE WITH YOU AWAY FROM THE COLONIZERS AND BULLSHIT THAT'S HAPPENING IN THE NOLI AND WANTS TO SEE YOU SAFE AND SOUND. HE WILL KICK THE SHIT OUT OF THE GUARDIA CIVIL IF THEY FUCKING HURT YOU !!!!!!

"aking sinta, ipinapangako ko. hindi kita pakakawalan, hindi kita iiwanan sa impyernong ito, sapagkat ikaw ang natatanging liwanang sa aking buhay, ang tanging minamahal at mamahalin ko hanggang ako'y yumao't mawala sa mundo. nais kong maramdaman at maranasan mo na ikaw lang ang mundo ko. tu eres mi unico mundo." (shit sana tama AAAAAAA)

a/n: BIG THANK YOU TO ATE @binibinileonara FOR THE REQ AND INSPO, LOVE YOU PO ATEEE /platonically <333

tags !! @thecoolerdor @miguelswifey04 @luvstarrstruck @binibinileonara

#miguel o'hara #miguel o'hara x filipino reader #miguel o'hara x reader #miguel o'hara x you #miguel o'hara x y/n #atsv miguel #atsv x reader #atsv x filipino reader #atsv imagines #atsv x you #atsv x y/n #CURLING MY TOES KICKING MY FEET TWIRLING MY HAIR GIGGLING I FUCKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH

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ludinusdaleth · 10 months

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on a similar note, i do think that there's a lot of people that are just outright evil towards the female characters moreso in this campaign than ever before, with people literally demonizing imogen for so much as breathing in laudna's direction as being an evil, toxic, heartless abuser and "worse than delilah". and people notably didn't care at all about ashton until they realized they could ship them with laudna and further make out imogen to be a monster.

i cant say that this is the worst it's been, historically. the way keyleth/marisha was treated for years was probably the most notable, gruesome, & well known example of misogyny in the fanbase, something that affected marisha ray personally and still does - iirc, part of beau directly spun from her willingness to spite her detractors. many a reddit incel would not shut up about every detail of marisha's rp as the druid. i appreciate that cr responded to that over the years narratively as spitefully as possible.

but, yeah, i think, especially on tumblr, there are some odd attitudes at work. imogen, fearne, & deanna are taking the full brunts of it -

deanna is called evil or disappointing for not being a shining cleric of holy goodness praising the gods bluntly to the screen, and is dehumanized by fans by being put into the mammy stereotype whenever she talks to imogen, even when her plotline is literally centered on realizing she's more than a nurturer (and aabria has liked my tweets on this subject, so maybe, we can assume she shares bitterness at this?). almost no one ever wants to acknowledge her beyond the trait of being motherly, or being lovers with chetney, and dont get me started on how people said she was feral because she killed a goat and made imogen cry?

fearne is treated as a ditzy kooky bimbo fae, with many people ive seen refusing to acknowledge any of her character development - folk get angry when ive mentioned her doing anything, saying shes just a selfish bitch and only that, that she needs to be "put in her place" by any character witnessing her mischief.

and for imogen - i know people dont want to woobify her, but in the process, holy fuck does cr tumblr become judgemental. i have seen, verbatim: "sorry she isnt your girlboss and her actions will hurt others when she turns evil", said pre-solstice, and then, she wasnt. her tendency toward her darker powers and her considering ludinus's pov (yknow. like many a protagonist tries to see the antagonist's pov. thats normal in narratives) because her mother joined him has damned her into the fandom thinking she's a beast to be put down. frankly, even if she did turn evil? id support that narratively, that's fantastic. but she didn't and there is a smugness to the fact that she is now the most clear headed against ludinus when people were sure she would turn, and wanted blood on that assumption.

as for ashton, yeah. i.... have a lot of thoughts on how fandom treats them - they definitely were treaded around til shipping began and only then they were considered palateable, and then were noticeably only called he/him pronouns by the terfs of the marisha/laura-ship brigade. if im being honest, i have not seen them directly used against imogen, and i dont think im the person to discuss imodna or shipping wars with you. but i do think every other bells member is utilized as some kind of cudgel against her (namely, in my experience, orym). to this fanbase, imogen is not allowed to have her traumas in the literal face of ruidis, the source of it.

i know this harsh simpleminded view on the ladies of cr has always existed. i could go into it in every campaign thoroughly. but i do think c3 is unique in how tumblr is treating it. do you know how badly you have to screw up for cr twitter to be calmer & more rational on the topic of women existing in a narrative?

#van speaks #asks #long post #critical role #campaign 3 #misogynoir #misogyny #racism #deanna leimert #imogen temult #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #transphobia #critical role meta

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junotter · 8 months

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ive been on and off working on a little dw oneshot story thing for just my own enjoyment. idk really want to call it but its basically just like an episode storyline im writing? like its within canon, just another story i wanted to add and experiment with.

not sure if ill post a lot of it cause i feel like the average dw has no interest in the silly story im making but yeah...

its basically just cause i wanted to put the doctor and rose into a more horror feeling scenario and ended up also wanting to make something in the vibes line of fatal frame, silent kill, res evil, etc etc

more info on it under the cut if you have any interest

the story mainly revolves around entertainment, fans, and a dash of sexism/commodification of mainly women + some thoughts about vr

essentially the doctor and rose end up within a virtual horror game, not knowing it is a game, where the people they interact with are real human minds who've been uploaded into this game as protagonists for players to play as. its essentially a game where the player "tortures" these game protagonists by putting them in these horror game scenarios, haunted houses, demons hunting them, monsters of all kinds, etc etc where everything that happens to these characters is fully happening to a real human conscious.

the game itself has this massive following with obsessive fans who dont exactly know the truth of the characters theyre playing. the company running it uploaded these minds as a profit incentive, believing that all they needed for their game to succeed is the "human touch", and it pretty much worked.

the doctor and rose initially meet and spend the most time with one woman who is in a more silent hill like scenario and spend most the time running from these monsters and trying to figure out what happened to this world and how to yk solve it (not knowing its all a game). the game also builds bad guys off the data in the real minds of the characters in the game so a bunch of monsters and stuff chasing them around slowly turn into other things theyve encountered by like 10x creepier and awful.

i wont really explore the darker stuff ive been brewing but idk heres some stuff i thought was more fun:

1: when the protagonist they're following runs, its like the stereotypical horror girl half run that would barely be fast enough in real life, but depsite the fact the doctor and rose can be in a full sprint, she still is somehow faster than them

2: when the same protagonist essentially gets played by a player, she just stops where she is and enters a door neither rose or the doctor can see and leaves them stranded in the horror like scenarios she lives in regardless if she's being played or not.

3: literally the moment the doctor and rose enter this "world" all the colors become desaturated and the environment is dark and foggy, they basically just become characters within the game as well

4: all the horror protags really have no memory beyond whatever event set off their games, like one will be like "ah my husband, i miss him a lot, at times i think he's still there besides me" and rose is like "what was his name? your husband" and just the person she's talking to basically short circuits and loops the convo

not sure if there's much interest in stuff like this and im just testing to see if any of yall have interest because i do have some art ive done for it that id be up to sharing!

#junos horror game storyline #i really dont want this showing up in a lot of peoples tags and such yk

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cinoman · 8 months

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the idea of "authentically black"

while im still on my tiktok rant grind i've been thinking about this for ages and i need to write it down so i can stop having this swimming around my head forever

i don't have receipts but blackness is categorized as a spectrum for a good number of people, but not in the way you think(?).

i remember this guy was being made fun of on tiktok because his nose was quite broad (same shit joke about how he takes up all the air in the room) and he basically made a video insinuating he's what the "original" and "most authentic" black person looks like

(he actually said something like "i was what your ancestors looked like, i look like a true african, i look like an ancient african statue" etcetc.)

i had a lot of mixed emotions about that post. it was painted as being very pro-black, and i supported his message for the simple fact he's up against the most intolerable type of black ppl (the one's who think it's appropriate to make fun of other black ppl's features). but i hated it as a stand alone video.

for a brief moment, there was a feud about the usage of afro wigs by black women who do not have type 4 hair. it started because of a well-known black tiktoker, who happened to be lightskin and have type 3 hair, wore an afro wig to some kind of event.

well, another semi well-known black tiktoker, who happened to be darkskin and have type 4 hair, made a very telling slip up when addressing the issue. if i remember correctly she asked her audience how they felt about "lightskin women with type 3 hair using our hair."

and to be completely fair, i think the argument originally was completely valid and interesting. the basis of the feud was that people put on afro-wigs but demean and look down upon people with 4c hair (who have the most accommodating texture for a nice afro). we see afros as a symbol of pro-blackness but tear down the people in our community for their afros by telling them to "get their hair done" and other demeaning shit like that. up until people feel pro-black again.

anyways, as you can imagine, lightskin women with 4c hair basically told her off. the issue was because of the term "our hair" and the link of "lightskin and 3c hair." the whole incident kind of reminded me of the guy i mentioned earlier. and then it clicked for me: people (no matter how conscious they are) think of blackness as a spectrum of features. and it's dumb as hell.

for example in the nose incident, broader noses are considered more "authentically" black. so wouldn't the logical conclusion to this be that if you're black with a nose that's any less broader, you're not as "authentically" black. your nose is a product of something non-black, and a broader nose can only be the product of something only black.

with hair/skin, darker skin is viewed as more authentically black. so is having 4c hair. therefore, it makes sense that someone who is "authentically" black by means of darker skin would also have 4c hair.

i'm not so sure why the link between hair and skin is so close in this case, but moving on.

so therefore, lighter skin people are automatically not "authentically" black and therefore "should" have features that match that: looser hair.

the conclusions to these statements is that anything not in complete opposite direction to the eurocentric beauty standard is "diluted," and "less black." there must be something there that is causing those things other than blackness.

i shouldnt have to explain why this dichotomy is asinine, and unhelpful to the way we view blackness. this dichotomy is what generates comments like "Oh, what are you mixed with?" when a black person has anything outside of "authentically black" features.

the actual answer here is all of it is black. all it is is caused by "authentic blackness." Hair that comes in looser textures is a product of? black people. no, not referring to the stupid anti-science eve gene stuff, it's simply a feature black people who are full black can have without there being some underlying "unauthentic" blackness in them. Same with lighter skin, etc.

brain dump over lol

#black on tumblr #black tumblr #i can now sleep tonight #anti blackness #rant #thought dump

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rasshu-benaio · 8 months

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〚 I Can Take It 〛 Part 3 🔞MDNI🔞

A Demon Slayer Gyutaro X Reader

- Reader Attributes: Adult (obviously)/ Fem/ Darker skin tone/ tsundere

- Gyutaro Attributes: Dominant/ mean spirited/ soft spot for reader/ greedy/ bitch

- Warnings/Content: CNC/ Fighting/ implied battle/ explicit sexual content/ adult × adult/ blood play/ shaming/ toxic relationship

⚠️ NOTICE ⚠️ This is based off of the official plot of my MAIN fanfiction that is an OC/insert × Gyutaro SFW fiction so please refrain from stealing? Idk how to steal writing but people keep referring to that so ima say it too!

You’re eyes burned with fierce aggression as you pushed your injured body to push back against this repulsive looking monster above you! Gyutaro was clenching your legs so hard that you could feel his hands leaving marks in your chocolatey skin. The man looked irritated with your previous actions but more or less, he still wasnt leaning on killing you out right. Unfortunately, you couldn’t tell what he wanted to do, and if you did, you were ignoring it as denial clouded your vision. Before long, the struggle became more apparent as the demon pushed down on your legs ever so slightly, making you yelp! That little yelp seemed to make the demon testy as he pushed down alittle more to see your reactions!

With your legs up and near your chest, you could barely see the demons face behind your legs, but his sunset eyes were still in view as he took in your pitiful posture! Legs up, arms scrambling to fight and cover, back against the plush bed, and most embarrassingly… your whole body, that rare almond skin shimmering in the red window moonlight… it was all on display for this repulsive demon. Now the only thing blocking his droopy eyes as a thin black fabric, a cute pair of undies hiding your sacred area.

Thrashing back and forth, you strain yourself as you try to get out of this position until something makes you freeze. A prying rough finger, trailing down your leg to the center of your panties! With wide eyes, you react violently, slinging threats and insults as you try to intimidate the curious demon but it’s worthless.

Y/N, angry: Y-You Bastard! Stop this crap! What the hell are you DOING?!

Gyutaro, coldly: Whazzit look like I’m doing… you’re a bitch, im treating you like the bitch you are… got that?

Y/N: Bitch?! IF YOU DO ANYTHING TO ME I WILL SHOV- MHP!?

Gyutaro, Covering your mouth: Shut it sweet cheeks… or i’ll make it hurt a lot more than it needs to.. got it?

Y/N: … *cold stare*

Gyutaro: good slut… lets see how long a hashira like you will last against me. And if you make me cum a good bit, I’ll let you live. I think thats fucking fair…

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing! This damn demon is really about to defile you… and for what!? You weren’t some hot shot, far from it actually; cuts and scars, tomboyish hair, an angry attitude… You were a far cry from Japans beauty standards and just because of that, not the only thing you could to attract was some pissy ass demon with everything wrong with him!? He wreaks of sweat and rotting meat, his face was abhorred, his hair was greasy and nappy, and he called you a SLUT?! The nerve… regardless, you felt the open air hit your precious area and the greedy demon pulled up your underwear, finally exposing you…

You felt your rage boil as he licked his thumb and slid it across your pretty meek pussy! Despite your dark complexion, Gyutaro could tell you were blushing from just a simple touch, you’ve never experienced this kind of thing and it showed. And if that was the case, it makes two of you since Gyutaro never let his interests get the best of him in the first place. You lay pinned as you feel Gyutaro inspecting his prize; opening and closing your folds, observing the color gradient, poking around to see how your body reacts. It wasnt new per se since he’s always “had” access to countless of beautiful bodies; men and women, alive and dead, young and old… But this was the first time he had one like yours, ever. It was weird and he wanted to see of there was anything different about you but even if there wasnt, at least you made cute muffled sounds when he pressed your clit.

By the time Gyutaro was done messing around and toying with you, you was exhausted; you’d struggled the whole time, wasting your stamina on resisting and trying to escape that you were drained before he even got to begin his experiment! He had never had the chance to have sex with a human that was alive and well enough, such as you! He would have a fling with other demons, and sometimes hed use a dead body once or twice but he was never needy most of the time. Unfortunately you just so happened to awaken something in him that he hadn’t felt in a while.

So finally, with the last bit of your energy, you try to keep your legs closed but Gyutaro finds it cute as he viciously cracks open your legs! Letting out a small grunt, you start to sit up in defiance but gyutaro pushes you down on the bed as he jerks his boney hips in between your legs! You can’t possibly get out of this as you grasp his huge skinny hand… in all honesty, you started to think about everything unrealized crush you had, every shut down you’ve experienced, and every heartbreak you’ve tanked. Saving yourself for that one specific someone that you’d meet and now, this was the end?… This demon was surely going to kill you after he had his fun, but at least you wouldn’t die a virgin, right?

You’re about to cry to yourself as you think but everything hurts as you feel him part into you! Letting out a guttural groan, you nearly choke up as the demon rams himself into your ungodly tight walls! Gyutaro hunches down as his face is folded with a heavy mix of emotion; your tight warm body, his heart beating, your deafening voice! It was all too much for him as he helplessly released a load in you before he even got started! He had a look of disappointment and shame but he shook it off as he aggressively thrusted himself into you! He had no rhythm or rhyme to his actions as he fiercely pounded into your plush thighs! You were obviously gagging and roaring out at this point since he was so massive despite his skinny fragile appearance, it was hard to handle him as you scrambled to get your barrings!

It went on like this for a couple of minutes; you weren’t enjoying any of this and Gyutaro was slamming himself inconsistently, messing up your insides literally! But after a while the demon slowed as he just looked at you… your pussy was clinging tightly to his girth and he was internally happy to see it but that was just human biology at this point. Once a proud and stern woman, now was a crying mess at this demons mercy… and that seemed to irritate this demon. After waiting for awhile, Gyutaro kept his dick snuggly inside of you as he waited for you to get ahold of yourself, snapping his fingers to get your attention!

Gyutaro, irritated: aye… Aye… Hey, prude. I know you hear me… suck it up, it dont hurt that bad. Now help me, how do you want me to do this?…

Y/N: *cough* help you…? what are you talking about… ugh.. how can I help you anyway

Gyutaro: Well you keep fuckin crying, you aint shutting up, and you’re too tight… im just saying, if you tell me how you want this then maybe you’ll loosen up and STOP cryin… is all… it’s annoying the hell out of me…

Y/N: …

You both sit in silence for a few minutes and eventually Gyutaro gets fed up as he barks at you for being an idiot! Getting ready to ram into you again, you panic as you finally agree to his demand… you’ll guide him. Though you’re not sure how to.

First and foremost, you’re spine feels like its on fire so you request a better position overall and hearing this makes the demon a bit irritated already… he did like to make you uncomfortable but he begrudgingly releases your legs, letting them fall down to the soft bed! Hearing such a sigh of relief, the demon turns his head from you as he feels his blush set in again. But hearing your voice turn a bit softer, he glares at you awaiting you’re guidance. A bit softer of the thrusts and where to thrust was a good thing to tell him because as soon as you gave him that information, he was proudly hitting that g-spot of yours consistently! Now he was getting the hang of it as his hands searched for something to grab… locking onto your hands, he pounded you, almost like he was doing this for both you and him? But you was too busy accommodating his size to notice his attention to detail.

You held onto his hand begrudgingly as he licked your neck and chest. But while he did so, you’re legs started to creep around his as you’re back arched just slightly. You didn’t seem to notice as you were still repulsed by everything Gyutaro did bit the demon surely noticed! His heart spiked as he saw the signs so trying something he knew absolutely sure about, he pressed his thumb in between your slippery folds! Rubbing circles, his eyes narrowed on to your expression as you looked started to react differently; almost horrified!

Finally, that toothy grin showed itself as he vigorously rubbed in circles! He knew exactly what he was doing! Finding that little love button; the clit! You looked appalled as you sat up quickly but the demon shove you down roughly as his thrusts sped up! Rubbing you more, he felt your walls clench him as he moved in and out! It was too much and you didnt want to cum by this… this thing!? So with all of your power you tried to resist but he knew too much! He could tell you were close as he pinched your clit making you yelp out, tugging on it, tears pricked the sides of your eyes are you tried but you couldn’t ldnt stop it! You’re legs twitched as you squirted on his hipbones; almost about to cry from embarrassment! Your face was burning hot from fury and shame as you saw the demon lean in closer towards your face… he was going to eat you huh…

Closing your eyes shut, you anticipate a sharp pain to the neck but all you feel is his dick plop out of you and then you hear the sound of a window closing.

Opening your eyes, you look around as you realize that the strong demon left you alone. You’re clothes was still torn, you were left defiled on your bed, and a stream of his essence leaked from you… you were confused, sore, and a bit shaken.

And after all of that, you felt something you never thought was possible; you felt yourself thinking fondly about that repulsive demon

(•c• ) this is technically just a self insert thing i wrote a year ago but i deleted it cuz it cringe! Now all i do is make it a reader fic for all the naughties! Anywho! Im going back to my regularly scheduled rasshu x gyutaro content! I just wanted to make a reader one for the people who make those. •c• it makes me happy when i see a gyutaro x angry ass reader so i HAD to show my appreciation

(Hopefully ill get butter at this stuff)

#demon slayer #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #gyutaro #gyutaro shabana #gyutaro x oc #gyutaro smut #gyutaro x reader #reader x gyutaro #gyutarou #demon slayer smut #kimetsu no yaiba smut #kny smut #mdni #naughty naughty #demon slayer x reader #x reader

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neverlearnedtoread · 3 months

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Midnight in Everwood

⭐⭐; reading this book is like letting a kid explain their drawing to you - 'this is the cotton candy castle with a prince and princess and their 29 dogs and cats', they say, pointing to a wobbly blue squiggle and a patch of snot. all you can do is smile and nod and let it happen

Oh?? 👌😉😏

the narration, while over the top, fit the atmosphere the book wanted to create (confectionary sugar world). its probably annoying to listen to as the descriptions dont let up but im good at skimming so i could swim my way through the syrup just fine

i liked the beginning, before the author's hand became too glaringly obvious to ignore later in the plot - while marietta was never entertaining as a main character to follow, she felt more 'real' in her home environment, more believable as a character. i liked her relationship with her brother

I'll say this: finishing this book made me want to rewatch Barbie in the Nutcracker, just to feel something. what a classic! unlike this book 😭

No.. ❌🤢🤮

oversaturated with metaphors and flowery language - enough synonyms, hoity-toity French vocabularié and verbiage to rot your teeth out. it's also an 'oh?? 👌😉😏' point because i do think the author did it on purpose to create a certain tone, but it's A LOT.

i get the distinct sense that the author understands on a surface level that her character is a privileged whiny baby, but doesn't have the writing prowess to make her compelling OR put her through her paces of a satisfying character arc.

#girlboss #modernfeminism #womenarejustasstrongasmen played completely straight. a main female character who stays entirely, pretentiously convinced of their own girlbossery the whole time, despite doing NOTHING to earn it, and an author who reshapes the story to meet those expectations. anything for her #slay #girlboss #queen!!!!!

stuff constantly gets introduced just to not add anything to the story - the mouse king equivalent has in his castle a captured FAIRY and WARRIOR PRINCESS as part of his menagerie of women marietta finds herself a part of, and we just leave it at that. the guard captain is revealed as part of a SECRET REBELLION and all that happens is marietta gets weirdly horny about it.

the romance develops at the most annoying moments - they even decide to fuck in the snow (their bare asses!! in the SNOW!!! and not even a hint of pneumonia to show for it 🥶) before marietta returns to her world. i expected her to be hornt up, but the guy?? my brother in butterscotch we have got to get you better standards in women

Summary: Marietta Stelle wants to dance but she's too damn privileged to be allowed to pursue it as a viable career - she needs to get married to some creepy old man for the sake of her family's ambition, damnit! As her last performance draws near, Marietta is pushed into accepting the marriage proposal of the creepiest man in town, a mysterious toymaker named Dr. Drosselmeier. Of course, she's a #strongfemalecharacter, so she vehemently rejects him - only to fall victim to his (very heavy-handedly hidden) magic, which transports her in a magical world made of sugar, full of hidden dangers.

Concept: 💭💭💭 The Nutcracker isn't my favourite story ever, but I'm a sucker for a good fairytale - and for good music! I think it's a story that lends itself very heavily to a specific kind of whimsical, airy aesthetic - while allowing for darker themes or storytelling aspects to lurk in the shadows. A friend whose taste I trust recommended this book to me, and while I was skeptical that the summary (mostly because the blurb included a list of #tropes, which is a bookish red flag for me) would really deliver on its vague promises, I've done more for less.

Execution: 💥 This book should come with a 'NO DIVING! THIS POOL IS ONLY LESS THAN 1M DEEP' warning - it's so shallow I was encouraging my own reflection to keep going after every chapter. Bafflingly, this issue actually worsens when Marietta gets to the magical isekai world of Everwood - which is the OPPOSITE of what is supposed to happen! You would think a world governed by an evil mouse king (who is not a mouse, just a guy. he has enchanted mice running up and down his coat, ooh scary) and literally made of sweets would be fun, but we only get TOLD the names of its stories and legends and then the book is like 'next chapter! marietta felt more at home because her new friends told her stuff!' Plus, in the latter half of the book you really chafe against the author's lack of skill - like watching a puppet show while clearly being able to see the fingers / hands of the puppeteers, her characters are angry, awestruck, and miserable in the most wooden of ways as the author stomps on the next bullet point in her outline with all the subtlety of an elephant.

Personal Enjoyment: ❤❤ I can't say I enjoyed reading this book, because I really didn't - at one point I had to put the book down after SIX PAGES because marietta was getting on my nerves with her badly timed horniness (which she didn't know was horniness, because that builds ~~tension~~). But I had a LOT of fun recounting this book to my friend (the one who recommended it to me, who then gave up less than 20% in) and my sister. Everything that happened WAS frustrating, but in a way that made me laugh - which is the reason why I kept reading. It was like watching a collision in slow-mo - I had to know where it ended.

Favourite Moment: this entire book was painful but i had a good laugh when marietta and the captain fuck in the snow - and i do mean fuck. ass fully out behaviour. everwood is supposed to be stuck in a forever winter and they were all 'we'll just lay our coats down, it'll be fine'. like, i am absolutely sure it will NOT be fine, but you do you! it's not like marietta 'damn this feminism shit is easy' stelle is gonna listen to anyone anyway. that would be non-feminist! a ho never gets cold!

Favourite Character: Dellara, AKA the remains of a Sugar Plum Fairy equivalent stripped of every possible interesting thing and left on the floor to bleed out as a 'mean girl'. Don't get me wrong, Pirlipata was a fascinatingly underused character too, but Dellara actually snapped at Marietta multiple times (didn't amount to anything, but A+ for effort) and we simply have to stan her for that. Also she endures torture for the sake of others and is an otherworldly immortal being who becomes Queen at the end. I would gladly have thrown Marietta into the path of an oncoming bus to follow Dellara's storyline instead.

#midnight in everwood #M. A. Kuzniar #maria kuzniar #books #book review #booklover #bookblr #reading

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oasis-for3v3r · 2 years

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Relaxation #

Zakk Wylde x Reader

Prompt- a request for a zakk wylde x reader with all smut and minimal plot.

A/N- Sorry for the unnanounced hiatus, I hope this makes up for it!

Warnings- MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. Unprotected Sex, Catholic guilt, kinda slut shaming if you squint. Sin, just pure sin. also bad grammar

Welp, you hate to say it but goddammit you were feeling needy. Again. And its not like you would ever say it out loud anyway.

You were the type of person to be the horniest but never say shit because you thought that would make you a slut. And with your parents holding extremely traditional values, its not hard to pinpoint where you got your guilt from. You know what they say, Catholic School is the best place to send your child to if you don’t want them to become Catholic.

Which is part of the reason why you hadn’t had sex with your boyfriend Zakk yet. Trust and believe you wanted to. But its the way you viewed sex, for the most part you found it hot. But on the other you were taught that sex was like a procedure only used for making children, its not something the women enjoyed and if you did, you were dirty and a whore for liking something so sacred to be used for your own pleasure.

But you couldn’t help it your boyfriend was so damn fine and him playing his guitar during shows made you so damn horny. You were a grown ass woman with needs, and you wanted to relieve it so bad.

But this damn pillow wasn’t cutting it for you. You tried not to be too loud but your pussy felt so.. achy? Not in a bad way but in “if you even so much as breathe on it I will cum.” type of achy. So much that the pillow case was practically soaked by the time you were through humping it.

And you haven’t even cum yet.

You were figuring out what to do next to gain some relief when Zakk came through the door.

Shame ran through your veins, reddening your cheeks and the tips of your ears.

You tried to do a million things at once, covering yourself, hiding the stained pillow, trying to explain the situation to Zakk. Starting and stopping your own unfinished sentences.

“I didn’t know you were coming home so soon..”

“Im so sorry about the mess..”

“ Im really sorry Ill go and cover myself up.”

You say the last part while going to your shared bathroom, but he caught your arm gently.

“Honey, calm down, you looked pretty hot actually” He said with.a glint in his eyes.

“ Thank you” you tried everything to avoid looking into his eyes because if you did you would melt instantly .

“ You wanna tell me what you were thinking about darling?” His eyes were darker and more intense his hands around your hips. Making you feel safe yet wanted at the same time.

“ I was thinking about your hips pushing into me, making me feel so full, while you hold me close and whisper dirty things into my ear.” You didn’t know what possesed you to say that but with him, every single worry and guilt had evaporated leaving you with one primal emotion. Fuckin’ Horny.

When you spoke those words, it was like you opened pandora’s box of pleasures. And Zakk was more than happy to give to you.

He sat on the edge of the bed and patted his lap.

“Come sit right here on my lap while I finger fuck you, honey” You did as you were told, still feeling a bit sensitive after humping the pillow. And the rough demin of his jeans rubbing against your bare clit felt so good.

He took his middle finger and swirled it around your entrance gathering your wetness. His other arm slid across your waist, keeping you from moving. He gave you a passionate kiss, before he rubbed your clit in gentle circles, ELEPHANT

The rhythm he had fingering you felt heavenly with 2 fingers in your wet tight hole sliding in and out, with the heel of his hand continuously smacking against your clit. You were holding on to his arm that was stretched over you, muscles flexing underneath your grip.

“That feels good huh honey? Feels so nice when I finger fuck your little hole like this?” He growled into your ear.

You couldn’t answer with anything except for moans and whimpers. You couldn’t focus on anything except the erotic pleasure that Zakk was giving you.

You were just on the brink of cumming when he pulled his fingers out, leaving you clenching around air. You whined while he undressed, noticing a wet spot you left on his jeans.

“Lay down right here, no its ok honey I know you left a wet spot, don’t worry we’ll leave a bigger one, just relax.” he comforted while putting your ankles around his neck pulling your hips to the edge of the bed so he can hit your sweet spot even deeper.

There were no words to describe the feeling as he pounded in you, it felt so dirty yet so good at the same time. Fuck you were feeling so full and satisfied at the same time. in fact you wouldn’t mind being like this forever. Having nothing to worry about except to cum hard and where to cum. The thought of wetting his face made you shiver around him. Your bodies were almost one, when you react he reacted even harder, creating a push and pull wave effect on both of your pleasures.

You were in constant euphoria whenever he thrusted into you. Your eyes damn near rolling back into your head. He then picked you up and began to fuck you standing up. His thrusts became sloppier and sloppier to the point that you creaming over his cock, shaking in his arms. Within a few more thrusts he became stiff and empited himself inside of you.

You both came down from your high, with him still holding you in his arms. He looked at you with a smirk on his face. “ See what happens when you just relax?’”

#zakk wylde #zakk wylde x reader #smut #hardcore smut #80s #80s icons #punk #classic rock #fanfiction #new fanfic #gutair #My writing #My fic #x reader #stranger things

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menalez · 6 months

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The thing about that hyperdemona is that she actually comes from a privileged background from her country. A lot of christians from kerala(her state, which is also mine) were from upper caste backgrounds and were casteist feudal lords like their upper caste hindu counterparts. She also admitted to some of her ancestors owning slaves back in the day here,

https://www.tumblr.com/hyperdemona/732628331223302145/do-you-come-from-any-kind-of-noble-family-just?source=share

A lot of kerala christians are very islamophobic and support the BJP,

https://www.thenewsminute.com/kerala/chrisanghis-rise-christian-right-kerala-170777

It was revolting how she kept trying to defend her racism by citing her father being an immigrant worker in UAE. Trust me, most people from privileged backgrounds like hers who migrate to Gulf countries from kerala are very different from the lower caste and exploited Indian labourers. These NRIs(a term for non residential Indians) usually work white-collar jobs and are one of the richest demographics in kerala.

https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/city/kochi/nris-and-jewellers-top-keralas-rich-list/articleshow/42655846.cms

That she mixes the experiences of these privileged sections with those of poor, lower caste Indians who actually suffer from racism and discrimination is just further proof of her bigotry. And she really don't care for these exploited workers either, she just want to use them to one-up the middle eastern women who called out her racism. She loves using the experiences of underprivileged people from our country to paint herself as a victim when she never suffered from any of that.

yeah bahrain also has a lot of migrant workers and there absolutely is at least two groups of south asians in the country, the people who work in awful exploitative jobs like construction, domestic work, kitchen work, delivery drivers, etc and then the people who work more prestigious & valued work such as engineers, doctors, even teachers (the latter aren't valued as much but certainly have it a lot better than the people in the first group). of course, in general people are racist regardless but when they realise you're a south asian from a more educated and respected background, the racism is more toned down compared to how they treat domestic & construction workers for example. i grew up being perceived as south asian & ppl still assume im south asian in bahrain and people have directed all sorts of racism at me. even other south asians were racist to me bc i was darker-skinned than my south asian teachers who would look down on me. its a real problem, for sure, regardless of class. but class does make a difference. the way people will be overtly racist about "bengali workers" (from my experience bangladeshis & sri lankans are the ones dehumanised the most, it might also be bc a good number of pakistanis and indians in bahrain can be quite upper class) is quite shocking tbh, like i cant even put into words how vile they can be.

im not going to assume anything about her beliefs based on her being a christian from kerala, i didnt see her expressing the stuff you mentioned ppl of her background often believing in and i think assuming she does believe that falls into stereotyping anyways but. her saying her family had slaves until the mid-1800s is pretty wild to me, especially saying they enslaved a whole caste of people in her area... and yeah i think based on that, her father probably is not one of the people who faced exploitation akin to slavery in UAE, the type of exploitation that has claimed the lives of up to tens of thousands of south asians in the gulf per year.

i do want to emphasise again tho that i think even more well-off south asians can face racism in the gulf, in general people in the gulf are quite racist and ive had to grow up facing that directed at me a lot. quite colourist and classist too. but my light-skinned, south asian, well-off friends have generally not faced that kind of prejudice so.. i do think the racism is several factors combined and if you have a certain background as a south asian in the gulf, you can have it a lot better than for example black/part-black arabs & dark-skinned people of colour, or even filipinos & indonesians, in the gulf will. and certainly worlds better than what a lot of south asians in the gulf experience.

south asians in the gulf do not have one shared experience ultimately. but i think many will notice the contempt people have for south asians, even if they don't face that contempt directly and have privileges protecting them from that level of racism.

all that said.... palestinians are in a different region and have literally nothing to do with that stuff. palestinians get treated like shit in the gulf too. it makes no sense to say racist shit about palestinians and then justify it by saying its ok bc arabs in UAE are racist to south asians, it really doesn't. it doesnt make sense to justify being racist by pointing to arabs also being racist, but like, using it against palestinians is nonsensical.

#that said my south asian friends who grew up in the UAE have been generally quite privileged #so i think in the UAE the difference between different classes of south asians is even more pronounced. esp when they basically are the #majority of the population

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No mercy for the wicked.

I stare at my reflection in the water. I barely recongize my own face. Nothing has changed from my features, but my expression, i dont recongize it. Yet, it is most certainly me, kneeled down on the edge of the river, golden hair falling in the water, red eyes staring right back at me.

Red...

My hands are covered in it, my hair, my body. My armor...? The red flows with the stream, painting its clear color.

The memories return to me. Vivid, as they happened but a couple hours ago, or less. I found the broken wagon on the edge of the road. I found the corpses of the murdered men, the slaughtered animals. I saw trails of red and signs of dragging through the forest..

... I run in that direction, fueled by emotions darker than i knew i could feel. It took me a bit to find them, for their camp was deep enough into the woods. I didn't run in. I observed. I sunk into the shadows and moved around, my large form fading into the night, among the leaves and the tall grass... Just like when we hunted beasts... And now, it was monsters of a different kind i was hunting...

The raiders had set a nice little fort, with wooden fortifications, not too tall but easily dependable. They were around a dozen, drinking, eating, celebrating, laughing with their cruel voices. A couple were staying to the edges, watching out for danger, but they seemed to feel safe enough... They had numbers, a fortified camp, and good equipment. Even if ragtag, their armors and weapons were in good condition. They were much more than ordinary bandits, but i was new to the area, and hadn't learned the rumors, didnt know their names.

I didnt care either.

My eyes kept moving, and they finally saw what i was looking for. The women, the abducted, were thrown in a pile to the side. Cut apart, lifeless, clothless and disgraced. The raiders had their fun and they disposed of them... Only one was still alive, forced to... Entertain one of them to the side, who had taken a knife out and was stabbing her, laughing sadistically, immune to her screams and tears.

I didn't run in. I didnt make a heroic entrance. I didnt laugh. This wasn't a challenge, something fun to kill the time. Usually, i would save the civilians if i could, but i wouldn't exactly mourn for their loss either. Their lives isnt my business, im not that soft. Reality is cruel.. Right?

But not this time. This time, i felt immense, unapologetic, untamed, hatred. I felt it fuel me. I felt it overflow and consume me. I hated them. Even more than wanting to save the girl, i wanted to kill them all.

I saw her eyes. She was the first to notice. Even as she was bleeding, trying to defend herself from the stabs of the man on top of her, it was my shadow behind him that made her eyes widen in true terror.

Fear and terror are different. Fear is something you understand, something conscious. Terror is primal, instinctive.

The man on top of her stopped, confused, following her eyes, realizing my presence as my shadow loomed over him, dancing with the movements of the bonefires.

His eyes also widened in terror in that moment, but before he could open his jaw, his upper body was flying through the air, my axe having swang clearly through it, and landing headfirst into the campfire of the others.

It was the girl that screamed, top of her lungs. I dont blame her. Thinking back to it, it was a reasonable reaction. I ignored her stepped over her and towards the others, who were grabbing their weapons, getting reafy to defend themselves.

Thats right, not assault me. But to defend themsleves... Yessss...the terror in their eyes, i remember it so clearly. The fear... They reeked of blood... Of murder.. Of lives taken, cruelly, mercilessly...and now they were the prey, and they could feel the raw despair of being the weak ones...

I didnt laugh. I didn't say anything cocky. Not this time. I simply walked towards them, my axe already covered in gore. They spoke between themselves, they asked me something. I didn't hear it. I didnt care. The predator doesn't care about the prey's words, right?

One panicked and threw a javelin at me. A terrible throw, his hand shaking. I didnt even dodge it, it crashed against my chestplate, uselessly.

I gritted my teeth. My hatred was building by the second. The images of the poeple they killed. Of the ones they raped and murdered, playing in my head again and again.

I jumped!! In one motion i had left the ground and leaped at them! I roared in a primal cry as one readied her spear. My axe smashed it apart, and the other swing crushed the armor and the bones beneath. If she screamed, i didnt hear it. Only the sound of her broken body, as my axe cleaved through her meat, reached my ears.

The battle begun, if one could even call it that. They surrounded me. They attacked from all directions. Two of them just run away, abandoned the rest and run as fast as they could into the night, crying and shitted. Pathetic.

I had never fought so recklessly. So uncaring about my own well being. But its not like i could feel the pain. Their blades pierced my arms with great effort, yet i didnt feel it. I cleaved, and cleaved, and cleaved, and cleaved again.

They needed to die! To die! To die! Die! Die! Die! Die for your sins! Die for your cruelty!! Just die!!!

....

The camp was littered in blood and gore, pieces of once human spread all around. i stood above the last raider, my gaze cold as eyes, despite the bright red glow... and only then i could hear his voice. Trembling, his arms a shield over his face, he was begging.

"Please....please...ill never do it again... Dont kill me... Ill turn a new leaf...sob..please."

I looked upon him, and i thought of the vile acts he commited just today. In only one day, he had forfeited his soul, to gain what? Sadistic satisfaction, gold, and a sense of power. And now that it was taken away, he was trembling and begging for his life.

".... No mercy for the wicked." My words came out cold, and spiteful. Black like venom. He screamed one last time as my weapon seperated his stomach from the rest of his body. He tried to crawl away, his intestines dragging out, and two feet away, he left the last breath.

I spat at the ground.

I turned around, and walked between the blood and the fire, thw horrifying carnage, and to the girl. She was still bleeding, the cuts and stabs deep, and barely conscious. Yet what was keeping her conscious, was me. She stared at me like a monster from fairy tales. Curled up in a corner and shaking,unable to speak a word.

I reached for my belt , and threw a vial with red liquid at her feet.

"Drink it and you'll live. Try to live a decent life despite the scars.", was what i remember saying befote i left the sight, the black fire inside my heart satiated for now...

...

Yes, i remember it all clearly. And yet my expression hasnt changed. It's been like this for a few days now....

And i dont mind if at all. I no longer care. I am a weapon. A weapon to be aimed at the vile. At the monsters that prey on others, be it beast or human...

If that is the reality we live in, then i will hunt them down, ill become the nightmare they cant escape from. I will create rivers with their blood.

I sit up, and take my weapon, walking away from the water, wearing the same face i approached it with, wearing the same, red eyes. I stare at the moon in the night sky, linger for a moment, before i continue my path..

#drabble #Igris #long post #tw: murder #tw: rape #tw: mutilation #tw: gore #nsft

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1eos · 1 year

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my sister the serial killer spoilers

yk I kinda read it as Korede seeing every single man [and to some extent most women] failing to protect her. So naturally she would chose to protect her sister even if it goes against her morals. Who would protect and support Korede? Her romantic interest? Like, her elderly male patient divorced his wife in the hospital scene because she was no longer useful to him, iirc. I feel like that was a turning point for Korede to go 'ok, what are the odds my lover would do that to me? Would sacrificing my sister to all the horrors of prison be worth XX years, to be thrown away?'

It's absolutely toxic and codependent but in a way, that murder and manipulation is just how Ayoola is trying to survive in this messed up world. Like two sides of a coin, imo. And yes, the ending was perfect. This isn't some ya fantasy revolution, she's not going to katniss her way into changing the world to erasing misogyny at a social level.

hard agree. like korede being darker skinned, the less 'pretty' sister, disrespected at her job by her peers for actually trying to get shit done, basically being treated as the help and not a daughter by her mother etc etc really has her in a situation where she can be mistreated and alone or mistreated and at least with someone who appreciates her

ayoola is hella manipulative and not a good sister but her aversion to marriage or settling down shows to me that she's also killing to stay with her sister. and i kinda feel for her bc she's hyperaware that while her life is 'charmed' all men want her for the same reason. even tade who was supposed to be so different was the exact same. and knowing how these relationships are there's def a part of ayoola that's jealous of korede.

oh and korede's conversation with muhtar (the coma guy) you can see that she so strongly wants to believe in love and he's over it 😂😂😂😂 the everlasting love korede so desperately wants is just something that's rare in the world where men will marry a woman and cheat on her religiously and the women are expected to take it. what she wants society just is not built to provide easily so in the end i'm not mad at her. i can't even say i'm mad at ayoola for killing some of those guys i think i dislike her for her attitude more than her murders which is a wild thing to say. im mostly mad at their father who is obviously the reason the girls are the way that they are.

and idk if ppl are mad at the ending bc its not bombastic or satisfying in a YA way but reading it i honestly do not know how else it couldve ended. even when korede stood up against her sister trying to help tade he was like 'wowwwwwwwwwwwww you're ugly so you must be jealous' why the fuck would she give a damn abt a potential victim again 😂😂😂😂 i wouldve been like 'aight. cannot wait to clean up your blood'

#the book is really sad #korede is a classic enabler but she truly has no where else to go with the upbringing and culture shes in #black family dynamics LOVE to enable each other so this shit really hit #kendras book club

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thatbitchsimone · 2 years

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What kind of girls are you into?

dark hair, dark eyes, just dark features in general. curly hair makes me go 😍 so if a girl has dark curly hair its over for me like she has me on my knees already just for that. soft curvy body with hips and full thighs and on the shorter side (but im slightly taller than the average female height so that probably dont mean much lol most girls are shorter than me so its just something im used to but i dont actually care about height ive just noticed that all girls ive dated or had a fling with have been like a head shorter than me)

like i pretty much like girls that are opposite to me looks wise for some reason like my features are very fair/light like blue eyes light blonde hair stereotypical scandinavian features and just slim and tall without much womanly curves and while i do think im beautiful and all that its not the type of beauty that attracts me or catches my eye like i guess the eurocentric beauty standard never resonated with me like that growing up ive always been attracted to darker features like ive always had this type for as long as i can remember. maybe it comes down to the opposites attract theory but who cares i like what i like

personality wise, i like girls similar to me. i like loud and energetic and full of humor and wit and a sharp tongue but i do tend to fall for women who are a bit softer/calmer than me like i can be very intimidating and my energy can become too much and sometimes im too straight forward and raw/bold and just adhd as fuck so ive noticed that i need someone who can keep me grounded and have a bit of a calming presence to balance the energy out when its needed like imagine me as a balloon that needs someone who holds the string so i dont fly away or pop lmao but im very very nurturing, protective and caretaking so i need to be able to sort of take the lead in a way like know this is a problematic term but just to put it in the simplest way possible, im ”the guy” in relationship dynamics if u wanna oversimplify it and boil it down to typical roles idk how else to easily explain it like ofc neither of us are the man in the relationship bc we are both women thats the whole point but like.. id even say my mom is ”the man” in her relationships and shes straight and has only ever been with men like its a dynamics thing its not even about gender its just ur vibe and personality type idk if u get it u get it im getting off topic this is a mess

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bethanysnow · 2 years

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all im saying is there should be a CW type show called “Oh my God’s” where Chris Evans plays Zeus, and walks around in Armani, and bronze and gold jewelry, a clean and tailored suit thats like a ash blue. Gold watch, custom modified sports car. Lives in a pent house apartment in LA. Just sorta floats on air and speaks with the Boston accent, slaps the receptionists ass on the way out, tells you to ‘use your words’ and ‘good girl’ and with that fucking smirk of his, also full beard, the little grey at the temples just AHHHHH. So good!

Also like Kiera Knightly as Hera? Leather jacket, a peacock tattoo up her arm and fanning out on her back. A lighting bolt tattoo behind her ear, Zeus has a peacock feather tattoo down his spine. She drives a motorcycle and has the big black sunglasses, short hair with shaved sides. Has the most large “scary” dog as her lap dog. Runs her own giant company is at the forefront of like fertility research and general health of the uterus and her company runs hospitals all over the world with this specialty. Loves purple and grey and white gold, holds gala’s every year for fundraising. Definition of a boss ass bitch.

Hades I think should be played by Cynthia Ervio? Look her up, she is black and queer and is an oscar away from being an EGOT winner. She was in so many things, she is a beautiful singer and performer. Her energy is so soft and instantly there in the same time. You know when she is in the room. So this is why I picked her for Hades in this sorta fancast? Like honestly I don’t see Hades wearing all black or being super goth, I see someone who is honorable in death. Works as a grief therapist, post emo kid kinda deal. Has shock white hair though? Loves to do fancy makeup, and with darker skin to do bright yellows and oranges and reds for eye shadow and things. Is hopelessly in love with Persephone, like sickeningly so.

Aphrodite would be played by like 30 people of the feminine persuasion? Because beauty is everyone and so there is no ONE person who can be Aphrodite. there has to be multiple. The person for the main cast I think should be Lizzo. Cuz- duh? But in the story like-....Aphrodite is a model and women's rights activist and walks in fashion shows. Full natural hair, little makeup, lounges around her house in various states of nothing. I think in the story she would be slightly more fem dom than just a pretty woman that men objectify? Though every god in this story is some form of queer thats just how it works lol.

Yes I have lists and lists and ideas for more things, I just had to put this out into the universe.

#story idea #writing

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