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Brian Greig on the 'disinviting' of NSW Police

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Brian Greig on the 'disinviting' of NSW Police

Former federal senator and veteran LGBTI advocate Brian Greig on the ‘disinviting’ of NSW Police from the Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras Parade.

For those who don’t live in Sydney, yesterday’s announcement that NSW police will be barred from marching in the Mardi Gras this year must seem baffling.

How does the tragic murder of Jesse Baird and Luke Davies justify the Mardi Gras Board in “disinviting” the police contingent? Are police responsible for the murder? Was this a hate crime?

No.

Historical hate crimes

There are deeper issues here to be sure. A recent inquiry into historical hate crimes against LGBTI people in NSW uncovered some ugly truths and illustrated some police obfuscation in coming forward with details.

But this doesn’t explain the emotional reaction to these murders and the Mardi Gras ruling.

These deaths have caused a visceral reaction because they shatter the narrative. The Sydney-bubble narrative that it is a utopia for gays, where you can be young, beautiful, successful,

Instagramable, in love and blissfully happy.

These murders killed that Bambi.

These murders reminded everyone that it can all be stripped away suddenly. That the illusion is shallow.

That for all the attitudinal changes and law reforms, the Sydney model of delirious gaydom can be torn down in seconds. That your very safety and security is just a borrowed gun away. And it hides on the smile of a young lover, who himself was part of the Sydney dream as an out gay cop.

Worst anti-LGBTI laws in the country

NSW has the worst anti-LGBTI laws in the country. Despite all the Mardi Gras hype and World Pride bullshit, LGBTI people in NSW largely have the weakest legal protection (or no protections), in the country. It is not a gay utopia, it’s a basket case. Posthumous poster boys like Jesse and Luke can no longer hide that.

As the plebiscite on marriage quality showed, NSW produced the deepest NO vote in the greatest number of seats. It has the most anti-gay clerics and MPs within both the Liberal and Labor parties.

Even the inquiry into hate crimes was itself a deflection from deeply needed law reform in other areas.

But the core problem in NSW, within the LGBTI elites who control and manipulate inner city politics, is that they are so often compromised by government funding and political connections to the ALP that they cannot or will not speak out.

Instead, they involve themselves in the creative inertia of inquiries, research and surveys into LGBTI discrimination. Anything other than a concerted campaign on law reform – that would require putting real critical pressure on the government. They won’t do it.

So within this pressure cooker of anger, frustration, disillusionment, inaction and distraction, how does the Sydney LGBTI community express outrage over chronic, systemic discrimination?

It blames the police.

LGBTI domestic violence

Sadly, the underlying story here – one of LGBTI domestic violence – is lost in the howls of pain and anguish from the LGBTI community trying to make sense of all this but looking in the wrong direction.

If there is anything positive to salvage from this tragic tale, it’s these two things.

1.) Same-sex couples can and do experience domestic violence, and just like other forms of DV, can be very reluctant to come forward. Often for understandable reasons. These tragic murders must be used to highlight this, and look to solutions.

2.) Substantive law reform is required in NSW across a range of LGBTI fronts, and both the LGBTI community and the state Labor government must confront this.

As for the police in Mardi Gras, I think they should march. We must build bridges with the various arms of government, not burn them down. If nothing else, we owe that to the many LGBTI police officers who are there to make a difference. And they can. If there is no engagement, there is no progress.

And on this, parliament must lead.

In the meantime, the Mardi Gras Board might be wise to capitalise on the media intensity around this issue and ensure that the very first float to move down Oxford Street this Saturday is one that draws attention to domestic violence. Not just in our community, but all communities.

Police find bodies of couple Jesse Baird and Luke Davies.

NSW Police uninvited from Sydney Mardi Gras parade.

Manhunt for missing couple Jesse Baird and Luke Davies

Beau Lamarre-Condon charged with couple’s murder

1800RESPECT is the national domestic, family and sexual violence counselling, information and support service.

If you or someone you know is experiencing, or at risk of experiencing, domestic, family or sexual violence, call 1800RESPECT on 1800 737 732. Chat online via their website, or text 0458 737 732.

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#sydney gay and lesbian mardi gras

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saspas-story-nook · 2 years

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Day 6-9

I've been sitting on this for a couple of days. It's a memory that I don't think I'll ever forget, as much as I wish I could.

I was watching a TV show with my dad and sister in April, 2020. I remember this because we were in lockdown, and didn't need to get up early for school, so we'd stay up watching stuff.

But back to the story. I had told my sister and dad to start the show without me, because I was finishing up some homework. When I came out to the living room, the scene they were on had two girls in a car, and they started kissing.

At this point in my life, I'd been secretly learning about the LGBTQ+ community for about three years, and was fairly desensitized to the concept of same-sex couples.

I'd never really looked homophobia in the face until my dad said, "Ew, gross. That's disgusting." And skipped the bit.

It was at that moment I knew that if I ever realized I was queer, I would not be safe to come out to my dad.

Guess what?

I ended up figuring out that I'm abrosexual. My parents don't know about the gay and lesbian friends I had in high school, or the transmasc freshman I adopted on my HS swim team. They don't know about the one-sided crush (that has since faded) I had on a close same-sex friend, and they don't know about the time I confessed to said friend. They don't know that I'd come out to one of my school counselors-granted, I'd blurted it out to him while talking about an altercation, and immediately burst into tears, begging him not to tell anyone (especially my parents). They don't know about the queer media I've inhaled in secret because I knew they wouldn't take it well in the slightest. They don't know about the countless nights I've spent CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP knowing that I don't and will never feel safe enough to come out to them. They don't know about the guilt I've looped myself in, thinking about how all they want is for me to be safe and happy, and imagining coming out to them and screaming how scared I've been for LITERAL FUCKING YEARS to come out, and thinking about how heartbroken they'd be, knowing that they brought that upon all that grief and mental anguish on one of their kids.

I can never participate in pride month. I can never be truly open with my parents. I can never tell them the truth, for their own sake. But unfortunately, that means I am stuck, caught between destroying the people who have given me everything, and destroying my very being.

As long as I am dependent on my parents, I am stuck.

This is the inside of too many queer kids' heads.

#saspa's nook #storytober #personal stories #homophobia #queer community #queer stories #sad truth #lgbtq #lgbt representation

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alphaofdarkness · 3 years

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not me here for the oc ask ! can't wait to answer the ones you asked me, tomorrow i have my exam and then i shall live again haha ! but now i'll ask you 1, 2, 17, 18, 19, 20 and 31 — i know, it is a lot ( you don't have to do them all 💕) , but i really want to know something more about your wonderful babies and Dany ofc ! I missed her sm during this semi-hiatus 🤧💕💕💕 hope you're doing fine, sending you lots of love 💞💕💘

@carmenio Edgy!! 🥺 so happy to hear from you! ✨ I love these kinds of asks, especially on my many, many OC babies! I hope these answers are good and interesting to thee! I’ll present more info on Dany to some way, some how cause I love her 😭💖

I have gone and included the other questions you asked as well! 🤗 Let’s dive in! 😳

1. Gone and Answered Here ! UwU

2. Do you have a personal favorite among your OCs?

Personal favorite is often shown in the one I draw the most lol, which for a long time was Danielle LWW, but just because she was also my wolfsona at the time. After I made my own personal one I think I went onto Sam for a good while, also eventually going to Dany from Bsd!

So a tie between two beautiful girls, Sam is definitely my favorite LWW Oc, she is just precious and the one I hold the most and most always feel terrible and bad when I put her through it TM.

Also Dany is my self insert, U//w//U, she has definitely allowed me to slowly self love and allow me to appreciate myself, especially the parts of me I didn’t think to much about or consider so appealing, I think? She has definitely been changing gradually into more of myself since I first came up with her almost 2 years ago! Watch me slowly knock her down to my height of 4′9″, let her have her 3 inches for another year maybe lol.

My dearest Atsushi agrees lol ✨🐯

17. Any OC OTPs?

👀 lol yesss~ so many and so many crack ships too, which I'll answer next 😂

I’ll just go on and list them off, plenty more of them but~:

DanyJay

SoraYama

LidiaTom

AlikLucy

IsabelleKayla

AlexanderIsabelle

DarkwolfmonJatomon

JatamonRaiwolfmon

EarthamonHounmon

HumaamonWolverimon

And lastly TakaSam is the one I have definitely drawn and thought of the most! They are the top OTP and just best trope of Childhood Friends to Lovers trope, also filling in that trope of Oblivious to both of them but everyone else 🙄. While SoraYama may have been the OG Couple in my story, my love and warmth for TakaSam is unmatched TwT.

It is wild cause I always draw anguish between them as could-have-been-lovers-had-it-not-been-for-death, but recently been drawing them purely happy and content. Total sweethearts, the love everyone wants, excluding possibility of being old friends or not!

18. Any OC crackships?

L o l, I never seem to focus on the main couples because of this specific thing.

I’ll again just go off in list an maybe add a trope or something to get an idea of them:

DanyYama: Rivals, Constantly arguing, and can be petty as heck, but oh the potential and just possibility of opening up after the traumaTM 👀 also the couple that is always in your face about being in a relationship.

DanySora: Sparing partners, the sass and stubbornness, BiPan solidarity 👀

DanyLidia: Pure, wholesome, best friends and so much hugging and lifting from the tol to smol, the nature love vibes

SamJay: Wholesome, soft, healing together from traumaTM, protectiveness, also their Digimon were lovers and married in their previous life, what does that make us? 😳

SamDany: Mostly sibling-like relationship, but damn they have that Sun and Moon tropes?! How can you not possibly ship them!

SamLula: Shy and Confident, Bisexual/Lesbian solidarity 💕✨

JaySora: Opposite of the DanyYama tropes, why are our partners constantly arguing, can they please stop, pure and soft together.

DanyTaka: Digimon Au specifically, Oh you and I are the voice of the revolution? We are rallying up the troops together? Oh boi my Digimon feels love for yours, am I falling for you or are we falling together? Depression buddies but also each others hope and spirit boost ;;w;;

Any of the Warriors with the Sins: A whole lo t of mess, and just not healthy ... but I can already seen fandom people sayin g otherwise~

LustWrath: Spicy, no strings attached kind of deal.

WrathEnvy: ...Oof um, not healthy, kind of manipulative, we are devils there is nothing but toxic vibes.

PrideWrath: Rulers, King and Queen vibes, Yeah we are toxic for each other, f*** off.

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

Definitely Darkwolfmon! I am sure I explained in the first question why, but again I consider her to be that other half of me, the part of me I never discovered or the parts that essentially fill in the gaps within me. She is my precious partner Digimon and has honestly come a long, long way since I first created her. I believe sometime in 2009-2010, so almost 11-12 years since. She was the first ever OC of mine and is one I hold closest too in my heart.

For the longest time, even too now, I have always wanted her to just manifest at my side. Go on this journey of life together. While she might not be physically here like my child-self would want, she is still in my stories, my imagination, my inspirational drive. I think that is definitely more than enough, I don't know where or who I would be without having created her. I probably wouldn’t have a whole tale of OC’s and stories to tell if it wasn't for her.

I am more than grateful and thankful that I am who I am because of this lovely Oc of mine. I can only hope to have her at my side for the rest of my days!

20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

Most, if not all, my OC’s can sing! Their voices and tones vary, to which I cannot give a straight answer on how I headcanon most of their voices right now ^^; I will say that Danielle has a British accent to her voice as well as Spanish speak, and Sora has a Russian accent to her voice, so may be just lightly deep, but not to much.

I will definitely go with my Bsd Oc/Self Insert Danielle Mika Mason, however! Because I have gone and done a thing on how she would speak in her Japanese and English Dub! Other than me also being her voice, her Japanese VA would be Yui Ishikawa, same VA of the queen herself, Mikasa 💕 English VA would be Barrett Wilbert Weed, with an English accent, good Veronica from the Heathers! You can have a listen to her here in this post!

Dany is meek when it comes to her singing, she will often be caught humming and softly singing something, but quickly tends to stop around others. She is often back and forth with how she sounds and often shuts down when she hears someone she considers better than her. She just needs some encouragement and a gentle push from someone she really cares about. When she does feel the push and genuineness from someone she will sing her heart out. But of course prefers to sing for only that one special person~ can ya guess~ 🐯

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really).

Oh boi! I literally have moodboards to add to this! I pick Samantha, or Sam!

She would totes have a Tumblr blog, and Instagram! You always look forward to see what she post and just feel an instant calmness and warmth when you see it! She is always tagging her things appropriately, a soft and warm spring like layout that is shades of yellows, golds, orange, white; an occasional blue and teal as well! She would reblog anything of her aesthetic, golds, yellows, dance and ballet related things (may even post videos or poses of herself in practice and dance related things), cafe shops, sweets and desserts, warm night lights, cats, lots and lots of cats and felines of all shapes and sizes! Her best friend/boyfriend, Takaru always cameos in her stories and posts 💖

She would also reblog or spread awareness of any issues happening in the world, marking them and making her own voice heard as well. In spur moments, you may see her not tag things, but will likely go back to name things accordingly. She would also reblog anything of Bi Pride too!

28. Your most dangerous OC?

Hmmm,,, my most dangerous Oc, I am taking the notion that they are just plain dangerous and likely of evil intent in their actions. Because plenty of my Oc’s on their own are dangerous in their own right, such as the Legendary Wolf Warriors, who have a great power at their paws. They can be destructive in their actions if they lose control or use it for the wrong intentions, which they wouldn't do of their free will.

I will say Danielle and Sam are the strongest of the seven, because of their powers of Darkness and Light, respectively. Their souls created the others, so the other Warrior’s power does not match theirs. They can definitely be lethal together if used for the wrong reasons or if they are under the control of a Human or Deadly Sin.

Which leads me to say that the most dangerous of my OC’s with the worst intentions and evil thought processes that makes them dangerous is likely the Deadly Soul Sin Pride, or Mikka Penelope King/Pride as her solid name goes.

She is definitely the most sinister of the seven sins, even worse than Wrath, who you may figure would be the worst. She has a calculating mind and is very precise in her actions and ways of manipulation. She has a poison within her veins that is just as deadly, capable of blinding others or even killing without remorse or care. While she may be a ghost like entity in my stories, a person/digimon holder in my Digimon College Au, she has enough power to influence people to fall under pride and vanity in the most dangerous level possible, heck even possess them if she wishes. That makes her stronger, as well as the other sins. Does not matter if she is dead or fades away for a while, her influence remains and if it does, than she can exist for a long as she desires.

48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure

Lol I saw cinnamon roll and instantly had a list of ocs ready, honestly any child OC I have is instantly a cinnamon roll and to good and put for this world, please treat them all kindly!

Current top Oc’s that come to mind are Haruko Mason-Nakajima, along with their nameless sister/pup! They are the sweetest babies ever and love them so much. Too good and pure, especially nameless pup with her love for tigers; she wants to grow up and be like her sibling and papa 🥺🥰 You can see the post on them here!

Next up is my precious flamey boi named Alik Azure Mizuhara! A next gen. LWW, son of Sora and Yamato! A little sightless boi with the softest heart and warmest empathy for others. Very much like his mother in likeness and pure curiosity of the world’s secrets and tales. His father worries for him a lot, but gradually learns to trust in his ability to guide himself. Don’t worry too much about him, he is very smart and knows how to care and guide himself!

Thank you so much for the time and questions you asked me Edgy! I had so much fun with these and gave me a chance to gush about my dearest OC’s! I do hope you find them of interest! 🤗🥺🥰

May your day be beautiful and amazing!! 🥰✨💖

#alpha's art #alpha howls #oc ask questions!#long post #the legendary wolf warriors #bungou stray dogs #bsd oc #danielle mika mason #carmenio #edgy is passing by... ✨

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peachy-queen · 3 years

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Reposted from @jewishvoiceforpeace "HAPPY 91st BIRTHDAY to JVP's oldest member: Shatzi, the People’s Bubbie! Shatzi’s an anti-Zionist, abolitionist, lesbian Jew who has been — and will be — organizing for justice her whole life. She’s a guiding light and source of wisdom, inspiration, and joy for our community "I grew up very Zionist, but I've come a long way, baby," Shatzi says. She joined the Palestinian freedom movement in 1983, after she educated herself and felt “anguish over what Zionists were doing to the Palestinians.” Unlearning Zionist “brainwashing” was a “process that took time” and effort, but it was worth it: she made powerful contributions to movement and forged deep connections with her partners in struggle. And today, it’s “easier to protest against Zionism than it was before,” since unprecedented numbers of Jews are rising for Palestinian freedom and Judaism beyond Zionism. As Shatzi says, community is everything: “I’m part of JVP and so I’m no longer isolated in my anti-Zionism. I have this entire community whom I adore.” Before JVP, Shatzi’s involvement in the Palestinian freedom movement spanned many Palestinian-led groups and many kinds of work, from helping organize demonstrations to making sure her comrades were well-nourished. Shatzi also built solidarity with Palestinians in the women’s and LGBTQ movements, leading workshops at feminist and lesbian events. Swipe left to see her supporting Palestinian self-determination at NYC pride in 1985 🌈 Outside of her Palestine work, Shatzi was a nurse for 47 years and took care of people living with AIDS during the AIDS crisis. She’s been part of countless other groups and movements, from anti-war to Black liberation to anti-incarceration/abolition. Since retiring, she’s been devoted to the positive death movement, which helps people understand that, like living, dying may also be an art — a process worth experiencing fully and intentionally. However and whenever she dies, Shatzi will keep organizing until the very end of her life. We’re so honored and grateful to be in community with Shatzi, and we treasure her now and forever 😭" https://www.instagram.com/p/CQQ9TiYj5NHeVpuKSEvz4r0mEvd8iaLZqHiwC00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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ticked-off-trans-for-positivity · 5 years

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Meet the peeved pride family!!

Inspired by @angry-asexual-for-positivity, there’s now an entire family of blogs devoted to LGBTQ+ positivity!! I’ve done my best to compile them all in a list here: (i can’t tag some of these blogs so instead i’ve just linked to them)

Lesbian:

@livid-lesbian-for-positivity

Bisexual:

@bitterbisexualforpositivity

@bratty-bi-ace-for-positivity

@bitter-bi-for-positivity

Pansexual:

@pissed-panace-for-positivity

@depressedpanaceforpositivity

Transgender:

@ticked-off-trans-for-positivity

@cross-closeted-for-positivity

Nonbinary:

@nothappy-nonbinary-forpositivity

@nonplussed-nb-for-positivity

Genderfluid/genderflux:

@galled-genderfluidfor-positivity

@furious-fluidflux-for-positivity

Greygender:

@grumpygreygenderforpositivity

Bigender:

@ballisticbigenderforpositivity

Asexual/Acespec:

@angry-asexual-for-positivity

@bratty-bi-ace-for-positivity

@gravelymadgrayspecforpositivity

@pissed-panace-for-positivity

@outraged-oriented-for-positivity

@antagonizedaroaceforpositivity

@anguished-asexual-for-positivity

@annoyed-aroace-for-positivity

@depressedpanaceforpositivity

@anxious-aroace-for-positivity

@antipathetic-ace-for-positivity

@depressed-demi-for-positivity

@aggravated-ace-for-positivity

Oriented/Angled:

@outraged-oriented-for-positivity

@ornery-oriented-for-positivity

@angryangledforpositivity

Aromantic/Arospec:

@acerbic-aro-for-positivity

@annoyed-arospecs-for-positvity

@outraged-oriented-for-positivity

@antagonizedaroaceforpositivity

@annoyed-aroace-for-positivity

@anxious-aroace-for-positivity

@disgruntleddemiro-for-positivity

@gloomy-grayro-for-positivity

Frayromantic:

@feral-frayromantic4positivity

Cupioromantic:

@crabby-cupio-for-positivity

Queer/LGBT:

@quarrelsome-queer-for-positivity

@livelylgbtforpositivity

Questioning:

@quippishquestioningforpositivity

It makes me so happy to see all these positivity blogs, and I hope other people benefit from having them!! I can’t speak for the other blogs, but I’ll tag our posts as #peeved pride and #peeved pride family so they’re easier to find!

If anyone makes/finds more please let me know so I can add them!

~Luno :)

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gregador · 5 years

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In 1992 as my activism began, before coming out of the closet, I thought I could be involved in a Pride event without being detected. This coverage by the Cleveland Plain Dealer proves otherwise. This caused me a bit of stress, but it was so worth it!

Erie, PA is holding its Pridefest today, with a parade heading to Perry Square and the festival beginning at noon. I haven’t participated in years, but I may head down to shoot a few photos.

I had my 15 minutes years ago when the community started organizing. I burned out quickly. After about 5 years I’d had enough of the politics and anguish.

Since it’s the 50th anniversary of the Stonewall uprising, however, I’m going to share a post or two of my involvement. It’s not meant to take anything away from what’s going on in Erie, just that I do have a bit of a history that I’d like to share.

So, Happy Pride people. And thank you: all the trans, queer, lesbian, and gay folks for bringing attention to the fledgling LGBTQ movement at the Stonewall Inn.

#erie #cleveland #pride parade #pridefest #activism #stonewall50

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staycatcher · 5 years

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Howdy, I’m Brewgie and sporadically I post content for my favorite dorks!! I have a prompt list that also has the rules and how to do suggestions if you wish, they’re not garanteed~ Thank you for stopping by and perusing through and reblogging my works!!

✏ = writing, 🎨 = fanart, 💐 = moodboards, 💡 = edits

from most recent to least, updated as of 200805 🌟

mainly skz but going to start making content for dreamcatcher now!~

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 dreamcatcher & 3 stray kids icons with lesbian flag background icons <3

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 dreamcatcher (Minji, Bora, Siyeon) icons with lesbian flag background icons

In the works~

💡Fuck The Cops🌈 200621!gahyeon icon

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 stray kids (Minho, Jisung, Chan) icons with lesbian flag background icons

✏ SKZ React to! Not Being Your Bias/Favorite

idol & nonidol! ot9 x readers au, crack! fluff! 4.4k words, swearing, extraness, kissing, for req ! skz being melodramatic when they find out they aren’t actually your bias/fav !

💐 Double Date Night summer date night moodboard with Seungmin & Jisung aka The Sungs! -or it could be interpreted to be Seungmin x Jisung, whatever floats your boat (or ship lol)-

🎨 Hyunsung Cuties cute Jisung & Hyunjin doodles for request

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 stray kids (Minho, Jisung, Chan) icons with lesbian flag background icons

💐 Lovely Lilac comforting moodboard + link to a surprise <3

✏ Wings of Change for Blind Love

idol! chan x blind! reader (she/her) au, fluff!, 1.3k words, mild swearing, ! You drop your cane on a windy day and Chan helps you and offers to walk you to the rest of the way to the bus stop !

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 stray kids (Minho, Jisung, Chan) icons with lesbian flag background icons

✏ Anguish 2/? 001 , 002

fratboi! minho x reader (she/her) + rejected soulmate au, angst! (so far),

swearing, references and usage of alcohol, drunk people violent bodily reactions/extreme pain, hospitals, altercations, and just general intensity

! “Out of genuine free will, I, Lee Minho, exercise the divine right to reject my sacredly designed soulmate.” !

🎨 Archer! Minho sketch of Minho from isac2019 for mutual’s birthday

✏ Lost & Found

fairy! minho x human reader (genderfluid she/he) au, fantasy! slice of life!, 935 words, no warnings, for req ! You stumble upon the enchanted forest, minho the fairy finds you !

🎨 Perfect Features “unfinished wip”, face study is more accurate

🎨 Resting Bitch Face shaded sketch for request

🖍 Warmth- Gaurdian Angel!Changbin

guardian angel! changbin x human! reader (none) au, angst! fluff!, 986 words, near-death experience, intense storm. swearing, ! you’re out in the middle of a huge storm, your guardian angel swoops just in time to save you from ongoing traffic !

🎨 Natural Pout one of the surprise doodles I did for mutuals 190709

🎨 Thicc Lipped Jinnie one of the surprise doodles I did for mutuals 190709

💐 Cowboy Baby cowboy! hyunjin moodboard

💡Lesbian Pride big ass layout pack! 2 lesbian pride headers + 3 stray kids (Minho, Jisung, Chan) icons with lesbian flag background icons

🎨 FallenAngel! Han a shiny finished painting to celebrate his birthday

🎨 Happy Birthday a crappy sketch for a moot’s birthday:)

💐 Double Date Night summer date night moodboard with Seungmin & Jisung aka The Sungs! -or it could be interpreted to be Seungmin x Jisung, whatever floats your boat (or ship lol)-

🎨 Coconut Head one of the surprise doodles I did for mutuals 190709

🎨 Sad Uwu one of the surprise doodles I did for mutuals 190709

🎨 Hyunsung Cuties cute Jisung & Hyunjin doodles for request

🎨 Fav Sketch of the Day small neck up sketch / study

🎨 Angel! Felix one of the surprise doodles I did for mutuals 190709

💐 Late Night soft night moodboard

✏️Cursed 1/? 001~,

(dorky/pure) fratboi! seungmin x baddie reader (she/her) + unexpected soulmate au (in same universe as ‘Anguish’), crack! angst! fluff!, 4.1k words,

swearing, kind-of-stranger danger & getting in their car, references to past usage of alcohol and its effects, cringe, promiscuous bisexual reader, suggestive themes and jokes, nothing explicit though:)

! “Your heart began to sing, sing triumphantly as if you broke some sort of curse- Curse? Wait, hold up. Hold the fuck up. I think he’s my soulmate?! But I can’t possibly have one-” !

💡 Happy Birthday Seungmin pastel birthday theme pack for his birthday season lol! 1 header + 3 icons

💡 Color Me Blue blue angst layout pack! 1 header + 1 seungmin icon

💐 Demon! Seungmin pretty blue-purple moodboard

🎨 Demon! Seungmin sketchbook session

💐 Double Date Night summer date night moodboard with Seungmin & Jisung aka The Sungs! -or it could be interpreted to be Seungmin x Jisung, whatever floats your boat (or ship lol)-

💡 Hearteyes layout pack! 1 ~header + 2 icons + matching lyric / song rec

🎨 Cutest Lil Face lil baby doodle of his lil face

🎨Fox! Jeonginnie cute sketch and lineart for the baby’s birthday!

✏ Peachy

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icarus-imagines · 5 years

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Lesbian!Marceline X Female!Reader -Modern AU-

Word Count: 2,668

Category: Adventure Time

~I'll Never Forget You~

It took all your inner willpower to not flee the scene that had unexpectedly unfolded in front of you. All you remembered was having an unusually enjoyable day at your job to then come upon this scene while walking past an alleyway-no correction-an alleyway you almost walked past. If only you had just stayed a few extra minutes or left early for some little reason so you wouldn’t have had to witness this.

But you hadn’t.

And now you had to face the consequences to your naive actions.

The sight before you was one that would make anybody, no matter how tough their exterior seemed to the human eye, shudder and run away in a fearful panic. It made you do the same thing. Your mind screamed at you over and over again to run, to use flight and not fight. And you almost succumbed to your bodies wishes, but you knew you couldn’t flee just yet. You had to stay.

You wanted to rip your eyes away from what was before you, but it had inflicted your body so terribly that your body froze involuntarily.

Blood.

Oh, so much of it.

It’s dark crimson impurity endlessly poured from the man’s exposed flesh like a water fountain before you. Gushing and spouting out of wounds onto the cold hard cement without any sign of stopping any time soon. Red against a scratchy silver it looked exactly like those fiction crime shows you used to watch with your family on the weekends, but the only significant difference was that this was real. This was happening right before you. That is was unsettled you the most and made your own preciously warm blood drastically turn cold without a moment's notice.

Never had you imagined in your whole short existence would you have been an eyewitness to the grizzly taking of a humans life. Utterly monstrous and undeniably disturbing as it was you had yet to take notice of the person who stood in front of you. Their back turned to you it took a few seconds of examining them in the dark lighting before you had an idea of their physique.

Petite, tall, and though you wished to deny it, had gorgeously long raven coloured hair that blew your breath away. Their outfit was of a simple design. Laid back and comfortable. A plaid button up shirt, which was unbuttoned currently, with a black tank-top underneath. Their jeans had quite a few rips that, to you, couldn’t be deciphered as intentional or not. Matching red converse that tied the outfit together covered their feet. Though gazing down you watched in slight disgust as some of the dark blood that spilled onto the cement trailed through cracks, reaching their shoes and quickly staining the white underside of the once stylish shoes.

Clenching your hands into small fists, from an emotion that could not be entirely pinpointed, you squeezed until you nails dug uncomfortably into your skin and the top of your knuckles began to turn an off colour of white out of constriction. Slowly raising you raised your head up. Your mouth struggled with forming any words, your mind sporadic and dislodged.

Even with everything presented to you in the form of a horrifying display, the most horrendous facts about all of it was who was in front of you. The fact that you…

You knew them.

Who would ever displace those familiar clothes? The unquestionably thick and glossy hair that accented their beauty. That Goddess you had found yourself developing a less than innocent crush on over the past few months. Out of everybody, you knew, why did it have to be her?

“Marceline?”

Your voice was hushed, too quiet for a human to hear, but you needed to speak. To insert yourself to the scenario and ask her what had happened. You wanted to question her. Question her and maybe find a reason to why she was there. I mean she couldn’t have done something like this.

Killing someone? Her? Never!

Yes, Marceline may have a darker sense of humor than most people you knew, but that was her whole character. A spunky and very sought after woman who loved rocking out on her bass guitar and going to wild parties. Killing was a whole different level than Marceline. It had to be.

It needs to be…

Her form visibly tensed the moment her name escaped your lips. But she couldn’t have possibly had heard you. What kind of person has that kind of superhearing? Your suspicions on her hearing were confirmed when she quickly turned around to face you.

Your lips slightly parted in surprise at what you discovered.

It was Marceline, but at the same time, it wasn’t.

Her usually pale white skin had taken on an entirely different tint. A smooth cold gray similar to that of a gargoyles. And just like a gargoyle, her ears had a point, cheeks the same high lifted and sharp feature. Even her lips had the same colour. Two puncture holes lay at the side of her neck, somehow looking healed, yet not caved in with new skin. Crudely pointed fangs subtly poked her bottom lip. She looked like a statue looking at you. Immortalized and forever desirable to you, and admittedly the entire world if they all knew of her.

Another thing that struck you was her eyes. The usual blue spring eyes you were used to seeing on an everyday basis had morphed into a strikingly scarlet hue that struck you. While looking into their unknown depths filled with countless secrets untold, they almost stranded your body motionless.

“(Y/n),” she uttered, in return, beautifully. With one single word, your name, she had rendered you frozen.

Your hands, that had previously released themselves from their small fists and now clasped together in front of you, held tight. The (F/c) nail polish shiny and new upon your nicely manicured nails reflected the low moonlight above you both.

A small nervous smile climbed and printed itself upon your face as you tried to wash away the tension. “A-ah, I was just...just returning from work and was...was going to call you and ask how you were...how you were doing,” you spoke eyes now finding your (S/f/c) shoes now incredibly interesting at that moment in time. Your words were shaking and didn’t hide the fact you truly were scared.

Your words awkwardly trailed off as your humiliatingly futile attempt at a conversation with her hung in the air. It was hot and bothersome from the tensions that gathered in the small molecules around you both. You hated it. You wanted to do something about it, but knew you would be left empty-handed at the end unless she acted too. Surprisingly she did.

“How...caring of you,” she said, voice steady and well-controlled even in a setting such as this one. How you admired her strong resolve. “Like always you think of others before yourself, I’m quite envious of that quality you have you know.”

The small smile she had held onto started to turn into a sad frown as she talked. Not expecting it she began to walk towards you, her hair flying behind her with the small gusts of wind, making her look like an angel. Her appearance creating an aura of strong power and superstition.

She stopped a few feet in front of her, it was obvious she didn’t want to get too close to you. She was treating you like a fragile woodland creature, meaning she didn’t want to scare you off. It was obvious to see it would be easy to do exactly that right now.

“I’m sorry you,” her words cut off as her eyes moved in different directions of the floor until she looked up meeting your eyes in a focused stare. “I’m sorry you had to witness seeing something like this. I know you won’t understand, but all you really need to understand is that I didn’t do this.”

Your reply to her was quicker than you had expected and could be perceived as harsh if you didn’t use the right tone. You didn’t want her to get angry. “And why should I believe you?”

A small smile filled with amusement graced her plump lips. “You don’t need to believe me, but if I know anything about you after a year of friendship is that you trust your heart over your brain,” she explained a comical glint in her eyes knowing it was true. “You’ll believe me. At least...I hope you do.”

It struck you hard realizing this was true. You would trust anything that spilled from her lips. No matter what. You had always bashed yourself for being that way, but when it came from Marceline, how she liked it, made your heart soar with newly discovered pride.

“I think I do,” you mumbled out shyly.

For just a moment you saw the sides of her lips curl into a smile, but they immediately went down after a mere second.

“It makes me happy to hear you say that, but unfortunately I won’t be able to stay.”

“Stay?” you asked confusion starting to build.

She nodded her head solemnly. “You know what I truly am. I can’t let anybody. Even you, know about this,” she said. “I’ll have to relocate soon, rebuild my life, like all the other times this has happened.”

“But,” you quickly retorted, trying to carefully pick your words. “You don’t have to relocate! I won’t tell anybody about what you are. I swear on my life!”

Her eyes glimmered with unshed tears, she was strong unlike you who’s tears were about to burst from the invisible barrier that held them in.

“I know that,” she simply said, then repeated the sentence like a prayer. “I know that.”

“Then why can’t you stay if you know I wouldn’t and couldn’t ever betray you so hideously?” You asked voice almost breaking.

You didn't want her to leave. She couldn’t leave. Not when you had finally realized your feelings for her. She couldn't do this to you!

She held a look in her eyes that conveyed that she almost didn't know why, but she spoke up her reason soon after. “It’s just our way. It’s what we’ve always done.”

Even with that reason, it wasn’t good enough for her to just up and leave the relationship you both had worked so long and hard to build. You wanted to scream at her. Yell at her. Make her stay somehow. But when you look at her, a face full of anguish and sorrow, a look you’ve never seen cross the punk girls face before, you knew anything you said wouldn’t stop her from leaving you.

“Just because your a vampire doesn’t mean you have to do what other vampires do,” you said almost sharply. “You’re your own person. You can do what you wish with your life.”

“And that’s why I have to leave,” she responded lightning fast. “If I don’t they’ll somehow find out about it, they always do, and they’ll come to hunt us both down. I don’t care in the least if they kill me. But if they kill you...I-I can’t live with that.”

Your mouth opened to rebuttal her reasoning, but nothing escaped your mouth. You were silent as a tear trickled down your cheek and silently splashed on the ground, turning it a darker gray than what was already presented.

After a few minutes, she spoke up. “I have to go.”

You wanted to reach out and take a hold of her sleeve, make her stop, but you knew any attempt at doing so would end up with failure as the only option. So you stood there, silently, obediently.

You waited for her to step away from you, but she instead walked closer so her toes were touching yours and her warm breath met your skin. Slowly inclining your head upwards to meet her gaze you stood in shock as you witnessed her soft eyes shed tears. Hot and wet tears that cascaded down her inhumanly sharp features.

Before you could open your mouth and asked her what she was doing, her next action left you speechless. Her lips met yours in a connection that lit a fuse, lit an enormous fire of longing. It was filled with all the days, those months pining after each other in a circular dance. Never once touches, yet getting so close that it was almost sickeningly lovely. It was a rhythm and it was better than you had ever dreamed. A euphoria of discovery.

But like all things in this world, the chaste kiss came to an end when she pulled away and peered into your eyes one last time.

“This is goodbye,” she uttered.

“Yes,” you mumbled, “so it is.”

“Don’t look so glum,” she said wiping a tear from your cheek with an idle index finger. “This year was the best of my life, I’ll cherish it.”

“You’ll remember me?’ you asked desperately. “Even after I...I pass away?”

“You think I’d forget you so easy?” she chuckled a bit. “You’ll be one of my closely kept memories.”

This made you blush and even though you wanted to hide your face, you didn’t. You wanted her to remember you like this. For her to remember the girl with tear brimmed (E/c) orbs, (H/c) hair, and flushed cheeks.

You wanted her to remember you as you were.

“Thank you.”

“No,” she dismissed, taking your hand in hers for a few seconds as she squeezed. “Thank you, for making me realize that even I have my own choice. And for making this the best year of my life.”

Time almost seemed to slow as she let go of your hand and started to walk away to an unknown location. Turning around you watched her long hair, a black painted streak, her whole entity, a bright scarlet streak, against the cold gray city, walk away and leave you behind. She stopped momentarily and turned her head to peer over her shoulder. Her mouthed words echoed in your mind and calmed the growing ache you had already begun to grow in your human heart.

“I’ll never forget you.”

~*~*~*~

~Extra Ending~

~100 Years Later~

The hustle and bustle of the big city with its loud noises and exotic people made Marceline nervous, for she was used to secluded places and darker settings. But she had come here on instinct.

She felt like she needed to be here.

Making her way through all the people quickly, she bumped a person, making the said shorter girl fall on the ground. Marceline quickly apologized, offered her hand, and raised the girl up so she could stand on her two feet again.

But as Marceline took note of her appearance her eyes widened upon her discovery.

It was you.

You looked exactly like you had the last time she had seen you, which was around 100 years ago. She tried to figure out how it was possible, but when you looked up at her and smiles she saw sharp teeth appear and poke at your bottom lip.

You were clever, Marceline noted. You must have found a way to become like this and thought it was a little unsettling, she didn’t want you around other like her for fear of them hurting you. But even so, she had to thank them the next time she met them.

After a few seconds of looking into each other's eyes, you were the first to speak.

“Don’t tell me you forgot who I am?” You chuckled. “I thought you promised.”

“You think I’d forget you so easy?” Marceline quoted from your last conversation together. The bittersweet memory washing over you two.

“I’ll never forget you.”

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asiryn · 5 years

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Healing Vision Headcanons: Olette/Xion/Namine/Sora/Riku Edition

will be putting this behind a cut for the length. will contain a bit of kh3 spoilers behind the cut. refer to this post for background knowledge about this verse.

as indicated by the title, this post will all be about that ship, and the subset ships of olette/namine, xion/namine, xion/olette, sora/riku, and sora/namine.

- namette, namishi, xiolette, soriku, and sonami will all be romantic ships

- olette/sora, olette/riku, xion/sora, rikushi, and namiku will all be more on the queerplatonic end of the spectrum

- sora is pan; riku is gay; olette is a lesbian; xion is a lesbian demisexual; namine is a demiromantic ace

- xion is intersex, but i’m still deciding between her either being a trans girl or nonbinary; i’m similarly undecided about namine, tho for her i’m deciding between bigender or nonbinary

- originally in the HV, soriku and namixiolette were going remain separate. but then i played kh3, and my sonami feels were really reawakened with a vengeance; when i went to look up fanfic for the ship, i was distressed to see that the majority of them were all alternative CoM angst endings---there was pretty much no fluff, none where sora and namine just got to be happy together. so---i’m being the change that i want to see in the world :3

- many years ago now (o.o ...god saying that makes me feel old), i wrote an olette/namine fanfic, which essentially details how i think they could have met in the canon verse, and even now it’s still essentially my headcanon. this is a bit of a spoiler for the end of that fic, but namine ends up having to wipe herself from olette’s memory. in the HV, when olette sees namine again for the first time after kh3, all her memories come back, and she remembers her again

- xion and namine bond over their similar experiences of being forgotten by the ppl they cared about

- part of the reason that xion and namine are drawn to olette is bc, compared to most of the ppl they’ve known, she’s so simple and uncomplicated; she’s warm, genuine, honest, easygoing, affectionate, and compassionate, and so she’s like a breath of fresh air to them

- sora’s feelings for riku have been present for a long time, though before the events of the series, he was a bit oblivious to the true, romantic nature of those feelings, mostly bc he just didn’t really dwell on it that much. all he knew was that riku was his favorite person to be around, and he was content w/ that

- but as they grew older, and especially as riku hit puberty, riku’s relationships with both sora and kairi started to take a downward swing. riku started getting very jealous of sora and kairi’s relationship, bc he was realizing that he was in love with sora, and wanted all of sora’s attention to himself, especially romantically. but riku was also experiencing an incredible amount of internalized homophobia, and he started lashing out at sora, which drove sora into spending more time with kairi

- riku’s parents were extremely homophobic, and so riku grew up knowing from a pretty young age that he was in love w/ sora, and also that those feelings were Wrong, but no matter how much he tried to ignore them, they never went away. and as he grew up, riku knew perfectly well that his parents would kick him out, at best, if they found out he was gay, and so he grew up with a crippling fear of abandonment, and he especially became terrified of losing sora too (riku attempting to share a paopu fruit w/ sora was partially motivated as a way to ensure that sora would never abandon him)

- ftr, when sora and riku are finally together and are going to go home after kh3, they discuss how they want to handle their relationship, and when riku finally reveals his parents’ emotional abuse, sora refuses to let riku go back to living w/ them. so first they come out to sora’s mom, who’s supportive and agrees to let riku live w/ them from now on, and then after they pack up riku’s belongings, they come out to riku’s parents and the community on their own terms (bc after everything they’ve been through, they refuse to be ashamed about this, and they know that word would travel fast anyway); riku’s parents react as expected, but at this point, riku’s done giving a shit about them, and so he moves in w/ sora

- (this is the beginning of hikari becoming the pioneer of what i call the gaywakening of destiny islands; she’s on a one-woman crusade to bring about queer education, rights, and pride, and it is 50% her being determined to be the most supportive parent in all the known universe, and 50% her being passive-aggressive as fuck towards riku’s parents. but the details of her crusade will be for another post XP)

- by the beginning of kh1, sora was starting to feel more flashes of attraction to riku. when riku first attempted to share a paopu fruit w/ him, sora kind of panicked, and thought that riku was just teasing him, and so sora tossed it away (riku of course took this as a total rejection)

- the next day, when riku brought up the idea of sharing a paopu fruit w/ kairi, was when sora’s confusion over his feelings really started. bc of general compulsory heterosexuality, and bc destiny islands was a more conservative community and thus had a lot of casual homophobia, sora never much questioned the assumption that boys and girls could only date each other (not that he had really given dating much thought before then, either). and w/ the assumption that strong relationships between boys and girls always ended up as romances, sora started wondering if his feelings towards kairi were romantic, and whether he did want to share a paopu fruit w/ her. complicating this was the fact that he really didn’t like the idea of riku sharing a paopu fruit w/ her, though he didn’t quite understand why, combined w/ the fact that he hated feeling like he was only ever second best to riku

- all of riku’s anguish came to a boiling and breaking point in kh1, as riku perceived all of sora’s actions as him choosing to abandon riku, just like he’d always feared. at this point, riku felt that he needed to be needed and necessary, and his whole identity was built on the idea that his friends needed him to be their strong protector, and he couldn’t really cope w/ the idea of sora not needing him after all; he latched onto saving kairi bc she really did need help

- as the series went on, sora became more fixated on the idea of kairi; she came to sort of represent the home that he missed so much. and w/ everyone else just assuming that it was So Obvious that sora was in love w/ kairi, he went along w/ that assumption too. upon his reunions w/ kairi and riku in twtnw at the end of kh2, and the wildly different emotions they each had inspired in him, sora began to realize the truth of his feelings, but he was still mostly in denial. when they were all home for a brief bit before the mark of mastery exams, sora was being confronted w/ the fact that his ideal of both kairi and Being Home weren’t matching up w/ the reality and things were awkward between them, but sora tried to tell himself that it was just bc they still needed more time

- all of this was even further compounded by the fact that sora fell in love w/ namine during re:com, and tho he couldn’t recall the memories of her, his feelings for her were still there, along with the aching sense that he had forgotten something important. seeing namine again at the end of kh2 really sparked and stirred up his feelings again, but sora had no context to understand them (how could he be in love w/ someone that he didn’t even know?). he kind of tried to convince himself that these feelings were for kairi, but he knew that they weren’t really

- obvs, after kh3, sora remembers (and thanks) namine; the circumstances of this aren’t fully fleshed out. partially it’s bc it’s tied in with my indecision about in what way i should alter the canon scenes of kairi being fridged. on one hand, bc i feel that the whole affair of kairi dying was entirely superfluous, i could tweak it so that she never dies. on the other hand, i could go with kairi ‘dying’ in the battle, but in a more heroic self-sacrificial way (maybe she took a hit meant for sora or someone else), and then there being an actual story arc where sora and riku go and save her. it would essentially involve them collecting the pieces of her and putting her back together (like sora did for himself in the final world), but with more...effort involved. and in said story arc, there could be an event that triggers sora into remembering namine, or something to that effect.

- again, undecided if i want to change the canon paopu fruit scene into being a sorikai friendship moment instead, or if i’ll keep the canon version, but with the reading that it happened bc sora and kairi were both still suffering from compulsory heterosexuality, and still trying to force themselves into believing that they liked each other romantically; if i go with the saving kairi story arc, it would be the latter option

- continuing on with ‘saving kairi’ story arc, in this version, when sora and riku go off to save her together (on a meta-textual level, it’d be a way for their story to come full circle: they’re back where they started, but they’re going to do it right this time; instead of having petty fights with each other over who gets to save kairi, they’ll save her together), sora still would have been in denial about the true nature of his feelings for riku. but travelling together with him, and actually spending time with riku after being apart for so long, sora will start to understand his feelings better

- riku of course already knows that he’s deeply in love with sora and is pining, but he’s trying to keep his distance, bc sora and kairi are ‘together’ now (and mostly riku is just resolved that he won’t let his jealousy get the better of him this time, and he’s determined to be the best and most supportive friend that he can be)

- romantic moments and almost kisses keep happening anyway, but riku tries to tell himself that he’s imagining things and reading too much into it, while sora struggles with acceptance of his true feelings

- even still, sora and riku won’t actually get together until after sora and kairi have some sort of conversation where they finally talk through everything and can admit that they only love each other as friends, and they finally put to rest their attempts to force romantic feelings for each other

- after coming to an understanding with kairi, sora will then seek out to riku finally talk things out with him and to confess his true feelings (and there’ll be a lot of happy tears, probably)

- even tho sora might be a bit hesitant to potentially rock the boat this early in his new relationship w/ riku, in the interests of honesty and full disclosure, and having by this point remembered namine and had all those feelings come rushing back to the forefront, sora will quietly confess to riku that he thinks he might be in love with namine too

- to sora’s surprise, riku’s quiet for a moment, but then tells him that he’s honestly not really surprised, as he’s always thought that a lot more went down between sora and namine in castle oblivion than namine tried to let on; at this point, riku reminds sora that he spent the majority of a year w/ namine while she was trying to fix his memories, and he remembered her heartbreak and anguish as she essentially worked to erase herself from sora’s memories, tho she tried to conceal her pain

- riku remembers this as being one of the big turning points for him as a person, bc instead of being jealous about namine being in love w/ sora too, he just empathized w/ her instead, and thought that they were/would be suffering the same pain of being in unrequited love w/ sora, as he thought they’d both have to watch sora be in love w/ kairi

- while sora and riku are off saving kairi, and incidentally saving namine as well, during that time, xion and olette are meeting and getting to know each other as friends

- xion and olette may have already started going on a few dates by the time sora and riku get back w/ kairi, and namine is given her own body again; sora and riku get together not long after they get back

- at first, namine is more focused on forming friendships; during this time, the person she becomes closest to is xion, bc again, they can both empathize w/ each other a lot

- during this time, sora and namine are trying to keep their promise of being friends for real this time, but it’s not quite working out bc they’re both kinda pining for each other

- all the while, namine is coming to terms w/ her asexuality, and she’s also starting to fall for xion especially, but also olette; namine tends to experience a lot of insecurity and anxiety, and she becomes terrified of possibly ruining her friendship w/ xion, and so ends up confiding in her all of her angst. xion assures her that she’s not ruining anything, and that she’s interested in namine as well, but admits that she doesn’t really know what she’s doing either, and suggests that they consult w/ olette, who’s pretty much the relationship expert

- olette is the one who helps namine understand her asexuality, and suggests the polyamory option; xion and olette have an allosexual relationship, while their relationship w/ namine is purely ace

- meanwhile, riku can’t stand seeing sora be unhappy, and so he goes to consult w/ olette, and together they arrange for all five of them to sit down and hash everything out, w/ the end result being that sora and namine will also be dating; their relationship is also purely ace, and sora’s w/ riku is allosexual

- after kh3, axel and saix effectively adopt roxas and xion, and they’re all living in twilight town now

- sora and riku are of course living w/ sora’s mom on destiny islands, and namine was adopted by kairi’s dad, and so now she’s living w/ kairi (at first namine was afraid of kairi being mad at her for dating sora, but kairi’s perfectly fine w/ it)

- if the ‘saving kairi’ story arc didn’t happen, then during the amount of time that it would have taken for sora and riku to save her, that time was instead sora and kairi attempting to date each other; when they realized that the relationship wasn’t working for them and neither of them were happy, they finally gave up on being in denial and called it quits. during that time, riku and namine were pining for sora, while in this version, namixiolette fell for each other at around the same time and pace (instead of it being xiolette first, and then namine coming into the relationship later)

- after sokai stopped dating, the ot5 getting together went down pretty much in the same way as in the ‘saving kairi’ story arc

- is it perhaps excessive that namine has two girlfriends, a boyfriend, and a queerplatonic partner? imo, she’s been alone and isolated for far too long, so i’m giving her all the love that she deserves (and she’ll also have ALL the friends; a few of the ones she’s closest to being kairi and terra)

- every one of the ot5 ships will just be full of softness and gentleness

- sora and olette.....are just gonna be such BROS to each other (in general, olette is just cultivating her butch lesbian #aesthetic these days). she’ll be like this w/ roxas too, but they’ll just constantly be playing video games and skateboarding; xion’ll be getting in on this too

- okay, so xion and riku’s relationship. during Days, when xion was absorbing sora and his memories, she did experience and kinda channel sora’s feelings for riku (and for his part, riku felt something of an echo of sora from her). so while she doesn’t experience those feelings for herself anymore, she still remembers the echo of it, and so things are a bit awkward between them at first (also riku still feels guilty about essentially coercing xion and roxas into dying). eventually they do find common ground and settle into a comfortable friendship (also, xion experienced the same thing in regards to kairi)

- for sora, he had a similar problem w/ xion, in that he experienced a lot of roxas’s feelings towards her (tho that was mostly the pain of losing her), so he still remembers the echoes of those emotions. but again, he ends up really becoming bros w/ her and olette

- olette and riku probably took the longest to really bond, tho they eventually did bc they discovered they liked doing little crafts together

- being both introverts, riku and namine find a lot of solace in each other when they just need some quiet time; olette and sora are both extroverts, w/ xion being somewhere in the middle

- olette does have some playful flirting going on w/ kairi, but it’s never anything serious. xion and kairi like sparring w/ their keyblades together

- if the five of them ever moved in together, it’d probably be in either twilight town or destiny islands. there’d be at least 3 bedrooms (one for if someone needed some alone time, one for cuddles, and one for activities that would not involve namine)

- the more likely option is that soriku and xiolette would each have their own houses/apartments (in destiny islands and twilight town, respectively), and namine would bounce back and forth between them. both places would have at least 2 bedrooms each

- soriku’s place is probably more of a cottage that’s closer to the seaside than the center of the mainland, while xiolette’s place is an apartment. namine has rooms set aside for her in both places, and her belongings are scattered between them. big things like her easels for paintings and canvases and things like that are at soriku’s cottage, which has more space than xiolette’s apartment, etc.

- sora, riku, and xion are all officially keyblade wielders/masters, so that’s pretty much their occupations. olette is probably going to be attending university soon, and namine will probably go to art school (probably just for the experience more than anything else)

- tbh, idk what olette would be studying at university. maybe business management and/or marketing, bc she found she really liked working at scrooge’s bistro and wants to take over it someday? maybe she wants to open her own small business. maybe it’s a sports scholarship. fashion or graphic design? idkkk

okay, i think that’ll be enough for this post. if i have more headcanons about this ship, i’ll be making another post for them, bc this one is already probably far too long XDD

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mypokemonpride · 6 years

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Today, on the start of Pride Month, I have come to realize something very important that I feel everyone can learn from like I did (IMPORTANT READ)

I LET YOU GO

An analysis of life through a mega lesbian’s eyes

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So, a while back, I went through a break up that I really did not see coming but somewhere deep down I knew that it was what I wanted, but was too afraid to do and that knowledge deep inside me manifested into confusing stress and denial, anxiety, and emotional pain. Things kept happening and happening and I’d find myself up at night (on the worse freshman dorm bed ever btw) wondering what’s gonna happen next. Needless to say, when it happened, I was destroyed, heart shattered and it felt like I lost all the shards and couldn’t even try to piece it back together. But, anyways, that is not the focus of my little story here. (Random snipets of things ive learned)

I realized that I have a whole life ahead of me, so many things I want to do and see, I will meet so many people, and I only have this one life. I could be here mulling over a break up every now and then or I could go out and discover new things about myself, try out a new hairstyle (CAN’T WAIT OMG PRAY IT WORKS LOL), eat new foods, exercise more(i love exercise) see new places, find new hobbies, meet new people, live and laugh.

You can accept that someone was toxic for you, but not hate them. Hate is such a wicked emotion, you think you use it to direct emotional revenge at someone, but, in reality it only backfires on yourself, it is not a good emotion for the giver or the receiver. I found that loving others, remembering the good in people and in the world, and most importantly, taking steps to remember how to love yourself, makes everything in your life brighter and more fulfilling. Of course, hate or dislike is not immediately invalid and wrong either, in some cases, it is completely warranted. But, never let the emotion consume you, because then it will try to destroy you.

For me, I chose not to hate her. Honestly, I have no idea how she feels about me, she could be steaming, making me out to be some super horrible girl to others, she could be sad and longing, she could be fine, happy, or a mixture of this and things unsaid, or none of them. However, this is the part that I really learnt. IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT THEY THINK/FEEL ABOUT YOU NOW, the only thing that matters now (and always has) is HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOU. Because you can always find a 100% ensured long term, committed and loving relationship only within yourself and no one else.

I believe that choosing not to hate her was the greatest development in my emotional health and character development post-breakup. I had all the reasons to hate her should I have chosen to, I mean she did confess to me that she only dated me because I was the only lesbian she knew, that she never liked me, and said I made her question her sexuality to make me feel like such a horrible person and lesbian among other post breakup aggression in front of my friends and when alone....BUT, I am choosing to LET IT GO. It is not exactly easy knowing that your first love was just using you, for anyone regardless of sexuality. I would never wish that knowledge on anyone, nor would I wish for anyone to feel like its OKAY to do that to someone else because it’s not, its really not. What good does it really do, to hate, to let someone have emotional power over you when that person isn’t even in your life anymore?

I want to make it clear, however, that feeling is not bad. You need to feel what you’re feeling in order to move on and forward. So, at the start, have fits of utter disgust and hate, feel that deep rooted betrayal, feel the loneliness of loss, let the tears fall like the greatest waterfall, let denial cloud a night or two to make sleeping easier, LAUGH SO HARD YOU SCARE THE DEVIL, don’t feel guilty for feeling happy, for looking at someone else, for loving yourself, accepting yourself and the situation. Peace of mind is yours to keep, fear is something we all lose. Realize that nothing is ever a one person cause, recognize your faults, get better and learn from the bad to make something good, but don’t pretend that theirs didn’t exist, never blame yourself. let it be known that things happen, people drift apart, the system that you thought was working and operating fine had a major and mutually created, mutually discovered malfunction inside, and the only way to fix it was to ship it away and find a better one. But, it doesn’t mean the first one was completely horrible, it just simply wasn’t meant to work for you. But, it will work perfectly fine for someone else, just as there is a system that will work for you. And, aren’t we all happy to have something that works? Why would we want to keep something that isn’t working, it can’t turn on, can’t go anywhere?

I am letting go, but I know I still need time, I know I will have seconds, minutes, maybe even a day of fleeting thoughts of anguish, of hate, of desire and of many other things still, it is not something that goes away just like that, and that is okay. It is a wound, but, over time, every wound scars over and begins to heal. However, some scars will never completely fade. And even if they do on the skin, the memory of it never leaves your brain. It is still a battle for me trying not to hate myself, to not let her words or actions determine my worth in this world. Because, I know I am a good person, and I loved her with all my heart, and I cannot forget that, but it does not mean I will condone or even pardon those things she said and did just because I chose not to hate her for it. Yes. I have a scar. It will not fade from memory even as it begins to fade from the surface. But, it certainly stops hurting, and let me tell you, there are many real scars I’ve had throughout life all over me and inside me that I’ve stopped caring to think about. They may be there,but, they do not hurt me anymore, but sometimes, I happen to come across them and I’ll remember fleetingly, oh yeah that wound right there had really hurt and then move on. Life is a lot like that too.

When it is time for me to date again, it will be when all the pieces of my heart are put back together. I am still working on some pieces, but it will be finished in time, brand new and better. And should it happen again, well, with these hands I will pick the pieces up and rebuild it again, and again, and again, until I find a design that works perfectly with me.

To my future girlfriend, I will love you with all of my heart, I will be the best version of nia i can be for myself and for you. But, right now is not the time. But, the time will come, and when it does, I will be so happy to hold you in my arms and welcome you into my life.

To my ex-girlfriend, my first love, I will not forget you, I do not know if we will ever speak again or see each other, but, if by some chance we do, I will say hello and smile, I do not hate you, I have let go of what has happened between us, of both of our contributions to the breakup, and I have let go of you, but I do not pardon and forgive your words that spoke of manipulation and your actions, but, I have let it go. And I honestly wish you the best in life, wherever that takes you, with whoever, but for yourself above all else. As I wish for the same with my life. If there is one advice I wish you could hear or see, I would say, please, whoever you date next, please actually like them this time and want to date them for them not to simply date.That will make me happy, the person you date happy, and make yourself happy too. Because people are humans; humans do not deserve to be treated like that, trust me, knowing what I know now is the worse feeling. I’ve let go of the fact that you’ve done this to me, but I won’t be able to let go of it if you do it to another person.

To everyone who read and to those who won’t or stopped midway, i wish you all well and happiness. Remember life is so short, live it the way you want. The universe has a funny and slightly cruel way of making things work for the better in the long run.

So, in closing, I’d like to say this: (this is not a poem, but an anthem.)

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I say it out loud

I let you go

I say it loud in these letters

I let you go

I say it loud in my mind

I let you go

I say it loud to nothing

I let you go

I say it loud to everything

I let you go

I say it loud to Past

Present

let

Future

you

And gently, I whisper it to my mending heart

Go.

#lesbian #breakup #motivation #lgbtq #pride month #gay #haley kiyoko #inspiration #love #yuri #shoujo ai #girls love #mental health #advice #steven universe #inclusive #relationships

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