I literally only have to lose 0,3kg a day to reach my gw by the end of the month. I need to do this. I will do this.

i want heaven to exist so badly so i can personally ask god what sick twisted game he was playing by making gaining weight so easy and losing it so fucking hard

Cool recap 

Start with a scene for Wress. It’s just after SC had Returned and Justice is cackling in her head and how she has to get back to her duty to Scathrenos. SC is like haven’t I done enough, let me die. Justice is like the Crimson Rose won the war and locked the door but the Gate can only be opened by someone who was touched by the Rose. SC says to piss off and stops letting Justice drag her body along and won’t do it. Everything goes dark and Justice surrounds SC in the shadow angel from and then hits her. Wress gets yeeted out of the fourth floor, and is back in the real world.

Meanwhile the party has been discussing tactics and Erdyn says he doesn’t want to kill Wress or SC because he needs the totem and he made promises. They decide not to kill the two right now. Wress wakes up and is like OWL take this fucking book and go. He resists but leaves. Slayer stays and is happy to stab people. Black crystal army shows up and is like surrender Soulcatcher and you outsiders can go. Wress is like HA NO and shoots the guy and runs back to SC and hops into the labyrinth. The lead army guy is like ALRIGHT THEN and the party is like Wress WTF.

So the party is fighting the approaching armies. It goes okayish? The black scales keep trying to free SC, Slayer is having like a lot of fun. Tadala goes after a human army and is taking them out. Althea debates just stabbing SC or Wress to get the totem back, or to run. Kellyn pulls a clutch move with channel divinty: radiance of the dawn and just NUKES people. Sadly this hurts Slayer and SC too. She moves on to assist Tadala and take on another army. Erdyn and Althea claim a few lives too, holding the black scales off.

Wress is in the labyrinth just going fast through the first floor, gets to the second and plays charade with the kids until she figures out that on the fourth floor I need to follow the sound of the heartbeat and that Raven is already on the fifth floor and the kids are like FUCKIN GO. Speed run through the 3rd floor and then back to the fourth. Starts following the heartbeat. Gets a scene. SC is fighting with justice in the field, SC will get out and then be running south, will change and go north. More fighting and then Justice says that SC can’t escape and must open the gate. SC is like no I will not.

Keep goig, dealing with angels, clones, and spiders. Get another scene. It’s been a lot of time and SC is at shrine. In two languages it says Wress. She puts the necklace on the shrine and starts up some dancing lights fireflies. Says “Mother and Father now dry your eyes as you sleep with the fireflies.” Justice and SC argue and SC is like “I never get to win, I’ve lost everyone, but a lifetime of losing has taught me SPITE.” Justice gets angry. Scene end.

Wress keeps going. I see a hallway that keeps going and I start booking it. SC is screaming for Wress. DM has me rolling non-stop dex saving throws at his point. I fail one and get webbed to the wall. I try turing the spear into a torch, a shield, and nothing really helps. Spiders, clones, and angels are all coming at her. She casts dancing lights in the shapes of fireflies and they all stop. She cuts herself out and runs to a destroyed door where the young SC is screaming. Goes in and Justice is holding a five-year-old SC while Raven gloats and starts reciting some soul-stealing shit. Baby SC is fighting back, saying her sister will save her and wants Wress. Says SC’s true name which iS ANARESS SCATHRENIAS. Wress interrupts and SC is like WRESS and my sister is so cool and she’ll kick your butt. Justice drags baby SC off into a sea of glass and Raven is like “Wress, what are you--” and sees Wress and is like fine WE FIGHT. End of session.

"Tidak akan terlewat perbuatan manusia, melainkan akan mendapat balasannya. "

- Anaress

Helping out the community, comment with your favourite low calorie foods! (I am in needdd)

Not me memorizing the c4lories in every food like I’m having an exam about it instead of studying for my actual exams 🤡

Sometimes I forget there are peole who use tumblr for non ed content

Balancing social life with an 3d is just impossible omfg. Why do people keep asking me to go eat out when I want to fasttt 😭

It physically pains me to think about how much skinnier I could be right now if I had restricted more

Reminder that you don’t have to eat everything you get offered, you can just say no.

Bull1mia really is like having 2 eating disorders at once. One makes you eat so much food you feel physical pain and the other one makes you hate yourself for it and makes you do anything you can to compensate. It’s a never ending fight, you can’t win.

I feel worthless (I ate)

Favourite activity to do while f4sting is planning out the next meal I’ll have. It’s so therapeutic for no reason I love it.

Why are people who don’t realise they have an 3d so much better at having one then people that do?? Like I’m out here overthinking every decision of my life and counting every single particle I breathe while they just say “nah I’m not really feeling hungry rn” and go run 3 hours💀. like bruh that’s not fair??

Broke my fast with oatmeal and some other snacks (~400cals). Just started my new fast 🤍

Tomorrow I'll be fasting (it's needed) and studying all day. I'll also be active on here to keep me motivated and keep u guys updated. Goodnight lovelies <33