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kanna-kizuchi-enjoyer · 2 months

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Analyzing the versions of Terusai

How well it fits within canon and with the characters general personalities

Explanations:

Kokomi and Kusuo: Theyre already close friends and Kokomi has been shown to have a crush on him, when his powers went away, he stared at her and did say that her face would be considered pretty. Also the combination of gorgeous and psychic would be unstoppable.

It would also help both of them out, both of them get considered more than human, by their family especially. Kusuo already considers Kokomi to be a regular girl which is part of why she likes him so much, platonically or romantically. I think that opinion would do wonders for her, she would be allowed to have a break and wouldn't have to keep up her performance around him. And for Kusuo, Kokomi doesn't know him extremely well as shown by her fantasy version of him. However, she could get to know him better as time progresses. Even if she does learn about his powers, she would be shocked at first obviously, however she would grow to accept it, and given how shes been treated and how she is favoured by God, and her ability to guess people thoughts on her with extreme precision (see: average boy from the 3 legged race) her experiences border on psychic, this would allow her to be able to see Kusuo more as a regular boy than most people who know do, an example being Kuusuke.

It would also most likely help with their familial issues given the similarities. Both their older brothers have their issues, albeit different degrees, this would allow them to understand each other's problems and therefore let each other work through it.

Makoto and Kusuo: Who doesn't like enemies to lovers? They hate each other but they keep interacting, one time Makoto even halfway hugged him, strange behaviour to a guy you hate, not to mention how many times Makoto has randomly showed up at Kusuo's house unannounced. Also, Makoto is shown to be very jealous of Kusuo due to his friendship with Kokomi, a good twist on this would be that he's jealous of Kokomi but can't handle those feelings so he copes in the strangest manner. This would improve Makoto's character and the fanbases opinion on him. He is definitely the most hated Saiki K character, why? Because of his blatant obsession with his own sister, if you remove that, you can focus on his better qualities more. He's a funny and interesting character with a great design but that gets overshadowed by the sister thing.

Aside from that idea, it still works even if you keep the sister issue. Learning to love someone else would be good for him. His obsession hurts him and especially Kokomi, so being separated from her would give both her time to heal and him time to learn to love someone else, and allow the siblings to develop a healthy sibling bond.

Kokomi and Kuusuke: I believe it would be toxic as hell. Kuusuke has been shown to be actively hostile towards her (and most people) and given how much of her pride he shattered, she probably holds a deep grudge against him. I think if they were to date they would act nice to each other around people but it would be very strained and fake, but they would end up trying to best each other constantly, Kuusuke because he dislikes her, and Kokomi because she dislikes him and to regain her damaged pride. They would be like the couples who actively despise each other but Kuusuke and Kokomi would not tell people that.

However, in the scenario of a healthy relationship, It could benefit them in some ways. As I said with Kusuo, Kuusuke doesn't consider Kokomi anything more than a regular girl, (he actually believes that she's less than that, or more accurately, all humans are, except Kusuo and he likely places himself between the two categories.) Since he doesn't consider her godlike, she could be free to be herself, and be somewhat free from that pressure. On top of that, Kuusuke figured out her entire characters based on about 20 minutes with her, so there wouldn't even be a point of being a perfect pretty girl since he already knows who she is. I would say it would help him get over his competitiveness against Kusuo, however, I doubt he thinks highly of anyone else's opinion so Kokomi's input would have no effect on his behaviour. However, seeing the Cambridge scenes, he seems extremely lonely, so companionship, romantic or not, would benefit him.

Makoto and Kuusuke: Honestly, there's no telling how they would react to each other, they have no dynamic to go off of. However, everything I said about Makoto and how Kusuo would improve him, goes for Kuusuke as well so it would impact Makoto at least, and with Kuusuke, as with Kokomi, it would help dwindle his loneliness. Also, they have a lot of comedic potential, they are both very eccentric and strange men, being around each other's influence would probably amplify those traits. Imagining the amount of disapproval Kusuo and Kokomi would have about it is great on it's own. Overall, they are up to interpretation, they can be whatever the viewer wants them to be, and that in of itself is wonderful potential.

My personal opinions on them

What does "Positive but neutral" mean? It means I like the ship but I do not indulge in actively shipping it. Other than that, I post about Makoto and Kuusuke everyday without fail, I love Kokomi and Kusuo's friendship and see them more as best friends rather than lovers, and I am not very fond of Kuusuke and Kokomi (as a ship, as characters I adore them)

Overall, I respect all ships and the people who ship them.

#terusai #saiteru #makokusu #makokuu #kuukomi #?#kokomi teruhashi #makoto teruhashi #teruhashi kokomi #teruhashi makoto #saiki kuusuke #kuusuke saiki #kusuke saiki #saiki kusuke #saiki kusuo #kusuo saiki #ship analysis

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fincalinde · 1 year

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Mama Lan

Oh now this is challenging and you are a fiend who will someday pay for your crimes.

a song that reminds me of them

Going to have to pass on this one, I can't think of anything really.

what they smell like

We know so little about her it's impossible to speculate pre-confinement, but post-confinement I presume it would be sandalwood like all the Lans. Let me take this opportunity to raise a point that has also bothered me for several years: unless someone knows more than me about this particular variety (entirely possible!), blue gentians have little if any scent. I believe the roots and other parts of the plant have a stronger scent when processed for extracts or similar, but a mass of blossoming gentians actually wouldn't smell that strongly.

an otp

N/A, we just don't know enough about her for me to have any shipping preferences in that regard.

a notp

While I know there is technically room to speculate that she did come to love QHJ, I don't think it's the most likely conclusion based on the information we have. The idea isn't something that charms and delights me either. I quite like not knowing the details because, although I'm not totally on board with LXC's desire not to know the truth, I think we know enough to be sure that it is not good. The world of MDZS is not a world where a woman who didn't return a man's love somehow conveniently came to fall for him during or after being consigned to solitary imprisonment for the rest of her life.

Reading between the lines I think the most likely sequence of events is that she chose this life over death and therefore her consent to things such as sexual activity is technical at best. I'm sure there's some good work out there around that, but it's not something I would read whether consensual or nonconsensual or ambiguous; the entire situation makes my skin crawl.

Gun to my head I find coercion less distasteful than a theoretical attempt to sell me on a genuine loving relationship existing between these two particular characters.

favorite platonic/familial relationships

Hands down LXC, mostly because this is another example of how LXC's needs are always treated as secondary to LWJ's. I'm fully aware that LXC tells the story of his mother's life and death to WWX specifically to try to communicate something to him about LWJ (I wonder what that could be), but it is still heartbreaking to me that this man describes his brother's grief in detail and doesn't spare a word for his own.

It's even worse to think of how traumatic it must have been to lose his mother, when he loved her just as much as LWJ did but had the additional burden of worrying about and caring for his didi. Both Twin Jades are raised under unfathomable pressure, but LXC's burden is still the greater and he bears it with such grace that no one ever even notices. This is why it's important to note the lengths JGY goes to in order to ensure LXC's comfort and remove as many burdens and stressors from his life as possible.

I also love the little touch that LXC often visits his mother's house—a thing that unless I've forgotten something is not mentioned in relation to LWJ, and that I therefore choose to read as being unique to him. It's nice to imagine that he has his own genuinely private space, even if being in that space is bittersweet. Clearly he feels closer to his mother there than at the family shrine, which is another nice touch emphasising how their love for each other had to exist outside orthodox spaces.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with

I am deeply weary of fandom's steadfast conviction that the yassification of any and all female characters is a powerful feminist statement. I think I will just leave this one here.

the position they sleep in

I hope she sprawls all over that damn bed every night, and I hope QHJ never stays long enough to fall asleep in it.

a crossover au i’d love to see them in

I'm not saying never, but my instinct is that I really prefer her to remain as mysterious as she is in canon and not feature directly. That doesn't really lend itself to crossovers.

my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn

The one covered in the blood of QHJ's teacher. I don't even care whether or not said teacher had it coming.

#ask #xiyao-feels #roquen meta #she functions quite well as a nebulous figure #it's funny because we know so much more about ms #despite ms also not featuring directly #and having died before the narrative proper begins #i realise there are explanations for all this #where qhj comes off slightly better #but not better enough for my money #it's just so damning that we know she didn't return his affections #with that as part of the puzzle #there are still multiple ways to fit the pieces together #but without exception all the resulting pictures make my skin crawl

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ofhouseadama · 2 years

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Do you Julian is capable of casual sex? Or does he accidentally fall in love with anyone who tops him

So I think Sid said this, or it was attributed to him, that Julian is someone who struggles to differentiate between platonic friendship feelings and romantic or sexual feelings and I've always integrated that into my understanding of Julian as a character because it feels authentic and true to how we see him on screen.

I think Julian is someone who very easily falls into and out of infatuation and doesn't have a great personal understanding of what love looks like once the infatuation dies. Which like. I know you're gonna be like, but Emily, he was engaged to Palis! That shows commitment! He was with her for a long time!

And like, sure.

But he also cut and run the first chance he got because he couldn't let her actually get close to him. He couldn't actually marry her. Because it would be dangerous to allow that kind of intimacy and day-in/day-out access to his life while trying to keep his augmentations a secret. Julian is someone who struggles to make and keep relationships because of the masks he is required to wear to keep himself (and his parents, by association) safe. The price of his augmented "greatness" is easy authenticity. It's the presumption that at the slightest mistake, he could lose it all. It's the presumption that his true self is undesirable and sinful. That his true self besmirches the ideals of the Federation and Starfleet.

When attachment and emotional intimacy is not inherently safe, it's easy to idealize the idea of the rush of infatuation and the suddenness of falling in love. (Ask me how I know.) When you're not practiced at relationship building, every person you meet who is nice to you can become The One. And you do it again and again and again and again because you don't know the first thing about nurturing a relationship or how to make the effort in a relationship let alone how to have a relationship with boundaries, without enmeshment, without codependency. You might not even know what you want, you just know it's not what you came from.

Julian just... kind of gets adopted by the rest of the DS9 senior staff and community. He's taught how to have these relationships and how to build friendships that aren't based on proximity and societal pressure cookers and trauma bonds. And we see him come into himself throughout the show! One of the positive character developments for Julian is that he is able to form these relationship bonds and feel secure in his friendships even as the war destroys him emotionally on a fundamental level.

Anyway circling back to your actual question, lmao.

I think Julian is perfectly capable of having casual sex with his friends because he doesn't necessarily disassociate friendship from sex. I think he becomes immediately infatuated with anyone who tries to top him and regularly tries to dive headfirst into being codependent with anyone who shows him even the smallest amount of kindness which. *Gestures vaguely at his family of origin.*

But yeah. I think it's entirely possible for someone to be able to have casual sex with their friends because sex is just something you do with your body to have fun, but also be susceptible to tripping and falling into that pool of endorphins with a fun interesting stranger and be like.

Is this my future spouse?

Which is why I personally think any scenario where Julian becomes even the slightest bit aware of his feelings for Garak and then shoves that shit right back down is very fun for me. Because when you have very few healthy committed romantic relationships modeled for you you tend to either miss the forest for the trees or figure out you've essentially been in a relationship for years and are so scared of messing it up or reading the situation wrong that you just refuse to read it at all. Because you have Julian and Garak just taking turns having moments of realization and just going, nope. No. No no, not gonna dig that up today. No thank you. While getting even further into the... whatever the fuck you call that.

Until you finally name it and then get married five months later.

(Ask me how I know.)

#ask #anonymous #otp: there's hope for you yet #emily watches ds9

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red-high-tops · 2 years

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So. Heads up, this is a little long. I went to a bit of a ramble, sorry in advance.

Today I thought I’d take a trip in the anti bkdk tag. Not to look for discourse or anything, just because I like to challenge my opinion and thoughts once in a while. Just because bkdk is my fav ship and lots of my mutuals like it doesn’t mean it’s the only one, or that everyone likes it. Obviously the tag wouldn’t exist if people did. And that’s totally fine. Different views are not only okay, they’re important. If everyone agreed on the same thing it would be boring.

But like... every time I go in there it always kinda seems the same...? It’s like 90% of the posts are basically just bk hate posts. And like, okay, that’s fine, if you really want to hate on a character, that’s your choice... but where’s the bkdk part of the post? Where’s the defence for anti the ship? It feels a lot like I’m banging my head repeatedly on the words abuser and bully and bad person etc etc etc. And yeah, bakugou did bully midoriya, but is that the only defence? If you really want to go back there, we need to establish some things first.

First, junior high, especially that last year, bkdk are around the age 13-14. They are in fact, kids, new to teenhood. And I didn’t think I’d even need to say this, but when you’re a kid you make a lot of mistakes? You do things you shouldn’t, say things you shouldn’t, have trouble communicating, and can be mean. Definitely doesn't excuse all of bakugou’s behaviour, but hormones, growing up, mistakes and peer pressure are all very real things. Yeah, a lot of it was his personality for a while, but he didn’t just wake up one day and go “ohohoho I choose to be an absolute jerk from now on!”. Yeah, he wasn’t a nice person. And he knows that. He acknowledges that. But if you go around slapping a bad person sticker on every person that has messed up and done something “bad”, you’re going to have not a single soul without a sticker. That’s just people and life.

I’m not excusing him. He did things that aren’t okay. Nothing he does will erase what he did and how he acted. But he is trying to make amends. Not fix, not erase, not forget. Amend. Big difference. He apologized, and yeah, it wasn’t a 5 paragraph long apology detailing every single wrong he committed, but you have to take a step back and realize how important of a step that was for him. Bakugou doesn’t apologize. Ever. But he did to Midoriya. Stood in front of their entire class, vulnerable and out in the open, and acknowledged that he was a jerk, that how he acted wasn’t okay, and that he was very sorry. That is huge for him! Yeah, a follow up will probably be needed but geez, even midoriya was shocked, because it was so raw. Then you know, the rest of that scene.

Then! The hate on bkdk’s. Listen. If you don’t like bkdk, that’s okay. If you prefer kiribaku, tododeku, iideku, izuchaco, whatever the ship is, props to you. Having your own likes and interests and also dislikes is just fine. But when you get to the point where you are threatening other people because of their ships, then it becomes an issue. When you create a post saying how you think that bkdk’s would be the kind of people that would defend an abuser in a real life relationship, you’re no longer participating in the fandom, you’re harassing people over fictional character pairings. Most of us like bkdk because we like the redemption, the growth, the character development. We like the fact that bkdk as a pairing, even platonic, encourage each other to become better, both in skills and as a person. Not by telling the other, or by force, just by being around each other. We’re not bkdk shippers because we enjoy abusive relationships. But even with this, it is still not okay to threaten other people over a single ship. No matter how you view it or interpret it, it is never okay to tell someone to go die over a ship. Otherwise, by your very own definition, you are becoming an “abuser” yourself. You’re becoming the very thing you’ve built your entire account on hating. You are hurting very real people over two very fictional ones. Which brings me to my final point.

Media is awesome. Being able to disappear into a whole other world inside a book, immersing yourself in fantasy and possibility, surrounding yourself with cool fictional characters is so much fun. But at the end of the day, you have to realize that while these stories and characters have touched your heart, they’re still fictional. They are tools, devices used by writers and creators to tell a story, send a message, each and every single one slightly different depending on the interpreter. How the authors utilize these tools is what we watch and enjoy. And as the audience, it is common for us to explore other possible outcomes or other uses for the tools. This has been happening for hundreds of years. But they’re still devices.

So when you throw a fit over some people exploring a different use for some tools that you don’t like, it is not the bkdk shippers that look bad, but you. It is not the bkdk shippers that look childish, but you. There is a line between having a different opinion and respecting others (notice how I said not agreeing, but respecting), and straight up harassing and threatening others just because they don’t have the same pov. Don’t cross that line. It is okay to hate a ship, but it is not okay to bully others because of it. Thank you.

#I'm sorry for the long post mutuals #I didn’t want to write a post focusing on antis in particular #more so the points made #but there was so much negativity and threats that it felt necessary #I don't even know how to tag this #bkdk #bakudeku #bakugou katsuki #katsuki bakugou

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synergysilhouette · 1 year

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Choices review: The Freshman

Everyone talks highly of this series, so I thought I'd share my thoughts on it. Just gonna get this out of the way: This could've been GOC. There's no reason it couldn't be--though I will admit that this means Kaitlyn would either become playersexual (which some fans think would dilute her journey) or remove her as an LI entirely and just make her a platonic friend like Zac--though if MC is GOC, this could be tricky. You'd probably have to reduce their screentime if (depending on your gender) there was no reason you couldn't romance them. I don't wanna advocate for monosexuality for LIs in a romance game for obvious reasons. And since it's been a while since I played this, my review may change after replaying it or remembering certain details.

Book 1 focuses on the beginning of your journey at Hartfield University. I don't recall this book from start to finish, but it certainly had a lot of drama. For one, all three LIs are pushed your way, with Kaitlyn having a crush on you and realizing she's a lesbian, stereotypical sorority girls being possessive of jock Chris, and the studious James asks you to be his fiance for his parents. All this tied together with becoming an assistant to an English professor with a big ego just so you can keep going to college. Crazy, right? I do wish there was less pressure on the romance side. What if you had no interest in James? That'd make the lying to his parents even MORE uncomfortable, and while you and Kaitlyn work it out, I certainly wish she'd had a crush on someone else since it feels awkward if you don't feel the same. And I'm just gonna say I wish Zack had a more standout design; I know he's not a love interest, but he's one of the major characters, and yet he feels plain.

Book 2 focuses on your winter quarter at Hartfield and being a part of James' play, as well as helping Chris running for student president. Again, I do feel like forcing Kaitlyn our way with a kiss felt very awkward; if she didn't have feelings for us prior to this, it would've been fine, but it almost feels like we're leading her on or not letting her work out her sexuality. And Becca needs to go, especially since I was romancing Chris from the start, and her "not as bad as Sebastian" stuff really didn't absolve her to me--especially with her actions later on. And knowing what I know about how Sebastian's future goes, it's weird that the gang rallied around how Chris became a better person despite his criminal history in high school, but the theme of "redemption" doesn't translate too much.

Book 3 focuses on your spring quarter at Hartfield, when you meet a new LI, Kaitlyn joins a band, and dealing with classism at the school. While I like Zig, I'm not a fan of how he's essentially a repeat of Chris, having a criminal record prior to Hartfield, especially since this was covered with Chris in the previous book. I read somewhere that Sebastian made a stereotypical comment towards Zig due to his heritage, though I'd never heard the Latino-barista stereotype before; I thought him having a criminal record felt a bit more stereotypical, in that regard, along with his aggression. It would've been nice if he was written as a kid from a military family with a positive upbringing; his rough home life reminded me of the golden boy from MTFL, and it would've been nice if he was just sheepish and shy rather than confrontational--though I'm assuming the writers did that the contrast with the rest of the gang's easygoing vibe. I do feel weird about James' publicist coming onto him, and it feels like it should've been a bigger deal than it was.

Book 4 is a mini-book that focuses on the gang's summer vacation during a cross-country road trip. It kind of hurt my heart because of Brandon and Zack's relationship being broken for seemingly no reason. I get that the writers were trying to be a bit more realistic with relationships in this series, but I'd have preferred better buildup with the breakup rather than it being so random, or not break them up at all. It would've also been nice if Teddy was an actual LI for him; it was weird that it fizzled out but then we see Teddy again and ahve the option to ask why he didn't call Zack. I also think it's interesting how Zig reveals he's bisexual and it never comes up again--not that sexuality is a personality trait, but it would've been nice to see him talk more about his experience, not just the negative stereotypes he experienced, as well as the option to hook him up with someone similar to Kaitlyn and James. It's a really fun book, though--and it makes me want a Scooby-Doo-inspired Choices book ASAP.

Book 5 (Book 1 of "The Sophomore") sees you begin your sophomore year! After a less than savory living arrangement, you and your friends decide to take over a foreclosed house together, and you eventually invite Becca to live with you, and a little while later, you can date her. However, she hasn't been fully redeemed, as she tries to sabotage her so-called "best friend" since she replaced her as their sorority's new House President. It's really twisted, especially as Madison feels super guilty about it and just wants to be friends. It's pretty toxic, and I don't recall if this led to Madison giving up her position for Becca. I also feel like it's weird that James gets a love interest with Reyna when in one of the special books (which I don't cover), it's noted that he has someone who likes him. Why she isn't just made a love interest, I don't know. I did also feel bad for the pressures Chris faces being the captain of the football team. And honestly given the issue with Zig's criminal record being the hot topic a few books ago, I'm surprised his sexuality isn't mentioned to cause friction among the football team, like an exaggerated version of what happened with Manny. Granted, he was comfortable with his sexuality, and any issues regarding it would essentially feel similar to Kaitlyn's arc, but it's a thought. Btw, I love that the characters get new outfits in the Sophomore year.

Book 6 (Book 2 of "The Sophomore") has you trying to keep your house from being condemned after it's sabotaged. It was actually sabotaged by Sebastian, who tried to make amends at your house party, but only Tyler believes him. Rejected and with everyone assuming the worst of him, he sabotages the house and reports it to the house inspector, hoping you get a fine--only to be horrified that you get condemned instead. ...Really? Why are Becca and Sebastian so toxic even when they're trying to be better? Becca tries to ruin her best friend's reputation when she replaces her, and Sebastian is so lonely he's willing to get the people who rejected his friendship in trouble. But despite their spoiled and unhinged ways, I've gotta call out the hypocrisy here: the gang talks about Zig and Chris being more than their past mistakes, but they sure know how to hold a grudge against those who made recent mistakes--not that they can't do that, but it feels like they're going against their morals. Both Sebastian and Becca tried to screw over their friends, but Becca's the one who gets to stay with us and continue being high-maintenance? We may as well have moved Sebastian in too; I wanted more of him after this book (though the amount of headaches he and Becca could cause together is HIGH). Meanwhile, Tyler and Abby's relationship is fraying and part of me hoped Tyler would end up being bi and being with Sebastian (not that two men can't have platonic relationships with each other; I'm game with Sebastian ending up with MC, too), Chris' dad returning feels like it should've been a bigger arc, and a part of me wishes that Zig had been in dance the whole time, and I do wish we'd gotten more into the conversation about how sexual harassment/assault is common in the MLM community and that Manny definitely deserved worse punishment.

Book 7 (Book 1 of "The Junior") sees you getting an apartment with your LI and investigating a prank gone wrong. Your stay with your LI is pretty rough at first, and I feel like it could've been better-written to reflect the characters' personalities, though I respect the "break up/make up" option because of it. It would've been neat if your LI was annoyed by some of your choice- based decisions, as well. Entering a "fratority" with some dark secrets was fun, and it felt like it could've existed as it's own series rather than one book in a series. It definitely feel like it could've been more darker and mysterious than it ended up being. Though I will admit that despite not romancing him, I'm not huge on the "you can romance a twist villain" because when they're revealed to be bad, it makes your relationship feel like it's been for nothing. I do love that we can give the characters makeovers, though; it's nice to see them in new outfits and hairstyles.

Book 8 (Book 1 of "The Senior") has you figuring out your future ahead of graduation! I do wish we'd had a bit more legroom with what kind of writer we wanted to be and what profession we wanted to do in general. I also would've liked if we could've played as Kaitlyn and decided what kind of sound/visual her band's upcoming album would have. I don't have too many notes on this book, though I do hate how you have to go the sacrifice route; after you get a job offer, your LI is also successful with their career and is going to be in another part of the world; they essentially cut down your dreams, and it not only feels OOC, it feels almost manipulative. In the end, you have to decide if you want to go with them (and maybe find another job), make them give up their dream, or break up and you each follow your own paths. It's essentially a story with no clear winners, though I personally chose to go with them to pursue their dream.

Overall, I see why the series is iconic, and it's continuity over the app's growth really shows in it's quality, though I do wish we'd gotten more books for the junior and senior years, as well as fixing certain character issues and plot points. See you at my next review! Working on TRR right now, but let me know if there's a particular series you want reviewed! I've already done HSS, TRE, D&D, and AME. For now, I'm only making reviews for completed series, AKA 2 or more books (not counting holiday/special books) and the story is not currently in development (ie BOLAS, ID, COP).

#choices #choices stories you play #choices stories we play #choices app #choices game #pixelberry studios #pixelberry #the freshman series #playchoices

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gh-0-stcup · 8 months

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Time for some random late night thought dumps on my recent insane Buffy/Oz fascination.

Yes, it's kind of a nutty pairing. Possibly the verge of crack. But I have logic, I swear!

The Pike -> Oz Pipeline

We've all heard of the Pike -> Spike Pipeline. Oz was also one of the characters that had very clear shades of Pike. Along with Xander, he completes the triad, the Pike Triforce if you will.

Guitar, van, unusually calm in the face of extreme strangeness? Definitely a stoner off screen? Oz = Pike. Therefore there is a valid basis for this pairing. There will be no further questions at this time.

"A nice relationship with a nice guy."

The idea that inspired the creation of Riley. It's a good idea, but sadly the writers struggle to understand what a "nice guy" actually looks like. They can seemingly only create one when that isn't their main goal.

Luckily, there's an actually nice guy in the main cast. Right there. Perhaps the only genuinely nice guy in the entire Buffyverse with any semblance of a recurring role. Okay, there's Lorne but he's also gay.

And a relationship between Buffy and Oz would almost definitely be a nice one. Low in toxicity, high in affection and support.

Communication

Buffy's got issues with communication. Oz is a man of few words. Admittedly, this doesn't sound like the greatest recipe for a good relationship.

But Oz is also quite emotionally intelligent. He gets people. Even Buffy, in the few scenes he has with her. He's patient and not keen on pressure. He's good with setting boundaries and discussing even highly sensitive issues in a nuanced, empathetic way.

They're actually very similar characters in how they deal with things. Both have a tendency to try working things out on their own, both need space and time to process their feelings. While these similarities would probably cause a bit of friction, they'd at least understand that aspect of each other.

Anxiety Support Wolf

Buffy is in an endless battle with Willow for the title of Miss Anxiety. She's a perfectionist of a different sort - frequently at war with her own emotions and desires in an effort to live up to the expectations her loved ones have for her. Or at least what she perceives to be their expectations.

Having a boyfriend who's chill with pretty much everything (in a healthy non-evil way) would be quite good for her imo.

He's not really her type.

Yeah, okay. Fair point. Even if the relationship could be good once it got going, it's hard to see where the non-platonic interest would start.

But Buffy's type can vary - Owen, Scott, etc. And Oz has some elements of her past beau's. Angel was stoic, Riley was nice(ish), Spike wears nail polish and is closer to eye level. Oz is just a combo of all of their pros with none of their cons.

As for Buffy not being Oz's type, we've only really have the one girl to judge him on. He was drawn to Willow from the start because she was unique. Her dorky lil parka caught his attention, her banging bod on Halloween grabbed his eyes, and her intelligence and adorable social awkwardness sealed the deal.

So we know Oz likes three things in a girl - weird, smart, and hot. And from Riley's perspective while seeing Buffy around campus with his frat soldier brothers, we know that by s4 Buffy is in fact weird, smart, and hot.

See, it all works!

Wonderful crack fic opportunities

Spike running and screaming hysterically while Oz chases him around cemeteries in wolf form as a result of Spike's s5 shenanigans.

Jealous/territorial stand offs with Angel where no words are ever exchanged. Everything is discussed through eye contact and microexpressions. Oz doesn't know there's a conversation going on - he just spaced out thinking about Camus with his face in Angel's general direction.

Drunk!Buffy is golden. How about stoned Buffy?

#buffy x oz #a completely 100% serious buffy x oz manifesto with absolutely no jokes whatsoever #i am an evil genius #god i need to go to bed #btvs

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Imma rant but Mlvn is not romantic it is the most platonic thing in this entire universe. Their whole dynamic screams "wlw and mlm solidarity" like stobin. They are literally stobin. And coincidentally mlvns like to ship romantic stobin too!! erasure much?? like girl they are so Platonic with a capital P. The times they are happier and more comfortable with each other is when they're friends. Mlvns saying " b- but- but i-in the pizza scene before Argyle came they held hands and said they missed each other!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺" yeah, no. If I had been trapped in a lab for a whole ass week with the guy who abused me both physically and mentally during my whole childhood. I'd also be glad to be with my friends and family and obviously I'd tell them I missed them. Like she also expresses she missed Will does that make them romantic?? I better hope not. Also they NEVER kissed she was just smiling at him and being nice. Can't a girl not be friends with a guy anymore??? like promote healthy platonic relationships. Plus there is plenty of evidence on how eleven's arc is going to focus in HER alone not in her AND mike. While will's arc is clearly gonna be focused in his romance with mike and would make zero narrative sense to do these arcs just for the romantic one to end with mike rejecting will and fucking el. bc apparently many mlvns want el pregnant or at least mlvn sex scene, which is honestly gross bc they're 20 yos and the only sex scene has been jancy and stancy. Speaking of which many want Nancy married. lol. Are we even watching the same ST???? I don't think so... Furthermore ST ending with mlvn would mean will dying which the duffers know would anger a lot of fans. In addition to this, Millie stated, in an interview to which I can't find the link but it's true, that she wanted El to be killed off in the final season along with other characters. Afterwards due to fans pressuring her and sending hate she said and i quote " might also say as a joke i want her married and working at target but maybe that's not a joke?" this also created hate bc that is such a lame ending for a great character like her. Like I would rather see her dead than turned into the typical pawn of white cishet entertainment. Honestly. That would suck ass. Not only bc that would mean mlvn ending but bc that message is clearly "women no matter how extraordinary or powerful may they be need to get married to a wealthy man and once they do, they should just worry abt him and being a good wife to him no matter how unhappy your marriage maybe. Also if you want get a lame job at target or some shit." This would also go against the point of ST and love. We were presented in the first season with the Wheelers unhappy and unfaithful marriage which made Nancy angry and Mike unhappy. In general throwing to waste a whole family. This couple has constantly been criticized by all, cast and crew included. So why, may i ask, WHY would they do the same with their FL and heroine??? that would just throw her whole character and development arc to the garbage can. It will be absolut bullshit. and i will get mad. for misogynic behaviour and queerbaiting. bc you cant tell that what they've been doing since the infamous milkdud kiss in front of the open closet. They've been setting up romantic scenes just for rejection?? hell nah. ain't no way!!

Anyways thanx for coming to my TED Talk!! <3

#your daily rant #ranting and rambling like alway lmfao #ted talks

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applepi00 · 1 year

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Because I’m not done talking about it, here’s some meta nobody asked for about When the Sun Goes Black

I’ve probably mentioned before that it was originally conceptualized as a Chuuya centric fic, but as you all probably know by now I have a thing about guilt so writing this story from Dazai’s perspective just came so much easier to me. It just felt more natural to be writing from the observer position, unable to actually do much but watch and note and feel about it.

I’ve also mentioned that part of the hospital scenes, particularly the first one with Dazai crunching himself in a chair was inspired by some fanart. Further more the repeated image of lying awake next to some one was inspired heavily by Famous Last Words by MCR, particularly the bridge: “I see you lying next to me / With words I thought I'd never speak / Awake and unafraid, asleep or dead / 'Cause I see you lying next to me / With words I thought I'd never speak / Awake and unafraid, asleep or dead”. Though on that thing about keeping watch, and how it does come up a few times, I thought it would be a really nice touch for care without it being too touchy-feely? Because it almost comes off as practical, but it’s so firmly entrenched in motivations that it does feel like something skk would do for each other: Dazai, private as he is, would want his privacy maintained should he be unable to uphold it himself, likewise Chuuya would want his autonomy in place wouldn’t want to be poked and prodded at more than necessary, and because they know each other so well this is a thing they do for each other: Dazai watches that nothing more than necessary is done in hospital, and Chuuya watches that nobody sees any of Dazai’s private moments of weakness.

The fic itself was written with the intentions of being gen/platonic, because I don’t think knowing someone is inherently romantic and I don’t think intimacy whether physical or emotional has to be romantic either, however I did tag both the platonic tag and the ship tag when I actually posted because I know some people would be inclined to read it as slash or pre-slash, which is their prerogative and I don’t particularly mind. (And also maybe I hoped it would boost interaction, I’m well aware that gen fics don’t often get as much attention as ship stuff, as of yet that may have been a good call considering the stats). So however you want to define the relationship in this fic is I suppose based on your perceptions, I define it simply as partners but whether you want to call it friends or QPPs or romantic or whatever else is up to you the reader.

I also realized while writing it that I have kinda conflicting thoughts in my head of Dazai with medical stuff: there’s old headcanons rattling around about medical based traumas that I don’t really vibe with as much now that we have more canon to work with, another marble thinks it’s funny if Dazai doesn’t know anything medical —like doesn’t even know how to take blood pressure doesn’t know— despite being fostered by a doctor, and a third part (the part that reared during this) was that Dazai just has medical terminology rattling in his skull with no actual use for it (hence, listing phenomena by proper terms in the fic, a specific bone being where he lays his head by habit, etc). That last marble is entirely because I had to take anatomy for three years as part of my animation program and then fell down way too many medical rabbit holes and decided to make it everyone else’s problem. I kinda like the flavour of it though! I might use a bit of it in later things too, like the vampire fic or Tattoo, but we’ll see.

I think the vampire fic would be a good fit, it’s gonna be whack because I never write anything set in the current canon or later because I don’t know what I want to do with the Rats or Decay of Angels or the Hunting Dogs or any of the other factions we have running around now. (Probably I’ll not deal with it at all and just do a little one room, two man play for the vampire thing, look guys I have no idea how they’re going to resolve this current arc and I’m very stressed that the British are going to be even worse somehow and bigger stakes and as much as I think Agatha’s design is nice I’m SCARED)

Anyway. I’m really happy with my gen fic even if it took me multiple years to remember to actually write it (thanks Savvy for listening to me ramble in 2019 —I hope you see this because I can’t recall if you have a new account and your old one is deactivated, and thanks @feralrookie because I definitely rambles at you about it too and I appreciate you a lot)

#emi rambles #emi writes #when the sun goes black

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allbeendonebefore · 2 years

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15, 16, 18! 💜🤍🖤

15.💜 if you could tell allosexual people one thing, what would it be?

i think maybe go outside and run around a bit in nature, even if it's cold, and don't worry too much about keeping to a schedule and just notice some stuff around you and about yourself.

This isn't like "only allosexuals need to touch grass"; i've just noticed my allo friends seem comparatively obsessed with this all consuming FOMO of being partner-less and maybe if you worry less about dying alone and think more about learning to live alone you will learn to slow down a little bit. Or like, go out with your platonic pals more, it's silly to only consider participating in things like getting a nice dessert if you have a hypothetical romantic partner. We don't know if hypothetical person likes cute desserts but the tomodachis do, okay!

I've also seen allo people leap straight out of high school into romantic relationships that either caused them to miss red flags or they just didn't really consider that their relationships wouldn't survive adulthood - i've often been told by allo classmates that dating is about racking up "experience" and yet I've seen a lot of people just put themselves through experience without having that downtime to reflect or observe and it stresses me out on their behalf. It also pains me to see people in long term relationships break up and then be incapable of even sharing the same circles anymore let alone being friends.

(and while this seems like I'm talking mostly about people who experience romantic attraction, I do think alloaros can also take some time outside because there is still sometimes similar pressure etc etc)

16.🖤 do you experience aesthetic attraction?

I'm not entirely sure I understand what aesthetic attraction is - I feel like some people who experience aesthetic attraction have the desire to be closer to the person activating it and I'm much more in the "appreciate them from a distance like in a painting" side of that spectrum.

Art brain also ruins this a lot because you won't think normal things like "that person is aesthetically pleasing" you'll think things like "i want to draw that contour" "i want to save their outfit somewhere" "how would I draw that person with [the one utensil on me]" "what paint would i have to mix for their hair colour"

18.💜 what fictional characters do you headcanon as asexual?

lots lol but the one that comes to mind is either luke skywalker or obi wan kenobi - because i like the idea that luke is mostly oblivious to sexual attraction even if he does have the romo feelings on occasion because he is too busy being dramatic - and because revenge of the sith came out around the time i was figuring myself out and i realized that there was this serious parallel to obi wan not getting why anakin struggled so much with being a jedi and me not getting why one of my friends struggled so much with school despite being so adept at it (its because they were distracted by horomones).

#hapo rambles #personal hapo #ace stuff

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@shambledsurgeon asked: It was nearly the day. The curse that was Valentines. Everyone was in an uproar over it, prepping for festivities and becoming more...mushy. It had him thinking on certain types of interactions of crews. He lodged his question to his mechanic. "Hey, what are your opinions on relationships between crew mates?" He attempted to sound nonchalant.

Unprompted

It was nice, grabbing coffee with her captain and enjoying a little downtime on a small island. Too bad it hadn’t been entirely comfortable. The place was utterly decked out in red and pink heart-shaped decorations in anticipation of the upcoming romantic holiday, and the server had none-too-subtly implied that Ikkaku and Law made a cute couple. A presumption they had both swiftly shot down. So while it was a strange topic, Ikkaku didn’t feel Law’s question completely came out of nowhere, especially considering the number of lovey-dovey couples they had watched stroll by the window.

“Honestly?” she asked, sipping her latte, lips quickly ruining the cinnamon heart that floated on the surface of the hot drink. “I suppose they can work, depending on the couple and the crew’s dynamics as a whole. I guess I can see how the closeness that comes on being part of the same crew, living on the same ship, always being together isn’t entirely unlike married life for some people. So, I mean, if it works for a particular couple, good for them.”

Another pair of lovebirds strolled past the window arm-in-arm, gazing into each others’ eyes so deeply Ikkaku wasn’t entirely sure how they didn’t accidentally walk into something. It was cute, but definitely not something she could imagine herself in. Not that she was opposed to a long-term relationship, but as she watched the couple disappear down the street, she realized that her own idea of the perfect relationship didn’t reflect what most society seemed to idealize.

“I don’t think I could do it, though,” she admitted. “Not with a Heart Pirate. The crew is too much like a family to me.” Perhaps in the very beginning she would have considered it. She had fostered a teenage crush on Law when she first joined the crew, though that had passed within a couple of weeks when she’d realized her infatuation was really because she’d never really experienced platonic affection and had confused the two. She was just grateful Law hadn’t teased her too badly about it after. “Like, I love you guys, but I spend my days in a pressurized metal tube living in close proximity with you all. There are plenty of times you drive me crazy or piss me off and I just need some fucking space. That closeness that might work for some couples? Yeah, I think I need the opposite.”

Putting down her coffee cup, Ikkaku rested her chin in her palm, gazing at one of the red heart-shaped balloons that decorated the café. “I barely get my own space as it is on the Tang. If I was in a relationship with someone on the crew, sooner or later they’d probably permanently want to move into my room, and that little space wouldn’t be just mine anymore. I sure as hell wouldn’t have anyplace besides the engine room to cool off if I’m pissed. But more than that...fuck, a relationship would make things awkward, wouldn’t it? Like, fights would be the whole crew’s business. There’d be that much more pressure to fix things right away because it could fuck up everyone’s teamwork, but since we’d be rushing they wouldn’t be real fixes - just slapping a Band-Aid over the issue instead of genuinely working it out. And if we ever broke up...”

That was definitely the biggest issue. Ikkaku was an incredibly loyal woman and didn’t get into relationships lightly, but she also had a hot temper and could be stubborn and sometimes petty. A break-up with her had the potential to be messy in normal circumstances. But with a crewmate, with how badly such a thing could turn out if she did go that route, it would be ten times worse than with someone on another ship where at least they could part ways and there might at least be time for her to cool off before they saw each other again.

A harsh reality hit her, and Ikkaku’s shoulders slumped. “No. We wouldn’t break up. Not unless they turned out to be some abusive asshole because I know for sure you’d fucking kill him if that were the case, and I don’t think that counts as a break up, really. But that’s pretty fucking unlikely with our crew, so instead I’d just be...bored, I guess. Bored and miserable because I’d feel guilty about breaking up with a crewmate for anything less than being beaten half to death every night. All because my nakama mean the world to me and breaking up with one potentially puts everyone in a bad position. Because with break-ups it’s inevitable that people would have to take sides. The crew would be divided. It would be tense and awkward and we’d all be trapped together while it festers. So I’d force myself to grin and bear it and pretend to be happy because I’m willing to admit I’m the exact kind of stupid who puts others’ happiness first and sets herself on fire to keep others warm.”

With a sigh of acceptance, she shook her head ruefully. “I definitely couldn’t date someone on the same crew. I got nothing but respect for people who can, because they’re clearly a lot braver and more stable than I am. I think I’ll stick to long-distance, definitively non-Heart Pirate relationships for everyone’s sakes.”

#shambledsurgeon #The Engine is the Heart of the Ship (canon)#Oh Captain My Captain (Law)#Wear My Heart on My Sleeve (Shipping)#Join the Hearts: We Have Uniforms #(well this got waaaay longer than I'd anticipated but I had a lot of thoughts about this)#(some I didn't even get to touch on but it was long enough already lol)#(TLDR Ikkaku could never date a fellow Heart Pirate and is best off with something more long-distance)

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bumbleklee · 3 years

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how genshin characters would react to you have suicidal thoughts or self-harm thoughts

masterlist | 1k prompt masterlist | discord server

★ request for @ranbalsa <3 sorry this is so delayed, pls forgive me

★ content warning: this could be extremely triggering for some! there will be mentions of suicidal and self-harm thoughts as well as mentions of self-harm scars (national suicide prevention hotline: 800-273-8255)

★ characters included: beidou, fischl, lisa, jean, ningguang, kaeya, venti, albedo, zhongli, childe and diluc - these can be interpreted as platonic or romantic

beidou

if i had to choose one word to describe beidou, it would be caring

between the way people talk so highly about her in their voice lines to the little kids that like to play pirates and are always talking about how she gives them candy, it’s clear beidou is a very kindhearted person

so if you were having bad thoughts about hurting yourself, beidou would stop what she was doing and get you on her ship in no time

she figured that being out in the middle of the sea gave you no chance to actually hurt yourself + the waves and serenity were sure to calm you

she would spend the entire trip by your side, whispering how important you were to her and everyone back home and how foolish it would be if you took your own life

she would also get down to the root of the issue and try to give you as much advice as possible

beidou would finally sail back home once she decided you were stable again

fischl

i think fischl probably deals with some of these issues herself since her whole personality is based off a story book

but speaking of that, if you go to fischl in a state of panic i think she would sit you down on her bedroom floor and read you a book

her calming voice mixed with the distraction of a fairytale would help your breathing even out and you would ultimately forget about those thoughts you were having

if the story didnt help, then she would just talk to you about anything and everything

she might even invite bennett and razor over and four of you could make a little powow in her living room to make you feel better about yourself

lisa

even hearing you mention hurting yourself would send lisa into a “motherly mode”

she may not seem like it, but she cared deeply for everyone in mondstadt and never wanted anyone to hurt like that - especially you

like fischl, lisa would probably try distracting you with a book

she would take you into the library and pick out some novels or stories that would take your mind off your previous thoughts

she would sit with you and when you were ready, talk to you about why you were feeling the way you were and what she could do to help

she’s a smart women and if there’s one thing she understands more than anything, its you

jean

she panics

not on purpose, of course. but if jean walks in you harming yourself or hears you say something worrying, she would panic

she was never good in situations like this, afraid she would say the wrong thing and upset you more

but at the end of the day, jean was jean and she always smacked some sense into herself to properly help you through this bump in the road

jean would get down to the root of your issue and work her way out from there

to help you feel better, jean would order a pizza and let you indulge in it with her and after that, she would listen to you vent about what was making you upset

jean is also good at passing off tasks she knew she wouldn’t be able to handle which means if jean thought she seriously couldn’t help you, she would get someone who could

your wellbeing is more important than her pride

ningguang

she wouldn’t understand at first

it would be a lie to say ningguang didn’t live in a fantasy bubble sometimes

she cared about you, yes, but never experienced your pain before and had trouble grasping it right away

but once she did, she was very attentive

if you wanted medical help, ningguang would hire the best doctors in teyvat to help you through this

if you didn’t, then ningguang would do her very best to console you

she would try to distract you with lavish gifts and expensive dinners and while it was nice being spoiled by her, it didn’t make your problems go away

the last thing ningguang wanted was for you to hurt yourself so like jean, if she needed to bring in a professional to help, she would

kaeya

he would find out about your bad habit by walking in on you self harming

he was freaking out on the inside but stayed calm on the outside, coaxing you away from the blade and helping you clean up your wounds

you would be a nervous wreck for a while and kaeya would hold you in his arms

like jean, he would try and get to the root of the issue and find out why you were feelings these things

he loved you more than anything and he wouldn’t know what he would do if you succeeded in taking your own life one day

on that day onwards, kaeya was determined to make you happy again

he puts your needs before his and does everything in his power to make sure you’re always okay

and if you relapse, kaeya never gets mad. he understands this is a hard cycle to break but he’s determined to help you through it

venti

he might be more upset than you

venti treated you like the archon in the relationship and when you revealed to him you were having suicidal thoughts, his world came crashing down

he blamed himself for a while and drank a lot more at diluc’s tavern but after a stern warning from diluc, venti realized this was doing nothing for either of you

he spent his days with you, walking you around mondstadt and showing you beautiful flowers and cool bugs

his goal was to show you the beauty of the world and convince you that taking your own life would prevent you from experiencing more

if you self harmed, venti would kiss your scars and make you bracelets made out of cecilia flowers to cover the marks

albedo

he would accidentally be insensitive, at least at first. your relationship was new to him and he was still trying to figure out all of his emotions so when you made a comment about suicide, he took it densely

he didn’t understand why someone would want to kill themselves and told you that exactly

it was only after sucrose snapped at him and explained how you were feeling that albedo screwed his head on right

after apologizing, he would try his best to help you

he would create new potions that might help with your depression or other mental disorders and document your moods and feelings to help him understand what you were going through

it was difficult and sucrose added in a lot of support as well

zhongli

he noticed your self harm scars the minute you two got close but being the respectful man he is, he never pointed them out

he let you come to him and explain them yourself

if you pick up self harming later in your relationship, zhongli is quick to notice and take action

as aggravating as it was, zhongli hid all sharp objects in your apartment and took charge if you needed any of them for something

he made you promise to go to him if you were having thoughts of hurting yourself again

zhongli would make you tea infused with herbs to help worries and bring you relaxation and (in small amounts) happiness

he would take walks with you around liyue if you were having urges and let you cry into his chest in frustration

this was childe’s idea but if you needed to do something badly, zhongli would take you into an abandoned part of liyue and create fragile, thin rocks for you to smash onto the ground and satisfy that need

childe

having five siblings, he knew how to handle suicidal thoughts

his older sister went through a similar phase like you were now and childe would help you based on how he helped her

childe liked to wrap you in blankets so tightly you couldn’t move, the pressure calming you down and usually causing you to fall asleep

he gives you so, so, so many compliments during this time. he’s so proud of you and so in love with your strength

he wants you to stay with him forever so he’s determined to get these thoughts out of your head

if you attempt, childe will not leave your side

he’ll stay with you throughout your infirmary visit and even when you’re discharged back home

he’s scared of loosing you

like ningguang, he’ll shower you in gifts to make you feel special

diluc

like jean, he panics

he thinks it’s his fault somehow and you have to heartbreakingly explain that its not, that your brain is just wired differently

diluc tries to keep you by his side at all times for a while

he takes you to work with him so you can sit at the bar or he’ll have you walk around with him through the grape vines in the evening

you wake up more often than not to his strong arms around you and as annoying at it is, it’s comforting to know someone loves you this much

he’s afraid of loosing you like he lost his father

diluc was good at shutting down rumors as well. if you had scars, people would talk and diluc would give them one nasty glare and they would shut up

at the end of the day, he just wanted you to be okay

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marella headcanons?

hmmm. yes.

This girl is not... a traditional girl. In any sense of the word. She's bright, sharp, all edges and blades and ferocity. She hates dresses, hates makeup, hates jewelry, likes long hair, likes loud shouting, likes fighting people. She's competitive, she's sassy. She's not interested in romance, not really, she's more concerned with dragons and weaponry. She spends her hours figuring out how to weaponize her talent, how to arm herself against every evil. She's so determined to save everyone she knows from the evil of the world that that's what she devotes her time to. She's a hero, this girl. She's a superhero in the making.

Oldest sister of like, four. She just gives off that energy. She's bored of kids, at this point, and nothing they do can impress her anymore. She just nods, like, yeah. Okay. I can see that you know how to do a backflip. Mhm. Good for you. Nice job, you nearly lit yourself on fire. Clean it up. It's just very blasé, very straightforward, and extremely unimpressed.

Her dad's got some family that's talentless. Her aunt, uncle, and cousins are all talentless. She never talks about them. But they're invited to every holiday. Marella watches her dad hug his sister tighter than he hugs anyone else. She watches them, as a little girl, and she tells herself that someday she'll fix the world for him.

She doesn't know that her aunt is only labeled as "Talentless" because she's an illegal pyrokinetic. Maybe it's a good thing that Marella doesn't know. After Marella presents her talent, her dad tells himself that Marella, the only exception in centuries of oppression, will never know that her aunt is in the same boat as she is.

Linh and her are just... friends. It's stronger than that, but not in a romance way. Linh's not interested in any of that crap, and honestly, neither is Marella. But she likes her in a different way, loves her in a stronger way, a fiercer, more powerful, intense way. Theirs is the kind of friendship that is fiercer and stronger than any romance, can last longer and stronger than romance can. It's not equivalent to a relationship, it's not binding, it's just. There. Stronger than family, stronger than any contract, stronger than anyone else's' friendships in the entire group. Maybe it's just that they both understand each other, maybe it's just that they're closer than they ever thought two people in a completely platonic friendship could become. Maybe it's that they're just like sisters, like best friend sisters, who love each other to the moon and back and would kill and die for each other in the same breath. There's no jealousy between them, no bitterness. There is only love. And it's as strong as love gets, as fierce as it gets, it is a rock, untouched by water and fire, and it's about as amazing as a friendship can get.

Marella has wholly and completely become the world's salvation. She's put a ton of pressure on herself to save everything, to solve the pyrokinesis problem, matchmaking problem, the talent problem, the societal problems of perfection, the hypervigilant council, the registry's files, every flaw of society is on her shoulders, in her own mind. She needs to save herself, but in trying to do that, she's required that she save the world. She spends hour after hour fighting. She's not going to stop until she's done.

She's never going to be done fighting. Because this world is flawed, and there's no end to it's struggles.

Marella wants to get married someday. But she's not in a rush. It's gotta be the right person, anyhow. Her favorite person. Someone she likes romantically, someone she likes as a friend, someone who can be everything and more. gray biromantic ace what

(Personally, I have a headcanon that Marella stays single for about three hundred years, meets a boy a hundred years younger than her who looks at her like she hung the stars and kisses the tips of her fingers that have caused so much destruction, and sees her as so much more than just a hero. More than a weapon. He sees her as a person. And Marella just collapses in his arms, three hundred years of tired coming apart in his arms. No, this boy does not get a name. I think he's better this way, and that Marella should keep him a secret.)

Marella buys a house for herself straight out of foxfire, and moves out. She takes all of her things, and leaves. She needs her own space. She loves her family, but they're a bit much. She settles into her chair, one night, and sighs, up at the ceiling, proud of how far she's come.

She will run herself into the ground if you don't stop her. Linh has a appointed herself the "Marella Brake", as the crew fondly calls her. Marella will work herself to exhaustion, if left unchecked, move until her body physically is forced to stop, try to get up the next day, and it's too much, and she complains about it. So Linh makes her go take a nap, once in a while. Marella grumbles, but really, she just loves her best friend more for working so hard to protect her, even from herself.

She and Sophie get to bond a lot. They sit out, one night, under the stars, and Marella is just a bit unstable. They have one of the deepest conversations either of them have had that didn't involve either of their best friends(Linh and Keefe, respectively). They both just look at each other. Stunned, almost.

They collapse into each other's arms, and hug each other like they're never going to get the chance again.

And after that, they're each other's like, "My powers are insane and I feel like reality wants me dead" friend. They call each other up randomly and just rant. It's good for the both of them.

Tam and Marella are about as close as the average person's best friend and older brother are. Not super close, but they understand each other. And they'd both kill and die for Linh. They get along great. Just don't ever say anything mean to Linh, or they'll band together and end. You.

Marella really likes reading. Like, a lot. She's read Plato, Aristotle, Socrates, Cicero, Shakespeare, Thomas More, Sun Tzu, all those great human philosophers and discussers. She loves reading those in the sunlight, they make her feel alive. It's so interesting, she thinks, reading Plato's The Republic, "In politics we presume that everyone who knows how to get votes knows how to administer a city or a state. When we are ill... we do not ask for the handsomest physician, or the most eloquent one.”

She's a heating pack. A human heating pack. She always has a ton of people draped over her on movie nights, and she loves it. It's just so nice, because her mother doesn't her skin, anymore, doesn't try to touch her anymore. But her friends do, and cuddle close, and Keefe will bury his face in her shoulder, his whole body relaxing for the first time all day, and Marella is just... so relieved to be someone good for all of them to be around.

Marella's mother loves her to death, she just never knew how to deal with Pyrokinesis. Marella didn't either. Didn't make her mother's subtle fear of her power any easier, though.

After all, her flames have scared her for years. Why else would she be fighting so hard so that no one else has to be afraid of them?

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"inspiration". | neil perry, dps.

in which a summer is spent with the poets, with a significant feature of neil perry.

✧ title: "inspiration".

✧ pairing: neil perry x fem!reader.

✧ genre: fluff, with slight mentions of angst.

✧ word count: 2,733.

✧ warnings: written in headcanon format, home life mentions, the reader lives in meeks' grandma's house, knox being a simp for chris.

✦ author’s note: requested by @mybabysweetascanbe! it's kinda funky how i wrote this as a headcanon but it still ended up being my longest fic lmao. also i wrote the poem that neil made for the reader myself so i'm sorry if it's kinda cheesy 🗿 but i hope you all enjoy this one !! don't forget to take care of yourselves guys <3

✎ The summer holidays had always been a time for the poets’ relief.

✎ Their academic year was constantly filled with difficulties for the poets, but it was harder for some when they were home for the summer.

✎ Neil felt as though he couldn’t be himself-- he loved reading and writing even more so than he did with accomplishing any of his parents’ wishes, like heading into medical school. He especially loved to act, and it was rough to keep that concealed around his dictatorial father.

✎ Todd’s older brother would be at home as well, and it was worse enough being in his shadow; but it had gotten worse with every one of his parents’ daily proclamations.

“We were quite disappointed with your grades from last semester, son,” His father reprimanded, looking down on him with stern eyes. “I just don’t understand what’s gotten into you. Your mother and I raised you quite well and you have your brother to guide you along. You know that he’s remarkably intelligent and well accomplished. Why can’t you be more like your brother?”

✎ Charlie and Knox had been just like Neil. The constant pressure that their parents put on them about becoming a banker and a lawyer was daunting; and all they wanted was to simply live as regular teenagers without concern for their future.

✎ Fortunately, Meeks’ grandmother was a woman who had a colossal and motherly love for the poets with a sizable residence in which her grandson’s friends could inhabit during their vacation.

✎ Thus, the poets resided in the Meeks household in the summer before their senior year so as to escape the stress and troubles brought to them in their own homes.

✎ Even though the summer was fleeting and their time was short, the poets found their time to be everlasting when they met the student boarder of the house.

✎ She went by the name of Y/N, which was a name that sounded just as sweet as the lady to whom it was attached.

“Hello, everybody! I’m Y/N!” The girl said, reaching out her hand to shake one of the poets’. Truth be told, it had been quite some time since any one of the boys had been in close contact with a woman; so they found themselves to be quite the martians in the situation. It took a few moments before one of the poets-- Neil Perry-- could offer his hand and shake hers. “I’m Neil! We’re friends of Meeks and his classmates from Welton.” The boy swore that he felt a spark as their fingertips touched, but he tossed the feeling aside; along with the apparition that he saw of a faint glimmer in Y/N’s eyes.

✎ The boys instantly took her in to their little group, and they all fell in love with her personality-- which was a platonic statement of course; but Neil Perry found this to be otherwise as he actually began falling into love with the new girl.

✎ He loved the way she cared for her new friends, the way she projected her personality through the clothes she wore, and all of the little smiles she gave him.

✎ With every beam and twinkle that she delivered, Y/N found herself to be falling for Neil as well.

✎ He provided a feeling for her that made the blacks of her eyes expand and butterflies to quiver inside-- which was the very same one Neil had felt when he first laid his eyes on her.

✎ She had been a fantastic addition to the band of poets, and the boys could not have had it any other way.

Despite the summer coming into fruition, the poets did not fail to meet up in their little cave every once in a while to read poetry, discuss girls, and laugh. The first meeting of that summer was simply like any other. “Guys, what do we think of Y/N?” Meeks questioned. A clamor of answers that ranged between “I think she’s great,” and “Do you think Mrs. Meeks has any more people in her house like Y/N?” echoed in the dark cave. Clearly, the boys had favored Y/N; but certainly not to the point where they’d be infatuated with her. “Yeah, I think she’s nice. She’s really pretty too,” Knox added. “Woah there Knoxious,” Charlie replied, expelling out a chortle. “I don’t think Chris would like to hear that. And besides, she looks more like she’s Neil’s type than yours.” Charlie’s words weren’t incorrect, but it was needless to say that Neil had strongly agreed with that statement.

✎ Over the summer, they would all begin to get to know each other better.

✎ The poets eventually introduced Y/N to the intricate realm of poetry, and she wholeheartedly fell in love with every line that was recited.

✎ They enjoyed every moment of their fleeting time together. Of course, there would be times where the boys would get into small fights and bickers.

✎ Pitts would always be yelling at Charlie for taking an ungodly amount of time in the shower, while Charlie would be yelling back about how Pitts always seemed to inhale the food that Mrs. Meeks provided for them before he himself could even take one bite.

✎ Cameron did his best to do some summer reading at night, but he found it quite hard as his room was beside Knox’s room, and Knox would spend hours on end talking to Chris over the phone.

“Oh, Chris. How do I love thee?” Knox sighed, lacing the telephone cords in between his fingers. “That’s the title of a poem we learned in Mr. Keating’s class. It reminds me of how lovely you are. Of course, she’s not as pretty as you are,” Knox’s giggles not only erupted through the phone; but it travelled through the walls as well, disrupting Cameron from the climax of his novel. “We get it, Knox! You’re a romantic poet! Now why don’t you go tell Chris about how you finished with a D minus in English!”

✎ While all of the little squabbles took place, they hadn’t even noticed the slight change in Neil and Y/N’s behavior.

✎ Y/N seemed to be keeping to herself more often, while Neil appeared to have possessed an undying smile on his face around the poets; particularly in the mornings when everyone gets up early except for him and Y/N.

✎ Little did they know, Y/N’s room had been vacant for the past few days since the arguments began-- which was approximately three weeks after the boys had arrived to the Meeks’ residence; and Neil seemed to be giggling in his room every night when the rest were asleep.

✎ In the duration of those three weeks, Neil had become more familiar with Y/N than any of the other poets had been.

✎ They’d walk along the nearby river every morning, discuss poetry in the late afternoons, and eventually fall asleep in each other’s arms at night.

“How long have you been living here?” Neil inquired, peering into Y/N’s eyes. His vision didn’t have to stretch too far as his face had only been a breath away from Y/N’s. The pair laid together under the warm covers of Neil’s bed with their legs entangled in one another’s and their hands interlocked, talking about anything and everything that came to their minds. “It’s been two years since Mrs. Meeks took me in,” She replied, gazing over Neil’s chiseled face. “In the whole time I’ve been here, I think you’re the most interesting thing that’s happened to me,” Y/N added, beaming up at Neil. Hearing her words, Neil slowly leaned his lips onto Y/N’s forehead, giving her an endearing kiss. She too had been the most interesting thing to happen to Neil in a long time.

✎ For each and every day that they were together, Neil wrote love poems.

✎ His poems revolved around his time with Y/N and included detail of all sorts; such as how colors appeared to be more bright and more vivid when he was with her and how lovelier the birds had sounded in the morning during their walks.

"My love,

The luminosity of the golden sun

does not compare to the radiance

of your glowing skin.

In this air full of morning dew,

the most beautiful scent in the air

is still you.

The sounds we hear of the melodious

birds are all because of your presence,

and they sing only for your beauty.

I look into your eyes and I see nature

reflected back at me; but it is much more

pleasant to perceive than if I were to do so

through my own set of eyes.

Though the morning lasts for a mere set of hours,

My fascination for you can go for as long as

this smooth river flows.

✎ Neil felt embarrassed about being so infatuated with Y/N, so he kept his poems hidden for the time being.

✎ Somehow, the boys had failed to notice Neil and Y/N’s constant disappearance.

✎ Although, they’d make little remarks from time to time that ran along the lines of “Ooh, Neil found a muse!” and “Y/N definitely likes somebody here. It’s probably me.”

✎ The last comment came from Charlie, which later earned him a smack on the head from Neil.

✎ So, Neil and Y/N did their best to keep their relationship hidden throughout the summer.

✎ The two were rather domestic in their relationship; they did all of the typical-couple activities that everyone else had done.

✎ To anyone else it would have been rather common to witness, but to them it was simply extraordinary being with one another.

It had been a scenic day at the river that morning. The beauty of the nature surrounding it had been ordinarily pleasing to Y/N; but all of its best qualities were magnified for Neil as his hand was in hers and the only thing he could smell was her fragrance. He had been quite nervous for the entire morning as he promised himself the night before that he would finally gather the courage to say those three magic words he’d been imagining to say for quite some time. Unbeknownst to him, Y/N had been thinking the same and had been visualizing how she would say it at that moment for the past few hours since. Just when the cascading waters began to relax and the chirping of the birds started to quiet down, the pair stopped on their trail and those three words were finally professed by Neil in a sudden manner while Y/N had spoken the same in a clear and gentle tone. They looked into each other’s eyes, recognizing the same look of love and eventually realizing what was said. As it was acknowledged, the two lovers simply smiled at each other and kept walking along; their hearts now beating on the same rhythm and their minds thinking of nothing but one another.

✎ Time to time, they would go up to the attic and listen to the music from Mrs. Meeks’ old gramophone, caressing one another as they slowly dance along to the lyrics of Ella Fitzgerald’s songs.

✎ Neil would always sneak a flower out of Mrs. Meeks’ rose garden and leave it on Y/N’s bedside table for her to wake up to.

✎ One of Y/N’s ways of communicating her love would be recommending books to Neil that she thinks is encompassed with his personality. Since then, Neil’s library had enlarged to a great extent.

✎ There would also be some occasions where one of them-- mostly Neil-- would get a little cheeky and try to express their love for the other out in the open.

“Eat up, boys! You know there’s plenty more of where that came from, so don’t be afraid to dig in!” Mrs. Meeks endorsed, setting down a bowl of mashed potatoes. With a jubilant ‘thank you’, everyone at the table promptly began to tuck into the mouthwatering cuisine. The boys soon found themselves distracted with the heavenly taste of Mrs. Meeks’ cooking; and Neil took this opportunity to covertly sneak his right hand onto Y/N’s thigh under the table. A scarlet blush crept its way up to Y/N’s cheek as she sent Neil a glare. Though her eyes expressed the message of “Not here!”, every other signal in her body sent the message of ‘Yes, Please’ to a very triumphant Neil.

✎ The summer inevitably came to an end and the boys were forced to return to Welton, much to their dismay.

✎ They couldn’t stand ending their summer; and they especially couldn’t stand leaving their new friend behind while the rest of them stayed together.

“Oh God, How are we supposed to leave this beautiful girl all alone in this big house?!” Charlie pleaded, theatrically dropping down to his knees and shouting out loud to the heavens. “It’s all just too emotional for us,” Pitts added as he went along with his friend’s act, his head bowing down to the ground in grief as he placed a comforting hand on Charlie’s shoulder. “Just take me with her, God! Let me be with Y/N at her all-girls school!”

✎ Despite all of the inconveniences they put upon Y/N, the poets really did leave a mark on her. These boys showed her a new way of life-- she knows what ‘Carpe Diem’ means, and she knows how to seize her days because of them.

✎ Of course, Neil had a harder time coming into terms with their departure more than anyone else.

✎ Leaving the Meeks’ residence meant that he was leaving Y/N, which was something that he hadn’t prepared himself for.

“I’m not ready to leave you,” Neil confessed. Tears were beginning to form in his eyes, but he quickly blinked them away. After the individual hugs and goodbyes Y/N had given to the rest of the poets, the ill-fated time had come when she had to bid her own farewell to her lover. Neil believed that though their time was short and fleeting, it truly had been something special and something that he’ll never forget. Y/N was his first love, his first muse, his first everything; and no amount of riches could ever sum up to the prominence of that. Y/N placed her hand on Neil’s face, stroking away his tears with her thumb as she felt her eyes begin to swell up as well. “I’ll write to you every day, Neil.” Naturally, Y/N was on the brink of tears as well. She couldn’t bear to leave Neil after everything he’s shown her. It feels like she’s known him forever, yet everything felt so new and exciting with him. She loved him too much, and she knows she’ll continue to love him long after.

✎ Neil was afraid that she would forget about what they had soon after she had left, so he decided to give her all of the poems he had written about her.

✎ As her hands clasped the thick set of parchment, the tears she had been trying so hard to conceal had all poured out, staining the paper and her hands.

“Neil… these are beautiful,” She croaked. Her eyes skimmed over every title and date, realizing that there had been a poem for each and every splendid day that they had been together. “You’re beautiful, Y/N. That’s why I wrote these,” Neil corrected. “Everything I love about you is in these poems, and all of the love I have for you is written in each letter. I just don’t want you to forget about me while we’re apart.” The absurdity of Neil’s words made Y/N chuckle softly before she stepped forward and linked her hands around Neil’s neck, reducing the space between their lips. “I love you, Neil. You’re always going to be in my mind and you’ll always have my heart in the little pocket of your Welton blazer.”

✎ Y/N felt truly fortunate to have met Neil. This summer had come as quite a surprise for her-- she did not expect to fall in love so soon and with such an extraordinary person like Neil Perry. He was everything she’d ever looked for and he gave everything she deserved.

✎ Even though the bright days of the summer had ended and the early falling leaves of the autumn was yet to arrive, the change was of no concern as the only thing that mattered was what had been consistent-- and for Y/N and Neil, the thing that stood still for the two of them despite all odds was each other.

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