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phoebepheebsphibs · 6 months
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I constantly get baffled when I see an artist that I love follows me back and actually liked a post of mine
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Like the audacity they have to mingle with a peasant such as myself I cannot fathom the purpose
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yndrgrl · 1 month
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yandere! dabi x fem reader?
you're a fool to think that you could trick japan's no. 1 mafia boss, yandere! dabi , & get away with it
long ass fic. crime lord x spy. quirkless! au. heavily tatted! dabi lmaooo. extra dark romance. fem! reader. ooc! dabi. picture "diet mountain dew" playing, thanks. manz is OBSESSED obsessed.
warnings: nsfw, depictions of extreme/hardcore sex, sex slavery, obsessive behavior, making "movies," mentions of heavy stalking & panty stealing, sex in front of his men, sadism, reader passes out, light knifeplay,
a/n: uhhh is this too much (i hope not cuz i have a couple more hardcore ones cooking) 😭 also look, i'm finally doing the requests that are long overdue... my fault, g.
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"boss, she's here," one of dabi's goons said after he knocked on the large, mahogany door. there was shuffling, laughter, then a muffled "send her in," that followed.
"you heard the man," the other shrugged, opening the door for you. after you, they followed into the room.
your heart was pounding out of your chest & there was a violent ringing in your ear. your breathes were shallow & shaken, yet you had to maintain a calm composure because, in the eyes of japan's most notorious criminal mastermind, you were merely a recruiter for his mob. you're playing the part as a low-life thug/seductress who's in desperate need of money.
of course, that's not the case. you had a good head on your shoulders. you were working for japan's government, a special operation unit ran by a sergeant dubbed "endeavor." your mission is to gather information, find out their next big drug trade, & bust it while keeping your head down. & honestly, it's been going well. you were prepared to fight off dabi's goons left & right because, well... you're a woman, & they are horny, egotistical assholes.
however, none of them approached you. all of them looked scared of you, actually. you felt like a badass, but it was also compromising your mission. how in god's name are you supposed to collect intel of no one will talk with you?
"(y/n), baby, please have a seat," said dabi, snapping you out of your thoughts. you didn't know if you should smile or stay stoic, but your nerves got the better of you & your lips curled upwards.
"yes, sir," you said back. you allowed yourself to notice him, his features. he wore a suit, presumably to look professional even though it just made him look intimidating. with his jet black hair, bags under his piercing blue eyes, & pale skin littered with ink, he had an aura around him, & there's no wonder why or how he's gotten so powerful. his tattoos that were visible to you were mainly on his face & on his hands; there was a bold line stretching ear to ear, dipping in the crevasse of his mouth. it made him look like he had a smile. under the bold line were more intricate tattoos-- flowers, thorns, knives, the works.
"please, call me whatever your heart desires, princess," he purred, & the doors of his lavish office slammed shut. there was no reception in this part of his headquarters, you've already checked. you tried reasoning with your worries, telling yourself that there was no way you've been caught, you haven't even talked to anyone!
you replied, "i am anything but a princess, sir."
"sticking with sir?" he questioned, & you nodded, then he continued, "you can be anything you want to be, no?"
"in the perfect world, i guess i could," you said with furrowed brows. why were you in here exactly?
"no, no, no. that's not what i mean."
"my apologies, what did you mean?" you asked, fighting yourself not to fidget. fidgeting means that your nervous, being nervous means you've done something you're not supposed to, & you haven't dont anything wrong.
"i mean, you," he pointed at you, dragging the word longer than he had to, "you. can be anything you want." he was met with a calculating silence. the hairs on the back of your neck stood tall.
finally, you questioned, "why am i here, sir? i'm just a... you know, a concubine." that was your role.
"oh, are you now? what exactly are you doing for my company?" he leaned forward, his face resting in the palm of his hand. he looked bored, yet there was a twinkle in his eyes that said otherwise. it finally sunk in what kind of position you are in. there are two men guarding the only exit, there are three armed men standing behind dabi, & the infamous crime lord himself was sitting across from you, only a desk length away.
"i'm sending men your way so you can grow you um.. company," you told him, & that was the story you're sticking with.
dabi, with a smirk, muttered under his breath with a laugh, "you're fuckin' priceless, doll." with a clear voice this time, he asked, "has anyone touched you?"
what kind of question is that? "yes, sir." no, no one has, you were lying.
he still had a smirk on his face, his bright blue eyes drilling into yours. he fished something in his pocket, his eyes still glued on you. in your head, you kept screaming it was a gun or a knife, he was going to shoot you point blank, you're about to die-
"why do you look so scared, hun?" taunted dabi, finally throwing his hand out of his pocket, & you flinched. this is it, he's about to kill you with a... lighter? wait. he snapped his fingers with the hand that his face was resting on. one of his henchmen quickly handed him something. lighting it, he sneered, "it's just a cigarette~"
he inhaled deep, & blew out a puff a of grey smoke your direction. "you're so jumpy, babe."
"i'm just confused why i'm here is all," you swallowed, your eyes watering slightly because of the smoke.
"i'm considering you for a promotion," he said in an as-a-matter-of-fact tone.
"a promotion?"
"yeah, you could call it that. instead of being some recruiter-prostitute, how does 'dabi's little housewife slut' sound instead? nice ring to it, huh?" he said, breathing in the tobacco & studying your expression.
"i-i'm sorry?" you coughed out, shocked.
"you can be anything, can't you? that's your whole job, am i wrong?" he questioned, eyes darkening. his playful demeanor was gone, & something more sinister glossed over his expression.
"i'm not sure what you mean-" you were cut off by his fist slamming down on his desk, the things on it vibrating & falling off.
"(y/n), do you think i'm stupid?"
"n-no, of course not, sir!" you tried to reason, maybe he was upset about something else.
"do you think i'm fuckin' stupid?" the man scowled, standing up to his feet. his henchmen gripped their weapons tighter, their backs just a bit more straighter. oh, he knew.
"i don't think you're stupid, sir. you're a smart man, i know that-"
"though your flattery gets me hard, it's unwanted right now, doll," dabi told you as he walked towards you while you were just sitting there, your hands on your lap. you picked the dirt from under your nails, the balls of your feet grinding the vintage rug underneath you. your eyes were trained on him in fear that, if you looked away, he'd pounce.
under your breath, you repeated unsure, "hard?" you didn't mean to say anything, it just slipped out. suddenly, as he was standing directly on your side, he gripped the arms of your chair & forced it to turn. he caged you between him & the chair, him bent down so his face was only inches away from you. you could smell the smoke on his breath, his expensive cologne, & faint iron smell-- whether it was blood or gunpowder, you didn't want to find out.
"you're so bold, spying on me~ i didn't think you'd actually accept the job, yet here you are, thinking you are just so clever, huh?" he laughed in your face, but his tone was still deep.
"y-you know?" you stuttered out, eyes wide. he was so close to you, he was a killer with no remorse, that's what they told you before you took this mission. you've heard it all before, & you've taken guys like him down, but they've never caught on to you. you had no plan, all you could do is hope that your crew knew your location.
"of course i know, (y/n)~ i know so much about you, & i must say, i'm such a fan," he started, looking at you up and down. you weren't cowering away from him, but you also weren't confident. you were going to try something, he knew it. "i'm honored to be your next big case. it's such a shame you won't be completing your mission though."
you swallowed thickly, & you gave him your best don't-fuck-with-me glare you could muster. "what now then? you caught me, you gonna kill me now?" you barked, hoping to intimidate him. instead, you were met with a bone chilling smile.
he chuckled, brushing his fingers through his wild hair, "oh no, sweetheart, i'm afraid you don't understand~" you started to search for something under your skirt-your gun- when he tightly gripped your wrist. "don't," he warned as he matched your glare.
the firm grasp you had on your gun loosened & it fell on the floor. he kicked it towards one of his men, who swiftly unloaded the mag & tossed it in the trash. "if it's information you want, you're not getting it outta me."
"wrong again, you get one more chance."
"would you stop fucking with me!?" you screamed at him, ready to oppose anything he wanted you to do. he gripped your chin, his fingers squishing your cheeks together, & your hands shot up & held his wrist as you tried to wriggle out.
"watch your mouth when you talk to me," he warned, forcing you to maintain eye contact with him. "such a dirty mouth. if you were anyone else, i would've shot you instantly. consider yourself lucky."
"shtawp! le'me go!" you muttered through your puckered up lips, & surprisingly, he listened. once he let you go, you through yourself back into the chair to create as much distance as possible (it wasn't much). "wh-what are you going on about, dabi?"
"i thought i was, 'sir,' doll? what happened? we friends now?" he teased. the man gave you a fake pout & an eye roll.
"you wish. now answer me. what are you t-" he locked eyes with you once again, & you stumbled over your words, "t-talking about?"
he let out a dark chuckle, kneeling in front of you so his face was nearly resting on your lap. "princess, haven't you notice something weird has been happening ever since you took down shigiraki almost a year ago? don't you always feel like you're never alone? things appear in your car out of nowhere? your panties go missing from your apartment? haven't you ever wondered why you always feel so uneasy no matter where you are?"
your expression shifted from confused to terrified.
"you think you're all alone when you're scrubbing those perfect tits in the shower, huh? you really put on a show f'me when you masterbate. so fuckin' nasty, you know. i would love to know who's on your mind when you fingerfuck yourself," he said, licking his lips. his suit pants were tight enough that it was hard to miss the growing bulge. your eyes were teary out of embarrassment. "but i think i know who's on your mind when you do such dirty things."
"y-you don't know anything. m-my crew will be here soon o-once they realize i-i've been caught!" you fought, yet he had no care in the world. he through open your legs & tsked. you were told to wear a short skirt to "make it more believable," & now you're regretting everything. you tried to press your hands in between your thighs to block your clothed pussy out of his curious gaze.
"do you think so? cuz i think that they've completely forgetten about you 'cuz someone gave endeavor an anonymous tip on where my next drug deal will be held. i think that's more important than some captured spy, to be honest," he told you, "besides -men, hold her down- i have a feeling you actually really want this."
his goons, as they were told, held your wrists to the arms of the chair while another stood behind you, his gun looming just barely in the line of your vision. your legs were spread, & your arms were restrained. you thrashed as dabi's hot touch trailed up your calf to your inner thigh. your face was red hot in anger & flushed in shame. to fit your role, you wore a dark purple thong. your body betrayed you, a wet spot staining your panties. "st-stop! you-you're under arrest!"
"i-i-i am! oh n-no! wh-whatever will i do?!" he mocked, & his men laughed like he was some comedian. "please, (y/n), love, drop the fuckin' act. it's cute & all, but i'd rather you'd just stop pretending, i want you to enjoy this as much as i'm going to~" he faux pleaded, but he knew, either way, you were going to love it eventually. he heard your sighs of content whenever you read 'good guy x bad guy' spicy romances, he recorded you moaning his name when you first got assigned to this case.
"i-i really won't tell anyone, p-please let me go," you begged, watching him stand up & take off his blazer. he threw off his tie, unbuttoned his white dress shirt, revealing his toned, tatted body. every part of his torso, chest, & arms were inked with dark grey tattoos. on his left pec was your initials in some fancy, grand font-- except it was a fleshy pink. a healed scar.
"you like it? or are you scared? i can't really tell," dabi questioned, leaning close to you. his guard's hands were replaced by his. "(y/n), if you tell me to stop nicely, maybe i will. granted, i'll lock you up until you're ready, but i'd wait. so tell me, with that dirty mouth of yours, what do you want?"
"uhm... w-what are you talking about?" you tried to avoid his inquiries, it shamed you to say the least. if you were to say what you wanted -what you truly wanted- you'd betray your country. you didn't want to answer.
"now, or later?" he repeated, tapping your wrist. "i'm gonna need to hear you say somethin' or i'll just do whatever i want, & trust me; you won't be able to handle it."
you were silent, your eyes darted from his icy ones, to his cold lips, to his tattooed body, & back to his eyes. avoidant, maybe that's all you have to do. he'll get bored of someone quiet, no?
"(y/n)~ sweetheart~ you're making a bad choice by keeping your mouth shut, unless that's what you want. you want me to use you, hm?" he teased, biting his lip afterward. dabi knew that look you were giving him because it's the one he gives you all the time. pure, primal lust. intrigue. but mostly lust.
you opened your mouth to say something, but nothing came out. your heart was beating out of your chest, your voice caught onto your throat. you pondered, just for a moment, & you let your impulse control the outcome; you stayed silent.
after shutting your mouth, dabi smirked devilishly. "you've made your choice, remember that. so don't get too mad at me, 'kay? i give you permission to enjoy this as much as you want, but you probably didn't need my permission," he snickered. the man didn't even let you answer before capturing your rosy lips with his.
his kisses were intense, rough, yet so, so needy for you. in between pants & kisses, he whispered things like, "i've held myself back f' you," &, "god, fuckin' finally." your wrists were once again restrained by his henchmen, while his hands wandered around your body. as one hand cup your precious face, the other groped your tits through your clothes. if one shifted around your neck, the other one would be gripping your hips, bruising you already.
his pierced tongue explored your mouth. saliva dripped from the corners of your mouth, dribbling down your chin. his tongue was down your throat as he choked you. your spine jolted when two, long fingers began to ghost up and down your pussy, pushing a little harder over your clothes clit. he hooked the front part of your thong & pulled up. you let out a muffled scream as your panties disappeared in between your pussy lips. they were drenched in your arousal, & now you started leaking onto your skirt & his chair.
he finally released you from his kiss, your lungs burning. you let in a few shallow breaths before dabi bit your neck. he still had your thong wrapped around his finger, & every so often, he would pull upwards, & a scream of pained pleasure would follow in suit. bite marks & hickeys covered your neck. "all mine~" he purred, licking your tender neck.
"let's get these fuckin' clothes off'a ya," snarled dabi through gritted teeth. it was like opening a present for him. he tore through your t-shirt with ease, not even bothering undressing you all the way so the fabric just hung off of your shoulders. he suddenly fished a knife out of his pocket & cut your bra off of your body. he glided the dull side between the valley of your breasts, down to your heaving stomach. he shoved your mini skirt up around your waist & he cut off your soaked thong.
"fuckin' hell, babe. i've been dreaming about this," he groaned, stabbing the blade into his wooden desk. dabi squeezed your plush thighs, his handprints bruised on your skin. what was strange was how his men acted while the two of you were intimate; they were stoic & unwavering, their hardened faces expressionless.
they were under dabi's complete control, & that's just how he is. he knows how to get people on his side, he knows when they're interested, that's why he's such an influential man. "you really thought you could trick me?" he barked, pulling his leather belt out of his pants' loops. he fastened the belt around your wrists. "poor, little (y/n)~ all hot & bothered in front of the enemy~" with your hands bound, your legs were put onto the arms of the chair. once again, you were restrained by his men. ashamed & -quite honestly- turned on, you were splayed out on the chair, legs spread & pussy throbbing.
he undid the button on his pants, & they fell to the floor. his boxers were soon to follow. you were gawking his member, you couldn't help it. it's the biggest, thickest, you've ever been with in your life.
a smug, toothy grin stretched on his face as he watched your reaction. "you look shocked, doll," he noticed. dabi stood right in front of you, the tip of his cock gently slapping your clit. the contact made you jolt every time. "you've never been with someone like me, huh? that's why you're so quiet?"
you nodded sheepishly while you stared up at him with your doe eyes. he coated himself in your arousal before lining himself up with your entrance. dabi, in such a hushed tone it almost sounded sweet, cooed, "it's a shame i'm gonna use that perfect body. i want you to remember you chose this."
"y-yes sir, i-i remember," you replied back. when he whispered in your ear, it sent electricity up your spine, & you'd subconsciously arch your back.
he placed a firm kiss on your jaw, & he praised, "that's my girl~" dabi slid past you folds, diving himself into your entrance. he let out a throaty groan as he through his head back. his adam's apple bobbed, his hair becoming even more disheveled. dabi wasn't a man known for his slow, savory approach; his gentle demeanor was short-lived. he forced his cock into your dripping hole balls-deep. you let out a breathy scream, eyes widen for a second.
dabi towered over you, muscles flexed with every thrust. he pounded you into the chair that, with every thrust, you felt the chair legs wobble underneath you. he shooed his guards away from you because, in all honesty, you were not getting away from him. he's wanted you for too damn long, he's been patient enough.
honestly, it surprised him how slow you were taking the mission. you were behind enemy lines for months, you'd think that you would want to spend the least amount of time there as possible. it's no matter though, he has you right where he wants you. "aren't you worried, (y/n)? you're so quick to trust me," he pointed out in between his harsh thrusts.
every jerk made your tits bounce; he was fucking you so hard that your hearing became fuzzy. he kept hitting your g-spot over & over with the same roughness. "mnh~ t-too fast~ ngh-ahh," you whimpered. did he say something? if he didn't, you didn't even notice. it just was so overwhelming. even though you couldn't keep your mind straight, dabi still kept fucking you like you were some sex doll.
what snapped you back to reality was when a snap echoed off the walls, & your elevation changed. there was a pressure against your chest & a slight pain your back that was soon stretched out. the chair broke from beneath you. your head was cupped by dabi's tattooed hand. he laid flush against you while he folded you in half. your knees were to your chest & your legs rested on his broad shoulders.
at this angle, you could feel his cock in your stomach pumping in & out of your pussy. you let out a scream of pleasure as you begged, "sl-slow down! c-can't handle it!"
"aww~ i'm so sorry, doll face. i can't do that for you. maybe next time though," he joked as though he wasn't pounding you into oblivion. tears of overstimulation & slight frustration welled in your eyes. it was like you were cursed to overwhelming pleasure & moaning out his name forever.
god, did he have stamina. after an hour of raw fucking, he flipped in so many different positions. after the mating press, he put you into missionary with a tight grip on your plush hips. your arousal stained his expensive carpet, not that he cared because he'll just hire someone to clean it.
while he missionary, he let out a hearty groan, & his voice broke for a second. he held you tight as he drained his cum inside of your weeping hole. you thought that would be the end, but he took only a moment to breath before flipping you over to fuck you from behind.
ass in the air, back arched, & your face pressed against the ground, you saw stars that began to cloud your already-blurry vision. he rubbed your sensitive clit while he pumped his cock in & out of gorgeous, pitiful you. you whined for an ounce of sympathy. it was your first mistake thinking he was a normal man, & your second mistake was staying quiet when he so-graciously gave you a choice on how you wanted him.
"you're taking me so well, doll~" he praised with kisses on your arched back. you clenched around him when he said that, & his brow quirked up. "oh? you like that? you're squeezing so tight after i said that," he laughed. "you're such a pretty girl, all cock drunk just f'me~"
"st-stop it, you're b-being so-so mean," you sniffled but you didn't actually mean it... you were kind of a brat, but that's a secret you'd never tell. xoxo.
once you said that, he went more rough than before-- something you didn't realize was possible. you've creamed on his cock more times than you could count on your fingers with both your hands, yet he's only ejaculated once. the white stars started out as tiny dots, yet every time you came on dabi's thick, hard cock, they grew bigger. "g-gunna, i'm g-gunna... cu.. cum," you droned, letting the white stars overtake your vision, & all the sounds you hear became nothing more than a buzz. the only thing you could hear is dabi's laughter as you slowly slipped from consciousness. you squirted all over his cock -something you've never done before- then passed out. you went completely limp as subconscious sighs of pure hormonal ecstasy mixed with your heaving breath.
"uh oh, someone couldn't handle it," dabi tutted, yet he was still relentless as ever, make good of his promise to use you however he pleased. "what time is it?" he called out, & one of his men answered.
"hmm... i think it's about time for the show to begin then~" dabi said, petting your knotted hair as he scratched your scalp (all while he's still inside you, mind you). he came all over your ass a few moments later, then he carried you to his leather couch.
~~~
"where the fuck are we?" endeavor muttered as he stood in front of an abandoned movie theater.
"this is where the tip said dabi would be," his right hand man, hawks, told him. they were both in their tactical gear equipped with war-grade guns & knives at their disposal. soldiers rushed out the back of van in a single file line & they branched off to surround the building. some hid within the trees & branches, others crouched beside the doors to the building, but they were all waiting for one thing; endeavor's command. "should we try contacting (y/n) to see if she's heard anything?"
"we can't," endeavor said shortly, it would compromise the mission if they reached out to you before the designated time. you've agreed to have a twenty minute rendezvous with one of your "co-workers" every three days at three in the morning. your next scheduled rendezvous would be tomorrow.
his walkie-talkie buzzed off, & one of the squad captains said, "team one, in position."
"team two, in position."
"team three, in position."
"team four, in position."
endeavor, after hearing each captain, responded, "team zero, in position. take initiative in three... two... one...!" the burly man kicked open the main entrance door then pointed his gun around, using the flashlight to scan the area.
on his radio, he suddenly heard, "we've found something in theater nine!"
"hold your position, i am on my way. any surrounding teams make your way towards theater nine."
he stepped over debris, ignored any graffiti on the wall, & noted just how dark the atmosphere got the further he went down the corridor. down the hall was a glowing number nine above the very end left door. the fact that there was still electricity running through the building made him wonder how long dabi has been using this place for deliveries. it made him upset that he was right under his nose.
for years he's been hunting this man, this mafia who always seemed to be two steps ahead of him. now? now he had the upper hand. he has the newest, strongest equipment. his men were in the peak physical condition with reaction times as fast as f1 drivers. yet why was it this easy? he couldn't help but wonder.
endeavor reached theater nine, hawks close behind. the rest of his team stayed out of the room for look out. the other teams were already in the theater, fingers on their guns' trigger. it made a few of them jump when the projector started. "there's a man up there!" one yelled, & immediately endeavor turned over his shoulder to shoot at the projector window.
the bullet shattered the window, narrowly missing the shadowy figure. a team was already in pursuit, the captain speaking through their radio to let the others know. the projector was still running, & a voice caught endeavor's attention. his breath hitched, eyes narrowed.
"hello, endeavor~" greeted dabi, shirtless & coy as ever. "right on time, how did i know you were gonna be here?" he taunted, & endeavor noticed dabi's icy eyes darting down then back to the camera. all that was in frame was his upper half, a grand bookshelf in the background. his arm rested stretched out on the back his sofa. the other was in his lap.
"now before you leave & try to take this film for whatever, i wanna give you some peace in mind. my initial plan was just to blow all of you gullible fuckers up, but your cute little spy begged me not to, so you all better thank her. bad news though, you're not gonna see her any time soon," dabi sighed with fake sadness.
whispers erupted from endeavors soldiers. "(y/n)? is he talking about (y/n)?" "fuck... you don't think he..."
"don't get you panties in a twist, she's more than alright. i take good care of her. honestly, i should thank you for sending her right to me. when we get married, i might invite you to the wedding~" he cackled, & a cough was heard through the video. dabi suddenly looked down & yanked something, no, someone up. the back of your head was seen on the bottom of the camera.
"you fucker," endeavor cursed, even though it would fall on deaf ears. he couldn't tear his eyes away from the video. he wasn't even studying it anymore, he was just listening in disbelief.
"i made this movie to... send a message, i guess you could say," he shrugged nonchalantly. he looked back down to you, & his eyes softened. "c'mere, princess," he whispered, & as though you were hypnotized, you climbed atop his lap. "face the camera, show everyone how pretty you are~" & you did as you were told.
gasps filled the theater, nearly everyone looked away & took off their helmets. "oh, my god," hawks said in shock, it just slipped out. he looked at his -self-proclaimed- partner to gauge his reaction. endeavor couldn't tear his icy blue eyes away from the screen. he was as stiff as a statue, breath held.
the camera zoomed out, & there you were in dabi's bare lap, he held your legs wide open. your eyelids drooped, drool made your lips glossy, & you were practically limp in his hold. goops of cum seeped out of your puffy pussy, there was ropes of his semen covered your thighs & lower stomach. hickeys & hand-shape marks bruised your skin. instead of yearning eyes, begging for help, you had a nearly lovesick smile on your face. gently, dabi kissed your head, pecking down to your cheeks & he said hushed sweet-nothings into your ear.
"don't ever try to spy on me again, endeavor. & don't try to save (y/n), she doesn't need it. i promise i'll take such good care of her~"
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rafeandonlyrafe · 7 months
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drunk
words: 700
warnings: drinking, rafe is waaaasted
“just one more.” rafe slurs his words.
“no, man, i’m not carrying you home.” topper says, trying to shove him away from the bar, but to no avail. rafe stumbles forward, aiming for the open barstool, but he ends up face planting into your back.
“oh my god!” you turn to see rafe being helped up by topper.
“so sorry, y/n.” topper says, starting to drag him away.
“y/n is here?” rafe perks up like a puppy dog who just heard the word treat.
you let out a giggle, not completely sober yourself, but clearly nowhere near as drunk as rafe. “hi.”
rafe smiles and goes for the empty barstool next to you again, this time successfully plopping down in it.
“hi, you’re so pretty.” rafe leans his elbow against the bar, propping his chin up on his knuckles.
“thank you.” you blush. you’ve never talked one on one with rafe before, always staying in groups as you’re more than slightly intimidated by how handsome he is. you suppose you’re not actually one on one through, as topper is standing just out of earshot away, eyes firmly on rafe.
“did you know-” rafe slurs, reaching across to take your drink and down it, as if he needed any more liquid courage. “i’ve always found you beautiful?” you don’t have words to say, because no, you never knew.
“not just that, but you’re funny too. i love your laugh. and i think you’re smart but you said you were bad at math before.” rafe blurts out, and you’re shocked he remembered a passing comment from months ago.
“i am bad at math.” you know it’s not the best response, but you have no clue what else to say.
“i’ll do all the math for you.” rafe says, as if he’s any better than you.
you mostly just rely on your calculator but you mumble out a thanks anyways.
“i know i’m drunk right now, but i mean everything i said.” rafe says, scooching closer to you.
“i think you’re… pretty too.” you say, part of you hoping rafe forgets all of this, part of you hoping that his drunk words are his sober thoughts and that this will actually lead to something.
rafe is about to respond when topper comes up and claps him on the shoulder. “time to go home, for real.” “nooooo.” rafe whines. “i want to stay and talk to y/n. i never talk to her, i get too nervous.”
“great.” topper sighs. “this is why i never agree to drive him home.”
“come on rafe, topper is tired, you can talk to me tomorrow.”
“dont wanna leave you.” rafe pouts, and you resist the urge to laugh, knowing he’d be embarrassed by this if he wasn’t wasted.
topper gives you a pleading gaze and you sigh yourself, standing up and wrapping a hand around rafe’s bicep. “come on.”
rafe is quick to follow you as you lead him out of the bar and towards topper’s truck. “aren’t you getting in?” rafe asks when you try to have him sit in the passenger seat.
“i can drive you home too if you want.” topper says, and you nod, moving to the back seat as rafe gets in beside you, reaching across you to do up your buckle, even in his foggy mind wanting to keep you safe.
“we should go out sometime.” rafe says, taking your hand in his as topper starts up his truck. “i haven’t been with anyone since i met you, been so hung up on you.”
you scoff as rafe leans his head against your shoulder, and you know he’s going to be out in a matter of minutes.
topper heads to rafes house first as rafes breathing slows, gentle snores coming from him. 
“you know he’s serious?” topper says, and you look up to meet his eyes in the rearview mirror as you let out a hum of confusion.
“he’s telling the truth, all of it.” 
you can’t believe that it’s anything more than a drunk obsession that will pass when the hangover comes in the morning, but topper has no reason to lie to you.
“in fact, i’m actually a little sick of hearing about you. if not because you actually like him, can you please just go out with him for my sanity's sake?”
you let out a little laugh, knowing that won’t be necessary.
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nhularin · 9 months
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SYNOPSIS being a writer is hard, especially when you're a hardcore stan on tumblr.com. so when the legendary niki writer disappeared out of the blue, the readers were naturally heartbroken! but! what happens when their beloved nishirikithinker got revealed as THE yn of the hot new girl group?!
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YOU FOUND YOURSELF sitting in a room that felt far too intimidating for your comfort. your heart raced with anxiety as you glanced at the stern faces of everyone present: bang pd,manager hwang (who had that weird look on his face that you've only seen once when he had to pull sullyoon away from minji) enhypens manager and the PR team. and there, amidst them all, niki, who had the same look of terror on your face
"thank you for joining us today," bang sihyuk began, his voice carrying a serious tone. "i think we all know why we're here today?"
you sat up straight, taking a deep breath to steady your nerves "I assure you all, mr. bang. yes, there was a time when I wrote fanfiction about niki sunbaenim, but I abandoned that account as soon as i got accepted as a trainee."
you paused "I didn't want anything distracting from my dedication to my dream. writing was a hobby, a way to express my admiration. but I knew it was important to fully commit myself as an artist and a member of my group once I became a trainee. i am truly sorry to cause this mess" you stood up and bowed to the people in the room, showing your utmost sincerity
the PR team exchanged doubtful glances, while niki leaned forward slightly, a grin on his face "i support you, my fangirl" he whispered cheekily, only audible to your ears, in which you only kicked him under the table
the managers, recognizing the honesty of your words, stepped forward to present a plan to address the scandal. "we will work swiftly to clarify the situation and minimize any damage to your reputation and the image of your group," they assured with determination.
bang sihyuk nodded, taking a moment to absorb the information. "your commitment to your career is admirable. we will stand by you and protect your image, as part of our family. we will try our best to calm the situation down."
relief surged through you, the weight on your shoulders lessened, knowing that it all went well
leaving that meeting, you were left with the boy who you used to spend all of your attention to. you hated it, you absolutely hated it. "so" he started "i read your stuff"
"please stop talking" you were now on the floor, face buried in your hands and cheeks burning red. "its my darkest secret so dont you dare tell anyone that information, got it?" you utter with your best death glare
he laughed, ruffling his blonde-black hair before putting his cap on "youre cute when you're mad, did you know that?"
you were speechless, was he flirting with you? did he know about your love for jungwon, his band member? did years of one sided fan love finally get reciprocated? was he plotting your downfall?
before you could object his statement, he spoke "well, see you around, fangirl!"
what a jerk. what an annoyingly handsome jerk
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tonberry-yoda · 1 year
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I would like to request something, More like a comedy/fun/silly request :3
So... Have you ever thought about how would Alastor, Husk, Angel Dust and Lucifer would react to their female s/o calling for them in a visibly mad tone for their complete name from the kitchen?? Maybe them knowing that they didn't thawed the chicken they try and run away from her but she teleports in front of them and tuggs them from the ear (motherly behaviors entered the chat) while saying something like
"Oh, honey, you're not gonna escape from me, and NOW you're gonna clean the house for ONE WEEK"
(in headcanon format please 😌) (also I rode on one of your posts that you got many HH and HB requests so if you wanna ignore this, go ahead I don't really mind, It's your decision ^^)
notes: OMG ANON THIS IS SO FUNNY! sorry this took so long btw, ive had so many requests to get through lol and this is a pretty difficult idea to actually turn into a writing piece, but that's what makes it more fun lol. and dont worry about the too many requests about HH! I just thought it was interesting that i had a lot of fans of the show lol. thanks for the request anon and I really hope you enjoy!! WARNINGS: I left out Lucifer because I don't know too much about him and kept the reader gn because Angel Dust is gay, so I didn't want to make it a female s/o. thanks for the request <333
ALASTOR
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this man isnt easily intimidated by anyone
i mean he is the radio demon frrrr
but you?
oh this man is TERRIFIED OF YOU
not when you're lovey dovey, just when you're mad
which to be fair isnt often
but you went to leave the house and pressed a huge kiss onto Alastor's cheek before leaving. You told him that you wanted him to do the dishes while you were away and he gave you a thumbs up telling you that it would get done
but then you get home
and find out that not a single plate was clean
Alastor was relaxing upstairs and you were on the verge of losing
not helpful that you had an awful day on top of it
you called him by his full and complete name from when he was alive and while he was upstairs, he felt chills down his spine
he quickly ran downstairs and realized the mistake he had made a little too late
"do you expect me to do these, Al? you've been sitting on your ass ALL DAY, I am not doing any of this!" You pointed to the huge pile of dished and Alastor felt defeated
he apologized a thousand times and ended up getting them done both clean and fast in record time
and he bought you flowers to apologize
HUSK
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you were at work when you remembered you needed the chicken pulled out of the freezer to thaw
you quickly texted husk and asked him to do it and all he sent was a thumbs up emoji
you prayed that he did what he needed to do
you got home in a very chipper mood from your day at work to find no chicken on the counter
you tilted your head and checked all over the kitchen
in the pantry, on the counter, in the cabinets, in the fridge
and finally
in the freezer
you almost lost your shit right then and there
you called Husk down to the kitchen and he walked in, picking at his fingernail before noticing you there
"hey babe, welcome home."
you crossed your arms and he noticed how pissed you look
shit
the chicken
mans went to run off, but you quickly teleported in front of him and grabbed him by the ear
"oh no you dont, mister. where do you think you're going?"
"to my room?" he tried, shrugging
"not on my watch. it looks like you're not only getting me dinner out tonight, but you'll be doing the dishes for three weeks now."
husk sighed, but agreed to your terms. he hated it when you were upset
ANGEL DUST
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omg mans is a brat
let me tell you
you wake up in the morning smiling
like so happy that you had the best sleep cuddled against this softie
and then you remember that you have a super important meeting that day
and then you ask angel in the NICEST voice "do you mind getting the dishes out of the way today, love? I have a meeting today."
he shoots you the DIRTIEST look and has the AUDACITY to say "no. im not up for that. Im tired"
and turns away from you
you poke him so hard in the back
"ANGEL!"
"what?!" but he turns to you and recognizes that expression
mans effed up
he apologizes immediately and then tells you that he'll do them
he doesnt end up doing them btw
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kaisworlds · 6 months
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SOMETHING with gaz PLEASE!! ANYTHING!! MY BOY IS STARVING!!!!
smirky face emoji
tbh idek what this is its so bad too someone help this fucking wristers block in murdering me and my unborn kids
cw: ooc gaz 😥 kissing👹 jealous kyle🤘
no one would have expected the sergent to be the one getting dicked down by the new recruit but here they are.
its only been a few months since you joined the force, constantly flirting with everyone but of course keeping in professional. not noticing the eyes watching you as you shamelessly flirt with soap listening to the cheesey pick up lines you two use on each other.
however your favourite person to make subtle advances towards is definitely sergent kyle, you could tell he liked it by the way he avoids eye contact as his cheeks deepen in color telling you how unprofessional it is. you dont do it as much anymore actually worrying for the sake of your job with how much he asks threatens to report you even though it was always empty promises.
you notice how he has been picking on you more, making you run errands like a chore boy so you decide to confront him knocking on his office door waiting for the quiet hum before walking in and standing across the desk from him.
he looks up from his paper work raising an eyebrow "yes? do you need anything?" trying to sound somewhat intimidating ignoring the way his heart picks up pace by simply being alone with you.
"no disrespect sir but i feel as though i am being treated unfairly with the distribution of chores around the base and i would like to wonder why" eyes scanning over his face, watching as he goes to rub his stubble, something he does when he is nervous, usually being yelled at by the captain but its just you two why would he be nervous.
confusion dusts your brain until it all clicks
"holy shit youre jealous arent you" kyle's eyes widen as he blinks "excuse me? what are you getting at here" his accent pushing through brutally hoping he doesnt get caught up in his small crush for you or maybe a small (huge.) part of him wants you to like him back. "im saying youre jealous of the other people i've been flirting with...and maybe even angry at me since i stopped messin 'round with you yeah?" leaning forward onto the table, he cant help up stare at how your muscles are bulging out of your shirt sleeves before replying "and what if i am its got nothing to do with how much chores you do im not petty" he keeps his eyes to the pages scattered across his desk as he feels your presence lurking around the desk until he feels a hand coming from behind resting on his shoulder "if you liked me you couldve just told me kyle" your lips are so close to his ear if he turned his head-
he couldnt even finish his thought before he felt a hand on his cheek turning his face as you plant a kiss on his lips a quick one that has him slightly chasing your lips "you know for a sergeant you're pretty desperate...going as far as to put me through manual labor just to get back at me" he shys away guilt slightly taking over him "you're cute though" he huffs before chuckling its been years since anyone called him cute
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ruinaimagines · 1 year
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I love you and I am throwing money at you mentally (drop that link if I can do it genuinely)
Can you write Dante x Reader where they're both healers but the reader is more "if you get out of bed after spraining your ankle I am wrestling you to the ground" (to compliment Dante's "PLEASE DONT HURT YOURSELF" vibes)
First of all, I love this dynamic, and second I am kicking my feet at this THANK YOU SO MUCH! My goodness, I don’t have anything special set up because I was unaware of the potential support I’d get, but if you are interested I do have an ol’ cashapp with the name $Aeroroot or VIA paypal! https://paypal.me/aeroroot?country.x=US&locale.x=en_US . I want to specify it is totally optional as I get a lot of joy solely from your enjoyment alone, but if you want to go the extra mile then I thank you especially!
Dante x Healer Reader Headcanons:
I love Dante but lord do they need this extra help. Both recovering memories from amnesia with no clue on how they got here, in charge of a group of unruly sinners who get killed practically every single mission, and going through excruciating pain every time they have to bring them back. Not pleasant!
Honestly a bit of a pushover and I say that with love. Do I blame them? No, but sometimes someone else needs to help out a little around here. And that someone happens to be you, which Dante is very grateful for, if not a little… Concerned.
You seem to be the only one aside from Sinclair maybe who pays attention to the strain that bringing people back puts on them, whenever anyone approaches them for trivial injuries you snag them into your grasp and usher them to sit down.
They look up to you a bit for your strong sense of self, and lack of fear when it comes to dragging people back into their seats no matter the complaints so you can patch them up. Some are easier and more patient than others, some are a little more rowdy (cough Heathcliff cough Ryoshu cough). Still, you seem to have no fear putting someone into a headlock so you can bandage them even if your main skill isn’t meant to be combat.
Dante has witnessed you firsthand tackle sinners to the floor who were about to be staggered with very little sense of self preservation. Despite being so determined that the people around you are in good shape, it doesn’t seem to extend to you in your mind.
Will insist that you need to be just as aware of your own quality as you do anyone else’s. Surprisingly not that afraid of scolding you, probably because they know you won’t retaliate. It’s all out of care too.
As stubborn as you are, you are very appreciated by your colleagues, even ones like Heathcliff who may complain but ultimately are thankful. You have a sense of authority without even intending to, many follow your advice because they know that you’ll just haul them back to bed.
As for your and Dante’s relationship, I can see them being initially intimidated but glad for your assistance. You even check in on them from time to time, claiming that they are as important of a patient as anyone else. They’re a bit confused because they don’t directly participate in fighting, but you reason that the pain they feel from rewinding time counts as enough of a reason to look out for them. 
They do make the mental note to just comply with you if ever they get injured themselves. Your sheer will to keep people in best condition, including the force you are willing to apply to do so, is something they do not want to reckon with.
I imagine that if they did get injured and attempted to leave, likely with the reasoning of ‘the sinners need me to bring them back’, a single glare from you would shut them up and sit them down. You tell them that they can resurrect them later, right now they are not budging.
Despite not really having a face to make expressions with you have learned to understand how they feel from body movement alone. When other sinners are pestering them to heal them back up, and you visibly see the hesitance, then you will step in. 
You don’t really see Dante as your manager (sorry bud lot.
Dante doesn’t actually know the first thing about healing. They just rewind back time and through some miasma of events everyone is back in one piece. Watching you get to work yourself is so interesting because you actually know what you’re doing. They will stare over at you to try and figure out what is going on and take little notes, like you’re teaching them.
Upon your repeatedly voiced concerns, your colleagues have learned to stop relying on Dante to fix the smallest of wounds, most of them at least. Your manager appreciates this greatly as it gives them a breather from the repeated experience.
When neither of you are busy and some questions have been brought about, Dante will come to you to ask them. It’s easy to forget that they remember almost nothing about the city or who they are, but they find that you seem to be willing to answer even the most minute of inquiries.
You are a lifesaver both literally and figuratively and they appreciate that you take some weight off their shoulders. That said, you also give them constant heart attacks by the fact you are not afraid to plunge into extreme danger to drag someone else out. Are you two exploring a building and you hear someone familiar yelling outside? You will do whatever you can to get to them quickly even if that means jumping out a two story window. It’s like a summoning call for you.
Dante is very adamant on restoring you even if you tell them not to. They see it as the least they can do when you’re so willing to sacrifice yourself not only for the sinners, but them. Your words to stop letting people walk all over them come back to bite you, because they will not take no for an answer.
Generally more comfortable in coming to you for advice considering the trust that you have gained from them. They quite literally have been thrusted into a position they know almost nothing about, and chances are if they don’t learn fast then things are about to go downhill real fast. You yourself aren’t a manager – you’re a medic, but your decisive nature is something they respect even if you can throw yourself impulsively into situations to save another. 
Considering how you put others before yourself, you likely are on the more empathetic or compassionate side too, even if it may not show in the same way that Dante’s does. Obtaining the Golden Boughs is a rigorous and emotional process for every sinner, and Dante doesn’t always know what to do. There isn’t ever one clear answer, but they may come to you for how they should approach it.
The confusing things going on in their own head never really got to be talked about until it came to you. Not always are they looking for a fix, because a lot of the time there isn’t one, but just someone to rely on.
Dante is adorable, and I think that a large reason why you care deeply for them is because of how they are like a fresh canvas, free from the city’s imposed expectations. They’re just some honest, worried person who has yet to become shut off to being vulnerable like so many have. It’s refreshing, and yes most of that is caused from memory loss, who they were beforehand is a complete mystery, but that doesn’t change who they are in the moment.
Dante likes you too because there’s a sense of special camaraderie between you two. Whether it’s because you both deal with the aftermath of battles together, or because they find you both genuine and look up to you, they often stick by your side. You both stay exhausted and overworked, but it’s not too bad because hey, you’re in it together.
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glamjrwi · 2 years
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Okay I’m making this while tired but I figure I can at least get it started and smart people can add on. if you’re here from jrwitwt first off HELLO!!! Welcome. I know there have been several posts going around saying watch your step, we do things differently here, and to get with it, that might seem a bit intimidating. So I wanted to make this non-exhaustive list of how tumblr works and HOW we do things different so you can get settled in :)
also these are just to the best of my ability and based off my time here i am by no means a standard, just a starting point
-You might’ve heard this one already but there isn’t much of an algorithm here. You can follow certain tags and blogs. The best way to find people is to just scroll through tags and check out blogs whose posts you enjoyed
-reblogging is standard. Likes are typically for letting a mutual(or anyone rlly) know you saw their post or during liveblog sessions(at least that’s how I use them) while we have replies on posts that might look like a comment section. It really isn’t most of the time. Comments are normally put in the tags of reblogs. It’s completely okay if your blog is just reblogs that’s super normal here. you don’t have to have an original thought if you don’t want to
-If you really don’t want to post/lurk and only follow ppl, change your pfp so we know you aren’t a bot. Blank blogs have a history of being bots and if we can’t tell you’re a person a lot of people will block on sight. Just fair warning
-We do a lot of blocking here. If you don’t like someone’s posts, block em and keep going. The filter tags system on tumblr really works(I’ve heard twt is fussy and not great) and most people tag things appropriately here so you Will Not see the shit you don’t want to
-TAG THINGS APPROPRIATELY PLEASE it’s a give and take. When it comes to spoilers, as long as the original poster tagged it you normally don’t have to tag it again in a reblog but you can out of courtesy
-Bonus point a lot of us use “jrwilb” as a tag when everyone is on the dash liveblogging a stream ep or just when they get around to watching it. Some people have personalized ones, and some ppl also main tag their liveblogs so it’s just a good one to know ahead of time
-People chit chat through asks frequently. You don’t have to feel shy abt it, esp if you are being friendly. But if you’re anxious a lot of people leave on anon asks so you don’t have to have your name attached
-We don’t really do callouts/negativity posts. If you see a take or headcanon you aren’t fond of going around. You can block/filter, or you can make a positivity post or post abt your own interpretation!!! A lot of people here love different takes and headcanons and try to value all of them. Again, if one squicks you really bad, filter/block it. If you really wanna complain, be sure to do it in dms or a private discord server
-our concept of what jokes are okay to post are very lax. there really isnt an official thing but i’ve tended to notice we dont really tend to do anything the council havent done. we joke abt gillion tits and eggs here because the council have done it. we have made very lewd jokes because  . . . mcs and everything else grizzly does when he’s not playing dakota. so be prepared to be jarred by how . . . interesting it gets here
Okay that’s all I can think of for now. Members of councilblr feel free to add anything smile
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daytaker · 4 months
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Hiya! I would like to request a match up with one of the Obey Me brothers? Romantically please!
I am a girl, She/Her. I have mid back strawberry blonde hair, and sea green colored eyes. I am 5'9/175cm.
I am the second oldest out of four kids. I am very kind and try to be as gentle as I can with people. I am very shy when we first meet, but once you get to know me I'm a weirdo and a goofball.
I'm not good at expressing how I feel, it makes me feel weak and most people just judge me for how I feel. I don't like giving people my opinions on things unless they ask for it, I usually try and avoid conflict as best as I can.
I love reading, fantasy and murder mysterys are my go to genres of books. I love anything involves writing, but I'm not very good at English, lmao.
I love watching Murder documentaries or Forensic files/Cold case files and Anime. I also love sports, like basketball, track, soccer, volleyball etc. I also loveee winter sports, like skiing and ice-skating. Though I'm not very good at ice skating. I also enjoy hunting and hiking and farm equipment. I adore corgis and German shepherds.
I love my family with all my heart and will do anything for them. I am not a very violent person or one to get angry quickly, I dont enjoy hurting people. But my anger is very bad and I usually walk away from the situation before it gets out of hand.
I am so sorry it's so long, I hope it's not too much! Please take your time! Thank you so much!
Absolutely! Reading through this, I think I would comfortably match you up with our adorable sixth-born and Avatar of Gluttony, Beelzebub.
He's calm, quiet, and kind-hearted. You say you're shy and have trouble opening up to people at first. Well, Beel seems like the sort of person you could sit with and not have to say much of anything, but it wouldn't feel awkward.
As someone who can come across as stoic and intimidating at first glance, Beel isn't likely to be judgmental if you put up a bit of a front. If anything, he might assume you're hungry. That's the sort of face he makes when he's thinking about when his next meal is.
It sounds like talking isn't your favorite way to communicate your feelings, and it isn't Beel's either. Physical affection and acts of service are more in line with how he expresses himself. (He tries to give gifts too, but usually the gift is food, and he tends to eat that before he can give it to anyone.) Beel seems like the sort of person who would be content just to spend time together, regardless of what you're doing.
He's also not someone who is, for lack of a better term, very needy. Asmo and Levi need constant praise and reassurances, respectively, and Mammon and Belphie are jealous and want your attention all the time. The four of them, and to a lesser extent, Satan, all require enormous stores of attention, and they tend to be selfish about it. They want to be taken care of, whether they'd admit it or not. Nothing in your profile makes me think that you'd be thrilled to push aside your own interests, family, or feelings just to accommodate a guy who, let's face it, is unlikely to give you the same level of consideration.
The main reason I don't consider Lucifer a good match is that you seem like someone who is not entirely sure of yourself; maybe dealing with a few insecurities. Lucifer is a painfully honest and sometimes prickly person who will tell you exactly how it is, and that sort of uncensored, straightforward nature would probably intimidate and upset you.
I felt Satan wasn't as good a match as Beel for a few reasons. First, although Beel doesn't always express how he feels in words, he at least tends to understand what he's feeling and why. Satan, on the other hand, overanalyzes what happens inside his head to the extent that he loses track of what his core emotions even are. Second is the temper. Obviously, Satan has one too. He'll become testy and annoyed seemingly at random. But one of the worst things in any relationship is for two people who are extremely angry to try and de-escalate each other. It's a set-up for potentially toxic dynamics. I think you and Satan could be great friends though, especially with your mutual interest in murder mysteries and crime.
When you're angry or upset, Beel is kind of the perfect choice if you want someone who won't take things personally or inadvertently escalate things more by trying to talk you down. He'd probably sit and listen quietly as you expressed yourself, wait for you to calm down, then buy you ice cream.
Oh, and I never even mentioned that, as an athlete, he'd love to spend time playing or enthusing over sports with you. Bonus perk!
So there you have it. I hope this was fun to read!
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ruthlesslistener · 1 year
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Hi! I know you are a Palewatcher shipper (if not the Palewatcher shipper) but do you have any hcs about other ships with Lurien?
(For example...Lurien X Hegemol or Lurien x his butler?)
kjsdhfgb the fact that I am known as THE palewatcher shipper is kind of a terrifying thought. i am the only one left out of the like three other people that were around when i first got into the ship. please help im so starved for content out here
ANYWAYS, I actually haven't put much thought into headcanons for other ships with Lurien! Mostly just because the way I write him heavily limits the amount of romance options available for him- he's more dedicated to the kingdom than to his romantic life, and he's also so isolated that his options just aren't there in the first place. I've briefly considered fiddling around with his past college crushes in writing exploring his relationship with romance, sex, and companionship, but that would require intentionally making an oc and I'm kind of...not great at that. OCs happen exclusively via spontaneous generation for me and no way else. I've also thought of Lurien/Grimm and Lurien/Soul Master, but neither of those pairings were romantic. The Soul Master one is a hatepairing specifically for an au involving political marriages and sabotage and the other is just for proof that you can throw Grimm together with anyone and it works
I can tell you what I think of the pairings you offered, though! even if i dont rlly have headcanons for them as much as Opinions
Lurien/Lucien (his butler): honestly not really a fan of this one, mostly just because I don't care about his butler outside of the effect he has on Lurien himself. Lucien, as I write him, is an older beetle from a large, lower-ranking aristocratic family, and he was taken on as Lurien's butler specifically because his crippling anxiety about fucking up lead to him fucking up a lot. Lurien sympathized with him deeply and hired him, and their high-strung tendencies balance each other out much like a fainting goat might calm down a racehorse. Lurien doesn't mind if Lucien messes up every once in a while, and Lucien keeps Lurien from working himself to the brink of exhaustion + social cues. They're bros :) making them into a romantic couple would kinda take away from that imo so they just don't work for me
Lurien/Hegemol: This one is new to me, since @vulturereyyy pretty much made it up themselves, but I adore it and have been slorping it up like a bowl of good ramen. I'd suggest asking them for headcanons, because they're the person who started the ship, and they have a lot of excellent takes on how their Lurien and Hegemol balance out each other's respective needs! I haven't had the brainpower to try throwing Fluffien (my Lurien) at Heg yet, but I am rotating the concept in my mind. My Lurien would very much like Hegemol- he's got a thing for men who look very tough and intimidating but are actually very driven and caring, as well as kitted out with a respectable work ethic. I just need to stop being chewed alive by biochem to figure that one out skjdhfgb
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moaserendipity · 2 years
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Love in the Air Finale messy review
The last episode is here, so without further a do let's dive in. This is going to be one hard-ass episode!
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I love this little group of friends. They are all cute and even Sig is charming. Sky is not hiding at all is he, this sweet boy is in LOVE. Rain tries to tease him but is not succeeding and I love that so much. Rain being all nosy, it’s too cute! Sky has a beautiful smile, I love it!
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OHHHHH we are getting to see Sky past, wow, wait do I really want to see what happened… like I am already dreading this😬😢 innocent Sky, being taught “wrong” things and falling for the bad boy, it’s really cliché but I would be the same I guess. Sigh such a shame this actor is very handsome…
OKAY TRIGGER WARNING COMING UP! ⚠️
Sky really was in love with Gun, that is the sad part. 😢 you wished he listened to his friends but I guess love does make blind, sadly enough. I AM SO ANGRY AT GUN, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND! 😡 HOW DARE HE ABUSE SKY LIKE THAT! Sky is literally begging him to not hurt him😡😭 GUN IS THE LOWEST AND THE MOST TRASHIEST PERSON TO WALK ON THIS PLANET, I WANT TO THROW MY CUP OF TEA AT HIS FUDGING HEAD! HOW DARE HE! I CAN NOT WATCH THIS! GUN IS SERIOUSLY LETTING HIS FRIENDS R*PE HIM!!! DISGUSTING! I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!🤬🤬🤬🤬😭😭😭😭 poor Sky😭 and only because he was bored🤬😭
Ugh Pai, please go to Sky fast, he needs you right now🥺 it will be okay Sky, it will be okay🥺 the way Pai immediately knows something is up. I love how he immediately calls it a night and runs to Sky. UGH THESE FUCKERS, GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM PAI AND NEVER TAKE SKY’S NAME INTO YOUR FUDGING MOUTH GUN!!!🤬
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See that happy smile on both their faces. I am melting everytime I see them like this🥹 see all Sky needs is love and I am happy Pai is giving him this🥹 Also hello hot kiss👀 these sweet moments are just so meaningful. Wow Pai is really cleaning Sky up, what a boyfriend, amazing, never thought we would see this in a BL. My heart is melting, these cuties🥹
Ugh, I guess the horror is starting huh. Sky shouldn’t have gone to the race🙈 awww that back hug! See that SMILE, MY HEART PEOPLE!!
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🥹 hahha yeah hurry up Pai!! Listen to Payu! I love this so much. Okay but Rain is also enjoying this new Sky🤭 Aiiii don’t let Sky go alone Rain! Jup there we go, that fucker Gun! I hate this already! Just run away Sky!! The fear on Sky’s face, please nooo I don’t like this at all!
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Ah, there we have the other fucker! I hate him as well! He r*ped Sky, I hope you will meet karma you asshole. Pai never give your key card to anyone! I mean why would you do that, let him arrange his own damn room, asshole! See Payu has his head in the right place! You don’t want to know what they are planning Pai! The way Gun is intimidating Sky right now, please can we kill this fucker already! I hate this and the fact that I can’t protect Sky at all! Stop putting doubt in his mind asshole! Ugh, the way you can tell Gun is suddenly interested again now that Sky isn’t broken anymore! I hate this!!
Yes Sky, Pai isn’t like that, please never believe anything that asshole is saying. I love how worried Rain is but he shouldn’t have listened to that damn “guard” and he shouldn’t have left Sky even though he said it was okay! I am already holding on to my heart because I know this is going to be heartbreaking and I know I will be angry as hell!
TRIGGER WARNING PART 2⚠️
GOD RUN SKY😭 NOOOOOO DONT DO THIS TO SKY!! KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF OF HIM!! Fucking GUN ASSHOLE! I HATE THIS MAN SO SO MUCH! THE WAY HE IS BRAINWASHING SKY LIKE THAT! Just don’t believe anything he says Sky, please! Pai will come to rescue you. Stop touching him! I WANT TO THROW SOMETHING AT HIS HEAD!! This trashy lowlife of a guy I hate him so much, I really want him to hurt so badly! STOP BRAINWASHING HIM!! IT'S TOO MUCH! STOP IT, JEEZ!! Please don’t r*pe him, just please! You are going to be dead meat asshole! (I'm sorry I just went through this, this is my genuine reaction)
Oh I really thought he didn’t even go to Payu but Rain did. Both are worried. There we go, save your man Pai, please save him!! Wow fucking asshole really trying to pin this on Sky as if he will believe you asshole! Sky is in shock😭 do you hear that, that’s the sound of my heart breaking… this poor boy. Yeah Rain please watch over him🥺
PLEASE HURT HIM GOOD! AHH PAYU I GET IT BUT DAMNNNN!
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Sky went into shock I think. Please get through to him! Just cry Sky, just cry. Ugh Pai crying for him, I am sobbing right now, my heart is crying for both of them but especially for Sky. Please protect him forever Pai! He deserves to be loved and cherished his entire life. You are safe with Pai, Sky! Just cry it’s okay!
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Oh, he is taking him home. He is finally telling PAI what happened and my heart hasn’t stopped crying but here we go again. The way Pai started to cry when he told him what happened to him when he was with Gun, I can not even imagine the pain Pai must’ve felt at that moment but I love how pure his love for Sky is. Sky you are not trash, damaged goods, or worthless!!!!!! You are the most precious boy in the world. The fact that he couldn’t do anything for Sky during that time, you can see it killed him inside.
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Thank god they found each other when they needed each other the most. I do love he isn’t making promises but just tell him that he will show him with actions, that’s the only way. Hugs make so much good in the world.
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I think this is the best ending so far. The way they love each other, Sky finally got his happy ending. I am in tears yes thank you Pai for saving our Sky! These smiles! I love this ending so much😭
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“to win a stony heart, You must use your own” and that’s how we end this review.
Final Shoutout;
I must say this episode made me angry like I had to pause it so many times, to just calm down. I really have to give props to the actor that played Gun because istg I hate him, so I guess job well done! Also, I have to praise Peat for the way he took on Sky, he was perfect! The way my heart cried for him, smiled with him, and well you know didn’t mind the hot scenes🤭 and then Fort, our emotional sweetheart of a “player” I love how he poured his heart into Prapai, he was amazing!
Now as for Boss and Noeul, they won my entire heart, which at this point isn’t a secret. I loved how Boss portrayed the mature but also teasing Payu, he suited that part amazingly, and then Noeul. The way he made me fall in love with Rain instantly, is just really an achievement. The way he portrayed the feisty, cute, and a little bit dumb/innocent Rain was brilliant. So thank you to the actors for stealing my heart and now I am just going to be sad every Thursday because what now😭
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MOVIE NIGHT
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Eddie munson × reader
I got this prompt idea from @just-plenty-of-prompts and i thought it would be the cutest fic for eddie munson x reader.
Prompt: i dont care of its 2am. I'm lonely. Come watch a movie .
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Hawkins gets boring at times. It's the same faces you see everyday, the same interactions, the same places to eat and the same old dramas. These days the talk of the town is the romance igniting between robin Buckley and nancy wheeler. Most of us saw it coming. Not the parents. Steve the hair harrington was betting on it for a week but why wouldn't he be? He's robins bestfriend. Totally platonic.
I'm in the hellfire club which by the way all of the town thinks is a demonic cult. So we're basically the freaks of the town. By we I mean me and Eddie munson plus the rest of the gang.
"Hey freak!" I roll my eyes and flip jason off. I don't get how chrissy puts up with his existence everyday.
Great another unbearable day at school and going home really isn't fun either. Eight hours of listening to boring lectures and watching jason practically piss everywhere to mark his territory.
The movie store. That sounds like a good idea. They have everything. Eddie didn't attend school today. He's so getting his ass kicked by me. He cannot just ditch me at school.
"Hey guys!" I say as I ring the bell "Anyone available?"
I look around for movies. The store seems empty. Robin and nance are probably making out in the back room. It won't be much of a surprise.
"Oh hey y/n" Robin stumbles over to me.
"Hey. I was just looking for movies."
"Cool. I was just..erm..well I.. did you know that monkeys ride on their mother's back?" She blabbers.
"No I didn't." I smile at her.
"Now you do" she chuckles nervously.
"Well I'll just get this."
Working part time is important. I live alone. No parents. No siblings. I have to provide for myself. The school helps out financially for my school stuff but that won't get me too college. The mall is annoying. Working there is even more annoying. Boss makes me stay extra hours to cover other shifts that don't belong to me. Eddie didn't show up to work either. I had to cover for his shift. He owes me big time.
"Im taking off now." I shout.
"Alright. See you tommorow. Make sure munson shows up too."
"Will do."
I lay in bed. Its boring here. I have no friends. Its hard to make them honestly plus everyone is intimidating except for mike and his group they're cute kids and their nerds.
"Pick up." I call him again.
"Stop. Calling. Me." He hangs up. How dare he hang up on me.
I call him again and again.
"It's 2 in the morning." He groans
"Oh is it?" Wanna watch a movie?"
He sighs, "It's 2 am y/n. No i don't."
"I don't care if its 2 am. I'm lonely. Come watch a movie."
"Ugh fine. Please await my arrival."
"Awaiting. Get your ass here quickly. You owe me."
I hang up. I move to the kitchen to make some snacks. I'm out of everything. Eddie must've fed them to the kids he brings over. Not in a creepy way. Sometimes its as if him and Steve have opened a babysitting club. A knock on the door. He better have gotten snacks.
"Please tell me you got snacks."
"I missed you too." He rolls his eyes and then holds up a bag. I hug him.
"Yes you're a life saver."
"So what are we watching. Ms. Lonely"
I stick my tongue out at him.
"Top gun or The karate kid."
"Top gun. It has better music."
"Done. You better show your ass at work and school tommorow."
"Yes ma'am. Now come on."
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Everyday i spend a minute mourning him. He better show up in s5. Anyways this was a very spontaneous one. Hope you like it. Requests are open by the way so feel free <3
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lillotus17 · 1 year
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NCT MARVEL AU
okay so like a couple months ago I posted that I really wanted to write an NCT MARVEL AU FF... I might have deleted it I honestly cant remember I also added other SM ARTIST as side/extra/antagonist characters in the plot and right now im currently debating if i wanna find more Marvel characters that I think fit Shohei, Eunseok, and Seunghan.. idk lmk. im still working on the first few chapters and the moodboards of all the characters but it's going to take a while and i've been working very slowly since i am currently in school and have a part time job because in this economy... oof a girl's really struggling. anyways here is a small draft (with no mood board sorry im still woking on it :( ) of which MARVEL Characters the NCT members are going to be portraying
Playlist: Villian by Key ft. JENO | Hero by Martin Garrix and JVKE | Wish you were here by SUPERM | more to be added!
Lee Taeyong as Captain Marvel (Carol Danvers)
okay so i actually considered Iron Man, Falcon, Captain America, and gamora in mind for Taeyong but Iron Man matched johnny a bit more because of his personality and jaehyun suited captain america more imo
taeyong still fits a character with a strong leadership role, cus i mean cmon NCT tired dad/leader-nim
Carol Danvers/Captain Marvel is just tryna fit in and find herself/remember who she is and she finds out that she's a super powerfull highkey baddie and HELLO? Taeyong is that
she has a strong and emotional sense of leadership, willingness to help and protect others and like come on is that not tayeong???
she's (one of) the first avengers and asdfghjkl;
so yeah
carol danvers is a baddie
taeyong is a baddie
pErIoDt
Moon Taeil as Moon Knight (Marc Spector)
okay so like
this kinda just clicked? lmaoo i feel bad- well more like a geek but like MOON Taeil and MOONknight
i finished watching the MoonKnight series on Disney+ a while ago and loikeeee
Marc Spector is a hot SOB
steven grant asdfghjkl; dont get me started
oki tho im like lowkey debating if I want to include Marc's multiple personality but like he's not Moonknight with out steven soooo
might add a little twist to it
but Taeil gives me more Steven Grant vibes than Marc Spector ngl
he's a lil nervous anxious dork yknow?
did consider falcon and war machine for taeil though..
like tony and rhode's relatinship screams johnny and taeil LMFAOO
idk might make some changes...
Seo Youngho/Johnny Suh as Iron Man (Tony Stark)
cocky lil shit and a sexy ass mf
like tell me it doesn't make sense?
homie just wants to spend money and build suits
smart, hot, and rich? yes please
his wit and smart mouth
like imagine johnny "Jae (Cap) you've got a potty mouth"
tony has a heart(?)- there's proof LMFAOO
his sense of humor just screams johnny
had star lord (peter quill) in mind for him too
Nakamoto Yuta as Winter Soldier (James Buchanan "Bucky" Barnes)
one intimidating bitch
but a highkey softie
gonna kick ur ass if u fuck with him or anyone he cares about
highkey mysterious
did consider hawkeye, war machine, and falcon for him tho
also considering changes in characters lmk what yall think too!
Qian Kun as Dr. Strange (Stephen Strange)
man can fly a plane
lmaoo sorry that literally has nothing to do with him being a doctor but tell me why in every goddamn MAFIA AU i read, he's the medic
his relationship with yangyang and ten remind me of dr. strange and wong lmfaoooo
lowkey a perfectionist/perfect man asdfghjkl
Kim Dongyoung/Doyoung as Dare Devil (Matt Murdock)
had hawkeye, war machine, and falcon in mind for him
war machine cause of his sense of duty and seriousness- and his relationship with johnny also reminds me of tony and rhodes
also thought about making him nebula (and falcon) cus of his relationship with taeyong
anyways matt murdock is a hot mf
a lawyer? yes please
doyoung likes to argue cus cmon 127 is always on his ass for no reason headahhh lmfaooo
ngl thought there were a lot a members and i did put some thought into this and he matched daredevil best imo
Li Yongqin/Ten as Black Widow (Natasha Romanoff)
bad bitch right here
assassin, bad bitch
have you seen the way he moves?
have you seen the way she moves?
no words, no explanation, it just is and it just makes sense
like fr let's argue
IM JP don't come at me
had hawkeye in mind for him too
Jung Yoonoh/Jaehyun as Captain America (Steve Rogers)
america's ass
like cmon manz representative emoji is a peach
can't really put my finger on it either
like maybe it the masculinity (not meant negatively tho!) and altruism in the both of them(?)
both hot as fuck for no reason
other characters that i think suited him were falcon, winter soldier, (kind of) hawkeye, and black panther
Dong Sicheng/Winwin as Hawkeye (Clint Barton)
oki so i did have black widow in mind for him
and if im being honest it was kind of hard to settle with hawkeye for him
winwin is someone is focused and serious much like clint barton
i mean cmon man was a dancer and that shit takes dedication and patience
like learning how to use a bow and arrow
also had vision in mind for him too
when i first started to get into NCT winwin kind of came off as a timid person, and he's not really affectionate so it kind of screamed vision vibes
Kim Jungwoo as Quick Silver (Pietro Maximoff)
his cute lil personality
"bet you didn't see that coming?" ackkkk
is a caring sweetheart
like pietro wants nothing but for his sister to be happy and protected
jungwoo makes his members happy
Wong Yukhei/Lucas as Thor
okay so like NCT 2018 Halloween special kind of took over
personality wise, lucas and thor are kind similar(?)
like their sense of humor
thor is lowkey the most laid back avenger despite being a prince
and most of the time i can't take lucas seriously
also another character i was kinda of iffy unsure about
idk maybe its just me but lucas seems like the type that would shy away from responsibilities and his asgard duties as king for something more chill
then again thor did do that soooo...
Lee Minhyung/Mark Lee as Spider-Man (Peter Parker)
do i even need to explain?
lmaoo oki so like i was reading a post about how some people don't like mark
which i lowkey found hard to believe but then it made sense
like no disrespect
anyways I do believe mark is a hard working person and he does try to be humble about it but like also its okay to bathe in the glory and be shameless- then again easier said than done, again no disrespect- i love mork
pure hearted and true to himself
much like peter parker
Xiao Dejun/Xiaojun as Shang Chi (Shaun)
lmaoo man is 1/3 of wayv's walking meme group
every time im on tiktok lmfaoooo
lmao i guess the way i picked theses characters to match the members is based on the relationship the members have soo
lmaoo shaun's relationship with katie reminds me of luxiaodery (is that the correct name for them?... wayv 99 liners)
again hot asf
like imagine xiaojun in the bus fighting scene
Wong Kunhang/Hendery as Ant Man (Scott Lang)
also 1/3 of wayv's walking meme group
man is fxcking hilarious
another "do i even need to explain?"
just makes sense
lmaooo well actually i did consider Star Lord for him
Huang Renjun as Yelena Belova
okay so hear me out
i though of gamora or nebula for him too
lmao he's a tiny lil agressive man
ready to bite at any moment
very deadly
snarky (<< affectionate) and witty like Yelena
"i don't get my period dip shit. i don't have a uterus" *said with a russian (chinese) accent and the fact the renjun doesn't have a uterus*
like that line screams renjun lmfao
Lee Jeno as Black Panther (T'Challa)
RIP to Chadwick Boseman
anyways
when mark graduated from dream *sad noises*
jeno gave me hard leadership vibes
like he filled the role so well without actually filling it
and i've noticed how popular he's become lately with all these stage collabs with other idols
prince king jeno
nice ring to it ;)
sense of what is feels right and does what he believes is right
wants to do well for himself and his members
did consider him for hawkeye and falcon
Lee Donhyuck/Haechan as Scarlet Witch (Wanda Maximoff)
sassy lil birchhh
haechan is a very caring person and althoug sometimes it seems like he's acting a certain way to hide his feelings i do believe he is very emotionally inteliegent- however he is kind of impulsive (emotionally)
reminds me of wanda
powerful bitch, like hello vocals?
fight with so much effort and purpose
needs support and is his members number one supporter
Na Jaemin as Falcon (Sam Wilson)
oki so like
this was also a toughy
consider hawkeye, black panther, winter soldier, dare devil, war machine, and a bunch of other... also docor strange cus mans wanted to be a surgeon if he wasn't an idol lmaooo
but tbh no characters really ever stuck with me for jaemin
he's lowkey someone is doesn't gaf and doesn't want to be here but still knows how to have a good time or make up for time
serious and yet isn't
loyal and supportive to his members
Liu YangYang as Kate Bishop
lmaoo renyang and kate and yelena vibes
like "bro what if i killed you, (renjun/yelena)?"
but like he didn't soo???
lmaooo curious and nosy
liek sticks his nose into everyone's business
whether its for funsies or a mission
but he does well in getting whatever information he needs
gave me loki vibes tho
Osaki Shotaro as Vision
he's so cute ackkk
kind of came off as an awkward lil bean to be but i think that was just because of the language barrier with the other members
but it also a reason why i thought he was a good fit to portray vision
cus they're bother still learning
not afraid to ask questions
supportive and kind of goes along with things
a bit naive and questions his morals or rights and wrongs
fast learner imo
Jung Sungchan as War Machine (James Rhodes)
okai so like
idky but i though he would have been a good match for star lord
kind still iffy ish because is he young and although this is a ff i fell like he would have matched a younger role/character
also thought he would have been a good fit for shuri
can't really say much
i feel bad cus this is a bit more of a last pick
i really did want him to have a character that was more interactive with shotaro since that are really close
also thought of a cloak and dagger duo for sungtaro
again might make dome changes so lmk yall's opinion
like im tryna take this seriously and make it make sense but also im not cus again this is for funsies
Zhong Chenle as Loki
again, im sorry but another "do i even need to explain?"
boy is hella mischievous with that lil smirk he always has
when he messes around with his members, esp jisung
lmao poor jisung
like "oh yall need an illusionist you say? no problem lessgo fuck around with some bad guys"
i know he's supposed to be a lowkey two-faced, flippity floppity bad guy but idc im making him good
cus deep down loki does have a good heart
Park Jisung as Shuri
hear me out
i know he doesn't seem like the brightest but like he really is
and i know yall agree because hacker!jisung?
yeah, that's what i thought bro
considered vison for him too
and kate bishop
and groot- well like a modified hybrid version of him
big brother jeno and little brother jisung duo
yeah
just yeah
periodt
Shohei, Eunseok, and Seunghan
okay so like
im not really sure what marvel characters suit them best
im tryna stray from X-men charcters
but idk might have to make some changes
js that haechan might justbe switched to deadpool cus cmon
and as i was writing this i had a bunch of second thoughts about with members were portraying which characters
im a bit of a perfectionist as you can see
Anyways! thanks for reading this and please feedback is and will always be appreciated! again i apologized for my pace! i am currently on winter break but im working so i haven't had much time to write anything :(.
anyways comment and reblog if you wanna see what i have in mind for other SM Artist and who they'll be portraying!
-lotus
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trigger warning: scary sexual situation and nondescript discussion of cptsd relating to history of child sexual trauma
seeking advice, validation, resources, but advice most
nickname/word to tag my ask for finding them more easily: toadstool 🍄

i’m a freshman at college and i’m really struggling with something that happened a couple nights ago. i have cptsd and part of that trauma i had was childhood sexual trauma in various differeny forms/ways. (i am a nonbinary trans person my roommate is a cis guy, which is the same as the people in my past who hurt me in the way i mentioned above.) my roommate masturbated while i was awake and in the same room not even five feet away from him, and he knew i was awake, he just thought i couldn’t/wouldn’t see him. i immediately went into survival mode and froze, tensed and ready to defend myself, waiting for him to be done so i could flee the room. he didnt notice i saw what he was doing, and in the end i was too scared to move and flee the room. i am even more terrified now than originally. this triggered me immensley and ive been avoiding him and my room since, literally only going in when i absolutely have to which is hard for showering, laundry, sleeping especially, etc. before this, i wasn’t sleeping much at all due to distrust and fear from cptsd. now im sleeping even less, which is very negatively affecting me. its been really hard, i keep getting flashbacks to my childhood. its definitely bringing up my history of trauma. but idk what to call this. creepy? sexual harassment? something worse? we are both young adults but adults all the same, so even though i feel violated and scared (he is bigger and stronger, i am also physically disabled), i dont really know what i can categorize this as, what resources i can use, what i can do in general to cope. i have essentially been in survival mode and fight/flight/freeze/fawn since. i really need support but idk where i can go, what to call this (i have autism so my brain thinks categorically and that is part of what i need to process anything.) i know this has activated past traumas but idk if it counts as trauma on its own, or even what to call it. i also cant tell what is an overreaction from my cptsd and what is a normal reaction to something like this.
Hi anon,
I'm sorry to hear about what happened. Especially given your past experiences, it makes sense why this was such a distressing moment for you, and made you fear your roommate. While this wouldn't count as sexual harassment, you're still allowed to feel traumatized and distressed by what happened.
Please know that you're not alone. I had a somewhat similar experience where I was cuddling with a guy I hooked up with and he got a boner and I got so scared that I couldn't move (also a CSA survivor). I decided to talk to him about it afterwards and he was surprisingly apologetic and understanding.
It may be helpful to have a direct and honest conversation with your roommate about your discomfort and explore potential solutions together, like finding certain times he can do this that work for both of you. However, I completely understand if the idea of having this kind of conversation is intimidating or may not feel practical considering your relationship with him. Ultimately, it may be best to look into getting a different roommate if that interests you.
Depending on what kinds of accommodations your school has, they may include counseling in tuition. If you can access or afford it, a mental health professional such as a therapist could help you process this experience, heal from your previous trauma, explore potential solutions to this situation, and give you some helpful coping mechanisms that you can take with you.
If anyone has any comments or suggestions, feel free to add on. Otherwise, I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.
-Bun
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I will not take weird comments about wanting to see my feet or something like really personal about you, if you want to vent you can do it in asks or dm's i dont mind.
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The fucking internet has been out since yesterday morning AGAIN, my little brother's drunk girlfriend broke his car's windshield with her fist last night and I had to tell her that I like her but she better not put hands on my little brother ever again, I'm running low on my anti-anxiety medication, and goddamn but I didn't sleep last night.
How the hell did ya'lls thanksgivings go? :x
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#no fights at my aunt's but boooooy was i dealing with the thing when we all came home x_x#im just exhausted#my little brother loves his girlfriend and shes super sweet otherwise but i told her she cant drink anymore#brain injuries and alcohol dont mix. she feels HORRIBLE but like most abusers do and i had to explain this to my little brother#it REALLY sucks working with battered women and you see it flipped but my little brother wants to 'be a man' and just take it#its like dude no. if we switched this and YOU had given HER the bloody lip then youd be in jail so fucking fast#we dont excuse abuse and i REALLY dont wanna have to beat the shit out of her one of these times cuz she is a sweetie otherwise#the worst is HER parents ignoring it. MY parents ignoring it. and my brother just taking it cuz thats not who she is#no one wants to 'get involved' or 'be nosey' but im not standing by and letting anyone be abused#the joke is i was telling my little brother like DUDE i am a BARTENDER with domestic abuse training like PLEASE have respect for yourself#dont let her drink anymore. weed is fine if she wants to get 'intoxicated' it effecfts parts of the brain differently but no more booze#im just like... frustrated and tired and i dont think my parents know yet or theyd probably say to 'let them work it out'#this is not one of those situations. and i need to figure out how to have that conversation with sober her in a productive way#i know she likes and is intimidated by me and if shes eventually#gonna be part of thisfamily like we gotta put a stop to her drinking since it messes with her brain injury and put support#i got training in this but its a mind fuck to actually use it on my own family x_x
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