I know I'm a week late (oops) but the thought of spending a smutty New Year's Eve with Bucky 👀

The thought of his plump, soft lips peppering kisses up your sensitive inner thighs while the quiet groan that slips from you hangs in the air.

Your fingers weave through his hair, encouraging him to focus his attention on the task at hand.

You hear him moan quietly, trailing his lips higher to meet the soft, soaking wet folds of your sex and he doesn't waste any more time. He kisses over your body gently at first, losing himself in the feeling of your copious slick arousal coating his lips.

Very soon after he's begun, he can't seem to get enough. He's hungry for this. His tongue licks broad strokes from your throbbing clit to your fluttering entrance and back again, lapping at your body like the taste is everything he's ever needed.

He's gripping your hips and thighs, hoping to be able to press you tighter against his mouth since nothing feels like it's enough for either of you.

Not until his tongue dips into your entrance, lapping your arousal right from the source. This is what he needs. He's spent far too long craving your taste; whole evenings spent pleasuring himself, doing his best to remind himself of how it feels to be exactly where he is right now.

He's achingly hard, no doubt about it but he's not ready to think about that yet. Not even close.

In the distance you hear the soft pop and fizzing of fireworks, marking the turn of the New Year. You can't see them but you don't need to. You'd far rather focus on the New Year's kiss you're receiving.

Multiple comfort hermits? feeling down mentally atm...

Anon, you sent this at the exact time I was reading comfort Hermit fics.

And yes I lost motivation halfway at one point, but two months later and I'm back XD

Hope you're okay, love <3 Enjoy the selection of Hermits decided on by my good pal Kat

Rendog

Ren considers some of his canine traits to be advantages. Entirely understandable. A superb sense of smell, sensitive hearing… who wouldn’t be appreciative? At least, as long as you’re not near Bdubs, sensitive hearing is great.

There are times when he finds himself appreciating them more, though.

Until you’d met Ren, it was only a myth in your eyes that dogs were extremely empathetic. It didn’t take long for your opinion to change.

He was the one you knew you could turn to for comfort and to have someone who’d just be there to sit and listen

It meant the world.

Sometimes, though, life throws things at you that are hard to handle, and it becomes a struggle to open up and be honest with others and yourself.

It’s times like that when Ren works his magic.

The moment he walks into your base he knows something is up You’re not bustling around, working or planning whatever new idea you’ve concocted. Instead, he can hear your quiet sniffles from a few rooms over.

Within a second he’s speeding in the direction of your voice, and the moment he finds you he’s sitting beside you, pulling you close so he can hug you

His grip is tight as he asks what’s wrong, the concern in his voice so painstakingly obvious that all your emotions begin to come flooding out.

He sits there and listens to you, tossing whatever assurance or compliment or opinion he feels you need. If it’s real bad he’ll pull out the jokes. If you don’t show a hint of a smile it’s innuendos from then on.

He doesn’t leave your side, even if you insist you’re feeling better, and if any other hermit offers to help instead it’ll become more persistentHe’s a bit possessive. Just a bit.

He can’t stand the idea of you being there alone, and though occasionally annoying, it’s more endearing than anything.

There have been incidents when he’s gotten a bit too worried, though…

‘I’m serious, Y/n! It’s alright! You can talk to me!’ ‘Ren, I’m not in the mood or state to have you over. I’m getting changed. Please, can you just lea–.’

Needless to say he believed you the next time you used that “excuse”.

Xisuma

Can I even begin to describe X finding out you’re not having a great time? The answer is I can.

Think concern, hugs, words of comfort, and lots of empathy and attention

Think of a sad puppy. That’s him. Without taking how jacked he is into consideration.

On one of his regular checkups making sure you’re okay he’s bound to have figured out something isn’t right

He won’t outright address it at first, instead giving you as much space and time as you need

If you don’t want to talk he won’t force you to

When you inevitably approach him, though, it’s all love and care for the next month or so.

Compliments, stories, hugs, little activities for the two of you to do together… anything to see you smile again 

It breaks his heart seeing you upset ❤️

Mumbo

Man doesn’t quite know what to do.

What if he makes it worse? What if it doesn’t help?

Mumbo is either going to do something small and sweet or huge and sweet.

Either way, there’s a 50% chance of it going wrong.

But that’s okay! It’s part of the charm! You laughing at him almost burning his base down was entirely part of his plan!

There’s not much to write since it could be summarised in a single sentence: He has no clue what to do, but the man’s trying his best *insert TBH creature face here*

Scar

mmmmmmmm the way he hums while he builds, the way he talks to himself, the weird little noises he makes when he takes too much fall damage or is jumped asdakjdahdkajshdaskjdh adorbs :sob (Note: this part was written by Kat but I’m leaving it here)

When you’re upset he doesn’t really understand the concept of personal space Prepare to be swaddled in blankets, love, comfort foods… whatever he can think to give you

If there’s something he thinks (or knows) you like, you can be sure as hell he’ll do it. He’ll sing your favourite songs, put on your favourite movie, go shirtless if you’re into that… anything for you.

Will Scar sit and listen? Of course! What else is he there for?

Jellie, being the best girl she is, leaves Scar’s side to snuggle with you. No scratching today, just adorable love.

Speaking of adorable love; the look of pure love and admiration Scar gives you while you talk. Man knows how to validate your feelings for sure.

If you’re still not happy after a day of treatment by Scar, don’t fall asleep. It may be a good thing to rest, but know that he’s going to ask either Cub or Grian for advice, and that’ll end in disaster.

By the end of it, you’ll be all laughs and giggles (or groans of annoyance), and Scar will be able to sleep easy knowing he made your day the slightest bit better.

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @pretentiouswreckingball and @messrsage

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

11 currently

2. whats your total ao3 word count?

328,919 which is kinda insane i did not realize it was that much... and like thinking about how much i have that's unposted is... woah

3. what fandoms do you write for?

just marauders atm

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

you're the only good thing in my life, i regret you all the time, look what you made me do, touch, the stars that bind us

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

most of the time if i remember to

6. what is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

arguably i regret you all the time but most of them are angsty endings

7. what is a fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

ummmmm if we're going long fics, bite the hand will have the happiest ending... if one shots are included then probably you're the only good thing in my life or any smutshot

8. do you get hate on fics?

not typically but i have gotten some previously

9. do you write smut? if so what kind?

i do and a variety i have a few smutshots and some smut within fics, nothing crazy

10. do you write crossovers?

i do not and don't think i ever would

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

luckily no!

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

no i haven't!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes <3 currently writing a fic with gabby (it'll all work out)

14. whats your all time favorite ship?

wolfstar

15. whats a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

right now it's the stars that bind us, it's been a while since writing it and i have so many things planned for it but no time or motivation and i just don't know if i'll get back to it but if i find love for it again i will try

16. what are your writing strengths?

um. i feel like i'm good at giving depth to the characters and really making them feel real

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

i think i have a lot but i'm blanking now... like actually sitting down to write or finding a good balance of dialogue and prose or oh actually Starting a chapter or fic or anything is soooo hard i hate it

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

if it fits! i think it can add a great layer to a fic

19. first fandom you wrote for?

one direction.

20. favorite fic youve written?

currently it's bite the hand my darling baby

no pressure tagging (also sorry if you've already done it or been tagged!): @otrtbs @anouri @cr-amber @grimjobs @nevvaraven

I would love headcanons of yandere Mukuro with a darling that knows of Junko's true intentions and wants to kill Junko to prevent the Tragedy.

Oo! I love that idea! Since i need to kickstart my motivation to write this ask seems like a great way to start!

Yup yup! I’m back. Please be patient with me as I’m currently still tired and having some writers block<3

Mukuro Ikusaba with a darling who wants to kill Junko

Pairing: Mukuro Ikusaba x Reader

Warning! : Mentions of murder, kidnapping

⟢﹒To say she was shocked was a huge understatement. Imagine pining after someone you though was the one, but ultimately, you find out they want to kill your sister.

⟢﹒Normally Mukuro would immediately clarify you as a threat— but because it was you, she was torn between you two. Should she leave Junko behind and live her life with you or give up on her dreams of ever being with you to pursue the tragedy the two planned to cause?

⟢﹒Junko noticed that she was acting strange. Why was she being hesitant about it now? What could possibly be the cause of her distress?

⟢﹒Mukuro then attempted to talk Junko out of it. Since nothing has happened yet, maybe she could prevent. All so that her sister and her darling could perhaps get along, so that the two people dearest to her wouldn’t have to fight.

"Junko, could we perhaps… delay this? Or maybe, not do it at all?"

"Whaat?! Why would we stop here?! We haven’t even started yet! Why have you been acting so weird lately?"

"Something came up. It’s hard to explain, but maybe -“

"Is it that Y/N? Is that who’s been on your mind lately? Are you chickening out on me because of someone who’s spewing some empty threats my way?"

"No."

"I have no idea why you’re so worried, I’ll be fine~! There’s no way some bastard is going to get rid of me!"

⟢﹒It is quite hard to reason with Junko. Since there was no persuading her, she had to make a decision.

You or her.

⟢﹒The decision was hard but after a long time she came to a conclusion — She chose you.

⟢﹒Junko was appalled by her decision! How could she leave her like that?! But it was final.

⟢﹒While walking down the street, you were met with a familiar face; it was none other than Mukuro herself. You were defensive at first. You assumed she knew about your threat towards Enoshima, you thought she was here to kill you, you were shocked to hear that that wasn’t the reason.

"Don’t come any closer!" You yelled, your voice echoing through the alleyway.

"Y/N, I am not here to harm you. In fact, I have no intention of helping Junko.

"What are you talking about? Are you lying to me so that you can lure me into a trap?"

⟢﹒Suspicion is to be expected — although Mukuro isn’t the biggest fan of your response, but she’ll do anything for her s/o. She even went as far to abandon her own sister for you.

⟢﹒Trying to defend yourself is useless. She’s the ultimate soldier, so she was quick to apprehend you.

⟢﹒She knocked you unconscious after that. You still oppose a threat, if you’d threaten to kill Junko, what else are you capable of?

⟢﹒Mukuro rented an apartment for a while, holding you captive while Hope’s Peak questioned where one of their students went. She then forced you to call in sick.

⟢﹒Word came out that Junko did kickstart something, although it was going to take a while to pull off considering the fact she was on her own.

⟢﹒Later, Mukuro bought a house for you two to live in. Despite your protest and your determination to kill Junko becoming stronger, she wasn’t going to let you go.

⟢﹒It’ll be difficult to escape, but on the Brightside, you sorta stopped the tragedy, right?

Thank you for requesting this, anon! It’s really late but I hope you like it. If you need anything else changed please do tell.

Experimenting with my writing style atm!! Let me know if you like it! :D

-Mod Shuichi

Hi, just checking in to say I hope you’re okay. I know you’ve got a lot of personal things going on right now, just know we’re here for you <3

Hi, thank you very much for this it’s very lovely to hear. Im sorry for not posting the last couple of weeks, but yeah unfortunately my personal situation has just gotten worse. The deadline to us losing our home is just getting closer and I’m having to help deal with all of that and my family too, there’s just a whole bunch of other stuff going on and honestly, my mental health has been really really bad recently. I’m struggling holding on to everything recently tbh, just a lot for me. I do miss you guys and I think of here every day but it’s hard to find the inspiration and motivation to write fics at this moment in time which I hope you guys understand. Maybe I should try and do some smaller things and see about that. I’m just really struggling rn idk. Thank you though, it’s nice to know I’m not forgotten haha, and sorry, unfortunately things are just getting worse over here which is why I haven’t been able to post much atm, I don’t want anyone to think I’m close to abandoning the account of anything, it’s just... yeah. Sorry I promise I’ll be fine though and thank you really for your sweet ask, it really is appreciated <3

BELLE LOVE YOURE BACK!!!!!!!!! I've missed you so much 😭😭😭!!!! I'm so sorry to hear that you're sick though 😖😖. That seriously sucks, but I hope you feel better soon!!! Also I have a confession to make. I know I said I was working on blue lock drabbles. But like. The TR season 2 opening just dropped. I am not the same woman I was 1 hour ago. Episode 13 of bllk will probably kick-start my inspiration for the writing again (hopefully) but I'm hitting a block atm and all I can think abt is TR right now 💀💀. I have actually been so productive this winter break that it's insane. Cleaning, cooking, organizing, writing, etc. It's hard to believe I was the same person as last year tbh. I'm a hoarder and a sentimental sap so I never throw anything away 💀🥲. BUT I got rid of so much unnecessary stuff yesterday and I'm actually kind of proud of myself. I've been meaning to go to the gym again, but finding the motivation is hard, especially in the early morning when I'm drowsy and tired. I know it's not an excuse and I plan on going to bed early tomorrow so I can wake up without feeling tired 😤😤. Wish me luck 🥹🤞🏼!!! Also also. I have currently been listening to the new opening on loop since I heard it came out don't judge me and I'm pretty sure I have the entire visuals and lyrics matched up inside my head atp where I can hear it and know which character is on screen 💀💀💀. It's the same with the season 1 episodes again no judging. Yes I'm normal abt this 😌😌. Anyways ✨. Idk if you've seen my posts, but I have been freaking out abt the new opening since this morning adjkhgggkjggfdhjhg. I am so excited about next week. You are gonna be sick of me once the first episode drops I'm calling it now 😭😭💀. Anyways onto the actual important stuff. How was your vacation and holiday?? Good I hope?? How's the move to a03 coming along?? Again, I hope you feel better soon (Oliver sends his love from Italy ❤️❤️❤️)!!! Make sure not to overwork yourself and take care of yourself and rest okay love?? I really have missed you tho 🥹❤️. *sending all the virtual hugs and blankets and warm soup to you*

- ✨ anon

YES! I have returned !! I missed you too T.T , ahh its good to be back. ps. not only have i managed to fall sick... I uh... I twisted my ankle last night when I was celebrating new years. There was so much that happened last night, the dancing, hanging out with my roommates and last but not least. there were a lot of pretty boys at the club; but honestly, they were strutting around the place like some proud peacock and were intimidated by my height (yeah i was the tallest one last night with my three inched heels) and my calves are killing me rn; but totally worth it ✨ I SAW THE NEW TR OPENING! Pretty sure the fans are gonna crash the website; i wouldn't be surprised honestly- I am so looking forward to the new eps !! I read the latest chapter of bllk and... *sobbing cause no Oliver* Anyway, getting back to Tr; I am excited for the new season !! And i wanna see more of bonten and the shiba brothers arc, now i'm thinking if they're gonna introduce Nahoya and the whole baby of the family thing (cause the way i cooed when I was reading the manga) Girl. I saw you posted about Chainsawman !! And during vacay, we were passing by a bookstore... I uh... I ended up buying vol 4 with Aki as the cover. (i love it sm and i'm gonna treasure it even if I haven't reached that part yet) - the look i got cause the amount of profanities in there on opening one of the pages 😭 Vacay was fun, spent some time in the countryside and got a hold of new experiences that inspired me to re-write ruined rome (a project that i had started for Rin earlier on my blog) there was a cute guy on the bus who was watching rising shield hero i think? and i was busy watching one punch man cause i didn't get time to finish it, *sad cause i shoulda asked for his @ but i was really shy to talk to him and kinda disoriented cause of no sleep*

As for the move to ao3; I released the new chapter of Ocean hues and I'm working on a spotify playlist that you guys can play it when you read the series; hopefully you guys will enjoy it <3 speaking a bit and giving spoilers for the series; i included some of my dreams with Oliver (yes i am a simp and idc) And i have my oneshots saved in my draft, that will be getting posted as well... ao3 is getting fun for me cause i figured a way on using dividers and pictures. Not to mention even if ao3 does seem complicated its actually pretty easy to get by and i'm getting obsessed with alice in borderland- THE NEW SEASON IS FINALLY OUT! so i'm gonna be completing that and stone ocean's new eps (yes me likes JJBA. *likes jonathan, joseph and Jotaro*) And no bb ♡ i like seeing your rants on my dash and also. I. squealed at your Oliver drabble. Like i was walking around, stood for coffee before my flight at some 1 o clock in the morning and i saw this. And my gah- the way i was staring into my phone, I had a jolly good christmas and an early new year 😭 *busy working on a list of yandere wips and thinking the title to give my work*

*sending back hugs and wuv along with Bachira*

Hi!! Hope ur having a nice day/night so far! <3

I honestly just wanted to say how I absolutely love ur work- I CANT EVEN FIND WORDS TO EXPRESS IMY LOVE FOR IT PROPERLY- BUT I'LL TRY MY BESTT-😭😭

At first I was just going thru the black butler fandom tags to find a good fanfic, when I stumbled upon ur work. At first glance it was intimidating to jump into a whole new famfic with multiple chapters, but honestly I'm *SOO* glad I did!

I haven't been caught up with any new chapters since I've last read it but, nonetheless all I can say is that ur work/writing is a whole *experience*🤌✨. And I mean it in every sense. Even tho it's been well over a month or so since I've read it I can still remember the scenes that play out; coupled with your beautiful writing that genuinely makes it seem like I'm transported into ur story ur telling. All the feels, the scenarios are still stuck in my mind when I think back to your work and honestly I don't think I'll ever find anything else which could even come close to replicating what I felt when I read ur work.

I cannot ever find the exact words or thank you enough for how you've been able to help me find an escapism in ur heavenly writing that should really be called an art form. (Srsly I'm not even joking-). And I definitelyy plan to re-read all ur chapters from start to finish during my holidays.

I honestly really reallyyy admire how ur able to articulate things so well with ur words. Once I started reading, I was sucked in and I couldn't stop reading, to the point that I think I just binge read ur chapters in one day. Honestly I might have gotten up the next day just to read what happens next.

So sorry for the long letter of sorts, I guess I just had a lot to say once I started writing and I hope you've been taking care of urself, mental and physical health as well! Sending u all the love and support in whatever u do and wherever u are <33

(P.S. it's my first time ever writing anything to the author and I honestly hope it didn't come off as weird or creepy or anything-)

- .⁺‧₊✧

Hi, .⁺‧₊✧ Anon!!

Let me just say, oh my god!!

I literally almost cried the first time I read this. I can’t believe you would take the time to sit down and write me such a kind message. I’m so touched that I’m struggling to convey how grateful I am, like I can’t believe you like it so much and I’m absolutely over the moon that you do. I really can’t thank you enough for this ask. All of it. Every syllable, letter, and emoji, lol.

I’m also going to be real: you sent this at the perfect time because I’ve been really struggling with motivation to work on the next chapter. I’ve felt both uninspired and overwhelmed as a first-year in college atm. (Especially because it’s midterm season, gross.) This kind of message was exactly what I needed to help me feel like my work is really there for people, and it’s the quality that I work so hard to make it. I feel much more inspired to pick up my fic outline and my chapter 17 Google Doc and actually get to work. I’ve been putting it off because I hate forcing myself to write— it never comes out good.

But this was exactly what I needed to feel refreshed and ready to start tackling the problems/roadblocks that I’ve run into while I (more intricately) plan out the last 2 chapters in this fic. Who knew, it’s actually pretty tough to wrap up a story!

It means so much that this storyline and its characters are resonating with you, too! I love that TIP is a story that youn can think about when you need a little bit of escapism. That’s literally me, like all the time— that’s where a lot of the ideas for this story came from!!

I’m really so choked up over your whole message, before I sat down to write this message, I came back to re-read it easily five times before I thought I could properly write about the happy tap-dance my heart does when I read it. You didn’t come off as weird or creepy at all, just extremely kind and just amazingly supportive. I’m really grateful that my writing has garnered such sweet and amazing people like you to read it and give me such lovely and well thought out feedback. It’s not something I expected, at all, being a novice fic writer with a brand-new Tumblr, and a slowburn Black Butler fic. And it’s certainly nothing I expected when I first thought of this plot like…six years ago! In middle school!

Anyways, I write for all of you, and feedback like this just warms my heart.

Thank you so much for your love, support, and faith in me. I’m so honored <3

- Dan

Hello! I don't really know how tumblr works so I apologize in advance if I do something wrong! But I wanted to join in the shipping celebration!

My pronounce are they/them

I'm a very creative person and always try my best to make the people around me happy and laugh! I'm extreamly introverted when meeting new people but have a hard time keeping my volume down when I'm with people I'm friends with haha. I also have autism but you don't have to include any of that incase it makes you uncomfortable! Also, Anxiety 😅

My hobbies always have a creative aspect to it, wherther it be writing, drawing, editing or Journaling however my biggest hobby is definitely dancing! I love dance mor then anything tbh. I also enjoy working out alot and am working towards my goal of being as buff as Changbin 😈.

My favorite movie is Jurassic park (the first one) and u geek out on dinosaurs a lot! My favorite song atm is fast pace by seventeen and my favorite food is Japchae! My favorite place is my home lol, my favorite book is picnic in the storm (I forget who it's by but it's really good)

I have 2 pets 1 cat and 1 dog (however I am a cat person so I'm very biased)

I have lots of dreams about what I want to do in the future, who I want to be. I think a life goal of mine is definitely to dance on stage infront of a big crowd or have a choreography of mine get danced in front of and be loved by a bunch of people!

My zodiac sign is gemini and my motivation is infp

My aesthetic is really a huge mess but I wear mostly black and comfortable clothes. I also have a mullet, an eyebrow piercing and tattoos haha so do with that what you'd like :D

I'd like you to pick from straykids!

I hope that was okay, I apologize if it was too long, I get carried away easily 😅

No worries, you are just fine! Thank you so much for sending in a request! It means so much 💗

Also I was definitely the dinosaur kid growing up so I'm glad to see I have fellow dinosaur lover on my blog, welcome!! :)

Now about your ship...

-

I decided to pick Changbin. I was thinking quite a lot about this one but I think you two could go along really well.

My reasoning behind my choice:

- you said you can turn really loud once you're with "your people" and that reminded me so much of Changbin even though he's rather loud all the time lol. Also Changbin, just like you, seems like the type of person who's trying to keep the people around him happy and laughing so I think your personalities might be in tune :)

- you're a Gemini and INFP which is a good match to his Leo and ENFP

- I also think he'd be a huge fan of your dancing skills and would love love love to have you as a working out buddy lol

- to me Changbin also seems like the type who would drool over someone with tattoos and piercings, like he would find it so attractive so YES

- and like imagine him cuddling your cat????? I would pass out? Like he would be so gentle with your pets even though he's so bulky and big and aghsprtsv- I can't

- also I think even though he looks like a tough guy, he's very sweet, caring and in tune with his emotions and I think he would also be very gentle with you and with your needs as an autistic person with anxieties... like I'm sure he'd take a really good care of you, always keeping your best interest at heart and making sure you feel safe and okay at all times <3

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You just finished your training, saying goodbyes to your fellow dancers as you head to the side of the room to collect your stuff, taking out a bottle of water and taking a gulp before putting it back into your bag.

“Hey, Y/N."

You look up at the one who approached you, your eyes meeting Changbin, bright grin settled on his handsome face.

"Hey, Binnie," you smile, straightening up and throwing the gym bag over your shoulder.

"Any plans for the evening?" He asks, shoving his hands in the pockets of his sweats as he awaits your answer.

"Uhm- no, not really," you admit sheepishly.

"Wouldn't you maybe like to join me for a little movie marathon?" He prompts, looking at you expectantly.

“Depends on the movie,” you offer and he chuckles.

“I was thinking about something like the Jurassic Park?” He states and you grin brightly.

“That’s my favorite,” you exclaim, making him smile.

“I know, Y/N,” he states and you chuckle.

Of course, he does.

You told him before and he somehow always didn’t fail to remember every single thing you told him about yourself.

“So? Would you like to join me?” He asks, eyes all hopeful, making your heart thrum a bit wilder than usual.

“Uhm- yeah, sure, why not,” you nod, giving him a smile as you watch him grin.

“Perfect. I’ll pick you up at seven then, if it’s okay, and we can go and buy some snacks together,” he says and you hum.

“Sure, I’d love that,” you agree, delighted to spend some time with him.

You and Changbin met a while ago when you joined their team of backup dancers. At first you both didn’t really tend to spend a lot of time in each other’s presence, only greeting one another in passing. That changed however once you found out you go to the same gym. You soon started talking and began to share tips and even work out together from time to time. Sometimes he took you for a dinner after that and sometimes you watched a movie or two at his or your place, whatever was comfortable for you at the moment. You grew to like Changbin’s presence and you soon became close friends. So close the others tease you about your relationship very often.

“See you later then,” you say and he grins.

“See you.”

And with that you part ways, Changbin heading back to his members and you towards the door, already thinking about the peace and quiet of your flat. Today’s training wasn’t the easiest since you have to work hard before your team and the boys go on the tour but even through your slight exhaustion you’re leaving the JYP building with a bright smile on your face because of no one else but the buff boy with heart of gold who lets you indulge in your love for dinosaurs.

And the fluttering of your heart might give away that dinosaurs are not the only ones making you feel so giddy.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s the dark haired boy himself but you’ll leave dealing with those feelings for the future and wait what it has to offer.

For now all that matters is that it’s you, Changbin and a bunch snacks and a sci-fi classic to end a long day with.

And who would you be to say no to that?

7, 21, 26, 36, 41, 45, 53, 69, 74, 79!

7. Post a snippet from a wip.

Okay, this technically isn't a wip in that I haven't actually worked on it at all, but it's living in my head rent free and I think you'll find it funny:

"The goblin-looking thing with fWhip's face looked up at Scott in askance, cocking his head to the side as if trying to play a spot-the-difference game. "Aren't you supposed to have heterochromia?"

The elf blinks, then answers, "I don't think I have hetero-anything.""

Hope you think this is as funny as I do, I was rolling on the floor laughing when I realised I could use that joke.

21. Do you prefer writing chaptered fics or one-shots?

I don't think I've written any one-shots--no wait, that's a lie. I haven't written any one-shots that aren't part of a multichaptered fic. So, yeah I much prefer chaptered fics. I love reading both, though!

26. What’s your least favorite part of the writing process?

The self-discipline involved. I am terrible about holding myself to schedules and deadlines, so making sure I'm meeting a word-count or finish a chapter on time is hard.

36. What fic are you proudest of?

Hmm. I'm really proud of my Star Wars fic, To Live Without a Lifeline (part of a larger series, but I'm not as proud of the first or third parts of that series) because I was writing it in the middle of the most difficult part of my life. But my favourite, the one I want people to read most, is my Empires s1 au that I'm working on currently (I Believe That There Is Courage (But It's Burning Like Ash in the Wind) is the full title of the series, which yes, is a mouthful).

41. Who’s your favorite character you’ve written?

Charger. Hands down, Charger.

So, context. Charger is a Star Wars clone trooper OC that basically saw what I was doing to the main character from my Young Enough to Try series, decided he wasn't happy with it, and became that character's emotional support friend for the rest of the series. I love him, he is sarcastic and kind and willing to let Ezra beat the crap out of him if it means he'll admit he's hurting. He's such a self-sacrificing little chaos-maker and I love him.

45. What genre/trope do you tend to write the most?

Um... so, actually probably fake character death. I have no less than three stories, two published, one sitting in my WIP folder, where at least one of the characters "dies" at least once. I love it for the angst and hurt/comfort potential. Time travel is also a good one.

53. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

Angst, to absolutely no one's surprise, followed by Time-Travel Fix-it, to a few people's surprise.

69. What are your favorite fics at the moment?

Oof. I was almost hoping no one would ask this one, because I have so many favourites it's not even funny. I think the one I'm most invested in atm is Last Wishes by i_am_the_imposter_syndrome over on ao3. Y'know, if I have to pick one.

74. Do you have a fic you wish got a bit more love?

From me or from readers? Because if it's from me, I have this one wip called All Eyes on You that I posted the first couple of chapters from and then abandoned, so I wish I'd given it more of a chance.

From my readers? Honestly, I wish I was getting more support for the current fic I'm working on, Can't Escape the Fallout. I love it, but the audience is relatively small, and I knew that going in, but it's still... I went from one of the biggest fandoms (Star Wars) to Empires, and while I'm happy with the switch, I know the number of hits on my works has gone down and thus so has my motivation.

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

I'm trying to think, but every bit of writing advice is either a) something I ignore, or 2) has fled my mind. So... Find the character's voice. Their vocabulary, their accent, their cadence. (it's real easy if your story is based on a piece of fiction that has an auditory component) But that helps with internal monologue and external dialogue. Trust me, it helps so much.

Whew! That was a long list (sorry for the long answers, I just have a lot to say when asked about my wips), but I'm glad you asked. Thank you!

Riiddddd! have you been writing again? I think you said you couldnt atm but I was wondering how its going. Love you and will wait for anything you give us ❣️

ahhhh it's so sweet of u to check in and ask !! tbh, it kinda comes and goes... it's just been hard lately. i've been doubting lots of my stuff, and my overthinking brain hurts me a lil and takes some motivation from me for cmi, even though i love the couple and the series so much.

like... okay, full closure; i try and work hard to make cmi good, but sometimes my mind just goes "okay, but it's not that great" or "no one's really interested in updates anyway". and i know it's stupid, but i kinda step back and get so nervous about writing that it doesn't work at all anymore :') idk, i just need to get over it and find some inspiration and it's gonna be okay !! it's just been like that for some weeks, it'll get better. thank u and love u, too <3

ugh what a rant tho, i’m sorry :’)

writing

hhhhhhhhhhhh.

I’m struggling with my feelings towards my passions atm. Nothing new in all fairness, but this month is starting to put things into perspective in a way that feels like a tonne of boulders falling upon my head.

I finished university in august and graduated in december with a first class honours which i worked really fucking hard for. but i’ve done nothing since. the idea of sitting down in front of my laptop and planning out a new idea is so incredibly daunting to me i don’t know how to put it into words.

one of my friends i went to uni with gave me a gentle (ish) lecture on becoming more disciplined. apparently motivation doesn’t exist, you just have to be disciplined. i don’t know how to discipline myself, i would love someone else to do it for me in both senses if u catch my drift. he then compared me to a car, saying i need someone to jump start me and then i would be away and as much as that made me laugh, he’s right. that monologue from fleabag came to mind, the one where she says how she just wants someone to tell her what to do, that’s me. i don’t know how to make myself do stuff, especially if it’s something i know will be difficult. i don’t know why and i don’t know how to stop but that’s the way it’s always been. uni was great because i had people around me doing the same stuff and a level of responsibility to the school and myself to get shit done to the best of my ability. it was also very expensive so that helped. that was the motivation. i didn’t need to discipline myself because i knew i could do it. so, where do i stand now? there’s no one here to tell me to do something or give me a level of responsibility to something to make me work. it’s just me. me and my rapidly failing mental health and my shitty job that i hate. why would i want to do anything other than rot in my bed all day on my days off?

but i do want to do it, that’s the problem. i love writing, it’s one of my favourite things to do. i used to do it all the time. like literally every night i would be writing something new. i don’t do that anymore and i don’t know why. i was writing fan fiction about whatever i was hyper fixated on at the time but i don’t even have a hyper fixation atm so there’s nothing their either!!!

writing comes easy to me in a way that i don’t quite understand. we had a lesson at uni where we talked about our writing processes and i got embarrassed because i don’t have one. i have an idea i like and i write it. that’s it. it sounds like a cop out and a lie, but it’s true and i got shit from other people in my class about it (not that i care) but hearing other people talk about the planning and extensive research they do into their projects made me feel ashamed for not working that way. not working harder i guess. which is mad because everyone is different and no two people work the same but it feels shameful to have something come so easy to you when some people work so so hard to achieve the same thing. its weird, feeling embarrassed for being good at something. probably because i’m not super good at many things and i know the others will tell me different but i’m not putting myself down i’m just saying i’ve been average at everything my whole life except for a couple things that i’m very good at so, being in a room of people who all wanna do the same thing as you and being at the top of the class pretty consistently and having people tell you you’re good at something is such a foreign concept to me that the fact i also can just do it without planning feels like a cop out.

and now i have no structure, no one to give me tasks and no one to hold me accountable for my actions and i’m stuck. it sounds like i’m trying to push responsibility onto someone else but i’m not i just don’t know HOW to get to the point where i love doing it again. i wanna write something great and be successful and fall in love with it again but i can’t find the strength to slap myself on the ass and do it. doing this is helping, the blog writing is fun and i’m enjoying it a lot so that’s a start.

it feels superficial, why not just do it i hear you scream in my face but trust me i would if i fucking could. i’m sat here with one of the shows that made me wanna go into screenwriting playing in the background and thinking damn maybe one day i’ll write something this good. but i won’t if i can’t FUCKING START.

i’m at my parents this week and have been sorting through old stuff of mine and found a load of old school stuff and every single thing is average, every grade, every letter from school, every silly little award slip is average. i don’t do well in academic settings, i’m aware of this and my strengths lie in other things which is great. sure i get confused about stuff that comes easy to others but i can do stuff those people can’t with ease. we had a conversation about intelligence the other week that shook me to my core because the way i view intelligence is so wildly different from my friends that i was genuinely confused. i don’t think i’m smart because i’m not academic but that’s simply not true. intelligence comes in many different forms which is very hard to wrap my head around. especially at my age and having been told i’m not smart my whole life. it feels even more relevant at the moment because i’m struggling to do one of the things i’m good at. which sucks. especially being with my family and being reminded of the fact i’m the only creative going into a creative industry whilst everyone else is in their safe secure jobs doing better than me when they’re all younger than me. it’s clear they all quietly think i made a mistake going to uni and leaving my old career behind, but i’m so so glad i did it, even if i’m stuck at the moment.

i really needed to vent. i don’t know how to talk about this to anyone.

i’m a very unmotivated person, partially because my enthusiasm for being alive is so low so why do things to help myself progress in life when i don’t want to live it.

wow this went dark lmao. can someone jump start my battery for me please. no? ok. i’ll figure out how to do it myself some day.

in the words of charli xcx, lets ride.

love,

eucalyptus

12. do you ever have trouble focusing on writing? how do you get around that? 

16. where is your favorite place to write?

17. what is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

37. when creating characters, what comes first: appearance, backstory, motivation, personality, something else?

38. how many stories do you work on at one time?

12. do you ever have trouble focusing on writing? how do you get around that?

HA boy do I. I’ve found something that works regularly for me is to have a bit of a habit when I sit down to write. And lately that habit is either instrumental music, or having the great British baking show playing in the background on low volume while I do 15 minute writing sprints. The sprints especially, are what force me to just sit down and have those dedicated writing minutes. But it’s a fickle thing, so it’s hard to stay focused all the time!

16. Where is your favorite place to write?

At home in my desk nook, looking out my window :) there’s a tree right in front of it so there’s always birds, and deer regularly come wandering just past the tree across my yard.

17. What is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

OOOOH okay the first one that came to mind is this but of dialogue: “We’ll fight them, you and I. And when the sun rises again, so will we.”

But it’s tied pretty evenly with this bit of dialogue: “I want to make you laugh when you’re wakin’ up first thing in the morning. I want to make you laugh just before you fall asleep, and every minute in between. And you know why? Because when you laugh, I know more flowers are growing in the cracks of your soul. And when I’m done with you, there’ll be nothing left but flowers where ashes once were.”

Both from completely different fics, mind. Different fandoms too. Which one is your favorite?

37. when creating characters, what comes first. appearance, backstory, motivation, personality, something else?

Oh motivation first, then backstory! But also, the character is pretty much already there, I just get to tweak bits of it until it fits the story I’m writing, especially if it’s an AU. Like I think of what I want to accomplish with the character, how I want them to change. That gives me their motivations, and then I create a backstory out of that!

38. How many stories do you work on at one time?

This really really depends. For the last year, I’ve been consistently writing a longfic. While I was writing that, I would take breaks whenever I began to get tired of it (like anywhere from a week to over a month), or wasn’t inspired for that particular story, and work on another side project (ie, a new idea that came to my head for a one shot that can be written in three days and published straight after). But like now, I’m not writing any long fics atm, and am only focused on this Avatrice beekeeper AU! It’s the only current thing I’m working on, even though there’s a bout a million other WIP’s sitting in the back gathering dust lol. I find that if I try to focus on too many at a time, I lose steam to write anything at all. My writing is better if I just focus entirely on one work at a time.

Feeling a bit lost and overwhelmed with my essays right now, so here’s what I’m doing

I have 6 essays and a dissertation due, which are not staggered for various reasons (deferred a year and had to take a huge break from working on uni stuff for personal reasons), and it makes me extremely stressed and overwhelmed because I don’t have long left to finish them and I’ve still got a lot to go and can’t waste time. 

I’ve recently got into a rut with one I’m working on and realised none of my essays are finished yet. So I’m just sharing what my coping strategies are if you find yourself in a similar position.

1. Create a chart/graph that represents your progress

First of all I make this grid in google docs, and I fill in how far I am with all of my assignments, placing each of them at their individual point of progress. I consider ‘complete’ to be in perfect condition to hand in. As you can see (and it’s the end of Jan, each essay is 3000-4000 words and are all due in May including an 8000 word dissertation) I've been STRUGGLING.

Creating this helps me to visualise where my progress is at, and how much I’ve got to go. This reduces my stress because my brain gets overwhelmed and emotional and I realise I feel more behind than I actually am. This gives me a way to positively frame how I think and feel about my essays and how I will achieve handing them in. It gives me a sense of perspective and control, and I can assess what steps I need to take to be finish, e.g. going back and polishing up those couple of essays.

2. Re-visiting the Assessment Criteria

I have found it so hard to find a method to writing my essays. I have a pretty good one atm which I need to stick to better, because I’ve found myself feeling stuck and not knowing what to say. So writing out each essays Assessment Criteria helps refocus my brain, and reminds me what I will be given marks for and therefore what I should be writing. 

3. Switching Essays

I am in a deep rut with my current essay and realised I was wasting time sitting in front of my laptop not doing anything because I didn’t know what to do next. I was waking up dreading writing this one so realised I was in a position in which switching to another essay would be more efficient since they are due around the same time period. It is a little bit stress inducing leaving an essay on hold, if you like things going smoothly and categorising and checking things off like me you will know. That’s why the chart really helps make it feel manageable ! I am now more motivated to start a new essay and my brain is really grateful for a change in topic. Sometimes we need some time and distance away from the essays we are writing.

4. The Essay Writing Steps (How To Write A University Level Essay)

When starting a new essay I write out all the steps I need on how to do to research and formulate my argument and tick it all off as I go. This is the outline of all the steps, in the order I do it, to researching, brainstorming and writing each essay.

+ Read and write out Assessment Objectives and Learning Outcomes for the module.

+ Read and re-write lecture notes on the course introduction and texts.

+ Make a reading list of secondary criticism.

+ Read criticism and take relevant quotes, making notes and points I want to include in the essay underneath in a different colour to differentiate the quotes from my own thoughts.

+ Read and annotate my primary texts (e.g. the novels) using the knowledge I have from my lecture notes and secondary reading and with the Assessment Objectives in mind.

+ When finished reading, flick through the texts and copy out relevant quotes and points in the novels that can be used to support arguments in the essay.

+ Brainstorm the thesis for the essay. Try to summarise in a couple sentences what the overall argument for it will be.

+ With the Assessment Criteria in mind, write out a detailed essay plan. Consider what order to present the arguments in. Include which quotes from both primary and secondary texts to use to support the arguments. 

+ Approach the essay by attempting to write 500 words at a time in intervals between breaks throughout the day. 

Basically that’s it for now. I’ll see how I get on this with this essay by following the steps above that I’ve developed for essay writing and then keeping the assessment criteria in mind and using my lecture notes to supplement my arguments. Hopefully I finish this one all the way through.  If I start to stagnate again, I’ll go back to my google docs chart have a look at an essay I need to polish and work on that, referring to my steps and writing out my Assessment Criteria. I will check each one off as I read my essay and add in any criteria that I missed.

I’ll just repeat that process until they are all finished, which ensures I’m constantly working and not just stuck in paralytic dread every single day. You/I CAN do this, creating perspective and making steps helps !

hi! i hope you’re feeling okay, you’re my favourite writer and you’re insanely talented <3

hi anon, thank you so much for this little ask it means a lot to me atm. <3 i hope you won’t mind but i’m going to use this to explain my absence recently.

firstly i’m going through a deep personal issue and it’s been very hard so i ask for everyone’s patience and respect while i spend time with family.

secondly i’ve been feeling so unmotivated, more so than the usual writer’s block recently. I’ve been trying to be healthier, to get out more and to look after myself and it’s meant i’ve lost so much interest in wanting to write anything or even touch my video games.

it’s probably not the right word for it, i still like red dead and it’s characters but i’m not nearly as hyper fixated as i feel i used to be. i’m not even drawn to a new fandom atm i just feel incredibly lost and i don’t feel the motivation for writing at this moment.

i tried opening my docs and writing something but i just can’t do it right now. words aren’t coming to me and i’m not in the element to write even tho there are days where i really want to just fill requests.

i’m scared if i take a break i just won’t return but i also need to listen to myself and i have to give myself the time to get inspired.

i’m going to go and read some old fics that are my favourite and maybe make the time to play red dead so i can feel more engaged and enthusiastic about writing but it hasn’t been easy for a while.

if you guys have any suggestions or favourite fics of your own i’d love to hear it. I usually never ask for compliments or anything bc i don’t believe that’s what writing should be about but support and motivation would really help me mentally at this time.

i’ll still be around tho hiding in the shadows for now, trying to find anything to help me feel motivated and thank you again anon for you lovely ask.

i love seeing your posts it's very motivating. if you dont mind me asking, do you have any advice for studying (or tricks you use for urself) ((it's v vague sorry))!!!

hi, thank you! honestly I am absolutely awful at studying but I will try to provide some helpful tips:

1. watching university vloggers always makes me feel more motivated to do work! my favourites atm are nayna florence, moya mawhinney, paigeyy (her old cambridge vlogs bc I think she’s graduated now), linh truong, and may gao 2. I have a really hard time getting started so sometimes you just need to be like alright I can at LEAST open up this pdf or assignment. and I can at LEAST create a new word document and write out what I have to do. and occasionally this tricks your brain into actually starting ;) 3. when you plan a study schedule, give yourself at least one free day where you have nothing planned bc at least for me I will absolutely need it. don’t cram your days full of unrealistic things to do! 4. take advantage of your productive moods, but also don’t be too hard on yourself when you’re feeling super tired or burnt out or unproductive. you can also try and flip your productivity switch on (tho this is hit or miss) by doing less taxing stuff like going on a walk, making your bed, watering your plants- any task that makes you feel like you’re accomplishing something 5. have a hobby and life outside of school. easier said than done, but this will really help alleviate the stress and anxiety you feel when something goes wrong academically and that’s the only “important” thing you feel like you have in life. take time for yourself to learn new things, relax, spend time with friends, be in nature, exercise. all about balance baby! 6. study based on what your exam will test you on. if it’s short answer, study the material but also practice writing out example answers. if it’s matching labels to diagrams, practice that! go beyond just writing out your notes, try and fit your studying method to the format of your test. it helps s o much. 7. similarly, ALWAYS DO THE REVIEW QUESTIONS. if you have no time to do anything else, DO THESE!!! I’ve been burned so many times because I feel obligated to retype out all my notes (bc I have to have everything altogether) and run out of time to do the practice questions my prof gives, and those are always the most relevant to what you’ll be tested on. hell, do these before anything else. cannot stress this enough lol!!!! 8. don’t do the readings unless you NEED to or it helps you learn. otherwise it’s a waste of time (and money for a textbook!) imo 9. switch up where you study. unfortunately this isn’t really feasible right now but I find I’m most productive at the library- at your university (if you go) try to find your favourite study spots, and have a few you can cycle through! for me it’s the lifesci commons, law library and the comp sci building because they’re chill, productive atmospheres (as opposed to the SUB or the health sci building, which are too loud and too intense respectively) 10. keep your phone out of sight lol. and get one of those browser locks like forest to dissuade you from getting distracted. for me it’s more of a split second compulsion to check and once there’s a barrier in my way I’m like oh. nvm. 11. my personal note-taking method is taking written notes in lecture of anything important that’s not on the slides. usually your prof will emphasize the important of a topic too! but if they don’t, pay attention to what they’re spending a lot of time going over. after class I’ll add my written notes to the lecture to supplement it and better explain everything we covered. (for virtual lectures, I basically have the slides open in one half of my screen and the lecture in the other and type notes onto the slides as it plays) 12. practice explaining concepts to yourself out loud- this is a great way to see if you’ve actually understood the material! if you can do this once solidly, you’re good to go and it’ll stick in your brain for a while. 13. also try and make connections between topics you’ve covered because often this is what profs like to ask about on exams (cough ~synthesis~). for instance, recognizing that keratin composes tissues in birds, mammals, reptiles, etc. 14. if you’ve been working hard or having a stressful time buy yourself a nice warm drink because you deserve it! :) 15. this one’s a little weird but if you need to remember something like what the foundational traits of vertebrates are, focus on memorizing how many you need to know! if I know there’s 6 of something I need to remember, it makes recalling them SO much easier 16. if you’ve been sitting down studying for a while take a break to just jump tf around your room. you could also go on a walk I guess but jumping is more fun. 17. it’s good to get a reminder of why you’re in school and what makes you passionate about what you’re studying to drive you to keep going. for me I love to watch nature documentaries or go on hikes or look through field guidebooks or read really neat academic papers :) 18. for the love of god please get enough sleep.

I also have a whole tag of #study tips that is 1000% more helpful than what I can provide so definitely take a look through there! good luck, you got this :) ps sorry this got so long winded lol I hope it helps!

i am starting to get back into the habit of writing again. my main issue is that i get ideas for stories and end up abandoning them, mainly because i have lots of other stuff going on atm like finishing my last few semesters of school. do you think it's better to set goals based off how many words i write, or for how much time i spent writing? thank you

Hey anon!

The biggest thing is to prioritize writing for fun and enjoyment. If you don't enjoy what you're doing, it doesn't matter what goals you set - it will be very hard to reach them, and it's gonna make you feel not great. Especially if you've got a lot of other demands on your time and energy.

As for word vs time goals, it depends a bit on what you want to accomplish, and how your brain works. Word goals are great if you get distracted easily and need a way to track progress that cuts through all of that, but can sometimes cause stress/burnout if you overdo it. Time goals are great if you need to just show up to write consistently, but they can be a lot less objective way to go about tracking if you don't define what counts and doesn't count as writing beforehand.

(more detail on both below the cut)

Word goals have the benefit of concretely showing how much you've accomplished, and it can motivate you toward finishing projects, as you can ballpark what the end wordcount will probably be, and then work toward that. I find it's also a bit easier to track, as you can just click the wordcount on whatever writing software you're using, and boom. You've got your wordcount. There's a couple pitfalls when it comes to wordcount goals, though. The first is in writing quality - if you focus too much on "oh I need to get this many words written and then I've accomplished my writing goal for the day" you can sometimes end up with bloated prose and/or a lot of fluff that creates words but doesn't really add to anything. Of course, this isn't universal, but it's something I find crops up more (at least for me) than if I'm doing time-based goals. The other thing: be careful about setting word goals too high. Especially if you're starting off and are still working out your rhythm - going too hard too fast can cause burnout like nothing else, which tanks enjoyment and productivity, and can sometimes bleed into other areas of life.

One of the biggest advantages of time goals is that it can allow you to focus on the quality of your work without putting quite as much emphasis on pumping out content. It's great for building habits, as it's more about showing up every day (or however many times in the week if you don't write every day - completely valid), and it can let you explore. I used time goals a lot more when I was just starting out with a writer and it was a lot of fun. Like word goals, time goals can also have some pitfalls. Firstly, it can be more difficult to track. If you don't remember what time it was when you started, or you got distracted in the middle, but don't know how much it should count or not count, or you did a micro-session and just got in four sentences in between homework assignments, or whatever - you will have to work a little bit harder to track it. The other thing is deciding what counts and doesn't count as writing. If you sit down to a thirty minute writing session, but spend half of it looking through tumblr for the right dialogue prompt, does it all count? or just the fifteen minutes you actually wrote? Also, if your goal is to finish a project, it's a little harder to estimate how long it will take, so breaking down time goals can be trickier.

Another thing to consider is that there's no reason you can't switch between types of goals if you find that the one you pick first doesn't really work for you, or your other commitments force you to adjust your writing habits. Personally, I set quarterly goals where I decide how much of a project I want to get done (finish act 2, etc), and then on a week-by-week basis, I decide if my current schedule and mental state better supports time goals or word goals. Since you switch out projects a lot, this specific system may not be the ideal, but I put it here anyway so you can see how it might see it and find a way to adapt it to your needs specifically.

Hopefully this helps. Happy writing!