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dxrksong · 1 year

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Another Dp x DC au!

That's right! I'm back at it again, strangely hyperfixated on Johnny 13, but oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Johnny 13 is a clone au!!

This neat little au appeared sometime after seeing an au where another one of Danny's clones had survived and named himself 31.

So of course I saw Johnny 13 and went :)

So Johnny is a clone. The 13th clone to be exact and the one that lived the longest out of all the rest of the clones. Of course he still died (he is a ghost) but he had lived long enough for his soul to imprint on enough ectoplasm to form.

What about the other clones?

Shadow

That's right! The clone's fear and pain was enough to turn them into shades but there wasn't enough individuality or something to grab onto, so they weren't able to form into their own ghosts!

So what were baby shades, who wouldn't be able to survive once again alone, to do? Take a page out of a school of fish's book and latch onto each other in order to survive!

Shades feed off emotions in order to survive, since I hc that they aren't strong enough to be able to properly intake raw ectoplasm. So they take it in it's base stage instead!

So what are a school of shades to do when they see a small ghost that feels the same way they do?

Adopt him into the school of course! :) they're all siblings here and family sticks together! So what if this one is stronger than them? That just means more chances for survival!

They take everything happily with a grain of salt. Of course Johnny gets ghost adopted. Because he's still a child.

Tbh I believe it's Walker that adopts him. Mostly because I just like tough guys being soft to their own kids. Either that or Spectra 🤔 then again I don't remember either of the characters interacting with each other so it's possible!

Walker would probably try to separate Johnny and the Shades at first. But after asking why Johnny would just say:

"They're my siblings!"

And that would be the end of that! The shades would feed off Johnny's emotions sometimes, and Johnny would help his shades by scaring people and causing chaos sometimes!

I headcannon that if a shade tries hard enough or becomes the apprentice of an ancient (I.E Nocturn and his dream walkers) Shades could become strong enough to feed on ectoplasm with the occasional emotion and live fairly normal ghostly lives.

Of course Johnny's siblings aren't about to do that anytime soon since that'd involve leaving one of their own behind :)

So instead they stick together, happy to just be a family, as weird as they are.

Of course this wouldn't be a crossover au if Johnny and his siblings DIDN'T somehow find their way onto the JL radar.

Could be entirely on accident

Johnny looks like the splitting imagine of whoever he was cloned from.

Johnny and his shadow could've gone causing chaos!

But I like the possibility of BatMan or the YJL stumbling across the area in which Johnny and the others were made.

I remember seeing a post with a theory that ghosts could feel when you mess with their grave/corpse. So when the YJL stumble upon him and his siblings grave site.

Johnny would be PISSED! That's his siblings GRAVE! Who dares to step foot near them?! And proceeds to speed through a portal that just so happens to open right in front of the f*ckers that dared mess with something so important to him.

(Imagine finding a room with the corpses and still being used test tubes of failed clones and all of a sudden you hear a Roar that shakes the earth before an entire LAZARUS PIT opens in the middle of the room and a pissed off looking cyclist with the souls of the damned, charges out at you with a war cry. And you can't hit him)

That would lead to the valid question though of WHO exactly they're cloned after! It was cannon that Roy and of course Superman were cloned. (And maybe one of the batfam if I remember correctly) so could it be one of them? Or someone else?

Either way, Jason is pissed and the team now has an angry ghost and Shadow to deal with.

(I still find it weird that Johnny is the ONLY ONE sans those that have white or black hair, to have A NORMAL HAIR COLOR! Those locks are 110% dyed and bleached! Change my mind! And no, Spectra's human disguise doesn't count, it's fake.)

#danny phantom #dp x dc #dc x dp #johnny 13 #dc x dp au #Shadow #johnny 13's shadow #Shades #13th clone #the 13th clone #Johnny 13's hair is dyed #change my mind #dc x dp crossover #dp x dc prompt #dp x dc crossover #dp spectra #dp walker #walker

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iloveamagician · 8 months

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OH, DISMEMBERMENT PLAN...

what an insane band name, when I first started listening to them, I had no idea what "to dismember" meant, I only looked up the dictionary definition after seeing people's reactions such as "????????" and "the WHAT plan????!!!!", when they had been recommended the band. It happens. I feel it belongs to the experience of people who aren't native speakers of English, yet they've grown up surrounded by music in the language. Music comes first, lyrics second, meaning... third??

I still have a clear memory of ten-year-old me memorizing all the lyrics to my favorite Linkin Park songs. While I recognized some of the words I was singing along to, I wasn't able to decipher their meanings and wasn't even trying to. That band was my first real obsession. Hyperfixation, perhaps. They were the music I would play when I was given access to youtube on the family computer. Turns out I didn't get to grow up to be the person who gets the aux. In my teenage years I went through so many more music phases, a journey I'd love to discover in better detail across many more posts in the future. There was my metal phase with a milion subphases within it (since there is probably more subgenres than bands), then a prog and alt rock phase, then in the summer of 2019 a friend introduced me — 16 year old, coming to terms with their newly discovered queer identity — to car seat headrest, which swept me like an ocean wave and irreversibly changed my music taste and also me as a person.

The world of indie music opened itself to me, so many new artists, bands, but more importantly specific albums by those artists, dc snuff film/waste yrself, the glow pt. 2, itaots, souvlaki... all the classics, but none of them had a hold on me as strong as Twin Fantasy by CSH, Come In by Weatherday, Funeral by Arcade Fire, YWNKW by Sweet Trip, and – well, my Elliott Smith obsession was yet to come but we can count XO in there too. But in the midst of all these albums, you could find Emergency & I, a record that I enjoyed when I first listened to it, I didn't really think much of it, but I really felt the need to return to it. And then again and again, I best enjoyed the fun, most standard songs, What Do You Want Me To Say and Gyroscope, I loved hearing the small weird details in them, the time signatures, the mindblowing drumming... the album didn't mean a lot to me at first. I was still 17 when I first heard it, I needed to grow into it.

A year later I got into a long distance relationship, I started university, I moved from my small town to a big city. And it sucked, I wasn't really able to make any friends, I couldn't handle the pressure of schoolwork, my depression got much worse, my adhd meds weren't really doing anything, at some point I stopped leaving my dorm room and I ended up sinking into a deep metaphorical pit and eventually dropping out after four months. Fun stuff. The reason why I am mentioning all this is that there is a strong correlation between my music journey and my life journey. And Emergency & I is the college age young adult album. There is so much loneliness packed into it but it's not exactly sad or depressing. This album can be kind of laid back, or extremely anxious, it can be very nihilistic and dystopian, it can be very fun or it can completely rip your heart out, it can make you think "yeah I do know these people", it can be very silly and the next second it throws the most poetic and beautiful words at you that fill your heart and head with an abundance of images and feelings. And it gets better the more you grow into it and the more you relate to it, and even if you don't relate to everything, the songwriting and storytelling is so perfect and emotionally intense that it will rip its claws into you and never let you go.

In the last year and a half I've managed to get myself into a much better place in terms of mental health and academic success. I started studying again, this time a subject I love (languages), I found some amazing friends, the long distance relationship has turned into a less distance relationship and we see each other relatively often and things are going great and I finally realized that Emergency & I is the best album ever made. Because even when everything is going great, maintaining all those parts of my life is not easy at all and this album knows it too well. Okay, maybe it is not the best album ever made, but it is the best album for me. At this stage of my life.

But do I claim that after over three years, I understand the meaning of this album perfectly? Not really. Well, I bet not even Travis Morrison does, because how could he have predicted the intensity of the feelings I go through each time I listen to the album, or the impossible to fill void that appears inside of my chest after the final track ends, making me long for more of those feelings but also making me sad becuase there is nothing else quite like E&I...

And, you know, maybe I was wrong and the song meaning does not come third. Maybe the first time you listen to a song, it already means something to you. Maybe that is why I was drawn back to the album. Each time I listen to it I am a different person. And the songs mean different things. Of course I understand more of the song lyrics the more I read them and listen to them and analyze them but words can only go so far in terms of meaning. The band created the songs with certain ideas in their heads but those ideas have been transformed so many times, from their minds through their instruments, on paper, to the recordings, the masters, and then to the ears and minds of thousands of people, through different mediums, through different means of discovery. Songs mean different things to you when a friend recommends them to you or when you find them on your own, even before you listen to them. And I am not even mentioning live performances where your body vibrates with the music and the room and the songs are changed ever so slightly each time. Nobody experiences music the same way.

And I could talk for hours about what exactly the album means to me but I cannot and also do not want to fit all of it in one post. I want to dedicate a separate post to each of the songs on this album, which is one of the things my blog is going to be about, but I don't want to limit myself to being only a dismemberment plan fan, I want to document my music journey here, both by looking into the past and sharing my current favorites (for example get ready for a ton of weatherday posting this year). This post is just me speaking random sentences into the void, to prepare everyone for all of my future long posts, which are also going to be me ranting into the void, hoping things will end up making at least some sense to at least one of you (assuming somebody will read this, but I know this place is full of nerds just as obsessed with things as me (or even more, actually) so my chances aren't a complete zero).

tldr listen to dismemberment plan, it might change your life. I am not conscious enough to proofread. goodnight <3

#dismemberment plan #indie rock #music #csh #90s music #indie #weatherday #nonbinary #I plan to irreversibly damage the music taste of all the gays on here and I am not sorry

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charliecuntcicle · 2 years

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i was tagged by @nightmareinfloral

10 characters/fandoms in no particular order (these are all blorbos AND off of my kin list becauseeeee i felt like it ♥️)

1.) john egbert/homestuck- blorbo blorbo sad boy named myself after him

2.) richie tozier/IT 2017- i dress kinda like him also projection central

3.) craig tucker/south park- i went by craig for a little bit the hyperfix was strong

4.) steve harrington/stranger things- silly goofy man

5.) tim drake/DC- *slaps roof of car* this bad boy can fit so much projection in it

6.) max/camp camp- WOOO PROJECTION A N D DADDY ISSUES

7.) zack addy/bones- probably the biggest obsession ive ever had with a character hes just like me fr he makes me so upset everyone is so mean to him he deserved to go batshit also named myself after him

8.) jake peralta/brooklyn nine-nine- daddy issues and humor ♥️

9.) adrian chase/peacemaker- skrunkly baby boy shhh wdym he killed people its ok he didnt mean it

10.) asuka langely soryu/neon genesis evangelion- ……..shes just like me fr

i taaagggg anyone who wants to do it :)

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hard-core-super-star · 7 months

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I came to the conclusion that we're both cool and mysterious, that's it. that's very specific and right on target because I feel like one little joke would lead to another path with maybe other jokes, which would lead to comments and then a whole conversation revolving around it lmao

okay, on the third star this won't happen again 😔

I'm pretty good (I'm literally not) at getting references, so yeah, it would be funny joke! but since I told my joke first I won

I'm shocked that outside of my bubble hawkeye really didn't do that well either, but sshhh, we can pretend. WHY it's embarrassing to admit this?? this is so cool lmao, I loved the lego batman games and I still do tbh. see?? lego games leaded you to DC, they changed your entire life!!! I'll consider it a crime for you to say you find this embarrassing. I love being dramatic for no reason. do you have other games you like?

I didn't know there were other (canon) queer representations in the arrowverse shows- give me a reason to start watching Batwoman, I just want to start some series but nothing seems very interesting 😶

well, at least avalance got their happy ending... RIGHT?

I stopped at the season (I don't know which one it is) they go to paradise aka a place where there are many Ava clones. legend of tomorrow and batwoman being canceled and flash not? maybe... maybe it has a name? 👀 even though I love flash, I can't, every season being practically the same thing gets tiringhdhjwwk

THEY'RE NOT GIRLFRIENDS?????? The queer baiting needs to stop or I will take matters into my own hands, literally, it's so???? and did this work to boost the show further? It's okay, you deserve to sleep in peace, but iiif one daaaaayy--

–🌟

i think that's a very good conclusion to come to and i’m glad we can leave it at that. our conversations make up the messiest timeline ever and i somehow feel like that's really fitting.

i’ll believe it when i see it 👀

we’re just going to have to wait until i get the chance to make another reference again and see if you get it.

yeah, we can pretend it did well enough to get another season, they just haven't announced it ‘cause of the strike, you know? i don't know, i’ve just never told that story before and it felt kinda lame. it just goes back to young me having a lot of hyperfixations and having enough time to fall down rabbit holes. the Nightwing phase was strong for that very reason lmao. i don't know how well-known this franchise is but i adored Mafia 2 when i was younger which probably says something weird about me lmao. Mafia 3 is pretty amazing too. i also weirdly love the FIFA games even though i have a very basic understanding of soccer. i can't tell you how many times i’ve replayed GTA V for the cars alone. there's probably more but i can't remember 😶

OH MY GOD, don't get me started on batwoman because i love that show to death. the first season is good but not as good as two and three. it sucks that season three is their last season because it's so good. AND GAY! the whole show is queer af and it doesn't shy away from it at all! [hence why it was canceled so soon] and listen, i know she's supposed to be an irredeemable villain or whatever but alice kane is so ajdjjdjdkskaks 🫨 i could write essays on her character, her development, and how well rachel skarsten acts out all the nuances that come with a character like alice.

they did and that's all that matters to me. i just pretend like the cliffhanger doesn't exist and they went right back to causing chaos.

honestly i think that season [season 3] is one of the best ones and it’s definitely not just because of ava and sara but 👀 season 4 is good too except for the light queerbating that happens but since it's Legends of Tomorrow, i just assume it was canon but not shown on-screen, you know? there's honestly something to love about every season, even when it goes very off the rails. i defended the flash until i possibly couldn't anymore. i only kept watching it because of caitlin [AND THEY ALWAYS DID HER SO DIRTY, WTF!!! my girl deserved so much better]

shocking right? they played into it so much but it just never became canon. i think they just managed to string the fans along because no one could look away from that trainwreck. plus, the actresses are amazing, it's not their fault the producers kept queerbating the fans. i’ll think about it…maybe.

#rubix replies #🌟

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bowiebond · 3 years

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All superheroes are neurodivergent, and I refuse to believe otherwises. In fact, I will list some of the Marvel heroes I headcanon as ND

Scott Lang: ADHD. He jumps from fixation to fixation, his reoccurring hyperfixation being magic, he speaks out of turn and usually off topic to whatever is currently going on, has poor time management and is impulsive. He also had a strong moral code and will do what he feels is best, ie stealing from the rich. Luis and him get along so well because they’re brains are wired similarly, I’m just saying 👀

Tony Stark: ADHD/AUSTISM. This one is just as obvious as Scott. His special interest is science, he has poor social skills outside of what he’s adopted from others (masking in the form of sunglasses and a celebrity attitude), he doesn’t get social cues, is abrupt and interrupts others when hyperfocused and is know to be very impulsive. He has emotional outbursts when overwhelmed/overstimulated (though he deals with understimulation a lot too IMO), not good with empathising but is shown he can sympathise with others and even show them compassion if he’s close to them. Again, strong sense of justice that fits his own definition (deciding that he should be held responsible for his mistakes in making weapons, Ultron and Sokovia, etc).

Steve Rogers: AUTISM. Strong sense of justice, emotional outbursts, stretchy fabric/layers to avoid oversensitivity 👀, special interests were art and maybe even war/fighting, hard time making friends growing up, relates to others with his own stories when comforting people because that’s the only way he knows how, when he’s not interested in a task he will just leave without justifying it (ie the science exbo) which makes him appear arrogant (and Bucky seems used to Steve just randomly wandering off, probably cause Steve’s done it all throughout their friendship).

Bucky Barnes: ADHD. Poor time management, oversharing, bad with tones (his own and others), always seems confused because he’s almost never paying attention to a situation but instead is instead three topics ahead in his own mind, his hyperfixation in the 40’s in fantasy novels and science (specially mechanics) and he regains those fixations post-HYDRA but catching up on modern day fantasy media & boat mechanics. Makes notes of everything so he doesn’t forget anything, makes impulsive decisions all the time (freeing Zemo, asking Wakanda for new wings, moving in with Sam, etc) and has a (un)healthy dose of rejection sensitivity dysphoria.

Sam Wilson: AUTISM. Sam is the ultimate masker but this man has ASD and no one can tell me otherwise. He hates changes to his routine without his consent (ie unable to get rid of the boat, jogs every morning, etc), his special interest is technical engineering (his wings & Redwing), he often jokes at inappropriate times & refuses to apologise unless he feels he was in the wrong. Strong sense of justice, emotionally shuts down when stressed, has many casual friends but very few close friends because he finds it hard to connect with people (he connects with Nat, Steve & Bucky cause they’re all ND, duh).

Natasha Romanoff: AUTISM. Growing up in the red room forced her to be an expert at masking, but whenever she doesn’t seem to be acting ‘appropriately’, she’s shown to be uncaring of social cues, burns out easily, and thrives off routine. Her special interest was probably ballet for a long time before it was ruined for her. She wears tight clothes because she doesn’t like baggy outfits that will brush against her when she’s not expecting it and keeps her hair red because it’s her one constant that makes her feel comfortable and gives her something to focus on when she’s overwhelmed.

Peter Parker: ADHD/AUTISM. Do I really need to explain this one? I feel it’s overly on the nose. Hyperactive, special interest is spiderman, hyperfixation is science and pop culture, socially awkward and talks a little too fast for everyone else to catch up with. He’s the ADHD/ASD combo that slots right in under the wing of Tony.

James Rhodes: AUTISM. Come on. Come on. I just,,, he’s best friends with Tony Stark. He’s wanted to be in the Air Force since he was a kid, he went to MIT and has a Masters in the science of Aerospace Engineering. He’s the voice of reason and always thinks of the obvious conclusions without thought to the moral implications (ie killing baby Thanos) or the emotional process of others (ie Steve crashing into the ocean instead of jumping out of the plane). He’s stubborn and rarely yields to others opinions, even if it puts him under social scrutiny. He spends months looking for Tony when most would assume he was dead (and Rhodey has been shown to be very rational and level headed in everything else) because, honestly, I think Tony is his favourite person.

Bruce Banner: AUTISM. Bad with socialising, off in his own world half the time, ahead of conversations, heavy dose of RSD, jumps to conclusions because he interrupts others, emotional outbursts, special interest in physics (though he does have six other PHDs), etc. I’m also pretty sure he had DID as a kid (Hulk was his alter).

Thor: ADHD. Impulsive, doesn’t like change, poor time management, bouts of depression & anxiety, Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria, interrupts others, seems dumber than he is due to having no filter from brain to mouth, comfort item is his hammer, personally I think he hyperfixates on Jane Foster because she’s the first human he’s really met which is why the eventual break up isn’t as painful as say Tony’s break with Pepper.

Peter Quill: ADHD. Look I could explain this one, but it’s just his whole vibe. The obsession with old school music and film, the impulsive behaviour, the way he interacts with others, he just gives the vibe.

DC BONUS

BATMAN: AUTISM. Special interest is bats, self isolates, doesn’t get along with others because he’s socially awkward, his mask is Bruce Wayne, lives by a strict moral code, blah blah blah HES OBVIOUSLY AUTISTIC (and so are all the robins send tweet)

Reblog with your own superhero ND headcanons!!

#marvel #mcu #sam wilson #bucky barnes #Tony stark #steve Rogers #natasha romanoff #Bruce Banner #thor odinson #Peter parker #James rhodes #rhodey #Scott Lang #batman #avengers #autism #adhd #headcanons #dc comics

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carpakoi · 2 years

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this is an ask for your nd infodump needs! :) 1 - who's your favourite dc character?; 2 - who's your favourite robin?; 3 - who's your favourite villain?; 4 - favourite anti-hero?

I LOVE YOU ANON MARRY ME

1 - Dick and Harley!! they're the two characters that I never put "into a box" whatsoever, like no matter what they're doing or what role they have, they'll be my favourite. Also batsy but that doesn't count lmao

2 - DAMIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMIAN WAYNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMIAN MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so tired of comic dudebros reducing him to a brat like... his story is so tragic imagine being raised as an assassin ever since you were born lmao im actually surprised he's just a brat and not much worse

3 - harvey <3 beloved i love harvey so much i want a good depiction of him so badly like. dont get me wrong i love tdk's harvey but i want a REAL harvey you know? tdk harvey just went apeshit from the point his face went boom + died right after. thats not the harvey i want. i want to see him deal with his DID, i want to see harvey mentally battling two face

4 - pissmaker and yes it wasnt peacemaker until the most recent suicide squad but when i left the theatre i literally looked at my best friend and said "bruh did i just get attached to the patriotic bastard" and i was right i did get attached to the patriotic bastard. strong contenders are poison ivy and red hood (i own 5% of his shares bestie owns 95%(this is obviously a joke lmao but tbh idk when we decided on this all i remember is we literally had a deep convo about the boys like it was an important matter)) and b4 pissmaker it was ACTUALLY poison ivy im sorry queen im so sorry im not in control of my hyperfixations

#nonsims #replies #txt #fandoms

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literallyeverythingandeverything · 5 years

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How Tony Stark saved me

(Warning: mentions of depression and self harm. Nothing graphic, just the terms themselves used. Please don’t ready any further if you may be triggered.)

It’s 2011: at this point my brother (let’s call him brother 1) has been in jail for 3 years. I don’t know why. I was too young to know why when he was first arrested and no one bother to tell me why when I got older either. All I know is that brother 2 is following in his footsteps.

My sister who was my best friend for the first 8 years of my life is in her 3rd year at college. In the three years shes been away, she and I have grown distant. I don’t know what to do without her.

Brother 3 is the only one I can’t talk to in my family but he’s 16 at this point and doesn’t want to hang around with a 10 year old.

My parents are fighting again. Talk of divorce hangs in the air.

We’re bankrupt.

But one day I’m at my Grandpa’s house and he’s watching movie after movie on some channel, I can’t remember which. Then I hear it. AC/DC blares through the five year old tv’s shitty speakers. I look up from the book I was reading and that’s the first time I saw him. I didn’t know his name but he captured my attention. The sunglasses on his face and tumbler he was holding in his hand. He was making me laugh. I was entranced by him for the full 2 hours he was on screen. I went back home that day knowing I couldn’t forget him.

Luckily I didn’t have to. Iron man 2 had already done its run at the theater and so I found it online. I alternate between watching both the first and second Iron Man over and over again. (My first hyperfixation I remember.)

Brother 2 just got sentenced to 2 years in prison.

I’m going to start middle school soon and I have undiagnosed depression and an anxiety disorder. I cry about once a day by this point.

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Its 2012: I learn about the avengers movie my first year of middle school. At this point I never watched anything besides iron man 1 and 2 but when I hear Tony Stark is going to be in the avengers movie I know I need to get caught up. I watch Thor and Captain America: the first avenger but they don’t resonate with me like the Iron Man films did.

This is it. The avengers. Officially the first film in the MCU I got to see in theaters. My eyes never leave the screen for a second. I couldn’t tear them away if I wanted to. I fall in love with the other avengers but I still have a special connection with Tony.

This is also the year I start self harming. I hid it from my therapist (who I also started seeing that year) for about 6 months before my mom noticed cuts on my stomach. I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression and also anxiety.

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It’s 2013: brother 3 moved out this year. I was alone. I didn’t know how to talk with my parents and I only had 2 close friends at school.

I didn’t bother going to see the dark world in theaters but I saw iron man 3 opening weekend.

It was hard watching the man I looked up to suffering on the big screen. Going through the same symptoms I went through on a daily basis. But it was also therapeutic. Never before had I seen anxiety talked about in the main stream. It made me feel like I didn’t have to be ashamed of my diagnosis.

I knew that if a man as strong as Tony Stark could suffer from these symptoms and still be a hero then so could I.

I wish I could say therapy helped but I continue to self harm for two more years.

During those two years I watched every marvel movie that came out.

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It’s 2015: i started high school this year. I was in a traditional school for about 2 months before I had to leave. My anxiety disorder was too severe and I was having thoughts of self harm after being 4 months clean so I transferred to a charter school. I had to leave behind my friends when I left. We still kept in contact but it wasn’t the same as seeing them everyday.

For the next four years I once again watched every marvel movie that came out. Despite all the new characters introduced (whom I all love) and all the new storylines I still had my one and only favorite; Tony.

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It’s 2019: I’m a freshman in college (my charter school allowed my to graduate in three years instead of four.) I’m doing better mentally. I have a better relationship with my family. We’re all doing better financially.

After watching half an empire fall in Infinity war, I was ready to see it rebuilt in Endgame.

Not even a year of reading fan theories could have prepared me for Endgame. Watching Infinity War was like watching an empire fall, but watching Endgame was like watching my own world crash and burn. The man I looked up to for the last 8 years was gone. And there was nothing I could do to stop it.

I left the theater feeling numb. I didn’t let myself break until I got home. I cried on and off for 3 days straight. The pain I felt about losing Tony was akin to the pain of losing a family member. A father figure. This is the man who helped me when no one in my family did. He was there when I had no one else to turn to. If I ever felt overwhelmed or upset I could turn on the first or second Iron Man movie and feel a little better for two hours. Now when I think about him I still get teary eyed and I doubt I’ll ever not do so.

Not everyone i talk to fully understands it. They comfort me by saying Iron Man will be back. But what they mean is that the armor is coming back, not the man who created it. And that’s what the don’t understand. I didn’t fall in love with Iron Man. I fell in love with Tony Stark, and he’s not coming back.

I know it may seem stupid. After all he is just a fictional character and I still have other forms of media where he’s alive and well. But I didn’t fall in love with comic Tony or cartoon Tony. I fell in love with MCU Tony. And now he’s gone.

But I still remember everything he did for me and for that I’m forever grateful.

I love you 3000, Tony Stark. You took care of me for this long. You can rest now.

P.s. I hope you and Natasha are having fun in Valhalla.

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td;lr: Tony Stark has helped me so much over the past 8 years and I’ll never forget him.

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