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I want. A library date with my boyfriend right now. I wanna sit next to him in the lil booth at the library and lean on him while we read our books or he reads aloud to me. Or the other way around. I want to feel sleepy and happy and comfortable with him so badly heh, he'll be so warm :)
#bi mlm#mlm yearning#mlm textpost#boyfriend#nblm#gay#mlm positivity#mlm#library date#hes such a calming presence to me i wish he was here !!!!!!!!!!!#god let us be gay at the library#biseuxal
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I have a headache and feel like I'm never gonna ever make connections with people I actually see in person on a regular basis wyd?
#the closest thing i have to a friend in this city is the lady i work with for the poetry library#and she is a friend. in a way. i spend a good bit of time in meetings w/her and we catalog books at a coffee shop sometimes#i learn a lot from her and i also admire her and enjoy working with her#but i'm not going out for drinks or watching movies with her yknow?#my fellow queer coworker keeps talking abt getting a few of us together and out for drinks outside of work#and i want to. but i dont fucking know how to go from 'yeah lets get all the gays together!' to actually doing it#i hate where i am in life sometimes. its not all bad but its nauseatingly lonely#and i feel quite pathetic about it#my literal only interactions outside of work are online. i get so sick of being constantly online.#but if i'm not then i'm cut off from the only friends i get to talk to#god fuck ugh wah
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Sososo I’ve come with a Joseph request from identity v cause that man is scrumdiddlyumptious
Basically Joseph is like a king right? And reader is one of his servants that’s always with him 24/7 and Joseph loves flirting with reader because of his reactions DESPITE Joseph being married (a queen btw)
And on this one particular night, Joseph summons reader to one of the guest bedrooms and is all touchy freely and reader doesn’t think it’s right at all
BUT! Reader thinks about it for a bit with a little help of Joseph convincing him (he was using gentle words and his pretty face) which leads to them getting down and dirty
Kinks: hair pulling, biting (soft), praising, and orgasm denial 🥰
What I wrote definitely won't get me into heaven
Warning
Nsfw, smut, male reader, bottom reader, gay, anal, cheating, au
It started in the library, (name) was dusting the shelves when the king took notice of him and instantly became obsessed with servant and since then (name)s life at the castle became a horny nightmare.
King Joseph was everywhere, soft gropes and quiet flirts and (name) would be a liar if he said it didn't do things to him.
"My~ aren't you flexible..." Joseph said watching (name) clean, the servant contorted slightly to get to a hard to reach spot and (name) blushed at his comment, the two currently in Joseph's study and the man had (name) specifically to clean it, he was practically his private Butler.
And if Joseph had his way, his husband.
But all in due time.
"Tonight I have a guest coming to stay the night, I need you to clean the velvet room for them to sleep in, you must be there for 7pm" Joseph said seriously as (name) bowed to him "of course your Highness..."
"Joseph"
(Name) looked confused and Joseph wanted to smear cum all over that face "in private call me Joseph..." He said as he leaned back in his chair and held his chin on his thumb and his index finger curled slightly covering his lips "o-of course your hi--Joseph" (name) blushed at the informality and Joseph felt blood rush to his cock as he dismissed the other.
When (name) was a distance away Joseph locked the door and returned to his desk, unbuckling his pants and freeing his cock.
(Name) plagued his thoughts, the white haired man imagining (name) on his knees before him stroking his cock before taking it deep in his mouth and Joseph practically fucking his delicate throat.
Joseph fucked his fist with furrowed eyebrows, his blue eyes unfocused as he thought of (name) and wanted nothing more than to ruin the other.
Cum splattered his desk as a grunt left his lips, a bead of sweat falling down his neck.
Joseph didn't care much for his wife, the queen wasn't his type in the slightest and he was working on ways to divorce her.
He had another person in mind to be his queen.
(Name) wandered the halls with cleaning supplies, off to clean the guest room.
(Name) hummed slightly as he changed the sheets and began dusting "god you're ravishing" (name) turned to see the blue eyed beauty that was Joseph, his long white hair cascaded down his shoulders as he removed his carvot and took off his crown and carefully placed it on the desk, vibrant blue eyes piercing through (name) as he stalked towards him, pinning him against the wall and his hands groping his hips. His lips were a hairline away from (name)s as he spoke "do you even know the affects you have on me?" He asked and (name) blushed at the contact "cute..." Joseph commented with a chuckle before kissing (name), the kings lips demanding and controlled as his hand moved to grasp his neck gently "we -ah- we can't do this..." (Name) said as Joseph moved his leg between the others and rubbed his clothed cock "of course we can" Joseph said moving to kiss his neck, wet kisses and slight sucking on his neck to leave hickeys "t-the queen..."
"Don't worry about that... Don't you want to be a good boy for me? My pretty boy? Let touch you and show you how beautiful you are?"
(Name) gasped as Joseph's free hand pulled (name)s cock and stroked it, thumb rubbing the tip and (name) couldn't hold back the moan leaving his lips "let me love you the way you deserve to be loved"
Joseph wanted to love (name) with everything he had and (name) gasped under his touch and nodded shakily, gasping when Joseph lifted him into his arms and tossed him on the bed and began removing his clothes, (name) watching heatedly as the king stood nude before him, cock erect "you did this..." Joseph said rubbing his cock slowly before crawling on the bed and practically ripping the clothes off (name) "been waiting to do this..." Joseph wanted to take his time with (name).
His beautiful precious darling deserved to be treated like the treasure be was.
Joseph touched every curve, groping as he kissed (name) slowly, cocks rubbing as he caged (name) and his white hair fell around (name) like a waterfall of pure snow.
Joseph grinned at how inexperienced (name) was, the precious man never had time for romance and tried so hard to keep up, whining when Joseph slipped his tongue in.
Joseph's tongue felt weird in (name)s mouth but the servant found the sensation to be addictive as Joseph moved the others hands to wrap around his neck "you can tug in my hair if you desire so, you'll need something to hold onto after all..."
"What do you--oh!" (Name) gripped the king's hair as he went lower and took (name)s cock in fully, hand gripping the base tight enough so (name) couldn't cum as he sucked him off "p-please I-I need..."
"You can cum on my cock and my cock alone" Joseph said seriously as he moved lower and pushed (name) into a mating press "w-wait!"
"What?" Joseph asked kissing (name)s inner thigh "that place is dirty..."
"Pretty clean to me... I know you like to take multiple showers a day as you work so hard for me..." Joseph said sucking on his thighs and leaving little love bites "I just can't help myself..." Joseph licked his ass before practically making out with it, flipping (name) for better access "don't cum unless I tell you too" Joseph said seriously before returning to his meal, devouring sweet (name)s ass with vigor.
He slowly introduced a finger with his tongue, searching for something (name) didn't understand as the poor man's body nearly gave out from the sensation.
This was all so new to (name), the man drooling on the bed as he let the other have his way with him.
Joseph introduced two more fingers slowly, removing his tongue completely to finger (name)s ass open, stretching and curling his fingers "Ah!"
"There it is..." Joseph began fucking his prostate relentlessly as he moved his hand to grip the others cock, bending over to lick (name)s ear lobe and gently nip it "so pretty..." He grunted before pulling his fingers out "shh don't worry..." Joseph stopped (name)s whine as his cock rubbed against his ass "gonna fill you up with something nicer..."
"Let me look at you" Joseph gently manhandled (name) so he laid in his back, legs spread and breathless and Joseph rested his forehead on (name)s "god I love you..." Joseph gently pushed in with a breathy groan before kissing (name) with passion, slowly bottoming out.
It stung but slowly (name) moaned when he slightly moved "you feel so good... My perfect angel... I want to take you everywhere... Make you my queen..." Joseph was babbling as he slowly began thrusting, gently biting the others neck as (name) closed his eyes with furrowed brows, moaning softly.
"Going to imprint the shape of my cock in you... Wont be able to do anything without thinking of my cock in you..." He mumbled as he slowly picked up speed, both moaning and grunting as skin slapping skin echoed through the room.
"I-I"
"You're close? Come on my beloved... Cum for your king!" The two climaxed and (name)s body was shaking "the queen was in love with another... We're working on our seperation... She inherited from her father... Soon I'll put a ring on you" Joseph whispered as he watched his beloved fall asleep.
He would have to get his fiance nicer clothes.
Or clothes easier to remove.
#identity v x reader#idenity v x male reader#Joseph x reader#Joseph x male reader#smut#identity v smut#male reader#x male reader#joseph desaulnier x reader#Joseph Desaulnier x male reader#Joseph Desaulnier smut
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Time Travel Christmas Part 2
Christmas 2023. I can’t believe I’ve managed to live this long. Once my wife, or I mean my grandmother, but really my wife died, I didn’t think I had the will to go on. But here I am. What a life I have led. Once I was transported back in time into my grandfather’s body, I was so worried. How would I make it through. However, it all seemed to work out. I got my grandfather’s memories and knowledge as well as I retained my own. My body could run on autopilot. It was quite amazing. The things I have seen. The moments in history that I have experienced, I will never forget. Quite frankly, I barely remember that I am supposed to be Roger Braddock the 3rd. I am Roger Braddock the 1st.
I was also worried about the butterfly effect. I was afraid I would change the future if things did play out perfectly how they happened originally. Would I even be born the same in the future. Turns out, nothing much changed. I did use some knowledge and, in this life, my family was a bit wealthier. It helped to know when certain stocks were going to grow. Nothing unethical about that. Now it’s Christmas 2023 and I am over at my son’s house. We are waiting for everyone else to show up. I am browsing his library and came across this photo.
I remember when this was taken. God the 1970’ were so much fun. He is probably 14 in this photo. I could never kick that smoking habit, but luckily, I never developed cancer. Just a wicked cough. I wish I could be young again, even my 40’s when this photo was taken. Go back to those fun fashions. As a formerly gay man, I certainly had fun with that. But in this life, I was straight. I followed what my body wanted. At least I have those memories. I let my son know that I was tired and am going to go lie down and wait for everyone to show up. I get so sleepy so easily these days. However, I suppose when one is in their 90’s, life is tiring.
Damn, what time is it. I slept so well. God, I feel so refreshed and lighter. It’s like I’ve lost weight. As I looked around the room, I realized I wasn’t where I fell asleep. This room was familiar. It’s what my son’s room had looked like in the 1970’s. Wait a minute; this is my son’s room, in my old house. How could that be the case. We remodeled this room and we sold this house years ago. I look down and see that my stomach is gone and I am wearing an outfit straight out of the 1970’s. Oh my god! Not again. I jumped up and looked in the mirror.
Holy Shit! I’m my son, well also my dad depending on the way you look at it. I must be about 18. How can this have happened again. It must be because I wished to be young again, but I also meant to be a younger Roger Braddock the 1st, or back to my original body. Now this means I am going to be living the life of Roger Braddock the 2nd. I wonder which world I will be living in. The one where my grandfather was my grandfather, or the one where I was Roger Braddock the 1st. What a story this would make, if only anyone would believe it. I kind of forgot how sexy my son was. He was so athletic and never lacked for a girlfriend. This could actually be really fun.
“Roger, the family is arriving. Come downstairs and greet them!”
That’s my mother. I look over at a calendar and realize that it is Christmas 1977. So, I am a senior in high school and am 18. Guess it’s time to open my presents. See some people that have passed on. Relieve these memories again. This is kind of fun. I get to live another life. I wonder how long I will be Roger Braddock the 2nd? I quickly change out of this colorful shirt and put on a Christmas sweater. I brush my hair and go downstairs. Well, this is groovy. Maybe I’ll go out to a disco later. The world is my oyster yet again.
#age regression#male body transformation#male body swap#christmas#1970's#time travel#father#son#male body possession
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ftmtftm's reading (and watching) list
So I've been putting this list together to help people understand my beliefs and also to expand their own. This is a list of theorists, poets, authors, artists, and people that I often source from whose works have deeply impacted my framework of the world. I hope someone else can find them useful as well.
I've included several videos because I know how inaccessible academic text can be, but I do encourage you to read the text if you're able and seek out copies of books listed at your local libraries or independent book sellers/second hand book shops! When I could not find a PDF for a written work I have added Thrift Books links. Also double check the Internet Archive, Trans Reads, and The Anarchist Library for more readings!!
If any of these links break please let me know and I'll see what I can do to fix them. I'll be adding to this list as time goes on as currently these are just the books I can see on my bookshelf and videos I could remember I've seen before!
3.4.2024 - This list is slightly outdated in that there are several authors and works I need to add. Please seach the names James Baldwin and Audre Lorde or simply my reading list tag on my blog for additional resources.
Theory
Kimberlé Crenshaw:
Critial Race Theory: The Key Writings That Formed The Movement - thrift books
Mapping the Margins: Intersectionality, Identity Politics, and Violence against Women of Color - PDF
The Urgency of Intersectionality - video
Kimberlé Crenshaw Intersectionality is NOT identity - video exerpt from her WOW keynote speech
Angela Davis:
Angela Davis Criticizes "Mainstream Feminism" / Bourgeois Feminism - video
Angela Davis What it means to be a Revolutionary (1972 Interview) - video
Roxane Gay:
Bad Feminist: Essays - Internet Archive
Roxane Gay: Confessions of a bad feminist - video
Roxane Gay, Feminism and Difficult Women - video
bell hooks:
Feminism is for Everybody - PDF
The Will to Change - Internet Archive / audio book - YouTube
All About Love - PDF / audio book - YouTube
Teaching to Transgress PDF / audio book - YouTube
Speaking Freely: bell hooks - video
bell hooks & john a. powell: Belonging Through Connection (Othering & Belonging Conference 2015) - video
bell hooks & Gloria Steinem at Eugene Lang College - video (intro ends 7:24)
Emi Koyama:
The Transfeminist Manifesto - PDF
Ijeoma Oluo:
So You Want to Talk About Race - thrift books
Ijeoma Oluo Talks at Google - video
Public Presentation with Ijeoma Olua - video
History / Journals
P. Carl:
Becoming a Man - thrift books
Library Labyrinth Live Presents: P. Carl Becoming a Man - video (intro ends approx. 3:20)
P. Carl Prologue UCCS - video (audio quality poor)
Keith Haring:
Journals - PDF
Keith Haring Documentary - video
Keith Haring On The Fence - video
Jack Lowery:
It Was Vulgar & It Was Beautiful: How AIDS Activists Used Art to Fight a Pandemic - thrift books
Susan Stryker:
Transgender History - PDF
Transitions, with Susan Stryker - podcast - YouTube
Lou Sullivan:
We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan 1961-1991 - trans reads
Trans Oral History: Meeting Lou Sullivan - video
A series of video interviews with Lou - playlist
Fiction / Poetry
Chinua Achebe:
Things Fall Apart (novel) - PDF
I'm trying hard to not add too much of my own commentary to this post but personally I really think it's helpful to read Things Fall Apart in theoretical conversation with The Will to Change by bell hooks and in direct conversation with one of the works it was written in response to, The Heart of Darkness
Arundhati Roy:
The God of Small Things (novel) - thrift books
Arundhati Roy talks about her life and views on the world - video
Warsan Shire:
Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head (poetry collection) - thrift books
Warsan Shire reads her poetry - video
Zadie Smith:
White Teeth (novel) - Internet Archive
White Teeth (4 part Real Drama adaptation) - videos
Zadie Smith Interview: On Bad Girls, Good Guys and the Complicated Midlife - video
A Conversation with Zadie Smith - video
Pamela Sneed:
Funeral Diva (poetry and prose collection) - thrift books
Pamela Sneed Discusses "Funeral Diva" - video
I offer you a secret meme for your time (with books I still need to add to this list):
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Rebinding
Word Count: 600 words
A/N: While some of these may not be true in your state, I did some research into a few different states to keep this as factual as possible. Is Mel and Jacob’s solution the best one? Maybe not. But Jacob is correct, in some states you can face jail time of 2 ½ years. All of the books mentioned have been banned or challenged at some point in history. Some books are banned or challenged because they make us feel uncomfortable with how they show us our history. We should not be comfortable learning about the things we did wrong. Books are important and should be available to everyone. There are many reasons some of these books are banned and if I had listed all of them, this would have been a lot longer. Anyways, this is super short and thrown together before I head to bed but I hope you enjoy it!
“I can’t believe this,” Jacob said from his seat at the kitchen island.
“Are you reading who gives a crap biweekly again,” Melissa asked, rolling her eyes as she assembled her lasagna.
“Mel Mel, they’re banning books!”
“What do you mean they’re banning books?”
“I mean, if our school library keeps copies of these books, we could face criminal charges!”
“Let me see that,” Melissa said, dusting off her hands, “you must be reading it wrong”
Jacob passed her his phone and set his head in his hands as she started reading aloud:
“A Light in the Attic by Shel Silverstein…Encouraging bad behavior? A Wrinkle in Time…Witchcraft? Animal Farm…Encouraging revolt? Fahrenheit 451…Hang on, they do recognize the irony in banning that, right?”
Jacob grimaced and gestured for her to keep reading.
“James and the Giant Peach for Witchcraft, The Giver for violence, To Kill a Mockingbird for racial slurs, Where’s Waldo for NUDITY?”
“Yeah, that one I did find kind of amusing,” Jacob said
“Well I don’t see any history or nonfiction books so it doesn’t affect your class…” Melissa said.
“Keep scrolling.”
“The Diary of A Young Girl…that’s Anne Frank. It’s banned for homosexual themes. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings…‘anti white sentiment’? A People’s History of the United States for ‘Leftist Propaganda?”
“See! This is bad! These books are important!”
Melissa handed his phone back, humming thoughtfully as she turned back to her lasagna. After a few minutes, she turned back to him.
“Jacob, what do you know about binding books?”
“Not a lot. Why?”
“I think Book Nook number 3 is going to have to wait.”
The next day, Melissa and Jacob checked out as many books as they could fit in her car from the school library and brought them home.
“Are you sure we should be doing this?” Jacob asked nervously, stroking the spine of ‘And Tango Makes Three’ (banned because the penguins are gay).
“Do you want the kids to be able to read these or not?” Melissa asked, carefully removing the cover of ‘Are You There God, It’s Me, Margaret’ (Banned because of content relating to menstrual cycles).
“Of course I do!” Jacob said.
“Get to work then,” Melissa said, passing him the new covers portraying state approved books to put on the banned books.
Together, they worked through the night and into the next day, replacing covers for ‘The Wizard of Oz’ (promotion of socialist values), ‘The Lorax’ (Being anti-logging), and ‘The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe’ (Mysticism). Around noon the next day, a knock on the door jolted them from their work.
“Who is it?” Melissa called.
“Reinforcements!”
Melissa opened the door to the rest of the Abbott Crew, plus Kristin Marie.
“What are you all doing here?”
“I invited them,” Jacob said, “Please don’t be mad. There’s so many books to rebind before Monday.”
“I brought wine!” Janine sang, rushing to the kitchen to get glasses.
Melissa yawned and stepped aside to let them all in. Barbara smiled softly and held the redheads arm.
“You and Jacob are doing a good thing,” she said softly, “But it’s time for us to take over. You go to bed. We’ll take care of this.”
Melissa nodded gratefully and climbed the stairs, glancing down at her work family and smiling. She’d never admit it, but she kind of liked having people in her house. They were all crowded around the table, a glass of wine and a book in each of their hands.
“For the kids!” Jacob said, lifting his glass in a toast.
Melissa mimed raising a glass to him as she headed to her room.
“For the kids,” she whispered, collapsing into bed.
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18 on the choose violence 😏
EDIT: As y'all may have guessed, my queue I was saving drafts of these in was running last night and I forgot to switch the time over so here's the real answer.
18 - It's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on: you want me to CHOOSE?!? You expect me to CHOOSE just ONE character from Sandman that the fandom sleeps on?!?!?!? Oh, jail for 1000 years - well let me spin the roulette wheel Rose and Jed.
ROSE. God I'm emotional about her. She's been through so much, the loss of her baby brother with a father who it's implied was not the nicest, lost her mother and her best friend in the same year, and she nearly destroyed the world but yknow what, she literally did nothing wrong here. She called Dream an asshole and totally got away with it. She's got gay hair and gayer friends (fellow bi!Rose truthers anyone???? Hello??? Someone else please discuss, queer people do all tend to flock together) and I hope she gets everything she wants.
I really want to explore the possibilities of a growing relationship with her and her immortal family sometime. Morpheus isn't just going to forget about her and Jed and him looking out for her baby brother is the only way I can see her kind of starting to warm up to him again. Like I WANT to see that weird tense but possibly loving relationship explored. Dream clearly respected her intelligence and wanted to give her more information (even if he was also using her to find the Corinthian which. Not cool).
(Also I think she'd go NUTS for the library of Dreams. Like she's a writer and suddenly she's seeing all the books never published?? Who wouldn't want to read them all?)
I have feelings about the parallels between her and Death. Plus I have a hc as some of my friends already know, that in one of Rose's low moments Despair finds her and something about the fact that this girl is family tugs at her. She has her function and her duties but she also has a sense of loyalty. So that could cause some seriously juicy potential internal conflict for her AND Rose honestly kind of needs an outlet for her bottled up grief and the weightof responsibility she feels. For Jed, for Lyta and her son...feel free to ask or dm me if you want to know more this post is already long enough xD
(And the fact that in a series where she's ONE OF THE MAIN FUCKING CHARACTERS for multiple episodes of this series she gets so much less attention ON HER OWN SELF - I'm talking art and fic overall PERIOD, let alone stuff where she gets any interiority of her own or her character taken seriously is just. I don't even know man)
jED. My precious baby boy my son. I want to give him a hug. I want to wrap him in a warm blanket and give him cocoa and as much popcorn as he wants. Dream's reaction to Jed was in fact channeling me. This kid has been through too much and he deserves to live a happier life with his sister, so thank God he's gonna get it.
(But also does anyone wanna talk to me about the fact that Jed is a possible candidate for Dream's successor when he's older and might be even more viable than MASSIVE COMIC SPOILER ALERT Daniel Hall and all the ways this could complicate things HELLO.)
Miranda Walker - either the gif search function is broken which isn't beyond the realm of possibility here, or I couldn't find one gif of her in this show. And I KNOW people have made them I just can't find one...sigh
But I really want her to get more attention because her story is so potentially fascinating even if she barely got any screen time. Like this girl is the granddaughter of Desire, that must've massively impacted her life. I want to know how she dealt with the relationship with her children's father going sour and him taking Jed away and her struggling to raise her kids.
And last but certainly not least drumroll please...UNITY. That's right we're giving the whole Walker-Kincaid family some love!!
HER. The queen the legend the moment.
Her story man...it gets me emotional every time. She could've had a life in the waking world. I really want to see more about what her dream life (which we know she experienced as real, with time passing and all, because of the things she said about it) was like. Even without Desire, how did she handle basically growing up in Wonderland surrounded by dreams? (I can't take credit for the Alice in Wonderland vibes that was @violetoftheendless 's great idea.) Did she make friends and a new found family there? Did she see signs she didn't understand at the time of dreams and nightmares falling into chaos and eventually leaving the realm in a slow trickle?
But also she's just such a genuinely lovely person. She took Rose into her heart without a second thought and was prepared to take Jed - I'm sure she didn't know how much more time she had but she knew she didn't have forever, and she wanted a family again and she'd lost her own parents long ago and never gotten to say goodbye...and the kicker is, unlike in the comic where she's basically on her deathbed already, she COULD have possibly lived a little longer. But she chose to sacrifice her new life to save Rose's. If this woman doesn't deserve the Spirit of Love label like I've seen in some truly beautiful meta from @windsweptinred I don't know who does. BUT ALSO she's not a perfect inhuman angel either, she is capable of being charmed by the Corinthian, which - looking around at the fandom, one can see she's not alone so I for one can't blame her too much, but also she met the king of dreams and nightmares and within less than 5 minutes called him a himbo to his face. She's beautifully human with icon behavior and Sandra James-Young deserves all the credit in the world for this role.
#rose walker#jed walker#unity kincaid#miranda walker#choose violence ask game#the sandman#me banging pots and pans together in delight going ROSE AND JED AND UNITY ARE ALL THE BEST CHARACTERS AND I WILL DIE FOR THEM AND YOURE ALL#GONNA HEAR ABOUT IT thanks for giving me the excuse :) not that I need one
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🥰 Saying 'I love you' without saying it
(Brotherly Mario and Luigi moment!)
YEEEEEEEEEEES! BROTHERLY LOVE LET'S GO!
Freak
AO3 link!
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Somewhere in Brooklyn, sometime ago...
Mario was a mess.
He held his head high, and the spark behind his one good eye told Luigi he considered himself victorious, but he hadn't come out of that fight cleanly in the slightest. His knuckles were split open in three places. His shirt was torn and the collar was stretched beyond what a good washing could save. Thankfully, all of his teeth were accounted for, but he still spit blood every few minutes thanks to a split lip and what was probably a nasty bite to the inside of his cheek.
The further he tended to those wounds, the more Luigi panicked.
"Oh man. Mom's gonna freak." He wiped his brother’s bloodied hands clean as gently as possible; Mario was careful not to show any signs of pain, but he couldn’t hide the trembling in his hands. “Wh— what are we gonna tell her?”
Mario didn’t answer right away. He kept his jaw tightly clenched until Luigi decided his skin was clean enough, easing up only when the younger twin reached for the bandages he’d purchased in haste from the nearest convenience store.
“We’ll tell her the truth,” he said. “Some low-life decided to pick on the wrong guy and I wasn’t gonna let him get away with it.”
He clenched his jaw again as Luigi went back to work, wrapping broken skin in cheap gauze. He wouldn’t have much use of his hands until their mother could patch him up more expertly, but that was okay for now, he decided.
With any luck, she wouldn’t pry. All she’d care about was lecturing him — Mario, mio figlio irascibile, use your words, not your fists! — and then grounding him for the next month or two. That would be ideal. She didn’t need to know the reasoning behind his latest (and, to date, most violent) scuffle. He wasn’t ready for her to know.
Staring down at Mario’s hands, comically stiff from an overabundance of wrappings, Luigi felt a telltale stinging behind his eyes. “You fight for the dumbest things sometimes.”
“I don’t think someone spreading rumors about you is a dumb thing to fight about.”
The stinging became uncomfortably pronounced. Luigi bit his lip and fished through the plastic bag by his side once more, grabbing the water bottle hidden beneath rubbing alcohol and ointment and bloodied tissues.
“...It’s not just a rumor, is it?”
Luigi’s breath hitched. It had been phrased as a question, yet Mario’s voice lacked curiosity or incredulity, laced with a strong but not harsh I knew it sort of tone. Suddenly he didn’t have the nerve to look at him. He simply handed the bottle over to him and wiped the condensation off on his shorts, doing his best not to give into the desire to curl up into a ball and roll away.
It was his own fault. Like many other pre-teens, Luigi had a diary. Most of what he wrote within its pages was common knowledge, or just his own attempts at working through his thoughts. Most of what was inside, Mario already knew. The one secret he kept from his twin brother was tucked into its faux-leather covers. He’d stupidly believed it would be safe there.
An hour after realizing it was missing from his school bag, that secret was plastered on the library bulletin. By lunchtime it was on everyone’s lips: Oh my God, that Luigi kid’s gay! Always knew there was something wrong with him.
And three minutes after the final bell, the one who outed him was pinned to the ground in the courtyard receiving the beating of a lifetime. Had Luigi not found the strength to pry him off, he was almost convinced Mario would have killed the guy.
“You’re a freak!” the battered bully had shouted at Mario, Luigi’s diary splayed open and speckled with blood beside him. “Just like that fucking queer you call a brother!”
Mario was hurt, and he was going to be in massive trouble, and it was all Luigi’s fault. All because he was too chicken to keep it internalized, all because he was the weakling that always needed his brother, all because he was a fucking queer and any and every other derogatory accusation that had been thrown his way today. He pulled his knees to his chest and hugged them tightly and focused all of his energy on not crying, not here, not now.
“Weegee… why didn’t you tell me?” Mario’s voice was oddly soft. Was he upset? Was he sympathetic? He had no reason to be sympathetic. Luigi sniffed.
“Guess I didn’t want you thinking I was a freak, too,” he confessed. Mario and Luigi against the big, wide world. It had always been that way. He couldn’t stomach the thought of that changing, of Mario seeing him differently, of losing him for it. He would have kept this under wraps his whole life if it ensured that never came to pass.
An arm wrapped around him suddenly, and Mario pulled him in, jostling him almost painfully.
“Oh, give me a break, Lu,” he said. “You know who’s a real freak? Mrs. Loriey. She’s got a whole shrine set up to Robert De Niro in her supply closet! Photoshops herself into pictures with him! She’s probably shopped his face onto pictures of naked guys, let’s be real.”
“Mario!” The thought was shocking yet plausible enough that Luigi couldn’t help but laugh. Mario made a victorious noise and jostled him again.
“Or literally anyone who gets a kick out of putting other people down,” he continued, his voice getting lower as he spoke. “You know how desperate for attention people like that have to be? Imagine always thinking ‘How can I ruin some schmuck’s day so I can feel all high ‘n’ mighty?’ People like that aren’t just freaks, they’re losers, plain and simple.”
Luigi nodded, and though the first of his tears began escaping, his smile stayed strong. “So you don’t… think I’m a freak?” He chanced a glance sideways, where he found Mario smiling at him. The skin around his black eye was pale and wet where he’d held the water bottle to it and his split lip made his smile look awkward and crooked, but he knew well enough that it was genuine.
“Nah. But you know what you are?” he asked, squeezing Luigi’s shoulder. “You’re my bro. And I’ll always have your back, okay?”
He reached his other arm around to pull Luigi into a proper hug, and Luigi returned it without hesitation, sniffling and willing his tears to slow.
It had always been them against the world, and that wasn’t changing anytime soon. As far as bad days went, he decided that this one wasn’t so bad after all.
#fun fact! this was actually the very first Mario-centric story idea I ever had#I came up with it like a week after seeing the movie for the first time and it was aaaaallllll downhill from there /pos#so this is a fic I've been meaning to write for a while#thank you!!#peaches' fancy fics#super mario bros#smb#tw blood#tw injury#tw homophobia#peaches’ prodigious prompts
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NOT RELATED TO FOS but just want to ask for my own fun:
I am very interested in knowing what your favourite novel/book series are! Please reply or send in asks with them—I’m always interested in recs! Doesn’t matter what genre or type of novel; I like everything, I assure you lol
Please let me know what your favourite books are ❤️
Under the cut are some recent liked reads of mine:
FIRSTLY… use your libraries. truly the best places in the world. 90% of what I read was from a library and the other 10% was books I bought years ago and finally decided to read
The Spear Cuts Through Water — Two men shepherd a dying god through the lands to help overthrow a tyrannical regime. One pet love letter to oral history, one part gay love story, one part creative epic fantasy. This novel is stylish, artsy and not for everyone but for the people that it’s for!!! it’s for you!!! The story is told in layers: YOU, the reader in second person, the story itself, the ghosts of the people inside of the story. I think to see if this is for you, reading the first couple of pages is a good indication of the style and prose and if you’d like it. (I paired it with the audiobook and enjoyed reading both in tandem)
Know My Name — a memoir by Chanel Miller—certainly read the description and check TWs for this. because the subject is not easy but I sobbed so hard during this. Not just for her pain but for her joy. If you’re interested in memoirs, I recommend this one! (I also enjoyed Tara Westover’s “Educated”, which i read years ago). Honestly reading this book I kept thinking THIS IS A MUST READ, THIS IS A MUST READ–heartbreaking, poignant, cathartic. It’s long, but if the subject matter interests you at all, i’d say give it a try!
Chain Gang All-Stars — Fight to the death to earn your freedom from prison! I’ve read some reviews of this book that call the allegory heavy-handed, but I didn’t mind that at all. A novel obviously about the prison industrial complex in America, Chain Gang All Stars made me rethink how I view compassion, and personally seek out and research the prison abolition movement. This novel isn’t perfect, but it did for me exactly what the author was intending. I also couldn’t put it down. The Audiobook is great, it has multiple narrators! If you’re interested in thought-provoking speculative fiction…
Project Hail Mary — A man wakes up on a spaceship with no recollection of why he’s there—learning that he needs to save the world. I didn’t like this as much as everything else on this list but I think it’s a more easy recommendation. I had a lot of fun with this book and found it to be an engaging read all around. This is the only Weir I’ve read, and I don’t think I’ll be seeking out The Martian anytime soon if that says anything about the novel (I did really like it I swear lol)
ANYTHING SHIRLEY JACKSON — I read We Have Always Lived in the Castle and Haunting of Hill House and loved both a lot. Not the sort of books if you like plot, but if you’re into creepy atmosphere and characterization…i think there might just be a reason Shirley Jackson is a classic. The way she bends reality, seeds chilling aspects and weaves horror around settings is very sharp. I recommend We Have Always Lived In The Castle more (it’s short!) and it’s great as audiobook or physical
JUNJI ITO…king — I read Uzumaki and re-read a lot of his short stories and Gyo. KING. The visions of his art haunted me. If possible, I recommend reading these physically, as the act of turning the page on to whatever unspeakable horror awaits you is incomparable. If you like body horror at all, even a little, this is a mangaka I think you should try as if you haven’t already lol
Our Wives Under The Sea — God. What can I say about this? A story about grief, a story about watching your loved ones change beyond recognition. Body horror. Sapphic. Beautiful prose. Tragic. Loved all of it.
Metamorphosis — Yes the Kafka one. Yes I liked it. Yes I related a lot to being turned into a burdensome, ugly roach.
Roaming (graphic novel) — Not a story where a lot (or anything) happens. But I found this relatable and able to capture that age of girlhood with expert precision. Not much happens, really nothing happens; just a snapshot and fragment of this price of these girls lives. They are immature, messy, weird. (I also really enjoyed It Happened One Summer and one of my favourite movies is Only Yesterday so that should tell you a lot about my tastes in slow, character snapshot pieces). The art is lovely, of course
Eileen — Stinky, miserable, unlikeable Eileen Dunlop becomes obsessed with mysterious, attractive Rebecca. This one very aggressively I have to say ITS NOT FOR EVERYONE. I can’t even explain why I liked it so much, but I as so absorbed into the setting. I had the feeling of being transported into Eileen’s cold, gloomy New England. Eileen is gross, putrid, hard to read and nothing happens at all until the end. But also i loved it. I can’t explain this one. I don’t even recommend it but definitely check TWs. Now it’s a movie starring Anne Hathaway and I finally got to say “the book was better”
Bluest Eye — CHECK TW FOR THIS ONE I’ve loved Toni Morrison since highschool, but I never actually finished any of her novels. This being her debut novel is so shocking; it was poetic, devastating, uncomfortable. Another book I don’t exactly recommend because of its graphic nature, and how sharply and uncomfortably certain scenes are written, but so much was so poignant—I have a lot of this book highlighted and to share:
I recommend reading the Author’s Note, the description and the TWs and see if it interests you! I think Toni Morrison explains herself and her intentions well in the author’s note. (I need to get around to Morrison’s other work, but for some reason I started in chronological order)
I’m going to stop here because I’m realizing I like a lot of “weird” books that I know are probably not widely liked but akfjkskd WHAT CAN I SAY I LIKE A WEIRD LITTLE FREAK
Other notables: I read a lot of Grady Hendrix and I don’t LOVE love him, but reliably I do have fun. I couldn’t even stomach the scene (YOU KNOW THE SCENE) in my best friend’s exorcism—i’d recommend him for some intro to horror! I liked How to Sell a Haunted House but my friend didn’t so there’s that too.
I read this around when it was published but I will never shut up about In The Dream House (another memoir) so good. so strong. so beautiful. AH.
I also started the Locked Tomb series and I only didn’t put it on this list because I’ve only read Gideon so far but I liked it a lot also.
I’m very excited to do more reading this year. Mostly I’ve been getting through the popular titles…as you can see…. But i’m hoping to read more fantasy and sci-fi this year! it’s just unfortunate they’re so long 😭
#not fox of sunholt#books can be so divided#people I love and respect and adore have hated books i loved#and vice versa#and you just gotta learn that’s okay!!!!#which is my way of saying you might hate these books#DONT BLAME ME lol#borkclub
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stranger things headcanons because i said so (fruity four + billy)
basically them in my dr
steve harrington
does restaurant challenges unironically. like he has to eat a big wet daddy burger in an hour just for a plaque on the wall and a pic with the owner smh
calls his car babygirl
modern au where he texts the girl he likes at 1:11, 2:22, etc just to get her hopes up
loves madonna. you can't tell me otherwise
he does yoga. and if you catch him he'll threaten your life
calls his house 'the love shack'
if you were just becoming friends with him he would listen to your music or do your hobbies with you just to make you happy
would totally rock out to stacy's mom
he gives off lactose intolerant vibes. i do not make the rules.
would definitely have playlists called "alt songs that make you drink monster" or "sad vibes" or "coronavirus got me like"
would've fucking KILLED on grindr
would love twilight. he's on team jacob
laughs at minion memes
robin buckley
the literal queen of your mom jokes
she would totally say "who up wonking they willy rn"
would work at spencer's
she had a ton of hamsters that died the most traumatic deaths when she was a kid and they're all buried in her backyard
loooves poop and fart jokes
she still sleeps with the same stuffed bear she had when she was little (and we are NOT judging)
says "oh my goodness gracious" at the funniest possible times
would literally FUCK at rainbow loom
her childhood room was purple and steve picks on her for it
cannot use chopsticks to save her life
one time steve made her mad so she literally WENT OFF THE GRID and he didn't see her for a whole week and he was freaking the fuck out
was a bug girl. worms? fuck yeah. roly polys? best buds. what the fuck is that thing? it has a terrarium now.
literally is the most caring person on the planet. she's always worrying about you and what you're feeling and what you're doing
only eats the marshmallows out of lucky charms
is scared of bees
billy hargrove
he bakes. he bakes cookies, cupcakes, you name it. if you ever catch him he's FORCING you to taste whatever he's making
an AVID reader. he's got books all over his room, stolen library books in the glove box of his car, and he's reading the hawkins post every morning no matter what
his mom taught him how to sew. lets say after a mishap with the whole 'different dimension' thing, you're bummed cause you got a hole in your favorite shirt. billy would be like "i can fix it for you" and you're like "what??" but he just gets mad and goes "just give me the fucking shirt" and then the next day he's bringing it to you good as new
hates cooked carrots
can fall asleep anywhere. couch, car, at a party, you name it. he will find a spot to fall asleep
he was actually very interested in supernatural stuff when he was younger. and then when max started telling him about everything billy was like "wait. i read this about... blah blah blah" and max is just so surprised
he can totally make a mean cocktail. you want a pina colada? whipped up in seconds. craving a margarita? he's got the salt ready. feeling like an old fashioned? liquor's already in front of him.
he never wears sunscreen. not a single spf anywhere on his body.
calls girls broads and you can NOT tell me otherwise
totally thinks metallica was at its best in their thrash era. sorry bud i'd hate to break it to you
hates the fourth of july cause of y'know.
i feel like he would totally get into dog rescue after he leaves hawkins.
would totally kick ass at mario kart. like he's THE BEST and he always chooses bowser
would totally bash you for your music taste if it was different than his. "what the hell is a beatle?" "mick jagger is not hot." "queen? aren't they gay?" "zeppelin? who taught you that?"
a literal GOD at making mac n' cheese
nancy wheeler
so so so stubborn it's actually annoying.
call her 'einstein' and you're six feet under the floorboards
the tom cruise poster in her room has stared her in the face ever since robin commented on it
nancy's actually amazing at rollerskating. like even mike was surprised because when did she get good at that?
she has nightmares about what happened to barb multiple times a week :(
please know that if you're really close to her she would kill someone for you. no hesitation.
she's super literal? like when someone asks a hypothetical question she's like "when would this happen? why w-" and then immediately get cut off
has a tonnn of notebooks/journals just filled with random stuff like doodles, school notes, reminders, and little ramblings
has plants named after each of her friends and when something's wrong with one of the plants, there's always something wrong with the friend.
is a feminist (slay)
she saves every birthday card given to her and keeps them in a box in her closet
she's a morning person. up and at 'em before 9 every morning and it pisses the gang off when they all sleep in the wheeler's basement. "nancyyyyy..... close the curtains i beg of you..." "it's such a beautiful day, don't you think?"
she's actually amazing at shoplifting.
eddie munson
is allergic to peanuts
when i tell you this man is spontaneous... think 100x more. he'll pull up to your house at 11pm and declare that he planned a road trip while sitting in detention earlier that day and that you're going with him. "eddie what are you doing here? it's so late." "we're going to ohio. we're gonna stop in columbus for like five minutes and drive back." "what the hell."
has cried to sweet child o' mine and will keep that fact to his grave
owns multiple pairs of boxers with superhero logos on them.
definitely has 10 in 1 shampoo that he uses for everything.
ate dirt as a child
if you ever smoke pot with him, just expect him to say the weirdest shit while he's doing whatever. "do you think steve is thinking about me right now?" "yoooooo...... uh.... yo..... um...... i forgot....." "i want to get a cat." "shut up eddie."
he's just,,,, so oblivious,,,,, to sarcasm, flirting, jokes, etc
has ADHD, no doubt about it.
just like billy, he'll bash you on your music taste no matter what. even if you like the same music as him. "that's your favorite tool song? god, you could do way better than that." "c'mon, you know that dio sang better than ozzy." "munson, you're lying straight through your teeth and you know it."
will make you friendship bracelets and you KNOW you're wearing them till you die.
modern au where you're facetiming him and he takes SO MANY facetime pics of you and sometimes makes them his lockscreen. he thinks he's THE SHIT for that.
he giggles. a total giggler.
he flicks dustin in the head all the time.
#can you tell billys my fav#stranger things imagine#stranger things hc#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#fruity four#steve harrington#steve harrington x reader#robin buckley#robin buckley x reader#billy hargrove#billy hargrove x reader#stranger things season four#stranger things#steve harrington hc#robin buckley hc#nancy wheeler#nancy wheeler x reader#nancy wheeler headcanons#billy hargrove hc#eddie munson hc
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NSFW and the importance of AO3
My biggest concern if Twitter really die is nsfw artist and sex workers. Us NSFW artist has been betrayed time and time again by many platform who used to welcome us then spit us out once the platform is big enough or to bow down to advertisers.
TikTok censorship is beyond ridiculous
Pinterest wouldn't even allow topless art of a woman
Instagram too not that friendly to nsfw artist
Tumblr banned porn post 2018 and wouldn't hesitate to delete your blog
I'm not sure about pillowfort i heard it's allow nsfw but not as free as twitter? Correct me if I'm wrong tho i never use it
Facebook? Nah i wouldn't even bother.
There's Pixiv but it's not accessible for all people
Mastodon is still new and frankly many said that it has a steep learning curve
DeviantArt turned it's back both to both nsfw and sfw artist with their censorship (literally i see more and more artist who have to censor tits, cock, asshole and even pussy) and also their bullshit piece of shit AI generation + stealing from artist for their generator
Sites like Rule 34 and Hentai site are there but they are not really platform to grow your audience as an artist + too many art thief
Patreon I heard implementing more censorship? It's not social media but many artist using it
Poipiku is a Japanese platform and not all people are native Japan speaker
The fucking dystopian corporations like apple and Google ( and purity culture both in fandom and non fandom) keep sanitizing the internet and wiped out nsfw content for profit (it's not for protecting children or blah blah blah it's all for ads) kicking out all nsfw content creators from all platform they touch, forcing us to wander with no home to express ourselves. NSFW artist still have some wiggle room to thrive but I think sex workers have it harder to thrive on a more mainstream platform...
I know there's many sites for sex workers like for camgirl or whatever but mainstream sites that once more accepting of nsfw has been kicking down sex workers down to the curb again and again and again
If Twitter let's say goes down suddenly or gradually goes down and maybe banning nsfw... Artist will lost the last mainstream global platform that allow them to grow an audience as an nsfw artist
This for fandom nsfw artist who are not using site like poipiku and pixiv it left us with only AO3 to store our art
Yes you can post art to AO3 just tag it as art, literally it is the best safe haven for writing + art with it's mission to protect people creation, they even have lawyer and stuff to protect your rights + AO3 is super nsfw friendly literally you can upload anything that is legal within the USA law (that's a lot of things, thank God it's not based on my country Indonesia law or you wouldn't even see gay people kissing)
But AO3 is primarily used for fanfic + it's not a social media and shouldn't ever be a social media, it is an archive to preserve fanwork. It is fanwork library of Alexandria. The downside because it's not a social media and thus doesn't have features like chatting, algorithm and stuff is that it's harder for you to grow like in other social media. Let's say Twitter really gone if i want to post a series of comic/manga
Then i have to post the sfw/censored pages to Tumblr + post the nsfw page to AO3 it'll be a hassle for both me and my readers but it's possible
Still such a hassle and it'll be easier to just post to Twitter or when Tumblr still allowed nsfw
Also original artist will find it harder to gain audience faster on Tumblr and AO3 because both website are primarily for fandom. Like i can draw a sketch of let's say Anakin Skywalker and it'll get more traction than a fully rendered piece of original artwork
I mean it's possible but if you want to get traction easily as an original artist your art have to be godlike to be noticed amongst seas of fanart that the general public sees as more favorable... I mean you can try to build audience with doing fanwork and once you got big you can post more OG art
Still... It's easier to grow as an original artist on Twitter than on Tumblr or other platform...
Look yeah it's fun to see Twitter on fire but if it's really gone it'll be a disaster for nsfw creators/artist especially those who are making money from it to keep the roof above their head. I hope Twitter doesn't die tbh (I only made acc to see nsfw art, if Tumblr didn't ban porn i wouldn't even bother to use it or too many social media) also this situation brought back the reminder of AO3 importance as the safest and biggest archive especially for nsfw writers and fan artist that keep losing places to post their work, express themselves and earn a living
#ao3#essay#discourse#fanwork#fanfic#fanart#twitter#capitalism#puritanism#pro ao3#ao3 discourse#social media#writing#censorship#artist
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Working Class Gods
So I am fully aware that this will be so soaked through with bias and based on personal anecdotal “evidence” that it will start dripping down and staining the carpet. If you choose to engage with this, please remember that these are opinions, UPG, and completely pulled from my ass.
This isn’t meant to be a “hot take”, merely an observation. I think the Gods (of any pagan belief but I’m talking about the Hellenic deities here) are more connected to and more present in the lives of working class and “middle class” people and have always been that way. Let me explain.
This may just be my bias as someone who has only ever known a working class life, who doesn’t get caught up in the intensity of ritual and research, and has read American Gods about twenty times at this point, but I think the Gods as I know and see them are and always have been of the working classes of society. However you want to define that. I believe the Gods have a deeper and more organic relationship with pagans who identify and live lives at those sort of levels. I am not saying that those who would be considered “upper class” or those who could be categorized as “the 1%” in any given society can’t experience and connect with the Gods. I cant and won’t ever say that. Just the more it turns in my head and stews, the more I believe what I’ve said.
The Gods are everywhere. They can be found literally anywhere if you look for them. They aren’t limited to the things humans create or the ways we’ve categorized ourselves and them. Aphrodite can just as easily be worshipped by a millionaire Instagram influencer as a teenager who works at Sephora as a job to help her parents pay the rent. Athena can be found walking the aisles of Harvard or Oxford just as much as being among the shelves of a small town bookmobile that is the closest that town has to a library for 100 miles. Dionysus can be found at the biggest and more glamorous galas and events just as well as being able to sit on the couch with a gay teen in Alabama who isn’t out to anyone but their best friend. Apollo can be on the stages of a sold out stadium show just as much as being in the furthest, cheapest back row seat. I could give examples for every Olympian and Titan with a name, but I’ll just leave it there.
The stories we have are known to have originated as oral traditions. Oral stories told to people until someone wrote them down, and even then they still were told as bedtime stories or around a campfire. It was the populous, the working class, that told those stories most of the time. Sure, an emperor or a queen might tell their children stories sometimes, but a majority of what we have came from the continuous belief and propagation of stories by the farmers, smiths, fishermen and artists. And I think that’s the same as now. Anyone can become enthralled with the stories and mythologies retold, some across a book of retelling in any library. But I think it’s the kids who aren’t in the upper echelons of private school and trust funds are more prone to that discovery and for that to stick with them in a meaningful way.
I’m lucky that my gods aren’t used by people in positions of power to control society. I’m lucky that my religion isn’t the dominant one and my gods names are being taken in vain to control others. I can’t speak for how the world was in the past when that WAS more likely the case, but for today I can say that I’m glad it isn’t.
One thing that has always stuck with me about my favorite book, American Gods by Neil Gaiman is how the old gods are on the level of working class people. It has stuck with me into my own fiction writing as well as my beliefs. I do believe that if the Gods were to take physical form and function in today’s society (maybe they do, who knows. I’ve met people I could easily believe were Hephaestus or Hermes), they would take on a working class life and working blue collar jobs. I wouldn’t expect to see any of them taking high positions of power, being politicians or royalty. I would expect to run into them at the DMV, in line at the grocery store, or behind a cash register. I’d expect to see Apollo running a small Etsy shop, Hephaestus to work at a factory, Hermes to run a gas station or auto repair shop, Zeus to be a pilot, Poseidon to be a lifeguard or work at a community pool.
I see the gods in the everyday. I see them in all the things of my life and connect with them in everything I do, not just when I’m at my altar. Seeing the spectacular in the mundane or the ordinary was how I was raised and how I still work today. The Gods are there in chipped nail polish, calm Sunday mornings, road trips in a cheap car, and in the lyrics of my favorite songs. I started thinking about this more as I was curating a small playlist on Spotify for what I call “My Hymns”. They are regular songs that I associate with the Gods. Some have some spiritual meaning intended for a different deity, and some are just match the ✨vibes✨of the Gods. I listen to that playlist as a devotional act, letting each song remind me of its own god or goddess, letting my singing along or quiet listening be like a hymn being belted out to the rafters of my own private temple. It just gets me thinking about my Gods and it makes me happy.
I hope this all makes sense and I didn’t mince my words too much.
Cheers
-D
#personal#blog#hellenism#hellenic polytheist#hellenic polytheism#thoughts#Post#paganism#blue collar#upg#gods#goddesses#theoi#deities#essay#rant#hellenic gods#working class
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Joey Drew is Gay and there's no way around it (Pt 1)
I want to immediately preface this by saying I never want to assume that a character is gay, straight, bi, etc. Usually the creator will confirm this type of thing, or it will end up being confirmed or implied later down the line. Joey, however, has something unique in comparison to the rest of the cast- we have his autobiography. This paired with information found in the games themselves and additional novels already give us a pretty big library of information to draw from. We have most of his life story given to us on a silver platter, and in my opinion, the non-heteronormativity speaks for itself.
Let's start with Dark Revival, because it's an easy starting point to offshoot from.
Memory Joey tells Audrey this: for Joey Drew, a family was something he always wanted, but could never have. For most people, this probably translates as Joey being too absorbed in his work, himself, and the studio to raise a family. While Joey did have a big ego and undoubtedly had his hands full, I struggle to believe that this would prevent him outright from even trying.
First off, if Joey's end goal was "a family," then there are a million questions that immediately come up. What kind of "family" was Joey striving for? Dark Revival seems to at least confirm that he wanted a child of his own, and to be fair, solely having Audrey seemed to complete him.
When Joey was alive, there were some pretty easy ways to accomplish having a family. One would be the heterosexual route, marrying a woman and having a child, and arguably this would be the easiest. He could have also adopted, especially if he was Ace, or if there was a possibility he was just an infertile man.
Here's the thing, though- he didn't do either of those.
Now, I fully understand that if Joey were a mouse stuck in a maze, he would take the longest possible route to get to the cheese. He's a bit stubborn and childish, and developed his god complex faster than a Polaroid camera photo. BUT, his two brain cells kick in whenever there's something he truly wants.
Joey doesn't operate on brute force. He outsources absolutely everything. He'll wrap up an entire web of people into doing his dirty work, but he himself wants to take the path of least resistance. So, when dealing with a personal matter that can be very easily tended to...why the hell ignore the entire thing? Having a kid would have worked pretty smoothly with his self-interests.
The way Joey goes about actually "having" kids is very strange. Firstly, there's Bendy, born via Ink Machine. Secondly, there's Audrey, also born via Ink Machine.
Hey Joey, quick question...why are all your kids birthed via giant metal box?
Oh, I'm not kidding about Bendy being Joey's child, either.
In Illusion of Living, Joey states that he views Bendy as his son, and this is specified to not be a hyperbolic statement. Nathan also volunteers the information that Joey felt the same way about Bendy as he did about his own son (Nathan Jr.) Joey also describes Bendy as his muse and his messenger. Joey's philosophy, The Illusion of Living, is the belief that fiction and reality are the same thing, which feeds into a heavy insistence that Bendy is real, and he scoffs at the idea that people would dare think he isn't.
Illusion of Living was released in 1942. So, starting in at least 1942 (though I suspect earlier,) Joey was very protective of the image of this character, and convinced himself that this creation was his own son.
In short, he was already attempting to fill a childless void with a fictional substitute.
However, the sad fact is that Bendy was ultimately a filler child that still couldn't satisfy him. But when Audrey came into being, that was it. Joey wanted a human child, and Audrey was the closest thing to that, hence why she was his last attempt. So he settled down and raised her until his passing.
But we’re not done talking about Bendy yet. Joey's intense connection to Bendy has far-reaching implications.
PART 2>>
#there will be multiple parts to this by the way. I don't sit around and read Illusion of Living for nothing#I like Joeysplaining and I want to finally force you guys to look at it too#joey drew#joey drew is gay#archer writes
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@punkbarbarian & @creacherkeeper / herakles - euripedes (tr. anne carson) / @creacherkeeper / wild geese, mary oliver / not used to it / @beatricexbenedick / do not go gentle into that good night, dylan thomas / savannah (played by kaity) / @typewriter-worries / naddpod
[Image description: ten screenshots of text on white or dark grey backgrounds.
1: a screenshot of a tumblr post reading “no because im actually going insane about this. the fact that none of us were really supposed to be librarians/guardians. we are literally the bottom of the barrel because everyone else was picked off before most of us even knew magic was fucking real!!!! and we’ve been thrust into this responsibility because we Have to or else the library and everyone in it would be destroyed. and of course we suck!! we weren’t meant to be doing this in the first place but now we have no choice and it’s just AAAHHHHHHH “
a response from creacherkeeper that reads “okay i know you reblogged this from me but “literally cosmically-defined not cut out for greatness but you simply have to save the world anyway because we need you to and there’s no one else” is something that can be soooooo #also taking a bunch of early 20 somethings who don’t have family or whove never had friends #and saying #love each other and care for each other and protect each other like your lives depend on it #because not only do they #but the fate of the whole world depends on how well yall can work as a team #family by fate #god. #im unwell about this game #library of lensa
2: three lines from a play, underlined in red. “Theseus: Stop. Give me your hand. I am your friend. / Herakles: I fear to stain your clothes with blood. / Theseus: Stain them, I don’t care.”
3: “THEY NEED TO BE FRIENDS
simply all the pcs growing up so lonely for such radically different reasons
oughh”
4: “You do not have to walk on your knees/ for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. / You only have to let the soft animal of your body / love what it loves. / Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. / Meanwhile the world goes on.”
5: “Maybe it’s just part of being an adventuring party, he thinks, or maybe they never should have been asked to do this so young.”
6: A screenshot of a discord message from hollis (he/ him) “kai is like a really fucked up camp counselor” it has one 🥰 react.
7: “Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, / And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, / Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight / Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, / Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
8: “She dislikes lensa, sure, but lensa has had mortals before and will have mortals again.”
9: “Love is at the center of it all. Love is the point.”
10: “The world should have protected you, but you have been asked to protect it. What an honor, what an injustice.” The text is highlighted in a light purple, with a reference number at the end. End ID.]
i am feeling normal about the library of lensa (lie)
#web weaving#personal#nettle :)#c:lensa#litstack#the little smily at the end of nettles tag is so funny to me#this woman is so so sad and so are all her coworkers#and the fate of the world relies on their ability as a group to like be people
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With all the buzz around Havers being in series 5, I thought I’d compile all the things this could mean into a nice list:
1. We get another flashback into the Captains life.
It doesn’t have to be his death, but we could get to see more from the captain. How he lived after the war, how he coped with an essential part of his identity being taken away from him, him wearing his civvy clothes (please god let there be a tank top). We might find out about his family, where he went after the war ended, where he lived, who he lived with, what his job was.
2. We get to see his death.
The long awaited reveal. We finally understand why his medals are backwards, why his Sam Browne belt is on backwards, why he was wearing his uniform after the war ended, why he was at Button House after the war ended, how he died without leaving any marks on him.
3. We get to see a relationship between the two of them.
It seems unlikely I know, but suppose for a moment that the Captain knew full well that he was gay and that he loved Havers, and he even confessed this to him, finding that Havers felt the same way. Maybe they lived together, maybe they were in sham marriages to minimise suspicion. Maybe Havers was by his side until the very end like the loyal second-in-command we know him to be and held him as he slipped into the ghostly plane and weeped over his dying body. Maybe he told him he loved him. Maybe he called him by name. Maybe they kiss.
4. Havers was a Ghost at Button House
If “Gone Gone” taught us anything, it’s that there once was a ghost at Button House called “William” who moved on. Maybe Havers was the man murdered in the library. Maybe the Captain went to Button House all dressed up in his uniform to meet Havers and finally tell him how he felt, only to find him dead, having been killed by someone seeking revenge. Maybe the Captain loses him all over again. After Havers had survived North Africa, after the Captain had overcome the conflict inside himself and found the courage to confess everything. Maybe they won the battle, only to lose the war.
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dialogue prompts
for those who don't know, my life is bonkers and I cope by making prompt lists out of the more bizarre things I say/people say to me/I hear by being in proximity of equally weird people. send a number with a character/ship/dynamic of your choosing and I'll do what I can
“So I may have accidentally recruited your ex to help me move.” “I’m so sorry, was he awful?”
“How’s living next to a construction site?” “I prefer the sound of people playing pool.” “That bad, huh?”
“You’re the main character!” “Stop saying I’m the main character, I have been the snarky, comic relief my whole life and I’m not stopping now.”
“I can’t quit my job, I can’t quit my job-” “What happened?” “Some guy wanted to talk to me about his prostate.” “Don’t you work at a library?”
“So because I’m me, I made a spreadsheet about it.” “You’re incredible.”
“You signed me up for a job interview?” “Yeah.”
“You’re not going to believe what he said.” “I find that hard to believe, try me.”
“I accidentally gave you so many traits.” “Hey, I had autism first.”
“I let you kiss me one time-” “It has been more than one time.”
“Were you here for the male model thing?” “No?”
“Have fun!” “Kill me.” “Or just don’t kill anyone I guess.”
“If you call Latin a dead language one more time I’m going to throw myself across this desk at you.”
“I’m going to ask you a question and you’re going to feel attacked.” “Fine.” “Why does it have to be that way?”
“I just took a quiz for fun and accidentally did geometry by hand.” “Nerd.”
“I’d wear shorts.” “It’s snowing.”
“You have a very expressive face.” “I don’t like that you noticed that.”
“When do you leave?” “In like an hour, why?” “Can you build things?” “Yes, but I repeat, why?”
“So here I am, sitting and talking about amputations-” “I have absolutely no idea where this is going, but I love it.”
“Did the raccoon get into the attic again?”
“It’s 8:30 in the morning on a Saturday, something better actually be on fire.”
“Is a potato a vegetable?”
“Everything you do is calculated.” “You make me sound like a robot.”
“I’m so sorry, I’m going to be late.” “Everything okay?” “Yeah, no, I’m fine, I just may have broken my foot and I need to go to urgent care.” “That is… the opposite of fine.”
“Don’t question why I know how to pop the screen out of a window.” “Our fucking door won’t open, as long as we can get outside, I don’t care.”
“So Thursday was a bad day for you then?”
“You used to be buff.” “I thought you were going to say something entirely different, but I guess we’re going this way then.”
“How are you not freaking out right now?” “I’ve been living with this for months now dude, this is just entertainment for me.”
“I was elected most responsible at summer camp when I was five.” “Some things never change.”
“I had a chemistry teacher in high school who could write with both hands at the same time. She needed an exorcism.”
“The age of the child you hit with your car determines the number of points you get.”
“How’d the meeting go?” “I think I came out as gay to the entire board.” “What the fuck.”
“This is probably the only dick pic I’ll ever get and that’s okay.”
“Oh my god, I out-autismed the whole group chat.”
“No more kisses until you stop apologizing for being human.” “That’s not fair, you know that’ll work on me.”
“I can feel my bones.” “That’s not ideal”
“You dumb bitch.” “It worked, didn’t it?”
“Good news, you've just unlocked my niche special interest that I can and will talk for at least ten minutes straight about. Are you ready to learn?”
“You know what I’m talking about, you do not have the moral high ground.”
“I’m going to be so real with you, I literally hate this. Like this sucks.”
“I don’t think you understand that this is the greatest news I’ve ever been given. Like genuinely, this is the happiest I’ve been in weeks.”
“Good to know you would have died very early in the Middle Ages.”
“Is that a mosquito bite? Dude, it’s March.”
“You know you’re going to have a good day when the maintenance guy says ‘well that’s different’.”
“Yeah, I don’t know, the last time I cried I think it was December.” “It’s April?” “Hey, the time before that it was July, so.”
“No wait, turn up the music. Never mind, I thought it was the Law and Order theme.” “Do you think I have the Law and Order theme on a CD in my car?”
“Please don’t assault my boyfriend.”
“Would you like a new best friend? Because I think I found your new best friend.”
“Guess who had a baby.” “No.”
“What is the purpose of nipple rings?” “Decoration.” “Like a Christmas tree!”
“I honestly don’t know how to be a person anymore. Please don’t contact me for 3-5 business days while I sort that out.”
#ellis writes#prompts#writing prompts#dialogue prompts#send asks#if I can remember the context for half of these it will be a miracle
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