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hruu btw?? IM PKAYING RBLX ROYALE HIGH RN, AMEN AMEN AMENNNN 🤩💕
ps. hmu n give me the details abt our wedding, such a celeb that i forgot n stuff 🧍🏾♀️💋💕⭐
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yes u are bookie
i honestly to god love roblox idc that it’s a kids game i will ALWAYS be a proud robloxian.
and i’m good !! also we need to have a very fancy rich wedding so everyone knows that we are cooler than them obvi rolling eye emoji
xoxoxo para plz remember me when you’re at the red carpet !
#parasytte talks n stuffs#mootie patootie#i love typing out emojis instead of putting the actual emoji
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Today's Adventure is that I, after an unintentional 13-hour power nap,
Got woken up at 6AM by a phone call from a friend stranded in Montana because of the heat wave and almost no cell service because of their crap provider.
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Ok.
I somehow summon a week's worth of spoons and in less than 30 minutes and 5 phone calls, get them
A hotel
An appointment with a mechanic from 2 states away
A perscription refilled from 2 states away
and A Pizza
Go me.
But then it's 8AM and there are unscheduled live humans at the door and while EVERGENCY MODE is still on, I have already blown through a ton of spoons, and also probably shouldn't meet whoever it is wearing just a pair of bootyshorts that say "CRYPTID" in Gothic Font on my ass.
So I greet them in those shorts and a T-shirt that I manage to put on both inside out and backwards
#nailedit
It is, Fortunately, not the mormons.
it is, Unfortunately, two UPS guys trying to deliver my other in-house friend's new phone except the new guy doesn't know how to operate the "sign for package" device, and the old guy that's supposed to be mentoring him is like, 92, deaf as a post, and doesn't actually know how to operate the device either.
by the way
it is already
over 100 out
it takes almost 30 minutes to sign for the phone
when i get back inside, i discover that apparently the Corgi has learned how to open his kennel from the inside because he is now out of the kennel and waiting for me to come in.
he also has cat litter all over his face because while he was waiting for me he also learned how to open the baby gate to the cat's room and help himself to a cat shit breakfast.
He'll be fine
He's a cattle dog, they're legally required to have at least 1 really disgusting snack they love.
but
more to the point
i have no idea at what point he learned to open his kennel from the inside
has he been staying there out of politeness this whole time??
And
I got other shit to do today.
namely.
I'm seeing a realator
The Devils most pathetic yet effective demons
I get a reminder text that I have an appointment with her
at least
I think that's what it is because what she sends me is:
"🏡⏰12:00 ❔"
With the time typed in the middle like that.
She is, according to her profile, at least 80.
so I reply "😎👍"
and then she sends me a string of GODDAMN POST-MODERN EMOJI HEIROGLYPHICS THAT TAKE UP MY ENTIRE SCREEN.
She's on an iPhone so half of them don't even translate across platforms
It takes me half an hour and three different software programs and goddamn wingdings to translate, but she has sent me the address and rules about masking and not wearing shoes inside.
in emoji
instead of like
literally any other format
I am
FASCINATED
and simply must meet the woman so if I don't come back to update I got stolen by the fairies but I'm taking the Corgi with me as protection so I'll see y'all later.
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WE DATING FR?
How could they react around idol!you when no one knows about the relationship.
PAIRING: OT7
GENRE: fluff, crack
WARNINGS: none
NOTE: did not dust not rennovate this (crying emoji) dw i am writing new work. Will be posted soon. Thank you for your patience and support!
Part 2
★ HEESEUNG:
he's driving everyone insane. Keeps dropping subtle hints that no viewer catches but his manager eyes him like a hawk on award shows and lives. If you're a few feet away from him, he'll glance at you or turn his head in your direction and pretend he's looking at something/one over there. When your eyes meet in the crowd, he winks at you, expression smug. Then turns around with a blank face as if you're not knawing at your lips to not let a bright smile out. There are cameras recording? Okay and? He might not be able to show you off but he's not going to act like you're a stranger.
★ JAY:
very chill about it. Actually he's not. He finds himself in an internal delimma every time you're at shows. Keeps chanting don't look over and over again. Values his career and yours and doesn't want to do anything stupid. He knows how fans are so instead he tries to be sneaky about it. Buys you a bracelet and tells you to wear it when you're at the airport. You don't think too deeply, heart fluttering at the loving gift. A few days later, he uploads a selfie, peace sign on display as well as an identical bracelet snug around his wrist. Some people are speculating but it's nothing big enough for the companies to intervene. Laughs when you call him and says it was a complete coincidence.
★ JAKE:
pda? Baby you do not exist. You are a hallucination. Its a jarring contrast to what hes really like when it's just you because he will NOT make eye contact. He'll stand "near" you not next to you. He knows how vile people on the internet can be and idols get enough of that already. He doesn't want to put you in a compromising position but it's so painful to pretend that nothing is happening between you two. So, he'll do small gestures like during award shows, he'll tell jungwon to hand over his own cushion/blanket to you or your group leader. Be more platonic or "caring" about it so it doesn't seem unusual in the public eye. Sends a bouquet to your makeup rooms and signs the note from enhypen. He's great at fooling.
★ SUNGHOON:
he's actually so ecstatic about it. He would pray and pray to get you as a co-mc, then he'd be able to spend more time and come on camera without any nasty rumours. Plus certain scripts have cheesy pickup lines he'd abuse just to get a reaction out of you. His small smile as he soaks in your flustered reaction? Yea thats def not part of the script. Enjoys that most people ship you because of the ""chemistry"". Giggles on call while he sends you tabloid links that talk about you two. The last nail in the coffin is when he practically describes you as his ideal type. He doesn't know if it sliped out or if it was intsntional. They need to pay the manager more.
★ SUNOO:
the guy who openly calls you his friend. He's the type to introduce a 'slow burn' to ease the public. His fans are used to seeing him talk about you and your group, he doesn't overdo it. Sometimes you talk about him and his group. If a comment asks him to talk about a favourite member in your group he will ignore that, and pretend he never read it because your name would slip out. Defends you in subtle ways by making off-handed comments such as "idols can have off days" or "people shouldn't comment on someone else's appearance. It's not right". Fans make those platonic edits and photoshop you two together in pictures. You bite your fist every time he sends them to you, giggling at how people want to see a collab. That would be his dream. He's def at your concert.
★ JUNGWON:
He's a leader, he's got a lot on his plate but he's also great at controlling himself. people won't suspect a thing when he stands next to you because he stands like 🚹. No fun edits because people can't even tell that you know him, let alone date him. He makes up for it with his love language. Eventually, he'll relax for a bit when he's assured that no one is waiting to get him and his love. He can never be too careful which is why when he can't "do" things publically to help you, he would warn you about certain people/situations. In award shows, if his eyes wander away from his members it's to see if you're safe and comfortable. Once his fears are calmed, he can relax and enjoy the show. Stares at you when he thinks no one is looking.
★ NIKI:
He's just here to have a good time. He prays and wishes for collabs and gets sad whenever nothing happens. He's the type to send you small trinkets as gifts…like an inside joke except there's no joke and Niki feels giddy when he sees your selfie and a familiar charm tied in your phone case. At shows or encore stages, he'll stand behind you (pretends he's doing that because he's soo tall he blocks everyone) and keeps poking you and you have to maintain your expression. Other idols around you know something is up but they don't know what is. He's treading the line between platonic and romantic love. Does the classic rizz move -> notices confetti stuck in your hair and plucks it out, then bows in and greets you casually as if your face isn't red.
Thank you sm for reading! Hope you enjoyed!
All rights belong to me. Please do not copy/translate/edit.
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haechan as… 💭 / your study buddy ⊹◞✿
haechan as your study buddy sounds like a complete nightmare
I KNOWWWW
but hear me out… Hear!!!!! me out I swear
when he’s determined, he can focus, it just takes … a bit too much in him to do that
not because he’s stupid, he’s super super smart when he’s actually trying
but you know… there are courses that are pain in the ass and you cannot even deny that
and as complete opposites.. you Do care about it, meanwhile he Does NOT give a shit about those
like he couldn’t care less if he failed introduction to philosophy
he doesn’t even know why he has to complete that course. like what’s the fucking point..
FUCK HEGEL???likeee
but you were hella determined to help him out and kind of motivate him
i mean, he wouldn’t mind a little extra cash as a scolarship either ???The least he can do is just sit down and study
that’s how it always have been anyways, ever since middle school
studying together at the library, solving math problems and talking shit in between two of these sessions
the latter part was hyuck’s favourite honestly, he’s such a shittalker fr (i get it, i am too)
he knows basically every gossip… that’s how it always have been! (he knew about the crush jisung had on one of the seniors back in high school and was sooooo into this little affair he singlehandedly ruined his chances… by accidentally spilling it all to the girlie… Oops was all he said too like LMFAO)
he starts and ends all of your uni study sessions with gossips as well honestly
he says it should be a sandwich (or some bullshit idk)–one nasty rumour, some molecular biology and one lighthearted gossip as a way to finish
letting some steam off
he’s not even sorry about it.. at least he has something to look forward to everytime you meet
he’s such a big gossiper it’s actually crazy
and when he gets soooo into it, his voice gets all squeaky and shit lol
him studying journalism doesn’t even help at all, like why is he so fucking interested in this
he says he wants to work at atlantic but… what are the chances? HE SHOULD STUDY
and that’s why you two were there!!! nose should be buried in books!!!!!!!
but his is… well, behind the screen of his phone, going through his instagram dms and showing off other girl’s messages
some extremely cute ones and some embarrassing love confessions as well
you cannot help but laugh when you see someone replying to his thirst trap stories with heart eyed emojis and shit
especially when you can recall how you literally called him a loser in your reply
i mean, you were right after all Lmfao
he knows you’re joking though.. he knows he’s hot as fuck and the most important: he knows that you know
but let’s get back to our main point ???Duh
you were Sat at one of the lesser crowded corners of the campus library, surrounded by a couple of notebooks, one half cup of coffee that has long gone cold, and your laptop–meanwhile hyuck only had one, pretty small notebook he used for every lecture he had, and it had been…
through a lot (as if a dog chewed on it or something but really it’s just that he didn’t care about it)
but anywaaaaays… in the first like, ten minutes he was actually working??? studying his stuff???? Even telling you some fun facts he could remember
like that’s how he is naturally, his method of learning is teaching at the same time as well
which is actually such a useful way imo, that’s how i do as well lmfao
but then you had to avert your attention and do the rest of your research paper to finally finish the project.. it had been ages since you’ve started and you were nowhere near the finish line
so he just.. went on his phone instead. he thrives on attention and when you’re not giving it to him… well YEAAAHHH
he intentionally puts the volume of his phone pretty high so he can annoy you with the sound of him typing and shit
going through tiktok and all
he’s such an asshole for that
but you like the presence of him. it’s soothing kinda that he’s .. there?? clearly not studying but keeping you company
i mean, doing this all alone would be rather depressing, isn’t it? You’re not a big fan of that
so he stays. because he’s aware.
and maybe, with some extra help, he could learn his material.. you just gotta take break more frequent so he can act like as if he was a lecturer ahah
mansplaining and shit ijbol
and at the end??? at the crack of the night??? walking you back to your dorm???? he’s the one offering you two should do this again soon
not tomorrow, he adds–there’s a frat party he’s expected to attend
but after that????He’s excited to do it again :P
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How They Text the Reader Headcanons
↳ Characters included are Bruno Brucciarati, Leone Abbacchio, and Guido Mista. Gender Neutral Reader with they/them pronouns.
A/n: I’ve always wanted to try my hand at doing x Reader text messages! This was very fun to make, and I do plan to make more of this kind of headcanon list for the rest of Bucciarati’s team.
Warning(s): None.
Bruno Bucciarati
Bruno’s text messages are straight to the point and utilize proper grammar like the mother he truly is deep down.
Not the type of person to send emoji’s… ever, really. This is because he views texting as a simple tool to use when he can’t just speak to you in person or over a phone call.
However, you prefer the funnier explanation of it actually being because he’s secretly very inept at using technology (this is very much so part of it he just won’t ever say so).
In all honesty, he prefers to call you and hear the sound of your voice more than communicating over text. He’s the type to call in order to converse about whatever mundane thing is on his mind instead of sending a text.
That said, he’s definitely the type to always tell you good morning or wish you goodnight with a sweet text message.
Also, because of his job, he’s often put into long-term situations where calling isn’t exactly ideal. That’s when he’ll text the most; he just wants to check up on you regularly when he can’t be there in person do so! This became especially true after rising to the position of Capo.
His text messages may seem… bland to those unfamiliar with him.
But since you know him as well as you do, they always ring as genuine and an extension of his polite kindness.
Admittedly, it is hard to argue against the fact that his straightforward style of text often leads to misunderstandings. This is due to his sometimes unreadable tone:
Leone Abbacchio
Hardly ever texted you at the beginning.
Since the two of you started going out, he’s gotten a bit better, though. Before, he was very adamant that if he has something to say, he’ll wait when he’s face-to-face with you.
But when he eventually let it slip that he often forgets what he even wants to talk to you about, you slowly began getting him to text you more.
Arguably the best method of doing so is to get him to tell you about something he feels strongly about. Whether it’s something positive like asking him about the music he’s been listening to recently, or it’s something more devilish like bringing up subjects that really bother him.
Leone is at least very reliable.
Meaning that, although he doesn’t often start a conversation over text himself, he will respond to you reasonably quick.
Tease him by claiming it’s because he has a soft spot for you and he won’t text for an entire day (you know he loves you).
He also prefers to use proper grammar and punctuation in his texts. That said, Leone does use emojis (usually just to express disappointment) and sometimes can seem more expressive in text than he is in actual conversation.
One sweet thing he does over text is that he always sends you a message after he makes it home after a particularly dangerous mission, informing you that he’s safe. He knows you worry, and although he often puts up a front claiming it’s annoying, he truly does take note of that concern.
Abbacchio’s just not completely used to having someone like you in his life who holds a special concern for him. He is adjusting; slow and steady.
And although he forms the habit of texting you more, it’s you and only you he has the energy to do this for (outside of probably Bruno). This leads to other’s on Bucciarati’s team to text you when they want to get a hold of him:
Guido Mista
Real talkative over text, especially in the evening after he’s finished with his dinner. He’s pretty expressive and uses a decent amount of emojis.
Will plop down on his couch with an exaggerated bounce, pull out his phone, only with the purpose of talking to you and doing nothing else on the device.
The two of you actually had to work on how late you’d stay up texting one another.
Hours disappearing in the blink of an eye and leaving you both extra tired the next morning. And on occasions that it was decided to take the conversation into a call… it’s easy to see why you both have slept in late more than once.
Although not as frequently as someone like Narancia, Mista will send memes every now and then. Not only that, but he always replies to the ones you send him.
He prefers to send you embarrassing or funny pictures of others in the group over memes, though. You’ve seen photos of Abbacchio and Fugo in particular that Mista could honestly use as blackmail.
This has bitten him in the butt quite a bit, though.
After discovering Mista’s been doing this, the others now send you every single unfavorable image they own of the gunslinger. Even Bruno’s sent his fair share.
And although Mista often forgets to say good morning to you through text, he always says goodnight to you.
Not only that, but Mista will text right after he’s completed with a mission. Although a bit of a goofball, he always takes work seriously, and will leave you on delivered on hours at a time depending on what he’s up to. But the minute things have calmed, he’s letting you know.
Mista will certainly ask one of his common out-of-pocket questions designed to get a conversation going via a text message.
This isn’t a bad thing per se, except for the fact that he has a bad habit of doing so at three in the morning.
Even still, they’re not the weirdest variation of texts you’ve ever received from him:
#johnny’s work#jjba#jojo’s bizarre adventure#vento auero#golden wind#bruno bucciarati#bruno bucellati x reader#leone abbacchio#abbacchio x reader#guido mista#mista x reader#narancia ghirga#pannacotta fugo#giorno giovanna#headcanons#fluff#fake texts
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Newborn
Pairing: Evan Hawkins x reader
Summary: Evan didn't think he could be any happier, but that all changes when he gets to hold his newborn son in his arms
Requested: Yes, by anonymous
Warnings: mentions of c-sections/surgery
Word Count: 1,165
"Hey beautiful," Evan greeted and peaked him head into our bedroom. "You up yet?"
"No," I grumble sleepily from where I was snuggled up in blankets. "I don't want to get up."
"But you have to get up," Evan retorted and sat down on the edge of the bed. "Today's the day! We're finally gonna get to meet our little munchkin!"
"Please stop calling the baby that," I beg. "I'm only excited for today because we'll finally give the baby a name, and then you don't have to use that ridiculous nickname."
"You secretly love it," Evan teased and leaned down to press a kiss to my forehead. "Now come on and get up. We've gotta be at the hospital in like an hour."
"Ugh," I groan and sit up. "All right. I'll get ready then."
"How are you not as excited as me right now?" Evan asked. "I'm freaking out!"
"I am excited, honey. Seriously," I assure him and send a small smile his way. "I'm just not excited for this surgery."
"I get that," Evan confessed and put his face down by my swollen stomach. "You just had to make things difficult, didn't you?"
"Babies are breech all the time, Ev," I notify him. "It's actually pretty common. But I'm glad the date is finally here because in a few months I can get back to work!"
Evan laughed. "You and your work, Y/n. You're a workaholic!"
"I'm not a workaholic. I just love my job!" I defend.
I was working as a firefighter at Firehouse 51 on Squad 3 when Evan and I had met. He had worked with Violet on Ambulance 61 for a few shifts while Sylvie was off in Oregon visiting Matt. We hit things off right away, and the rest was history. I hadn't been able to work on Squad 3 since I found out I was pregnant, so it's been about 9 months. Luckily, Chief Boden let me work in the office with Kylie so that I could still be around everyone.
"I know you do, Y/n," Evan confirmed and hopped off the bed. "I've got all of the hospital bags downstairs by the door, so as soon as you're ready, we can head to the hospital."
In no time, I was all dressed and got myself situated in the passenger seat of the car. Evan loaded the rest of our things into the backseat, and within half an hour, I was set up in my hospital room in the labor and delivery wing of Chicago Med. I was on my phone when Evan walked in with the ice chips I had asked for, and he set them down on the tray next to my bed.
"Thanks," I murmur and continuing typing away at the keypad on my phone.
"Who are you texting?" Evan inquired.
"I was texting my mother that we got to the hospital. But then Stella texted the group chat with me, Sylvie, and Vi, and now they're blowing it up with messages on how excited they are to meet the baby. The amount of emojis being used right now...." I trailed off and placed my phone on the table next to me. "I need a break."
"I think I can provide a distraction from that. Since the moment's finally here, what do you think? Boy or girl?" Evan posed.
"I know that you and all of the guys at 51 want it to be a boy," I bring up. "And the fact that your side of the family is mostly guys only helps with that."
"But?" Evan prompted.
"But nothing. I'd be happy with either," I admit. "I think a girl would be easier, especially if I'm gonna be doing this whole parenting by myself for the first few months."
"Whoa whoa whoa," Evan interrupted. "What gave you the idea that you'd be doing this all alone?"
"Well I just figured that it'd be hard for you to take all that time off," I reason.
"Y/n, you and I are in this together. I already put in time off for the first week after the baby is born, and after that I'll only be going in 3 days a week instead of 5 with shortened hours," Evan informed me.
"You're the best, Ev. I love you," I say and lean over to peck his lips.
"I love you too," Evan returned. "Not get some rest. You're gonna need it. That means you too, munchkin."
A Few Hours Later........
"You doing okay?" Evan asked from where he was seated next to my head in the operating room.
"Yeah," I reply. "I'm good. Are you okay? You look like you're about to start bouncing off the walls."
"I might just do that," Evan revealed jokingly as his foot tapped anxiously against the floor. Suddenly, it felt like a huge pressure was lifted off of me, and then crying pierced the air.
"Congratulations you guys. You're now the parents of a healthy baby boy," the doctor announced.
"Did you hear that, Y/n? We have a son," Evan gushed.
"You do. And he's beautiful," the nurse told us and placed the baby on my chest.
"He's got your nose, Ev," I note as I held the baby against me.
"That he does," Evan agreed and pressed a kiss to my head.
The next hour or so was a blur. The rest of the surgery went by pretty quickly, and before I knew it, we were back in the recovery room excited to spend time with our newborn. The nurse wheeled our son into the room and placed him into my arms, and the baby cooed softly.
"You guys have a beautiful son," the nurse asserted.
"Thank you. Um, our co-workers and family are waiting for a name and a picture," Evan claimed and held up my phone. "They can't come in until after work. Would you mind taking a picture for us?"
"I would love to," the nurse responded and took my phone. As soon as she took the picture, the nurse handed the phone back to Evan and excused herself from the room.
"All right dad. Here you go," I offer and pass him our baby in exchange for my phone. "I know you've been dying to hold him."
"Hey munchkin," Evan greeted softly and rocked the baby back and for.
"Evan, we agreed that once the baby was born you wouldn't call him that," I lecture.
"Sorry," Evan apologized and stared down at the baby lovingly. "Hey, James. Welcome to the world buddy."
As Evan was busy gushing over the baby, I was typing out a text message to all of Firehouse 51. They were very impatient, so I figured I should do this now rather than later. I sent the picture that the nurse had just taken, and below it I typed out a text before hitting send.
"Welcome the newest addition to the Firehouse 51 family, James Christopher Hawkins."
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Enid Sinclair Relationship Headcanons
Fandom: Wednesday
Sweetest, wonderful, most sunshine girlfriend ever that makes every day so much better by being around her.
Enid is very affectionate, hand holding, hugs, cuddling, physical touch is her #1 love language.
Also really likes the idea of love languages and wants to know yours! Says you're compatible even if the chart doesn't agree, she also just likes trying to guess other peoples' with you.
Doesn't think she's the jealous type but someone stole her spot next to you and she growled at them.
Was happy as soon as they left! Slipping her hand into yours and talking as if nothing happened, you just smile at her, amused.
She loves making playlists for you! Has a playlist for every occasion, roadtrip, grocery trip, study date, and they all have super long names and will send you ones titled "because i miss you ❤️❤️❤️"
She will try to finds song you will like, and listen to your favorite songs and bands even if she really isn't into it.
She loves Taylor Swift and Harry Styles, will recreate TS music videos on tiktok using littlest pet shops.
Tries to get you to dance with her! She loves dancing in her room and having fun and does her best to get you to join. She likes dancing just for fun, and little tiktok dances, but also wants to dress up with you and try to 'recreate' romantic dancing scenes.
You send her Monsters and Men on a playlist "indie werewolf tunes"
She tries to be vague but it's very obvious she's bragging about you on her blog.
Skin care is very important!! She'll drag you to her room for facemasks and manicures, she can do some pretty impressive little nail designs on you too.
She comes up with the cutest dates! has a pinterest board dedicated to cute things you can do together and cute couple ideas.
Biggest heart eyes if you surprise her with a cute date even if it's simple like a picnic 🥺
So! Many! Cute! Nicknames! She wants you to like your nickname and have something special for you but she can't help but call you anything that comes to mind "sweatheart, honeybun, cutiepie, cupcake"
Personal Space is really not her thing and if you're okay with it she will be touching you all the time, in your bubble, leaning her head on you, just being casually cuddly.
Very into PDA but tells you she doesn't want to be cringy or 'too coupley' and explains to you how to go about that.
They're all very sweet and you tell her they seem pretty fitting for her instead, which she will argue with you on.
You call her even cuter things though, even if you're not really one for giving out nicknames. "Lovebug" is just too good not to call her.
She always tries to do things that interest you! Even if they're spooky or uncomfortable likes bugs...she looks so pained but fully puts in an effort to enjoy it if you do.
Uses emojis with every text, she is a fast texter and can go on nonstop when you're not together and suddenly your screen is a wall of at least 40% emoji to text ratio.
So many hearts and "🥺🥺" and every other sweet/cute one. She can convey such long things with emojis and you've become a pro at deciphering her hieroglyphs.
Shopping dates! Even if you don't buy much, choosing outfits for each other to try on is so much fun.
100% will buy a stuffed animal and call it your child, switching who's bed it sleeps on regularly is a must.
Movie nights! She actually likes watching horror movies that aren't too gorey, but is easily spooked. She falls for every jumpscare and her claws come out when she yelps.
Her instinct is to protect you though! Which means if you're scared or not, you'll be yanked into her lap for safely, and might get a little poked by her claws while she clings to you.
You will defend her from anything but when someone called her your golden retriever,,,you admit there wasn't much of an argument there and she was a tiny bit offended.
You send her pictures of cute things with "this reminded me of you ❤️" and you can hear her squeal from 2 corridors away.
She told you her fears of dying alone if she's never able to transform, that she would be alone all her life and no one would love her so you blurted out "You wont be alone, I love you and I'll be there."
Which made you worry because you never actually talked about the future even though you know you want to be right her the rest of your life.
She froze for a moment, staring at you with watery eyes and you really started to panic but she surged forward wrapping you in a werewolf strength hug and kept crying and thanking you.
She tried to be diplomatic when you met her family but when her mom is disappointed in her, and you, and she's really unsure if you were serious about physically fighting the hag woman, it was not a relaxing time.
Her dad likes you though, he sees how happy you make Enid and that's all he wants.
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@sunsage asked:
"Can't sleep?" hi
Diyu feels like a fever dream at this point. He barely remembers it, just holds snatches of emotion—mostly fear and pain and the desperation of wanting it all to end. Macaque isn't a Buddhist, but it's the kind of experience that would make him want to be, escape the cycle of rebirth just so he doesn't have to suffer it again. He's not supposed to remember this, but he didn't want to lose himself to reincarnation, and so. He carries the memories with him.
Even so, he doesn't dream of it. Instead he wakes up disoriented, unable to tell if he's breathing or dead, lurid afterimages burning in his head. He opens his phone.
To: wukong (derogatory)
From: ur shadow
[text]: hey
[text]: ik it's late r u up still
How does he ask sometimes i can't tell if you're real or if i'm real or if i'm dead or if i'm dreaming or if this place is even real and i died for you, wukong, and now everything's broken
He sighs. Collects himself. Tabs back to see that Xiaotian, in fact, is still here; they're the last person who's texted Macaque with some weird theatre meme that he doesn't actually understand (there's a cat in it so he's reacted with a 😺 emoji and let it be).
[text]: bad dream
How does he ask i'm glad ur happy with the angel i think but how do u fall in love with the thing that has wanted you put back into small boxes and good and orderly. how have you changed so much from the person i loved so long ago
He blinks at the intensity of the emotion and at the words he's already typed out and sent.
[text]: ur taste in men has rly deteriorated if ur in love with that celestial, huh
It's late. On the windowsill, lavender incense smokes innocently; he picked it up from some stand advertising Heart's Wake. Macaque blinked at the date but was mostly thinking about the new year. He shouldn't be doing this, breaking the delicate peace between them. Macaque can't bring himself to care.
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so im cheating and I'm doing 2 characters for the ask game
Kevin day and Aaron minyard (my favs, my pookies, my loves)
1. Why do you like or dislike this character?
2. Favorite canon thing about this character?
4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?
6. What's something you have in common with this character?
8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?
9. Could you be roommates with this character?
10. Could you be best friends with this character?
11. Would you date this character?
12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?
13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?
14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.
15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)
16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?
17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?
19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?
20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?
24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?
25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?
okay okay
Kevin and Aaron
He reminds me so much of myself, in terms of his relationship with exy. He's also funny asf. I dislike that he tries to pretend he's normal cuz my dude, you're not. But i like that he genuinely wants to be a normal person after all his trauma.
He's like 6'0" and his guard dog is an entire foot shorter than him. His girlfriend lol
The Hunger Games. I haven't read/watched it but from what I've heard it would be funny. Damn probably Supernatural but I would make him a vampire or smth
Stockholm Syndrome with my coach, and way too obsessive about being the best at everything. I fucking love Katelyn Mackenzie
Make him a little bitch. He's a "coward" because he was given to the fucking mafia as a little plaything. Be so real rn. They tend to make him the twin that tries the hardest to reach out and bond but post car crash, he's really not
No for both of them I'd probably strangle them in their sleep
No for both of them, I'd be a Neil type where I'm like goddamn why do you act like that? why don't you kill that guy instead of being upset about it ??
Yes he's probably gifted if yk what I mean. I could, but could he date me, that's the real question
He snores. Chronic nosebleeds and also he gets "straight man sick" as in he gets a tiny cold and he's out for the week
ima do the one i think they'd use a lot bc that's fun
Kevi: 😒 Aaron: 🙄
No fashion sense unless he's in a suit or court gear 😔 Emo lol he's got the spiky bracelets and everything
Kevin x Avery. Avery is my oc who knows absolutely nothing about exy and I think that's what Kevi needs tbh. Aaron x Katelyn of course they're amazing
Fucking,,, each other lol
idk probs Kandreil. no feelings one way or another with that ship. if he's not with Katie, I'm mad so
Kev x Thea. I just think they're a little too different, and in order to heal the way they both need to, they can't do that with each other. Love them as besties though. obvs i love Katie and Aaron 🤭
Jeremy!!!!! first of all, they've definitely fucked, second, Kevi actually smiles with Jer like he seems to really enjoy his company. Matt and I will stand by this. I have no reasoning, just... Matt
Probably Charlie Spring??? in a way?? and I can't really describe why tbh. Aaron is so unique that it's hard to find one, but if I had to choose, probably Matthias Helvar
First impression??? Damn, why is he like that? Oh, that's why he's like that. Damn, I'm kinda like that.
God what a bitch. Oh. Oh okay. Damn what a little bitch. Damn, wtf??
Now??? Babygirl and Little Bitch (with love)
this was so fun ty ty
#ty for the ask <3#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#nora sakavic#kevin day#aaron minyard#thea muldani#katelyn mackenzie
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12, 13 and 31 for the three Titans! You can choose which goes where
I'm going to do 3 for 3, because it's my blog and I can do what I want.
12. Crack headcanon
TCam: Likes putting their main lens underwater (in lakes etc.) to look at fish. The mechanics hate it when TCam does this because they have to dry out the lens casing.
TSpeaker: Would be an absolute beast at breakdancing but is too self-conscious to try.
TTv: We've been assuming that TTv will have negative feelings towards TSpeaker for the whole stabbing scenario (even though TTv does know that it wasn't TSpeaker's free will). But, TVs are knife-appreciators. TTv decides that it was super hot that TSpeaker was actually able to stab them, and becomes outrageously flirty towards TSpeaker, who is so worried and confused by this turn of events.
Bonus: TVs were invented in real life by John Logie Baird, who was Scottish, so TTv would have a Scottish accent if they didn't speak backwards.
13. Dumbest thing they’ve ever done
Canonically, the stupidest thing TCam and TSpeaker did was pursue the Skibidi leaders post-ambush, when the rational course of action would be to return to base for repairs.
(If either of them had been acting alone, they probably would have gone back, but because they were together they were both motivated by 'I can't let my battle-buddy down!' and went into Big Dumb Hero mode.)
TCam: I really love @askthesmoltitans's answer of 'climbed a skyscraper and got stuck for 3 hours because they forgot they can fly'. I have to go with that one!
TSpeaker: You know those sockets they have for putting knives in then launching them with sound blasts? They tried seeing what else they could put in and launch from the sockets (lamp-posts, trees etc.). Metal lamp-posts worked kinda well (if difficult to aim accurately because they tended to warp on launch), but it turned out a concrete lamp-post will just shatter from the sound blast instead of launching, and make a right dusty mess full of concrete chunks. Then they tried again with a tree and it just blasted into splinters and went in many of their speaker-cones. The mechanics and tailor-mechanics were not very happy with their Titan that day.
TTv: Walked into some power lines that they didn't see and got all tangled up in them and the uprooted pylons. Tried to use their shoulder-stabbers to rectify the situation but made even more of a dog's breakfast of it, until they remembered they could just teleport out. It was hard for the mechanics to get the explanation out of the Titan of how they sustained the damage to their weapons and plating. (The Titan tried to claim they'd been ambushed by Skibidis, but the scientists kept pressing them for a description so they could devise battle tactics, because the damage didn't match any known Skibidi type.)
31. If they had a tumblr what would it look like?
TCam: Pictures/reblogs of architecture, particularly Brutalist, Bauhaus and Art Deco. No commentary except thumbs-up emojis. (Or the occasional thumbs-down in response to stupid asks.)
TSpeaker: Just reblogs of music posts that they enjoyed. They respond to any asks with an audio of either an approving or disapproving static honk.
TTv: Isn't arsed to curate it themself; it's one of their maintenance crew's job to go through the dashboard and reblog things the Titan would probably like, and answer all asks as if they were the Titan. New starters to the maintenance crew assume this is the easy gig and are pleased to be assigned to it, until they discover that it's actually more difficult and tedious a task than the rest of their job. The crew argue about who has to do Tumblr duty that day.
(Original post with list of questions)
#blog tags: answered asks#blog tags: anon asks#skibidi tags: titans#skibidi tags: titan camera#skibidi tags: titan speaker#skibidi tags: titan tv#lensman tags: ruminations#blog tags: cluster (50 Random Character Asks)
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so i saw this post about how modern nhs would use his phone as a equivalent of a fan. and tricking people into thinking he's not listening when is. and i added my own 5 cents and now i have a drabble! unspecified modern au with nhs as wwx's and jc's problem radar because it's not the gusu trio if they don't get themselves into some problems! unedited + written late, i might expand this au later... maybe
He was a party soul, honestly. He loved going out and spending time with people, listening to music, dancing, and anything but spending time studying. And it was no surprise that Huaisang was now sitting on someone's couch, in someone's house, he didn't really know the owner– But a good party wasn't happening every day!
"...nah, no, we'll deal with him quickly."
He was alone though, with only his phone to keep him company. But it wasn't a problem really, he hadn't checked his Instagram feed for an hour now, so he had plenty of things to waste time on. Until someone comes up to dance with him.
"Are you sure?"
He sighed. It would be great if someone did... Despite all his love for social media and all, he didn't really want to spend this whole night just on his phone, listening to the party noises.
"Obviously! Come on, he's just a fucking brat who thinks he's in power now. All bark but no fucking bite."
His finger stopped mid-scrolling, his attention caught by a photo posted by one of his friends. Eh, Jiang Cheng wasn't a person to post anything often, so it was a big occasion! He tapped the screen twice and quickly opened the comments section.
"I don't know, he seems strong... he beat up two people at once."
He typed a short comment about the photo and how shocking it is to see him active at all, before closing off the app. Though, he was even more surprised to see that almost instantly he got a notification back.
"But they were unprepared losers. I'll get the old man's people, get some knives or something and we will fucking deal with the fucker."
It took him no time to open direct messages with Jiang Cheng, seeing that he was online. He was bored, alright? And Jiang Cheng was the perfect person to text! Well, maybe because he was sometimes funny to tease...
"...you want to kill him?"
He texted him about how he was at some boring party and had no one to dance with, he had no one else to bother in other words. As if Jiang Cheng cared, was the reply.
"Nah, wouldn't risk jail because of trash like him. Just stab him to show who's actually in power and that's it. A warning, you know."
Nie Huaisang sighed heavily and clicked out of the app again. He stared at the screen for a moment and opened the camera instead. He posed to the camera, opting for the same, well known pose he had in most of his party photos.
"I don't want to deal with his brother if anything serious happens to him, though."
It took him a moment to actually make a good photo, good quality, and all in this party lighting, but he looked super cute! He opened Instagram again and posted the said picture. He couldn't be bothered with a good caption, so instead, he just put the first emoji he had in his recent ones and tapped "post".
"Ha! As if he cares about this annoying orphan... He will thank us for dealing with him, watch it."
And then, he opened his direct messages with Jiang Cheng again.
you: you better watch ur brother btw
jiang cheng: why
you: [pic]
The photo was showing two guys sitting near the couch Huaisang was occupying. If they were a little less obnoxious and not so fucking loud, maybe he wouldn't hear their full conversation and their plan would succeed, but, well! Maybe if they cared about their surroundings more.
you: ive been listening to them talk for some time
you: and they might be out for wei-xiongs blood
you: this time literally
jiang cheng: fuck
jiang cheng: what the fuck
you: take care, you two
Nie Huaisang tapped out of the app and raised his eyes from the phone. His gaze lingered on the two men, talking loudly and drinking some random liquor he was sure wasn't even party sponsored until his phone screen went black.
Well, he should sit around for some more, maybe. Who knows what else he would accidentally hear? He pulled out his earphones. This is going to be a long, long night it seems.
#yen's sunflowers#a flute and a guqin#nie huaisang#mo dao zu shi#mdzs#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#i never post my writing like this online#but here we are
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Sunny in Philadelphia - A Joseph Quinn Story (Chapter 3)
Chapter 3 - Keep In Touch
The two of you headed back out to the show floor. You had time to kill before you had to get in line for your autograph with Joe. Oh, God, your autograph. You had been too distracted to even think about that. You had to see him face to face again, and you couldn't figure out if you should be nervous or excited. During that thought, your phone vibrated. Your eyes widened and you turned to Rachel and froze.
"What?" she looked, a puzzled expression on her face.
"I can't look. Not again. I've been waiting all day. But my phone just went off."
"Give me it. I'll look for you," she said, snatching your phone from your hands as you pulled it out of your pocket. You watched her face as she hit the button on the side to light up your screen. Her face went from relaxed to wide-eyed and a smile started to sneak up. She looked at you and handed you the phone without saying a word. She knew she didn't need to. You took the phone from her and looked at the notification banner that laid over your Eddie Munson lock screen, seeing the letter J with the bat and guitar emojis beside it. HOLY SHIT. You put your thumb on the fingerprint scanner and your messages app popped up with Joe's disguised contact name at the top of the screen.
That's very kind of you, love. I'm so glad you got my note. I'm sorry it took me this long to answer. Duty calls and all of that.
You smiled at his choice of words. There is no way this man could get any more perfect. You started typing a response.
It's okay, I knew you would be extra busy today. I hope you are getting a well-deserved break at some point.
Before you could even tuck your phone away you got a response.
Having a quick lunch now. Don't worry, they don't starve me.
You smiled and giggled at your phone, Rachel behind you doing what she does best – reading over your shoulder.
That's good. I'll let you rest then. I'll see you later. I have an autograph with you this evening.
Is that so? Well, it's my lucky day, isn't it? I get to see those blue eyes up close again.
You nearly melted to the floor. How did he manage to make you feel like HE was meeting YOU instead of the other way around in a matter of minutes? And the fact that he saw you for a total of 2 seconds and noticed your eyes that quickly didn't help your case. Rachel nudged you on the shoulder.
"See, and you were worried for what?" she teased.
"I don't know, Rachel. Maybe the fact that I'm just a regular average civilian and he's Joseph fucking Quinn? Cut me some slack," you said back with a laugh, earning one from her in response.
"Well, he clearly doesn't think you're average."
After receiving those texts from Joe, your anxiety began to drop some. You found yourself using your free time wondering around the vendor area since you could focus enough to actually shop. You got a Hellfire Club wristlet keychain for your keys, a candle titled 'Eddie' that smelled like Old Spice and leather, a Stranger Things bag, among other little things. Eventually it came time to line up for autographs. The two of you headed downstairs to the autograph area and it was packed. Eventually you got through to be a few lines from the front in the first group. You had been watching your phone to see if Joe would say anything else, but you didn't expect him to since his dual photo op with Grace was right before this and he had to go straight into autographs if he didn't want to be here all night. Eventually you got to the front and were just outside the curtain. The worker took your ticket and allowed you to enter the booth. There were about 5 people in front of you, and you had to talk to some workers first, who honestly seemed more like handlers, telling Joe what he was signing next so he could stay on track and switch markers if needed. You told them what you wanted signed, and immediately your attention was on him. He looked adorable, dressed in his leather jacket, black hat, and clear glasses. You had forgotten he wore readers, but they made him even more attractive to you. You eventually made it to the front with one person ahead of you. As that person started walking away, the handler beside Joe leaned over to him to tell him he would be autographing an arm for a tattoo. Joseph looked surprised. You weren't sure if it was in a good or bad way, until he looked over to greet the next person, who happened to be you. His eyes widened slightly, more so glistened a little brighter than usual. A small smile crept up on his face and his cheeks turned slightly pink.
"Hello there, Blue Eyes," he said, recognizing you immediately. "You're getting my signature tattooed? I'm honored. Brave girl." You swooned at those last two words. Anything he said could send you into a smitten spiral, whether he was interested in you or not, although his interest was definitely a boost to your butterflies. He reached for your left hand and pulled your arm towards him and rested it on the table. Your skin tingled at his touch, and the way he was watching you as he did so told you he felt it too. Your arm rested on the table, adorned in permanent ink creating a portrait of Eddie Munson's bats with various flowers surrounding them. He found a little empty spot at the bottom and scribbled his signature in the perfect area carefully, trying not to mess it up. It would eventually be permanent after all. His tongue peeked out between his lips slightly as he did this. You blushed at the sight; it was always something he did that you found adorable.
"Thank you, Joe," you said to him with a flirtatious but shy smile and glanced up into his eyes.
"My pleasure, love. I also would like the pleasure of knowing your name," he responded, his hand still holding yours gently, almost as if he didn't want to let you get away.
"M-McKenzie. Mack for short," you stuttered nervously, your eyes glued to your hand in his. He smiled sweetly at your response, his eyes staying peeled on yours even though you weren't looking at him.
"Mack," he repeated, plugging it to memory. "It was lovely to officially meet you." He leaned a little closer over the table and spoke under his breath, but just loud enough for you to hear. "Keep in touch, darling."
You nodded, cheeks heating up red, and gave him a warm smile. He winked at you as he released your hand. You started to head to the exit curtain, his eyes following you. How has no one noticed how much attention he is giving me? You hoped this interaction wouldn't cause trouble for him, as you knew firsthand that his fans could be very perceptive. They wouldn't take the idea of him being with or interested in someone very well. You exited the curtain, Rachel right behind you, and as soon as you got out of earshot of everyone behind you, you turned to her.
"Holy SHIT," she said, grabbing your forearms in excitement.
"Holy shit is right," you laughed. What a day, but it wasn't over yet.
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please text me back - an original poem about my bpd and experiencing having a favourite person
i’m so sorry to any person who i have ever found myself attached to.
i apologise for burdening you with my affection.
being loved by me must be exhausting.
but i hope you know that it’s just as exhausting if not more actually being me.
let me quickly explain every thought going through my head over the course of any conversation we have ever had through dms.
the second i wake up i text you it takes me 5 minutes to decide how to word it.
good morning,
exclamation mark!
no to open you might not feel the need to respond.
good morning how are you smiley face.
get rid of the smiley face
you may be sad or mad and the happy nature might make it worse
maybe i shouldn’t say good morning just morning.
okay
morning how are you
do i add a question mark or does that seem too formal?
i’m just going to send it.
it takes you 3 minutes to open the message
i know because i say moving my eye from the dm to the time at the top of my phone until i watched the delivered turn to seen.
it takes you 14 seconds exactly to type out your response
i counted them.
“hi i’m good.”
you didn’t ask how i was back.
i’m now wondering if you care about me at all.
you don’t do you?
you hate me don’t you?
if you despise me just tell me!
if you are annoyed i messaged you could just say that!
you only replied out of obligation and we both know it!
fine!
whatever!
it was stupid anyway!
you’re stupid anyway!
i don’t care anyway!
“hbu”
oh.
okay.
it’s fine.
im fine.
we’re fine.
still you only typed out 3 letters not the full sentence.
you put as little energy as you possibly could into acknowledging my existence but i’m choosing to ignore that.
i reply with
i’m good thank you do you have any plans for today.
it takes you half an hour to see the message and you tell me you have work.
i see the notification but i don’t open it i don’t want to seem to eger.
instead i set a timer for 60 minutes then i can message you back.
oh cool
exclamation point
i hope you have a good shift
heart emoji
how long is it going to be
question mark
also sorry i didn’t respond until now i hadn’t seen the message.
it’s now been an hour of me checking my phone every 2 minutes just incase i missed your message.
but you didn’t reply.
you didn’t even open it.
because you hate me…
you despise me.
you are actively trying to find ways to cut me out your life!
well fine i can make it easier!
i could block you right now so you don’t have too i’m sure you would just love that!
or better yet i could die right now so you never have to say another word to me and you never run the risk of pumping into me in the street when we both know you hate me so much!
and maybe it would make you respond quicker if you knew this is what i was thinking right now!
you might even feel guilty for how much you cant stand to be around me!
but equally i then wouldn’t be able to see your response if you did then reply.
so i guess maybe i shouldn’t.
and it occurs to me only then that maybe i was being a little bit silly.
maybe that was semi irrational.
maybe i have somewhat lost my mind.
but i don’t have time to think of that while i’m still counting the minutes it takes for you to open my fucking message like i’m meant to be counting my breaths.
when you reply it’s 8 hours later,
and i am emotionally drained from repeating that last step several times over.
“Hey, just got back from work.
I’m Ok.”
that was it.
that was all that i had drove myself crazy to receive.
you didn’t even ask how i was.
and i don’t get why you just don’t care.
and on the inside i’m going insane.
i am filled with anger but i don’t want to scare you away so instead i type out
hey i missed you,
exclamation mark!
i hope you had a good day
smiley face emoji,
back track
i hope you are had an amazing day!
also not to sound annoying but i noticed in your last message you put ok instead of okay also you capitalised the o normally you only use lower case are we still cool?
tears are streaming down my face and you don’t know that.
my breathing is uneven and you are unaware of that
so when you reply with
“my day was good thank you.
also obviously we’re still cool why wouldn’t we be
laughing face emoji”
i once again notice you still haven’t asked me about my day.
and now you are laughing at my insecurity while i have been crying for hours.
but im too tired to fight so if you say we’re fine im sure we are.
so i just say
sorry it doesn’t matter just had a bad day is all i was probably just reading into things you know how i can be.
it takes you 30 seconds to see it.
and it takes you a minute to reply.
i counted.
stop apologising we have been over this it’s getting really annoying constantly having to give you so much reassurance sometimes being around you is just so draining.
this time i don’t reply.
i just sit and sob.
because yeah it is so fucking draining.
and i already know that
and i don’t ever get to take a break.
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A couple of people in my dance class are taking some time to learn a little bit of ASL so that they can understand me when I'm signing, which is so cool! I feel like I've actually become more chatty now that my primary mode of communication is ASL. But I'm still very new at this, and very far away from anything resembling fluency. My signing may seem fast to the average speaking/hearing person, but I'm well aware that it's slower than molasses in the arctic to a fluent signer.
I did eventually figure out how to make my iPad talk so I can use it as a makeshift AAC device. But that's slow and the volume on the tablet often isn't loud enough for people to hear. Plus it takes time to type out my thoughts. I know enough ASL now that it's often much faster and easier for me to sign instead of use text-to-speech. Unless I have to discuss something complex using sign vocabulary I don't know yet. It seems my reality of no longer having a functioning voice is finally starting to sink in. It only took seven months.
What throws the speaking/hearing folk off is that my hearing still works. Mostly. It's about 75% of what it used to be. I can't hear my dance instructor in the gym, and a lot of people sound like Charlie Brown's teacher sometimes in busy environments. What can I say? I'm old now and I've listened to a lot of loud music. But when I start signing around speaking/hearing people, they immediately conclude that I'm deaf and stop talking completely. I mean it makes sense. Sign language is by d/Deaf people for d/Deaf people. Why the hell would someone who can hear use sign language? Right? (Well, I mean there are reasons, but do I want to get into that with the uni student working at the pharmacy while I'm trying to get my prescription refilled? Not really.) Should I bother trying to explain to speaking/hearing folk that I can still hear them? Would it even matter? Because they still wouldn't be able to understand what I'm signing.
I feel like I'm in this weird in-between space with ASL. I mean here's this incredibly useful and helpful visual language I can use in place of communicating orally (since I can't anymore because thanks spasmodic dysphonia), But technically it's not for me. Ya know? There's this whole culture and history attached to it that I'm learning about (and it's fascinating and gives me a whole new reason to hate the telephone), but it's a culture I'm not a part of and can't be a part of because my earholes still function enough to comprehend oral communication.
Is not being able to talk even a disability? Oh no! Can't talk! What a bummer! This is an absurd disability! But it is a disability because it hinders my ability to do basic things like, I don't know, chat with the cute check-out girl at the grocery store or whatever. I can't make or receive phone calls (oh no so tragic [sarcastic sadface emoji]). I can't tell my friends about the cool show I just watched unless I have my tablet with me for assisted communication. I can't narrate my YouTube videos. (That one is kinda frustrating.) I can't hum to my favorite music. Ugh!
Okay, this post kind of got away from me. I guess I have thoughts I still need to work through about losing my ability to speak and where that puts me socially. While it is indeed a disability, I don't really consider it a loss. More of an inconvenience. Because now I'm the one who has to bend over backward to make myself comprehensible to the world at large. And that's a little annoying.
So I'm grateful that there are people out there who are willing to meet me halfway by taking the time to learn sign language. Seriously. Go learn sign language. It's the best! I love it!
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TAGGED BY ♡ @donghoonie-3 @evermorehoon
rules: go to pinterest and type in “[your name] core aesthetic” and create a moodboard using the first nine images. no need to reveal what your name actually is!
tysm for the tag dkskdks it was rlly interesting to see what came up for my name >< I kinda knew what would come up if i put mirai (probably the yandere girl from mirai nikki) so i put my actual name instead 😀 ( i love using this emoji when I have nothing to say)
ANYWAYS why does it seem like I'm a crackhead psychopath??????????? fuck u Pinterest whyre u outing me you whore.
TAGGING : @enha-doodles @torhues @chiyuv @heetro + anyone who wants to join!
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