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#Processing trauma
creatingnikki · 1 year
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notes from my therapist
when we explore what happened in your childhood, it is not to blame your parents or have a biased judgement of them. it is to understand how events impacted you and what your experience was. so you don’t have to feel guilty about talking about it or as if you are betraying your family. 
trauma can be of various types and it does not only have to be induced due to one major event. there can also be trauma from situations of acute stress over a prolonged period of time. 
choosing the wrong or right people does not mean they are good or bad. it means understanding what is healthy for you and what you want. it’s not putting them into boxes, it’s simply knowing what is healthy for you.
why do you wait for a green light from others? what is your green light? why do your decisions have to be based on what others want? what do you want?
being a friendly person and being an open book does not mean that you cannot have boundaries. 
you disappointing someone or them disappointing you does not have to be the end of the relationship. 
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furiousgoldfish · 2 years
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Trauma Information
Processing trauma
Traumatic memories get stored in the brain Differently
Trauma processing information
Steps for Managing Emotional Flashbacks
4 Types of Trauma Responses in Childhood
Relapses can possibly be a Seasonal Trauma occurrence
Three Stages of Trauma from Childhood Abuse
It’s likely you’ll feel the worst of your trauma long after it’s over
Feeling like you’re not normal because of trauma
Anger is vital in resolving trauma
Causes of Trauma
List of trauma symptoms caused by Childhood Abuse
How long term childhood abuse develops into trauma (comic)
Loss of support and community after trauma adds to it
Isolation from support can decide whether a person develops ptsd
Abandonment, rejection and isolation causes trauma
Symptoms of Trauma
Magical Thinking is a symptom of Childhood Trauma
Memory loss is a symptom of trauma and dissociative disorder
Inability to keep your space clean and tidy can stem from Trauma
Chronic Exhaustion comes from Trauma and is traumatic
Constant guilt, shame, and fear of failure can be caused by Trauma
Constant guilt for things that were done to you is an indicator of Trauma
Trauma from abuse will create a compulsion to Act Normal
Trauma will make you feel like you’re losing your future
Trauma makes you feel like you just ‘need to snap out of it’
Trauma can feel like ‘it wasn’t that bad’ even when it was
Childhood trauma can make you sense other people’s emotions
If you wish you suffered violence and trauma, it’s likely you’re already traumatized
Health risks
Trauma will mess up your immune system
Trauma can cause breathing problems and heart palpitations
Trauma will mess up your digestive system
C-ptsd can cause chronic pain and chronic exhaustion
Trauma can make it difficult both to sleep and to stay awake
If you’re struggling with trauma, here’s a link to Pete Walker’s Complex PTSD, and if you believe your trauma comes from abuse, here’s a link to checklists for parental/relationship abuse.
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unwelcome-ozian · 8 months
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cherry-pop-elf · 1 month
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I love @regressionworldz art so much and admire them so I wanted to try do a cute little oodle doodle of em! It’s hard processing agere stuff but seeing their art helped me a lot like “woah! Cool people do it to?!” So um. Play date-! I really like legos! Lego Harry Potter is my safe space, and the concept of George Weasley ((Weasleys in general really)) as a care giver makes me feel soft and warm!
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i-dedicate-to-you18 · 4 months
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The past couple of weeks I’ve been in my own, dissociative world. And if I’m being completely honest…it is extremely uncomfortable. Everyday is met with the “not this again” feeling, and by the end of the day I’m confused on how the day even went by at all.
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mixedbag-o-beans · 6 months
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okay but listening to this song but imagining it as your current self talking the version of you that existed before the Big T trauma is WILD
“still want to politely and properly warn you, this is Armageddon”
“when all i do is think about the past, make it a universe you can live in”
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new-old-friend · 2 months
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Serious moment.  Some time ago, I went to a psychologist to talk about my epilepsy. I’ve been suffering from absence seizures since I was 6 years old, but it was only diagnosed when I turned 21.
Gradually, the topic of epilepsy took a back seat during my sessions, and I began discussing my anger, sadness, fears, and how inadequate I felt in everything I did. My doctor advised me to explore these emotions to understand their root cause. She also mentioned that if I wanted, we could start a trauma processing journey using EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).
I agreed, but as soon as I started feeling unwell, I interrupted the sessions and didn’t schedule any more appointments. It’s been five years since my last session, and I haven’t moved forward.
EMDR is a controversial therapeutic treatment used for processing traumatic memories and treating post-traumatic stress disorder. Some people claim it’s helpful, while others believe it’s ineffective. Based on my experience, I agree that it can be beneficial in certain cases, especially when administered by a competent therapist. I’m not questioning my doctor’s professionalism, but I wish I had known beforehand that the sessions could make me feel truly, deeply unwell. I wasn’t ready then, and perhaps I still lack the courage to delve deeper, fearing what I might uncover. What emerged from those sessions left me feeling terrible, and it seems we barely scratched the surface.
However, I firmly believe that seeking therapy was one of the best decisions I’ve made. Although I don’t currently have the strength to move forward, it doesn’t mean I won’t find it eventually. I’ve become aware that there’s something I fear, to put it mildly. While I’m adept at getting back on my feet, merely standing up isn’t enough. Sometimes, we need to take that crucial step forward.
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the-blunt-diaries · 10 months
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processing a lot rn 🛀
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brunhielda · 1 year
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Random Tolkien thought-
The man had multiple characters die of literal broken heart- only thing to kill an elf that wasn’t a sword, really.
Also several, as someone else called it, despair comas. Those seem to effect multiple races.
I feel like many people give him flack for that, mostly because it started an over used trend in fantasy that was mostly used to make women look weak.
First- that is not his fault. He spread the heart break based physical ailments amongst men and women equally, and never wrote a weak woman, only different types of strong women.
More importantly: The man lived through 2 World Wars, fighting in the trenches of one of them. He was part of the culture that said “Never Surrender” and “Keep Calm and Carry On,” and had “stiff upper lips.” If Tolkien says people can fall into comas or just straight die from despair, I am inclined to believe him.
I am inclined to believe he witnessed it. And then witnessed people ignore it happening and kindly overlook it in thier neighbors so that they could continue to survive. Because acknowledging that in the moment might have broken them all.
I am then inclined to believe that he took time to honor those same neighbors later, by having this very real thing happen to several strong characters, and not labeling it as weak, but choosing to label that depth of emotion as a light in darkness.
To any one who has ever incredulously asked “what, elves just DIE of the sads?”- You have clearly have never dealt with trauma or depression, let alone the kind that comes from war, and honestly, I am happy you haven’t. But yes. They did. Because people do that. And proof of that is sitting in the book in front of you. Because it isn’t the sort of thing that gets put in newspapers. Because of questions like that.
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judethebrood · 2 months
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More than friends.
Months move by like minutes, and I’m still here like it’s that night. I’m distant, but all over you, keeping my mind unsaid, but skin to skin. Head in hands, again and again, sleepless, no solutions. I’d kiss you a thousand times before I ever tell you what I went through. What I’m going through. Transformation… Occupied mind,mushroom clouds with silver lines, soured brain. You can’t even look at me without hating yourself, and I keep loving you. Biting back the tongue that’s wanted to taste you, and tell you, for so long, we’re such children, like that. I’d wake up to you forever, but I’d never let you see me cry like he did. I’d never let you inside in your arms, only on your knees. Feel sick with Summer air and October flu. Go swimming just to drown myself. Distract from the way the sky is falling, violently. My thighs are a catalyst for all the tension. Release me with regret and aggression. scars bleeding and you can’t even see me. You’re somewhere, wasted, at a party, and I’m dying in the bathroom. I come back when I’m ready to sleep it off, but I don’t sleep without you, so It’s never ending. Bedrooms humming with stale air and I’m just sweating it out; the fever you gave me. I’m losing my shit, and you lost it a long time ago, yet your discomfort is more comfortable than losing it alone. I might be open when you’re extra closed off, maybe to show you what you could be doing, or maybe because I’m selfish. Maybe I want your attention because it’s the healthiest thing I’ve experienced in the last six months. Maybe you are.
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furiousgoldfish · 2 years
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What is your current aspiration?
Surviving
Getting safe from abuse
Staying safe from abuse
Being in less pain than you currently are
Recovering from ptsd/did/eating disorder/other mental illness
I can’t think that far into the future, I’m just trying to get through this hour/day/week
Finishing a task that is causing a spike of anxiety
Finding the will to go on
Processing some of the grief/pain/terror that you’re carrying inside of you from the abuse
Learning to be kind to yourself
Learning to hate yourself less, and blame yourself less
Figuring out how to take care of yourself
Ending a friendship/relationship that is causing pain
Figuring out how to stop developments that end up with even more trauma
Figuring out how to stop feeling guilty for not managing everything easily
Establishing communication with people who are kind
Telling your story to others, gathering support
Being more honest about what you’re going through, without shame
Finding/developing your personality, until you feel like yourself
Establishing your role in the society, reaching for the feeling of belonging
Finding things you feel excited about
Allowing yourself to imagine and to dream about your future
Establishing closeness with someone who is safe
Feeling loved
Being happy
tag your numbers
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icecoldveins · 2 months
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People talk about healing your inner child but I just want her fucking dead. She might be cowering in fear but I want to drag her out and kill her.
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imblocking-you · 4 months
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Sad to know why :((
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vizthedatum · 5 months
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Unnecessary flashbacks to my childhood from my mom telling me not to behave that way (presumably autistic, depressed, traumatized) otherwise people would think she didn’t love me enough. That my parents weren’t doing a good job.
HOW IRONIC.
But yeah - I can’t control the flashbacks but I can process them now.
I don’t want to be triggered by them… and meltdown. *another flashback reminder to my meltdown in a NYC subway train in 2012 after my partner at the time kept commenting on how my facial expression looked like I was disgusted at him… and I didn’t know or consider I was autistic at the time*
I don’t want to be stoic when processing them either - that’s not really how I process.
Sigh.
I feel upset that I felt emotionally and physically abandoned or not seen by people who loved me.
I hate that I was apparently too much to be cared for, when I should have been fucking acknowledged because that’s how I fucking am.
I will never be too much for anyone ever again. You know what’s more fun? *villain era voice* being myself and telling someone clearly how I feel when I feel hurt by them.
After all, my motivations are actually sharing how I feel instead of trying to manipulate someone or punish someone by using emotional tactics. Fuck that latter behavior.
It’s honestly so stupid that I finally stop feeling rejected when I stop rejecting how I felt when I was rejected. When I finally put up boundaries and consequences for those things.
So maybe the takeaway is that… I’m never really rejected, they just reject my boundaries or lash out because they’re also emotionally dysfunctional. (Maybe this will help me also not to lash out and feel so upset)
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loveyourlovelysoul · 2 years
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I already wrote something like this but it's worth to remind you, as it just happened to me too: if someone makes you feel inferior or unimportant, like you don't exist, it's not you. It's their problem. It's their trauma speaking, they seek approval, being the saviour, the right one. If they take credit for something you did, you are right to point it out to others, especially if it's something life changing for you (like a job idea). If it's not, evaluate if it's worthy to spend your mental health and pain on those people: you can let them have what they seek, you're more than that and you know that you're more worthy than them. Just remind you that you're any less than they believe or want you to be. Be objective with yourself.
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twilightcitysky · 2 years
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Possession
By TwilightCitySky
3300 words, rated T
Tags: The Night at a Crowley’s Flat, hurt/comfort, love confessions, past abuse, past gaslighting
Summary: In the dark night before the dawn, Aziraphale explains what it means to belong to Heaven.
Banner art by the ineffable @copperplatebeech !
Read on AO3
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