my mother

my mother is like no other mother

my mother birthed

my mother fed

my mother cared

my mother loved

my mother killed

my mother killed?

my mother loved

my mother hurt

my mother loved

my mother shattered

my mother loved

my mother broke

my mother loved

but my mother killed

and loved she did not

- ♡Ruri

What's the point of mother's day. if you were a teen you start to notice that your mom is starting to treat you like shit, and not dealing crying out burst, they often comparing you to somebody else's child

So whats the point of mother's day

I mean do we really need to give them a heart felt gift? and afterwards they will treat you like dog shit to you, does it seem right that not all moms I don't know "nice" why do we need to give our moms a gift if our grandmas treat us like there own child

You know what May 14 is changed to Grandma's day

𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑬𝑬𝑻𝑺® (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/368342057-%F0%9D%91%BB%F0%9D%91%AF%F0%9D%91%AC-%F0%9D%91%BA%F0%9D%91%BB%F0%9D%91%B9%F0%9D%91%AC%F0%9D%91%AC%F0%9D%91%BB%F0%9D%91%BA%C2%AE?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=Itz_Lxndyn This is an story about a teenage girl who had a rough upbringing and fell in love with her brothers friend who was tied into the streets. READ TO FIND OUT MORE 💗.

any advice on handling a narcissistic mother who won't let u be happy and is always wanting u to depend on her

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Not my mom complaining that she won't get a mother's day present even tho every time I do she says she's disappointed. I literally offered her a freaking canva of her favourite band that I did on my own, a spa stay, poems, I even wrote her a f*cking song. You do not deserve any gift.

This hits home. Sadly so true. 💔😢 #Repost @lisaaromano ・・・ The following caption is from the original post. "A child's first protector is its mother and when a mother fails to protect her child from other's abuse and in turn becomes a perpetrator, her child will suffer the greatest human tragedy. The wounds will be invisible. No one will understand the ingredients that make up the child's tears. No one will fathom the heaviness of the child's vibration, and yet, when the child cries or acts out, others will assume what is wrong is the child.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Abuse happens in bedrooms, kitchens, living rooms, and basements when the front doors are locked and the house windows are closed. Family and friends, school personnel and even authorities often dismiss the possibility of abuse, denying their own ignorance and justifying their disbelief based on a subconscious conflict. Often people dismiss abuse as a reality because THEY have not witnessed the abuse, although logical minds understand abuse happens when there are no witnesses to be found.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ When mothers fail, every system of a child's brain responds with the appropriate fight/flight response. Something is terribly wrong when a mother is unable to nurture her child and commits acts of violence, whether verbal or physical, or sexual on her child. The child's DIVINE internal guidance system will know it and respond accurately.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The child's brain is a truth teller!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ When a child's mother is a perpetrator, a child's psyche does not blame the mother for their anxieties, fears, or suffering. Instead, a child will assume they are bad, unworthy, and it is their fault their mother withholds love, or abuses them in some way.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The maternal rejection, initiates the self-rejection process. This process will need to be reversed in order to save the life, mind, and soul of the innocent child. In order to save themselves, a child must turn warrior!" #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #narcissisticmother #toxicmother #abusivemother #motherwound https://www.instagram.com/p/CNRuV-MDQeg/?igshid=1g05viu1tr6ya

Was I abused?

I know that's an odd question, but I can't live with so much questioning in my head constantly.

I'm pretty sure my mother emotionally abused me, and I fear she may have abuse me physically

too. As far as I can remember, I know my mother sometimes did things i asked her not to do,

such as : reading through very personal, secret stuff (knowing What it is), sharing those with

colleagues, hugging me when I didn't want to, leaving my door wide open, cutting me in the

middles of my sentences very often, calling me pet names I don't like, and some. When I was 11

she insulted me a couple of times, saying stuff like "you have a such an ungrateful fing shtty

attitude". She'd insist to extract my blackhead, using a very unsafe way of doing it (I later

learned she knew it was unsafe) that made me bleed. Whenever I'd whine from the pain, she'd

get mad at me. She yelled at me almost everyday. I begged her all the time to explain what I've

done wrong, but she never gave me an answer. I'd either start crying, in which she wouldn't

give a dmn, or I wouldn't have any reactions at all, which you make her stay stuff like "are you

even human, you look like a fing robot not saying anything like that". It's almost as if she

wanted me to suffer. I had scidal thoughts for a long time because of all that. She once

grabbed my arm very strongly and didn't stop when I whined that it hurts. It honestly kept

hurting for almost an hour. After she yelled, she'd always say the same thing : "if you talk about

this to anyone, I swear you're not going to like the consequences." I was terrified she'd hit me or

kll me. More recently, my cat died of an heart problem, which she knew about and was

treatable. Not like we lacked money; my family is quite rich. But she told me it was "too

expensive" to literally save my cats life. 2 months after, we had a family trio to a luxury resort in

Cuba, so money was definitely not an issue. It was seem weird, but one thing that really shook

me up was similar; when I was a young kid, there was a 20$ (which is pocket change to my

parents) toy I wanted more than anything. Again, my mother told me it was too expensive and

never bought it for me. At the same time though she went to visit her friend in Paris as a

birthday gift. Today, when I talk about the times she yelled at me and how deeply it affected me,

she gets really mad and told me either "it never happened" or to "get over it already, you

should be past that". When my dad considered breaking up with her, we were alone together for

two weeks (my mom away) and I never felt so safe. I've also had some nightmares in which my

mom kles or beats me up, including daydreams similar to flashbacks, but I can't actually recall if

she ever did that. Also, one in which I k*Il HER. So, was I abused or am I just over reacting ?

i sometimes think my mother cried the night she first raised her fists on me.

the way she cried when she accidentally let a door slam shut on my fingers.

the way she cried everytime she left a stinging mark across my face after a stressful day.

the way she cried everytime she drew blood and realised she'd gone too far.

the way she cried the first time she realised how much damage she had done.

the way she cried everytime she couldn't stop herself in the years to come.

the way she cried when i left home at eighteen after telling her i'd been waiting for this moment.

is it the same way i cry everytime somebody makes me feel like my mother did?

the same way i would cry everytime i begged her not to hurt me?

the same way i cry everytime i think of her, hurt and alone and raging?

the same way i cry when i talk about her because the love and the anger and the hatred and the affection overwhelm me into losing the right words to express what im feeling?

I look in the mirror and all i see is

you

you

you

I don’t get how there are so many posts about abuse, dysfunctional families, toxicity, etc. and how to handle them once you are an adult and you are dealing with the trauma... But I haven’t seen yet a single fucking post about how to deal with the abuse while you are a teenager and it’s happening 24/7 and you can not do anything.

It's hard cutting that last string that kept us together but I need that string for someone else now

For someone better

Last summer had the worst ocd crisis; atfer all those scars i got more emotional abuse and cried my eyes out :----)

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PSA

You don't owe anything to your abusive mom or guardian today. Treat yourself if you have to. Some of us had to be our own mothers.

~Delilah

To the people who meet me and want to be in my life, there are a few things you should know I'm a very loving, caring person who is fun to be around. I can be a great person, but I struggle a lot. Some days I can't even get out of bed. I cry a lot have frequent nightmares. I need constant reassurance; I don't know how to show my love at times. You may say something, and I won't know how to take it. my darkness comes out when I'm afraid or hurt, and you will look at me differently because you will experience my rage a part of me. I'm working hard to get rid of it. I have periods of not wanting to live and the need to make bad choices. You may question my care and love because of how I come off, but it's there. Before you come into my life, I want you to know my past traumas are dark and have altered my mind and body. So you can make an informed choice and are not blindsided by my issues. I beg of you to consider this before making a connection with me because it will hurt to lose anyone else I care about in my life, yet I would understand if people left, and it can be painful at times for you to be in mine. I'm healing but have a long way to go. I won't be offended if you head this warning and run. ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #complexptsd #cptsd #mentalillness #mentalhealth #imnotokay #mentalillnessisnotachoice #ptsd #abusechangespeople #fightmode #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #childsexualabusesurvivor #rapesurvivor #abusivemother #absentfathers #ruinedchildhood #traumadissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #fear #trustissues #mentalbreakdown https://www.instagram.com/p/CNk4jk5lvwH/?igshid=1rfnvjcunjn1j