I’ve just suddenly been made aware of my boobs and how much I hate them get these things off me

hi! so I have my top surgery date in a little over a month and I've noticed that my dysphoria around my chest has like,, multiplied tenfold since I got the date confirmed. its getting to be a Problem. is this normal? shouldn't dysphoria be reducing now that there's like a guaranteed solution incoming? if this is normal that's fine but I've not heard anyone mention it to me before

you would think it would be reduced, but i also had an increase instead. i think it is normal, or at least not an uncommon experience.

for me it was like…before i had the date, i just had to indefinitely live with my chest being there. and i got pretty good at ignoring it and just living my life with it, because the alternative was misery with no end in sight and i did that for a while and it was not sustainable (as in, it was quite literally almost the end of me). so i found ways to cope and just live my life with the dysphoria essentially as white noise, hanging around in the background but not too intrusive most of the time.

but then, once i got my date, there was an end in sight! it wasn’t just a life of ceaseless misery that waited for me if i didn’t learn to live with it. and on top of that, there was the impatience of “oh my god why can’t it just happen now why do i have to wait longer i’ve been waiting long enough these are the longest months of my life”. and those two things mixed together in my brain to make a lot of the dysphoria i’d learned to cope with come back with a vengeance. time always seems to go by slower when you’re looking forward to something in the future, and knowing i had a date for getting rid of the source of that dysphoria gave my brain permission to feel it in the meantime.

i’ve never really seen anyone talk about this either but i’d guess it’s probably a pretty common thing. i definitely feel like waiting for my date to arrive once i had it was harder than waiting to get it in the first place. anticipation sure is a bitch.

the good news is this *probably* won’t actually push back my timeline for top surgery, but I still let myself have a little tantrum about it because we respect all feelings in this house

[ID: Two nearly identical doodles of a person wearing a blue t-shirt. On the first one, he is wearing the t-shirt normally and looking at his boobs with a sad expression. The doodle is marked with a red X. On the second one, he is wearing the same shirt but tucked into his bra, exposing his belly. He is smiling, and the doodle is marked with a green check mark. /End ID]

Defeat dysphoria by serving cunt.

Wish I could just donate my boobs to someone who actually wants them

Submitted May 10, 2023

Are there any other cis-identifying women out there who want to get top surgery? What is your experience?

Here's mine ...

Ah yes, June, Pride month, the time every year for me to ponder if the fact that I desperately want to cut my boobs off makes me trans....

But like!! I feel like a woman!! I just feel like a woman that doesn't have boobs!

Boobs were never part of my mental map of myself, they're like this unwanted limb that doesn't belong to me??

Obviously that's some kind of dysphoria but....I feel like a woman, or at least a sort of queer, gender-nonconforming woman. I am asexual (I think), so I want to say it could be related to that, but it feels reductive and incomplete as an explanation on its own.

In fact I am so certain I am a woman because I actually identified as trans nonbinary for a year and wore more masculine clothes and went by they/them because I thought that my chest dysphoria meant that must be the case, but I "detransitioned" because it didn't feel right (I am Not A TERF and very pro-enbies everywhere, it just was not me). Tbh I am significantly more secure in my identity now than I ever was before that time.

Also it fuckin sucks because binding is *literally* the worst possible thing for me, health wise. Makes my gerd, asthma, dizziness, and anxiety worse. I still wear light compression tops or tight sports bras a lot of days but can't tolerate it always. It's miserable.

And don't even get me started on how the hell I would pay for top surgery. Fat chance my insurance would cover it when I say I'm not trans and mine aren't even that huge to begin with so the typical reasons women get breast reductions (back pain etc) don't apply.

Wondering if anyone out there feels similarly.

This may just be a me thing but to the anon who was just asking for dysphoria tips:

I have started referring to my boobs as “the boys” and it makes my dysphoria so much better. I do not know why this works and it probably doesnt work for everyone but it has done wonders for my mental health. On days when i cant really hide my chest i am not “showing off my curves” i am “having a night out with the boys”

Even if this isnt helpful i hope some people might at least get a laugh out of it. Good luck anon.

i love that so fucking much !!!!!

they're just The Boys. hangin out with the boys!

thank u for taking the time to share, i hope this can help anon as well, if not i think it's great and i love that. take care of yourself

1, bra to bed every night.

2, thong + bra twice a week or both 1 work day

3, statt wearing lipstick, wear eveliner when i leave the house

4, dress/skirt for 3 parties and all outings i can

5, need degrading writting on chistmas

6, something for new years...

7, buy 2 bras and 3 lipsticks or vise versa

8, whole month both armpits and legs shaved

9, shave myself

10, she/her and female in bio

Comkng december 1st!

its a bad dysphoria night. i want top surgery. i want to look at myself and feel good about what stares back at me. please just...i just want top surgery

Please only touch me where I'm real

Top dysphoria?

Nah, fam. You mean....

Anxie-titties

To the tune of "I Love Rock n' Roll":

I hate having tits!

So better go n find your binder baby!

I hate having tits!

So c'mon boy n bind your chest with me!

im a trans man, starting hormones in a week, I Hate having a chest it makes me uncomfortable then I get annoyed because ... they're great tits its just weird as hell that they're mine wish I could like gift them or smth

Submitted June 26, 2023

Sometimes I forget I have tits when I'm not wearing a binder and accidentally hit them on shit because I'm used to being a certain shape and they just get fuckin slapped like opening cabinets and walking through small spaces and it makes me laugh so hard