friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

cannot stop thinking about saltburn in the context of the growing trend of criticizing movies for having sex & nudity. there’s all of this fucked up sexual stuff happening, but it’s all one degree removed from an actual sex scene. where we would expect to find nudity, we instead have blood (venetia) & shadows (farleigh) as our visuals. where we do see nudity, it’s either in a sexless context or it technically amounts to masturbation rather than sex (looking at you, grave scene). we never get the standard sex scene modern audiences seem to hate so much or anything even remotely resembling it. it’s what was asked for, and it’s also so much worse. you’re deeply disturbed, but thank god you don’t have to see tits

forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

I offer you some lambs for now until I can get all my art properly queued up and sorted :P

Back on my nonsense with another self indulgent comic turned storyboard and value practice.

But for a bit more context, Raph gets massive migraines after the invasion as result of the krangification and mind probing. Mikey definitely knows what’s going on, but can’t get Raph to admit that he needs help.

plug a little weird but they chill

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like there is a particular kind of sadness (or loneliness, if you will) that ace/aro folk feel.

feeling insane about Jefferson and Aaron Davis because the Prowler is a notorious criminal, one that has hurt and killed and you know it, but it’s still your brother that you find in the alley

i like to think goth is a gender in of itself

Wei Wuxian eats a watermelon. Yep!

Aziraphale never chose Heaven over Crowley. Aziraphale chose CROWLEY OVER HEAVEN.

What Crowley saw was Aziraphale choosing Heaven over Crowley, and some imagined, idealized Angel Crowley over the real Crowley.

The fandom at large has lots of interpretations. Aziraphale chose Angel Crowley over Crowley. Aziraphale chose humanity over Crowley. Azirphale wanted Crowley to be happy.

BUT.

Azirphale didn't choose anything over Crowley.

Aziraphale chose CROWLEY. He didn't choose humanity, he didn't choose Heaven, he didn't choose some long-dead version of Crowley. He took a bad situation, and he said, Crowley, you're the only person I trust to help me with this.

The Metatron wasn't going to just leave them be. Aziraphale's not stupid. And so he chose Crowley. He chose Crowley above all the angels he's worked with in Heaven, and said you know what fuck them, you're the one I trust, you're the one I want to work with. He said I know you're a demon and you're supposed to be evil and the enemy but I trust you more than I trust ANY of them.

I NEED YOU.

I need you because I don't trust them. I need you because being there alone will destroy me. I need you to help me make things right.

Aziraphale looked at heaven and saw a problem that needed fixing, and then he said I can't do this on my own, and then he said Crowley, you're the only one I trust.

What Crowley heard was, you're the bad guys. You're a demon, and you'll always be less because you're fallen.

But what Aziraphale meant was, I don't care that you're a demon. You're the only one I trust. Please come back to Heaven with me. I want you by my side in Heaven, because you mean so much to me.

What Aziraphale meant was, fuck the others. I love you.

bring my heart back home

insp.

thinking about klance.

keith who is always left behind and abandoned, either voluntarily or not. keith who has trouble trusting people and talking to people and getting along with people and-…keith having trouble with people in general. keith who is used to fending for himself and not relying on anyone bc the two (2) times he’s done that, his parents and shiro (died, left, disappeared), didn’t end well. keith who despite finding shiro again couldn’t help the gap forming between them as his brain and heart insist that something will happen again and shiro being here isn’t permanent. keith being proven right in season 2/3 and being left alone again.

lance who is SO trusting that he comes across as a bit naive. lance who worked hard to get where he is, who studied and practiced day and night to be at the top of the class. lance who always fell short and just missed the cut and ended up a cargo pilot. lance who only excelled once keith was gone but was stuck living in his shadow. despite the fact that iverson was mean to keith, keith was his favorite student and iverson always held a grudge for lance taking his place and was downright cruel to him at times. lance who started a rivalry w keith in his head bc he was determined to prove that he could be better than keith. lance who was moved from blue to red paladin, following after keith yet again. lance who worked hard to prove that he was worthy of being red paladin but always failing bc he was never keith, he was never good enough.

klance who found what they lacked in each other. lance who was there for keith when it seemed like the universe was crumbling down around him. lance who stood by keith’s side and told him what he needed to hear, supporting him being leader and helping lead the team together. keith seeing lance as an equal and relying on him the way lance relied on him. keith who was loved and supported by someone who never left, lance who was seen for who he was and who never doubted him or his place on the team. klance who turned on each other.

keith who turned into what he hated and leaving lance behind. lance who saw keith as weak and selfish for leaving him the team behind. keith who came back to a lance who was so angry and upset, but who never left his side bc lance was just Like That. lance who was so hurt and upset, who said cruel things in the vacuum of space, but keith never saw him as less for it, who never got angry enough to hurt lance back.

at the end of everything, lance searching for keith to sit at his side as they watched the sunset bc lance will always be at keith’s side. keith who told lance how relieved he was and hopeful bc he knows what lance is capable of and how much he needs him. klance being what the other needs, holding each other’s heart in their hands but never taking the opportunities to crush each other. lance who never left keith behind, keith who never saw lance as less despite the vitriol he spat at times.

okay but can we talk about the symbolism of rei having his hair down while having that conversation with his father the boss like. finally allowing himself to be who he is free of the burden of expectations

max verstappen watching daniel ricciardo's new episode of no brakes on stream | inspired by x x x